#taylor swift calender

[jonathantaylorthomas]

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happy novembermore! here’s your swiftie calendar for the month🫶🏼

[bearswithpartyhats]

Barbenheimer this, Barbenheimer that, but is anybody looking forward to Five Nights at Freddy’s (Taylor’s Version)??

[diazevan]

Welcome to a series of sentences I say to myself that would make no sense to anybody else. Tonight we've got "oh no, I've left the Taylor Swift lights on."

[catalvarezs]

you're telling me we got superache and a new taylor swift song ON THE SAME DAY?

[earthtooz]

x : AFTERGLOW :*+ﾟ it's all me, just don't go !

in which: rin doesn't realise what he has until it's gone. now that you're gone, he will do anything to get you back.

warnings: 5.2k wc, ANGST TO FLUFF, breakup, toxic relationship towards the beginning, rin is really mean to gn!reader, hopeful ending, rin is devastatingly in love and pathetic, reader and rin are adults + he's a soccer player, other characters make an appearance and are friends with reader, mentions of throwing up, mentions of food, both reader and rin cry, just listen to taylor swift's 'afterglow'.

a/n: FINALLY, THIS FIC THAT I STARTED ALL THE WAY BACK IN APRIL IS DONE. GOODNESS. i have mixed feelings towards this piece, but i cannot withhold it from the world any longer. i'm going to forget i ever wrote this and move on! this literally took three drafts to finish.

you don’t know when your relationship with itoshi rin began to crumble since it isn’t an event that can be pinpointed, not a date that can be marked in your calender, and most certainly not a reminder you can set in your phone. 

your friends keep telling you that you need to think back on it, that although it hurts, it was a necessary step in healing and getting over him. the more you reflect on it, however, your heart would only shatter into more fragments, with each one piercing you with the memories of better times. 

when did his expression turn sour? when did he begin looking at you with such disdain? when did he decide he didn’t need you anymore?

when did rin’s chips of insecurity wedge themselves between you?

the only memory that serves as an answer occurred at 7:00 pm one regular night. if you think hard enough, you can remember how the plush couch cushions sank under your weight, the clicks of the clock that had a second hand minutely too fast, and the sinking feeling of premonition in your gut. 

the latest rin ever comes back is 6:00, and if not, he would have let you known why he wasn’t home.

so where was he? the takeout you bought for dinner is getting cold and your stomach is growing louder and more impatient by the second. you didn’t want to eat without him though since it’s something you did daily; eating together as a way of debriefing and letting go of the stress that the day brought.

after an onslaught of unanswered phone calls from you, at 7:15, rin merely texts a ‘won’t be home for a while. eat without me’, and although rin was naturally curt and straightforward, the text had a depravity of… him, somehow. either way, his message causes a swirl of emotions in your stomach; unpleasant ones that begin to grow a nauseous shade of green.

you put rin’s takeaway in the fridge regardless, sending him a quick text telling him to be safe and that you’ll see him soon. 

he probably got caught up with something. you’re sure it’ll be fine. 

you shouldn’t have ignored that sinking feeling of premonition. shouldn’t have pushed down the unease swirling in your stomach when shutting the door to the refrigerator before stalking over to the kitchen island with slow steps as you prepare to eat in silence. no one to keep you company except your own thoughts and the ghost of rin’s presence.

and when rin does come home almost two hours later, he stills calls your name as usual, you still go to him as usual, he greets you with a tired smile as usual, you hug him as usual, he doesn’t kiss the top of your forehead, though. you ignore it, pushing your thoughts aside because he was home. he finally came back. you’ll wake up tomorrow and this uneasy feeling will sort itself out.

except it doesn’t.  

from that night onwards, rin changes. slowly, but surely, the cracks of change manifest in your relationship and through it all, you choose to cast a blind eye, plastering over it with sightless belief in your love. 

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

the queasy feeling in your gut never stills. it fades at times when your mind is busy with other things, but it inevitably gets drawn back into the whirlpool of concern regarding your lover- or, rather, rin.

you think you’re still in a relationship, but you don’t really know anymore. you haven’t seen him in a while. the only indication of his existence that you get are the stray bowls he leaves on the kitchen counter whenever he’s done eating, the lessening weight of his protein powder containers, and the decrease of various food items from the fridge that you restock here and there.

it feels like you’re living with a ghost.

some nights, when it gets the most lonely, your mind betrays you, completely eliminating any and all trust you had in rin. 

you wonder if there’s another person. another lover that he feels more passionately for. another lover that his heart had gravitated towards, abandoning yours in the process. perhaps that is the explanation behind his absence. 

but no evidence points towards that conclusion. there has been no suspicious deduction of bills from his bank statement that would suggest infidelity, his location is constantly at the sports stadium whenever you check, and there are no traces of a lover on him- not even you. 

it is not totally blasphemous to assume that itoshi rin wouldn’t be engrossed in soccer to the point that he’d spend unhealthy and obsessive hours into honing his abilities, but it feels a little traitorous that he could forget about life outside of the sport. it isn’t just you he’s neglecting. his mother and father have been constantly asking when he’ll come over to spend some time together, his teammates have been asking you about rin’s whereabouts and when he’ll be free and what’s worse is that you never know how to answer every time. 

it’s embarrassing to be seen as a lover that is forgettable enough for rin to dismiss, so you lie and lie and lie, telling everyone that you’ll tell them later, that he’s fine and just busy, and you lie to yourself. you tell yourself that rin will be home soon so you two can talk about it, and then everything will return to normal.

(your reflection looks through your facade, disheartened and worried.)

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

“why are you late?” 

you jump at the voice that greets you when you step foot in the apartment and the sight before you causes you to wonder just how tired you feel, because rin is in your apartment, where he’s meant to be, for once. not only that, but he’s leaning against the couch, adorned in loungewear and slippers, and the sight is too foreignly domestic for your comprehension. 

coming home to a house with someone there feels nice. 

he’s lost a little bit of muscle and fat, but his frame is still as intimidating; shoulders broad and built, just the faintest indicator into the athletic body he’s developed over the years. his hair is a little longer too. 

“oh, rin, hi.” you mutter, surprise evident in your tone.

“hello.”

“since i got a promotion,” you respond simply. rin makes no move to approach you, no initiative to take your bag and put it on the couch for you. instead, he stays rooted in his position leaning against the couch, arms crossed.

the air around him feels hostile, and suddenly you’re almost afraid to speak. “and does that promotion change your work hours or something?”

(he doesn’t congratulate or celebrate your achievement.)

“i work with flexible hours now but the office is further and the commute is so bothersome.”

rin uncrosses his arms with a thoughtful hum, gaze glued to the floor, mind occupied. you approach him slowly, pulling your bag off your shoulder and setting it in the entrance near the genkan with a thud, the sound sobering to him.

when he looks back up, you don’t want to acknowledge the emptiness in his icy eyes, barren of the usual determination that defined itoshi rin. but if you knew that that day would be the beginning of the end, perhaps you would have done something about it.

when you opened your arms for him, perhaps you would have hugged him a little tighter, a little longer, strained all the stress out of his shoulders.

perhaps you would have protected him a little harder from the cruelties of his own mind; shown him that the world was not out to get him, and that there was a place for people like him in the world (people who can’t see their own value and instead, berate themselves for their waning self-worth because they cannot see the light behind them).

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

“i’m going to shower,” rin declares once the moment both of you step in the safety of your shared home.

“no, you’re not! not before we talk,” you demand, hurriedly taking off your shoes so you can face him before he slips out of your grasp. the dark-haired turns to look at you with an unamused expression, the way tonight seemed to drag on obviously taking a toll on him.

“you’re gonna stop me from taking a shower, really?”

“yes because what the fuck was going on with you tonight?”

he narrows his eyes into slits, the pure intimidation that rin naturally emanates almost threatening you into submission. however, for the humiliation you’ve had to endure tonight, you won’t budge.

