#somthing is deeply wrong with me

[crazy-lazy-elder-sims]

my very specific way of doing things is going to be the end of me

i dont understand why i am the way i am

whenever i want to do somthing i break it down into steps right? thats normal everyone does that

except for the fact that im shit at making reasonable steps and end up with a wild step 1 that has nothing to do with anything that just kills my enthusiasm

for example a few days ago i wanted to try a specific mixed media art

embroidery and painting together

easy simple right? i know these two things very well so it shouldn't be hard to combine them i chose a familiar theme to make the art about - ancient Egyptian jewelry - just that

so tell me why my step one was

1- research ancient Egypt

2- also ancient Sumeria for the added information

3- understand everything to know about their art carving jewelry making etc

4- visit online museums and look at everything in their collection understand the patterns they used and their textiles

5- now that i've gathered enough information that would allow me to write a masters thesis i should pick a jewelry piece to embroider oh wait i lost the momentum doing all the research cause it took alot of time so

actual step 5 : abandon ship

AM I INSANE WHATS WRONG WITH ME WHO DOES THIS TO THEMSELVES

[frutavel]

And here's the whole set of creatures :D

Including from left to right: @atu-and-zuni 's Atul'Haka, Caiena, Tor, Rhavi and Khamari <3

They're all forest trolls and all part of the same story :>

[z0mbiiiwh0re]

cant pt my finger on it but thrs somthing deeply wrong with me

[cdfreak]

So here’s the thing if you went up to somone and said I like (x) are they then obliged to pretend they like it cos you do and it’s immoral to have a different opinion from you or are you normal and understand that people might have a different opinion on somthing than you . Cos that’s pretty much what your saying when you complain that hard about self depreciation , your friend doesn’t like the thing you like as much so your gonna call them bad and wrong .

not liking something is not the same as actively insulting and degrading something that someone else likes. i dont like some of the movies my friends like but i dont sit there and tell them how awful it is and make them feel bad about liking it.

it doesnt make me happy when my friends have low self esteem but i dont think thats like Bad of them to do. it is, however, extremely shitty if every time i try to compliment them or the things they made they like start arguing with me and insulting whatever the thing is. you are either willfully misinterpreting my post or just deeply stupid

[casadores12]

Hinge

I feel absolutely burned out from dating. I turn 26 this year and it feels like it wont ever slow down. The last three guys I talked to all tried to use me for sex and when I said no they all disappeared quicker than I can finish this sentence. I also keep thinking back on all the people who wronged me, I cant help but feel my throat feel tight today. My hinge is currently sitting on over 800 notifications, yeah i know sounds like there should be one guy I pick right from the bunch but no, they all want the same thing. I know this is probably my karma for the last few years and I am totally respectful about the whole phase thing. Everyone needs their moment to explore their sexuality and not worry about anyone else blah blah selfish era I get it. But fuck being at the academy at this age actually sucks and no one seems to get it. I mean the only priors who are in healthy relationships brought them from naps and I left mine exactly there. There are so many that I have loved so deeply that I will never speak words to again, they aren't dead just distant. I think about all the pain I have gone through I begin to feel numb and irritated that anyone would even want to try to put me through that again, I mean cant they see I just want to be loved and love. I can barely look at E, I am so embarrassed I ever confessed my feelings to him, I mean how stupid do I have to be to think he could actually like me. My period must be coming, im emotional as fuck for some reason. I feel so dumb going on for almost an hour about rachel to des. She even said that I could of possibly done somthing wrong, I did nothing wrong. right?I loved rachel, I would of never treated her the way she treated me. I wonder if tamara thinks im the bad one here too. I hope not, I really enjoyed being her.... friend?

[thesleepingb0dyb4g]

nsfw but also like trauma but like yeah

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I just realized exactly WHY I have a choking and breath play kink..... and like there is somthing deeply wrong with me bc like what 😂😂 I was talking to my friend abt this yesterday night and I was like.. "bro I miss choking m****** so fucking much like im going insane I think there is somthing wrong with me.." and we started talking abt like kinks and then trauma but like I heard it's normal to develop kinks from trauma so like maybe I'm not insane or a red flag maybe I'm just flavorful and spiced up.

[lorisystem]

I thought shed ask if my sister was aware i was autistic since she said several times im on that spectrum and it would have made more sense in context. But the idea that my relatives could be aware i have a specific mental eelness is so funny. Firstly they dont even know whats wrong w themselves. My sister specifically just does not conceptualize other ppl as having feelings that matter also. Also theyre more or less aware theres somth deeply wrong w me but they think im doing it on purpose somehow

[writinginthenight]

do it again

little ones this time.

dont mess this up

your being fucking stupid.

thank god for the fact your over think instead of act on your thoughts.

this is why you don't let yourself be angry.

bc you will do bad things.

if there is one thing you shouldn't do its what your thinking about doing.

dont throw three years of love and joy down the drain bc you are angry over nothing.

breathe.

write poetry.

try not to do bad things.

dont scream. dont cry. dont hurt yourself.

above all else dont hurt the others.

dont

dont.

i wont let you.

i wont let me.

i will not let you hurt them.

you are angry and sad and emotional and i will not let any harm come to them.

what is this even.

your bain chemicals are being silly again.

shut the fuck up.

suck it up your being needy and posseive and crazy what are you doing.

your dumabass got attached to people and its my job to make sure you dont do any stupid shit so your gonna sit here and write.

write this until your back down to earth.

write until your reasonable.

why are you mad.

because you arnt the center of attention?

your being selfish.

there is nothing selfish in wanting to be cared about.

yes there is.

not for others.

but for you.

let me be selfish.

i am. im letting keep them.

like id really do it anyways

well you seem like you wold bc you withdrew so godanmm much. i know just how much its killing you that you did that. i know how much you miss them.

i still have some of them.

your lucky you do.

i know i am. i dont even deseve them anyways. they do so much for me and all i do is put more and more shit on them. thell leve one day too you know this.

they care about you why dont you just accept that.

i do accpt that thats how they feel * right now * thell get tierd of me like every one else i care about deeply. people say they care and you take advantge of that. you relay on them and they get sick of that. you know if you wernt so pathetic youd know this. you shounth have let yoursefl get this far.

your jsut as patheic as i am with your woe is me bull shit! you have to relay on peopl you love somtimes and you know we would immeadyly do the same for them.

i know but why is it always more. you would give your whole world to any one of them. for nothing and what do you get back? nothing.

thats not true tho. there your friends the give you their care and their kindness. look at your goddanm wall its full of their love.

to befair its mostly echo.

so??? echo loves you. youve never doubed that before.

shoud ahve seen me fifteen minutes ago.

i did.

and?

you were bing irrational.

how do you know that.

because i have eyes.

they were too busy crying.

it dosntn matter youbeing crazy. they love you.

do they.

of course.

why dont they do somthing.

alex and lanna have. why cant you accept that.

they were never the issue.

wasnt this a group issue. ?

it is and the others dont care.

you know thats not true.

its not like *ANY* have reached out.

thats your fault and you know it. youre the one who left with cheery world and the tone of i jsut need a little break. no one knows that somthing is wrong.

