#that means... so much. if that's really true I swear I've never stanned someone this genuine ever I love how he keeps talking abt things

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I wanted to reply to some of the stuff from my ask, but didn't know whether to reblog it or send it as an ask, I thought it might be easier this way?

silly straws page - i read in 'dipper and mabel's guide to mystery and nonstop fun' that bill likes silly straws and thought it was a silly random tidbit, imagine how surprised i was when i realized there was LORE behind it.. im still figuring out some codes bc i dont wanna look them up and im having so much fun !!

YEAH the silly staws page! I'm so mad that Bill said "I cut the page where I was gonna talk about Shermie Pines" stop teasing mee

I know there are some really cool codes on that page, I haven't decoded most of the book for myself yet but I intend to. There's another code on that page which is a super cool and fun one to decipher (though i've already seen what it says online but I want to replicate it myself). The one that starts with "215 858 117 450 110 628.." etc.

stanford trying to keep me from reading the book page - "you cant hear the disappointed sigh im making rn, but i assure you it's devastating" i mean he failed to stop me from reading the entire thing in one sitting but i was just very happy to see ford's cursive again. It was really funny seeing him trying to guess what the reader would be convinced by (i saw the moth picture and thought 'whats that called, a goth moth?' I laughed out loud when it turned out that was actually its name)

Sameee I got to that page and i was thinking "hiiii!". I loved his attempt to stop us from reading by showing his cool moth, and it was even better when Bill says something later on along the lines of "if he tries to show you his moth collection, throw yourself off a cliff"

Also the photo of him looks cool, but the context of it is so funny. I've seen some posts on tumblr about Ford dragging Stan into the woods and getting him to take a picture of him looking angry and mysterious. Why else does he have a photo like that. It's so silly.

urban legends page - as a long time fan of creepypasta the references in this page absolutely delighted me. Also the art is so realistically horrifying, whoever drew these i love you

YEAH that page and the Mirror Realm one and others look so cool. The new artists brought on to work on this book did a wonderful job. It fits in perfectly with Bill's weirdness.

the one true intelligence test - idk this page just made me laugh a lot

So freaking stupid i loved it so much. I think my favourite was the "divide this number in half" bit.

Entire anti-cipher society part - i love how instead of telling the story in just plain text, they made us follow the story with newspapers and journal pages. What was that called. I swear there was a name for that kind of storytelling if anyone knows pls pls tell me

That whole bit was so interesting. It was a really fun way of telling the story!

every page with ford and fiddleford - BEAUTIFUL. SUBLIME. BEST THING TO EVER EXIST IN THE WORLD. I HECKING LOVE FRIENDS BEING WHOLESOME TOGETHER AND I LOVE IT MORE WHEN THEYRE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS FROM MY FAVORITE SHOW. THEY MAD SNOWMEN OF EACH OTHER THATS SO CUTE

Imma be honest i never really... cared for Fiddleford before. Like, I think the show is better with him in it, and I like that Ford had someone good in his life aside from Stan back in the past, but I didn't know enough about Fiddleford to care. Granted, I haven't reread Journal 3 in a while so I likely would have liked him more if I could remember what was said there, but the stuff presented in the lost Journal 3 pages here were such a treat and I understand now. I really really like him now.

Fiddleford and Ford were so wonderful together! Fiddleford was so, so nice to Ford. I'm never going to get over how Fidds made Ford TWO christmas presents, one which had multiple prototypes to get right, then forgot to get a present for his own wife. Stanford means so much to him it's crazy.

Then Ford decorating the portal room with pretty lights and played Fidds' favourite song and they made snowmen???? That's adorable omg.

And ik this is about the book, not the website, but the stuff on there as well, like the college photo and it describing how they met. AND THE AXOLOTL. Fidds getting one for Ford because it reminded him of him. And i don't think it was even a holiday of any kind. BILL WHEN I GET YOU-

"but my aim is getting better" - do i need to explain this one

I CHEERED at that bit. I showed it to my friend and they didn't get it. I forgot that they're a casual fan who's watched the show like, once, and not like me where Gravity Falls has just permanently taken up some space in my brain.

whatever this page is called;

I hated reading this (i loved reading this). i kinda got spoiled before i bought the book with an analysis post, had to literally put my phone down and think about what id just read. i think this page really puts bill and ford's relationship into perspective. ford's a person and bill's a multidimensional semi-god creature, bill will do and say anything in his power to get ford to do what he wants. this relationship cannot even begin to resemble normal. and also the forgetting your own name part horrified me, thats some good horror right there.. love it when books make me have a visceral reaction to tiny words on paper

I don't think I have anything extra to add I agree completely. I just love how much of a threat it shows Bill as. I think it works especially well because most of the book has been Silly Bill Shenanigans, you kinda forget what he's capable of. Brilliant stuff. i hated it.

call transcript from the police - OH the LORE and CHARACTER ANALYSIS FOOD RIGHT HERE. i could talk for hours about how bill straight up sucks at relationships and he's SO unwilling to admit he was upset about falling out with ford that he's lying to himself MULTIPLE TIMES OVER AND OVER and how a lack of genuine connection with people is eating him up - but if i talked about all that this post would spiral into insanity real quick. Also drunk bill talking into the phone was very very sad and very very on character and i could hear hirsch's bill voice inside my head it was really good aghjgnkhhh

LITERALLY YEA. And that kinda links up with the end of the book, where Bill is convinced someone will free him at some point. But he has no positive connections. He has no one that cares about him. And he did that all himself. Please, anytime, i will listen to your rambles. (just might not respond to it straight away but I WILL)

stan's page - I ALMOST CRIED AND I KNOW THATS KIND OF A WEIRD REACTION BUT I SAW THE STAN PAGE IN THISISNOTAWEBSITEDOTCOM OKAY AND IT WAS MAKING ME VERY UNWELL I WAS EXTREMELY RELIEVED TO JUST HEAR THIS MAN SO HAPPY AGAIN STANLEY PINES I LOVE YOU YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING

The messages from Dipper, Mabel and Stan were so lovely to see at the end. Stan is so happy now, and I'm happy for him. And it's just all really funny. "I only met him once and he cried like a baby then I punched him to death." Yeah that is basically what happened.

AH GOD YOU REPLIED TO EVERYTHING ????? THAMK YOU

YEAH the silly staws page! I'm so mad that Bill said "I cut the page where I was gonna talk about Shermie Pines" stop teasing mee

>:( he knows us too well he knows we'd give anything for more info about shermie...

I know there are some really cool codes on that page, I haven't decoded most of the book for myself yet but I intend to. There's another code on that page which is a super cool and fun one to decipher (though i've already seen what it says online but I want to replicate it myself). The one that starts with "215 858 117 450 110 628.." etc.

Ive been stuck on the numbers one, im gonna give it one more try today but i think it's gonna take a brain bigger than mine jfbsjdkskfs im STEAMING aleeeeex why are you making this so hard for me/silly

Sameee I got to that page and i was thinking "hiiii!". I loved his attempt to stop us from reading by showing his cool moth, and it was even better when Bill says something later on along the lines of "if he tries to show you his moth collection, throw yourself off a cliff"

does that imply ford tried to show bill his moth collection at some point ????? imagine jdbshfjsnf

Also the photo of him looks cool, but the context of it is so funny. I've seen some posts on tumblr about Ford dragging Stan into the woods and getting him to take a picture of him looking angry and mysterious. Why else does he have a photo like that. It's so silly.

