#this is my first elriel fic i've posted

[tswaney17]

Accidental Chemistry - Part 3: All the Feelings

Happy @elriel-month besties!! Wanted to kick off the celebration with an update to this AU (I know, it's been a minute). I've been struggling to write this AU and I hope to get back to it after May. So, to hold you over...enjoy! 😘

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Please let me know what you think about this update. I love getting your feedback. Constructive criticism is always welcome. 💕

Catch up here.

Credit to @featherymalignancy for Cassian’s nickname, Cash. 😘 Dedicated to @duskwhisperer. 💜

Trigger warnings: None, to my knowledge

Word Count: 5,305

This fic will be posted on AO3 only. Read the beginning below or click here to head to AO3.

It had been just over two months since Elain began working at the Starlight Café. She’d already gotten a handful of paychecks, opened a bank account in her name, and made her first rent payment to Azriel, per her adamant request to do so.

The first two weeks of work had been rough. She’d been low on baby supplies before her paycheck came in and she was concerned about running out before she could afford to restock.

Elain was embarrassed to admit that she was counting diapers that second week, hoping she’d have enough to get her through to payday. But then a box of diapers appeared in her bedroom when she returned home from work and she wasn’t dumb enough to not know that Azriel had caught on to her counting and gone out to buy her a pack. They weren’t even the low-cost ones, but one of the major brands that cost twice as much. She was pretty sure he could hear her crying when she found them, but he didn’t say anything, and neither did she.

But she did write him a thank you on a sticky note and stuck it next to a plate of steaming cinnamon rolls before leaving for work the next morning. And when she got home, only a single cinnamon roll was left with a new sticky note attached. Her name in his handwriting was scrawled on the yellow sheet.

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[nikethestatue]

I can't believe people still haven't understood that the next book is Elriel. Like it's so clear.

SJM had said in interviews:

- She wanted to write books for the sisters.

- That she was making research for Elain's book.

- she said she left crumbs for Elain's book in ACOSF.

- she said that Nesta would see throught Azriel's secret (his secret to tell never hers - the confirmation in Az's bonus chapter that it's Elain)

With all of that, since ACOSF and with the "crossover" in HOFAS, we see more of Azriel.

It's obvious. It was already obvious before the leaks of HOFAS but now even more.

I've been a casual reader my whole life, (this is the first time i'm active in a fandom) the only logical and obvious choice is Elriel.

No one needs a master degree to understand ACOTAR, I love those books because of this too. I wouldn't have picked it up otherwise.

To end on a more positive note, I really like your fics. They are the highlight of my day when I see a new chapter posted.

I know. 3 years later, and I am still confused about the whole thing. 3 years later, and I am perplexed by 'I am sobbing with happiness' from a Gwynriel after the HOFAS Bonus.

I step back, assess and then ask, Gwynriel where?

I dont know. The whole thing is just baffling. The absurd confidence is also incredible.

Like SJM literally NEVER mentioned Gwyn outside of Nesta/ Valkyries, and only when prompted too. Yet she mentioned multiple times Elain's book, Elain's story, research for Elain's book, I knew what I wanted to write about in Nesta's and Elain's books, I left breadcrumbs for Elain's book....

Like has she EVER mentioned anything related to Gwyn and getting a book of her own? Even when she spoke of other characters outside the sisters, it was Mor. Maybe Lucien. Maybe Amren. The OGs.

Gwyn is gonna get her own book? Like what?

And as time passes, it becomes more and more obvious how fantastical it is.

(thank you! next update next week! gotta read HOFAS)

[lorcandidlucienwill]

I was tagged in this game a long time ago by @positivelyruined

Things you'd like to know about fellow writers:

Last book I read: last book I FINISHED was House of Flame and Shadow. Currently we're struggling through The Cruel Prince.

Greatest literary inspirations: Suzanne Collins, Rick Riordan, JK Rowling, and Jane Austen (please note this is ONLY for their writing, not their beliefs outside of their works)

Things in my fandom that I want to read but I don't want to write: honestly having trouble writing long fics these days, have been sticking to one-shots, but Nesta having a relationship with Ember and Bryce and Tamlin slowly recovering from his trauma post-ACOSF are top of the list. Why I want to read this? I think Nesta could benefit a lot from having a good mother in her life; her life was molded by her abusive mother, and she has so few people in her life who stand up for her. And Bryce humbling the shit out of everyone IC and being Ember's daughter? Bestie potential fr. Tamlin recovering from his trauma post-ACOSF? Because I think he has been done dirty by SJM and I would like to feel his struggles first-hand. I don't feel like I'm qualified enough to write about this though (not the skill of my writing, but it's a heavy topic). Also, I have too many WIPs.

