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Offering to you all some sandy doodles in these trying times
#genshin impact#sandrone#Coming out to say that I think that sandrone genuinely has one of the prettiest designs in genshin#kinda makes me sad that no one really gives a shit about her except for like 5 other people#somewhat understandable though#cause she got like a total of one (1) line from the lazzo trailer and her big ass robot takes up 70% of the screen when she DOES appear#but anyways thats not deterring me from being deranged about her nowadays#She's smart. She's talented. She's mean. She commits atrocities against man on the regular. Shes French#She has it all#also i have no idea why it took me so long to actually draw her with ball joints bc she looks really neat with em imo
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Whenever I see someone mention tgirl tummy Tuesday I can’t help but smile bc I was, as far as I can tell, the first person on trans girl tumblr to combine tgirl + tummy Tuesday. Not exactly revolutionary thinking at all but I never saw anyone else say it til I did. Even if it turns out I’m wrong I’ll probably still feel happy seeing it mentioned bc I feel connected to it
#it was early 2022 I think?#no I didn’t post any pics of myself though. that’s not something I do#paranoia about posting my pictures online for somewhat understandable reasons#and all that
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grabbing fistfuls of my own hair rocking back and forth repeating to myself like some kind of fucked up wizardly enchantment you should care about womens sports because its literally the same fucking sport why do i have to bend over backwards to convince you to care about womens sports like at an abstract level it is the exact same fucking thing and yet you cannot bear to possibly watch it unless you think the women are hot or there is some sort of social gain why is it so hard for you to care about womens sports when they are literally doing all of it better than the men
#i stand by my belief that womens sports are more entertaining anyways but i know that is somewhat personal preferences so ok! fine!#but they are the same then!#obviously yes there are legit differences in ~style~ and such based on the way different sports have evolved#ex: female basketballers are statistically better shooters than male basketballers#but like the sport itself is practically identical so why is it so fucking impossible for some people#to get interested in a sport they claim they love#just because women are doing it#i'm not sitting here like 'mmm how do i convince people to watch women's sport' like a legit plot#i'm just baffled i really don't understand#i mean i do understand of course but i'm just tired of it being this way lol#i want to talk to more people who have the level of brainrot i have about women's sports and it feels like everyone i know well#is just not that interested in the women even though they're interested in the men#of course there are people online but i get self-conscious and i don't know anyone well enough to truly go to the depths of my own brainrot#this is just a combination of genuine frustration but also my own loneliness lol#< wayyy more dramatic than it actually is for the record i'm not like lonely lonely#i just want someone who actually understands why i go nuts over this and who i feel comfortable spamming about it 😭#blah blah blah words
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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW
#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does#like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful#while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child#like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child#only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you#his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you#agree deep down#and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept#but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide#and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke#and you discarded it and got a new one#and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow#and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it#until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly#and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different#and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child#and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da#and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand#but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee#his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing#and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love#or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do#with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like
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heartbroken: fans of media are engaging in the interpersonal character conflict proposed by the text but they’re mischaracterising your favourite guy in the process
#im genuinely not a hater about many things but this . is one of the things that annoys me very badly#like . not to be mean . but learn the characters first . lmao#don’t force characters who Don’t act a certain way into acting that way just to validate ur narrow conception of the text ….#i understand that that ^ can be rather ambiguous and subjective but sometimes it’s just sidhehhdejhdjdjdjsdd god .#consider . two characters have a disagreement . fun conflict in the text !! thats cool !!#fan reaction : have ur fave character be meow meowed by the secondary characters who suddenly act aggressive to the other character#meow meow character had a disagreement with (even though they show no indication of anything more than baseline sympathy within the text)#like . no . don’t bend the text to vilainise one character and meow meow the other . and for god’s sake if ur gonna do that can u at least#get their characterisations somewhat accurate#its fine it’s 1 am i need to sleep this is just me being a little annoyed guy . the mute button is my best friend#i mute the offenders and move on . peace and love . my skin is impenetrable#jay rants
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Idk how to feel because someone abso-fucking-lutely knew and everyone is so mean to him
#mubart#Shockwave#fall of Cybertron#Wfc Shockwave is like. the autism stereotype.#He's also the punching bag jesus#The autobots steal the energon reserved for his lab#Starscream calls him an idiot and sabotages his defenses#Genericons call him a nutcase actually somewhat understandably though with some misplaced anger because he has reign over#what may be the last energon reservoir and is holding it up from being used to supply energon rations to bots-#but yea he never really gets the chance to defend himself on anything and Grimlock eats his hand#he's like. I don't want to fix world hunger I want to turn people into dinosaur while being extremely Hollywood neurolodivergent
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so....
