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I will be Archive Protecting/Locking all my Works soon - You'll need an A03 account to view them </3
Hey, soooo-- On the advice of others, imma look at Archive protecting my fics. Imma be doing this ~sometime this week~ and it will be applied to any future works I post, as well.
I've been advised that "Archive locking" (turning on 'show this work only to logged in users' meaning you have to have an A03 account to view the fic or download it) does in fact help protect work from scrapper bots effectively
^The scrapper bot could theoretically be provided login credentials by someone making an account for said bot.... but A03 apparently has safeblocks against exactly that, a limit to how many fics can be downloaded and the like, so it's literally not worth their time to do it
I already submitted a DCMA takedown request and all that jazz, but from reading up on the ongoing issue...
A little bit of protection to save some offense and headache, is something i feel pretty good doing. I don't mind people writing things inspired by my stories-- but I *do* mind some random asshole scraping an entire archive of people's freely provided art so they can feed it into AI models that will then be used without an ounce of credit to who they worked from. There's plenty of crap in the public domain and freely available that they can perfectly well compile to make those datasets *respectfully* they don't need to be stealing a darn thing! It's laziness, and it pisses me off like nothing else.
I spend hours-- No, actually, I spend my lifetime drafting and writing these stories. They're always rolling around in my head. I go out of my way to experience things I've never done if only because it'll be great information if I ever write about it. I'm running intense simulations of different timelines, different point of views, plugging in pieces and removing parts just to see how it might affect the narrative and then deciding whether to commit that to the written pages or not.
It's truly my greatest pleasure to share them with ya'll, and I'm so terribly sorry if archive locking my works causes any inconvenience. I really think this is the smartest move right now I can make for reasonably protecting my work in a cyberspace full of data-hungry trolls, while still keeping it available freely to those who enjoy a good story.
If there is anyone who has a guest account and has been reading my works, and for whatever reason cannot access an A03 account creation-- please message me <3 I'll do my best to set you up with the future chapters somehow.
AO3 has been scraped, once again.
As of the time of this post, AO3 has been scraped by yet another shady individual looking to make a quick buck off the backs of hardworking hobby writers. This Reddit post here has all the details and the most current information. In short, if your fic URL ends in a number between 1 and 63,200,000 (inclusive), AND is not archive locked, your fic has been scraped and added to this database.
I have been trying to hold off on archive locking my fics for as long as possible, and I've managed to get by unscathed up to now. Unfortunately, my luck has run out and I am archive locking all of my current and future stories. I'm sorry to my lovelies who read and comment without an account; I love you all. But I have to do what is best for me and my work. Thank you for your understanding.
#ao3#fanfiction#writing#fic writing#fanfic writers#I actually really like AI because it is a useful tool when used appropriately#and it's actually been around a LOT longer than people would think#but because we call it “Artificial Intelligence” now instead of the more accurate programming terminology#well#people get all funny about it#this method isn't new#but the fad and all these companies hounding in on it IS#anyhow#yeah#fuck irresponsible AI#this is garbage#u giving good people bad reputation scraper arse#reeee#Dat Rambles#Gladiators of Kaon#Leaking Spark#Why the Caged Bird Sings#Star of the Show#Falling Stars#Travel Buddies#Star Wars#Transformers#Fanfic Author
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Peepaw Starlo struggles. Autism 2 autism communication struggles.