Things in my current fandom that I want to write about but I don't think anyone will be interested but me: honestly i THOUGHT my Azriel-Beron mating bond idea would be unpopular, but it is getting a SURPRISING amount of traction recently so guess who's writing it for sjmvillainweek???

You can recognize my writing by: I'm a very emotional writer first and foremost; I like writing emotionally charged scenes and allowing you inside the character's head so you can really see how powerful their emotions are.

My most controversial takes:

Some time ago I would've said it's that Feysand-Nessian-Elriel are the absolute worst ships in the fandom, but I don't think that's a controversial take anymore; the people are realizing.

So maybe my most controversial takes are:

Azriel ain't all that, he is infantilized too much by the pro and anti side of this fandom and it's ridiculous that he gets so much love for literally doing nothing. He's like that mediocre guy who nobody expects shit from so the one time he actually DOES do stuff he is treated like a celebrity. He is whiny when most of his problems are self-made, which is highly irritating. He's a total creep and he's got a LONG way to go before he is in any way worthy of Gwyn.

Tamlin should no longer be a High Lord. I was honestly surprised this was such a controversial take, but I think I've surrounded myself with loads of pro-Tamlins. Obviously I want him to ensure the future of Spring before he abdicates, but being a High Lord is something that truly made him miserable, especially as of ACOSF. We might not have been having this conversation had he remained as he was in book 1, but the truth is he is no longer the same guy he once was and I simply don't see how SJM is going to bring him back. I'd rather he live in peace than be SJM's plaything.

Favorite tropes:

Black cat girlfriend-golden retriever/doberman boyfriend

Literally anything regency-related

Forced Proximity, rivals to lovers (enemies to lovers is a bit much for me I think)

Current writing mood: 5 because I can write loads of short snippets but actually putting together a story is rough for me rn

Fandom frustration:

Honestly, fandom hierarchies. Some people are obsessed with follower count and catering their content to appeal to a wider audience and while I think that's fine to an extent, we have people trying to lord themselves over others because they have a couple hundred more followers. Like...at the end of the day, we're all just fucking nerds, tf do you mean you think you're superior?

Also, butting into the opposing side of the fandom. Like, it's different if a post asks for friendly discourse, but when the post is clearly not meant for you, why tf are you trying to make your opinion known? Know when your opinion is wanted.

Also the current threat to fanfiction. Stop trying to buy and sell fanfic tf? We write this shit for free.

Everyone has probably already done this, but...

Tagging: @crazy-ache @sonics-atelier @simmanin anyone who wants to do it!

[perseusannabeth]

My Hunger Knows No Bounds - Modern Elriel Fic

Okay so this fic was inspired by this post because I felt like it was a very Elriel thing. I’m clearly having a pregnancy fic thing atm since I’m also writing my Nessian pregnancy fic. 

I am South Asian, and had biriyani and kebabs today and that’s on my mind so that’s the food Azriel cooked because I had no idea what else I could make him cook. Biriyani takes a lot of work my dudes, just fyi. 

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Word count:  1457

Azriel was cooking. Not only was he cooking, but he was cooking Illyrian food. It was a big deal, which is why he had told nobody. He knew if he told his family, they would make it into a big thing, especially his brothers. Azriel had a complicated relationship with his culture and heritage and making Illyrian food felt so utterly private right now. He didn’t want to share it with his brothers. Not yet anyway. Maybe later on, when he was done. 

He very rarely cooked, and when he did it was for comfort and ease. Illyrian food was meant to be cooked for big families. If he was more like Cassian, he would cook for his family, his brothers. But he couldn’t bring himself to do that. Somehow, today he had the urge to cook Illyrian food. He knew what had caused it. He had been on the phone with his mother, and she had been talking about how his younger sister wanted to help in the kitchen. His mother had sent him videos of his sister helping in the kitchen, and after he had hung up he couldn’t stop watching the video. For some reason, watching his 7-year-old sister stood on a chair, mixing the pot bubbling away on the stove with such joy had made his heart feel light and free.

