hs dave. chapter 4. (d.d)
A/N: i’ve written this 3 different times and idk why this is being so annoying today but 🙂 follow aly @idkdobrik and ros @occasionally-angelic i’m super excited for you guys to read this one - i’m really proud of it and i think it’s my favorite of all 4❤️ enjoy & let me know what you think !!
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“Um...Actually, Dave, can you go home?” You’re stopped in the driveway of your house and seated in Dom’s backseat with David. Dom has always been your designated driver, and he was probably planning on going back to the party to drop more kids off at home. He tends to enjoy taking care of drunk teenagers, saying, “It’s fun because I’m the one who remembers all of the drama and no one else does.”
David halts the clumsy unbuckling of his seatbelt, more drunk than he was 20 minutes prior, face faltering slightly, “I mean, yeah. Okay. I guess. Call me?”
You nod, “‘Course.”
“Okay. I love you.”
You swallow nervously, faking a smile and moving to shut the car door.
“Wait-,” you hear him say, leaning forward to grab your hand, nearly pleading, “Say it back.”
You repeat the words, glancing over at Dom and bidding both of them goodnight. David kisses the back of your hand before releasing it, apathetic towards the lingering presence in the car. Dom watches and waits until you get through your front door before you hear him drive away.
You should probably still be drunk, you’re not sure how you aren’t, but David’s words definitely did the job to sober you up.
Alex isn’t an entire idiot, and you trust his judgment. He can tell something is up, too; maybe it’s not just you. Maybe everyone else can see what you’re feeling for him; maybe you’re wrong about how you feel; or maybe David’s just an oblivious idiot.
You’re barely peeling off the night’s clothes before he texts you, “Baby, can we FaceTimeeeee? Say yes. Pls.” You roll your eyes, still giving in to him no matter how badly you want to be alone and think. You quickly take off your makeup, shower, and change, David’s cum still running between your thighs. You clean up his mess.
The line rings just once before he picks up, seemingly awaiting your call, his face too close to the camera.
“Baby,” he slurs his words, “I miss you. Come over.”
“David, it’s two in the morning. I’m tired,” you try to come up with an excuse, propping your phone up against your bathroom mirror and beginning to brush your teeth.
“Nooooooo,” he pouts, “You’re so lame. D’you even know how many times I’ve snuck into your house ‘cause you said you wanted to see me? Soooo many. Please come over. I wanna see you.”
“You just saw me,” you say, muffled before you spit and rinse.
“I know, but I wanna sleep with you. Baby, please? I can’t walk anywhere. I can barely move.” You can see him playing with his hair at the top of the frame, nose and eyes almost taking up the entire screen.
“Fine, I’ll come,” you say, “But drink some water.”
“I can’t move,” David defends, “Are you leaving now? Go through the front door. It’s fine. It’s unlocked.”
“Yes, Dave, I’m leaving now. I’ll be there in fifteen. Bye.” You quickly hang up, wondering why you put yourself in this situation again. He’s just going to confuse you even more.
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“Baaaaaabyyyyyy!” He happily exclaims, stretched out on his bed in his underwear as you come through his door. David pats the space next to him as you kick your shoes off, moving to get into bed with him.
“Nononono,” he protests, tugging at your shirt, “No clothes. Please.”
He watches you undress down to your underwear, sitting on the edge of his bed as you do so, feeling his lips press sloppily against your shoulder blade and his lingering hands on your waist.
You know how he is when he’s drunk beyond belief: a big baby who wants to be held. You lay next to him before he silently scoots further down. His arms wrap around your torso and he tangles your legs together, head resting on your chest. He always tries to make the size difference work.
He sighs quietly, eyes fluttering shut as you kiss his head and play with his hair.
“Davey, baby,” you say softly, not wanting to disturb him entirely.
He hums in response, eyes not opening and not moving a muscle.
You go quiet, “...Did you brush your teeth?”
He pauses, still unmoving, “...Yes.”
“Kiss me.” You know he’s lying; you can still smell the alcohol on his breath.
He leans up and kisses you, closed-mouth, before pulling away. He would never. The kiss alone could probably get you drunk - you’re not sure how he’s functioning at all.
“You’re lying. Go do it,” you shove him off as he gripes, rolling out of bed and making his way to the bathroom attached to his room.
He shuts the door, for some reason, before you hear the sink turn on. You realize he’s still probably not brushing his teeth. Why is he actually five years old?
You get up and open the door and see him standing in front of the sink, watching the faucet.
“David, oh my God,” you roll your eyes, “Just fucking do it. You’ll thank me in the morning.”
He does, and you resume the position you both were in beforehand.
You wait for the subtle snores to make their appearance, but they never do. He remains quiet.
“Babe,” he says, still slurring and nearly half-asleep, “How come you didn't want me there tonight?”
“Just wanted to be alone,” you say, hoping he’ll drop it as you comb your fingers through his hair.
“But you hate being alone,” David points out, arms wrapping around you tighter, “I don’t know if I did something to make you not wanna be with me tonight, but if I did, I’m really sorry.”
“It’s okay, baby.”
“So, I did do something? Tell me,” he demands, eyes still closed as you hold him. He’s practically brain dead.
“It’s no big deal, Dave, I swear. I’m here right now, okay? With you. It’s all good,” you reassure, running your hands down his back. “We’re okay.”
“Alright,” he sighs, “I just don't wanna do it again, whatever it is. Kiss me, please.”
You love his kisses when he’s in this mood. They always make you think he could be in love with you too. They’re always soft, but deep, and he makes these noises in the back of his throat you wish you could hear forever. He always tells you how beautiful you are when he pulls away, and he always has the most wonderful blush spread across his cheeks. You always tell yourself it’s from the alcohol, not you, no matter how much you wish you were the cause.
David stops, lips gently leaving yours and tugging you as close as he can, eyes scanning your face. If it was anyone else staring you down this closely, you’d feel uncomfortable and intruded upon. No matter his levels of intoxication, the look in his eyes is always the same when he gets a sight of you.
If you think about it too much, your heart may burst.
“Go to sleep, baby,” you tell him, kissing his forehead. He nods slightly, leaning up to quickly press his lips to yours and moving his head back to your chest.
“I love you, Y/N,” he says, eyes already shut, “I mean it. Goodnight.”
“Goodnight, Dave. I love you too.”
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You wake up the next morning with your head smushed in David’s chest, legs tangled together and one of his hands in your hair.
He’s awake, back propped against his headboard and scrolling through his phone. He feels your stirring and tosses his phone to the side, both hands moving to your waist. David leans his head down, quickly pressing sloppy kisses all over your face.
“Daviiiiid!” you whine, pulling him closer, “Good morning.”
He kisses you on the mouth this time, your arms habitually wrapping around his neck before he pulls away, repeating to you, “Good morning, baby.”
“What time is it?” you ask, “How’s your head?”
“Fine,” he says, “Dom made me take, like, four aspirin before he dropped me off. It’s ten, but-,” he cuts himself off, sliding back into bed and wrapping his arms around you.
“I just wanna stay in bed all day,” Dave admits, burying his head deep in your shoulder.
“Until noon,” you bargain, “I have homework to do.”
“Ugh,” he groans, “Okay, but can I still stay with you?”
You shake your head slightly, “It’s a bunch of my AP reading; it’s due Monday. You’re gonna be bored. It’ll take a few hours, but I’ll text you when you can come over?”
