#this one is bigger and i dont want people printing it and stuff

[alicenpai]

apparently i never uploaded this one so. carole & tuesday button from 2019 !  ❤🎶🎹🎸

[lokh]

jesus christ i have a lot of leftover stock from past cons 😭😭😭

[kisbunzies]

Incredibly specific tf2 headcanons.

1.medic wanted to become an a a labor and delivery doctor before he decided to take people out of this world before bringing them in. Thinks babies and small.animals are adorable. The reason he has so many doves is because one of them layed eggs right after he got them and he got two attached to give them away.

2.heavy would love the dark academia aesthetic , study vlogs and booktok. I am correct so i will not elaborate.

3.scouts american italian catholic. Again i am correct so i will not be illaborating.

4. Snipers doesn't like people , loves animals though. Would throw someone into an active valcano for yelling in a walmart. thinks that they should have kept harambe alive because its was the kids fault (he is also right everything has gone to shit since that gorilla died)

5.demomans a desendent of the black people in nova scotia who invented hockey.

6.demoman sleep in the most zebra print pink elastic band statin-y hair bonnet you can imagine. I am black and correct so i will not be elaborating.

7. Engineers back hurts comical amounts. Part of reason he replaced his hand was because he got arthuritis in it. He was an inch taller before he gave himself scoliosis . bros bones are screaming for help.

8. Pyro is creachure , eyes glow in the dark . waits infront of the door for the other mercs to get home , presses their snout to things and sniffs, rolls around in whatever spot their gonna lay in to get comfy. Animal like habits .(i am.projecting because i get told at least twice a week i walk like a deer) oh and their favorite songs mambo .5

9.soldier is the silliest goober , got the biggest dorkiest smile on his face by default . end up in the top of trees whenever people dont look at him. Eats whole jars of peanut butter with his hand. Makes a big mwah noise before he kisses demo on the lips goober stuff.

10. Soldier has the strongest trans-dar know to man . "get out of my way tall women" to a preteen whose gonna have some realizations in the 90's. He knows your trans before you know that trans people exist. Is so stereotypically american masculine that time and gender warps around him.

10. Spies biggest secret is that he loves american fast food , the more sodium the better . loves instant ramen noodles and seasoned fries and burgers , the bigger the burger the better honestly. The mercs will get mcdonalds or something and bring him some back and at first he'll act like its beneath him right ? But then he goes to "throw it out" quote unquote and consumes whatever it is like a ravenous animal , big mac sauce end up in his hair and its gone in seconds. He the rearranges himself and acts like he's just done a line of coke but doesn't want anyone to find out

[pigeonquinndraws]

MY COMMISSIONS ARE OFFICIALLY OPEN!

i am unemployed and very disabled. ive got a lot of free time and need some extra cash. if you want art from me, nows a great time to get it!

here's my payment link (payypal)

(plaintext under the readmore)

commissions

info:

price details below (have something in mind but not sure on the price? feel free to DM me!)

people, furries, anthro, general creatures n such, all a-okay

NSFW a-okay (DM for my NSFW art account for examples)

i will NOT draw fanart of real people

i am NOT good at drawing mechs

i have the right to turn down stuff i dont feel comfortable drawing

first come first serve

1-2 week turnaround time

paypal.me/pigeonquinn

single character

info:

fullbody drawing of ONE character

human, anthro, furry, doll/plushie :D

reference preferred (written description or dollmaker a-okay!)

simple (solid/pattern/png) background included

$25

digital painting

info:

digital painting or otherwise full illustration (multiple characters, complex backgrounds, etc)

8x10 in (300dpi, suitable for printing)

reference images REQUIRED (moodboards, character ref, silly sketch a-okay!)

will not do portraits (bad at em)

$50

character sheet

info:

full character reference sheet (multiple angles, accessories, fun facts)

if you have an existing oc you want a sheet for, send in reference art of them

if you want to design a new character, message me with your concepts and we can work together!

since this is a bigger project, turnaround is 2-3 weeks

$75

pokemon queue

info:

want me to draw your favorite pokemon faster?

for only FIVE DOLLARS (wow!) put your favorite guy next in line

first come first served

im gonna draw the whole dex eventually, this is a personal longterm goal.

i am NOT taking pokemon requests for free at this time

$5

[saltymongoose]

Finally it's the not awaited time that i talk about hofnarr (hopefully thats how you write his dumb name)

He is just as obsessed as everyone else but he tries to hide it VERY hard (he is not doing a good job at that). He buys everything that the other nexus workers make about the player and his room is like 99% about the player and like 2 things about slaughter time (he needed to take a lot of things off of his room to make space for all his money spending on player "merch")

And what kills him once they meet? Well everything from the feeling of their bright eyes on him, their shorter stature (which they complained about since informing him of their expectancy of him being at least a little bit shorter than them. How wrong they were) their presence alone had him holding back from giggling like a highschool girl. But especially when they decided to lean on him and just stay there against him, tugging lightly on his lab coat. Usually like this:

(Guess who is next (totally absolutely never could ever be sanford oh I'd never specifically choose the people who i feel others dont obsess over enough oh never))

AAA Hofnarr content, I love to see it haha. :D He's so sweet, and it's honestly really funny to have an accurate visual showing how much bigger he would be than the Player (cause he seems so meek in the game). One of the more lowkey yanderes by far, if only because he tries so hard to hide it. Some of the Nexus personnel who sell merch of you might just think he's a loyal customer of theirs and buys all their stuff just to support their business (he was nice like that).