His mother had given him a cookbook when he had turned 18. It was something that was a tradition in his mother’s family, and a way to pass down the family recipes. He had never looked at it apart from when he had first gotten it. It was just a small notebook, but it felt like the heaviest thing Azriel had ever held. The weight of it was what had kept it hidden away at the bottom of his sock drawer for 6 years.  But his sister had somehow given him the strength to take it out and try a recipe. 

So 2 hours later, he’s in the kitchen, waiting for the timer to go off as he cleans up the mess he’s made. The windows are open, but the smell permeates the entire apartment, and probably the entire floor, but he can’t bring himself to care. He feels at peace with his culture for once in his life. 

A timid knock startled him from his thoughts. Azriel frowned slightly. He knew his brothers were both busy with their girlfriends, Mor was on a date, and Amren would never come over unannounced, especially not just to hang out with him. He walked over and looked through the peephole on his door, and saw his neighbour. His very pregnant neighbour, who looked nervous. 

“Hi there,” Azriel said cautiously as he opened the door. 

“Hi. It’s Azriel, right?” The pregnant neighbour asked, smiling prettily at him. 

Azriel nodded, before awkwardly asking, “Sorry, I don’t remember your name?”

The pregnant neighbour’s smile grew at that. “Elain. I’m Feyre and Nesta’s sister.” 

Azriel remembered them mentioning that their sister was moving into his building, but she had never turned up to their family gatherings, either because she was at work or because she was tired since she was 6 months pregnant, and the one time she did go, Azriel had been visiting his mother. Their paths had crossed a few times in the building, but they had just given a polite nod and smile to each other. He hadn’t even realised that she was Nesta and Feyre’s sister, although now she’d pointed it out, it was very clear. The sisters looked similar, although Elain had beautiful warm brown eyes which reminded him of melted chocolate. Elain looked as sweet as melted chocolate too. 

Azriel shook his head slightly at the last thought, as though that would be enough to get rid of the random thought he had just had, for a woman he had just met. 

“Right, sorry, I didn’t recognise you.” 

“That’s fine, we’ve never been formally introduced I guess.”

“Well, erm, is there something I can help you with?” Azriel rubbed the back of his neck, hoping that he hadn’t sounded rude while asking that. 

Elain blushed, which probably meant he had been rude. Nesta would probably kill him for that when she heard. “Actually, I was just, well, erm, I can smell your cooking and it smells so good. I know this is so weird since we don’t know each other, but, well, erm, would you mind if I had some?” 

Elain looked down at the tupperware box which she held in her hand, which Azriel hadn’t noticed before. Azriel just stared at her, not sure if he had heard her correctly. Elain, taking his silence as a no, continued with her rambling. “I’m so sorry, I know that was probably rude. It’s fine, I just really liked the smell but I should’ve known not to ask,” her blush turned darker, as she slowly started to walk away. Only her walk wasn’t really a walk, it was more of a cute little waddle. 

Azriel finally shook himself out of his daze. He softly put his hand on her shoulder to stop her from walking off. “No, it’s fine. I’ve made lots so you can definitely have some.” Azriel removed his hand as soon as she stopped walking away, not wanting to creep her out. “Would you like to come in?”

Elain put her finger and thumb on her chin and looked slightly contemplative. “Well, we have just met which is a bit weird. But since your brothers are dating my sisters, I’m going to assume you’re not an axe murderer.” 

Azriel felt his lips curl slightly at that. “I could still be an axe murderer. I’m on a murder break though, so you’re safe.”

Elain let out a tinkering laugh, which went straight to Azriel’s heart. He couldn’t help but smile at that. 

Elain walked in and managed to sit down at the breakfast bar in the kitchen. He hadn’t realised how difficult it was for pregnant women to sit down until he saw Elain struggle to sit for a whole 5 minutes. He had hovered around her just in case she fell because suddenly everything seemed dangerous around him. He had never been around a pregnant woman before, so he didn’t know how to act.