I WHEEZED WHILE READING THIS ID NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT??? but like. it's definitely on character i fully believe it happened. i mean this man backflips out of windows why not hnskdkdshd thanks for putting that image in my head

YEAH that page and the Mirror Realm one and others look so cool. The new artists brought on to work on this book did a wonderful job. It fits in perfectly with Bill's weirdness.

YEE!!!!! I think they were allowed to take more creative liberty than in the actual show, being a book and all, and i think thats really cool.

Imma be honest i never really... cared for Fiddleford before. Like, I think the show is better with him in it, and I like that Ford had someone good in his life aside from Stan back in the past, but I didn't know enough about Fiddleford to care. Granted, I haven't reread Journal 3 in a while so I likely would have liked him more if I could remember what was said there, but the stuff presented in the lost Journal 3 pages here were such a treat and I understand now. I really really like him now.

WELCOME TO THE FIDDLEFORD FANCLUB MY FRIEND. ive been a fan of him since the legend of the gobblewonker tbh.. i tend to latch onto very random silly side characters that fill the specifically shaped holes in my brain. Loved him more when i found out he had lore, love him even more after reading the book. Yay fiddleford 🎊

Fiddleford and Ford were so wonderful together! Fiddleford was so, so nice to Ford. I'm never going to get over how Fidds made Ford TWO christmas presents, one which had multiple prototypes to get right, then forgot to get a present for his own wife. Stanford means so much to him it's crazy. / Then Ford decorating the portal room with pretty lights and played Fidds' favourite song and they made snowmen???? That's adorable omg. / And ik this is about the book, not the website, but the stuff on there as well, like the college photo and it describing how they met. AND THE AXOLOTL. Fidds getting one for Ford because it reminded him of him. And i don't think it was even a holiday of any kind. BILL WHEN I GET YOU-

i swear these two are absolutely adorable and that is an objective fact i will not take criticism. the page where ford was rummaging thru fiddleford's desk and found the glove prototypes broke me.

and also yeah the college photo ! i mean like. augh. how do i put this. theyre so friends. ford believed fiddleford was right even tho they barely knew each other and worked together and came up with an entire theory. idk it's so wholesome. AND FRILLIAM !!!!! FIDDLEFORD GOT FORD A LITTLE GUY AND FORD NAMED HIM FRILLIAM AND I AM GOING TO PERSONALLY SPRAY HAND SANITIZER IN BILL'S EYE FOR RUINING THIS. these two are dear to my heart im so so frickin glad they made up and are somewhat keeping in touch now..

I CHEERED at that bit. I showed it to my friend and they didn't get it. I forgot that they're a casual fan who's watched the show like, once, and not like me where Gravity Falls has just permanently taken up some space in my brain.

I KNOW THE PAIN SO SO WELL NO ONE AROUND ME EVEN KNOWS THIS BOOK EXISTS. ILL CHEER WITH YOU WHO CARES IF WE'RE NOT ON THE SAME CONTINENT. FORD MY GUY SLAYYYYYY🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊👏👏🎊🎉🎉👏👏👏

I don't think I have anything extra to add I agree completely. I just love how much of a threat it shows Bill as. I think it works especially well because most of the book has been Silly Bill Shenanigans, you kinda forget what he's capable of. Brilliant stuff. i hated it.

exactly.. bill is a Scary Silly Guy™️ thank you tbob for reminding us. it was very on character and we appreciate it a lot. but like did you HAVE to make ford suffer for it :'(

LITERALLY YEA. And that kinda links up with the end of the book, where Bill is convinced someone will free him at some point. But he has no positive connections. He has no one that cares about him. And he did that all himself. Please, anytime, i will listen to your rambles. (just might not respond to it straight away but I WILL)

Guy had it comin for him tbh. rest in therapieces bill ciphor reincarnate as a vole (also YOU WANT TO HEAR MY RAMBLES🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺???? dont mind me if i raid your asks sometime. or discord dms. whichever you prefer !)

The messages from Dipper, Mabel and Stan were so lovely to see at the end. Stan is so happy now, and I'm happy for him. And it's just all really funny. "I only met him once and he cried like a baby then I punched him to death." Yeah that is basically what happened.

JASIDNFJSNFKSS PRETTY ACCURATE ID SAY. Stanford pines you are absolutely awesome take my money

[em-writes-stuff-sometimes]

okay hiii!! I’ve actually never sent an anon message before but I just had so many questions abt the future of your series (which I’ve been reading since the early days btw and have loved every installation). very silent reader over here!!!

but I wanted to ask, if you’re able to share (and i sincerely hope no one’s asked this yet, if they have I’m sorry for the repeat!!) did you have plans yet for how you’re going to handle Daeron moving forward?

ofc he’s not in the show (yet? at all? who knows!!) but within your series you have reader babey take daeron as a ward on Dragonstone, which places him far closer to team black than he originally was in the books. so I was just wondering if you had any plans yet (that you’re able to share) about Daerons allegiance moving forward.

so these are just a few little questions I have, totes understand if you can’t answer them cause of spoilers: do you plan to have Daeron switch sides so that he stays true to his Green-allegiance in the books, or will you have him diverge from his book counterpart and swear fealty to Nyra? would Daeron go back to Alicent and the greens at any point so that he would be loyal to Aegon once Viserys kicks the can? does Tessarion exist within ur fic (sorry if it’s already been stated that she does and I’m just forgetting) and do you have plans for her?

also a lil more overall and totally understand if you can’t answer this but do you think your fic is going to have the dance end the same way as it does canonically (within the books at least)? and can we expect to see Babey fighting at all?

OKAY that’s a lot I’m sorry but questions have built up over so long of being a silent reader!!! love your work so much you truly are such an inspiration when it comes to writing, especially HotD writing!! Can’t wait to see where it goes!!!

-the biggest die hard Rhaenyra stan nonnie you will ever encounter

Hello, Rhaenyra Stan! It's so lovely to hear from you! I'm so thrilled you're reaching out, and I'm so happy you've been enjoying the fic!

To be quite honest, my plans concerning Daeron tend to fluctuate between him remaining a somewhat neutral party (think sending him to the Vale with the lil kids) or as a fully-fledged Blacks member. I think it'd add some really interesting additional conflict and a cool sub-plot in that Daeron has to war with his full-blood relatives in favour of his half-blood relatives. Tessarion does exist! She's mentioned in the third instalment, I wanna say.... Chapter 9? In the convo Reader has with Alicent on Driftmark just after the funeral.

I can't spoil the end of the fic, unfortunately, but I think the ending will be a just one for our principal character. That's all I'll really say there. And I do want to have Babey fighting given who she rides, but I'm still thinking through where exactly I want to place her in the grand scheme of things. I'm hesitant to have her replace anyone's role in any notable conflicts, but that also means I have to come up with some sort of sub-plot or deviation to give her a meaningful battle scene that doesn't detract from the original characters, but ALSO does justice to the Cannibal given his aggression and intimidation factor. To kill someone or not to kill someone? And who? Is it tides-turning? Hm. I'm not good with military planning, so I'll probs be bugging the audience with random questions at 4am on a Saturday about it, lol.

Thank you so much for this lovely ask, nonnie. I'm so grateful that you've been lurking for so long, and it's always amazing to me to see peeps enjoying this silly little brain fart of mine. I am pushing out updates slowly, but by the end of it all I hope it'll be a behemoth of swag I can come back to and think happy thoughts of. I hope it'll continue being enjoyable for you, too.

I hope I've answered these questions as satisfyingly as possible! Love ya!

[jinlix]

His vlives are really the best...

