#spotty help

[dayz-ina-daze]

hey op your post about aita phone bill. i apologise if this is forward, please understand i am reaching out out of concern and not to upset you or be disrespectful at all. 🙏

your descriptions about your parents worry me as it sounds like they are engaging in abusive behaviour. i have chronic migraine and my parent did the same actions as your parent (dependent on them, feeling 'in debt' to parent for all the help they gave me ("i pay for all this, and i'm sick too"), guilted for spending maybe $30 on myself, etc) and it was only as i got older (23, 24) that i realised there was abuse.

but i also acknowledge our illnesses are different and that you are in a situation where you cannot yet be on your own and so have to 'make do'. please continue talking with your therapist because they may help come up with strategies to deal with some of the abuse-like behaviour that seems to be happening. once you have your chair, i strongly suggest you continue saving in case of emergency (in case you have to rush to move out or similar), i really hope things improve for you.

there are 'work from home' jobs online that you can do from a laptop/computer such as data entry or transcripting where you wont need to stand. if you havent already, i also suggest reaching out to others with pots who could provide help, tips, advice, and support and understanding of what you are going through. there are tumblr users with pots who trained their dog to alert them before an episode (so they dont faint/sit down before the episode), maybe there is a pots crowd fund to help you get your chair? is there somewhere we could donate to help you??

remember: do not let them guilt you into thinking you are broken or costing them 'their time, money, effort, life' etc... they are parents, they should be rising above that. it is not your fault illnesses cost money to treat, that disability is not often considered by others in the world - it is NOT your fault you are unwell 💖

I’m aware that I’m being abused… I’ve come to terms with it. It’s hard even accepting that, of course, because I love my parents, and most days they’re wonderful people… But I’ve had to learn that even if they’re good people, they aren’t good parents in the slightest, and I have to differentiate between the two. Perhaps even that isn’t true, but it’s just what I tell myself in the hopes that someday they’ll see all the damage they’ve done and feel remorse and regret.

Also as a byproduct of how I was raised, I physically can’t accept “handouts” — even if I know it’s for my own betterment. I want to work for what I earn, so I can never be accused of being lazy or a leech like my parents so often imply. My parents have a dog that’s already trained to be something of a diabetic alert dog, although unofficially, and he often alerts to me at times as well, though for different reasons related to my POTS (I’m hypoglycemic as well, plus fistfuls of other diagnoses). I’m still saving up, though what I have isn’t much. I have some support in place, and I’ve been trying to integrate myself into more POTS support systems (I lost almost an entire year of my life just to recovering from when it initially hit me, so I admit I’m a bit slow to the uptake), I’m reaching out to doctors and therapists and anyone who can help…

For now I just. Have to wait.

If you’re able to offer me even a penny, I’ve got KoFi and other money apps to that regard, and in return, I’m happy to provide sketches or full on art pieces of whatever you’d like!! Though I understand if some are hesitant to take those routes. My friends are coaxing me to the idea of starting a GoFundMe, but it feels like a “cheap” way out, and that I’m not able to pay back such kindness, so I’m hesitant. Like I said: I want to work for what I get, in any way I can.

And truly, thank you for this… It’s nice to hear I’m not crazy for thinking the way I’m treated is wrong. This didn’t upset me, but it surely made me cry just knowing that some strangers on the internet are so kind. Thank you, sincerely. <3

[inkspottie]

you said you liked tarot cards…does that mean you have tarot cards for each character of Confluence??? if so *grabby hands* gimme gimme

Oh what a question to get before bed.

And yes, yes I do heheh

Sebastian: The Tower - sudden upheaval, unwanted change, chaos

Sadao: The Hanged Man - sacrifice, waiting, contemplation

Gabriel: The Chariot - direction, control, bringing you to the right path, willpower

Anzu: The High Priestess - Intuitive, voice of reason, mystery

Painter : The Sun - Joy, positivity, success

Eve: The Empress - Motherly, nurturing, nature

Brahams/Crystal: The Devil - Oppression, powerless, obsession

Mr. Lopee: The Wheel of Fortune - Change, cycles, inevitable fate

[whatudottu]

Do y'all think object heads have a peculiar vision? Well I certainly do!

If DJSS is actually a supernova then assumption probably brings with it the idea they were a star, and being a star where it sends light in every direction and vision is directly correlated to light, what if that means omnidirectional vision?

[cyanide-latte]

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[sethdomain]

If clingyfaggot real, what does cRanboo think? Is he in on this relationship or just goes ‘these bitches gay, good for them’?

in dsmp s2 cranboo memory is still hazy but they do remember bits and pieces of what they were on the dsmp server, cranboo managed to resurface the fact that they were a father to michael and married to ctubbo.

So when cRanboo back they expected to slowly mend their self back to tubbo arm easily, though like you said theres complication. Ctubbo while they're gone, fall in love with ctommy.