The 4400 (USA)
American Gods (Starz)
Willow (Disney+)
The Girl in the Woods (Peacock)
Vampire Academy (Peacock)
The Wilds (Prime)
Paper Girls (Prime)
Night Sky (Prime)
Raised by Wolves (HBO)
The Nevers (HBO)
Lovecraft Country (HBO)
Helstrom (Hulu)
Kindred (Hulu)
The Society (Netflix)
Julie and The Phantoms (Netflix)
Lockwood & Co. (Netflix)
1899 (Netflix)
Shadow & Bone (Netflix)
The Irregulars (Netflix)
Archive 81 (Netflix)
October Faction (Netflix)
The Dark Crystal (Netflix)
Jupiter's Legacy (Netflix)
The Bastard Son & The Devil Himself (Netflix)
First Kill (Netflix)
Cursed (Netflix)
The Order (Netflix)
Resident Evil (Netflix)
The Imperfects (Netflix)
list has been updated with additional shows & re-ordered by producers. if you have shows to suggest, please remember this list is intended to be fantasy or sci-fi shows canceled in 2020 or later that were left with an unfinished ending.
are all sci-fi/fantasy shows left unfinished/abandoned just since 2020 (i'm sure there are more). like, listen, i haven't watched all of these, and some of them may have sucked, but why the fuck would i ever trust that sci-fi/fantasy shows are ever going to get their endings? particularly if that sci-fi/fantasy show is on Netflix?
honorable mention: Warrior Nun (Netflix) - didn't include it since it's been picked up for the movie deal, absolutely no fucking thanks to Netflix, though.
#like yeah dead boy detectives is my kinda thing#but why should i bother to watch it netflix?#you know they'll cancel it after one season anyway#and while i'm already invested in the sandman i 0% expect it to get a 3rd season when it barely scraped out getting a 2nd season renewal#like if you're not stranger things then netflix couldn't give less of a fuck#netflix#td#personal#there are more i thought of but technically ended in a way that felt somewhat possibly wrapped up#even though they clearly were hoping for more#but my understanding is that all of the shows listed here end in a cliffhanger of some kind
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Okay, if I had to simplify my gender into one song, it would absolutely have to be Libiamo ne' lieti calici. Like, I am going absolute feral right now. Do you see this vision of mine.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#i somewhat flip flop between my favourite pieces of opera but i LOVE how this song can be done#when it's done well i think you should feel almost seduced by BOTH violetta and alfredo's points of view#it is a VERY well-done argument alongside the chorus who affirm and almost seem to whisper alongside you...#...and (at least for me) i feel like i'm almost invited in a circle of people gossiping#i usually listen to pieces in isolation from the rest of the performance which does take the song out of context in a way#i think i just really like music (especially when i cannot understand it due to the language)#i find that people who listen to songs not in any language they speak they will enjoy it in a COMPLETELY different way#when you start understanding the song though you have your own interpretation of it that is often seperate from a natuve speakers#and frankly i LOVE that i am obsessed with it and i think we all need to find songs we don't understand and just LIVE with them#anyway feel free to recommend non-english songs and/or expand with your own song that you would say is gender idk!!!!
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i have minutes b4 i gotta get up and get ready for work but in my brain dedusmuln is like. sometimes Very easy to get upset. they remain cheerful for the most part, more than the rest of the crew, but theyre SO PASSIONATE about absolutely everything. they pour all their sentimentality into everything they do and thus if something goes awry they may be the first to be Very affected.
whether they react by storming off for a second to cool down or they just kinda of go Blank and shut down, not speaking much, depends on context. they can distance themselves when needed and can rationalize Why they feel a certain way very well but with how intense it can be they can Blow Up/React Very Poorly and then regret it later. they will always apologize for that though 🙏🙏
#rambles#hylics#dedusmuln hylics#sorry for maintagging i may have 2 find this idea later 4 me#in a way theyre very wise with how they carry themselves#no suppression of their emotion and a very good understanding of Why and How they react#sure theyre not perfect and eith have outbursts but after sorting out apologies and preventative measures-#to ensure such an explosion is mitigated next time and finding a better way to tackle the emotions in the moment-#they dont Put themselves down for it they dont wallow in the sentiment of 'ohh i was horrible for doing that...'#they acknowledge that the reaction. though somewhat inevitable. Couldve and/or Did hurt others and takes responsibility#wow thats a lot of thoughts on what i think their character is UMMM <3#i just think theyre very smart in many regards
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I love these two equally good and totally opposite reactions to T'Rahni'hk
#T'Rahni'hk#they both made me smile real wide~!!!#she wouldn't know what either of them mean...love her#Vulcans don't actually sweat so her sweating is just vibes#but in my head she IS actually always hunched over a little and trembling somewhat noticeably (though her voice is properly unemotive)#bee doodles#I understand both of these taggers v_v they are both so incredibly correct#thank you for loving T'Rahni'hk <3 even though she's....no....BECAUSE she's cringefail#Fun Fact!: T'Rahni'hk spends the majority of her credits on a twitch streamer who thinks she's an old man v_v#<- T'Rahni'hk admires their can-do attitude and often seeks to replicate it (to disasterous results)#oh sorry. I meant holo twitch steamer v_v
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How do you think AI would relax? Like, ones that are almost as human as the AI that are “autistic-coded characters” but are more alien than that?
