#the billie eilish song really took me out tho

[oliviasturniolo21]

Idk why but I really wanted to write a fic to this song so here.

I Need You To.

“If we were meant to be we would have been by now”

“See what you wanna see, but all I see is him right now”

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Parings~ Matt + Y/n

Warnings~ Angst.

not proofread!!

Minors are welcome but read at your own risk! :)

3rd person pov

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Y/n and Matt had known eachother since they were 12, her coming to boston for holiday, and running into who she had no clue, would be her best friend, Nick and Chris also coming as a pair. Y/n had recognized she liked matt when she was 15, now being 19, yet nothing ever came out of it. Her living close to the triplets now L.A. house, seeing them a lot more, made a then crush, now an obsession.

After getting the texts, Y/n got into a very comfy outfit, consisting of, Dark grey baggy sweatpants, a cotton tank top, white nike low rise socks, and Tasman Ugg Slippers. She grabbed her purse, and keys, before doing a final take in the mirror, she had in her mudroom, and headed out.

After arriving at the triplets house, she took out her spare key unlocking the door, and ofc when she entered, locking it again, heading up the stairs, to be greeted by Chris in the kitchen, accompanied by his hourly pepsi, and his phone.

“Heyyy”, “Oh, hey wsp”, “Idrk Matt just wanted to hang out” she says kinda chuckling, “oh ok, have fun, me and nick are abt to go to target with madi, if you want anything lmk.”, “I’m ok, thanks for the offer tho!” she saying walking over to the hallway to be greeted with matt’s closed door, as she opens it with a smile greeting her best friend, he looks kinda sad and nervous yet still smiling, “you ok?”, “oh, um, yea, you just kinda caught me off guard.”, “how, you literally invented me over?” “Yea ik, it’s nothing really” he says patting the spot next to him, on his bed.

She sits down next to him silently, looking at him, as he seems very nervous. “Matt are you sure you’re ok?”, “yea, but I do wanna talk to you about something” “Go on..”, he takes a deep breath, and a quick sigh before looking her in the eyes, “do you like me? Like in a more then friends way?”, Y/n, being very caught off guard, looks at Matt with her jaw so low, feeling like it could fall off at any second. “Oh um, why do you ask?” “Y/n, I just need to know, do you or do you not.” he starts to sound angry, now raising his tone. “jeez, um ig I do, yeah.” “Omg, she was right.” him now standing up clearly extremely upset, Y/n stays stunned, never seeing him like this before. “What, who was right?” “This girl i’ve been seeing, I was talking to her about you, and our FRIENDSHIP, and she said she thought you liked me, I STOOD UP FOR YOU, NOW SHE WONT TALK TO ME AND ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT.”, “Matt, what? How is that my fault? I didn’t ask you to defend me” “You didn’t have to, Because that’s what real FRIENDS do, they stand up for each-other.” “so what, are you saying i’m not your real friend?” “NO BUT YOU ARE! I’ve never done anything to lead you on” he says now sitting down, “look, Y/n, I love you more then anything, but in a friendly way. Knowing you see more then that, well, I just can’t do that, You know I love you, and I always will, but I can’t see us as anything more then friends, so I think it may be better if we arnt anything at all.” “Matt please, I can change, I promise.”, “No, you can’t change who you like and yk that.” “So what are you saying?” “I think it’s better we end this all now, I think you should go.” “I really don’t want to”, “I need you to”

And with that Y/n stood up, giving matt one last sad look, before walking out of the room, leaving almost 8 years of friendship behind with her.

The end. Hope you guys liked it, as i’ve never wrote angst before. Please leave feedback, good or bad!!

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My Masterlist.

[i-love-you-all]

HI im very VERY starved for tremorbolt content but since ur The tremorbolt person do u have any songs that remind u of them? I'm making a playlist to feed my hunger and i wanna get a buncha sova x breach vibe of songs on it OKAY THATS ALL

- fishy

Ooh song association :)) Yeah, I like to use music to give me inspiration for stories/events and I like using them to get me in a certain mood sometimes. Idk how many of them give off the tremorbolt vibe tho lol. I listed like 20 songs and how/why I used them (bc not all of them fit perfectly). It's p long tho so under the keep reading.

Eyes Blue Like the Atlantic by Sista Prod, Subvrbs - Because I imagine that Breach has nice eyes when he's not pissed or anything. Blue stands out well w his red hair too, so I like to use this as the backdrop when I want fluff from Sova's POV about Breach.

ocean eyes by Billie Eilish - Same deal as above but for angsty/conflict heavy scenes.

R U Mine? by Arctic Monkeys - Used for inspo for Tangled in Red, esp Breach's inner conflict. "And satisfaction feels like a distant memory" and "Are you mine tomorrow or just mine tonight" were great starting points for Breach's doubts.

Weak by AJR - Again for Tangled in Red, I used this song as inspiration for the theme of being unable to say no because you're just too weak to do so and the temptation is just too great. So in the beginning of the story obv, this comes into play many times lol.

Boy Like Me by New Medicine - The singer is singing abt a girl, but just switch a few things around and I could see this being from Breach's POV pre any relationship with Sova since it's all about this girl being uninterested in the singer, yet she's the only one the singer wants.

Death of a Bachelor by P!ATD - I think in every story so far, I've had Breach and Sova in a contentious relationship that turns into a sexual relationship before they start to actually like each other as people. So I think the lyrics and the message fit well from either side of just falling for someone and not really wanting to? At least that's how I see it.

3AM by Mads Langer - Just holding onto someone and wanting them so much that nothing else matters as long as you're w the other person. This theme works for a lot of ships but given the... possibly explicit nature of the lyrics, I associate it w breach/sova the most.

Sight of the Sun by fun. - Another song about transitioning into love. It's cute and a good backdrop for when I wanna write some fluff. "For once, there is nothing up my sleeve. Just some scars from a life that used to trouble me. I used to run at first sight of the sun, but now I lay here waiting for you to wake up."

Dixie Boy by April Smith and the Great Picture Show - It's a song about jealousy and possessiveness? Basically warding off other potential suitors of the love interest. I used this for inspo for a bit of writing that hasn't been published yet... So... semi spoilers? I won't give away for what story. Maybe one day it'll be clear.

Young God by Halsey - I know the song is probably deeper than what I took it ask, but it played into how I imagined their fwb era would be because they aren't really friends, just two people using the other. The line, "And if you wanna go to heaven, you should fuck me tonight" particularly makes me think darker reasons behind otherwise consensual actions and it reminds me when I write that these two don't start off liking each other.

Bad Word by Panicland - Probably the closest song to just making me think of Breach/Sova. Just a bit of pain for every bit of passion. Bc i love pain in stories and fanfic :))

Body Talks by The Struts - Back to just liking each other physically stuff. it's about reading body language and feeling like the other person is interested even if they're trying not to show it. I like to imagine Breach teasing a stone-faced Sova until he finally gives in and admits that he's wanted Breach too.

Guillotine by Jon Bellion - it's about loving someone despite all their issues. I used this for an old original story I may restart one day, but I've been reusing the main characters so if you've read all my stuff the names and ppl are familiar. But yeah this song I like to see as a promise between Breach and Sova to have each other's backs.

Just My Type by The Vamps - "Cause I need this more than just a one night stance... times like this call for true romance." Basically driving each other crazy but still liking them. So, with how Breach and Sova differ in how they play/plan/work, they don't get along well. However, they still find things about each other that make it impossible to leave no matter how bad it can get. Yes, this is kinda inspo for a story so again, no spoilers?

Kiss With A Fist by Florence +The Machine - How I see the two of them pre any relationship or just at the start of one. Not much more other than it's fun to write to when thinking about arguments between them.

Never Saw It Coming by The Federal Empire - Just being fine on your own until something just flips the switch and you fall in love. Neither of them saw it coming, but Breach and Sova are start to get closer to each other despite the supposed conflict.

Clear My Head by Daði Freyr - Post fight music for the two of them. It was useful for when I was writing for Tangled in Red. The more recent ch and stuff.

Let Go by Jay Joseph - "I don't really wanna break your heart. How do people ever get this far? Just know that I might stray." Another song I write breakup/angst to for Tangled in Red so I think of tremorbolt now when I listen to it.

Symptoms by The Bad Haircuts - Another "maybe this is bad for me" kinda relationship song, but I like the doubts in the song.

[akireu-13]

i really like this video on the b4rbie movie. i did like the movie, to clarify. i thought it was fun, i thought some of the feminist stuff was really good. spoilers ahead obv, but i really enjoyed the section where she has a breakdown and talks about all the contradictory stuff women are supposed to be. i liked the section where shes talking to ruth about wanting to be human and to be a woman despite it all. i liked that part of the message was that a lot of men need to fuckin get hobbies instead of their personality being Woman-Liker. i LOVED the songs being camp and mostly actually made for and about the film instead of using generic pop songs (tho the billie eilish song was jarring and took me out of it).

