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#thats not to be said in this case bc if I start talking about shit from the comics a movie only is gonna look at me crazy
starlooove · 10 months
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No bc how do u simultaneously ship chaipunk and chaiflower but then turn around and have an issue with punkflower bc of ages YOU MADE UP like
#no bc the whole age discourse is so stupid#like i got called a proshipper for liking punkflower when first of all I read comics#and second hobie literally has no age#like 3 different niggas from the movie said 3 different things#and me personally idc which interpretation u follow if ur a movie only#like for example I don’t like hobie getting sexualized bc I see him as 16 bc I read comics and he’s a teen there#but if u see him as 19 bc u saw the movie#I’ll privately think ur weird and all but I’m not gonna hold it against u bc u ONLY saw the movie#that’s ur frame of reference#and the three niggas diff opinions#were 16 19 or up to interpretation#which is why it gets me so pressed when niggas are like X director said 19#like yeah but Y director said 16 and Z director said u decide so what now#like i LOVE that ppl are ready to call out shit like that yknow#i just think this circumstance ain’t it bc it is literally based on u and how you’ve interacted with the media#everyone keeps comparing it to genshins traveler but even then everyone has the exact same information to go off of#thats not to be said in this case bc if I start talking about shit from the comics a movie only is gonna look at me crazy#and i don’t say movie only derogatorily btw it’s just a fact#no that pissed me off#AND WHEN I SAID I WASNT PROSHIP THEY SAID MY DEFENSIVENESS MADE IT TRUE LIKE BESOFR#anyways the weirdest part to me was that the movie DID imply something between gwen and hobie#like whether it was happening or not there was very much a basis for miles’ jealousy being set up#and if u rlly think hobie is that much older it’s weird to me idk#and i feel like a lot of y’all aren’t being honest and just wanna sexualize him#despite the whole pub things the common consensus is 19 which is like minimum to not make u look creepy#and if someone tried to ship hobie with an adult yall would KNOW it’s weird despite being in ur late 20s and making i wanna rude edits#and again that’s just private thoughts based on my interpretation which I know isn’t factual bc the creators literally can’t make up their#-minds#and PSA Im perfectly fine with being wrong if hobie is solidly confirmed to be an adult in the movie I just think there’s nothing solidly#for or against it as of now so fighting forreal over it is stupid. can’t wait till y’all ignore him again 😭
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milkweedman · 2 years
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I had another pain management setup appointment this morning, this time with a physical therapist, and she was asking me about my flare ups and everything and i came to the realizations that 1) theres always a bit of a leadup to the flare, where i'll have a couple days where i feel like shit and my joints feel hot and weak but its also nowhere near the pain levels of an actual flare up. And 2) i am in fact in a pre-flare up right now :/
All this to say that im warping another belt but im not trying backstrap again right now because i can already tell im going to feel like death tomorrow
#the two pain management specialists ive seen so far have been really great which makes me hopeful that ill actually. yknow. get treatment.#of course it could be that the actual medication prescribing doctor is an idiot and asshole in which case i am course screwed#you really never know#have my first appointment with him in a week though#but yeah yesterday was way too much. and it wasnt even that much by anyone else's standards#or at least my coworkers seemed fine. but it definitely jumpstarted a flare up#just always a bit strange to actually. awknowledge that im in pain and theres something wrong#and downright insane to have someone be like 'yeah dude thats not right lets see if we can fix it'#bc i was dealing w a lot of this joint shit as a kid too but if i said anything my parents would get furious about me#'trying to get out of school by faking sick'#didnt matter if the problem was that my feet hurt bc my shoes were always too small hand me downs (an easily fixable issue)#or if i had sprained my ankle for the 10th time that month because there is something fundamentally wrong with my joints#they would just completely refuse to listen or help in any way and usually punish me for asking#so.... the experience of having someone ask me about my pain. listen. believe me. and start talking about what we can try to ameliorate it#is uh. somewhat novel. and also a lot.#chronic illness#im also still expecting someone to be like 'hey so this program is actually for people who are REALLY in pain and you dont qualify#because youre not that bad'#but nobody has said that yet which on the one hand. yay treatment (hopefully)#but on the other hand. when im not actively in a flare up or going into one i am always at least 80% convinced that im making it all up#or that im blowing it out of proportion or something#which also serves to stop me from spiralling 24/7 into health anxiety ocd doom#so with that barrier temporarily removed bc a specialist was nice to me i am now free to spiral#which. i am#should probably just start weaving before i go insane etc
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jimines · 2 years
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#this is just a little vent/update on some stupid shit going on on here regarding someone i won’t name#but i need to talk about it and vent bc im so frustrated at this whole thing#so i cut a friend off recently.. told them in a *very* heated message how i felt about all the terrible shit they'd said and done recently#and demanded they do not try to contact me anymore and blocked them immediately after#no surprise 5mins later i got two anons from them in my inbox trying to start a fight however i blocked the IP after those two#i even went so far as to disable my webpage for a few days to try and deter them both from sending anons and from stalking my page#and i shouldnt have had to unblock them to tell them for the second time to leave me alone and to stop trying to start things with me#because the last time we argued it was six weeks of emotional damage that i am still really messed up from#after all this it was radio silence - or so i thought#because i've received word now twice that this person has been saying untrue things to friends of friends#trying to start drama and rumours all because i cut them off and they didn't get that fight and that last word they so desperately need ?#i just…why? why why why? why does everything have to become a drama? this is why narcissists scare me..#it took me over a year to realize thats what they are and that id been manipulated so fucking bad.. which is nothing short of embarassing#the way this anxiety has been weighing on my chest lately and dulling my time here is something that shouldnt be happening#im so so tired of all of it.. the drama and the fights and the rumours.. i physically cannot go through this kind of thing again#idk if anyone is reading this but im sorry for being so absent and unresponsive and (often times) really negative on my blog#its just so hard to be happy and positive and excited when this potential drama is looming over me day after day ya know?#im trying to push through and be here because i genuinely WANT to be here but its so fucking exhausting sometimes im constantly paranoid#i pray things will come to a rest and nothing will explode bc mentally i cannot take it anymore and i wont be sticking around in that case#i refuse to put myself through the emotional trauma that nicole put me through again. i REFUSE. so if i suddenly deactivate this is why.#but i wont be going down alone thats for sure#c.text
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princessbrunette · 3 months
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love ur blog SO much could scroll thru it for hours and hours <3
for jj (if you want!): dealer!jj and reader who has a crush on him comes to buy weed for the first time? in my head she smokes by herself, gets super high & then panics and comes back to jj’s and confesses LOL bc that would be some shit I would do!!!
thank u so much !! and yes,, i love this idea hehe ◝(ᵔᵕᵔ)◜ ‹𝟹
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the first half of your weed purchasing experience went fairly smoothly, well — as smoothly as it can for someone who has no idea what they’re talking about.
you’d shown up just a little after 4 in the prettiest skirt and your lashes extra long, coated in black. you couldn’t believe you’d worked up the courage to wind up buying weed from the guy you’d had a crush on since you were little (who seemed too chaotic to ever pay attention to little old you!) but it was soon you were stood in his house, having him talk you through each strain — and you had to try extra hard to focus because he looked so good and his hands were so big and —
“i’mma take a shot in the dark and say you’re fairly new to this right? in that case i’d prooobably suggest this, s’on the milder side, just chills you out a bunch.” he slides a packet towards you, eyes flickering up to you to catch you already looking at him.