Azriel’s timer went off, and he took the lid off of the pot which had been on the heat for a while now. He took 2 plates out, and put some rice in for Elain, and then for himself. He sat down next to Elain and explained to her what the food he had made was. Elain had never had an Illyrian biriyani before, and the rice, layered with a chicken curry that also had peas and potatoes. Azriel had also taken some seekh kebabs out of the freezer. He hadn’t made them himself, he admit to Elain that they were from Sevenda’s. Elain was very vocal about how brilliant the food was, and thanked him profusely for feeding her. She admitted that she had been trying to get past her cravings since he had started cooking, but the smells had gotten too much for her and she just had to ask for food. 

Azriel was charmed by Elain. Somehow he felt even happier than he had before she had knocked on his door. She was the warmest person he had ever met. Her smile managed to warm even Azriel’s cold heart. He could see why Nesta would go to such lengths to protect her. There was something about this woman which made him feel more alive than he had felt in a very long time. It both soothed him and excited him at the same time. 

Elain started to yawn, which made Azriel realise just how late it was. Elain thanked him once again for the food and company and made to leave. Azriel quickly took the tupperware box from her before she could leave, and packed it full with as much biryani as he possibly could. He had made a lot and had been planning on giving some to his brothers, which he would now do tomorrow. 

Elain had been so thrilled when he handed her the box stuffed full of biriyani that she had squealed and kissed him on the cheek. As she waddled away, clearly happy with her bountiful hunting trip for herself and her young, Azriel couldn’t even fight the smile on his face. Even after he had cleaned up and was lying in bed, the smile had not faded. Azriel found for the first time, he was actually willing to delve into his family cookbook more, hoping that Elain would enjoy it as much as she had enjoyed the biriyani today.

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[gracie-rosee]

Happy New Year ♡

I don't really know what to say here since I've never done this before but here goes...

I've been on Tumblr for barely a year and I have made some really amazing friends here. I know this is cheesy and everyone does this but these people mean a lot to me and I'm so glad I have the pleasure of knowing them.

@morganofthewildfire, you were my very first friend on here. I have been reading your fics since you posted your very first one and I've been obsessed with every single thing you've written since. You're awesome! Thank you! ❤

@tswaney17 Taylor!!! I loved obsessing over elriel and talking theories with you. And don't even get me started with your phenomenal writing. You're an amazing person and I'm so glad to know you. Thank you!

@tomtenadia your writing makes me so so happy. And you are literally the sweetest person ever (...except when you make me cry with your stories lol) but still, thank you so much!!

@themoonthestarsthesuriel, @live-the-fangirl-life, @writtenonreceipts, @shyvioletcat - your writing has gotten me through this year and these past few months especially. I love reading about the characters we all love so much and I'm so glad I decided to join these fandoms because it led me to you guys- the most amazing people I know!

Some other writers I would like to thank for making this year wonderful: @perseusannabeth (thank you SO much for teaching me how to post a fic on this hellsite super easily. You are a life saver), @seasonofthewicth Kate!! you are awesome and I love you dearly. @westofmoon, @punkassbookjockey26, @rowaelinrambling, @story-scribbler, @rowanaelinn, @heirofflowers, @manonblaqkbeak, @whimsicallyreading, @imaginedhaven, @acciowests, @charincharge - you guys are all awesome.

@hellasblessed, @llyncooljones, @schattensaenger, @the-regal-warrior, @swankii-art-teacher, @mardereads19, @starswhogaze, @bookologist, @fawnandshadows, @thewayshedreamed, @thefangirlofhp, @lemonade-coolattas, @rreputatiions and anyone I may have accidentally forgotten, thank you for making 2021 suck less. I hope you all have a wonderful new year! ❤❤❤

[dottielovegood]

Happy New Year✨

(Longer personal post because I'm sick, bored and emotional)

I just wanted to check in and wish you all a Happy New Year! I was planning on giving you a short fic today as a small new years gift, but I have been unwell since Christmas and haven’t been able to sit up, let alone write anything (starting to get better now though)

I also wanted to thank you all for being the sweetest people ever. I kind of joined this fandom on a whim in April when I uploaded my first Elriel fic. Before then I had just been a casual reader of ACOTAR, but there was just something about Elain and Azriel that drew me to them, and I just had to write something. I didn't expect anyone to read it. But here we are, quite a few months later, and you have been so sweet and supportive of my writing. Even though I mainly write smut, you have left such lovely and thoughtful comments.