However. i did think it was pretty,,, superficial. some of that was because its a corporate product and there wouldve been restrictions on what gerwig could do. like she cant criticize the mattel board too much, because it would "make the company look bad." like mattel refused to call the movie feminist, and i think theres an aversion to calling the movie anything too concretely subversive, maybe because that turns the "ive been saying this for years!!" aspect into not relatability, but being behind the times, or worse, performative. which it is.

BUT i also think it really played into the Girlboss feminist schtick. like that in the end they went back to a matriarchy. i dont think the film was saying matriarchy bad, and im not even trying to say that it would be equally as bad as patriarchy bc i dont know nor do i care. but i do think it had that vibe of "men are stupid, right ladies?!? we know best with our woman power ;)" which feels a little weird tbh. even the little comments like implying that a president would NEVER dress like that or a woman would have to be BRAINWASHED to want to be a housewife is uncomfortable to say the least. the final gynocology joke at the end felt really reductive even with a trans woman in the movie. it felt weird for her to go to the queer-coded b4rbies to get help and then they stop mattering when they arent helping cishet b4rbie society. and no butch b4rbies, obviously.

it felt like they were going "see? woman power!! but dont forget to be respectable!!" despite halfway through talking about how hard it is to be respected as a woman. and this is most egregious when they have sasha going on an honestly reasonable and well-founded rant about the negative social impact of b4rbie which is then not really brought up in a meaningful way again. shes played for laughs and its only addressed as a "we hear your criticisms but theyre very silly bc barbie stands for woman power so there. 😊" like she calls b4rbie a fascist and thats a whole joke, which is really fucking weird tbqh.

but my point is that its ok to be critical of the way women are treated and what is expected of women, and its ok to be weird or ugly or whatever!! up until the point it makes you ACTUALLY ugly or tooOo much of a deviant (like dressing in revealing clothing as a professional, or criticising consumerism which is just a silly thing to do because why would you EVER-), in which case you just hate women and make the cause look bad.

anyway, i thought the movie was fun. it looked great, the soundtrack was fun, the casting choices were pretty good, and i liked the real talk about how hard being a woman can be. at the same time, it was a very long ad for b4rbie. it was corporate, and mostly sold a very girlboss, shallow look at feminism. a good entry point for like, men who think women arent oppressed but love their girlfriend enough to TRY to understand, or for middle aged women looking to hear something nice about their existence, or people looking for a fun summer movie with a few funny bits. not a great movie for film nerds or riotgrrls or trans people or anti-capitalists.

[im-a-goddamn-cat]

tagged by @frogsmulder @scullysexual a few months ago; so sorry it took so long for me to do this 😭 but thank you! 💕

name/nickname: Shannon

gender: idk but rn i'm saying i'm a demiwoman (any pronouns)

star sign: aries

height: 5’2" (or 5'1.5"... that's what the doctor said i was last time)

time: 1:10 pm

birthday: April 19

favorite bands: Studio Killers, Fall Out Boy, Imagine Dragons, probably more i'm forgetting atm

favorite solo artists: Hozier, Billie Eilish, probably more i'm forgetting atm

song stuck in my head: none

last show: 30 Rock

last movie: Creed III

when did i create this blog: May of 2013

what do i post: fandom stuff, animals, nature, lots of random stuff, etc.

last thing googled: kfc double down sandwich

other blogs: @cogwaltz, my toontown side blog

do i get asks: sometimes. not often

why i chose my url: it's a quote from Negan from The Walking Dead. it might be my favorite one. i find it really funny, and i love cats so it fits

following: 4,934

followers: 3,959

average hours of sleep: 6-9

lucky number: don't have one

instruments: no, i wanna learn the piano and drums tho. maybe guitar too

what am i wearing: a t-shirt and pajama pants

dream trip: australia

favorite food: chicken

nationality: (us)american

favorite song: idk, it's always changing. rn it's Backstabber by Kesha

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: toontown, the x files universe, and ???? idk, star wars universe i guess

tagging: anyone who sees this and wants to do it!

[ambria]

If you feel comfortable, can you write a young sirius black x reader story where the reader has a depressive episode and sirius helps them through it?

my writing is horrible so sorry if this sucks. This is my first request tho so yayy! Just a small blurb.

and I’m so dependent on song fics that I needed to use one...sorry.

song: idontwannabeyouanymore - billie eilish

warnings: depression, harmful thoughts. thoughts of self harm. Let me know if I missed anything.

Your life was a mess.

You hated yourself. You could barely make it through the day. The only thing keeping you going these past few months was the grey-eyed gryffindor.

He was your rock. The only thing keeping you grounded. But sometimes even that wasn’t enough.

Here you were standing in front of the bathroom mirror crying your eyes out. Mascara running down your face.

I don’t wanna be you anymore

Days like these were hard. You felt as if you couldn’t breathe. You felt trapped in this endless cycle of pain and sadness. A hole that you couldn’t climb out of.

You felt broken. You were broken. Just a broken mold.

You were constantly sad. No wonder you didn’t have many friends. No one wanted to be around you. Your parents didn’t care. The people you did hang out with did it out of pity.

But Sirius,

He loved you. Not that you were aware of it. He’d been with you through everything.

But this past week you had been avoiding him. And he’s become worried. But everytime he try to confront him you’d just push him away.

He tried to help. But he eventually gave up, you thought. Just like everyone in your life did.

You had come back to your dorm after another day of torture. The days blur together in one big blob of pain.

As you laid in bed staring at the ceiling lost in though you hadn’t notice someone enter your dorm room,

“y/n?” The familiar voice called you out of your thoughts.

you hummed in response. He sighed,

“how are you today?” Was all it took for you to burst in tears.

Immediately the boy rushed next to you in bed and pulled you close. Holding you close and rubbing his hand up and down your back,

“I- I can’t do this anymore, Sirius. I can’t take this. I don’t wanna be here anymore.” You cried out. And all the boy could do was sit there and let you pour your heart out to him.

“You can. You will. You have too. You’ll always have me. I will always be here.” He reassures you.

“No you won’t. Y- you’ll leave! Everyone leaves! I’m broken!” You clutch onto him tightly like he could disappear any minute.

“No I won’t. I love you! I’ll always be here.” He reassured you,

“We will get through this together, love. As a team.”

You lift your head up from his chest to look at him.

Your tear stained face looks at him hopeful,

“Really?”

He nods,

“Always.”

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[obanzi]

hi! can i please get a demon slayer matchup for the event?? my name is clove, and i'm a nonbinary lesbian (i wouldn't mind being matched with a male though) who goes by any pronouns! i'm a libra. my hobbies include dancing, playing games and watching tv, and baking! i like animals (mostly cats), relaxing, music, and being with people important to me; and i dislike bugs, cold weather, heights, and public speaking since i'm socially anxious. i prefer humans. some more info about me is that i enjoy making others laugh, i can be a little short-tempered but i mean well, and i'm insecure. i'm kind of awkward and bad at social situations with people at first, but when i warm up to someone i like, i would do anything for them and i'm protective, and i make lots of jokes and act silly.

Do you like PDA? mostly, yeah! like simple things like cheek kisses and hugging and hand holding.

What would be your breathing style? maybe wind

What’s your love language? a little bit of everything, mostly touch and quality time though.

Do you like indoors or outdoors? indoors!

What’s your favorite flower? tulips!

Top Kins? i'd say zenitsu

What’s your ideal date? driving around and just traveling, or a date to the fair!

thank you!! and sorry for sending it anonymously earlier!

hi !! i hope u like ur matchup <3

Matchup For @izukuluver

I Match You Up With ..

Hashibira Kotoha

— I wanted to do a underrated character .. and u seemed just right for her !!

Songs Based Off Relationship :

i love you - Billie Eilish

Cotton Candy Skies - Esthie

Pretty Girl - Clairo

How You Met :

You met Kotoha while in the forest . This a regular for you , you were picking berries !! Let’s pretend you own a little shop that makes Jam . Anyways , you were out picking berries , blueberries and raspberries ! While you were out picking berries , a girl accidentally bumped into you . “I’m sorry ! I d-didn’t mean too ..” , you told the girl it was okay .. and asked if she was okay . You looked her up and down and noticed she wasn’t wearing shoes , there’s was thorns everywhere . That must of hurt like hell !! Is what you thought and asked the young lady if she wanted to come back to your shop to get some shoes . She also looked a bit dehydrated . You had to do something !!! Once you both made it back to your shop , you took care of her .. you also noticed she had a baby in her hands . What has she been through ?? Anyways , after you find out she ran away from her abusive husband / boyfriend . You offered to take her in and give her a place to stay before she finds work and could live on her own ! Kotoha agreed .. although that’s not really how it planned ... ( you could make up the rest c; )

Relationship Headcanons :

I feel like animals love Kotoha ! Although I think she’s maybe scared of the big ones .. like tigers , alligators .. etc . Sometimes when you two are just taking a walk , you’ll run into creatures ! Honestly I think small animals love her . Kotoha is a very sweet woman so maybe she’ll get a pet too !! She’s willing to get what kind of pet you want .. although she’ll have to name it :>

I think Kotoha has nice dance moves , sadly though she does get very very clumsy and shy . It’s cute to you tho .. so do your thing — I guess uH , anyways whenever you both are a little bored , you’ll pull her into your arms and just start slow dancing !! Or whatever dancing you prefer . Kotoha gets all blushy and hides her face in your chest .. even if you are shorter or taller than her ! 