#undertale yellow#uty#uty au#lucky clover au#frisk ut#starlo uty#ceroba uty#martlet uty#dalv uty#feisty four uty#the cowboy hat draws#FALLS OVER. THIS TOOK OVER A MONTH.#Mostly because of being busy IRL but also because I decided on a new rendering method#Aaaand it was ten times as time consuming and I don't like the end result at all. LMAO. You live and learn I suppose#I hope this is comprehensible um. I think a lot about Starlo being so used to understanding Clover easily and being one of their favorites#And going to Frisk and 1. not really understanding how they communicate and 2. feeling like he isn't their favorite LOL#Idk how well that reads but! Peepaw Starlo musings#Starlo tries his best and doesn't always get it right but he's in a better place now#I know Clover's absence feels very strange here but I just couldn't find a place to put them oops.#Drawing this made me realize I really gotta practice my backgrounds. Hough. Definitely in the new year!#Also I haven't played poker in years so anything that's wrong? Uh monster poker is different. Yup. Thumbs up emoji
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✨Headcanon✨
LQG knows how to run on all fours and it's fucking terrifying. He learnt it from a Shixiong, who was just messing with him, however it was incredibly useful in Sloping and Rocky terrains.
Sometimes he Chases his disciples like that so they know the thrill of getting chased by a beast/hj
the first time I saw this pop up in my inbox snorted so loud in public
#archerdoodles#myart#doodles#liu qingge and his A+ teaching methods#its airplanes fault anyways#messy ass drawing since i'm drawing with my new laptop and the feel just isn't the same with my old one idk why
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yet another votv piece
this incredible lonely man will never catch a break
#votv#voices of the void#dr kel#dr kel votv#ok in the real game there isn't that much blood behind the crates but its fine don't worry about it#im loving this new method of painting ive been picking up#very efficient at convening what be in my brain#ultiy's art
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#ninjago confidential#ninjago prime empire#ninjago zane#yknow what take the entire transcript for the episode#(Ninjago city is shown in greyscale) Zane: (Narrating in a dramatic voice) Ninjago City. My city.#I know it like the insides of my own circuits. Which is why I know… it has a dark side. My best friends are trapped in an immersive video#game called Prime Empire.(Zane is revealed to have been narrating out loud.)Zane: Yeah#you heard that right. They're being held there by#villain named Unagami. But “Unagami” isn't his real name. It's as fake as a used car salesman's smile. His true identity is Milton Dyer#the computer programmer who designed Prime Empire. The only hope for them getting out of the digital world rests on finding Dyer in the real#world. My world. I was fishing for leads#but for now I find myself adrift on a sea of dead ends....#(P.I.X.A.L. steps out of the fog.)Zane: Then… She walked in.(The color returns to normal.)P.I.X.A.L.: There you are#Zane.Zane: She said#shining the only ray of light into my dreary world!P.I.X.A.L.: Who are you talking to? And why are you dressed like that?Zane: (Speaking#in his normal voice) Since we are engaged in detective work#tracking down a missing person#I have downloaded thousands of detective books#and movies as research.P.I.X.A.L: And that has to do with… hats?Zane: According to my analysis#100 percent of successful detectives wear#trench coats and hats while narrating their thoughts. Thus I have adopted the same methodology. P.I.X.A.L.: It seems improbable that hat#and overly descriptive monologues are significant factors in an investigative outcome.Zane: (Sighs.) I've tried everything else to no#success. This method has to work.P.I.X.A.L.: Well#okay I guess. I do have a new possible avenue of inquiry.Zane: (Dramatic voice) A lead!#P.I.X.A.L.: What?Zane:(normal voice.) Detectives call it a “lead.”P.I.X.A.L.: Okay#I have a “lead”. A source willing to share information#(Zane gets back into character and the colors go back to greyscale.)Zane: (Dramatic voice) Ah… So a “canary” wants to “sing?” Who is it?#(P.I.X.A.L. projects an image of a young Dyer and another figure.)P.I.X.A.L.: Remember this photo from Dyer's childhood home? I was able to#track his friend to Laughy's Karaoke Club. Perhaps he knows Dyer's whereabouts.Zane: So… A rumble on the street gave us a hot tip about a#okay im out of tags go watch the real episode
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alright, friends, it's time for a lil heart-to-heart.