they should have put it together now. id be worried.

bro its been like six days. you said youd be a couplue days. id understd if its been months and months but six days.

so i should just wait longer?

no you shoud go back.

what was the point of any of this then.

it was to help* YOU * get better

yeahhhh cuz that worked out reallllllllll welll

it wasnt a good decision.

you shoud have deleted instagram too then maybe you could have reallly worried them.

we shoundnt be trying to worry them thats toxic behavior.

whos plan was this again.

it was deffinaly yours.

hey you apperoved it.

and i regeert that.

well it not like they reched out anyways so seems like i win.

its not a game??

well what is it then.

it dosnt matter waht is is they are people. they are your friends. they havent done anyting wrong. your the one in the wrong and making bad decicions that cause you pain.

well good bc i deserve to hurt.

no you dont.

well i want to.

well that dosntn mena you can hurt them in the process.

why. why cant i hurt them. they did this. theyre the ones that dont care. you gave me to them and they hurt me. why cant i hurt them back. why cant it tell them all to fuck off.

they did not do this YOU did this dumbass. you love them and so do i you love them with every beat. you cant hurt them because you care about them. not even you dont hurt people bc that is a vile evil thing to do and you know that. they are kind and loving and caring. and they care about you

why dosnt it feel like it then.

well its not like youve been particulary open woth your needs.

i was with jax? why dont they care anymore.

you know they do. you jsut cant be the center of therir atenttion right now. you have to accept that.

i dont want to accept that they made me feel cared for i miss them.

i know we both do but it cant be like that right now maybe it will go back to how it was in a littel while. ittle be fine.

doubt it but whatever. you know the cycle, your the one that reconsided it anyway. its the same thing janelle did and i over whemeed them with what i was. i did the same thing to them and you know it. im doing the same thing to alex rigth now. you know it wont be any different pretty soon. theywill get tierd of you too just wait.

i dont want to belive that it will be the same janelle was their own thing they had their own shit going on.

so what they TOLD YOU THAT how can you deny it. we were too much for them jsut like your were too much for jax and how you will be too much for alex. its a pattern. a loop. a cycle your stuck in destaned to repeat.

hey things will be different. peopel are comlpiciated and relationsips are messy you know that. you know all of this and insit on fighing me on it.

yeah i do.

you and i care. that is what makes us who we are. that is all we have.

i dont care anymore.

yes you do. you do. that is not negotiable so shut the fuck up and act like you do.

i care.

i care more than life.

i think im calmer now.

[timeladyjamie]

1.This chapter made me wish that Lily had a baby girl instead of Harry… if she had a girl (from this chapter i understand that she knew the baby's gender before it was born) she would have still felt trapped but she would have likely associated the baby more with herself rather than with James and their union if it was a girl… kind of like what happened with J.K Rowling and Jessica her oldest daughter from her first and abusive marriage… and the fact that Harry looks so much like James and is also so much like him in personality only makes things worst… you might say that but "Harry got his kindness from Lily" but i think it is wrong: the idea that Lily is full of compassion, or even particularly kind, comes from the films and from fanfiction, not from the books. In the books she is described as being vivacious, charming, very bright, funny, brave, cheeky and good at Potions and Charms, she was never said to be kind in the books not once rather we are shown that she is also quite harsh and over-critical and inclined to blame others for her own faults (e.g. she and Sev both snooped around Petunia’s room, but when Lily is silly enough to let Petunia know, and she’s angry about it, suddenly Lily makes out it’s all Sev’s fault and treats him horribly) so Harry is way more similar to James than to Lily and kindness is not one of Harry's defining traits not in the books or in movies… The only characters who you can described as fundamentally kind are Luna and Neville that is why i wish Neville was Lily's son instead of Harry or that she just had a girl instead… even before i knew about Snily's backstory i never liked Harry's character and that is why i never fully read the books since you can't read a whole franchise if you dislike the main character and reading this chapter just made me think that Harry is just a burrden and a painful reminder in Lily's life it is not his fault of course (he didn't ask to be born) but he is still a burrden and somthing that will always stands between her and Severus and represent James…. i think with someone like Neville as Lily's son or if she had a girl everything would have been easier for Snape and for Lily since Neville Potter or a "girl who lived" is so much more lovable and much less related to James…

2.one thing i personally disagree with is James regretting Harry and blaming him for everything. yes, James was immature (doing secret escapades with the Cloak of Invisibility) and frustrated to be locked up but i always saw James as loving Harry deeply and wanting him to be like him and being the permissive and spoiling parent to me he was like Lucius Malfoy a good, spoiling and proud father but a shitty person overall lol.

3.it is said it this chapter that Lily tried to get a job but this goes against what J.K has said that they immediately joined the order after graduating and were supported financially by James. so i always saw Lily as someone who was a bit spoiled since she was her parents favorite so she blindly trusted James and was happy to be supported by him financially that is another mistake i headcanon that she made since she was so blindly in love with the person that she thought he was that she became too depandent on him financially and emotionally letting him isolate her…

4.another thing we apparently have different opinions of is Harry's conception, you wrote it as something that was planned due to Lily's inlaws pressure but i always saw it as an unplanned pregnancy resulting from a drunken hallowen party since it doesn't make sense to me that James and Lily would want to have a child while they were so young, in a middle of a big war and while they are prominent fighters in the frontlines so we agree to diagree (: unlike Harry, i think Neville was planned since Frank and Alice were older and being aurors was their profession they weren't fighters just because of the war.

5.do you have a Snily fic like this just without Harry or with a girl who live instead that i could read?

6.the way you described James as seeing Lily as an award to be won is so spot on since he was a spoilt child who always got what he wanted and never received no for an answer so he doesn't know how to lose and views everything as a game… The way their relationship is described in the book has so many red flags… if James had lived and Lily wanted a divorce i am sure he would have threatened to take Harry away from her if she will leave him just like he had threatened her to date him if she wanted him to stop hexing snape he is not above playing dirty and hit below the belt as long as he gets what he wants so the fact that he died saved Lily for an ugly custody battle….

7.what does the Lily flower and the phoenix have in common? Does lily symbolize rebirth?

8.another thing is i always saw Lily's flaws and darkness manifesting in her treatment of Snape and Petunia and not in her motherhood but her bad reaction to the unborn Harry in this made sense since she was feeling trapped and knew that she was pregnant with a boy so it was like having James all around her. again, i think her initial reaction would have been a lot different and much better if the baby was a girl just like it happened to J.K

9.In terms of the chronology/timeline of the story, back in Chapter 4: Snapdragon in the August 16th, 1994 paragraph there is a flashback scene where Lily is already heavily pregnant at the end of her pregnancy and she is confronting James at Harry's nursery on his lies and deceit but in this latest chapter (chapter 12) it appears that Lily only learned about James's lies just as she found out about the pregnancy so i am confused as to where and when this flashback scene from chapter 4 is placed in the grand scheme of things? Can you write me the rest of the timeline strarting from their wedding on 7 July 1978 and on?

10.why did Lily disappeared from the memories at some point and left Severus to watch them alone?

11.why did James and Sirius didn't trust Remus while Lily did?