“i don’t understand,” rin says monotonously. you roll your eyes.

“you don’t understand? what’s that supposed to mean?”

“i don’t know what you’re getting mad over.”

“the fact that you didn’t even try to talk to me- let alone look at me, once this entire night?”

your partner looks away, crossing his arms over his chest. “that’s an exaggeration,” he huffs.

“no it’s not!” you recall the looks of pity sent your way when rin sat beside you unmoving and unresponsive to any conversation you tried to make. “would it have killed to show you some sort of interest?”

“would it kill you to not receive attention for one night?” he retaliates. 

“it’s not about that-”

“really? sure feels like it. i don’t have time to shower you with all my attention, y/n, there are other things i have to do.” 

there are a million things you want to say to rin, a million emotions that you have felt whilst he’s been absent, a million examples of how he’s been leaving you behind and how you’re now fed up of keeping these millions to yourself. yet, not a word leaves you, too stunned by the stranger in front of you to voice it all out. 

rin, however, takes your silence as defeat and turns to leave.

“you’re being dramatic. i’m going to shower before i waste anymore time with this lukewarm conversation.” 

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

the night your relationship officially fell apart is one you still remember vividly, because it only happened a few days ago.

in your memory, the night was nearing 9pm, yet rin had still not come home. 

your heart takes you to him because as much as your relationship with him has caused you nothing but pain recently, you know itoshi rin. you know him because you’re soulmates and where he goes, there’s a fragment of your heart that follows. 

the drive to the practice pitch is nothing but heavy. heavy with your anticipation and stress, you feel your chest constrict and tighten, especially when you pull up into the very empty parking lot. 

“rin!” you shout for the fifth time and only then, does the dark-haired look up at you from where he’s doing dribbling drills. he almost trips over the ball from your interruption. 

“wha- oh,” he turns away just before you can catch the roll of his eyes, the snarl of frustration (one that lovers should never bare at each other). “what do you want?”

you pause a few feet away from him, utterly gobsmacked with the attitude your partner was showing you. after driving all this way, the least you’d want is a little concern, but alas.

“it’s time to go,” you stand your ground. “i’m here to pick you up.”

“yeah, right, i’m not going home.”

“that’s ridiculous! are you not tired?”

“no.”

“rin. c’mon, that’s enough, you need to rest.”

“what the fuck do you know about being enough?” he asks.

the silence is deafening and most hurtful. 

you stammer out the only response you can, “wh-what?”

he doesn’t give you anything. unrelenting, he is. rin has always been the embodiment of stubbornness served cold. not finding much productivity in his silence, you continue speaking with a wavering voice. “let’s go home. please, you shouldn’t be working yourself like this-”

“-leave me the fuck alone!” he finally comes undone. “can’t you see that i don’t have time to deal with headaches like you?”

the thread keeps unravelling.

“fucking lukewarm. i can’t deal with this right now, i don’t need you here.”

“fine,” you murmur. rin has his back turned against you and he prepares himself to kick another ball. “i’ll leave then since you don’t need me.”

when rin arrives home that night, he reasons the unease churning in his stomach on the physical exertion of practice as nothing is out of place. the apartment is as kept and tidy as it typically is, the lights are off because you’ve gone to bed, and there is a meal on the kitchen counter sealed by plastic wrap.

he won’t eat it because he’ll want to throw up otherwise, so rin tucks it neatly into the fridge, not thinking twice about the emptiness on the shelves, right where your favourite drinks are normally kept. 

the athlete washes up quickly and efficiently, a good night’s rest sounding too appealing for his battered body that felt as heavy as lead. 

that night, sleep takes rin and lulls him into a temporary sanctuary, protecting him from the reality that he would wake up to. because when morning comes, he will turn and find that you are not beside him like he expects you to be. your side of the bed is untouched, devoid of any warmth or indicator that you were there.

he checks the bathroom- you’re not there. he calls your name in the hallway- you don’t respond. he scans the kitchen, the study, the living room, and finds nothing but loneliness in each room. there’s no text from you indicating that you were elsewhere.

you’ll return, though. rin’s sure of it.

except you don’t, the hours pass by with rin anticipating your return, and his confidence slowly dwindles with each minute. by the time it’s been 24 hours since he last saw you, his patience runs thin. finding your contact, rin presses the ‘call’ button and is surprised that it does not go through, stopping him after only one ring when an automated voice says ‘this caller is unavailable’. 

the dark-haired stares at your contact in contempt, furrowing his eyebrows when all of his following attempts receive the same treatment, but rin continues stubbornly because you couldn’t have blocked him, right?

was it because of what he said? he didn’t mean it, he didn’t mean to blow up on you like that- how is he supposed to say sorry if he can’t even reach you?

checking his private accounts on various social media, he sees that you’ve blocked him there too. running in to the master bedroom and checking the closet, half of your clothes are missing, and the bag you keep on the shelf is missing too. the bathroom lacks some of your products, your laptop and various chargers are gone from your study space, and the heaviness of your absence hits itoshi rin like a train.

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

you never did come around to collect your stuff. rin finds a little bit of pain in that fact.

he feels like a ghost, haunted by the trinkets of you that remain littered around his apartment. he doesn't have the heart to throw them out, not when they're the closest thing to you he can get.

a few times rin sees you in his dreams. a few times he sees you in his nightmares, looking completely hurt and run-down by his recklessness and neglect, but most mornings he wakes up feeling emptier, no one to turn to on your side on the bed. not anymore. there’s no body to hold when he needs it most, there’s no one to keep him company whilst he eats dinner, there’s no love. not since the day you left.

you, on the other hand, find it odd to live life without a second person in the periphery. you thought rin was the one for you, you never had any thoughts about what life could be without him because you were certain that it would be him that you spent the rest of your years with, so learning to accommodate without him is gnawing you away, the little bug of loneliness festing on your newfound independence. 

you’re seated on the floor of your best friend’s living room when reo texts one day, interrupting your apartment hunt.

reo: Are you still coming to my party?

you scrunch your eyebrows at the text, unknowing of where it was coming from.

y/n: not anymore. what’s up?

reo: Why not :( reo: Please it’d be so fun

y/n: don’t you know that rin and i broke up?

reo: Ok but he’s definitely not coming reo: It’s Rin, he doesn’t have a life so you’re fine. Pls say you’ll come

reo: Plus he’s been all mopey ever since so I don’t think he’s in a party mood

you dutifully ignore the last part of reo’s statement. after a little more coaxing, he finally manages to get you to agree to come, but not without a feeling of apprehension settling in your gut. still, it would be a shame to miss out on an invitation from a friend because of it. 

besides, reo’s bargain of offering to buy your outfit was too tempting to let go. 

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

“practice was rough,” bachira murmurs, flopping on the sides of the soccer field with a sigh. his sweat causes his hair and clothes to cling to his skin, and isagi takes a seat on the bench beside his best friend, tossing the dual-tone haired his water bottle.

wiping the sweat off his forehead, isagi agrees with a hum. “i know. i just want to go home.”

“i don’t know how rin does this, staying overtime and all of that.”

“he’s insane. it only got worse after his breakup and everything.”

bachira frowns, looking over to where the dark-haired in question is standing. “i feel bad for rin-rin, seems like he’s not taking it well at all.”

a beat of silence passes before bachira speaks again. “you know y/n’s coming to reo’s party this weekend?” 

the black-haired wipes his mouth before setting the water bottle down. “really?”

“yeah. reo told me.”

“that’s nice, it’s been a while since we’ve seen y/n so it’d be nice to catch up.”

“i wonder if rin knows.”

“i doubt it,” isagi reassures, “he hardly goes to parties like the one reo’s throwing.”

“maybe that’s why y/n agreed in the first place.”

