#something like that to someone who has an ed like that’s dangerous idc who you think you are and tbh that psychiatrist doesn’t know friend A

[tiredsadpeach]

I’m so lost lol

[fadeawaywithyou]

inspired by the new minecraft movie trailer and how it reminds me of a shit jumanji, here is my take on the minecraft plot. this took me like 5-10 minutes, so it's not super serious.

I actually want to try spitballing a better plot in about five minutes-

Unnamed Man in Blue and Unnamed Woman in Green wake up in a forest and meet each other while exploring. Anyway, the Plot is killing the ender dragon. Why? It's the most basic thing about minecraft. The achievement is literally called "free the end" so maybe flesh out why. So, the plot is Gather Materials, Find Stronghold, Defeat Ender Dragon, and the end scene is them looking out into the world and talking about going on other adventures. In the movie they come across a variety of monsters, but specifically a Warden and Wither. The Warden could be a genuinely scary chase scene where they don't kill it. Maybe they have to summon the wither as part of a beacon fetch quest.

The movie has lots of references to minecraft community things. minecraft youtubers and developers act as cameos in people they meet. "don't dig straight down" is on a sign near a cave/town's quarry. Maybe they find books similar to those survival guides i saw in all the scholastic book fairs. Have someone hum Don't Mine At Night or go "awww man" when a creeper explodes. Have a reclusive but friendly town of "hermits" (hermitcraft). maybe you pass by someone saying "the aether is just a conspiracy/myth!" just, things the community of all ages will recognize and go "hey! the thing!"

other:

They decide on the names Steve and Alex themselves, idk when though. The nicknames of Green and Blue between them can stick around. Also while i'm here, idc about romance. have them be friends, or partners by the end, or implied whatever.

I want Steve and Alex to have a personality but also have a generic backstory for the "blank slate" appeal and function of their in-game selves. I have a couple ideas- amnesia or being an everyday person, for example. maybe they are orphans, idk. Waking up in a forest is all i'm set on because that could be the equivalent of "spawning in."

I also have a fun idea where it could be an entirely implied Isekai. ("implied" is the keyword because it's never admitted and the only canonical dimensions are the nether, overworld, and end.) Not like the movie, where you aparently watch them get Isekai-ed, but with how they react to Tree Physics, magic, monsters, etc. and people going "you're not from around here, are you" and/or "how do you not know what X is? have you been living under a rock?" (which would then introduce the audience to minecraft concepts and exposition.)

they live in a "post-age of heres" world where it could be implied that the Old People who build all the strongholds and shit are long dead and they disappeared going after the dragon. this immediately puts an added sense of danger to the quest. also an underdog story.

i also would like a reason WHY Blue and Green can defeat the dragon while the others can't beyond "they are the main characters." this could be the new thing the movie brings in, like a new enchantment or making netherite something the Old People didn't have but necessary? idk, this could go into "movie-verse" logic and doesn't necessarily have to be in-direct canon to the game.

you know those characters that minecraft made a while ago? like the different races and genders? those skins could be characters in the movies.

the soundtrack does have the most popular minecraft sounds, in-game sound effects are used, but maybe some "movie remixes" or maybe they pay and jump through hoops to have Revenge playing for the end Credits.

also this is all animated. embrace animation.

[banghwa]

i saw 'hybe respect jimin' trending and i was ready to roll my eyes bc you know how armies arez but apparently in the seom has a new storyline where jimin's character is upset that he's not good enough and that he's bringing the group down. mind you, i think it's shitty to monetize someone's insecurities from two american presidents ago, especially when that period also had that person struggling with an ed and fainting because of how hard they pushed themselves. but also, suga's character tells him that if he has time to mope, he has time to practice, and that if he doesn't improve they'll leave him behind??? what??? suga has been nothing but supportive to his members, especially jimin, always said how much he loved jimin's voice and jimin himself said suga's encouragement sparked his ambition and desire to be a bts member.

i hate to speculate because we truly don't know anything but it's bizarre how these low-key hostile situations keep happening to jimin. from the face rollout, hybe not doing anything to support the first korean soloist to debut at #1 of the hot 100, scolding him for wanting two more music videos... i know he's a grown man and even has stocks in this company but there's def something weird going on behind the scenes. i'm flabbergasted that they would approve something so tactless about two bts members.

oh now thats just. sorry that in the seom thing is insanely gross and exploitative. thats not something that belongs in a fucking mobile app game idc. this is what i mean when i talk annoyingly and endlessly about BTS The Brand (tm) bcs like. atp they are not fucking people to hybe/bighit at all everything theyve done and felt and talked about becomes part of the brand . and i dont think ppl realize that they dont need bts' permission to do this shit either. i dont even know what to say thats so fucking gross. i cant say anything abt jimins' specific treatment especially since honestly the more i think about it these weird management issues these days seems to come back to the bizarre brandification of bts . on one hand im not surprised bcs hybe's MO these days seems just to be "make bts into characters -> sell the cliche -> use this to encourage dangerous fan behaviour -> profit" and like. this in the seom thing seems part of that. hybe dont care at all about protecting bts/any of their idols. neither do most entertainment companies but you'd think the people who built this company would get a little leniency.....i get why they would do this. because its juicy and it victimizes bts (and specifically one of the most popular members) in a way that is profitable, that feeds a narrative that is profitable, that can be used to justify certain fan behaviour that hybe encourages, etc. but its so gross that it honestly makes me feel sick. they better get rid of that shit so fast on god i need jimin to draft that lawsuit NOW

[some-thrilling-heroics]

aro-spec awareness week

20th: Questioning - What are some experiences you had when discovering your arospec identity?

