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rawbin-hsr · 7 months ago

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Rating HSR characters in relationships

Title is self-explanatory <3

Characters: Boothill, Dr Ratio, Blade, Aventurine (separately)

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CW: cursing, mostly fluff and some crack

CW Aventurine's part: toxic dynamics, emotional neglect, jealousy, Aventurine in general

Lmk if there's any warnings I should add!

Had to restrain myself on Dr. Ratio I have soo bad brain worms about him rn he’s all I think about

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Boothill

10/10

DO NOT. AT ME. I PROMISE I’VE THOUGHT THIS THROUGH. I know most people who read that will be like “what the fuck Boothill would NOT be a perfect partner” and that’s where you’re right ! No, he would be an awful partner !

For MOST people.

But see, he wouldn’t be just ANYONE’S partner.

If you’re dating him, it means you’re exactly his type and he’s exactly yours. You wouldn’t date a guy like him if he wasn’t exactly what you wanted. He lays out all his cards on the table right away. Your relationship won’t have the chance to even begin if you’re not head over heels immediately bro 😭😭😭

With most characters I can imagine them in a relationship with a lot of different kinds of people. Like for example yeah I can imagine Aventurine both dating someone more reserved and sweet or someone bold and loud. Or someone like Argenti Lord knows that man could love ANYONE (or anyTHING tbh), but with Boothill there’s just a very narrow range of personalities I can imagine him with. Hence the rating cause he’d only be in one kind of relationship.

You guys are a POWER COUPLE I tell you. It’s SICKENING how much you love each other and how well you fit together. Two peas in a pod. I’m gonna throw up.

You both love the exact same things, you both HATE the exact same things, and you are both equally deranged and insane

The IPC hates to see you coming 💀🙏

You’re constantly in a friendly competition to outdo each other. Who has the higher bounty ? (Usually him) Who can drink most alcohol before blacking out ? (You, surprisingly) Who can kiss the other the most times during this high-speed chase ? (You always tie on this)

He swallows a bullet. You say “I’ll do you one better!” and swallow a knife. You are a human and so he needs to take you to the hospital so you don’t fucking die

(You both think it’s funny afterwards so it’s okay)

Even when you guys “argue” it’s never really that serious. Honestly you both think it’s kind of hot…… you argue in a devious, sexy way……. *smirks mischievously*

Sorry I cannot take him seriously

You match his freak <3

Nobody fucking likes you together. Separately ? Sure people like you. But the moment the two of you are in the same room it’s like you merge into one singular, horrible, annoying entity and NOBODY wants to be around to see it 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏 neither of you have gotten a lecture about how inappropriate pda can be and also the two of you speak total nonsense it’s incomprehensible to everyone else

Considering putting Boothill on my “do not request” list, not because I don’t like him but because even I don’t understand how the two of you would fit together I can’t write it y’all are that weird

Boothill is for the freaks and he is PERFECT FOR THEM !!!

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Dr. Ratio

9/10

Okay I’ll be honest I’m not very caught up on Dr Ratio (I briefly hated him I only recently started liking him again HELP) so forgive me if there is some mischaracterisation in this I’m working on it my view on him isn’t complete yet 🙏🙏

Though Ratio is very ruled by logic, that doesn’t mean he doesn’t have emotions. Furthermore, he views these emotions as important. Logic is not inherently opposed to emotions, and in fact, ignoring them would be illogical.

That is to say, yes, he’s an intellectual man. But he also has a high emotional intelligence 😇😇

Like not in the way of knowing how to cope with them. I don’t think he feels many strong emotions regularly (except for annoyance lol), so I think he in fact gets kind of overwhelmed by them around you and never knows how to regulate them properly HELP

But what I meant to say is that, in a relationship, he considers your thoughts and feelings a lot and makes an effort to prioritise them. He does not want for you to be unhappy.

He values you very highly. He takes all your opinions into consideration and treats them with respect.

He loves you a lot it’s actually ridiculous. He frequently gets annoyed at himself for how much he finds himself downright SIMPERING over you.

And like yes Ratio can be very harsh in the way he speaks but I think that 1, his care for people (including the “fools” and “idiots” he seems to scorn so often) shows and it shows even more apparently for people he cares about, and 2 I think he realises it would be inappropriate to be as rude as he usually is to you. You two are in a relationship, you are not some stranger. He cannot go around criticising you constantly, that would not be a healthy dynamic. Meaning he softens his vocabulary for you.

His care for you is very blatantly obvious. In the beginning I think he’s a bit embarrassed to show you affection. He hasn’t ever dated anyone, much less been in a relationship, with anyone before you (I honestly don’t even think he’s had his first kiss 😭😭), so I think his inexperience plays a part in it. But he still shows you as obviously as he can that he loves you, and he doesn’t shy away from vulnerability in private moments.

Bro has researched how to be a good partner trust 🤞

He communicates very clearly with you as often as possible. He hates misunderstandings, and tries to avoid them whenever possible. The two of you are almost always on the same page.

Whenever you argue, he still does not want you to leave the argument feeling unloved. Type to sigh, let his eyes soften and say “I believe it would be best if we both had some time to cool down”, then squeeze your shoulder as he passes you out of the room. Kisses you goodnight before you go to sleep. It’s often easier to talk it out the next day.

The only things bumping him down from a 10/10 for me is the fact that he doesn’t have that much time to spare for time with only you (his schedule is very packed), and the fact that he cannot cope with his OWN emotions 😭 Great with yours because he can logistically figure out how to handle them, terrible with his own because they’re affecting his own mind and he isn’t used to it

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Blade

7/10

Surprisingly high rating for a guy like him but I swear I’ve thought about this ok don’t leave 😔😔😔

I think it takes…. A lot. Like a lot a lot. To break through Blade’s tough outer shell

He hates letting people in so much it’s actually crazy

The closest person he has before he meets you is probably Kafka, and that’s not really by his own choice he would shut her out too if he could 😭😭

(Not to say he isn’t like, calm and polite to people. He’s pretty reserved and just, like, quiet ig usually, he only really gets weird and aggressive when the Mara flares up or he needs to be for a mission. I just mean he isn’t gonna be open and available for basically anyone lol)

It’s mainly difficult to GET INTO a relationship with Blade, but if you do manage it, it turns out a lot sweeter than you’d expect

He’s just a deeply tired man. He is not malicious, he is not unnecessarily cruel. He is worn out and sick of living, of never getting the rest he so desperately craves. He finds some sort of respite in you, and so he treasures you.

He trusts your judgement. He stands by you, no matter what. He’s loyal to a fault once you have him. The worst that could ever happen to him now is losing you. Even when he thinks you’re about to do something stupid (and he always tells you when he thinks it’s stupid), he’ll come with you. Better he’s there to take the hit for you than letting you go alone.

Even with the smaller things, he shows it even more obviously. He cooks you dinner and lunch every day, so you don’t have to. He lets you decorate his apartment, and he never adjusts the things you place in it, even when it clashes horribly with his own style. He lets you drag him along anywhere, whether it be a concert or a park, without complaint.

The main downsides with Blade are that he never, ever, verbally tells you that he loves you. Maybe once during your entire relationship he’ll say it, and probably when you’re on your deathbed, but he usually won’t. Even if you try to pry it out of him.

He can be really mean in the way he says things sometimes, like telling you straight up your ideas are dumb, but it’s always softened by the way he agrees to do whatever you want anyways.

Another frustrating thing is how he cares very little for his own wellbeing. It’s a regular occurrence for him to come home with guts spilling out of his abdomen, and it’s really uncomfortable to see even if you know he can’t die. He can still feel pain, even if he’s learnt to cope with it well. It’s scary to see him so hurt so often.

But you wouldn’t get into a relationship with him if you didn’t already know all this, hence why I rank him so high. He’s a lot better than you expected when you met him, which means you’re effectively in a better relationship than you’d have hoped 😭😭

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Aventurine

4/10 💀💀

I love him so much (my content is mostly Aventurine centric) but holy fuck man,,,

I have never and will never sugarcoat it Aventurine is TOXIC. Like GENUINELY. I wouldn’t say abusive but he can be really cruel. He gets lost in his own head and takes it out on you in ways he doesn’t really mean to. Aventurine is not a good person.

He’s fucked up in all sorts of ways and it’s no surprise it could easily destroy any relationship

Trust issues ? Jealousy issues ? Commitment issues ? Attachment issues ? Insecurity issues ? Mommy, daddy AND sister issues ? Every kind of possible issue you can probably imagine ? Yes on all fronts, bro’s the full issue package 💀

It would take a very special kind of person to endure in a relationship with him (I would not be able to do it if he was real I’ll be so honest)😭

When things are good, they’re really good. He can be so fun and playful and sweet and he loves to spoil you and everything that belongs to him belongs to you. He loves you more than the air he breathes and he’d do anything to make you happy

The issue is, most of the time, things are not in fact good.

I keep mentioning it but his relationships are always such a push and pull. A game of hot and cold. One second he clings to you and begs you to never leave him, and the next he won’t respond to your calls or messages.

Even worse, sometimes he’ll be outright mean in order to push you away, insinuating you’re “holding him down” and that you’re “wasting his time”. You’ll find yourself questioning if he actually does love you, because what sort of person does this to someone they love?

(It keeps him up at night when he treats you badly. He hates doing it, but he needs you to hate him as much as he hates himself.)

Usually he’s a really smart guy. Even when he does stupid things (things like making a purposeless high-risk gamble, playing Russian roulette), he’s fully aware of what he’s doing. (He does it because he kind of hopes he’ll actually die this time.) But with you, he loses all his composure and can’t really think straight.

He feels safe with you, and that scares him. He’s a danger to your safety, and it’s better to push you away, make you hate him, than it is to let himself be happy with you. His life is beyond saving, so all he can do to you if you stay is drag you into his mess. He can’t fix himself, not even for your sake.

He lies to you, he neglects you (sometimes for weeks at a time), he builds up new walls between you constantly, but at the same time he gets insecure and jealous when you hang out with others. Only when you threaten to leave him does he finally start getting his act together, because he realises that now that he’s had you, he couldn’t bear to live without you (even if he knows that’s very selfish of him).

He gets better with time, but I really, really doubt he’ll ever be fully healed. It doesn’t help that his job wouldn’t really allow it, and he can’t leave the IPC through any other means than death.

I originally ranked him as a 3/10 (diabolically low rating I know 💀💀) but I bumped him up one because he will get better. If you stick around long enough, he’d probably make it to a 7/10, but since that would take like over 4 years of being in a relationship with him I felt it would be unfair to rank him much higher 😭😭 At the start he really fucking sucks dude I’m so sorry my condolences

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kaumedii · 14 days ago

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Hello, I'm confused on what you call fugitives because the litteral definition of the word is of someone who's fled and is on the run but what does it represent in your world ?

“FUGItive” combines “FUGI” and “operative” and doesn’t necessarily carry the same meaning in Borderline as we know it.

FUGI — The sole governing entity of Borderline that was established and entrusted by the Suites. This can refer to the entity as a whole or the red-and-blue ENA.

FUGItive — Beings that work in the FUGI as extensions of said ENA that uphold the Law and secure Borderline.

Bobby — A general offender of the Law.

I know it’s a lot of redirection and redefinition, so I don’t mind the confusion nor having to clarify!

Another thing, Oasis is not owned by the FUGI, so Ina is not a FUGItive. Oasis is a separate entity that does abide by Borderline Law, but there remains some awkward tension between it and the FUGI. There are a few compromises that keep them from mauling each other like dogs, so there won’t be anything between them for now.

#ENAJDLore

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signanothername · 3 months ago

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The whole "killer is taken by Nightmare every time a past one dies/is murdered" is weird ti me. Wouldn't killer know about nightmare at one point? Since a killer Nightmare picks up, would it a newer Killer, which should in theory know about the past killer's memories?

Or is it like, each killer is a separate entity that doesn't have memories of other killers?

