#super old art from october again

[tuquidflamingo]

Look! Some of my old Doffy sketches! (most of my old art is stored at my parents' and sister’s house, so I have no idea how these ended up coming with me to the new place 🤣)

I remember doing the first one in high school, so it's probably from 2007-2008 (definitely before Sabaody). Then come three relics obviously inspired by the beach panel from Sabaody (the last one might have been done around the Marineford arc, notice how the gold chain was already a thing for me since ancient times 🤣🤣🤣). The last two were made during Law's flashback, so I'm sure they date back to october or november 2014 (Roci is wearing the Marine coat 🤣)

Sometimes I really miss my old style not so influenced by american superhero comics, I think I was doing a pretty good job with profiles 🥲🥲 (I nearly stopped drawing shortly after that aside from a couple of brief appearances in other fandoms, so I'm super glad to have picked up my favorite hobby again 😊)

[sawnickrings]

2024 art recap

My favorite piece from each month! I can't say I've grown much over the past year, but perhaps a little. Open the post to see my reflection on each piece. 💙

Tw for first two months mentions of $H

January

This was the only thing I could find from January, since my old phone got busted and all the dates on my photos got messed up. But luckily I really like it anyway so I guess it's my favorite of the month by default! During this time I was still battling with s3lf harm and so this character was supposed to represent that. Yes it's edgy, no I wouldn't have picked this one if I had any other image from January. This one was also very experimental, I've used this brush a grand total of 1 time other than this one. I felt it fit the aesthetic.

February

Again, this period was sort of like the dark ages in the fact that most of my images got screwed with after switching phones, so I don't have many drawings that I know were from February. However, this one again is a favorite of mine in general so it's not so bad. This is the only other time I used that brush. I also created this character as a sort of way to cope with my s3lf harm urges, except she's far older than the last one. This image doesn't feature it, but they have lots of scars and often open/bandaged self-inflicted wounds due to how their power works, which is blood manipulation. Again, edgy as all get-out.

March

I'm not super happy with some aspects of this but I worked really hard on it. This is a character of mine that I didn't design but still cherish lots. Her name is Coralina or just Coral for short. You'll see her again soon.

April

Once again I could not find much for April, but luckily I remembered that I did a bunch of chalk stuff at a school event that month and this one is both relevant to my blog and one of my favorites. I did a good ring too but that's in a different image.

May

This was something I designed as a contest entry that I don't believe I won so as far as I know it's my character now. I think the spots on the tail clash with the gradient but oh well.

June

There were a lot of good options for this month since I got back into commissions and art trades, but there's something about this one that I especially like. It's not fancy or anything but it showcases my style well.

July

Artfight season! Surprisingly this wasn't an attack but rather a character I made specifically for Artfight. They're based off of Miracle Musical's album Hawaii: Part II. I'm really proud of the design but I haven't really done anything with him since besides a couple drawings.

August

Here she is again! I used this image a lot to show an example of my work when offering art trades. I think I made it with that in mind? It's hard to remember. But anyway, here she is again! Plus one of my sonas, Pop Rocks!! I love her to bits. I originally made her as an adoptable that I traded to someone else, but I regretted it later and luckily my friend got her back for me! I have so many drawings of that little goofball but this is my favorite.

September

There are absolutely parts of this that suck balls but there are parts that I really like too. And I remember enjoying drawing it. This was for an art trade.

October

During this time I made matching bust drawings of all the 10 main characters from my comic. (calling it a comic is a bit of a stretch, I only have 2 chapters drawn and it's been well over a year (maybe two?) since I've touched those pages) Although I've made next to no progress on actual pages, I draw the characters often and love them with all my heart. I especially like how this one turned out.

November

At the time of drawing this I hadn't practiced drawing ferals in ages, so I was very worried about the result, but it turned out better than I could have imagined! This was another art trade, and I love the character design so much!!

December

And now we're here! I've been doing more scenes recently with my fanart, but I just love how Sonic turned out in this one so I had to include it. It almost doesn't look like my art, though the hands give it away. At first I wasn't impressed with how Shadow was looking but it's grown on me. ❤️🖤

[droppingartintotheinfinite]

Made a compilation of my favorite pieces from each month of 2024. I’ll put the template I made in a reblog if anyone wants to use it. Top right of each image lists character and fandom, bottom right is which day of the month I drew it. (which is different to the date it was posted here, in most cases, since this blog runs on a queue that’s usually around a month long)

Ramblings about each month and the year overall have been placed under a cut.

It’s interesting looking back… I didn’t even realize how recent some of this stuff was until I was going through my photos. Like September and October weren’t that long ago, but it feels like it’s been ages since I drew those pieces…

I’d completely forgotten about my brief foray back into dsmp stuff at the start of the year. Sure is wild how many of the creators turned out to be terrible… Honestly, that’s a big part of why I haven’t gotten back into it in earnest at any point - every time I feel like I’m ready to get back into it, some completely insane controversy comes out about another cc and I end up backing off until it’s been long enough that it doesn’t feel insensitive to being up the “character =/= creator” argument again.

Unsurprisingly, Undertale has a big presence throughout the year, along with Deltarune. No matter how much time goes by, I don’t think I’ll ever stop being into it. First ever fandom, you know? Shaped my personality at a formative age, and all that.

I didn’t really do much colored stuff in January, apparently. Guess I was more focused on playing around with negative space that month, given the dsmp drawings. (and the Chara one, which is just me doing that but with color. I actually did drawings like that for a couple Undertale characters, but the Chara one was my favorite so that’s the one that made it in)

In February I drew a whole bunch of Burgerpants. Only grabbed one, since I did some other neat stuff that month too, but there were a whole bunch to pick from. Something about him just really appeals to me. I did some Homestuck that month too, along with a fair bit throughout the rest of the year. It’s really terrible that Homestuck is so good despite the everything about it. I think it’s going to live rent free in my brain until I die.

In March I did a little bit more dsmp, but I’m pretty sure it was basically only that drawing. What can I say, nuke imagery is simply too fun to play with. I was really happy with those Undynes as well. I was experimenting with color a lot that month and honestly I’m still proud of those pieces. I should try doing more stuff like that…

There must have been something in the water in April, because I was just absolutely churning out some of the best digital paintings of my life… that third one especially, with Frisk in the bed of flowers, is just… damn, I need to do more stuff like that.

May was another month where I didn’t do much colored stuff, but I did do some Trigun art. I think that was probably the month I rewatched the original anime and realized how good it is. The Chara drawing was inspired by - you know those old pieces, I think the artist was called Teoft? They did a series of Undertale pieces with various characters as super ominous looking angels. My style doesn’t really carry across vibe as well (at least not with the brush I was using there) but it was fun to play around with and I never get tired of drawing wings.

June is all OC stuff, because that’s the month before Artfight so I was remastering all my old OC refs. Inevitably, I’ll end up doing that again this year, since I’ve changed a bunch of their outfits since then…

July is Artfight month, which I usually put this blog on hiatus during, but I ended up drawing so much stuff that year I didn’t have to. Like not only was it the most prolific I’ve been as far as Artfight attacks go, but I was also doing enough stuff on top of that to have had genuine trouble picking only four pieces to put here… like, again, clearly something in the water.

In August I was playing around with representations of the player in Undertale and Deltarune. Puppet imagery has historically been my go-to for that, but that was around the time I finally played Slay the Princess, so I had hands on the mind too. The eyes were inspired by Murderbot Diaries fanart, because there’s a character in that series who often gets represented that way and I always thought it looked super cool.

