#somewhat understandable though

[clouvu]

Offering to you all some sandy doodles in these trying times

[kagooleo]

happy new years 2025! it's been nearly a whole year since I started posting about fluffyriceshipping here, and my art has changed a lot since then! what better way to start the new year than with some sweet potatoes with their partners 🍠🌅

[in-a-trice]

man i love destiny, but the lore is actually so hard to follow as someone who started playing d2 in early december of 2023. like i've only ever played lightfall, shadowkeep, and beyond light (couldn't tell you which came first) + then the final shape. i don't know anything about fallen politics. who is crota. who is xivu arath. who is that spider guy. i don't know who eramis or ana bray or amanda holliday are really. what is oryx's deal. what actually is an ahamkara. at this point i'm too scared to ask. on that note, i think i've learnt more destiny lore through oral storytelling than actually playing the game

[suntails]

assuming everything stays as-is right now, i should have my glomas video posted/finished on friday. only a few more days

[project-sekai-facts]

okay this is driving me crazy and i need to tell people this. i've been looking at the ocs's bedrooms and noticed that fucking none of them have power outlets visible anywhere. unless im blind none of these kids have anywhere to charge their phones or plug in electronics

There are exactly TWO rooms with a power outlet visible. Riho's and Mafuyu's. Mafuyu's annoys me immensely because she only has an air pump plugged in. Which also caused me to realise that this tank has no light and no filter. How are those plants alive. What the fuck.

Yeah in every other room the cords seem to just trail away into nowhere. Nene's room especially is weird because there's a window that goes down to the floor which #1 that's just a weird place to put your setup #2 where are those cords plugged in?? Also fun fact not pictured here but Mizuki and Ena's computers just. don't have wires. How do they even work??

An's room is really weird to me because she has an extension lead with two things plugged into it, one of which is obviously the lamp and one of which... trails off in the same direction but doesn't seem to be plugged into anything? And then her neon light is also plugged in somewhere but the cable just disappears behind the table. Also the extension lead itself is not plugged in. What the hell is going on here???

[surreal-duck]

One of Midori's lines in vime is "I won't let you look anywhere else, just look at me"

Do what you will with that info o7

all i can imagine is that he had a hard time singing it with a straight face

though im picking up what youre putting down so i raise you

[sylthedumbassdemon]

The reason Toga developed the mentally of “a good world is one where I can do what I want” is because of how she was treated as a young child. Shunned rather than seeing people who could help her cope with the “symptoms” of her quirk and live a normal, healthy life. This is clear to most readers in canon but I feel like there are still some things that most people are kinda misinterpreting?

I see a lot of people saying that the LoV was a good found family, and while they were definitely better than her parents, they weren’t exactly good either. They were kind, and genuinely cared for her, but they were ultimately another thing preventing her from truly living happily alongside anyone she loves.

This, at least to me, is why Toga’s final fight with Ochaco is so important to her story and her character. Though I don’t personally read it at mutuality romantic, the fact that Ochaco saw through the effects of her quirk, and saw that Toga as a person who was capable of being saved, is why the ending to her character story is good. Regardless of whether she lived, it was someone giving her a chance at being truly happy.

[calico-kiwi]

WE’RE SO BACK (<- finally re-found the spark that fuels them from a creative/serotonin perspective after months of it fleetingly flickering in and out)

[teddybeartoji]

okok so i need everybody to keep me in their thoughts bc i'm going to a movie premiere and i think i'm gonna see a lot of ppl i know (aka my old classmates) aand it's going to suck bc they're doing things and i'm not so i do not want to speak to any of them lmao

[la-galaxie-langblr]

Year abroad declaration of intent due in 12 days and I'm kind of freaking out about it 😭

[buttercupshands]

My emotionally immature ass still doesn't understand a thing of how people can pity characters

Not like I don't try to understand it! I just... Can't? Understand that??? At all???

Like why would you pity a character for their sad backstory or whatever, and poof suddenly a character is pitiful as hell, and suddenly they're understandable because a person can call them a wet kitten under their care

And that's something I can't do for some reason

And again, not like I didn't *try*, it's just a thing I can't understand at any capacity other than 'some people do that to show their affection of that character, that's their way of caring

Granted talking to more people makes you understand them better! Doesn't help much! But it's something!!

[machinavocis]

making some sort of fancy Friend Communication Reminder Calendar Spreadsheet Thing would probably genuinely really help me maintain human connections to people i really miss having in my life

but i have this vague viral-internet-memory of this one time an autistic person did something similar & shared it online & everyone was like holy shit what a weird sociopath thing you'd only do if you only valued the performance of friendship & had no actual empathy for your fellow human beings!! ew gross creepy bad fuck off etc.

& so every time i inevitably circle back around to this idea i remember that guy & overthink everything & chicken tf out.

