#thanks to the anon that sent me this and for letting me know

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Hi! How are you?

Short answer and the more polite answer since I don't think people on the internet want to hear my rants - I'm managing. I'm in therapy. On medication. Getting help and just taking it one day at a time right now.

Thanks for checking in anon and anyone else who has sent a message. I haven't abandoned the game. And I know that it doesn't help that I have no update now but I'm just kind of in the "I have to get my shit together or else" kind of place right now. I've spent years and years avoiding mental health and it's caught up with me.

Rants below just to provide some sort of update on why things are where they are, but feel free to ignore them.

I'm feeling lots of feelings at the moment. It's almost May and I've not really accomplished much at all this year. My mother-in-law is in the hospital, and the NHS just wants to send her home instead of helping her. I'm feeling incredibly helpless and useless as a partner, how do you support your partner through this? Doing my best but I'm so frustrated and can't do anything to make it better or make anyone listen and help my mother-in-law.

My employer is probably going under financially and many things don't sit right with my values so I'm stressing about finding a new job. Obviously grateful to have work but it's taken a huge toll on my mental health. I've dedicated dozens of hours each week to job hunting and interviewing - I feel so burnt out but can't afford to let up.

My therapist has asked me not to do any writing of any kind. She believes I am not in a place where this is productive for my mental health. I've always used writing as an outlet. These last couple of months have been difficult. I have not touched my journals, scripts, or games. My fingers ache to write but I don't want to let all my progress go up in flames so alas, this Tumblr ask is the most I've written in months and I can only hope I get better soon so that won't be the truth. I probably shouldn't have written this even but I've been feeling so guilty, every day it crosses my mind that I've just gone MIA on here.

If you read this, you're a gem and I'm sorry if it's too personal - I just don't want anyone to think I've abandoned things. I'm just really focused on healing right now because I have to focus on it.

Wishing you the best.

-Vi

[kelcemenow]

Drive Me Crazy - Chapter 8.

Pairing Travis Kelce x Reader

Words 1391

Warnings Some angsty vibes here, but it's going to get better, I swear!

Huge thank you to the Anon who sent this in! They had such amazing words to say about my writing which I massively appreciate and then to top it off, had an incredible request for me! I only have experience with mechanics in the UK, so I’ve tried my best with this one! “I just recently got interested in Travis K. X reader stories and wanted to let you know, I read all of yours as quickly as I could. They are so well done and I couldn’t help but laugh/giggle and feel through each word you typed out. You’re doing amazing and I’m so glad to have stumbled onto your page. If you have any space for a request, I’d be curious about what Trav would think about having a military (like fighter pilot) or engineer or mechanic girlfriend. I see a lot of stories with him paired with models/singers/social media individuals (which are phenomenal!) but just wondering how he would be with a more tomboy like girlfriend!”

CHAPTER 7

CHAPTER 8

"Are you sure you're okay?"

You sighed, rolling your eyes, "Travis, I'm fine. I'm just tired."

He stared at you as thoroughly as he could through his phone screen. Faint wrinkles between his eyes deepened as his eyes narrowed. He hummed quietly before laying further back on his bed, his elbows elevating his torso, "Your Dad seemed pretty happy tonight."

You forced a smile, your chest still panging with hurt, "Yeah, thank you for doing all of this, he had a blast."

"And you?"

You paused, a little longer than you should've, "Yeah, it was great."

Luckily, Travis had rolled across the bed to grab the charger for his phone and didn't pick up on your disheartened expression, "I'm still pissed you wouldn't let the team doctor check you over."

"Travis, I really appreciate that you're concerned for me, I am. But honestly, it wasn't necessary."

He sucked his teeth and shook his head, "It's crazy though, there's gotta be a reason you passed out."

You avoided his gaze, adjusting the folds of your bedsheet.

"Anyway baby, I'm tired. I think I'm going to hit the hay, okay?"

Nodding your head gently, you could feel your body yearning to yawn, "Yeah, me too."

"But I'll call you in the morning?"