12.where did James and Lily live after their wedding? At Godric's Hollow? Or did they only move there once they went into hiding?

13.did they found out about the prophecy and went into hiding in February, 1980? I always thought that they choose the secret keeper a week before Halloween… again, i need you to write me the timeline from their wedding on 7 July 1978 to Halloween.

Sorry for so many questions as i said before this chapter gave me a lot to think about… also,i hope you are not angry that i previously pointed out some mistakes/inconsistencies in the timeline since some authors hate it when it is being pointed out to them but i just wanted everything to be perfect since i wanted to be able to understand the story better😁 P.S wishing you a happy and healthy 2024🥳

NOTE FOR MYSELF: Just for reference when looking back at this post, it's in regard to Chapter 12 of The Language of Flowers.

I've read the books and while there are things pointing out Lily's flaws, she does have her kind moments in the books too. It's not just a thing from the films or fandom. I mean, it was her kindness that made Severus fall for her (at least it's implied throughout the text.) And with regards to Lily having a boy or a girl (or someone like Neville), It might have made a slight difference, but it still isn't the point of it. It's about the fact that everyone keeps noting how Harry looks and acts like James, but yet, Lily just wants Harry to be his own person and not continue to keep being compared to his dad (especially because of seeing how much a jerk James is.) It's also about Lily learning this herself. It isn't Harry's fault that his father is James, but with self-awareness to it, he can do the work to make sure he doesn't follow down his footsteps (something he actually does talk about in the book of the Order of the Phoenix when he finds out how much of a bully James was.) We haven't gotten there yet in the fanfic, but we are close!

I didn't take it as James regretting having Harry or blaming him for everything. I know I said this story would be pretty big on James-Bashing, and it is, but to me him saying “It’s because of our son that we’re in this predicament" and "I didn't want this", it was just one of those stupid moments (even for James) where you're frustrated or going through a mix of emotions and you say stupid things or the wrong things without thinking it through. And once it's said, you kind of can't take it back. It was like that. James is a flawed being. He was immature and a jerk, but the only thing I will give him credit for in this story is that he did care for Harry, which is why at the very end, he still tried to protect him and Lily.

The story acknowledges the fact that they were financially supported by James' fortune and joined the Order after graduation. However, I think Lily still would have liked to get a job herself (because everyone has goals and dreams of what they want to be after all), but because of everything going on with the first war and the dangers it presented, especially for her, she decided it was best to live off James' fortune and just join the Order. Can't argue with those facts, but you also can't change the fact she would have wanted her own career too.

To me, it was pressure from the in-laws, pressure from marriage expectations, pressure from the war and also an unplanned pregnancy. Obviously they were only 18 when they got married directly after graduating (pressure from the war, check.) Then the fact James parents were considered "elderly", even for wizarding standards and had a noted history with problems concieving, hence James was the result of a late-in-life pregnancy and entirely dotted on (pressure from the in-laws, check.) Then like with most marriages, at least from a typical society view since the dawn of time, you are expected to carry on the family legacy and have children (pressure from marriage expectations, check.) After that, depending on if you want a child or not at that current time or at all, it could feel like an unplanned pregnancy, especially if you're in a toxic relationship and have no other choice but to do it or feel pressured to do so. (unplanned pregnancy because of pressure's from marriage expectations, in-laws, and war, check.) That's how I saw it.

I have other Snily fics without Harry, which are also AU's: A Lily Among the Snakes and Obscurial Flower (Rewritten). However, my main focus has been working on The Language of Flowers right now, so those two stories only have 2 chapters up.

I've always seen James and Lily's relationship this way too, so of course I had to explore the potential of it, especially with Lily being alive. I just feel like the canon text gave us so many nods to the Red Flags of James Potter and the kind of spouse he would be towards Lily; between being a bully to those he felt deserved it, arrogant and so sure he was never wrong. He was also willing to hex Lily when she tried to stand up for her friend, and he was seen writing her initials on a Golden Snitch (the implication being a trophy and prize of sorts since that is what a Seeker goes after in Quidditch to win the game, which just symbolizes perfectly how the relationship was viewed by James.) It was literally SCREAMING to me from that scene in the book: GET YOUR RED FLAGS, especially with the fact he was still bullying Snape behind her back in Seventh Year while acting like he had changed his ways! This reminds me, I need to finish that meta I was writing up on this topic.

Lilies Symbolize: Unconditional Love, Devotion, Purity, Innocence, Fertility, Femininity, Grief/Mourning, & New Life/Rebirth. The Phoenix Symbolize: Immortatlity, resurrection, new beginnings, healing, hope and self-regeneration. (( I just took the fact they both meant overcoming death, bringing hope and healing and put it together. It was also a call to her being part of the Order of the Phoenix ;D.

Everyone has light and dark in them. That's the thing. And while Lily does have her...dark moments elsewhere, it was during motherhood and being in a toxic, loveless marriage when she started to awaken to it and that was what led her to wanting to make the change and try to be better. That was the implication of it anyway.

The one taking place in Chapter 4 is hinted to be a trick of the mind because nightmares can do that, especially when they try to use our fears against us. The true and real thing that happened was in Chapter 12. I'll get around to writing out the Timeline for Lily's Past when I can. I'll probably post it here to make it easier. I'll inform when it happens.

It was implied and even pointed out by Severus that the reason she suddenly disappeared like that was because at that point in the memories she had started to lose herself in the darkness in her life after finding out the truth about her relationship with James. She also didn't want to witness everything with Voldy again. But as for if she heard everything while not being there...hmm...possibly ;) It is still her mind.

It is said that Sirius was wary of Remus at the time (and much of everyone, thinking some people were secret spies for Voldy.) He obviously wasn't wrong since that's exactly what Peter was, but it's sad it was directed towards Remus. I figured Sirius would influence James to feel the same way, but obviously Lily didn't.

They lived at the Potter estate before and after James parents passed, but moved to Godric's Hollow when they were told to go into hiding. This was my version of expliaing it since it was never really mentioned to us.

Again, same as I said above. We aren't really sure exactly when it all happened. All we know is Trelawney's Prophecy was made early in 1980 to Dumbledore, but Snape ended up overhearing it and passing it onto Voldy, which then started everything. Exact dates not known, but what happened here in my story is my creative guess on it.

[silvermuffins]

Pokemon Scarlet Livblog! Part 8!

We sort of have my e key functional again. Sort of. sort of.

ah yes we are just outside Alfornada, time to catch some pokemon! like Peach the Klefki. And Zotini the Sinistea. hmmmm are there Gothita here or will I have to breed one of a Gothorita? ...OH WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT???? ESPATHRA?? oops i killd it. Dos it volv from Flittle???

aaaaaa i got attackd by a lokix in a wall...but hy Faxly is evolving! can swap out for Ralts

a quick google tells me I will have much better luck catching a gothorita and breeding a gothita. name her Chitekki.

I think we're ready for the town now. damn the music here is great.

One girl mentions cute pokemon mosaics on the observatory that look like old video games. we're gonna see some old sprites? YES OH MY GOD. AND PRE-GEN 3, AT THAT! MY CHILDHOOD!

ok gym time! Nemona is here ofc. oh we battle this time?