However, in reality, the scientist harbored a bit of a crush on you; a deep-seated admiration that stemmed from how much he liked your kindness and general goodwill. You were so genuinely nice, especially compared to everyone else in Nevada, and you helped them so much that it'd be impossible not to like you (in his opinion, anyway). He's quite the fanboy, hence all the merchandise; he just wants something that reminds him of you to be everywhere around him, from the keychain he keeps in his pocket to the prints he has framed and put up in his living space.

Is it an obsession? Perhaps somewhat, he'll admit that much. But as far as he knows, this is just what love for you is like. He's utterly infatuated with you, and he views his more...excessive behaviors with you to be normal since he can't recall loving anyone as much. It made complete sense that an elevated level of affection would lead to an elevation in the level of gestures he goes through just to experience/have something related to you.

He's a bit very jealous that Christoff gets to actually feel your control, but he can deal with that. You do have your reasons, and he's also helping his friend out as well, so if anything that'd make you both allies (it's a loose connection, but it makes him feel happy all the same). This only makes it better when you meet in person, and you subsequently give him a heart attack by getting in his personal space and leaning on him (muttering a small complaint about how tall he is in the process; cute).

Just experiencing your relaxing warmth up close, and feeling the weight of your complete attention on him was enough to make a giddy smile spread across his face, and he fights the urge to reach up to try and cover the bright blush that paints his features. Then you get closer, and he's trying not to let his crush on you be too apparent, because oh my god, you're right there. The person he's been fawning over for the past few months is touching him, showing him the same sweet affection he's dreamed about getting from you. (He almost squeaks when he feels your arms come up to wrap around him in a hug, which you find adorable.)

It's what he's been waiting for all this time, but now it brings to mind a more pertinent question: now that he knows you actually like him, what are the chances you could return all of these feelings he has? And how does he increase that probability?

[megacarapa]

new needlepoint - i want to live here so fucking bad

this is wiehler needlepoint 2317 "es klappert die mühle am rauschenden bach" (the mill rattles by the rushing brook), which i actually just now learned is named after a german children's song - its pretty cute!

i was gonna put the process pics at the end of the rant but then the rant ended up too long so here they are at the beginning, i also added the dates each picture was taken =)

this is my first wiehler needlepoint out of 5 i got from the mentors at the embroidery workshop (originally 4 but i got another one just this week), FOR FREE, which is crazy to think about since the kits for these things arent that cheap to buy, but they gave them to me bc they were just sitting around with no one planning to actually make them

needlepoint used to be more popular over here back in ye olden days and it even used to be taught in home ec class, so both my grandmas, mom and even DAD used to make them in school, which i never knew about bc by the time i was going to school home ec classes were long gone from the curriculum, which sucks because it would have been awesome to learn stuff like this as a kid

out of the 5 kits i got, this was the smallest so i decided to do it first, the rest of them get progressively bigger and bigger until the last one which is kind of mind bogglingly huge, will i really be able to finish all of these? im honestly not sure, but i dont mind the idea of having something to work on that could take me my whole life (or like, 5 years)

these needlepoints are also different from the ones ive done up til now cause instead of the picture being printed onto the cloth, here you get an empty cloth with only counting squares printed on it and you need to follow the pattern from a paper, which i already got practice for by working on that llama cross stitch and got used to with no problem

there was one thing though, this is the only kit out of the 5 that didnt actually have the standard cloth with the squares on it (there was also some string missing, so i think the thing is that someone else had already made this kit before and what i got was the leftovers), bc of that i simply bought some new needlepoint cloth and drew the squares on myself, which led to....

honey i shrunk the needlepoint, SO YOU SEE THE THING IS, i didnt check what the squares on the cloth i did get for the other kits actually looked like, i simply assumed the squares would be normal 10x10 squares like in the picture, so thats what i drew by hand, but theyre actually supposed to be 20x20, and youre supposed to do a specific stitch called gobelin stitch where 2x2 of space is considered 1 stitch, idk if im explaining any of this well but basically if i had known this and done it correctly the finished work would have been pretty much the same size as the pattern on the picture

i know all of this now and the next needlepoint ive started since then will be the correct size, but either way i think the tiny one has its own charm and looks great anyway, its adorable!! im kind of obsessed with it, the green frame also looks great and ahh i just love it sm😭

heres the back

and size comparison with my previous ones

its a little bebe needlepoint🥺

it keeps happening that at the very end when these have finally been framed, i always notice one or two squares which i forgot to fill in, but i dont really mind it, and its fun asking people to try and find them🤣 (but dont bother trying to find them yourself bc they cant really be seen in these pictures)

i also accidentally swapped the two shades of green for the tree but the shades are so similar you literally cant see it, and i also ran out of the darkest blue shade and had to buy a new one, but couldnt find one that was similar enough, so you can actually see on most of the pics that the dark blue part to the left of the tree is a darker shade than on the right, but again, who cares, i just like jotting down as much of the process as i can remember in these posts🤣

thanks for reading!!