To me at least , Kotoha seems like a person who is okay with it but just gets really embarrassed !! Like she likes to people know she’s in a relationship and that your hers but she just can’t help but feel all blushy or embarrassed .. she really likes hand holding although !

Okay .. Kotoha can cook / bake . I feel like she’s a master at it :> !! She’s willing to help you bake if you wanted and maybe showing you how to cook too ! Kotoha is willing to taste all your makings , she always give great advice !! She’s just really sweet okay !!!!!

I fee like Kotoha love language would maybe be quality time or words of affirmation ! She does like physical affection but like I said before , she gets really embarrassed !!! Most of time your just with her , whether it’s a huge conversation or just enjoying the sunset quietly !! She loves doing anything with you , I think her most favorites of relationships are dates >:D

[chaoticspacefam]

I was tagged by @darth-bagel thank you! I shall tag (no pressure as always and feel free to ignore!) : @a-muirehen , @palepinkycat , @walk-ng-d-saster , @kyber-heart and @berriku <3

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 5 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

Name/Nickname: I usually go by Elf/Elven online, tho my gf also calls me Boyscout (it’s an inside joke we have XD)

Gender: Cis female

Star sign: Taurus  ♉

Height: 5′4″ (I can’t believe I’m actually taller than someone, sorry Bagel!)

Birthday: April 21st. Prolly gonna be spending another birthday in lockdown but hey, at least I can either play SWTOR with some buds or ARK with dad this time so that’ll prob be what I’ll be doing. Gotta make the most of it

Time: as I’m finishing this to post it, it is 1:22pm

Favorite bands: I have a lot so hold onto your hats lmao: Fall Out Boy, Glass Animals, Panic! At The Disco, Hop Along (not sure if these two still count as bands or if they’d fall under solo now...), MISSIO, 30 Seconds to Mars, Shinedown, Lord Huron is apparently a band now too tho he started solo owo, The Oh Hellos, Of Monsters And Men, The Antlers, PVRIS, Bastille, Young Heretics, Dorothy, The Crane Wives, The Mountain Goats

Favorite solo artists: Hozier, Willyecho (pretty sure he’s solo? XD), Billie Eilish, Ed Sheeran, Lorde, Mikky Ekko, Iron & Wine, Marina (& The Diamonds), Florence & The Machine, EDEN, P!nk, Keaton Henson, Amanda Palmer, Halsey, Radical Face, grandson, Lincoln

Song stuck in my head: as of this morning, The Mighty Fall by Fall Out Boy

Last movie: Uuuhh, pretty sure it was Hotel Transylvania 2, I was feeling icky the other day and needed to laugh so XD

Last show: The Alien Worlds series on Netflix, it’s really cool even if I wish they’dve come up with better names for the alien critters ¬_¬

When did I create this blog: Oh, not that long ago actually, funnily enough. I’ve been in and out of tumblr for a long while but never made my own blog(s) till about March last year (2020)

What do I post: this blog is exclusively SWTOR (and KOTOR) related stuff, anything from awesome art, writing and headcanons from mutuals, to my own art, screencaps from my and mutuals’ gameplay, to my own fics, headcanons and stuff. My other blog is for “canon” Star Wars, general fandom/gaming stuff etc. Very occasionally I might post non-swtor posts like this one here if I feel it “belongs” in the “get to know elven” tag

Last thing I googled: "acnh how many villagers can you have” - I wasn’t sure what the limit was and I play sporadically so I didn’t know, don’t laugh at me LMAO

Other blogs: just my other/main blog: @itstheelvenjedi​ . There’s “canon”-era Star Wars, LotR/The Hobbit stuff as well as a little bit of Warrior Cats, other gaming (mainly ARK: Survival Evolved atm), as well as a tiny bit of politics and ranty stuff. All is properly tagged so you can block any tags you don’t want to see.

Do I get asks: I do! I’m kinda slow answering them sometimes but I promise if you send me one I will always answer it and I appreciate every single one <3

Why I chose my url: ok, so, my mains are mostly wlw - except for Kas - (and yes, wlw can use the word “lesbian” if we want to, as a demisexual wlw person I will beat you with my crutch, fuck off, it’s a blanket wlw term just like “sapphic” and you don’t get to decide what I can and cannot call myself or my characters, you’re not me), they’re chaotic and they live in the SWTOR verse which is sometimes affectionately called a “space opera” so: chaoticspacelesbians. my main blog is because “TheElvenJedi” has been my main online pseud since about 2014, but theelvenjedi was apparently taken when I made my tumblr so I had to add something else to the beginning, therefore I went with itstheelvenjedi cause it was the closest thing to theelvenjedi and easy for me to remember XD

Following: 229 apparently (oop. I should probably....go through that and trim out the year+ inactive blogs huh o.o)

Followers: 90 (holy crackers where did you all come from LMAO am I really that funny???)

Average hours of sleep: I try to stick to at least 7, sometimes when insomnia hits tho it’s more like 4... >__<

Lucky number: 4 again! I just really dig it, it’s a cool number.

Instruments: I used to play recorder, and I took a couple drum lessons in primary school but couldn’t afford to keep it up ;-; it was fun while it lasted tho!

What am I wearing: ...my pyjamas and a dressing gown. It’s cold and I don’t have to go out or expect visitors today so I’m staying warm. Don’t judge me LOL

Dream job: I would’ve loved to have done either Riding Groom/Jockey (which I might have managed 6 or so years back but uhhh, I can’t handle the physical strain anymore, thanks granny joints!) or Animal Assisted Therapy, but there’s no way I can cope with managing my own business, it’s too much for me qwq A lot of things are Too Much For Me, unfortunately. I will take working checkout at a grocery store at the rate I’m going now tbh.

Dream trip: 1) to visit the gf in Germany and see the Christmas Markets there, and also 2) to go to New Zealand and visit the Hobbit/LotR sets and see all the wildlife :’D

Favorite food: Mac n cheese, it’s just...so good....

Nationality: South African/British (yes, I am in fact dual-national even if my SA passport has expired and I can’t find money to renew it, it’s on my birth certificate and in my blood so HAH)

Favorite song: I have...a few... but uhh Bruno Is Orange - Hop Along Bury Me Face Down - grandson Domestic Bliss - Glass Animals (TW: abuse mention, abusive relationship) Raise Hell - Dorothy Woman King - Iron & Wine Save Rock n Roll - Fall Out Boy Saint Bernard - Lincoln I could go on for a while but these are the ones that oft live in my head rent-free XD

Last book read: I don’t even know, tbh....I haven’t been able to focus on reading in a while 😅

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in:

1. SWtOR (obviously. Gimme a lightsaber and Force powers, stat!)

2. LotR/The Hobbit

3. ARK: Survival Evolved (I’d prolly get eaten by a t-rex or a spino in like 5 mins but hey, the thought of actually having a bunch of pet prehistoric animals is nice~)

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

Okay but. Your opinion on the new album by Nothing but Thieves?

so you said TEA TIME!

To be honest! I don’t really like it! I’ve not been a huge fan of any of the singles that have been put out (I’ve needed a while for them to grow on me, is what I mean, my first impressions were not my fave). I’ve been dying to talk about this, so I’m going to go a bit overboard in my analysis :) ALSO: this is my favourite band of all time I listen to their music every day and have been doing so for years and even though I don’t like this album, it is important to note I really didn’t like NBT at first but grew to my current loooove status after my workplace played Broken Machine every day and I just... love Conor’s vocals! So it could be that this album just needs to grow on me.

1. Is Everybody Going Crazy

First single released, my first impression was wowza this is a bit poppy, but it was catchy, and I like this song (so much I learned how to play it)! Reminded me a bit of songs I don’t love as much on the other albums like Live Like Animals and Ban All the Music (tho I still like these songs, just not as much as others). Have played this many times when I had the aux.

2. Real Love Song

Second song released, and my first impression was: I like! Sounds more like The Killers than typical NBT but I’m not mad at that in the slightest! Lyrically not my fave of their discography but a very fun song. I bought the alternative version because I like it so much (alternative version is gorgeous). Def put this song on if I had the aux.

3. Unperson

I think this was the third single? I listened to it once, was so confused and didn’t listen to it again for a few more weeks (to me it sounded like NBT, The Strokes, Paramore and Panic! at the Disco all in one song lol). This one is catchy after a while but I still don’t like the chorus because it sounds a lot like Panic! at the Disco (no shade to P!ATD I just don’t love that particular sound). I do like the energy however and this song has grown on because it is catchy despite the problems I have with it! I’ve written many scenes while listening to this song. If I had the aux, I probably wouldn’t put this song on!