for quite a while now, i've struggled with feeling like the rpc is an actual community. there's a few things that contribute to this feeling, but it mostly comes down to a lack of interaction and visible interest. sometimes i feel very one-sided in my interest and attachment to my mutuals bc when i see their ooc posts or headcanons, i like them or comment, yet this isn't reciprocated by everyone. i can usually guess who i'm about to see in my notifications, and to be absolutely clear, i'm very grateful for those people!! it's a handful or two of you, but it could be just one and i'd be grateful. it's not about numbers whatsoever but rather growing uncomfortable that not all of my mutuals are all that interested in my character or me.
i write on here to share the excitement of creating with other people. i write on here to create together, too, but i'm also here to share characters and ideas and lore with people i know are happy to hear me ramble. i'm just getting to the point in which i'm questioning how many of you are actually happy to listen, and that's just not a good feeling at all. i'm not a mind reader, y'all. if you don't tell or show me that you care about the things i talk about or even about interacting, there's no way for me to know. eventually, i'm going to question why you're following me if i never see or hear from you, and eventually, i'm going to softblock and move on. that's the only way forward i see right now because i just do not feel comfortable on my own blog. i feel like i'm retreating into this quiet bubble to avoid discomfort, and it really sucks. it's killing my muse.
i'm not perfect. none of us are, and we can't be online at all times to catch every little post. but if we're a community, then we should be supporting each other when we can and liking headcanons, liking/commenting on those lil ooc posts that remind us our writing partners are humans with lives outside this site, reblogging their promo posts, sending in that meme they've reblogged even if we're nervous to reach out first -- if we're a roleplaying community, then we need to act like it. " community " implies connection, and a connection doesn't really begin when you follow each other. it begins when you reach out, even if it's in some small way.
tldr: i think we can all do better to support our mutuals and to connect, and i'm going to softblock people rather than continue to feel unsure where i stand with my mutuals. i won't start until sometime next week, and i won't make one of those " like this to remain mutuals " posts. they're not helpful to me, if i'm honest. if you're worried, just reach out. i'm literally a 4'9'' gremlin who sleeps with a m.unchlax plushie -- i promise i'm not scary despite this post uvu
#if i reread this one more time my head will explode asdfg so i'm done and hitting post#i need to stress though i'm very thankful for the people i have connected with in small and big ways <3 it means a lot to me#but i've been told bottling things up isn't a great idea so it's time i was just honest#also i’ve felt like this for a long time#so it’s not the time of year bc i know everyone gets busy during the holidays#i’m just feeling frustrated and tired bc in some instances my efforts do feel one-sided and this hobby is supposed to be an escape#rn it’s not such a great escape for me. i’m trying to be honest so that can change#i’m trying overall to reshape this blog a little in how i run it bc i want us all to have fun and feel seen#that means creating boundaries and being honest and trying new methods so that i don’t get overwhelmed and can actually write and chat#with everyone that i’d like to write and chat with uvu#alright……. i think that’s it after i’ve rambled in the tags asfhjk#i’ll queue this and a bunch of other stuff later when i’ve got time#for now i gotta finish getting ready for work — pls have a lovely day everyone!#get ready to ramble | ooc
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say what u will about barry allen but no other superhero has had a worse time. you come in, take up another heros mantle, be a hero for however many years, DIE!!! actually die not comic death but die to the point you are functionally irrelevant for 20 years you completely cease to be that character and the vast majority of people grew up with a different flash, get resurrected you're back now (yay?), writers don't know what to do with you because there's already another flash and there has been for the past two decades so the entire universe kinda hems and haws about what to do with you until they take you out of your main comics and just have you chill in the justice league, then you lose your powers and are once again no longer the flash.
