#this is the most based take on this whole damn hellsite

[claudethecrabdemoness]

SCREAMING-

I didn't take part in Summer Vees Week, and all the art was super cute - but whenever I saw the group drawn at an earth-like beach this is honestly all I could think about-

[echthr0s]

if you’re still taking character asks 🥹 for adrian: 2 3 5 6 7

When am I not taking character asks? All I ever want from this hellsite is character asks. There is no expiration date on the memes. One day someone will dig through the #askbox games tag and send asks from a meme I reblogged 2 whole years ago and I will be like, "you. you get me."

How long was the process before the character reached its final version? (or a version that would be clearly recognizable as the character?)

There is never a final version, I am in a continuous process of creating and learning and remembering and uncovering. I don't remember anything about what it was like to first conjure Adrian; that was the work of Grey, and Grey is gone and took a lot of memory with him. All I can really say is that Adrian existed in a sort of frozen bubble for a few years until I got a hold of him and uncovered the missing piece of his story that made everything fall into place for us -- the apotheosis situation, and Ny'arlat's influence.

What was the first thing you decided on, the character's name, appearance, personality or their role in the story?

I don't remember. I will have to assume that appearance and name came first, simultaneously, because those had to be created in order to play the game and he has never changed appearance or name in all the years he's existed. Personality would have been next, with the Paragon/Renegade system being so prominent in the game.

How did you choose their name and why? Was it simply based on vibes or is there any specific meaning behind the name? Are the reasons behind their name different in- and out of universe?

I didn't; Grey did, and dead men tell no tales. I don't know what "Adrian" means, so I went to look it up and it seems to just be a demonym ("from Adria"). As much as I love Adrian's name, I think it is probably one of the most mundane parts of his existence -- the Shepards gave him that name when they adopted him, and that's really the extent of its meaningfulness.

I'm still working on what he is called when he ascends, as I have no damn clue and it's irritating me.

What was the thought process behind their appearance? Did you go mostly for the aesthetic or are there other reasons they look the way they do?

The thought process was most likely "how do I make a pretty Black man in this character creator", as usual. Frankly, Adrian's appearance is one of the only times I nailed it in a character creator, which is funny because BioWare's character creators are... pretty wack, overall, especially for characters of colour, especially in their older games. But in-game Adrian is what Adrian looks like, barring a few minor details (like the Renegade scars Lazarus lines being a permanent feature and not tied to personality values, and the strange changes he undergoes as he gets closer and closer to his destiny).

And the reason his armour is always hot pink is because fuckin no one would expect it. It's a disarming tactic and also gives him poison-frog vibes. (Mostly he just likes pink. He doesn't understand why that's such a big fuckin deal.)

What is an aspect of their appearance that you like the most?

The Lazarus lines and the strange changes he undergoes later on. The bifurcated iris is a really fun one. I also like what he looks like post-Ascension, because he looks like a lot of different things, and obviously I relate to that.

In general, I just think Adrian is incomparably beautiful beyond the mundanity of words, just like all of my OCs 🖤

[CHARACTER ASKS!]

[steveniskewl444]

yo yo this is my first post on the hellsite. so hello hi, my name is Steve (you can call me Steven tho), I am 18 (bodily 17), my pronouns are he/him (I’d prefer you just use my name, sometimes I just don’t feel like pronounce), I am arospec and homosexual with an exclusive attraction to men — based on their gender ofc, don’t care abt your down there — and enbies who are man-aligned or whatever. i don’t feel too much romantic fluff and am not into it, but i’m still positive about romance overall.

here are some of my stances, takes, some stuff abt me in general idk, to help you out in (not) interacting with this blog muahaha:

gays should have the exact amount of rights as straights, but preferably we should be liberated from shitty heternormative society

i hate cancel culture, but i love people being taken accountable. don’t police others for liking a “problematic” person, just point out if they’re a dick sucker.

i hate terminally online shit so much pls don’t bring your terminally online bullshit on this blog. YOU WILL BE IGNORED AND/OR BLOCKED.

people whose sexual action is being into children or into animals shouldn’t be here. you all make me throw up.

don’t come here if you unironically say “slayyyy” or “you ate 🤪” or any other white queer appropriation of AAVE every 5 seconds. you can say “slay” or any other AAVE phrase, but if your skin looks like milk and not like espresso coffee, then you’re on thin ice.

people who are like “umm bi lesbeans aren’t real 🥺🥺🥺” who gives a shit who gives a shit WHO GIVES A SHIT??? don’t come here if you’re like that.

people who are against the ocean turian/uranian flag (don’t care + didn’t ask + white + L + ratio) shouldn’t come here at all. i could give less of a fuck. uranians be damned, THE FACT WE HAVE FLAGS OF OUR OWN IS ENOUGH. SHUT UP ALREADY AND ADMIT THAT ENBIES CAN LIKE BLUE TOO, WHY DO YOU GENDER COLORS? or “nooo they stole it from lesbans 🥺🥺🥺” WHO GIVES A FUCK ?????!!!!??? ITS FINE TO TAKE INSPIRATION Y’ALL + THE POINT IS THAT THEY MATCH YOU BITCHES

i am, generally speaking, a leftist. I appreciate this whole idea of workers owning the means of production but not only. I also appreciate this one thing, it begins with an A, arachnids or something, idk. oh, anarchy!! that one!!! yeah, if you’re a hardcore ML, maybe this isn’t the place for you.

I am Christian so please don’t disrespect my religion. I am not practicing but I still believe in my Lord Jesus Christ, for only He can save me from this hellhole. i think he’s fine with homosexuals too, the Bible generally condemned pederasty (the totally not MAP act of older men having sex with younger twinks during the Ancient era, which ofc is a stupid as fuck practice!!!), NOT HOMOSEXUAL BEHAVIOR BETWEEN TWO CONSENTING ADULTS HOLY FUCK !!!! Plus if y’all don’t allow us to marry, am I supposed to forever not fuck a man?!?? (no sex before marriage y’all!!)

if you’re younger than, idk, the age of consent in most European countries, you shouldn’t be on this blog. I may post some… slightly NSFW stuff from time to time. (NOT an NSFW blog tho!!!!)

anyone who says “fiction doesn’t affect reality 🤓” or “fiction doesn’t affect reality 1:1 🤓” is a mindless zombie who can’t be critical of what they consume and tolerate the fucked up portrayal of… MAP behavior, of Catholic priest behavior, ya know, in a “haha this is good quirky soooo romantic woowww 🤪🤪🤪” way, and you shouldn’t even look at me in the eyes. yes, you know yourselves.

I LOVE MUSCULAR MEN!!!! I LOVE JACKED UP MEN WHO ARE MASCULINE JUST LIKE I AM!!!! I LOVE MEN WHOSE MUSCLES ARE HUGE!!!! I LOVE FIT MEN!!!! MEENNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

I love a bit of footy, a bit of pop music (ya know, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, Lady Gaga, that shit slaps and is not for effeminate twinks or white valley girls only), I love Kumalala especially, I uhh love linguistics, I love many things… except for love itself 😌.

Anyhow ahoy, i hope y’all will… tolerate me i guess. host calls me “problematic” and has beef with me, tell @anarchobasil they’re wrong whenever they shit talk abt me pls. When I say “probelmatic” stuff I am ironic 99.9% of the time. I am a very huge ally for everyone, don’t care. and uhhh that’s it????