Ough it’s complicated… it’s actually both

Ok so, Killer has 2 canonical endings, one good, one bad

Though simply looking deeper into these canon endings, each can basically go in 2 directions, meaning Killer can have in fact 4 endings in reality

Killer either

1- keeps working with Chara in a loop killing his AU’s residents over and over (bad end 1)

2-gets kidnapped and is forced to work for Nightmare (bad end 2)

3-kills Chara and ends the loop, resetting his timeline one final time, getting all his loved ones back and erase himself (good end 1 -> can easily become bad end 2)

4- escapes with Color from Nightmare (good end 2)

Then again, you can easily take all these four endings and actually make them into one storyline:

Kills people with Chara in a loop -> kills Chara and resets his timeline -> Nightmare shows up and kidnaps him -> breaks free from Nightmare and escapes from Color

My version of Killer follows the idea of the four endings being one storyline in reality, however, the idea of the four separate endings still stands, how far each Killer is in their storyline in their own timelines is going to be different

A Killer who is kidnapped by Nightmare will always be a Killer who broke free from Chara and reset his timeline, but that doesn’t mean that other Killers who also reached up to that same exact point of resetting their timelines but don’t get kidnapped don’t exist, multiple storylines coexist at the same time, it’s just that, one of those Killers that already reached that point is going to be the unlucky one that gets kidnapped

But that’s where the idea of coexistence ends, when one Killer is kidnapped by Nightmare, there will only be that single one, no other Killer in the multiverse is experiencing said kidnapping, there’s only one single Nightmare in the multiverse, therefore there is no room for multiple killers to be under Nightmare at the same time in multiple different timelines

And there’s no true connection between one Killer and another, so whatever memories the Killer under Nightmare has, they won’t be something a Killer who hasn’t reached that kidnapping incident has

When one Killer is kidnapped by Nightmare, other Killers aren’t going to be aware of it, Killer canonically can’t travel through AUs by himself, and in fact, states himself that he knows of other AUs because of Nightmare

What I’m trying to say is, no matter how far in a “newer” Killer is in his own timeline, he will never be far enough into it to even know of Nightmare’s existence let alone know what other Killers experienced under him

The only way for a Killer to have more experience/memories than one that is already under Nightmare, is a killer who already broke free and got saved by Color, and is further in the timeline

If Color saves killer 1 for example, then that Killer 1 gets Killed, then Color saves Killer 2, the newly saved one (Killer 2) wouldn’t even know Color saved a Killer (Killer 1) before him, unless Killer 2 and Killer 1 actually met face to face before Killer’s 1’s death

Hopefully you got what I’m trying to convey, but since we just got into timeline nonsense, here’s a visual guide and summary

#anothers ask #nightmare sans #killer sans #something new chara #color sans #color spectrum duo

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lesser-mook · 1 year ago

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Footage of Texas STANDOFF With 302k Migrants on US-Mexico Border Has Gon...

https://youtu.be/cL7X4cskd8Q

(shitty *melodramatic thumbnail aside- and brace yourself this is finna get deep, 90% of this is lore)

This is like The Walking Dead Season 4, but the Zombies came with bags and are given free resources after they invade. Literally a zombie horde forcing their way in, to consume resources that should've been going to Americans.

But this sudden surge of resources given to these aliens shows that the Gov. had the means to help Americans the entire time but chose not to, which we all knew already but it's confirmed by the same people that left us to burn.

(To clarify, this isn’t on the illegal aliens entirely, like ‘let’s dehumanize these people’ because of the dumb policies our “leaders” made

Yeah some of em are coming here not for some Dream but they want free shit because Biden is an agent, ie. Who allowed them to come in here in the first place? The Illegals aren’t actually taking anything by force-- they’re being GIVEN the motherload by your own Administration)

What a joke.

Every Empire has it's fall. America. Your turn.

And how we got here starts with the simple things, like relations, tensions between the power-houses of society.

The dichotomy, Man & Woman. 2.Two forces of nature, two pieces of an incomplete entity that is the “Hu-man”

The agenda is simple, it wasn’t quick, it was a slow burn: If these two pieces fit so well together that when they are getting along, things are great, community is stronger, the culture is healthy, values/norms/standards intact- Traditional family works...but the problem is

A civilization united like that well? is a lot harder to fool/control/manipulate.

So the agenda is simple:

Keep people fighting, invent more labels, enable toxicity/ hostility in the culture, propagandize with stronger signals in the music, movies, political spectrums = Separate men and women on a cultural level. Plant a disconnect and keep it intact.

Drive the sexes apart in the intangible sphere, thought, norms.

Propagandize & overstimulate girls with a crap-ton of unrealistic expectations of themselves and men.

Give women every incentive not to be responsible with their reproductive powers, to the point young men are stuck with grown children who are looking for Papa at Ages 19-35 to pay for everything and offer next to nothing of their own accord.

The world owes you for being born female

And when every woman is a special snowflake & pandered to, womanhood is trivialized, accountability becomes an option.

It’s why your culture worships “Girl bosses”, you call your adult females “girls” so casually, it’s casual condescension. Patronizing.

It is so casual- WOMEN call each other “girls”. Reinforcing a state of infantilism.

So a bunch of girls and yet you have no “Women”, America has stopped raising women years ago.

Castrate, degrade, bash and shame men to the point where young women are now stuck with Sub-Males who are out of touch with their balls.

America doesn’t make men like they used to, they’re too busy neutering them.

And then develop fetishes wanting giant women (aka a hybrid construct of mommy/female authority issues & Gynocentric society) to castrate, degrade, bash, and subjugate themselves- They developed a fetish where they castrate themselves in the exact same fashion society does except they depict actual violence happening. Manslaughter even.

Now, what do you call a condition where a victim normalizes the abuse as a coping mechanism? Stockholm Syndrome.

Macrophilia is just an advanced/tragic case of mass Stockholm Syndrome.

See psychologists aren’t allowed to say that, they stay very neutral because that’s what keeps them employed.

But I’m not getting paid for this- so there you go. Macrophilia and it’s mother: (toxic-gynocentrism/ not Women having opportunities-- but TOXIC Gynocentrism/Female Privilege) & it’s father (misandry) are all connected.

One big inbred family of dysfunction and societal collapse (which if you pay attention that’s what a giant woman mainly does, collapse civilization, cause pain, destroy, evil-

Something women are not, just to put that out there, because I feel it’s necessary or we’ve fallen so hard as a species, that HAS to be said now. Women are not the enemy, Women are not the enemy, Men are not the enemy, Women are not the enemy of Men.

So it’d be a good idea to stop emulating the hatred that’s implanted.

Macrophiles/ or Macrocreeps as I lovingly dubbed them- are literally/indirectly/ & repeatedly communicating that women will cause or are the collapse of civilization, women being empowered means women are enemies of humanity, women are evil- the same narrative on repeat)

NOW THAT- is misogyny, 100% learned, 0% nature.

If you were raised in a small town like Black Forest (Germany):

or a Mongolian Steppe Nomad life. Healthy upbringing, healthy-equal community for men and women, away from misandry & gynocentrism, unplugged from the Matrix/ aka The HATE-trix

-you’re not going to have this crap living in your head.

You just might even have a life.

It’s why this movie (The Red Turtle) is so poetic, simple and beautiful. it displays simply what life is without the bullshit:

Every time I watch this movie, I’m reminded what the ��human experience” boils down to, as repetitive as it is, it really boils down to having each other, family.

See people were freaks back in the day, but within reason, this macro-cancer wasn’t really popping back in the 70s when men and women were for the most part in an okay place.

You get more of a rise of this kind of thing when things are bad between men and women, it’s really a mirror of HOW bad it’s gotten in society or in your own childhood, your mind, your subconscious where seeds are planted.

When men & women are happy on mass, when the culture has shows like Good Times, The Cosby Show, Living single Roseanne, Full House- positive culture, when that is the repeated narrative, positivity, you tend to get positive signals implanted in the people watching it, namely children.

Fact is, you get an infection in the body when there’s a problem, not when it’s healthy, plain and simple.

See you don’t simply feel the need to replace women with a demonic sociopathic mile-high she-beast or in a neutral sense you need to have Mommy looming over you & make you feel like a loser to feel secure because the giantess needs to be MAN enough for both of you combined: (Hence, women are stuck in a generation of SUB-Males who lost touch with their balls and a lot of the time women have the carry them both)

And this has nothing to do with confidence, you can be confident and have no balls, want to be mistreated or not know what being a man is about. There’s a lot of confident losers on this planet, do not confuse the two (Confidence vs Security) together.

vs when you have actual healthy relationships with women throughout life here in reality or a society that doesn’t tell you you’re less than dirt or outright communicates you are stupid, inferior, and something that needs to be fixed or stamped out by a more competent woman presence-

Hellywood definitely hasn’t been doing that, TV shows definitely hasn’t been doing that, Culture, various IRL situations (some caught on camera) definitely hasn’t been communicating that.

One just can’t help but share that misery with the world & await a “congratulations” from fellow cult members for posting the exact same thing for the 15′000th time for the 13th year in a row.. An example of misandrist propaganda birthing a mini-industry of misandrist propaganda. (Though women are victimized as well in the fantasy, lesbians can be macrocreeps too, and the opposite spectrum exists *Giant males* but let’s focus on the popular one, women.)

The compulsion comes from the fact that it’s a generational conditioning operation. I personally think it’s unintentional, there’s no way this shit was calculated, and macrocreeps are too small a group to even be measured as a problem but the problem actually is what they represent, the question: “Where in you is that fantasy coming from?”

What they represent, and what they’re literally showing us (Cry for help / Red Flag) in the content is the concerning factor. And how *consistent it is.

A normal person gets tired of watching the same movie, playing the same game, hell- some people break up from boredom.

Most fetishists (especially macrocreeps)- DO NOT evolve, grow up or move on, they will stay on the same radio channel for- EVER. I repeat: FOREVER.

The same horror, the same scenarios but from new artists (so much talent wasted on nonsense, it physically hurts me), the same-

“me male, me insignificant, yes goddess”

disrespect/Misandry narrative on repeat and repeat and repeat. As per design.

It’s literally a case of an internet economy where nothing changes, like it’s recycling the narrative that their culture convinced them to be true.

And most will eat it up for years to come (Literal Matrix tier enslavement of the mind)- as if following an installed directive, robotic. If only that level of commitment was shown to marriages or idk actual women?

But nobody tryna have that conversation, a she-devil in your head who’s entire function is to hurt you & belittle will get more of your time, your skills, investment, devotion than women here in reality, hilarious.

(And don’t be fooled, these are everyday people, some with families, these aren’t neckbeards but men & women with serious issue, and it’s about time we stopped pretending being broken is a virtue or some kind of badass badge when at the end of the day what you’re producing is blatant misery.

It’s just ironic the level of commitment given to some lala-land kaiju, a paragon of misogyny that will NOT give you anything back in this life but wasted time, is still more effort than they’d give to women with something to offer)

And it’s even more hilarious that American birthrates started the drop just around the70s to 2020, now that is very interesting to me. Seems like the 70s was just around the tipping point for everyone over in America. Including Biden, because his stance on borders was verrrrry different way back when:

Funny how the media has all the resources to ride Trumps D 24/7 but they conveniently leave out this little gem.

.Biden In 2007_ “No Great Country Can Say It’s Secure Without Being Able To Control Its Borders”

source

And so, again, women are now stuck with a good chunk of house broken Man-children or live in a culture that cultivates this attitude where some men in a bizarre sense want to worship women to a disturbing degree and want their mother to domineer over them and tell them how insignificant they are as society successfully programed into them (rarely is it from one experience), thus women are shipwrecked in this generation with a good number of American males-

-who don’t know how to be or afraid to be men (not men’s fault). And yet the consequence is they turn to fantasy, Anime, fetishism- escapism or any escapism where they condition themselves to have unreasonable expectations of girls and women’s behavior, bodies & themselves.

All to overcompensate what they couldn’t or CHOOSE not to step up to be in reality as men.

Keyword: They <choose> fantasyland over choosing to be better, which is 100% in their control. They’d rather play victim in a fantasy where they lose control instead of growing a goddamn pair.

Product of the times.

Modern day wars on masculinity is what happens when we are taught women have a right to say “no” (True) but as a society we never tell a woman “no”. (A problem)

A woman happily serving the husband is toxic & repressive, but “Happy wife, Happy life” is normalization of men suffering in silence as long as their domestic adult-baby is pacified.

Notice how I’m throwing haymakers in both directions, because either way you slice it (and yes, it does go both ways) on either side it’s not efficient nor sustainable, as we’re now seeing. Everyone actually, because the Americans aren’t the only one’s suffering dropping births.

But it’s only okay when women get the better end of the deal. But the punchline is women aren’t receiving anything good from an atmosphere like this.

Do women today feel safe? Do they trust the men of their country? (that is a big one), Does their culture prepare girls or pander to them to keep them in a box? Because padding women’s ego’s is a subtle form of control by giving women the illusion of agency.

That’s the ultimate fallacy of a Giant Woman being used by Feminists as an empowerment symbol, and Fetishists as a symbol of power: When in fact, a woman that big has even less control over her life because her interaction with civilization (and all the resources they have that she NEEDS from care to tampons) is now limited. The gigantism is fallacy in itself.

The illusion of control.

Inflating the importance of a woman’s “independence” from men in society (when it’s not dependence to be with a man, it’s coexistence)

Some society shame the egos of men because they are afraid of what men are capable of when things go wrong (Shootings, R*pe, murder).

When all that needs to be done is to teach boys & men to regulate and channel their ego instead of snuffing it out, teach principle, not hedonism.

Abusing boys, drugging them up to stay still & smothering masculinity because the result is that a lot of men now think they have no power and some believe & revel in the narrative they should have no confidence or power and only women should be allowed to have an ego & overwhelming advantage (Gynocentrism).

When it's just another perpetuated narrative (harming women & men) that men should be nerfed because they're a threat and not women because-

women aren't a threat. Apparently only in a fantasy are they anything close to a danger.

Exacerbating a woman's ego because you or the system presumes they won't ever do anything about it, zero threat.