“how’d you know i’m new to this?” you start digging in your purse for the wad of cash you brought to avoid looking at him.
“oh jus’ vibes.” he shrugs, smiling when you look back up at him, cash in hand. “its cute though, i dig it anyway.” he takes the notes from you and you swallow a love confession. “want me to roll it for you?”
he rolls the joints for you, and you try not to stare like a creep before you’re out the door in no time, breathing in the balmy late afternoon air and riding off on your bike to your empty house, family away for the weekend, to smoke your maybank special.
the second half of your experience, not so smooth.
you chaotically steer your little bike with a basket up to his house not even two hours later, paranoid and practically crashing the vehicle onto the grass as you hop off it, hands shaking at your side. jj, embarrassingly is already on the porch, stroking a stray cat with a cigarette in his mouth.
when he spots you frantically moving towards him he stands slowly, tossing the end of his cigarette aside. “ohhhh boy.” he speaks to himself like he knew what was coming.
“hey, hi, uhm.” you pant, violently struggling for breath as you clench and unclench your hands at your sides.
“you good?” he frowns, stepping towards you.
“i just— i’m so sorry to bother you but i — i smoked it alone for my first time and i don’t think i did it right or maybe it’s just reacting with me super bad and now i’m shaking and i feel really weird and i didn’t know who to go to — i— i just was wondering if there was a way to become un-high, cos i — i didn’t really wanna do it in the first place i just came to buy weed from you because i have this ridiculously huge crush on you and i thought hey what the hell—”
“heeeey, hey. breathe, okay? deep breath in girlie, look at me, right here.” he places his hands on your shoulders, face right infront of yours and for a moment you’re stunned. not only because you said all of that out loud, but because his hands were on you. “thats right, now breathe out.” he puffs his cheeks out, blowing out himself like he was encouraging a baby and you copy him, wide glassy eyes fixated on him like he was your life line.
“sorry.” you whisper and he smiles, adorable dimples indenting his cheeks.
“for what? come in, you look like you need some water.” he guides you inside his house, closing the door behind you as you try your best to stay calm. your brain felt slow and fast at the same time and all your nerve endings felt alight, constantly on the verge of a panic attack. “here, sit down— yeah? mi casa es su casa, or whatever. i never took french.” he ushers you to the couch, clumsily tripping over an empty beer can before kicking it aside and skidding off to the kitchen, returning with a glass of water.
“you ride your bike here?” he realises, sitting beside you as he hands you your drink.
“y—yeah.” you release a shaky exhale, bringing the glass to your lips.
“drink that nice n’slow, atta girl. see? you’re alright!” he makes an effort to keep his voice gentle, looking like he was going to reach out to put a hand on your arm but decided against it. you put the glass aside, palm coming to rub uncomfortably over the skin on your chest where your heart was. “heart feel a little fast?”
“mhm.” you mewl pathetically, mortified. you must have fumbled it, there was nothing sexy about winding up on your crushes couch having a panic attack.
“thats pretty normal, yeah. just gotta breathe n’shit.” he nods, resting his elbows on his knees as he watches you. “it’ll feel better when you just let it do what it needs to do, trust me.”
you try and follow his advice, sitting quietly for a few minutes as you lean back and relax into his couch, taking deep breaths and letting the high run its natural course. after a little while, you feel a giggle bubble up.
“uh-oh, there she is.” you hear the smile in his voice and he’s already looking at you.
“i totally freaked, m’sorry.” you’re all blissed out now, finally relaxed.
“oh you’re good— uh, yeah. what even happened? like—how much did you smoke?”
“the whole joint.” you shrug, snickering again.
“yeah that… probably was a lot for your first time, huh?” he grins, shaking his head. “if i knew you were this clueless about this shit, no offence, i would have offered to smoke with you, ‘ya know? be your guide. your ganja guru, if you will.”
“maybe you can teach me the right way to do it next time?” you try, feeling braver under the influence. his eyes flutter with something unrecognisable in your state and he nods.
“y—yeah. yeah for sure. totally.”
“unless i kinda ruined the vibes with that whole embarrassing confession outside.” you groan, lifting a hand to smush against your warm cheek. his eyes widen and he shakes his head.
“no! no, it was cute… i had no idea man, i would’ve closed. you crushing on me? c’mon man i’d be all over that.” he chuckles awkwardly, watching your face melt into the softest and sweetest smile he’d ever seen.
“really? you mean that?”
“hey, it’s not everyday i got a pretty girl on my couch needing me to save her, okay— this is big for me.” he teases.
you spend the rest of the evening riding out your high, before sleepily riding out your dealer beneath the glow of the television. he’ll consider it payment.
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desire-mona · 8 days
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dps boys hcs! this has been requested of me! lets make it modern bc thatll be fun
- todd absolutely DESPISES "booktok" and its addiction to smut. can go on a VERY long rant abt how only reading things with sex scenes is, in fact, a porn addiction.
- knox has tried on many occasions to become an influencer, failing every single time and blaming it on the algorithm or whaver
- neil, type of mother fucker to not be on social media like at all. has one private instagram that he posts on maybe twice a year, and has a tiktok only to watch the videos todd intermittently sends him.
- ^^^ followed immediately by a text saying "i sent you a tiktok go look at it" which always sparks a mini argument about whether or not its easier to just save the video and text it to him. goes nowhere every time.
- meeks has fashion taste that makes him look insufferable, band tee's and the worst jeans you ever did see, exclusively. also modern meeks would have clear glasses frames.
- saw someone say charlie would vape, id like to add to that. has a COLLECTION of elf bars, its vast, its colourful, it's annoying, it's turning his coughs wet.
- pitts was a fast fashion guy for a total of 6 months before finding out all the shit about how unethical the industry is. didnt get rid of any of those clothes bc thats wasteful but he IS fighting for his life whenever anyone looks at his wardrobe.
- cameron is a BIG analog horror fan, local 58, walten files, fnaf tapes, thats his jam. can we popularise cam being a big horror fan in general bc im so attached to that hc. horror cam i love u.
- all the boys have a life360 circle (enforced by cam and pitts due to charlie's horrendous reckless driving) and todd CONSTANTLY needs to be yelled at the charge his phone.
- neil's phone is ANCIENT, had the same one for nearly a decade, and its evident. has a bigass crack right down the middle, the back is shattered and held together with tape, a phone case, and a dream. theres marks from shit burning into the screen, most notably a rectangle in the bottom corner from the billions of facetime calls with todd that ultimately set his phone on fire every time.
- todd is secretly a grade A yapper but ONLY in digital form. his online presence is VAST, but impressively anonymous. has a very active substack, letterboxd, poetry tumblr, and even started his own blog. no, not a tumblr blog, a blog blog.