He nods, simply saying, “Alright.”
“Can we fuck?” David blurts, “Like, later?”
“...Yes? Why do you still ask? You know you can just-”
“Because I wanna make sure! You’ve been acting weird lately,” he shrugs, hands flat against your skin.
“How?” You ask, anxious that he’s taken notice of your change in behavior.
“I dunno what it is,” he describes vaguely, “I don’t know if it’s this or school stuff or work stuff or friend stuff, but you’re always thinking about something. I see it on your face. The only time I don’t see it is when I’m fucking you.”
His answer makes you stifle a laugh, moving to put your head in his chest, “That’s ‘cause you fuck it out of my head.”
“What is it, though?” Dave asks, turning on his side to face you, free hand on your cheek, “What’s bothering you?”
“It’s no big deal, baby, I swear-”
“Bullshit,” he says quietly, “Something’s going on with you, but I’m not gonna force it out of you.”
“I’ll tell you later, okay?” You promise without thinking of the severity and repercussions your admission will bring. Your feelings begin to resemble some shape of a burden; you love what you two share together too much - you don’t want to ruin it.
He nods, eyes on yours, repeating, “Okay. I know you’ll tell me when you want to.”
“I just get nervous,” David elaborates, “Besides last night, it just seems like, lately, at least, whenever we do anything, you’re super in your head. I can’t tell if you want it or not. Since last week when we fucked in the car, I think? I feel like that’s when I picked up on it, I dunno…” he trails off, fingertips running gently down your arm.
Fuck. He knows. He has to. That’s the night you realized.
“That’s - that’s why I asked,” he admits, stuttering slightly, “I just wanted to make sure you still wanted it from me.”
“I’ll always want it from you,” you tell him, arm thrown haphazardly around his shoulders, “As long as you want me.”
You shouldn’t have said that - you don’t want the response because you already know what it is.
“I’ll always want you,” he says, as you knew he would, “And maybe you’ll always want me, but that's not the point…”
It almost feels like he’s sweet talking you as his hands flatten against the small of your back, continuing, “Are you happy with this?”
“What?” you ask, the tone of your voice going up as you motion between the two of you, “This?”
“Of course I’m happy with this, Dave,” you tell him the truth, “I love this and I love you.”
You shouldn't have said that either:
“...As friends?” He asks, as he always does.
“As friends, baby,” you reassure, swallowing nervously as you lie to both of you. David stops for a second, eyes flickering across your face before he slowly leans in.
You kiss him back, thinking of how much you hate lying to him but also of how much you love what you share.
Your phone vibrates loudly on Dave’s nightstand, interrupting your moment as he leans to grab it for you.
“It’s a text from Natalie,” he says, handing the phone to you and returning to his original position of lying on his back, your head in his chest.
Do you remember fucking Alex & Dave last night?! Everyone heard it!!! You can’t even deny it.
You laugh, passing the phone to him for him to read it.
Yes, I remember, Nat.
...was it good? it sounded like it
David makes a face at that one, saying, “Fuck, people know now.”
“I don’t really care,” you admit, “It doesn’t matter to me. It’s our business.”
“I guess,” he says, “I just don’t want people saying bad shit about you. Since we’re best friends.”
Yes, it was good🙄 David’s dick is huge
Gross!!!! TMI...and Alex?
I don't remember what he was like, I was too focused on David lol
Natalie calls you on FaceTime, and you look at David, “Do I answer it?”
“Fuck it, she already knows we hooked up,” he says, sitting up slightly, your head still on his chest.
You hit the green button, waiting for her face to appear.
“Oh. My. GOD,” her jaw drops, reacting to the visual of you and Dave still together, mostly naked, “You guys! No! My friends can’t be hooking up! Not...more than once!”
“We’re not,” you say, “Never again.”
“Okay, I know that’s a lie,” Nat calls you out, “You said it was good and you’re a sucker for good dick-”
“It’s not just good,” you defend, “It’s great-”
“Okay, ew!” She fake vomits, David laughing behind you, “Stop talking. I don’t need to know that! Anyways, God damn it, you guys! You just made me lose twenty bucks to Dima.”
“What do you mean?” David asks, moving to hold your hand out of frame.
“He knew, like, a month ago that something was going on, and I defended you guys and was like, ‘Nooo, I think they’re just close again!’ but now I feel like an idiot.”
“We weren't fucking a month ago!” Dave says, managing to get out, “Last night was the first-” before Nat cuts him off:
“Oh, so you’re fucking now? Lying is a sin, you guys. Don’t lie to me; I’ll kill both of you. It was so obvious you guys had done it before. How long have you been fucking?”
You let David answer, squeezing his hand gently, “It’s been, you know, like, a month. Month and a half, maybe.”
“I hate Dima so much,” she says, “Why is he always right about everything? Do I need to smoke more weed or something?”
“That would definitely help with the bitchiness,” Dave says, “It’s really not that big of a deal, Nat, like, we’re not dating or anything-”
“Yeah, for now,” Nat says, “It’s coming. I can see it.”
“It’s definitely not,” David ensures, “I can promise you.”
“Whatever you say, Dave,” she rolls her eyes, “I gotta go. Y/N, if you ever leave David’s bed again, come over. I need to talk to you about something.”
“Okay,” you say, “I will in a little bit.”
“Wait,” David says softly, “Am I still coming over, or…?”
“Yeah, of course! I mean, it won’t take that long at her’s, so-”
“Ugh,” Nat intervenes, “Gross. Get a room. Bye, love you guys, use protection.”
She hangs up before either of you can answer and David groans, hands going through his hair, “Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.”
“It’ll be okay,” you promise him, “If anyone should know, it’s her.”
“I know, but…” he trails, arms moving to wrap around you, “This was ours. No one else's.”
“It still is, baby,” you tell him, “They might know we fuck, but...this is still ours.”
“Yeah,” he half-heartedly agrees, tutting quietly, “Jesus. We had a fucking threeway with Alex. That's crazy.”
“I almost forgot he was there, honestly,” you admit, listening to David’s breathing patterns.
“I fucking didn’t,” he scoffs, tone of his voice turning rude and harsh, “Had to sit through watching him fuck you the wrong way. He's a dipshit, trying to tell me how to fuck my girl. Get the fuck out of here.”
“Jeez,” you say, eyebrows flying upwards in surprise, “Remember when you said Alex didn't make you jealous?”
He scoffs again, moving into his nightstand to grab his cigarettes, weed, grinder, and blunts, speaking, “That was before we all had a threesome. I didn't think he was into you like that - I said I wanted to fuck you years ago and he said he wasn't into you. Should’ve known his ass was lying.”
“Wait, what?” you question confusedly, “This was a conversation you guys had?”
“I mean, yeah,” David shrugs his shoulders, fidgeting with the objects, “Like, smash or pass shit. Freshman year. All of the guys knew how bad I wanted to fuck you, so they all passed you - except Ilya, but...that’s Ilya. I don’t take him seriously.”
“It’s really not a big deal. I’m sure, like, you and Nat have done the same shit. It’s stupid,” he continues, changing the subject, “But, baby, you know what he fucking asked me after we all fucked?”
“What?” You ask, sitting up and scooting so you’re next to him. David lights a cigarette and grabs his psychology textbook from his floor, setting it on his lap.