4. Impossible

Ohhhh Impossible! Fourth single, and probably my least favourite! I think this song to me has the least lyrical intricacy I’m used to seeing in NBT’s work, and while I’m so happy to see some more upbeat/happy work, I think some of the production in the chorus (the backing vocals! it’s really the backing vocals!) is just too cheesy for me. This gives me NBT wedding song vibes, which is not my fave vibe, but I can see why others love it! Despite it being my least favourite of the singles, I actually do listen to this song because I like it (but I don’t like it does this make any sense) and it’s not my least favourite song of theirs by any means, it just doesn’t seem like NBT (I hate to say that since I love seeing them branch out, but I hope y’all catch my drift). The live Abbey Road session was a lot of fun and I watched it many times! Also I can’t help but hear the My Beloved Monster riff when I listen to this song! Probably wouldn’t reach for this at first when I have the aux because of the cheesiness. VERY cool music video!

5. Phobia

I LOVE this song and have been obsessed with it since it came out. I love the distinctive three parts and the buildup. It has the quiet vibe I love in If I Get High, Tempt You (Evocatio) and Graveyard Whistling while still having that FUN intensity at the end like in Forever & Ever More and I Was Just A Kid. Not exactly their usual sound right in the beginning (Billie Eilish vibes) but I think this experimentation was very well done. My favourite on the album!

As for the rest of the songs, the truth is I haven’t listened to them very much. I think the boys have done some really cool stuff with experimenting from their “usual” sound (if u heard Can You Afford to Be An Individual you KNOW), but I def think it’s a case of “I need to listen to this a lot more for it to grow on me” (which TO BE FAIR is the only reason I love NBT now because I really didn’t like their sound at all and I say this with the utmost love and as someone who has converted many NBT haters <3).

FINAL THOUGHTS:

I think a main problem I might have with this album is the production & drums. No shade at all because I think they’re individually well done, but put together with Conor’s vocals, everything for me doesn’t seem to fit. I think this to me was proven when I watched their liveshow Thursday where they performed Free If We Want It and it was soooo much better live than in the recording since the production was a lot less intense. I think I’m also missing some of the Buckley x Muse vibes I usually get from their work that has moved into its own sound of NBT even in songs that don’t “sound typically” NBT, like You Know Me Too Well and Soda). I absolutely am not looking for them to make the same music forever and think it’s important artists’ sound change as they change as a band--so I’m not saying that! I guess I’m just missing them same charged intention I feel when I listen to their other work (which again to be fair I didn’t like/appreciate until MONTHS of listening to their music at work hahaha and I am now obsessed and their songs never get old).

Of their entire body of work, it was impossible for me to rank a favourite (I love Broken Machine, the self titled album and What Did You Think When You Made Me This Way) equally and differently in so many ways, but I unfortunately think it would be easier for me to rank Moral Panic because it’s just underwhelmed me on first listen. This might also be because they released so many singles (about half the album) which absolutely makes sense because of the pandemic, however, I think took away from me being able to find some “gems” among the songs I don’t like as much (the songs that were left when the album released, at least for me) so those songs just don’t have as much of a chance as they possibly could have had they only released 2 or 3 singles.

AGAIN to be fair, this is the exact reaction I first had listening to NBT so it may grow on me as I hear the beautiful intricacies in each song, but for now, I’m sticking to the older stuff! Waiting for my tour t-shirt and signed album to come in the mail tho!!! Love NBT! My mom also loves NBT!! She made me watch three versions of If I Get High with her on the TV last night and they were all great! so! NBT is still great, this album is just not my fave!

that’s the end of my essay I realize this is a bit ridiculous I just had THOUGHTS okay bye!

[the--world--behind--my--wall]

Interview Tag

Was tagged by the wonderful @befriendswithj and since I love answering such things and haven't done in a while, here we go I guess ✨

Rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better!

Name/nickname: Luisa (different friends of mine have different nicknames for me so I'm always fine with people coming up with their own)

Pronouns: she/her

Star sign: Leo

Height: 1,68 m or 5'5

Time currently: 1:16 pm

When is your birthday: August 16th

Favorite Band/Group: fell into the KPop hole thanks to them so I guess I'd have to say BTS but Stray Kids took over my life as well and I have enough space in my heart for both

KPOP - BTS, Stray Kids, TXT, Victon, Hwasa and Blackpink are the ones I like most but I listen to so many others as well

NON-KPOP – my Forever-Love Tokio Hotel, Saltatio Mortis

SOLO ARTISTS - Billie Eilish, The Weeknd, Post Malone

Song Stuck in Your Head: 34+35 by Ariana Grande ever since it came to my knowledge that Namjoon from BTS likes to work out to that song and I'm having THOUGHTS 👀

Last Movie You Watched: I actually can't remember because I rarely watch movies atm

Last Show You Binged: Have been watching a lot of shows recently but the one I am obessed with and am rewatching and binging as I type this is The Untamed

When You Created Your Blog:  Almost exactly 8 years ago - I got the notification a couple of days ago, so I actually know that my tumblrs birthday is on January 21st so Happy Birthday to me I guess

Last Thing You Googled: cm to feet converter cause I can never remember that shit

Other Blogs: I accumulated several over the past year actually. @ksj-myg-jhs-knj-pjm-kth-jjk-bts which I use to keep track of the fanfics I'm reading on here, @moonchild-mono which contains all the Kpop stuff cause I really don't want to spam that on my main account too much, @itshardcandy with my lovely @befriendswithj where we post BTS fanfics tho she is much more active and I really need to get into writing more frequently ahem sorry about that again 😬

Why I chose my url: It's the title of a song by Tokio Hotel and I liked the meaning of it when I changed my url to that a couple years ago and I have actually thought about changing my url again because the name doesn't reasonate with me that much anymore but tbh I can't be bothered to come up with a new one and it doesn't bother me too much so we'll see what happens

Do you get asks: Not really but very rarely one finds its way into my inbox. Always happy to get some messages so feel free to slide into my DMs ✌🏻

How Many People Are You Following: 339

How Many Followers Do You Have: 247 on the main blog

Average Hours of Sleep: On weekdays I try to get 7-8 hours which is the minimum I need to function properly at work, on the weekends I tend to sleep for 10+ hours which is ideal for me believe it or not

Lucky Numbers: 4, I'm just drawn to that number and idek why, it's just neat ✨

Instruments: Used to take piano lessons for a couple of years when I was younger but since I haven't played in a long time who knows if I remember anything anymore

What I'm Currently Wearing: Grey sweatpants, black hoodie and pink fluffy socks

Dream job: Was detective for ages but at some point I realized that job isn't as glamorous as I thought it would be so I don't have a dream job anymore. But I really like my current job which is more or less a typical office job at my local public transportatiion company and as long as I don't have to make too many phone calls I'm pretty happy with it

Dream trip: Iceland 🤍

Favorite food: I'd die for my grandmas potato salad, had some just yesterday and ascended to heaven again

Favorite song: I always fear this question cause how are you supposed to pick just one? What I listened to religiously the past year was Blinding Lights by The Weeknd - something about that melody just gives me the chills and it feels like freedom somehow. Also Circles by Post Malone - have to keep myself from crying everytime, it just hits very hard

Top Three Fictional Universes You'd Like To Live In:

Well idk about top three but the one and only would be the Harry Potter Universe because I'd do anything for getting the chance to go to Hogwarts. Wouldn't mind exploring the LotR Universe but personally I like a bit of a hygiene standard so I don't think I'd do well with living there for long. Third one would be my own fictional universe since I basically live inside my personal AU thoughts 24/7 and enjoy it a lot, thank you very much 😌

If you want to play, I'd like to get to know you 💜

Tagging: Since there are some Kpop questions I'm not tagging anyone who I'm not sure is even into that so I'm tagging @blueversailledreams and @aautumn--leaves for now cause I'm geniunely interested in your answers even tho we haven't talked on here but I like your blogs so yeah. Whoever wants to do this tag too, feel free to do as you please. I'm a very nosy person so I'm definitely going to check out your posts 👀

[cuziloveyou7]

ULT GROUP TAG GAME

Tagged by: the one, the only, the always gorgeous @randombtsprincessa

I really wanted to choose another group bc I already read some of the asks..... but ya know bts is my first and ultimate fave of all time so.... ITS BTS TIME!

1. Who was your first bias?

I was an OT7 stan! I just couldn't choose!

2. Who is your bias now?

With much help from my friend we came to the conclusion that Yoongi/suga is my bias. It was pretty obvious tbh, it just took me a while to acknowledge 🤣

3. What was the first MV you watched by them?

I'm not really sure but I think it was mic drop (Japanese ver.) Or BS&T (also Japanse ver.). Those were my religion! I watched it on an music app on my TV and they only had the Japanese versions of like 4 songs...

