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I have to give my laptop a moment to cool down. I'm definitely asking a lot of it by having three word documents, a powerpoint, and three chrome tabs open, a dyslexia friendly software running, spotify playing music, and discord in the background. I may as well have a smoke while I can.
#unfortunately it takes me a very long time do do proper notes because I am not recording directly from the textbook or the powerpoint#instead I am trying to build and phrase meaning off of my own understanding from multiple sources#I am also putting effort into making sure my notes look good and are legible/understandable for other parts who may need them#the just-right ocd loves this kind of thing and it takes me ages to get things right enough I can focus on actually doing notes#the format *has* to be consistent or I will get very stuck on fixing things
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Please wish me luck everyone. In about 3 hours, I will be taking the final exam I have to take for my grad program, and if I pass it, I will officially be done with the program and will be able to apply for graduation.
Iâm very nervous since usually Iâm really good at test taking, but itâs been over a year since I last actually took a class for my program (Iâve been working on my final project and my internships for the past year and change), so a lot of this stuff is very fuzzy for me, since my memory sucks. Plus, my program was⊠not great. They had no lectures, all book learning, and Iâm not great with book learning. I passed the classes, but none of them had exams. Just papers, which are much easier for me to do. I took a few practice tests and I routinely got between 65%-70% of the questions right. Which is⊠not great. I have studied, but I only really was able to study for the past week, since before that I had my internship and work to worry about.
But!!! Iâm hoping that all will go well here. Iâve been working towards my masterâs and school counseling credential for about two and a half years now. I started August 2021. And if I fail? Iâll just have to pay the $130 and retake the test later. Which will suck, but at least it will be like a practice test, yeah? And Iâll know exactly how the test is formatted, so it would be easier.
Anyway, sorry for rambling, Iâm very nervous. Wish me luck!!!!!
#Gah Iâm mildly freaking out#I didnât study nearly enough for the test but like#I never do#This is the problem of being seen as âintelligentâ growing up#You never learn how to study or learn in a productive way#I have no notes from my classes since they all sucked so I canât even review those#I wish I had had lectures#Iâm GOOD with lectures and with learning from lectures#Iâm good at writing detailed notes to review later#Iâm not good with reading textbooks and taking notes from textbooks#Legit my dad took all of my tenth grade biology notes from my textbook for me#Ugh#Hopefully Iâll do well#And if not⊠itâs not the end of the world.
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Friendship ended with google sheets, now filofax is my best friend
#iâve been tying to come up with a system for verb conjugations#like recording all the verbs iâve encountered in spanish and their conjugations. just in present tense for now and then i will learn#past and future and any other cases or tenses i may need#and i did buy a dedicated language journal (which iâm really enjoying using. it has habit trackers; lots of space for notetaking and doing#textbook exercises; sections for vocab lists and to write out/give examples of grammar rules; journal prompts for writing#in your target language etc) but it only has 48 verb conjugation tables#i have already encountered 77 different verbs in some form or another and recorded their infinitives so that i can table them#even if iâm just focusing on the present tense right now i do not have enough space and i donât want to clutter up the rest of my note pages#with just conjugation tables#so i needed a system and at first i was going to do a spreadsheet but then i was like realistically i will spend WAY too long on the layout#and i donât think iâll actually use it that much because google sheets is so fucking awkward on my phone#iâd have to pull my whole laptop out just to look at this spreadsheet. it wonât be fun. itâll seem too much like hard work#so i thought okay. what do i actually want from a verb conjugation system. some form of organisation for sure. colour coding#the ability to move stuff around if i want to#so iâm just using my filofax and various pens#itâs a personal size filofax so i can fit two verbs per page plus a couple of sample sentences using the verbs#i am SO much more likely to grab this and use it; especially if i keep it with my main language journal#and i can always add new pages. or if i run out of space i can take out verbs iâm confident with now and replace with verbs iâm trying#to learn. (iâm starting with just the most essential verbs. since thatâs the ones iâm usually finding anyway in A1 content)#iâm really happy with this idea tbh. i donât know if i already said that#personal
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mixed feelings about the robot sex textbook because so far it doesn't seem to be saying much about robots that aren't near-indistinguishable from humans in appearance, but on the other hand it's proving to be extremely quotable, so there's that
#for the curious: the book is 'robot sex: social and ethical implications' edited by danaher & mcarthur#anyway yeah I'm still reading this thing#honestly fair enough that I'm slow here bc this is an academic textbook from a field I know fuckall about lol#very slowly making my way through it bc my day job drains my brain a lot lol#but I am determined to finish reading it and take notes#though it seems to be about a different sort of robofuckery than what I see around here#ah well I'll see how it goes#inverse problem.txt
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#periodical life updates#WAUGH. HOW DARE U ASSIGN ME 24 PAGES FROM THE TEXTBOOK. I TOSSA YOU AT A WALL LIKEA SPAGHETTI.#*reads it anyway* -_-#urghghgh i HATE THIS i hate textbook. i hate academic reading it is the most boring sht. even if the topic is interesting the ADHD is fcked#struggling to comprehend sociology jargon while my brain is actively recoiling. i should get a fckign award for being forced to do this.#almost done. almost done. using this as a space to complain when i can't fcking take it anymore. then i go back to reading for a while.#RAAAUGHHHH. OKAY IM FCKIGNG DONE. the ending was not read thoroughly but WHPO FCKIGNG CARE ITS JUST REITERATION#DOES A LITTLE SCREAM!!!! gotta print out my notes (BECAUSE OF COURSE WE'RE ALSO FORCED TO TAKE NOTES)#and turn them in during class (<- ABSURD. FCK YOU!! WHY DO YOU WANT THEM)#anyway.i got an hour til class starts. i did some sign language practice and i might either do homework or draw the eca for today#im sleepy tired. i want to go home u-u alas.#dunno if i'll get a treatsie today. i deserve one but we have food at home#maybe another day.
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Man. All I do these days is fail to meet expectations and then get upset at myself for failing to meet those expectations. This sucks.
#the dragon sings his songs#blowing out smoke#i'm supposed to be taking this break from my course as an opportunity to do the things I've been meaning to do and I've just been rottingâ#âin bed on my phone and sleeping in and jacking off like i hardly even get up to eat or go to the bathroom#side note i know this is a textbook sign of depression and burnout (comma) most likely both (comma) but who in my Chinese family is goingâ#âto believe that? def not mom who'll just scream at me for not sucking it up and pushing through it and not dad who won't do shit#my grandparents might believe me but there's a language barrier on mom's side plus ć
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Ź seems to think I'm the perfect infallible capableâ#â[granddaughter] and I can't bear to break his heart with the truth#and then on dad's side they'll probably be sympathetic but everything i tell them makes its way back to my parents and that'll just resultâ#âin ont huge blowup that'll drive another wedge between mom and dad. and I mean PLEASE hurry up and get divorced but I also don't want çșçșâ#âand ć«Čć«Č to get caught in the crossfire#plus I'm supposed to be helping them esp now that çșçș is running out of time as an active able-bodied person but instead of doing that Iâ#âspent all day in bed. which is not helping my guilt and shame on top of everything else i have to deal with (comma) let alone his workload#today's such a nice sunny beautiful day too which makes me feel even worse for not even going for a walk or anything#it's still light out so i could but sunk cost fallacy is kicking my ass plus i have Mandarin class kn a couple hours#and k know it's a couple HOURS but I'd have to get dressed and set a timer and everything and just the thought is so overwhelming that Iâ#âjust can't. i'd ask to be institutionalized if it wasn't for the rampant ableism in the mental health field plus the fact thatâ#âinstitutionalization is just an extension of incarceration#if only the people who have power over me would just listen and actually take care of me so i wouldn't have pushed myself to this point
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Stressed all yesterday cuz I forgot to do an assignment that was due today but now classes got canceled and I have an extra week to do it â€ïž
#note to self: do NOT sign up for 2 lab+lecture courses in the same semester#particularly when one of those courses ends up being mostly self-directed#speaking of which I keep hearing over and over that bio112 is super hard and there's an insane amount of content#and the prof's lecture slides are just.. definitions and terminology... which she doesn't expand on at all in lecture#which she calls a guide to what is relevent in the textbook#and she keeps saying there's too much info to cover! i will not be covering all of it!#like ok then give us the meat! it takes 3 seconds to google a word give us the bigger picture!#bio111 was way more involved and interactive and involved more complicated material imo#idk i guess from a medstudent perspective phylogeny is difficult and pointless but I like it đ€·ââïž
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man i love going down the history rabbit hole on youtube and getting absolutely wrecked with these war flashbacks
#NO NO NO I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO MIDDLE SCHOOL#I SWEAR I HAD THESE EXACT TEXTBOOK PAGES BURIED IN THE BACK OF MY MIND#i was and still am obsessed with ancient egypt so i did enjoy that unit at least#all i remember from mesopotamia was that i worked with like a table group to basically take notes on it#and like one of my group members kept mispronouncing the word âpriestâ but my socially anxious self couldn't bother to correct him#i swear in 7th grade we had to copy all the vocab words and like draw pictures relating to them#btw got these off a video about this historical civilizations iceberg#nostalgia#maddy's musings
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i wish i was using my ipad for actual fic writing but iâve been doing psych notes since yesterday đ
#signed rye#dont get me wrong i love what i study but we havent even started the chapters yet and some part of me wants to be prepared so bad#somehow itâs easier for me to take notes from a pdf textbook rather than a physical one#if ur reading the tags let me know what you do to study or what you listen to when u take notes#im currently listening to the tlou2 soundtrack because itâs just so calming and i love the instrumentals
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LAW OF ATTRACTION - GOJO SATORU
summary. Newton said the smaller the distance, the stronger the pull. Gojo Satoru thinks that explains the way he feels when youâre close.
word count. 18.2k (i need help)
content. mdni, fem!reader, college au, nerd! gojo, simp gojo supremacy, fluff, banter, tensionnnn, pet names, he's so down bad it's actually pathetic, teasing, smut, male mast., oral (male + fem rec), cum eating, face sitting, p in v, mating press, slight hair pulling, praise, swearing, light dumbification (just a lil), tit play, overstim, creampie, aftercare, pillow talk
author's note. fashionably late (?) to the trend BUT HERE WE ARE
Gojo Satoru is already arguing with the professor.
The classroom smells like coffee and too-new textbooks, the kind of sterile atmosphere that clings to the first week of university. Half the students arenât even paying attention yet, still easing into the rhythm of things. But not him.
Gojo stands tall near the front, hands in the pockets of his pressed slacks, sweater vest and button-up perfectly in place, thick-rimmed glasses pushed up the bridge of his nose. His snowy hair is perfectly messy, his posture relaxedâalmost bored.
âIâm just saying,â he drawls, voice smooth and annoyingly self-assured, âyou canât talk about general relativity without at least addressing gravitational time dilation. Not if you want to keep your credibility.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. Someone in the back stifles a laugh.
The professor straightens her notes. âWeâll get there, Gojo.â
âSure,â he says, unbothered, but thereâs a glint in his cerulean eyes. âBut isnât it a little irresponsible to feed undergrads simplified versions of reality? Weâre not children.â
âYouâre barely adults,â the professor mutters under her breath.
And just when it seems like heâs winding up for another volleyâanother casually devastating critique thatâll make the professorâs eye twitchâthe door opens with a quiet creak.
âSorry Iâm late.â
The room stills.
You step inside, backpack slung over one shoulder, sunlight catching in your hair like some perfectly staged movie scene. You arenât frazzled or apologeticâjust calm, composed, like this is your class and everyone else is simply borrowing space in it.
Gojo turns. And forgets how to speak.
He doesnât recognize you even though heâs memorized everyoneâs faces during the orientation. But yours is unfamiliar. Distractingly so. And in that moment, standing half-turned at the front of the classroom, he is completely, totally, undeniably wrecked. His mouth parts slightly. No sound comes out.
The professor clears her throat. âTry to be on time next class.â
You nod easily. âOf course. Wonât happen again.â
Gojoâs eyes follow you as you make your way to an empty seatâhis row. The one he claimed early on for optimal note-taking and strategic interruption placement. And of course, because the universe clearly enjoys watching him suffer, you pick the seat right beside his.
He doesnât move. Doesnât sit. Just watches as you settle in beside him and flip open your notebook like nothingâs happened. Like you didnât just reset the laws of gravity around his universe.
âGojo?â the professor prompts from the front.
He startles. âHuh? Ohâyeah. I mean, yes. Sorry.â
Silence stretches as the lecture resumes. Gojo Satoruâs foot bounces beneath the desk. His fingers twitch like they want to scribble something but forgot how pens work.
He chances a glance at you from the corner of his eye. Youâre taking notes, completely unfazed. Like you havenât just walked into his orbit and thrown everything off-axis.
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Itâs quiet in the library. The kind of quiet that almost feels sacred, broken only by the occasional rustle of paper or the soft click of a keyboard. Youâre tucked away at a corner table, head down, headphones in, completely immersed in your reading.
Gojo spots you the moment he steps in. He hadnât meant to come hereâphysics homework was the last thing on his mind todayâbut the second he saw you seated, that changed. Suddenly, heâs very interested in gravitational lensing and quantum field theories.
He chooses the table diagonally across from yours. Not directly oppositeâthat would be too obvious. But just close enough that he can sneak glances without it being weird. Probably.
He flips open a textbook. Doesnât read a single word. Just peeks at you over the top of the page like a little nerdy menace in disguise. Every time you adjust your hair or furrow your brows or smile faintly at something you read, itâs like heâs been hit in the chest. Repeatedly.
Then you look up.
He freezes. Straightens up. Pretends to be deeply fascinated by a diagram of a particle collider. You blink. Tilt your head a little. Thenâyou pull your headphones out. âGojo Satoru, right?â
He almost drops his pen. âUhâyeah. Thatâs me.â
âYouâve been staring at page fifteen for like⊠twenty minutes.â
He blinks. Looks down at his book. Flips it to page thirty-seven. âRight. Yeah. Thatâs, uhâintentional.â
You smile. âSure it is.â
He wants to melt into the carpet.
You go back to your notes, sliding your headphones on again like itâs nothing. But that smile doesnât leave your face. And Gojoâs certain heâll be thinking about it for the rest of the week.
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You're sitting under the tree near the physics building, nose buried in your laptop, headphones on, pretending you donât feel someone staring at you. You do. Of course you do.
You glance up. Heâs there.
Gojo, the cocky know-it-all from class. Still in that damned sweater vest, hair all floofy like he just rolled out of a nap and somehow made it fashion. Heâs holding a coffee cup with one hand and awkwardly adjusting his glasses with the other, pretending like he just happened to pass by. He absolutely did not.
You blink. He panics.
âOh. Uhâhey,â he says, and it comes out a little too loud, a little too fast, like his vocal cords staged a mutiny the second your eyes met.
You slide your headphones down. âHi.â
Thereâs a long pause. He fidgets with the sleeve of his shirt, eyes flicking everywhere but your face now. âYou, uh⊠You always sit here?â
You raise an eyebrow. âDuring this exact 30-minute window between classes? Yeah. Kinda my thing.â
âOh,â he says, and laughsânervously. âCoolcoolcool. I justâuh. I just thought you looked like someone who enjoys differential equations under tree shade.â
You squint. âYouâre making fun of me.â
âWhat? No! IâI do that too. All the time. Big tree guy. Huge⊠leaf enjoyer.â
Thereâs a beat of silence. You bite back a laugh. âYou good?â
âI was,â he mumbles, almost to himself, then louder: âYeah! Iâm totallyâso good. Amazing, even.â
You give him a look. He clears his throat and tries again. âListen, I didnât get your name earlier, and thatâs kind of a crime in several countries, probably. SoâŠâ
You pause, then finally tell him.
He repeats it under his breath like a prayer. âPretty.â
You tilt your head at him, teasing. âSo⊠was there a reason you were looking at me in class? Or is staring at people just part of your regular schedule?â
He flinches. Like, visibly. Adjusts his glasses again even though theyâre already perfectly in place. âStaring is a strong word.â
âYou choked on air.â
He groans, half-laughing, half-dying inside. âOkayâyeah, that⊠may have happened. But in my defense, I didnât know I was capable of being that flustered until you walked in.â
Your eyebrows lift. âYou were flustered?â
âFatally,â he replies without missing a beat. âIt was the most embarrassing moment of my entire academic career. And I once accidentally called a professor âdadâ in front of the entire cohort, so.â
You snort. âNo you didnât.â
âUnfortunately, I did. That man never looked at me the same again.â
You shake your head, smiling despite yourself. Thereâs something kind of charming about the contrastâhow sharp and smug he is in the lecture hall, then how weirdly dorky he gets the second he talks to you.
Gojo notices the smile. He lights up. âThatâs a win, right?â he grins. âThat counts as a win?â
You roll your eyes. âBarely.â
âStill counts,â he sings, rocking back on his heels. âYou like coffee?â
You blink. âThatâs random.â
âI just thoughtâmaybe next time I bring one, I could bring you one too. You know. If weâre both going to be professionally loitering under this tree during our thirty-minute window.â
You pretend to think about it. âWhat kind?â
âWhatever kind makes you smile again.â
You pause. Okay. That was smooth.
You look away, just for a second, to hide the grin threatening to take over your whole face.
âYouâre annoying,â you mutter.
He beams. âYouâre not the first to say that.â
You part ways not long after, the building just a few steps ahead, and Gojoâs still standing where you left himâhands in his pockets, glasses slipping down the bridge of his nose, hair gleaming like spun silver in the sunlight.
You steal one last glance as you walk away, andâyep. Heâs still watching you.
Still smiling like he knows something you donât.
And just when you think youâve escaped unscathed, you hear his voice call after you: âBy the way, if you keep looking at me like that, I will ask for your number next time!â
You donât turn around. You canât. Your cheeks are already on fire.
But he laughs, bright and victorious, and you know he saw the way you tripped on the curb a second later. Cocky bastard.
And yet⊠youâre smiling the whole walk to class.
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Youâre seated a few rows back this time. Thought it might help with the whole not staring directly at Gojo Satoru like he invented astrophysics problem.
It doesnât.
Not when heâs in his usual seat up front, one leg crossed over the other, sleeves pushed to his elbows like heâs here to work. Glasses low on his nose. A pen between his fingers that he keeps spinningâcasually, like itâs no big deal heâs also kind of stupidly good at everything.
The professor drones on at the front of the room, explaining quantum field theory, but youâre only half-listening.
Because Gojo raises his hand. Again.
âActually, thatâs not entirely accurate,â he says, voice way too smooth for a know-it-all. âIf you factor in the renormalization group flow, the outcome shifts entirely. I can show you if you want.â
She blinks. âI⊠well. Thatâs a fair point, Gojo.â
He grins, leans back like he didnât just out-nerd a tenured physicist, and thenâthenâhe looks at you. Like he knows youâre watching.
And you are. You so are.
Gojo tilts his head slightly, mouth curling into that infuriating little smirk as he mouths: Impressed yet?
You look away instantly.
You are. Youâre very impressed. Unfortunately. But youâre not gonna let him know that. Not yet.
So instead, you raise your hand. And when the professor calls on you, you challenge his answer.
Gojo looks like you just proposed.
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Class ends and students start filing out, a low murmur of backpacks zipping and chairs scraping filling the air. Youâre casually packing up your things, pretending not to notice the way someone is lingering by the door.