[georgiaheartsdilfs]

for the papparazzi | sebastian s x f!reader

my masterlist ↪M A S T E R L I S T

prompt ↪They should have known that fake dating never goes according to plan.

warnings / other notes ↪ multiple POV's (Sebastian and Reader) ↪ for phone calls, reader and sebastian are red, other person is black ↪fresh spoilers ↪swearing / mentions of anxiety

word count ↪ 3,703

It had been months since Sebastian and I had come out about our 'relationship', sure it was fun, trolling the world into thinking we were truly dating and I had fun. We had now been public for about a year.

Both of our popularity went sky high, and although it wasn't the peak of Sebastian's career since Captain America it sure was the peak of mine.

Sebastian and I had only been in a movie together once before, that's when the whole rumours started about us dating. Of course, they weren't true but it would be smart to play on the fact everyone thought that.

There were downsides to this though, we had to be seen with each other often and when a premiere happened of one of our movies we had to invite the other as our date, there was even the part where I moved in with him.

I suppose it wasn't all bad because now I had someone I could confide it, we trusted each other more than we trusted anyone else, that's what made this whole thing special, the bond that came from it.

Sebastian had a premiere tonight for his new movie Fresh, of course I knew the plot because he had already told me. His beautiful co-star Daisy Edgar-Jones thinks we are really together aswell.

Although I suggested we told her Sebastian shook his head, he said he'd feel embarrassed to admit that this whole thing is fake.

So here I sit, on the couch that sat in the living room of our shared apartment "this suit or this one?" he says standing in front of me, Sebastian had claimed that he wanted to match outfits with me.

"the blue one accentuates your eyes more." I say, despite the fact we weren't truly dating, Sebastian was really the only friend I had outside of the acting industry. Sure I had my co-actors but they never contacted me out of work, even when I didn't live with Sebastian he messaged me often.

"baby blue right?" I say pointing to the lighter blue suit and he nods, he had helped me pick out my outfit an hour ago, we had gone with a light blue dress and a white pair of heels that would probably be thrashed by the end of the night.

"did you ever think about telling the world that we split apart?" I ask him as he places the suit on the table, shaking his head "not really, i haven't thought much about the whole faux relationship" he says talking with his hands as he walked over to the kitchen grabbing a bottle of water for him and I, tossing me one.

"no?" I ask and he shakes his head sitting down "i mean we could say we ended on bad terms, but I never thought of ending it." he said, his arm resting on the back of the couch. "why have you?" he asks.

I had thought about it often, at first it was nice, it gave me a rush I had never felt before to run around and be free with Sebastian.

Things change though, people sort of find different things to do with their life and I don't think I want to be known as Sebastian Stan's girlfriend when deep down I know I wasn't and it was all for publicity.

"I mean maybe a few times?" I say slightly confused, I didn't want to admit that in the year that we had done this whole fake thing, I did feel something for him, maybe?

I wanted to save myself from being hurt just as much as I wanted to save myself from the hate if everyone does find out about this.

"oh really, why? are you unhappy or something." he says confused "no, god no why would i be unhappy even if i was really with you, it's just i don't like lying, sure i did enjoy it but in the year that this has happened i've matured." the bottle in my hand was half empty by the time Sebastian spoke again.

"well, just one more premiere?" he asks with a sweet smile "sure" I chuckle.

Sebastian's POV

I knew she wanted to end things for a while, it wasn't real but it did hurt. This past year had been amazing, y/n always said that it benefit her more than me in a way.

Sure it didn't benefit me well, it did in some ways but i didn't really care about it. I wanted to help a friend, so when everyone thought we were dating I thought we could use it to our advantage, despite everyone thinking I'm dating every female co-star.

Maybe the whole fraud relationship was bad, she was right in a way but it was fun. I had someone I was able to be free with without the media slamming me for it all the time.

In the end, I knew this fraud relationship wouldn't have ended well, I just wish I knew it a year ago.

"We better get ready soon" I mumble checking my phone, Daisy had messaged me a few times and of course I responded. She was worried about the premiere and I simply said not to worry.

"yeah, i'll get ready now I uh have a few more things to do than you." She said patting my thigh before getting up and walking off.

We slept in separate rooms, it was kind of odd. We'd walk out pretending to be in love but the minute we walked back into the apartment we were back to being friends and nothing more.

Walking over to the table I grab my suit, heading towards my room.

"Hey Seb" she says, she called me Seb whenever she was stuck or anxious "Yeah y/n/n?" I say waiting at her door "can you come help me pick out some jewellery and tell me lies about how I look in the dress." she sighs, I gently nudge the door open "sure thing." I said.

Looking over to her, she had her hands running down the side of her body running over every curve, every unique 'flaw' is what she'd call them.

"Jewellery?" she asks opening her drawer of necklaces and rings, I stare at her, my mouth wide open "is there a problem?" she had asked kindly, I shake my head "no, no you look absolutely gorgeous." I chuckle in disbelief even though I could believe it.

The most beautiful woman stood in front of me, without a care in the world. "Alright then I suppose you want to lie first, ouch." she chuckled awkwardly.

"I don't like to you, y/n, you look amazing." I smile to her, I'm sure my cheeks were going red by the thought of her being my date and looking the way she did "it looks perfect on you" she looked down "I hope I do, even without makeup?" She asks.

"even without makeup, you're gorgeous." I chuckle "I can't believe you're my date." she took my breath away, literally. The words to describe how great she looked, it was indescribable.

Sitting down on her bed she grabs two necklaces, the one I had gotten her for her birthday or the one her best friend had given her before she left to come live with me.

"definitely my one" I nod at it "really?" she says "Oh come on it looks great on you." I say and she laughs "you'd say it looks great on me even if i had nothing on but a robe." she says putting her hands on her hips, "nothing but the truth." I smile.

She smiled, lighting up the whole room as she pushed her now straight hair out of the way of her face, revealing her beautiful y/c eyes.

"you better go get dressed before we run late." she finally speaks and I stan up from her bed "I completely forgot" I chuckle awkwardly before walking out of the room.

Shit. I had promised myself I'd never think of her more than a friend... nothing more than that. It's not like I have I just said she was beautiful.

Reader's POV

He exits the room and I turn back to the mirror, did I really look gorgeous? I must've if Sebastian was speechless. The necklace he had chosen was the one he had bought me for my 28th birthday.

It was small, he had bought it because when we were out shopping he had noticed I was staring at it and I refused to buy it for the pricing and it was ridiculously expensive.

I didn't need makeup, everyone had told me that I looked great. They said that everyday that I think they were just programmed to say it when they see me.

It only feels real when Sebastian says it, when he pulls me aside and compliments me because he can sense how nervous I am. That's when it feels more than real.

My phone starts buzzing, It was Hazel my manager.

hazel, hi, what's up?

just checkin in to see how my best client is going with Sebastian

infact, i just got dressed my dress

oh god hunny im sure you look great

thanks

I walk out to the living room and sit on the couch, crossing one leg over the other.

i was also calling to see if anything had changed about the whole Sebastian situation...

what situation?

you know the whole fake relationship

it's been the same for the past year, hazel, nothing's changed.

i'm telling you y/n, you will fall in love with him, fake dating never goes according to plan i know hazel but its working and i'm sure we've both had a great year it doesn't have to progress

no it doesn't but it will, i'm warning you, and with each premiere you will fall in love

you've said that so much

it's true

ok well i have makeup to do, so i better get going

alright be safe

bye

bye

"who was that?" Sebastian asked from his room, "just Hazel" I respond "ugh can you tie my tie" he says frustratedly.

"sure" I say getting up from the couch, heading towards his room I nudge to door "that's why i never wear ties." he huffs turning around to reveal he had made a huge knot out of something so simple.