[followedmystar]

Sup y'all

Here's a brief long update. The last one I posted here apparently happened less than a week before Shit Got Real™. It has been a w i l d ride. Things are more or less fine now! But here's what I've been doing!

TW: medical details, infertility, getting the shit kicked out of me by life

Highlight reel from July 2021:

July 3: Hosted 'Murica Day party at our house, had a lovely time. I had the bright idea to set up a slip n slide. Promptly broke tailbone using said bright idea.

July 4: Rented a trencher to run power and water line from the house to our future chicken coop site. Hit the water main to the house while trenching. (Yes we called 811 beforehand, no they didn't mark the main, they didn't mark a damn thing past the meter tbh)

July 4 thru like 11: fixing the issue in 95+ degree (F) heat with broken tailbone and restoring water service (we are Rural™ so it was all us)

July 15: I was in bed and needed to blow my nose. I decided to sit up while doing that. (TLDR: don't do that) I felt a Bad Thing at the base of my skull and had instant severe headache...that persisted for the next several months.

July 16+: ER visit after ER visit. Scan after scan. So many scans.

It took them a while to figure it out (we thought it was an unruptured aneurysm or something at first), but it turns out I had a pituitary tumor that started hemorrhaging (aka pituitary apoplexy), resulting in severe headaches, light sensitivity, intolerance to exercise/increased BP, taste and smell distortions, and pain that refused to respond to medication until, uh, about Halloween when I had surgery.

To say that I've had a lifetime's worth of doc appointments in the last year would be an understatement. I got fabulous care but I never want to see a neurosurgeon again. There are a bunch of meds I will be on forever. We will need IVF to have kids (that's coming down the pipe next year hopefully!). I had the energy level of a spent AAA battery for most of '22.

But--for now--I'm good. No headaches. I have a roughly normal amount of energy. And exertion doesn't leave me in bed the next day!

I'm still collecting specialists like Pokemon unfortunately. That part's exhausting. Medical fatigue is real y'all.

FANDOM RELATED UPDATES:

Tentoo x Rose is still *chef's kiss*

I'm totally not sure how I feel about the upcoming special. I haven't read ANY tumblr takes on it, and i'm not looking for spoilers, so we're just going to have to hope they don't heck it up

I wasn't always crazy about 13's episodes but I LOVED jodie as 13 and i want her on repeat forever

Not sure how many of you do anime, but Spy X Family has my whole heart. WHOLE. HEART.

i miss fanfiction

i also miss this hellsite

HOW HAVE YOU ALL BEEN THO FOR REAL

[insomniamamma]

Thank you so much for the tag @agirllovespancakes!!!! I love getting the chance to scream about my stories! I'm going to pop my answers under a readmore, and i will try to include links to stories when necessary!

How many works do you have on ao3? I do not use AO3 to post fic only to read. I’ve considered cross posting but the amount of work involved gives me The Fear. On this hellsite i have about 65 fics. I’ve been lazy about updating my masterlist. So there may be stuff floating around that i have not properly accounted for.

What's your total ao3 word count? I don’t use Ao3, but from what I can tell my fics tend to range from 3 to 6k.

What fandoms do you write for? Mostly the Pedro Pascal Cinematic Universe. And Star Wars.

Top 5 fics by kudos Vanilla, In The Light They Both Look The Same, Over Easy, Safe, About What We Want

Do you respond to comments? Are you shitting me? When people take the time to comment on my fics I vibrate at a frequency that would shatter glass. I tend to write paragraphs long replies to comments which i worry might put people off from commenting. I’m harmless, I swear.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? About What We Want.

What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? This is a hard question because I don’t really write multi-chapter fics. AUs just kind of happen like dandelions popping up. Most of them don’t really have a clear end or beginning. I just keep adding pages. That being said, I think Seasonal is the most joyous thing I’ve written.

Do you get hate on fics? I have not. My blog is a fart in the air conditioning. Which means I mostly fly beneath the haters’ radar.

Do you write smut? Very occasionally. I have to be the right headspace for it, or else it comes out reading like stereo instructions.

Craziest crossover? I’ve never got more that a couple paragraphs in, but I’ve toyed with the idea of an Ezra x Captain Jack Harkness crossover.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Again not to my knowledge.

Have you co-written a fic before? No. The idea both intrigues and scares me.

All time favorite ship? I can’t pick just one so I’m going to give you three. Kara Thrace x Leoben Connoy (Battlestar Galactica) Jack O’Neil x Samantha Carter (Stargate SG1) Chrisjen Avasarala x Bobbie Draper (The Expanse). And there’s so many more. If two characters so much as look at each other some part of me is smashing their faces together like barbie dolls.

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will I started writing a Mandalorian AU based on The Mist by Stephen King. I still really like the idea, but I don’t know if I’ll ever get back to it.

What are your writing strengths? World-building. I can world build so hard that I never end up writing the damn story.

What are your writing weaknesses? Smut. I suck at it. I have to be in such specific place to do it and feel okay about it that it doesn’t happen very often.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language I struggle with this one. Because several of the characters I write for speak Spanish in canon and I took Latin in high school like a dumbass. I usually use google translate but then copy paste and search the result and see if it means what I think it means. So far no one has confronted me about it. Also, I write for Prospect, but I could find absolutely no information about Vayok, which Mikken and Inumon speak. I’ve written Cee cursing in Vayok and I just made up sounds. If Vayok is an actual conlang I haven’t been able to find any real info on it.

First fandom you wrote for I tried to write for Farscape and Torchwood, but none of that ever amounted to anything. Prospect was the first fandom I ever wrote for where I actually shared with the class.

Favorite fic you've written Persistence. The inspiration was a writer Wednesday prompt of a phone booth in the dark, and i thought that is a phone that you get a call from a dead person on. And then the whole story just happened. It was more like excavating something that had always been there than making something new. I don’t know how to explain it, and I’ve never felt that way writing before or since.

Again, thank you so much for the tag, Pancake ❤️

NP tagging @grogusmum @oonajaeadira @writeforfandoms @honestly-shite @artemiseamoon @fromthedeskoftheraven

and anyone else who sees this and wants to scream about their fic!

| 20 questions for fic writers

Thank you for tagging me @made-ofmemories 🫶🏻 I added the questions and answers beneath a readmore otherwise the post becomes so long!

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

35 of which 15 are for the volturi guards. I try to post everything that is over 1K words over on AO3 as well to make sure it doesn’t get lost.

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

112,435. I am secretly hoping to write a novel someday with such a wordcount!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently only for the volturi guards but I might be open to writing for the kings or other characters as well. Just need to be brave :)

4. Top 5 fics by kudos

See you around - 97 A different morning - 96 The pancakes - 42 Sketchbooks - 42 Mångata - 33 I honestly wish to delete a few of these because they are, imo, really badly written. I was much younger and less experienced in writing but I notice people still love them so it's hard to decide what to do with them.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Always! I love getting comments ❤️ They inspire me to write more.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think the creepy season stories I wrote for the guards end most angstiest? I don't really like to write angsty endings.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All my stories end happy but "Turn me now that I love you" has a special place in my heart because I have written two epilogues about how they live happily together after she was turned.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Never happened so far but sometimes I get strange comments and then I don't know what I should reply.

9. Do you write smut?

Yes and it still intimidates me sometimes haha.