He shouldâve left already. But noâheâs leaning against the wall like itâs a conscious choice, not that heâs waiting for you or anything. Totally not that.
You sling your bag over your shoulder and head out. You donât even get five steps into the hallway before you hearâ
âSoâŠâ
You turn.
Gojoâs standing there, hands in his pockets, lips parted like heâs still catching his breath. His glasses are a little crooked. Probably because heâs been running that hand through his hair again. He straightens up when you face him.
âThat was⊠impressive,â he says, rubbing the back of his neck. âLike, really impressive.â
You smile. âThanks. You were good too, by the way.â
He blinks. âGood? Iâgood? Thatâs it?â
âYup.â You start walking. âTry harder next time.â
Thereâs a pause. And then he jogs up beside you, looking equal parts offended and delighted. âOh, okay. So thatâs how it is?â he teases, grinning. âYouâre one of those girls.â
âWhat girls?â
âThe ones who enjoy crushing the academic dreams of sweet, helpless nerds like me.â
You give him a look. âHelpless?â
âDevastatingly,â he says, deadpan.
You snort. âYou literally made a PhD cry last week.â
âShe recovered.â
âYou sent her a fruit basket.â
âSee? I care.â
You try to hold back your laughter but fail miserably, and he lights up like you just handed him the Nobel Prize.
You turn the corner toward the next building, Satoru trailing beside you like a very tall, mildly wounded puppy.
Heâs oddly quietâhands still shoved in his pockets, eyes flicking your way every few seconds like heâs waiting for a verdict. It's kind of adorable.
You stop walking. âCome on,â you say, already veering toward the campus cafĂ©. âIâll buy you a coffee.â
Satoru blinks. Twice. âL-like⊠like a date?â
You snort, rolling your eyes. âWoah there. Hold your horses, bud. Iâm doing it so maybe youâll stop moping around.â
He gaspsâactually gaspsâhands flying to his chest in mock offense. âI am not moping!â
âYou literally sighed ten times during that walk.â
âI was brooding. Itâs different.â
You raise an eyebrow. âYou pouted when I said you were just âgoodâ in class.â
âIâm a sensitive soul!â
âYouâre insufferable.â
âBut charming,â he says quickly, catching up to walk beside you again, shoulder bumping yours. âUndeniably charming.â
You hum, lips twitching. âSure. Letâs go with that.â
He grins, all pearly teeth and pretty-boy smugness, practically floating now. And just as you're about to step into the cafĂ©, you hear him mutter something behind you, half to himselfâ
âIâm so gonna make you fall in love with me.â
You turn slightly. âWhat was that?â
âNothing!â he chirps, already holding the door open for you like a gentleman. âLadies first!â
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He watches you from the tiny round table by the window, chin propped in his hand, glasses slipping a little down the bridge of his nose. Youâre standing at the counter, reading over the menu with a furrow between your brows like youâre solving quantum equations instead of choosing between oat milk or soy.
He could watch you forever. Not in a creepy wayâokay, maybe a little creepyâbut in that dumb, enamored kind of way where even the way you tap your fingers against the counter makes his heart do this weird flip.
You step up, voice soft but certain when you order. Vanilla latte, extra shot, light foam.
He files it away instantly. Vanilla. Extra shot. Light foam. Heâs going to remember that forever. He could write a thesis on it.
Your name is called, and he watches the way your eyes crinkle a little when you thank the barista. When you turn around, drinks in hand, and start walking back toward him, he panicsâbecause suddenly heâs hyper-aware of how dumb he must look just staring.
He quickly looks down at his phone screen, pretending to scroll through something important. Itâs literally just his calculator app open from earlier. Nothingâs calculated.Â
You slide his drink toward him when you sit. He doesnât even care what it is. You couldâve handed him gasoline and he wouldâve sipped it happily.
âThanks,â he says casuallyâway too casually for someone whose brain short-circuited the moment you looked at him.
And then you take a sip of yours, and he blurts it out without thinking:
âYouâre sweet.â
You blink. âHuh?â
He clears his throat. âThe drink, I mean. Itâs sweet.â
Smooth. So smooth.
You squint at him suspiciously. He hides behind his cup and takes a sip.
You're mid-sip of your latte when he says itâcompletely out of nowhere, eyes locked on you like he's trying to memorize your entire existence.
"You're kinda pretty when youâre annoyed, yâknow?"
You almost choke. "What?"
He leans forward, resting his chin in his palm, grinning like he just cracked the code to the universe. âJust an observation. Purely academic.â
"Youâre impossible," you mutter, eyes darting awayâand he sees it, the blush creeping up your neck.
And thatâs it. Thatâs his victory.
He leans back in his chair, smug as hell. âYou're blushing.â
"I'm not."
âOh no, donât worry. I think itâs cute,â he says, like itâs a fact in a textbook.
You throw a sugar packet at him. He dodges with a laugh.
"You trying to kill me? And here I thought this was a date."
You give him a look. âItâs not a date.â
He shrugs, grabbing your drink and stealing a sip like it is. âCouldâve fooled me.â
You snatch your cup back, but itâs too lateâheâs already smacked his lips like a wine critic.
âAre you always this annoying?â you ask, sipping your drink now.
He shrugs. âOnly when I like someone.â
You freeze for half a second. And he sees that too.
Your voice is careful, teasing but cautious. âSo you like me now?â
He hums, looking away dramatically, as if heâs pondering some great cosmic truth. âI donât know⊠Maybe. Youâre cute when youâre flustered. And when youâre mean to me. And when you roll your eyes. Andââ
âOkay, stop.â
âNope. You gave me coffee. Iâm powered up now. Canât shut me up.â
You groan, slumping in your seat with the most dramatic expression you can manage.
He grins wide, and that smug sparkle in his eyes softens, just a bit. âBut seriously,â he says, voice quieter now, âI like talking to you.â
And that shuts you up for a beat.
You meet his eyes again, and this time, thereâs no teasing, no cocky grinâjust sincerity, wrapped in dorky charm. ââŠI like talking to you too,â you admit, soft.
And just like that, he lights up all over again.
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You both exit the cafĂ©, coffees in hand, the air warmer than before but still crisp. The sunâs out, and so is Gojoâs smileâuntil you stop at the sidewalk and glance down at your phone.
âShit,â you mutter. âIâve got class right now.â
His face drops instantly. âWaitâalready? But I havenât even finished annoying you yet.â
You laugh, nudging his arm with your elbow. âYouâve done plenty in the last thirty minutes, trust me.â
He exhales dramatically, shoulders sagging as he pouts. âThis is tragic. A real loss for humanity.â
âDonât be so dramatic.â
âBut I miss you already,â he says. âWhoâs gonna listen to my unfiltered genius now?â
You raise a brow, backing away slowly. âIâm sure youâll find a new victim. See you, Gojo.â
âWaitâwait, when do I see you again?â he calls after you, half-joking, half-not.
You shoot him a smile over your shoulder. âYouâll live.â
And as you disappear into the crowd, he just stands there for a moment, lips pressed together, watching you go.
ââŠNo I wonât.â
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You donât think much of it when Gojo catches up to you outside the lecture hall again. Heâs chatty as usual, teasing you about your keychain, dramatically proclaiming how he almost tripped over a squirrel on the way here, all while walking a half-step closer than necessary. Same old Gojo stuff.
You head toward your usual seat, a few rows back from the frontâjust enough distance to not get called on every two minutes. Youâre used to watching him breeze right past, to the very first row, like heâs the poster boy for "overachiever of the year."
So when you slide into your seat and Gojo casually takes the one right next to you, backpack dropping with a thud at his feet, you do a double take.
âWhat are you doing?â you whisper.
He only shrugs, flashing that annoyingly pretty smile. âJust felt like switching it up today.â
Youâre not the only one caught off guard. A few students glance over and someone even nudges their friend like this is newsworthy.
Because Gojo Satoru doesnât switch it up. Heâs the guy who color codes his notes and brings a backup calculator. But now heâs here, sitting so close that his knee bumps yours beneath the table and stays there.
You try to focus when class beginsâbut it's hard when he's right there beside you, radiating warmth. Every now and then, his fingers graze your thigh beneath the deskâcasual, like itâs nothing. Like itâs everything.
You donât look at him. But you know heâs grinning. And just when you're starting to think this canât get more distractingâ
âBefore we end today,â the professor says, âIâm assigning a group project. Pairs, selected at random.â
Your stomach sinks. You glance at Gojo, whoâs already turned toward the front again, fingers drumming lightly on the desk. Like he knows.
You hear names being rattled off. A list of partnerships. Thenâ
âAnd lastly, Gojo Satoru andâŠâ A pause. âYou.â
Silence. You blink. Gojo leans back with a loud, satisfied sigh and stretches his arms behind his head.
âOh no,â you mutter, already dreading whatâs coming.
âOh yes,â he says, grinning so wide it should be illegal.
-
You step out of the lecture hall with Gojo hot on your heels, practically bouncing with excitement. Heâs still beaming about the professorâs decision like he just won the lottery.
âThis is fate,â he says, catching up to walk beside you. âWeâre gonna be the best pair in that class. I mean, youâve got the brains and the beauty, and Iâve got the everything else.â
You snort. âYouâre not serious.â
âOh, Iâm dead serious.â He adjusts the strap of his backpack with dramatic flair. âThis is the beginning of a legendary academic alliance.â
You roll your eyes, trying to suppress the smile tugging at your lips. âSo, when do we start this legendary alliance of yours?â
He doesnât miss a beat. âThought youâd never ask. I was thinking⊠we could cash in that coffee date you promised me. Use the time to plan out our project. Very responsible. Very scholarly.â
You shoot him a look. âItâs not a date.â
âSure,â he says easily, eyes twinkling. âA purely educational rendezvous at a cozy cafĂ© where we might happen to sit close enough to accidentally brush knees again.â
You groan. âFine. But weâre actually working on the project this time.â
âNo promises,â he grins.
And you hate how you laugh at that.
-
Youâre tucked into the booth of a cafĂ©, a half-empty cup of coffee sitting forgotten as you scribble into your notebook. Across from you, Gojoâs talking a mile a minuteâbouncing between theories, concepts, and potential outlines for your project with the kind of ease that only someone dangerously smart could pull off.
And the worst part? Every word out of his mouth actually makes sense.
You glance up at him, brows lifting slightly. âOkay, that last one? Thatâs actually⊠really solid.â
He beams. âRight? I knew youâd see the brilliance.â
You shake your head with a small laugh. âI hate to say it, but Iâm impressed.â
Gojo leans forward, resting his chin on his hand with a smug grin. âCareful now. Compliments like that might go to my head.â
You ignore him, scribbling something down beside his last idea. The two of you work like that for a whileâyou writing, him throwing ideas around and occasionally sipping from his drink. And before you know it, youâve got the skeleton of a full project mapped out.
He stretches his arms above his head, shirt riding up just enough to be distracting. âWhew. Honestly? I didnât expect to get this much done.â
You close your notebook, tapping your pen against the table. âWe could start putting together the first draft later this week.â
Gojo nods. âYeah, sure. We could work at my place or somethââ
You cut him off, tone light. âYou could come to mine.â
He freezes. Blinks. âY-your place?â
You smile sweetly. âMhm.â
He stares at you, cheeks tinged pink behind his glasses. âIâyeah. Yeah, totally. Your place. Great idea. Love that. Very efficient. Extremely platonic and professional.â
You laugh. âYouâre cute when you malfunction.â
âI donât malfunction,â he mumbles.
You donât believe that for a second.
Heâs trying so hard to play it cool, but his brain short-circuited the moment you suggested your place. His legs bounce under the table, fingers fidgeting with the sleeve of his shirt like itâll ground him somehow.
You lean back in your seat, arms crossed as you observe him with a smug little smile. âYou alright there, genius?â
Satoru clears his throat, adjusting his glasses even though theyâre not crooked. âMe? Totally fine. Just recalibrating. You know, like⊠spatially. Mentally.â
You blink at him. âUh-huh.â
He runs a hand through his snowy hair, the tips poking out in every direction like even they are flustered. âI just wasnât expecting that, is all.â
âYou werenât expecting me to suggest we work on the project?â
âNoâI mean, yesâbut at your place?â He lifts his hands, palms up like heâs holding the concept of your apartment in the air. âDo you even realize what that implies?â
You tilt your head. âThat I trust you to not snoop through my things?â
He looks offended. âI would never snoop. I am a gentleman.â
âOkay, gentleman,â you say, standing and grabbing your bag. âThen bring snacks when you come over.â
That shuts him up real quick. He stares up at you, blinking as you sling your bag over your shoulder and give him one last little smirk. âOh,â you add casually, âand maybe wear those glasses again.â
His jaw drops.
You donât wait to see his reaction. You just turn and walk off with the smuggest little sway to your step, leaving Gojo sitting thereâcompletely malfunctioning, heart doing gymnastics in his chest.
He presses a hand over it, eyes wide. âOh god.â
-
[gojo]: hey. hey hey hey
[gojo]: when u said ur place⊠u meant like. like ur apartment right
[gojo]: like ur home. with walls. and couches. and stuff
[you]: i am aware of what my apartment contains, yes.
[gojo]: just checking đ
[gojo]: do i need to bring a textbook? or will u be tutoring me using sheer intimidation alone
[you]: i thought i was the one taking notes last time?
[gojo]: yeah but you intimidated me into being smart. thatâs powerful
[gojo]: anyway whatâs ur address đ
[you]: [sends location]
[you]: and bring snacks like i said. iâm not letting you in if you show up empty handed
[gojo]: what kind of snacks
[you]: surprise me
[gojo]: âŠ
[gojo]: you have NO idea what youâve just done
[you]: satoru itâs literally just snacks
[gojo]: and now iâm overthinking EVERYTHING. chips? chocolate? do i bring a charcuterie board???
[gojo]: i need you to know iâm taking this Very Seriously.
[you]: iâm sure you are.
[gojo]: đ€ just u wait. iâll be the best study buddy youâve ever had.Â
[you]: is this your way of flirting or are you always like this
[gojo]: âŠyes
-
You open the door and there he isâstanding on your doorstep. His arms are full: a tote bag slung over his shoulder, a drink carrier in one hand, and a plastic bag filled with snacks in the other.
âYou said surprise you,â he announces, stepping in. âSo I brought everything. Chips. Cookies. Gummy worms. Protein bars, because balance. And boba. I panicked.â
You raise an eyebrow. âYou brought a buffet.â
âI wanted to impress you,â he says, dead serious, slipping his shoes off at the door.
You stifle a laugh and step aside. âCome on in.â
Your place is cozy, warm lighting humming softly. Gojoâs eyes flit around like heâs taking mental notes of every detailâyour throw pillows, your bookshelf, the faint scent of your perfume lingering in the air. You pretend not to notice how he seems ten times quieter than usual.
âSit,â you say, motioning to the couch.Â
He plops down next to you, thigh brushing yours, and pulls out his notes. âSo. I was thinking we model the phase shift in the magnetic field usingâwaitâwait, are you actually listening or just staring at my mouth?â
You blink at him. âI was listening. You just talk a lot.â
He leans in, smirking. âBut you were also staring.â
You swat his arm. âFocus.â
âYes, maâam,â he mumbles, hiding a very pleased grin.
As you two dive into the project, itâs surprisingly productive. Heâs brilliantâhe rattles off concepts with such ease that youâre genuinely impressed. You ask questions. He answers. You scribble notes while he paces your living room barefoot, gesturing wildly as he explains advanced equations like theyâre childrenâs bedtime stories. Heâs in his element. And kind of hot, too, in a completely nerdy, passionate way.
âYouâre really smart,â you say eventually, mid-note-taking.
He freezes. Turns to you slowly. âSay that again.â
You raise an eyebrow. âI said youâre smartââ
âNo no,â he says, dropping onto the couch beside you again. âSay it slower. Maybe into my ear this time.â
You laugh, shoving him gently. âGod, youâre impossible.â
âAnd yet you invited me over.â His voice drops just slightly, eyes glittering behind those thick-rimmed glasses. âKinda makes me think you like having me around.â
Your heart skips. âMaybe I do.â
He stares for a momentâreally staresâand then gives you the softest smile. âThen I guess Iâm not leaving until we finish the whole project. Top marks, remember?â
âTop marks,â you echo.
When your hands brush reaching for the same pen, you both freeze.
You recover first, pulling your hand back slightly. âYou can have it,â you say, trying to keep your voice casual.
Gojo, stubborn as ever, immediately shakes his head. âNo, itâs alright. You can have it.â
âNo, seriously, take it.â
âI insist.â
âYouâre being annoying.â
âYou like when Iâm annoying,â he says with a cheeky grin.
You roll your eyes and shove the pen towards him. âJust take it before I stab you with it.â
There's a beat of silence where you both just stare at each otherâawkward, heated, too aware of how close youâre sitting. You can feel the air shift between you, something lingering and soft.
Gojo clears his throat loudly, leaning back against the couch with exaggerated nonchalance. âUhâsnack break?â he says, voice a little too high-pitched to be smooth.
You bite back a smile, grateful for the out. âYeah. Snack break.â
He springs up like heâs been given a second life, muttering something under his breath about chips and cookies while you try very hard not to laugh.
Gojo rummages through your cabinets like he lives there, narrating dramatically under his breath. "Let's see... we have some chips, half a granola bar... oh-ho, instant ramen! A true feast fit for a queen."
You lean against the counter, arms crossed, watching him with an amused smile. "You're so dramatic."
He whirls around, holding the ramen packet in one hand like itâs a sacred artifact. "Dramatic? No, no, this is culinary excellence, sweetheart."
You snort, covering your laugh with the back of your hand. "You're about to microwave that."
"Precisely." He winks at you. "Modern problems require modern solutions."
You roll your eyes but grab a cup, filling it with water and handing it to him. Your fingers brush when he takes it, and maybe youâre imagining it, but he seems to pause for half a second longer than necessary, fingers brushing yours again on purpose.
"I'll make you the best cup ramen of your life," he declares proudly, tossing it into the microwave and punching in the time.
"Bold of you to assume I have low standards," you tease.
He leans an elbow on the counter, cocking his head at you with a lazy, smug grin. "Again. You invited me over. I'd say your standards are excellent."
Your cheeks flame immediately. "Shut up."
He just laughs, tossing his messy hair out of his eyes, looking at you like youâre the only thing that matters in the room.
The microwave dings and Gojo gasps. "It's time."
He pulls the ramen out like itâs a precious treasure, dramatically blowing on it before holding it out to you.
"Milady," he says in a terrible fake accent, "your meal."
Youâre laughing too hard to even be annoyed. You take the cup from him, smiling so hard your cheeks hurt.
-
You both make your way to the couch after the world's most gourmet snack break (according to Gojo), slumping down with your legs tucked under you while he scrolls endlessly through your streaming options.
"Pick something," you say, poking his thigh with your toe.
"But it's so hard," he whines dramatically. "What if I pick something that doesn't match our vibe?" He flashes you a sly, boyish smile, the kind that makes your heart lurch even when you don't want it to.
You roll your eyes, tossing a throw pillow at him. "Just pick something, drama queen."
He catches the pillow effortlessly, still grinning, and finally settles on some random romcomâprobably because he thinks it'll impress you with how emotionally available he is. Not even five minutes in, he does the whole exaggerated stretch and casual arm drop behind you. Textbook.