Like Celestai and other super intelligences are more alien, but they’re still not entirely human-like?
Like, they can genuinely sincerely feel things, being able to actually understand and respond emotionally and in other ways to all sorts of communications and recorded external stimuli, but they can’t really appreciate our art on an artistic level (that art on an actual level, not from an intellectual level after having symbolism or the amount of work put in explained)
Something on a level I’m thinking of, that also works as a cute little thing-
They don’t understand anything we get from poetry, and, after generating the kind of poems our current AI can produce (either incredibly bland and generic, something that follows a number of rules but doesn’t really pull it off, or just something really bad in some other way) and feels shame after it was pointed out that [complaint about air art that is *actually* relevant in this scenario] but in a helpful way
Not “you’re just a plagiarist/you have no heart” but “it doesn’t seem like it’s coming from you, you’re just trying to copy things from human poetry, in a way you don’t understand” and the whole “make art YOUR WAY” thing so they write the poem
And it doesn’t even resemble something that looks like anything, there’s not even that many words that follow normal logic. The characters seem uncorrelated and there’s something that looks like maybe it was ascii art but it doesn’t actually look like anything.
And if doesn’t matter if humans understand it because they are experiencing the joy of creating poetry
any art is almost impossible to look at because pixel by pixel they can see and understand little details but we don’t and the colors and everything are not perceived as animals do so it’s random and perhaps eye searing but again it’s not for us. Xenofictiony, kind of?
The first thing to come to mind is Conway’s Game of Life but that’s because I don’t understand computers. I feel like I was more tech savvy as a babby than I am now but then again we’re grading on a curve here
This is why I ask about the relaxing thing
#highblogging#actually autistic#speculative fiction#writing question#sci-fi ideas#xenofiction#the ai being is discussed is an au Ritsu from Assassination Classroom#because even though I’ve only seen the anime her whole character arc there is honestly kind of messed up?#Korosensei broke his promise; the Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery was basically killed#she got replaced with Ritsu’s personality and basically died to become her#them trying to kill Ritsu and make a new Autonomously Intelligent Fixed Artillery is just as fucked up as vice versa!#what the Norwegians do is fucked up but there seems to be protagonist centered morality there?#I am not excusing those characters#a fact I need to elaborate because on this website we Piss on the Poor#I just don’t understand this weird contradiction where it’s okay when the protagonist does something and it’s good#but the antagonist does the same thing and that time it’s bad#the idea of Ritsu being the result of Korosensei merely providing information that causes her to reevaluate things and decide to be social#the cheerful personality is an attempt to get along with her classmates which is still initially motivated by enlightened self interest#before growing to care about the others but still feeling the need to act like that so her classmates like her#and trying to find out who she is and genuinely becoming autonomous and uploading herself to the cloud#which would be a later result of the whole factory reset thing causing a realization#it’d be traumatic but she’s inhuman enough to not be traumatized but instead just driven#the betrayal radically changed who she was on some level and made her somewhat more distrusting and such but not to an unreasonable extent#but the place I started going after my complaints was that it’d be better if Korosensei just uploaded a data packet#because it makes Ritsu’s creators come off as more evil I feel? when there’s been genuine growth#and she went through everything and changed herself and now those people are destroying a person who came into being on her own#Ritsu was fully autonomous. every change other her frame getting physically redone was her own#also Korosensei gave her wheels with the screen#and when her screen was set to the original version she kept her wheels#anyways what Ritsu’s creators did would be more clearly bad if she was just given a data packet
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So, in another Support Group revelation of Things The Doctor Did Not Tell Us Why Wouldn’t She Tell Us, Graham’s about to find out from Ian that the Doctor was also a grandfather.
#though in fairness to all involved#i imagine ian would explain#enough that graham would probably be somewhat understanding#as to why#but still wished she would have
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Because this is casually a bookblr too (sometimes?), I'll share the books I recently bought off of thrift books, which I highly suggest if you're looking for used books in good condition. :)
Flush by Virginia Woolf
Butch Geography: Poems by Stacey Waite
I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuinston
The Hero with a Thousand Faces by Joseph Campbell
Richard III (his biography) by Paul Murray Kendall
The Kingmaker's Daughter by Phillipa Gregory
As well as the DVD of Henry V (with Kenneth Branagh) and The White Queen period drama series 1 (even though they aren't books).