That’s why American culture is biased toward women so hard: They don’t take you seriously.

Misandry is when the village fears men

Gynocentrism is the result of underestimating women's egos, underestimating women, painfully so.

Which is also why these macrocreeps use the fetish so they can fabricate a woman with near omnipotence over the “tiny”,

Some psychologist taking on macrophilia theorize (paraphrasing): ‘Macrophiles seek to create women with overwhelming power in light of society lacking female empowerment’...... uhhhhhh excuse you, where have you been in the past 15-20 years of American pop culture & real time events?

A “LACK” of Female empowerment? What?!

Women are in fact doing better than the fellas.

This is a brutal form of gaslighting harder than a politician.

And you want to know the most insulting part? Their assertion It’s conceivable to an extent but they never dig deeper.

Example: Most of these qualified people will use the “lack of female empowerment” point but rarely do any of them mention the rampant misandry in society & the culture inflating women’s egos, more so the normalization/glorification of male expendability as a logical alternate or logically the primary reason why Macrophilia has taken root in this era specifically to glorify what? You guessed it Glorification of male expendability and inflating the hubris of a woman.

Coincidence, it’s all coincidence.

But you see, when you say men wanting to be destroyed is because of gynocentric society lacking female empowerment: That’s another way of saying:

It’s not the fault of culture putting women on a pedestal at men’s expense as to why men developed stockholm syndrome where they also put women on a pedestal at men’s expense, even to the point of desiring their own oblivion- #Deflection

No instead they assert or suggest women aren’t being gassed up ENOUGH!!!

So it’s not about men & women being culturally (& possibly at some point physically or emotionally) abused and propagandized-

let’s make it about women not getting enough pandering, reinforcement, benefits, exceptions, compliments, priority, priority priority, priority. PEDESTAL.

(I think you get it, and I also think you see the problem. Men ARE ALWAYS AT THE BOTTOM, even in a situation where they are the focus per the fetish & might look to these psychologists for answers, somehow these people still make women out to be the victims anyway because society isn’t doing enough, so women deserve more more more.)

THAT right there is the freaking problem, not that women are involved in the conversation, but the fact that men are shelved yet again to make it about women.

But so many go to these pages for answers to be met with enabling the problem further, thus the source of the problem is lying in the place you go to get answers, how ironic.

The dishonesty with some of these professionals is astounding, and you know what? I don’t think they’re doing it on purpose, that’s the scary part for me.

But yes, I do believe a lot of these people are holding back information or a degree of transparency to prevent from seeming like a persecutor.

Listen, I get empathy, you can’t just come at people any type of way. But if we’re going to get to the bottom of this, we have to stop holding people’s hands. The truth doesn’t exist to breastfeed you, the entire point is to enlighten, teach, and if that involved discomfort that means it’s working.

And saying essentially ‘women deserve better’ is why men glorify women destroying humanity is just signaling more entitlement, toxicity, excuses, zero accountability.

And worse? Enabling people to worship Anti-Humanity obsessions.

This isn’t about accountability of women, not this time, Macrophilia wasn’t created by women, it was created by the overall culture, the village, the atmosphere that enabled female privilege, how matriarchal society is despite how patriarchal civilization is or was, but society? Is very matriarchal, Gyno (Women)- Centric.

Namely the people on top that own these companies, these news, media platforms of all types, owning everything we see (global too)- that are pushing the narrative.

Then we wonder why so many ladies are infantile and panic whenever asked “What do you bring to the table?”, this is not women’s fault, mind you.

How are women supposed to answer the question, when they’re taught that they have all the answers, they’re bosses, they’re in charge, they run the world, the future is female, girlpower, #girlpower, #GIRLPOWER, empowerment, ass-kissing-

WOMAN WORSHIP culture. (Macrocreeps anyone?)

That’s what’s pumped into the average Americano lady like crack, like being reliant on the world to tell them they’re awesome. And then they grow up (physically), trained to be reliant on external validation for life-

A form of control over a woman’s mind, not fantasy but here in reality.

Spend a lifetime with a phone in your hand, depending on anon’s to signal they want to sleep with you instead using those hands of yours to actually build something or spread something constructive, like the truth, or a song, or a story, an empire, create something, anything other than your Two-Millionth selfie for the day.

That’s the sick joke: It comes off as America’s boner for Female Security when it’s female subjugation/pacification, on top of male subjugation/castration. Both parties are trivialized as a result. Nobody wins, nobody.

Everyone’s a prisoner. That’s the point.

A giant 5′000ft tall woman destroys civilization, kills everyone.

She laughs about it, gets off on it, and then what? She’s left stuck as a giant, no grocery to shop from, no one to love her, no one to talk to, no dental care, no resources, no infrastructure, no friends, no home, no support system, she’ll starve, she’ll dehydrate, she’ll get lonely, she’ll die alone. No fucking point, that’s the part of the fantasy these muppets very conveniently leave out, reality. Strength for days, but zero power.

The natural consequence of the fantasy emulates reality. Nobody wins, nobody. Not even in fantasy.

No intimacy, just horror, ugliness, death, destruction and emptiness.

Because that’s what women are, amiright boys?

The common theme? I repeat, Nobody wins.

It’s so closely similar in both fantasy & reality, the parallels are blood related (Hence my mother & child analogy).

Propaganda is scary like that and moreso predictable, as are fetishists.

We underestimate the effects of what children internalize (regardless of how minor the experience is) & regurgitate it and the fact that we don’t stop doing that emulation when we become adults.

It’s how we read rooms, social cues, our lovers or dangers, develop traumas.

We see, then spread the message. Whether it be school, a cool line from a movie, a song stuck in your head, an insult that sticks with you, someone intimidating you, threatening you, or you being threatened by a misunderstanding, a compliment etc.

No difference.

We need less female empowerment, and more mentors.

Respect to women as humans first, and not singling them out constantly as “first woman to do-” something a man did 75 years ago. Patronizing women and making them like being a participation winner.

Mentor girls of womanhood as a principle, aka accountability, protecting your reproductive powers, not giving it away.

America panders to female ego but does not respect womanhood.

Society failed women and men by convincing us women are the exception when they actually deserve less- until they’re willing to contribute something beside an open hand in a relationship.

You don’t get to win by just showing up.

women need to learn what earning a man’s time, money/ His life, His sacrifice,

What earning his LIFE for hers really means.

Women need to learn what it means to earn that shit, I swear to god, a man’s life is so trivialized now, women don’t even think about what a big deal it is for man to just pay his life as a toll for hers to go on 5 more seconds.

It’s disgusting how overlooked that is, but I keep hearing “As he should”, WHOO buddy. Americans are beyond lost baby.

But you see in 15 years or less that’ll be considered “hate speech” or a thought-crime, or perhaps this entire rant would be worth an insta-trip to ban world.

because #MenAreTrash is trendy that’s fine 100% males don’t have feelings right but the same time we want them to be sensitive, but not too sensitive or else he’s a man-child. It’s never enough.

#MenNeedToStepUp we can agree on 100%, but #WomenDoBetter or #WomenNeedToEarnAMan is misogyny

Everything is misogyny when name calling or witch-hunts aka “Cancel culture” (how it’s called today)- doesn’t work.

Right, keep that up. Doing a good job so far, lmfao.

But gee, I can’t figure out why the birthrates are falling

& men are flocking to other countries for real women? When there’s plenty in America, far in-between but they do exist.

All we wanted to do was just treat men/husbands/fathers like second class citizens, like idiots- so horrifically mistreated that the goofballs went & created a fetish/Cult where they actually enable each other to want to be treated like second class citizens.

ZERO connection, all coincidence!

Wanting Women to be their gods and mistreat or destroy them and the whole of civilization: um wow.

Did you even have a mother? I mean My God, what happened?!

You know, ZERO red flags there. Nothing to see here. Everything is fine. Go back to deviantart, enjoy the genocide.

No btw, I AM NOT shitting you, this is real.

(And the access to A.I art made it SOOOOO much worse, now these lovable dorks can just spawn the most horrific shit with zero effort now)

If you didn’t think that group’s issues weren’t that deep? (because naturally, they’re just minding their business beating off/worshipping human genocide- until you realize how comfortable they’re getting, too damn comfortable, normalizing the most anti-human shit, it makes you question if you’re even awake sometimes)

Trust me, a good majority of them don’t even know where their obsession came from--- AND that is the point of propaganda, subtle, like a socio-cultural virus. A weapon for your mind. neurological malware.

I repeat: Neurological/Socio-Cultural Malware for your mind. A prison for your mind. It used to be heroin, still is for some, but now fantasy is the new drug, no drugs in your system, not “harming anyone” but that justification to keep doing it is why the prison is that much stronger. You tell yourself there’s no problem because no one’s hurt, you’ll keep doing it for the rest of your life.

The change begins when we allow ourselves to stop lying to ourselves.

And again, to no one’s surprise (Brain mappings show fetishism or sex addiction is parallel to addictive habits like drugs, alcoholism, etc.) So no, not harming anyone (until it does) but yourself through re-wiring what your brain imprints on, I believe it’s through firing signals via the synapse endings at climax, like you’re physically making changes to your brain on a microscopic scale.

That is precisely why breaking the habit is difficult and the more rewarding, with any bad habit btw.

Fact is, Nobody knows exactly when a virus gets in your body or your pc/phone machine, but when it’s in, it’s on you to do something about it or cope with it by not coping at all.

Superboy-Prime’s level of petty is not even close to an average GTS NPC, and ironically he could solo 99.99999999% of them all, even the god level one’s. And he’s smaller than most of them-

So yeah, despite having the word in their mouths 24/7, macrocreeps don’t really understand what “power” is, lol.

Even if it’s a gentle scenario or the cringe “unaware” crap (where the appeal is more manslaughter but the excitement is she’s doing it unintentionally *yes, society failed this hard*)

The visual point of a woman being bigger by that much is visually signalling: “superiority”, female supremacy, gynocentrism. Males being lesser, weaker, vulnerable, under control, a security/self-esteem/ ultimately a Life-skill issue- that is the point.

It’s always a “power-” dynamic scramble, it’s so toxic and dysfunctional.

To belabor the point, It’s no accident that what American society (from movies to articles) is pumping into you guys, is exactly what these cats worship with a level of dedication that makes Christians look like amateurs.

They could legitimately begin a religion, I’m actually genuinely surprised they haven’t by now.

In this context though, in Fantasyland where genocide is a goddamn game, that’s the entire appeal, #SizeDifference #Macro #Giantess #GiantessCrush #Sizeplay SizeSIZEsizesizesizesizesizesize, it’s really unhealthy.

Hence Fetish hence “Obsession”, that’s what fetish means = You have nothing better to do.

This is why macrophilia is so unique though, solely because of how relevant it is to this era, the socio-cultural relevance.

And the reason for that (again) is this toxic gynocentric era in the west/ First world countries in general enabled it/ birthed it/ cultivated it in the first place.

Hear me: Macrophilia (One obsession) didn’t cause the problems between men and women, it is simply one of many manifestations/ & ultimately a spawn of these problems.

It’s literally an example of what your civilization did horribly wrong whilst trying to empower women, you left men behind.

Worldwide issue btw, Macrohphilia is not exclusive to America, neither is toxic-Gynocentrism. But America is Gold Medal champ in making their Men are 100% aware they are expendable to society, made to feel inept or stupid, should do more, here’s a superhero movie showing a guy being cool but IRL we’ll treat you like garbage in policies & law making.

A lot of Japanese are into MacroCultisms, to no one’s surprise.

Not in the 50s to 70s, but during the 90s, post-Internet 2000s era is when it really sparked, now all of a sudden we got a huge influx of goofballs wanting women to commit mass genocides on entire cities (Which involves children & babies- #ThisIsFine) or men the size of germs shrining women for existing, living on their bodies like Demodex (your hair mites)... just the most mind-numbing shit just to feel like you’re worthless, on purpose.

Kind of like the narrative privileged society pumps into you? #FutureisFemale (How inclusive)

Or articles propagating that men are “Falling behind”, any & every excuse to plant seeds of disconnect and potential resentment, always negative.

The goal is to propagandize female supremacy to either frustrate men into resenting women (some of MGTOW), turn them paranoid (Anti-Woke Tards that complain about any movie with a female lead or women doing anything cool or competent), or straight up break them like dogs & the victims will ask for more (Macrocreeps)

or turn them indifferent, numb to even want to say or do anything about the problem. Men who unplugged and absolutely do not care anymore.

A lot of Men have been whipped & brutally trained by their own culture to be and somehow want to be second/third class citizens in some respects. and you’ll have attention seeking narcissist women infiltrating these communities garnering a following calling themselves “Goddess- [insert name]” , absolute silliness, just the most infantile stupid crap you’ll ever see.

The strongest degree of secondhand embarrassment I’ve ever experienced, it’s like watching younger siblings just ruin....everything they touch for no reason.

These women banking on the insecurity of thousands of men who just need help or a fucking hug.