You give him a look. "Subtle."
He just beams, smug and utterly unbothered. "Thanks. Been practicing."
You shake your head, laughing under your breath, but you don't move away. Instead, you let the warmth of his arm hovering behind you linger there, like a secret.
You both slowly ease into a lazy sort of comfort, shoulders brushing every so often, knees bumping when one of you shifts. Heâs fidgety, thoughâtapping his fingers against the cushion, sneaking glances at you when he thinks you won't notice.
You notice. You just pretend not to.
Time blurs, the movie forgotten as conversation picks up again. Dumb stuff. Stories about professors, weird classmates, Gojo ranting about a physics experiment gone wrong because "the equipment was stupid, not me," and you laughing so hard your stomach hurts. At some point you realize how late itâs gotten.
You glance at your phone. "Shit, itâs almost midnight."
Gojo pouts dramatically. "Nooo, donât kick me out."
"You have class at eight tomorrow," you remind him, stretching your arms above your head. "Donât you dare blame me when you fall asleep in class."
He sighs, long and exaggerated, standing up anyway. "Fine. But just so you know, leaving is painful for me. Agony, even."
You snort, pushing yourself off the couch. "You'll live, Satoru."
He lingers by the door, bouncing on his heels like he wants to say something. And then he blurts, all in one breath: "Do you wanna go on a date with me?"
You blink, caught off guard. "A coffee date?"
"No, no!" He waves his hands frantically. "Likeâa real date. A good one. A fancy one. With food and everything!"
His voice goes a little desperate toward the end, as if you're seconds from rejecting him.
You cross your arms, fighting back a laugh. "Are you begging, Gojo?"
"Yes," he says instantly, with zero shame.
You tap your chin, pretending to think it over just to mess with him. He looks genuinely tortured, hands clutched in front of him like he's praying.
Finally, you shrug. "Alright. You can take me out."
The way his whole face lights up could rival the sun. "YESâYES, OH MY GODâokay, okay, I wonât screw this up, swear on my honorâ"
You laugh, pushing him lightly toward the door. "Text me the details, Romeo."
Heâs still beaming when he stumbles out, waving giddily.
You shake your head, grinning to yourself as you shut the door behind him.
-
You stand in front of the mirror, arms crossed, glaring at the mountain of clothes on your bed.
Itâs ridiculous. It's Gojo Satoru, for godâs sakeâthe same man who wears sweater vests unironicallyâso why are you panicking about what to wear?
You pick up a red dress, stare at it, and toss it aside. Too much.
A simple blouse and jeans? Too casual.
You want to look good. Scratch thatâyou want to make his brain short-circuit when he sees you.
Finally, after what feels like hours of spiraling, you settle on a black off-shoulder dress that hugs your figure flatteringly. Itâs something that feels like youâsimple but pretty, enough to make your heart skip when you catch your reflection.
Right as youâre fixing the final touches, your phone buzzes.
[gojo đ]: here <3
[gojo đ]: try not to fall in love with me too fast ok
You snort under your breath. Too late, you think, heart thudding faster than youâd ever admit.
You grab your bag and head outside, spotting him.Â
You almost don't recognize him at first.
Gone are the thick-rimmed glasses and the nerdy sweater vest he usually sports in class. Tonight, Gojo Satoru is dressed in a simple white button-upâsleeves rolled up to his forearmsâand black dress pants that cling just right to his lean frame. His snowy hair is still messy, like he ran his hands through it a million times, but somehow, it works. He looks effortlessly good. Stupidly good.
And when he spots you, he nearly trips over his own feet.
"Hey," you greet, a little breathless from how unfairly good he looks.
"Hey," he says back, voice cracking halfway through. He coughs, fumbling to form literal words, cheeks flushed. "You, uhâyou lookâwow."
You laugh softly as he practically skips toward you, offering you his arm with an exaggerated flourish. "Shall we, m'lady?"
You roll your eyes but take his arm anyway, feeling the warmth of him through the fabric of his shirt.
He leans down to whisper in your ear, cocky and sweet all at once: "Just so you know, I'm totally gonna brag about this to my future grandkids."
You elbow him lightly in the side, and he laughs, the happiest sound you've heard all day.
You laugh softly, letting go of him to get into the car, and he stands there for a second like heâs been shot.
When he finally gets himself together and slides into the driverâs seat, he sneaks a look at you. "Youâreâ" he starts, then cuts himself off, shaking his head like he canât believe his own luck. "Perfect," he finishes under his breath.
You pretend not to hear it, hiding your smile as he pulls out onto the roadâone hand casually on the wheel, the other fiddling nervously with his collar.
Neither of you says much at first. The radio hums softly between you.
But every few seconds, you catch him sneaking glances your way, grinning like this is already the best date ever.
-
You recognize the place immediately.
Itâs a beautiful rooftop restaurantâone youâd mentioned wanting to try in passing, months ago, when a friend posted about it on social media. You hadnât even realized he was listening.
The fact that he remembered makes your heart swell.
Satoru pulls into the valet line, hands slightly fidgety on the steering wheel. He throws a quick, nervous glance at you, like heâs scared you wonât like it.
"You, uh, mentioned it once," he says, almost shyly. "Thought it'd be better than, y'know... coffee again."
Your chest tightens in the softest, sweetest way. You open your mouth, ready to tease him, but the look on his faceâthe earnest hope in his eyesâmakes you stop. You just smile instead.
"Itâs perfect," you say quietly.
And the way he beams after that? God, you almost have to look away. Too much.
He practically leaps out of the car the second it's parked, sprinting around to your side to open the door for you. Exceptâhe miscalculates the timing and almost slams it into his own shin.
"Owâshitâ" he mutters under his breath, recovering quickly and yanking it open like nothing happened. He straightens up, all suave-like, grinning down at you.
"Milady," he says dramatically, offering you his hand.
You roll your eyes but take it anyway, letting him help you out of the car. His hand is warmâso much bigger than yoursâand he doesnât let go right away. In fact, he keeps holding it as you walk toward the entrance, fingers intertwined like itâs the most natural thing in the world.
And you donât pull away. If anything, you squeeze a little tighter.
Inside, the restaurant is even more beautiful than you imaginedâglittering fairy lights, soft music, a gentle breeze whispering across the rooftop.
Gojo glances down at you, smiling like you personally hung the stars. "Ready for the best date of your life?" he teases, but thereâs a nervous edge to itâlike your opinion actually, genuinely matters to him.
You bite your lip to hold back a grin.
"Lead the way, Romeo."
And he does. Hand in hand, heart thundering, wearing the dopiest smile imaginable.
Dinner with Gojo isâŠeffortless.
For once, he isnât tripping over his words or cracking half a dozen stupid jokes just to fill the silence. Heâs confidentânaturally confidentâin a way that makes your heart stutter. Itâs like all the nervous energy he usually carries around you has melted away tonight, leaving behind nothing but the real Satoru.
He leans back in his chair, the sleeves of his white button-up rolled up to his elbows, flashing the veins in his forearms as he lifts his wine glass to his lips.
Thereâs a lazy smirk playing on his mouth as he listens to you talk, bright blue eyes never straying from your face.
"Youâre staring," you tease after a moment, pretending to inspect the menu like youâre not burning under his gaze.
"Yeah," he says simply, not even bothering to deny it. "Youâre beautiful. Iâm allowed to stare."
You nearly choke on your water.
Recovering quickly, you raise a brow. "Smooth," you deadpan, setting your glass down.
He chuckles lowly, the sound curling around your spine like smoke. "Only because itâs true," he says, and the sheer casualty of it has your cheeks heating up.
And the worst part? You canât even pretend youâre unaffectedâbecause he sees it. The way your lips twitch, the way your eyes flicker away for just a second.
"So," you say quickly, trying to regain control of the conversation, "when youâre not busy terrorizing professors and making girls swoon, what do you do for fun, Gojo?"
He hums, pretending to think about it, tapping his fork against his lip.
"Hmm...think about you mostly," he says airily.
You whip your napkin at him across the table, and he lets out a bark of laughter, catching it midair like a reflex.
The two of you fall into easy conversation after thatâbantering, laughing, throwing subtle (and not-so-subtle) jabs at each other. It feels so natural that you almost forget this is your first real date.
Thereâs a momentâbetween courses, when youâre both picking at the remains of dessertâthat you catch him just looking at you again. No teasing. No smirk. Just watching. Soft, and a little awed.
You shift slightly, suddenly aware of the intimacy stretching between you. "What?" you murmur.
He blinks, as if waking up. Shakes his head, smiling faintly.
"Nothing," he says, voice a little rough. "Youâre justâreally fucking gorgeous."
Itâs so sincere that you donât even know what to say back. You just look at him, feeling your chest tighten in that dangerous, dangerous way again.
-
The drive back is quietânot uncomfortable. JustâŠfull.
Full of things unsaid, full of that warmth thatâs been simmering between you both all night.
Gojo parks in front of your place, turning off the engine, but neither of you make a move to get out right away. You just sit there, the hum of the night wrapping around you, the silence speaking louder than words ever could.
He turns in his seat slightly, arm draped over the steering wheel, looking at you with that soft, lopsided smile he reserves only for you now.
"I had a really good time," he says quietly, like itâs a secret meant only for you.
You smile back, feeling something sweet and dangerous unfurl in your chest. "Me too," you murmur, fingers twisting slightly in your lap.
The moment stretchesâcomfortable, a little electricâand you know you should say goodnight. You should.
So you finally reach for the door handle, pulling it openâAnd then, without thinking, you turn back.
Leaning in quick, before you can psych yourself out, you press a soft kiss to his cheek.
Itâs light, barely a brush, but Gojo freezes like youâve just electrocuted him.
You donât wait for his reaction. Your face burning, you practically stumble out of the car, slamming the door shut behind you with a muttered, "Goodnight!"
Through the window, you catch a glimpse of him: Wide-eyed, stunned, a hand lifted dazedly to his cheek like he can't believe what just happened.
And then he laughsâa breathless, giddy sound that you swear you can hear even as you rush up the steps to your door, heart hammering like crazy.
Inside the car, Satoru slumps back against the seat, grinning so hard his cheeks hurt. "God," he mutters to himself, still touching the spot where you kissed him, "Iâm so fucked."
-
Youâre lying in bed when your phone buzzes in your hand. Heart still racing from that impulsive kiss you planted on his cheek, you scramble to pick it up, thumbs fumbling.
[gojo đ]: next time, youâre not getting away with just a kiss on the cheek.
You nearly drop your phone.
Oh. Oh.
Your stomach flips. Your face burns. And even though you want to play it cool, you canât fight the smile tugging at your lips. You bite your lip, thumbs hovering over the keyboard before finally typing back:
[you]: is that a threat, satoru?
The reply comes almost instantly, like he was waiting for you:
[gojo đ]: no baby, thatâs a promise.
You stare at the screen, heart hammering against your ribs.Â
Baby. God, youâre so done for.
And like he hasnât already made you melt enough tonight, he sends another message:
[gojo đ]: get some sleep, prettyÂ
You bury your face into your pillow with a squeal, kicking your feet into the mattress. You type back quickly before you lose your nerve:
[you]: goodnight, satoru. try not to miss me too much.
And a few seconds later:
[gojo đ]: too late.
[you]: careful, satoru. you're sounding real desperate rn.
You barely have time to smirk before he hits you with:
[gojo đ]: desperate?
[gojo đ]: for you? always.
And like he knows youâre losing it, he sends one more:
[gojo đ]: sleep tight, gorgeous.
[gojo đ]: dream of me.
[gojo đ]: i'll definitely be dreaming of you. (and if i wake up hard, it's your fault btw)
You scream into your pillow.
Your hands tremble as you type your final text:
[you]: sweet dreams, toru <3
[you]: maybe next time you wonât have to just dream ;)
And the moment you send it, you shut your phone off and toss it across the bed because thereâs absolutely no way youâre surviving if he replies. (He does. Five seconds later.)
[gojo đ]: fucking hell.
-
Satoruâs still staring at your last text. Eyes wide. Mouth parted.
maybe next time you wonât have to just dream
He drops his phone onto the bed with a dull thud, dragging both hands down his face.
"Goddammit," he breathes, tipping his head back against the headboard.
Youâre gonna kill him. Youâre actually gonna kill him.
He sits there for a good minute, struggling to breathe normally, heart hammering against his ribs, cock already half-hard just from that one text. (Just from a text. He's so far gone it's not even funny.)
"Pull it together, Gojo," he mutters, raking a hand through his messy hair.
But the moment he squeezes his eyes shut, itâs you he seesâsmiling up at him all coy, leaning in close, whispering things in that pretty voice you have, like you knew exactly what kind of mess you were leaving him in.
You did. You knew exactly what you were doing.
He groans, thunking his head back harder against the headboard, biting down a low, frustrated sound as your words loop endlessly in his brain.
Youâre driving him insane.
Before he can talk himself out of it, he shoves his sleep shorts down just enough and wraps a hand around his cock, cursing under his breath when he realizes how hard he already is.
Itâs wrong. He knows itâs wrongâyou havenât even properly kissed yet. But god, you're just so, so perfect. So effortlessly beautiful.Â
He squeezes his eyes shut tighter, his hand moving slowly, pretending itâs you insteadâyour hand wrapped around him, your body pressed close, your breath ghosting over his ear as you whisper all the filthy things he can barely even let himself imagine.
"Fuck," he hisses through his teeth, hips bucking up into his fist, desperate for more.
He canât help it.
Youâre in his head. Youâre under his skin. And heâs not even sure he wants to be saved.
His thighs tense, muscles flexing as he fists himself harder, chasing that high like a man starved. The sound of his breathâharsh and brokenâfills the room. Your name nearly falls from his lips like a prayer.
And when he finally comes, itâs with a soft, bitten-off moan, warmth spilling over his knuckles.Â
His mind blanks for a long, dizzy secondânothing but the feeling of you filling every corner of him.
He collapses back against the pillows, breathless. Staring at the ceiling like heâs just been fucking wrecked. Sweaty. Panting. His hand sticky and his soul halfway out of his body.
He drags a hand down his face again, groaning. "...I'm so fucking screwed," Satoru mutters to himself, glaring uselessly at the ceiling like itâs personally responsible for his downfall.
-
The sunlightâs barely filtering through his blinds when Satoru stirs awake, messy hair flattened against his forehead, phone slipping from his chest with a quiet thunk onto the mattress.
Groaning, he blindly pats around for it, eyes still crusted shut from sleep.
When he finally blinks them open, he sees the last thing he remembers: your text. The text that ruined his entire night.
He slaps a hand over his face and drags it down slowly, mumbling, âIâm going to hell.â
But because heâs an idiotâan idiot in loveâhe still unlocks his phone, thumbs hovering nervously over the screen.
He needs to text you. Needs to act normal. Needs to pretend he didnât almost cry last night over how fucking good it felt imagining you touching him.
He taps out a message, agonizing over every word:
[you]: good morning :) hope you slept well!
He stares at it for a second longer, wondering if he sounds too eager, then panics and deletes the smiley. Then retypes it. Then deletes it again.
Then sends it without the emoji because God forbid he looks like heâs about to propose or something.
He tosses his phone down and flops back against his pillows, staring up at the ceiling like it holds the answers to his sins.
Not even ten seconds pass before his phone buzzes. Heart slamming against his ribs, he fumbles to read it:
[sweetheart đ]: you too, toru. sweet dreams? ;)
He physically chokes. Coughs. Slaps his own chest like heâs trying to restart his heart.
âSweet dreamsâ?â he sputters aloud, horrified, voice cracking. âSWEETâ?â
The images from last night flash vividly in his mind: your lips, your breathy giggles, your hands sneaking lowerâ
He shoves his face into a pillow and screams.
When he finally peeks out, shame swirling in his gut, he types back with trembling hands:
[you]: sweetest dreams ever. totally normal. nothing weird about them at all.
And then he turns his phone face-down. Because he cannot. He cannot see what youâre going to reply.
Heâs so down bad it's physically painful.
-
You stare at your phone, biting your lip to hold back a grin.Â
Totally normal. Nothing weird about them at all.
Sure, Satoru. Sure.
You kick your feet a little under your blanket, giddy, heart thumping like crazy. You know exactly what youâre doing. You know exactly what youâre doing to him.
And youâre not done yet. You let him stew in his own panic for a few minutesâjust to watch him sufferâbefore tapping out a reply:
[you]: sounds like someoneâs overcompensating⊠;)
You hit send and immediately burst into laughter, flopping back into your pillows. You can practically imagine him screaming into his hands right now, scrambling to figure out what to say without incriminating himself even more.
And because youâre a menace, you follow it up:
[you]: itâs okay, toru. you can dream about me whenever you want <3
There. Youâve officially ruined his whole morning.
You toss your phone aside and stretch, feeling like you just hit a home run. But then your phone buzzes againâmultiple timesâand you grab it, giggling.
First, from Satoru:
[toru đ]: youâre evil. pure evil. iâm never sleeping again.
And then another, right after:
[toru đ]: coffee today? my treat. i need to see your evil little face or iâm going to combust.
You roll over onto your stomach, kicking your legs up behind you, cheeks aching from smiling so hard.
Maybe you are evil. But god, itâs so fun when heâs this easy to tease.
You tap out your reply, heart light:
[you]: only if you promise not to die before you get here.
-
It doesnât even take ten minutes before thereâs a knock at your door. You blink in surpriseâyou hadnât even changed yet.
Another knock, this time a little quicker, a little eager.
You pad over and crack the door openâand there he is.
Satoru, all messy hair, rumpled shirt, soft smile. Holding two coffees in his hands.
And looking at you like you hung the moon.
"Hi," he says, almost shyly. "Brought you a coffee."
You blink at him.
He fidgets, rocking on his heels. "I, uh... thought maybe we could, y'know, hang out a little. If youâre not busy."
Your heart melts a little at how hopeful he sounds.
"Youâre impossible," you tease, swinging the door wider.
"And you're stuck with me," he chirps, stepping inside like he belongs there.
You take one of the coffees from him, fingers brushing, and he beams like youâve just given him the greatest honor.
"Thanks," you say, smiling into your cup. "Even though you didnât have to."
"I wanted to," he says simply, plopping onto your couch with zero hesitation. (And he leaves way too little space for you, thigh already brushing yours.)
You sit down beside him, your shoulders bumping. He hums under his breath, swinging his legs a little like a kid whoâs gotten his favorite candy.
For a minute, itâs just the two of you, sipping coffee, the silence warm and comfortable.
And then, out of nowhere, he leans his head dramatically onto your shoulder.
You freeze for a second, heart skipping.
He sighsâloudlyâagainst you. "Youâre not gonna kick me out, right?"
You laugh, nudging him with your elbow. "Not if you behave."
"Thatâs asking for a lot," he grins, tilting his head up to look at you. His smileâs a little mischievous, a little boyish.
You roll your eyes, trying to hide your blush behind your coffee cup.
And because heâs shamelessâand he knows heâs winningâhe adds, voice low and teasing: "Maybe if you give me another goodbye kiss?"
You almost spill your coffee.
He sees itâthe way your fingers fumble, the way your face flushesâand smirks.
"C'mon," he teases, nudging your knee with his. "Wasn't that bad of an idea, was it?"
You narrow your eyes at him, tryingâfailingâto fight your smile. "You," you say, poking his chest, "are way too full of yourself."