I need a "where are they now" but for Barry Allen flash. dead for Twenty Real Life Years. come back to life. reset the universe. just to lose your powers and be booted again from the superhero title. God himself hates this man
"Oh wally got erased from existence" "well x happens to Batman" it's not even about what happens in the narrative it's like. you're the only mainstream superhero ever that stopped existing for two decades and when they do decide to bring the character back they have no idea what to do with you so you're eventually forever relegated to the sidelines And also you're not the strongest or the most skilled or the fastest flash and they keep retconning all the special stuff You did in specific and refuse to let your narrative exist beyond Dead Mom. bartholomew baby I'm so sorry
#:v#Barry Allen#DC comics#the flash#It's just like. idk I really like Wally and I grew up with him in the cartoon#wally is what made me love the flash!#but why can't there be space for both of them. there's like 80 different batmen.#and Barry is so different from all the other speedsters you know? hes methodical and stops to think twice and is cautious#everyone else is silly and hot headed and impulsive#not to say Barry isn't silly or impulsive but he's not like. Hal you know?#he's level headed and his jokes are more like Dad puns then anything#idk I just really like Barry and I feel like the comics Don't#Also I forerv have beef with new 52 ENOUGH WITH REBOOTS#new 52 is why we got those dogshit movies idc idc 🙄#Also I'm fine with superheroes going through shit constantly I think especially with like peter parker and barry allen#the appeal there for a lot of people is they're regular nerdy guys who get beat up a lot and constantly fall down#but they always get back up#it's why making Peter a ceo in the comcis didn't work#That's not really what his character is ya know?#he's not a tony he's the down on his luck guy who can't afford eggs this week but he will still save new york#anyway I wish they could just do what marvel did and let there be two spidermen. why not ya know?#im sure the appeal is there. give us them both Please
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kaitostim
#vocaloid#project diva#project diva extend#kaito#this isn't the full animation btw he does some other stuff after i just like this bit#also this gif looks like ASS i'm so sorry#tried a new filtering method which looked great at higher resolutions but at a image this small it's just blurry :[#i can't be bothered redoing it so. sorry#id in alt text#arthurgifs
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finally tried to sketch out a little of how i've been imagining. the cloning machine. not too crazy or maybe it is i dont know. the base black membrane is not just a floating window i promise, it's attached to the rest of the thing and is supposed to swing down and lower into the feeder reservoir (crucially, with the part facing us right now facing upwards when it's moved parallel to the floor, as opposed to just closing it face-to-face like a laptop or something) but for some reason i'm struggling to imagine what a mechanism that could do that would look like. even though it's not thaaat complicated.
anyways. the membrane is fed the template DNA (blood is most often used) and once it accepts the sample it is swung down into the body tray and sinks into the feeder reservoir, where all the "raw materials" are i guess. i've been envisioning that the membrane frame has some sort of shutter element that can move the membrane around but i haven't figured out if i could design it to make sense mechanically yet? but the reason i want that is because once the membrane accepts the DNA sample it starts. wiggling around on it's own. and it would kinda be nasty as hell if you could see it pulling the shutters open and closed... cool right.
the reservoir is initially filled with just . raw materials that a human could be made of. fullmetal alchemist style like chemicals i guess. but as the machine gets used it eventually all grows into weird amorphous meat mess in there. it's fine for it to stay that way for a while (esp. bc base black needs to be attached to living material in order not to decay) but if you keep it too long the machine will try to self-replicate and make clones willy-nilly. and it gets more likely to be DNA contaminated. so the whole machine has to be gutted every once in a while.
hazmat suits just because yeah lots of weird human clone goo but also base black is a semi-corporeal substance meant for gluing your soul to your body. if you touch it with your skin, other organic materials like cotton fiber, or with only a thin layer covering you like latex gloves, it WILL attach to you and you WILL contaminate the whole thing. employees are even advised not to enter the room if they have open wounds of any kind cuz. the machine loves the flesh.
#it's also 100% efficient at recycling. it can mush the materials together into a body and if the body isn't alive (often the case) it can#disassemble it and try again. it's gross in here i know it is.#just remember. test tube cloning DOES exist in-universe and was actually the first method invented. they just decided to do this instead.#phx news#mvrckposting#myart
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So FOP: A New Wish is still at it's fandom infancy stage. Do you know what that means?
