So I don't know if it was ever revealed how Duncan felt when we killed Malistaire all three times but I'm wondering if maybe some part of him could hate us for that too. Like you hear that and you go "but why. Malistaire was terrible and even Duncan knew that(?). Why would he hate you for getting rid of him."
But like I think it's so....... interesting in a very, very, very sad way how Duncan so easily latches onto anyone who directly feeds into his delusions of grandeur. And that's no fault of his own that he was manipulated by the nasty Schism but when you think about how desperately clung to the idea that Malistaire, easily one of the greatest necromancers any of us had ever heard of (at that time), somehow actually recognized Duncan's talents (even when canon supports that Duncan wasn't all that talented, at least no more than the next necromancer) and then praised him for it so often that Duncan believed that he would be the next Death Professor is. I mean ☹️
So like with that mindset I unfortunately feel like it would be quite easy to twist even Malistaire's death as something that's horrible and awful and all our fault. ESPECIALLY if the Schism was feeding into Duncan's already broken mind and shattered ego and was constantly telling him that everything bad that ever happened to him ever in his life was Our Fault. That's like a realistic conclusion that someone like Duncan could come to
And like, at this point in time, are Malistaire's crimes even a factor in how he thinks????? Was Duncan ever able to separate Malistaire's talent and skills and prowess from the terrible and awful things he did? If Duncan wasn't able to consciously tell that distinction in the first place I can't imagine it would be any better during the years he was being manipulated and isolated and lied to
Like in Duncan's mind it probably isn't, "maybe I shouldn't idolize a national criminal, or idolize anyone at all for that matter, and aspire to be like someone so harmful when I can recognize my own talent and build from there" it's probably more like, "you (the wizard) permanently got rid of a brilliant mind, an innocent person who just made a few mistakes, and someone who believed in me no matter what just so that you could be the better than me and loved by everyone else" and that's! very sad actually!
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i feel like people are much more comfortable being mad than being happy, you should share joy where you can get it
life is too short to shorten it further with stress and anger
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It honestly breaks my heart how many of you I see wanting to die just due to the overwhelming pressures being pushed onto you by your families and by society. It should never have gotten to this point. It's fucked up.
If you feel like you can't take another day, like you can't go to school tomorrow and put in all the work, if you can't imagine a future for yourself where you'll have to work every single day to the point of breaking down, you should be allowed to take a break.
There's so much stigma around taking a break and/or being disabled but it's all constructs. There's nothing wrong with not being able to do things, people just get salty about it because they think "if I can't rest, then no one should". Don't become one those people. Take a break. Value your efforts and rest. Hell, drop out of school if you need to. It's not worth risking your life and nothing else ever will be either. Whenever you feel like you can't take another day of this, just remember, there's always another option.
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I have ocs based off of last night in soho, the hunger games, saw, mean girls, heathers, girl interrupted, thirteen, Scott pilgrim vs the world, everything everywhere all at once, tv girl songs, more songs, the x series (soon to be trilogy) , tlb, fnaf, ahs, infinity pool, the doom generation, us, ready or not, midsommar, arcane, twf, neon demon, orphan, I Tonya, perfect blue, jawbreaker, Jennifer’s body, kill bill, girl from nowhere, helter skelter 2012, suprisa, closer (2004), wild child, assasination nation, the craft, fear street trilogy, stranger things, totally fucked up, twin peaks, moral Orel, Bojack horseman, inside job, the chucky movies, scream (1 and 4), but I’m a cheerleader, Carrie 1976, Priscilla, scream queens, vague totally killer, back to the future,
UPDATE: euphoria (season 1 has a bit more influence than season 2),death note, pretty little liars (mainly season 1 and the season with the dollhouse, but also all the flashbacks with emily and Alison, also Maya), gossip girl , shameless ( esp season 4), Evangelion, the end of Evangelion, fight club, all quiet on the western front, nope, panty and stocking, wild child (2008), Charlie’s angels (not the newest one), class of 2009, serial experiments : Lain , silent hill, lady bird, they cloned Tyrone, birds of prey, moonlight, possession (1981), will update when I’m not fucking lazy
it is also intertwined with like a MILLION different songs
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