I had a really cool piece I was working on September for the Undertale anniversary, but I never ended up finishing it. So instead there’s a bunch of Deltarune stuff. I mean, close enough, right…?

In October we see the first appearances of both Parkciv and ISAT, though my earliest ISAT stuff is actually from late September. All of the Parkciv drawings I’ve posted were done in one day and I haven’t drawn anything for it since. ISAT, on the other hand, is still dominating this blog. When the hyperfixation hits, amirite?

November is entirely ISAT, somewhat unsurprisingly. What can I say, I just really like Loop. And drawing them in dresses is fun.

December, on the other hand, is entirely Undertale! Not that it was the only thing I drew necessarily - I did some ISAT stuff too - but that was the month I started my Undertale AU askblog, so it was occupying an even larger portion of my head than it usually does. Actually, the majority of the art I did last month was for the askblog - I’ve been focusing on it pretty hard. It’s probably the most consistently invested I’ve been in making an au since like… Reverietale.

Overall, I’m really happy with what I’ve made this year. I don’t think I’ve necessarily made any insane strides as an artist or anything - I got slightly better at anatomy and perspective, but nothing crazy - but in a lot of ways I think that’s a mark of how far I’ve come as an artist - that I’ve reached a level where I don’t really feel like there are any big changes to my style as a whole I need to make to keep improving, and instead I’m taking what I already have and refining it. I think over the course of the last year I’ve reached a point where I actually consider my art to be consistently at a professional level.

I think, at some point soon, I’m going to start actually doing commissions for real. I’ve already got most of the pricing stuff figured out…

Well, happy new year! Despite everything… I think I’m looking forward to the future.

[72stars]

October 4, Ororo Munroe, non-specific personal drawing challenge. a little something different this time! still one brush (Manero’s Ink+Texture again), but I-lost-track number of colors, + the chromatic aberration tool. I’ve long been kinda fascinated by super bright, sometimes eye-searing color palettes in art but generally just end up sticking to my usual more subdued colors (outside of the times I’ve pulled directly from old comic palettes) and anyway since I’m just kinda playin’ around trying out things in this challenge I decided to try it out. not eye-searing enough, I think, but otherwise alright, maybe?

[mcgnagallsarmy]

Top 10 Nick x Charlie fics I’ve read (Oct 2024)

the 8-minute spark that never dies by steelknuckles [G]

Nick leans on Tao when Charlie is away.

a soft place to land by ace_astronaut [T]

“I just didn’t think being on my own would be this hard,” he sobbed. At this, every part of Sarah wanted to reach through the screen, brush the tears from his feverish cheeks, and whisper, you’re not on your own. But she couldn’t. So instead, she simply stayed on the phone with him, two-hundred miles away, and reminded him, over and over again, to breathe. When Nick’s first rodeo with freshers’ flu hits worse than anticipated, Sarah summons him back home to recharge.

all the flags are red by peaceoutofthepieces [G]

Meet me in the art room? Mr Ajayi gave me a funny look when I came in but then he gave me this super knowing smile and said ‘clean up your crumbs and tell Charlie I said hello’, so I think it’s okay lol Charlie smiles, and feels the flutter of butterflies in his stomach, and ignores Tao’s complaints as he recollects his things and heads back into the school. He thinks nothing of it, other than precious alone time with his boyfriend. Then it happens the next day. And the next. And the next. And Charlie thinks this doesn’t mean we’re friends and we don’t really have chats like that and I’m worried that even though it’s his choice, Nick might feel…abandoned, and he starts to worry.

Dear Charlie, for when… by erinthelibrarian [T]

In 'Once Upon a Meddling Christmas' (the final oneshot in my 'Our Favourite Meddling Gays' series) Nick gifted Charlie 40 letters as his Christmas present. The first to be read the day Nick returns to Leeds in January. Then he could choose a letter to read each week. Right up until Charlie hopefully joins him up there in October. These are those letters…

find me (here in your arms) by thirteenick [T]

Nick goes to visit Charlie at uni for the first time. Fluff happens, because they are Nick and Charlie, afterall.

It's you (I'm in love with) by heartsocold [G]

“I–please don’t leave me,” Nick begs and Charlie blinks at him in shock as the words register. “Leave–Nick, no, never! I would never, ever, leave you, sweetheart. Where is this coming from?” “The wedding’s off. Tara and Darcy broke things off and—” Nick cut himself off with another sob and Charlie’s heart aches. Or: the one where all their friends have broken up and Nick's struggling with coping.

must be love by notmyfandoms [M]

“Well, Nelson, best find yourself another drink and perk up because we are about to play a classic game of Truth or Dare and no way in hell am I letting you escape this one!” Nick suddenly felt a cold beer bottle thrust into his hand, and he popped the top and took a swig in preparation of the game about to come. As is the case whenever you stick 18+ year old boys in a room together, the game got raunchy very quickly. or, Nick is hopelessly in love (and horny) for Charlie during a game of 'Truth or Dare.'

Now we’re saying goodbye, waving to the hard times (yeah, it’s gonna be alright) by SilverShadow1 [G]

“I’m not sure how many of you are familiar with the term ‘canon event’, but my two best friends Tara and Darcy were part of one in my life.” OR Nick delivers his wedding toast at Tara and Darcy's wedding

sweet as summer, bright as the sun by shadowquill17 [T]

Later that night, when the kids have gone to bed and there’s not a sound in the house except for the quiet talking of the adults in the kitchen, Nick turns to Charlie and kisses his shoulder. “Come take a dip with me?” he asks. “Now?” “Yeah. We can just be the two of us.” Charlie’s eyes glitter in the low light. “Okay.” Nick brings Charlie on his family holiday to Menorca.

Window by L56895 [T]

After the summer fair, and what comes next, Nick takes a moment to collect his thoughts.

[izakktiberiusjames]

Eh...hi. I'm Izakk.

I guess you need info about me huh?

Uhh

I'm 23 years old.

My birthday is October 31st, 2002.

I got seven siblings.

Oldest brother is Michael.

Second eldest is the first set of twins Gin and Apple.

Third oldest is Blakely but we call him Blake.

Fourth is me n'my twin brother Izaya.

Fifth is Jacob.

Sixth is our only sis Jacqueline or Jackie/Jack.

Uh I use he/him pronouns.

I am a gay man who dates men.

I got a partner. His name is Jason and I'd die for him.

My best friends are Paige and Dare. They're cool.

Other friends is Ashton, Ashley (rip), Brianna, an' Damien

Uhhhhhh

I got a lot of hobbies. Like a LOT of hobbies.

My father was a monster and I'm glad he's dead.

He murdered my mom and I miss her.

Me an' my siblings were raised by our Aunt Alexandria and she's super cool and weird in the best ways.

I really like blue and space.

I got a weird life 👍

Ooc:

Hiii if anyone who recognizes this little guy from a Gotham au I do sees this I attempted a canon version of him again 🥰

I may add to this post eventually.

Dni:

From my main blog

Respect me and I'll respect you 😁

I can't art for nothin so there won't be art of him sadly.

Hope you like my little guy! I do!

