#think Dear Evan Hansen's So big So small

[starrspice]

I've had this AU idea bouncing around my head for a while but needed help fleshing out a few ideas

Y/N is an autoshop mechanic who had to take on the role of legal guardian for their two godsons Kirby and Kenny, after their dear friends (the boys' parents) died in a horrible accident.

While struggling to learn how to be a parent alongside mourning their friends Y/N finds themselves in need of a babysitter to watch the boys so they can pick up more work so money isn't so tight.

In come Sun and Moon, who are more than happy to take care of the boys and remind Y/N that parenting is hard, but they're doing great

[ouatsqincorrect]

Who from the family is a theatre nerd? Is there more than one of them? And what is their favourite musical(s)?

For some reason I feel like at least one of them is secretly a huge fangirl/boy about theatre but doesn’t talk about it because it doesn’t seem like a ‘them’ thing to be into. Not to mention that they know they’ll be teased by the rest of the family for like, ever.

ok i’m gonna be honest, i don’t feel very confident in my musical knowledge. everything i know, i know from listening to my aunt, who used to be an actress and from the small list of musicals i’ve actually seen but—

Regina: total nerd when it comes to everything. this woman loves anything she can learn from so musicals are right up her alley. i could see her being a big fan of chicago and les misérables, or even rocky horror

Emma: doesn’t listen/go to musicals. she’d probably like rent though (and tbh so would Regina)

Snow: likes them in theory but not in practice. sound of music is probably her go to

David: this man is too busy listening to beyoncé to have much time for musicals but gets super excited when regina buys them tickets to see the lion king

Zelena: goes through a phase where she tries to listen to every musical she can (they’re mostly regina’s suggestions). wicked is her favorite though. the first time she watches it, she sings the songs at the top of lungs every chance she gets for like two weeks, effectively annoying the shit out of everyone else

Henry: knows a lot about musicals because of regina but doesn’t really think about them all that much on his own. likes dear evan hansen

Belle: total nerd like regina and soaks up any new information, no matter the media. hamilton and hadestown are her favorites

Rumple: secret nerd for musicals. only the family knows. rocky horror and les misérables are his favorites

[atomicbird101]

Sad Butch DeLoria Headcanon

Before leaving Vault 101, after packing his things, he goes to say goodbye to his mother one last time and at least try to make amends in case they never see each other again. Ellen tells him the story of how his father left and it's like "So Big / So Small" from Dear Evan Hansen, and it's bittersweet because she could never kick the drinking habit to be the best mom she could be for Butch.

~

"And I knew there would be moments that I'd miss.

And I knew there would be space I couldn't fill.

And I knew I'd come up short a million different ways,

And I did. And I do. And I will."

~

I like to think that she tried, but she just couldn't. I think maybe she resented Butch more and more as he grew up because he looked more and more like his dad, which caused her to take it out on him more when she was drunk. Although she was a terrible mother, (there's no denying nor excusing that) she does want him to know he can always come back home because she's not leaving anytime soon. Even if she's not sober, she's still there.

~

"Your mom isn't going anywhere. Your mom is staying right here.

Your mom isn't going anywhere. Your mom is staying right here,

No matter what. I'll be here."

~

And maybe he does go back for a day or two after Project Purity, even if it's just to tell Amata about the fate/coma of her best friend. Maybe he needs a brief sense of familiarity now that the Lone Wanderer is dead/could be dying. However, regardless of Ellen's condition, he can't stay, and she wonders for the rest of her life if things would've been different if she loved her son as much as he loved her. Either way, he's not at her side when she dies.

[golden--doodler]

This is inspired by a conversation I had with @drawthething yesterday, but I decided to make musical theater-related headcanons for all the Belchers:

Linda loves musicals a ton (of course) and has definitely put on some music from Dear Evan Hansen in the restaurant before, especially Waving Through a Window and So Big, So Small, and cried internally. Sometimes even externally, and Bob had to take her outside to calm her down and remind her it was all fictional. She just loves Heidi Hansen and her relationship with Evan so much.

Bob likes the Beetlejuice musical just because Adam and Barbara's relationship reminds him so much of his and Linda's, though he still won't admit he enjoys it. He especially likes the line in Ready, Set, Not Yet that goes like: "To the untrained eye it's boring, but nothing's a chore when you're restoring, apart from frustration, pain, and financial drain". That was extremely relatable to him. He was also not okay when they died at the end of that number--he was relieved when they came back as ghosts but was still upset.