10. Craziest crossover?

I don't want to talk about it...

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, I fortunately never had to experience such a horrible situation.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, neither am I interested in it I believe.

13. Have you co-written a fic before?

Several times with several people. Most of these fics aren't published anymore or have gotten lost over the years but it was a lot of fun. I hope the people I worked with are happy wherever they may be.

14. All time favorite ship?

I have been in several fandoms so I don't have an all time favorite ship. I do adore the ships in this fandom though!

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will

It's called "The Painter". I wrote it for Marcus Pike back in the day but never finished. Then I turned it into an original story with oc's but I have never finished it and most likely never will.

16. What are your writing strengths?

If I go based on what other people tend to comment on it's describing scenery, the surroundings and describing the way people touch each other in my stories. I hope it's true!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I tend to describe situations so much sometimes that I forget to add action I think. It's something I challenged myself with, with the creepy season stories and I hope to strengthen this weakness more the coming years. I just have a hard time writing action scenes.

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language

I tried this for "The Painter" adding dialogue in my own language because the story was based in Holland. I hated it and it made it feel clumsy. It's different when you add pet names or just add a random word in someone's first language. I like it when people do that.

19. First fandom you wrote for

I tried to write a story for Vikings when I was eighteen. I remember presenting it to a very popular writer in that fandom asking her for feedback. She was very kind and told me to work on my writing as much as possible and gave me very good feedback. I had never written a story in english before if I remember correctly. Then I didn't add more stories but I was motivated to practice writing. I started posting stories for Sons of Anarchy/Triple Frontier in 2020.

20. Favorite fic you've written

It used to be mångata when I was younger and wrote that series. Right now it's "Turn me now that I love you". I really feel like I wrote a full story with that one. And it's very dear to my heart, I even printed my moodboard to put it in my journal and such.

Tagging mutuals ❤️

@xxx-wounded-angel-xxx @alecvolturiswifeforever @cregan-starks @volterran-wine @moonlight-prose

@grogusmum @insomniamamma @songsformonkeys

[sailorspazz]

[Fanfic] I Hope You Know

Happy 10 Dance Day! I somehow managed to finish my fic on time, so here it is~

Title: I Hope You Know

Series: 10 Dance

Rating: T

Words: 2,500

Summary: As they share one final training session, Suzuki and Sugiki each reflect on the time they have spent together.

Where to read: Posted on ao3 and fanfiction.net. Or just click below if you don't want to leave this wonderful hellsite!

I’ve returned with another fic! This one is a bit of an anomaly for me personally, firstly in that the format is different from anything I’ve written before, and secondly it’s the first time since 20+ years ago that I’ve written something with no explicit content. It’s based on chapter 33, so there will be spoilers for those who haven’t read that far yet. It takes place as the Shinyas share one last dance together during their final training session, taking a look at what they might’ve been thinking and feeling, and all the things they’re not expressing in words but hoping that they’re conveying to each other.

Suzuki’s thoughts are shown in plain text.

Sugiki’s thoughts are shown in italic

Shared thoughts are shown in bold

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Well, it’s finally here. Our last night training together. It’s only fitting that we start out here, in this park where we shared so many nights. It’s dark, but I can see your eyes shining in the glow of the streetlights. Are you gonna cry? That’d be a first, even though I’ve cried in front of you a bunch of times. Oh, now that we’re in hold, you’ve turned away and I can’t see your face. You better not insist on that proper hold position the whole time. We’re gonna go till sunrise, right? We don’t need to say it, we just know. And we’re not staying in one spot, either, we’ll dance all around this place where we spent the last eight months training each other, getting to know each other…falling for each other.

When we started out, I had no idea if this was really gonna work. We were butting heads so much, it didn’t seem like we’d make it more than a couple weeks before driving each other insane. But we’re alike in that we both share the same drive, and maybe we’re also just too damn stubborn to give up. You’ve spent years being forced to play the role of underdog, even when you’re pretty much equal to that guy. And you know they won’t let you win, but you’ve kept trying this whole time. You keep training, keep improving, keep working toward the day when you can get far enough ahead to where they can’t deny you, when you can finally stand on top of the podium and say, “No, fuck you, I’m number one.” You told me all those months ago that I inspire you, and I hope you know the feeling’s mutual.

I was captivated from the very first time I saw you. I knew immediately that you were special. Yes, your technique was atrocious and it defied all of the stringent rules of ballroom dance, but you exuded the qualities I was lacking, with your innate ability to express the essence of the music through your body, your ostensible sensuality, and most of all, the joy that effortlessly radiated out of you. You were so overwhelming that I came to picture you as an otherworldly being, my own enthralling God of Dance. What would you think if you knew that, I wonder? Would it inflate your ego and make you even more arrogant? Or would you get embarrassed and show me that adorable blush once more? Perhaps both at once, that would be ideal. You’re so expressive, sometimes to your own disadvantage, but it’s always a delight to see your emotions on display. Even though we haven’t practiced Latin in quite some time, I’ve still learned a lot just by watching your face every day. You’ve unlocked things inside of me that I didn’t even realize were there…

I’ve come to find the way I was raised wasn’t typical for a professional dancer. Most of them are like you, and turning pro and winning comps are goals they’ve had since they were little…though your level of single-minded focus goes way beyond most of them. But me, I was just being influenced by the dancers I was surrounded by every day; it was in my blood, my culture, my life. When Dad suggested I make it into a career, it seemed like it’d be an easy option for me. I mean, it’s not like I had any other skills anyway. But it was an uphill battle when I started out. I wasn’t ready to have the freedom I felt when dancing be crushed down and molded into a neat little box that followed a bunch of rules. It was stifling, and it took years before I could feel comfortable going through the motions that were needed to get me to the top of competitions. I ain’t strategic like you, but I learned to be so I could make good money to send home to Mom and my sisters. Don’t get me wrong, I never stopped enjoying dance, but holding myself back so I wouldn’t rise up too far made me feel trapped, like a caged animal. And then you came along with your offer to train each other for the 10 Dance. I didn’t even wanna do it, but you goaded me into it somehow. I didn’t know then how much that simple agreement would change my life…

I hope you know how grateful I am.

For years, I cherished any chance I had to share the same venue as you, and when you participated in competitions where I was not present, I would come up with some excuse or another to give Mr. Urashima as to why I needed DVDs of those performances. I could enjoy your mesmerizing routines to my heart's content, though nothing was quite comparable to the spectacle of watching you in person; even though you became more reserved compared to that first untamed showing, I could still see that fire lurking within you. I was intrigued, and I wanted to know you, though with us competing in different disciplines, and our parents holding a long-standing grudge against each other, it was difficult to imagine how that might happen. As a result of us both being national champions, we were occasionally in the same social settings, but we never shared any conversation beyond mere pleasantries. Though I was the one with a much higher standing in the world, you were the one who felt unattainable, sitting at the tip of my fingers yet eluding my grasp. It seemed like I would always be relegated to watching you from afar. But eventually, I noticed, you began to watch me back. I didn’t know why, but I was finally on your radar. I then began to wonder how I could bring you into my life, and that’s when I started considering the 10 Dance. It presented an opportunity for me to approach you with a proposal that would benefit both of us, though I couldn’t be certain that you would even be interested in taking up my offer. And indeed, you initially rejected me, but I’m nothing if not persistent. Thus, I finally obtained what I had wanted, though as we spent more time together, I came to want much more from you than I ever would have predicted. I hope you know that I didn’t plan for all of this to happen, but I’m glad that it did.