[archoneddzs15]

Sega Saturn - SEGA AGES Volume 13 I Love Mickey Mouse: Fushigi no Oshiro Daibouken/I Love Donald Duck: Gurujia Ou no Hihou (Castle of Illusion starring Mickey Mouse/Quack Shot starring Donald Duck)

Title: SEGA AGES Volume 13 I Love Mickey Mouse: Fushigi no Oshiro Daibouken/I Love Donald Duck: Gurujia Ou no Hihou / SEGA AGES アイラブ ミッキーマウス ふしぎのお城 大冒険 ／ アイラブ ドナルドダック グルジア王の秘宝

Developer/Publisher: Sega CS1

Release date: 15 October 1998

Catalogue No.: GS-9179

Genre: Compilation of 2 Action Platformers

Two classics from the Mega Drive come to the Saturn as part of the Saturn Sega Ages collection (this time as the Final Volume).

Castle of Illusion starring Mickey Mouse was actually one of my first ever Mega Drive import games! I remember thinking that the cover art was miles beyond that of US or UK Mega Drive games. It was from this point that I fell in love with Japanese Mega Drive box art! Anyway, enough about that. Let’s talk about the two classics on this disc.

Castle of Illusion starring Mickey Mouse was Sega’s first attempt at bringing the Disney license to the Mega Drive. Back then in 1990, this game looked amazing, far better than anything else available on any system at the time. However, this all changed once the Capcom Super Famicom Mickey Mouse game came around. Still, this title remains a classic and even now the visuals still look pretty decent. The sweet level particularly looks gorgeous. I’m also happy to say that the playability while simple has aged gracefully. Some older games are now a chore to play due to bad collision detection or just down right sluggish controls. Castle of Illusion on the other hand still feels tight and responsive like it did all those years ago. Killing enemies is done by the good old tried and tested method of jumping onto their head or in Mickey’s case, sitting on their head. Or if you collect enough apples you can throw them at the enemies instead.

Levels are pretty decent in size and varied enough to keep you interested until the end. The game is a little easy but what do you expect from a Disney-licensed game? A classic platformer from yesteryear that still holds its head up high.

Quack Shot starring Donald Duck was the 2nd Disney release for the Mega Drive and what better way to follow up a Mickey game than with a Donald Duck one. Again we get another platformer but this time we’ve also got some basic RPG-like elements thrown in. Graphically this is even better than Castle of Illusion thanks to the good use of colour and top-quality artwork. The basic idea of the game is to travel around the world collecting pieces of a map to find the lost treasure. Your quest takes you to such locations as Transylvania, Mexico, the US, and even a pirate ship! Donald has many obstacles that lie in his path that can only be removed by using the correct weapon or item. This is where the RPG element comes in. You see, you must complete one section before moving on to the next only to find that you need a certain item so off you go back to a previously visited area that now has an extra section opened up because you have previously collected something from another area that will allow you to progress on this area you have just visited. Understand? No? that’s ok, neither do I.

[skullivan-the-dawg]

Why I’ve Been Out.

Hello everybody.

I know I’ve been in and out of Tumblr for a while, and I’m going to provide an explanation right here, right now.

I’ve gotten an Instagram, which is nice over there !! I got it like early-mid October, and was testing the waters there. Been posting my art and such, which has gone well, and enjoying my time !!

And the other thing … well … I haven’t been doing ok, if you couldn’t tell. I haven’t been doing ok in the past month or so. At first, it was my usual negative thought patterns. I was like, “It’s going to be okay, it’ll go away if I distract myself.” Distractions are usually my escape and they go away by that point. But this time, it didn’t work. So then, I was like, “Huh … maybe if I do my usual routine + more breaks, it’ll go away ?? MAYBE ??” Did that, and … it worked. Until something happened between me and one of my IRL friends (it’s been resolved, I was in the wrong). “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING. WAKE THE FUCK UP, YOU CUNT. YOU FUCKED UP AGAIN. BE FUCKING HAPPY OF YOURSELF. LOOK AT WHERE IT GOT YOU.” I was more or less anxious during that period (which was normal for me, so I was HEAVILY concerned about making amends. Again, we’re all good now). Then, that situation got resolved. Got constructive criticism from my friends. I’m not good with criticism, but I took it as “Yeah, I can work on these things … but I don’t know how to communicate or how to change.” Even when we got better, I got worse and worse. I made a pros and cons list of myself.

Then … the voice came back. That was “normal”, as I had these voices in and out for the past few months since June or so. IT GOT WORSE. School was always fine, loved having friends around (and still do), but … I always felt worthless. “SHUT THE FUCK UP. PLEASE, ACTUALLY. STOP. THEY DON’T FUCKING CARE.” (I would include more, but I’m not for the sake of time). Bathrooms and mirrors felt like hell (specifically school bathrooms and any mirrors). Body dysphoria came back. Memories that I had repressed came back. Then … I relapsed. There’s no escape. “THIS IS WHAT YOU GET. NO ONE CARES. PLEASE, STOP TALKING. DIE.” And … here we are. I don’t know when it’s going to go away, but I know it will. Everything will be ok … right ? I don’t know anymore. I don’t want to end this life … but the pain is screaming again. I hope that no one that I know IRL will find this. I don’t want them to feel my burden. I don’t deserve any of my friends, but I do GENUINELY love all for them, including you guys. I DO love y’all. I just can’t find reasons to love myself anymore.

*Edit: Fixed up the post ... don't know how the FUCK I somehow typed up Reddit instead of fucking Tumblr ... it's right there. Also, for those who are wondering, yes, I'm doing therapy. I've been doing therapy for almost two years now. The problem is our sessions are super spread apart and I won't see my current therapist until mid Decemberish. My current therapist is alright, kinda miss my old one. She was great.

[randevu-01]

2023 art summary time!

some of my thoughts and comments are below the cut :)

This was... an interesting year. I got out of my DmC shell (after 3 or 4 years) and spent most of the year obsessing over other fandoms, e.g. Call of Duty of all things lol. I also got into Trigun, watched and loved both adaptations, as well as Fullmetal Alchemist and Death Note - quite an accomplishment for someone who generally doesn't like anime. Oh, and closer to the end of the year I discovered a whole new world of music band fandoms after I somehow got invested in Sleep Token and Ghost (it's the masks I'm sure)

Productivity-wise, even though I couldn't even fill in all the spots in the template, I feel like I did pretty good. Some months I didn't manage to finish anything, but October was wild, I did a lot of nice complete pieces then. A significant portion of my time and effort was put into drawing comics for the DMC ask, and I also took some commissions at the start and in the middle of the year, so there was very little time for me to make personal art, which I miss greatly and hope to make more of in 2024.

Speaking of future plans, I definitely want to give more attention to my OCs from Waffen AG and City Ghouls. When it comes to making OC content, I tend to stop at colored sketches at best, but in 2024 I hope I can make actual polished art of my characters. (Though I'm convinced that this will make my social media reach even worse than it is now, I'll try to not gaf, 'cause I learned that making and developing OCs can be super fun, and oh boy do I need that serotonin lol)

Skill-wise, I think I've definitely improved at making comics, lineart and anatomy, which were my 2023 goals a year ago. However, I feel like I could've done even better. But, again, I was pretty busy with irl stuff, so it's okay.

In general, life was pretty exciting in 2023. I visited 4 cities this summer, met my old friends and made some new ones. Despite some heath issues, I had a great time!

Thank you all for sticking around and appreciating my art! I cherish every little comment and reblog ^^

Hopefully, I'll be able to reach even more people on this platform in 2024. Happy New Year!