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

Whenever I see someone mention tgirl tummy Tuesday I can’t help but smile bc I was, as far as I can tell, the first person on trans girl tumblr to combine tgirl + tummy Tuesday. Not exactly revolutionary thinking at all but I never saw anyone else say it til I did. Even if it turns out I’m wrong I’ll probably still feel happy seeing it mentioned bc I feel connected to it

[quibbs126]

*sigh* I don’t know. I don’t even really know why I’m posting this in the first place, I don’t really like it

I’d say what it is, but you can read what’s on the tin. I thought it’d be cool if I drew that g2 Optimus design, because I think it’s cool looking and Optimus might look good in black and red, and with pink eyes

This was my reference by the way

But no, I couldn’t figure out how to make him look right. I thought maybe I could try sketching him in another style, but no, that didn’t work either. But I finished the sketch and thought it looked halfway decent, but when I went to do lineart I realized it wasn’t. But halfway through lineart I just gave up and slapped it together, slapped some colors on him, wrote some stuff on the page, I guess to fill up the black spaces I know I wasn’t gonna fill with actual drawing, and now we’re here

It’s the fucking arms I tell you. I still don’t know how they’re supposed to work, and I don’t know how to pose them either. So they look like shit. But I can’t just not have them, so they have to be there

And I don’t really know what’s happening on the shoulders either, particularly the wheels. I know I made them too small but I don’t know how to make them look how they do on the toy either

I considered trying a more stylized art style since the 3D was fucking with me, but my brain couldn’t figure out how to do that either, so I’m stuck doing the same thing over and over again, drawing in circles and wondering why I’m not getting anywhere, while simultaneously being unable to figure out what I’m doing wrong

So now we’re here. It looks bad. The shoulder pentagons are too small. The face is too tall. The colors on the face are all wrong. The arm is all off anatomy wise. I forgot to color in the black on the back despite going in and adding lines for them. The grill’s off. The chest doors don’t look like doors the open up, they look stuck to the rest of him. He barely looks 3D because I’m bad at doing this

But I got far enough, and I knew that even I start over on a new canvas, I wouldn’t want to delete it by this point, so I might as well finish it instead of having it taunt me every time I see it. So here we are, as I’ve said multiple times

I really wish I was better at drawing Transformers. I should be at this rate, it’s been a couple months. But no, I don’t know how to improve and I keep staying with the same mediocre art, because I don’t seem to like trying. I do try, but it’s not improvement, it’s just me making the same mistakes over and over again. Like with arms and the joints

Why can’t I get better? Am I just not trying? I don’t know how to try better

I have thoughts I want to share with people because I think they’re neat, and I know any thoughts I do have will only gain traction and be seen if there’s art attached, at least here on tumblr, and because I am an artist, I have to try and draw them. Especially because I’m anti-social and a cheapskate, so I can’t ask someone I know who can draw Transformers good and I won’t commission anyone for it either. I’ll only get what I want if I do it. But I’m bad at doing it

So it’s either write it out and see some people like it, but it’ll only be for the next couple days before it gets forgotten and I too forget about it, and it’ll never do as good as if I did draw it, or draw it but not as good as it needs to be, so people won’t really care about it anyways. Because my flat drawings aren’t really good anyways, just mediocre, and I write too much on my drawings and go on tangents, meaning people probably aren’t gonna reblog it with their own thoughts on anything I said either

But this is just me being greedy anyways. No one’s entitled to give me their opinions, especially when I know my thoughts are stupid anyways. I don’t really know anything about Transformers, not like other people do, I’m just some casual person who just got here and should just go back to Cookie Run at this rate, but is stupid and keeps thinking that maybe she’ll get good at this and have opinions people actually care about

And don’t go on here telling me that I shouldn’t put so much emphasis on what other people think, so long as it makes me happy. It doesn’t work like that with me. Drawing the thing’s only half the fun for me, and sometimes that varies. The real fun comes from telling people about the thing I made, and the ideas I made for it, especially when they tell me what they think of it. If I draw something and nobody sees it, and I don’t tell anyone about it, what was the point of me drawing it? Even if I enjoyed it, heck when I do, I’m even more motivated to show it to people, because I’m proud of it, or that pride comes later when I see people really do like it. These things are intrinsically tied together for me, I can’t separate them

What’s even the point of all this? I’m just complaining at this rate about basically nothing, at least nothing to do with what I drew. But I don’t like what I drew. But I made it so I have to show it, at least to get a semblance of what I was going for out there. I’d like to think maybe if it did, someone better could get what I’m going for and do it better, and I can see it better, but no one ever does. I’m not good enough for that. Maybe some people did, but not anymore, I’ve grown too big for my britches. And also we’re not in the same fandoms anymore

And I write all this, but it feels almost performative. Like I’m putting on an act of frustration and disappointment and anger and whatever other emotions I can’t quantify right now. Because this’ll still be on the post. I’m still gonna post this. I’m still gonna diligently put my tags in it like any other post. Like I’m doing this for show. I’m not, but I’m making a deal of it publicly online, aren’t I? So I must be doing this for attention

*sigh* Well I suppose it’s my own fault

I’ll probably try to attempt this again some day, maybe even later today or tomorrow (actually probably not, I work tomorrow), because I never got out what I wanted, but I can’t figure it out right now and I’m too lazy to make it any better. So take this not very good quality art that I really shouldn’t even be posting, but hey, it’s content, isn’t it?

[ph-cutie]

Liz and RLD in the same tier is diabolical

[sitdwnandstudy]

I have to replace my laptop (I'm overdue tbh) but it truly goes against my nature to replace something before it literally stops working