I am very overleveled! Wham wham wham.

seriously why does Nemona always look like she can barely control her tera orb???

Palermo has evolved into Gardevoir, and if Gooble also...yep, so we can use a stone and knock Gallade out of the dex, too! So next we grab Drowzee and....Haunter we need to trade for. Pichu I can do tho!

Okay, Gym Test time! ...exercise? Emotional Spectrum Practice? is this gonna be some kind of mindfulness manifesting thing.....

!!! DENDRA?! ohhhh so I got it wrong before, Dendra and Miriam aren't a couple. They're a polycule with Tulip, is that it? ....oh Dendra honey you had a type disadvantage.

how the fuck did I miss that that shortens to ESP. oh well, that was neat. i guess. Oh! And a battle! ohhhh there is more. and probably another battle. Jupe is overlveled and knows Bite so he's legit just chewing through every psychic.

yah time to chew through Tulip too....damn she's working two phones at once. a very busy lady. hm....i feel weird? something feels odd.

also a bunch of these gym leaders seem like...being GL is almost more Inconvenient assigned burden than anything? really feeling it between Larry and Tulip, somthing's odd about this league.

a slight miscalculation. No matter, Pebbles has things well in hand.

TULIP SAID MY BEAUTY RIVALS HERS???? oh and she does want to poach me. hm.

! RIKA....who is this sassy lost child. who let a child into the e4, i am deeply concerned.

climbs the mountain....hey I can see my house from here! wow what a stunning viw of the region.... eyyyy Hosenose is evolving, I can get this awful thing out of my party. mmkay I don't have a Slakoth so Bounsweet is up next. OOH THRE IS A DRATINI. fuck I accidentally killed it! oh there's another. fuck i killed that on too.

accidentally drowns

hy another dratini! oh thank god i didn't kill it this time. GOT IT name you a Snoo.

DIVES DOWN A SEVERAL HUNDRED FOOT WATERFALL WHEEEEEEE

where the fuck am i

okay w flew back to school but man i am Sleepy i am putting it down for now

Tomorrow we classes, bonding, and ideally beat up a titan and ortega. that will b in this post se you in a line break or two.

otay! I slept good and have nowhere to be for about seven hours.

School! ...I think there's one E4 we havn't met yet? or I just don't remember. Anyway classes

oh god we have finals

fani crying into a sandwich at 3 am as she tries to study

oh hey we're finally learning about the terastal phenomenon

ohhhh so Professor Sada invented Tera Orbs to bring Terastallization both out of Area Zero and into mainstream use. ...Clavell was on the team??? And didn't Clavell used to work with Jaqc?

i smell fodder for some creative work

FUCK first time I've ever got a class question wrong because competitive confuses the fuck out of me. dammit. I wanted a perfect grade in Pokemon, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve.

OH YEAH I CAN RETAKE A CLASS we'll just pretend that never happened!. All better!

i am renewing my declaration to protect Mr. Saguaro at all costs

let's do some friendship before finals, shall we? awww Miriam. Oh! And I have a Pokedex updat for Jaqc! oh shit next he wants me to complete the dex. Well that was a goal anyway. We're working on it.

that is all of the friendship we hav for now. but now finals.

I apparently got something wrong on th biology finnal??? what??? can i retake? apparently not because I still passed. But thy won't tell me what I got wrong. oooooh that's infuriating.

well i aced everything else

NOW. FRIENDSHIP.

i love how all th teachers are kind of batshit insane. Riafort especially. I'm going after the ruinous pokemon, fuck yeah.

it's totally fine and normal to send a small child to remove the ancient seals on magic beasts of ruin

Grasswither, Firescourge, Groundblight, and Icerend...

oh my god Dendra really IS dating Miriam I am so glad.

you tell 'em, Hassel!

awww pawmi

......wait. wait oh no did he

NOOOO IT'S GALARIAN MEOWTH I HATE IT SO MUCH OH GOD. WHY DOES IT JIGGLE.

oh...so there was no special reason Tyme quit? ...wait. that was a year and a half ago. the same tim Team Star's flashbacks go to. I smell a deeper meaning.

oooh okay so I need sweet herba mistica to bond more with Saguaro.

ANYWAY! to the desert titan! and getting Lizamae the Hippopotas.

uuhhhhh sure is a giant spiky donphan over there. Whatevr, w have Cabrande th Sandile! okay now w ar in the donphan's turf, surely this is fine.

the donphan thing is the titan isn't it. oh boy.

SADA?! Great Tusk....came from the crater.....ohhhh boy so this ISN"T the titan?! Suuupr... Subdu it, huh. How about I catchit?

also onc again how the fuck does Sada always knw where I am and what I'm up to.

oh wait this IS the Titan

this Titan's quest is a bit less dangerous than anticipated.

buuut the titan was tougher than anticipated! woohoo! And Milady is evolving! So is Glimmer! SO I can slap a stone on Glimmer and move on with the dex. after th cutscne

Arven isn't sure Great Tusk is actually a Pokemon, but fls lik h's sen it. You dingus it's in the Scarlet Book. You showd it to me.

anyway time for Feelings. aaaa Mabostiff is healing!

HOLY SHIT I GT GLIDING NOW? oh and Koraidon is "that fellow" not "that brute" now, huh?

mental block....oh no. Oh no. Koraidon's the one who hurt Mabostiff, huh, and is traumatized into not taking battle form, as a result, is that it?

not every herba mistica has to have a huge effect or be effective right away. that's right. surely this isn't a sign that all our drams won't come true...

im gonna mak an ncounter: fire sammich in hops of special tauros...oh i haven't reloaded on ingredients since last gym

whaddaya know it worked right away, wlcom to the family Sombairas. ....if it will stay in the damn ball. FINALLY. Oh and tim to grab a Bonsly from the box.

okay! Ortega is next on my list of shit to do! so, time to fly to Glaceado's Grasp and get lost for a whil. Maybe fall off some cliffs.

excllent, another shot at Frigibax. ...I don't think I hav anything that can ffectivly weaken this thing so just gonna....pray to my ultra balls.

GOT IT you're Bururui.....i see the base. Right down there. Fastest way down is to JUUUUUUUUUuuuuuuummmmp......

I think Pebbles is my best member against fairies?

okay wish me happy landing

??? I took a wrong turn and ended up in Montenevra?

and now Brahti volves into Sudowoodo, I can swap out for something else. Rockruff is up next! I know I've seen midnight Lycanroc around so im gonna assume I need to level this pup up at night.

oh yeah bass need three Pokemon....so what can deal with fairis? Pebbles, of course.... I might need to pull some friends out of the box, though. I need poison and steel. Thankfully Milady has evolved so we can swap her out. For Duchae, so we're still working on the dex! And...hm, maybe grab my Cufant if its level is decent, when Coppel evolves. Which is happening right now! Even though it's daytime! oooh mayb the Lycanrocs aren't version exclusive this time...

okay so w're grabbing Peach to tackle the base with. Not ideal but h.

where the fuck am i??? oops i drowned again....and if you close your yes~ does it almost feel lik nothing changed at all? and if you close your eyes, does it almost feel like I'VE FUCKING BEEN HERE BEFORE'

finally. hi clive. no cassiopeia doesn't seem to have any resentment or animosity toward Team Star.

honestly interesting geography, with this tucked away meadow...

oooh it's as I thought, Ortega is a Rich Kid huh.... Mr. Harrington is his privat tutor. H's so polite....

