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the-silent-hashira · 1 year

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having PMDD is probably the worst thing i can think of that i have because everything else will be FINE and then i spend a week wondering why reality is so wonky and why i cant sleep and im reminded afab bodies are literally just. fucking SHIT

#🧤 through the void || ooc #this is why im trans this shit sucks #PMDD = premenstrual dysphoric disorder #the shit makes me psychotic as all hell and my meds stop working as well as they should be #tmi #the MINUTE shark week starts im like 'oh thats why ive slept maybe 5 hours a day for the last week and had nightmares for the last 2'#im on progesterone! youre supposed to stop making my brain turn into sludge!!#i so dont wanna get my shit removed but its fucking terrible #and i aint gonna have kids im not bringing anything as fucked up as me into this world when i can barely take care of myself #i have so many things wrong with me and then my body for almost 2 weeks out of a month will go 'oh ho! i see you wanted to just #have fatigue and chronic pain! well we cant have that can we why dont we -scramples my brain hardcore despite being on high doses of meds-'

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ot3 · 10 months

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this flavor of trans guy misogyny where they do rhetorical backflips to explain why them not caring about women is good, actually, and since cis men are also misogynists a lot of the time we should all just stop complaining about it.

#'no one bats an eye when-'#actually yes plenty of women but particularly black women and lesbians have a lot to say about the specific brand of misogyny #that you get from cis gay men. only no one listens to women who talk about misogyny. is the thing. s o.#IM LITERALLY NOT EVEN SAYING PEOPLE NEED TO PUT FEMALE CHARACTERS IN SHIT #IM JUST SAYING IF THEYRE GONNA BE THERE IT SUCKS WHEN THEY'RE ONLY THERE TO BE PLOT MOTIVATORS FOR MEN!!!! NO ONE GIVES A SHIT WHAT YOU DO!#like if you're a trans guy and you have a complicated relationship to womanhood and don't want to spend a bunch of time #in the headspace of female characters. i get that. i can understand that. i can sympathize.#but if ur response to seeing someone complain about misogyny is 'why should i have to care about female characters' then ur just an asshole #theres a time and a place to talk about the Unique and Woke Way That You Personally Dislike Women and it's not on my fucking posts!!!!

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muttfangs · 4 months

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to me mutual babes: any of y'all migrating to bluesky let me knowwwww I wanna follow y'all back also, I have 5 codes to give out if anyone needs / wants one, or know someone who does!

#barking into the void #man... tumblr was like my last refuge from all the social media bullshit and it's getting christofashified too. fuck.#can I just. exist. as a trans person on social media without being politicized and censored................................... blease......#this is so fuckin bleak dawg. and ppl wonder why im basically off the grid on social media. this shit sucks so bad.#every 'good' site will eventually disappoint you after they get commercialized lol #discord / skype / twitter / facebook / instagram / myspace now tumblr #enshittification as a result of capitalism! bleak! im tired and I want to talk to my friends and look at memes!!!!!!!!!!#this isn't even counting the numerous art site casualties over the years (side7 / sheezy / deviantart / etc)#rrrghhHHH fuck. FUCK

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3amsnek · 1 year

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saw your answer about stripe ask and i just want to say for anyone out there: don’t use paypal unless that’s the only option for you.

i made a paypal account and immediately, within a minute of making it, it got permanently limited and after days to contacting paypal they still refused to fix it (saying they can’t reveal why it got limited for their safety) and didn’t let me close my account. basically i can’t use my account and i can’t delete it either so my info will always be stored on paypal, which is ridiculous and not safe.

anyway, like i said, if you have another option besides paypal then use that because paypal sucks. be careful!