*this is long af, but it felt nice to put it out*

*it turned out longer, and angrier than planned*

I used to wish I were aro, in the past couple years, and then berate myself for thinking that bc that's not right, idk what i'm talking abt. I remember reading posts that would detail how wrong it was to say 'oh I wish I was aro' bc that means you romanticize it, you ignore the hardship, but now... I wanna laugh at the memory

I remember how appealing it felt, every single description of aro experience I could find - except I didn't see how I could use that label for myself; I wasn't aro - I was other things but I shouldn't steal that label...

I've always known I was different. I felt that in my bones, it was in my gut, in my blood. Before I had a word I embraced the words like deviant and pervert bc the word queer, or gay wasn't in my vocabulary, and calling myself a perv felt safer than calling myself gay - can you imagine that?

So for a time I called myself gay, quietly, in whispers. I did a limited research based on pitiful books on sex ed and stuff, books that put homosexuality in with deviations, disorders and fetishes. Books that assured readers how homosexuals are weird, but for the most part aren't dangerous - bc clearly that wasn't something obvious. Books that scoffed at the word fetish, and expected the reader to play along and laugh with the author. "Oh, those silly crossdressers, right?"

I came out as a lesbian. And my parents told me I'm too young to know. I was in my last year of high school, I've seen my peers pair off for years, I've watched them crush on each other, I watched them get fucking pregnant and get abortions, but nobody told them they didn't know what they were doing. I mean, clearly, yes, teen sex is not the most experienced or rational or even responsible thing in the world, but that wasn't the point people were making at me. So I tried to defend myself. You know what I said?

"I am not asexual." (Go ahead, you can laugh. I still do.)

And I said some other things abt how hypocritical it was to doubt my ability to know myself at that age. As if age had anything to do with it. I've always known I wasn't like everybody else. It's not a feeling you can fake, it's not even a feeling you want at that age.

Anyways, that was it. I came out to a few people but I only really came out as a lesbian.

Then I questioned my gender, tried a genderqueer label on for size. It felt nice. It felt horrible, in a paradoxical way, it felt oppressive and I can't really disentangle my identity questions at that time from my depression. When I say it felt oppressive I mean not the label itself, I think maybe I could keep that in the long run, but holy fuck the people! It was as if the world was closing in on me and I couldn't breathe.

Then I wasn't anything. No label, no word. I was exhausted. I was just ME, whatever the hell that was. Idc.

Some years later I started to get back into the topic and see if anything was there that I could use. You're probably wondering where's that aro label, when I've ran through all the others (almost).

First I figured I'm ace (ha ha ha). I am asexual, after all, the irony. And I poured everything into that, that was my label, that was my identity. The panromantic was there as an accessory bc I knew I never differentiated but it never occurred to me that it's not bc I'm attracted to everybody - it's bc I'm attracted to NOBODY. I embraced that last year in summer - that's a few months ago. I haven't been using aro label longer than 6 months, I think.

I would have used it sooner but there was one major blockade for me. My childhood and teen crushes. The only reason I didn't dare use that word to describe me. It took me so long to figure out that what I called crushes, was different what people call crushes. I never wanted to have sex with anybody, that was clear for me - so I'm ace. But try to define romance when people say hugs are romantic, that holding hands is romantic, that spending any quality time is romantic - especially if with someone of other gender. I had to readjust my vision. I didn't crush on people - I was starved for meaningful friendships, for trust, for true intimacy - something that as a bullied kid I could never have.

I've been to some psychiatrists over the years - three of them actually - and I noticed that they talk to me as if I'm unaware of my own shit, as if they need to spend hours upon hours pulling the emotional teeth from me, like most people that are scared of what lies in the dark abandoned corner of their psyche. And I want to laugh in their faces. I get it, I appreciate the delicate tugging for what it is, but really - I'm not some hapless cishet, who never had to face the question ‘who am I?’ and ‘why am I like this?’. I am queer. I've spent over 15 years figuring myself inside and out, I had to figure myself out when the world wasn't ready for that (as if I care), I abandoned people that couldn’t accept me even when society at large told me those are the people I can’t live without, I had to accept myself and learn myself by the age most people get out of school, or look for a relationship bc they’ve never learned how to be alone with themselves. But it's hard to be forthcoming to a so called specialist that is there to help you, as their job, when the moment I say what I am I will have to follow that up with a lecture or ask them if they understand the words I'm using - so that ruins the point of me going to a specialist; and boy do I have shit to sort out.