And the simple chemistry of men and women boils down to: SEX, connection, life, be happy. That’s it. That’s really all people want.

How do you complicate that, this badly? And it NOT be an artificial catalyst that caused it, life was not designed to be this convoluted & silly. This is what happens when you make relations between men and women more complicated than necessary.

Otherwise, frankly: How does genocide correlate with sex.

Vore? Still cringe, but at least you can loosely correlate that with oral sex, digestion (psychotic) but believe it or not it’s wanting to be in the womb again.

(Male or female) it applies, yes brains are stupid like that. This is why what you ingest through the eyes to your soul is important, most people don’t even know where the impulses are coming from but WELP *wank wank

KNOW THYSELF. FREE THYSELF. Ya’ll better watch The Matrix again and really listen to what it’s telling you, not “was” telling, what IT IS telling us, still today.

“A prison for your mind.”, notice how The Matrix in context was a “Fantasy” land/ distracting from the real war going on outside of the fantasy, outside of the prison.

We better catch what these films are communicating.

Back on topic, how does being abused/bullied/destroyed/digested/ all of this crap by women- relate to sex and making love and NOT be related to some psychological struggles or a mass installation op. Even if unintentional.

Propaganda, abuse, societal/generational neglect. That’s how. Genocide ain’t it boi, something upstairs went sleep mode & it needs to wake up.

“The sleeper must awaken.“

I’m not smart at all, I just know what shit smells like and I’m more than willing to step on toes, and happily brave a ban or 2 if it means saying what apparently no one wants to say because we have this unspoken rule that all kinks are sacred & immune to judgement.

HA!, I don’t know what planet you came from, but that’s not how life works buddy. Whenever I tell fetishist this, they shut down completely or unravel, their confidence just goes away like fart.

Why?

Because they rely on the world saying “Sorry, carry on.” Nope! That’s not how life works. A fetish is not a baby, so adopting it gives absolutely nothing to us.

Really, all we have to do is pay attention to the world in real time and the rest sorts itself out. But our everyday can muddy & blur the lines, I get it, and that’s part of the game. Blue Pill baby, it was never about being asleep, it’s about being distracted.

“You need to see.“

- Jamis (DUNE PART TWO)

Some of these hombre’s aren’t even abused as kids, sometimes all it takes is one awkward moment with a girl overpowering you verbally or physically, a moment of vulnerability, or you get yelled at by an adult woman, or you see abuse or a woman having an overwhelming advantage in a movie and society does the rest with crap like #GirlsRunTheWorld over and over and over again-

No strong male role models to build up a healthy ego, or no dad at all, or a competent father, or even a big brother or sister, then when your confidence isn’t properly built (by your parents or environment) in time when you see something that makes you feel inferior or put-off and your mind can’t register it properly.

Like psychological indigestion and or in layman’s terms “Intrusive thought” that manifests into something it shouldn’t.

So it doesn’t bounce off as it should, or make you mad & you reject the negative signal.- instead it actually sinks into you, you internalize it. And it sits there, and sits there, & you keep seeing things in shows, feeding that seed.

And through a coping mechanism post-puberty where your hormones turn off your intelligence entirely (Yes, Sex chemicals actually make you stupid by design), where you then normalize the toxicity because it’s women doing it, and women are attractive. So genocide is a good thing if a woman does, because women are hot.

You’re horny now + the epic scale of giant women having near omnipotent control over your fate provides unrivaled excitement & dopamine levels that no woman could or would even want to measure up to (Cause it’s goofy af, Gulliver’s Travels #headass).

Then the newborn fetishist propagates #Giantessisms over and over and over again with the unbridled freedom of the web- ready to act a fool.

And the ever so convenient echo-chamber of fetish spaces where everything you do and say came straight from Christ himself, where you’ll receive ZERO challenge. (Another part of the problem)

Indulge comfortably until someone, eventually goes against the grain in 4-15 years, roasting it- and then your defenses activate. Because how dare they insult something that provides absolutely zero value or tangible substance to your life amiright?

But my oh my, I don’t know where it came from, I guess it’s always been there but It’s pretty much my personality and ”a part of my identity”....it’s a “hobby”

-some say this crap, of course on threads where the likeminded are & will upvote everything they say, naturally naturally.

Challenge is their Kryptonite. Questions make everyone queasy.

Painting women as inhuman psychopaths is a HOBBY. Riiiiiight, Okay then.

Pretending in make believe land that you’re a tyrannical burden to the society that would bend over backwards to protect you at the expense of men, any day of the week.

You actually want to be an evil & mortal danger to people if means your fragile ego getting a stroke from being a couple meters/Mile taller than everyone else, for a sense of control you obviously can’t manage to obtain as a competent adult here in reality. That’s part of your “identity”? Oooooooookay then.

Definitely not overcompensating for anything.

But don’t judge them though, you don’t want to hurt anyone’s fee’s fee’s now do you? You don’t want to be a meanie or a bad person.

Because saying nothing & pretending “This is fine” has worked out so well for mankind thus far right?

Just ask Japan 2023 (Age of consent raise in that year, look it up. *If I talk about it, that’s going to be another essay, let’s stay focused:

Sexes Disconnect/Gynocentrism/Gynocentric-Fetishism/Birthrates/Illegals/Decline ) 🚨

Cycle of toxicity birthing more cycles..

The biggest woman you see first/imprint on in life is ideally your mother-figure.

These cats just want mommy, thus from the place of a child (thus small like a child) so macrophilia has some PeterPan syndrome-isms in it’s core, thus to no one’s surprise this is a very cringe case of some suspended development because for most, all of this started when they were at their smallest & VULNERABLE to begin with.

“Vulnerable“, something they want to feel. That’s part of the high. “Helpless“, you’ll hear that term a lot in their subtext, it’s like a religious mantra next to “insignificant“, they LOVE that one, holy shit is that one a cult favorite line. (Z from ANTZ #headass, “You’re right Z, you are insignificant.”)

I’m telling you, all you have to do is pay attention. How our brains work is not that complicated especially when what these innocent goofs choose to share with us is literally spelling out the picture- How can I tell? Consistency and the fact that they NEED the world to know, like a cry for help:

Except they’re getting likes & money, and not a fuck to give to provide a solution vs exacerbation.

And no, unlike what some of these exploitative women will say: NO providing an outlet or safe-space for these little angels is not therapeutic.

Therapy is an actual solution, letting it go is a solution. Indulgence? Is like dumping a truck full of “happy snow” in a rehab center and then calling that “therapeutic”.

The women arguing this want their meal tickets to stay delusional, stay deranged and remain imprisoned. Money baby, it’s all money.

This fetish became an industry, like many tend to do.

The repetitive nature of the “content” is too consistent, Artwork evolves it’s narrative. Art changes.

(I repeat) But this? It stays the exact same, same narrative, same bloodshed, same dialogue, all that’s different is the production value and who it’s coming from.

And yes, all of this & others mentioned prior contributes or related to the birthrates issue (China, Japan, Russia & others suffer this too), thus this illegal invasion in America.

All of it is connected, all of it, this isn’t the usual rambling session or tangent. There’s a point to this entire lecture, this is actual lore for the movie you’re living in.

The Twilight Zone episode that will not end even after you do.

These are real people, it’s not doing America any favors pretending these clowns/more-so the implication and subtext of their issues or more importantly THE issue doesn’t exist.

It’s the same with Japanese men and their infatuation with Anime culture & how that mega industry and so many other factors are causing Japan’s own falling births, social shut-in’s, etc.

We can’t just ignore this crap because no one wants to be “that guy”, screw that. Nothing’s gonna get done if we’re stuck in our own little worlds.

Doesn’t make sense to have the Internet and be this connected & still be so distant at the same time.

We gotta at least address the roots of the issues while having fun-

That’s the operative concern, what caused the phenomenon in the first place, how do these obsessions work, why, and where is it coming from?

And why is it almost prophetic? Like a warning.

This isn’t about Macrocreeps being the problem, they’re a result.

This ain’t about coming after them, though it’s been high time somebody put their ass on blast, so long overdue, holy shit.

Because if you step back and really look at the concept of a giant woman committing genocide because her job sucks or she needed to bigger just to feel good about herself instead of just getting her life together?

It’s pretty silly lol, infantile even.

But this is really about the subtext, that they are living breathing red-flags/reminders that your culture is failing and it’s failing everyone.

Woman is god, male subjugation good, women destroy civilization (including killing kids & babies by the thousands apparently, so marcocreeps are indirectly beating to slaughter of children, yaaaay) and yes, some also sexualize children too, casually.

Japan would be proud or as of 2023, maybe not? Lol.

Wash rinse repeat, it’s never enough. Men, humans, animals, life needs to be red paste on the bottom of a woman’s feet or else the itch isn’t scratched.

For an average macrochump to feel some sort of sexual vindication in the context of the fantasy: Women. The ONLY natural threshold of human life, absolutely need need to trample, torture, and destroy life.

That is indicative of something very concerning.

This is what I mean when I say Macrophilia is at it’s core: Anti-Human

That is straight misogyny, and I’m one of those people that hate the overuse of the word “misogyny”, I never use it but here I am using it (If I’m not mistaken for the first time in serious context) because this is actually that disturbing.

Click “upvote” on the psychopath content (”content” lmfao, more like commissioned propaganda)

comment for more, make video games repeating the same exact, and I do mean SAME EXACT narrative.

(Yes, these goofballs make games & comics *they’re shit storytelling btw, absolute garbage, it’s not even appropriate for ironic cringe, it’s just bad*, it’s not creative either. But the lengths they go to to realize the exact same talking point they’ve heard a million times? The sheer determination to want to be demeaned, disrespected, & bullied by women and girls? That’s the impressive part. Again, I sincerely doubt they’d put that same effort in their kids. Just saying.)

further internalize male self-hatred as you were programmed to do so. Follow the script. Question nothing. Consume. Consume. Consume. Indulge, sink, drown.

You’d think they’d get bored of it, or maturity would fight it’s hardest to tame that beast of a brain in one’s cranium, and fit some sanity in there. God forbid

All in all, The American Culture state has weaponized women against men for decades now- so the fetish itself is not surprising or a shock.

Men or women wanting to give up “control” for a sense of security in being ruled or abused in every way possible by a giant entity (male or female) sounds ideal for a (giant entity) state/society/government that literally would love love loooove for men (aka the first & last line of defense of civilization) or women (first, second and last line of defense to the children AND the only natural threshold of new life) to bow down, and want to be slaves.

So (in general) if your protectors are too busy kissing the ground, who’s protecting you?

It’s why so many women are wondering what happened to men? Where did the men go? Why aren’t men performing?

To put it simply (fetish or no fetish), a lot of western men:

They’re broken. Tamed. Clipped. Sterilized. By the same entity that tells you you can have it all “The Party”, The collective, society, the entity, the giant.

Because there’s a lot more men committing self-termination than women, look it up. They’re suffering.

So most, not all- But all in all, women need better “uplifting” messages and the men are in serious need of society giving a crap about them.

It starts in the home, both the solution and the problem starts at home and the village/society. Because parents can do everything right and society will undo 70% of that work.

I’ve said all this before, and I will keep saying it until I’m dead & probably still talking & ranting from beyond the grave.

If I personally wanted to "RIP” a country, “If.” Theoretically

I would convince the men that being a man is toxic, that they shouldn’t be men, to the point where they actually want to give up their manhood.

Enable a superiority complex in the women regarding the men, to keep them in a constant state of resentment & entitlement and they don’t even know why. And the men are so passive & broken, they won’t challenge the women unless pushed, and when pushed, they will be frustrated, & what could result in a solution will just deepen the resentment on both sides.

And while one group is insufferable and the other one is groveling and pathetic and angry, or they just fight each other- The children are now exposed.

Corrupt the children, you take that country’s future. Checkmate.

Same with race.

Not a nuke, not poisoning the water- but poison how the people see each other.

Corrupt what they believe until they believe in nothing at all, not even in themselves, let alone their Gov., let alone their Homeland. Poison the culture. Keep them fighting, so when I do pull up on their doorstep, it’s too late.

[Destroy the traditional family first, the pillars. Trivialize values until you stand for nothing: Destroy the country]

Convince the Protector Class/Men they should want to be destroyed by the group of people they should be protecting in the first fucking place: That is the power of propaganda people, corruption of the natural instinct. Anti-Human.

Size is not power,

controlling what you see, influencing what you should think, what you don’t believe, who you hate, how to hate, what to hate, what to see as good, even now influence what you obsess over- To control how the world changes, controlling the triggers to your mind, propaganda, knowing you better than you know yourself, how to speak, what to say, weaponizing the mind against you, propaganda, that is power.

Message = Power

Always has been.

This is psychological warfare in real time. Brain-Malware, this is not a joke.

And trust and believe, I actually do have better things to do, I only talk this much because I actually give a hoot.

It’s just a crime that professionals with lengthier credentials WILL NOT tell you any of this.

Propaganda is CONTROL, and can convince you to give yours up.