He takes a drag of his cigarette before passing it to you, indicating for you to hold it while he removes his blunt from the package so he can begin rolling it. “He asked me if I would be cool with him trying to make a move on you! Like-”
He pauses, taking a razorblade from the surface of his nightstand and concentrating on slicing the Swisher open, quickly scraping off and dumping the tobacco into the garbage can by his bed. “Like, he had literally just watched me cum inside of you and saw all of the marks I left on you from the other day, and he’s gonna ask me if he can make a move?”
He grabs his grinder and opens it, stuffing around a gram of weed in before closing it, grinding the contents down into shake. David takes his cigarette back from you, propping it between his lips and taking a drag as he continues to work. He moves the stick back to your fingers as he carefully opens the bottom of the grinder and dumps the shake into the shell of the blunt, evening it out, continuing to speak, “Like, dude, what the fuck? Love that guy ‘till I die, but he’s a fucking idiot.”
“Why does that make you so mad?” You question, taking a quick drag from his horrendous Red as he habitually rolls, licks, and sticks.
David looks at you as if you're stupid, “Because you’re my girl? Or did you forget that fact when you had another dude’s dick in you?”
He rolls his eyes before quickly apologizing, “I’m sorry. I didn't mean that. Anybody else having you pisses me off, but that's no excuse to be an asshole to you.”
He takes his cigarette back from you, finishing it off quickly and tossing the butt in a water bottle on his bedside table. David sets his items on the floor, placing the blunt in his mouth and lighting up, back pressed against his headboard.
“It’s just, like,” he keeps going, still angry, eyebrows scrunched together, “Don’t look at me weird for what I’m about to say, okay? Like, this kid...watched me fuck the life out of you, and sure, I guess he had some part of that - which makes me mad, too - but how is he gonna hear me tell you, and you’re, like, practically my girlfriend, right? To me, that’s how he should think of you here. How is he gonna hear me tell you that you’re mine and then ask if he can make a move on you?”
He nonchalantly passes the blunt to you, like he didn't just say you were practically dating, and you try to not let it hurt as much as it does. You hit it, holding the smoke in your lungs as he stares into his room, obviously having more to say.
“Fuck threesomes, man,” Dave says, shaking his head slightly as you pass it back to him, “Fucking ridiculous. I’m glad I tried it, but fuck that. Shit was horrible.”
“I didn't think it was that bad,” you offer, unsure of where he’s going with his angry rambling as he takes another hit, ghosting it and holding the smoke.
“If it was another girl,” he counters, exhaling, “You’d probably feel the way I do. But I don't even wanna fuck another chick. That’s wack. I can't even look at other girls anymore.”
“Are you mad at me for suggesting it or something?” His passive aggressive tone is angering you now, “It really sounds like it.”
His face untenses, hand coming to your knee as he bites his lip, “No. Fuck, I’m sorry. I’m a jealous asshole.”
“I know you just wanted to see,” he continues, “All three of us were pretty plastered. Maybe I’m overthinking it. Alex is probably still blacked out in his bed.”
“Still, though,” David says obstinately, continuing to smoke, “Alex is a fucking idiot. It, like, hurt my dick watching him try to fuck you.”
“Again, I don’t even remember him fucking me at all,” you shrug, plucking the blunt from him and taking another hit. “I was focused on you the whole time.”
“I wouldn't expect anything less,” he confidently scoffs, “You’re my girl. Forever and always. Fuck Alex. Now, I have to keep a fucking eye on him. Dipshit.”
David puts the blunt out as he finishes it, tossing the roach to the side.
“So…,” you trail off, kissing his cheek and scooting closer, moving your head to rest on his shoulder, “I take it you don't want another threesome?”
He turns to look down at you, eyebrows scrunched together and confusion etched into his features, “Fuck no. You do?
You shrug, opening your mouth to answer his question before he continues, “Why do you wanna fuck other people so bad? You told me you don't think of anyone else. Do you want to, like, stop this altogether?”
He’s offended, now, and it’s clear to you he was hiding his feelings about the threeway - you suggesting it did bother him. You clear your throat before speaking, “No. Of course, I don’t. Davey, baby, it’s not about fucking other people. I don't care about that and I don't think of anyone else. I just...um…” you pause, moving to fidget with his fingertips.
“What?” He asks, tone still harsh, “Spit it out, baby. Why bring in someone else if you don't want to fuck them?”
“I would just, um,” you look around his room, suddenly hesitant about what you’re going to say next, “You know, I want to get jealous…”
David’s still confused and still jealous as he delicately laces your fingers together - his loving actions not matching his harsh words. “Okay, that doesn't make sense. If you want to get jealous, then why bring in Alex?”
You pause, knowing he’s right. You brought in Alex only to see if you had feelings for David - and you hate that you figured it out at the expense of both of them. You chew on your lip and Dave squeezes your hand, indicating he’s still waiting on a response from you before he speaks again, “Wait...are you, like, into Alex?”
You roll your eyes, answering quickly, “No, David, I’m not into him. I don't even know him. The reason I brought him in is because...of what I’m going to tell you later. It’ll make sense. Just...don’t be angry with me. It feels like you are.”
“I’m not, I swear,” he promises, kissing the back of your attached hands, “I’m just, not, like...I’m not sharing, you know? And if you wanna bring in another girl...I also don't really want that.”
“Really?” You ask, “Why not?”
“Because...like, I know I’d just be paying attention to you the whole time, so…” He trails off, voice oddly quiet, “I’m not gonna bring in a girl that I’m not even attracted to, stare at you the whole time, cum for you, and then tell her to leave. There's no point. I like it when it’s just us…”
David rolls his eyes before offering, seemingly calming down a little bit, “It’s not a big deal. We’re exclusive friends with benefits - nothing’s changing that. Alex just needs to chill and shut up, and we’re not having another threesome...Case closed.”
You nod against him, not caring about the subject as much as he does, head still resting on his shoulder with his hand resting lovingly on the inside of your thigh.
“Jesus Chriiiiiist,” he drags out after a moment of silence, changing the subject and rubbing at his eyes with his free hand, “That's good fucking weed. Ilya and I went into the city for that shit. Chicago shit hits differently. One blunt and I’m already gone.”
You try to ignore the thought of how hot he is when he’s jealous - jaw clenching, eyes rolling, voice deep and defensive. You also try to ignore his haphazard use of the word girlfriend as you move on top of him, legs on each side of him as you hold both of his hands. You begin to feel buzzed, not as stoned as he seems to feel, as his dick twitches under your ass.
“Put your hair up. Ponytail, though; not a bun.”
“Why?”
“Just do it.” This is more jealous sex coming from him.
You unlace your fingers from his and do as you’re told, maintaining eye contact with him.
“Suck my dick.” David doesn’t say please, because why does he have to when he knows you will regardless?
You move once more - this time, off of him and between his legs, gently tugging at his underwear.
He waves your hands off, doing it himself and tossing the article of clothing somewhere on his floor.
He doesn't touch his own dick at all, moving both hands to grasp at your hair and push your mouth all the way down.
“Look at me,” he demands, pushing you down further as he bucks his hips up.
You do, meeting his eyes as you try to take as much of him as you can.
“More,” he says, not removing the pressure from your head, “All the way down, babygirl. There you go. Fuck.”
