#stardust and soliloquies

[plutonious]

me learning how to draw stupid doomed old sailor yaoi that I hate. because I hate

[saturnaous]

I miss doomed sailor yaoi. strange tales of oscar zahn come home

[eee-isat-au-blog]

yo guys its me

the tuse

ive come to make an announcement

encore et encore, as it is now, is more than likely cancelled*

now now calm down dont worry this is fine actually

the problem with this au is that it boils down to "ISAT but with x minor changes"

as of yet, these changes have not really, well, changed anything, ive spent 2 of the first 3 chapters just re writing isat act 1, instead of focusing on the distinctions

below the cut is the full planned story, and i shall be making art/writing of the different, important parts (indicated with *). if you want to be surprised for that, thats understandable, just dont click the cut

i do wanna thank all yall who liked this lil thing, and i assure you, this is for the best, no one wants to wait 4 more months for another retread of a chapter, right?

Ahem:

Act 1

Chapter 1: Terminal Velocity (Loop/Deloop Intro) *

You've seen this before.

Chapter 2: Hour Time Together (Dormont Day)

You've. seen this. before.

Chapter 3: Earth’s Beating Heart (Dinner - Rock)

You've. seen. this. before.

Act 2

Chapter 4: Um, What The Stars? (Loops Intro) *

EEE Siffrin (hereafter refered to as just Siffrin) meets Loop and Deloop, who explain the loops, bickering a bit amongst themselves.

Chapter 5: Night’s Fall (Floor 1)

Floor One, the final loop after making all the mistakes.

Chapter 6: In The Middle (Floor 2)

Floor Two, the final loop after making all the mistakes.

Chapter 7: Vaugarde’s Vanguard (Floor 3)

Floor Three, the final loop after making all the mistakes.

Chapter 8: Eventuality Horizon (King Loss)

The party faces and fails against the king in one hit.

Chapter 9: Regicide By Side (King Win)

The party recoups and defeats the king.

Chapter 10: Synchronistic Soliloquies (Loop Deloop Town) *

Loop and Deloop spend some time walking around Dormont as the King is being fought, the townsfolk are accepting of their presence. the two don't know how to feel about that.

Chapter 11: Euphobia (Euphrasie 1)

The play starts again.

ACT 3

Chapter 12: Love Withstands (Friend Quests)

Siffrin goes through the friend quests.

Chapter 13: Even Now (FQ House)

The family goes through the house.

Chapter 14: All For What? What For All? (Euphrasie 2)

The play starts again.

Chapter 15: Deicide By Side (King Quest Pt1)

Siffrin learns of The King's past and attempts to reason with him.

Chapter 16: Shadow Of The Sun (King Quest Pt2) *

...The King concedes. He gives up on his wish and crushes his crown in his fist, he does not deserve the name anymore. Siffrin feels a tug on their stomach. Cut to The Universe.

INTERMISSION

Planned to be a series of asks to The Universe directly (with 17 and 18 being the start and ending), wingmanning It to get out of Its "project" and hang out with The Change God, who It seems to have some feelings for.

Chapter 17: Word of Mouth, Word of God

Introduction to The Universe outside of Its duty, shows Change God inviting It to the regular "God Meetings", with It turning them down. Change God makes a little teasing comment about how much she'd like to see It. It doesn't know how It feels.

Chapter 18: Endless Ending

The Universe has a full on talk with Change God, who had been nicknamed Gigi between chapters in the ask section. It explains that It feels bound to Its duty, to Its wish, as It caused this to happen, this is Its mess to clean up, and Its alone. Gigi says that he'd be happy to help It with Its work, it clearly needs the break. The Universe thinks on this. It mentions how this whole time, every loop has been Siffrins naming Siffrins. Siffrin named himself, Loop named themself, Loop nicknamed Siffrin "Stardust". Meanwhile, It is just. A title. A being to carry a burden. Gigi thinks for a moment, and nicknames them Eve Ruins (anagram of Universe). A gift from her to It. (YURI!!!!)