[rainyraisin]

2023 YEAR IN REVIEW!!!

My artstyle changed a lot this year, especially after my shift from ibis paint to procreate after getting my iPad (drawing on an iPad is the BEST btw 100% recommend I love it way more than a phone and it didn’t die after a month like my old wacom 💀💀). I’m relatively happy with where my art is atm and I hope to continue to improve in 2024!

Explanation of all the silly art down below! (Mostly so I can tell y’all who the fanart is for but also cause I like rambling)

January: A drawing of my Rise Leo human design I did to test out a pixel brush I found for Ibis Paint. He’s very fun to draw hehe I need to draw him more-

February: I wanted to learn how to draw the future designs of Leo and Mikey along with CJ so I planned to draw them all together! I struggled with Leo though so I just got rid of him. Sorry Peepaw 😞😞💔💔💔

March: Fanart for @beannary ‘s TLP au! I love it so much so I had to draw smth for it hehe 😈😈💥💥💥 which reminds me I need to draw more at some point- might redraw it at some point cause I’m not super happy with how it turned out but I do like the idea a lot

April: The month I created Reticent! April’s Fools was the first episode I came up with so I drew a chapter poster! It ended up being very different to the chapter cover I drew a couple months later but it’s still cool :D Leo is being weirdly affectionate to Mikey though what the heck that isn’t like him smh. Although I guess it was meant to be purposefully exaggerated sooooo 🥰

May: Reticent Casey!!! I don’t have much to say it’s just Reticent Casey HDKSGXKSHD this wasnt a very good art month

June: Krangified Donnie is literally my favourite concept ever thats it that’s all I have to say dbskdbwkh I adore Krangified Donnie and if the Rise brainrot takes over the Reticent brainrot for a while then I will probably be drawing Krangified Donnie during that time sorry not sorry

July: Reticent Chapter 3’s cover yippee!!! Still my favourite Reticent cover although Chapter 8’s is a close second (I can’t wait to post it once it’s been betaread yippee!!!). The scribble over Leo’s eyes is literally just because I was struggling to draw his eyes and i was getting annoyed dbskdbskdb it’s actually a very common issue with him (common Ret!Leo L). Also Mikey being reflected in the mirror is a reference to Mirror Man by Jack Stauber which I’ve basically considered his theme song since @aaronymous999 introduced it to me ebwjcbkwhd thank you Mr. Aaronymous! Also somebody said he was in the barbie box and I still need to draw that to this day because Mikey would’ve killed to go see Barbie.

August: RET DONNIE WOOOOO he’s being bullied again!!! I drew that piece for a colour palette challenge request and realised I got the prompt wrong so I just made it into its own thing 💥💥💥 it’s usually a flickering light gif but I chose to just use the version with the light on for this post. The photos in the background were really fun to draw hehe either April’s or Mikey’s is my favourite.

September: MY 500 FOLLOWER DTIYS YIPPEE (/my 150 follower DTIYS for tumblr). This one took me. Forever to draw and I love it to pieces hehe it was really fun to design Mikey’s room and figure out outfits for the sillies and idk the concept of a sleepover just seemed really fun to me dbskbdkdb- and all the entries I got were so so awesome I loved them all to pieces!!! I still look at them all the time hehe

October: FANART OF @endlesslogo ‘S HUMAN RISE LEO DESIGN WOOOOOO!!! This was the piece I started rendering on hehe it was so much fun to draw!!!! Although I did have a fight with rendering the hair for over an hour svsjegksbdk HOW DO PEOPLE DO IT FR!!!

November: Me and my friends were working on a crossover between our TMNT iterations so I drew all of our Karai’s together!!! Confluence Karai is on the left, created by Salem and Marine, New Stars Karai is in the middle created by Starla, and Reticent Karai is on the right created by me! All our Karais have such cool designs AHHHHH literally dead over them constantly/pos

December: Most of December I spent drawing Christmas presents so this was my present for Salem!!! Confluence!Jonatello my beloved….

[thechaotictheoryy]

Unravel | 5. The Boy I Once Loved Pt. 1

summary: What if you had chains around your heart but you were the one who put them there? If you took a look at Parker’s heart, you would see a nice beating heart but Parker felt there were heavy metal chains wrapped it. After years of a disconnected relationship with her parents and a hard break up with her boyfriend of four years, Parker Williams made her heart mentally chained. Declaring to never fall in love again but what happens when she meets a witty musician who is all about seeking love?

pairing: main character x Hongjoong ft. ex! Yeosang

genre: (18+ minors dni), romance, fluff, lots of angst, coming to age, college au, smut, strangers to lovers, self discovery

word count: 3,759

chapter warnings: flashback (I think y'all know what's coming), crying, overthinking and self doubt, cheating (don't do that), heartbreak

song rec for this chapter: Love Is Banned by Gemini

Saturday September 24th, 2020

Does love make people crazy or is the feeling of being loved that makes people go crazy? 

Being in love with Yeosang for me felt like the sun on a cold day in October. It made the coldness in my heart melt whenever he was with me. He was my sun. He was my light and the boy I only wanted to grow old with. I didn’t want the feeling of happiness he gave me to ever fade. 

“Sangie, give it back!” I laughed as I wrestled him for my paintbrush. 

“Spend time with me,” he fakely whined, extending his arm farther out. 

“You know I have three days to finish this painting”

He slightly pouted and as he was distracted, I snatched the brush and pecked his lips. I got up and walked back over to the canvas to sit. We were in the art studio where I had class. I was fixing a painting that I was submitting to the LACMA which stood for the Los Angeles County Art Museum. Mr. Cook told me a representative came to our art show two weeks ago and loved my work. They offered to put a piece of mine in their gallery and pay me about five grand. There was no way I was turning that down, this was the first time my art would be in somewhere bigger than the art competitions and contests that I had been over the years. Falynn had been wanting my attention for the past few days but I just been super focused. 

“When will you be finished?” He sat down beside me. 

“Probably tomorrow”

I continued to brush some small details but I could feel his burning her eyes into the side of my face. 

“Yes?” I asked. 

“Your eyes are shining again” 

I smiled and looked at him. He shot me a smile back and kissed me. When he would watch me paint, he would tell me that my eyes shined like the stars on a night of the full moon. Me and Yeosang didn’t have the most perfect relationship but in my eyes, he was all I ever needed. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I know that we are still young but honestly couldn’t imagine myself with him. That would be a future that I never wanted to see. 

I met Yeosang almost four years ago when he started at my school as a new international student that was introduced by Tonya. We hit it off pretty well and started our relationship a few months after knowing each other. After a year, there were a lot of issues and it caused us to break up a few times but we fixed a lot of things and now we are stronger than ever. I told him not to come to the same school as me if it wasn’t somewhere that would benefit him but he showed me that the literature department here was great so I took his word for it. 

“Will you be free tonight?” he said after breaking free from my lips. 

“Mmm, I don’t know. Why do you ask?”

“One of my friends from the math department is having a party and I think you should come with me”

“Yeosang” 

“Please, I know you don’t really like parties and sometimes I don’t either but we haven’t been to one in a while and you always have homework or a painting to finish” 

“Like I do right now”

“My point exactly Parker” 

“I can’t help that I been busy Sangie, my schedule has been very chaotic and you know it’s been like this since I got here” 

He frowned and got up. He grabbed his bag and jacket, he always did this. When I didn’t say yes to everything, the tantrum from him would start. I had mentally prepared myself every time because he would be mean then expect us to go back to normal, it was a repeating cycle at this point.

“Yeosang, where are you going?”