Someone can call dibs on giving Hazel x Devin a good ship name or claim to be the CEO of whatever relationship develops in the future. XD
#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fop hazel#fop dev#I tried the portmanteau ship naming method and it isn't working that well. The only good one was “Havin” like Haven but that's so boring#ngl wishingfountain or whatever would be a cute ship name for them.#I'm actually chill with them just being friends but I saw that spoiler from the new episode and ran as fast as I could to post this!
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ok so blame it on the dead guy has to be the danny phantom or dc wip right
surprisingly not! "Alright, blame it on the dead guy" is actually my unsub!Spencer Reid fic bc it is CRIMINAL how few plot-driven fics with serial killer Spence assigned his own case are out there
like?? he has SO much potential but I've never come across an Unsub Reid fic that interested me so I decided to write one myself 🥸 1k snippet under the cut!
Spencer volunteered to go first, shifty and nervous. “We—ah, well, we might as well get this out of the way.”
They didn't think to take her out of the viewing room—or, still trusted her enough not to—because they let Elle stay in the corner to watch that stupid, sweet boy get through an interrogation with Hotch. The reality, the potential, hadn't really set in. The team were still scoffing and disbelieving about the mere idea that Elle was a suspect, let alone actually considering she could have killed someone and should be kept aside in a waiting room.
She didn't know whether their trust was heartwarming, or if it hurt to know she was betraying it. That she was making Spencer betray it.
“Where were you last night?” Hotch asked bluntly, diving right to the thick of it.
“890 Glendale Avenue, Queen’s Motel, room 128.” Spencer answered immediately, staring at his shirt cuff as he picked at it.
“A motel?" Hotch raised a brow. "Why weren't you at home?”
“I was, um, visiting Elle. Like I said, this case got us both really heated, and I thought as—as her friend, I should comfort her, y'know?” Spencer looked up as if asking for Hotch's approval, before realizing where he was, and looking back down at his hands awkwardly.
“How long were you at the motel?”
“From 7:23pm to 6:51am.”
“All night?”
“Yes, sir.”
“And what room was Elle staying in?”
“128.”
“So then—wait.” Hotch visibly double taked. “What room did you stay in?”
“128. Sir.”
Spencer was turning a shade of delicate rose, those honey amber doe eyes burning a hole into the ground as he very determinedly stared down at the table, lips slightly twisted.
“How many beds were in the—”
“We slept together!” Spencer burst out, hands over his face as if he couldn't bare to be seen and his ears a burning flame. “They only have queens at Queen’s Motel, which is why they're mostly popular for discreet hookups, affairs, and young couples for privacy. There's no cameras on premise for that exact reason but I can guarantee that we were preoccupied for the entire night and didn't have time to go kill anyone.”
Spencer looked up at his boss beseechingly, and his every move screamed earnest innocence. Hotch was briefly stunned silent by the outburst.
The viewing room, on the other hand, is hooting and hollering, gasping and grinning and exchanging promises to pay back bets they had apparently made.
"That's why he's so nervous, that sly dog!” Morgan crowed.
Elle stared at the picture of embarrassed, inexperienced young coworker spilling about an unlikely office romance in front of her, and now understood exactly why Spencer had said what he did on the car ride over
“I have a tattoo of four dice on my left hip, in the order 1, 3, 1, 2. I got it for twenty bucks at a Halloween flash sale in Vegas, when I was 16.”
Elle was so overwhelmed by everything going on after hiding a body and disposing of evidence, she can barely process the spontaneous fun fact Spencer shared.
“Is that your worst secret or something? Trying to make it even now that you— have mine?” Elle weakly joked. It seemed so Spencer that the worst thing he ever did was get an underage tattoo.
Spencer glanced at her briefly before turning back to the dark road he was speeding down, headlights off. “Just remember it. It's on my left hip, an inch above the bone.”