ACT 4

Chapter 19: Change Of Plans (LoopQuest) *

Loop and Deloop are BEYOND pissed that the King turned nice, but they can't exactly place their finger on why. They (figuratively) grit their teeth as they invite Siffrin to a loop in the tree, to see what makes him tick. To see how they'd react to... the moment.

Chapter 20: After Before (Wish Craft Info)

Siffrin storms off from the two and starts learning about wish craft, planning on telling it to Euphrasie.

Chapter 21: Nigh Infinitum (Euphrasie 3)

The Play. Starts. Again.

ACT 5

Chapter 22: On The Brink Of Teetering (Sif & Loops argue) *

Siffrin confronts the Loop duo and says they don't care about him, they never did, they've done nothing but heckle him. He storms off to go do the friendquests and kingquest, because he wants to spend time with his REAL family. The two bicker about themselves after he leaves, exclaiming that the other is trying to live through him, and that they never should've done this again, they knew they both couldn't handle it. A dark cloaked figure appears to the two of them.

Chapter 23: Now, Even (Sif FQ & KQ) *

Siffrin does the quests, and when they reach Euphrasie with the former king, he lets out a sigh. He explains how much he cares about them all, and how he hopes they can continue traveling together after this is over. Somewhere, a tug snaps.

Chapter 24: LoopDeLoop (Déjà Vu/C'est La Vie Fight) *

The Universe speaks to the two loops, explaining Its distaste for their failure to do the job they volunteered for.

"You chose this. You chose to help the traveler, and yet you both are awful at it. You heard what he said. He doesn’t need you. You don’t need each other. You don’t even need yourself. You toy with him, play with him. And shirk responsibility. I’m starting to think you both chose to help to relive your old lives, with your old family. But that will never happen. You are very different."

The figure finally looks up, revealing It to actually be Mal du Pays.

"Siffrin is loved."

Cracking under the pressure, the two give into their emotions and become a gigantic form of sadness and wishcraft, the dual stars.

Déjà Vu and C'est La Vie.

The party rushes over to the now destroyed Favor Tree to see the hulking beast. They cry and cry, their tears forming sadnesses in the form of the party.

♦Réticence♦

♥Lâcheté♥

♠Aliénation♠

♣Inutilité♣

and finally

★Mal Du Pays★

Chapter 25: You Could Cut The Tension With A Knife (Make Amends) *

The party, former king, and head housemaiden all attempt to speak to the Wish-Made-Sadness, but they are inconsolable. Until siffrin speaks up.

"...I know you're clearly hurting, it must be why you've been so standoffish this whole time. You both are clearly bearing a burden of a secret, one I KNOW you want to let spill.

Tell us who you are."

The two continue to deny, before eventually admiting their true selves, and that they were just there to try and live through Siffrin. As the form shrinks and shrinks onto the stump of the Favor Tree, they let out sobs and apologies. Siffrin walks up to them. and gives them a hug. He forgives them.

ACT 6

Each episode focuses on a new* character not in the party.

Chapter 26: Finally Finality (Post Story) *

Everyone settles down, the moment of fear passes, and they start thinking about what happens next. The Loops are insistant they leave, to not try and manipulate Siffrin again, but he encourages they stay, to get through this together.

Chapter 27: Overbearing (Petronille) *

Petronille is hesitant to the Loops. But on Siffrin's word, they start to warm up to her.

Chapter 28: Landromeda (Roy) *

King finally picks out a new name and identity for himself, Roy. Some are still hesitant.

Chapter 29: Listening and Silenting (Howie) *

The Siffrins have therapy sessions.

Chapter 30: One And (Non) Only (PPC Fight Start) *

A crash in the meadow. Something has fallen from the sky. Everyone gathers around it. A singular orb rises up from the crater, forming a hat and cloak from itself. it raises its head, revealing one eye, where Siffrin's would be. And then another. This is Porter Plusieurs Chapeaux. Or as they are more commonly refered to as, Comicfrin. They demand to see Siffrin and the Loops (who are currently in a session with Howie), shouting nonsense about how "this line of understudies shall go no further", that they are "ending the universe's faults here and now". Siffrin and the Loops approach the meadow and are immidietly charged by Porter, but something blocks their attack. No, someONE.