“I’m going out whether you are going or not”

“I’m sorry, I just have things to get down. I promise we can go out tomorrow, anything you want to do” 

“It’s always art before me, isn’t it?” He looked at me with slight anger in his eyes. 

“You know that’s not true, I love you so much and you know that too damn well”

I tried to grab his arm and he moved from me. He shook her head and looked down. I never saw him this mad about this. It would usually be a small thing then it would go away but it felt like he was holding this in for a while and I didn’t like that. One thing I valued about our relationship was that we always communicated our feelings and issues.

“I love you too Parker but I shouldn’t feel like I have to compete with your paintings to get your attention”

“Yeosang, we are always together even when I’m not painting. I don’t know where this is coming from but you know I will drop everything to make sure you are happy. Don’t make me choose between you and what I love to do because you know it will always be you”

“Then why can’t you come out tonight?”

“This is my first time getting my work in a gallery and I cried to you about this opportunity, can’t you just support me on this one?”

I grabbed his hands and kissed his knuckles then I pecked him on lips. 

“I’ll make it up to you”

“You better Parker” 

“Now stay with me for another hour then you can go get ready for this party,” I pulled him back over to where we were sitting. 

“Ugh Parker, why do I love you so much?” He laughed a little. 

“Same reason I love you, it’s unexplainable,” I smiled at him. 

We spent another hour in the studio before parting ways which took another twenty minutes because he kept wanting to have sex in the room. He knew I was spontaneous but due to the amount of work I had to do, I wasn’t down for it at the moment. I enjoyed our intimate moments a lot because the sensation of his kisses would stay on me till the next time I saw him. I felt I depended on him at times to make me feel better which I tend to be less clingy than he is. I want the love we have to stay balanced like one of us didn’t love one more than the other but it was impossible. All the time I spend with him, I fall more in love with him each time and it scares me. 

I closed my laptop and sighed. I just turned in my last assignment for the week till Monday. I checked the time and it was 11:15. Yeosang was probably at the party now because he hasn’t texted me back. I walked to my room and saw Nicole and Kayla putting on their shoes. 

“Where y’all going?” I asked, walking into the kitchen. 

“Some kid from the math department is throwing a party so we headed there,” Nicole said. 

“You want to come?” Kayla asked. 

“I don’t know, Yeosang is there and told him I couldn’t make it because of homework but I finished” 

“Then surprise him, we’ll wait for you. Go put on a fit”

I hesitated but I walked back to my room and it took me a few minutes but I found an outfit to wear. After I finished what I had to in the bathroom, we left. I was a little anxious, I wasn’t really a party person but I did like to drink. I usually would drink in our dorm because I wasn’t old enough to go out to a bar yet. I walked out of my room and my roommates gave me a thumbs up on my outfit then we set off to the party. 

I knew art had consumed me in a way because when I wasn’t thinking about Yeosang, I was thinking of the next thing I could paint or create. I wanted to get into sculpting a little more too, I think sculpting 101 as an elective but I love the process. You know how they say people sell their soul to the devil, well I kind of did that with art in a way. Painting was my life and I wanted to go far with it. I would give up everything to have my paintings known around the world except my relationship, of course. 

After about a fifteen minute ride, we pulled up in front of this nice house. It was kind of big for a two story home but it sounded like a lot of people were inside. Everything felt like it was going in slow motion once we made it inside. There people were dancing, talking, smoking, and taking shots. It was your typical college party but something in my gut was telling me that sounded was going to go wrong. We went to the kitchen to take a few shots then grab some of the punch. 

“I’m going to go look for Yeosang,” I said loud enough over the music. 

They both nodded at me and I walked away. Ten minutes had passed of me searching for him and I felt my heart start to feel a little heavier than usual. I went upstairs and checked the rooms and he was nowhere to be found. I took a deep breath to not panic. I pulled at my phone and sent him a text asking where he was. I walked downstairs, staring at my phone. I looked around for Nicole and Kayla and found them in the living room area, dancing. They caught sight of me and walked over really fast. 

“You okay? You look like you're about to puke,” Kayla said. 

“I can’t find him, he isn’t here” 

“You told us he lives like five minutes from campus, should we go check there?” Nicole said. 

“We just got here, I don’t want to ruin you guys' night with my drama. I’ll call an uber.”

After a little convincing and turning on my location, I got an uber and I was on my way to Yeosang’s apartment. I hope he was there, I hope he had just decided to stay in for tonight. Maybe he fell asleep and forgot about the party because I wasn’t going. I was trying to come up with all these scenarios in my head so my mind wouldn’t think of the worst. Was this the feeling my gut was hitting me with earlier? Was something bad about to happen? I could feel my heart beating in my chest so loud and hard. I saw his apartment building come into my view and I let out a sigh. 

Please be safe inside my Sangie. 

I thanked the driver and ran up the stairs. I walked to his door and took a few deep breaths then I knocked three times. My palms were sweaty as shit and I rubbed them down my pants. I knocked a few more times till I heard the door unlock. Yeosang appeared in my sight and I immediately hugged him. 

“What are you doing here?” he pulled away and had wide eyes.

“I got done with homework early and wanted to surprise you at the party but you weren’t there. You also didn’t answer my text messages, I wanted to make sure you were okay”

“Well I’m fine,” he was about to shut the door. 

“Why are you acting weird?” I stopped it with my hand.

“I was sleeping Parker” 

“You look wide awake to me” 

I took a look at his appearance. He had on a white tank top with his shorts looking twisted like he rushed to put them on and his hair was messy. He smelled of a sweet perfume that I never smelled before. I could also see some sweat glistening on his forehead. My mind was playing games on me, it was suspecting something but I was pushing the thoughts away. This couldn’t be what it was right? He was just sleeping, he said he was just sleeping. 

“Babe, who is that?” 

I looked behind him and saw a girl with pale white skin appear. She had only a big t-shirt and her neck was covered in hickies. My eyes started to burn, my blood started to run cold, and I felt my feet start to back me away from the door. I felt the warm tears finally pour down my cheeks and my hands started to tremble. I took off and I could hear Yeosang calling after me as I ran away. I couldn’t believe this, I wouldn’t believe this. This was a fucking nightmare that my concious had put me in. 

Wake up Parker! Wake the fuck up Parker!

I started hitting my hands on my head and my cries got louder in my head. Wake me up from this fucking nightmare. This wasn’t real, this couldn’t be real. He loves me, he loves me, he loves me. Yeosang loves me too fucking much. The area around me felt like it was spinning and I couldn't breathe. My heart felt like it was falling out of my chest. The darkness started to consume me slowly. 

I started to hear a faint beeping noise and as my eyes started to open, I was blinded by a white light. I blinked a few times and looked around. I was in a hospital room and I don’t even know how I got here. I felt someone holding my hand and I looked to see Yeosang sleeping. I pulled my hand away and sat up. The door opened and  I saw my roommates walk in. 

“You had us all scared,” Nicole said, putting a bag of food from Mcdonald’s on my lap. 

“How did I get here?”

“Yeosang called me off your phone and he was crying really bad. A couple walking their dog found you on the ground, passed out and called the police. I guess they called Yeosang because he was the last person you contacted”, Kayla said, eating some fries. 

It wasn’t a nightmare, it really happened. 

“Wake him up and get him out here” 

“What happened?” Nicole asked. 

“I will say it when he leaves, I can’t look at him right now and I don’t think I ever want to again,” I stared at the wall. 