I know that I'm not very active in the fandom (I have always been more of a lurker), but just know that I see you all. I read you theories. I see the fanart. I see you fics (and I save them to read at a later date when I'm less busy).

And I see the posts you tag me in, and it really warms my heart when I see that you like my writing. I always feel awkward answering such posts because I never know what to say (imposter syndrom, anyone?), but from the bottom of my heart, thank you for reading and recommending all of my silly stories.

This year has been far from good for me. My depression was at an all time low and I was just not doing very well. I started writing fanfiction this spring because I've always wanted to write but been too afraid to do so. Then I just thought "fuck it", and started writing Pretty Little Angel. I just needed to know that I had written SOMETHING, even if it was just fairy porn 🙃

And now, almost a year later, I'm doing so much better mentally. And honestly, I think this fandom has been one of the things that has helped me get well this year. I needed this creative outlet.

So Happy New Year to every single Elriel (and everyone else, too)! I hope that the next year treats you with kindness. I hope that 2022 gives you happiness and health and better times.

And I hope that we get that book announcement before the year is over!

Again, thank you for indulging my weird and dirty mind this year. You are the best!

[abruisedmuse]

Just went to the elriel tag to look at their art because I genuinely love them but now I feel somehow. I am fairly new to the fandom and don’t know how things work and that people go all out for shipwars I didn’t know if you don’t ship a certain ship you should stay away from their content they made me feel so icky for shipping elucien they didn’t use the exact words of calling him a creep but there was so many insinuations I legit saw one say that if you ship elain and lucien your weird because why would you ship people that are uncomfortable around each other. Neglecting the fact that there is a reason and deeper meaning to why they have this reaction towards each other and it’s not because elain thinks Lucien is a creep he is literally one of the most respectful males in this series , honestly I didn’t know the fandom was a cutthroat place like this and I do love the contents but it’s a lot for me. I didn’t know who to tell since your practically one of the first eluciens I followed and looking at your page it’s feels like safe space so hope this ask is okay.

First sorry I'm late to the response (my little one was sick and I've been offline 90% of the day). And this is always okay! Anything on your mind Fandom or not send me an ask. I'm happy you think of me as a safe space ❤ ❤

E/riels are a special brand of wild and moronic behavior. Not all but majority of them are some of the biggest immature cyberbullies I've ever witnessed. I'm so sorry you had the unfortunate pleasure of dealing with them.

Elucien is endgame. They can accept it and keep E/riel as fanon or leave the Fandom.

This is what I don't understand. Obviously not every ship in every book, movie, TV, etc will be Canon. We all have tropes we favor and characters we think would be good together. They won't be endgame. They might not even have a relationship. But that doesn't stop fanon. With fics, edits, art, head canons, whatever. Your ship can exist in Ganon. You can have this happy little slice of fanon heaven. I've done it time and time again.

You know what I didn't do? Change narratives in the Canon text to claim them for a fanon ship. I didn't provoke others online for shipping the Canon ship(now if they came for me or my friends it's on but I didn't go into random posts or ask boxes spewing negative. Calling them worthless or far worse because of it.) Anyway, I don't understand why E/riels can't just be satisfied in their own little fanon world. And leave everyone alone.

Lucien isn't a creep. He is kind and very respectful towards Elain. Three. He's given her three years and will continue to give her whatever time she needs to come to terms with bond. He'd never resort to some dumbass duel, cry like a selfish toddler that he's left out, or please himself to a fucking bottle of headache pills. Thats because he values. She means something to him. Even if they broke the bond, he would always be there for Elain. Unlike a certain bat boy who only wants her as a forbidden booty call.

Now that, that's out of the way. Let's talk about this Fandom. I'll be the first to say babes. Alot of this Fandom is toxic. And not just the E/riels. I've seen it from anti sjm, to anti/pro certain ships and characters. Tbh, if I wasn't apart of Star Wars or the HP Fandom. Shipping both Reylo and Dramione....I probably would have left this one.

I understand if you decide to leave this Fandom or take a step back (sometimes it's a good thing!).