"And yet..." Satoru leans in, slow, eyes locked on yours. His voice drops to a whisper. "...you're not moving away."
Your breath catches. Because he's rightâyouâre not. If anything, you're leaning in too.
For a moment, neither of you says anything. The room feels too quiet, too charged. You can hear his breathing, slow and steady, can feel the heat radiating off of him.
Satoruâs gaze drops to your mouthâand lingers there. "Can I?" he murmurs, so soft you almost donât catch it.
Your heart thuds loud in your chest. You nod.
Thatâs all he needs.
Slowly, achingly slowly, he closes the gap, giving you every chance to pull awayâbut you donât. You tilt your chin up, meeting him halfway.
When his lips finally brush yours, itâs gentleâbarely a kiss, more like a breath, a promise.
You sigh against him, and that tiny sound seems to undo him. He tilts his head, deepening the kiss just slightly, just enough to taste you. His hand comes up to cradle your cheek, thumb brushing over your skin so tenderly it makes your chest ache.
You kiss him back, slow and sweet, fingers curling into the soft fabric of his shirt.
It drags outâneither of you in any rush, savoring every second.
He kisses you like heâs afraid youâll vanish if he stops. And you kiss him like youâve been waiting forever for this moment.
When you finally, reluctantly, pull apart, you're both breathless. He presses his forehead against yours, grinning like an idiot. "So..." he whispers, voice a little hoarse. "Can I stay a little longer?"
You pretend to think about it, biting your lip to hide your smile. "Maybe," you tease. "If you behave."
He groans, flopping dramatically onto your couch again, tugging you down with him so you land half-on top of him, laughing.
"Not a chance," he says happily.
You're warm against him, tucked into his side, your head resting on his shoulder like you belonged there. And for a moment, Satoru feels like the luckiest man alive.
Until his brainâtraitorous, evil, rottenâreminds him.
Reminds him of how he spent last night fucking his fist like a deranged lunatic, thinking about you. Reminds him that you have no idea just how far gone he already is.
A quiet, horrified voice in his head: I'm a monster.
His throat goes dry.His hands twitch awkwardly where they rest on your waist, unsure if he should even be touching you like thisâuntil you shift, just slightly, peeking up at him with this sleepy little smile.
And just like that, every coherent thought leaves him. All that's left is you.
"You're comfy," you mumble against him, snuggling closer.
Satoru lets out a weak, broken little laugh, hiding his burning face against your hair.
If you only knew. If you only knew what you did to him.
He doesn't know how long he sits there with you tucked into him, drinking in your warmth. He could stay like this forever, he thinks. Hell, he wants to.
But then his phone buzzes.
He barely registers it, ignoring it at first. Until it buzzes again. And again.
He groans, reluctant, fishing it out of his pocket while you shift sleepily against him. The screen flashes: a reminder for his evening tutoring session he totally, utterly forgot about. He slumps.
"Something wrong?" you ask, voice soft, blinking up at him.
"I gotta go," he mutters like he's being forced into exile.
You bite back a smile, stretching lazily. "Duty calls?"
"Yeah." He pouts, actually pouts. "Stupid duty."
You laugh under your breath, and it's so unfair how easily you knock the air out of his lungs without even trying.
He stands reluctantly, dragging his feet like a kid leaving recess early.
"Hey," you call out. "Arenât you forgetting something?"
He turns around and blinks at you, confusion flickering across his faceâbut then you smile. Soft. Warm. Something just for him.
You step close, tiptoe a little to reach him. And Satoru swears, swears, his heart stumbles in his chest when you press a gentle kiss to his lips.
It's feather-light. Barely there. Sweet enough to make his knees almost buckle.
And when you pull back, a cheeky glint in your eye, he's just standing there. Frozen. Speechless. The stupidest grin pulling at his mouth.
"See you later, âToru," you say lightly, nudging him toward the door.
And all he can manageâvoice cracking slightly, heart hammering out of his chestâis a dazed "Y-Yeah. Later."
You shut the door behind him with a little wave, and he stands there for a good ten seconds before he finally remembers how to move.
-
Class feels different today.
Youâre hyper-aware of everything.
The way Satoru brushes his knee against yours under the table, all casual-like. The way his pinky keeps nudging yours on the desk until finally, finally, you relent and let your fingers curl around his. The way he keeps sneaking glances at you out of the corner of his eyeâand every time you catch him, he just smiles, like heâs getting away with something.
Itâs infuriating. Itâs adorable. Itâs Satoru.
You pretend to focus on the lecture. Really, you do. But itâs hard when you can feel the warmth of his hand ghosting over your thigh under the table, a barely-there touch that sends your heart skittering against your ribs.
By the time the professor starts wrapping up class, youâre halfway to combusting.
"Donât forget," she says, tapping the whiteboard, "project updates are due next week."
You scribble the deadline in your notes, but Satoruâs already turning toward you, practically bouncing in his seat.
"Hey," he says, voice pitched low enough that only you can hear. "How about we work on it at my place today?"
You blink, startled. "Your place?"
He grins, bright and boyish. "Yeah! First time for everything, right?"
The way he says itâlight, teasing, almost a little shyâmakes something flutter wildly in your chest.
"Itâll be chill," he continues. "We can grab some snacks, order takeout, maybe actually get stuff done this timeâ"
You narrow your eyes at him, suspicious. "Are you actually suggesting a productive study session or trying to lure me into a trap?"
He gasps, hand clutching dramatically at his chest. "Me? Lure you? Iâm offended." Then he drops the act, leaning in close, that mischievous spark lighting up his eyes. "But if you happen to end up in my lap or something, yâknow... destiny."
You shove him lightly, cheeks warming. "God, youâre insufferable."
"Face itâyou love this," he says, nudging your shoulder with his.Â
You roll your eyes so hard itâs a miracle they donât fall out of your head. Still...you find yourself smiling.
"Fine," you say, packing up your stuff. "But weâre actually working this time."
He pumps a fist in victory. "Yes! Bring that sexy brain of yours, princess. Weâre gonna kill this project."
You throw a crumpled sticky note at him. He catches it midair, flashing a grin that practically glows.
-
Youâre home, lounging on your bed, phone in hand.
The texting starts innocent enough.
[you]: what should I bring?
[toru đ]: just that pretty little self of yours
You roll your eyes, biting back a smile.
[you]: be serious
[toru đ]: i am. iâm dead serious. maybe a notebook too though lol
You roll your eyes, thumbs hovering over your screen. Before you can type anything else, another message pops up:
[toru đ]: also⊠try not to look too pretty
[toru đ]: kinda hard to focus when youâre around
You blink at the screen, heart skipping a beat. The sudden boldness makes you squirm a little under your covers.
Before you can even react, a third text follows:
[toru đ]: hereâs my address
A pinned location pops up. Followed byâ
[toru đ]: hurry over please
You stare at the messages, warmth blooming in your chest (and spreading lower, if you were honest).
You should probably be nervous. You should definitely be more cautious.
But all you do is grin, toss your phone onto the bed, and start getting ready.
-
You barely knock once before the door swings open.
And there he is.
Black tank top clinging to his chest, basketball shorts slung so low it should be illegal. Lean muscles on full display. Sleep-mussed white hair falling over his forehead.
You actually forget how to breathe. Your brain just... shuts down.
Satoruâs mouth twitches into a knowing smirk. He leans lazily against the doorframe, crossing his arms â muscles flexing, because of course they do â and tips his head at you.
âWell, well," he drawls, amusement dripping from every word. "Didnât think youâd be that easy to stun."
You blink â once, twice â scrambling to find your voice. "Iâm not stunned," you blurt out, way too fast to be convincing.
"Mhm," he hums, that smug little grin widening. "Sure. You just like standing on people's porches looking like you forgot your own name?"
You shove past him with a flustered scoff, cheeks burning. But you can feel his eyes trailing after you, slow and satisfied, as he shuts the door behind you.
"You didnât tell me the dress code was..." you flounder, gesturing vaguely at his entire existence, "thirst trap casual."
"Aw, you think Iâm a thirst trap?" he coos, stepping dangerously close â close enough that you have to tilt your head back to look at him properly.
"I think youâre an asshole," you snap â except your voice comes out all breathy, completely ruining the effect.
Satoru chuckles â a low, rich sound that vibrates all the way through you. "You can be honest, y'know. It's just us here." He leans down, dropping his voice into a whisper, "You like what you see."
You make a strangled noise in your throat and whirl around, pretending to inspect the living room like it's the most fascinating thing youâve ever seen. "Whereâs your project stuff?" you demand, heart thundering against your ribs.
"Wow," he says behind you, tone all fake-hurt. "Use me for my brain and ditch me for my abs. Brutal."
"You have a brain?" you retort, finally finding a shred of composure.
He laughs again â easy, bright â and brushes past you, the barest graze of his arm against yours sending your nerves into a frenzy.
"Come on, nerd," he calls over his shoulder, tossing a wink at you that almost knocks you off your feet. "Projectâs not gonna finish itself."
You huff, yanking your notebook out of your bag to try and hide the stupid, giddy smile pulling at your lips.
Youâre just barely settled on the couch, notebook balanced on your lap, when Satoru stretches â arms over his head, tank top riding up dangerously â and says, âActually... weâll have more space in my room."
You blink at him, heart skipping a beat. "Your room?" you repeat, raising an eyebrow.
He flashes a wide, shit-eating grin. "Yeah. Bigger desk. Better lighting."
You narrow your eyes, pretending to be skeptical. "Oh? Already trying to get me in bed?"
Satoru stops dead in his tracks â but only for half a second. Then he tosses a look over his shoulder, cocky and wicked. "Donât give me ideas," he says, voice low and playful.
Your cheeks burn so hot youâre surprised you donât spontaneously combust. But youâre stubborn â so you just huff and follow him anyway, ignoring the smug little chuckle he lets out as he leads you down the hall. And then you step into his room â and freeze.
Because itâs... itâs not what you expect. Sure, itâs a little messy â loose clothes on a chair, half-done laundry â but what really grabs your attention is the shelf. More specifically: the shelf packed with colorful little figures. Posters. Framed prints. All of it instantly recognizable.
"...Is thatâ" you start, pointing.
"Digimon," Satoru says immediately, like he's bracing himself for judgment.
You stare. You blink. And then â you laugh. Loud, bright, uncontrollable.
He groans, dragging a hand down his face. "I knew it. I knew you were gonna make fun of me."
You grin at him, unrepentant. "You? Cool, confident, six-foot-whatever Gojo Satoru... secret Digimon stan? Oh, this is gold."
"Itâs not secret," he grumbles, crossing his arms like a petulant kid. "Digimonâs fucking awesome. Better than PokĂ©mon. Better story arcs, deeper charactersâ"
"You sound so defensive," you giggle, stepping closer to inspect a particularly adorable stuffed Agumon perched on his bed.
He steps up beside you, bumping your shoulder lightly with his and picks up the plushie to toss it somewhere else. "You're lucky you're cute," he mutters, mock-threatening, "or Iâd kick you out right now."
You bite back a smile, feeling that fluttery, giddy warmth bloom in your chest again. Because for all his teasing, all his cocky bravado â thereâs something painfully endearing about how unapologetically himself he is. No hiding. No shame. Just... Satoru.
"Youâre such a nerd," you say fondly.
Satoru smirks, eyes glinting mischievously. "Yeah? Still think Iâm a thirst trap though?"
You sputter, flustered all over again â and he cackles, so pleased with himself itâs criminal.
God. You are so screwed.
You perch awkwardly on the edge of his bed, notebook in your lap again, pretending youâre not hyper-aware of how huge his bed is, how close he is, how the mattress dips slightly under his weight when he flops down next to you.
"Alright," he says, stretching lazily, flashing a sliver of toned stomach again. "Serious time. Project planning. Let's go."
You nod, throat a little dry. "Serious," you echo, flipping open the notebook. "No distractions."
"None whatsoever," he agrees solemnly.
You start brainstorming, scribbling notes in the margins, muttering ideas under your breath. For a few minutes, everythingâs fine. Normal. Until you feel it â the slight brush of his knee against yours. At first, you think itâs an accident. You shift slightly to the side.
But then it happens again. And again.
And then â Satoru leans closer, peering over your shoulder, his breath warm against your cheek. His hand rests casually on the bed behind you, fingers curling ever so slightly around the edge of your shirt.
You pretend to ignore it. Pretend so hard it almost works.
But then he hums low in his throat â a thoughtful, lazy little sound â and lets his hand slide up, fingers brushing lightly against your lower back, and your entire body tenses.
"'Toru..." you murmur, trying for stern, but it comes out way too breathy. You donât even look at him â you canât â because you already know what youâll find: those blue eyes, lazy and half-lidded, the ghost of a smirk tugging at his lips.
"Focus," you manage, tapping the notebook for emphasis.
He leans in, so close his nose almost brushes your temple, and murmurs in a voice so low it makes your stomach flip:
"You make it hard to."
His hand is bold now â fingers tracing slow, idle patterns over the dip of your waist, so gentle it leaves a trail of fire in its wake. Your breath stutters in your throat. You feel your heart hammer against your ribs.
You finally â finally â dare a glance at him.
And heâs looking at you like heâs starving.
For you.
The tension is a physical thing now, heavy and thick in the air between you. You swear you can hear the blood rushing in your ears.
"...You're unbelievable," you whisper, the notebook slipping from your fingers.
His smirk deepens, shameless. "You like it."
God help you â you do.
You scramble, trying desperately to recover your sanity, to remember why youâre even here in the first place. The project. The project, dammit.
You slap your palm over the notebook, pushing it toward him. "W-We should reallyâ really focus," you stammer, voice wobbling embarrassingly.
He just grins, slow and easy, that grin that makes you forget your own name.
"I am focused," he says, voice dropping into that low, teasing rasp. "Focused on you."
And before you can react, he shifts â the bed dipping under his weight as he gently crowds into your space.
Your breath catches.
He cages you in with a hand planted firm beside your hip, his other hand curling loosely around your wrist like heâs giving you the option to pull away â like heâs daring you to.
You donât. You canât.
Youâre frozen, wide-eyed, heart thudding like crazy.
His forehead presses lightly to yours, and you feel the whisper of his breath against your lips.
"You drive me crazy, y'know that?" he murmurs, voice impossibly soft. Every word vibrates through you.
You open your mouth â to say what, youâre not sure â but no sound comes out. Youâre too busy trying not to melt.
And then he moves. Sudden but gentle, he presses you down against the mattress, his body hovering above yours, careful not to crush you.
Your hands instinctively fly up to his chest â oh, God his chest â and you feel the steady pound of his heartbeat under your palms.
Heâs close now, so close you can see every detail of his face â the slight pink flush on his cheeks, the playful crinkle at the corners of his eyes, the way his pupils are blown wide with something between affection and hunger.
"Youâre so cute when you're flustered," he teases, and you want to hate him for it, you really do.
But you donât. You can't.
Instead, you fist your hands in the soft fabric of his shirt and squeeze your eyes shut, trying to will your racing pulse back to normal.
He chuckles, low and smug. Then â so lightly you almost think you imagined it â he brushes his nose along the side of your jaw, breathing you in.
"Youâre killing me," he whispers.
You whimper â actual, real, humiliating whimper â and he grins.
But he doesnât kiss you. Not yet.
He just stays there, letting the tension thicken, letting you squirm, savoring it.
Itâs agony. Itâs perfect.
You feel it â the exact moment his lips almost touch yours.
Itâs a whisper of a moment, barely-there, the ghost of contact that makes your whole body tense up in anticipation.
Heâs so close. So close you can taste the heat radiating off him, the sweet, addictive scent of his cologne, the lazy tilt of his grin as he leans inâ
And thatâs when you snap out of it.
At the very last second, you slip a hand between your bodies, planting your palm firmly against his chest to stop him.
His eyes fly open, confused, slightly wild.
You smile â sweet, smug â up at him.
"Uh-uh," you say, your voice still a little breathless but steady enough to make him narrow his eyes suspiciously. "Project first."
The sheer betrayal on his face.
"You've gotta be kidding me," he groans, dropping his forehead dramatically onto your shoulder like you just mortally wounded him. "I was so close, baby, c'monâ"
You cackle. Gojo finds it beautiful.
He lifts his head, leveling you with the most pathetic pout youâve ever seen. "You're evil," he accuses.
You just wiggle your eyebrows at him, smirking. "Should've thought about that before trying to seduce me in broad daylight, Gojo."
He collapses beside you with a dramatic huff, flopping back against the bed like his soul has been snatched from his body.
"Itâs almost 7. Unbelievable," he mutters. "This is harassment. I should sue."
You reach over, patting his chest twice, condescending and sweet. "There, there."
He turns his head, glaring at you â but the slight twitch of his lips gives him away.
"You owe me later," he says, pointing a finger at you like a solemn oath.
You hum, pretending to think it over, before shooting him a wicked little grin. "We'll see if you're good."
His groan is loud enough to rattle the bed.
You're absolutely thriving.
Youâre trying so hard to focus. You really are. Project notes scattered across the bed, laptop open, a half-written paragraph blinking at you like it's taunting your lack of progress.
And thenâ
"Break time!" Satoru declares, already tugging you off the bed by your wrist before you can even protest.
You stumble after him, laughing breathlessly. "Satoru, we barely got anything done!"
"Exactly why we need a break," he grins, dragging you toward the kitchen like a man on a mission. "Youâll thank me later."
You roll your eyes but let him haul you along, too curious (and maybe a little too charmed) to resist.
He lets go of your hand once you reach the kitchen and dramatically cracks his knuckles, looking far too proud of himself.
"Watch and learn, sweetheart," he says, shooting you a wink. "You're in the presence of greatness."
You snort, crossing your arms and leaning against the counter. "Oh yeah? You gonna burn the house down, master chef?"
He gasps â actually gasps â clutching his chest like you mortally wounded him. "You wound me."
You just laugh, watching as he rummages through the fridge with entirely too much flair, pulling out random ingredients and setting them on the counter.
"You're literally just making instant ramen," you point out dryly, but there's a smile tugging at your lips.
"Gourmet instant ramen," he corrects, wagging a finger at you. "With egg. And scallions. And a lilâ bit of love."
He tosses you another wink and you lose it, doubling over in silent laughter.
You lean back against the counter, arms folded, trying â and failing â to look unimpressed as he hums to himself, clattering pots around. Heâs in a black tank top and low-hanging shorts, muscles flexing casually with every movement, hair messy from dragging his hands through it.
And itâs... distracting. Way too distracting.
Especially when he starts cracking an egg one-handed like a cocky asshole.
"Show-off," you mutter under your breath.
"Donât act like youâre not impressed," he sing-songs, peeking at you from under snowy lashes, smug as hell.
You flip him off lazily. He just grins wider.
The kitchen fills with the scent of broth and spices, steam curling in the air. He moves with this effortless, chaotic sort of confidence â a little reckless, a little messy â but somehow everything comes together perfectly.
When he turns to you again, ramen bowl in hand, he looks so goddamn pleased with himself you want to laugh.
"See?" he says, stepping closer. "I'm basically husband material."
You tilt your head, raising a brow. "You make instant noodles and think you deserve a ring?"
"Handmade. Special edition. Enhanced with love." He winks, holding up the bowl like an offering. "You should be honored."