[prynnehesters]

worst people at any convention

old geezers who complain about comic cons being pop culture cons now (like, if you're there to buy/sell/trade comics, go ahead but dont complain about everyone else. everyone has different reasons to be there...smh)

people with no boundaries (this is beyond "cosplay is not consent". i legit had a guy stealing money from under me bcuz i was adjusting my wig on the ground. fuck that guy. also my friend was legit right there which was...wtf. and this guy also had a friend w him.)

people who complain that the guests aren't any good

people who complain about a form of media that they don't get

those people who ask celeb guests for special things during panels (tbh it's gone down a lot during recent years but there are still cons/times where people are like that. this is the reason that the biggest actor invited to our convention does not have time for audience Q&A)

guy who latches onto you bcuz you are waiting for friends and his friends bailed on him and so he's following you around the con and being weird (yes so many of these are from personal experiences lmaooo)

gatekeepers/people who question absolutely everything you are doing (god im so worried im gonna get some fucker who tells me to name 5 dragonforce songs that aren't thru the fire and flames lmaoooo if i wear that shirt while exploring the con)

full time employees of the bigger organization who don't want to deal w the temp employees

people who aren't hygenic (wear deodorant! bathe!)

yeah that's basically it. im excited but nervous. i hope my shift goes ok and then i'll probably wander around the con, then go get some food, then leave (and i will do this all of the days). im probably just going to buy one meal each day (i do not remember if i did this all the others times i was at cons cuz i think sometimes it might've been 2 meals) and eat snacks the rest of the time. touring the convention center will probably be an hour or two. i might buy prints/stickers/other things. idk. i haven't been to a con in like, 3 years so stuff has probably changed a lot

[bishiglomper]

Went to the anime convention. Took the nephew. It was nice. I tried to take him to the dealers room because the first panel I wanted to see wasn't starting right away. but it was too much for him. We made it to one stall. Where i let him pick out 10 stickers. They were being sold in sets of 5 and i had picked out one too. Vendor let me have it for free lol. Nephew did a good job even though it was super congested and loud.

We saw Kel Mitchell. He was great. Seems like a lovely dude. 😋 At some point, someone asked him about his favorite burger joint in Des Moines. (Of course it was Zombie Burger) but after that- as a resident of Marshalltown, IA.. I felt obligated to tell him about The Flying Elbow, who just won Iowa's Best Burger. 😂 I literally live on the same street. It needed to be done. Made me anxious as fuck but I still managed to approach the mic. 😮 So I'm hoping to get The Flying Elbow some bragging rights or something. He said he'd check it out, so we'll see. 😂

Will Friedle was after that. Eric from Boy Meets World. My sister joined us for that one. 😋 I was checking FB during that panel and one of the first things that popped up was my former DM posting about meeting Will. 😂 I was like HEY. Where you at??

Also my cousin was supposed to be there as kid Goku, complete with tail. I didnt see him. He better have been there, man. He promised me pictures. D<

Anyway. After the second panel we had like 20 minutes so we went out for a snack and potty break. Saw some cosplayers. The third panel was 3 My Hero Academia VAs. I dont watch dub, but.. I was still vaguely interested. So was nephew. After 2 hours he was a little restless so he kept popping in and out. But he caught some good stuff, they had him laughing. 😁

The panels got increasingly fuller. Kel had a small group. MHA had almost a full house. 20 minutes to the end I'm like "You know, I bet the dealers room is less crowded now..."

So we went back and lo and behold! It was very roomy. Kiddo was able to bounce around to his heart's content. He delighted a few vendors. He was real interested in some monster figures. The vendor was the creator so he enjoyed telling nephew about them. He wore his batman onesie so people were like "Hey Batman, hows it going"

One guy was like "say 'I'm Batman.'"

He pulled his hood down and in a shy but low gravely voice was like "...I'mbatman" 😂 it was cute.

He got to play with some props. Like a giant infinity gauntlet. He got to demo old school Mario cart. He was super dramatic whenever we passed some risque art. Acting horrified and mortified. 🙄😂 then he picked up a 3D printed skull with wiggly spine.. Like "it looks like mortal combat!" The vendor was all excited and was like you're right! ...but maybe I shouldnt be talking about things like that to a child.. I was like, nah, he's corrupted, you're fine. Pfft 😂

Kiddo was bouncing from booth to booth singing All Star. Another thing that delighted people. He was pointing out cosplayers trying to remember names. There was a group of real nice Star Wars cosplayers.

Apparently he spotted an SCP and YouTuber cosplays. A Loki. Lots of MHA and Demon Slayer. Some Ghost busters.