"Sure."

You watched as his eyes creased into a sweet smile, "G'night, babygirl."

Your stomach fluttered as his left eye quickly closed into a charming wink. It seemed travis had a talent for making you melt, no matter the situation.

"Goodnight, Travis."

The phone display returned to your home screen, a black and white photo of you and your Dad when you were younger. You must have been around 9 or 10 years old and were wearing one of his work t-shirts, splotches of grease and oil covering most of the fabric. He was leaning over the hood of his car and you were stood on a stool in front of him, holding a large tool in your tiny hand. You recognised his battered baseball cap adorning his head as one of your own now, something he gave you when you took on part of his business. 'A good luck charm', he said. Your chest swelled with love before melancholy set in. The opinions of other people had never bothered you in the past, especially the opinions of complete strangers. You had always been confident in yourself and you valued hard work and kindness over appearances. But now here you were, overthinking and distracted by the online comments of people you didn't know.

You laid back on your bed and stared up at the ceiling, shadows forming swirled patterns across the white paint. Taking a few deep breaths, you glanced across to the digital clock on your nightstand before feeling your eyelids droop lower and lower with each breath.

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Music blasted from the small radio you had perched on top of the exposed engine. Your head was buried under the hood, fingers tinkering at greased bolts and pipes as the sounds of the garage were overpowered by Whitney Houston.

"Y/N!" A deep voice yelled out from behind you.

Your body jerked as the noise disturbed your focus. Glancing over your shoulder, you noticed Jordan standing 20 yards or so away from you, his eyes avoiding yours.

"Yes?" You said impatiently, without changing your stance, a clear sign that you weren't interested in a lengthy conversation with him.

"I don't know if you're busy or..."

"Yeah, I am."

"Right." Jordan turned away for a second before spinning around and taking a few steps closer to you, "You know, it's just that it's obvious that other people think the same as I do."

You stood up straight, your shoulders tightening, "Excuse me?"

"I just don't think that you and Travis are a good match for each other." His feet were planted on the floor but his knees were twitching, his hands nervously fidgeting in his washed out denim jeans, "And I know I shouldn't have behaved the way I did the other night, but I was just in shock to see him there, you know? He's a pretty big deal, and you...you're just a-"

"Is this supposed to be an apology?"

Jordan sighed, his hands moving up to his temples, "I just think you would be better suited with someone else."

You laid down the spanner that you had been firmly gripping, the clang ringing out through the garage and capturing everyone's attention, "Someone else? Someone else like you, you mean?"

"Y/N, that's not what I'm saying-"

"What are you saying, then?

Jordan's gaze drifted to the floor, "I...I don't really know."

You took a step towards him, "Exactly. You don't know what you're saying. So, let me give you a clue. Who I date is none of your business, Jordan. It is actually none of yours, or anyone else's business."

You could see heads turning in your peripheral, but all that you could feel was the heat quickly rising in your chest and adrenaline speeding through your veins. Jordan stood with his mouth open, as if he was about to speak but even if he wanted to, you were reluctant to give him the chance.

"So, just...stay out of it, okay?" You waved your hand before rushing over to the bathroom, the wooden door slamming shut behind you.

Your shaking hands reached for the white basin, fingers gripping the smooth, cool, porcelain as you looked up into the mirror. You gritted your teeth as you attempted to hold your composure for a few seconds before you crumbled, tears travelling down your cheeks quickly. The clangs of the garage were muffled in the distance behind your occasional sobs, but you ran the tap just in case anyone could hear you.

Your reflection stared back at you, the skin under your eyes shiny from tears. As your breathing slowed and you took back control of your emotions, you grabbed your hair behind your head and tied it back with a small scrunchie that was snug on your wrist. Wiping your face, you inhaled deeply before a gentle knock on the bathroom door made you jump slightly.

"Uhh, there's someone in here." Your emotionally charged voice gurgled.

"It's Dad."

You looked around the small restroom, for nothing in particular, before flushing the toilet, "I'll just...I'll just be a minute." You called out, grabbing a hand towel and desperately dabbing your face.

