#themidnightdistraction

[themidnightdistraction]

Coming out as Plural

This post will be using I pronouns because it reflects the perspective of the headmate (Felix) writing it. As a plurality as a whole, we use we, our, us and they/them. Each of us have our own personal pronouns too.

What's my Origin?

I don't know. I've had Cerebral Palsy - which since it has physical side effects a lot of people see as a physical disability but which is also neurological - since I was an infant. I also had a seizure in the NICU as a baby. I went through surgeries a lot as a kid. I have also experienced many kinds of trauma, none of which sticks out to any of us as having brought us into being, except maybe once, which coincides with the first time I (Felix) remember fronting in the body, and also lines up with the traditional age range for clinical diagnosis. The thing is, I also have memories of existing before that. Whenever I try to think of when I came from, the only answer that ever makes sense or feels right is that I have always been here. Always been Plural. So, am I Endogenic? Is it likewise possible that the trauma that happened to our brain with our Cerebral Palsy, or maybe the seizure we had as a baby laid the groundwork for us? I don't know. I've sat by the sidelines in the Plural community, listening carefully to the experiences of both traumagenic and endogenic pluralities, of mixed origin people, of those who are disordered and nondisordered, trying to find where I fit in. Though I've loved listening, even as fraught and divided as the community is, nothing I have seen so far matches up quite right with our own experiences of Plurality for us to be able to say, "That's it, that's us!" Our disability often sets us apart in spaces, and it may do so here. Cerebral Palsy changes the brain, it has to map itself differently. It wouldn't surprise me if that opened up new ways to be.

Where do I stand on Syscourse?

We will never be intentionally ableist towards any disordered or traumagenic pluralities. We support them wholeheartedly. We will also strive not to exclude mixed origin or endogenic pluralities or other ways of being plural. We support fictives and factives. We will not be using clinical terms to describe our experiences as we don't currently seek clinical diagnosis of our plurality and don't wish to appropriate anything that doesn't belong to us.

What did I think of Moon Knight?

Ohoho, hoo boy, do I have Thoughts! This went from being the most intimate and beloved hyperfixation (we're adhd) I've ever had to damaging and hurting us (and Me especially!) in episode 5 more than anything ever has. I am ashamed of the writers and wish my goal of becoming a television showrunner was already met so that I could sit down with them and talk peer to peer. I still love the characters, remain a huge fan of Oscar Isaac, and would like to continue watching the show and immersing myself in being a fan of it for as long as it still brings me happiness. SPOILERS AHEAD: Singlets in the fandom please listen to the plural people around you, be conscious of the pain that ep 5 brought me and others like me, and please, for the love of all that is sweet and kind in this world, please stop giffing, reblogging, and showcasing the part where Steven freaks out over his autonomy. Please stop talking about Marc being the only "real" person in his system. This is untrue and harmful. You are making the tags of a show where a lot of us felt seen an unsafe and hostile place for us to be. Please don't do that. I am begging you. There are so many shows with singlet protagonists. Most media depicts us horribly. Let us dictate what the conversation should be in one of the only shows we have ever had that treated us right. I care about your opinions and feelings, I am genuinely excited to know what you think, and I love that you love this show too, so let's find a way to love this together without hurting each other. Thank you.

Does anyone want to introduce themselves?

At this time people are shy, we've spent so long without anyone knowing about us. I'll introduce myself and leave it there for now, but stay tuned for any future intros we might give.

Hi! I'm Felix Midnight. I'm somewhere in my 20s. I'm usually in front unless otherwise specified. My pronouns are he/him/his and they/them/theirs. I'm a femme nonbinary trans man, I’m a goth I’m a geek of many.kinds, a writer and a game dev. I love Interactive Fiction games and I have a studio of my own called MidnightHopeGames. To date all of the games there are mine, but I hope in the future that some of the others may want to make some too. I'd love to be a romance author (despite the fact that I'm arospec I'm a romance positive romance nerd and besides, fiction is awesome) and my ultimate goal is to be a television showrunner. But for now IF is my stage. I love shows like Moon Knight, Legends of Tomorrow, and some seasons of The Flash, but I also love shows like Station 19, Sailor Moon, and Moonlight (2007). I love socializing, and cats and socializing with cats. I am happily spoken for by a giant nerd of a singlet guy who is go to space level smart. Hmm... What else, what else... I think artists/writers/creators, are some of the coolest and bravest people on the planet! Especially IF authors and reader insert fic authors, who are two very different but equally badass communities and I am in awe of every single one of you. I cannot believe the quality and care and time you invest in your work and that we are lucky enough you choose to share it with us. Thank you so much. I support you. Actors, queer people, trans people, BIPOC, disabled people, and ND people, I adore you. Pluralities and systems, you're the coolest! Medical professionals that aren't ableist, you are the backbone of this place. Everybody else, keep being cool. I hope you have things that make life bright and I hope I get to talk with you someday. Thank you all for reading this!

What can you tell us about the body?

31 going on 32, BIPOC, Happa, disabled, neurodivergent, queer (yes, all of us), and objectively hot if you ask me (but I'm biased because it's the one I've got). We would like top surgery someday.

Why now?

Moon Knight has brought plurality into mainstream awareness in a way that is for once not entirely harmful. I've never really felt comfortable being closeted in any way. We held off because we have very clear goals for a future in the public eye creating content and we were afraid that being visibly plural would put those goals at risk. We recently decided to come out as publicly trans and nonbinary and after we saw Moon Knight we have been debating whether closets are actually helping us or hindering us when it comes to plurality. After a lot of back and forth and conversations with the aware singlets most close to us, we have decided that, as creators we want to showcase the world we want to see, and that we would very much like to Be in that world. Not in 10 or 15 or 20 years when the dream of being known as entertainers becomes a reality and we feel like we'd have a platform to come out and make a difference, but now where we can benefit from the very things we're trying to create ourselves. We'd like a chance to be happy, and known, just as we are. so, this is us. Hello. Nice to meet you!