“probably.”

a cold voice suddenly cuts the two from their conversation “y/n’s going to reo’s party?” 

isagi feels his blood cool over before looking up. there, stands itoshi rin, who has a frazzled, yet equally determined look in his eyes, one that isagi has not seen in a while (not since you left). “what? no! where did you hear that from?” 

bachira laughs nervously, “you’re hearing things, rin-rin!

but they are soccer players, not actors or professional liars. “shut the fuck up, asshats. y/n’s going to reo’s party this weekend?”

the two exchange a look and their silence is the only answer rin needs. 

“hold on, you’re not thinking of going, are you?” isagi asks, accepting defeat and now switching tactics.

“why wouldn’t i? my partne-” he pauses. “y/n is gonna be there.”

“yes but-”

“-you can’t stop me from going, so don’t even think about it.”

without another word, rin is gone, stalking away with a scary determination that was previously dormant. 

“what did we just do?” bachira mumbles. “should we tell y/n?” 

“nah.”

“agreed.”

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

you should have never come to this party.

how stupid and foolish of you, but how utterly cruel of the universe to let you hurt like this, to let the same pain that has walked all over you for the past few months return; this time ramming into you with the ferocity of a bull, knocking the air out of your lungs

“y/n!” comes the dreaded call of your name. you walk a little faster, breaking into an-almost sprint.

“y/n!” 

“for fucks sake- y/n!” this cry of your name is broken, rasped and pathetic, and your chests clenches from how pained it sounds. like a howl from an injured wolf, it is broken enough for you to pity it, luring you into a trap that will inevitably end in chunks being torn from your heart, but you don’t have much left to spare, so you keep running, no matter how badly you want to give in.

except it’s not enough to deter rin, nothing ever be when there’s a goal in sight, especially one so close that he can taste it.

“y/n, please, i need to talk to-”

“-go away, rin!” you cut him off, hugging yourself tighter to shield yourself against the cold and rin’s pleas from piercing you. 

“not until you listen to me!”

fury powers you, igniting you with the courage to turn around and finally face him. you don’t look him in the eye, keeping your gaze elsewhere, but he shuts up nevertheless, awestruck by finally being able to see you face-to-face after being so long away from you. all words die on his throat, withering away to nothing as his eyes slightly widen in shock.

you’re just as beautiful as the day you left; perhaps even more so.

rin wonders if your radiancy was birthed by his absence, and if the answer is ‘yes’, he might wither away on the spot.

“it’s always about you isn’t it?” you shout. “always about what you want and never about what others want. you said you wanted me to leave, so i did! what more could i possibly give?” 

he gulps, utterly entranced as his heart makes itself known in his chest, racing wildly and vividly; the first indication that it was alive and hadn’t been replaced by a gaping hole in your absence. he hasn’t felt this human since you left. 

“i didn’t mean for you to actually leave,” rin confesses shakily. 

“well, it didn’t seem like you wanted me to stay either.”

“no, that’s not-” he falters. “it’s… not the same without you.”

you hug yourself tighter. “i don’t believe you, you’re just saying that now that there’s nobody to warm your bed.”

“no, it’s not like that- i don’t like living without you,” the athlete continues, admitting something so heavy with such airiness.

“you can’t just say that after so long. not when you’ve been living without me months before we broke up.”

there are a million and one things that rin wants to say to you, but none of them break through the whirlwind that is his thoughts, rattling around in his brain on overdrive and overwhelming him with the intensity of them all. one thing he knows for sure is that you are the single muse behind all of them, the only thing that is keeping him sane amongst the flurry of disturbances.

then, you shiver from the chilly breeze of the night, and the whirlwind is silenced into oblivion to awaken a dormant instinct of his instead. one that commands him to fulfil a duty that he’s not inclined to do anymore.

quickly, rin takes off his jacket and holds it out to you, as if expecting you to take it. 

he drops it when you don’t, hope dwindling in his stomach.

swallowing weakly, he then asks “would you ever give me a second chance?”

“you’ll hurt me again,” you glance away, the street lamps highlighting the melancholy in your profile as rin observes you closely. his eyes outline the curves of your face, each divet and slope that he used to trace with his hands now out of his reach. “you take and you take, but you never give and i’m so tired of it.”

“don’t say that,” he pleads, voice barely louder than a whisper as the dark-haired takes a heavy step towards you. “you’ll break my heart.”

“i shouldn’t love you anymore, you’re bad for me.”

“then i’ll be good- i’ll become whatever you want me to be-”

“-we won’t work like that.”

“we’ll work as long as i’m yours again, just, let me fix us, i’ll do whatever it takes. i’m not giving up like this.” 

the first tear makes herself known and paths the way for your downfall like a tsunami, washing away whatever you had built up during your time away from itoshi rin; the good and the bad. the hurt and the healing, all undone by a singular, stray tear. in your vision, he becomes nothing but a blur, a kaleidoscope of colours that you once loved.

a kaleidoscope of colours that you still love, much to the chagrin of your broken heart. 

a hand wraps around your wrist, a warm shackle that grounds you to rin like he’s your lifeline. no matter how bad you want to push him away, something in you will always bend to him. 

“don’t cry,” he pleads, voice airy and breathy. “i’m sorry, please don’t cry.”

please don’t cry because of me.

“i don’t want to be with you if it means i need to go through all of that again.” you whisper, slipping out of his grasp like sand and wiping away your own tears, rejecting his callous and prickly touch. 

rin’s world dims as panic seizes his throat. “please don’t say that, you don’t mean it.”

“i do though. you left me first, don’t you know?” 

“-i do.”

“and now i’m not yours to care about anymore-”

“i know, i know,” words are merely spilling out of his mouth without much purpose at this point, because he’ll do anything just to delay you leaving, to push back the possibility of you turning around and never seeing you again. why did he have to break who he loved so much? 

still, he pleads for another chance, desperation shining in his eyes as pure longing fills him. you have always been too good to him, he knows, but like the tumultuous tides and their inability to stray too far from the shore, rin will come back to you with his undying devotion. 

even if he thinks you should find someone better than him, that you should be adored by someone who could love you so much better, he can’t let go. to let you go is to let go the one good thing that came to him in life, 

you exhale shakily. “we’ve loved each other for too long.” 

“what do you mean?” he stutters, eyes widening helplessly. 

“i have loved you too much for too long, rin,” you choke, “there has to be an end to us somewhere in sight- you need to accept that.”

“no,” his look of absolute devastation causes a physical recoil in your stomach. “no- not long enough, it’ll never be enough, fuck- even forever won’t be long enough, i can’t let you go like that.”

he crosses the distance between you in the blink of an eye. you can’t see him clearly under the dim light of the night, but you can feel him, so close and so overwhelming, but so cold as his hands come to grasp yours. his grip is firm, not enough to hurt, but enough for you to feel his determination. 

tears dance along his lashline. 

“please, tell me you’re still mine,” begs the dark-haired. rin’s tears are diamonds, in which they are precious, but they also crumble into a precious waterfall that rolls down his cheeks, tempting you towards his beautiful ruination. 

words continue to tumble out of him, each one sharpened to pierce your defences. “tell me that we’ll be fine, that i’m all you want, please. i’m so fucking sorry for hurting you, but please don’t leave me. 

i’ll fix us, i’ll become everything you need, i’ll be good.”

the dark-haired’s hands find their way to your face, cupping each side of your jaw with a scary gentleness; one that you’d never expect from someone as ragged as itoshi rin. 

“i love you,” he declares, so raw, so full of passion that it makes you sick. the rin you know never lets his heart on his sleeve like this. 

you cave. “how will you fix us?” 

slowly. he’ll rebuild everything that you have given him.

── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──

first, rin takes you out on dates again. calls you beautiful and really means it.

second, rin leaves practice at regular times, and listens when you tell him that he needs to take care of himself. because for you, he will. 

third, rin picks you up from work. his practice ends a little earlier than your job, so he always goes the extra mile to be there for you at the end of the day. even if you tell him that he doesn’t need to go out of his way to do so, he’d rather see you get home safe than only receiving a mere text of confirmation. 

plus, it gives rin more time with you.

fourth, rin sends you regular gifts. from bouquets, to random items that he just knows you’d like, they all get left at your door at the best times. 

fifth, rin lets you set the pace. you wanted things to go slow so that you two didn’t have to force anything back in place. no point recreating something that’s in the past, you reasoned, so might as well try again.

sixth, rin takes his time in welcoming you back into his space. it’s a few months after you two have reconciled, and majority of your items are back where they belong (you poked fun at him for not being able to throw away the stuff you did leave, and he just mumbled something indecipherable, all embarrassed, before moving on). the life has been restored in his apartment, now filled with more remnants of you loitering around his space: your various chargers and laptop, your products, your clothes, they all sit beside his things like that’s where they are meant to be.

and you are back in his arms, because it is where you are meant to be (more for his sake than yours).

rin stirs awake one morning under the gentle light of the morning sun and you’re there beside him, occupying the space that he has left devastatingly empty. mattress still curved to your frame as he never dared infiltrate it, in hopes that you would return.

now that you have, you feel too warm, too familiar, too unreal that he wonders if you’re just another dream of his. 

then, you stir, and press yourself closer against his chest, face to face with the heart that only beats for you.

a stray tear rolls down rin’s face; a salvation for the utter relief he feels, as well as the overwhelming amount of adoration that he stores for you. his ‘i love you’ is sweeter than the chirping of the birds outside, and certainly more meaningful as he wraps more of himself around your sleeping figure, hoping to attach all of him to all of you. 

you’re home. he won’t let you leave again.

© EARTHTOOZ 2023, do not steal, translate, repost my fics and do not recommend my fics onto any other site.

[mxqdii]

cardigan - m.s

pairings: matt sturniolo x reader

summary: cardigan by taylor swift lyrics as matt and readers relationship (idk how to explain just read it)

warning(s): angst, fluff, some sad stuff.

not proofread

and when i felt like i was an old cardigan, under someones bed. you put me on and said i was your favorite.

i sit in my room muffling my sobs as i hear footsteps coming towards the door.

i hear three light knocks along with matts soft voice

"y/n? are you okay?" he asks and i quickly wipe my tears and clear my throat.

"yeah, yeah i'm fine." i croak out and the door slightly opens, the sight of matt filling my eyes with more tears

he sits down on the bed next to me wiping my tears as they fall

"what happened? talk to me." he says tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"i'm no ones favorite person, i know that sounds stupid i just-" you ramble on before getting interrupted.

"you're my favorite person"

a friend to all, is a friend to none, chase two girls, loose the one.

im sitting at home when i get a text from nick saying to come to a movie with him.

i groan, feeling all comfortable in my spot on the couch when i feel my phone vibrate again.

"come on, ill pay if you drive" the text says.

i agree and get ready, pulling up to the triplets house and opening the unlocked door.

nick comes downstairs and i pause

"oh! i almost forgot, i have to get my sweater back from matt, i left it here last time" i say, walking upstairs to matts room.

i forget to knock and just open the door, seeing what was about to be a kiss between matt and some other girl.

matt jumps at the sight of me and tears fill my eyes

"what the fuck matt??" i yell

"its not what it looks like!" he says and i laugh as the tears roll down my cheek

"ohh okay, enlighten me then." i snap back and he looks down to the floor

"i just- i wanted to be sure.." he mumbles

"what?" i say, fidgeting with my rings.

"i'm just- i'm being a friend okay y/n!? i comfort you when you're upset don't i?" he explains

"okay then, tell me you feel absolutely nothing for her then, tell me i'm the only girl you like" i protest, waiting for his response

he stays silent, looking down, which is all of an answer that i need from him.

"you've just lost me matt, goodbye."

but i knew you, playing hide and seek and giving me your weekends.

i sit at the table amongst my friends, them all engaging in the conversation.

meanwhile, i'm looking at old pictures and videos of me and matt, remembering what we had.

the adrenaline, the laughter, the love.

tears brim my eyes but i push them back, not wanting to burst out crying in the middle of lunch.

i come across a video of me and matt trying not to laugh while hiding from chris and nick.

i smile as a tear falls, remembering our movie nights every weekend, our date to the aquarium, everything.

i don't wanna miss him, but how could i not?

you drew stars around my scars, but now im bleeding.

when things got rough, matt was always there. he was the one telling me it was alright, the one who got me through it all, even if it was silly little things.

"no way! i am not going" i protest and matt laughs

"y/n, you have to." he says, grabbing my hand

ive hated going to the doctor since i was little,

(which matt is very aware of.)

sadly he still wants me to go even though im begging him not to make me

(we both know he'll make me go)

"listen, i know you dont like going, but i'll be there the whole time okay? plus it's this appointment and then one more next month, and thats it."

i sigh in defeat, knowing i can't be upset when he makes it all better.

"fine but you're coming to the next one too." i say and he laughs

"its already in my calender" he says with a smile

i stare at the reminder on my phone about tomorrow's doctors appointment, remembering how matt promised he'd go to it with me.

but that was last month, and things were different then.

i feel tears fall down my face, remembering how much better things were with matt.

i go on messages and click on matts contact, debating on calling him.

i groan, putting my phone back in my pocket, driving to the appointment.

but i knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss, i knew you'd haunt all of my what if's

its been 2 months since everything, and me and matt have been texting a little bit since, thing's aren't the same, they never will be.

it'll never be like how it used to.

"matt! stop!" i say laughing

"get off!" i yell with laughter

if someone were to walk in right now, they'd see two lovestruck teenagers in matts bed.

he's currently tickling me to death and attacking me with kisses.

and even though i'm telling him to stop, in this moment, i feel like i've never been happier.

he stops his actions and his face hovers above mine, his eyes flickering to my lips

i smile, and he kisses me softy.

a kiss filled with love and passion, a kiss i'll never forget.

i knew you'd miss me once the thrill expired

me and nick have been on call for a while and somehow the topic stumbled on to matt and the girl i walked in on him with

"yeah i think matt's tired of her or something, me and chris don't really like her either" he says and my eyes widen

"what do you mean he's tired of her?" i ask

"well, he used to be more excited around her but now the most i see him smiling is when he's texting you"

nick says and my heart flutters

i can't go back to matt, not after what he did.

but i do really miss him, and i know he misses me too.

"you should start talking to him more, i know he really hurt you after what he did but i think he's truly changed, he seems just- i dont know- different." nick rambles on

"i dont know nick... after what he did, if he's really changed, he's gonna have to prove it to me." i say.

i knew you'd come back to me.

"happy birthday to y/n, happy birthday to you!" the party sings and i blow out my candles

i am happy, but i can't help but feel like somethings missing.

all my friends and family are here, everyone i know and love, everyone except matt.

i feel sadness fill my thoughts for a moment but brush it off, i can't be sad right now, not here, not today.

i watch as everyone encourages me to open gifts, agreeing while sitting down around the pile of presants.

i open them, listening to the chatter around me and the rain pouring from outside, opening all but 1.

"who's this one from?" i ask, laughing at the handwriting, but nobody answers.

i look around at everyone as they stay silent, making me look down at the writing again, instantly remembering that only matt writes his T's like that.

i smile, unwrapping the gift.

my eyes widen at the sight, its a necklace i said i wanted last year.

he remembered.

a smile, observing it, when suddenly there’s a knock at the door.

i look around, confused because everyone was already here, but still getting up to open the door.

i widen my eyes at the sight of matt, soaking wet, drenched by the rain.