And even though you roll your eyes, you can't help the smile tugging at your lips â can't help the way your stomach flips stupidly as he steps even closer, towering over you with that lazy, confident grin.
-
You set the now-empty bowl down on the counter, nudging him with your elbow. "Since you whipped up such a gourmet meal, I guess the least I can do is the dishes."
Satoru leans back against the counter, grinning so wide it's almost embarrassing. "You spoil me."
You roll your eyes but start gathering up the dishes anyway, rinsing them under the tap. The warm water and simple task are oddly comforting, your movements easy, natural.
And from behind you, you can feel it â his gaze, warm and heavy, drinking you in like he's memorizing this moment.
Before you can even finish rinsing the second bowl, you feel him â long arms sliding around your waist, pulling you back into him, chest pressed against your back.
You huff a soft laugh, not bothering to fight it. "Needy much?"
He just hums, nose nudging into the crook of your neck, his hair tickling your skin. "You smell good," he mumbles, voice low and content.
"Why, thank you," you say, but itâs half a smile.
"I could get used to this," he murmurs, squeezing you a little tighter.
You finish up the dishes like that â his arms around you, his weight solid and comforting at your back, his soft little praises murmured into your ear in between.
"You're pretty," he says at one point, completely unprompted. "So pretty I don't know how I'm supposed to concentrate when you're around."
You duck your head, smiling to yourself, feeling your cheeks burn.
When you finally dry your hands and turn around to face him, he's already looking down at you with stars in his eyes, a little breathless like he can't believe you're real.
You loop your arms around his neck without thinking, tugging him a little closer, and he leans into it easily, lazily, like he's been waiting for this exact moment. "Can I kiss you yet?" he asks, grinning like an idiot, voice all hopeful and teasing.
You laugh, soft and fond, brushing your fingers through the hair at the nape of his neck. "Sure, loverboy."
And he doesn't waste a second â swooping down to finally, finally claim your lips in a kiss that's sweet and warm and a little clumsy with excitement, like he just canât hold it in anymore.
The moment your lips meet, itâs like something clicks into place.
At first, itâs a gentle brush of mouths, shy and smiling. He kisses you once, then twice, like he canât get enough, like heâs trying to memorize the shape of your mouth. But then you tilt your head just a little, arms tightening around his neck, and he groans â a low, helpless sound that rumbles against your chest.
And just like that, the kiss deepens.
His hands, which had been resting innocently at your waist, slide down â gripping your hips with a little more urgency, pulling you flush against him. You gasp softly into his mouth, and he takes full advantage, slotting his mouth over yours in a way that leaves your knees just barely holding you up. You feel it when his fingers flex, pressing you closer, when his body shudders lightly against yours.
God, heâs starving for you. You can feel it in the way he kisses â slow but hungry, like heâs been waiting for this, aching for it.
When he pulls back for just a breath, his forehead presses to yours, and his voice is ragged, wrecked. "Youâre gonna kill me," he whispers, before diving back in, more desperate this time.
You whimper into his mouth without meaning to, clutching at the front of his shirt, feeling the heat of him seeping into your palms.
Satoru groans again, hands sliding up your sides, thumbs brushing just under the hem of your shirt, skin to skin.
Itâs not rushed. Itâs not frantic. Itâs slow â simmering â like heâs savoring every second, like he wants this moment to stretch on forever.
And itâs only when his teeth gently tug at your bottom lip â when your breathing turns shallow and desperate against each other â that you finally, finally break away.
Both of you stand there for a second, breathing hard, faces flushed.
You feel dizzy. He looks completely wrecked.
Youâre both breathless when you pull apart, foreheads resting together, lips tingling.
Satoruâs hands are still on your waist, holding you close like heâs not ready to let go. You can feel the way his chest rises and falls against yours â shallow, like heâs trying to calm himself down.
He gives a short, breathy laugh. âJesus,â he mutters. âYouâre gonna be the death of me.â
You smile, dazed. âPretty sure thatâs mutual.â
Thereâs a beat of silence â heavy with everything unsaid â before he leans in again.
Hungrier. Rougher. Like heâs been holding back all night and canât anymore. His mouth moves over yours with unfiltered need, hands pulling you closer like itâs the only thing keeping him grounded.
You make a soft noise into his mouth, and it only spurs him on. The way he kisses you â itâs not perfect. Itâs messy and fast and desperate, teeth catching on your lower lip, hands gripping tight like heâs scared youâll slip away.
Your fingers wind into the fabric of his tank top, pulling him even closer until youâre practically wrapped around him.
He breaks the kiss just barely, lips brushing yours as he breathes out, âTell me if itâs too much.â
You shake your head. âItâs not. Iïżœïżœâ You swallow. âI want this. You.â
His expression softens for a split second before that heat comes rushing back. His mouth is back on yours, slower this time but no less intense â like heâs trying to memorize how you taste.
When his hand slips under your shirt and settles on the small of your back, warm and firm, you shiver.
He kisses you like he means it. Like he feels it.
And when you finally pull back again, breathless and flushed, he just smiles â eyes glassy, voice low.
âYou have no idea what youâre doing to me.â
You barely have time to catch your breath before heâs kissing you again.
No warning, no hesitation â just the searing press of his mouth against yours like heâs starving for it. Like he needs more. And you give in without thinking, letting him pull you closer until thereâs not a sliver of space left between your bodies.
His hands are on your waist, fingers tightening like heâs trying to anchor himself. And when your hands slide up his chest, over those broad shoulders, he groans into your mouth â low and wrecked.
Itâs dizzying, the way he kisses you. Every time you think heâll stop, he comes back for more â messier, deeper, rougher. Your fingers tangle in his hair as his lips trail down to your jaw, then your neck, slow and hot and reverent.
And then suddenly, he pulls back just enough to look you in the eyes.
His voice is breathless, raw. âHold on.â
Before you can ask what he means, he lifts you â effortlessly, like itâs the most natural thing in the world. You let out a startled gasp, arms wrapping around his neck as he carries you through the apartment. Your heartâs hammering so hard youâre sure he can feel it.
Heâs grinning now, cocky and breathless all at once. âI warned you Iâm husband material.â
âShut up,â you mutter against his neck, flustered beyond reason.
But thereâs no hiding the way your legs tighten around his waist.
He nudges his bedroom door open with his foot, stepping inside, and the second youâre both in, he sets you down gently. And just like that, heâs on you again â kissing you like heâs waited his whole life for this.
His mouth is still on yours when he shifts forward, slowly pressing you back until your knees hit the edge of the bed. You stumble slightly, gripping his arms for balanceâand the second your weight tips back, he goes with you.
The two of you collapse onto the mattress in a tangled mess of limbs and breathless laughter, but heâs quick to recover. Quick to pin you there beneath him, hands braced on either side of your head, his hips snug between your thighs.
He looks down at you like heâs never seen anything more beautiful.
And then that glint returnsâdangerous and wicked and so unlike the stammering nerd you met on day one.
âYou have no idea what you do to me,â he breathes, voice low and rough in your ear.
You shiver.
His lips find the side of your neck again, and this time they donât lingerâthey devour. Hot, open-mouthed kisses that make your back arch, that pull quiet, helpless sounds from your throat. His hands wander too, slow at first, fingertips tracing the curve of your waist, your hips, every line and dip he can find.
You reach for him, needing moreâbut he grabs your wrists, pins them gently above your head with one hand.
âNuh-uh,â he smirks. âIâm in charge now.â
Youâre just about to sass him when he dips down again, this time trailing kisses down your collarbone. Then lower. He peppers slow, aching kisses across your chest, teasing the hem of your top with his free hand.
And then he sits up, straddling your hips, eyes practically burning.
âCan I tell you a secret?â he asks, and itâs a loaded question.
You nod.
He leans down, lips brushing the shell of your ear. âI jacked off to the thought of you the other night.â
Your breath catchesâyour whole body burns.
âAfter that text you sent,â he goes on, voice like velvet laced with sin. âYou have no idea what you did to me. I read it once and couldnât stop imagining it. Youâwhispering in my ear like that, all sweet and smug and filthy.â
He moves again, kisses dragging hot and slow down the slope of your neck, and then your chest, until heâs tugging your shirt up and over your head.
âI was in bed,â he murmurs. âOne hand on my phone. The otherâŠâ He lets the implication hang, but his hand slips down your thigh, then up again, teasing, until your breath comes in sharp gasps.
âI was thinking about you,â he says. âAbout your voice. About what youâd look like straddling me, telling me what you wanted while I fucked up into you so slow.â
Your hips buck at thatâand god, the smirk that pulls at his lips should be illegal.
He starts undressing you slowly, worshipping, like every piece he reveals is a treasure. âI need you,â he breathes, forehead pressed to yours. His voice is hoarse, eyes searching yours like he needs you to understand.Â
The kiss that follows is devastatingâopen-mouthed and hungry, a collision of breath and teeth and need. Youâre clawing at his clothes like they personally offended you, yanking at the hem of his shirt with fumbling fingers and a frustrated groan.
âOff,â you hiss against his lips.
He laughs, breathless, tugging it over his head and tossing it aside, revealing smooth skin and defined muscle, the dip of his waist disappearing into those loose shorts you suddenly despise.
You push at them with impatient hands, and he grinsâcocky, flushed, wrecked and loving every second of it. âDesperate, huh?â he teases, voice still husky from the kiss.
âYouâre one to talk,â you shoot back, dragging your nails down his sides. âYouâre not exactly subtle, loverboy.â
Heâs all hands again thenâroaming your body, trailing heat in their wake as he presses you down into the bed, lips never far from your skin. Every motion is frantic and reverent all at once, like heâs starving but determined to savor every inch of you.
You push at his chest gently, and he lets you, eyebrows raised in surprise as his back hits the mattress.
âOh?â he breathes, propping himself up on his elbows. âTaking control now?â
âDidnât you say I killed you the other night?â you murmur, crawling between his legs with a sly smile. âFigured I should finish the job.â
His eyes darken immediatelyâheat blooming in them so fast itâs dizzying. âYou have no idea what youâre doing to me.â
You doâbecause the second your hands slide up his thighs, heâs already sucking in a breath, already biting back a groan. His abs tense under your touch, his head tipping back as he watches you through lidded eyes, gaze glazed over with anticipation.
âYou been thinking about this, âToru?â you ask softly, dragging your nails lightly along the waistband of his shorts.
He swallows thickly. âEvery night.â
And when you finally tug his waistband down, your breath catches.
He's thick, long and heavy, flushed a pretty pink at the tip, and already straining toward you like heâs been waiting for this moment forever. Your mouth parts without thinking. You donât even realize youâre staring until he lets out a shaky, nervous laugh. Your hands wrap around him and his hips instinctively buck upwards.
âFuckfuckfuckfuck,â he mutters, voice gravelly.
Heâs already goneâchest rising and falling in short, sharp breaths. His hands clutch the sheets when you lean in, letting your tongue flick across the swollen head, tasting him.Â
âOh fuckââ
You take your time. You donât give him all of it, not yet. You swirl your tongue around the tip, teasing the slit until he hisses between clenched teeth. He jolts when you lick a slow stripe along the underside, right at the base where itâs most sensitive, your fingers cradling him, gentle and thorough.
He groansâloud and rawâand you feel his hands fist the sheets tighter.
âYouâre killing me,â he pants, head tipping back, voice nearly wrecked.
And still, you donât rush. You bob your head slowly, steadily, sinking down deeper with each pass until his abs tighten and he moansâloud, desperate. You feel him twitch on your tongue, hear the soft, breathy curse that falls from his lips as you wrap your hand around him and roll your wrist just right. You squeeze his balls and he nearly sobs.
You glance up through your lashes, and the sight of himâhead tossed back, jaw clenched, face flushed, his entire body shaking with restraintâis seared into your memory.
You donât take your eyes off him, not even as you hollow your cheeks and take him deeper. Heâs so closeâyou can feel it in the way his thighs tense, the way his breath stutters, the broken sound he makes when you moan around him.
âFuckâbaby, Iâm gonnaââ
You donât stop. You want it. Want to see him fall apart. And he does, with a choked groan that rips out of his chest as he spills into your mouth, hot and thick. His hand flies to your hair, not to pull you awayâbut to keep you there, his hips giving the slightest jerk as he rides it out. You swallow it all only pulling off when he starts to twitch. And when you finally draw back, lips slick and chin damp, he looks completely undone.Â
âHoly shit,â he breathes, dazed.Â
You just smile sweetly and wipe the corner of your mouth with your thumb.
Heâs still catching his breath when you go to pull back fully, smug and satisfied. âMm-hm,â he hums, voice rough and curling with mischief. His hand catches your wrist, firm but gentle. âMy turn, sweetheart.â
You blink. âOh?â
Before you can tease him back, he movesâeffortlessly. One arm wraps around your waist, the other plants on the bed, and in a single fluid motion heâs pulling you up, flipping you like you weigh nothing and settling you inches away from his face. You squeakâactually squeakâas your knees plant on either side of his head.
âSatoruââ
âShh.â He grins, that ridiculous confident smirk plastered across his flushed face. âSit, baby. Be good for me.â
He gives your ass a squeeze, encouraging, eyes gleaming up at you. You hesitate for half a second and he adds, voice dipped low and sinfully sweet,
âYou got to have your fun.â
Then he pulls you down.
His mouth is on you immediatelyâhot and unrelenting. Tongue flicking, lips sealing around your clit as he groans like you taste better than anything heâs ever had. His hands grip your thighs, fingers digging into soft flesh, holding you there like heâs starving and youâre the feast. And when your hips twitch, instinctively trying to lift offâhe drags you right back down.
âOh no, sweetheart,â he murmurs against you, voice muffled and vibrating through your core, âI said sit.â
Youâre braced against the headboard now, knees shaking, thighs clenched tight around his head as you grind downâslow at first, then faster, chasing that high with ragged breath and trembling limbs.
Heâs not just letting you. Heâs encouraging it.
Big hands grope your ass, fingers digging in, guiding you against his mouth like he wants you to lose it. His tongue moves with practiced precision, sucking and flicking, drawing soft whimpers and broken gasps from your lips as your body arches.
You glance down again and the sight nearly finishes youâhis eyes half-lidded and dazed, cheeks flushed, hair a total mess from how many times youâve tugged on it.
He looks wrecked. But heâs moaning like heâs in heaven. Like this is exactly where he wants to be.
And then he says itâmuffled, half-choked, voice thick with lust and absolutely feral. âSo fucking sweet.â
You grind harder, hips rolling, and he groans into you.
He doesnât care if he canât breathe. Doesnât care if heâs dizzy. Doesnât care if youâre seconds from suffocating him. Heâs already decided this is how he wants to go out.
Buried between your thighs, mouth full of you, hands holding you down like youâre sacred.
And when you finally breakâback arching, eyes fluttering shut, thighs clamping around his head as your orgasm crashes through youâhe doesnât stop. Not for a second.
He rides it out with you, tongue still moving, swallowing every sound you make.
When he finally lets go you collapse beside him, completely spent, your body still trembling in the aftermath. Your cheek presses into the pillow, breath catching in your throat as you try to come back to yourself. Satoru shifts next to you, propping himself up on one elbow. He brushes your hair back gently, eyes soft, and asks quietly,
âYou okay?â
You nod, still catching your breath. âYeah. Justâholy shit.â
He huffs a small laugh and leans down to kiss your shoulder, warm and unhurried. âGood.â
You feel him watching you for a second longer, like heâs making sure youâre really alright. You stretch out, boneless and warm, assuming this is the part where you both wind down.
But then his hand slides down your back.
You feel him shift behind you, and when you glance over your shoulder, his expressionâs changed. Still gentleâbut focused. Hungrier.
âYou done?â he asks softly, voice right at your ear now.
You blink. âI⊠thought we were.â
He smiles, and itâs a little crooked, a little smugâbut not cocky. Just him.
âNot even close.â
Before you can respond, his hands are on your hips, guiding you forward. You let him, moving onto your knees again, bracing your hands against the headboard as the mattress shifts beneath you. He settles behind you slowly, fingers trailing up your sides. The air changesâmore intimate now, more intense.
âYou okay like this?â he murmurs.
You nod.
âGood.â He kisses the back of your neck. âHold on to something.â
He settles behind you again, one hand steady on your hip, the other guiding himself down. You feel the slow drag of him through your foldsâwarm, thick, and deliberate. You suck in a breath, hips twitching slightly. But he doesnât press in. Just rocks forward enough to slide himself through you again. And again.
Your fingers curl tighter around the headboard. ââŠSatoru,â you breathe.
âMhm?â His voice is low, calm. Way too calm for what heâs doing.
You try to push back into him, but he keeps you where he wants youâjust a firm, gentle grip at your hip keeping you still.
Heâs quiet for a moment. You glance over your shoulder and catch the look on his face: focused, a little tense, clearly feeling itâbut taking his time anyway.
âYouâre doing that on purpose,â you mutter.
A breath of a laugh leaves him. âYeah. Kind of.â
Your forehead drops forward. ââToruâŠâ
He groans softlyâjust a little, like heâs trying not toâbut doesnât stop. Just drags himself over you again, slower now. âGod, you feel good,â he mutters. âI just⊠give me a second.â
You shift again, needy and frustrated, and he finally stills behind you, tip resting right where you want him. You both freeze.
ââŠYou okay?â he asks quietly.
You nod, exhaling hard. âPlease.â
Thereâs a beat. And then he leans forward, lips brushing your shoulder, voice quiet and serious against your skin. âYeah. I got you. Just spread âem a bit for me⊠yeah, thatâs it.â
He eases in with that first, deep strokeâslow enough to feel every inch of him push through your walls. The stretch burns just a little, but the heat in your core blooms even hotter. Heâs thick, heavy, and you feel every vein drag along your inner walls, textured and pulsing, making your whole body clench around him without thinking.
Behind you, Satoru groansâlow and raw, like itâs dragging out of his chest. âGod⊠you feel unreal,â he mutters, breath shaky.
He holds still once heâs fully inside, his hips pressed against the swell of your ass, his hand flexing on your waist like heâs trying not to move too fast. His cock twitches inside you and you gasp at how full you feelâyour body stretched and throbbing around him, nerves lighting up from the inside out.
âOkay?â he murmurs, lips brushing the back of your shoulder.
You nod, voice barely there. âYeah. Justâfuck, Satoru.â
He pulls out slow, almost all the way, and you feel every ridge of him drag against your soaked walls. Then he sinks back in with a soft grunt, and you swear you feel him throb againâyour body squeezing around him on instinct.
The pace he sets is slow but deep, grinding into you just right, the friction steady and maddening. Your thighs are trembling already, your hands gripping the headboard like itâs the only thing keeping you grounded.
Every time he pushes in, his cock presses against that spongy spot deep inside you, and every time he pulls out, itâs this slow, deliberate scrape that leaves you gasping. Thereâs no space left between youâjust wet heat and tension, pressure building with every stroke.
And thenâhis hand moves. Slides down from your waist, slipping between your legs, fingers finding your clit with no hesitation. The first pass is light, almost teasing.
You jolt. âSatoruâ!â
âI got you,â he says quietly, like a promise. His thumb circles you, slow and tight, while his other hand braces your hip steady against him. And all the while, he keeps fucking into youâdeeper now, rhythm starting to slip, strokes a little rougher, his breath coming harder against your skin.