4. What’s your favourite MV?

DEFF Blood, Sweat & Tears! That MV was and still is, so ahead of it's time

5. If you could listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

ARGH!!! That's such a hard question... okay I'll narrow it down! Dimple, House of cards, Home and Telepathy! There are so much more but I narrowed it down quite well 😅

6. Who would you want to see them collab with?

I don't know tbh.... I just love them on their own! It's always a pleasant surprise when they do have collabs and I love it! But maybe Billie Eilish or another kpop group, that'd be cool!

7. What (MV) concept do you want to see them do?

KSKDKDKDKWK They've done so many things already! And they vary so much. I did like BS&T very much so maybe more mythology stuff. BUT tbh I don't think that fits them anymore they've grown so much

8. Have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

SKSKSKSKSKW LOTS PROBABLY LMAO! I don't remember them except one! But that was because it felt so real! When I woke up I had to do a double take and I was so confused as to were I was and if I actually was alone in my room!

9. If you could spend the day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

I would love to hang out with either Joon or Kook! Or both! With joon I'd love to go and explore, go to some museums or art galleries, maybe go cycling! I mean I am a Dutch person and we ride our bikes everywhere, everyday hahahaha. With kook it's either go on an adventure, do cool stuff like skydiving or some other cool adventures stuff or keep it on the down low and like play video games or go to an arcade or something😊

10. Which member do you think you would get on with best?

Aaahhh that's a hard question because I'm kind of a difficult person I guess. I want to say Jungkook because we're the closest in age (there's a 3 year gap which isn't that much and makes me believe we should be more on the same wave length) but I actually think it's either Hobi or Tae! Because I'm a really introverted person I need someone who will take me out of my comfort zone, but won't push it that much. Someone that'll make me feel like I belong. I'm very people shy and need at least 1 person that makes me feel comfortable in a group and I think it's either one of them! Idk what do you guys think?

11. Which member do you think you would argue with?

For some reason I think it would be Jimin? Idk why tho... lmao. I don't like arguing, I tend to avoid conflict so I don't really see myself arguing with someone.... but on the other hand like Jimin just popped up in my head when I thought about it so....🥴

12. If you had to let one member scroll through you tumblr, who would it be?

Ehhh... yeah like no... don't come near my tumblr, any of you... I feel like anyone of them would just look at me like I'm crazy 🥲 that's never gonna happen I just.... NO.... you guys tell me what the safest option would be bc I.... no just no

Tagging: @ssugadaddyy, @lucid-mins, @http-je0n, @tkklip, @taevolucion, @kittylefayy, @an-annyeoing-writer, @oheyura and anyone who sees it! Don't feel pressured to do so though, just have fun.

I saw a lot of new peeps in my followers list, I'm gonna be honest... I wanted to tagg yall but I'm scared you wouldn't like it 😅 so if you do want a tag next time hit me up, bc my anxious ass won't try lmao

[buckybarnesbingo]

As part of our Discord party, we took song recs!  Here are some excellent, Bucky-flavored tunes!

My Body Is a Cage - Arcade Fire  (@blurockets)

Control - Halsey  (@writing-mermaid)

Summer Rain - Belinda Carlisle  (@fightingforcreativity)

This song just screams Bucky's story before the whole hydra thing to me. he was happy, struggling with life but happy with his friend/love had plenty fun and survived. Then he is send out and he's still saying he'll be back but he doesn’t want to go. and he never came back in the end. Because the person coming back after is not Bucky from before anymore.

Behind Blue Eyes - The Who  (@polizwrites)

Take Me Home - Ryan Dolan  (LiquidLightz)

We Three (My Echo My Shadow And Me) - The Inkspots  (@blurockets)

An Oldie that you could go into thoughts of identity and how there are sort of three facets to Bucky. The Echo prewar and maybe during war, my shadow ws and Me and it's also just pretty.

In Chains - Shaman's Harvest  (@menatiera​)

Whole Again - Granian  (@27dragons)

This song is about recovering from trauma (and the pressure that well-meaning friends can put on you to recover faster without really helping, or maybe that's just my interpretation).

More under the cut!

In Case You Don't Live Forever - Ben Platt  (@aoifelaufeyson​)

The Becoming - Nine Inch Nails  (@blurockets)

It's part of the Downward Spiral and that whole Nine Inch Nails is a concept album following a guy that falls into a spiral of drugs and things that culminate into a breakdown and well death

Stand By You - Rachel Platten  (@writing-mermaid)

Losing Your Memory - Ryan Star  (@rebelmeg)

The whole song has strong post-Cap2 vibes.  But there’s one particular part that talks about Montauk in the winter, that makes me think of freshly un-Hydra’d Bucky visiting one of the beaches in NY that he remembers being at with Steve when they were kids, struggling to catch more wisps of memory while he stands there on the shore.

New York - Snow Patrol  (LiquidLightz)

Stucky feels... Bucky thinking of Steve

Older - Ben Platt  (@aoifelaufeyson​)

We'll Meet Again - Vera Lynn (@rebelmeg)

Another one with Bucky remembering, haunted by a song he knows he’s heard before, and all kinds of faces and voices in his mind that he can’t quite place.

I Am Machine - Three Days Grace  (@pherryt)

Kill Our Way To Heaven - Michl  (@tisfan)

Nightmare - Set It Off  (@menatiera​)

This another Bucky & Winter, just the angsty version where Bucky is terrified of his "monster" self and would very much like to run away from it but can't

Demons - Imagine Dragons  (LiquidLightz)

Through The Long Night - Billy Joel  (@polizwrites)

This has major Stucky feels for me

Lost n Paradise - Evanescence  (@lbibliophile-mcu​)

I Know Places - Taylor Swift  (@writing-mermaid)

Clearly it's about people trying to runaway from people that are chasing them. I started to write a story inspired by that song

Bad Guy - Billie Eilish  (@aoifelaufeyson​)

Hey You - Pink Floyd  (@blurockets)

Imagine like a weird hallucinatory sequence that ends with Bucky being thrown into cryo

Bee Gees - Stayin' Alive  (@phoenixgryphon)

well you can tell by the way I use my walk i'm a hydra man no time to talk

Breathe Me In - Jared and the Mill  (@pherryt)

Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd  (@polizwrites)

Pink Floyd song that gives me Bucky/Stucky feels

Cat People - David Bowie  (@phoenixgryphon)

See these tears so blue / An ageless heart that can never mend / These tears can never dry / A judgment made can never bend / See these eyes so red / Red like jungle burning bright / Those who feel me near / Pull the blinds and change their minds

In the Mood - Glenn Miller  (@phoenixgryphon​)

The Sun Will Rise - Kelly Clarkson  (@writing-mermaid)

She's my favorite singer and I wrote a story based on that song, I think this is a pretty optimist song that shows that even if something bad happened, the next day can be brighter and the light will chase the darkness.

Talk Dirty To Me - Jason Derulo ft. 2 Chainz  (@aoifelaufeyson​)

Coming Back to You  -  Jennifer Warnes via Leonard Cohen  (@polizwrites)

My first Stucky fic (Another Mile of Silence) was based on this song

Slip - Elliot Moss  (@blurockets)

The Unforgiven - Blakwall  (@psychiccatpanda​)

Bucky Nat where they are so close to something good but because of the nature of their wonky memories it doesn't quite happen.

A Monster Like Me - Mørland & Debrah Scarlett  (@writing-mermaid)

Another song that inspired me for a story. It's about someone that made horrible things when he was younger, telling his love one to go away because he's a monster.

Coney Island - Antje Duvekot  (LiquidLightz)

preWar Bucky, Stucky feels

Dancing Queen - Abba  (@phoenixgryphon​)

Sleeping Sickness - City and Colour  (@blurockets)

Post WS Stucky Especially with that movies theme of things breaking down.

I've become / A simple souvenir of someone's kill / And like the sea / I'm constantly changing from calm to ill / Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole / oh how I'm breaking down

Song of Bernadette - Leonard Cohen, cover by Jennifer Warnes  (@polizwrites) 

a WinterIron song for me — tho I ended up using a line from it for a   Tony/Bruce fic.

Sugar, Sugar - The Archies  (@phoenixgryphon​)

Believer - Imagine Dragons  (LiquidLightz)

recovering WS Bucky

Dark Side - Kelly Clarkson  (@writing-mermaid)

When We Were Young - Adele  (LiquidLightz)

Bucky recovering , Stucky feels

Next To Me - Imagine Dragons  (@writing-mermaid)

Nightmare - Set It Off  (@menatiera​)

This another Bucky & Winter, just the angsty version where Bucky is terrified of his "monster" self and would very much like to run away from it but can't

The Phoenix - Fall Out Boy  (LiquidLightz)

angry anti-Hydra WS Bucky

Animal - The Cab  (LiquidLightz)

sexy WS

Dyin' Ain't So Bad - Bonnie and Clyde (Original Broadway Cast Recording)  (@book-dragon-13)

Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy - The Andrews Sisters  (@rebelmeg)

This one just screams Bucky!  Especially the part about the Cap going out and grabbing him a band!