I cover my mouth, hiding my laughter behind my hand "you can laugh" he says defeated "no, you complimented me and as soon as I finish this..." I pause walking up to him, untying the mess he had created.

"I'll compliment you, because you always look good." I smile looking up at him, his face was so close to mine, until I looked down, ruining the moment. Finishing the tie Sebastian sighs in relief "thank you y/n" he says as I tighten it.

"It's fine you good looking devil" I wink at him "oh come on" he laughs "no you look really handsome" taking a step back to look at him, he looked more than handsome.

Maybe Hazel was right, every premiere, every compliment, every kiss on the cheek. Maybe I wanted this whole thing to fall and crumble, fail.

If it did go all wrong, it wouldn't be because we stopped being friends, it would be because we actually fell in love and even though I was scared of love, Sebastian made everything feel ok. He made life feel ok.

at the premiere Sebastian's POV

Y/n and I get out of the car, camera's were already facing us, flashing from the moment we got out of the car. Pretending to be a couple had its perks, I could comfort her and it wouldn't feel weird if it was in public, I'd be able to hold her hand with it being weird, deep down I always wanted to hold her hand.

"y/n this way please, sebastian over here" the paparazzi say, y/n's grip on my hand tightens. I know she hated attending premieres, the fake relationship just added onto it. She hated all the flashing lights, people yelling at her all at once, the fact that she only knows one or two people there, she hated it, yet she always attended.

The marks for where we were suppose to stand we on the floor, y/n lead us to our first one "everything's fine" I whispered in her ear, her breath hitched as my lips touched her cheek and she smiled.

Continuing down the isle, I resume comforting her in every way I can, rubbing the back of her hand with my thumb, wrapping my arm around her waist pulling her closer.

Until one moment when I let go of her hand, there were times where I let go and she'd follow slowly behind me but this time she didn't, she immediately grabbed my hand again, looking around at the camera's I noticed there were a lot more than any other premiere we attended together.

Her fingers interlocked with mine as we walked off the red carpet "are you alright?" I ask her, my other hand making its way to her cheek rubbing it gently. Her facial expressions changed from anxious to relaxed in a matter of seconds, I just wish I could kiss her.

"just nervous you know, this one is a... big one with a lot of camera's" she said chuckling anxiously before I lead her to a hallway, away from the crowd.

"just breathe" her hand let go of mine and I held her arms, she inhales slowly before exhaling, as she begins to play with her necklace I admire her, she had forgotten to do her makeup and I don't think she noticed because she didn't look different with makeup on.

The necklace was fumbling between her fingers, all she needed was a minute or two before we walked out. She never told me she got anxious, she always had to be perfect so she could impress me but she always impressed me just by sitting on the couch and doing nothing.

A few minutes had passed "i'm ok." she says before shaking her arms, removing all the anxiousness off of her body.

Grabbing her hand I walk back out to see it was cast photo time "will you be ok?" I ask her and she nods smiling before I walk off, looking back at her I see that she started playing with the necklace again.

Reader's POV

I found comfort in playing with my necklace, it made me feel safe. I didn't know if it was because Sebastian bought it for me or because I had fallen in love with it from the moment I saw it.

Sebastian stood next to Daisy laughing, he seemed to really enjoy her company. When she said something, he'd always laugh and as they took their photos I couldn't help but feel jealous, Sure, I was 'Sebastian Stan's Girlfriend' but I knew that he didn't feel something for me and he looked like he felt something for her.

The way he looks at me in public is the way he looks at her in general, with general admiration. He was fascinated by her, when he looked at her, it was like she was flawless and that's how he'd look at me... only in public.

Yet I didn't know why I felt jealous, these past few months when he mentioned her name all I could do or feel was jealousy, but I love Daisy, she's one of the most kindest souls I've ever met.

After they had finished their cast shoot he walked over to me, his smile was contagious because from the moment he looked at me and smiled, I'd smile back without even noticing.

Kissing my cheek, he grabs my hand. He didn't like PDA but we had to give off the fact we were together, we had done everything together except for kissing. He'd kiss my cheek and I'd kiss his but we'd never kiss each other, properly, but he was more different when we were in public.

He looked and acted more free when he was out with me, when we were home he felt like he was holding something in, a secret.

Daisy walks over greeting me "hey y/n" she says with a huge smile "Daisy, hi." I say excitedly hugging her "how are you?" I ask her "oh I'm great, and you?" she asks "I'm great" I respond.

Her and I stood around talking whilst Sebastian stood next to me on his phone, "Sebastian was just telling me about how kind and honest you are, I'd love to work with you sometime." Daisy says "Oh really." I chuckle awkwardly, scratching the back of my neck.

No one had ever told me about what Sebastian had said to them about me. Not that I ever asked because I never thought about it but now i made me curious.

"Yeah, he just adores you I can tell." Daisy smiles and Sebastian looks up "She is my lovely girlfriend, what can I say?" he chuckled wrapping one arm around my shoulder.

The conversation ended shortly after and that's when we started heading towards the theatre where the movie was playing.

He and I sat down together, the cinema started filling in, all the crew, actors and actresses, directors and executive producers all sitting down.

"this is gonna be great" he chuckles grabbing my hand excitedly, when we were watching the movies, we never held hands or anything because it was pitch black. This was really the first time he did "I hope you like it" he mumbles kissing the back of my hand and for once I let myself believe this was real.

That he and I had been dating for a year, the he truly did love me and wanted to invite me to this premiere, not some other woman, me.

"It's you Seb, of course I'll like it." I chuckle.

I giggle quietly at his entrance in the movie, how awkward it was and yet somehow he looked so good. I remember him recording this scene, I was there when they had started filming and I remember how good his hair looked until he cut it for Pam and Tommy.

The first half an hour of the movie was cute, Sebastian had told me that when he and Daisy were dancing in Noa's apartment it was really him and her freestyling and that there was no choreography, it was so cute.

Then the whole cannibal thing came out, it always intrigued me on how well Seb plays his characters. He plays them oddly well, a ptsd old man, a drunken alcoholic, a money hungry dirtbag, tommy lee and a cannibal.

Sebastian's POV

I watched her, as she watched the movie, each time I came on the screen her eyes lit up more than the last time. She enjoyed the movie I could tell.

She would laugh when I was on screen dancing whilst cutting a flesh leg and she completely ignored the fact is was a human leg.

Through the whole movie I held her hand, I knew she was jealous everytime I was with Daisy, even though I could never understand why I think it had something to do with the relationship.

"you look so good there, it just sucks your a cannibal because i'd marry you." she whispered, quietly giggling at her own little comment, scrunching her nose shortly after realising that... it wasn't that funny.

She started giggling again shortly after when I was taking out Noa's ass, it was an odd scene because I was singing yet she found some humour in it. That was another good thing about her, she never failed to find humour in the strangest of times.

Maybe this whole thing was for the paparazzi, but I let myself believe it a little too much. When the camera's were on us, I'd believe it was real so I could give her that look, that look that put the whole relationship together.

The look of 'i'm so in love with you please marry me.' and she never noticed, she thought it was for the camera. A part of it was for her, maybe all of it was for her.

I should have know, god I should have known that doing this would have made me feel real things for her.

The movie ended and Y/n and I left, getting into our car she smiled "It was a great movie, I liked it." She said "Yeah?" I say and she nods "Oh I loved it, I think I may have actually fallen in love with you." she says jokingly "yeah you wish Steve would marry you." I respond.

"I did notice you staring at me instead of the movie, Sebastian." she looked at me as I started the car "I was just making sure you liked the movie." I say and she chuckles putting on her seatbelt.