"listen, i'm sorry, truly y/n. i was so fucked up for leading you on like that and then just throwing it all away, it's you y/n it's always been you. you're the one for me, and i know i messed up but i can't sit at home re-reading our texts and watching our old videos, i want you back- please i- i need you back." he says, voice hoarse from crying, tears streaming down his face.

"i-" i try to find the words to respond, but can't

i step out onto the porch where he was standing, letting the rain drench me as well.

pulling matt in, kissing him.

a kiss that will forevermore top any other kiss.

a kiss filled with need and desire, a desire to just be close to eachother again.

we pull away after what feels like forever, and he places his forhead against mine.

"you're always gonna be my favorite"

[goldenlikedayl1ght]

question..? - g. van fleet

a/n: i have no defense for this one gamers, I just thought a quick little blurb like this would be really funny and i hope y’all agree. warnings: nicknames, no use of y/n, fluff, very suggestive behaviors from a few of these guys, cursing, reader has adhd in sams, uhhhh if i missed anything let me know :) summary: you ask your boys the burning question-- the question you don’t know if you can live without the answer to. pairings: jake kiszka x gn!reader, josh kiszka x gn!reader, danny wagner x gn!reader, and sam kiszka x gn!reader word count: 947 now playing: question..? – taylor swift “can i ask you a question?”

"how often do you think about the roman empire?"

the question pretty much haunts you after you saw it on tiktok, because it seems every man in everyone elses life thinks about the roman empire constantly.

so how often does your boy think about the roman empire? you decide to corner him and ask him one night, curious beyond belief.

when you ask jake, it's while he's fiddling with his guitar on the couch, while you read your book, and it's just eating at you.

"hey, jakey?"

he stops playing, turning his attention towards you-- it happens everytime he plays, he's so focused on his guitar until you speak, and then bam-- he's hanging on every word.

"yeah, angel?" what a dreamboat.

"i'm curious about something, and it's been kind of haunting me for a while.." you put your book down as his face becomes more and more concerned. "and i just.. i've got to know.. how often do you think of the roman empire?"

he answers almost immediately.

"at least twice a day."

"what?!"

"yeah, they created so much we use every day. the calender, sewers, aqueducts, roads. plus their mythology is very iconic."

you were not expecting that. but he's so pretty, you just laugh and lean against him.

"you're such a freak."

"you're so mean!" he pouts, "you asked the damn question!"

• • •

 when you ask josh, it's while he's distracted. okay, maybe you're the one making him distracted, because he's kissing your jaw, and your neck, biting and leaving hickeys. he's a man of many talents.

but you're just a teeny tiny out of it, thinking about your question.

"josh, can i ask you somethin?"

"mhm.." he doesn't stop kissing your neck, and he suddenly hits that sweet spot that makes you gasp.

"how -- fuck-- how often do you think about the roman empire?"

he hums again, continuing to kiss your neck and biting your collarbone.

"mhm.."

and you think he's fucking with you, so you push his head away from your neck to get his attention, and it makes him audibly whine.

"that's your answer?"

"uhm.." fuck, he looks good right now.

"you didn't even hear the question!" you laugh, and he takes this as an opportunity to kiss your neck again, and you just sort of melt, so your hand goes to his hair and you decide you can live with that answer until later.

he's just too fine to be mad at. especially when he's using his mouth like this.

• • •

when you ask danny, it's while you're playing with his hair, his insane curly and amazing hair. so while you're running your fingers through his hair, you get curious.

"hey handsome, how often do you think about the roman empire?"

there's a pause.

"baby, what the fuck are you talking about?" he laughs.

"what do you mean?! how often do you think about the roman empire, daniel?"

"like--" he laughs, "like never? i haven't thought about the roman empire since high school."

"were you even thinking about it then?"

"fuck no, i was either getting high with sam in the bathroom or writing song lyrics in the back of the room. i was absolutely thinking about everything that wasn't the roman empire."

he's pretty much the hottest man you've ever seen. and for some reason that answer is just hot. this is a man who was pretty much just floating through life until he became wildly successful and now he's just an attentive, humble, good man.

"well, i appreciate your answer, handsome."

"thanks."

you go back to playing with his hair while he just fiddles with a drum stick he has, twirling it around in his fingers. then he speaks again.

"well, okay, maybe i think about the roman empire like, once a month because jake mentions it all the time--" you laugh, leaning in to kiss his head.

• • •

when you ask sam, it's while he is very much distracted playing with rosie. you love watching them play, and he just has all this nervous energy for no reason, and when rosie senses that, she begins to wear him out.

when he catches you staring at him, he just grins to you, and begins to aggressively pet rosie.

"what is it, sweetheart?" he asked, glancing up to you. you take a moment to think before responding,

"sam, how often do you think about the roman empire?" you ask quizically.

this man looks perplexed. if you thought danny didn't pay attention in high school, sam was so much worse. he once tried to pass a bong off as an art project.

not that you can judge, what, with the horrible adhd that you were diagnosed with in high school.

"the real question is, how often does the roman empire think of me?" he asks, and it makes you laugh so much harder than you thought it would. he is so god damn funny, and you know he loves to make you laugh.

he gets up from his position with rosie and sits next to you, pulling you close to him.

"how often do you think about me?" he flirts. he's so goofy, and it makes you hit him lightly on the chest.

"samuel, we're married."

"yeah, but do you think about me? dream about me? fantasize about me?" he teases, and it makes you get up from your spot and whistle over to rosie.

"c'mon rose, lets go get a drink and let daddy cool off. he's being a sleaze."

"hey! don't talk bad about me to our baby!"

"why don't you go flirt with the roman empire, samuel?"

[365-days-of-taylor-swift]

❄️ Back to December - Prompt Calendar ❄️

I decided to make this lil prompt calender for our ❄️Back to December -Challenge❄️ next month. In order to make it easier for everyone to keep track of which days they may want to participate 🫶

If you're new here and haven't heard of the challenge yet, you can find detailed info in the initial announcement post!

But as a quick summary:

This challenge basically consists of creating something related to a taylor swift lyric that contains a reference to the prompt of each day you can see in the calender above!

Whether you want to make an edit, draw or embroider smth or literally create any other form of art is entirely up to you!

The whole idea behind the "Back to December" part of it all is also that you can submit/tag me in work you've created in the past that fits one or more of these prompts!

As much as I'd love to see creations made inspired by this challenge, I also want to give everyone the oppotunity to show off their older work! 🫶

If you have any more questions or want to be reminded of this challenge again, before this month is over, feel free to DM me or send an ask! 🤗

(tags under the cut)

(I'm just tagging everyone who rbed the og post or expressed interest to participate otherwise; just as a reminder, no obligation of course ❄️🫶)

@gayandtrashy @neverbesokind @remingtonreputation13 @wallpaper-inside-my-heart @lilac-hecox @fennel9 @nevergavein @stateofgracetaylorsversion @anarchyandmaybecake @randomfandomshitt

[bewitcherella]

VIRGO SEASON ORACLE MESSAGES

Hey everyone! :) So I want to start doing oracle/tarot messages for every astrological season, and I'm starting it with Virgo season! The sun entered the sign of Virgo on the 23rd of August and will remain there until it enters the sign of Libra on September 23rd. Please let me know if this resonates for you, and remember if it doesn't to let it go! If you feel inclined to leave a tip I would be most appreciative, and my asks are always open for any astrology questions you may have! Hope to hear from you soon, and wishing you all a wonderful Virgo season! :)

ARIES 

Healing

A Blessing of Litha (30)