I've never had any relationship like this, and not just because you're a guy. Most of the time, it’s just been quick flings with no deep attachments, and I’d soon move on to the next one. Even when they lasted a bit longer, I'd eventually get bored, or things would fall apart, but it never really bothered me 'cause there were always other options. But with you, it's totally different. Obviously, I wasn't looking at you romantically when we started, and we didn't even get along back then, but something started building between us despite that. That bond got deeper and deeper, and before I knew it, I was desiring something that went against everything I thought I knew about myself. Which I might've been able to ignore if you didn't feel the same way. But we started playing a dangerous game, getting more entangled in that passion, even as we acted like we didn't want it. God, you're an amazing kisser...I tried so hard to keep it at just that, but I couldn't help wanting more of you. Sex is usually how my relationships start, so the months of longing and buildup with no payoff really got to me. I was frustrated, sexually and otherwise. Then you went and said all that weird stuff about how much you wanted me, and I just couldn't take it. You were obviously not in touch with reality, and were oblivious to the stalemate we faced as two men who both need to be in control. You needed a reality check, and I should’ve picked a better way to do it, but I just sorta snapped. I pushed things too far, and I hope you know I’m sorry.

Soon after we began training together, I was struck by how compatible you and I were. Even when we clashed personally, we managed to sync up well when we danced. I’ve been told that I’m difficult to work with, so it has been quite challenging finding someone who can keep up with my demands. I’ve cycled through many partners in my lifetime, and you were the first who was capable of keeping pace with me. Such a cruel fate that my ideal partner would end up being someone I can’t compete with in official competitions…but is this actually what I had wanted all along since I first saw you? Now that I think about it, the Emperor’s Hold I created just isn’t suited for leading a woman’s small frame. Did I subconsciously make something more suited to two men hoping that you would one day dance with me? That doesn’t quite match with my previous goal of having my professional and romantic partner be one and the same, though; I never pictured you as the latter until much later on. With Liana, we meshed well, and becoming romantically involved felt natural and convenient. With you, it was certainly not convenient, yet it was absolutely irresistible. And though I thought the disappointment I felt when she left me was the worst feeling I would ever experience, it was nothing compared to the devastation of losing you. But through all of that, our connection remains even now. Will it still be there after we spend months apart? I don’t want to think about how it would feel to lose the closest bond I’ve experienced. I hope you know this means everything to me.

Even after we gave up on being together, I can’t put it behind me. My feelings are just as strong as ever, and the binding thread that links us keeps pulling me toward you. There’s no moving on from this. Falling for you feels like both the best and worst thing that ever happened to me...but I hope you know I don't regret it.

I know you’ll thrive under Norman’s tutelage. Selfishly, I relish seeing all of the influence I’ve had on you when I watch you dance standard, and I’m hesitant to allow someone else to take over and erase what I’ve imprinted into you. But Norman possesses merits that both you and I lack, and it would be best for you to learn as much as you can from his style. You’ll make it your own, of course, since you’re far too exceptional to be a mere copycat of anyone. I may have used my connections to help you, but the fact is, none of them would have agreed if it weren’t for your raw talent and charm. I’ve seen you transform from a diamond in the rough into a truly brilliant star. I merely brought you to everyone else’s attention, and people are finally starting to take notice. Before too long, you’ll be receiving well-deserved accolades worldwide. I hope you know how proud I am of you.

I used to laugh when I heard some pros thought dancing feels better than sex. But with you, I get it…though I can’t help but wonder if sex with you would feel even better. Our connection goes beyond anything I’ve shared with anyone, ever. I ain't had a bunch of different partners like you, but I can tell what we have here is rare. This doesn't just happen between anyone, it seems like a once in a lifetime sort of thing. I know it won't be the same with Norman, or anyone else. I'll do my damnedest to learn all I can from this "final gift" you're giving me. But this bond, these feelings, I know I'll only share them with you...

I’ve known this night was coming for months, yet I still don’t want to face this reality. When Norman told me he was willing to take over your training, I wondered how I would feel once that day finally arrived. I’ve already experienced a feeling of hollowness when we’ve only been apart for a few days, so I imagine over the coming months the emptiness could devour me until I feel like vacant shell. I still have things I need to accomplish, though, so I can’t allow that to happen, and I have plans to fill the enormous void that you’ll leave behind. But there’s no substitute for what we share, and I know I’ll only be distracting myself from the heartbreak of being apart from you. I don’t know what I’ll do without this. If only the sun would never rise…

I hope you know you’re irreplaceable.

I can tell you’re thinking about our time together, too, I can see it in your eyes when I get a glimpse of your face. Sometimes you’re smiling, sometimes you look down as we take our last dance down these streets. There were lots of ups and downs for us during the last several months, but we’ve both gotten a lot out of this partnership, and I don’t just mean as dancers. Though you seem to base your entire identity and view of the world around your profession, I hope I can change that for you. I think that’ll only happen once you’re beaten by someone you actually respect. I can see that your fight against Giulio isn’t fun or fair for you. You’ve sacrificed so much, even putting aside your own humanity when you thought it would help you win, but where has that gotten you? Your soul needs saving, and I want to be the one to do it. I want to be a worthy rival to you, to become the one capable of putting the Blackpool Monster to rest. I’m going to crush you in competition, but I hope you know it's for your own good.

I hope you know, even though I haven’t told you…

I hope you know, now and always…

I love you.

Oh, the sun's coming up. We both stop, but we're in no hurry to leave each other's arms. I'm focusing on every point of contact, trying to sear the memory of your touch into my body. I wish I could hold you, kiss you, whisper sweet words into your ear. But at this moment, no actions or words feel like they'd mean more than what we shared tonight. We hesitantly let our arms drop, but our hands remain linked. I wanna look at you so badly, but I know it'll only make it harder to leave. We each turn to walk away in opposite directions, our hands still refusing to let go. Just a few moments longer...finally, one last mutual squeeze, and then we head off on our separate paths, already longing for the day when we'll meet again. After walking halfway down the block, I turn my head back, hoping there's enough space between us now that you won't feel my gaze. But you turn around at the same time, and our eyes lock from a distance in the soft glow of the early dawn.

I know.

oOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO

I’ve had this fic in mind for several months now, but it took the deadline of the 10 Dance fandom day on October 20th to force me to actually get it out. I hope the format worked okay, I haven’t really done anything before that’s all thoughts and feelings with very little described action. I do have plans for another fic, which will be back to more of my usual go-to of fluff and smut. Hope you enjoyed it, Thanks for reading!

[astrogone]

                                             ANXIOUS MUNDAY MEME

@seekesotsibteadmist: What is something you want people to know right away about yourself?