Propaganda hurts you and conditions you to want to be hurt by the other half of humanity who’s entire instinct is community, birthing life, emotional propensity strength & nurturing. Things that glue civilization together.

Things that are trivialized by civilization but things that civilization needs to stay intact, that only women provide in a way only women (as a collective) can. That’s womanhood, but you’ll sooner hear about empowerment on a corporate ad on Youtube to sell some damn soap than these companies tell you (what I just said) that truth because people actually NEED to see and hear this.

Hear me out, women are physically softer, designed to be more pleasant and lovable to appeal. Even an average woman’s voice triggers pleasure chemicals in your brain.

But somehow the popular obsessive scenario in the cult is women destroying everything, with a smile, with pleasure, and obscene satisfaction. Absolute demon-spawn who’s birth is a mistake.

Sooooo the overtone being, again, that a woman with any power- is a threat to civilization? A threat to men.

Wow, that’s how you feel? Lmfao! Again, smells like misogyny. Smells like an implanted narrative.

See, majority of the “GTS” (Gratuitous Trivial Silliness) -producers just conjure their content to receive likes, appease the intrusive thoughts living rent-free in their head and most importantly validation for their Misandrist-macabre & maybe money from the fellow members.

The actual overtones of what they’re spreading out in the Human races digital continuity (Inter-Nets) and how that insults/slanders women or what that says about them because that’s coming from their own heart & mind about women- that will never sink in for them to devote 5 seconds of self-awareness.

Or they did, and just don’t care because they know nobody replying will say anything less than “More please!”

Too much dopamine addiction to the validation to properly think about the subtext or what they’re actually communicating by drawing/shooting/programming the same crap over and over again.

A beautifully implanted rotted seed (on part of the powers sabotaging men & women), twisted, horrifically sick joke.

Completely Anti-Human narrative, because who even portrays women like that, all women wanted was Equality. Why do we absolutely need them to loom over us like overlords when they actually just want someone to love them, listen to them, and see them? Flaws and all.

That’s all women want. Women are not a mystery, they’re just made to be complicated by the media & hacks that dictate the prevailing narrative that articles spread like wildfire, because women being complicated helps the disconnection. It romanticizes it.

Tell someone a lie enough times then it becomes true.

Some bro’s propagate “Woman with power is a man’s undoing” / “The threshold of life being the merchants of death” for a living and sleep at night without considering “Why is that coming from inside me” ?

Nothing.

This is why accountability, judgement, criticism is necessary.

It helps prevent society from becoming a mass asylum (where it gets to a point where a woman who steps on toys for a living is actually given an interview, yes this happened).

It never “hurts anyone” until it does-

Just. Ask. JAPAN.

(’2023 Japan Age of Consent Law change’, look it up and look up why they changed it)

Some commenter said something simple yet true on the same video where some goofy attention seeking woman who sells videos of herself stepping on plastic toys & sells said footage to mouth-breathers, she ultimately claimed “I’m a Giantess” (*nice job parents, good to know where Americano Tax dollars went)

And the commenter didn’t insult her, they didn’t say anything wild, no essay, no lecture, not even something I personally expected, they said simply:

“Western society has derailed.”,

that’s it. It’s not profound, but it’s so candid & haunting.

That stuck with me.

Because that’s the point.

And then if you’re not dealing with human footstools who want to be literal pets for giant-women, you have the other end of the spectrum: Man-Boyos who are actually toxic, the kind that grooms, unwanted advances persist then calls you a “bitch” because the situation didn’t play out how it did in his head, the R*9ists, harassers, stalkers etc.

Plenty of confidence, but misplaced, no humility, no maturity, nothing intelligent to say but talking the loudest. Can’t tell you how many times I almost threw hands with those types of dudes.

And in-between, you have the normies just trying to keep their heads down, live out whatever’s left of the “American Dream/ Theory”, racking up 50 exes every 6 months trying to figure it out because the only legacy society has to pass down to you is failure.

Consider this hookup culture where women are expected by a lot of men to be LVL99 Sexperts but if she’s had too many partners she’s considered damaged/used up/monkey branching by MGTOW groups...who in concept should be a good thing, some good messages, but overall just boil down to divorcees & bitters bashing women while sprinkling “male empowerment” on top of it.

Again, we need less empowerment and more principles. With principles, you won’t need someone rubbing your belly telling you you’re a special girl or a special boy.

She hits 30, she’s over the hill when actually 30-35 is physically prime time to have babies. 20-30 should be young women figuring it out (mentally, existential), as with any adult.

Or women told/encouraged to “experiment” or made to think they can have the swingers life at 19 and then settle down when it’s convenient.

Which they can, however, consequences don’t take a break because you’ve been taught to think that’s having fun- Then they’re worn & torn before they’re 25, just way too eager to sleep with 70% of America, like slow the hell down, jfc.

Have a laundry list of expectations for a man, but who you are doesn’t match half the good things you expect from him- How is that a recipe for success?

Just having your cake, eating it, and choking on it on both sides.

Both sides have podcasts asking “what happened?” or pointing the finger to the other side, when in reality--

We’re not enemies nor meant to fight in nature, powerful women are not a threat, civilization NEEDS that. We need more women that earn their power, & have something offer.

A woman with advantage is not something that will threaten civilization, that’s advancement you goofballs lol.

Ad proud men aren’t something to keep caged, broken and exercised.

We’re not even designed to fight each other. This is precisely the point as to how forced this all is.

We’re set up to be fractured and wedged from each other in a cultural sense. (because obviously people are still bumpin hips & having kids but some are not raising em worth a crap or training them to be useful or struggling to give them something good, or raising them up right just to be corrupted as soon as they leave the house, sometimes even earlier. some sects of Society are not even hiding that they are “coming for your kids”)

“Everyone knows what sex is, a lot of people know how to fuck. Nobody ‘makes love’ anymore.”

SO point being, finally, again: Propaganda is POWER. Propaganda is control (Not a new concept, it’s been said before). It creates delusions/& apparently fetishism. It creates false realities, conflict, disconnect. Lies. Lies. Lies. Propaganda is CONTROL.

“power & control“, two words macrocreeps obsess over in fantasyland- same two concepts that propaganda is meant to take away from you. That is NOT an accident.

Drive the American sexes apart, division makes for a weaker people, weaker people are easier to control, birthrates dropping since the 70s (Not an accident, look it up & it’s got nothing to do with women going to school and getting jobs)

And now Biden or the powers above him are making up the difference with an influx of illegals to compensate for what Americans are not birthing because of the disconnect and all the various side-effects of that and the propaganda.

American Feds has always been lacking, but this level of incompetence is not accidental. It’s sabotage. And it’s not new, it’s no different from how dope is implanted in Black communities so the community eats itself alive, remaining behind and seemingly primal.

Think about it, why would we need a New World Order, if one of the most iconic Empires on the planet is successful, healthy and thriving economically?

The answer is, you wouldn’t need a NWO if the U.S. is King or a threat or taken seriously.

(Even if you’re not the biggest fan of American history, or the current reputation they have with their poor wokeness & political embarrassments. Do not underestimate just how many countries look to America for reinforcement and an example & always have.)

So to fix that, you prevent The United States of America from EVER becoming a threat again.

And instead of picking a fight on the outside- infiltrate their political parties, infiltrate their culture, their pop-culture, propagandize what they watch, what the masses internalize, break the family down, drive apart men & women, promote alternative lifestyles, make truth an “insensitivity”, speaking truth punishable by legal persecution or being banned from social media (which is akin to erasing your existence in the modern age), and plant agents in the Senate that will (by vote) prevent any progress for the American people:

(Think in Newspeak or be banned for ‘violating community guidelines’, you vulgar swine) aka

“Social Media” aka 1984: The Prototype

“there is no war in ba sing se”

Pay off the leader to literally allow illegals (that coincidentally involve a good number of your own nationals) into their country and make the legal citizens who are already desperate for better healthcare to then pay for the toilet-paper the illegals wipe their ass with.

The illegals aren’t the problem, Americans are letting them in there. Look up what one of China’s border installations look like, it’s a FORTRESS out of a James Bond game.

Russia’s border doesn’t play either so why is America expected to be the fool?

Blatant sabotage. It’s all connected. Biden himself in ‘07 said a great nation can’t have weak borders (paraphrasing), now he’s changed his tune when what he said was 100% true.

Birthrates resulting from the disconnect, the disconnect resulting from propaganda, the fetish being the manifestation of the culture’s declining climate & hostility toward men and boys & trivialization of women & girls, dehumanizing humanity; As well as a symptom that the propaganda is working way better than intended.

OR? the scary part? It was calculated. (doubt it tho)

PROPAGANDA is power!!! Control how people perceive reality & themselves, you control the direction of that society.

Stepping on cities doesn’t compare to making a NATION eat itself over 50 years or less, it’s not even close. The slow knife cuts deepest, always have.

(Notice how i’ve belabored & repeated some points throughout, that’s a methodology of propaganda, bombard you with the same narrative so that the narrative sticks, I did that on purpose just so you get a sample of how this machine is operated. Repeat exposure is form of conditioning, hence fetishism, repeat exposure. Repeat the same message. Repeat the same message.)

And because it’s working, Americans are likely past the point of recovery, social media is a powerful tool as well as an effective distraction.

If it took this long to decline, imagine how long it will take to repair the damage, and Americas will never be allowed to fix anything, not before another tragedy conveniently strikes or another reason to fight each other conveniently arises, more distraction.

The problem starts where the solution does, in the home, in your culture. In your mind.

America needs more people, but the world is rotting, the times are going in a direction not suitable for children, or even if having/affording children is smart. You have a newborn that needs formula, you can’t afford insurance but your taxes are feeding an illegal’s kids.

Who in their right mind would reward a society with another mind to corrupt, another slave to bleed dry and it won’t even help you raise the child before trying to feed other people kids- who trespassed to begin with and our own homeless are being exiled from cities like the trash you walk on?! *ERROR404*

But we have 50MIL+ for trespassers.

It’s lose- lose for the modern Americano.

And don’t think Trump is the answer- while it is convenient that his trial happened just at the right time for this election to pop off (ideal distraction from something else going on in the world) these people will fight & debate on TV then have orgies on islands while you’re arguing with people you don’t know online because you think your political tribe is the answer to the world’s problems. When it’s all just manufactured chaos.

Make promises about things you can see, like “build the wall”, but bringing the country together? Bringing men and women together? Better healthcare WITHOUT subtext loopholes to fund backdoor deals in other countries?

These antagonist corporations causing this disconnect in advertisements & movies, will they be falling in line to help your people?

Do the bloodlines that OWN these corporate giants give a crap?

If that isn’t the argument in the Presidential debate, you’re voting for an agent. (And I keep saying “Agent”, because I repeat: WATCH THE MATRIX again. Hiding in plain sight baby, in plain sight.)

They do not care, they’re reading scripts, on orders. They promise you policy, when what will save you is unity in the culture. Literally just people getting along.

Help the culture maturing, growing up (pun intended, headass) , it will never happen.

Why would Americans want that, why would Americans ever want the only real progress that will save their country? Unity. Cooperation. Coexistence.

Apparently everything’s going great in America, why would people want actual progress that would fix everything, why would you ever want an actual solution when you can keep being promised one by people who don’t live in your community and own Islands to hand down to their great great-grands and yours live off of tips.

But you have 50 million+ big ones to spare for illegals? Hm, you cats got yourselves a paradise eh? Ready to fight everyone’s wars & fix everyone’s problems but your own.

Let them all in to keep families together, and drive your own people apart through movies, ads, games, articles, etc..

Your Gov. (and the powers above them) are giving Palpatine a run for his money when it comes to this Chess game play, my lord.

Ya’ll have been getting played, and played hard.

That’s the only “Domination” happening here, the powers playing on the uninitiated, broken, lonely & longing and above all: distracted.

Subliminally training so many to submit, hunt for likes from the collective, obey TOS or be erased (prototype martial law), and ironically want subjugation ie. train people to want what’s coming anyway.

All “they” (the token “they”) prevailing party- had to do was slap a woman on it. Genius. And the resulting atmosphere is hurting men and women, genius.

Life was not meant or designed to be like this. This is why there are problems.

Reverend Mother from DUNE PART TWO said it best:

“-there are no sides.“

#youtube #illegal immigration #wake up #government #corrupt #women #men #society failed you #women are not the enemy #men are not the problem #rant #lessermook #nature vs nurture

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ceaselesswatchersspecialboy · 10 months ago

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I’m a little nervous talking about this, but I’ve had these thoughts for a while and want to get them down somewhere, so here we are!

There’s a common discussion within TMA of the Idea of human vs monster, and where the line between that is drawn, and this discussion especially applies to the avatar’s and their feeding habits, their desires to hurt others — their hunger. But, I think, that mentality can often lead to the real question being ignored, and that’s the question or choice.

It’s a common theme within TMA, and is prominent within the Becoming of avatars, and what they do after.

A good way of understanding Jon’s feeding in s4 isn’t through the lens of how human is he, rather it’s through the lens of how similar he and Melanie are. He and Melanie act as foils to each other during s4, their actions and choices emphasising their opposing paths.