Pitcher Plant

Mars & Jupiter

If you are an Aries rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your sixth house of health, daily routines, and service to others (animals, people, the world, etc.). The mermaids advice to you is the importance of taking time to heal yourself. Welcome and allow healing energy to envelop you every day through meditation, self-care, and self-love. Remember that we can initiate change through simple small steps every day. Isn’t it time you believe that you are worthy of being healed? Feeling and truly believing that you are healed is one crucial step in the process. Sunlight is a powerful healing energy so please remember to get outside even for just a few minutes if it is safe for you to do so. Remember to spread this healing energy to others whenever you energetically can. You’ll be pleasantly surprised at how much this can help in your healing journey. There is something so magickal in helping, healing, and supporting others, but only when an inner balance is achieved as well as prioritized. You must always remember to care for yourself first so that you can continue to face the world with the brightness, courage, and enthusiasm that you have. Sometimes a change in perspective, daily gratitude, and moments of solitude are wonderful tools to bring in new energy. The faeries are here to gift you a blessing of Litha! Litha is one of eight Sabbats. It is an important marker in the yearly calender of the beauty of celebrating your life by living life to the fullest. You could have been feeling down or doing a lot of inner work, and it is time to celebrate the blessings of the feast of the faery. You will feel a part of it all, and the day will be long, good, sweet, and filled with unexpected joy and kindness. Litha may be an important Sabbat for you (this year it occurred on June 24th the Summer Solstice) or perhaps this was an important time in your life that is now reaping the rewards/seeds of whatever was sown. Regardless, let the present moment expand, let the ripeness of your life speak to you, and may you make the very most of this life you have been blessed with. The pitcher plant reminds you of the importance of insight: “The answers are there for those who look”.  Mars and Jupiter: Use your power for good. You can make the world a better place if you choose to apply your talents wisely. Channeled song/Lyrics: “You’re the lucky one, let me tell you now, you’re the lucky one” 

The Lucky One (Taylor’s version) —Taylor Swift

TAURUS

Letting Go

A Blessing of the Sight (18)

Peony

Gemini & Saturnus

If you are a Taurus rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your fifth house of love, romance, and casual dating. The 5th house also represents our relationship to children/our inner child. The mermaids advice to you is how important it is to keep hope in your heart by letting go. It’s possible to salvage something you thought was lost by releasing any attachments and letting go. There is so much power in letting go, but we are often overwhelmed by the intense feelings of grief and loss to see its incredible value. When love leaves your life you have to remember to count the beautiful blessings of the impact this love had on you. Counting the blessings gained from your connection can help heal the feelings of sadness and loss. Allow your tears to flow as they cleanse your mind, body, and soul so that you can embrace what will can and will be. Saying this affirmation can help with the process of letting go: I’m open to the swift and total healing of my heart as I practice letting go so that I may embrace the golden future that awaits me. Meditation can also be incredibly powerful, and there are so many ways to reach a meditative state. Find the one that works for you, and see how lighter you feel afterward. The faeries gift to you is the blessing of the sight or the ability to see with the eyes of the spirit. This sight is fleeting though, and like water, if you struggle to hold it, it will slip through your fingers. Those who have been blessed will be able to see what is within a person, know themselves, and who they truly are…a moment when the limited vision of humanity opens up and you see the world in a different perspective that utterly transforms you. Utilize your sight to see the world as it is: magickal. Begin to see the worlds that overlap these ones, and watch your life begin to change. The flower peony wants to remind you of the importance of your health: “Focus on all parts to make the whole”. Don’t ignore your mental health for your physical or vice versa. Find a healthy balance so that you can truly heal. Saturnus in Gemini: Discipline your overstimulated mind. Channeled song/lyrics: Round & Round -Selena Gomez & The Scene “Round and round, well you're gonna miss cause I’m getting dizzy going round and round”. 

GEMINI 

Support

A Blessing of Rapture (4)

Belladonna

Libra & Uranus

If you are a Gemini rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your 4th house of home, family, and ancestors. The mermaids advice to you is to call that friend now. Their perspective can reveal insights into your life that you may not have previously seen or considered. If you’re in need of help know that there is no shame in asking for support or help. Know that help can be rendered, but only if you ask for it! There could also be someone close to you who is in need of help but does not know how to ask. Gently see if there is anything you can do to help, and offer your support if possible. Sometimes we just need to be heard, and the support we require comes from someone simply listening to us lovingly and without judgment. Remember, you can also continue to ask for help/support from your God(s)/Goddess. The universe is always listening and will provide what you need if you open your heart to ask. The faeries gift to you is the blessing of the rapture is yours. The moment of pure, unadulterated wonder that will open your heart wide and bring so much joy. You are a part of the universe, and this energy freely flows into you. Why don’t you tap into it so that you can overcome your fears? The sweetest, most intense, joy, and gratitude await you on the other side. Do not give in to limitations. The flower belladonna reminds us of the power of silence: “Listen more and quiet be”. Overcome the pain so you can experience the beauty. Uranus in Libra: Temper the urge to change with thoughtful plans. Channeled song/lyrics: “Oh I’ve finally decided my future lies, beyond the yellow brick road” 

CANCER

Awareness

A Blessing to Undo an Unfortunate Geis (15)

Orange Blossom

Neptunus & Leo

If you are a Cancer rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your 3rd house of communication, siblings, and short journeys. The mermaids advice to you is to use your intuition! It is time to become more aware of what is happening around you now. Time to look under that rock! In order to tune into your intuition you need to ground yourself, and meditation is a wonderful tool to connect with yourself and the energy around you. You could be going through a spiritual awakening, and you are on the necessary path to consciously see a situation from a heightened perspective. There could also be someone around you who needs to be more aware, and you can possibly offer insights that were previously unknown to that person. The faeries gift to you is a blessing to undo an unfortunate geis which will help you overcome difficult life patterns. Geis is what the Celts believed we were born with, it is a theme or central story that would be told within our lives by the goddess Arianrhod. Everyone has their challenges, and it is vital to not view this as a curse but rather a gift. You can overcome these difficult challenges, and the faeries are gifting you a pathway that is easier if you choose to follow it. It is a path of self-acceptance, self-love, and power to undo what the unfortunate Geis has done. You will make it through to the other side with more knowledge, power, and courage which is truly priceless. The orange blossom reminds you of the power of enthusiasm: “The best can be here; believe it”. Neptunus in Leo: Reveal the divine nature of your being. Channeled song/lyrics: “It's this one thing that got me trippin'

It's this one thing that got me trippin' (you did)

This one thing, your soul made me feel it

It's this one thing you did” 

LEO 

Free Spirit

A Blessing of Being Understood (43)

Calla Lily

Scorpio & Taurus

If you are a Leo rising Virgo season will occur for you in your second house of personal finances, material possessions, and the concept of value. The mermaids advice to you is to express yourself! Allow your spirit to feel free. Be aware of what confines you and the restrictions placed upon you by yourself or by others. However, it is important that you do not shrink your responsibilities in order to indulge in fun. It is possible to balance your responsibilities with your free time. You may also have had nomadic thoughts or a desire to travel freely. This is stemming from deep within as there is a desire to release your creativity or deepest desires that have been trapped. See how you can change things at home or with others so that you do not feel that you need to run away in order to finally feel free. Honor your free spirit because this is who you are, and fall into a harmonious relationship with your inner spiritual needs balanced with your responsibilities. The faeries gift to you is a blessing of being understood. To understand yourself and to understand others is a beautiful gift that you have connected with, and it is time to allow this to flow through you so that you are not in a self-imposed glass wall between you and your desires. You will no longer feel like an outcast, and connecting with your soul tribe is just as important as continuing to connect with yourself. Do things for yourself as you would do for others. Spread kindness, compassion, and joy for the love of all that is natural. The flower calla lily reminds you of the power of rejuvenation: “Reawaken and then stand stronger”. Venus and Mars: Let yourself burn with a fiery passion for those things that capture your heart. Do not hold back from the power of love. Channeled songs/lyrics: “I got in my head, I bet you could get me back out, or you could leave me there, ‘cause we just love to dream”.