Behind Blue Eyes - L'Orchestra Cinematique  (@menatiera)

Firework - Katy Perry  (@phoenixgryphon)

Ghost Story - Charming Disaster  (@blurockets)

stucky imagine an iw war au where after the snap everyone snapped is a dimension off only the slightest bit so it feels like people in a shares space are haunting each other

Lone Digger - Caravan Palace  (@ibelieveinturtles)

Shadow on the Wall - Mike Oldfield  (@fightingforcreativity​)

for over 70 years Bucky has been nothing but a weapon, a toy, a shadow of himself. something like that leaves traces and that sometimes you don't feel like much of anything anymore. So when he starts to remember, starts to have flashes of what he did and he has this one person standing up for him, tearing the world apart for him, he tethers himself to them like their shadow on the wall. Building his own prison, the prison which follows the person helping him whoever that is

A Bad Dream - Keane  (@menatiera​)

Secret - Heart  (@fightingforcreativity​)

this is a winteriron or pre war stucky song for me. Because Bucky no matter which pairing I look at in that situation feels like they can't be out. stucky: because of the homophobia back then 

WinterIron: because they're supposed to be enemies sort of and Tony and Steve are standing at two different sides of the line, the line to which end Bucky had sworn to follow steve

Deliverance - The Mission U.K.  (@ibelieveinturtles​)

Most of what I have for Bucky is specific to fics I'm writing but I think this is a good one too

Red - Nightcore male version, original from Beth Crowley  (@menatiera​)

this is my post-WS angry Bucky to-go song

All Along The Watchtower, Bear McCreary (Battlestar Galactica version)  (@ibelieveinturtles​)

this one is from a dragon!Bucky fic I'm determined to finish one day...

Bring Me To Life - Evanescence  (@psychiccatpanda​ and @lbibliophile-mcu​)

Holding Out For A Hero - Bonnie Tyler  (@ibelieveinturtles​)

Hollow - Icon For Hire  (@fightingforcreativity​)

This is kinda self-explanatory considering that the song is about mental health

Not alone - RED  (@menatiera​)

this is kind of the song I often base my Bucky & Winter relationship to each other, how they worked through hell to keep each other alive and how they relied on each other. Mostly this is Bucky reassuring Winter and keeping him, well, human, by being there for him in his head.

Whisper - Evanescence  @lbibliophile-mcu

Memories - Within Temptation  (@fightingforcreativity​)

A song about memories, keeping ghosts alive and yet not really

On Every Street - Dire Straits  (@dreaminglypeach​)

More Steve looking for Bucky post WS, but still. 

 three cord symphony crashes into space / the moon is hanging upside down / don’t know why it is I’m still on the case / it’s a ravenous town / you still refuse to be traced / seems to me such a waste / and every victory has a taste that’s bittersweet / and it’s your face I’m looking for on every street

Chlorine - Twenty One Pilots  (@aoifelaufeyson​)

It’s My Life - Bon Jovi  (LiquidLightz)

[bo0zey]

Pick your favorite questions from the list.

i will do them all for u 0.o

1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]

2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french

3. Age 20

4. Birthday december 17, 1999

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries

6. Gender female

7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats

9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian

11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!

12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers

13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol

14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??

15. Your relationship status single :D

16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person??? 

17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D

18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd

20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant

21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein

22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water

23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow

24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon

25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3

26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own

27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat

28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc

29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music

30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess

31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!

32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......

33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk

35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing 

36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit

37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol

38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!

39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’

40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome

41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals

42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny 

43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm 

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business

45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better

46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that

47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night

48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....

49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings

50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk

51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care

52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair

54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!

55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk

56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!! 

57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020

60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,

62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no

65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone

66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho

68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books

70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki

71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf

73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades

74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool

76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna

77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain

78. Favourite platform? twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall

82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee

84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts

85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me

86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public

95. Cold or hot? cold

96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal

100. ..... or .....? ......?

[spacelouis]

I was tagged by @essercipertuttienonperse , @watermelonwalls & @hclrold ( thank you so much for tagging me even though it took me forever to get it done and there’s like a few variations of this going around so I just picked one to do 💜 )

RULES: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people!

nicknames: m, mari (tho I don’t like that 😂) annnnnd that’s it really

zodiac sign: Leo

height: 5’3 I’m short

hogwarts house: I really have no idea so I took a quiz just now for this and it said hufflepuff so there ya go

last thing i googled: I googled what pavlova was cause of that video of Harry and Sarah’s kitchen having the cook off lmao

favourite musicians: Harry styles, Louis Tomlinson, Billie Eilish, odesza, the 1975 and lots more

song stuck in my head: clementine-Halsey

following: 184

followers: 114

do you get asks? Sometimes but rarely

amount of sleep: usually about 8 hours if I don’t fuck up my sleeping schedule

lucky number: I don’t really have one

what are you wearing: a zeds dead shirt and pajama pants

dream job: I always say I wanna be a therapist for serial killers cause I wanna talk to them and figure out how they’re brains work

dream trip: probably the Maldives or something very tropical where I can just look out my window and be on the beach

instruments you play: sadly none :( I played the saxophone in like elementary school tho

languages you speak: English

favourite song: uhhh I have too many to name

cats or dogs: dogs forever and always

random fact: ummmmm idk I have hazel eyes?? There’s a fact

aesthetic: probably a cabin in the middle of a huge forest, it’s raining and I’m curled up with a blunt (or 2) on the couch watching the rain with some random movie on that I’m not even watching :)

I tag @rbbsbb @harrysgoblinfeet @louhazbananas @jennamarblesdyke @wallsvinyl @nauticalpeach @teenytinytomlinson @glutenfreeharold @wallsxlouie @dfferentstages @loughosties @wontstoptillwesurrenderhl @louisnudes @twoofusacoustic @anewyorklovely @peterpanlouie @supportivehusbands @sunsetlarry @parislarry @darkrainbowlouis @almightypeachybum

( Sorry if you have done it already and ignore if you don’t wanna do it 💕 )

[eriecanary]

21 questions

Rules: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better.

I stole this from @silverskye13 cuz I saw it after just waking up and I thought it would help me wake up the rest of the way lol.

Nickname: Erie, Canary, (you see the inspiration for my url don’t you)

Zodiac Sign: Cancer! Which I thought fit me p well when I first learned what that meant

Height: around 5”5 5”6

Hogwarts House: I took the official test and got Slytherin which I STILL don’t think fits me. Like I don’t care that they’re kinda evil in the books but I’m not a leader I’m not determined and while I’m loyal I wouldn’t say it’s one of my main defining traits. I always thought I was a Hufflepuff.

Last thing I Googled: Star maps, I needed help thinking of some cool patterns for an art thing I’m working on.

Favorite Musicians: Billy Elish, Imagine Dragons, CLANN, Cavetown, AURORA

Song stuck in my head: None since I just woke up. I haven’t even had the chance to put headphones in :,D.

Following: 517

Followers: 184 on this blog and 187 on @canarydraws which is my art blog

Do I get asks: Nooot really. Sometimes if I reblog an ask meme some of my closest mutuals will humor me but that’s about it.

Amount of sleep: it can range from 7-10 now that it’s summer. It sorta depends if I have work early the next day or not.

Random fact: I’m good at painting digitally but I’ve recently realized I’m just shit at just drawing on my tablet :,D. Straight lines are a curse y’all

Lucky Number: I wouldn’t say I really have one

Wearing: my pjs still. Which consists of sweatpants I got from touring one of the colleges in my area (which I prob won’t go to) and a black long sleeve with a big green panic! At the disco logo on the back.

Dream Job: Being a concept artist which prob won’t happen.

Dream Trip: ehhh I’m not much for traveling. I think there’s a place in Germany I’d like to visit tho and next summer my family might be going to Ireland which I’m excited for.

Instruments: I used to play the piano but idk if I can anymore.

Languages: just English and the microscopic amounts of Spanish I learned back in high school.

Favorite Songs:(BOI I have too much music) Angels- Acoustic Version by Crywolf, Once Again by CLANN, come out and play by Billy Eilish, Rousseau by Nerina Pallot, Hollow Drum by Laura Welsh, Soldier's Daughter by Jhameel, Blackbeak by Youngblood Hawke, In a Week by Hozier, Gasoline by Halsey, Fineshrine by Purity Ring, End Credits by EDEN, Gnats by Tülpa, and so many others.

Aesthetic: Fallen angels, iron, silver, red, inhuman eyes, demons, The Unknown in the Dark, fae, horns, dark forests, ruins, abandoned homes, dirt roads, running barefoot in a meadow at twilight, the moon cycles, cool summer nights, sunsets, growth, redemption, change, surprising human natures, running rivers, crystal rocks, black lipstick, blue veins beneath fragile skin

I say that’s my aesthetic but I don’t dress or act like it is lmao.