The gist of it is both wanted to hurt people. It felt good. Both admit to this fact.

And the reason they chose it, is because they’re hurting. Melanie admits to this outright. She’s been angry so long, with little else for her, lashing out and desperate to survive, and suddenly, she has this thing etched into her bones, telling her that this anger is righteous, that hurting herself and hurting others is good. Both are aware that this isn’t good, of course, but it’s so hard to let go of that little, reassuring voice, because doing so means confronting yourself, and your struggles.

I speak as someone with C-PTSD, but this is a very realistic depiction of how it feels, at least to me personally. When you’ve been so powerless for a long period of time, and suddenly, something or someone tells that it’s okay to lash out, to hurt, it’s easy to fall into the destructive cycle, because hurting other people, taking away their power, it gives you a sense of control back, a sense of power.

It isn’t right, of course it isn’t, but it just feels so good.

This is again shown by Melanie and Jon’s separate paths.

Melanie ends up choosing to recover after the bullet is removed, when she could have just as easily found a new, self-destructive path to go down, and it’s not just because the bullet was removed. Taking away her agency here takes away from her arc. She chooses to accept help and she really does work on bettering herself. She doesn’t want to hurt people anymore. Jon doesn’t do that. He feels he can’t. He’s had his power taken from him more times than he can count, been at the mercy of people and monsters, and finally, finally he has power again. He’s put in the position of the tormentor and it feels good. He finds satisfaction in it. And, as with Melanie, there’s a little voice in the back of his head telling him this is right, no matter how guilty he feels afterwards.

He makes excuses to himself, tries to rationalise his own actions as a way of coping, finding a reason to do it again because it’s all he has. It’s a comfort. Is there a supernatural element present? Absolutely! The relationship between Entity and Avatar is one that can just as much parasitic as it is symbiotic, but I think more of Jon’s character is lost by dismissing his darker choices. If anything, the darker choices emphasise his compassionate choices, and vice versa.

Jon can be a victim and still hurt other people; that’s an important thing to acknowledge. Avatars are not just their fears, there is far more to their hunger than that, and they are who they are because of their choices and wants.

Basically, Jon and Melanie are wonderfully written characters and I really love the themes of choice in TMA, can you tell?

#TMA #the magnus archives #tma analysis #jonathan sims #melanie king #my biggest fear is I’ve worded this horribly and it’s going to be misunderstood #but fuck it we ball

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ivycoveredstars · 6 months ago

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Something clicked for me

“You don’t fear failure. You fear your own power”

I came across this video on TikTok

It started off okay, I usually stick around for his content as he’s a great storyteller and speaks on good things. But his messages are usually pushed to the back of my mind after I scroll.

This one though- It made something click for me

I have manifested many things, and my self concept is growing stronger everyday. But there has always been something that felt off. I tend to fall back into this pattern of wavering thoughts and doubts, even though I know everything I need to and have had great success with manifestation.

But it never felt right.

I tried reworking my thoughts around failure, and assure myself that the only way things fail is if I let them. But sometimes I would get so close to knowing something is mine 100%, and then I spiral, waver and lose my grip on my desire.

Now I realize I’m scared of my power.

“You don’t fear failure, you fear your power”

We don’t fear failure. If you don’t have an inherent understanding that you are the true creator of your life, failure is common. We always find our way through. It’s not new, so it doesn’t make sense that we fear it.

Power on the other hand, it can be new to many of us. People in power are able to do basically anything within the means of their power, which usually vast. They can control entire buildings of people. They can create laws that have to be followed, destroy entire populations, control who gets to live and who doesn’t. And that is scary. But power can also be beautiful.

We put power on a pedestal, specifically the power of creation. Religions worship great beings of power, who have created the entire universe and beyond, capable of erasing any and everything with a simple thought. Humans do the same thing with other humans. When we view these beings as magnificent entities separate from us, of course the idea of being like them beyond imaginable.

But power is easy, letting yourself feel worthy of it is the hard part. We have to stop viewing creation, power and success as this grand thing that only the ultra intelligent, talented and rich can accomplish. We create every day. We have power over so many things in our lives. We succeed with each thing we get done. We just have to now adjust the scale and view all things as smaller than us.

A finished painting usually gets all the limelight, but the painter is the one who made it. The painting isn’t really the art work, the painter’s mind, imagination and creativity is the true art piece. The painting is just a bunch of strokes coming together to bring what exists in the artist’s mind to reality. That’s exactly what our desires are as well.

You’re just becoming the painter. You’re seeing yourself as the spearhead of what you experience. It’s not this spectacular thing, everyone has the power to create.

I think of it as similar to the creation of false idols in religion. Those things may be made of gold, silver, diamond. Fancy clothes and bags may be highly coveted after. But none of it would exist without creation. Without the ultimate creator. And that’s how we have to view ourselves. None of our desires would exist without us. They wouldn’t be thought of. We have to treat them as such and put ourselves on the pedestal.

#law of assumption #manifestation #lawofassumption #manifesting #subliminals #law of attraction #self concept #specific person #void state #desired reality #reality shifting #spirituality

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trashogram · 3 months ago

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The Traveling Circus AU

(Not a full fic, just rambling thoughts on this Lucifer/F!Reader idea)

Traveling circuses were pretty popular in 1930s America, and apparently they were free to attend — So you swallowed back your trepidation in getting out of your room and attended the newest circus to come to your sleepy little town.

The Romance

I’m so sorry but this has to be the way Lucifer learns of Reader’s existence:

He sees you and is instantly in love. Love at First Sight does exist in this AU because I say so.

You’re “nothing special”, or so you claim. You’re an unwed working woman in the 30s and therefore seen as undesirable. Your biggest privilege is that unlike a lot of ‘spinsters’ that struggle under the weight of meager wages and no family, you’ve avoided homelessness by renting out a room from an old widow. You work as her personal seamstress day and night, so you have damaged, aching hands and have developed mild agoraphobia.

Lucifer has a knack for getting people out of their comfort zone though. You’re charmed by how his showman persona on stage is contradicted by his earnest bumbling as he tries to get to know you. Your fear of other people is somehow swayed enough to allow him to take your hands in his, to let him see the rough, imperfect skin and still call you beautiful.

It’s also heartwarming to see him with his little daughter Charlie, who follows after him like a duckling and takes a shine to you just like her father. Her presence makes it easier to trust this stranger (who unbeknownst to you is the Devil himself).

The other Sins definitely take notice of how shaken and unlike himself Lucifer becomes in the middle of a show and, since they’re all nosy and love drama, they conspire and gossip about what has their Ringmaster in such a funk until the truth comes out.

Other details

Not sure yet if I want Barnum & Bailey to still exist or if Hell’s Circus troupe takes its place — if it’s the latter, that would mean that Lucifer is the P.T. Barnum equivalent here 🥲 but ofc he’s more like TGS’s version and not the actual awful human being

Lucifer and Lilith were never in love/married here. They were close after the Eden incident but it was mostly trauma-based bonding over a common enemy. So I’m also not sure if I wanna inject a little Pinocchio into this and have Charlie be made by Lucifer as a little doll brought to life by his earnest wish or if it’s simply ‘Lilith disappeared way earlier while they were co-parenting and Lucifer became even more of a single dad’ or even ‘Lilith didn’t want the baby so Lucifer kept her’.

Taking from the post I RB’d, here’s the lineup of our Sins and their roles:

Ringmaster - Lucifer

Strongman - Satan

Animal Tamer - Beelzebub

Fire Breather - Asmodeus

Clown - Mammon

Freak show - Leviathan

Magician - Belphegor

The Sins all have unique relationships with each other —

Lucifer and Satan constantly butt heads (although it’s usually Satan’s beef bc he has a chip on his shoulder over not being the leader)

Satan goes to Belphegor to complain, even though she’s mostly spaced out on hookah smoke from her crystal ball (she’s a combined magician and fortune teller) so is only half-listening

Meanwhile, Belphegor has to ration said laced smoke to prevent Bee from asking for more after a few too many benders (many done without Belphie’s permission or even her knowledge) but when Bee takes anything she takes the most she can get of it and doesn’t understand why that’s such a problem

Levi agrees, but goes behind Bee’s back to say otherwise. And Mammon loves to see the backstabbing in real time because while Greed and Gluttony pair well together, he and Bee are separate entities unfortunately and therefore have to split assets.

Mammon hates the fact that he has to share workers with the others, but has no problem taking imps from Satan to be his clown entourage. They make him so much money, why should he be sorry T-T

And Asmodeus may be the closest thing to Bailey in this Barnum & Bailey operation, but he’s also got his shortcomings — those orgies with human attendants can get a little too time-consuming and he’s been late to perform for a general audience more than once

Unlike canon, there is an integral connection between Hell and Earth/Humanity — the Sins thrive on human beings partaking in their namesakes, so this circus is a fun way to encourage that

It also may be Lucifer’s way of doing the job his dear old Dad assigned him and Lucifer is pretty grumpy about it… but he enjoys being a showman putting on performances for his captivated audience

All of the workers that perform with the Sins are hellfolk, many of whom are disguised as humans unless they’re the “freaks” on display. They’re all very chaotic and delight in being tricksters who also thief and murder while fulfilling their respective Sin’s quota.

#hazbin hotel #lucifer x reader #lucifer morningstar #charlie morningstar #helluva boss satan #helluva boss beelzebub #helluva boss leviathan #helluva boss mammon #helluva boss asmodeus #helluva boss belphegor #bc why tf not #long post

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curlyhairedsimp · 10 months ago

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Okay so I have some Ford pre-portal headcanons I wanna kinda run past the right people? Maybe I shouldn’t say that on tumblr. But that’s besides the point… I have a few head canons that are relatively angsty so fair warning here

1. Bill really shows out for Ford before he realizes his feelings. He is a showman and con artist at the end of the day. But upon realizing how precious he truly was Bill needed to hide him away. Since instinctively before Ford figured out that Bill was dangerous that he’d have to get him to agree to be “weird” with him.

2. Ford feelings for Bill as his muse means that Bill was never a separate entity from work for Ford. That is something Ford himself didn’t even realize that was a thing. It’s not that Ford didn’t cherish Bill it’s just that he cherished him obsessively. Bill can’t comprehend Ford’s interest without it.

3. Strongly believe if Stan had still been close with Ford that Bill wouldn’t have been able to trick Ford. Stan isn’t like fiddle and that trust is never lost between the brothers so one word from Stan and Ford would have been 100% more cautious. Stan would have been too nosy to let Ford keep a secret too. Which means Ford would have to come clean about Bill quickly and it isn’t as easy to appeal to Stan.

4. Shermie must of named (Mabel and Dipper) MAbel and MAson cause of their mom naming the twins STANley and STANford. Also in honor of his dead older brother he commemorated their twin relationship.

5. Stanley didn’t know how to “grieve” ford. I imagine him going through his things trying to figure out his life. Filling in those shoes. I bet he thought to when they were younger and this was easy. Now it’s been ten years since they last saw each other and Stan has to make do. And fill in the shoes of a person he doesn’t think he knows anymore.

#gravity falls #ford pines #fiddleford mcgucket #pre portal #billford #the book of bill #bill cipher

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self-aware-sawtrap · 9 months ago

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curled up into a fetal position sobbing because I just thought of a john & amanda glass coffin au. one where john realizes that amanda’s not following his method at the end of saw iii but jeff doesn’t kill either of them, so they both survive but amanda’s not an apprentice anymore. but she’s already an accomplice and she can’t return to normal life, so they they just continue separately, with john continuing to “test” people but unwilling to make hoffman his new apprentice in amanda’s place. and amanda continues with her rigged traps, targeting people that have wronged her. both of their murders are attributed to “jigsaw”, with the public unaware that they’re no longer working together.

&they still care so much for each other but john cares more about his “”legacy”” and he struggles to come to terms with the fact that now, amanda as an individual and his legacy are two separate entities. & he can’t keep letting her “ruin” his work by putting people in rigged traps but he obviously can’t go to the police and hoffman won’t help him which means he has to stop her himself. so they have this cat and mouse chase just like hoffman & strahm did in saw v (but like. lesbian daughter and unsupportive father version). and he still has to dig up information on her past like strahm did for hoffman, which forces him to confront the life that he told her to leave behind for the sake of their work.

&the entire theme of the glass coffin being trust, so when amanda’s asking him to enter the glass coffin she’s asking him if he can still trust her, if he ever really trusted her in the first place. if it’s too late for him to ever trust her again. he said he trusted her to carry on his legacy, but can he trust her to save his life?

&just like in saw v, he throws her into the coffin & makes her watch him die

#saw #saw franchise #sawposting #saw 2004 #amanda young #saw v #john kramer #their relationship is a constant knife in my side and watching saws iii or x is the equivalent of playing bop it with the handle #long post #the glass coffin dialogue but for john & amanda???#your dedication is to be commended. but I ask if there’s anything else you’ve learned on your journey.#as the old adage goes: fool me once shame on you. fool me twice shame on me’…#i’m asking you john. have you learned to trust me? if you haven’t this room will forever be your tomb and my legacy will become yours.