- charlie's car is decked out in the most idiotic add ons that you can think of. comically large mirror dice, a bumper sticker that says "honk if you want me bad", stupid car door lights that project a photo of jimmy fallon onto the ground when u open them, the whole 9 yards. took neil, pitts, and cameron 20 minutes to talk him out of getting flame decals (as a bit.)
- knox refuses to play any other videogame besides GTA, which he plays concerningly often. if ur having trouble reaching him then odds are hes on GTA. its the only hobby of his that his parents know about. christmas is tough for the overstreets.
- meeks is well aware of his general ☝️🤓 demeanour so he started making jokes about it before anyone else can. any time he says anything remotely smart sounding then he MUST do the voice and put up a finger. it became a force of habit and he did it while talking to a teacher once, he left the room mortified.
- pittsie lives on spotify, he has a playlist for every possible emotion, over 3k liked songs, and 200k+ minutes listened when wrapped season rolls around. additionally he does every spotify stat game available, and forced the boys to download a spotify activity widget thing. (WHAT DO YALL KNOW ABT AIRBUDS ‼️‼️ add me @ monahatesya xoxo)
- cam loves to make jokes about DARE and the "this is ur brain on drugs" ads but he is, in fact, the main demographic of said ads. said this before, saying it now, will most definitely say it again, he is beyond susceptible to peer pressure. marijuana isnt a gateway drug for everyone but it certainly is for him.
bonus! chris and keating! just for you!
- chris is avoiding the lesbian masterdoc purely out of fear. not out of fear of being gay, but out of fear of the sheer amount of subsequent other things she'll likely also have to find out about herself.
- keating spends an inordinate amount of time on youtube, which nobody actually expects. big video essay fan, imagine the shock from the boys when he pulls up youtube for a lesson and he's halfway thru the 4 hour iBinged iCarly video. was previously a james somerton fan but considering... the james somerton part.. hes now a defunctland loyalist.
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akgaereporter · 5 months
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txt: soobin catching strays for *checks notes* watching an anime..
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tldr: a pann article(?) was starting shit abt an anime soobin mentioned on a live from MONTHS AGO. the anime (made in abyss) has some disturbing/horror/gore themes. he said he thought it was boring and was hesitant to recomend it to moas in the live. but in another live he had with seungkwan, he said he watched it because woozi mentioned it and then said he recommended it to sk. moas started making it a real issue, saying "if u defend him for this block me" & implying he endorsed the themes in the anime. sigh..
when ur in a meat eating competition and ur opponents are soobin antis who call themselves moas😱😱😱😱😱 yall are annoying as fuck all shade.. leave him ALONE abeg
tonight soobins name is trending on twt dot com for something other than the seunghan live or pannchoa making shit up about him😓 apparently (because i couldnt find it) a REAL kr pann article, not flopchoa, was made resurfacing an old live of him talking about animes he's watched. one of them was made in abyss, a psychological horror anime that is meant to be disturbing.
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in this live he says that its not something he wants to recommend to moas because of the themes in it. after the clip started making rounds on twt however, people brought up the fact that he'd mentioned it before and said he enjoyed it.
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now lets not jump to conclusions like SOME lewsers and realize here that the anime version of made in abyss that's available in korea is highly censored. it reduced the s3xual/problematic scenes that were in the manga, and had a lot of stuff cut out of it that made it bad.
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but even if this wasnt the case, its so silly to suggest that u endorse every piece of media u watch☠️ are u a vehicle if i watch cars 2?? are u a murderer if u watch true crime?? are u gay if u watch heartstopper? well yes but lets please use some critical thinking here friends
the first two screenshots from his live alone should be the end of this discussion because thats obviously how he really feels. but noooo user28247943 on twt.com always has to create some thinkpiece for other no brain having ass kpop stans to like and rt and make blockchains abt.. exhibit a:
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like what the hell r these people yapping about. me when im trying SOOOO HARD im PISSING and CRAPPING MYSELF to make this grown man from south korea who has no idea i am look like a bad person☠️
yeonternet was the person who started all this bs tho. idk if theyre the one who brought the pann article to twt but their tweets abt it are so braindead lord.. this person had over 1k follows trying to police what an adult man watches & saying it makes her uncomfortable that he does.. girl dont watch what he watches then?? and after shitting out that steaming load of crap shawty deactivated without clarification cause she couldnt take the heat ! ikdr never come back
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++apparently the author of made in abyss admitted that they used the show to portray their s3xual fantasies abt children but even hardcore watchers of the show didnt know that like..
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also when he initially said all this in the live the response was fawking normal as it should be..
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bc it isnt just gore and horror and nasty scenes, it has worldbuilding elements, characters, plot, etc that people enjoy it for. its rated highly and its so fucking ridiculous that people were genuinely throwing around the word PEDO for stupid shit like this. when actual pedos show up yall wont even be able to recognize them through the serious justice warrior twitter brainrot thats spreading rn..
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but the bottom line here is that its pretty clear people are trying to start a smear campaign on soobin. the pann article itself was just nasty akgaes and antis adding onto the hate train hes been getting since the sh live thing. and it's just so nasty and horrible to see self proclaimed moas jumping on that the first chance they got like damn bitch ur just a LOSER who never liked sb in the first place. need all of these mfs ran off the app immediately like its concerning to see how many of them have large followings
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uarmyeonjun went priv but she had almost 2.5K FOLLOWS before those twts. genuinely be careful who u call oomf like these people are real hybrids all it takes is an alt/priv and a dream for a normal person to turn into a complete FREAK ASS😓 hell is real and its called moaville
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1.3k follows are we not SCARED?
here’s a link to a thread of the clowns in HD ! point and laugh❤️
https://x.com/beomjzns/status/1726102040848527854?s=61
anyways stay safe in these streets trust nobody stay strapped at all times. kpoptwt gets uglier everyday bye
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fagcrisis · 4 months
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nah, I totally get where you're coming from, but it's not necessarily something wrong with the kids- I'm a software tutor, and it's been getting.... bad, at least in the usa. it's not their fault, but society has become so tech-saturated that lot of schools literally have stopped teaching kids basic computer knowledge anymore, and assume they'll have picked it up intuitively, and so do their parents. but it's not intuitive, it's a skill like any other. and a lot of the kids are post-zoom era, which you'd think would make them more tech-literate, but no one was beside them looking at their computers to teach them, and they wound up with at least a year's gap of educational neglect in general as well. it's gotten... weird. the kids get by, cause a lot of tech is just 'push a button' now, and they soak up the new information like the little freak sponges they are, but quite often no one has sat down with them and explained jack shit before ....that being said, the amount of grown adults I have to explain that 'no, if you don't save the file it won't exist when you close the file' on a daily basis to is... so high. soooo high. people are unbelievably stupid
but then again, I can only speak to one form of educational system, so truly, who the fuck am I lmao
idk like, ive worked with kids and based on my experience theyre just kind of fucking stupid i say this w all the love in my heart but u take the smartest kid ive ever worked with n ask them a basic fuckin question and theyll just go huh bc thats how kids r i think this is less "the youth of today has smth wrong with them" and more the usual thing where a generation gets 9lder and starts teaching and interacting w kids and realize kids r kinda fucking stupid. we have a huge scare abt how the latest generation cant do this or that every ten years and its fine every time. kids get older and they learn shit.even if u got a teenager thats kinda fucking stupid they can still learn. also just like u said a lotta fucking adults r also tech illiterate as shit so i think this is more demographic based and not age based. kids whose parents r good w computers or who have access to some sort of education abt computers will learn that shit. also some places have more of a culture of fostering this shit like here piracy counts as basic tech literacy i think and that migjt not be the case in other places
anyway the reason these posts annoy me bc i used to see all this posting abt how well b the genrration who isnt a cunt to kids and doesnt demean them and now 10 yrs later yall r doing that shit like u were also kind of fucking stupid as a kid and adults were probs freaking out about how u cant even read and now ur an adult n ur fine. also if kids cant do smth its not their fault its the fault of every adult around them so in any case stop talking abt how kids r tech illiterate itll be fine calm down. most of yall dont even have kids n if ya do teach them computers
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boxwinebaddie · 3 months
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yoooo so Ive read that one post about how you work with kids and I was like "omg literally same !" and I was wanting to lyk that even though some kids can be little shits, a lot of the time if youre patient with them, joke with them and, heres a big one, talk to them like theyre friends and not just kids theyll treat you wayyy better. I also know you said you work with first to second graders(at least Im pretty sure you said that) and I work with fourth to fifth graders so there probably is a difference. I thought youd wanna know just in case you needed advice or anything. My question is how has that been going so far? Like are you enjoying it, regretting it, that typa stuff.