Kayla went to shake him and he woke up immediately. I felt his eyes start to burn my face and I continued to stare at the wall. He tried to reach for my hand but I moved it. I felt like if I said anything, I would yell at him and I didn’t have the energy to do so. Why would he do this to me? Was I not good enough? How long was he cheating on me? I was a fucking idiot, I was a loser because I still want to wrap myself around him. I want to ask why, why did he want to leave me. 

“Parker”

“Please just get out”

“Let me explain”

“There’s nothing to talk about, we’re done”

“Can we just talk about this?” I heard his voice crack

I looked at him and he had tears in her eyes. Those eyes that I thought were filled with love and joy when he was with me, were now filled with guilt and regret. I wanted to hug him but I knew it wasn’t right, we would never be the same again even if I forgave him right here, right now. That would make me a fool and I clearly was a fool in love with him but I needed better for myself. He knew I was better off without him, no matter how much love was still there and no matter how much he wanted to fix things with me. I lost all my trust for him.

He broke me. He destroyed my brain and ripped my heart in half. 

“We’re done, don’t make me call security,” I looked back at the wall

I heard him get up and walk out the room. The door closed and I felt my eyes burn with that familiar sensation. The tears came out and my sobs were painfully loud. Kayla and Nicole came over and hugged me. 

“H–He cheated o-on me,” I cried in Kayla’s chest. 

They didn’t say a word, they just let me cry into them. It was like I was trying to disappear into them and not feel the pain that I was feeling. Besides the abandonment I felt from my parents, I never thought he would hurt me after knowing the things I've been through. It showed me that he never cared or he got tired of carrying the burden of my feelings. I never wanted to be a burden nor did I want my feelings to consume and suffocate him to the point where he just didn’t want to deal with me anymore. 

 I thought I did everything right. I was sure I did everything right. Where did I go wrong? Where did I go wrong in loving him so much that he wanted to leave me? 

“Parker, get out of your head,” Nicole rubbed my back. 

“We know you’re blaming yourself and this wasn’t your fault at all and you know that,” Kayla reassured. 

That’s right, I was doing that thing where I constantly blamed myself for all the misfortunate I've been through. The first time I ever felt like this was from having shitty ass parents. I couldn’t help it, it's just something I’m used to doing in all honesty. I blame myself for my parents hating me because of my career path, my loneliness I felt even when I had people that cared about me, and now my relationship that led the love of my life to cheating on me for God knows how long. I sometimes wish I wasn’t this way, if I had only been the perfect daughter with no mental health problems and been putting my partner always first…

             I wouldn’t feel like the world was falling on me and this time he wasn’t here to save me. 

            Nor would he ever be again. 

After about thirty minutes, I had finally calmed back down but I felt numb. I didn’t feel anything and I just wanted to sleep without waking up for a week. I wanted to call my mom and just vent to her but I knew that our relationship was never in the right place for me to do that. I know they got a call that I was in here but didn’t even try to see if I was okay. I know that I could talk to Nicole and Kayla but I felt like I put them through a lot already for tonight that I didn’t want to put anymore weight of my emotions on them. All I could think about was Yeosang. I wanted him near my side. I wanted him to tell me that everything was going to be okay. My heart wanted this but my mind knew he wasn’t coming and knew that I didn’t need him near me. I just felt like in a way he abandoned me when I needed him the most. I heard the door open and I looked to a doctor. It was a tall white man and it looked like he was in his late thirties. 

“Hello Parker, I’m Doctor Coleman. How are you feeling?” He smiled slightly at me. 

“My head just kind of hurts”

“Seems like you took hard fall but we found a little blunt force trauma”

“I kind was hitting my head before I passed out”

“I’m just going to check you out real quick if that’s okay?” He put some hand sanitizer on his hands. 

I nodded and he checked my eyes first then my head to make sure I had no swelling or bumps. He then checked my heart rate and blood pressure to make sure they weren’t higher than usual. 

“I don’t think you need anything too strong so I can have my nurse come and bring you some aspirin. Also we’re going to keep you overnight just to make sure nothing in the head starts swelling or you have any random internal bleeding in the brain,” He sat down in the chair beside me. 

“Okay”

   He asked about how I was feeling and my responses were kind of dry but he offered a therapist to come in but I turned it down, I didn’t want to keep talking about what happened at the moment. After I signed some things for him, he left out and reassured me that the nurse would be in soon. I wanted to go to my dorm and shut out the world for a few days but I knew I couldn’t do that, I needed to finish my painting. I needed to remember everything that had to be done after I got out here tomorrow. The world doesn’t stop when you are heartbroken or you cry till the tears dry up, it keeps moving without you. I needed to keep going and not let this overcome me. 

“Guys,” I stared at the wall. 

“Yeah,” they both said at the same time. 

“I think I’m going to take Mr. Cook offer and do study board in Seoul for in the summer” 

“Parker, are you sure? I think your mind is still a little hazy,” Kayla said. 

“I’m sure, I can’t stay sad and sink into my heartbreak” 

They came over and hugged me again. They knew when I was determined about something I was going to do it. Maybe getting out of the country for a few months was what I needed. I could also find myself again and get more inspiration. I didn’t need closure from this situation, I needed to escape and be able to breathe. I was going to finish off my sophomore year strong. I know this will always be in my head and who knows when I will ever get over it but I can put these feelings into my art. That’s how creatives make good work, we put our pain into what we create. 

I was ready to work. 

I hope everyone is ready to see the work that I will put out. 

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[shadowredfeline]

Five in One Post

Four Responses to my Filipino Friend.

Yeah her Boyfriend loves to make some funny content for Luna. But now that you mentioned that mission from GTA Vice City, i'm currently stuck on that mission alongside the other mission where i take someone out at the mall, but he easily gets the Cops and gets away. Those two missions are really tricky!

Second response, Yeah i remember how Gumball did go overboard with the series finale. That's why i wanted to do Cartoon Network in Persona 5 and have Gumball as Joker. And also speaking of Kowalewski, i was thinking of having her voice Beara as Anais Watterson since her voice can be fitting for her. And also i know Kyla Kowalewski also voiced Memow from Adventure Time, and yeah Rosie does look a lot like Molang. Since my sister also loves Molang as well.

Third Response but to Miya. No Problem, Miya. It's pretty nice i would do something for you and Sammir. Since you both might have a lot of fun together. And also, i usually go to the Amusement Park during Autumn times like around October or November, and also, Shadow's mom works on the festivals by volunteering by working the kids games. And i hope you're Aunt will love to work with the kids games with Debby.

And Finally, the Gags with the Giant Chicken are really funny and even the song they played when Peter fights against the Giant Chicken, i would imagine having Shadow and Spot watching the Giant Chicken scenes because they are really funny. But the Giant Chicken will still be around, anytime Peter does something wrong or he can take a break and fight someone else.

For my A-Pal's Pic for our G-Pal

Looks nice seeing Mikey G in Riya's Attire, since it has been a while when we want to see Mikey G, but with Miya, i'm sure she's a great friend with him besides her cousin, Riya. The Riya and Miya will both be with him along with Sammir too. Best Pals is what they need. And i wonder how Mikey would feel wearing Caleb's attire too? I bet it might look nice besides wearing Shadow's clothes as well.

And for my Filipino Friend's On This Day Post

Looks really fun to remember Jason and Panini's activities in doodle style. It would be fun to have our OC Couples do the same thing, depending on which group we could do them with.