Gene is obsessed with Six and his ultimate goal is to be a Queen in that show one day. He was a mess after listening to All You Wanna Do for the first time, but did not understand the innuendos in the beginning like "plucked my strings all the way to g, went from major to minor, c to d". He just appreciated the music metaphors. His favorite Queen is Anna of Cleves, though, because Get Down, in his opinion, is the most fun, most fabulous number. And because she's so sassy and full of life. As a bonus, Tina's favorite is Catherine of Aragon because she really likes Aragon's scorned lover vibes and No Way is such a bop. Louise's is Anne Boleyn because she gives off a "don't care, just wanna have fun" kind of vibe, and Don't Lose Your Head is such a crazy good time. She also finds it interesting how much of a temptress Boleyn was portrayed to be, and actually read up a lot on the woman after listening to the soundtrack.

Tina's favorite music still comes from Boyz 4 Now, but she enjoys some musicals. She likes West Side Story for the forbidden romance (she likes picturing herself as Maria and Jimmy Jr. as Tony) and the fifties setting is just really cool to her. She also thinks In the Heights perfectly captures the feeling of summer, and likes listening to a couple songs from it when the weather starts warming up.

Louise won't admit she likes a few musicals, but she definitely does. She thinks Wicked is a really interesting tale of a genuinely good person being affected by their environment (I like to think when she's older, she'll use the musical to write a paper on the whole "Nature Vs. Nurture" topic). She also loves Sweeney Todd, but NOT JUST BECAUSE OF THE MURDER SHE SWEARS. She respects Stephen Sondheim as a composer a ton and thinks Sweeney's internal struggle and emotional journey are incredibly fascinating. She definitely dressed up as him one year.

As another bonus, Teddy doesn't listen to many musicals but really likes Cats and will frequently go to war with detractors, and argue about how it's actually a good musical. Sometimes he's way too passionate and some of his arguments are nonsensical, but a lot of the time he actually makes really good, well-thought-out points on why he enjoys it so much.

[familyvideostevie]

🌽 with steve pls

If I could tell her Tell her everything I see If I could tell her How she's everything to me But we're a million worlds apart And I don't know how I would even start

if i could tell her from dear evan hansen

ty for the request!! i went with a classic "tell your crush you like them to their face kind of" situation but i guess it's a little angsty!!!!! <3 hope you like! (fem!reader) __ "And then there's how she bites her lip when she's thinking," Steve groans. Robin nods her head sympathetically before making eye contact with you over his shoulder.

"Hey!" she cries, loud enough that Steve flinches, hand coming to his ear as he turns.

"Christ, Robin, why did you yel-- oh. Hey!" He smiles big as you approach the counter.

"What were you talking about?" you ask. "Looked serious."

Steve's face reddens but Robin perks up. "Oh, just the girl Steve likes." You try really hard to keep a neutral expression.

"Oh?" you say. "Well, don't stop on my account. Tell me about her."

"Uh," he hesitates. "Well, she's pretty?" Robin snorts and he glares at her. "She's beautiful, actually. Her hands are just so...nice. And Her lips and eyebrows when she talks? Her eyes sparkle even in like, fluorescents. And she --"

"Okay," you say. "I think we get it. Anything else?" Your chest hurts a little to listen to him talk about someone like this when you've liked him for ages, but what can you do?

"Jesus, fine," Steve mumbles. He looks at you as he starts again. "She's just...great. She's funny and she's kind. She always knows what to say. She remembers people's birthdays and when she's frustrated this crease appears between her eyebrows that's just so --"

"Steve," Robin says. She's watching you clench your fists in your sleeves, but he keeps going.

"And she's a great friend, and she's really important to me, and I just want to tell her all of that." He's looking at you still and a really small part of you thinks, maybe...just maybe...

"You should," you mutter. "You should tell her. She'd be lucky to be loved by you, Steve." And you turn around and walk out of Family Video before you can hope any more.

"Shit!" Steve yells after you.

join the celebration!

[definitelynotahunter]

hey guys

don't think about inko and izuku

and so big/so small from dear evan hansen

[nonbinarytheatrekid07]

Shows I Wish My School Could Do But We Can't For Various Reasons[mostly just because our director doesn't know about any new musicals]

Be More Chill (Why; small cast, relatively new so our director doesn't know about it, adult themes or whatever)

Newsies (Why; ahaha we can't dance like that, again it's new-ish and older director, really big cast)

Ride The Cyclone (Why; Small cast, ohh no swearing and talking about sex a bit ohhhhh noooo, ahaha we can't sing like that, new)

Spring Awakening (Why; do I really need to explain this one? Also I don't really want to because I don't think we could pull it off)

Dear Evan Hansen (Why; Bro we can't get the rights for that, new)

Therefore, our first modern musical will be Freaky Friday

[koolkat9]

What are your favorite musicals and which musicals would you assign to your favorite countries based on personality? Yes, This is me asking what Music themes you'd assign them too I guess without looking at youtube and seeing videos 10 years old. I miss seeing Character Theme videos.