P.s. im not a really old guy who's a teacher sitting at my laptop, im in my last year of high school and Ive done a lot of volunteer work with kids in it. Hope youre doing amazing!!!<<333
hello, my dear!!! no, thank you so much for the advice -- tbh i have been Struggling lately...this job is stealing the light from my eyes.
( this is a long ass post that is probably too personal but i am honestly not vibing At All so i'm answering this honestly. you do not have to read this message, it is me bitching for several paras. :// </3 )
but i digress!
that is not to say that i dont love working with kids/teaching, but the particular job i work is not...totally within my wheelhouse and is not that fun for me...per say. also, as far as first and second graders go, 1, 2 and kinder are actually the grades that i want to work w/ the most! and are unfortunately the kids i get to work with...sigh...the Least.
my particular position deals mostly with middle school and high school students which is NOT!! what my teaching credential is in btw. so i am suffering, omg. please free uncle nina from high schooler hell.
i also took this job because i weenie hut jr'ed out of taking an Actual Teaching position at a school because i got really nervous ( bc kids in 1st grade have to read A LOT, like without context, they start at the begining of the year reading a level books and have to finish the year reading i level books WHICH IS A LOOOT OF LEVELS )
and that bc ur first year of teaching is the hardest year ( a lot of ppl drop out/quit ) i would fuck up bc idk what i'm doing yet and a bunch of kids would end up behind bc i didn't teach them how to read correctly. like, when i tell you that sitting here in the lounge typing that literally makes me want to cry like...that would Devastate me. :(((
but anyways, i am...trying to be chiller w/ the older kids. bc i came out the gate being Strict ( because no jokes, every other school i worked out the kids had to be HELLA quiet like they could not talk or be rowdy ) but i guess…the school i'm working at is not like that? and a lot of my coworkers...don't press the kids that hard? WHICH!!!
OKAY FUN FACT NO ONE TRAINED ME HAHA!!! they just dropped me in the middle of this goddamn school and were like good luck! so no one gave me insight onto the kids, where the classes were or how they were interacting with them...so...HSLDLSKH SIIIIIGH.
this...job.
like i said though, i'm trying to chill more with the kids because HOOOOOLY SHIT SOME OF THEM ARE SO MEAN!!!! WHAT THE FUCK OHHHH MY GOD!!!! when i tell you i saw 17 boys on their phones, walked past them 3 times and only took ONE PHONE???? BECAUSE ITS LITERALLY MY FUCKING JOB????? and all 17 boys like twice as tall as me heckled the SHIT out of me??? :'((((
like made fun of my dye job and Everything abt me??? </3 for taking One Cellphone that a kid wasnt supposed to be on Bc If I Didn't I Would Get In Trouble that the kid could have probably just begged to get back and would be gotten back immediately?!!! thats how UNSERIOUS they are about bustin the kids at this school!!
WISH SOME1 WLD HAVE TOLD ME THAT! LOL THX!!!!!
but like it was sooooo....it made me so stressed out and it was so awful, i also had really gnarly experiences w/ bullying in high school and middle school, so being back in it is honestly kinda triggering? needless to say, i did spend the rest of that period crying in the teachers lounge like it seriously sucked; i was rlly embarrassed. :c
that's so fun ur working a lot with 4th/5th though! i student taught in 5th this time last year and it was sometimes hard ( i am so stupid like i can only teach k-2, i'm too dumb to do any math harder than that ) academically and socially but i had a lot of fun!
when i wasn't dying!
i am not dying as much rn as i was doing that, but it was certainly more rewarding? like tbh this position is basically me being a human punching bag for middle and upper kids all day long and is really kind of...demeaning? which is annoying bc ( not to be like that ) but bc i literally have my teaching credential i could Be A Teacher In An Actual Elementary School Class, but bc i took this job/chickened out...
i am doing this lowk whack job that i'm both underqualified and overqualified to run. i Do get to work with the littles very early in the day & in the evening and thats...worth getting my shit kicked in by 14 year olds all day long. truly love the k-2 kids; its my happy place.
THANK YOU FOR ASKING THOUGH!!! this is unprofessional, obvi, hopefully will not bite me in the ass later but at thiiis point? idk. respectfully fuck this job lol. i am so tired every single day and there are only brief moments of sunshine. i would not wish this on anyone.
high school boys stop being mean to me challenge! very whack! however, elementary school children! you are so lovely!!! i had a girl make me a little origami flower and give it to me <3 like okay little pep stan! i see you! there is like a kgarten boy who gives me a hug every day, a girl whose shoes i tie every morning -- all of them remember my name which is more than aaaaa lot of the older kids will do for me.
( which!!! they're just kids you know!! its not their fault that they're being a lot!!! their brains are still forming and u know!! i was in mid/hs and it does suck and its hard and stressful! i am not really even mad at them its just...unfortunate. it's also not an age level that i rlly connect w/also discipling them or...not ig idk, is not really something i'm passionate about...like man i just want to sing the fucking calendar song and clap call and response and count on my fingers again. ;-; )
i'm sure as the semester goes by i'll feel better but right now, i am having a pretty rough time and wish i just bit the bullet and started teaching because this is seriiiiiously humilitating, fml. <///3
-uncle nina who is really bad at my job ig? lol i hate this
p.s. this isn't even really a request because every single one of you is kind and wonderful to me, but idk if i seem stressed or it's annoying that my asks are building up/i'm not updating my fics, know its bc i am here from like 6am until like 4:30pm, get my shit rocked, and then go home and sleep for like three hours and repeat every day. just b gentle w/ me if u can; i'm Very Depressed. :(
p.s.s. also unfortunately i cannot take a different job; i signed a contract that keeps me here until june, so i gotta tough it, smh.