There was a short moment of silence on the other side of the door as your Dad waited for the sound of rushing water to cease.

"He's gotten under your skin, hasn't he?"

"Jordan? I couldn't care less about what Jordan thinks." You tucked a piece of hair behind your ear and brushed down your overalls, "I don't-"

"I meant Travis."

You turned towards the door, your eyebrows furrowed.

"Forgive me for saying this, and I know I don't really know much about your dating life-" He let out a chuckle, "-but I've seen a change in you. A good change."

You reached for the door handle, "Really?"

"You seem happier." You could hear a smile in your Dad's voice, "Today aside, of course."

As you gently turned the handle and opened the door, his face came into view, his cheek pressed to the door frame, desperate to comfort you. You exhaled a smile as his eyes scanned your face, "I am happy."

"So, what's this?" He gestured to your eyes.

You shook your head, "It's stupid, really. I saw some comments on a picture of me and Travis online and then Jordan just-"

"And since when did you care what people thought?"

You blinked, "I don't."

Your Dad pushed the door open further and placed his hands on both of your shoulders, "So, what's the problem?"

You giggled, "I don't know."

"I think I know." He winked with a grin.

You lowered your brows again, your lips tightening into a coy smile.

"You like the guy!" He shook you gently, "And I don't blame you. But I have to be honest here, he's the lucky one to have you, sport."

You looked down at your feet, your cheeks flushing with red.

"So, fuck what everybody else thinks!"

"Daddy!" Your head snapped up, your eyes wide at your Dad's uncharacteristic cursing, which was something exclusively reserved for watching football games.

"Go get him."

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I think I've got my groove back!

This series will be finishing soonish and then I'll get onto the one-shot requests list that I have sitting in my notes app...which is quite a few!

Anyway, I hope you like this next chapter, it's not too dramatic but it's setting up the finale! If you want to be added to my Taglist, just let me know!

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[jaylver]

https://www.tumblr.com/cjayius/746006547364249601/feels-like-nishimura-riki

just checked it out! first, i would say there's no plagiarism in my opinion, because i think the concept of n + n fics are quite common yet underrated, but i don't know whether it is common in the enhafic community since i barely see it. anyway, the title and everything isn't similar so there shouldn't be much problem either! honestly i got worried from the prev ask but it looks to me just fine, maybe it's the ideas that are similar 🤷‍♀️ to defend myself i wrote mine last year, thought of the fic idea/plot and title myself, so you can be the judge of it. either way, thanks for sending me this and letting me know! really appreciate it <3

[yakny]

COME ON BABY, DON'T FEAR THE REAPER

[therhythmafterthesummer]

A very cute idea that when Chris is out with the boys and they happen to pass a jewelry store, he always slows down at least a little and look

I’m also a firm believer he went with Changbin to pick out and pick up ginger’s engagement ring and he got all floaty and daydreamy about pretty wearing his ring. Maybe just maybe he’s be eyeing a very specific ring but hasn’t worked up the courage to buy it yet

(Although I do see him also using maybe his grandparents rings since maybe they were true mates/soul mates. But he’s struggling to find them in the house)

Everyone has been doing there best to let him indulge these thoughts, they used to make fun of him when he did it prior to them being together, but now everyone wants their pack mom to be official official (even if they know no one else will ever replace her)

this is honestly so so cute and i can totally see it being a thing. he's always like "👀" whenever rings are in his line of view. 100% was looking at every ring available while helping changbin through the whole process.

i must say, though.... even if he started daydreaming and smiling like a fool, i don't think he'd be satisfied with the options available 👀

he'd want it to be perfect 🤌 so it'd be A Process if he chooses to go with the marriage route

[luna-lovegreat]

I'm not anon but I think I understand where they're coming from. There are some people who refuse to put pronouns in their bio/pinned posts to make a statement that they shouldn't have to specify their pronouns because they are obviously male or female and that trans/gender-nonconforming identities are invalid and not real. Unfortunately this is more common with blogs that are openly religious, which might be why anon asked you that.