^^^^^^ no yeah exactly same hat (og ask)

I have a solid guess on why mine is dead so tiny psa if you’re making a paypal account & have legally changed your name in the past like year before that pls triple check that everything official is as consistent and already changed over as possible and you have new IDs already Before you make the account bc they’ll find one tiny thing that hasn’t fixed itself yet and shut you down for possible identity fraud no matter what you do :)

(also if you feel like you need to have paypal so you have an option for customers who don’t have a card I will once again recommend stripe bc I’ve discovered their direct email invoices allow you to accept bank transfers as a payment method (including internationally) so people can just pay using the online banking account their paypal is linked to without having to go through paypal)

#more than anything they seem to loveeee to break accounts :)#and then ghost you when you send them ids to try to fix it :)#like thanks man glad you have even more of my information now that was soooooo helpful /s #buddy I’m not some carefully organized crime ring im TRANS #I’ve also heard that if you Do manage to delete your p.aypal account it will probably never let you make another one so #I haven’t tried to delete mine bc it’s such a commonly used thing that I feel like I need to keep the option as open as I can #just in case shit changes in like. years.#which Sucks #so if it’s broken and they won’t tell you why trying to just start over will likely only land you in More trouble/fraud suspect from them #so we just get stuck in this stupid position #of them having our info and refusing to let us use their service or properly Stop using their service. wtf man #and the only way they say it can be fixed!! is by giving them more information!!! that they then ignore!!!#anyway. thank u anon for joining my anti-pa.ypal yelling team #for the record none of this frustration is at you at All im just tired & mad at paypal #support beams to you for that stupid website that sucks #snek asks #anon asks à la snek #edit:#ok i will concede that there is One good thing pay.pal has done: apparently it’s how we paid my baby doggo’s adoption fee 7 years ago #but that’s it

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snekdood · 1 year

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Quite honestly, i think people just dont like to acknowledge how many times i have been victimized bc it doesnt work for their narrative of the Scary Bad Trans Guy With No Regard For Others And Likes To Kick Puppies And Doesnt Know Real Pain Or Trauma

#bc otherwise yall would have to feel bad about putting me through way more additional unnecessary trauma on here #and i swear its yall who believe everything my abuser says about me. you need to tell yourself its true that i did the shit they accuse me #of and theyre just this pure uwu innocent pewson who doews no wongg umu #yall dont wanna except ive been through hell bc then you gotta accept youve put me through additional unnecessary hell that only warped my #perception worse of a community i thought i was fuckin part of and accepted in but apparently tf not #like you only have yourselves to blame for that shit. for why i hate online queer spaces now.#man it would just suck so so hard for your narrative if i was actually abused as much as i say and my abusive x was actually lying about me #bc otherwise how will you pretend trans men never ever experience any issues ever?#like i dont need to look. ik im one of the main blogs yall like to target and put on blast for transandrophobia stuff bc im super fuckin #outspoken about my shit (nevermind that yall never directly confront me). i already know thats how it is bc theres ppl on here who have a #apparently deep interest in constantly hating me and trying to find reasons im wrong. so when i say something is bad they habe to act like #its good actually somehow. and ik it all roots back to my abuser. there is literally no other reason i can think of that would mame ppl #that invested in hating me unless they believe everything my ex says. so undoubtedly theres ppl in my exs spaces who believe #transandrophobia is fake men arent oppressed ever etc etc. i digress. but ik its yall who've propped this whole shit up #ik its yall who put me on blast for this first and triwled to spread it that i was one of the Big Bad Names in the transandrophobia spaces #so ik yall use me as an example. ik you tell people i lie about everything. ik you tell people i exaggerate. ik you tell people im crazy #ik you tell ppl they cant trust me or rely on me and spread all the bs my ex says about me and even spreads their abuse toward me further #by even doing that shit. yall NEED to keep believing that im the Big Bad Trans Guy that you think i am bc otherwise your whole worldview #falls tf apart. everything you've been standing on online about how trans mascs who believe in transandrophobia are bad would fall apart.#if i am really as fuckin abused and victimized as i say. suddenly you dont get to use me as the example for Bad Transandrophobia Believer #and I KNOW thats the only reason yall choose not to listen or believe us. its LITERALLY just because you're choosing a side in a personal #relationship situation. ik it has nothing to do with politics for plenty of you. you're taking a side and shitting out reasons for why you #did after the fact.#if you really care about politics n shit you should listen to ALL THE OTHER TRANS MEN TALKING ABOUT THIS #besides using one person as your example for why you shouldnt believe people who believe this is a thing.#i mean. even aside the fucking fact that its all bs. if yall dont wanna believe me. whatever. you can get traumatized by them if you want #idefc at this point. if you actually care about politics as much as you say you gotta engage w people in good faith and uh maybe try n #listen to the SWATHES of other trans guys who also talk about this shit and thinks its real.