Mom was broke so I funded the trip with stimulus monies. I only bought a bookmark but I had been hoping for plushies or pins.. 90% was art prints and stickers. 😞 Afterward I bought us dinner. I was a bit too hurty and overestimulated to eat much. Even though it was 5 and hadn't eaten yet. Slowly accumulated a throbbing headache thanks to that. 👀

Oh man. This morning was awful.

I dont know if it was my dinner or because i took my weekly shot last night but i had an IBS flare-up. It took us an hour to leave town and some of that was impromptu potty breaks. Had to run back home for more supplies. We stopped to see our truck at the shop so i could transfer my shit to my bigger backpack.

The farmers market was right across the street, where we saw my anime club host friend. She just started doing tarot readings, pour paintings and those necklaces and earrings that have that half glass marble thing. Only for her would I buy a pair of $15 earrings. 😵 ...but they had cat ears. I asked if she made them because you could see some of the filling leaked around some edges. Apparently she used scraps from her pour paintings, so it kinda looked like resin. 👀

Sissy was saying I should embellish her pendants with wire work. She told my friend about my wire stuff. Apparently its only $10 to rent a booth so i might consider that.. Wouldn't be opposed to a collaboration though. 😋

She was saying she was afraid to do resin because it's messy. I was thinking about taking my resin kit and shit and having a play date to play with it together. A kit is $20, i could get her one and we could experiment. I have a collection of resin additives i could bring. 👀 it is her birthday in a week or so..

Honestly the visit with her was the best part of the day. 😅 I love her. I wanna hang out with her more.

I'm exhausted. I couldn't relax enough to nap though. My butt is sore and bruised from sitting so long, my stomach is killing me, i still have a bit of a headache.. My stupid useless arm hurts to use. Lots of localized pain but. Otherwise I think im doing pretty good? It's gonna be such a long ass week..

Con today. Dinner at aunt's tomorrow. Doctor's appointment tuesday out of town. Again on wednesday, but a 1.5 hr long appointment running a slew of tests. Then I'm gonna try donating blood friday. 😵 thats a lot for me 😭

[christaline]

Hi hi I saw you have a crochet tag and was wondering if you crochet??? I followed you originally for gizz stuff but oh my gosh I've been looking for more people who crochet!! If you do crochet you can tell me all about your projects, I enjoy hearing about them and it gives me ideas!!

Hell yeah i crochet it’s one of my Special Interests. I like making skirts. I’m working on like 2 and a half of them. The first one I’m using this nice color changing yarn but i dont have a pic of it cuz I barely have started bc i am focusing on my other skirt.

Completely forgot what this kind if crochet is called lol. Buuuut it’s like a little graph and you have to like...fill in boxes to make a picture. Imagine a graphgan but with one color lol. I mean i could do more than one color and i very might do that later!!! But! Not today!

Here’s the graph i am using. I like printing patterns out. At some point I’ll put them all in a book lol. Each box is made of a ch3 and filled boxes are 1dc at the start, 2 to fill it. So 3dc plus like...1 that starts the next box. That confused me for a while lol. But it’s extremely easy. You could do ch4 with boxes of 3dc and it would be wider. But I always do it this way. The pattern has a part for making it a dress but i am not going to follow it. I plan on making a crop top with this to match. As you can see, it’s not an even increase so it’s gonna be kinda...flat ish? I usually do really flowy so eh. I am using:

1.60mm hook that i keep using. I actually only use the bigger hooks (I consider anything above 3mm big) when i make like shawls and hats and sweaters. I prefer small hooks with mercerized cotton or lace weight yarn, anything above weight 2 yarn is...annoying!!

I also made this one but i have no idea what to do with it? I messed up and uh. It’s fucking huge? It was my first time using a pattern i wrote myself and the increases are SO off that crocheting around once takes 4hrs lol. It’s got so many ruffles and only goes down to my just above my knees! I don’t like i am gonna finish it💀. How i got this pattern is a LONG story but if you know any of Mary Croché’s work on instagram I literally just stared at her stuff and copied that i just did NOT count her increases lol. Now that she has her charts for sale I’m probably gonna buy one and try again tho!!!

The other stuff i made i dont have pics of but I’ve made a few shirts and sweaters, a shit ton of winter shawls and hats (i make a beanie almost every year bc i loose them💀). I only make scarves for others. I hate making scarves! And i made my boyfriend a rug but he doesn’t use it much😑

(Yeah i fucked up the rug but...it works!)

THANK YOU FOR ASKING!!!! You can talk to me abt crochet any time i will never Shut Up about it lol. Tell me about your stuff!!! Show me pics! I want to do a detailed graphgan at some point in my life!

Bonus bonus! The first time i tried to make this red skirt when i was like...idk maybe 19? Possibly 20? I didn’t know it was meant to be down in the round and I attempted to attach them separately. Oh what a silly thing to do lol.