But heres the thing, clingyfaggot when cranboo came back is not an official official relationship. They work more like a FWB, like they're both merely doing it to make themself feel better they have never discussed once wanting to make it so they're an official couple mainly because ctubbo saw their relationship sort of like a replacement and ctommy got that self-worth issue that make him think he doesn't deserve love at all.

cranboo initially was conflicted and confused, but i think they've come to be accepting of clingyfaggot and expressed to the idea of polyamory as long as they all make it work and stop being a stupid gay idiot about it.

[espurr-roba]

kairi as an ephemer descendant. is this anything.

[grapefruits0da]

unfinished gnarpy art + extremely low effort gnarpian art dump(not that much HELP)

i hc that gnarpians have comically large ears like those oriental shorthairs HELP

[spottyissleepwalking]

So I talked about it earlier, but it’s still really giving me huge anxiety… Typically I’m very careful about my devices, and this is the first time I’ve ever damaged a phone enough that it’s difficult to use certain features.

If anyone has a few dollars that they could send my way so I can get my phone fixed without having to alert my parents, that would be so so amazing…

I’ll offer a full commission in exchange for what’s offered, and I’ll throw in some additional fun things free of charge as well.

VENMO PAYPAL KOFI

Searching it up on the support website, it’s. A pretty hefty amount and it is making my anxiety. So awful

Anything helps, and I apologize in advance because I feel as though I need to for this

[apollos-boyfriend]

the funniest thing griffin mcelroy ever did was introduce angus as a seeker to help the boys and then proceed to make the rest of their missions ones where no outside communication could reach them

[companion-showdown]

Which villain would you most like to see as a companion?

TOURNAMENT MASTERPOST

[reinemichele]

I don't want to put too much detail out there bc this company has a history of vindictively going after employees who quit & went somewhere else (even tho non-competes are NOT LEGAL HERE 🗣️🗣️🗣️) like suing & harassing them at work . But I just had a great time helping my mom write her ❌📃

[dayz-ina-daze]

Hey, I saw the am I the asshole post and want you to know you're pretty brave. (I also had parents that did not prepare me well for life)

Now onto advice, if your mom insists on the phone bill thing then possibly you could offer a one time discount first come first served art piece one slot a month that would cover it? That's the only idea I really have.

And for sure get that wheelchair freedom of movement is extremely important. See if you can make online appointments that you can talk to doctors or providers without going out and see if there's some way they can help you get one.

And craigslist is a good place to look for bargains or facebook market place.

Again sorry I don't have more advice, but I wish you well.

I appreciate that… I certainly don’t feel brave, but your words are so kind nonetheless.

I’m going to ask her some of the suggestions I’ve gotten (which were very helpful and I appreciate all of them; my fingers are crossed that at least one will work!), but I might start doing that as a first-come-first serve discount; I’ll give that some further thought ^^ Thank you!

I have several appointments to talk to them, unfortunately the closest one is a few months away. I’m on a list to be bumped up if someone cancels, but at this point, all I can do for now is just… Wait and see. I’m trying to convince my doctors to help me with that process, and write me something for my insurance to cover it, but medical gaslighting is a bitch and unfortunately I encounter it a lot.

Your advice and kindness was more than enough, and I appreciate it so much <3 Thank you, kind stranger, and the same to you!!

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

fucked around, found out

[humanmorph]

what did brnine do to asepsis anyways

... is what I wanted to make the post about (I'll elaborate) but I was looking through a transcript for info & this is so funny to me. Keith

I should make a compilation sometime bc last week Ali said something about integrity that reminded me of a specific lyke moment & made me laugh... I knew I wrote it down somewhere I just can't find it now.

[tacticalgemini]

Y’ALL I’M TERRIFIED THE WORST THUNDERSTORM LIKE EVER HIT MY HOUSE I DONT KNOW IF I’LL BE POSTING 😭😭💔💔

[teejaystumbles]

Thoughts on the 12 dream stones

I cannot find the post where we talked about the dream stones (it was months ago), but it goes around in my head again... the point was that maybe Dream had imbued certain traits of himself into these stones and would reclaim them when the ruby for example was destroyed. I then added that I’d love to explore the idea that he actually put a different emotion/trait of his into each of the 12 stones that are said to exist, to manage it all better, like:

ruby - lust rose quartz - longing/love emerald - purity/innocence fire opal - joy/confidence black pearl - grief (others are unknown)

(If one were to consider the events of “The Dreaming” as canon (but I’ve barely read it and do not quite consider it as such) he also gave some of them away, to sometimes unwitting recipients who do not know they hold a part of the Dreamlord’s being in their possession, in order to set a contingency plan in place should he ever be imprisoned or forcefully parted from the Dreaming again. I decide to ignore all that, since it also ignores the existence of supposedly 7 other stones!!)

I propose for the other stones:

sapphire – clarity, focus amethyst – modesty, calm peridot – envy?? citrine – acceptance, patience alexandrite – hope coral – rage onyx – confusion, nightmares

Basically I propose a story where Dream has not only pushed all these feelings away, he has literally cut them out of himself and put them into these stones and strewn them around the universe. Reclaiming all of these stones to regain his ability to feel these things would be an epic quest for Dream that I'm never going to write, but I still like this idea and wanted to share it and maybe spawn some ideas in others. :)