He holds your head there, fucking up into your mouth until you gag. David releases you when you do, allowing you to spit and wipe your mouth - although, his preference is when it’s messy.
While your mouth is off of him, he moves to his knees with his hands remaining on your ponytail, forcing you to move with him.
One of his hands moves to your cheeks, squishing them up together, before saying, “Open your mouth.”
You do, closing your eyes and expecting his dick down your throat once more, but he tips your head up and spits directly into your mouth.
Sparing no time, David pushes his dick all the way in.
“Look at me,” he gently reminds, hips unmoving, waiting for your eye contact before he moves.
“Good,” he praises once you do so, beginning to buck his hips up into your mouth and continue forcing your mouth up and down.
You continue this way for a few minutes, tears streaming gently down your face with the occasional gag. Every so often he slaps your cheeks, always a reminder to continue keeping eye contact with him.
He goes too deep in one stroke, dick all the way down your throat, causing your eyes to water profusely. Your hand slaps his hip, an indicator of your tapping out.
“Aw,” he tuts, “You don’t mean that. You don't really need to tap, do you?”
He pulls out of your mouth, spit dripping from your lips, letting you catch your breath for a moment before his hands tangle into your ponytail once more.
David pushes your head all the way down, where you were before you tapped, making a noise of satisfaction, “More. Take it.”
He continues applying pressure to the back of your head, hips bucking up, watching your tears stream down your face as you take him.
He tugs on your ponytail hard, not to pull you off, but to get your attention, “Come on, baby. You can do better than that. Take it.”
You do take it, savoring his every noise. You can feel when he’s about to cum, his movements becoming faster and more hasty.
He pulls his dick out of your mouth quickly, palm of his hand gently hitting your cheek as his way to tell you to open your mouth again. David jerks off above you, upholding his beloved eye contact, grunting as his cum hits all over your face and in your mouth.
“Holy fuck,” he says once he has partially recovered from his orgasm, reaching for his phone. Shamelessly, he holds up the device and takes a picture of you: tongue hanging out, tear-stained cheeks, eye contact with the camera, and a mixture of spit and cum all over your chin, lips, and cheeks.
Dave tosses it to the side once he’s gotten his photo, running his fingers over your lips.
Once again, he leans forward and spits in your mouth, fingers messily mixing his cum and his spit on your tongue.
He’s disgusting, and you always knew he was.
He proves you right once more, leaning down and attaching your mouths, tongue sliding against yours. You feel David’s fingers blindly push at the cum on your cheeks as he kisses you, nudging it inside of your mouth. Only Dave would kiss you with his fingers in your mouth.
He pulls away, removing his fingers and kissing your forehead, watching your throat move as you swallow. He gets off of the bed, tugging his underwear back on and moving into his bathroom.
“You’re gross,” he says simply, “Letting me do that to you.”
David's wetting a washcloth as he speaks, running the warm water from the tap.
“You’re the gross one, you did it,” you defend as he walks back over, fingers gently framing your face as he wipes away the mess he made.
“Yeah, but you let me,” he says, tugging lightly on the hair tie holding your hair up and dropping it next to you, “I nutted so hard that my balls hurt. Jesus.”
He tosses the now dirty washcloth somewhere into his bathroom, crawling back into bed with you.
“I should get going soon,” you tell him, slipping the hair tie back over your wrist, “Since I have to go see Nat now.”
“Okay,” he kisses you quickly, “D’you want me to eat you out before you go?”
“It’s fine,” you yawn, “We’re gonna fuck later, anyway.”
“I already miss you and you haven’t even left yet.”
You attempt to ignore him, leaning up to attach your lips. David pulls away after a few kisses, breaking, “You still taste like my cum.”
“Apparently, you like that,” you say, kissing him again.
“A little bit,” he murmurs, “A lot a bit. ‘S so hot.”
His right hand comes to your face, thumb on one cheek and forefingers on the other, squishing the skin up as he kisses you.
“You need to go,” David says, pulling away his hand and lips, “Or I’ll end up fucking you here. It’s almost noon, anyway, and my balls need to recover.”
You stifle a giggle, nodding, “Okay. But wait, Davey-”
“What's up?”
“Did you…” you trail, mulling over your next words to say them carefully, “Did you still think I was acting weird just now? When I was blowing you?”
He makes a face, “Kinda. It’s kind of an all-the-time thing. It makes me sad.”
“Why?” you ask, frowning, arms thrown around him.
“Because I don't know what it is. If I did, maybe I could fix it…”
Your heart drops at his words, suddenly feeling incredibly guilty for what you’re going to have to tell him later. He doesn't know he won't be able to fix this. The only thing he can give you is a yes or a no.
“Later today,” you promise, “Okay? I need to figure out how to talk about it first.”
“I get it,” David nods understandingly, “I love you, baby. As friends.”
“I love you too...As friends.” It hurts to say, especially knowing the truth - especially knowing you’re lying to him.
He kisses your forehead and slaps your ass, saying, “You should go now. The sooner you get that shit done, the sooner I can cum in you.”
“You’re a whore.”
Dave responds with a matter of fact yup, shoving you gently.
He watches as you silently slip back into your clothes, pajamas from the night prior, eyes lingering lovingly.
You grab your keys and phone, giving him a final goodbye kiss and quiet I love you before you head out of the door.
“I’ll see you in a few, baby. Be careful.”
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“You like him,” Nat says confidently in her greeting, first time seeing you of the day, “I know you do. I saw it on your face.”
She expects you to attempt to lie - for you to blush uncontrollably, stammering about how you don’t have a crush on your shared best friend...who you happen to be fucking.
But you don’t, and it surprises her:
“Yeah,” you admit, kicking your shoes off as you enter her room, “I do. I don’t know what to do.”
“He doesn’t know?” Natalie gapes from her bed, “Y/N, you have to tell him!”
“I know, but I’m scared.” You sigh as you throw yourself onto her bed, hugging a pillow to your chest, “It’s gonna make things weird, and I just really like how things are right now.”
“Is it worth it, though? Are you really satisfied?”
You dodge her question, “I just don’t know what to say! ‘Hey, Dave, I think I love you, but not just as friends!’”
“...That's exactly what you say! Look,” she moves to face towards you, legs crossed, “You know he’s stupid. We all know it. I don’t know how you guys are when no one else is around, but he probably feels the same way and doesn't realize it, okay?”
You shake your head in disagreement, “No, you don’t get it. He's constantly saying that everything we do, we do as friends. He makes me repeat it to him.”
“Well, what do you mean by everything? I thought you guys were just fucking - is there other stuff involved, too?”
You stop momentarily, scratching your head and wondering if you should tell her anything else.
“Ohhhh,” she says, realizing something without you elaborating, “I see what happened. So, you guys fucked, thought, ‘Hey, maybe this isn't a terrible idea!’, said there were no strings attached, but now he acts like you're his girlfriend all the time. And now you're confused.”
“Um, yeah. That's what happened.”
“You guys suck at keeping secrets. Both of you.”
She continues, “When did you guys even fuck for the first time, anyway?”
“The night before homecoming. Like, after the football game. About a month ago.”
“...But both of you were at my house?” Nat questions, “Oh my God. Tell me you didn’t.”
“Didn’t what?” You play dumb, heat rising in your cheeks.
“Did you guys fuck in my house?”
“...Maybe-”
“Ew! Where? Actually, I don’t even want to know.”