"no, you didn't have to hold my hand Seb, no one could see us, you still held it and even if I'm misinterpreting it, I'm in love with you, that's why I didn't want to do this with you anymore." She said admitting her feelings.

My jaw drops, I couldn't exactly look at her so I pulled over "no way" I say turning to face her, my hands letting go of the steering wheel and cupping her face kissing her.

I hadn't thought of kissing her as much as I did in the past year and I had known her for three years.

Now I'm kissing her and it feels like heaven, her lips were softer than a pillow, they tasted like raspberry and the kiss didn't seem forced like I had imagined it to be. It was passionate.

"i thought it was all for the paparazzi" I said pulling away "it was at first" she said, placing my forehead against hers "but then i suppose hazel was right" she mumbles "what?" I ask gently.

"we should have known fake dating ever goes to plan" she says and I chuckle.

[emachinescat]

I've decided to watch MacGyver from the beginning (again), and I'm live tweeting the experience with every tweet tagged with #savemacgyver. I thought it would be fun to share my collected thoughts from the episodes on here as well.

My Thoughts on S1E2, "Metal Saw"

Seriously love the music in this show!

THE FREAKING BELT GRAB. You can tell they've done this kind of thing before.

I always love it when Jack and Mac have heart-to-hearts in the middle of super intense, dangerous situations. Like... it's sweet, but time and place, guys?

"Hi, I'm Jack." Nervous Jack is bebby.

Ew, sweat. Like, I know it's "realism" to have sweat stains on clothes in situations like these, but that's one bit of realism I can always do without. Gross.

Is that a bit of PTSD I'm seeing with Mac there on the couch? That's a kind of realism I can always get behind.

Riley finding Mac and Boze in that compromising position will never not be funny. "But he was on top." I love Riley more every episode.

Riley is a really good liar from day one.

I love the joke about ex-cons benefiting from being in relationships with stable people (i.e., fake boyfriend Bozer), then the immediate cut to Bozer with his whole arm inside the vending machine. Great stuff.

Love the Riley and Bozer bonding... right up until the cringe-tastic "Slide me your digits."

"Soon, I'm gonna woo you the same way Romeo would have wooed Juliet if they had Snapchat back in the Renaissance." Bozer and his surprisingly accurate pickup lines. The Renaissance did in fact start in Italy around the 14th century, when R&J is thought to take place.

I love all this psychoanalyzing of Mac. "Adapting is his survival mechanism." Also I'm living for Jack sticking up for Mac to Patti.

"This place has been searched by everybody and their dog." Is this a Texas thing or an old guy saying? Either way it's great.

Nothing beats the early days of Mac and Jack. Nothing. I wish we had gotten more interactions where Jack has to parent Mac: "Stop touching that. Look at me." ❤️❤️❤️

Jack so concerned about Mac and putting on the kid gloves = everything I could have ever asked for and more.

Jack has such a big heart. Poor guy, the look on his face when he sees that the reporter is actually Sarah...

Paperclip sculptures: When I first started watching the show, I thought they were lame. Now I miss them so much. Does that mean I've gotten lamer or that they were always cool and I was always lame?

"Closest time I ever came to coming home in a box." Oof. This line hits different now, and not in a good way.

I just love how Jack is this big tough ex-Delta who is so open about his emotions, particularly with Mac. And the way Mac reassures him... Their bromance is top-tier.

"Oh, like when they invented fire!" Another zinger.

Mac grabbing that giant cigar right out of that dude's mouth 😂😂😂

Love some good fight-scene Mac whump! 👏👏👏 And bar fights are always a blast!

Riley with the car door - such a boss. "What? You told me to stay in the car, and I did."

I've seen some people say they don't like S1 Mac's hair. I kind of dig it, to be honest. He looks like he's 5, but I love it.

Mac has made a lot of DIY cutting torches in his time, but they never get less impressive.

Jack trusting Mac to save Sarah while he keeps watch is just *chef's kiss*!

These early episodes have so many MacGyverisms. One right after the other. It's awesome.

I've never been a big fan of the dark either, Mac.

The first scene with Mac and Sarah is so beautifully tense and whumpy (he way he scrabbles for purchase, gasps for breath, that hitch in his voice as he tries to squeak out Jack's name) that I had to rewind and watch it again.

The hopeful disbelief in her voice: "Jack Dalton came for me?"

Sarah can kick some serious ass. I can see why Jack likes her. Too bad she's about to lead him on the rest of the episode, while actually having a fiance...

Sarah: *leans out of car, shooting her weapon with deadly, terrifying precision* Riley: I agree, this woman should not have kids. 😂 Everything that comes out of Riley's mouth is gold.

Riley asleep in the back of the car while Mac sits quietly and Jack and Sarah have a sweet moment is like mom and dad with the kids in the backseat. Except mom has a fiance and hasn't told dad yet, even though she's had ample opportunity.

Because seriously, Sarah. It's not that hard to tell him the truth. Giving him those big eyes and flirting with him, thinking he has a chance is just cruel. I have never liked her character, and this is why.

Mac and Jack giggling about Jack's crush on Sarah like middle-school girls is life.

"You're just gonna have to let that go." Man, I love their relationship.

Gosh, the scene where they find Luis always hurts so badly. These early episodes did not play around.

"There isn't always time to beg some suit back home for permission to do what's right." I'm not a fan of Sarah, but I love this line. Also, this is pretty much the synopsis of the whole show.

Riley's hair used to be so LONG! 😍

The loyalty of these three! And I love the OG trio so much.

This sleazy guy in the computer place makes my skin crawl.

Love how Patti's like, "Mac will be back by then." Not Jack, not Riley. Just Mac. Can we say teacher's pet? I actually lowkey love this though.

"Who is this guy?" Much like Doctor Who's "It's bigger on the inside," I never get tired of people being equally amazed and confused at the stuff Mac can do.

I've never been the biggest car chase junkie, but Barrios jumping over the car using that log in the road is pretty dope.

Sarah's rage is chilling. And Jack talking her down breaks me every time.

Again, I love the loyalty of our team. Everyone sticks up for each other, ending with Mac's totally unbelievable but still somehow 100% genuine "It was me. I forced them." TOO good.

First mention of Oversight this early. Just thinking about who it is that doesn't like unsanctioned ops just makes me 😤 I wonder if the writers knew who OS was at this point or if it was a later development.

I do wish we could have gotten more conspiratorial, approving Patti. She's so much better than expressionless, bland Patti.

The way Sarah never told Jack about her fiance Jeff (who is in fact a cinnamon roll but still a discount Jack) pisses me off. "I tried to tell you." Yeah, right. It's not that hard to say, "Yo, I'm in a relationship."

Jack NEVER should have found out about Jeff the way he did. There's no excuse.

It's not okay, Jack. She did you wrong. You didn't deserve that. Stand up for yourself, man. Gosh, he's so broken here, and I hate it.

"At least we have each other... Don't look at me. I know how weird it sounded." THESE TWO I SWEAR 🤣🤣🤣

Poor Mac. I do love how we get his obsessive tendencies so early in the show, and how they keep coming back, even as late as season 5. As someone with clinically diagnosed OCD, this makes me feel seen and I love being able to relate to my favorite character.

Love the found family antics at the end. Riley and Bozer making dinner while Mac and Jack play basketball? Perfection.

Lol, Bozer calling Riley a "caramel goddess" has such Schmidt/Cece vibes from New Girl, and I dig it!

Ew. More sweat. I know some people find sweaty men attractive, but that is NOT my vibe. I prefer my men clean and freshly laundered.

The way Riley glances back over her shoulder at them as she walks away, as if to make sure they're really there, that this is actually real!!!