Eve Ruins looks back at the 3 Siffrins and the others. It explains that this is the remnants of what It once was. While Eve was the first Siffrin, Porter was the second. And in all that time, they were never able to break their own loops, an understudy trapped in a repetitive script. Porter slams their foot on the ground and hands erupt from starlike and starlight cracks in the world. The Siffrins left to rot.

One goes for Bonnie, Roy without hesitation takes the hit. Eve looks back at him with a look of... sorrow, and apology. Then both of them tell Petronille and Howie to evacuate Dormont, including Bonnie. Eve gives another look, and Roy rounds up the rest of the party and helps evacuate.

Now, its just Siffrin left here. 5 of a kind.

Chapter 31: Wearing Many Hats (PPC Fight End) *

With assist by the askers, who are revealed to be the people who escaped the loops and are living on the island, Porter is subdued by Siffrin and the Loops. As they're holding them down, Eve walks up to them. and apologizes. truly, sincerely, apologizes.

"i know what you are feeling. i dont know how you managed to stay stagnant so long, but it doesnt matter. i messed up my duty, and you are suffering for it. and for that i am truly sorry. you need not forgive me. but i just wanted to say it."

Porter writhes in their grip, furious that It would dare disrespect them like that. They scream in fury that the only justice It could do would be to have every Siffrin die, to free them from the wretched cycle It cast upon them.

Eve sighs. It places Its hand on Porter's form. It whispers once, twice, three times, and as Porter shrinks in Its closing hands, It opens them back up, and sets them free, as nothing left but stardust.

Siffrin is concerned, considering The Universe is here and it just killed another version of him, but It assures them that It knows what they wanted. If they wanted death, then they are dead. If they wanted freedom, then they are free. The hands retract from the cracks in reality as Eve begins to disappear. It apologizes to the 3, saying that this system It has forced Itself to make clearly cannot sustain. It will soon attempt to fix everything, with a little help.

Siffrin, Loop, and Deloop are speechless. They return to the others, confused.

Ok so i know the endings a little iffy but its being workshopped, but all in all, thats it, thats the story of Encore Et Encore.

I hope yall enjoyed it, even though the presentation wasn't the best

this account will live on, with art, writing, and asks relating to the new things of the au, and i hope to see you there!

oh also i designed entirely new sadnesses for this au so get ready for those coming soon maybe at some point probably

also, fun fact, the chapters spell out THE UNIVERSE LEADS WE CAN ONLY FOLLOW

[notyournecromancer]

Let your spotify predict your 2024! shuffle your on repeat playlist and the first twelve songs represent your 2024!

Thank you @emjayeingray for the tag!

okay well i've done mine and all i can say is.. its not lookin' good bruv

January: Burn - David Kushner

February: Jackie and Wilson - Hozier

March: The 1 - Taylor Swift

April: Telephone Line - Electric Light Orchestra

May: Fine Line - Harry Styles

June: Would That I - Hozier

July: The Great War - Taylor Swift

August: Evergreen - Richy Mitch & The Coal Miners

September: The View Between Villages - Noah Kahan

October: Nobody - Hozier

November: You're On Your Own Kid - Taylor Swift

December: Lady Stardust - David Bowie

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[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter, Sunday, March 24

Riley: "So if this is the world he created, what's the real world like?" Willow: "I'm scared. Everything's going to change." Giles: "Well, actually it'll remain pretty much the same except Jonathan won't be Jonathan - not our Jonathan, anyway." Xander: "No! No! No! World without sunshine! World without joy!"