Alrighty I’m not gonna tag a lot of people (mostly because I stole this in the first place) but here are some. @starz-z-z @hoodiedoodles @namelessokami @ anyone else who’s interested!

[yourfeminist]

All of the asks. If you don't want to answer some that's fine, I'd be interested in all of them ☺️

Hell yeah i’m down! Thank you a lot! Have a nice day or evening! 

zinc white; how are you really feeling today? no one-word answers please!

Well I woke up today and I thought I had to work at 8AM but I didn’t need to work so that kinda sucked. But otherwise then that I’m fine! I need to do a few things today so I look forward to do that! Thanks for asking 

lemon; what’s your comfort food?

Chocolate!

hansa yellow; what’s your guilty pleasure song?

Rich Girl by Daryl Hall & John Oates!

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of! 

I recently discovered Billie Eilish and she’s pretty cool. But other than her I don’t remember any new album I listened to

naples yellow; where do you feel most at home?

Well my parents are divorced so ngl at my dads I feel more home because there are a lot of other people and I enjoy that. But when I’m at my moms I really love my room and that feels like home too. So I can’t decide :)

raw sienna; with whom do you feel most at home?

My (girl)friendgroup and one friend specifically that always makes me feel like home. When we are at the same party I always feel less awkward or uncomfortable ( I have social anxiety and sometimes it’s really acting up). So I’m really glad that he has that feeling. 

golden ochre; describe the relationship you have with your closest friend.

We can talk about everything but still we don’t always do. We have a great friendship and sure do love each other but we don’t say things like that to each other. We also see each other pretty often. One of my best friends💕

golden deep; what’s your favorite season?

This anwser always changes but atm It’s spring! I really enjoy the weather where you don’t have to wear a jacket just a hoodie because of the sun! Yup really love that. OH AND everything starts to grow again :)

cadmium orange; what do you like to do on your days off?

Watch youtube video’s, watch a few episodes of a show, reading and mostly relax!

orange lake; do you have anyone you can turn to when you’re sad?

yup I do but this girl right here is kinda dumb because I never talk to anyone because I have this feeling that when I do I bother other people. And I know I don’t but still I won’t do it haha. But I’m working on it! So if anyone has the same feeling feel free to come to me or ask me how I’m dealing with that.

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

Both! But I prefer evenings a little more. Because then I see my family and friends more ( i know cliche :p)

shakhnazaryan red; are you currently binge-watching anything?

BROOKLYN NINE-NINE!!!!!!(cool cool cool cool cool no doubt no doubt) And I’m watching Teen Wolf for the second time haha

red ochre; are you more right-brained (creative) or left-brained (analytical)?

Right brained!

burnt sienna; is there a painting that brings you peace when you look at it?

Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh! 

english red; what animal do you relate to most?

A CAT!!! LOVE SLEEPING LOVE CUDDLING AND SOMETIMES I LOVE TO BE A GRUMPY FUCK

vermilion; what’s your favorite accent?

Hard one!! I really like Irish ( @bleubelle249SO YOU BETTER HAVE ONE :PPP) and Scottish! But ngl I reaaaally love Australian accents, so hot.

cadmium red; do you have a “type” when it comes to a significant other?

Nope I don’t mind tbh. But dark hair and dark eyes are plus !

scarlet; describe your current crush/es.

Dark haired, dark eyed 6′2 and his name is Noah Centineo and he doesnt even know I exist :). But other than him I don’t have a crush!

ruby; what does your ideal first date look like?

A walk at a park and maybe picknick and a fun activity and dinner later in the afternoon and for the night a movie! But tbh everything is okay, I’m not that hard to statisfy.

carmine; what does your ideal second date look like?

Anything the other person want to do! 

madder lake red; would you ever kiss someone (or accept a kiss) on a first date?

Yes I would. I would only kiss someone if they want to (CONSENT KIDS, ITS IMPORTANT) and I also would accept one if I’m comfortable. But there needs to be a connection tho. Otherwise a quick  peck on the cheeks.

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

That I’m working on myself to become a healthier (mentally) me.  Because it took waaaaaaaaaaaaay to long.

quinacridone rose; what’s something you’re really looking forward to?

My drivers licence! 

violet rose; what does your dream house look like?

A very cozy house. Nice, warm with a library and a lot of plants and flowers! A big garden with both sun and shadow. With a few neighbours. And I would love to live at a dead end next to meadow!

violet; is there any place in particular you’d like to settle down?

Somewhere in England, USA or Australia. Maybe somewhere else in Europe, don’t know.

blue lake; what would you like to do/accomplish before you settle down?

That I finished college. I’m financial stable and that I worked hard for the things that I have. I don’t like doing things the easy way.

cobalt blue spectral; what is the most beautiful place you have ever been to?

Český Krumlov in Czech Republic

ultramarine; when was the last time you were in a good mood? do you know/remember what sparked it?

A week ago. I just felt good. Don’t have a reason for it.

blue; what’s the most recent dream you remember?

That I was dating a collegue who is also a friend. it was a really weird dream but I didnt tell anyone because my friends ship us hahahah

bright blue; what does your dream family look like? any kids or pets? how many of each?

I don’t yet if I want kids (or that my partner does) but if I would have kids I want 3 em. And both a dog and a cat!

blue cobalt; do you like your name? would you give yourself a different name if you could? Yes I like my name (Anouk) and no I will not give myself a different name because I don’t think an other name will fit me.

prussian azure; what’s your favorite scent?

Depends on my mood what it is; like a candle or perfume or deodorant. But probably vanilla, lemongrass and citrus.

azure blue; what’s your favorite type of tea, if any?

Earl grey!

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

SUNFLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!! And a few trees and nice flowers that grow each year.

cerulean blue; if you were guaranteed to have a viewership, would you start a youtube vlog?

yes probably. I secretly would love that haha

glauconite; describe your body without using any negative adjectives.

Tall, nice skin, long arms and long legs and my stomach kinda has a sixpack.

yellow green; picture yourself walking in a field. what do you see & hear in this scenario?

Probably something like this. But with more high grass. And I soflty hear the wind and a few birds chirping.

green light; are you in a comfortable place in life? if not, what do you think might make it better?

80% of my life is! What do I think might make it better? Me. But don’t know how yet.

green; name three countries you want to visit; do you have any actual plans in place to visit any of them?

1. Italy2. Australia3. New zealand

Yes! They are all three on my bucket list so I will for sure visit them!

emerald green; do you speak any languages besides english? are there any additional languages you want to learn?

Yes I speak: Dutch, Frisian and a tiny bit of German. And I really want to learn Spanish!

oxide of chromium; what’s your favorite book?

That’s way to hard for me to choose. So i am not going to give you an anwser :p

olive green; are you currently reading anything? how do you like it so far?

I am reading the Game of Thrones books. Currently reading A Clash of Kings (second one) 

mars brown; what’s a movie that always puts a smile on your face/makes you laugh?

Coco!! And all the Harry Potter movies!

burnt umber; what’s something you plan to do before the day is over to take care of yourself?

Nothing haha

umber; have you drank enough water today?

Not yet! But it’s still morning so don’t worry!

voronezhskaya black; what or who is your go-to outlet for when you need to vent? 

I don’t vent a lot. And if I do it’s not a go to person. Probably my dad or anyone else from my family or friends

sepia; name five things that always make you happy.

1. Animals2. When people are happy3. When people are smiling 4. Music!5. Kian and Jc (shout out to them, they are youtubers)

indigo; what’s the best/sweetest compliment you have ever received?

That I’m a very relaxed person to be with. My friends told me that when we had a test I’m made them less nervous. And I really like that.

payne’s gray; describe your aesthetic?

Art

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

I would rather not post one but I’ll guess I will post one

There ya go!

Thanks again!

[duskadawn]

My pre-show top 41

hello clowns! as an indecisive bottom, ranking all 41 entries of this year’s esc into a definitive top was a challenge but I think I’m finally decided on my ranking! read below the cut for clown certified bad takes

the stan list:

1. Greece / Katerine Duska - Better Love

yall already been knew but its Athens 2020 babey! her voice...the lyrics...the chorus....the visuals...the production.........talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, showstopping, spectacular, never the same.......the power it has......the international implications.............god we stan

2. Italy / Mahmood - Soldi

the clapping in soldi is mahmood applauding himself for being That Bitch because god soldi Slaps. probably my favourite italian entry of this decade if not ever. its just gay rights 

3. Netherlands / Duncan Laurene - Arcade

if amsterdam 2020 does actually happen it would be so fucking deserved becuase duncan really snapped on this one......he really did that you know what i mean

# Ukraine / Maruv - Siren Song

really wish UA weren’t such clowns because siren song is scientifically proven to smack...it just bangs! 