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shorthaltsjester · 4 months ago

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fuuuuck your point about fjorjester fans who constantly compare them to Travis+Laura is something I’ve been trying to articulate why it bothers me for ages. Like yes, they are a very sweet couple and I love the behind-the-scenes shenanigans and discussions around the gradual development, but that’s pretty much confetti to Fjord and Jester themselves

sorry for the delay in responding to this, anon! i frequently forget that this inbox exists and this apps inconsistency w/ actually giving me notifications means it’s an uphill battle but ANYWAY. yeah no it’s truly like, it’s a similar phenomenon to some of the defences of cr3 where the parasocial aspects of cr fandom leads people to make claims about how it’s just a group of friends around a table — or in this case, just a married couple falling in love again. both of which completely dismiss the actual skills, talent, and effort which denote the successes of cr’s storytelling. because obviously the real people inform the characters in a unique way in actual play — i always think of brennan’s metaphor that characters in ttrpgs are like a kind of stained glass over the real person, a completely different and separate entity but an entity nonetheless made compelling and beautiful by the thing behind it — but to say that the success of fjord and jester comes down to the pre-existing relationship that exists between travis and laura, even when used as some kind of compliment or reason to enjoy the relationship rather than the dismissal it is often used as by fjorester dislikers, that (in addition to just, not being plausible) completely undersells how much character work both of them do to create characters who fall for each other in ways that Mean Something for the development of their characters — for example, the fact that jester spends the early campaign hard crushing on fjord but then doesn’t actually realize she capital L loves him until they’re in a relationship and she realizes that rather than the romance novel, huge sweeping romantic gestures (though fjord also gives her those) she’s learned growing up, love is being completely comfortable with the person she’s with is an excellent expression of jester’s ongoing character development with lessening her naivety while maintaining her love and whimsy. similarly, the fact that it’s two sets of Is It Too Late?s that prompt fjord into beginning to realize his feelings and then act on them; where as travis has mentioned at panels & in no longer available talks machina’s (whose number i could find for citations sake it so needed) fjord realized he might be losing something he hadn’t realized was really there during the jellyfish convo & that he was prompted to finally confess to jester and ask to kiss her because her life was at risk and that after vandran, fjord wasn’t about to let another person leave him without ensuring he told them what they mean to him, that’s all extremely important for fjords development as someone who cares for and takes notice of those around him in his role as the groups leader/diplomat/protector as well as his development towards being able to actually go and seek vandran out instead of just accepting that it might simply be the case that he’ll never get to tell him what he meant to him. none of the power of those character choices comes from the fact that laura and travis are actually married. and it’s consistently infuriating to see what is genuinely one of my favourite narrative love stories be reduced to a relationship that, aside from providing context for a crush that is also narratively grounded from the start of the campaign and (as both travis and laura have mentioned) provided travis with a lower barrier to entry re: romance in dnd, really has very little to do with the story that unfolds

anyway sorry for the word vomit op. it is early in the morning & im procrastinating grading at any and all cost. but yeah tldr: real fucking stupid to look at a story as good as fjord & jesters, as characters who develop in such a way that begets an extremely compelling relationship, and think that saying it’s bc of the real marriage of their creators is in any way a compliment.

#critical role #cr2 #jester lavorre #fjord stone #fjord #fjord + jester #fjorester #laura bailey #travis willingham #laura + travis #asks #anonymous #my post #also i really do have a draft that is in the works re: why i love fjorester so much and it has an entire section currently dedicated to #Laura and Travis’ Relationship Is The Least Urgent Part of What Makes Fjorester Compelling #so maybe (begging myself) getting to word vomit here will give me incentive to not make that as significant in that essay

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hjnxx · 9 months ago

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hijinxx is a study in overcoming. of seeing the flaws within yourself and loving yourself regardless of them. it really is your average girl crush concept – a tirade of anthems proclaiming self love, pride, and being a baddie with your baddie friends in a world that preys on every facet of yourself. but … is that all there is ?

taken from the word hijinks, meaning pure and unadulterated fun—of boisterous antics and often partaking in mischief—the group’s name takes a stylistic approach to its meaning. taking the word jinx, which can either be taken as something that brings a person bad luck or when two people say the same word at the time, hijinxx is a meeting between two selves.

hijinxx is a study in the human girl. each girl represents a part of the inner and outer self — mind, body, heart, and soul. lost due to an imbalance in the outer realm, corrupted by self negligence and outter hostility, the once separated entities have finally come together in order to reach a new level of wholeness and self discovery.

the mind, representative of rationale and thought, is rigid and often overprotective to a fault. she fully believes she is always right, seeing the other selves as ruled by emotion. mind is always prim, never wavering. a pillar for the other selves to lean on. but she often does not allow change to come forth. she relaxes in routine, comforted by tradition. when unexpected slights to her reality , she flounders, often unsure on what to do. heart eases her worries, soul provides inner peace, body suggests rest. one can not exist without the other three.

ahyeon is the representative of the mind, as the oldest member of the group. despite not being the leader, she is always the voice of reason and is the first person to go to with a problem looking to be solved. she prides herself in her experience and expendability—but when happens when she can no longer bear the brunt of the weight? what happens when the pillar starts to show cracks?

the body is the vessel. the outer presence of the human girl, she is the first thing outsiders see. overexertion is her biggest flaw. she constantly moves to prove herself. muscles aching, head ringing, driven to collapse—it doesn’t matter. she needs to be presentable to evade the harsh realities of the outer realm. but are any of the pressures even real? are they tangible? why do they weigh her already weak form down? her form of flesh and blood? do they not know she is still fragile despite her front? mind offers a plan. heart soothes her aches and pains. soul begs to be held. one cannot exist without the other three.

micha represents the body. as leader and the face of the group—she is the first person people come to when it entails hijinxx as a whole. she’s the embodiment of perfectionism; of tireless training and an unwavering work ethic. but what happens when the body is pushed too far? when pain and weathering the storm comes to be more than you can handle--and your physical form can only take so much, despite your endless drive? the hiatus was hard on her. the injury was dumb, but she needed to prove she was above human nature.

the heart is life. blood rushing in your ears and through your veins, the most feeling of the four. emotions rule the heart. passion, empathy, love. out of the four selves the heart is the most gullible. sweet, hope-filled heart. the world is too harsh for your naivety. you’re too trusting, almost dumb. tripping over yourself to please those who don’t care about you all in the name of wanting to fit in. what happens when they don’t accept you? what was all your hard work for, then? they stab your tender flesh over and over again. you let them because you want them to stay. why? why do you care so much? mind puts up a front as soul comforts her sister, and body is the brute shield. one cannot exist without the other three.

eunji represents the heart. as the group’s maknae, it’s no secret that she is openly loved and protected by the other three girls. as the group’s main vocalist, the power in her voice is nothing short of emotional. she pours her entire heart into singing because it’s the only thing she has that hasn’t been tainted by her. but as an emotion-driven person, her biggest flaw is wearing her beating organ on her sleeve. too often is she exposed to the vultures, tearing at her life source over and over again. the hjx girls can only protect her so much.

and last but not least—the soul. holder of the biggest aura, she is the energy. she is the second half of the source life for the four, but while heart is emotion, soul is motivation. your are the inner most important part of the group, central to its humanity. you are the most difficult to pin down, slipping through fingers like running water. mind stares at you curiously. you and heart are two sides of the same coin. body rests on your shoulders, content with the bond you provide. one cannot exist without the other three.

yuina represents the soul. nicknamed hijinxx’s energy pill and dance machine, she is what feeds hijinxx’s spirit. you can’t help but to notice her when she walks into the room–commanding attention for her aura. but doesn’t it get so tiring being the one who is expected to keep smiling? has anyone noticed your overcompensation or–or has it just been you this whole time? your mask can only hold up for so long. you can only maintain this front for so long.

a symphony erupts each time the entities come together. bursts of color, light, sound. of mistakes and the arms that move to hold you despite them. hijinxx is a study in your humanity as well as mine.

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van-yangyin · 6 months ago

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Trapped Ghost Eyes for All Ages 【Simblreen 2024】 - Weekend 1 ~ 19th

Don’t you dare to look directly into the pupils of those who possess these eyes… Because that ghost trapped in the spider’s web are the souls of all those who had that curiosity. But you’re lucky because with Make-Up version you can now impersonate them even if you don’t have their power! Author’s Note: Wearing them doesn’t protect you from being caught if you meet one of them, so be cautious of the entities to whom you direct your gaze.

Hope you enjoy this gift! 🍬🍭

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zukosdualdao · 1 year ago

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i promise i'll do better (i will soften every edge)

zutara month, day 11: "mom and dad are fighting again", @zutaramonth

summary: kya interrupts an argument between katara and zuko.

warnings: reference to (implied) abuse/domestic violence, wrt to ozai's treatment of ursa.

other notes: lyrics from 'light' by sleeping at last. don't ask me how timelines work idk. yes there is a zutara daughter named kya here (separate entity from the lok kya.) she wears her hair in a southern water tribe braid and zuko calls her firecracker and it’s very cute. not really relevant but in this story i’m imagining she’s a nonbender.

“Katara, you know I agree with you.”

Across from him, she crosses her arms, and Zuko sighs. The throne room is empty, save for the two of them, and Zuko feels trapped, claustrophobic in the walls. They’ve made a point of opening up windows in the castle, letting light filter in, getting rid of old, haunting portraits, and making something new and beautiful together.

But the throne room doesn’t have windows to open. On a day like today, at times like these, it’s all too easy to remember the staunchly severe figures both his grandfather and father made here, walling themselves as they did behind high, towering fires.

Maybe they shouldn’t be having this talk here. It's too late now, but something to note for the future.

“It doesn’t seem like it.”

“Of course I want to increase reparations soon,” he insists. “That’s the plan, and that’s always been the plan. But we have to be smart about this,” he tries to remind her. “We can’t do it all at once, or people will try to block—”

“Oh, so now you’re all about thinking things through! Those instincts could have served you well years ago, you know.”

Zuko closes his eyes and runs a hand through his hair. The words are biting, but it’s nothing he can’t handle. Things have been tense again in the Fire Nation lately. Better than ever before in some ways. Worse in others.

The first years after the war were a turbulent time in the Fire Nation—riots from those not happy with the changing of the old guard, strikes from workers contesting the need to pay reparations to the other nations, whispers of loyalists to the old regime plotting to get either Ozai or Azula back on the throne. A few assassination attempts, all handled efficiently but reason enough for concern.

Ten years past the end of the war, though, and things have started to stabilize. The plan has always been to increase reparations once the Fire Nation’s economy has improved, and Zuko intends to keep his word. But part of the system he’s trying to build means that there are representatives from all over the Fire Nation, as well as the other nations, and they each have their own agendas. It’s a tricky thing to navigate; he has to take all of their concerns seriously, of course, but also act according to his own principles. To live up to the promises he made years ago, and that he’ll continue to make for years to come.

Katara looks at him with a combative raise of her eyebrow.

It’s taken a strain on their relationship. It doesn’t happen often, but when it does, they’re both a little too good at lashing out, both a little too good at saying the thing that will hurt, even if they immediately regret it.

But usually, by the end of the day if not before, they can remember they’re on the same side, for all that their perspectives might differ.

“Can we pause?” Zuko asks of her, and her features soften. “Just—try to hear each other out? Katara, I understand…” but before he can finish, the large door to the throne room creaks, and Zuko watches as one of the serving maids guides their daughter into the room.

“See?” Kya points to them, eyes wide with alarm and lip quivering. “Mom and Dad are fighting again.”

Something in Zuko’s stomach drops. He doesn’t want her to worry about this. About them. He’d had to worry about his parents, to worry about his mother, Ozai looming over her, and sometimes Zuko was pretty sure he saw fear in her eyes where there should have been love, and then—

She’d been gone. And he’d drawn his own conclusions, quietly and with little reason to question them.

“She coudn’t sleep,” Hina says apologetically, and Zuko only waves a hand. “She was asking for you both.”

“Thank you for bringing her.”

“Oh, sweetie, don’t worry,” Katara says, walking over and lifting Kya up onto her hip. “Things are just tense right now,” she says, with a guilty sideways look to Zuko, who smiles weakly. “It’s not anything for you to worry about.”

“Promise?”

Zuko walks over to join the huddle and places a kiss atop her dark hair, which is twisted in a braid. “Promise, little firecracker. Mom and Dad are just trying to figure out the right way to handle something.” He meets Katara’s eyes and tries to impress the sincerity of his words on her. “But we will figure it out. We always do.”

Katara smiles at him and uses the hand not keeping Kya secure on her hip to touch the small of Zuko’s back in a gentle gesture. The three of them stand huddled together, and for the first time in… weeks, probably, Zuko feels his body relax, just a little.

He smiles back, a little exhausted but a lot relieved—to have Katara with him, there to both challenge and support him, to have Kya with them, creative and funny and quick as a whip as she is, and at only age four. He’s glad to have his family.