~~Superstar~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Getting Ahead of Ourselves by silvain (Giles/Jenny, M)

blossom by The_Eclectic_Bookworm (Giles/Jenny, Explicit)

I'm Doing This for You by genericaces (Angelus/Wesley, Angel & Wesley, Explicit)

Dreadful by Jess_Ann_Perreault (Giles/Jenny, T)

here to stay by CallMeVampy (Giles/Jenny, Explicit)

Third Date's a Charm by RachaelJurassic (Giles/Jenny, T)

Held Breath by Enigmatist (Buffy, Spike, Joyce, not rated)

There Was Only One Way This Was Going To Go by Bobbie23 (Giles/Jenny, G)

Seasons Of Love by AddieH (Buffy/Giles, M)

Prom? What's that? by SnarkyGranger1 (Harry Potter crossover, Willow/Pansy, G)

Somebody I Can Kiss by zombiesam (Buffy/Giles, Explicit)

Telly Time by Enigmatist (Joyce, Spike, Dawn, Buffy, not rated)

Road Trip Revelations by Emerybird (Buffy & Wesley, T)

Untitled [What's the wi-fi passworrrrd] by scooby-group-texts (Spike/Harmony, probably worksafe, posted as an image)

Fates by Erics Valkyrie (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

Soliloquy by Era Dubois (Buffy/Spike, PG-13)

[Chaptered Fiction]

Six Inches Between Us - Chapter 1 by AddieH (Buffy/Giles, Explicit)

Bones and dirt, Ch. 1 by Blackoberst (Angel, Buffy, Drusilla, ensemble, Spike, 13+)

Can We Keep Him? Ch. 1-5 (COMPLETE!) by Desicat (Buffy/Spike, NC-17)

[Images, Audio & Video]

Fuck it. I’m putting Spike in the Sims 4 spooky fishbowl. by eyes2entrails, aphony-cree (Spike, Joyce, worksafe)

A Jonathan "Superstar" vid by breezybeej (includes a brief Buffy/Riley intro ironically)

Tarot card design: The Hanged Man by isevery0nehereverystoned (Spike, worksafe)

Tarot card design: The Empress by isevery0nehereverystoned (Cordelia, worksafe)

Buffy/Angel drawing by angelthemanspanker (Scott Pilgrim fusion, probably worksafe)

Drawing: Dawnie!! They made me love her!! by forrestfaedom (worksafe)

Drawings: 3 versions of the "Is any one of you a doctor" meme by genericaces (Scoobies, Angel Investigations, probably worksafe, drug mention)

Ripper and Spike in London, 1974 by yarboyandy (worksafe)

Spike sketches by sanzosin (worksafe)

Some scene study by sanzosin (Buffy/Spike, worksafe)

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Anne; Dead Man's Party; Faith, Hope, and Trick by edgarallanhoetry

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I have a hard time viewing Angel as a character at all by lierdumoa

How bad is the remastered version for a new viewer? by throwawaymylife9090

S5 would be way more interesting for me if Buffy felt conflicted after finding out the truth about Dawn by sadhungryandvirgin

Who Are You? by Buffy the Vampire Straya

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Harder to Swallow Than Most by SilverKitsune1 (a Connor-centric crossover with Supernatural) recced by vineofroses

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[Fandom Discussions]

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there is just something so incredibly butch about Spike by katzenschlafs

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angel and spike’s relationship and their eligibility for the shanshu prophecy by vargamornight

Theory about S4, Ep 1: Deep Down by hthbellhop76

Happy Birthday, Alyson Hannigan, who turns 50 today. by Asherware

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Is Superstar meant to be a commentary on Mary Sue/Gary Stu characters in fanfiction? by No-Role-429

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[ctrl-alt-roman]

Our Stardust - 3/3

[ He had figured it out when the sky kept shifting. ]

[ As he kept on rambling, the wish started to disappear. His mother was gone again. ]

[ She had kept him hostage, turned violent...it was completely unlike her. ]

[ Lear kept walking. ]

"Every good experience I've had outweighs this shit. I lost mum young, but she wasn't like that."

[ His soliloquy goes unheard. ]

"Alola's ranches, family donations to keep things going, royal perks and all. I miss that."

[ He adjusts his visor. ]

"Picking fresh produce, grabbing honey and one of the Combee stuck to my hair."