Oooh this is a good one! I'm also going to share musicals that make me think of some ships too because I want to ramble about the two musicals that make me think of a GerEng AU.

Okay but Characters.

Canada- Dear Evan Hansen

I know. Kind of basic. But I love DEH. "Waving Through a Window" is such a Mattie song. But what really sells the idea for me is that "So Big / So Small" is such a good song for Royal Red Bros. Francis is the dad that left, and Arthur tries to pick up the pieces, but also fails Matthew. Just the dynamic between Evan's Mom and Evan is just perfect for these two. Like Evan's mom does love Evan, but being a single mom isn't easy and to provide for him she has to work ridiculous hours so she's not there for him physically. Which is a similar postion Arthur finds himself in.

Also the lines

"That night I tucked you into bed

I will never forget how you sat up and said

'Is there another truck coming to our drive way?

A truck that will take mommy away.'"

Just hit me so hard with feels for Arthur and Matt. Just imagining a little Mattie asking Arthur one night if Arthur is going to leave him behind too. Because Francis left and Arthur seems so much more focused on Alfred. Matthew it terrified it will happen again. And it breaks Arthur's heart.

ALTERNATIVELY

Canada - Next to Normal (Specifically the song "Superboy and the Invisible Girl")

I don't know enough about what this musical is actually about other than we follow our main character Diana who is struggling with bipolar disorder and hallucinations of her dead son. And basically I think it shows how her condition affects her family?

But we did "Superboy and the Invisible Girl" for some concert once and I actually played Diana. And every time I rehearsed this song, all I could think of was ACE Family.

It is primarily Natalie, Diana's daughter, feeling neglected and ignored because of her Mother's grief over her son's death.

This line really makes me think of the two, especially after Alfred has become independent and Matthew attempts to pick up the pieces of a broken Arthur:

"Super boy and the invisible girl

He's the one you'd wish would appear

He's your hero, forever your son

He's not here, I am here"

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America - Hamliltion

For obvious reasons. American history. Main character is smart, but also so impulsive. "I'm not Throwing Away my Shot" always make me think of Al.

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England - Mary Poppins

Of course I choose something obvious. You know how much I love Arthur with kids. And Mary Poppins is that strict parental figure, but she does want what's best for the kids in her care, and I think that's perfect for Arthur.

Also I just love imagining Arthur singing "Feed the Birds."

Also also. get 2p England involved and make Oliver Bert. So double the Englands making it more fitting. Alternatively Gilbert could be Bert to make it Pruk instead.

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GerEng - Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

I have this whole musical casted with Hetalia characters. But the summary first because its probably a musical not many know. I really don't know how to encompass everything so I'm just going to steal the summary from IMDb:

"A down-on-his-luck inventor turns a broken-down Grand Prix car into a fancy vehicle for his children, and then they go off on a magical fantasy adventure to save their grandfather in a far-off land."

God I had orginally had a long decription of a cast list for this but I'll ramble about that in another post. All you need to know though:

Arthur as Caratacus Potts - The down on his luck inventor and single father. Sometimes his work distracts him, but he really does love his kids

Ludwig as Truly Scrumptious - A candy heiress who meets the Potts family after almost running over the children when they run out into the road. She and Caratacus kind of get off on the wrong foot when she argues that the kids should be in school and not running around. But after he impresses her with his inventions and she joins them on their adventure in their magic car, the two fall in love.

Peter as Jeremy and Jemimah - Because I can't think of a second child to go with Peter I just have Peter right now. Because I love GerEng being dads to him.

Anyway. The songs.

First we have "You Two" which actually makes me imagine things separate from this au. Because this is also so good for ACE Family. I ramble about it more here.

"Doll On a Music Box" One of my favourite songs to listen too to daydream about GerEng. Just them pulling the same stunt Caratacus and Truly do to rescue the kids. Also Ludwig dressed up as a doll is a nice image.

"Lovely Lonely Man" Could work for either of them, but I always have loved the idea of Ludwig singing this about Arthur. Because Ludwig fell fast just like the song suggests while Arthur took a bit of time. It's just a perfect monologue of Ludwig admitting his feelings to himself.

God I could go on but I'll save the rest for a separate post

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Okay one last one for GerEng! Music Man.