"That's not even... that's true, actually. That's sad." Jack 🤣 Also, "I'm hungry." Big mood.

As a Grandpa Harry stan from the OG show, I eat up any mention of him in the new one. I just wish we'd gotten more of that wonderful man in the reboot. Still, I'll take what I can get!

I'd honestly forgotten how much I enjoy this episode! So solid, full of bromance, found family, and lots of good-natured bickering. Can't wait to watch the next one, hopefully tomorrow! In the meantime, please keep fighting for our show! Together we can #savemacgyver!

If anyone wants to join me in my re-watching and tweeting adventure, please do! It's my way to take about an hour a day in my busy, busy life to commit to the #savemacgyver movement. (And to enjoy my favorite show yet again!) If you do tweet as you watch, make sure to tag EVERY tweet with ONLY #savemacgyver so we can keep that hashtag trending! :)

Thanks for letting me share my (numerous) thoughts on this episode. This was really fun, and I hope it's something you all enjoy, too. I'd love to know what you all think of the episode in the comments! ❤️

[ironhusband]

hey! sorry i'm late! i've been drinking again and i literally forgot you existed; i know that sounds horribly mean but please don't take it that way! i drink so much and so often that forgetting people's entire existences is super common for me; i have even forgot my own mother multiple times and we're super close.

i want to thank you for understanding the whole sharing long fic with other people anxiety. i just thought i was being a weirdo at first. as for my mutuals…they're good people, i swear. they just make me nervous sometimes now, is all. hm, let me explain? they're very upfront about not liking iron man franchise characters, and listen i'm not upset about that at all, i don't get bothered about people hating shit that i like or love. i'm fragile but not that fragile, you know? it's just...the things they say about the people who like these characters that are making me...just a tad bit anxious. because..."is that what they think of me?"

"do they think i'm stupid?" "do they think i'm narcissistic?" "do they think i'm brain dead?" "do they think i have internalized racism?" "do they think i'm a white supremacist?"

but they're not talking about me. absolutely none of this is directed to me, specifically. i know this because they still think i hate marvel and the mcu and that i have no interest in the things they reblog. and 2/3 years ago this was very true! i wanted nothing to do with it, i had always scrolled pass any and every post dealing with marvel. thing is, i truly was not expecting my niece to drag me into her interest and for it to become my interest as well.

(she's obsessed with tony, but she absolutely adores riri; i got her an ironheart funko pop for her birthday and ever since then i have never seen her without it. she takes it with her wherever she goes. and yes, it's as adorable as it sounds.)

so since then, i've started to pay attention to what my friends reblog. so i see things now. a lot of things. and maybe i'm being overdramatic! i probably don't have to hide my newfound interest. maybe they wouldn't burn me at the stake for something so simple as liking fictional characters they hate; we've all been very dear friends for seven years now, and i can't imagine a life without them. i know i wouldn't be the same person i am today, that's for sure.

but.

it's the things people say about you when they think you're not there, or not listening, that can heal or hurt you. if...that makes sense as an analogy. since, again, none of it's directed towards me...specifically...yeah i'm probably just being a baby about this.

but hey! other than that shit is super chill, and now you know the reason i'm on anon. and really, you don't have to worry about a thing, everything's a-okay! also, it's hard to detect boundaries over the internet if they're not explicitly stated, so i'm sorry if this ask is too much for you in general, you can delete it and i won't think any less of you for doing so. ~🍜

Ok well, wow. I guess I need specific examples for the things your mutuals said to understand if they made those extreme generalisations or if it’s just your thoughts. You did say it isn’t directed at you (maybe they said ‘this Tony stan is a white supremacist. Typical’ or something which yeah, don’t worry about it, didn’t mean you). Either way, I get being friend with people who dislike Tony and I get being scared of saying something that will make your mutuals hate you. So uh. Can relate. But honestly, if you ever decide to say you like Iron Man, you should really take what your mutuals say with a grain of salt. You can like what you like. 

Oh my God your niece sounds adorable. I adore Riri too. Can you buy an ironheart funky pop for me

If you ever wanna talk with someone who likes Tony and absolutely adores your writing, feel free to send me an ask (you can even send me one off anon and I’ll DM you, without posting your ask).

[txthearteu]

extra long tag game (aka a tmi that no one particularly cares for)

tagged by @soobindipity​ 🥰 thank you bb 😌❤️

tagging @btxtreads​​ @choisoobinie​​ @unlocktxt​​ @bffsoobin (this one is long so feel free not to do it ahahahaksksksks)

note: i found the breakers somewhere here in tumblr but i forgot who the owner is, so full credits to whoever owns these breakers

ONE

tell me the first song that made you stan your current fave group and why did your faves attract you so much?

of course it’s their debut song Crown. I have to admit, I listened to them not because i discovered them but because of the whole “bighit is releasing another boy group” fiasco. people thought the hype would die down, i did too, but to this day the boys never failed me. they consistently made me happy with the content they gave out for everyone to enjoy. also adding, i think i’m attracted to them more (compared to their seniors) since they’re around my age– something in which i feel like i can relate to (in terms of the content they put out, or the jokes, etc)

TWO

rule: answer the ten questions and write your own!

what’s your unrealistic goal for life?

becoming a music artist (pop star) 😔

if you had known that we would be in a global pandemic, what’s one thing that you would’ve done before things shut down (if they have for you)?

travel to Japan and explore the place 😩

what’s an unconventional thing that you carry around with you when you go out?

chopsticks hahahahaha because i usually eat using the spoon and fork when i eat out 

favourite type of plushies and why?

anything twotuckgom related! they’re so soft and convenient because of the size. i also kinda wanna buy the bolsters 👀

favourite song right now?

i don’t have any but if you ask what i’ve been jamming to i’d say its city girls by chris brown

something that you’ve always wanted to learn?

producing music, japanese, korean, hacking 

tell a funny story about yourself (or just something that you’ve witnessed)

so in the city where i live, there are places in which the canals don’t have any stoppers. i saw this kid walking with his family alongside these canals and he was just vibing with the song he was singing to. he was so into the song he was singing that he missed a step and he kinda slipped and fell in to the canal (don’t worry though there weren’t any serious injuries) and i swear it was a funny sight 

headphones or speakers? why?

headphones! when the opportunity is present then i’d listen to my music with no outside noise

craving any food right now? what are you craving?

corndogs 👀

which music streaming platform do you prefer? why?

spotify since i’m on spotify family 

😌✌️

questions from eri to me:

what’s the best trip/vacation you’ve ever had?

the vacation i had in Japan last year! 10 days never felt so short in my life and i was planning to go back earlier this year but you know...’rona....

do you have any random fears/phobias? if yes, what are they?

i’m the toughest gal everyone knows but i get really creeped out by butterflies or bugs. i also get scared with inanimate objects that look like a human being when it’s laying still in the dark, i’m scared of mirrors as well HAHA.

weirdest food you’ve ever eaten?

worms

do you have any hidden talents? what can you do?

i can curl my tongue into what seems to resemble a three-leafed clover. i can also mimic voices well and, from what my friends said, i could actually dance well and im super fast in picking up choreography hahaha (ok but it’s what they said okay)

what is an activity you’d like to try out someday?

biking/hiking/camping :> 

when did you get your first phone and what type of phone was it?

i think it was back in 4th grade and it was the famous nokia 3310 

what is a movie you never get tired of watching?

flipped!

biggest pet peeve?

 i absolutely get annoyed when someone tries to rush me and by the time i’m ready, they haven’t readied themselves

earliest childhood memory?

i put sand in this ice-cream-cone-looking rock, and i ate the sand thinking it tasted like ice cream

as a child, what did you want to be? what about now?

a music artist (pop star), until now that’s still my dream but unfortunately, i had to be “practical” 

✌️😌

questions from me to you:

android or apple? why?

words of affirmation or physical affection? why?

bean bag or rocking chair? why?

do you view a half-filled glass as half-full or half-empty or an in-between? why? (go as deep as you can)

if someone were to grant your wish right now, what would it be and why?

if someone were to give you anything you want right now, what would it be and why? (something that can be held)

favorite season and why

what made you enter tumblr?

are you happy with where you are in life right now? why or why not?

to see the boys in real life but for it to happen only once in your lifetime, or to meet the boys via online fan meeting as many times as you can in your lifetime? why?