He's Clavell's predecessor?! Ortega is the mechanic...so he probably souped up the cars. He's the youngest? Oh...

Gommliah the Dedenne joins us.

These Star Barrags aren't gonna get any hardr ever, are they? sigh.

oh man Ortega definitely sounds like a spoiled rich kid.

silly little man. If you're such a Fairy expert, why were you so unprepared for a little pink menac with a great big hammer?

tim for some feelings!

A major incident avoided, but a hitherto unprecedentd scandal, with no records thereof...

Oh....the big boss took responsibility, and disappeared, to protect the others....nooooooo

....eighteen months of study abroad...and those eighteen months are almost up... Studying in Galar. Aaaaaa. And the Deputy deleted all traces of everything...to. Protect himself. Hm.

oh jesus that's kind of extreme....

So the old bullies all bolted and dropped out, and Team Star are the villains of the story? According to Cassiopeia.... What the hell is the truth, here?

Penny is pretty jaded, huh? And she really thiinks the Big Boss was stupid...

FOMANTIS. Purlui. Oh right I can chang out klefki. For Rolycoly! Which near immediatly evolvs into Carkol. Alomomola! Seenach. Ooh, a cave. Not an interesting one.

Gonna try a line break here to see if tumblr stops giving me grief.

Anyway my next goal is...the ice gym. Once again I think Pebbles takes center, steel is going to b a useful type, and Sotero will make great backup. Okay~ W fly to Zapapico! Aftr a quick run to school to do frieendship at Clavell. I'm gonna tell him long locks are cool because I like guys with long hair.

lol

Anyway! Zapapico! Becaus I have been told trying to get to the eighth gym from Montenevra is Annoying. Huh....buncha Pyroar....hav I ever seen a wild Litleo?

OOH this tunnel has a branchd off cave, I wanna see what's over here!

oh shit the lighting here is terrible for making a sandwich

oh snap there's a platforming puzzle. I hav to be at work in an hour.

oh there's MOR cave! where am i going???

found a pokmon center so i should stop and get ready for work.

actually i still have a nnoteworthy amount of time, so more exploring this second Good Cave!

goddamn where am i

oh okay

wait no

AAAAA CLIFF

oh shit it's black back there

okay that's the way i eventually Want To Go so w are back on track

AAAAA THE BLACK PASSAGE LED TO IMMEDIATE CLIFF

help

okay i figurd it out. and now I hav Fomoriel the Litleo. And Nenelii the Snom.

w leave off with me in a battle with an Espathra, our faces about two inches apart because we fell onto the same teeny tiny ledge. My battling Pokmon released somewhere behind me and promptly fell off a cliff.

Surely this will end well.

[twizzlyworm]

A movie (at least) is much needed after season 2 I think I will melt into a puddle and loose consciousness if we get nothing tho I know it might be wishful thinking and futile but i with be praying for a season 3 WITH MY LIFE please good god I would do almost ANYTHING for a full 25 episodes of male wife fail wife kotetsu and even if no 3rd season just a movie I will never give up kotetsu and Barnaby becoming official on screen not till my last breath (somthing is deeply wrong with me)

[saturnsstufff]

please can we get some angsty techno please? like the voices are acting up and you’re just kinda comforting him after an accident idm - also ur series is incredible and one of my favourites already!!!!!! very talented yes thank you

One agnsty techno comin right up!! And thank you hon!! I accidentally went off side ways in the first draft, so I will post that separate mostly because I think it went away from agnsty.

Warnings: none that I can think of

This is seprate from my "The Empress" series as well!

It was a colder night in the tundra, steve was well asleep curled up by the fire. Him and techo having played 'fetch' hours ago to tire him out. You could tell techno wasnt feeling well, not so much physically, but mentally somthing was weighing down on him.

The walls, and floor boards of the usal warm cottage were now ice to your hand due to the low temperatures that have crossed unannounced. Techno had retired to a bath about a hour ago, explaining of his rather pounding headace. Your heart weighed heavy for your lover. You knew he perfered to keep his problems to himself as to not worry you. But you worried about him regardless. You knew enough to not to pressure him into telling you what was wrong, but you also wanted to know how to help him. He was a strong man, but even the strong need to admit when they need assistance.

Your light pitter patter of your bare feet was herd as you went up the stairs. The bathroom door was slightly ajar, showing techno laying in the bath, his long hair draped out of the tub well his head rested back. A cloth was placed on his head, you assumed for his headace. His proflie was one to be envious of, he looked just like the painting of a god.

When you had nudged the door open slightly more his tender voice responced, the voice that he only used on you. "Sorry to keep you waiting princess... i'll be out momentarily..." You walked closer and set a stool by the side of the tub. Gently placing a cup full of tea with honey on it.

"Dont hurry yourself... I know your not feeling ok" you said gently. Carefully you took the cloth off his head. Kneeling down so your head was becide his. "Please my love" you breifly paused your tone ever so gentle and loving. "Tell me whats wrong... I want to help you..." His eyes fallowed you breifly, they were filled with swirling emotions, ranging from love, sadness and admiration. Your lips brushed his cheek. Placing gentle kisses up to his forhead well your hands gently cupped his face. Rubbing his cheek bones well you peppered kisses.

"S'nothing to worry about" he said slowly. His eyes looking up at you. The water was long cooled off now. He only sat in the tub for the light feeling of floating. But now that he could look up at you, he longed to stay just to see you like this.

"You say that ever time, im not a fool" Your eyes gazed down into his. In this moment knew he should tell you. But he was also hesatant, what would you say? What if you decided to leave him?

"Its the voices..." He muttered. Looking up to you, he didnt look menacing. He looked defeated.

"What about them troubles you?" He could have melted under your touch, you were so gentle with him. Yet he knew deep down he was a blood thirsty monster. He let out a shakey sigh, you knew it bother him deeply now.

"They wont quiet down... They want blood, volience, skulls... princess, I dont want to kill. I want to settle down. I like life with you and steve. I want a family. I.." His tone was pained and his eyes shown his sadness "I'm a person.. and their.. their painting me a monster" He took a deep breath. Forcing his tears back. You felt horrible. You knew he wasnt a monster. You saw beyond that, you knew he was a kind soul, but you weren't sure how to convince him. "I.. I want a family.. but what if.. what if I kill it.. what if its scared of me?.." You could only rub his cheek. Looking down into his soft saddened eyes, you shown you were listening intently.

"Technoblade.. your not a monster... If you want a family, I would love to give you one. I know you wouldn't harm them... And they would love you endlessly. Just as I do" His hand came up and ran his finger over your cheek ever so delicately. Amost as if you were glass.

"Princess if I hurt my kin, I wouldn't forgive myself... but Phil has told me of what im like when angered... what if I-" You pressed a finger to his lips gently.