Summary from Stage Agent: "There’s trouble in River City! When smooth-talking con man Harold Hill arrives in a small, tight-knit town in Iowa, he expects to dupe its residents with his elaborate moneymaking scheme: Despite his complete lack of musical literacy, he will convince everyone that he is a brilliant bandleader and recruit all the boys in town to form a band, pocketing the cash for instruments and uniforms. The problem? Some of the town members, especially the stern librarian, Marian Paroo, don’t quite buy Harold’s story. As Harold struggles to keep his scheme afloat, he also finds himself increasingly attached to the townspeople, who have all experienced a positive change since Harold came to town. Complicating matters even more, Harold is also falling head-over-heels for the beautiful Marian."

God I could go on about this one too, but keeping it brief:

Arthur as the con man Harold Hill selfish and prideful only to have a change of heart by forming genuine connections within the town.

Ludwig as the stern yet also hopeless romantic Marian. That despite knowing Arthur is a con man sees him grow and falls for him

"Goodnight My Someone / Seventy-Six Trombones (Double Reprise)" The two leads main songs coming together with them singing each other's half way through. God I just love thinking of GerEng for this scene so much! I think its so romantic to sing each other's themes to each other.

Also "Goodnight My Someone" on its own is very fitting for Ludwig. As is Marian's chacter as whole. Both are stern indivduals, refusing to take nonsense from anyone. They seem like a stick in the mud, perhaps a little cold, but both have a sweetness deep down, longing for connection. And "Goodnight My Someone" is when we first see this side of Marian.

"Marian the Librarian" Just the back and forth and tension in this song. Hill/Arthur is kind of a dick. Flirting, but really he's just playing a game at this point and bugging Marian/Ludwig at work when they're clearly aren't having it. It's another fun scene I like imagining GerEng. Especially since Arthur is really pushing his luck angering someone who could snap him like a toothpick he'd be into that let's be honest but that's not a discussion for this blog

Thank you anon for letting me combine my love of musical theatre and my love for Hetalia together! I encourage more questions like this actually so don't be scared guys!

[yourfavoritefandomchild]

Saw Dear Evan Hansen for the first time today with a friend in Chicago, heart is absolutely OBLITERATED after that show, head is still swimming so here’s stuff I liked about it that I didn’t get from the soundtrack:

-Connor doing a little knee swoosh dancey-dance with Evan in Sincerely, Me

-Every single reprise (SPECIFICALLY the little bit of For Forever that Connor sings to Evan, and the Sincerely, Me reprise at the beginning of Act 2)

-Every time Evan panics, might’ve just been the actor but his anxiety was portrayed so realistically it hurt me

-Building off the last point, I love how my perception of Evan was changed through the show, seeing how much everything affected HIM and how big of a misunderstanding everything was switched my perspective from “gross liar ruins everyone’s life” to “depressed and anxious dude ruins his own life” in such a real, gut-wrenching way

-The way that dialogue with the Murphy parents filled the pauses in For Forever

-In You Will Be Found, Larry (Connor’s dad) finally crying about Connor’s death after keeping up a strong front since he died

-Every single bit that Jared was there was ICONIC, every jab he made at Evan/“Connor” was flawlessly funny and when he was hurt by his lies/defensiveness later you really felt it too

-UM,, THE BIT WHERE EVAN GAVE A SPEECH FOR THE CONNOR PROJECT AND CURLED INTO A BALL??? NEVER SEEN SOMETHING SO RELATABLE????

-I could not care less what you think about the recording of So Big/So Small, it WILL make you cry live

-Like every other part of it genuinely could make a mile long list of things I loved about it

In conclusion, Dear Evan Hansen is the world’s biggest gut punch and live theatre is fucking magical, go see a live show (ANY LIVE SHOW) if you have the resources it WILL change how you see theatre.

[to-know-how-it-ends]

Hi theater kids!

I recently had the privilege to see the touring cast of Dear Evan Hansen!! It was beautifully done with a wonderful cast and great set.

Now. I know you all think Dear Evan Hansen is a bit (if not very) overrated. 

You are right. 

However.

I cannot deny that, despite it being overrated, it is an amazing show with stellar vocals, cool set design, and although the plot (and main character, tbh) is a bit problematic, it has some beautiful messages that I really connected to, as well as such gut-wrenchingly beautiful and painful songs that truly hit so hard I had to physically restrain myself from making noise while I was bawling. 

Our Evan, Pierce Wheeler (u/s) gave a different but welcome take to Evan that I didn’t see in Ben Platt’s version. Pierce seemed a lot more excited when talking to his mom and Jared. For example, you know the part where Heidi goes “I’m proud of you already!” In Ben’s version, his response is like a sarcastic-ish. “Oh. Good.” Whereas Pierce’s is “Oh! Good!” He seems like he has a better relationship with his mom, which makes it more painful when he can’t tell her how his day went because he doesn’t want her to worry (Yeah! Yeah... today was... (LONG AGONIZING PAUSE) it was a good day!) and when things eventually fall apart. He has a clear, beautiful voice that clearly conveys his every emotion. He also seemed actually like a high-schooler instead of a 30 year old man. His performance was absolutely amazing, I wish I could replay it in my head a million times. 