[zarvasace]

PROGRESS POST

(10/4/23)

This is partly for accountability and partly just to get all this out of my head! This last month or two have felt so hectic, getting used to a new work and sleep schedule and all. I'm still not quite there.

If you're curious about what I've been working on and what my plans are in terms of writing and art for the rest of the year, read on. :)

I will say, though, that if you want more of a specific AU or story, the way to get it is by asking questions and leaving comments! Asks and comments remind me about things I'm doing and get me excited about them again! I have these plans, but I also am very good at chasing inspiration to unknown (and sometimes unimportant) corners!

By Fandom

Linked Universe Projects

I've been feeling less motivated to work on LU stuff, but I still plan on at least finishing what I have open, so you can look forward to some of that!

Writing

Disability AU—one small mobility trio fic in the works. A few vague ideas for doing backstory fics.

Council (1931 vampire AU)—this is still the "backburner to backburner" fic, but I do have some fun ideas. I just have been distracted with other things! I think this AU is a lot of fun and I'd love to do more with it. We'll have to see.

The Marvelous Misadventures of Wind and His Merry Band of Maybe-Human Misfits—chapter 7 (out of 9 or so) is in progress. I have it all outlined out, and it's fun to work on, but I have (again) been distracted! This is, I hope, going to be my main December project. It'd be nice to finish before it turns 2 years old next summer. Oops.

I have several other WIPs that aren't very exciting and probably won't see daylight, but they're there if I feel like them

Art

Coloring book—I'm part of the coloring book project! :) I have already finished 1/2 drawings, and they went so well, I'm considering doing more.

Shatterproof manga page—still on my radar! I'm doing the end scene from dazzling diamond danger, and my ambition keeps outgrowing my time.

Four Swords Projects

Writing

Fairytale AU—man I've started this Vidow BatB fic literally five times. I have an almost-complete draft sitting at like... 20k?? iirc, but I kind of hate a lot of it. I also like a lot of it. It's a bit difficult for me to work on rewriting something in that situation. Anyway. Another December thing probably.

Fright Fight—I have ideas for every week, but am currently unsure if I want to draw or write for them. Most of my October will be focused on filling these prompts!

Vampire Lords AU—I have strange as severe is this my fate open right now, with a fair amount of material... it just needs to be edited a bit. I do want to keep working on that, I've just... well. Distraction. A common theme. XD I might be feeling another little bite fic coming on, too.

Art

Fright Fight—see above

Fright Fight part 2—I have a few side things to do for this, like making graphics that I haven't quite finished yet. They shouldn't take long, I just gotta do em!

Non-Fandom

Stickers—I am in the process of drawing some stickers! Yay! These are for my work, but also just for me. I want some Halloween stickers. This is a backburner project.

Nanowrimo project—I need to spend some time figuring out a few things to really get going on my princess-verse. I'm going to be doing Nanolympics this year, so hopefully some of their preptober stuff will help!

Hearts Linked Together—my super-cool Linkverse. XD I love my dumb timeline, and all the characters, they're just filler drawings that I haven't had time to continue.

Secret Zelda project—I really really need to do this! I can't say much right now, but it involves a fair amount of work, both writing and art. I think I haven't gotten very far on it yet because I'm intimidated. Stop that.

Zine edits—I worked really really hard on an art piece for a LoZ zine coming up! This week is critique, and I anticipate a few edits later.

By Month

Facebook posts—a lady I know wants to commission pretty quote images to post on her Facebook. I need to reply to her text. And do them.

September

I primarily worked on the fic Blood-Sucker's Guide to High School. I also worked on and submitted one fic and one piece of art to two different zines, which I hope you'll see soon.

October

If you care, you may have noticed I'm not doing Whumptober this year! Part of this is because I'm a bit burned out from the above, and part of it is that the prompts just didn't seem very inspiring to me this year. Maybe that's just my mindset. I haven't been in a very whumpy mood.

I'm planning on filling weekly prompts for @fsfrightfight this month and maybe chipping away at some other fics, in addition to one more zine contribution. I'm also going to be planning for November and doing some scattered art work here and there.

November

NaNoWriMo! I considered skipping this... but I'm feeling really inspired and motivated to do it, especially with October as a break. I'm going to write some original work, and that will be the focus of my November. I'll likely get some other art done, too.

December

I hope to dedicate this month to finishing things up from this year! That means working on "backburner" projects.

[blazehedgehog]

Is it possible to make a game like Sonic 3 today within the deadlines it had back then? Pixel art, physics and all.

Why wouldn't it be?

It was the third game in the series. They already had a very strong idea of what they were trying to do with the character, they already had proven technology under them that they could easily extend and upgrade. They had been doing this on Sonic for three years already, and some of the people had been working for Sega even longer than that.

These were talented, experienced people. Professionals. Having the prior knowledge to be able to say, "if we do X, then we get Y" allowed them to work quickly and efficiently.

So I would compare it to, say, what I did with OverBite. OverBite was a game I made for a Clickteam Fusion Game Jam in 2016. We had from like, September 30th or even the 29th up to October 31st to make an entire game. It came out to something like 33 days.

So I made this game where you play as Dracula. I wrote all the code, designed all the mechanics, made all of the sprites, and built all of the levels. Alone. By myself. A single person. The only other person to help me with anything was my old friend Malcolm Brown, who handed me some music.

I had JUST bought Clickteam Fusion 2.5 on Steam, which means it had 0 hours of usage registered. I used it to make OverBite, which means I could track exactly how many hours I spent working on the game, and though I don't remember the exact total, I remember after doing the math it ended up shaking out to between 9 to 11 hours a day, 7 days a week, for 33 days. It was more than 300 hours total.

Again. For one person. I'm not saying it's the greatest game ever made. The level design in particular was extremely last second -- literally, I was down to the last day, only really had finished the gameplay engine, so I cobbled together four levels in a few hours and put it up seconds before the deadline at midnight. But the point is that I had worked in Clickteam Fusion for a decade and a half and could execute on my needs very well. I knew the software and the process like the back of my hand.

Now imagine having two people like that. Or five. Or ten. "300 hours of work in one month" suddenly turns into 3000 hours in one month. Using tech they already have, and proven gameplay concepts they have a lot of familiarity with.

It still wasn't easy, mind you. But the concepts that made it work back then not only still work today, they probably work even better because you aren't fighting to squeeze things down into such limited hardware. Like, the entire reason a game jam can even exist as a concept at all is because at a certain level of development, things are just easier now.

A game jam in 1994 is an impossible concept to think of because the tools had to be so super specialized to an incredibly narrow kind of work environment. You had to be a genius computer scientist to get something like Sonic the Hedgehog to function, never mind how much money it would cost to get something like a development kit.

Today, literally anyone can pick up a copy of Godot or Unreal 5, watch a few Youtube tutorials, and make a game from their bedroom with consumer tools. And those tools are faster, easier, and more intuitive to work with than anything that came before. It cannot be understated what a huge concept that is, and how that used to be totally impossible 15-20 years ago.

(And before some British dude rolls up like "yeah well you could always do that with the amiga" -- that's true, but it's also still different, and the fact that you can just give Microsoft $20 to unlock "Developer Mode" on an Xbox and start pushing Unity and Unreal games you develop on your PC to a console is still mindblowing in context.)

And it trickles down, too. If you know the conversion process, you can use these nice amazing modern tools to make proper retro games that run on real retro hardware.