"I know you techno, you wouldn't let anything hurt your family. Your worry on it speaks volumes. Yes, the voices demand blood. I can't tell you thats ok because I don't live with them.. But, I promise I'll stay with you until they ease on you. I wont leave your side" You reassured him with a soft tone.

"...Could you join me?" He asked quietly, you were comfort to him. He just wanted to burrow his head into your neck and listen to your heart. He knew the voices wouldn't stop anytime soon. But with you next to him he knew he could lessen them. You always calmed his blood thirst.

You nodded and stood, taking your sleep attire off. Letting them fall next to his pile. Well you stepped in the tub he watched you. Wrapping his arms around you firmly when you laied on him. The warmth from his body was A warm welcome to you, To him your presence was so comforting. He wordlessly nuzzled into your neck. Keeping you close, almost afraid you would leave instantly. "Thank you princess..." he muttered into your neck.

"Anything for you my love... anything."

[yourbuerokrat2]

I love the scenario of Picard getting drunk and ending up cofessing he loves Q, thinking that would get rid of him somehow if Q got exactly what he wanted(a confession, maybe even a night) but deeply regretting how Q actually does mean it about loving him back

It was a horrible, horrible realization that hit him in the courtroom during the last Trial. When Q leant forward, Picards heart skipped a beat and he found himself thinking about leaning forward as well for a kiss.

The first thought after this was, that Q must have made him think that. But not only does he not actually think, that Q would do somthing like this, but Q also showed no signs of knowing about Picards inner shock and embarrassing feelings.

Perhaps it was just the courtroom and the immense power imbalance, that brought up this strange and entirely unwelcome desire. But no, when he was back in his quarter he woke up from a dream (nightmare. it was as nightmare) in the middle of the night.

Q showing up more and more to annoy him also did not help the situation.

By the way Q grinned at him and continued to ignore his personal space together with the mock-flirting, Picard suspected that Q might have caught on to Picards secret.

When Deanna wanted to talk about him, about things she felt coming from him on the Bridge, he decided that perhaps a few glasses of the wine bottles he still had from the last time his brother sent him wine from France as birthday gifts were not that bad.

A few glasses turned into a bottle and when he was about to fill up his fifth glass, Q arrived.

"Come to torment me again, have you"?, Picard asked him, with a slight slur to his voice.

"Now, mon capitaine, I thnk we both know that nothing that I have done during our last meetings can really count as me 'torment' you."

"Don't play innoncent with me, Q.", Picard said as half heartedly pointed his finger at Q.

"I know that you know, that I... You know exactly what you are doing, with your flirting and being so close to me."

Q looked a bit nervous.

"I have no idea, what you are talking about, Jean-Luc."

Picard, in his drunk stupor, looked at Q. Clearly Q has known what he was doing, this suspicion was now to Picard confirmed by the way Q nervously avoiding eye contact while still trying to play it of in a nonchalant way.

The question was, why? After all, he still remembered how Q called Picards feelings for Vash 'a weakness' and he also got talk about Qs reaction to Amanda Rogers crush on Riker.

So, Qs or at least this Q were opposed to the human concept of 'love'. And how could Q not? After all, if Q as Data said really viewed him as some kind of pet, than this whole ordeal about finding out Picard has feelings for him, must be rather amusing. Though, Picard thinks, pet was perhaps the wrong word. 

Q probably suspected that Picard was interested in him, but finding out just how deep Picards interest and attraction went, could prove to be the way to get rid of Q for good. Well, aside from his duties as humanitys judge.

After all, it must be so strange and perhaps even disgusting for Q to find out that a lowly human is in love with him. 

He just hoped that whatever Q would make of his confession would be brief and that he wouldn't make mention of it to his crew or anyone else.

"I am in love with you."

It was a fact. A rather uncomfortable fact, but still a fact.

Q for one of the few times in his eternal life, was speechless.

"Come again?"

"I am in love with you, Q"

From one second to the next he was completly sober, as if someone drained every last drop of alcohol from his body.

"Say it again."

"I am in love with you, Q."

He did not say it with a smile or a blush. He looked straight at a disbelieving Q.

'You saw my cards. Let me see yours and then let's end this and never speak of this again.'

Picard expected Q to laugh, to belittle him, give him condescending pity or a arrogant or even awkward rejection.

And then to hopefully disappear, never to be seen again. 

What he did not expect was to suddenly find himself standing in the middle of his bedroom and being kissed by Q

And while this was not expected, it was not entirely unwelcome. After all, he has made peace with his own attraction towards him and maybe this was hopefully meant as Qs last goodbye. 

Though as he heard what Q was muttering between the kisses, the reality that this was not at all a rejection or a goodbye, set it.

And as he got pushed unto his own bed, he  said.

“Q stop it.”

A deliriously happy seeming Q stopped. 

“Was I a bit too fast, mon armour?”, Q asked with a grin. 

A part of Picard really wanted to continue, but the more reasonable part reminded him of the possible consequences.

“Listen,Q, I know that perhaps in the heat of the moment you are thinking and saying things you don’t really mean..”

“Oh, but I mean everything. Have meant to tell you, but never knew when and if you need me to do something to prove how much I love you just say it and it will be done.”

Ok, how was he going to get himself out of this situation?

“I do believe, that you could possibly .. love me. But I don’t think that any relationship between us would work out.

“The only thing that matters is that I love you and you love me. And if anything  even tries to get between us, I’ll just get rid of it.”

Merde.

[xmalereader]

Thomas Shelby X Son! Male Reader

Part One | Part Two

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You children asked for a second part so here you go! I hope you enjoy it because I really tried to make it good, I guess??

Summary: Reader has been living in London for two years now, so what happens when he bumps into his father, Thomas Shelby, while he is working for one of the most dangerous men?

Warnings: Angst, slight fluff, AlfiexReader, Thomas still being an ass, gangster reader, Langauge.

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“Just do what I say and get out of my fucking sight, god you all act like children! Who can’t do a fucking thing!”

“Now, now, darling. Take it easy on the boys their still new, don’t want to frighten them in there first day.” Said Alfie who sat behind his desk, reading through some documents and wearing his glasses.

It’s been three years since y/n had moved out of the Shelby family and into London. He remembers the night he was looking for a job only to bump into Alfie Solomon’s. The only thing is that he never knew that Alfie was a gangster as well, he simply acted like a normal man and showed no signs of being dangerous.

Y/n was cautious at first, feel unsafe for awhile but once he got to know Alfie a bit more he trusted him. The two got along very well, a little too well to the point where they would end up in each other’s beds.

The two weren’t exaclty together, they only slept with each other when they were stressed out or angry about a situation that had occurred during work or when a delivery went wrong and they had lost a lot of money for it which would cause them to lose there minds.

He’s been working with Alfie for such a longtime that he’s beginning to pick up a habit. He’s been yelling a lot to his new workers who are slow learners and have a hard time trying to keep up, it only frustrated y/n but Alfie is able to keep him from lashing out.

“Alfie they’ve been here for two weeks now, they should know how we work around here.” He grumbled out in anger as he sits on the chair that was across from the desk. Burying his face in his hands as he groans deeply.

“You’ve been giving yourself trouble, mate.” Alfie removes his glasses and sets them down. “Get some rest y/n, take a day off.”