I loved our Heidi, Colleen Sexton, who accurately portrayed her exactly as I had always imagined her from listening to the soundtrack, if with, dare I say, a little more emotion than I had remembered. (that being said, I’ve never seen any other cast but this and that one bootleg of the obc) My mom was watching with me, and told me after the show that she related way too much with Heidi. All the songs were beautiful (and painful, tbh) , but to be honest, (and this is a song I’ll usually skip if it comes up on my playlist) Colleen’s “So Big/So Small” absolutely broke me. I related so much to the themes and the topics in the song. There was a recent moment in my life where I was so certain my mom would hate me, but instead, she, like Heidi, said that she will be right here with me. All in all, wonderful performance.

One scene that I really loved was at the end of You Will Be Found where Larry absolutely broke down and just let Cynthia hug him. It was so sweet and so impactful.

The rest of the cast were all wonderful, their voices were beautiful, and the messages of the show left me feeling hopeful, despite how desperate and painful life can seem. 

So yes, Dear Evan Hansen is overrated. But it truly gave me so much validation about the way I’ve been feeling for so long and some really wonderful messages that, even if cheesy, I will hold with myself forever.

 - mimi

[themisscuy]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨ >:)

Mmmm...

Most of these are sad songs and from musicals ohmy

"If I Could Tell Her" - Dear Evan Hansen the musical

"Two Birds"

"All You Wanna Do" - Six the musical

"So Big/So Small" - Dear Evan Hansen the musical

Can't take my eyes off of you - I think, a lofi version? Covered by Craymer jsjs

And hehe I'm a bit shy sowwy-

[avese23]

Dear Evan Hansen but he never actually talks to Conners family but besides that it’s all the same. Like framing the whole narrative that instead of keeping the truth from the murpheys he’s keeping the truth from the audience. And so we start out only with this story of For Forever, and Evan with friends and a happy family (essentially what people who only listened to a few songs from the musical without context would think) but the story has holes in it which get bigger and bigger and we find out that his friends were just doing it for appearances and that he’s not dating Zoe he hadn’t even talked to her or her parents, and Conner wasn’t his support system he was a bully and a very damaged and hurting person. And then the first big moment is the reveal of why he “fell” off the tree. And he finally admits to the full truth. But then we see that the Murpheys weren’t perfect and the people at school aren’t perfect and are reminded that despite their struggles, Evan and his mom have their familial love and that counts for a whole lot and he starts to appreciate that proper and have hope again. And the ghost of Conner that’s been haunting him finally says goodbye and instead of holding onto events he can’t change Evan honors Conners memory by reaching out to people who are currently hurting and finds real connection and starts to make small change in the lonely feeling of the school so people can keep the stars in their eyes

Also very unrelated to this thought dump but damn, canon Evan really did the whole Harry Potter “I want a nuclear family so I’m gonna marry their daughter” thing which… ughckk

Also also if anyone has Tree Boy Au type fics where Conner represents depression and Evan represents Anxiety that go into deep metaphorical and emotional shit without being immensely triggering please send, I’ve always loved the concept but never got around to reading it

[sincerelyang3l]

Thursday October 26, 2023

💕 Some Random Facts About Me 💕

I’m 5’2

I love ocean critters but am extremely thallasophobic

I love orcas, they’re really cool

I’ve been single for a year and a month

My favorite music artist is Will Wood

I’m an atheist

I love Drag/Ru Paul’s drag race

I think Gordon Ramsey is pretty rad

I’m a theatre kid

I’ve been in 6 different stage productions, 3 of which were musicals

Aliens are swag, prove me wrong

Some of my favorite fandoms are: Ace Attorney, Midnight Mass, Don’t Starve, Dear Evan Hansen, Be More Chill, The Steve Saga, Good Omens, Faith the Unholy Trinity, Stardew Valley, Beacon Pines, and Gravity Falls

I’m a little silly

I have 3 comfort movies: The Exorcist (1971), The Lords of Flatbush, and The Outsiders

I have one cat named Angel

I’m a decently good artist but I suck at painting/color theory (I don’t understand it and never will)

My favorite musical is Phantom of the Opera

I started going to a new school this year

I have an industrial piercing on my right ear

My second favorite musical is Jekyll and Hyde

I enjoy anime, but I’m not big on it

Michael Sheen has my entire heart

I’m an asexual

I wear a size small

#BanSeaWorld

Some of my favorite books are Haunting Adeline, The Love Hypothesis, and Priest

Despite being an atheist, I love religious media

Some of my favorite bands are: Will Wood and the Tapeworms, The Arctic Monkeys, and Hozier