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kittybloy · 1 year
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talk about your rtc headcanons please.
YES I WILL AHAHAH THANK YOU
i have a note open on my notes app full of hcs >:]
(some of these will be pretty ship centered, but they could probably be seen as platonic!)
~~{☆}~~
Jane/Penny
• bites people. out of love. i think
• autistic because i said so
• new special interest every week
• long-term hyperfixation on doll collecting
• like girly has a terrifying amount of dolls
• she/they/it/doll/star pronouns fuck you
• forgets what her own voice sounds like sometimes so randomly she'll just.. start talking to himself.
• has a pet axolotl
• queer platonic relationship with ocean
• has an old galaxy note phone but it's kept it pristine condition
• can beatbox
• has really good rhythm!!
• soprano 1
• devilishly good at escape rooms
• along with mishca, the choirs bodyguard
• isn't allowed in the kitchen without supervision
• stims by just... riffing
• yk that riff in tbojd? that.
• favorite time if the year is Christmas, specifically for the carolling
• takes the choir to carol with it all the time
• cannot spell for shit
• cosplays with ricky constantly
~~{☆}~~
Ricky
• had a nightcore phase
• SCENE KID <3
• makes the most killer hot coco ever
• teached the choir asl after the accident BCS THEY ALL COME BACK IN THE END FIGHT ME
• every year for the different choir members birthdays she draws them as a cat. (he gives them fursonas i dont make the rules here).
• uses all pronouns
• named a cat after each of the choir members but refuses to tell them
• genderfluid as fuck!!
• has one of those samsung phones that can fold
• makes cat stickers for fun
• her mobility aids are covered in stickers and has little trinkets that dangle
• had a warrior cats phase
• got noel into warrior cats in middle school
• has 3 hairless cats
• obsessed with the Labyrinth
• gets high with mischa weekly
• fucking pro on an electric guitar
• has a baseball cap with cat ears attached to the top
• jazz hand stims
• makes the choirs halloween costumes every year
• excellent seamstress
• also loves tf outta Halloween
• she gets to dress up as a swinging space age bachelor man and wouldn't get judged, ofc she loves it
• stims by.. meowing and purring?? for fun??? its fun try it
• has a lifetime pass to any cosplay convention that happens in Uranium ( idk if thats a real thing but it is now )
~~{}~~
Ocean
• horrid asthma
• avarage glee watcher
• IS gossip girl
• they/she user
• neurodivergent as hell but is undiagnosed because their parents SUCK and don't believe in that stuff
• asexual lesbian real
• has to use either Constances or Mischas washing machine/dryer to wash her clothes.
• hates the beach
• they sunburn so easily
• sibling relationship with both mischa and noel
• has a yellow iphone with an otterbox phonecase
• keeps little Polaroid pictures of her and the other choir members in a journal she has
• she likes taking pictures I said so
• was the last one to grasp asl, but she is trying!!!!
• cuts her hair themselves and as genuinely good at it
• soprano 2
• has horrid OCD
• loves deer sm
• loves Christmas time <3
• hot mocha enjoyer
• her and noel have kareoke night every friday
~~{☆}~~
Constance
• vocaloid enjoyer
• pumpkin spice latte drinker
• mom friend. keeps bandaids, candies, an inhaler, toothpicks, waters, and koolaid packets in her bag at all times.
• pansexual queen <3 i love her
• she/her pronouns, but doesn't mind they/them
• her family has threatened to adopt literally every single one of the choir members - noel and ricky
• listens to 90's rock music
• love language is physical touch!!! she loves holding everyones hands and gives the best hugs imaginable
• wrote pjo fanfiction in middle school
• it's still on ao3
• fandom junkie
• has a dark green motorola phone with a pastel blue case
• alto
• really good at crochet and makes sweaters for choir during their birthdays
• makes small sweaters for rickys hairless cats during winter
• K-pop stan
• has asked noel to dress up as a k-pop idol before
• adhd haver
• has hundreds of little lists for random things
• favorite holiday is Christmas and she loves giving the choir gifts
• giving love language is giving gifts fight me
• has a pet frog named Jeremy
• sometimes she just spins around as a stim
~~{☆}~~
Mischa
• HATES coffee, claims it tastes like dirt
• languages master ( teaches noel french bcs duolingo isn't helping at all)
• dad friend
• menace in the kitchen
• HIM AND NOEL HAVE MOVIE NIGHTS YES!!
• talia is real and they're in love... fuck you
• mischa "two hands" bachinski
• is the reason the choir room has a swear jar
• loves bearded dragons
• unreasonably terrified of snakes
• bisexual king
• He/They supremacy
• can and will down an entire bottle of straight vodka
• very proud of that fact
• transmasc real!!!!
• talia helps pay for their T shots and after hearing about noel being trans too she buys her a binder <3
• so in love with noel and talia both he has too much passion
• brotp with ricky they're brothers your honor
• only one besides noel that can drive
• made vines
• works at a haunted house with penny during halloween
• his adoptive parents are rich as fuck
• can tell you the history of rap if you asked him to
• love language is words of affirmation bcs i said so
• sometimes he just carries around the other choir members (usually ocean) on his back for fun
• body heater
• has a red iphone with a clear case
• it has so many cracks
• godly at stick n pokes
• has a pet hampster his adoptive parents know nothing about
• has gotten a lightbulb stuck in their mouth twice
• has the most batshit insane ideas
• really into pop music but will NEVER tell anyone
• he has autism btw
• really good at critiquing movies
• baritone/bass what's the difference
• carries ricky up and down stairs even if it isn't needed
• giving love language is physical touch fight me ( him and constance are always touching eachother in someway, either by holding pinkies or leaning in eachother. platonic or not, take it as you please)
• its a real struggle with talia but they make do
• movie nights in his basement happen every Tuesday after choir rehearsal, usually only him and noel are there but ricky and penny join every so often!!
• the choirs bodygaurd
• he's friends with the detention teacher
• has the second highest gpa out of the choir
• special interest: RAP
• DRUMMER
• listens to imagine dragons unironically
• halloween enthusiast
• always dresses up as some cheesy horror movie villain
• sometimes, mid conversation, he'll just start speaking in Ukranian. he won't realize until the person he's talking to mentions it.
• has a pretty bad lisp
• flappy hand stimmer fight me
• ambidextrous
~~{☆}~~
Noel
• starbucks employees know him by name
• stereotypical gay tbh, he drinks tf outta iced coffee
• tries to learn french through duolingo but fails miserably
• he/she noel supremacy
• always steals food from taco bell before a performance to give to the choir
• introduced rocky horror picture show to the choir and now they all wont stop quoting it
• TRANS MAN
• mlm/wlw hatred solidarity between her and ocean
• but in a sibling way
• unreasonably obsessed with peacocks amd doves (specifically white doves, they're so pretty)
• literally so oblivious to mischas crush its hilarious
• hates his job. so. much.