The entire viewing room was staring at Elle now, any ideas of her involvement with the murder last night swept out the door. She can only confidently manage a secretive tilt of her head before she's looking away, towards the sight of her best friend saving her from a charge of second degree murder.
“You and Elle…slept in the same bed the entire night, then?” Spencer nodded behind his hands. “Alright. Sure. She never got up to use the bathroom, get a drink, anything like that?” Hotch's attempts to keep up professionalism were crumbling, with Spencer looking exactly like an embarrassed teen who desperately didn't want to talk about girls with his father.
“We were occupied until roughly 11pm, and slept in the same bed the entire night. We never left the room, she never left my line of sight, please just hurry this up.” Spencer says directly into his hands, not even pretending to not be hiding from eye contact anymore.
Hotch grimaced, as much as the man ever showed weakness. “You say she never left your line of sight, rather than she never left the bed.”
“The only time we got out of bed was to take a shower and replace the sheets, but those all came in the suite. We did them all together, barely an arms length away from when I entered the hotel room to when I got into this interrogation room. We fell asleep cuddling and woke up the same way. I'm a light enough sleeper that she couldn't have moved me without drugging me, and I didn't take anything unsealed last night. ” Spencer peeked out from between his fingers, and the skin that can be seen is an impressively tomato red. “Please, Hotch.”
Hotch sighed, kneading his brow for a long moment before picking his papers up and motioning for Spencer to leave. The boy practically sprints, going straight out the door and into the viewing room with such an apologetic face Elle can almost believe they did have this night he implied, rather than the one that really happened.
"I'm really, really sorry about having to talk about this with the whole team, Elle." Spencer apologized, even as Morgan was shaking his shoulders like the kid had scored the winning play of the season.
He didn't even lie when he said we spent the whole night together, an arms length away. Elle realized incredulously, filled with exhilarated relief at the fact that they were actually going to get a way with it. We did sleep in that queen bed together, even if nothing happened.
Hotch put his head in reluctantly. "This will be brief, but for the sake of protocol..."
Elle put on her best swagger and a smile for Hotch. "Of course, boss." She blew a kiss behind her on a whim, and the team burst into another round of whispers and gossip as the door shut.
Elle reclined in the metal chair, half nervous and half amused. The look in Hotch’s eyes is so tired dad that she can fool herself into thinking this is a meet-the-parents scenario.
“Did you know he has a tattoo?" Elle said idly, picking at her cuticle. "On his hip, the left one. You'll never guess the story behind it.”
The tired look he gave her aged him ten years, and Elle laughs so hard she almost cries.
She dramatically goes over the tattoo story she heard in the car, and then proceeds to make up one of the best nights of her life, using unnecessarily raunchy detail until it's all too much. Too much in general outside of an erotic romance novel, but way too much for her boss to hear about from a coworker he has to look in the eyes. (And, the boy she can tell he's starting to consider like a son.)
Elle doesn't get arrested for murder that day. The least she can do is cover for Spencer now, when he's being blamed for a string of murders he didn't even do.
#this isn't a Spencelle or ship fic in general this is just my fave scene so far#this is actually a flash back explaining why Elle in the present suddenly pops in and gives Spencer an alibi#as the main plot is about Spencer being an unsub who changes methods every few months to masquerade as a new kille d#and Elle is gone by the time the team is assigned Spencer's serial killer identity's case#(she has no idea he's actually been like four different serial killers throughout his life LMAO)#((he plays up the sweet puppy eyes and relies on her guilt abt using him as an alibi for when she killed))#unsub spencer reid#criminal minds#Spencer Reid#elle greenaway#wip#ficlet#snippet#cm#alright blame it on the dead guy
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Happy Halloween! 🧙🏻♀️🌕
Floaty wicthy robot cow ready for October's festivities 🍬🍭🍫
#munimidraws#happy halloween#witch#artist on tumblr#digital illustration#digital art#took a month but it's here!#I used a different method for the color which isn't new but it makes coloring a lot easier for me#who failed color theory at 12
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i hope vaughn and james stone tag again i'm so ready to be a black widow vaughn vertigo truther
#put that boy in a beautiful fit and a fancy necklace#he definitely isn't going to slowly and methodically poison his new boyfriend for the money he's innocent#julian.txt
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2023 vs 2025 Mainly focusing on heads, faces, proportions in expressions for the past few weeks. I did like the old faces Renoir made in the 2023 version, so I used them as base to study the head.