PLEASE REMEMBER I AM EXTREMELY SLOW AT EVERYTHING!!!! I swear, there is a no apologizing for quick or late replies oocly and icly policy in this household because if you message me with an apology over that, you may get my response after a few days, if not a week, and I get so embarrassed like shdjsjd please, don’t be sorry at all. I get every reason behind any pace of the responses, so do not ever feel bad or anything replying to me too late or too quickly. Hell, you can take a whole damn MONTH to reply to me oocly or icly and I’ll still act like I would only be waiting for a day and be like “Ah! My friend! I love you”... But yeah, while I am easily distracted and exhausted to do this stuff, I usually have to reply back to ten to fifteen people oocly, and I will always have many people to reach out to when we haven’t interacted yet ( which if you haven’t interact to me yet, please, this is invitation that you can slap yourself in my IMs Now ), and my social energy / motivation to interact with people? It’s erratic as Hell. Also, I usually take way too much time replying to a post / message when it shouldn’t be the case. Like? For me to reply to a one paragraph in the thread will take me at least an hour to two. If you straight just say hi to me and ask how am I doing, it’ll take me at least five minutes to ten to just answer your very simple question.

I have an intellectual disability that gives me difficulties reading the given information, understanding them, and responding to them at a pace the average amount of people can do, but I can’t. The longest time you can get from me oocly is usually six days. Icly though? Boy, am I a lost cause with that. It can be anytime as I can reply to our thread for a month later, if not longer, I will have to let that be known, lmfao... But you’re more than welcome to give me a nudge for anything anytime. It may not get a quicker response from me anyway, knowing me, but just know that my silence towards you while I’m being noisy on dash or to others or such has nothing to do with you, ever. At least with oocly, I try to prioritize replying to people who I haven’t replied to the longest over those that I have done so recently, but I’m an absolute slow and low mess at everything, so! As that’s something I can never change, unfortunately, I can only wish that everyone interacting with me would be grateful for what we have already.

@sinisteraugurey: How much anxious internal screaming goes on with you on a regular basis?

It’s a 24/7 thing, man. I would just try to distract myself with whatever is in my way to block them, but, yeah, it just really be like that with me. Last night while I was trying to sleep, I kept staring at my window in concern because it had these shadows constantly moving behind the curtains, and there’s that small part of me that KNEW it’s just the tree branches that got caught in the lights of the streetlights, but, my mind kept telling me “they’re coming” and I was just constantly like,, “who tho,,, omg,,,,” but,, think about it,,,, I live in the sixth floor of a building, so how the Hell could the shadows reach up there?¿...

@vsentis & @arsonbeast​: What’s a tip you would give to people trying to get to know you?

Ask me questions from something simple like what’s my favourite colour to something over the top like how often do I get existential crisis lmfao even if it’s completely out of the blue or we don't know each other well yet, I wouldn’t ever mind answering them at all. As well if / whenever you are comfortable, talk about yourself as it will usually prompt me to do the same in return. I often don’t throw facts about myself to others because I think it would have others feel like they would be suddenly placed in a position of having to bring up information about themselves to me and I know not many people are comfortable to talk about themselves and / or their lives when they’re on this Hellsite to write and develop, which is totally understandable and I’m more than okay to be interacted with for just writing / plotting.

On a different note, I am planning to create a Carrd about my interests ( like what shows, music artists, etcetera I’m familiar with ) and slap it on my pinned post so it can give others a chance to get to know me more and bring them up to me to break down any tension from their end, so you can randomly pop into my DMs like “biTCH yOU WATCH B.UZZEED U.NSOLVED!?¡¿” and I’d be like “FUCK YE A H, I DO” and create chaos from there sndnsmd

@vsentis​: Is communication important to you?

Beyond important. I personally think communication is THE most important aspect in not just roleplaying, but in general. It’s what builds a strong relationship with the parties. The more they will interact with each other with a lot of patience and understanding, the higher chance that trust and comfort can be built stronger and tighter within a connection. Now, what do I have to say with me? I love talking to people, even when I’m a slow motherfucker at it and I get extremely frustrated and sad at the fact. I love when people talk to me and I can read about their days, personal projects, characters, so forth. I want people to feel that they can trust me and be comfortable coming to me for anything from a random chat to ranting / venting. Man, just straight up slap my DMs with a random photo of a forest and I’ll just not shut up about the time I nearly got lost in the forest.

Now, it does take time for me to reach out to people first, at least usually not because of IC related like plotting calls. For me to come to you randomly and talk about anything not roleplaying related? Again, I can’t be sure if people are comfortable with talking about themselves and their lives, but the more they come to me first for random ooc conversations, the more comfortable I will be to reach out to them first for so frequently. Another thing I do want to mention that if I do or say anything wrong or it’s making you uncomfortable, please? Reach out to me? I mean, I get that people aren’t obliged to teach others and whatnot, so do what you gotta do it the block and follow buttons to avoid wasting more energy and time, but it would truly help a lot with me and anyone else who I am / will interact with in the future. Just be honest with me and share your thoughts to me— I will listen and take them in mind. I absolutely hate to make people uncomfortable without knowing and I would be extremely appreciative if I was told why so I can be more considerate in the future.

@goldenornstein: Do random asks out of the blue upset you at all?

Not at all! In fact, I encourage sending me random asks! It might take a bit for me to reply like anything else, but I LOVE random asks! Makes me go “!!!” whenever I see a number on that mail symbol thingy. So, send me random memes, random thoughts, straight up just slap the word, P.ikachu, in the ask and send it to me and I’ll be like, “me fucking too, pal” jsjdkdk

@seekesotsibteadmist: What are some things you worry about in terms of new people?

I know I apologize for rambling or taking a long time to reply, but in the end, people being impatient or easily annoyed by me or whatever are my least worries. What I should be more concerned about but am somehow not is if this person actually holds good intentions with a good mindset. Even though I had my generosity taken advantage of way too many times by way too many people who I thought were really good friends in real life and online, I still? Somehow don’t ever think about the possibility that this person is actually very shitty when I interact with them as much as I should, considering how absolutely chaotic this site is. Being cautious is highly draining for me personally as I literally just want to vibe, so…

Just know that I take anyone in who my mutuals haven’t mentioned on their rules page ( yet if I do happen to interact with your abusers or people you’re not uncomfortable with because they’re doing / saying predatory / harmful things? Lemme know and I’ll instantly get out of their hair— you don't even need to give me an explanation, just don’t hesitate to say their URL and I’ll do my shit ), but I will instantly kick them off of my household the moment I see or learn anything from them that is predatory or harmful to people. If you do / say something that I don’t like, like misgender my muses or keep godmodding my muses or whatever, I’ll let you know how I feel, but if you’re gonna be stalking people, being disrespectful / abusive to anyone based on their genders, sexualities, ethnicities, disabilities, etcetera, write / make headcanons based those disgusting things we all know what, and so forth? I will hardblock and never look back, and that’s that.

[gravitasfalls]

A rant on fandom etiquette, the GF fandom, and what they did 4 years ago (and now)

By now, my “bullshit” tag has refuted most of the ridiculous hot takes, fun policing, and harassment that fans of Stanford Pines have had to face from the wider Gravity Falls fandom. But these rebuttals fall short of naming the real problem with anti-Ford wank: we never should have seen it in the first place.

People might have genuinely forgotten this, but fandom used to have etiquette against character hate. We called it “wank” and “bashing” instead of dignifying it as “discourse”. As late as 2014, fandoms on this very site had “X hate” or “anti-X” tagging systems for blacklisting, as courtesy to people who liked X thing...

...a far cry from GF fans of 2015 demonizing Ford in the most inexplicable ways, making every post a platform for that, siccing their followers on anyone fully positive about him, then pretending that never happened post-finale as they continue the bashing more insidiously to this day.