• her favorite stim is just repeating lines from the Blue Angel in a french accent. she knows it's a german film, but french accents are just too fun man
• she's autistic too btw ive decided
• hyperfixated on french history
• and scented candles
• holy shit she has so many scented candles
• has those fake candy cigarettes but absolutely hates how they taste
• has a notebook of little shirt stories of moniques life
• absolutely has thought out entire movies with Monique as the main character
• really really bad abandonment issues
• love language is quality time <3
• she is genuinely so angsty i have so many sad hcs for her
• has terrible eyesight but refuses to wear glasses
• instead, wears shitty contacts
• musical theatre nerd
• paints his nails so he would stop chewing them but it doesn't work
• purple iphone user, has one of those square cases with the gold accents please know what i'm talking about
• has an old cat named Nyxl and she is treated like a got damn queen
• token tenor
• has a notebook full of poetry
• has a book full of edgar allen poes stories
• she loves them
• picky eater picky eater picky eater picky eater
• has to be chewing on something to even exist
• usually a toothpick, since she got scolded by ocean once because she bit a hole in her lip
• favorite holiday is valentines day
• he'll say he hates it but absolutely loves the romantic aspect of it
~~{☆}~~
thanky ou for indulging me i needed yhis <3
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ruthlesslistener · 9 months
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hi. i saw how people were telling you about how you’re passive aggressive and you have a rude tone with everything and honestly? from what ive seen from you, you really aren’t that bad, if at all—and believe me i’ve seen a shit ton of this kind of thing.
i have multiple friends who struggle with text tone, one of which even has a similar struggle where people have accused them before of being rude and disrespectful when all they said was something actually super rational and understandable.
and you know what? i eventually realized despite what so many people accuse my friend of being, they’re one of the absolute SWEETEST fucking people i’ve EVER had the fortune of meeting, to the point where i feel like i’ve hit the jackpot sometimes just because of how lucky i feel having known them
and eventually i realized their tone wasn’t mean. it never WAS. it was how i felt and that’s something super strange to think about, right? like, you’re so used to reading everyone a certain way that you don’t think “hey maybe i should start reading it in a different light”
especially with text when there’s a complete lack of tone in the first place, because the very saying of “hello” can be said fifteen different ways and NOBODY is going to be able to tell apart from the most literal way: Hello.
my point is, sometimes it’s a matter of just simply changing your perspective on things, and you don’t deserve to be lashed out at by people who barely fucking know you (as someone who barely knows you) and even if they do know you, that just gives them more reason to start thinking “hey, if my friend is just stating something and never puts any kind of malice in their voice [especially when youve seen them actually get angry and it’s different from their normal interactions], maybe they really don’t mean to be rude and i don’t need to get defensive/upset when they use that kind of tone”
of course text indicators never hurt, especially when you don’t know the person, and every situation is going to be different, but yknow thats just my two cents
anyway ur cool :)
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ty person i have never talked to before, I really appreciate it. I'm sure the person who's mad at me will probably seethe at this but it really is a case of me just being blunt and bad with tone rather than being deliberately passive-aggressive (though in this case I am bitter about it bc they seem to believe I was acting with actual malice and also because damn it I thought I was getting better with this)
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eirian · 8 months
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im abt to say something that may be very controversial abt kinning
prefacing this by saying ive been a kinnie for 11 years. it started with just being a demon otherkin, but then it branched into fictionkin and from there it got a Little out of hand which is obvious by my old kin list lol.
so this is an observation from my personal experience as a fictionkin. not saying this 100% applies to everyone and im not looking to debate or start an argument or anything, im just expressing some thoughts abt my own experience.
BASICALLY, from the many years ive been a kinnie, ive come to the conclusion that while general otherkin/therian stuff is connected to spirituality for most, it feels like when you get into fictionkin stuff (namely kinning cartoon/anime characters and such), its less of a spiritual thing and more of an "i want to be this character" thing. idk how else to say it but i think we (fictionkin) collectively have identity issues and we project/identify as fictional characters to combat that and maybe "fill a hole" that we have in our identity, like we dont like our core identity to the point of where we want to replace it with someone else. str8 up
like i said before this is just my experience; i definitely 100% had identity issues for many years, and i couldnt bring myself to really Like my core identity. in fact i didnt really know what my core identity even was until recent years. and yknow what makes me think all this, really? as soon as i found and accepted who i truly was at my core, the kinnie shit totally went out the window. like i dont actively kin anymore, i havent thought about it in years since coming to this acceptance, and i think thats absolutely wild. the only kin i truly believe i still identify with is the demonkin, because it feels like it transcends identity and really is more of a spiritual thing for me. like i have dreams of being my demonself and it gets insane
now listen this isnt me denouncing fictionkin as "not real kinning" or anything, im still a fictionkinnie supporter as ive been one myself for a long time. im just saying that maybe fictionkin is a branch of kinning that kinda sorta stems from having issues with identity :x WHICH AGAIN isnt BAD necessarily, i think it does have its purpose and place and i dont think its necessarily Unhealthy as a means of exploring yourself! it certainly helped me get to a place where i can love myself as myself nowadays which im thankful for
so ya. thats my thoughts on being fictionkin. for me it used to feel like a spiritual thing but i think i was misinterpreting it and it was actually bc i wasnt confident in my own identity which ended up being the case lol
forgive me if this upset anybody im just voicing my Thoughts on my own blog is all
**EDIT: when i talk about fictionkinning in this post im referring to ppl who like, take it seriously. like the "no doubles" people and such (i also used to be one of these people). to an extent also the "i am sans irl" people but that borders on actual delusion which isnt what im talking about here, thats a different issue**
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bbina · 25 days
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here’s my situationship drama from a few years ago
this guy and i used to be bf gf but he broke up with me. but he couldn’t let me go completely i guess so we became fwb . and he started using my feelings for him. we started acting like bf gf again and he kept saying shit like maybe we can be together again, but not officially yet. and then suddenly he would be like no we are not together and we won’t ever be. it was like this back and forth, constant hope and then tearing it down to only give me hope again and again. so we weren’t together together but we did agree on not doing stuff (yk) with others, so we were still kinda exclusive?? it was weird.
he went on a trip to japan with some friends and all was well and he sent me lots of pics in the beginning but he suddenly gave shorter and shorter answers and went no contact in the middle of it. he said one day we needed to talk after he gets back and when he got back i asked about talking and he was like we have nothing to talk about. so i moved on and he was the one chasing me desperately after that but i did not give in even though i was heartbroken 💪🏻
years later when i coincidentally met his friends who were on this same trip they snitched on him and told me he went behind my back to sleep with someone there. i think he felt so guilty and thats why he cut contact so suddenly and idk it was nice to have some kind of closure with a reason on that part because i was just so lost and sad. so thats that.
this situationship lasted a year and i never felt more horrible in my life because of the constant push and pulling, don’t do it folks!!!
also user bbina feel free to use any of this as inspiration in an upcoming smau, just dont make wonbin the asshole who is pulling this shit!! 😄
- 🎀
the way he just kept you just for safe keeping in case if he wants to try again you’ll be there omfggggg im glad u moved on from that!! pls never put urself in a position like that ever again!!!
it was good u stood ur ground!!! i hope ur all healed now and happy with ur life 🎀 anon!
idt i could use this for inspo bc u might get reminded of it and i dont rlly want to do that to u 😅 but the least i could say is that the next wonbin smau.. wonbin isn’t that much of an asshole per say… we all just have to stay seated when it drops!