All of this is to say that just because it's easier doesn't mean it should be done. OverBite absolutely slaughtered me. 11 hours of game development a day, 7 days a week, for almost five solid weeks was deeply unhealthy, physically and mentally. I haven't come close to finishing any game project, ever, since OverBite. It fried me.

And on Sonic Team's side, Sonic 3 was so massively stressful for them that they quit making Sonic games for almost half a decade. Crunch time development like that hurts in many ways, both visible and (mostly) invisible.

But yes, it could still absolutely be done.

[blusilurus]

If you're a music creature btw and use Spotify just a heads up I tend to make/curate misc playlists for myself and my OC's over there if it's any interest? These are the current ones pretty much as of Feb. 2024 (since I may add/edit/remove in the future)! Some playlists I need to go through and redo/clean up, some have super old playlist covers that I may/may not change to and yea all that! LMAO 💿 SPOTIFY + Quick descriptions of playlists below the cut!

(NOTE: All these playlists except for the BTT's are constantly having tracks added, removed, sorted and all of that!) BLU is my personal playlist! I tend to put my main favorites or loops over the years there! Basically the tracks that don't age for me LOL MOON is like the Blu playlist but my super mellow/chill vibes one? Good for when you want chiller music or even sleepy music tbh I have slept to this playlist numerous times. SUN is supposed to be it's opposite! More energetic music and all that but I need to clean it up at some poin. Golden Days is for you if you want to violently relive the 2000's-2010's!! Obviously everyone's experience of then varies but this playlist encapsulates a lot of the big music hits from then and basically my core youth in a playlist HEADS UP I have not cleaned it up yet so there's definitely a bunch of duplicate songs still as of this moment! DS: Blue, Purple and Pink these are character story playlists and encapsulate story moments, themes or overall vibes of clusters of characters! DS:Blue is more a sadder vibe and growing up to fast. DS: Purple is more love and loss and piano mixed in there. DS: Pink I want to say has a sorta nostalgic sound, varies from soft/intense and has violin tossed in? Daichi, Akumu and Norah are individual character playlists of songs reflective of them (story, vibes or they'd listen to)! These are the beefier of the individual character playlists. Daichi's is a sensual and party vibe. Akumu's is more mellow and soothing. Norah's is both soft/mellow and loud/beat heavy songs. Chris, Eliza, Izzy and Shea are individual character playlists again! However these are a bit smaller and sometimes I debate if I want to keep/remove these (just bc I like to keep things relatively neat/condensed and these are more so side characters in the grand scheme of things)! Chris's has bad/ended relationship vibes. Eliza's has a mix of college chaos, independent "don't need no man" and ended love energy. Izzy's has a pop, playful/flirty and mellow vibe. Shea's has a soft and sensual vibe. BTT20'/21' (Blu Tune Tobers) 31 Track playlists of my previous personal October art challenge where I drew a piece of art per shuffled song I got that month for each day in October! (OTHERS) ABYSS this one is a oddball atm idk what I'm doing with it! It's supposed to be like just instrumental/mostly non lyrical tracks but that's a huge range for my tastes personally. Like this thing has game music, soft instrumental but then also wild instrumental!? Can't decide if I just need to clean it up or be rid of it LOL. LOFI//VIBES is exactly what it sounds like. MEOWFIA:TOH AU is my friends and I's Owl House AU playlist of misc stuff! BLOOK personal playlist of music we both like to sing or feel fits us for one reason or another! WILD HEARTS this is like a vry specific to my experience party music or roller skating music!

[deromanuscoven]

Marius/Daniel appreciation week day 3

-Endless love-

Chapter II

Norway - Golden retriver

It was the last days of October. Marius had deliberately waited for that time of year to leave Norway. It had always been his favorite time of year. Especially there, in the midst of those soft colors of the earth and trees that clashed with the deep, crystal clear blue of the lake near their home. Daniel was super excited; the first few days he had seemed restless, too quiet. Marius understood Daniel's inner struggle well; he had suffered and then learned to curb every blow Daniel had tried to inflict on himself, and he had been a support and a rock for every step forward Daniel had taken. When Marius thought the time was right, he had approached him and, holding his hand as they walked among the great old trees, had told him about what their life in Rio would be like. Much would change, but change is not always synonymous with pain or rejection; sometimes blizzards come to clear the sky.

This was not what he had told Daniel, who certainly knew well the meaning of a blizzard, having been born to his immortal life in one. Marius knew how Daniel was able to understand him, and how he would follow him, wherever Marius would go. He did not want the fear in his heart to be reflected in Daniel's eyes; he wanted to let him go, that fear, but he could not find the strength. It was a right and necessary decision, for both of them. And Marius just wanted Daniel to feel joy and hope for that new adventure they were about to embark on together. The crisp air caressed his face, he would miss that place, everything there had a different rhythm and sound.

Placid and delightful, something that resonated with his soul. By now it was a matter of days and everything would be different. Clearer, more chaotic and full of humanity around them. They would have a new time, made up of things they no longer did: the theater, evening outings to streets full of life and human beings, concerts, cinemas, art galleries and a thousand other things. " I want to live under a rock…" and that was the only thought Marius could perceive in himself that made him smile and shake his head, because he would never let him or anyone else hold back the need to return to the world that Daniel have now.

No, he would support and proudly follow his love back into the world, see him embrace him again, and smile, nothing mattered more to him than that. And he wanted to be there and let that smile bring joy and peace to his troubled soul as well. Marius was torn from his thoughts by running, close steps. When he turned around Daniel was running toward him, raising a flurry of leaves chasing around him. Strangely, his cheeks were flushed, and something was wrong with the way his army green jacket was tight around him. Marius went at him immediately in alarm. He sensed no danger of any kind nearby, but something in Daniel's manner alerted him. As he drew closer, however, Marius realized that Daniel was yes crucified but seemed serene and in total control. When he was close to him, he placed his hands on his shoulders staring at him, Daniel's violet eyes shining with the same love and devotion as always. It was at that moment that Marius noticed that something was moving inside Daniel's jacket, which caused the latter to laugh.

" I don't want to know…" Marius stared at the moving vest, in bewilderment. " Oh come on, look!" Daniel opened the vest to show Marius what he was fighting with on the inside. Marius found himself staring into two large, brown eyes, which stared at him with interest. " Daniel…" and Marius was already shaking his head in disbelief at the small ball of golden fur, which Daniel was holding. " I know, don't start, Mr. Olsen, he asked me if I could hold him for a little while, that's all!" said Daniel, who was assailed at that moment by the puppy who began to lick his face, and provoking merry laughter in Daniel. Marius for his part, seeing Daniel so happy, could not hold back a smile, and placed his hand on the puppy's back, which turned out to be super soft and cuddly. It was a wonderful color, almost golden, Marius was fascinated: " He seems to adore you," Marius sentenced, staring at the puppy who continued in his busy work of wiping Daniel's face, with cheerful celebration: " You should know very well, that it is impossible not to adore me!" said Daniel struggling with the exuberant puppy.

" They say golden retrievers, they are extremely sensitive, and they need endless cuddling" Daniel stared slyly at Marius, and Marius seemed on the verge of retorting something, then reconsidered and with a smile said: " Basically…Like you," and his beautiful, rich laughter filled the air around them. Daniel waited patiently for the laughter to die down, carefully stroking the puppy's shiny, thick fur. When Marius returned his attention to the puppy Daniel leaned in to place a gentle, chaste kiss on his cheek. " In practice…. Like you Marius."