VIRGO

Love

A Blessing of Nwyfre (13)

Heartease

Sagittarius & Aquarius

If you are a Virgo rising, Virgo season will occur in your first house of self-image, your temperament, and identity. The mermaids advice to you is to open yourself up to universal or romantic love. Put yourself out there, and maybe go on a date or rekindle the love within your current relationship. The mermaid here is absolutely stunning because she is bathing in the power of unconditional self-love. She loves herself fully so she is able to fully love others from a place of deep and unconditional passion. She knows her true values and is a shining beacon for those who will complement her in a loving, positive, and compassionate way. To love someone, and yet to set them free is a beautiful thing. Do not let your emotions get too attached and dependent on others, because then you begin to lose that inner strength of unconditional self-love. Love is like water and should be flowing, not grasped so tightly it slips. The act of giving and caring is a beautiful expression of love. If you feel called to be of service to others reach out and express your love through acts of service. Remember that love comes in all forms, and platonic relationships are just as important as romantic ones. Random acts of kindness are another expression of pure love. The faeries gift to you is a blessing of nwyfre, or the blessing of healthy energy that is so clear and revitalizing. You will begin to feel so grounded, centered, and connected–radiate within and radiate out. Try to soak in the sunlight as much as possible, and if you previously felt ill, nervous, or unwell know that the gift of nwyfre will be of great assistance. Feel it in each breath, every heartbeat, and step as you ground yourself into the radiating energy of the nwyfre. The flower heartease reminds you of the importance of compassion: “Tread a little more tenderly”. Whether this is within yourself or with others, remember to be compassionate. Everyone is fighting a silent battle. Jupiter and Uranus: The sky is the limit when it comes to what you can achieve in this lifetime. The stars are aligned to bless your every undertaking. Channeled songs/lyrics: “If I’m ever gonna fall in love, I know it’s gon be you, it’s you, it’s always you”.

LIBRA 

Turn Away

A Blessing of Elflocks (16)

Geranium 

Pisces & Luna 

If you are a Libra rising, Virgo season will occur in your 12th house of the subconscious, dream world, and intuition. The mermaids advice to you is to turn away from or turn your back on a situation that isn’t serving your highest good. Turning away can be an empowering thing, and even if it’s just a temporary measure it is the right thing. It can be challenging and yet you know deep down that it’s the right thing to do. It’s time to turn or swim away with your self-esteem intact. A step backward isn’t always a bad thing, and in the larger picture, it could be a step forward in the direction you are guided to take. Another perspective to think about is how turning away can be a loving gesture when you know the people or situation you’re turning away from will be okay without your input or physical presence. You do not have to endure your current circumstances if they do not feel right for you. If you’ve already turned away from a situation and are tempted to get involved again remember why you left the situation in the first place before making a decision. Time has a habit of blurring our memories and it’s best to look with clear lenses before making any major decisions regarding this. The faeries gift to you is a blessing of elflocks, which will help you sense their presence and detect their signs. Look out for small gifts or offerings from the fae as well as objects disappearing and appearing within your home. This is a sign that the fae are with you. Know that faeries are not stealing or playing tricks but rather taking objects that need to be cleansed and returning them when the needed work has been done. Look for the tangible presence of the faeries within your life, and know you have been truly blessed by their presence. The flower geranium reminds you of the importance of virility: “Shake it up a little; you’ve got this”. It’s time for you to step out of your comfort zone and into something new. Don’t fall back on old patterns now when something new & alluring awaits you. Luna in Pisces: Beware of becoming a psychic sponge. Channeled song/lyrics: “Lay your head down real close to me, soothe my mind and set me free…I love to love you, baby”. 

SCORPIO

Contentment 

A Blessing of the White Hart (14)

Gardenia

Virgo & Aries 

If you are a Scorpio rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your 11th house of friendships, humanity, and gatherings. The mermaids advice to you is to have gratitude in your contentment of life. Count your blessings and stay in a place of contentment. Feeling content is a wonderful gift, and you should enjoy this time because you have definitely earned it. The lighthouse is illuminating your blessings as you sit upon the bridge of life. The lighthouse guides you to a place of deep gratitude and satisfaction that allows you to view your surroundings clearly. Continue to be grateful and appreciate the beautifully complex experience that life is. However, if you have not been feeling continent reflect on what keeps you from being at peace. What do you have to be grateful for today? This week? This month? This year? Sometimes looking from a different perspective or vantage point can show us where our deep-rooted dissatisfaction is stemming from. Contentment is possible and within your reach, if you follow the light within you that will lead you to a journey of unconditional love for the self, others, and life itself. Falling in love with life itself is one way to provide a deep feeling of contentment combined with gratitude. The faeries are here to gift you the blessing of the white hart which is a gift of integrity and recognition of the sacred. This is a sign from the faery world that you must keep true to what is sacred. You are recognized as a person of high integrity and it is so important that you keep along this path. To be blessed with the gift of seeking allows you to find what it is you wish to know as well as seeking your own true self. You will recognize those who are not in integrity, and easy confidence in your life. The calling to the sacred is a blessing for all those who follow that pure magickal and sacred call–use it wisely. The flower gardenia reminds us of the importance of awareness: “Wake up, roll the clouds away, and look”. There is so much magick around you just waiting to be acknowledged, won’t you answer the call? Mars and Mercurius: Words have power and can wound. Sheath your rapier wit and take more care with what you say to others.  Channeled songs/lyrics: “I don’t mean to break so easily under the pressure, need some time alone to breathe, I need some tree and fresh air”. 

SAGITTARIUS

Trust

A Blessing of Movement (8)

Lenten Rose 

Pluto & Capricorn

If you are a Sagittarius rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your tenth house of career, social status, and public image. The mermaids advice to you is to have trust in life. Nothing happens by chance and the universe is guiding you towards your destiny. Have faith and trust. Even if it doesn’t feel that way right at the moment it is so important to have trust within yourself as well as the universe that everything will work out for the highest good. You are strong enough to face this, and you will have the strength to endure anything that comes your way. Honestly, we are never truly in control of life, and it is liberating to realize this. Let go of any control issues and trust that the sun will rise and shine once again. When we surrender to the divine we are allowing things to flow to and from us freely like water. Life is full of creative twists and turns which is a part of the grand symphony of the universe. The place where you find yourself now is exactly where you are meant to be, and destiny is unfolding right before you. This is an important period of re-birth into the new and unknown. All you have to do is trust. The faeries are here to gift you a blessing of movement which is free-flowing liberty to decide your own direction. Maybe you’re having a difficult time choosing a path to follow and do not trust your inner guidance. The faeries want to remind you that they are here to free up the stagnant parts of your life so that you can go in a new direction. Let the faeries be with you as you start to break free and explore more within yourself and within the world. Move your body with all the joy that comes from expressing yourself! Appreciate the movement to destinations you have dreamed of, and let movement ripple through any old habits that have grown heavy within your energy. It is time for renewal and may the freedom to come and go as you please become a blessing for you. The faeries are here blessing you as you move into this new chapter of your life an unknown adventure full of freedom. The lenten rose reminds you that you are protected during this movement: “Conserve what you have; save a little”. Remember that even though you are divinely protected to maintain a balance, and conserve your energy, money, and time. Pluto in Capricorn: Do not struggle against inevitable endings. Channeled song/Lyrics: “...for some kind of sign, of when you were mine, the world seemed to burn…I’m burning the memories, burning the letter that might have redeemed you”. 