THREE

rule: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people

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AIR ༉⋆͙̈

i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see the dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me

FIRE ༉⋆͙̈

i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing

WATER ༉⋆͙̈

i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit dinners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words

EARTH ༉⋆͙̈

i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love this chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life

AETHER ༉⋆͙̈

i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally

FOUR

PERSONAL

name: -

nickname: cj

birthday: oct 12

zodiac: libra

nationality: filipino

languages: english, filipino (and my dialect), lil teeny bit or korean and japanese kskskskksks

gender: female

sexuality: straight

height: 5'1 and a half (spare me the half pls im trying to act tall)

BLOG STUFF

inspiration for muse: --

meaning behind my url: to put it simply, i love txt

blog established: start of quarantine

followers: 43 lovely followers! 

FAVORITES

favourite animals: do you know cat and dog?

favourite books: anarchy by styleslegend (swear i've been hyping it since my 1d days) ; the tale of heidi by johanna spyri

favourite colour: yellow/brown/black (can’t choose)

favourite fictional characters: hulk, hinata shoyo, tomoe (from kamisama kiss)

favourite flower: i don’t have any ahahahhaha

favourite scent: mens perfume/deoderant

favourite season: spring

RANDOM

average hours of sleep: 6-9

cats or dogs: (i love them both but i really love dogs but i just wanna hug them both because i love both cats and dogs)

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: coffee is my go to energizer, for some chill time i’d go for hot choco

current time: 22:34

dream trip: japan(again)/australia/europe 😩

dream job: music artist 😔

hobbies: playing instruments [violin piano ukelele sometimes guitar and drums], listening to music, writing songs, beatboxing

hogwarts house: slytherin 

last movie watched: oh dear god i cant remember HAHA

last song listened to: bbibbi by iu

no. of blankets you sleep with: 1

random fact(s): if given the chance again, i’d combine mint choco and bubblegum ice cream; when i’m bored i try to re-read all my past lessons AHAHAHAHAHA; currently in a 5-year relationship akshsskskssjsjduskgkad

FIVE

10 things I can’t stop listening to

city girls - chris brown, young thug

angel or devil - tomorrow by together

paradise - bts

zombie - day6

see you again - tyler the creator, kali uchis

dally - hyolyn, gray

love - kendrick lamar, zacari

redemption (with babes wodumo) - kendrick lamar, zacari

pyramids - frank ocean

all in - monsta x

[chaekkung]

o wormie? u? in a lot of love? perfect i don't think i've asked u yet but (if ur free) could u talk about why/how you started loving changkyun/hyungwon (or both :-D) ?? pls ramble as much as u like!! read more exists 4 a reason and . i love reading ppl b soft and in love it's cute!!!!! i love u have a good night/day ! 💛💛

o holy shit thats a lot ok im gonna write about changkyun since i Havent... :( and ill copy pasta one of my hyungwon essays for u to read!!!! the changkyun will be under it :^) this is gonna be Super Long im sorrie in advance LMAO BUT HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT TOO!!!! :D (also theres prob gonna be a lot of typos bc im Dumb but.. bear w/ me)

mister chae:

honestly i don’t even know where to start?? uhh i guess with his looks first since,, this is describing or smthing,, anyways yeah hyungwon is just… fucking beautiful. he has the most handsome and visually attractive face ive ever seen in my whole life??? and i’ve stanned a lot of groups in my past before but hyungwon is honestly one of the best looking man i know :( im not even being biased,,, anyways yeah there’s that. and he’s like naturally a model, i mean he can legit wear anything and do anything and he’ll look like he’s posing for a high end magazine, not surprised if he’s been modeling since he was like, born. also he has the most beautiful and endearing smile and laugh…. when he smiles he really goes from :o -> :D like!! please!! you are too fucking cute,,, :((( he really lights up the entire room solely w his smile im jusT?? wow?? like when his smile lines by the sides of his nose down to the corner of his mouth come out i just,,,, really… need 2 calm my heart. he has like the closed mouth wide smile, and the straight up whole face smile!! and i.. love both.. so much,,, and yeah anyways his lips are like the first thing people notice about him and big mood?? they’re so plump and … kissable.. and soft.. but my favorite feature on him are his eyes tbh…. idk he has really beautiful eyes? idk how to describe it but like, they’re so…. kind? and bright.. it’s just i want to look into them all day long and im just… so in love with his eyes. like,, they really hold all the stars in my universe wtf!!!  :( OH AND I DONT TALK ABOUT THIS ENOUGH BUT…. HIS EARS ARE SO FUCKING ADORABLE WTF I WANT A MOLD OF HIS EARS ON MY DESK,,, idk about others but i personally find his right ear cute as fuck?? like the extra folds in his ears.. i would d*e for them………. godksj why is everything about him so cute i just?? want to kno …

ok now im going to talk about him!!! so his personality, is what i really fell in love with,, (god this all sounds so.. cliche. but it’s.. true, also unrelated but every time someone talked about,, love cliches and shit i was always like ‘sounds fake’ but???? after hyungwon i really?? believe in all of that..) if i had to use one word to describe him it would just be ‘kind’… like he!!! is!!! the king of being considerate and compassionate and wonderful and he’s just a really good person.. :( he’s the one you can always count on and lean on. he’d always be on your side and makes you feel safe and comforted,, like he’s really full of love??? even the members said he’s a really good listener and they chose as him as someone they go to when they’re feeling down because he makes them feel better about the situation (god, i wish they were me,,) and he has the most beautiful heart… like, he’s been wearing the Sewol bracelet since as long as we’ve known and he has never missed a day. you can always see it during fansigns, vlives, whenever he’s out, and he even wore it when he was modeling under his clothes… :(( he went from the charm, to the rope bracelet thing, to the clip on and now he’s wearing the wristband!! :(((((( he says he will always wear it to remember the incident, and he has been for over two years… he’s doing it out of the kindness of his heart and not to show anyone… he said he felt so helpless during the time, and watching every thing unfold before him, and has worn the yellow bracelet which symbolizes ‘hope’ :((((((((( god,, real emo hours,,, i love my angel so much wtf !!! ok next,, (sjdhaj at this point im going to write a whole novel wtf but im gonna,, stop soon i swear .) hyungwon is really fucking hardworking and ?? he’s so dedicated to his career and making sure that we, his fans, are always satisfied and proud to stan him.. like he’s constantly saying he will work hard to show us something better next time, that he’s not going to stop trying to improve himself. every single stage he puts his all into it, but he pushes himself even more to show us a even better one. he’s always worried and thinking about his career as an actor and a singer. he wants to promote the group in any way that he can, whether it’s through modeling or acting :(( what a King… he’s… really always striving to do the Best and he won’t ever settle or be content with it because he’s just naturally an ambitious and super hard working person… like. he’s so dedicated to what he does, no matter what it is. uhh one more thing he’s actually a really sentimental guy!! not like in a bad way, but in the best possible way. he’s really sweet, and gentle.. (he would be the Best Boyfriend,,, im just saying..) he’s the type to give handwritten letters… and surprise gifts.. (he said so!!) he said he cant cook but he want to cook for his gf he will try his best and it will be full of love… god.. i wish that were me. he’s the type to keep quiet… but take silently notes on what someone likes/dislikes, and will reveal it unexpectedly with a gift or when he says something and it will! make the other person! so happy! :((( he doesn’t put his emotions Out There, he’s not rlly good at it,, but he honestly has so much love in him,,, he tries his best to show it ok!! it’s,, good effort it’s so cute when he does… ah.. pls.,,, he’s always like ah, i don’t know if i can properly show my appreciation and sincerity for you guys, but i hope you guys know how thankful i am for you. LASDHFJAK GOFD,S,,,, IM FUCKIGN EMO THINKGIN ABOTU IT AGAIN… HE HAS A HEART OF GOLD AND HE’S SUCH A SWEETHEART I JUST WISH MORE PEOPLE WOULD SEE IT.. :(( HE DESERVES ALL THE LOVE IN THIS ENTIRE UNIVERSE AND I REALLY HOPE ALL MY LOVE FOR HIM CAN COUNT AS SOMETHING FOR IT ALL.. UGHFJASHJSAALSJF yeah ok let me,,, stop… sorry to everyone who has to scroll past this LMAo,, :(