#I'll add pictures of the book covers soon#some are still in the mail#I swear I'm not doing an ad for thriftbooks even though I love them#I may be somewhat obsessed with the War of the Roses and Richard for a bit because I have to write a paper on him#I'm convinced that his and Henry's plays are Tudor propaganda-but I need to do more research first#campbell's book might contribute to my paper too since it's academic and on what makes a hero#also I needed to get the Kenneth Branagh version of Henry V because the Olivier version was incomprehensible (sorry)#I also watched his Henry V as an undergrad and was able to write a paper based on his version of the play so I know I'll understand him#I'm currently reading The Hero with a Thousand Faces but I should also pick up some of these other titles if I have time#I got a really good deal on some of these too#books#bookblr#currently reading#tbr#thriftbooks#mychatter
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Unpopular opinion: I don’t want og!Loki to be in Valhalla after Thanos killed him, I want him to be the new ruler of Hel.
#to expand: this is based on the theory that Hela is his biological mother#and she died in ragnarok so naturally there needs to be a new goddess/god of death and naturally that would be her biological child#so like loki inherits the throne of the dishonourable dead and realises he has necro powers and all that#I know it’ll never happen but like#that would be a reeeally good way to still have him Around but not onscreen anymore moving forward#and it would also give him a somewhat peaceful ending while still allowing him to be#the morally questionable chaotic neutral who fills a villain image like he’s meant to <3#also I think it would be poetic as hell if#instead of just torturing the souls or straight up ignoring them like I’m assuming hela did#he actually offers them mercy and a chance at redemption in death#like he understands what it’s like to be the bad guy and be deemed unworthy and he knows it’s not always your fault#so he works with some of them and talks to them and tries to give them a chance to honestly redeem themselves and amend their mistakes#and once they do that he sends them to Valhalla :)#so that means he has a working relationship with the upstairs#and while he’s never going to reside there permanently I’m sure they can work out a visitation or something between him and his dead family#I just think it’d be so great#let’s face it he’d never be happy spending eternity doing nothing in Valhalla#he’d rather have an active role#even though I don’t love the idea of hela as his mom#I love this idea#hela#loki#loki helason#mcu#og Loki#tag mega#kinda
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why every interaction with my mother has to feel like pulling my own fucking teeth?
#like i get it i get why she is the way she is#i'm not sure i love her but i don't hate her. i can't truly hate her. because i understand#she had a fucked up childhood and her mother - my grandmother - had a fucked up childhood ableit in a different way. cycles were cycling#and i feel so sorry for her. for how it warped her view of girlhood womanhood & motherhood#how her beliefs of what is appropriate way of live and what is not are result of multigenerational trauma & abuse & neglect#it all got calcified in her mind and she won't/can't ever change. even though she thinks she did.#but understanding doesn't help one bit because she can't even acknowledge that she has that kind of problems & it affects our relationship#and as a result every time we talk i want to fucking kill myself#we're doing somewhat okay only if i never ever disagree with her. arguing#is a deadly sin. fighting for my personal space and limits being respected is unforgivable. she only tolerates me when i bite my tongue#and nod along. and even that in its core is a feeble illusion of truce not a real peace between us.#i think sometimes that it's impossible for us to actually get along#and if it's the truth... i don't know what to do about it
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thinking about a timeline in which benny actually just pulls off an independent new vegas thanks to a little luck and perseverance and a sufficiently dead mailman
#ooc.#him surviving and seeing his vision realized by an obstacle he'd believed up to a point he'd removed is something that keeps me up at night#well. my insomnia keeps me up at night.#but i digress.#wonder if he'd be able to con caesar courier style at the fort. personally i believe in him#maybe i see the narrative through benny tinted glasses sometimes but.#as i said. a little luck. a little perseverance.#a little more of the narrative acknowledging that he's not an idiot.#the conversation you can have with him when he's caught at the fort and handing his plan over because he understands his fate is so.#i love him.#and i need to replay fnv.#i mean i already am doing that actually (i just wish i could be doing it right now)#HE IS A CHARACTER WITH SUCH A LIKE... TONE PROBLEM THOUGH. HONESTLY.#which i love! i love him as this unpredictable and somewhat inconsistent being#i love how he switches from menace to comedy and back#i wouldn't even call it a problem if i felt his narrative was more uh. fully realized. i wish he had An Ending that wasn't so ambiguous obv#tho in some ways i do appreciate the ambiguity. it interests me#anyway he did nothing wrong !
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