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carcinized · 2 years

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feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely.#just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’#type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100%#like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks

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bingotime · 9 months

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#doodling hassan cuz that usually cheers me up #kinda heelpin a little kind of.#also trying to visualize shit in my head its the same thing i always telll myself and its kind of comforting but equally. man #this shit sucks #why couldnt i just be normal in the head. im tired of like. barely living ykwim #its easier to see myself as mental because i am mental and i am neurotic but #i just.......... dont want other people to think im mental even though thats clearly whats going on #im just sufferin for no reason and i need to make the steps to get better i guess #i had a therapist but it was for transitioning not for my depression or anxiety #it was just to prove i was trans #and im glad abt that but. that doesnt fix the underlying problem #i still have problems a lot of them #i hate that ive been like this since middle school #idk im rambling #gonna sleep soon anyway. itll help #im tired #i dont wanna do this anymore #i just wanna be happy and normal

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songship · 7 months

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where do you find people to talk to online who don't suck, asking for a friend

#jasper.txt #<- guy who is in Too Damn Many discord servers #but they're all too big!!!#i had to leave a server that i was slowly dipping my toes into talking to because there were some very uncomfortable dynamics going on ther #that reminded me of the Trauma #but it was small and cozy and that's why i felt comfortable trying to talk there!!#and trying to filter places for basic criteria like “hey are you cool about trans people” is exhausting #because so many times itll be totally innocuous and then surprise! nazi meme posted in general #OR if its not that then it'll be queer friendly but it's all 'no bad vibes!!! no negativity ever!!!''#incredibly stifling #hate it #its not like i dont have close friends but they like to hang in voicechats rather than talk over text much #and i want to fulfill that text based communication need... i wanna chat with people while im at work...#sighhh. shit sucks dog #actually coming back to this #i totally forgot i got invited to a server by an ex mutual a while back #and then had to leave when they started saying nasty shit about ace people on main #so add 'queer but they hit you with the exclusionism jumpscare' to that list

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gibbearish · 11 months

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saw the barbie movie

#it was pretty good i will say though i think people being like 'i have no idea why the right is mad abt this #movie theres absolutely nothing upsetting in it' are being disingenuous #the veil of satire is exactly a centimeter thick on this one like this movie directly mocks conservatives to their faces #in entirely deserved and accurate ways which is exactly why theyre mad #and honestly it did feel heavy handed at times to the point of immersion breaking for me #like when the mom is helping deprogram the barbies that whole monologue and the snippits after very much feel like #a video essay rather than part of a movie about barbie #and im torn between 'this doesnt fit in the movie super well' and 'holy shit they actually let yall say this in a major movie #this is Excellent Progress goddamn'#idk tldr i have mixed feelings #but i mean overall it was fun and campy i did enjoy it #also side note ive seen several ppl be like ''it sucks that the movie ends on 'she got a vagina as her signifier of Being A #Real Woman‚' this is transphobic'' and like i can see where that sentiment comes from but also. no #the film very blatently establishes that the thing making her a real woman is just her Realizing She Is One #whereas the gynocologist thing is just a joke to end the movie on?#with the setup being that with the family all there to support her and wishing her good luck and everything #it feels like its building up to like a job interview or something like that and then it subverts your expectations #like idk to me 'doll that constantly gets jokes made about them not having genitals becomes real and gets genitals' doesnt read as a #trans joke‚ it reads as. a barbie joke. about barbie dolls #anyways done with that rant where do i find the allan fanclub #also the weird barbie fanclub