“I am not resting until I know that our delivery has arrived on schedule.” He muffles out as he removed his hands from his face. Alfie was the man of alcohol and knew his ways to sell them while y/n used his free time to get connections on people for transporting goods.

Y/n was good with words while Alfie was good with business. The two worked together very well and are able to sell enough of there own product without causing any trouble or starting any wars with anyone else they knew.

“Since you won’t be resting then I think you should help me with this next customer or ours.” Said Alfie as he tosses the letters into his drawer, removing his glasses and looking up to stare at y/n who stood apposite of him. “Who?’ He suddenly asks, raising a brow in curiosity as too wondering on who this ‘special’ customer is. “Just someone who can help us with business so you’ll be there to listen and be a witness.”

“What about Ollie? He’s your assiasnte and probably the best one, he can stay here and be a witness.”

“Ollie will be here in case anything starts up but you will be making sure that the deal goes through with no problem.” Said Alfie.

Y/n could only roll his eyes, he hates being here during Alfies business. He always has to listen to the customer complain about their shipping and about what they sell and sometimes he just wants to smash their little heads against the desk for being so annoying. “Fine, ill help but if this customer gets annoying then I won’t hesitate to smash there head against this desk.” He warns him, walking over to grab his booklet that contained every information about the customers and about their deals and contracts.

“Great! Ollie, bring him in!” Alfie waves his hand towards Ollie who simply nods and heads out the double doors to get him. Y/n looks over his shoulder and rolls his eyes, grabbing some pens and more paper as he prepares himself. Once he has everything he doubles checks to make sure that he has enough paper to write down any notes that need to be written down.

“Mr. Shelby! Good to see you again.”

Y/n’s whole body froze in place once he hears that name. No, it can’t be, please not him out of all the people! “Sit, my partner here will be sitting with us and making sure that everything we talk about is written down.” He hears Alfie say, hearing the sound of chairs being pulled out and Mr. Shelby taking a seat. Y/n lets out a deep breath, gripping the booklet close as he straightened himself out.

He slowly turns around and gives Thomas a glance, his father was sitting in the same room as him.

“Thomas this is—“

“Y/n.” Thomas breaths out, eyeing his own son as he tries to read him but of course y/n wasn’t the same y/n that Thomas once knew. He was different, he changed throughout the years. “Mr. Shelby.” Y/n’s says back with a small frown on his face as he walks around the desk and pulls out a chair for hismelf, sitting next to Alfie as he opens the book and ignores his fathers stare. “Alright then, as we can see both Mr. Shelby and Mr. Solomons are here to today to form a contract between both business. Mr Solomons here owns a factory where he brews his own alcohol which would result a large percentage of the company while Mr. Shelby does horse raising and weapons as business. In order to work together Mr. Shelby would have to give us fifty percent of the company—“

“Twenty-five.”

Y/n looks up from his writing and raised a brow. “I’m sorry?”

“Twnety-five.” Thomas repeats himself as the two make eye contact.

Y/n gives him a small glare and sighs through his nose. “Mr. Shelby, if you want our help then you’ll have to negotiate.”

The room is silent as the two stare each other down. Alfie is able to break the silence by clearing his throat, “Listen mate, we said fucking fifty and if you don’t agree then I’ll put a bullet through your fucking head.” Y/n’s lips form a small smirk as he listens to Alfie, leaning back in his seat as he crosses his arms and raises a brow, “So, what’s it going to be Mr. Shelby? The fifty percent or the bullet?” Said y/n with an amused tone in his voice.

Thomas glanced over to Y/n before turning back to look at Alfie. “I’ll give you the fifty percent—“ Y/n smiles in victory as he sits up and grabs his pen again. “But your coppers will work for me.” He stops himself from writing anything down and scoffs. “Really?! You think you can take our own little army? Please, the coppers stay because the only thing you’ll be getting is alcohol shipped around the country with our name on it while half of the pay goes to you!” He exclaims, slamming his hands on the desk.

“Y/n, calm down.” He hears Alfie tell him which only angered him even more. “Alfie I warned you, the next time someone walked through those damn doors who I find very annoying would receive a slam on the face!” He slams his book shut and leaves the room, slamming the doors behind him as he walks to the back of the bakery where he could blow off some steam.

He glared at everyone that got in his way, shouting at them to get back to work as he makes his way to the back where fewer people were working and possibly filled with people that he actually liked. “Tough day Mr. Fox?” Y/n turns to his left to see one of the younger employees giving him a small smile and holding up a cup full of whiskey for him.

Y/n’s body relaxes and takes the drink from the young boy, “Like always.” He mumbles out and takes sip of the drink. “I heard the shouting, probably the loudest one anyone has heard from you.” He teases out, causing y/n to laugh a little as he shakes his head. Y/n has always had a soft spot for the kid, he was the only young one here and was desperate for work. He had a sick mother and two sisters to take care of, at first Alfie wasn’t very kind until y/n had to step in to convince Alfie to hire the boy and that he would be an excellent worker here. So, Alfie ends up agreeing once Y/n convinces him, since that day he’s been keeping a close eye on the kid.

The damn kid worked harder than anyone else in this factory, staying up hours as he brewed and making sure that everything come out well before showing Alfie his progress.,The kid was able to impress Alfie in less than a couple of days.

“You should give yourself a break, you’ve been working none stop.” He tells him as he watches the kid mop out the mess that he had made, shaking his head he hears him chuckle. “If I give myself a break then I’m losing hours,” he says. “My mothers blood cells aren’t going to take a break from rapidly growing and my sisters won’t stop eating.” He grips the mop in his hand and looks down shyly. “I need to keep working.”

Y/n gives him a small weak smile. “I understand.” He holds the empty cup in his hand and sets it down on one of the tables. “It wouldn’t hurt to give yourself a break, kid. You’ll need one eventually.” He reminds him, patting his shoulder as the kid nods in understandment.

“Y/n.”

He flinched from the sudden voice, removing his hand from the kids shoulder he straightens up to see Thomas standing by the entrance of the back part of the factory. “Uh—“

“Go see if you can find somthing to do in the front.” He suddenly says as he watches the kid nod, leaving the area in a hurry as he passes by Thomas.

Y/n crosses his arms over his chest and sighs. “What do you want?”

Thomas turns to look at his son, he can’t help but take him in. The last time he saw him was the night he was leaving to London, he still remembers that night clearly and he’ll never forget it. Thomas has actually tried to send out hsi own men to keep a close eye on y/n but once he stepped foot into London he disappeared forever. He never of him ever again and he’s tired to find ways to see him again but nothing would show up in the records.

“You’ve grown.”

“Your still old.” Y/n shot back.

Thomas chuckles to himself which surpises y/n since he’s never heard his own father laugh before. “What are you doing here?”

“I can ask you the same thing, why are you working for Solomons?”

Y/n shakes his head. “You heard what Alfie said, we’re partners we work together.”

“For how long?”

“Why does it matter?”

“Y/n.” Thomas’s voice goes stern, he wanted answers and he was going to get them wether y/n liked it or not. He watches y/n’s face shift as he glares at him. “Three years.” He whispers out.