“Anyways,” she changes the subject, slightly shivering at the thought of you and David together, “Just tell him. He cares about you and he’s never been an asshole to you.”
“I just don’t want him to take it the wrong way-”
Natalie interrupts you, “How else would he take it? Y/N, it’s either a yes or a no. There’s not really an in between with this.
“Also, remember he’s never actually been with anyone before. He probably just doesn't know how to realize he has feelings for you,” she lays down completely, staring at her ceiling.
“What makes you so sure he has feelings for me?”
“Well,” she sighs, “I’m not sure, honestly, because I mean, you know he doesn't really get crushes on people. But David…” Nat trails, “needs people to point out things and tell him what he wants. Not to say he doesn't know how to make his own decisions, but he’s just oblivious.”
“I know he is,” you agree, moving to lay down next to her, also staring at the ceiling, “He’s kind of an idiot.”
“I just don’t want to be another Sami,” you admit, “He seemed annoyed by that.”
“Wait, what? What do you mean, ‘another Sami’?” You feel her head move slightly, turning to look at you.
“Oh, shit. You don’t know? David and Sami hooked up. For a while. She took his virginity.”
“What the fuck?” She sits up, eyes on yours and eyebrows scrunched together, “Why’d they stop? And why didn't he tell me?”
“They stopped because she caught feelings for him,” you shrug, “I dunno, Nat. He’s told me he doesn't like talking about his sex life around you.”
“Hm,” she wonders, “He’s so weird about things sometimes. I hope you’re not another Sami, either. But I hope it goes well for you, girl,” Natalie says, “You guys would be cute.”
“Thanks, Nat,” you get up and off of her bed, “I have homework, but he's coming by later. I guess I’ll tell him after we fuck-”
“I honestly do not want to hear about that part - and why wait until afterwards? Why not just straight up tell him?”
“Because, Nat, if it’s our last time, then I want to at least have a last time with him,” you reason, sliding your shoes back on.
“Awww. Did you mean it when you said he was good? Like, is he actually? I don’t want the picture, that’s gross, but he just doesn't seem like he would be to me,” Natalie questions you, now sitting up on her bed. “He seems too clumsy.”
“Dude,” you lean in closer, “Yes. He is so good. Best I’ve ever had. The first time, I was blown away. He’s not him at all when we fuck. Like, this morning, I was sucking-”
“Okay, no details, please,” she cuts you off, “Go do your homework. I’ll see you later. Let me know what happens with you guys!”
You bid her goodbye and tell her you love her, giving her a quick hug.
++
“Baby, let me bruise you again,” David begs in a whisper against your lips, “You look so pretty with them, and your old ones are fading...”
You nod easily into your shared kiss with him, wanting a final souvenir from your sexual relationship. You and Dave are standing in the middle of your room making out, his dick already hard as his hands creep up the back of your t-shirt. You’re not sure why he always feels the need to move so glacially slow. Maybe he likes it to last.
He pulls away gently as he tugs on the hem of your shirt, a silent indicator of his desire to see you. You cross your arms and remove it, your eyes watching as David’s fingers find the neck of his own shirt and he slips it off of his back.
He kisses you again, much deeper this time as both hands squeeze at your waist - almost as hard as he can. One hand reaches around you, lips still on yours, and effortlessly undoes the clasp of your bra. He’s gotten better at that, you think.
Mid-kiss, you slip it off of your shoulders and arms, causing David to lean out. He presses kisses down the column of your throat, your hands threading through his hair as his kisses stop beneath your collarbone.
“Put your hair up and lie down,” he tells you, hands fidgeting as he undoes his belt and tugs his pants off.
You do as you're told, assuming a ponytail is his preference and removing your hands from him, lying down on your bed. Your thumbs hook on your shorts and pull them off.
“Everything off,” David says as he gets on the bed and leans over you, fingers tugging at your underwear, sliding them down your legs.
He attaches your mouths once more before beginning his trek down your body for a second time, teeth grazing against your skin with every sloppy kiss. Still above you, he rests his weight on his hands, positioned by your head as he makes his way further downwards.
The further down he gets, the more he shifts his weight towards his legs. Dave’s hand gently comes to one of your thighs, splitting your legs apart, still moving south.
You find yourself lying there with your eyes closed, succumbing to his touch as he settles between your legs and your hands slip into his hair again.
“Look at me,” he says - an insistent, constant reminder, but he loves watching for reactions. Good reactions are when he knows he’s done well. Constant eye contact is David’s version of instant gratification during sex. His reminders are almost always gentle, never brutal or demanding, because regardless of how he asks, he will always get what he wants.
You obey him, eyes opening to the sight of him settled between your thighs, arms wrapped around your legs and hands on your stomach. Almost instantly, as soon as your eyes meet, Dave begins slowly pressing kisses up the inside of your right thigh. He waits until your breathing shudders in anticipation as his mouth moves closer to your pussy, eyes remaining on yours.
You feel his breath fan over you, causing you to buck up into his hold. He quickly pushes your hips back down, putting his weight down and bringing his head up slightly, “Be patient, baby. Don’t be a brat.”
You whine slightly, tugging more harshly on his hair as he begins the process once more, kissing up your thigh. David maintains your eye contact as he slowly attaches his mouth to you, one arm moving from around you to between your legs. He shifts over slightly to allow room for his hand, ring and middle finger deftly sliding inside of you.
You make an approving noise at that, still trying to buck your hips up into his mouth. He pulls away just enough to speak, repeating his prior statement as his fingers crook upwards, “Keep trying that shit and I won't fuck you at all. Don't be a brat for me. Tell me you hear me, baby.”
“I hear you, daddy,” you nod, “Sorry. Keep going.”
“I thought so,” he replies, “Good girl.”
Dave puts his mouth on you again, sucking steadily as he begins to move his fingers incessantly. He’s done this many times now, figuring out the exact science of how to make you cum quicker than the time before.
He seems to succeed each time by moving his fingers correctly, pinning your hips down, mouth licking and sucking at whichever pace you seem to react the most to. David’s one condition is continuous eye contact – allowing him to read the expressions on your twisted up features as he touches you the way he knows you love and giving him any indication as to when you’re going to cum.
He maintains eye contact minutes later, as well, when his dick is shoved as far as it can go down your throat. Dave keeps a hand down, wrapped around your neck, as he feels it swell and contract with every thrust of his hips.
He’s good at praising you, and he knows it; he loves the way your eyes light up when he tells you you did something well, or when he gives you the kiss you’ve been waiting for the entire time. Your relationship makes sense: he likes praising you and to be praised, and you like doing things for him so he can praise you. It’s a give and take.
David no longer wraps his dick, skipping the condom completely as he quickly bottoms out inside of you, hitting it from the back. He still hasn't entirely gotten used to the feeling of being bare, eyes rolling back slightly as he exclaims a breathless, “Oh, fuck, babygirl.”
“Daddyyyyy,” you whine, one of his hands wrapped around your ponytail. You rest your weight on your knees and palms of your hands before he tugs you by the hair, tipping your head backwards and leaning down to kiss you sloppily.
He releases you and untangles his fingers from your hair, one hand gripping your shoulder tightly as the other grasps at your hip. Dave holds you so tightly, fingertips digging in no matter where he grabs you, you can almost already feel the bruises taking shape.