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pronounpinbadge · 2 years

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post blew uo and i got annoying pieces of shit in my notifs again so ill aay it one last time transmisogyny is the word for when transphobia and misogyny intersect. trans*ndrophobia is a special word for transmascs transphobia and is redundant

you are not effected by "androphobia", since that doesnt exist in any substantial way outside of where you've placed it into transphobia and im not gonna entertain your 'i want a special word too'

trans*ndrophobia truthers stay mad i gueessss ¯\_("3)_/¯ im literally dropping out of this debate because not one single one of you have ever actually read what i say on this and just say shit like "A TRANS MAN GOT BEAT UP TODAY IS THAT NOT TRANS*NDROPHOBIA" no you fuck he wasnt assaulted for being a man its always transphobia (assault for being trans) or misogyny (assault for being trans AFAB)

#i censor trans*ndrophobia because i dont want this showing up in their fucking tags #is it malebrained of you to shit on women does that cope your dysphoria #seeiously jesus fucking christ #a term for the intersection of two major problems in society that have been lasting for yeaaars decades centuries #and then the term for transphobia that boys face because i dont know they got insecure #even when cis men do face cissexist harassment it is VERY VERY usually due to You guessed it MISOGYNY #oh hes gay because hes feminine Do you let your wife fuck you up the ass instead What the fuck are you carrying a bag for pussy He #He needs to man up or get the fuck out of my house Whys he trying to be kind does he want to suck my dick lets assault him #its all misogynist stemming problems. feminine men are hated for their femininity kind men are hated because kindness is seen as feminine #and so on #trans*ndrophobia is a term that was only made as a reaction to transmisogyny because you got insecure and wanted a special word that doesnt #even make sense #and im not gonna entertain that #im just making fun of you for both being stupid and trying to make androphobia a thing (it will never be a thing)#and for not being able to debate without getting mad and pissy and using periods and caps when you Usu4lly typ3 lik3 thi5 on yur bl0g XDDD #/ half joking tone #anyways rant over get the fuck out of my notifs #i see another trnsndrophbia truther in my mentions and i make an office US style look off into the distance and scroll away #okay Now rant over byeee

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homosexualmorelikehomiesexual · 2 years

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fucj fuck fuckety fuck

#goddAMNIT why did i have to name myself after an estranged family member #i dont even know himmmbbbb but we have to attend a funeral and hes gonna b there #and idk if my moms gonna be a bitch and tell him i NAMED MYSELF AFTER HIM #i don't even like the name anymore but i havent told her im changing it again bc she didnt respect the first one so whats the point #but now im caught btwn a rock and a hard place either i ADMIT i naamed myself after him and theyre all awww #and then it makes it even harder to go no contact later bc they feel entitled to a presence in my life #or i tell him NO which hurts his feelings is incredibly awkward and turns down potentially the ONE TIME MY MOM DOESNT DEADNAME ME #AND i have to either ask to be deadnamed which id rather kms than do. or tell them my actual new name which my mom. doesnt know #most likely scenario she isnt gonna say anything and im just gonna be relentlessly deadnamed #i just. wont b able to do anything about it bc its HIS NAME #god what was i THINKING #plus its a fucking funeral so theyre gonna want me to wear a dress. and i dont. have decent formal menswear so i cant even say no #FUCK fucking hell #i love being trans i really do but this shit. this shit sucks #finnposting #tag vent #personal