4. Iceland / Hatari - Hatari -  Hatrið mun sigra

ok so at first i couldn’t really get behind this because i didnae feel the verses at all but they’ve really grown on me and i appreciate them as part of the package a Lot more now. however if the entire song was as good as the chorus it would undoubtedly be reykjavik 2020 but it be like that sometimes

5. Romania / Ester Peony - On A Sunday

i know the nf was shady but i’m so fucking glad this won over little miss i hate gay people. its just so unqiue and mysterious and moody god i’m so emo x. really hope this is a dark horse this year but i’m Worried 

6. Portugal / Conan Osiris - Telemoveis

i don’t entirely get what hes serving but bitch i’ll take it. really appreciate conan’s artistry and the musical diversity hes bringing to the semi and europe better fucking treat him right or there Will be consequences 

7. Norway / Keiino - Spirit in the Sky

this is the fun eurovision bop we all deserve this year and i would die for all three of them. also really love the sámi representation!!! take notes sweden

8. Spain / Miki Núñez - La Venda

while I preferred the original to the revamp, i’m also don’t really care because its still the best song spain’s sent since pastora, its just so fun and warm and full of energy and god miki is a lad!! main reason its so high in my top tho is because i want miki to choke m-

9. Albania / Jonida Maliqi -  Ktheju tokës

time to put on my clown suit but i preferred the original cut. that bein said jonida maliqi is a queen and ktheju tokës is still the masterful ethnic banger it always was. my crops are really watered well this year. also if this dies because of its running order position i will Snap

10. Armenia / Srbuk - Walking Out

before i even get into the actual tune the piano intro to this song that lasts for a maximum of 5 seconds is better than half of all eurovision songs to date so that’s that. but also the song itself is real powerful and modern and god the last chorus sent my wigs to yerevan immediately. srbuk could step on me and i’d give her the esc trophy 

11. Azerbaijan / Chingiz - Truth

im so glad azerbaijan let go of their sweden of the caucuses look because it wasnt a good one but this one really is!! shes serving

12. Malta / Michela - Chameleon

does malta finally deserve rights? maybe so! to me this is the best, most original of this years fuegos i just love that drop. really smacks. hope it looks as good on stage as it does in the mv tho

13. Hungary / Pápai Joci - Az én apám

its not as good as origo but can you really beat perfection? joci may be back but my depression is nowhere to be found

14. Poland / Tulia - Fire Of Love (Pali Się) 

best polish entry in a while if not ever. i get why its polarising but to me it just fucking Slaps. feel like storming down the street and robbing a pierogi store. queens. also the bilingualism really works some revamps should really take some notes

15. Belgium / Eliot - Wake Up

this feels like the sequel to city lights and while it may not be as good its still a great installment. the chorus could be more impactful but i still love it we stan the belgian renaissance  

16. Slovenia / Zala Kralj & Gašper Šantl - Sebi

at first listen i thought this was one of the flattest, most monotone entries in a while and was completely puzzled as to how it had stans but turns out that was just the live oof. in studio its a really magical tune but im not sure they’re gonna be able to make it work on stage but here’s hoping! also gasper and zala seem really sweet so we stan

17. Latvia / Carousel - That Night

not to be romantic on main, but this song is just one of those that makes you feel like you’re sitting around a campfire staring at stars playing tunes in the wild west you know what i mean? while it may be repetitive as fuck i just really love its chill atmosphere 

18. North Macedonia / Tamara Todevska - Proud

i’ve stanned macedonia since 2017 but they always fucking let me down with the staging However this is the dramatic ass female ballad i’m stanning this year and i just feel at home in a clown suit 

19. San Marino / Serhat - Say Na Na Na

never in my life did i expect san marino to actually snap this hard. this is genuinely good while still maintaining that san marinese campy charm and i want nothing more than for serhat to be my kind caring uncle. if europe lets him down it will know nothing but Pain

20. Serbia / Nevena Božović - Kruna

we always stan a good balkan ballad. best one in a while and i hope europe treats her right she deserves it after the tragedy that was moje 3

21. France / Bilal Hassani - Roi

at first i was not feeling this song at all but its really grown on me! bilal loaned me his best clown wig and i feel really pretty

22. Cyprus / Tamta - Replay

this one the other hand has very much grown off me. while it slapped at first when most of the songs out were disappointing nf songs, coming straight after fuego it just feels a little stale. kinda wish cyprus had changed it up more rather than go for more of the same. but ill probably be stanning once may 14th comes around because im a clown

these are also good:

23. Ireland / Sarah McTernan - 22 

this isnt quite good enough to stan but its still a lovely lil pop song. its gonna get absolutely murdered at esc but its cute

24. Sweden / John Lundvik - Too Late For Love

swedens best entry since 2014 and i guess this is sort of a break from the trend However i still have some issues. it does bop but as always it feels like i’ve heard it all before you know what i mean. It slaps in a completely safe way which is fine but I just want sweden to change it up just Once it’s not asking much

25. Czechia / Lake Malawi - Friend Of A Friend

unstoppable force: friend of a friend slaps and is one of czechias best entries. immovable object: making loOooHrve

26. Australia / Kate Miller Heidke - Zero Gravity 

at first the terrible over the top nf staging made me dislike this song a Lot but after I took the time to detach the song from the performance it grew on me a lot. However i still find it a little bit underwhelming but its a nice break from the complete jury bait snores they’ve been sending every year after guy sebastian invented music 

27. Russia / Sergey Lazarev - Scream

this is clearly a song made for a live performance and there’s no doubt its gonna do really well with whatever they’re planning for the staging but that’s kind of my problem with it. while good, it feels incomplete. like a lot of it feels like its leaving room for a live performance moment so as a standalone song it feels lacking you know what i mean

28. Belarus / Zena - Like it

this songs fun and catchy you guys are just mean!! yes its basic but that doesn’t mean it can’t bop. I’m not gonna stan but i’m gonna enjoy it. billie eilish is shaking in her boots

29. Switzerland / Luca Hänni - She Got Me

sorry to be heterophobic but i’m not in love with this song. I was never a fan of his discography and while this song is a massive upgrade from his other songs imo, and extremely catchy, it also feels like hes trying so damn hard to convince everyone hes straight you know what i mean. no song with the lyrics ‘getting rowdy rowdy’ deserves 3rd in the betting sorry sisters. i just cant take it seriously but it still bops and when it does well its not gonna be undeserving, i just like a lot of songs more

30. Denmark / Leonora - Love Is Forever

this song is sweet and i appreciate the multilingualism but its also a little too sweet. Its perfectly fine but i just prefer other songs

31. Austria / Paenda - Limits

i don’t actually dislike this but it really is missing something. hopefully that something is in the staging because as it stands its got the elements of a good atmospheric ballad and shes a great singer but it just never reaches any sort of memorable climax

the whelmed list:

32. Lithuania / Jurijus - Run With The Lions

ok so when i first heard this i really was slapping but with every listen it just gets more and more average to me. when i listen to it i feel like i’m underrating it but then immediately i’ve forgotten lithuania’s competing. but honestly this years too strong we in my bottom 10 and i’m still bopping

33. Estonia / Victor Crone - Storm

this isn’t terrible but it really is just an avicii throwaway from 2013. nevermind that there were much better songs in the nf, its just way too safe. I don’t hate it and i can bop to it if i try but at the same time-wait why can i hear a plane oh god oh fu

34. United Kingdom / Michael Rice - Bigger Than Us

why are we always such a disappointment? michael is a legend but when we’re sending a song that sweden outright told it’s entrant to not use, There’s a problem. when we send a song in welsh it’s over for you hoes

35. Finland / Darude ft. Sebastian Rejman - Look Away

like storm this is just a very average piece of edm. it’s not terrible but it’s not great either. eh

36. Germany / S!sters - Sister

this is a song called sister by a group called S!sters, who aren’t even remotely related. that’s all i’ve got to say

these aren’t great:

37. Israel / Kobi Marimi - Home

look i will forever stan kobi for calling out wiwi but i can’t deny that his song is absolute paint by the numbers toilet break. pass

38. Montenegro / D-mol - Heaven

it does sound like a bad throwback to the 90′s but i guess its at least catchy. which is more than i can say about some songs. its kind of ok if im feeling nice

39. Croatia / Roko Blažević

forget about greece. there is no doubt in my mind that croatia’s gonna win for the second time following jacques houdek’s momentous win in kiyv. and no i am not being held at gunpoint

40. Moldova / Anna Odobescu - Stay

this just sounds like a nq from 2010. anna deserves a better song. next

41. Georgia / Oto Nemsadze - Keep On Going

a day or so i decided to listen to this for once and found myself going ‘this ain’t that bad’. just as i was applying my clown makeup, the song finished and I realised that I could not remember a single second.

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so there it is! that means my qualifiers from each semi are:

Semi 1: Greece, Iceland, Portugal, Hungary, Poland, Belgium, Slovenia, San Marino, Serbia, and Cyprus

Semi 2: Netherlands, Romania, Norway, Albania, Armenia, Azerbaijan, Malta, Latvia, North Macedonia, Ireland

im in danger