He lasts longer in bed than you ever expected he would, which you never complain about - he knows how to repeatedly make you cum, fucking the brains out of you until the only thing you can think of is how good he’s fucking you.
David pulls out, ordering you to switch positions to missionary, taking no time before sliding in once more. He stares at you as he fucks you, now, resting his weight on his palms which are glued to your tits.
It’s almost suffocating, feeling at least a hundred and fifty pounds on your chest as you get fucked, but he doesn't care. If you didn't like it, you would say otherwise. The scratches down his back and blood underneath your fingernails tell him you don't just like it, you love it.
You’ve cum nearly four times before David mentions he’s close, moving his weight off of you and leaning down, arms wrapping around you as his hips speed up. His face is in your shoulder as he whimpers and you dig your nails into the skin of his back, begging him to cum inside of you as deep as he can.
He groans, voice raspy, and he does – he feels a line of blood trickle down his back as he cums, breathing heavily and making the most wonderful whimpering noises.
“Oh-,” Dave starts, “Oh my fucking God.” He pulls out, not bothering to look at your pussy before collapsing entirely on top of you. “Sorry, I just...Wow. Give me a second. I think I went to another planet.”
You giggle slightly, kissing his shoulder before glancing down at his back, “Oh, David, baby. Your back.”
“It’s fine,” he says, “Is it worse than last time?”
“Ummm,” you pause, “It’s definitely more bloody. Sorry.” You show him your bloody palms, his eyes rolling in response.
He moves off of you, knowing you want to go get a washcloth and peroxide to clean his back up with.
You tug your pajamas back on and move into the bathroom attached to your room, filing through your cabinets and gathering supplies.
You return to his still form after washing your hands, David seemingly still recovering from his orgasm as you wet the cloth with the liquid.
“Was it that good? I doubt it,” you say, laughing slightly as you press it to one of the wounds.
He hisses in response, mumbling, “Fuck. Your pussy felt like the universe.”
You ignore him, rolling your eyes and continuing to clean the abrasions, regardless of his protests. Once he’s all cleaned, you toss the trash and return back to bed with him, David rolling over and moving so you can settle into his arms.
“I can smoke in here, right, baby?” David asks, “The windows are open.”
“Go for it,” you say, “If they’re open, you can, and if they’re not...then, just open them.”
“Got it,” he responds lamely, removing his arm from around you and leaning over the edge of the bed, grabbing his pants. He rifles through the pockets as he searches for his Reds and his Bic, making a noise of satisfaction once he locates the items. Dave cups his hand around the flame as he lights the end of his cigarette once it's between his lips, the stick wagging slightly as he takes a long drag.
He exhales the smoke as he wraps his arm around you once more, his free hand finding itself wedged in the dip of your waist. He lazily drops the lighter somewhere in the sheets next to him.
You’re both quiet, something which isn't rare in your post-coital moments together. Even though you hate his cigarettes, you’re out, and fiending. You reach to silently pluck his Red from his fingers, placing it in your mouth and dragging on it. You mirror his actions and exhale towards the ceiling, suddenly remembering the promise you made to him hours prior. You feel an exponential dread consume you, taking another drag from his cigarette before passing it back to him.
David taps the excess ash into a half empty water bottle on your nightstand as he smokes, turning the water a murky gray. You feel his eyes on you as you continue staring up at the ceiling, anxiously memorizing the squiggles of the plaster above you.
“You’re always so beautiful after sex,” David compliments randomly, clearing his throat slightly, “It’s my favorite. I can never stop staring.”
He’s always the first to speak after sex. He tips your head up, cigarette still between his fingers, so he can kiss you gently and slowly, eyes glued to your lips as he leans in. He pulls away seconds after, pressing a loving kiss to your forehead and taking a drag.
“Thanks,” you say half-heartedly, feeling the need to reach for the nicotine again.
“Jesus, just take it, baby,” he says, reaching for his soft pack he had tossed haphazardly on to your bedside table once he’d removed them from his pants.
He takes another one out of the soft package by shaking it slightly, repeating his routine: 1) Prop between lips. 2) Cup hand around lighter’s flame. 3) Take the longest drag possible.
You can feel the words you want to say dancing along the tip of your tongue, wanting so badly to just say what you’re thinking - mostly to just get it over with. You barely pay attention to his compliments, almost as if your ears stop listening for your own well being.
“Hey,” David says, free hand rubbing gently at your hip, “No pressure, I swear, but…”
Oh, God.
“Did you ever find out how to say whatever's been bugging you? I know I keep asking and I’m sorry for that, but when something is bothering you, it bothers me too.”
“Um,” you swallow and take a final drag of what is now your cigarette before leaning over him, dropping it into the water bottle. “Kind of?”
“Go ahead,” he tells you, nonchalant as he puts his cigarette out too, “Try your best.”
“Okay, well,” you sigh, eyes on the ceiling once more, not wanting to look at him or see his reaction. His eyes are on you, you feel their presence, and you feel your heart come to your throat.
“I love you, David.”
You manage to get it out, simultaneously feeling a weight lifted off of your shoulders and the unknown burden of what his response will be.
“Yeah,” he says matter-of-factly, shrugging his shoulders slightly, “I love you too. As friends.”
“No, Dave,” you respond quietly, timid, “Not...as friends. Um, more...more than that. Like...I’m...you know. I’m in love with you, David.”
You feel him stop breathing, his hand on your waist stopping its gentle strokes.
“Um,” he responds, “Oh.”
He doesn't instantly react the way you thought he would, and you no longer feel his eyes staring you down. You glance over at him to see his body language: teeth biting at his lips, holding his breath, eyes moving as he looks around the room.
It suddenly hits David everything you share together; how he treats you, how you treat him, what the sex is like, how jealous he got of Alex, and he wonders how many I love you’s you lied to him about. He can't say he blames you for it. He realizes all of the times he turned you down in your face, explicitly ensuring he would never want that type of relationship with you.
You’ve confused him, now, and he questions if he’s been in denial this entire time. He thinks he has, but he has no idea how to handle it. His heart hurts, and he doesn't know why.
“...David?” You ask him, more anxious than before.
He clears his throat and rubs at your waist slightly before removing his touch entirely, “I have to go.”
“What? N-no, you don’t, we can talk-”
“No, Y/N,” Dave insists in a harsher tone, moving out of bed and beginning to pull his clothes on, almost in a rush, “I need to think.”
You sigh, holding back tears and nodding slightly, “Okay, but David, if it’s a no, then just say-”
“It’s not a no, though,” he goes quiet, “...I think. I don’t know, baby, - Y/N - I just need to fucking think.”
You’re still trying to withhold your tears, and he can tell, causing him to feel irreparably guilty for not being able to give you a straight answer.
“Are you…” you trail, voice wavering, “Are you mad at me?...Or something?”
It’s his turn to sigh as he tugs on his shoes, not directly looking at you, “No. Of course not, babe - Y/N.”
He corrects himself and stares for a moment at the floor, quietly apologizing for his multiple mistakes before repeating himself for the third time, “I just need time to think.”
David sees you nod out of the corner of his eye before he looks at you, catching a glance as you quickly attempt to wipe away a stray tear, not wanting him to see.
“Y/N, I have to go,” he says, feeling guiltier by the second as he grabs his phone, keys and cigarettes, anxiously searching through the sheets for his lighter.