Thomas looks away, has it really been three years? He’s been working with Solomons for three years and he never noticed, this whole time he was working for Alfie and he never knew. Maybe he was a horrible father, he never noticed y/n as a kid that he didn’t notice him working here. It wasn’t the first time that he’s stopped by too speaks to alife, maybe he was too caught up in the business talk that he never thought about Alfies people and how y/n was working amongst them.

“How much longer will you be staying in London?”

Y/n’s brows rose in surpise as he laughs. “DO you really think ill be coming back? You’re kidding right?” He continues to laugh, shaking his head in disbelief. “Thomas, I’m never returning to Birmingham and I will never step foot into the fucking town again.” He growls out this time in anger. Did his father really expect him to return, after everything he’s been through? He’s really trying to bring him back.

“Finn misses you.”

“You think that’ll convince me to come back?”

Thomas slowly shakes his head. “No.” He sighs deeply and reaches inside his coat pocket, taking out a cigar and placing it between his lips, lighting it up as he takes in a large inhale of the smoke. Y/n can only stare in disgust, he wasn’t one for smoking and besides it reminded him too much of his father. “The others don’t need me Thomas, I’ve been through enough hell just being under the same roof as you. So, go back to your family and tell them that Y/n Shelby died and will never be coming back.” With that he heads towards the exit, heading back to the main room.

“I’m getting married.”

Y/n froze, his back facing Thomas.

“I want you to be there, I want you to meet Grace and your brother.”

Y/n glanced over his shoulder to give Thomas a deadly look. “I have no brother and I hope your wedding goes well but my answer is no, I won’t be attending it beaucse your son is dead. I hope you can fix your mistakes and give this boy of yours a childhood that he deserves...” he sighs and turns back to look ahead. “Think about what your doing Thomas, are you really ready to become a father or are you only doing this to show your people how ‘good’ of a man you really are?” He doesn’t give Thomas a second glance as he continues forward, heading towards Alfies office to grab his things and to continue on with his own life, pretending that the Shelby family never existed to him and that he’s just a simple man who works for another powerful man that actually understands him.

[et-lesailes]

Ransom bringing a girl home for thanksgiving or somthing and being worried his dysfunctional family will scare her off??

-> -> -> Ransom Thrombey was not particularly known for ever having a serious girlfriend.

Sure, he had dated, but it was more so a series of quick and fleeting relationships mainly revolved around sex rather than any deeper connection. Which was why he considered you to be his first girlfriend; as far as he was concerned, the others did not count. Not when he thought about how perfect you were in comparison. He had never even known he needed someone like you until the two of you met in Cabo, where you had been on a girls' trip with your best friends and he attending a bachelor's party for an old friend from college. You had clicked right off the bat. You did not fall for his sleazy ways or charming flirtations, but rather simply let him be a person, somebody who wasn't the rich, entitled, and arrogant playboy everyone knew him to be. He had always believed a committed relationship was more or less the equivalent of burning in hell, but now he knew he was completely wrong.

Now he may have loved you to death, but you still had yet to meet his family and have them hopefully come to the same conclusion. They had extended an invitation to you for their Thanksgiving dinner this year, surely to scope you out and to see if it was actually true that the young philanderer actually had a real, legitimate girlfriend. The two of you were currently driving to the grand home belonging to the family's patriarch, but you noticed Ransom looked uneasy.

"I didn't have to come, you know," you spoke up, barely biting on your lip. "If you're uncomfortable with me meeting everyone..." He blinked before immediately shaking his head, glancing to you in disbelief as if the notion in itself was crazy. "No. No, it's not that. Trust me." He sighed as he glanced back towards the road. "My family, they're just-- God, they're so fucking crazy sometimes. It's a lot to deal with and I just don't want you to have to go through it. Well, for us to go through it, really." You raised an eyebrow slightly, replying, "Everyone's family is crazy, babe. I'd be concerned if yours wasn't, if anything. Look, as long as they're at least nice to me and don't hate my guts or anything, I'm not going to be scared off or uncomfortable by anything." You assure him, reaching over to squeeze his free hand resting on his lap. He smiled slightly though sighed heavily again, intertwining his fingers tightly with yours. "They'll love you, I know, but they'll just be even more annoying because of it. Fuck, I should have brought my Scotch with me, they won't possibly have enough for what I'll need tonight."

"You're scaring me here, Ransom," you said with a light laugh, eyebrow lifted. "What the hell do they do that's so bad?" He rolled his eyes, his naturally feisty and saucy attitude showing in both his expression and tone as he answered, "They're just so loud all the time. So dramatic. Even a normal conversation is just everyone yelling at each other. My mom's a total sarcastic bitch half the time, my dad's a goddamn gold digger, my cousin thinks she's the shit for going to some fancy liberal arts school, my aunt looks like a horse--"

"Ransom!" you laughed as you cut him off, slapping his chest gently. "Come on, they're your family. You gotta love 'em at the end of the day, and considering how spoiled you are, I think they treat you just fine." You teased, leaning in to give him a sweet peck on the cheek. He suddenly grabbed your face roughly, simply because he naturally was, pulling you closer for a proper kiss even slamming on the brakes right in the middle of the anyways empty residential street. You gasped but gladly kissed him back, though giggled as you tried pulling away, mumbling, "Baby, you gotta keep driving..."

He kept you close with a firm grip of the back of your neck, nibbling on your lower lip slowly but passionately. "Fuck. I just care about you so goddamn much, and it's so fucking annoying." He muttered playfully, and you hummed happily as you took your own turn to give his lip a seductive bite. "I'm sorry to be such an inconvenience to you," you murmured in jest, and he chuckled deeply, moving his lips up to kiss your forehead while entangling his broad fingers in your locks. "Thank you for being so understanding, doll. I swear if my family does scare you away, I'll fuckin' kill them." You rolled your eyes and gently framed the side of his face, kissing his nose cutely. "Oh, hush. Just keep driving, we'll get through this just fine okay?" He barely made a face but nodded, kissing you again one more time unable to help himself before releasing his foot from the brake, continuing to drive down the neighborhood road.

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me getting triggered over him litteraly almost falling asleep when we were hanging out like,,, idk,, maybe having to beg people to stay awake over these years of my life have been effecting me some type of way. like I kept saying "don't fall asleepp.." which is somthing I find myself repeating in,, traumatizing times in my life,, so I already started feeling wierd and then he's like "I'm not gonna,, sleep.." but he said it like he litteraly was asleep and I was just quiet and started tearing up but he kept awake. I'm happy he did. but I'm realizing there's somthing terribly wrong with me. I honestly think this is deeply rooted to like,,, me having to beg my mom to stay awake and pay attention to me and,,, feed me,,, and like be my mom lol when she passed out on drugs and then,,,, sally,,, and then aiden litteraly,,, shutting me up when I tried waking him up MORE THAN ONCE AFTER HE SAID HE WOULDNT,, one time he even hit me. I'm just so ,,,,,, wierd abt ppl I'm with falling asleep around me!!! like,, it makes me feel like they don't wanna spend time with me to put everything I feel abt it in a nutshell. it's way deeper than that but idk how to explain it.