[ectonurites]

a very very genuine question: so its bad to repost art but no one says anything when people repost things from the source material/creator's sketches.....why?like sure everyone who likes it may recognize the style but there are plenty of fan artists i recognize immediately, new or old art, with or without. to me it just feels the same, like either dont repost art or people should be able to repost stuff, i dont see how they can work at the same time. and this isnt me saying people should be allowed to repost and all that bc i do understand the theory of why reposting hurts artists, just that the logic doesnt seem to fit once it extends to famous artists/creators. just bc its official and easily recognizable makes it okay? how does that work? again, there are plenty of fanartists who are easily recognizable and lose no money when people repost their work (bc they posted it for free) and from my own observation, it seems it just, somehow, makes them want to do art less (from what i have read from artists themselves). why do we not consider that when it comes to official creators? wouldnt they also feasibly be less motivated seeing their hard work plastered across the internet for free when thats the sole way they make their income? and its not a system where its solely sticking it to the man bc it hurts the artists income, as well. but if it makes them happy to see people enjoying and sharing their work with others, drawing interest, why isnt it the same with fan artists? people often repost art, not out of malice or intent to claim credit, but bc they enjoy it + want to share it, esp on social media where sharing isnt a feature (instagram, for example) again im not trying to justify reposting, just confused about the contradiction

First of all instagram does have a form of sharing posts- stories. Which yes they are temporary by default, but you can use the highlight feature to collect your favorite things you’ve shared from people right there on your own profile AND it links back to the original post and can permanently be on your profile as long as you keep it there. You can even label them and everything! But then moving on to answering more of your actual questions

To start: this is a very complicated thing. And I feel everyone trying to answer it might have slightly varied opinions. 

I personally see a pretty clear distinction between ‘Officially published/released’ works (like comic book [as like you’ve probably seen I frequently post comic panels] or other materials that may have been released in creator guides, official video game art, promotional art for things, etc etc) as opposed to like, personal work and fanart. Because with official works:

There’s usually a source to buy it and you should if you’re referencing it a ton (while I don’t own every comic I’ve ever read I do have a lot and if I did read something first through illegal means [because some comics are just straight up hard to find due to age/being out of print] and enjoyed it I try to seek out a physical copy after if possible)

There is a level of far wider recognition (I know you personally might find fanartists’ styles recognizable but like, things that are in mainstream media.. have just such a higher profile. it’s not really comparable) 

If you’re not supporting the official release you’re harming the big company that published it far more than the individual artist (like, the individual artist probably also wouldn’t appreciate it, because it can effect them for sure as well, but they’re not gonna be taking the brunt of the damage unless it was entirely self-published work, which I’d definitely categorize differently from what I’m mainly talking about here.)  

Often fanartists/professional artists who aren’t that well known, in addition to wanting to just create work for the sake of it, also want to build their own platform, to have an audience that they interact with. Or like, if they’re offering commissions, a bigger platform puts you in a position where people will actually see the art and want to commission you. When you say reposts of smaller artists’ fanart doesn’t ‘loose them money’ because they didn’t charge to post it, you’re missing the fact that it makes them loose out on proper linked-back-to-them exposure. Especially like, when a repost account on insta or something says ‘ah yes credit to [username] on tumblr’ the vast majority of people who see it aren’t going to then open up a whole different website and look for the artist. Some people might! but if there’s anything i’ve learned from working professionally in arts marketing it’s that people want things that are convenient and directly in front of them. Someone who wants to see more works because they liked one is significantly more likely to click on the username of someone who posted it rather than opening up a browser or a different app and searching a separate name put in the caption. 

Then honestly, I do feel weird about reposts of professional artists’ more personal works unless the artist has stated they’re fine with people reposting with credit. It should be about the comfort level of the artist. I think a lot of professional artists who aren’t in a position where they’re as worried about building a platform, because they already have one and might have professional connections/opportunities already lined up, might not really care about reposts especially on a website they don’t use. (Like tumblr. I’m coming at this mostly from a comics artist perspective here, but most professional artists I see are waaaay more active on twitter and instagram than tumblr) If it’s a website they don’t use, it’s not taking away from the platform they had been building there for themselves. And also, some artists really just don’t give a shit, which is their choice they can make with their work! But that’s not a universal thing. One artist being fine with their personal art being reposted =/= all artists being fine with it. 

In my own experience as a fanartist, when I see my art reposted without credit, especially when it’s art I’ve also already posted on the same platform... it’s definitely disheartening. Even worse is when the repost gets even more attention than my original post. (something that has happened to me multiple times!) Like, it can get so upsetting!  Because it lets me know that someone else was using my art to build their platform and I got exactly zero benefit out of it. Then when it’s reposted with credit it’s a little less annoying, but I still don’t... get much out of it. Especially if it’s an instagram repost and they credit my tumblr not my account on there, since insta captions don’t actually do links unless it’s to other insta accounts. Also with insta for example, I have a 'business’ account set up so I can look at and track popularity of my posts and see how they’re doing as something to keep in mind when considering posting times, etc etc. When other people repost my art there I have no control over it. That sucks a lot! Also, when I quite literally ask people not to repost my art (it is IN! MY! DESCRIPTION!) and they still do, it’s just straight up disrespectful. I asked for a boundary to be respected with my work and people have just completely ignored it. That doesn’t feel good at all.