He locates it, and wishes so badly he could kiss you goodbye and tell you he loves you. He’s not sure what this means for himself, or what it means for his feelings, but the best he can muster in place of a goodbye kiss is: “I’ll see you later, okay? I promise.”
He thinks it’s a pathetic response, too, and pushes the thought to the back of his head. He begins to take steps towards your bedroom door, hand landing on the doorknob before you ask, “When is later?”
“Um,” he says quietly, “Whenever I have an answer for you.”
“Oh,” you reply, his back turned to you, “Okay. Bye, Dave. Be safe.”
He sighs, feeling horrible, “Bye, Y/N.”
David shuts the door as silent as possible behind him, slowly moving down the stairs before he hears you burst into tears. He hates the noise and hates the fact he’s the cause of it, moving quicker down the steps. He half-heartedly bids your parents goodbye and goes out the front door, eyes welling up with tears.
He lets them fall as he unlocks his car and gets in, hastily fastening his seatbelt. He puts the key in the ignition and starts the car, trying his best to not think about the fact he is the reason for your current distress.
He pulls out of your driveway and begins to understand he is angry with himself. David’s angry because he should have realized; he should have realized every pause you took after you told him you loved him, the look on your face you always had when he said he only loved you platonically, the way you looked at him, the way you kissed him, the uneasiness in your voice while you told him - so many signs of your feelings for him he was too much of an idiot to see.
He now recognizes his actions and his words contradict each other; it's not very possible to cum in his best friend and remain platonic. He didn't want to have feelings for you because he thought it would end badly on his side, so he shut out the thought entirely. He didn't realize, until now, at least, he was refraining from breaking his own heart.
It doesn't take away from his guilt of what was essentially false advertising: treating you like a significant other, even saying you almost were one, but not wanting the attached and required commitment. It makes him feel like a pussy.
He’s still crying, haphazardly sniffling and wiping at his tears as he pulls into his driveway. He turns the car off and grabs his things before making the short walk to Nat’s house next door. David walks in without knocking, something of regular nature for them, and makes his way up to her room. The door is closed, and he knocks quietly, putting his weight up against it.
He hears a muffled Come in! and turns the doorknob, walking in and shutting the door.
Natalie immediately sees the shape he's in, quickly standing up from her desk, “Oh, God, Dave. She told you?”
He sniffles and stops, “You knew?”
She instantly becomes offended at his accusatory tone, crossing her arms, “I found out today, David, and she didn't even have to tell me. I could see it on her face. What do you think we talked about earlier? Do not get mad at me for something you guys got yourselves into.”
He sighs, still quietly crying, “I know, I’m sorry. I’m just so confused.”
“I know,” she replies, walking over and wrapping her arms around him. Her embrace makes him cry harder into her hair, before she comfortingly says to him, “It’s okay. It’ll be okay. Just...lay down.”
He does, kicking his shoes off and climbing into her made bed. She lays next to him, shoulder to shoulder, staring at the ceiling.
“What did you say to her?”
“I was such an asshole about it, but I didn't know what else to do. I just told her I had to leave, that I didn't know what my answer is, and that I’d see her later…”
“You left?”
“Well, what was I supposed to do, Nat? I don't have an answer for her. I wasn't going to just sit there with her watching, waiting for me to decide. That’s fucked up. I look like an asshole regardless.”
“You are an asshole, David, but-”
“But Nat, it’s her. I can't dick around with her. Like, I don't think I’m that much of an asshole to you, either, because I don't want to lose either of you. But she’s...I really can't fuck that up. Am I fucking it up?” His voice wavers at the end, hands uneasy and fidgety on his chest.
“No, you’re not,” she promises, “You’re just being honest. We both know she appreciates that more than a half-assed answer.”
“But if you want my honest opinion…,” Nat continues, “It seems like you have feelings for her, too.”
“I do,” David says quickly, “Um...I just-”
“Then, Dave, what the fuck is the problem here? Go back to her and tell her you love her.”
“Because I’m confused, Nat-”
“About what? Dave-”
“I’ve never felt this before!” he exclaims, tears welling up again, “And I feel like a fucking idiot for not realizing it sooner, and I feel like such an asshole because it took her telling me she has feelings for me for me to realize I have them for her too. I don't even know what I feel for her, but it's not...you know, just friends.”
“I think you do know what you feel for her, and you’re too scared to admit it because you don't want her to break your heart. But, David, you have to realize she doesn't want that, either. You know what she told me today when I asked her about it?”
Dave murmurs a quiet What?, urging Natalie to continue, “That she didn't want to be another Sami. Which, thank you for telling me about-”
“Fuck,” he says, exasperated, cutting her off and ignoring her, “I knew it seemed like that bothered her. Ever since I told her about it, she’s been acting weird.”
“I mean, yeah, you did cut it off with Sami after she told you she had feelings for you. Why would this be any different?”
“Because it’s her, and I know I keep saying that and it doesn't really mean anything but I don't know how else to describe it. I love her so much, I don't want to mess this up. Everything is different when it comes to her.”
“I don't think you will, David. When I talked to her, she was trying to hide it, but...I could tell. I don't think you could do anything to change her mind.”
“...What do I do? Tell me what to do.”
“Go fucking tell her! Plan a date. Take her out. See how it goes. Make her your girlfriend. I don't know! I’m not in this with you guys,” Natalie’s exasperated, getting frustrated with him, “You’re making this so much harder than it has to be.”
David’s eyebrows knit together and fly up in surprise, confusion written all across his face, “What? What do you mean?”
“She literally did all of the work for you. All you have to do is say yes and you can get what you want. She took a chance by telling you - the least you can do is give her the answer as soon as you know it. Which, you know it, so you need to get over there.”
“Fine,” he says, obstinate, “I’ll go. Right now.” He quickly moves out of her bed, slipping his shoes on and grabbing his keys.
“Nat?” He says, hugging and thanking her quickly, “You know nothing.”
“Cross my heart.”
++
It’s dark now, meaning David has to park down the street and crawl through your window. He does, praising God you left your window open.
You’re sleeping, and he almost feels guilty for interrupting you. Your eyes and cheeks are puffy and tear-stained, bringing him much anger towards himself.
He quietly kicks his shoes off and crawls into bed with you, waking you.
You stir, turning over to face him and eyebrows scrunching together, “Dave?”
“Yeah. Y/N, I’m a fucking idiot.”
“What?” You ask, heart racing as you sit up, turning your lamp on.
“Um,” he pauses, meeting your eyes, “I love you, too.”
In this light, you can see the evidence of him crying, too. He continues, “I know I walked out, and I’m sorry for that, and I totally understand if you don’t want me anymore-”
“Shut up,” you say, hand covering your mouth, “You’re lying.”
“What?”
“There’s no way-”
“That’s why I’m an idiot, baby, I just...I want you, okay?” David moves to grab your hand, placing it over his heart to emphasize its increasing rhythm before continuing, “I want you so bad it hurts. I want you to be mine. I feel so stupid for not realizing it sooner. You’re everything I want. I mean it. Again, though, if you don't want me anymore because I left, I completely-”
“Shut up, Davey baby,” you sniffle, quickly leaning in to kiss him, hand remaining on his chest. It feels different now; almost as if it’s a new beginning.
“What does this mean?” You ask him, forehead leaning against his.
“I think it means…” He trails off, clearing his throat, “Um, d’you wanna be my girlfriend? Like, do you wanna be a thing?”