Like, what even was that? There’s a lot to unpack in those people’s arguments but let’s just throw out the whole suitcase.

(Under the cut: Snapshots of discourse I shouldn’t have had to put up with over the years, and snark-based coping with that. It gets ugly, you’ve been warned.)

Ford is irredeemable/deserves to suffer, why he didn’t even thank Stan!!1

Thanks I hate it! “It” being your apparent decision that, because you can’t make the fictional character suffer, real people who like him are the next best thing.

Ford is egotistical! Have I mentioned on literally every post I think his only trait is “egotistical”?

You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. But while that is just, like, your opinion man, you’re entitled to it on your own posts; you’re falsely entitled about it by forcing it on dissenters’ posts and inboxes.

*dumps negativity into inboxes anyway*

Your Hot Takes have disturbed and insulted me. You fools are unworthy of my great knowledge. The era of human enlightenment shall never come to pass.

You really think Ford is some kind of hero?

Only after you told me I wasn’t Allowed to see him as one and I Examined My Desires™ like you demanded! Funny how critical thinking ≠ agreeing with you.

Ford is your favorite? WHY DO YOU HATE MABEL.

Better question, why are you copying “WHY DO YOU HATE AMERICA” logic? 9/11 did fan drama I swear

Ford is NOT PURE OF HEEEAAART, so you have to Constantly Explicitly Acknowledge his Sins and interrogate what relating to him says about you.

I got no friends ‘cause they read the papers. It’s funny, actually, projecting onto him got me dangerously close to processing some negative experiences from my past... good thing I have you here to shut those thoughts down <3 Thanks for saving me from myself uwu

If you just want to project onto a comfort character in peace, Stan is right there! His lack of fantasy elements makes him more relatable anyway!

Ford brought Bill’s manipulation on himself!

Damn fandom, back at it again with the GROSS VICTIM BLAMING

FFS why is this take as prominent now as ever??? at least the outlandish criticisms were funny, this one just makes me want to be dead.

Ford is abusive/manipulative because he doesn’t make fun of Dipper/ made a case for his apprenticeship/ called Mabel good/ complimented her personality!

(Yes, people did these mental gymnastics; yes, my soul left my body instantly.)

STOP trying to justify Ford’s actio-ma’am this is an Arby’s. also:

Ford is the Epitome of Toxic Masculinity, if you defend him either he’s your Male Power Fantasy or you’re a ditzy fangirl broad with ovaries for brains!

Ah yes, the two genders. Pack it in, everyone, we’ve reached peak feminism and patriarchy is over.

Someone negativity-tagged my Ford post, WTF?! I’m not “anti-Ford”, I’m “pro Ford-learning-a-lesson”!

And pro his-fans-never-having-a-moment-of-peace, apparently! Sorry I assumed you were a hater by your complete lack of positive things to say about him tho

Ford is a sociopath/deserves death for having no empathy!

"Tumblr is as ableist as any majority-conservative site," I say into the mic. The crowd boos. I begin to walk off in shame, when a voice speaks and commands silence from the room. "You’re right," they say. I look for the owner of the voice. There in the 3rd row stands: tumblr.

*Dozens of 10000+ note posts calling Ford stupid, manipulative, solely at fault for everything that went wrong, other inanities*

(This is the fandom that made me get Xkit. I’m sure hundreds of my 1000+ blocked posts are theirs.)

If you like Ford on any terms but ours then I’m sorry, but Gravity Falls just isn’t for you, k?

I don’t have a flippant response to this one. Just... stop. No one has to agree with you about this character; no, nor with me. No one even has to engage with fandom moralistically; I promise it wouldn’t hurt anyone if I were to watch this show without having to Interrogate its Morality. It wouldn’t even hurt if people voiced character hate within reasonable bounds of tagging, as I’ve said. But instead they spread it like the plague in the name of Purity and insinuated (using ages-old “ur a fake fan!!1″ no less) that we don’t get to have outlets. I’m tired.

Look at my hilarious/satisfying art of Ford saying OOC strawman things, Stan beating him up, the kids turning their backs on him! (Srsly look at it I’ve put it in all the tags)

You’re madness, Gravity Falls fandom. Virulent madness. And everything you touch dies with you.

This is only a fraction of shit we’ve had to wade through, practically every day while the show was running. You couldn’t avoid it if you followed popular blogs. I saw the best meta writers of my fandom dogpiled by BNFs, dragging themselves through the blue hellsite at dawn looking for a fix-it fix. And people now expect me to believe it was “just Discourse” or that anything equivalent happened “in reverse” toward Stan. If I didn’t know better that they don’t know better, I’d call gaslighting.

I don’t expect to change anything. In fact, until this blog’s next go-around I don’t intend on seeking out new content anymore. I can’t keep looking at a fandom where the consensus on a canonically abused character’s victimization is that it was stupid, funny, a moral failing, or deserved, and expect anything to improve.

But to anyone else these people hurt: your anger or upset is valid, and I’m sorry. None of us deserved this. And I’m not letting it follow me into the next decade and make me forget why I liked this show in the first place, even if the only way to do that right now is cut off from the fandom a bit. I’m telling you, it never should have come to that. I don’t know if negativity-tagging can ever catch on here, considering tumblr has no boundaries by design and fandom no boundaries by choice... but for the sake of everyone who comes next, Gravity Falls fandom, make an effort.

[blueeyedshuichi]

 Questions

Tagged by @legendarybitch (thanks for the ask)

Rules:

1. always post the rules

2. answer the questions given by the person who tagged you

3. write 11 questions of your own

4. tag 11 people you want to get to know better (or however many you want)

1. If you could change one thing about fandoms, what would it be and why?

The entitlement mentality of the obsessive portion of fanbases that believe their own ill-conceived and delusional headcanons must be catered to by the creators or else. It’s asinine and makes fandoms utterly toxic.

2. Has your Tumblr experience improved throughout the years?

My experience was actually quite fun in the beginning, as I followed only a few blogs that held my interest but the obsessiveness and toxic behavior of certain fandoms that shall not be named really put a damper on things. I tend to stick to reddit mostly now, though I still visit this hellsite daily.

3. What is your ultimate, above all else, OTP?

Easy.  Kurama and Botan from Yu Yu Hakusho. All one has to do is go to my ff.net profile page to see the amount of stories I’ve written on that pair (split in half between very naughty writings and T rated, plot driven works). It became my ultimate OTP for many reasons. For example, at the end of the dark tournament arc when Botan cried for Kurama and was extremely emotional at the thought of him dying. So much so she argued with her friends that he had to live because she had already lost one person she loved, she was not going to lose another.

Though they come from different worlds (Botan from Reikai and Kurama from Makai) they have similar long life spans.  They remain single at the end of the show while all the other mains are paired off. Their relationship would be one that is forbidden (if the ending part of the manga holds true about...er... differences in opinions between the races of youkai, ningens, and reikai citizens.) And of course they look damn good together (the whole blue and red aesthetic.)

The funny thing is, KB is the only pairing I love that is non canon. Every other OTP of mine is canon.

4. Books, Internet, or TV/Movies?

Books. Definitely books. It seems to be a dying hobby or interest for many who claim they don’t have the attention span to read or that reading bores them but for me, give me a good book with a solid plot, great character development, a heady mix of genres and I’m in heaven. I find reading also helps for understanding context on a visual platform, be it manga, western comic, or film.