âYou feel so good around me,â he murmurs, thumb pressing down just a little harder. âSo warm. So tight. You keep squeezing me like that, babyâfuck.â
Your whole body is shaking now, moaning helplessly as his fingers keep working your clit, dragging you closer and closer to the edge. Every stroke is slick, deep, devastating. You can hear the wet sounds of him sliding in and out of you, the soft slap of skin, his strained breathingâyour own whimpers growing louder with every thrust.
The pressure builds sharp and fast, your body locking up as your orgasm crashes toward youâ
And Satoruâs still going. Still thumbing your clit, still grinding his cock into you like he canât get enough.
Your body tightens around him without warning, breath catching as the pleasure crestsâsharp, blinding, unstoppable. You cry out, head dropping as your orgasm rips through you, muscles clenching so hard around his cock that it knocks the air out of both of you.
âOh myâfuck, thatâs itââ Satoru groans, stuttering inside you as your walls flutter and squeeze around him.
Youâre still shaking, coming down from the high, when he slowsâlets you ride it out, then carefully pulls out, the sudden emptiness making you gasp. You barely have time to blink before heâs flipping you onto your back like you weigh nothing.
He spreads your thighs open, throws your legs over his shoulders, and lines himself up again with a low, strained breath. His eyes meet yoursâstill soft, but blown wide, jaw tight with restraint. Thereâs nothing teasing left in him now.
He doesnât ask this time. Doesnât wait. He thrusts back in hardâdeepâand keeps going.
No more slow buildup. No more holding back. Just relentless, steady driveâhis hips snapping into yours over and over, the wet sound of skin meeting skin filling the room.
You gasp, fingers flying to his forearms as he leans over you, caging you in. His pace is brutal now, almost punishing, but it never stops feeling goodâthe angle perfect, the pressure hitting deep with every stroke.
âSatoruââ you sob, voice cracking.
He groans through gritted teeth, muscles tense, hips moving like heâs possessed. âYouâre soâfuckingâtight.â
You can barely think. Your legs tremble over his shoulders, body arching with every thrust, your orgasm still making aftershocks ripple through you.
He reaches down between you again, hand slipping to your clit like itâs second natureâhis thumb moving in tight, fast circles that make your back arch off the bed. âYou gonna give me another one?â he pants, voice rough and shaking. âCome on, sweetheartâI know you can.â
You donât even answer. You canât. The pressureâs already building againâtoo fast, too much, your body barely holding on as he keeps fucking into you like heâs been waiting for this all night.
You feel him twitch inside you, hear his breathing hitchâbut he still doesnât come. Heâs chasing you again, driving into you like your pleasure is the only thing that matters.
You donât know how he keeps going like this. His pace is ruthless, hips pistoning into you like heâs been starving for itâbut itâs the focus that kills you. Heâs watching every twitch in your body, every gasp, every time your walls flutter around him like heâs memorizing it.
Then he shiftsâleans in until your knees are almost pinned to your chest, folding you in half under him. The new angle makes you cry out, his cock hitting impossibly deep, your body arching beneath the weight of him. âYou feel that?â he breathes, voice rough and close to a growl now. âSo deep inside you, baby. Just like this.â
And thenâhis mouth is on your chest. You gasp when he takes your nipple between his lips, tongue circling, sucking slow and steady while his hips never stop. The hot pull of his mouth makes your toes curl, especially when his free hand moves to palm your other breastâthumb brushing over the sensitive peak, fingers squeezing just enough to make you whimper.
Itâs too much. Youâre overstimulatedâhis cock still driving into you, thumb still tight and unrelenting on your clit, his mouth sucking, teasing, biting gently down before soothing with his tongue.
Pleasure spikes sharp and fast, and itâs not buildingâitâs crashing. Your entire body locks up as the heat inside you explodes again, white-hot and shattering, a sob wrenching out of your throat. âFuckâSatoruâ!â Your cunt clenches tight around him, waves of pleasure ripping through you, and he feels it. You feel him falter, his rhythm breaking as he groans like youâve just knocked the wind out of him.
âShitâfuckâfuck, Iâmâ,â he doesnât even finish the sentence before heâs coming too, hips jerking as he spills inside you with a choked moan. You can feel him pulsing deep inside, every twitch of his cock matching the aftershocks still tearing through you.
He holds you tight through it, arms wrapped around your back, forehead pressed to your shoulder as you both shake through the comedownânothing but breathless curses filling the room.
You donât even realize your eyes have fluttered shut until you feel him shift, just a gentle repositioning of his weight as he carefully pulls outâslow, like he doesnât want to hurt you. You wince, breath catching at the sting, and immediately his voice is there, low and warm in your ear. âHey, you with me?â
You nod faintly, your body boneless, brain melted, heart still pounding. He kisses your shoulderâonce, twiceâand gently lowers your legs from where theyâre still draped over him, massaging your thighs like he knows theyâre trembling.
âOkay,â he murmurs. âIâll be right back, yeah? Donât move.â
You canât even laugh at that. He gets up anyway, grabbing the closest towel and heading to the bathroom, still totally naked, completely unbothered. You catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror across the roomâhair a mess, chest flushed, thighs shakingâand you groan, flopping back against the sheets.
By the time he returns, youâre still half out of it, and he just smiles, fond and lazy as he nudges your legs apart again. âEasy,â he whispers, wiping you down gently, taking his time like youâre made of glass now. âYou did so good for me, baby. So fucking good.â
You sigh as he finishes, and the second heâs done, he tosses the towel and climbs back into bed with youâpulling you against his chest, arms wrapped tight around your waist like heâs anchoring himself. You melt into him, cheek pressed against his collarbone and he grabs your hand, intertwining your fingers, pressing a kiss to your knuckles.
A pause. ThenââYouâre unreal, you know that?â he murmurs. âI mean, I already knew, butâJesus.â
You roll your eyes, lips twitching. âYouâre just saying that âcause I made you come so hard you forgot your own name.â
âSweetheart,â he says solemnly, âDonât be mean.â
You laughâtired, softâand he smiles at the sound.
Then quieter: âYouâre incredible.â He leans in, presses a kiss to your forehead.
You bury your face in his chest, heart warm and too full. âStop being sweet,â you mumble.
âNever.â He grins.
You donât say anything for a while. Just breatheâslow and steadyâas his hand runs gently along your back, grounding you. The roomâs quiet now, save for the soft hum of the city outside the window, and the faint rustle of sheets as you both settle into the aftermath. He shifts just enough to pull the blanket higher over the two of you, tucking you in without saying a word.
Your eyes are heavy, but you blink them open to look at him. Heâs already watching youâmessy hair, flushed cheeks, the ghost of a smile on his lips like he canât quite believe youâre real.
âWhat?â you murmur, voice rough with sleep.
He shrugs a little, eyes soft. âNothing. Just⊠youâre kinda perfect, yâknow?â
You snort under your breath, too tired to fight it. âDonât start.â
He chuckles, nose brushing your hair as he tucks you in closer. âI wonât. Promise.â
Thereâs a pause, just the two of you breathing in sync, his thumb stroking slow circles into your hip. âStay here tonight,â he whispers.
âBut âToru⊠we have class tomorrow.â
He groans dramatically into your skin. âLetâs bunk.â
You snort. âYou say that every time.â
âBecause itâs the right answer every time.â He lifts his head enough to look at you, hair sticking up in every direction, eyes still heavy-lidded but shamelessly clingy. âCâmon. Itâs late. Just stay.â
You hesitate, even though youâre already leaning toward yes. He catches that and nudges his knee between yours, coaxing you closer.
âIâll set an alarm,â he adds. âYou can wear one of my shirts. Iâll even make you coffee in the morning.â
You huff a quiet laugh. âAre you trying to bribe me?â
He shrugs. âDidnât think I had to.â
You roll your eyes, but youâre already settling in again, your cheek resting over his heartbeat. âFine,â you murmur. âBut if we oversleep, Iâm blaming you.â
He hums, content. âThatâs fair.â
So you stay like thatâcomfortable and a little too in love to care about anything. And with Satoruâs arms around youâhis breath steady against your skin, his presence anchoring youâyou drift off. No words needed. Just safe. Just held.
Perfect.
author's note. whoever started the nerdjo agenda, i owe you my firstborn child
please do not steal, modify, or translate my work.
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i finally found an actual use case for chatgpt, i can copypast poorly formatted powerpoint slides and get beautiful latex code for my lecture notes
#this is a game changer!!#no but seriously it takes no time to go from handwritten notes + ancient textbooks+ ugly powerpoint -> beautiful tex file
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The edible had a fucking delayed fuse and hit me while I was conjugating Spanish verbs hiiii
#man i donât know how i made it through that textbook chapter i was UNREASONABLY confused#if youâd been watching me youâd be forgiven for thinking iâd never heard of verbs or adjectives before#in my defence they did put -ar verb conjugation; gender agreement and a fuckload of adjectives all in one chapter#i was fighting for my life#i really need a system for keeping track of the verbs i have learned and their conjugations#would a spreadsheet be overkill? i know thereâll be one of those out there but like#iâll remember it better if i make my own#i could download a spreadsheet of 2000 spanish verbs and iâd never look at it genuinely#iâm thinking one sheet per category. -ar -ir -er and irregular. (please tell me thereâs not more categories)#then just.. put the verbs. each one gets like. 6 lines? yo tu el nosotros vosotros ustedes etc#(look i know no one likes vosotros but i live next door to spain. so)#and i can add in tenses as i learn them? i guess? start from present simple and just add more columns#i know this sounds obvious but keep in mind iâm super high and donât know excel that well#sometimes you take short course IT because your IT teacher is insufferable#and then you go straight into humanities for like 8 years of your life#and you exclusively work service jobs and teaching jobs that require the entire MS suite EXCEPT excel LOL#and you donât make spreadsheets in your spare time because you basically live out of your notes app and a filofax#should i take an excel course. i mean thereâs no reason not to#personal
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summary: moving out alone for the first time might be scaryâand awfully exhausting. youâre lucky you have a very handy lesbian as a neighbor.
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THE BOX you were carrying was way too heavy. You knew it the second you stubbornly yanked it out of the trunk, but by the time you realized how unwise that was, you were already halfway up the steps to your new apartment. The one that didn't have an elevator.
A bead of sweat ran down your temple. Your arms were shaking, the cardboard creaking ominously, and you could feel the edge of a textbook digging into your thigh through the bottom of the box.
You grunted softly as you stagger forward, muttering under your breath, "okay, stupid idea, officially noted."
Thatâs when you heard it. A door creaking open. You looked up, flustered, and caught sight of her. A young woman that was standing in the open doorway of the unit just across the hall. Faded gray hoodie, sweatpants that sat a little too low on her hips, and a tangle of auburn hair in a messy bun that looked like it gave up halfway. One hand gripped the door frame, the other clutching a half-eaten granola bar.
She blinked at you, shocked. You offered a small, sheepish smile. "Hi."
She blinked again. "Uhâhi."
There was a beat of silence. She kept staring at you, and you shifted your weight, struggling to hold the box and at the same time balance your pride. "I, uh⊠just moved in."
She nodded quickly. "Yeah, noâI figured. New face. And boxes. Thatâs⊠obvious. Sorry."
You bit back a laugh. "I promise Iâm not usually this pathetic. Just⊠long drive. Too much stuff."
Ellie snapped out of it suddenly, like her brain had just rebooted. "Shitâwait. Let me help you with that."
Before you could protest, sheâs stepping forward, quickly wiping her hand on her hoodie like she just remembered sheâs eating, then gently taking the box from you like sheâs worried youâll shatter if sheâs too rough. And she lifted it as if it didn't weight anything. God, you're not sure if it was just the exhaustion, but was the room suddenly hotter? Or was it just you?
"Oh my god," you exhaled in relief, letting your arms drop. "Thank you. You may have just saved my spine."
She grinned softly, cheeks a little pink. "No problem. Iâm Ellie, by the way."
You gave her your name, and she repeated it quietly under her breath, like she wanted to make sure she didnât forget. It was oddly endearing.
She followed you into your apartment and gently sat the box down by the window. "Wow. Youâve got, like⊠a lot of books."
You glanced around at the stack of boxes marked READING / PLEASE DONâT CRUSH, smiling a little. "Guilty. I had a system, but the system kinda died somewhere around hour five of unpacking."
Ellie nodded like she got it. "Want some help? I meanâonly if you want. I donât have anything going on. Just⊠reorganizing my guitar pedals and regretting life choices."
You raised an eyebrow. "Guitar pedals?"
She blushed faintly. "Yeah. Music nerd. Donât judge."
"Iâd never," you replied, already walking toward the nearest box. "If youâre serious about helping, Iâve got a bookshelf I was too scared to try assembling alone."
She perked up immediately. "Iâm your girl."
An hour later, Ellie was sitting cross-legged on your living room floor, her hoodie sleeves pushed upâher arm tattoo on full display, as she studied the instruction manual with a look of pure concentration.
There was a screw between her lips and her hair was falling in her face, but she didnât seem to notice. You were lying on the rug beside her, trying not to laugh. "You look like youâre defusing a bomb."
She spat out the screw with a grin. "This is Ikea. You never know." You laughed, and Ellie beamed at the sound. "Okay, hand me the... um. That⊠L-shapedâthingy."
"You mean the Allen wrench?"
"Right. That. Allen. Bastard of a wrench."
You passed it to her and watched as her hands worked with practiced ease, though she was still mumbling things like 'who designed this nightmare' under her breath. After a few minutes, the pieces started to come together.
You offered her a drink from your tiny fridge, and she takes it with a soft 'thanks,' sipping while scanning the partially-built shelf.
"You know," she said casually, "this place is nice. Good lighting. Kinda cozy already."
"Think Iâll like it here."
Ellie shrugged, maybe a little too fast. "Yeah, well. I mean. Youâve got a cool neighbor, so."
You laughed, leaning your head back against the wall. "I really do."
ELLIE WAS standing at your door, awkwardly shifting from one foot to the other, wiping her hands on her jeans even though she hadnât touched anything in the past ten minutes. The bookshelf was done. The boxes were stacked a little neater. She helped more than she should have for someone who just met you, and now thereâs a weird lull in the air like⊠okay, what happens now?
You stretched your arms overhead, groaning quietly as your back pops. "Okay, officially retiring from lifting furniture."
Ellie snorted. "You say that now. Wait until you realize you still have, like, six more boxes marked 'miscellaneous disaster'."
You groaned again, dramatically this time. "Those are tomorrowâs problems." Then, with a soft sigh, you glanced toward your hallway and say, "God, I still need to get a new bulb for the bedroom. I havenât been able to see in there since I got here."
Ellie raises her brows. "No light at all?"
"None," you say. "And of course, I packed the lamps in the box thatâs... still in my car. Which is currently blocked in by some delivery truck of doom."
There was a pause. You expected a laugh, maybe a 'good luck with that.' Instead, she played with two of her fingers awkwardly, and smiled at you. "I could take you?" she said.
You blinked. "What?"
"To the store," she shrugged, eyes darting away like she regrets offering. "I was just gonna run out and grab snacks or something anyway."
You tilted your head. "You were?"
Ellie turned red, but tried to play it cool. "Yeah. Definitely. Wasnât just gonna, yâknow, spiral alone in my apartment or anything."
You both knew that was a lie. But you laughed, and something in her posture relaxed. "Okay," you replied, smiling. "Yeah. Letâs go lightbulb hunting."
Ten minutes later, youâre both in Ellieâs dusty old truckâwindows slightly cracked, and a faint smell of pine from a crooked air freshener hanging from the mirror. She was gripping the wheel like sheâs trying not to white-knuckle it, sneaking occasional glances at you when she thinks youâre not looking. Youâre pretty sure you caught every single one.
At the hardware store, the lightbulb section was far more overwhelming than it had any right to be. You stood in front of it together, baffled by the sheer number of wattage options.
"Why are there so many types?" you whispered.
Ellie whispered back, "capitalism."
Eventually, you grabbed the right one (after way too much debate about warm vs. cool lighting), and Ellie casually picked up a few things for herself. Chips. A soda. A pack of sour candy she pretended not to want until you caught her staring at it for a solid minute.
"Youâre definitely a sour candy person," you said as she tosses it into the basket.
Ellie shrugged, cheeks pink. "You're saying that like itâs a bad thing."
You shook your head. "No, just⊠makes sense."
"Yeah?"
"Yep," you said softly, smiling. "Itâs cute."
She froze. Didnât say anything for five seconds. Then muttered a very quiet, 'Oh.' You pretended not to notice how red her ears go.
BACK AT YOUR apartment, it took about eight minutes to screw in the new bulbâand then you were both just⊠standing in your now-lit bedroom, staring at the glow like youâve just witnessed a miracle.
"Let there be light," Ellie said reverently.
You laughed and flopped back onto your mattress dramatically. "I owe you my life."
She leaned against the doorway, hands in her hoodie pocket, watching you with the kind of soft smile she probably doesnât even realize sheâs wearing. "You donât owe me anything."
You glanced at the clock. "You hungry?"
Ellie paused. "Me?"
"No, the bookshelf." You smirked. "Of course you, dummy. Câmon. Iâm starving. And you did save my spine."
She tried to brush it off with a jokeâ'I do take payment in pepperoni'âbut you could tell she was secretly thrilled.
Twenty-five minutes later, a pizza box was open between you on the living room floor, two paper plates balancing precariously on a stack of books. Youâd strung up some fairy lights that Ellie offered to 'totally not judge you for owning,' and now the room is bathed in warm, flickering gold.
You were sitting cross-legged, a slice in hand. "God, I didnât realize how hungry I was."
Ellie smiled behind her cup of soda. "You looked like you were gonna pass out when I showed up earlier."
"Honestly? Close."
There was a pause. She glanced at you, then down at her food, then back at you. "Iâm glad you let me help," she says.
"Yeah?"
She nods, playing with a corner of the box. âI donât⊠really do that. Talk to people, I mean. Not right away. But youâre⊠easy."
You rose an eyebrow, smirking. "Easy?"
"I meanâyouâre easy to talk to,â she blurted. "Not likeânot in a bad way. You justâshit. That sounded wrong."
You burst out laughing. "Relax. I know what you meant."
She groaned into her hands. "Kill me."
"Never," you laughed. Thereâs a lull after that. A comfortable one.
You leaned back on your hands, stretching your legs out toward her. "So whatâs your story, Neighbor Ellie? Mysterious girl across the hall. Fixes furniture. Gives rides. Loves sour candy."
She gave you a look. "You clocked all that in one night?"
"Iâm a fast learner."
She exhaled a laugh, rubbing the back of her neck. "Okay, well. I moved here a couple years ago. Work in a CD store. Play guitar in my free time. Live a thrilling life of talking to no one and watching horror movies until 2 AM."
"Wow," you deadpanned. "Truly a menace."
She smirked. "I contain multitudes."
You nudged her leg with your foot. "I think youâre cool."
Ellie went so quiet after that you worry you went too far. But then she said, soft: "I think youâre pretty cool too."
Neither of you moved for a second. The pizza was getting cold, the lights were flickering softly. She was staring at you like you hung the stars, and your heartâs doing something very inconvenient in your chest.
IT WASNâT HARD TO figure out where Ellie worked. Not like you stalked her or anythingâshe just... mentioned it. Casually. In passing. And it stuck with you, that offhand comment about shifts and sorting and 'old people complaining about the price of CDS like itâs 1985.'