But, conversely, I’m gonna talk about my more professional irl work for a sec. I’m a graphic designer, so I do things like posters, logos, etc, When I design a poster for a client that is meant to be advertising something, even if it’s got my own original illustration or something as part of it, I know my name isn’t necessarily going to be attached to it the same way as it is with my personal work. I get a credit line somewhere, but that’s in a fine print probably not even on the poster itself at all, but that’s like, part of what I signed up for. I already get paid separately, I am giving permission for my work to be out of my own hands in that way. Professional work for a client is often setup in some way similar to this. I don’t get mad when I walk down the street and see a poster I made up somewhere without it directly ‘linking’/referencing back to me (aside from maybe my signature if it had an illustration), in fact I go ‘OMG ITS THERE ugh wait i see one pixel is off oh noooooo” and then move on with my day. It’s just an entirely different situation because that kind of work has a different arrangement from the start, where you know it’s going to be put in a different type of circulation.

So yeah, my word isn’t god here, but I definitely see official releases as having a different set of permissions based on the fact that they are published in an entirely different situation. And I think reposts of personal art aren’t cool if the artist isn’t okay with them, no matter how big a platform they have. Other people probably approach this with a slightly different perspective, but that’s mine!

[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Saving Grace - Part 4

Summary: Steve leaves you and your son to go back to Peggy unaware your pregnant.

Your heartbroken and struggling without Steve until Bucky Barnes steps up to help you out. With you and Bucky growing closer everyday will he be your saving Grace?

(Takes place after The Avengers defeat Thanos and people lost in the snap are back).

A/N -Sorry summary sucks! If i say too much it will give things away! 💜

"Hey Y/N, its good to see you!" Peter said as he saw me walking into the compound with Harrison.

"Hey Pete, how you doing?" I smiled giving the young boy a quick one armed hug.

"Oh my god your pregnant...."

"Yep" i nodded placing a hand on my growing bump "another one on the way, hey can we catch up later i have an appointment i need to get to and i've gotta drop Harrison off with Clint first" i said looking down at my son who was holding my hand.

"Yeah sure! It was real good to see you"

"You too".

After saying goodbye to Peter we headed to the elevator and made our way up to the common area. Harrison saw Clint as soon as the doors opened and run straight to him jumping into Clints arms as he bent down to his level.

"Did you get bigger?" I heard Clint ask Harrison as i walked towards them.

"Nooooo" Harrison laughed.

"I was actually talking to your mama"

"HAHA! and yes i probably did!" I rolled my eyes at him "i feel huge"

"You look beautiful! Im just playing with you"

"Thanks Clint! Your sure this is okay?...."

"Yeah of course we'll be fine, right bud?"

"Yep!"

"Okay, here's his bag with some bits he might need and also... Fred" i held up his dinosaur teddy that he loved "i shouldn't be that long"

"Go, we're good here i promise"

"Okay.... be good for Uncle Clint buddy" i kissed his blonde hair quickly and turned back to the elevator. As the doors opened Bucky and Sam were standing there both giving me huge smiles.

"Hey doll, what you doing here?" Bucky asked before Sam could.

"Just dropping Harrison off with Clint, you guys are back early"

"Yeah another waste of time with Ross, I'm gonna go see my little man" Sam said leaving me with Bucky.

"So how come Clints watching Harrison?"

"Ive got a doctors appointment, i didn't want to have to worry about keeping Harrison occupied. You guys were busy and Clint offered"

"Your okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine, just got an ultrasound. Its just to check on the baby, routine stuff"

"Do you want me to come with you?"

"You dont have to..."

"Id like to....if you dont mind of course"

"Sure, it'd be nice actually".

The drive to the hospital was quiet but not awkward, i kept catching Bucky looking over every now and then and we'd share a smile, butterflies going crazy in my stomach each time! The effect this man had on me was crazy!

Walking into the hospital he suddenly became very nervous and i couldn't help but think he regretted offering to come with me.

"You can wait in the car if this makes you uncomfortable Bucky..."

"What?... no im fine doll. These places just freak me out" he gave me a small smile. I reached for his hand and laced my fingers with his giving his hand a squeeze.

"Come on, we wont be here long i promise".

After checking in we went to sit with all the other couples waiting for their appointments, some women clearly only attending their first check up, others looking like they were ready to pop any second. But all i could see were the happy couples, they all sat there looking happy. Last time i did this i was just like them, Steve and I were happy and in love.... or at least i had thought so.

"you okay?" Bucky asked quietly leaning closer to me.

"Yeah" i nodded quickly turning to look at him, by the look on his face he didn't believe me.

"Your a terrible liar" he smiled taking hold of my hand "you thinking about him?"

"I guess so, its just being here this time around is different from when i was pregnant with Harrison. I was just like them" i looked over at the happily loved up couples "thank you for coming with me Buck it would have been so much worse sitting here alone"

"Anytime. Anything you need I'm your guy" he leaned closer and pressed a kiss to my temple just as the nurse came out and called my name.

"I'll be right here when your done"

"Your not coming in?"

"I didn't think you'd want me to"

"Come on, i need you Bucky".