[ He looks up, seeing the sky shift more. ]

"I don't need wishes when I have dreams. That's what you want, isn't it? You want our dreams?"

[ The sky seems to respond, shifting even more. ]

"Thought so. Enough of this, I have bigger priorities."

[ He needed to get back to Pasio. ]

[chasing-stardust-22]

I MISSED YOUR BIRTHDAY??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LOVELIEST OF STARDUSTS, WHO WRITES BEAUTIFUL DNF SOLILOQUIES

REI MY BELOVED 💚

Hoping to have another dnf soliloquy for you soon ^.^

[audio-luddite]

I warmed up the system on Itunes.

Gotta build the steam pressure before serious work. Shakira has a new album out. It is all in Spanish. I studied Spanish in High School so long long ago in a galaxy far far away. I catch the occasional word. She just got a divorce so the music is happy dancing and break up stuff.

Next up I dusted off that Mofi Emmylou Harris disk. I applied a generous amount of groove washer which seems to have helped the residual ticks and pops. I like all types of music (well not gansta RAP) so country is easy. So many categories and slots. Hey people it's just art go easy. I respect this album for the music and for the basic quality of the recording and detailed sounds of instruments. Brian Ahern is a very good producer and engineer.

The apparent issue with that background singer from earlier spins is gone. That is curious, I cannot explain it so I will not try.

Clear vocals. Great instrumentals.

One thing about this album is it was created by a community of people who knew and liked each other. Willie Nelson does a great duet in "One Paper Kid" he was a friend. His Stardust album was released the same year as Quarter Moon and was recorded in the home Emmylou shared with Brian Ahern using Ahern's mobile recording truck.

Next up Loreena Mkinnett "Mask and Mirror". A highly spiritual album. Her music explores myriad influences of ancient European cultures. The instrumentation is eclectic with really rich textures. Just the things I love.

She uses a poem by W.B. Yeats for a lyric and performs a Shakespearean soliloquy. Pulls influences from all over. The Album has an insert with notes about what inspired each track as well as lyrics and performer's details. That alone is reason enough to go to vinyl LPs. Impossible with streaming that is. If you go to her web site you can get a look too. But I like tangible things.

The recording quality is excellent. Enough said.

I shut it down for a rest for both me and the hardware.

[recitedemise]

" Can anyone learn to use magic ? You make it look so effortless. "

With little more than a single word, Karlach can brighten the whole of his world.

Really. And in her voice, he thinks again: really, really. It's as though without effort at all, she's lassoed the entire cosmos to nestle in his hands. Right now, he think he's dusting them brilliantly in the awe in his staring, and surely, the joy she'll find will no doubt thrill her. After all, in terms of unhinged delight, she's the progenitor.

Relax, Gale. After his internal soliloquy-ing, the wizard chuckles. "I assure you, any ease acquired toward spellcasting is all but an intricate illusion." Here, he raises his hand, twinkles his fingers, and peers back to gauge her interest. Delicately, a shimmer like something stardust spills from his Weaving. "Beneath the guise, you will find exhaustive decades of study. I'm fairly certain I've single handedly kept Faerûn's lantern business adequately furnished. You'd balk to know how much of the midnight oil I've burned."

Very much so! Gale, putting his book away, offers their fabulous barbarian his undivided attention. "Karlach, are you perhaps not so subtly asking for a tutor? If so, I'm pleased to inform you that so long as you've patience, anyone can learn to harness the Weave."

[moonys-bf]

officially less than a month until so much for stardust.

[lovenikkiclothes]

Based around the skirt ‘Picnic Party’.