My favorite song atm is Love, me Normally by Will Wood

My favorite color varies between orange and peach

My favorite class I have atm is Speech and Drama

I’m on the yearbook committee at my school

I love iced coffee (specifically iced mocha)

I write occasionally

I used to write poetry (I wasn’t very good tho)

Full House is my comfort show

I don’t enjoy playing but I love watching basketball

Badminton and Tennis are my two favorite sports

I have lots of OC’s but my oldest is Anathema, who’s had several different names over the course of 5 years

I’ve only ever had 3 real partners (all of which didn’t work out obviously)

My least favorite class I have right now is Agriculture

So yeah, I’m pretty cool ig 👍

[mothlegs]

i am tired and cozy and in a good mood so i will talk about how i got all my books :)

tired cozy also gives me a bit of bravery so i am hugging all my mutuals. especially two specific ones because i see you doing badly but i am too shy to approach you directly so i hope you see this and magically know i am giving you the most caring hugs and i hope things are better soon

anyways books:) or well bookcase, not all reading books. im looking from my bed so i cant see all of them But

Sketch Books x2 (+1 smol ver)

i dont know how i got thes3 actually. maybe from tiger? i miss when tiger was t. uh. how do you spell that. tier..? ti'er?? idunno. the old name. i think these are all filled up, i think i got the first one when i was 10 :]

ANATOMY

This is a book full of naked people that i guess i accidentally stole. oops. i borrowed it from a now ex family friend who is insanely good at art, when i was like 12 or 13, and then it ended up on my floor and i ended up telling people he was kinda Weird(bad) about me (regret! made everything bad despite being true) so now we dont talk to him anymore so he cant get the book back. bah

Uhh a connect the dots magazine(?) my grandma gave me. dunnno when. i dont think ive touched it since :( sad cause i love connecting dots

I Am Looking From My Bed So Can't See What These Are x2 + Some loose papers

Fancy journal/sketch book/idk my mom bought for me in the big city :)!!

Undertale art book <333

I got it as a very late christmas present when i was 11 or 12 years old as well as some other undertale stuff and i literally started crying

I think this ones a diary i never really used that my mom got me and my grandma years ago. oop

Dear Evan Hansen !!!

i love this book. it is better than the musical. i love miguel and they had a perfect opportunity to put him in the movie but they didnt so i hope the movie goes to the movie version of hell

i got it when i was 14 i think? the week before it came i was actively suicidal in a "i feel a burning need inside me that is screaming at me to die" and that book might just be the only reason i didnt attempt then

Salmon Coloured Book From Tiger. cant see anything else about it and i have no memory of it

Skammeren's Datter

i think my grandma found this being given away for free at the library? one of my favourite books as a child my mom used to read it to me before bed when i was 11:)

Fængslende Tanker

book about intrusive thoughts my mom borrowed me at some point within the last 2 or 3 years

Tidsfangen

also my moms it is fiction i remember nothing about it oop

The Song of Achilles

i saw it on tumblr and liked it so got it as a gift at some point. i dont remember when, i still havent read it :(

Books my grandma got from a library giving them away x6

i havent read any of these:( also dont remember when i got them

Skammeren's Datter 1-2 & 3-4

the full series im p sure!! wanna reread themm

MAUS

i got it for my last birthday!! i havent gotten very far in reading but it is very good and i am learning and developing curiousities

The Unofficial Ghibli Cookbook

also for my last birthday!! havent made anything from it yet but it is really cool and i am so excited to make food from my favourite movies:))

Fever Series x3 (+1 in my nightstand)

currently rereading these, i havent read the 4th book tho

i found the first book at the library when i was pretty small, definitely less than 10, but i was too scared to read it. i think i gave up on reading it like 3 times but i kept thinking about it and eventually i read it and fell in looove. i love these books so much:D they are about everyone in sweden dying of fever except some kids:)

The Witch Boy

i first saw this book in sweden when i was 13 years old. it was in the basement of a game store, which is also the only store i have bought my own dice from. it also had a life size alien from the movies

i dont remember when i got the book myself though :( ive read some of it some years ago but dont think i finished it

More books my grandma got for free from the library x6

Wreck This Journal

my mom gave it to me when i was like 11 but i never really got to wrecking it u.u

Dreadnought

IT IS ABOUT A TRANS SUPERHERO :D her name is danny and i read some of it a summer in a tiny bedhouse (1 room building with 2 beds and nothing else. didnt even have a real door!!) at my aunties summerhouse (they are rich) i think i heard of it on tumblr. i love this book a lot but i havent finished it u.u