All these changes are so small, but somehow change a lot..
#sesshomaru#ft Renoir#my art#my ocs#the top right new ren version is nice i think.#i feel like I captured the mouth of stifling a laugh#sometimes though I feel like the face is a mask that is slipping off the head. or that the cranium isn't big enough#i spent two days on trying to understand the lumis method to drawing a head#I am not sure if I my eye proportions are where I want them to be#the bottom laughing ren in the new one took the longest. .. angle from slightly below with mouth open wide... pain#the snickering ren on the right middle I think came out the worst
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🤔🐌 🦖 for the ask game!
🤔 Are there any new characters you want to write about?
Depends on how 3.0 goes. I haven't felt much of anything for a lot of fictional characters (Sunday, I adore him, but I knew part of it would be fleeting because he was new for my brain).
🐌 What is one of your smallest writing goals?
Finishing Remnants. This thing was literally almost entirely written before I revamped it and I have everything just...needing to be assembled. It's small in comparison to tackling Rumors and Vertigo, where my plot is far lengthier and involved.
🦖 Are there any fandoms you wrote for in the past that you'd like to return to?
Some days, I consider writing for City of Love: Paris again. I even started a reader insert for it (based on the main character, who's a self-insert type anyway). The game left so much up in the air and it's an example of 'cool idea but terrible execution but it's Ub*soft, what should I have expected?' Same goes for Loki, for HP, for Hellsing. The thoughts are there but the motivation isn't. I don't think I ever could, really. In the same way that I wrote so much for Zhongli but don't anymore. It's not that I don't love the thing but that my love has taken a different shape, if that makes sense. Eventually, I'll be in that position with my current obsessions, too.
#juni chats#sometimes the last part makes me sad but that's how adulthood has been for me ever since college#I go through a period where I use fic as a method to keep busy and challenge myself and kind of deal with transitions#and then my brain needs something new and sometimes the new thing isn't about finding the next hyperfixation#I might bounce around especially if what I'm finding is intriguing but lately...I find I can just exist#and enjoy the things I find and share them without feeling obligated to create for them#idk it's less that I don't feel things anymore but that having taken a step back it's that I sacrificed a lot for it#and I became a bitch in a lot of ways I didn't like and I wanted to prioritize my offline life#that step back actually did a lot for me over the last few months even if it had its bumps
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Me staring intensely at my seed cart and wondering when in the fuck it got so expensive to shove some wooden posts in the ground and staple plastic tarp sheeting to them and have yourself a fuckin green house....
#bruh don't @me about this i know it's a hick method of building a greenhouse but it WORKS and the whole FUCKING point of hick methods#is that they're dirt goddamn cheap#so WHYYYYYYYYY isn't it DIRT GODDAMN CHEAP ANYMORE??????#buying a used planer costs the same as buying a new one used to#buying a new planer costs what buying pre-made lumber would before#buying pre-made lumber is impossible at project scale for us now#so howwwwww do i build my chickens a new coop you ask?#oh lets try and get some old palates! what do you mean no one lets you buy/take those anymore and they're all used into the fucking ground#so the wood is useless structurally now? what do you mean it would be cheaper to buy a couple 16ft planks from lowe's?? what do you meeeean?#when we build the garden fence in main it cost me $750 to close up 7sqft of garden and I about lost my shit#now I want to enclose LESS THAN HALF OF THAT and can't for the life of me seem to keep the price below $600#fucking kiiiiiiiill me
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