[saturnaous]

god I'm OBSESSED with his little fuckass outfit at the start of Stardust and Soliloquies. Oscar WHY are you such a cutie patootie

[5-h-3]

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[sasorikigai]

@yetremains​ continued from here (x) 

▬▬ι═══════ﺤ 🔥 || Despite the unsavory circumstances, Commander Hanzo Hasashi always had managed to keep his affliction bubbling beneath the surface, despite fearing that sooner or later, he wouldn’t be able to stop his from overflowing. For he always has loved and destroyed in eruptions; in passion and irreversible calamity, as his poignant, soulful gaze remained locked up with the sky, and its vast emptiness, an endless stretch of blue that could change color with the blush of the sun or the moon. For the unfurled tapestry of the dusk and dawn that wound embrace his skin would both incite and calm his soul with multitudes of reasons. 

He dreams of a peaceful death in sleep; slow and hopefully steady, as weightless wings would carry him to a hundred different lives in an exhale of life and a flicker of light at each pause between heartbeats. Most likely, he would die again in vicious, violent death with each gruesome detail unfurling like slowed viewfinder as the film reel in his head unpools. The edges of his world would turn blurry, and the screen would disappear in a bluish halo, before all the reflections of his fears and dreams would stare back at him through the impenetrable glass. He would breathe in, breathe out for the last time as the moon finds its home within the blue glow long after the sun bid its bittersweet goodbye at the horizon. 

His empty, cold hands would sprawl, as would fluttering lips, the ever-so-faint whisper of a wish that had sprouted from the seeds of his chest would become roots, wrapping around his heart as flowers would bloom from there. He would cough up rivulets of crimson spectacle as if they had been petals with every hope.  Bleeding stardust would manifest as scattered flame sparks, burning away the countless disappointments and bruises to his heart in a final attempt. Such vivid currents of his emotions petrify him as if electrified, yet his solemn and poised disposition would rarely shake, lest he still feels a wild beast of his demons thrashing, too eager to get out from its cage roaring. 

Such strange time Yang’s touch brings Hanzo back to the reality then; as he cants, then shifts the direction of his gaze, as the blackened veils lift up ever gradually, with his eyes all blurry as to refocus the world anew. His train of thoughts no longer all vague and darksome. The bittersweetness of hollow quietude soon replaced by the comforting gossamer that would deeply anchor him in the ambrosial, immortal hope of the gods. “The sky will continue to gleam, lest it darkens in hues of deathly hollowness. As long as my life trickles in, drop by drop, murmuring, trembling life’s force by indomitable forces of good, even when I remain timid and subdued, the once-roaring current of my conflagration will burn effervescently, ready to flourish against the glimpse of oppressive darkness,” his soliloquy is more akin to speaking aloud of himself, but this is his unbidden creed which Commander Hanzo will dedicate his life and his fire, until the budding flames extinguish and he would be no more but a scattered ash amidst a funeral pyre. “I would passionately hope so.” 

Against the enticement of oblivion, of lulling slumber, Hanzo remains in silence, with the world’s horizon held at a firm grip, lest feeling inexplicable sadness as his chest thrums and hums, beats and hurts with a deep ache. The words’ gentlest, yet the most cruelest rhythm repeated over and over, their name put to a beat; the names of all the perished, along with Harumi and Satoshi’s names. ▬▬ι═══════ﺤ 🔥 || 

[joeys-piano]

***Headphones Recommended*** Style: a sweet, gentle piano lullaby Notes: a simple wish and a simple joy for the new year                                                ~~~~~~~~~~

To call him a simple man was laughable, but no one could deny that he had spent his New Year’s quietly. With a sparkler in one hand and a bottle of Ramune in the other, nothing less than a smile and nothing more than a frown settled before Dazai parted his mouth. His drink may’ve been icy cold, but it burned the back of his throat. Jostling a cough that sounded more like a laugh, and he figured that his old friend would’ve been laughing, too, had he been here tonight. The laughter would’ve been rich with a low timbre, warm and comforting like the scarf bundled around Dazai’s neck.

But for tonight, only one person was laughing and Dazai’s sounded more like a wheeze than a soliloquy of joy. But even so, despite the cold and how the sparkler had him squinting with his eyes, he had an enjoyable time just being here. Leaning behind a gravestone, illuminated with green and yellow hues as fireworks burst and showered stardust down from the sky.

[naokinoko]

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