And okay, maybe you were a little too curious. Maybe you had a free day and a really good memory. And maybe there werenât that many record stores in town to begin with.
You checked out the first shopâa dusty little place with an impressive jazz section and a guy behind the counter who looked old enough to have invented jazz. No Ellie. The second one was sleek and modern, curated for aesthetic Instagram posts, with alphabetized playlists and diffused lighting. Also, no Ellie. But the third one⊠Thatâs where you saw her.
She was behind the counter, alone, hunched over a small stack of CDs, scribbling something onto tiny sticky notes with a black pen clutched between ink-smudged fingers. Her hair was tied up in a low bun, loose strands falling into her face as she worked. She was mouthing the words to whatever track was playing overheadâsome soft, rock ballad you didnât recognizeâbut it made the whole place feel hushed, intimate, like stepping into someoneâs favorite memory.
You stood near the entrance for a second too long.
Ellie glanced up and froze. Her pen paused mid-word. You caught the brief flicker of surprise on her faceâlike she wasnât expecting to ever see you here, like this part of her life was separate and youâd somehow wandered past the invisible boundary.
But then her expression shifted, softening into something unreadable. The corners of her mouth twitched like she was trying to decide whether to smile or run.
She settled on a weird middle ground. "Oh," she said nonchalantly. "Hey."
You raised a hand, suddenly hyper-aware of your own body, your posture, the fact that you hadnât really thought through what youâd say when this moment came. "Hey. Fancy seeing you here."
Ellie blinked. "In my place of work?"
You laughed, and she smiled for real this time. "Right. I was just... exploring the neighborhood," you lied. "Didnât realize this store was so close."
She nodded slowly, clearly not buying itâthe store was a twenty-minute drive from the apartment complexâ but was too polite to call you out. "Yeah? You into CDs?"
"Definitely," you said, scanning the shelves like you werenât about to have a heart attack. "I mean, I personally prefer vinyls, but yeah, CDs are like, super retro. Very... round."
Ellie snorted. "Thatâs one way to describe them."
You wandered closer, pretending to browse, your fingers grazing the spines of old cases. She watched you, but not in a judgmental way. More like she was trying to figure you out.
"Do you work every day?" you asked after a moment.
"Nah," she said, leaning on the counter. "Just a few days a week. Tuesdays, Thursdays, sometimes Saturdays."
You nodded like that wasnât valuable information now burned into your brain. You grabbed a Fleetwod Mac CD, and took out your wallet to pay. "Cool," you said. "Guess Iâll have to stop by again."
"No, uh, donât worry. Itâs on the house." Ellie scratched the back of her neck, eyes darting to her Casio watch. "You, uh... wanna hang out after Iâm done? My shift ends at five."
"You sure?"
"You donât have to. I just thoughtâI dunno, maybe we could go get coffee. Or you could show me your superior taste in 'very round CDs.'"
You grinned. "Iâd like that."
Ellie looked down, then back up through her lashes. "Cool. Yeah. Cool."
You ended up spending the next half hour pretending to look through racks while sneaking glances at herâand she, in return, kept stealing glances at you in the reflection of the display glass. And when five oâclock finally rolled around, she practically flew out from behind the counter, tugging on her jacket and fumbling with the sleeves like she was nervous. Which, honestly, made two of you.
THE COFFEE SHOP Ellie picked was small, local, and mostly empty by the time you both got thereâquiet enough that your conversation didnât have to compete with the noise, but not so silent that the pauses felt heavy. The barista gave Ellie a little nod when she walked in, like she was a regular, and Ellie just muttered a soft 'hey' back before holding the door open for you.
You sat by the window, your cups warming your hands, and the conversation came easier than you thought it would. Ellie was shy, yeah, but not in that way where she tried to disappear. It was more like she was deliberate. Careful. She listened to you like you were saying things worth remembering.
She told you about the weird guy who always came in looking for jazz CDs they didnât have, and how sheâd once spent two hours reorganizing the punk section just because she couldnât stand the way someone else had done it. You talked about the move, the disaster of trying to assemble your own bookshelf, and the apartment above yours that sounded like a zoo with a drum set.
Ellie laughed at that one, and you caught yourself staring just a little too long at the way her eyes crinkled when she did it. You suddenly felt the urge to count every single freckle that was marked in her face.
Somewhere between a refill and a shared chocolate chip cookie, she glanced at the clock and said, "Wanna come over?"
"To your place?"
She scratched at the back of her neck. "I mean, only if you want. No pressure. I justâI have this CD collection I was talking about and, uh... coffee shops close eventually."
You tried not to smile too obviously. "Sure. Iâd love to."
Ellieâs apartment was quite similar to yoursâafter all, both were from the same block, but something about it was undeniably her. The couch was beat-up but clean, the walls were decorated with band posters and a couple of hand-drawn sketches you didnât ask about yet, and her windowsill had a few neglected plants that were somehow still alive.
"I wasnât really expecting company," she said, kicking off her shoes near the door. "Sorry if itâs a little... messy."
You looked around. "Ellie, this is better than mine by far."
She shrugged, clearly flustered, and motioned for you to take a seat while she made herself busy putting on a playlistâ just background enough to not distract from her own nervous energy. With your drink still in hand, you wandered to the shelf near the TV, running your finger along the neatly organized spines of her CD collection. "So this is the shrine."
"Hey, donât mock the shrine," she said, coming to stand beside you. "Itâs got history."
You glanced at the rows and rows of titlesâsome familiar, others completely new to you. "Whatâs your holy trinity, then?"
She paused, seriously considering it. "Green Day, Radiohead, andâdonât laughâThe Smashing Pumpkins."
You blinked. "Why would I laugh?"
"I dunno. People always think Iâm gonna say something cooler. Nirvana or something."
You smiled. "I think that is cool."
Ellie ducked her head and muttered, "Yeah, well... you look cool, so Iâm trusting your judgment."
You turned toward her, and right as you opened your mouth to say something, you felt itâa warm splash of beverage sloshing right onto your top. You looked down at the spreading stain and groaned. "Oh my god. I canât take me anywhere."
Ellie reacted fast, already rummaging through a basket of laundry near the couch. "Waitâhere. I, uh, Iâve got something you can wear."
She tossed you a hoodie, worn and soft and a little big. The same one she wore the first time she saw you. You pulled it on without thinkingâslightly mortified, and very aware of how it smelled exactly like her. It was stupid. It was just detergent and something like cedar and maybe... her shampoo? But it hit you like a memory you hadnât made yet, and when you looked back at Ellie, she was definitely flustered.
"You okay?" she asked, voice a little tight.
You nodded, tugging at the sleeves. "This is so comfy. You might never get it back."
Ellie laughed nervously. "Thatâs, uh... fine. You look good in it."
The sentence hung between you for a beat too long. You turned back to the CDs. "Show me your favorites."
And she did.
You sat cross-legged on her living room floor while she pulled out album after album, fingers brushing the covers like they were sacred texts. Time slipped away. The music got quieter, the light outside faded to black, and before either of you realized it, the clock on her microwave blinked 1:04 AM.
"Oh shit," Ellie said, glancing over. "Youâre probably exhausted. I didnât mean to keep you here so long."
You rubbed your eyes, yawning. "I am tired. But like, in a good way. I had fun."
Ellie stood awkwardly, hovering near the door. "Do you want me to walk you back?â
"Itâs literally ten steps ahead."
"Still," she muttered, fidgeting with her fingers.
There was a weird, sudden stillness. Not uncomfortable exactlyâjust... charged. Like youâd both walked to the edge of something without realizing it, and now neither of you knew what to do. You stood in the doorway, Ellieâs hoodie still wrapped around you, warm from her and too soft to take off just yet.
"I should go," you said.
"Okay," Ellie agreed, voice quiet.
You could feel itâjust beneath the surfaceâthe shared, unspoken thing you both wanted. The maybe. The what if. But neither of you crossed the line.
Instead, you gave her a soft smile and a breathy 'goodnight,' and Ellie rubbed the back of her neck and murmured it back. When the door finally closed behind you, your heart thudded like youâd just run a mile.
Back in your apartment, you curled into the matress that laid on the floor, still wearing her hoodie, surrounded by the quiet hum of the night, and told yourself you were fine. That youâd get another chance. You didnât know Ellie was sitting on the other side of the wall, wide awake, hoodie-less, and thinking the exact same thing.
THE NEXT MORNING, you woke slowly. And the first thing that you felt was Ellieâs hoodie. Still wrapped around you. Still warm in the chest, even if the sleeves were cold now. Youâd never meant to fall asleep in it, but you hadnât been able to make yourself take it off either. Not when it still smelled like her. Not when it felt like the last piece of her you got to keep before things got too real. Before either of you dared to name what last night had almost been.
You sat up, groaning at the way your spine protested after crashing half-sideways across your bare mattress. One arm still tucked under a throw pillow, hair wild with sleep. You ran your hand through it and stretchedâand thatâs when you heard the voices. Muffled at first. Laughter. Two people in the hallway, maybe just outside your door. You froze.
One of them was Ellie. Youâd recognize her voice anywhere by now. That low rasp that turned warm when she laughed. And she was laughingâlouder than youâd heard her in days. And the other voice? Feminine. Confident. Light and teasing.
You moved quietly, barefoot on the wooden floor, hoodie still draped over your frame like a second skin. You opened your apartmentâs door just enough to let sound bleed in, and curiosity got the better of you. Just a peek, you told yourself.
You leaned into the silence of your own apartment, looking at the hall. And there she was. Ellie. Hair still damp from a shower, in a flannel over a gray tee and those dirty Converse she always stomped around in. She looked so relaxed, so casualâleaning against the stair railing, grinning in a way she never quite had with you. Her hand came up to push her hair out of her face, and she was looking at the girl beside her. Dark hair pulled into a high ponytail. Pretty. Effortless. Golden skin and a wicked smile and that kind of magnetic energy youâd always admired from a distance. She looked like someone who knew how to charm your mom and talk about records without ever trying too hard. The kind of girl who just fit.
She playfully shoved Ellieâs shoulder and said something that made them both burst into another fit of laughter. And your heart sank. Of course. Of course Ellie wasnât single. What were you thinking? That someone like herâfunny, sweet, handy, effortlessly coolâwould just be floating around, unattached? That she'd invite you over, lend you her hoodie, stay up talking music with you âtil one in the morning because she wanted something more? No. Youâd misread it. All of it. You closed the door quietly.
Your face felt hot. Your eyes threatened to let out a couple of tears. You slipped the hoodie off and folded it, hands trembling just slightly, and placed it gently on the edge of the couch like it might burn you if you touched it for too long. Like it had just become hers again, not something you were allowed to keep holding.
And then you started getting ready. Quieter than usual. Slower. You told yourself youâd imagined it. That it didnât matter. That it was fine. Youâd just⊠back off. Respect the boundary you hadnât realized existed.
Ellie noticed something was off that same day. No music playing. No lights on. Not even the faint sound of footsteps inside like usual. The little signs sheâd come to expect over the past few daysâgone. And the worst of all? You hadnât texted her.
She bit the inside of her cheek as she walked down the street, bag slung over one shoulder, thumb hovering over your contact in her phone. She kept replaying last night over and over again in her headâthe way you looked in her hoodie, how you smiled at her dumb music rants, how close your knees had been on the floor, how you hadnât kissed her when you left. And how she hadnât kissed you either. Too nervous. Too wrapped up in the fear of ruining something before it even started.
She walked into the shop, tossed her bag behind the counter, and barely had time to clock in before Jesseâher coworker, and unfortunately, her most observant friendâpoked his head in from the back room. "Yo, Williams."
"What."
"You got the personality of a wet sock today. Did something happen?"
Ellie groaned. "Iâm fine."
"What the fuck? Youâre not. You sighed seven times during that one sentence. Thatâs a record, even for you."
She pulled the stool out and sat down behind the register, slumping dramatically. "Itâs nothing."
Jesse raised a brow. "Is it about hoodie girl?"
Ellie snapped her head up. "What? How do youâ"
"You literally texted me last night 'sheâs wearing my hoodie and I might die.'"
"Okay first of all, fuck you. And second, I was emotionally compromised."
Jesse leaned on the counter, smirking. "So what happened?"
Ellie looked down, fiddling with the string of her hoodie. "I donât know. We hung out, it was greatâlike, really greatâand I thought we were gonna maybe... kiss or something? But then she left, and now sheâs justâcold. Like, totally ignoring me."
"She see you with Dina?"
Ellieâs brows furrowed. âWhat?â
"Dee told me she went to pick up her speaker this morning. Maybe she saw you two together."
Ellieâs jaw dropped. "She thinks Iâm dating Dina?"
Jesse just gave her a look. "Wouldnât be the wildest assumption, dude. Dina is hot. And you two always look cozy as hell."
Ellie slumped back in the stool. "Shit."
"So go tell her." Jesse folded his arms. "Like, right now."
"I canât just show up and be like 'Hey, by the way, that girl I was laughing with? Not my girlfriend!'"
"Why not?"
"Because itâsâ" Ellie rubbed her face. "I donât know, itâs embarrassing. What if she didnât see me with Dina? What if I read everything wrong? What if sheâs not into me like that?"
Jesse tilted his head. "Are you into her like that?"
Ellie didnât answer. She didnât have to. He smiled. "Then fix it, you idiot."
But Ellie just sat there, heart caught somewhere between hope and dread, wondering how the hell she was supposed to explain the mess when you wouldnât even look at her anymore.
FOR THE REST of the week, you did your best to act like everything was fine.
Avoiding Ellie wasnât hard, exactly. Not at first. You slipped out early to grab coffee before she left for work. And you told yourselfâagain and againâthat it didnât hurt. That you werenât letting your mind wander back to the way sheâd smiled at you in her dim little apartment, the way her voice had gone all soft and reverent when sheâd talked about her guitar and her favorite bands. That you werenât still thinking about her hoodie, folded on your couch like something sacred, something almost yours.
But even so⊠you missed her. And she noticed. She wasnât stupid, either. Every time Ellie walked past your apartment, her chest tightened just a little. She couldnât stop checkingâsubtle little glances at your windows, your doormat, listening for footsteps inside. But she was met with nothing, just pure silence.
It had been nine days. Nine days since your almost-date. Since you wore her hoodie and sat so close she could smell your shampoo. Since youâd yawned around midnight and sheâd practically panicked, blurting something awkward about how you didnât have to go but also yeah totally if youâre tired cool cool yeah no worries. And she hadnât even walked you to your place. Just stood there, heart in her throat, as you smiled at her one last time without kissing her. Now you didnât even look at her. And Ellie? Ellie didnât know how to fix it.
That evening, a thunderstorm rolled in with no warning. It was more chilly than you expected, and by the time you realized, Ellieâs hoddie was back like a second skin. You tried to lie to yourself, thinking you were too tired to open the winter clothes box. But in reality, it was just to feel it again. Youâd tried to settle into a book, when the lights suddenly flickered⊠and then went out. You sat in stunned silence for a beat before peeking out your window and confirmed what you fearedâthe whole damn block was dark. Not a gleam streetlamp in sight.
And the worst part? You didnât have a single candle. So you were swallowed by black-pitched darkness. You were just settled back onto your couch, the book long forgotten by now, when someone knocked. A soft, tentative knock. You froze. And then came her voice.
"Hey⊠Itâs Ellie."
Your heart did a little jump, stupid and immediate. You stood slowly, suddenly all too aware of your pajama shorts and the way your hair had half-dried in soft, tangled waves.
You opened the door. Ellie stood there holding two thick candlesâone already lit, the other one tucked under her armâand a slightly sheepish expression. She was wearing a red flannel, straight jeans, and a pair of black Converse. Her hair was tucked messily behind her ears, her freckles barely visible in the low light.
"Powerâs out," she said.
"Yeah. I noticed."
She shifted her weight, and if she had noticed you wearing her hoodie, she chose not to say anything. "Thought you might need these."
You took the candles from her slowly, your fingers brushing hers in the exchange. Her hand was warm. You swallowed. "Thanks."
Ellie nodded, but didnât move. She glanced into your apartment and then back at you, chewing the inside of her cheek. "You okay?" she asked. "Youâve been, uh, quiet lately."
You hesitated, trying to ignore the knot isnide your chest. She had noticed. Your heart beat against your ribs, stubborn and tired. "Yeah. Iâm fine."
A pause. "Youâve been avoiding me."
Your breath caught as you looked away. "No, I havenât."
Ellie tilted her head, gently, like she knew you were lying. "Okay. Cool, then."
"Do you wanna come in?" You mumbled, stepping back. Fuck. Whyâd you even said that?
She bit the inside of her cheek. "Only if itâs okay."
You nodded once. "Yes. Itâs okay." So she stepped in.
The candlelight made everything feel hazier, slower. Her shadow danced across your floor as she walked toward your living room and stood awkwardly near your bookshelf, hands shoved into her hoodie pocket. You followed her in, set the candles on the table, and sat.
Ellie sat tooâbut not too close. She glanced around, then down at her lap.
"I didnât mean to make you uncomfortable," she said finally, voice soft. "The other day. At my place."
"You didnât," you said too quickly. She looked up. You wrung your hands in your lap. "I just⊠It was silly for me to misread the situation, I guess."
Ellie blinked, then blinked again. "What do you mean?"
You gave her a look. "You know. I saw you with the girl... friend."
Realization dawned on her face. "Dina?"
You didnât answer. Great. She had a pretty name too.
Ellie let out a breath and leaned back. "Sheâs not my girlfriend. SheâsâGodâsheâs like my sister. Weâve known each other since middle school. We were talking about Uncharted."
That made you look at her. "Uncharted?"
"Yeah, she was making fun of me for being obsessed with it, and playing the stupid game the whole night. It wasnât flirting."
A small laugh broke out of you before you could stop it, quick and surprised. Ellie smiledâjust a little. And then the room got quiet again. That flickering, charged quiet where neither of you really knew what to say next.
Until Ellie whispered, "You look really good in my hoodie."
You swallowed hard, but didnât answer. Ellieâs gaze flicked to yours. Her cheeks were flushed, soft pink in the candlelight, but smiled anyway.
"I thought maybe you were gonna kiss me," she murmured.
You felt your whole face go warm. "I wanted to."
She blinked slowly. "Then why didnât you?"
"I got scared."
Ellieâs voice was barely above a whisper. "Me too."
You looked at her then. She looked nervous, her knee bouncing like she couldnât sit still. She was leaning in just a littleâbut not enough. Like she was halfway between running and staying. And then she said it, "can I try again?"
Your breath caught. You nodded once, biting your lower lip unconsciously. And this time, she leaned all the way in, her hands finding your cheeks. The kiss was soft, shy, and barely thereâlike both of you were scared it would vanish if you moved too fast. But then she pressed in a little closer, and your hand slid gently to her cheek, and she smiled against your mouth.
And when you pulled back, her forehead rested against yours. In the flickering candlelight, everything else faded. No hallway whispers. No misunderstandings. Just Ellie. Warm and nervous and real.
THE MORNING SUN peeked in lazily through Ellieâs half-drawn curtains. The green-eyed girl had been working her ass off last week, and still pleaded you to wake her up once you did, but you werenât going to do it. She needed the sleep. So here you were now, bleary-eyed, standing barefoot in her kitchen and wearing Ellieâs Pink Floyd oversized shirt.