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biaoba · 2 years

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#sucks how those mutual aid posts turned into oppression Olympics #list as many minorities you're part of so that someone out there can feel personally responsible and pay you money #fuck outta here im not giving you shit #do you think people on tumblr have money for that shit? do you really?#oh but the checkmarks– the checkmarks are what they chose to spend their 8 dollars on. one how do you know they DONT donate to mutual aid #two even if you did know youd be like OK BUT why did you donate to this indigenous nonbinary disabled asexual #instead of ME #a black trans intersex lesbian #like HUH

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effervescent-fool · 2 years

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#very long vent below. btw #i know i like to joke about living in florida but this shit sucks #it seems every five fucking minutes theres a new anti-trans bill coming out #its practically impossible to legally get on hormones or even hormone blockers #gender therapy is so fucking hard to find and insurance doesnt cover the cost of any of it #teachers and doctors both are required to report transgender kids to cps. how fucked up is that #its fucking up my mental health too #ive tried speaking to my father about it and he just doesnt fucking get it. he doesnt even think of it as an inconvenience.#ive genuinely considered suicide as an option. i cannot live here any longer i just cant.#and i dont think i can survive another year.#i dont know why thats so hard for them to understand. and i dont know how to explain it in a way that they'll understand #i spoke to my therapist about this and all she said was basically that she cant help me. im so fucking tired #why couldnt i have just been cis?????#im tired of all the fucking trans discourse i hear like girl there are people actually dying out here. people going by kittenself pronouns-#is the least of our worries

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jam-n-jay · 9 months

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For some reason recently my favorite thing to do when something goes wrong or there are some circumstances outside of my control is wave my fist at the sky and say "Curse you foul Fates!" because it feels nice to have a nebulous thing to not necessarily blame but to at the very least direct my ire towards

For some reason it's easier for me to move on from frustrating or down right awful situations that I can't control when I have something to throw my anger at other than myself. Rather than blaming myself for something I can't help instead it's the fault of the insidious fates that weave our reality and it is my sworn duty as a trans person to cut the thread of fate and KILL GOD sorry I got a bit carried away there

#as a kid i always hated stories about fate n shit and looking back it was almost certainly because i was trans #and most of those stories treated fate as either a good thing or inevitable regardless #and like no that sucks that would mean im cursed to stay this person i hate fuck that #which i think is why i feel a lot more satisfaction throwing up a big “FUCK YOU!!” at fate instead #trans #(kinda)#(tangentially)

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redphrite · 10 months

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BLARRG. i wanna play armored core. but im too sleepy. im so mad

#running on like 4 hrs of sleep rn and SHIT i just remembered i need to study some spanish. fuck. i forgot im in college again #im not in the mindset to study this sucks #anyway im not going to be able to play till tomorrow night and i probably wont even do good then bc ill be tired after a long day!!!!!!!!!!#i want to keep playing so bad BUT IM BAD AT GAMES!!!! and that balteus fight felt so discouraging!! AUGH.#why cant i be a gaming prodigy like all the other trans girls on this website #look idk man you tag it

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h0neypiez · 1 year

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i need more trans friends. im realizing my nearly entirely cis friend group gets. tiring.

#goose.txt #tags is gonna be sorta nsfw. to explain my tiredness.#but the whole group was looking up shitty images on rule 34 bc so many of them are so bad its funny #n they post one. and nearly all of them r like WHY DOES HE HAVE A PUSSY!!!!#even my other. nonbinary friend. says that.#and its just. guys. the art shows top surgery scars. hes a tran man. many of us have those.#plus two of my cishet friends kept making their ‘what if we were gay n into each other’ jokes #which fucking suck to hear after already feeling like shit from the trans thing!!!#n the art he sent was actually good :( the only reason it was ‘weird’ was bc he was trans.#its so damn upsetting bc even tho ive told most of them that im trans masc nb. they still go n do that.#its so god damn disheartening just say ill never be a real man and move on please.#anyways. rant over im sad n tired.

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