It sounds like your lack of listed pronouns is more so because you didn't know it is preferred to list them and not because you have any queerphobic intentions.

In your bio, which is the space under your blog title where you can add extra notes, people usually list their preferred name, pronouns, whether they're an adult or a minor, any extra key info they feel it is essential for people to know in order understand their blog (such as English is a second language, person is a system or autistic, blog includes nsfw, religion, continent of residence etc.), main fandoms (like LoZ/LU), and role in fandom (writer, artist, analysis post maker, meme maker etc.). Any and all of these things are optional, but at a minimum, I recommend listing your preferred name and pronouns.

Pinned posts are optional. People use them to add extra info (like do-not-interact lists, switch friend codes, other fandoms, etc.) and to list/link fandom contributions such as fanfics written or popular posts.

What you should not put in your bio or pinned post are your exact age, birthday, real name, real names of relatives, city where you live (even including state/province is not recommended), health info that isn't relevant, is excessive, or is TMI.

Look at your mutuals/friends bios and pinned posts for inspiration/examples and create your own bio/pinned post however you want.

Oooo thank you!

Yayyyy advice :)

You are correct, I don't know these things. I'm glad it was brought to my awareness in a nice way :D

I overreact and talk too much- I hope I didn't scare my anon off just from such a long response /j

I definitely do not want to be saying I don't think pronoun clarification is needed, or invalidating my trans friends. That's so awful??? I did not know, and never intended any such implications

Thank you for the advice it's appreciated <333

[ereborne]

Soft asks #12, 24, & 25 please 👋🏻👋🏻🥹

12) how are you? Hi Caitlin!! I'm trying to stay awake in the limbo between lunch and my afternoon meetings, and I got an anon message that reminded me these ask meme questions were waiting in my inbox, ready to help keep me occupied! Thank you ❤️

24) what’s something you do to de-stress? I'm doing it right now, actually: I'm by the window in my living room, looking out at the birds at my feeder! I love my birds so much. The sound and sight of them is simultaneously very soothing and very entertaining for me. Today they're all sparrows on the feeder and mourning doves underneath, but there's times, especially in late spring, where there will be a dozen different types all hanging out together.

25) what’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.) Probably a playlist! I keep very strong mental associations with songs, so it's a lovely sentimental reminder, and also songs are the most portable gift I can think of.

[meownotgood]

I’m so curious- how did your Aki obsession start 😭? Was there a specific point in the manga or anime?

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME THIS QUESTION

alright so way back in early 2022 I read the chainsaw man manga for the first time... I was getting really into reading manga, and my friend suggested since I enjoyed the jjk series, I should read chainsaw man next.

and from the minute I saw aki in chapter three I was like yeah... this is mine... this will be my favorite character. because he ticks all the boxes for everything I typically like. sharp dressed in a suit, his hair is up so when you see it down you're like woah, smokes cigarettes.... I thought his kon power was so cool, and I liked his backstory and how he was more than just a stereotypical cold hearted character

as I kept reading, I liked him more and more, even though he was always my favorite character from the start. but after I finished the manga, aka after aki completed his full arc and I saw all of his story unfold, that's when it really clicked for me.

like I didn't realize it was happening to me until after I finished the manga and I was like wow... that manga was really good... but why is cute and handsome topknot man the only thing I can think about (spoiler alert it was my autism HAH)

and then I went ahead and read the manga for a second time, and that just made me love him even more... I realized things about him I didn't the first time..... the thoughts spiraled out of control... I read the manga for a THIRD time and found that my gallery was quickly becoming only screenshots of him... then I got tired of reading the same couple x reader fanfics that were out for him, so I decided I'd write my own, and the rest is history

[purple-nautilus]

Commander, I've heard on the radio that the guy who runs it has a crush on you. Like, I literally heard the guy say he has a crush on XCOM's commander. Anyways, are you spoken for?