Bucky got up quickly nodding and following me into the examination room.

"Good afternoon Y/N" an older gentleman greeted me when i walked in.

"Hi"

"Im Dr Green"

"Where's Dr Gale?"

"Sick I'm afraid, your in good hands i promise" he smiled "okay so mom if you wanna get on the bed.... I'm guessing this is dad?.... you can pull up a chair to get a better look"

Bucky and I looked at each other but didn't correct the doctors assumption that Bucky was the dad, it was easier to just let him think that.

"Okay if you can just lift up your shirt i'll get started".

A few minutes later i was looking at my baby girl on the screen, the sound of her heartbeat filling the room.

"Everything looks great" Dr Green smiled at us as he clicked some buttons and made some notes "i'll get some of these printed for you guys and you can be on your way"

"Thats it?" Bucky asked looking confused.

"Yeah this was just to check everything is as it should be. I wont need to come back until D day now"

"D day?"

"Delivery day" i laughed wiping the gel of my stomach with the towels Dr Green had handed me.

"Oh right" Bucky nodded before smiling at me.

"First time dad huh? Its all very overwhelming i know, but just relax. This bit is the easy bit" Dr Green laughed handing the print outs to Bucky "i have four kids and 6 grandkids.....the hard bit is when their here"

I scoffed at that statement, it was easy for him to say he didn't have to push the kid out!!

"Really? Cause i would have thought the hardest part was Y/N having to actually have the baby" Bucky said looking at the doctor with a murder glare and i had to hold in a laugh.

"Oh of course! Im not saying giving birth is easy....."

"I should think not. You ready doll?" He held his hand out for me

"Yeah" i nodded smiling up at him as i took his hand "thank you Dr Green".

"Man i wanted punch that guy in the face so bad" Bucky said quietly to me as we walked out to the car "as if the birth is the easiest part of having a kid?? The hard part is when their here??" He mimicked the doctors voice making me laugh "his kids and grandkids must be monsters! I mean Harrison's not hard work, his no trouble at all".

We stopped at the car and i couldn't help but smile at him "what?" he asked.

"Nothing, its just..... your pretty amazing Buck" i smiled reaching up and pressing my lips to his gently. He let out a little surprised gasp but quickly kissed me back, pulling me closer to deepen the kiss. When we broke apart we were both breathless "wow" i smiled up at him feeling myself blushing.

"You got that right doll" he beamed.

"I know i said i wanted to wait til after the baby but i just couldn't help myself"

"Im not complaining, lets just take things slow. If you wanna kiss me again i wont object" Bucky smirked and i could just imagine him being like that back in the day before the war, before Hydra.

"Maybe later" i chuckled "lets go get Harrison and go home"

"Sounds perfect".

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[staliaqueen]

Riverdale 4x17 - First thoughts

Pre-thoughts/expectations: Im very exicted for once. At first I was dreading this epiosde, because, you know, it’s a musical one, and you know how the last one went... (first thoughts on that here). But then they dropped all the Barchie stuff so now I’m PUMPED!

Warnings: Swearing and caps lock, also I didn’t edit any of this. 

First thoughts: 

Jughead: “It was over.” Me: Bughead?

I’m glad to see Jughead back writing in Pop’s tho

God another tape? I honestly completetly forgot about those

Oh no Jughead is singing again

It was god awful last time

I’ve only heard three words and it sounds like ha has inproved but I don’t wanna get my hopes up

Okay Cole’s singing is better (maybe that’s because he’s singing a low tone now though?) but I still think it’s a weird creative decision to have Jughead sing tbh. It just feels really weird and out of character. I know he’s not actually singing but still. I think the musical episodes would work better (or less bad) if he was the only one that didn’t sing. 

Oh now Archie is singing that is so much better

And Veronica too

I don’t know which musical this is from but I promise I won’t judge it based in Riverdale’s interpertation 

The people singing at Pop’s are really funny to me but I don’t know why

But also SWEET PEA YAY

I love Veronica’s outfit can I have that?

I hope Hiram dies

God Archie and his big mouth

He and Hagrid should be friends

I would honestly pay to see that spinoff 

GOD ARCHIE IS SO PRCIOUS AND JUST WANTS TO HELP I LOVE YOU

“The salem witch trails, definitly.” You fucking took the words right out of my mouth Jughead

Knowing that Brachie is coming is giving me the streangth to get through Bughead scenes without wanting to puke wow that hasn’t happened in a while

How do you know it’s a he, Charles? Do you know him? Is it you and your boyfriend in prison? 

Really Mr. Honey? Let Kevin sing! He’s the best of the cast!!!

“We’re generation Z” God that fucking cracked me up. No you’re not you’re all 30! I know they’re probably trying to give us a voice but I feel worse about being gen Z now that Kevin said it like that

Kevin sings tho so that’s good

Doing something like this, giving teenagers today a voice and trying to express how they feel is something I really wanna see more but it doesn’t work in Riverdale. Riverdale is so far removed from reality that doing these kind of realistic and relevant things and topics can’t work. If you’re gonna give generation Z a voice then you need to do it with people who behave like real gen Z teenagers, and the characters in Riverdale don’t. I don’t mean that all media have to be realistic, but if you’re gonna do something like this it kinda does. 