5. What do you think is the most important personality trait a person should have?

This is an interesting question and one in which many traits could be listed as important.  Personally, I believe taking responsibility for one’s actions instead of blaming others is the most important trait, though it is one I don’t witness very often.

6. If you could live in the world of a movie, which movie would it be and why?

The realm of Arda (Earth) in Tolkien’s World (Lord of the Rings) because of the lore and the danger. Yes, I’m a Tolkien fanboy that wishes he were Legolas.  Cause I like bows!  And shooting arrows! And keeping score against a certain dwarf...

Ahem... I like medieval stuff okay?

7. Do you think people can change, or do they ultimately stay the same person they’ve always been? Why or why not?

People do change and yet they are still themselves. You grow older, you gain experience, you attain knowledge, you learn from mistakes, and yet you may also continue to make mistakes. Your tastes will change, your views on any topic can and will change. Things you thought of as important or earth shattering as a teenager will be of no consequence as you grow up and begin the long track of adulthood. You will not always be as you are now and that is both a scary and fascinating thing.

8. Heroes or Villains?

I am a goody two shoes for the most part, so I would side with heroes, yet my Hogwarts house preference is and always has been Slytherin. Go figure, eh?

9. Dogs or Cats?

I like dogs but I love cats. I’m a cat person. Always have been.

10. Would you rather live in a world without music, or a world without stories? (Like no books or tv or anything)

That is a difficult choice but I will say I could not live in a world without stories. And yet... music is also a story told in lyrical format.  Music can take you places in your mind just as stories do. Hmm...

11. Ocean, forest, desert, or mountains?

I am surrounded by pines and am a child of nature in many ways, so definitely the forest.

Questions of my own:

1. Have you ever had a recurring dream or nightmare? If so, what was it about?

2. If you could master any martial art, which one would it be and why?

3. Do you have some kind of musical aptitude? If so, is it of the vocal variety? Or instrument based?

4. What is your favorite genre of story telling in either the visual or written medium?

5. What did you want be when you grew up? If you are still a teen, what would you like to see yourself doing job wise when you step into the arena of adulthood?

6. What is your greatest fear?

7. What song defines your heart or mind best?

8. What aspect of nature fits your personality best: The raging storm, the blue calm sea, the torrential downpour, the gentle breeze, the babbling brook, the frozen tundra, or the starlit sky?

9. If you could have one superpower what would it be and why?

10. Have you ever broken a bone?

11. What is your favorite instrumental OST?

I tag: @queen0fgames; @pikarosie; @accioyarn; @theannoyingfangirl; @the-vegetarian-artist; @tomodachi-to-koibito; @ddpkallura; @yougavewotyugot; @spaklyheartsdiana; @shimmeringdarkness097; @banana-con-baliw

[seashore-witch]

A tarot workbook

Hello there everyone ! I’ve recently answered a review call by @cats-tarot-wine for a Court Cards Workbook, and this is my end of the promise ! Tumblr has striked it once (Goddess knows why) but here it is again ! I’ll cross my fingers so that this one too doesn’t get deleted (especially since I had to rewrite the whole thing, damn you blue hellsite). French trad under the cut !

I’d like to start by saying that I think it’s pretty good a workbook for learning about the court cards. It’s detailed, there’s a lot of quite different & original questions, but also some « classical » exercises that are basic, but indispensable to have a good first grasp on the cards. It begins with these « base » questions, and it’s needed. But that’s a bit of a problem too : since it is a workbook in the purest meaning … it doesn’t give you much « hints » or examples. You couldn’t just take your deck, the workbook and start right away. You’ll need your own research. It’s both a good & bad thing in my opinion, because yes, you will need to find various sources & symbolisms if you want to answer the questions well … but if you’re a beginner, you’ll probably be overwhelmed by the amount of info you’ll have to ingurgitate.

Most of the exercises make you attach your own symbolism, by associating quotes or fictional characters to the cards. This, is quite cool actually. The exercises are quite different from one another (except maybe a red thread or two) And here will appear my (completely personal, subjectivity-imbued) reflexion : some questions can push you away for the workbook a bit. I’ve read tarot for some years now, and my understanding of the cards is very (very, very, veeery) intuitive. What I mean is that it was hard for me to associate the cards & some very specific situations. And that’s where we enter in another problem : sometimes, I’m afraid it matches court cards & people too much. Yes, there’s exercises that ask you to match events or other significations to the cards. But I feel like there aren’t enough…

To summarize : it’s really a good workbook. I like it. It has my approval stamp. But it doesn’t pass the tests with flying colors for two reasons : 1. The questions are a bit too specific, which can lead to a bit of struggling sometimes. & 2. It’s too « court cards <=> people » to my taste. I would have liked more questions about other things ! Completely personal again, but I match cards & music, places, paintings … (Hmmm can you guess I’m a art nerd student or not). Perhaps I would have liked to see more of that ! Additional remark (neither good or bad) : It’s not really adapted to beginners. Even if there’s exercises which ask you to match the cards & keywords. It’s not enough if you just got your first deck.

Bonjour, bonjour et bienvenue dans la traduction française ! Je risque d’être un peu plus volubile, mais pas de beaucoup, pas d’inquiétude.

J’aimerais commencer en disant que ce cahier est plutôt bon si vous voulez apprendre quelque chose à propos des cartes de cour. Il est détaillé, il y a des questions originales & elles sont relativement différentes les unes des autres, mais aussi des bonnes vieilles questions de base, qui sont toujours bien pour avoir un début de compréhension des cartes. C’est comme ça que ça commence, et c’est comme ça que ça doit commencer ! Mais ça met aussi un problème en lumière : il n’y a pas d’explications suffisantes. Tu viens d’acheter ton premier paquet de cartes, tu prends le cahier, t’es toute contente … et bam, désillusion, t’en sais pas assez. D’accord, tu fais juste des recherches pour compenser et c’est bien parce que ça te forcera sans doute à confronter différentes sources ! Mais si tu es une grande débutante, t’as de bonnes chances de finir noyée sous les infos… Aïe.

La plupart des exercices font attacher un symbolisme personnel aux cartes, en y associant des citations ou des personnages de fiction. Ça, c’est sympa. Tout est assez différent les uns des autres comme je l’ai dit tout à l’heure (à part peut être un fil rouge ou deux, rien de méchant). Mais moi, de manière très très subjective, j’ai un problème avec ces exercices : certains peuvent vous détacher complètement du cahier. Je tire les cartes depuis un bout de temps maintenant et ma compréhension des cartes est extrêmement intuitive. Et comme certaines questions sont très précises et limitent beaucoup les réponses possibles, j’ai parfois trouvé ça nettement trop précis. Et j’ai l’impression que ces questions lient cartes de cour et personnages trop fréquemment. Oui, il y a d’autres types d’associations … mais pas assez. Pas à mon goût.

En résumé : c’est un bon cahier d’exercices. Je l’aime bien. Mais il y a deux gros problèmes à mon goût : 1. Les questions sont parfois très spécifiques et les situations peuvent laisser en dehors & 2. Un peu trop « cartes de cour <=> personnages » pour moi. J’aurais voulu d’autres choses ! J’ai tendance à associer les cartes & de la musique, des lieux, des peintures … (Bonjour, Pyres, nerd artistique de base.) Autre remarque, ni bonne ni mauvaise : le cahier n’est pas adapté aux débutantes. Même s’il y a des questions où on doit relier des significations sommaires et les cartes, c’est pas assez. Pas suffisant si on a juste eu son premier paquet de cartes.