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chaeyunz · 8 months
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happy opening, everyone! excited to introduce u to ryu chaeyun, the wolf pack skele and also professional pain in the patoots. more info will be under the cut, and i’ll be around for a while if you’d like to plot. discord is also available (and slightly preferred!)
please be warned that passive suicidal ideation is mentioned in the intro (marked w a *) & will be a general recurring theme with her character, so please proceed w caution, and do let me know if you need a sparknotes/would prefer to plot without that point!
graduated from the national university of idgafistan, with a doctorate's in idgafism and a minor’s in ijbolism. thats it, that’s all you need to know about her.
her life pre-apocalypse was pretty normal: grew up in a family of 3 with her dad and older brother. mom passed when she was young, and at mama's funeral, her grandma tells her she has shitty fate. she's literally 10 though and doesn't understand what gran's trying to say except she doesn't ever see the maternal side of her family ever again x
watched train to busan like right before the apocalypse started and decided she just wouldn't be built like gong yoo. did, and still does not have that much will to survive, but hey, she's still here!
same can't be said for her dad, who d*es in seoul qz because of a very mundane stroke. doesn't get his blood thinners on time... or at all, bc of the kdrt rationing it super strictly. her brother turns angry at the world, and somewhere in their 5 stages of grief, they make the move to the busan qz. his joining the fireflies is the natural next step for someone so full of anger towards the kdrt.
all the unprocessed grief really makes one a great member of the resistance, and he does well within the ranks of the fireflies. he goes on every mission he can, and chaeyun knows he's gone too. his body never comes back somewhere between the 10th and 20th mission. L + ratio + skill issue!
eyes turn to her, then, to carry on his legacy. problem is, she just... doesn't want to. she's happy chilling in the qz, being a silly little 21-year-old teenage girl.
a demented old lady accosts her randomly. the same shit's spouted, but this time w a twist! she's got shit astrological fate that kills the people around her. the lady's family pulls her away and apologises for her, but it lingers in the back of chaeyun's mind.
* she entertains the idea a little more than she should, and thinks everyone around her in the qz might die. has nothing more to lose (besides a delusionship over someone who barely looks her way) and if she does something useful in div4, then maybe she deserves to live.
sorry 2 everyone on the mission, 'cause she's in her terrible twos and so goddamn annoying. like, pretending to convulse and zombify annoying. pull a gun on her and she'll be like omg wow rude..... what did i ever do to u! if u can look past the chronic unseriousness then she's alright. just ur typical gen z-er.
her one strength is bouncing back from just about anything. like, she's been through. a lot. but everyday she wakes up and decides its a new day to choose violence &lt;3
her dog is a malinois named potato (chip). better trained than her, and she loves that stupid dog so bad. classic case of tiny girl & big dog. potato sideeyes people a lot but also. is very excited and gets the zoomies 24/7 when he's not on duty. rolls over for belly rubs way 2 easy.
misc. chaeyun tingz: always has chocopies on hand. don't ask how or where she's getting them. u think she's finished the one box she's brought.. but she just keeps pulling them out. is her bag doraemon's? / very prone to nosebleeds. no reason why / keeps talking about fast food. misses mcdonald's ice cream so much. / hums under her breath. either chopin or 2016 kpop girl groups. what can she say, she's got range /
a couple plots i would like to have wld b found family.. of course. show & teach her that fate can be changed. we will all have these bitches become found family. / someone who knew her in seoul qz. can tell she's different now somehow... but can't quite put their finger on how (it's death babes x), though i'd love to brainstorm & fill any of ur wcs!
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bewilderedbuck · 1 year
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I neeedddddd to know your predictions based off the trailer (of Benvi in particular, I really do care about other things in the show but I love them the most)
ooooh okay so.....not all of these predictions are actually serious some of them i just think would be FUN but i dont think they'll actually implement lmao. also....as usual i dont know when to shut the fuck up and stop typing SO. predictions under the cut!!
my prediction for benvi is: devi ghosts ben post-boinkening (basically confirmed; the trailer insinuates that they havent spoken since); ben goes after margot because she likes him (and we all saw how well it went the last time ben started dating someone else bc devi wasn't an option), it implodes, devi retaliates by dating ethan because he's hot or whatever the fuck (and honestly good for her im sure he's a tool but like.....rebound arm candy isnt necessarily a bad thing.....except in this case it is bc that is Also going to implode.) i think it would be HILARIOUS if margot and ethan ended up going out lmfao but. i doubt it. after both their rebounds fail (ben's i want to say around episode 2 bc i dont think they'll drag it out super long, and devi's probably episode 5?) they're still.....skirting around each other, in a will they/won't they kind of situation. i can see fab & eleanor trying to talk some sense into devi but devi just not listening bc she's stubborn as hell and of course she knows there's something there with ben but they've done this back-and-forth dance for so long that she's still nervous about taking that full leap.
and well. then she ends up getting like...accosted in new york (which im guessing the trailer may have been a bit misleading about that exact scenario because, ya know, it's a trailer) and ben tries to play knight in shining armor and well. we all saw what happened lmfao. cue devi icing ben's face n devi being like "why did you do that?" and ben just says "for you" or smthn cheesy as hell. this is probs around like? episode 7 i'd like to think? and they probably at least partially get their shit together but like. lbr it's ben and devi. so it can't be 100% smooth sailing. like you said im excpecing a tatbilb sort of thing - they agree to date & then break up before going to college. (we all know devi gets denied for early decision from princeton - this could play into her actually going to a school in new york - something prestigious, ofc, she graduates as valedictorian).
based on the trailer....im honestly torn on whether ben goes to prom or not! i know you said smthn about him perhaps going home and changing, but part of me also thinks - what if he didnt go at all? what if he stays home, because he knows this is gonna be one of his last good memories with devi and he just cant do it? i know we havent seen a lot of bts for season 4, but we have seen bts of maitreyi + lee + ramona in their prom dresses, and i dont recall jaren being there at all or wearing a suit (the only suit bts ive seen is of him in 2x10). so......maybe he doesnt go, but he comes to her after. idk exactly how that will play out but thats what im hoping for!!!
and of course, they end up going to the same school - thats been something ive been sure of since, well, forever lmao. i'm 100000% convinced that the last shot of the show is going to be devi coming up to ben in the library of their college or vice versa and if im wrong i will eat my mf words
as for other predictions....
i'm with you on thinking it might not be kamala's wedding anymore, but i'm still not sure who's wedding it would be - perhaps another family member? a family friend? who knows.
i think treleanor is going to break up, which is TRAGIC because they r everything to me <3 but i feel like they're the kind of couple to come back to each other after years apart so im holding out hope for them 🤞 in treleanor we trust u know !!!!
paxton's.....there. idk. he's there. devi probably like. goes after him or whatever in the midst of the ben/margot/ethan bullshit bc she doesnt want to be alone and shes like oh i finally like myself maybe i can have this since i can't have what i really want but ya know power dynamics due to him being sherman oaks staff or whatever so. im HOPING as the party with the upper hand in that scenario he turns her down or whatever. maybe she even waits until after this to go after ethan - make both ben and paxton jealous, kill two birds with one stone
i have no idea what else im hoping for and this is straight up a Wall of text aksjdss;d im SO SORRY u know how i get !!!!!