However lovely anon. There's alot of us who do love acotar and although we know there's flaws in the characters and the books. We love it dearly. It's a special place in our hearts. You're Fandom experience is what you make of it. What I mean by that is simply if you wanna stay in the Fandom because the series itself do four things as often as you need too:

1. Block the tags

2. Block users

3. Unfollow those that make this experience negative.

4. Don't listen to E/riels (they've twisted so many narratives, have been consistently rude to artists and I believe well known bookstagram accounts too. Might add Vassa X Lucien shippers too. A few of them twist the narrative too in saying Lucien wants Vassa. When we were given those Jurian x Vassa moments. However, I've never had a bad experience with them personally)

Fandom should be fun, not stressful ❤

If you'd like a list of blogs in the Fandom who don't contribute to the negativity let me know. I'll try and get one for you. I hope if you choose to stay that your experience gets better. At the very least you'll have me ❤

[e-bacellar]

I just saw your comment on the bookish Valkyrie post and all I can say is FELT sometimes it’s honestly depressing to be in this fandom I have left multiple times but I love the fics and art content so I always come back😂😂 honestly the way eluciens and Lucien Stans have suffered in this fandom is sad we have received so much shit I don’t think any particular side of the fandom has received as much shit as us, after ACOMAF came out I can remember then if you say you ship elucien they would call you so many names and literally treat you like an abuser it made me second guess every single thing and it wasn’t just from one side it was coming from everywhere till date we still receive shit almost every post of elucien art it’s either vomit emoji or Lucien is a creep and it’s so funny because even after all this you expect us to be as violent as elriels but no we still stay calm even though we are always pushed aside like we are nothing. I honestly think if elucien is endgame all eluciens will be happier than the characters themselves hopefully SJM sees that we have been waiting since forever and gives us a befitting HEA that is actually worth all the wait.

Hi Anon, I hope you are having a good day! I speak a lot, sorry for the long answer.

I totally understand you, I haven't been in fandom that long and I already feel exhausted, I've tried to leave fandom numerous times and failed too, but to keep my sanity I limit myself to staying in my bubble of Lucien, gwynriel, nessian and even elucien content too. I believe you have been in the fandom longer than me. If today it is hard enough to be their fan I can imagine that after ACOFAS left how it must have been for you.

When I was using twitter I knew more Lucien and elucien stan who were not part of the fandom than active ones and I saw many who were active also stopped because they couldn't stand the attacks every day. I see that around here too and that is very sad, this was supposed to be fun. That's why I feel more comfortable here on tumblr than in other social media, because here I block tags and people and stay in peace. I believe I can stay like this because most of the Lucien and Elucien stans want to have fun, this is what I like the most and well pointed out, we had everything to be more aggressive but we are not.

I really can't understand people from the other ship because they claim to be endgame but spend every day vilifying other characters and attacking people who like them. I mean, they have countless content creators, there is always fanart and so on, they should enjoy it and leave other people alone. Seeing people having this kind of aggressive behavior with other people is not cool to see and when you see several adults in the middle, it gets complicated, it's wrong on several levels. Especially when they are going to attack artists or put vomit faces on their art, it is disrespectful and childish. Especially when they decide to trivialize serious social issues because of ship. Seeing people use social issues because of a fictional character, because of a ship, to try to shame and devalue the other person is a big red flag to me, that's where the limit is.

Before I joined tumblr I thought elucien would be end game, especially after reading the bonus chapter. Although I think SJM will still make us suffer some more, I hope I'm wrong. For me it's already being a little distressing to hope I can imagine how it must be for those who have been in the fandom for a long time like you.

By the way, sorry if I wrote something wrong, English is not my first language and I'm still learning =)

[valamerys]

hi, so i'm in dire need of some emotional reassurance as a (former?) aco* fan. i am so unhappy with the spoilers i've seen and it's making me question if i even want to read acowar, now. the rep makes me want to vomit, and it will cut me deep if my ships are non-canonical (*ehem* elucien! *ehem*) (i'm shedding salty ass anxiety tears). i need help, i need relatable advice!! ps. i love your fics/posts, you're the goddess of elucien content, i'll sing it from the rooftops

I GOT U here (elucien-specific thoughts, slightly spoilers) and here (more general, no spoilers) already. But also i am an ENDLESS FONT OF BABBLING so here's more.