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

A - Z (Fandom ‘Come At Me, Friend’ Meme)

WELL THEN *cracks knuckles* HERE WE GO 

(all 26 letters behind a cut bc this is very long)

A - Your current OTP(s)/OT3(s)/OTX(s)

As of this hour, my top OTPs are Penelope/Schneider from ODAAT and Joyce/Hopper from Stranger Things. But I have endless numbers of them, even within each fandom.

B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind

Jean/Alice from TDBM. 

C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will (be nice)

Um…hmm. I’m such a multishipper, I don’t spend a lot of time thinking about my NOTPs. I’ve never been onboard the Keens from The Blacklist, though. Not even a little. I only enjoyed Tom in his original villainous state.

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t (again: be nice)

A couple of my spouse’s faves, I really wish I liked too, especially Sam/Josh and Mal/Simon. I don’t like one of the characters in each very much, so I’ve never been able to get into them–even though I understand them, and have had fun writing them…I just don’t love them too.

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what

Yeah, mostly graphics, though. I don’t think I’ve ever written crackfic. I did New York Times Minus Content edits for TDBM, a ton of those. Also Sext Message Error sets for Lizzington and for Josh/Donna. And Welcome To Nightvale sets for iZombie and Lizzington. And OTP Bot sets for Lizzington.

And this isn’t EXACTLY crack, but my original tumblr claim to fame was this Hamilton/TWW crossover that got reblogged by Lin himself.

F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom

Mm, the first time I actively joined a fandom was Buffy, and I was about 14 when that started for me…so as of this year I’ll have been in that fandom for 20 years! But I’ve been a fangirl literally my whole life, I just didn’t really join fandoms before the internet, and I started using the internet more in junior high and HS.

G - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it

Lou/Joey from Brotherly Love, or Claire/Trevor from Cupid (original run), or Dharma and Greg, or Allison/Wade from CryBaby, or Idgie/Ruth from Fried Green Tomatoes. I was a shipping prodigy, and the couples I was obsessed with as a literal child blur together a bit in the timeline, so I’m not completely sure which came first.

H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., tv shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.) 

TV shows.

I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why

The Aaron Tveit fandom made me uncomfortable watching BrainDead before I even had the chance to decide if I liked it or not. Most fandoms I love, though. I prefer to ignore the drama and focus on the people I actually like. 

J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr

SO MANY. Parks and Rec, TDBM, Stranger Things…a significant portion of my watchlist comes from this hellsite by now–I have friends with good taste.

K -Say something nice about someone in any of your fandoms

@mossdonnatella is in a lot of my fandoms. She is a much better fic writer than she thinks she is!!

L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves (chars you’re neutral on are fair game, as are chars you dislike)

I really ended up disliking Jacob a lot, on Grace and Frankie. But I will say that in the beginning he is very respectful of Frankie’s boundaries and tries to be patient with her, and I did like that.

M - Say something genuinely nice about a ship that you don’t ship (or its shippers, or anything related to you)

I don’t actively ship Jancy on Stranger Things after seeing S1 (I don’t really ship Steve/Nancy either, though…I think I mostly just ship Nancy x happiness) but the moment when her mom knocks on her bedroom door and they reach for each others’ hands instinctively? That is a damn fine understated sweet connection moment and I really enjoyed and believed it.

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

Okay since a lot of my top fandoms are for shows that ended a long time ago, I’m going with One Day At A Time. In fic or in canon, I want to see a lot more of Schneider being Penelope’s BFF and her confidant. I want more serious!Schneider moments bc it turns out the actor rocks at them, and I want to see Pen really get to move on from Victor as her kids get older, I want real confirmation that she’s finally past any possibility of reconciliation with him bc she deserves SO MUCH BETTER.

O - Choose a song at random, which ship or character does it remind you of

Randomizing my music gave me “Quiet” by MiLCK feat. GW Sirens and Capital Blend. 

Sample lyrics:

Cuz no one knows me, no one ever willIf I don’t say something, take that dry blue pillThey may see a monster, they may run awayBut I have to do thisI can’t keep quiet, no A one woman riot

Despite the mature meaning behind the lyrics, and probably because I’m watching Stranger Things right now, it reminds me of Eleven, the tiny badass fighting her way to freedom.

P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)

Alright, I’m gonna invent one right off the top of my head right here and now since you asked. Um… a One Day At A Time AU in which Penelope meets Schneider not as her landlord but as a patient, once she becomes an NP. Doctor/patient “okay if you won’t stop asking me out then get a new doctor so I can say yes” fluff ensues.

Q - A ship you’ve abandoned and why

Lizzington. I’m technically still writing fic for it bc I have a chapter fic to finish, but I haven’t watched the show in years, I avoid content for it, and have no interest in it anymore besides the phantom limb feeling of having been so invested in a ship for that long and making friends around it.

R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships

Well, since I mentioned it earlier, I think I’m the only person ever to watch the scenes Bud and Brianna have together in Grace and Frankie and think “that should really be a thing.” 

Also…Kate/Donna from The West Wing. Based entirely on one scene.

S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)

I genuinely don’t understand this question, sorry. What’s an ‘example’ of my headcanon, and how does that relate to prompts? If somebody wants to explain this to me, I’ll answer it. 

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all (gender identity, sexual or romantic orientation, extended family, sexual preferences like top/bottom/switch, relationship with poetry, seriously anything)

Yep yep yep. Andy was the leak, not Toby, and that is the hill I will die on always. I’m sure I have others, but that’s the big one.

U - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms

Toby Ziegler (TWW), Alice Harvey (TDBM), Lorelai Gilmore (Gilmore Girls), Jim Hopper (Stranger Things), and Spencer Hastings (from what I just saw of PLL with @actuallylukedanes). 

V - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms

Luke/Lorelai, Gilmore Girls. Parker/Hardison/Eliot, Leverage. Joyce/Hopper, Stranger Things.

W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships

Josh/Donna (TWW), Donna in control. Matthew/Alice (TDBM), hurt/comfort sex. Alvareider (ODAAT), “whoops are we kissing wait do we like each other?”Jared/Miss Parker (The Pretender), conflicted kisses up against wallsI’m having trouble thinking of a 5th one but I used to really like Lizzington angry!sex bc damn that ship was angsty

X - top 5-10 characters who are yoUR PRECIOUS BABIES AND YOU WILL DIE DEFENDING THEM

Eleven, Toby Ziegler, Schneider, Lena Luthor, Logan Echolls, literally every main character on The Good Place.

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)

Game of Thrones, Agents of Shield, Doctor Who (though I finally have started this one!), Jane the Virgin, The Worst Witch, and lots more…I like learning about fandoms secondhand. 

Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged)

Every single one of these tiny Stranger Things children in S1 is the epitome of epic friendship and I love it. Mike jumps off a cliff to protect Dustin and Dustin’s willing to get his teeth cut out to protect Mike and Lucas offers a sincere apology when he’s wrong, something most adults still suck at, and Will tells Mike the truth even when he would benefit from lying and Eleven chooses death to save them all and they are beautiful and perfect and I love them.