Extra Room No Books

d&d stuffs, some small toys and plushies, uuuh i see a small cardboard box but i dont remember whats inside:)

Shelf Below My Fancy Clothes

BNHA 1-17 i think?? also some Vigilantes, Black Butler 1+2, Bungou Stray Dogs 1, iii think thats it? i cant see it from here so idk

all of these were gifts from my grandma :)

"Nightstand" (chair thing i use as a nightstand)

First fever book

Killing Stalking 1+2 (bought at a comic store myself!! i was literally jumping around the store i was so excited to be there there was so much cool manga and there was stuff by neil gaiman!!! this is where bsd and the cookbook are from too)

The Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy (given to me by a mutual actually :3 but like. mmmany years ago and i still havent read it >_o im sowey but i appreciate it a lot and i treasure it forever)

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W8 | Tutorial

Unpack 2 chosen elements:

I have decided to unpack the Adobe Logo and the "The Public Theatre" Logo. I have chosen these two elements because I feel that they best showcase my strengths and weaknesses as well as my goals and inspirations.

My 20 Elements & Final Explanations:

Musical Theatre

Musical Theatre, dance and other art forms can educate individuals on how to express themselves. It can also communicate important societal messages to an audience through creative measures. I think that musical theatre is a beautiful way of showcasing one's love for music through expressive song and dance numbers and some musicals showcase powerful messages about society, history, beliefs and culture. For example, Hamilton, Hairspray, Wicked, Les Mis and Dear Evan Hansen. These are just some of my favourite stories.

Music

Creating or listening to music increases blood flow to the regions of the brain that can control emotions. I have always been surrounded by music as all my family members can sing or play an instrument. Music is a powerful tool that can improve someone's health by lowering blood pressure, pain, and anxiety. 

Pasta

Pasta is the best meal in the world. To me pasta will never get old, it can be done in so many ways with so many different flavours. It is my comfort food and my study brain power food. I think I work best after a big bowl of pasta.

Australia Zoo

I grew up in Australia and Australia Zoo and the Irwin family were a huge inspiration for me. Their passion for animals and conservation is something I really admire and I can very easily say that Australia Zoo is my favourite place on earth. I would love to create work that raises awareness in the brilliant way that they do.

MILK Studio

MILK Studio is a very interesting art studio. After researching them and diving into their digital portfolio I noticed they did a lot of brand identity systems which is something that I am very attracted to.

Ipad + Pencil

I bought myself an Ipad and Pencil when I was 17. From then on all I have wanted to do is design. I have gone from designing posters for my high school to designing logos and brand identity systems for uni with the hopes of getting a degree in graphic design communications.

Business

I believe I have a natural knack for business and entrepreneurial endeavours. I started a small business on my own in highschool (about animal conservation) that led to 3 awards. Excellence in customer service, individual of the year and 3rd in my region for YES Enterprise Scheme. I would love to start my own full fledged business one day. 

Sunflower Tattoo

My favourite flower is a sunflower, because they are beautiful and because they symbolise positivity and hope. My tattoo is matching with my Mum because she believes I embody the same things as a sunflower and has always gifted them to me on birthdays and as celebratory gifts.

Environmental / Conservation

Due to my upbringing in Australia I was surrounded by wildlife and developed a strong love for all things nature and animals. I like to create work and campaigns that encourage people to think about others and the consequences that actions may have on our wildlife. I want to ensure that our wildlife will be protected for future generations to see.

Specific Colour Palette

I have noticed throughout my work that I am not yet comfortable using an extensive colour palette. I like to stick with black, white and one other colour that I choose based on the task at hand. I think this is natural to me because I have not yet travelled outside of my comfort zone and most of the work I am attracted to has a simple colour palette.

Maori Culture

I am part Maori as my Grandfather on my Mum's side is full Maori. We have never been super in touch with our Maori heritage, but since I have gotten older I have decided to make an effort to learn more about my culture and the significance it has in New Zealand. I want to celebrate being part Maori and showcase this culture through as much work as I can.

People 

I have forever gained my energy from surrounding myself with people. I enjoy meeting and learning about people and discovering their needs and wants in life. I have a gift that allows me to learn about someone's family and history whilst working behind a counter at a gas station. I would like to use this skill in the design industry to develop customer relationships just like the Alt Group.

Mental Health 

I think it is important to be aware about mental health and to talk openly about it in order to reduce misconceptions that people may have. I believe that we should aim to encourage those who are suffering to seek help and I believe design can be one of the elements in the pathway to encouraging reaching out for help.

Identity Systems (The Public Theatre)

I love learning about a company or a business in order to find out what they are about and how I can best create a logo or design system that represents the message and image they hope to present to the public. Paula Scher’s work with The Public Theatre is a great example of an excellent Identity System that inspires me greatly.

