"I can feel you thinking." // "I'm sorry, can't sleep." // "Actually, I have a little something for that." // "Just a little something?" // "Thank you."
Currently ripping out my hair, writhing around on the floor, convulsing, dry-heaving, shaking and crying - (rewatching IWTB) - she loves him so much and he's been so lost without the FBI, without his quest, isolated, hiding from the world, and maybe for a second she thought "this will be good for him, this means he can stop hiding" but almost immediately he's in too deep, he's on his knees in the snow digging for bodies with his hands, obsessing, single-minded, blinded by his mission, so desperate to believe. And all she can think about are all the times she almost lost him before, how many times he cheated death, everything they've sacrificed and all the lucky escapes, the near-misses, and what if this time they don't get lucky? And she begs him to stop, to drop it, to come home, to let the FBI do their work, but even as she's saying it she knows he can't do it, he can't give up, because that's not who he is and she can't ask him to be someone else, and god damn it, what a cruel twist of fate that all the reasons she fell in love with him in the first place are the same reasons she can't follow him back into the darkness? But of course she goes after him, because that's what they do - he went to the ends of the earth to find her, once - and she finds him and he's safe, thank god, another near miss, and then it's over and they're together, and she loves him so much, but she can't quite shake this feeling that maybe next time they won't get so lucky, that maybe if it's not the darkness outside that consumes him, the darkness inside will...
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The X-Files
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Fox Mulder/Dana Scully, Fox Mulder & Dana Scully
Characters: Fox Mulder, Dana Scully
Additional Tags: Angst, Post-Movie: The X-Files: I Want To Believe (2008), Canon Compliant, Pre-X-Files Revival, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt, POV Dana Scully
Summary:
felt a little out of my element here but i’ve been experimenting with environments and backgrounds lately despite having little practice in the past. certain fictional locations feel like home and this is one of them to me