#this embarrasses me yet makes me happy

[fisherrprince]

oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock

[malk-with-tea]

overwhelmingly warm

[tmntkiseki]

Me when people show a genuine interest in Iseult (the OC)

[purpurussy]

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[my-thirteenth-reason]

kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)

[dont-be-late-to-the-dance]

Tried to get back into my Serrennedy childhood friend AU. And if I am allowed to be very personal on main for a moment, I think my being unable to work on a fic where Leon has a shit load of trauma because of my trauma is Something

And I'm realizing there's probably a lot more to unpack than I thought. I thought the reason trying to reread any of it and working on the draft for the next chapter was simply because I wrote it while in the traumatic situation, so it reminded me of it.

I didn't ever intentionally channel what I was going through into the fic… but it slipped in. Leon's hair not being washed often enough. One of the many, MANY traumatic things that happened this year was our landlord illegally having our water shut off, which we pretty much just lived with because we didn't think it was worth fighting. So I did go an extended period of time without bathing. (We had a gym membership where we could shower, but I have sensory issues with showers so :/)

Leon having no one except Luis. That's not a more specific trauma, but I've struggled with feeling lonely for a long ass time now, and the more recent big trauma fest definitely worsened the problem, because literally no one knows the full extent of it. I can't really talk about it because some of it is stuff that's been slowly building for years and the trauma dumps would have their own trauma dumps. Even with a couple close friends, that already know the background and wouldn't need all the context, I haven't felt like I could talk about it because a lot of the most traumatic elements are almost entirely self inflicted, which makes it embarrassing to admit to. (Things would have been traumatic no matter what, but it could have been significantly less traumatic.)

The dirty hair and loneliness are currently the only connections to my personal trauma that I'm aware of, but I'm certain more of it slipped in that I'd notice if I reread all of it. After having the realization about those, I just had to close everything I had open related to it because I'm just. Not ready to unpack all of that.

I think unpacking it will be necessary and therapeutic, but it'll be messy and probably get worse before it gets better, and the one very amazing event that served as my lifeline to keep going and not just give up on life when I was in the thick of the bad situation is in less than a week, and there's absolutely no way I'm going to risk jeopardizing my enjoyment of it by falling apart before it.

[kate-m-art]

Do you have anything to say about your loz cryptid au?

Oh! Gosh I've really been neglecting cryptid au haven't I? I'm sorry, I've gotten a bit stuck on where to take it but really do love the littles so much

Hmm trying to remember what I've shared, I don't think I've gone too much into the goddesses dynamics? Since they're a little more involved (it's an overload of their power that's affected Link and Zelda) I've been trying to flesh out how they think and act a bit more.

Farore is the youngest, she's full of energy and life. She's very passionate and emotional and the most willing of her sisters to take risks. She represents courage, but courage without wisdom can be reckless and it shows when she's left to her own devices. She's very impulsive and tends to make quick decisions based on how she feels rather than taking the time to consider long-term consequences. It's why she saved Links life, she was fond of him and how much he admired and respected her handiwork. She couldn't stand the thought of the world losing such a kind soul so soon but it never crossed her mind what her direct touch could do to a mortal. She never thought to consider how Link would feel about being brought back.

Nayru is the middle child in a sense. She's calm, elegant and graceful as flowing water. She's the wisest of her sisters, and her decisions tend to be the most solid if she ever actually makes them. She's an overthinker and spends so much time weighing all her options that she often loses the moment to act. She's very careful, perhaps overly so, about intervening in the world of mortals. Prayers to Nayru, while tending to yield the most favorable results if answered, often seem to fall on deaf ears. Zelda prayed endlessly for years for strength from her patron goddess to secure her kingdom, but by the time she got a response, it seemed like too much, too fast and maybe too late...

Din is the oldest and by far the strongest, she dwarfs her sisters in raw power. She holds so much of it that the world of mortals and their plights seem far below her; she finds her sisters' supposed obsession with their trivial matters foolish. Din is hard to read and a bit of a mystery. Even her own sisters, the beings supposedly closest to her level, struggle to try to understand how she thinks. If anyone were to manage to catch Din's attention or tap into her power even her sisters aren't quite sure what that would mean for the world they created together.

[tonariofjananda]

This was my participation piece for the @yuriolympics2023 ‘s first prompt, “Memory.”✌️

The fic covers things that will happen in Season 3 (including a theory that I’m treating as 100% canon tbh, lol) so if you’re not caught up with the manga, please keep that in mind :)

[no-one-hears-me]

I've spent too much time on the verge of suicide to be here today

[kenobster]

how does one respond when one's favorite author(s) comments on one's fic, like, how does one construct a comment purely out of drool, tears, and maniacal giggling? asking for a friend. >.>

[ladyhavilliard]

Am I upset how much they changed Wesper in s&b? Yes. Is it bringing my Wesper obsession back anyway? Of fucking course.

[be-good-to-bugs]

i want 2 go back 2 makin music

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

won’t call what i’m doing “relapsing” bc that feels incredibly disingenuous but i am definitely backsliding again <3 why do i always wanna force myself back somewhere i don’t fit anymore. there’s nothing else for me there, nothing to accomplish by waiting or feeling this way, and yet.

