#the point is I did math

[gascreates]

a new star

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

[sabertoothwalrus]

my brother has long entertained the notion of a giant person having a big cat as a pet, but the giant is exactly large enough that the cat is proportionately house cat sized.

earlier today we were discussing this again, and decided to figure how exactly big that would be. Using our own cat (who was on his lap at the moment), our shared knowledge of biology, pop culture, linear measurements, and no actual math, we came up with a rough estimation. So if anyone out there needs to know how big a person would need to be for a tiger to be appropriately kitty sized, it’s Optimus Prime. Hope you find this knowledge helpful

[nashvillethotchicken]

It's crazy how people talk about loumand like they hate each other and have never once looked at each other with anything resembling lust, like two nuns at a silent covent. Buddy louis has had bed death with his husband, and that husband wasn't armand lemme tell you that!

[squash1]

in my gansey and noah feelings again because how beautifully tragic, how incredibly circular.

something about the magic of seven years. the same idea as getting to the end of the week or god taking seven days to create the earth. noah living on after his seven years of martyrdom as a kind of saint that must be remembered — not necessarily remembering his physical form, but what he meant, what he represents.

something about the tragedy of one young person given in exchange for the rebirth of another. gansey assuming he is the tragedy, assuming he will repeat noah’s same cycle — dying at 17 — but instead coming to see that it was his cycle to break.

noah slides from time.

gansey wakes up.

and we erase the word murdered and replace it with the word remembered.



[as-i-watch]

Falin is back!!

[9 dead, 3 missing, 5 injured]

[olive-nothere]

Correct me if I’m wrong because at the end of the day I did fail math and I’m still a rookie when it comes to F1 BUT there’s two things that have crossed my mind and I fail to see people mention when it comes to the whole argument about how a lot of people think Oscar should just have let Lando switch places with him in Monza because “Lando has more of a chance to win the championship” and those things are:

1) Oscar is still in contention (even though yes it will be much harder for him to achieve than if he was in Lando’s position); and

2) even though F1 is a team sport, it’s also a individual sport and Oscar is not going to sacrifice his chances to at least be vice champion just because Lando has more points as of now and specially since he still has a chance to actually win the championship.

Like call me a dumbass or whatever but if I was in Oscar’s place I wouldn’t just give it up if I was still in contention. Not to mention that nothing is set in stone yet so. Oh well anyways would love someone who’s more knowledgeable to correct me if I’m wrong lmao

[aroaceleovaldez]

i respect folks who hc Nico as being tall but I love making him short because a.) it’s funny for everyone to be creeped out/super intimidated by a guy who’s not even 5′5″, b.) he’s only 14 as of TOA, so for basically all of the series it makes sense for him to be absolutely tiny especially compared to everybody else (please picture 12 year old Nico, barely 5ft even, sassing Kronos during TLO. you’re welcome.) c.) I usually make Reyna like over 6ft and the mental image of her carrying around tiny Nico like a purse dog is very amusing. Same goes for any character really carrying around Nico like a purse dog.

[kirby-the-gorb]

if you eventually want to see the crochet lace work I struggled all day on fixing I am now sporadically posting my crafts on @sleepy-princess-craftery

[floralfractals]

Hi everyone, I wanted to write a quick update to you guys :)

I made this blog in March of 2021. At the time, I followed my first math course on fractals and dynamics, and had just discovered a tool to make my own awesome fractals. This blog started out as a place to share the art I was making as a coping mechanism during covid, but as I quit making them after a few months, this blog died pretty quickly. In 2022, I decided to start posting regularly again (mostly just shitposts though), just so that the effort I put into this blog wouldn't go to waste.

Then, in the beginning of this year, I started writing my thesis. I posted one (1) shitpost about him (my well-known and popular son), and got 10s of thousands of notes. Every morning I would wake up to another crowd of people who loved the graphs, or were baffled by them, and I got showered in asks to elaborate on him.

Truth be told, 2023 has been a very heavy year for me. A lot of things happened in my personal life, and I lost a dear friend to suicide. It became so difficult for me to keep writing on my thesis, and the project that should have been finished in June this year has now been taking 4 months too many. My mental health has suffered greatly, I haven't been able to take any breaks, and life has just been generally difficult. I have spent nights not being able to sleep because I wanted to finish my bachelor's thesis so bad, but my supervisors would keep demanding more work, more edits, and more drafts. At some point, I even considered quitting my studies and finding a job.

The community has helped me to keep going. Mathematicians and non-mathematicians alike who sent me genuinely interested questions, made me laugh in the notes, created fanart (??? I'm still baffled by this but the people who did this are the coolest in the world) and generally made me feel for the first time that mathematics isn't a universally hated subject. On some days, the only reason I was able to keep going and the only thing keeping me from experiencing burn-out was the support I got through this blog.

Today, 10/12/2023, I turned in my thesis. Thank you so much for your support!

[puppetmaster13u]

Ok, first, love your Meat Marionette AU SO MUCH!

Second, as of 'Batman: The Brave and The Bold' #12, WE HAVE A NEW ROBIN!!!

Meet Mia 'Maps' Mizoguchi!

Oh my! She looks so polite! I need to know more!

[oneofthosecrazycatladies]

Word of advice to incoming university students from someone whose been a university student for nearly a decade now:

Having a good professor seriously makes all the difference. I just had finals for the summer and I took a math class. On the final exam, there was one question I didn’t know how to do so I just skipped it and left it blank…my professor didn’t take off any points for that.

My professor also dropped my lowest test score which raised my overall grade a couple percentage points.

I mean, if you’re just a genius or child prodigy or something then maybe you don’t care about what professors you have, but if you’re just a regular-brained peasant like me, make sure you do your research and actually put thought into the classes you take because who teaches them can make all the difference.

[fatesundress]

do we as a society think tom riddle could do math. yes or no

[roach-works]

insane that people are starting to pass around the ‘notorious pedophile roachpatrol’ shit again to warn new twitter refugees about me when i’ve been openly and blatantly a monsterfucker for my entire time here. like there isn’t a secret nefarious agenda going on. you don’t have to da vinci code my methodology based on scattered scraps of out of context pictures and phrases to prove i’m actually big horny for earth human children. like i am repeatedly reassuring everyone with my whole chest that i like aliens and monsters and women who are big enough to kill and eat me and i said some extremely dumb and poorly-phrased shit about artistic freedom like eight years ago.

i feel like if someone turns out not to be interested in hurting children, your reaction shouldn’t be incredulous rage? it should be relief? like cool there’s one less pedophile in the world than you thought there was. good job! now get off my dick already. i’m saving myself for a nine foot tall alligator woman.

[bananadanshii]

mother.

all layers,, txt is "魔導師" (mage, madoushi in romaji) and "mem aleph", with MOTHER in the middle

without madoushi and mem aleph, and mother in the background:

and speedpaint will be posted soon.. (it took almost an hour to render and save now i have to compress it. 2832 frames.)

[ebonytails]

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