#theodore decker

[frothingbeerbottles]

Breaking news, gay man, reflecting of the thoughts of in love with a girl he forced himself to be in love with and completely conflicting himself because he knows that he’s gay but the compulsion to be normal, accepted and loved the way society views it without it having to be that other gay man who loves him more than anything, has now broken down upon seeing her at her lowest.

[re-jeracize]

good morning i go here now

[droptheguillotineplease]

if you close the door, the night could last forever

[kikomarts]

Wip :]

[theartofperishingslowly]

Donna Tartt 🤝 gay youth with glasses who like doing drugs

[demadogs]

More than anything I was relieved that in my unfamiliar babbling-and-wanting-to-talk state I'd stopped myself from blurting the thing I'd never said, even though it was something we both knew well enough without me saying out loud to him in the street - which was, of course, I love you.

[d3ath4mybirthday]

can we talk about “i think maybe you thought it was something else”??????? talk about THE most heartbreaking line EVER????? everything theo thought of their relationship when they were teens— re-contextualized??? fucking shattering.

[roadkilledthegirl]

theo: i am So good at disguising my Homosexuality because i am not even Homosexual so its so Easy for me to just be a Normal Straight guy who never thinks Gay thoughts and loves Women!

boris: we only fucked when we were kids cos we were bored and there was nothing else to do

theo: w hat.!

[carduelism]

Remembered that Theo in universe is writing The Goldfinch.confessing to murder and gay sex but also murder I guess

[chernychnyi]

comm for @krakoansam! thank you again commissions open!

[diavalkitty]

[frothingbeerbottles]

Theodore Decker writes shit like; “He was the light of my life, Boris Pavlikovsky, the only person that ever cared about me. The only person I embraced every night. The only person I could stand to be around when the nights turned endless and my dreams melted into a painful longing feeling. Boris Pavlikovsky, the only person I’ve ever loved.” and then goes “this dog doesn’t make me look gay right?”

[chilloutdog]

so am i the only one to obsessively think about the fact that it’s been almost 11 years since donna tartt’s last novel came out, aka the best novel of the century, and that i want her new novel so badly that i might actually throw a henry winter in the last chapter of the secret history if i don’t get it

[droptheguillotineplease]

Some very messy sketchbook pages of Boris and Theo

[clairedaring]

THE GOLDFINCH (2019) dir. John Crowley 

[letterstomichelangelo]

donna tartt if it was illegal to make her main character (a man) get kissed (sometimes more) by another man but still "be straight":