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zai-doodles · 1 year
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Ok ok last question then I’ll stop bothering you lol (but I eagerly look forward to anything you will say in the future about fairytail!)
I think I got your thoughts on Nalu, but what about other ships? You said Gajeel and Levy are your fav ship, could you tell us more why? What about Gray x Juvia? Do you have a least favorite ship?
(And don’t be sorry for rambling a lot/your posts being long! I really enjoy reading your thoughts!)
bestie i literally love u i never have the chance to post my ft hc stuff im THRIVING
aight so im going to make enemies with this post i can feel it in my bones gjkfdhgsfdkj
however i just want to say if u like these ships thats completely fine and if you read them diffrently than i do thats also dope
so lets start positive!! i LOVE gajevy sm its so perfect i just ljdghfkjd
no listen like the thing that gets me abt gajevy is how it elevates gajeel as a character SO MUCH and gives levy so much agency at the same time, like u cant tell me ft would have embraced gajeel the way they did if levy didnt CHOOSE to forgive gajeel in some capacity and like fuck imagine ur GAJEEL in this situation like bro wakes up everyday and this is just his life
gajeel lost metalica at a young age, and (i dont remember too much of canon but im pretty sure its implied he just kinda fucked around until phantom tropue picked him up which yikes) like this CHILD was on his own most of his formative years and then got picked up by a super shitty abusive group of ppl and he just LEARNED to blend in, like yea metalica made him kind of a punk but he was a KID so during those years he was alone he probably just closed himself off to survive and learned to prioritize himself over everybody else and to do that it takes a level of desensitizing urself to others pain
and like ok again im playing hard and fast with canon but i THINK its implied he like, had done a lot of bad shit with them or whatever right? like what he did to levy and fairy tail wasn't NEW, so when the events in canon happen and he ends up at fairy tail, in my mind that's the FIRST TIME he has to face how HIS ACTIONS DIRECTLY HURT SOMEONE
and not only thats but someone who OBJECTIVELY DIDN'T DESERVE IT
like ugh gajeel just,, having to learn to let himself care but also it fucking sucks bc it just makes it set in more and more what a bad person he is (he isnt but he thinks he is) THEN FUCKING LEVY PULLS UP AND JUST?? IS THE BEST???
she literally blows thro all his expectations of her bc at this point i think hes use to dealing with ppl being afraid of him bc that ssomething he understands and control, what he DOESNT understand is her being NICE to him and it makes him RESPECT her and its so out of no where that by the time the GMG roles around and gajeel has fully accepted the fact that he indeed has emotions like everyone else, ONLY TO HAVE TO FACE LEVY BEING SCARED OF HIM AGAIN
learning to put others needs above his own and being empathetic in his own fucked up way
ok enough positivity time to make ppl mad
gonna link my juvia is a lesbian post here bc it sums up a LOT of my feelings on gruvia but the tldr is that my personal hc is that juvia is a lesbian with a serious case of comp het from trying to fit in with other kids growing up and it literally was just never corrected until she got to fairy tail and actively started to form friendships
the main reason i dislike gruvia is that it paints gray as the one who needs to change in order to accept juvias feelings and not just cuz he needs to grow as a person and learn to allow himself to be vunrable.
like grays arc doesnt ONLY center around juvia but its a big part of it and juvias growth CENTERS around gray and we can talk about the the borderline misogynist idea of having a female character whos damn near whole identity is her feelings for a man where she never grows or learns meaningfully but instead just very slowly chills out more so from being sidelined than growth but i digress i just dont like them
last is jerza,, i just dont like em,, jellal is really boring in my opinion and he had a lot of potential but meh? his redemption is neat and his history with erza has potential but i feel like the point of erzas arc is about growth and moving on and while i think her and jellal can still be friends and have each others back she still has so much healing to do after tower of heaven
idk i dont see a lot wrong with jerza i just feel like its a lil bland and not my cup of tea
and yes queer platonic nalu is my life id die for them actually and i have more stuff about natsus abandonment issues and how they carry into his relationships with ppl but imma stop bc this post is long jgkfhgdjhfdjk
tldr: i love gajevy, actively dislike gruvia, very meh about jerza, love qpp nalu
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I was think about those titles, the only one thats really popping into my head is Melli and Adaman. Also while I dont think EITHER clan would disrespect titles of the nobles, I do think they would throw hands at the galaxy team if they dont ise them. Kamado REALLY strikes me as someone who wouldn't acknowledge the Nobles by their titles, which would definitely be a point of contention
siiiiigh okay listen. LISTEN. this might be spoilers or i might cut this scene entirely and it might be irrelevant but listen. because like i said im obsessed with this lil bit of characterization generally. so im just going to. natter on for a minute.
this is also one of those things that i WISH i had been more attentive to in the beginning of oop, because there are some early points where it doesn't really hold together, but whatever i'm not making early chapter edits now if i start i'll never stop. juuust listen
but the symbology of a title is formality, right. tacking on a "warden" or "lord" or even just a "miss" onto the front of anyone's names communicates, simultaneously, respect and distance. and those are the two key things to me! someone who says, fx, "captain cyllene" instead of just "cyllene" or even "sinensis" is communicating that they respect her position and responsibilities—but, simultaneously, it may also imply that they maybe don't know her very well, and/or their relationship is strictly professional. or that this is a formal conversation and being casual is inappropriate at the moment. (this generally applies most at the start of a conversation—the more times you're saying someone's name in a row, the more acceptable it becomes to drop the title regardless of context i think.)
so anyway part 1 of this particular argument, the background, is that adaman almost NEVER bothers with the titles of the diamond clan wardens. especially not mai and melli, who he's so close to that he just drops it constantly. this is part of the thing where adaman's also not big on formality in general, and irida very much holds that against him. it annoys the shit out of her. so he tries to be a little more observant when he's in the presence of the pearl clan but he's still. not. very good at it. like a lot of things between them this is sort of a micro-scale of a broader argument and it's also very performative a lot of the time. like, a lot of drama between the clans has a lot less meat on it than any of them would like to admit, and this is no different.
...especially bc in this case irida's kind of a hypocrite because she doesn't always observe the titles of her wardens, either. actually there's one person in particular that she's repeatedly dropped the title of a few times and that's ingo.
and she slips up with that again, while she's walking with adaman, and he immediately jumps on it. like. at least i'm doing it because i'm close with my wardens. kind of presumptive for you to talk about him like you're friends, isn't it? and irida immediately starts spitting venom right back at him, because these two fight like it's a habit. aaand like, again, a lot of arguments they have, it's a tiny detail that's really just the vector for a much bigger conversation - in this case, irida's decision wrt ingo.
i could quite literally go on about this for so many characters like you mentioned melli and kamado and those are ALSO two who are HUGE on the formality-respect-distance sliders but i am going to stop before this gets too horribly long and also i go off on things that are completely unaddressed/vaguely inconsistent with the mainfic itself hgsksjhkjh.
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