Tom's line about Shiv being selfish and "find[ing] it very hard to think about me" is actually so telling because while it's absolutely true that she rarely takes his position into consideration, Tom never once thinks about what he can do to help Shiv unless it also benefits him.
Every single time he makes a move or sacrifice that might help her, it's always something that he thinks will give him a leg up. He volunteers to take the fall for cruises, not for Shiv, who is in no way implicated, or even for Waystar, but because he thinks it'll ingratiate him to Logan, and the second it seems like he might have to actually follow through on that, he immediately tries to get out of it and even throws Shiv under the bus. Meanwhile, for all that Shiv disregards his interests, there are a number of things she does that only help him, and she's the one who actually sacrifices something and undermines her position with Logan to beg him not to let Tom go to jail.
It just makes it so clear that no matter how much he might love her (and I think he does, in his own compromised way), for him their relationship was always built on the underlying assumption that it's her job to prop him up, but it's not his job to help her.
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so it’s like. the significance of location and setting in the waking hours because the normalcy there provides good contrast but also establishes what “normal” looks like before the weirdness and unreality of the river creeps into it and starts eating it from the inside out. but also thinking about making those normal spaces liminal and weird in their own right is fun fodder for the brain. like okay lights out in the dorms and masato’s hanging off a couch upside down. the back of the school where there’s those vending machines tashiro was talking about, standing disgruntled reflected in the glass because he can’t make a decision on what he wants. school hallways during blue hour, walking away at a brisk pace because a lot was happening all at once. that kind of thing. have I lost you yet
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Just finished 2 skeins of sleeve yarn and once again marveling at how little yardage im fitting on a bobbin with this stuff--each skein was 60 yards (55 meters). And each skein was a totally full bobbin of plied yarn (and my singles each took up a bobbin). Part of it is that its very airy (and bulky weight, obviously), and the other part is that my take up is not very high so its not compacting down as it goes on, but even so, it feels like a lot of yarn when i was holding it ! And the spinning and plying was only maybe 2 hours ! Bulky yarn is crazy
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*rises slowly up out of the sink* what was your favorite setting from the wings au?
*vibrating a normal amount* oh there are so many settings which one to pick...okay not the big main facility because I got totally turned around on the interior and was fudging my way through the last chapters despite trying to work it out on paper
I'd say...either the abandoned facility (because I love the being <3) or the gnome village they all live in.
I love that facility because it's alive--for those who haven't read it, I mean that pretty literally. The being has become the facility, and it's such a desolate, lonely thing I can't help adoring it. But also there's something not quite real about the place, it's got secrets and infinite hallways and unexplained things going on there. Like why doors opened for certain people and not others (which does have a logic to it!), and the mystery of the hidden tunnels where Biana disappeared without warning and reappeared unconscious but Off. I get to mess around with things and its so fun
Then there's the gnomish village, which I got to think about more than anywhere else because it was the most consistent location. It does have the downside of I didn't keep track of the layout so I'm not quite sure where everything is there, but like. I got to give everyone their own little personalized house how could you hate that! Wylie's got big windows and Fitz has a second story and Biana's house is covered in flowers and Dex has zebra floors and Tam's is hidden between the trees and like!! It's so fun! And indulgent!
But also! The village in itself is such a big part of the story, it holds so much more importance than just being a location. The evidence of what happened there before them just beneath the surface, the broken pieces they patch together and the meaning that holds. Finding the little stuffed bee and the crystal and the diary that gave context. The village was empty of people but so rich in storytelling potential. I hope I did it at least some justice
So it's probably one of those two, they stand out immediately. They're probably obvious answers but I just like them so much--I mean, the story kept coming back to them, so. anyway I'm sooo normal about the wings au I'm totally not thinking of rereading the whole thing and talking about every single chapter as I do so
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