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT:

In regards to Elucien, expanding on what I said in that post I linked above, it sounds like nothing ends up at all definitive, and tbh that’s all I need. I wasn’t really expecting Elucien to get together with a bow on top anyway, if only because of the time constraints in the story/ the limited POV that means we don’t see that much of them developing/ interacting, and while i am ROUNDLY UNTHRILLED about the Elriel development, having calmed down, I am also not threatened by it. For one thing, it’s possible Elain and Az just develop a friendship/ platonic rapport that everyone is blowing out of proportion? Because, like, really, Az transferring blatant 500-year-old romantic feelings from Mor to Elain that quickly is weird, and we don’t yet have evidence of anything concrete that couldn’t be explained by... just... two nice people being nice to each other. So that’s a possibility I’m hoping for.

But even if Elain and Az are explicitly romantic? Maas has a Thing with establishing the mating bond or some other kind of weird power dynamic and then going above and beyond to reassure us that when those characters do get together, it’s not because of that/ that their relationship is super super healthy and consensual despite that thing that should make it Weird. I’m talking about Feyre and Rhysand, of course, but also Miryam and Drakon: Drakon frees Miryam from slavery, making theirs a very power-unbalanced, almost fetishey potential relationship with overtones of indebtedness and class difference-- so Miryam goes off to kick ass for a few years and, it would seem, doesn’t ever consider Drakon romantically until she’s established herself and they’re societal equals, making a relationship between them No Longer Weird. (Do ya’ll see why I think this will be a novella. It’s SO similar to Feysand; this is the kind of shit Maas loves to write.) So it wouldn’t shock me if anti-elucien content in acowar is of the same nature; if she’ll establish distance (/ other romantic parters) between them so that when they do eventually get together (as side characters in the inevitable Nessian novels, perhaps? Or else in my fic) we can be very very sure it’s not “just because they’re mates.” Which is a common criticism of Elucien as a pairing, (and of SJM ships in general) so this strategy makes sense as a sort of preemptive self-defense.

The Mor thing...... i’m not gonna lie, it’s bad, and I’m saying that based on more information than a lot of people have access to right now. (I have a Discourse Post drafted and ready to go because that’s who I am as a person.) That said, I’m willing to forgive a lot based on how it turns out (IE if Mor ends the story out to her friends and in a happy, not-dead gay relationship) and that, I don’t know. 

I understand the spoilers killing your enthusiasm, I really do. I watched an entire season of brooklyn 99 yesterday to pull myself out of Lucien-related despair. I’m not gonna, like, try to convince you to read the book if you don’t want to? ‘Cause that’s legit, and I’m not gonna tell you it won’t get worse, because it might; I don’t know enough to say otherwise, and I don’t know your personal limits and tastes. But personally, I’m married to this garbage fire for better or worse, if to do nothing other than help dissect where it goes wrong. More positively, I know that there’s going to be a ton of stuff I do REALLY want to see and will be excited about, stuff no spoilers will predict, and also generally that I want to be in The Room Where It Happens regarding the fates of these beautiful children who I love, even if the outcome is Bad.

And if it’s bad, we’ll be there with fanfic and communal bitching. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ that’s what i got. take care of urself.

[radientwings]

I love your Elriel fic! The best one I've read so far! Please write more

Thank you so, so much! I really appreciate that (I was so nervous posting it because it’s my first ACOTAR fic soooo)

[tswaney17]

High Infidelity - Part 1

Storm Coming, Good Husband, Bad Omen

You voted, and here it is! The first part of High Infidelity, my Elriel Friends with Benefits AU. I've been sitting on this for a while and I'm excited to share part 1 with you. Not sure how many more will be after this (as I am still working on it, of course) but there will eventually be at least one more. You'll see why... 😏

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Trigger warnings: language, NSFW

Word Count: 4,119

Read here, or view snippet below.

Elain threaded her slim fingers through the dark mop of hair upon Azriel’s head, her hips gyrating against his wicked, sinful mouth. His tongue lapped at her, toying and teasing her until she was trembling with need. His name passed through her parted lips in a breathy moan. “Azriel.”

He smiled against her—he always did. Elain could feel the way his mouth curled up at the corner against her sensitive slit. He fucking loved bringing her to that blissful edge, over and over, but never letting her cross the finish line until he deemed it time.