ok i was gonna stop but i forgot to mention how he’s so fucking talented!! i mean this boy does it ALL. the whole package or w/e. god,, i love my whole ass talented man wtf! he sings, dances, choreographs, models, acts, DJs, is multilingual, and a world class poet,, cmon. ANYWAYS he excels in all those areas nd,, no argument there.. his voice is angelic as fuck ,, just like his personality.. and his dancing.. god,,, like . his dancing his so on point, his every move,, and it’s so.. fluid.. and natural. and it’s harder for tall people to dance esp ones w like long ass limbs (hyungwon.,,) but he still looks fucking amazing and pulls everything off so perfectly????? gofdj,,, can he like . Stop being so…. perfect.. and lovable… :((( he just puts so much passion into everything he does!!! and his heart is pure Gold ,, i just.. love him,,,,,,, everything about him …. ok lmao let me stop !!! if u actually read all this wtf,, im sorry nd i’d die for u

mister changkyun:

okay wtf icb i havent talked about changkyun that much on my blog.... anyways this is gonna be a mess and unorganized bc im Dumb but here goes,,, ok we can start from the beginning kinda,, so originally wonho was my #2 bias and then mh i think like i love changkyun but i wasnt like IN LOVE you kno?? honestly i started to notice him more firstable bc he and hyungwon are so frigging cute together?? i just couldnt ignore it and next thing u know im IN Love w my lil koala :(((( hes sO CUTE ..... LIKE.. IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN IT I REALLY JUST WANNA BE AROUND HIM ALL THE TIME!! his sense of humor and his personality in general is so?? positive?? and fun??!!! like i would spend every second of the rest of my life w him... and he’s so cheesy as we all know ,, and i find it so cute but also he makes me so stressed bc he’s so mushy aijsdgfhdjs but he rlly Love us wtf.. and hes so funnie... he makes me smile and laugh all the time :( and he genuinely Loves every single one of his fans so much... he’s so sweet with them and he makes them feel so loved and special, and like they’re the only person in the world at that moment :(((( this boy gives so much love and i only want to give him a million times more back... 

HIS LAUGH.. OK.. HIS LAUGH!!!!!! MAKES MY HEART MELT LIKE LAVA WTF SJDFUDJS HES SOSOSOSOOS CUTE WHEN HE LUAHGS HE LIKE.. PUTS HIS ALL INTO IT.. IT SLIKE HAHAHAHA FR... PLS,,, ESP WHEN HE GOES CRAZY AND ALSO STARTS CLAPPING,... LMAO MOOD.. HE SOS CUTIEJUJIiajsdfudj and WHEN HE SMILES THE CLOSED-MOUTH-WIDE-SMILE AND HIS CUTE ASS DIMPLES COME OUT.... HOTLT FUCKIDUFD THERE GOES MY SOUL AND GALLONS OF HEART NUT... ITS THE CUTEST SIGHT IN THE WORLD AHHH HIS DIMPLE ARE ADORABLE AND HIS CHEEKS!! I WANT TO SQUISH!!! i wanna . reside in his dimples. build a home there and alll....... omg.. :’(( every time he takes a selfie or smthing i rlly Lose it. every single selfie is his Best selfie. wtf.... king of angles fr... AND KING OF FOOT SELFIES TOOOSJFDK LLISTEN AGAIN HES SOSOOSOSO HANDSOME AND GOOD LOOKING OKAY!!! HES REALLY A VISUAL?? IDK HOW PEOPLE CANT SEE IT BUT LIEK THIS BOY IS F  I  N E ..... HIS FACE IS SO BEAUTIFUL AHHHhhhHHHHH  AND HE NEVER HAD A BAD ERA.. HE WAS HOT SINCE NO MERCY WTF !!!!! UGJFSUJDJS I HOPE HE KNOWS HES FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!! :( ANF HIS BEAUTIFUL NOSE,, AND HIS EYES!!!! OGM!!,,, GOD AND HIS PERFECTLY SHAPED LIPS.... HSI JAWLINE,,, BITUCSHJ,,,

OK HES SO LOVABLE IN EVERY DAMN WAY LIKE,, he’s Weird but its a cute Weird he’s so special omg there’s really no one else like him :(((( like...... he’s a treasure fr... he’s So Many things and once its hard to pinpoint his personality but like ??? i love it so much?? he’s a mystery and i dont know what he’s thinking like most of the time but.. i rlly love him omgdsj he’s so special :’( like fr !!! everyone LOVES him!! :(( most people wouldnt see him as the maknae if they dont Know,, but like he really is... and he’s really mx’s babie :-( they spoil him so much and love the heck out of him,,, he’s really the most loved maknae out there wtf... honestly... i love family... they really Adore him so much ugh what a big ass fking MOOD! :((

AND HIS VOICE!!!!! THE VOICE OF THE HEAVENS AND ANGELS AND HAPPINESS AND ALSO NUT!!!! WTF!! HIS VOICE IS SO SEXY AJSDFGDUJIS LIKE... PLEASE... NARRATE THE BIBLE TO ME HOLY FUCKSIFDU, YOU KNOW HIS VOICE ONLY V LIVE... HOLY SHIT MY EARS NUTTED SO HARD omg.... i just wanna listen to his voice All Day.... and dont even get mee started on his rapping .... he starts his bar and sets me on fucking fire w half a syllable . and did i mentioned he fucking amazing at rapping yeah . he Does That. and hes so charismatic, especially on stage... :((( ugh omgfisjd i wanan d*e when hes being so h*t on screen fucksdf,,, and like . his mixtapes he’s working on... king... pleas.e.... End me. just end me with ur talented ass wtf... 

SIJDFJD I NEED TO SHUT UP BUT LISTEN IM SO PROUD OF HOW MUCH HE’S GROWN IN THE PAST 2+ YEARS... LIKE HE’S COME SO FUCKING FAR!!!!! IN SO MANY WAYS!!!!!!!! GOD,,,,, I LOVE HIM SOSOSOSOSO DAMN MUCHSJIDFUDS HE MAKES MY HEART CONTINUE BEATING... THATS REALLY MY BABIE !! MY FUCKING CINNAMON APPLE!!! :(((((((((((

ok let me stop thank u,,, also... if anyone actually made it here hi wow uh ur great ily wtf :--(