CAPRICORN

Relaxation 

A Blessing of the Unseelie (2)

African Violet

Mercurius and Sol 

If you are a Capricorn rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your ninth house of religion, higher learning, and travelling. The mermaids advice to you is that it’s time for some rest and recuperation! Have you been overdoing things or working too hard? If so, relaxation is required now. Take the time to recharge and relax. When you set aside time to relax and rejuvenate yourself you’ll find that you’re better equipped to handle the challenges that life can bring. Without this time to reset you can inadvertently cause even more stress, and this can begin to take a toll on your mental, physical, and spiritual health. This is a sign to stop and relax! Sometimes we can make ourselves busy so that we can not just sit with our inner selves and reflect. If that resonates with you, it might be helpful to being guided meditations or listen to therapeutic sounds of nature or asmr. If this isn’t you and you’re surrounded by people who are hyperactive you can help them find the time to rest and relax by participating in a meditative activity together. It doesn’t have to be sitting in silence together meditating you can go on a contemplative walk in nature, read a book side by side, or even lay on a blanket outside and watch the clouds. Meditation comes in so many different forms, and all that matters is that you find the form that works for you or those around you. Also, what have you been eating lately? Diet plays an important role in our energy and overall well-being. Remember to keep a healthy balance between healthy foods like fruits or vegetables and unhealthy food such as processed sugars. The faeries gift to you is a blessing of the unseelie which is following your true heart. The gift of the unseelie is a rebellious one, it is the one who defies, or refuses to go with the flow. The unseelie are sometimes considered dangerous but their gift to you is this: you are not born to appease and to concede, to give way always before forces that only consume and/or control. You were born to be free, wild, and living authentically. This is the faeries gift to you: the reminder that you are in control, and the power of saying no! However, the energy of the unseelie is not from a place of unkindness, but rather from the desire to be kind to your truest self by creating the space to be free from shackles you did not ask for. With the faeries blessing you will be able to say no, take a stand, and finally feel confident in your ability to be free. The african violet reminds you of the importance of spirituality: “It’s time to connect with what you believe”. Mercurius and Sol: The sense of urgency you feel is your soul calling. Listen and swiftly feel where it leads you”. Channeled song/lyrics: “Now my mind is outta place, yeah, ‘cause I lost my faith, and I feel everything…I feel everything from my body to my soul”

AQUARIUS 

Patience

A Blessing on the Heart’s Calling (33)

Heliconia

Cancer & Gemini

If you are an Aquarius rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your 8th house of taboos, shared resources, and death/rebirth. The mermaids advice to you is to practice patience! It’s so helpful to let go of any expectations and surrender to life as it reveals itself. The reward of patience is patience! Trust in the process of life and all of its twists. The universe does not make mistakes, and what is meant to be will flourish in the right time. You should have wishes, dreams, and hopes that you pursue but while being patient with the process that comes with the experience of life. Whatever it is that is on your mind trust and understand that things are working behind the scenes and all you must do is continue to practice patience. Try focusing on other things to help distract your mind from the yearnings that come with waiting. If it is not you that is feeling particularly impatient there could be someone else around you that is feeling very impatient. Lovingly let them know the power of being patient, and help refocus them so that they are not blinded by their yearnings. When you’re able to practice patience everything begins to flow harmoniously, and the pressure of expectations begins to dissipate. Something to consider if you are feeling impatient: are you worried that this will be taken away from you if it does not appear quickly? Remember that everything that is meant for you will come for you when the timing is right. Set your mind to rest, and melt into the power of patience. The faeries gift to you is a blessing on the hearts calling or enchantment. Whatever you touch has a spark of magick to it, and it would be wise to utilize this spark wisely. There is a little extra life force flowing through you, and by spreading this to others you are aligning yourself with the outer world. Work within these energies so that you wish for has its truest chance of coming into fruition. You are a blessed child of the fae, and they offer their magick to you now, utilize it to practice patience and see the magick that unfolds. The flower heliconia reminds you of the power of realisation: “The answer is here; take heed”. Mercurius and Luna: Your dreams are filled with important messages now. Give as much attention to your sleeping life as your waking life. Channeled song/lyrics: “All I’m tryna say is your my everything baby, but everytime I try to say it, words they only complicate it” 

PISCES 

Friendship

A Blessing of Glamour (20)

Agapanthus

Venus & Leo 

If you are a Pisces rising, Virgo season will occur for you in your seventh house of open enemies, relationships (business, platonic, romantic, etc.), and any serious contractual agreement between two people. The mermaids advice to you is phone a friend! Find someone on your own wavelength to spend time with. Being with like minded individuals is the tonic you need right now. Quality company and true friendship would be good for you at this time. Friendship can keep us going when life is tough, and challenges seem to be in our way. Friendships can lift us out of the dark places and are the precious jewels that should be cherished. Remember to check on your strong friends, and see if they need a helping hand. If you feel you are being called to offer a hand to someone, please offer the warmth of your friendship. When you’re in alignment with your destiny you will meet others on your path who are meant for you in this stage of life that you’re currently in. Sometimes a little company, a cup of tea, or a walk along the beach with a cherished friend will do wonders in ways you couldn’t imagine. The faeries gift to you is the blessing of glamour of drawing on the deep well of magickal shapeshifting abilities that are within you. Being able to change or adapt to new situations or stages of life you are invoking the power of the glmaour. You can draw confidence deep from within yourself to confront what must be confronted or head to a meeting with confidence. Despite what you feel inside you are able to push forward and channel this faery glamour to make new friends, feel brave in a new situation, and to speak your truth. May you utilize this faery glamour to be invisible when necessary and seen when necessary. Draw up the glamour from within to assert a boundary, repel a predator, create an impression, and believe in yourself. The flower agapanthus reminds us of the power of words of love: “Speak with your heart”. Venus in Leo: Remember to give as well as receive. Channeled song/lyrics: “And I couldn’t be sure, I had a feeling so peculiar, that this pain would be, for evermore”. 

[jilychallenge]

Getting organised ;-)

Did you make something for a jily Challenge this year? Feel free to add it to this Jily Challenges 2022 | Archive of Our Own Collection!

Are you making something for the December Challenge, please drop it in the December Jily Advent Calender collection!

Themes in 2022

January: First Wizarding War (post no longer on Tumblr)

February: Be My Valentine (post no longer on Tumblr)

March: - no challenge ;(

April: Meet Uglies

May: Sea

June: Taylor Swift

July: Summer

August: Travel

September: Back to School

October: No challenge because of the JILYTOBERFEST link to works on ao3 or @jilytoberfest

November: Tropefest

December: December Jily Calender: follow the tag #DJAC2022

[southernapparelshop]

Check out this listing I just added to my Poshmark closet: Taylor Swift Calender.

[beatdisc]

2023 End-Of-Year Top Sellers!

We've collated the data on 10,000+ units of vinyl sold at Beatdisc last year and put together our #beatdisctop9 best selling New Albums & Re-issues released during the 2023 calender year.

Top 9 New Releases:

- SZA - SOS - boygenius - The Record - Gorillaz - Cracker Island - Lana Del Rey - Did You Know That There's A Tunnel... - Metallica - 72 Seasons - Foo Fighters - But Here We Are - Mitski - The Land Is Inhospitable...| - Caroline Polachek - Desire, I Want To Turn Into You - Yussef Dayes - Black Classical Music

Top 9 Re-Issues: - De La Soul - 3 Feet High And Rising - Pink Floyd - Dark Side Of The Moon: Live At Wembley - The Beatles - Now And Then - Taylor Swift - Speak Now (Taylor's Version) - The Cruel Sea - The Honeymoon Is Over - Powderfinger - Vulture Street - Talking Heads - Stop Making Sense - Unwritten Law - Here's To The Mourning - Cymande - s/t

Thanks to all of our wonderful regulars who have kept us going for 28+ years now, along with all the new faces we met. Here's to another great year!

[killjoygem]

My mum got me a taylor swift advent calender and I absolutely love it 😭

The first thing in it was earrings though, so I guess I should finally go get my ears pierced 😅

[inlovewitheasefuldeath]

not me finding out they're doing another taylor swift and harry styles club night in december and immediately putting it in my calender

[lennies-blog]

Thank you F1 for releasing the 2024 calender now, so I can coordinate it with Taylor Swift's concerts😄🤌