They are okay. Right now, they are okay. Whatever else may come.

#zutaramonth2024 #zutara month #zutaramonth #zutara #my fic #day 11: “mom and dad are fighting again”#trigger: abuse.#trigger: domestic violence.#jic. small references.#atla

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enterpris · 8 months ago

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Caught in Orbit, Chapter 3

Pairing: Reader x Gojo

Summary: Cursed energy has many expressions- inherited techniques, reversals and maximums.

Occasionally, cursed energy of a sorcerer will react with another sorcerer’s cursed energy, or perhaps their soul. In these cases, a bond is formed that can tie families together, increase power, or spark love.

When your soulmate is discovered, you have to decide what the bond will mean

Warnings: Gojo POV, reference to fighting, soulmate au

Length: 2.8k Chapters: 1 2

Ao3: PlaidSparrow

Thoughts whiz in his mind as he back-tracks up the stairs and across the campus.

He’d expected to drop by, pick up some more bandages (the students this year were strong, but kind of clumsy), and then hang out with Shoko till she inevitably told him she had actual work to do. He certainly hadn’t expected to walk into a blood-soaked scene and find out he had a soul mate, one that was delirious with pain and high off Reversed Curse Technique, no less.

Quite the revelation for a casual afternoon.

You're not someone Gojo knows well. Certainly not well enough to count you as a soul mate, at least, regardless of the shape of the cursed energy on your shoulder.

He reviews the couple times he had interacted with you- probably only enough to count on one hand, since your time in high school hadn’t overlapped. Maybe you had graduated before he became a teacher, but after he finished school, he wasn’t quite sure. The couple years after Geto’s defection blended into each other, heavy with a thousand emotions and questions.

But you're not one of the teachers, so you've got to be a career sorcerer.

There’s not a lot of overlap between the professional sorcerers and the school, their different goals make them separate entities that just share the same space. He didn’t really have much to do with the career sorcerers unless one of them is needed to recommend a student for promotion, and even then, it’s not generally a friendly affair. There aren’t many sorcerers worth their salt, at least the kind that he wants to provide a model for his students. You hadn’t been a contender in that respect.

Frankly, the few times he had interacted with you, he hadn’t seen anything special. Enough cursed energy and strength to have a job and make it out alive, but he couldn’t remember your technique off the top of his head. Perhaps he should have taken the time to check that before bolting out of the medical area.

He wracks his mind as he heads up the stairs to his office space to think of anything specific about you, anything at all that had stuck out. Had the two of you ever even had a conversation one on one? He can’t remember for certain.

As he nears his office space he huffs with amusement- it’s not easy to catch him off guard like this.

There had been no mistaking it though, even through the dried blood and healing wound. The curl of cursed energy on your bare shoulder was a match for the one on his own. Gojo could recognize the individual spark of your cursed energy intertwined with the mark on your shoulder, and as he settles into a plush chair, it settles in. The mark that’s branded on his own body has a match, and he knows without a shadow of doubt now who he’s bonded to.

For another sorcerer, a soul mark might come with a lot of expectations, hopes, or romantic notions, but Gojo isn’t a fool. He doesn’t have any delusions of romance just because there’s a mark on his body, and hopefully, you don’t either. Knowing your identity won’t change anything in the end, and it isn’t worth it to pretend so.

It is unfortunate that he found out like this, though. No doubt you were embarrassed he had seen the mark. If you could even remember his entrance. Blood loss can do a number on people, and he’s heard being healed by another sorcerer isn’t particularly pleasant. But some people got so worked up about the marks, it was kind of funny. His own clan would probably have a conniption if they knew about his own mark.

Growing up there had been hopes of course, that the first six eyes and limitless user in hundreds of years should be blessed enough to have a soul mark of his own. To lead the clan into a new age of power and favor. But as he grew up and became a little more headstrong, the murmurs had stopped. Who knows what you even know about the marks as someone outside the largest clans.

Once you’re conscious and aware of what’s happened, it’s possible you might try to talk to him or Shoko about it. And that is not something he's particularly interested in- no thank you. It could complicate things rather spectacularly.

No one is aware of his own mark, no one has seen him stripped bare or exposed, he's been pretty careful to ensure that, but it wouldn’t be ideal for you to push this. Gojo has plans for the future, and right now none of them include cursed energy induced romance.

But the bond between cursed energies in different bodies is complex, and who knows if you would be able to realize the actual connection between you. He takes off the blindfold and focuses his attention outside the building. The distinct shape of the mark, intertwined with your cursed energy, as clear as day, tucked in the medical area. The blindfold can’t keep everything out, and now that he knows your mark is there, it’ll be unavoidable going forward.

He runs his hand through the fresh-shaved hair at the back of his neck. He’ll probably have to deal with this, one way or another. The question is whether to keep his distance or to see what he can find out about you. It probably wouldn’t hurt getting to know you a bit better, to ensure you don’t find out about his own mark and prevent any accidental meetings, but that would require a significant amount of effort.

Ah, well. You’re under Shoko's purview for now, and he’s got bigger things to worry about- and a day of lessons to plan and execute. He looks at the pile of cases and documents towering on his desk. Having a soulmate will have to be put on the backburner for a little while.

It will certainly make things interesting.

~*~

Your mission was a success, thank God. You'd located the curse in one of the small sports buildings near the tennis courts and exorcized it quickly before returning the girl to her anxious parents. All told, it probably took less than 30 minutes.

While significantly less emotionally draining than retrieval missions, rescues always came with the excruciating process of explanation. It was easy enough to wave away parents’ fears with the return of their precious daughter, but after initial relief always came questions that are difficult to answer. It's obvious at a glance that you're not a part of the National Police Agency, and it's difficult to know what the victim will recall. The brain is powerful, and those who can't see cursed spirits fill in the blanks in their own way. You've found it's best to leave as soon as possible, making yourself and the encounter a nightmare that will blur away, given time.

After returning to campus, mission completed, Ijitchi had promised you the following day off call. After two back to back assignments, you’ll need the down time to refocus and recharge your technique, you’re tired to the bone right now.

Returning to your room and napping for the rest of the afternoon is extremely inviting, but there's an itching in the back of your mind that you can't quite slip. Instead of returning to your private space, you find yourself in the communal living area for professional sorcerers.

Your thoughts return to your assignment the day before and all of the aftermath. Belatedly, you realize that you hadn’t really even debriefed with the director about the false info you had going in. He hadn’t seemed surprised when you pushed back on the accuracy of the rescue mission though. It’s more than strange that they’d request your presence so urgently, only to send you on another assignment.

But more than your work schedule, you’re fixated on the mark.

It’s been years since the mark was so heavy on your mind, you haven’t thought about it this much since you realized you had the damn thing.

When you’d finally recognized what it was, you spent weeks doing cursory research in the library and archive searching for answers. A few furtive questions to other sorcerers got you more laughs and raised eyebrows than answers, but surely, you'd thought, there has to be something documented in the one of the two largest hubs for Jujutsu sorcerers.

Late nights searching hadn’t turned up even a mention of the soul marks, and it soon felt silly to continue looking for anything. Work took up more and more of your attention, and any curiosity about the mark faded into the background.

Since it was on your back, most times it was easy enough to forget about. The couple times you’d tried dating were mostly limited to non-sorcerers, who wouldn’t be able to see the mark. But one or two dates always seemed to fizzle out, never resulting in much. Who knows if it was your soul bond or lack of chemistry that ended things. In all likelihood, you’d probably never meet whoever you were bonded to. The group of sorcerers in Japan is a limited pool, but there are Jujutsu Sorcerers everywhere on Earth.

Anyway, it hasn’t made much change in your life since you first noticed it, and sorcerers die young and often. It’s just as likely that your match has already perished.

You can’t quite convince yourself that’s the case though, so you sigh and head toward the archives again.

The archives of Tokyo Jujutsu High are cramped, dusty, and dim. Like many of the underground rooms closer to the barrier, it doesn't see much use or upkeep from the general sorcerer population. Some of the ancient papers are yellowed and crumbling around the edges, you move them as delicately as possible when sorting through the disorganized stacks.

When you’d first come searching years ago, you had been thorough and optimistic, methodically sorting through each box before moving onto the next. It’s hard to recall what exactly you’ve looked through already, or if the files and boxes have been rearranged since then. It looks as disorganized as you remember, so you choose a stack of files and start skimming.

Through the rest of the week, the mark stays fixed in the back of your mind. While running errands and grocery shopping, before you fall asleep at night, you can't help but wonder.

Day after day, whenever you can find time, it's driven you back into the depths of the archive to search for answers, that traitorous curiosity within you hoping that this time will be fruitful. Out of caution, or perhaps embarrassment, you sneak down to continue rifling through the piles of records. Even as an adult you’d heard jokes about soul marks, but any hard evidence is as elusive as being fully rested.

As you descend the stairwell again, there's a voice in the back of your head that feels silly for even trying.

Your eyes strain as you make out the Kanji and kana. Some of the language is archaic, dating back over a century. Unfortunately, most of the records kept here seem to be related to student affairs. The last stack you picked up had detailed the team and individual events for the last 30 years of goodwill events. Other boxes are labeled with Grades and mission files from years past, time-worn pages peeking over the tops of the files.

There doesn’t seem to be information on anything particularly useful where anyone can access it.

You sigh and stretch your back. Hunching over the stacks along with missions and chores has left the muscles sore and fatigued.

When you finally leave the archive, you're left dusty and irritable. The time you’ve spent secreting yourself away in the depths of the campus would've been better spent with a warm shower and a nap, you're in need of both now. You head back to the upper levels of the grounds, hoping your leftover nasu dengaku is still where you left it in the fridge.

The communal dining area is mostly empty, there's a couple of career sorcerers eating and talking quietly in the corner. They don't look up as you head back into the kitchenette.

Thankfully, your leftovers are still safe in the fridge, so you set to work heating up your meal. After grabbing some fresh rice from the communal cooker, you return to the dining area and choose a table by yourself. The campus has never been a bustling hub, but lately it’s felt more and more empty. Or maybe you’ve been neglecting your few friends by spending all your free time with only documents for company.

Instead of continuing that morose line of thinking, you shift your attention to your phone and scroll while you eat your meal. The eggplant is soft and smokey, and melts in your mouth with the warm and fluffy rice, exactly what you’ve needed after a long day.

Your eyes flick up casually when someone enters the space, and then you look again to make certain of what you're seeing.

He's never taken a meal at the same time you have for as long as you can remember, but now Gojo is sitting at one of the tables across the room, unpacking a bag of takeout.

You keep up the pretense of scrolling on your phone, but you can't help but be aware of him. The other couple sorcerers have now left, leaving only you two in the wide space, and he seems perfectly at home while setting up and eating. Gojo doesn’t even seem to be aware of you as he dives into his meal. The rest of your meal is uneventful though, he enjoys his spread of curry and pickled vegetables by himself and you finish your leftovers.

The rest of the week follows just as quietly- you’re working nearly every day, once you’re sent on two smaller missions in a single day. None of the assignments are particularly taxing, but it’s getting harder to keep meals prepped and your space clean. Between fatigue and the lack of results, visiting the archive falls lower on your list of things to do.

Today, your apartment has become overrun by mess. There are empty water bottles littered on the desk and small table the school provided you with. A few shirts you'd tried on but never worn have piled up on the tatami mats too, and you hadn’t bothered to fold up your futon this morning. You sigh and gather up the bottles. Maybe it’s time to finally rent an apartment off the campus- the rent here is so cheap it’s been hard to consider in the past, but being so close to your work is becoming suffocating.

At least if you got your own place, the director team would have to give you a bit of notice before missions, time to get from your apartment to the campus, and it wouldn’t feel like you’re on call 24/7.

Spending time away from the base or in the common areas would do you some good. The managerial staff do a good job of keeping the kitchen stocked and amenities available for the working sorcerers, but they never bring in your favorite sandwiches from the convenience store. Maybe a quick trip out would be a good distraction.

The aisles are always tidy and organized, and it’s comforting to listen to the conversations of other patrons- the daily concerns of what to eat for dinner, when children’s events are, or what to do on the upcoming weekend soothe you. These people will never have to worry about hearing a snippet of a mission gone wrong or whispers of another fallen comrade.

Escape from work can only last for so long, though. As you ride back through the city, your mind has already returned to the rest of your week, a never ending list of chores and preparations to survive when you're slammed.

Luckily there's no one else in the common kitchen, so you put your groceries away quickly. The windows let in the golden afternoon sun. You can’t help but sigh. Now that the shopping is done and everything is in order, you’ve got to prepare for your next assignment, make sure that you don’t get caught unaware again.

Every time you think about the fight at the bank, your stomach still drops. If the projectile had hit the front of your body or you’d been a bit slower, you’d be dead. You’ve been spending too much energy and bandwidth on looking into the mark, and it’s time that you refocus and pour your time into something worthwhile. You’ll be sent out to do more work soon.

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