“I thought you would never ask,” you wholeheartedly admit, murmuring a yes, of course I would! before attaching your lips once more.
“IloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyouIloveyou,” David says, continuing to kiss down your neck, “Oh my gosh, baby, we’re a thing.”
“I didn't think you had feelings for me,” you say, “I thought I scared you off or something. I’ve never seen you so freaked out.”
“No, of course not,” he promises, moving to gently tug off his shirt, “I’m just stupid and was taken off guard. But…”
He breathes heavily, hands roaming all over your half-naked body, “I love you so fucking much.”
You kiss him once more, asking, “Is this why?”
You confuse him, “What? Like, the sex?”
You nod before he continues, “Fuck no. It definitely helps, but is that why? No. You’re you. That’s why. You’re the girl of my dreams. You’re my best friend. I would let you ruin my life.”
“You don’t mean that,” you swear, eyes welling up with tears, “Holy shit, David.”
“I do, and I know. This is crazy.”
“...Do we tell people?”
“...I think,” he trails, “Just Nat...for now. Other people later, but we can talk about it another time.”
You agree easily, arms wrapping around him again as you burst into tears, “David, tell me you mean it. Say it again.”
You know he does, he wouldn't admit it if he didn't, but you want to hear him say the words again.
“Yes, baby, yes,” he promises, arms wrapping around you and reciprocating your embrace, “I love you. For real. So fucking much. I mean it. I want you to fuck me up forever. I give you permission. Do whatever you want with me. I’m a dumbass. I’m sorry I didn't realize sooner.”
“It’s okay,” you swear, happy tears running down your cheeks, “I love you so much, Davey. This is all I want.”
You feel so relieved to not feel the obligation to repeat a bullshit phrase back to him and to know there is no second part to your I love you.
“Stop it,” he begs, fingers coming up to wipe the tears from your cheeks, hand remaining, “You’re going to make me start crying again.”
“Sorry,” you apologize, “This is just so…”
“Crazy.”
“But is it, though? I mean, think about how we were…” You go quiet, hand coming up to your cheek to cover his, “Even when I didn't have feelings for you, I kind of thought it was going to happen.”
“How long have you known?” David asks, eyes glued affectionately to yours. You’re now lying down and facing each other in bed, legs tangled as you cradle each other.
“Not as long as it feels,” you admit, “Since the night in the car. When you said that shit this morning, I really thought you knew.”
He tuts, moving to push a piece of hair behind your ear, “No, baby. No excuse, but, you know I’m clueless. I don't notice the signs, even when I’m paying attention.”
“So,” he says, “You said Alex had to do with this. What did you mean?”
“I only wanted to try that so I could be sure,” you explain, eyes glued to his, “I know that's kind of shitty, but I was still confused about it. I wanted to see if I felt attracted to him in the same way I’m attracted to you...Obviously, I’m not.”
David still seems confused, stating, “So, you didn't actually want a threesome with Alex?”
“No, baby,” you reply, “Not at all. Why do you think I said I don't even remember fucking him? I was focused on you. It answered my question. You're the only one I want.”
“I love you,” he simply responds, eyes almost pouty, “Oh, gosh, babe. You’re my girlfriend.”
“You’re my boyfriend.” David kisses you, index finger and thumb holding your chin, repeating to you happily, “I’m your boyfriend.”
“Oh shit,” he exclaims, abruptly changing the subject and pulling you closer as his eyebrows fly up, “Baby! I can make love to you, now.”
You giggle slightly, “You haven't been?”
“No,” he tells you, stifling a laugh, “Not at all. It's just different.”
You ask him how, your hands delicately framing his face, unable to stop your staring at him. He's yours, and you're his. He speaks, elaborating, “I mean, I’ve never done it before, but...I know how it should go.”
“How should it go?” You ask, David moving your hand to his mouth, kissing your fingertips before lacing your fingers together.
“I’m not telling,” he replies, “I’m not gonna ruin it.”
“How do you know?”
He flashes his smile, still grasping your hand, palms slightly clammy, “You know...movies.”
“Yeah?” You question, wanting to know more, “Show me.”
Dave pauses, eyes glancing at your lips before making his eye contact, “Like, right now?”
You nod, untangling your hands to pull his face closer, eyes still on his before you lean in to kiss him. His hands slide under the covers to come to your hips, both index fingers hooking into the hem of your underwear, tugging them up slightly. He doesn't remove them, yet, breathing heavily before he pulls away.
“Not tonight,” David swears, changing his mind and sighing softly, “Later.”
“What? Why?” You give him your most subtle puppy dog eyes, kissing him softly once more.
“‘Cause I’m super tired, and have been crying for a while, and I don't wanna half-ass it,” he explains, voice almost in a whisper, “Don’t look at me like that. It almost works.”
You giggle before he kisses you again, slowly, noticing you wince slightly as he grabs at your hips. He pulls away, peeling the covers back and taking a look. There’s deep blue lines on your hips, around your waist, and nearly-whole handprints embedded into your ass and tits.
David runs his fingers over them as lightly as he can, scoffing, “Jesus. I really got you this time, huh?”
You nod, meeting his eyes, before he continues: “You like them?”
“Yeah,” you tell him, feeling his fingertips push in slightly at the bruises on your ass as he waits for your reaction. You wince, hissing quietly, “I like being yours.”
“Good,” he replies immediately, not thinking twice, “I love you.”
“I love you, too,” you repeat back to him, “I wanna mark you up, now, too. Let me?”
“Baby, you already fucked up my back,” David sits up, turning his back towards you as evidence of his marred skin.
He lies back down next to you, arm coming around your waist, “But, by all means, go ahead. I’m not against it.”
Over the next twenty minutes, you do, leaving sporadic, deep purple hickeys across his chest. He speaks, “Fuck, these hurt.”
“Good,” you mimic him from moments earlier, “Dave...it feels so good to not have to say-”
“As friends?” he asks, cutting you off, “I know, right? I feel like I was psyching myself out and lying to myself.”
“Why?”
“'Cause,” he pauses, lingering on his words as he figures out how to phrase it, “I just, like, never thought you'd be into me this way, ‘cause I’m not really your type, so I shut it out completely. I didn't wanna get a crush on you and break my own heart.”
“So, like,” he continues, mood changing quickly as his eyes well up with tears, “Um, please don't break my heart. You don't know how scary this is for me.”
“Baby,” you say, wiping at his tears as he sniffles, “I know. I won't.”
“Yeah, but,” he cries gently, “I’ve never done this before, and I want it so bad. I mean, we’ve been best friends for so long...don't you think we should be, like, endgame? Wouldn't that just make sense?”
You pause, taken off guard he's already thought about it, but nod, “Yes. I want that, too.”
He nods to himself, almost a self-affirmation as he still cries, “Okay. Just...I know myself, and I know…” he trails, seemingly hesitant, “I know you're gonna be all I think about and my everything. And you’re still my best friend, and I don't want to fuck anything up with you at all or-”
“David-”
“Y/N, I’m serious. Once I’m in it, I’m in. Please don't break my heart.”
You wipe his tears and kiss his cheek, embracing him lovingly, “I won't, baby. I don't want to ever do that. My heart is with you, always - you know that, right?”
He nods again, arms squeezing you tightly, repeating to you: “My heart is with you, always. I love you so much.”
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