You were trying to figure out the ancient coffee machine she kept saying 'wasnât that bad' when you heard the apartment door creak open. No knock. No announcement. Just a solid, casual entrance. You froze with one hand on your chest, wide-eyed.
"Ellie, if youâre gonna leave your damn wrench where I can trip over it, I swear toâ"
You turned just in time for him to round the corner into the living room, carrying a paper bag and squinting toward the kitchen. He paused when he saw you. His eyes dropped to the oversized shirt, the unbrushed hair, your whole deer-in-headlights vibe. His brow liftedâjust slightlyâbut it said everything. "Well," he said slowly, adjusting the grip on the bag, "you ainât Ellie."
You cleared your throat. "Umâno. Sheâs still asleep. I think. Probably."
The man stared at you for another long beat, then sighed through his nose and gave a slow, skeptical nod. "Right."
And just like that, Ellie burst out of her room, hair a mess, wearing a tank top, some boxers and a mismatched pair of socks, looking completely and utterly disoriented.
"Ohâshit," she groaned, voice thick with sleep. "Joel. Whatâuhâwhat are youâwhat time is it?"
Joel raised the bag. "Brought you breakfast. And coffee. Thought Iâd surprise you. Guess you beat me to it."
Your face was probably nuclear at that point. Ellie looked like she might combust from within. Joelâs gaze shifted between the two of you. He let out a grunt. "Well. Iâll be damned."
"Iâm gonnaâuhâbathroom. Iâm gonna use it. Yours," you muttered, already halfway down the corridor. "Yep. Bathroom. Gone." You shut the door behind you and leaned against it, hand covering your face.
Out in the living room, there was a heavy pause.
"So," Joel began, in a voice that could only mean trouble, "you finally got your head outta your ass."
"Dude. Please." Ellie rubbed a hand over her face. "Sheâs notâ I meanâweâre not, like⊠together together."
Joel arched a brow. "Does she know that? âCause sheâs wearinâ half your closet and looked quite comfortable in your kitchen."
Ellieâs mouth opened and closed. No response. No correction. Joel nodded to himself. "Didnât think so."
"I didnât say anything!" Ellie hissed, lowering her voice like you might somehow hear through the closed door.
"But you ainât denying it either, kiddo." Joel said smugly. "Look, Iâm not gonna give you the whole dad speech or... whatever. Youâre grown. But if that girlâs gonna be hanginâ around, I expect you to treat her right. Like how I raised you. No ghostinâ. No weird mind games. Noâ"
Ellie sputtered. "Jesus, Joel, can you not?"
"You like her or not?" He asked calmly.
She was quiet for a long beat. "âŠYeah," she said, voice soft and barely audible.
Joel grunted, satisfied. "Then donât be an idiot."
The bathroom door creaked open a second later. You emerged, trying your best to look composed despite the fact your heart was definitely doing somersaults.
Joel glanced between the two of you, and his face softened for just a secondâlike he was genuinely happy for Ellie. "Well," he said. "I should get goinâ. You kids behave."
Ellie groaned, already anticipating some parting remark. "Donât say itâ"
Joel ignored her entirely, giving you a quick, amused glance. "Good luck dealinâ with this one," he said, jerking a thumb at Ellie like she wasnât standing right there. "And bon appĂ©tit."
You grinned. "Thanks for the breakfast."
"Take care," Joel said with a wink, then stepped out the door and closed it behind him with a soft click.
A moment of silence settled over the apartment. You turned slowly to face Ellie, arms crossed, squinting with faux betrayal. "You. Nearly gave me a heart attack."
"Me?" Ellie blinked, slightly offended. "What?"
"Donât 'what' me, Williams," you said, marching toward her dramatically. "Your dad, or whatever he isâjust walks in like he owns the place and finds me in your shirt, barefoot and barely awake, making a fool of myself trying to work that prehistoric coffee machineâ"
"You mean the beautifully vintage coffee machine?" she interjected, raising a hand in mock offense.
You shoved her shoulder gently. "Donât deflect! I looked like I had just rolled out of bed after a one-night stand!"
Ellie choked. "You didnât! Youâyou look cute."
Your brain short-circuited at that for half a second, but you rallied. "I was wearing your clothes, Ellie!"
"I didnât tell you to wear my clothes!" she argued, but her voice was breathless, half-laughing. "And you do look cute!"
You shoved her again, this time with both hands, and she stumbled backward into the couch, grinning as she caught herself.
"Oh, okay, so itâs my fault," she said, recovering. "Next time, Iâll just let you walk around naked. Note taken."
"You didnât even try to explain!" you pointed out, still feigning dramatic offense.
Ellie held her hands up in surrender, though her face and ears were red. "Okay, okay, youâre right! I panicked!"
"You liked it," you accused.
"I did notâ!" Ellie protested, but she was laughing mid-sentence. "Okayâmaybe. Maybe a little. It was kinda⊠nice. I mean, not the surprise Joel part. That part sucked."
You hovered above her where sheâd half-sunk into the couch cushions, breathless from all the mock fighting, face flushed. The laughter slowed between you both.
"It was nice," you echoed, voice soft now. "Him thinking I was your girlfriend."
Ellie looked up at you, suddenly quiet, her grin faded into something gentler, something almost vulnerable. "You didnât run away screaming, so⊠thatâs something."
You dropped your gaze, fighting a shy smile. "I thought about it. Then I remembered I still have your hoodie, and youâd probably come after me."
Ellie sat up a little straighter, nudging your knee with hers. "Damn right I wouldâve. Itâs one of my favorites, you know."
"Youâre unbelievable."
"But charming," she added hopefully.
You tilted your head like you were thinking it over. "Eh. Youâre on thin ice."
She reached over and poked your side, making you squirm. "I brought you breakfast."
"That was mostly Joel." You finally let yourself smile fully, sitting beside her and tucking your legs underneath you, shoulder brushing hers.
"But I didnât stop him," she said proudly. "Youâre welcome."
You laughed again, leaning your head on her shoulder without thinking. It just felt natural. Warm. Safe.
Her voice was softer now, almost a whisper: "You can⊠stay. If you want. A little longer. You donât have to rush back."
You didnât lift your head. "You sure? I might steal more of your clothes."
"Iâd let you," she mumbled. Then, like it was the easiest thing in the world, she added, "they look better on you anyway."
Your heart flipped. "God," you murmured, eyes closing, "youâre such a loser."
"Yours though," she said under her breath.
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The Boy Who Stares
Theodore Nott is staring at you again.
You donât know why. You're not even doing anything particularly interesting. Just sitting in the third row of Ancient Runes, dutifully highlighting a passage about something very old and very cursed, as one does at 9 a.m. on a Wednesday.
But there it is. That intense, brooding stare from two seats to the left. Again.
You risk a glance. Yep. Still happening. His quill is poised mid-air like he forgot how to write. His mouth is slightly parted.
You blink. He blinks. You look away. He doesnât.
Okay.
Maybe you have ink on your face. Or a troll horn growing out of your forehead. Or maybe heâs plotting your murder, slowly deciding which corridor would be least suspicious to lure you down. Totally fine.
You swipe your thumb across your cheek, just in case. Nope. No ink. Still cute, still confused, still alive. Probably.
Why is he looking at me like that? you think to yourself, nose back in your book.
What you donât know is this:
Theodore Nott: stoic, unflappable, academically terrifying, hasnât heard a word Professor Babbling has said in thirteen minutes and twenty-two seconds because heâs been trying to figure out how you manage to tuck your quill behind your ear without it falling out.
That, and how youâre the only person in class who managed to finish the Ancient Runes translation without using a single cross-reference guide. And how you chew on your bottom lip when youâre focused, and how your handwriting slants slightly to the left, and howâ
You glance up again, catching him mid-gaze.
He immediately jerks his head away so fast itâs a miracle his neck doesnât snap in half.
You squint. He suddenly finds his parchment very interesting. His ears, traitorous things, go a bit pink.
You blink again.
Nope. Still a murder plot. Definitely.
...
Class ends with the soft clack of textbooks shutting and chairs scraping across the floor. You take your time gathering your things, mostly because your bookmark has disappeared into a void of loose parchment.
Okay. Thatâs a problem for later.
Theodore Nott is still sitting there. Not moving. Not packing up.
You glance his way again. He pretends to yawn, which would be normal if it werenât so obviously staged. Like, hand-to-chest, slow-motion, opera-singer yawn. No one yawns like that. You watch in real time as his brain short-circuits trying to look casual.
You sling your bag over your shoulder and head toward the door. And then:
âWait.â
You stop. Turn. Blink.
Theodore Nott is standing. This feels promising.
âYou, umââ he begins, voice low and uncertain. âYou left yourâuhâŠâ He looks over at your desk. There is nothing there. Not even a scrap of parchment.
He stares at the empty space like it might help him. It does not.
âI left myâŠ?â you say slowly, eyebrows lifted.
He panics. âPresence.â
Your brain takes a full three seconds to process that.
âMy what?â
âYourâyou left yourâpencil sharpener,â he blurts. âQuill sharpener. Yes. That.â
You do not own a quill sharpener. Is that even a thing?
âOh,â you say, smiling like youâre talking to a slightly confused, very pretty ghost. âDo youâŠhave it?â
âNo.â
Silence.
Then he blinks, visibly resets, and tries again. âSorry. I meantâHi. Iâm Theodore. I mean, you know that. Obviously. Weâve had class together for like six years, I justâwell.â He gestures vaguely toward your general existence. âHi.â
You blink again. Youâre doing a lot of blinking lately. âHiâŠ?â
âI like the way you annotate,â he says.
You stare.
âWhat?â
âI mean, not in a weird way. Just in aâyour notes. Your margins. The way you organize them. Itâs veryâŠâ He swallows. ââŠstructured. Efficient. Thereâs a system. You color-code.â
You keep staring.
His voice lowers slightly, like heâs confessing to a crime. âI think about them sometimes.â
This might be the most unhinged flirtation youâve ever witnessed.
ââŠThanks?â you manage, because what else does one say when a gorgeous Slytherin boy admits to daydreaming about your annotated footnotes?
âAnyway,â he says, suddenly flustered again. âIâm going to leave now. With my dignity. OrâŠwhatâs left of it.â
He turns, walks directly into the doorframe, mutters âbrilliantâ under his breath, and disappears.
You stand there blinking at the empty doorway.
And then you laugh. Like, properly laugh.
Youâre still laughing when you find your missing bookmark sticking out of Theodoreâs textbook.
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imagine being in Uni - revising - lying on your stomach in one of the grassy banks with your textbook and ipad to note-take both splayed in front of you on the green grass beneath a tree for shade
you know it's naughty to be doing that - practically flashing yourself to all the other Uni students who walked up, lifting your calves up whilst you worked - wearing just a skirt and small top whilst you rest your upper-body weight onto your elbows, giving those who walked infront of you a show of you drooping cleavage, whilst your legs were just slightly split so that those behind you could see the fat of your thighs beneath your skirt before the little material there covered your dignity
it was a hot summers day - and anyways - you figured you revised better when horny, giving yourself a small dosage of exhibitionist serotonin as you saw men try to avoid looking back when their eyes locked onto your tits - or when you heard distant chatter from behind you awkwardly stop as your heard footsteps come closer - before conversations jarringly restarted as they walked further into the distance once more.
just as you closed your eyes to give yourself a moment's rest between all your studying, you heard a tart SLAP, followed by a sharp stinging to your lower thigh - flipping yourself onto your back in shock and looking up with a horrified expression at the person that had administered the blow
yet no sooner than you had turned onto your back, did a firm pair of hands attach to your arm to flip you right back around onto your front, one hand pushing your face down into the grass by your neck so that your shout was muffled by the earth
you could feel a hand flip up your skirt - your panties and upper thighs exposed to the breeze as your arms erratically swung behind your back to try and pull your skirt back down, though even if you tried you were unable to reach far back enough to stop the tough fingertips from exploring over the peachy skin of your ass
"get off-!"
your cry was ignored - only met with the force on the back of your head being increased, muffling your voice against the grass once more as the finger instead tucked beneath your panties and pulled the material away from your flesh, giving your pussy a moment to prepare before you felt the panties sliding down your legs - exposing all of your privacy to the university shamefully
"don't act like a slut then get surprised when you're treated like one."
your hips began wriggling, fighting his touch and you tried to crawl away from his touch with your forearms - like a pathetic army recruit - his grip of your neck slipping and letting you look up with teary eyes to the footpath ahead. and though people had previously been walking along and only glancing at you as you revised earlier, you now saw that at least a few people had stopped to observe the scene - and not one looked to help you as your escape was made futile by your attacker
his hands dragged you back by the thighs - clamping around the flesh and pulling you back with such force that your top's friction with the ground had it pulled back - causing your tits to jolt free from behind the material constraints - and before you could pull them back and protect your dignity from the onlookers (one of which you could see pulling out a phone), your attacker pulled yours wrists together behind your back
"stupid bitch-"
there was a grunt heard from behind you, and you let out a heave of a sob as you felt commotion behind you, before a blunt head bumped you from the side of your pussy and you could tell what was going to happen
no's fell from your lips pathetically, increasing in speed and emotion until you burst into tears, tightening your hole and trying to not let him in - only to have two of his fingers push into your hole to stretch it open and let him fit his cock in before removing those two fingers
he jostled his cock in your pussy - holding it from the base and moving it from left to right, up and down and jeering inaudibly into your ear at how noisy your wet pussy was for someone crying so hard over everything
and then came the thrusts of his cock into your hips as you lay against the ground - feeling your hipbones crash into the hard, unyielding ground, bruising and hurting with each stroke where you felt his skin get disgusting close as he pressed his cock into your bare walls, trying to cover your face with your shoulders or hair or something to protect your identity whilst you felt yourself being recorded from in front, your ass, your tits, your face - everything exposed and being bred in public for everyone to see.
you could feel your tits - your sensitive nipples - being brushed by the grass blades, hardening your nipples with each stroke that made your tits swing back and forth - only ever so slightly - but in combination of the blades of grass between your legs that tickled your clit and seemed to stimulate it with just enough pleasure that it made the cock inside you feel... good - you felt your cries becoming even more weak as you knew you were going to-
the man pulled back - all the way out of your pussy as you felt your body's pressure build so far that your pussy contracted and squirted its juices from between your legs. like a sprinkler; you had orgasmed to a rapist's cock.
pathetic.
you could hear gasps and how they were replaced with laughs, until you rapist began muttering into your ear with them too, making you cry other simply how pathetic you were - that now these recordings would show you enjoying being raped - orgasming in public over such humiliating assault
you felt your attacker pull back once again - before this time feeling hot runny substance over your pussy - your clit - your thighs - and realising that he'd come all over your pussy
and you were so weak that as he pulled back from you, you couldn't get up yourself.
he instead pulled you to you feet with him - and dazedly, you looked up and noticed that the crowd's size had increased significantly. you could even see some boys tugging their cocks publicly. right in front of your raped and publicly fucked body.
"such a slut - coming here dressed like one - and then having the nerve to act horrified when you're treated like one."
you looked down as the attacker leant down, and noticed that he was cutting into your skirt. he somehow had something that was tearing open the front part of your skirt - cutting out a jagged square so that the skirt remained aroudn your hips, and yet there was a large gaping hole that showed your white-streaked pussy, with the cum still running down from it.
then he moved onto your top - cutting down the middle and cutting your bra open - reaching beneath and pulling your tits up and out of your top - letting them flop over the material, holding it down with hard nipples and engorged flesh
"you - come here - cum on her tits."
someone from the crowd was summoned as you were pushed onto your knees, and didn't have the strength to resist it.
you looked up, hearing the slickened rubbing of someone shamelessly tugging their cock only a few inches from your face
and as you looked up, you made eye contact - with the boy that sat behind you during lectures - who lent you a pen when you forgot yours and had even let you keep it afterwards
and no sooner than a millisecond after you made your eye contact, your eyes burned as you felt even more hot white spurt into your eye - then you felt if on your face - over your lip and coating your tits too.
not only did a random somebody rape you, but even the kind man who only wanted to help you in lectures had, too - cumming on your body and staining your reputation in publuc.
"you want to act like a slut in public? then be one. go on - walk back to your dorm like a slut too, and get followed and raped there even more, for all i care. you want to act like a slut? then get fucked and treated like piss just like one."
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you opened the package you'd ordered a week before, your eyes widening in glee when you got a peek of the baby pink fabric. you clapped your hands together, carefully lifting the bralette, admiring the little heart cut-out in the middle. when you'd seen it, you immediately knew you had to have it.
it took about five minutes until you were out of your clothes and changed into the adorable lingerie set, laying on your bed as you twirled your hair biting down on your lower lip as you sent a text to rafe.
YOU: i know we're supposed to meet up in a few minutes for tutoring, but i wanted to ask if you wanted to see some new clothes i got đ„°
you rubbed yourself through the pink fabric of your thong as you waited for him to reply, looking through pictures of rafe, the fabric forming a slight wet spot while your breathing got more erratic, especially when you landed on a picture you'd sneakily taken of his hand while he had been writing down notes. but when your phone finally pinged and the notification came up, you couldn't help the mischievous grin that took over your lips.
RAFE: Sure đ
you opened the camera app on your phone, starting to record a video. you looked at the camera, biting down on your lip with a smile, before bringing it down to your chest, cupping and squeezing your breasts. your nipples were hard and pebbled through the fabric, and you let out a soft laugh.
you slowly panned it down to the thong you were wearing, showing off the damp patch on it, but now, instead of rubbing yourself through the fabric, you slipped your finger through the heart-shaped cut-out until it met your clit, causing you to let out a slight gasp. you circled and rubbed your clit, letting out small moans for the camera, your thoughts on rafe and the reaction the video would get from him.
after a few minutes had gone by, you dipped your fingers inside of you, gathering some of your arousal and taking your hand out of your thong, showing your fingers off to the camera.
"fuck, 'm so wet..." you moaned, before stopping the video. grinning, you pulled on a sweatshirt that was lounging next to your bed, taking a picture of yourself wearing it.
you went to your messages with rafe, proceeding to send the video you'd taken, keeping your eyes on the screen, waiting for the little 'read' receipt to appear, and it took a few minutes, but once the little grey text appeared, you sent the picture of you in the sweatshirt.
YOU: oops, i sent you the wrong thing, meant to show you the sweatshirt đ
i'll be in the library soon!
you pulled on a pair of low-waisted jeans, making sure they showed off a sliver of the pink fabric, and even though it took you ten minutes to get to the library, rafe's face was still flushed, and there was still a bulge in his chinos.
"hope i didn't take too long." you said with a coy smile, pulling back the chair and sitting down next to him, more than pleased with his reaction.
"n-no... it's all good..." rafe mumbled, looking down at his textbook. you stretched your arms over your head, letting out a feigned yawn, rafe's eyes zeroing in on the small amount of skin peeking out under your sweatshirt, the boy letting out a breath before clearing his throat, and you immediately knew he'd seen the thong you were wearing, the soaked thong youâd rubbed yourself through.
"so." you turn to him with a bright, casual smile, biting down on your lower lip in the same way you had done in the video, acting like you weren't getting off on knowing how much he wanted you as you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear before bringing your hand down to rest on the table, touching his just a tiny bit, and even the minimal contact caused his eyes to widen.
"what are you gonna teach me today, rafey?
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