[wahoo-fish]

Them （（･▽･三 ･▽･））

Sun/Moon are so similar, yet so different...

[caepiriya]

waoaugh that's a lot, but fun nonetheless! thanks for giving me a chance to ramble about my insert! (✿❛◡❛)

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ 〈 hsr oc kit ask game 〉 ⚘( ၴႅၴ @alexisomnias

𝟐 ,, what is your character's “faction” (e.g., Belobog, Xianzhou Luofu, Intelligentsia Guild, IPC, etc.)?

the Nameless , Astral Express Crew

𝟒 ,, what is your character’s path (e.g., hunt, destruction, nihility, etc.)?

Fairius formerly followed the Path of Trailblaze under the Aeon of Akivili , but because of THEIR death , they had lost their blessing alongside THEM . Their current path would be Path of Destruction by Aeon of Nanook - with their own recklessness and destructive behavior surprisingly catch the attention from said Aeon .

Unfortunately they despise them for said reason too(especially Aha . Fuck THEM for blowing up the former Astral Express) .

𝟓 ,, what element type is your character (e.g., lightning, imaginary, wind, etc)?

Fairius former element would be Physical , while for their current element would be Quantum .

𝟗 ,, what are your character’s idle animations?

Fairius would gaze at their talons for hands absentmindly before trying to sharpen them by scratching one claw with another , followed with them preening their arm black feathers - yes , like a bird would.

A small flickering star would descend into their talon hand, they reaches out both of their talon hands for the small star , bringing it closer to their chest and close their eyes with a deep saddened frown as it fragments dissapears like its become one with them.

𝟏𝟏 ,, what are your character’s basic, skill, and ultimate attacks?

Basic ATK — "Shallow Void" ; Single Attack

Deals Quantum DMG equal to 50% - 110% of Fairius's ATK to single enemy

visuals: n/a

Skill — "No Longer the Sun" ; Blast

Deals Quantum DMG equal to 67.2% - 145.5% of the Fairius's ATK to a single enemy and enemies adjacent to it.

lower Fairius's HP by 25% for current HP after using Skill

visuals: n/a

Ultimate — "Goodbye my Stardust" ; Enchance

Choose between two attacks modes to deliver a full strike.

Stars Tears: Shallow Void deals DMG equal to 300% - 500% of Fairius's ATK to a single enemy

Stars Tears: No Longer the Sun deals 200% - 380% of the Fairius's ATK to a single enemy and enemies adjacent to it.

if at least one enemy in Stars Tears get weakness break or blowout attack - gives Fairius's another turn(s) to use Ultimate, and advance their next move after ultimate.

visuals: n/a

𝟏𝟐 ,, what is their talent?

after each attack against enemies with quantum weakness, gain stack of "When the Fallen Star Mourn" which rise Fairius's Crit Rate and crit DMG up to 45% - 110% and Quantum DMG up to 50% this talent can stacks up to 5 time(s) . Lasting until the end of their turn.

After "Fallen Star Lament" reset on Fairius , it's given away to strongest ally with the highest damage atack a Crit Rate and Crit DMG up to 30% - 75% and their element DMG up to 35% for 2 turn(s).

𝟏𝟑 ,, what is their technique?

"Sacrifice Oneself Future" — support ; After using Technique, at the start of the next battle , immediately lower their HP to 30% of their current HP in in exchange rise all allies ATK and Weakness Break to 25% up for 2 turn(s).

𝟐𝟏 ,, it’s your character’s debut in hsr! whose banner are they running alongside? what other characters are on their banner?

They run alongside with SEELE - fellow quantum and turn stealers! xD

four stars characters that runs alongside their banner would be: Arlan, Hanya, and Gallagher

𝟐𝟐 ,, is there an event or story quest associated with your character’s debut? if yes, tell us about it!

a story quest!

starting from Pom Pom messaging Caelus to come over to the Express as they want to talk about something that been bothering their mind lately — memories of someone and blurry faced yet familiar people appearing in Pom Pom's dream , Caelus tease them for having nightmares but Pom Pom doesn't buy it this time and even sounds lost - this of course worry Caelus as they don't return his silly wit with a comeback.

Reaching Astral Express , Caelus greeted by sad and fidgety Pom Pom and their habbit of rubbing their small paws together when feeling anxious, they brighten a bit when seeing Caelus before stomping into his side and talk about how they remember something or rather someone that they once very close too and grow up together in the Astral Express — they can't remember their face cleary , it's like something prevent them to remember anything about this faceless person and it just frustrates Pom Pom further.

Unfortunately I don't have the full story shaped yet (´Ａ｀。but I already had the plot in mind really! Just can't reach the end of conclusion that is uuuuuuuuu

there's many things I want to ramble more on this post because it's really fun and I'm currently hyper fixated with Caelus — I'll revise and add more things in this post in the future !! Thank you for giving me a chance to ramble, Dove o(〃＾▽＾〃)o💕💕💕

[ifeelfreewithoutmyshoes]

I think that ending is gonna stick with me for a while…