“Please, Az,” she pleaded. He’d been edging her with his mouth and fingers for what felt like years, and she was delirious with need.

Those amber eyes, blown wide with lust, peeked up at her through his dark lashes. “Would you like to come, my good girl?” he breathed, her wetness dripping off his chin.

Fucking Azriel was every girl’s wildest dream. The man knew how to pleasure a woman. He was skilled in every arsenal when it came to bedroom habits. Had touched on all of her dirtiest, kinkiest fantasies without missing a beat.

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[tswaney17]

so I maybe found IDBTWY (i hope i put the letters in the right order my brain is so slow HAHAHAHA) on ao3 and binged all of it (+ the prequels) last night and WOW😩🥵🤩🥰!! It was beyond amazing! You are an incredible writer and the whole story was so engaging and well balanced (the angst:fluff ratio 😤👌🥵) and I COULD NOT STOP READING PLEASE IT WAS SO GOOD??? This should not be allowed I am not okay and how dare you release something THIS GOOD😩🥰!!!! You are SO TALENTED I love this story sm please I can’t believe you’re letting us read this for free TYSM☺️💛. Something about Elriel AUs just hits different and this one >>>>?? NEXT LEVEL! I loved it so much please I just wanna reread immediately but I will wait until I have enough time to reread here and give you the praise and appreciation and hype that you deserve because this story is INCREDIBLE. Truly. I AM OFFICIALLY A (n even bigger) TSWANEY17 STAN😌😌💛💛!! Because I remember you def also wrote Across the Hallway which is ✨burned into my head✨ because I’ve read it so many times I’m not even sorry😌😌😌. Definitely my comfort story too, everything about it is so warm🥰🥰 (except for that very smutty chapter😈)!!! As you can tell I’m definitely not the writer here🤣. But I hope I managed to convey at least a little bit of my gratitude and appreciation for you and your writing🥰🥰. You’re amazing and I think IDBTWY has dethroned and replaced Across the Hallway as my fav Elriel fic because I am HOOKED😌😩😭!! TYSM for writing it and I’m so glad I found it💛💛💛

P.S. No pressure at all, but I was just wondering if you had a schedule for updates? Just so I remember when to pop back but all good if not🥰)

P.P.S. I was already convinced the story was CHEFS KISS TOP NOTCH but then you made Cassian and Elain sing Exile🥺🥺. A Taylor Swift stan and your name is Taylor too I am crying!!🥰🥰🥰🥰

Oh my god...

This is... I just... 🥺🥺🥺

I have no words for how incredibly wonderful it felt to read this. I'm totally not going to be able to express myself well enough for you to understand how much my heart swelled to get this.

LITERAL TEARS IN MY EYES!!! 😭😭

I feel like I say this all the time, but I never expected to get the kind of reaction I have over this fic. Here I was, just a random newbie to the writing world (at least for public consumption), and to get the amount of amazing and responsive feedback I've gotten has just been astronomical to me. You are the reason I push myself to continue and improve my writing. I seriously cannot say thank you enough, but truly, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Across the Hallway was my first baby. It was this random idea that I just needed to get out and when I look back on it (knowing that it needs A TON of edits), I can't help but smile at how far I've come. IDBTWY has been an absolute joy to write (yes, even when everyone yells at me to just make them kiss and to stop hurting them 😈).

I can't say I blame you for letting IDBTWY dethrone ATH, because, in my heart, it has too. I don't usually give myself kudos or talk about things I've done that make me proud, but this fic is one of the proudest things I've ever accomplished (-ish, since it's not done yet).

As for a schedule, I tend to post every other week - but I'm not always successful. Life gets busy, ya-know? For notifications, you can always subscribe to my fic blog (I only reblog snippets and actual fics, nothing else so it's not obnoxious), @tswaney17fics. Or you can subscribe to my ao3 account as well. Those will probably be the best options for keeping up with my posts.

I am a HUGE TSwift fan! I had the idea of Elain and Cash singing Exile together for months before that part came out. It just hit me as Elriel, especially in this fic. But more ironically, my last name also begins with "Sw", so we're almost the same person… 😬 (A girl can dream right??)

Anyways, this answer has become ridiculously long, so to summarize, THANK YOU x1000000000000000000! It truly meant everything to read this. 💙💚💜