[squea]

omg you're back!! i am just so so happy. i hope things will start looking up for you <3

thank u lovely this message made me so happy 🥺 last night i did not sleep until 5am i am feeling rough eheheh

[lilakennedy]

your galloper art is fireee you captivate the poor meow meow vibe really well

FJGHFDHG IM GLAD!! ♥

I'm super glad you like my art!! The poor little meow meow vibe is not on purpose, but I am glad I can capture it well enough :D

I definitely plan to draw him more!!

[seyaryminamoto]

I got questions about your patreon. I know that by becoming a patron people can get access to snippets of Gladiator chapters before they’re released, but does it also grant access to exclusive fanarts? I suppose there are different options, right?

Hello there! :D

Technically, atm the only things that are behind a larger paywall are a few exclusive stories (I can't remember how many I actually posted, tbh...). Right now, a $1 pledge gives you access to the majority of my content on Patreon, including all the exclusive fanarts (... some of which are NSFW, if that tickles your fancy...), suggesting prompts and voting on polls, and full quality artworks that I generally can't post in full size here or on Twitter because the file size is just too big.

The main exclusive thing on Patreon atm is access to the ENTIRE fifty artworks that I made for the video project I posted last year, if you didn't see it, it was kind of a trailer of what was to come in Gladiator Part 3. I haven't uploaded those artworks anywhere else, so if you want to see them in full detail and dissect them better than you could by watching the video in question, supporting me on Patreon on any tier would allow you to do just that!

The video in question is here, the posts of the artworks might be a little buried behind a lot of posts atm sooo... here's the links to each of the posts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5.

There's also one expanded Gladiator chapter, I trimmed that one in release, but you can revisit and reread the full thing there if it's a chapter you enjoyed (though I think that one's open for anyone to read? I don't think I locked it...) and... I think that's generally what's going on in my Patreon :D

In general, my Patreon works mainly as a donation system (though of course there are rewards for higher tiers), or at least I've always conceived it that way. I never really wanted to make it feel like you couldn't have the full experience with Gladiator unless you signed up to my Patreon, hence why I settled on the snippet system, early access rather than exclusive access. I do focus more on creating art for Patreon since it's basically my main incentive to make art altogether, so... if you want to join in, feel free :D I'll be very grateful for any support you offer, my Patrons really have kept me afloat across some reeeeally tough years in this country, so anyone who joins in is an MVP for me <3

[fairytalefragments]

Requests are open!

✦ thank you all for being so patience while im getting the blog running again! I've finally cleared the inbox once more so im accepting requests once again! im still limiting it to 15 atm but now that im back home i should be able to get through them a bit more quickly!

I'll also now be keeping an anon list, it'll be linked in the pinned post tho i ask you to please refrain from sending in generic "can i be [blank] anon please" since it's harder to keep track of and it can make it difficult if i get more then one ask with the same emoji, id prefer the requests to be certain anons be attached to requests just to make things clear for everyone thank you!

im looking forward to all your requests, wishing everyone a wonderful day!!

[corrodedcoughin]

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[rosicheeks]

💞❤️🧡💛💚💜🖤🌸🐤🧲

💞 I love both your blog and your content

❤️ You deserve happiness

🧡I care about you

💛 I love seeing you on my dash

💚 You sometimes like my stuff and I love you for it

💜You amaze me

🖤 I admire you from afar

🌸We don't talk

🐤Were mutuals

🧲 I'm attracted to you

[jrueships]

I'm so glad you liked the lowry gifset!! I thought it was so bad you decided not to post it lol

OMG NO!!!! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT LMFAO T R US T ME! a guy who doesn't even know how to gif deebo BREATHING will NEVER upturn his nose on another's gifset!!! I think all gifs are cool tbh but STILL anything a MOOT makes/sends to me is PRISTINE in MY eyes!!!! don't worry, i and the rest of the tumblrinas appreciated the BEAUTY of THE BOOTY of those gifs! devious content aside 😈😈 i thought they were all great quality and GREAT choices !