Publication design (Astrid Stravo)

I enjoy organising information and graphics into a well laid out publication. I am drawn to Astrid Stravo’s work because she uses a similar colour palette to what I usually go for. I also  like that her publication layouts are simplistic, sophisticated and interesting. I would like to learn more about publication design and to discover new and intriguing ways to present information.

Adobe

Adobe is a designer's greatest tool. It holds so many opportunities for creatives to express themselves. I am both intrigued and terrified by the endless possibilities in the adobe suite. I am dedicated to learning as much as I can about these programs before graduating and beginning my journey into the design industry.

Neurodivergent Umbrella

I am really intrigued by the neurodivergent community and wish to learn more about them and how I can use design to make some things in life easier. My interest in this community comes from my Mum as she works with children on the spectrum and helps them in a way that allows them to thrive and learn.

Leadership

I have always loved being a leader and taking on leadership opportunities. I think this has to do with my people skills and the way I communicate with others. One day I would like to be a head of a company or own my own business.

Typography

I am really intrigued by Typography and the way it is crafted and created. Kris Sowersby is a huge typography inspiration of mine as I love his thought process behind the work that he creates.

Family Tree

Family is a huge part of my life. I am the oldest child on both sides of my family and have over 10 cousins. I am greatly inspired by my family members and they each support me in their own way. I take their opinions very seriously and I am always striving to make them proud.

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⸻ ALFRED ENOCH. HE/HIM / have you ever heard of THE MIDDLE by jimmy eat world, well, it describes CAMERON HUGHES to a tee! the age in thirty-one year old, and SECONDARY SCHOOL COUNSELOR was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say HE is more scatterbrained trait or more OPTIMISTIC instead? anyway, they remind me of always checking in on everyone, a golden retriever human, always giving small gifts like a crow to the people he cares about, has a pamphlet for every problem you can think of, and singing just keep swimming unironically, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ KIT ]

⸻ KRYSTEN RITTER. SHE/HER / have you ever heard of ALL I REALLY WANT by alanis morrisette, well, it describes DOMINO MOORE to a tee! the forty year old, and BOOKKEEPER / RETIRED CRIMINAL was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say SHE is more paranoid or more PREPARED instead? anyway, they remind me of a walking calculator, secret hiding spots for several knives in one outfit, rubber bands as bracelets, yelling in whispers to not wake up the kids, and taxidermy collections, maybe you’ll bump into them soon!

⸻ SASHA LANE. SHE/THEY/ have you ever heard of LIABILITY by lorde, well, it describes TALLULAH ‘TULLY’ HARRIS to a tee! the age in twenty-eight year old, and COOK at the BLUEBIRD CAFE was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say SHE is more spiteful or more OBSERVANT instead? anyway, they remind me of bringing resting bitch face to a whole new level, looking like she’s judging you and is judging you, eating fast with hands because silverware is too slow, duct taped converse, and revenge lists, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ KIT ]

⸻ DEAKEN BLUMAN. HE/HIM / have you ever heard of ACE UP MY SLEEVE by lord huron, well, it describes NIXON ‘NIX’ EDWARDS to a tee! the twenty-five year old, and BARTENDER at PROHIBITION LOUNGE was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say HE is more arrogant or more CONFIDENT instead? anyway, they remind me of always pulling through no matter how bad it gets, caring way too much about his hair, plain black or white fitted tees, random talents no one would guess he has, and a lucky leather jacket, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ KIT ]

⸻ JUSTICE SMITH. HE/HIM / have you ever heard of WAVING THROUGH A WINDOW by dear evan hansen obc, well, it describes LAKE STEVENS to a tee! the twenty-eight year old, and TEAM LEADER at SAINSBURY’S was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say HE is more withdrawn or more PRIVATE instead? anyway, they remind me of talking for hours about pokemon/video games/comics but can’t say hello first, blending into the crowd, awkward encounters, routines that are rarely broken for anything, and fun facts about arcade machines a plenty, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ KIT ]

⸻ NATASHA LYONNE. SHE/HER / have you ever heard of LADY LIKE by ingrid andress, well, it describes FRANCES ‘FRANKIE’ BLUM to a tee! the age in forty-four year old, and OWNER of THE DISTILLERY was spotted browsing through the stalls at portobello road market last sunday, do you know them? would you say SHE is more crude or more COLORFUL instead? anyway, they remind me of smoking like a chimney, swearing like it’s going out of style, mad scientist but with liquor, a bronx accent mixed with a british flair, and hair so big you could get lost in it, maybe you’ll bump into them soon! [ KIT ]