The musical numbers aren’t as awkward as in Heathers. That just hurt to watch, but this is totally fine. 

If no one had number 69 I’m sueing 

The Archies? Does Archie have a secret twin too?? With the same name???

THE CAR BETTY HELPED HIM FIX UP YEAH

yes bring back the Fred Heads

I can’t concentrate on the Fnags/Kevin scene cause I’m just thinking about that tickling thing and how fucking weird that was

I like Fangs being a supportive boyfriend tho

Yeah Betty’s about to roast Jughead this is great

Jughead’s lying to Betty again what a surprise

I’m fine with Jughead being in the band as long as he doesn’t sing

He can play drums like his dad

OH FUCK YEAH KEVIN IN DRAG LET’S DO THIS

The receptionist looking at Kevin OMG 😂😂😂

Shout out to Miss Bell

OMG SWEET PEA IS HELPING AND HE’S PLAYING THE GUTIAR???? TIGER PRINT HAS NEVER LOOKED SO GOOD

OMG YESSSS KEVIN KISSED ARCHIE THAT WAS AMAZING DIDN’T KNOW I NEEDED THAT

At least Honey let him finish the song before he pulled the plug

This scene would���ve been so much cuter if it felt like Betty, Veronica, Toni, Cheryl and Kevin were all actually friends

Hate to break it to you Betty but that’s not a wig it’s a tiara

Wow they’re really making up for 3 seasons without drag

God Toni’s wig and Cheryl’s hair

OMG IT FEELS SO GOOD SEEING BETTY IN A WIG THAT ISN’T THAT SHITTY D*ARK B*ETTY WIG

Sugar Daddy is the best one yet but I don’t think it’s the right one to convince Mr. Honey

aaand I was right

Can all of them be barred from Prom? Cause I really don’t wanna see that unless Barchie goes together

Honestly I don’t think Veronica has the right to be that mad at Archie. Hiram isn’t his dad he can’t just make him go to the hospital. He tried to talk to him but he refused to listen there was litteraly nothing more he could do. Maybe he should’ve told Veronica earlier but th episode doesn’t tell us how long it took him to do it but it looked like it was the next day

Betty has more of a reason to be mad 

Also Jug don’t be so dramatic you didn’t actually die you idiot

OH NO DON’T SING

FUCK I CAN’T WITH THIS ANGSTY SCREAM SINGING BULLSHIT STOP

When Betty said “How do you think I feel” it sounded completely diffrent from the rest of the audio. Seriously, that shitty amature dubbing is kinda inexcusible from a big show like this

They look kinda funny screaming at each other

sSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsSsown up 😂😂😂

FUCK YEAH EVERYONE’S IN DRAG NOW

Wait so are the fights happening during school time? Wtf? They’re editing the events like they take place during the same time so why aren’t they at school??

NEVERMIND REGGIE IN DRAG SKJKFLHJSHF

FUCK YOU HONEY YOU CAN’T CANCEL THE SHOW BECAUSE OF A PEACEFUL PROTEST WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

fUCK YEAH THE BARCHIE SCENE IS COMING NOW BE PREPARED FOR MORE CAPSLOCK

You didn’t screw up shit she shouldn’t have gotten as mad as she did because of that

“We peaked in the 1st grade” God they’re so adorable 

OMG THEY’RE GONNA DO A CALLBACK TO SEASON 1 WHEN ARCHIE LOOKED AT BETTY LIKE THAT AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHSKJJSH

Ok nevermind it was about Fred sill really cute

God they’re gonna sing a song called Origin of Love.... I don’t think I’m mentally prepared for this

Do I even have to say that this is the best song number in the show?

Veronica what are you doing I want Barchie

No not Jughead ugh

CAN THOR PLEASE KILL THEM ALL WITH HIS HAMMER THAT WOULD BE GREAT

Okay Cole’s singing has improved a lot I’ll give him snaps for that

I take back not wanting Veronica or Jughead right now this is great Jeronica and Barchie parallells

I really hope this cheating plot line will bring Jug and Veronica together that would be so great

OMG THE FLASHBACKS TO BARCHIE SEASON 1 MY HEART

AND FLASHBACK TO THE BARCHIE KISS FUCK YEAH

FUCK YEAH THEY’RE KISSING NOW SJKSLHJSDBVHBRGVHWR WFHBVHVWKJHRVBRHBVHRBH

That was better than all Bughead and Varchie kisses combined don’t @ me 

She looks happier and more in love in the picture with Archie

OMG JUGHEAD IS HERE YES BRING THE ANGST

I can’t wait to see Jughead’s reaction to finding out Betty cheated on him with Archie

LOL Archie has 1 picture with Veronica and 4 with Betty that’s so in character I love it

omg they’re still gonna perform it’s gonna be so awkward I love it

YES THEY’RE LOOKING THROUGH THE WINDOWS NOW I LOVE IT

OH MY GOD THIS SONG WTF IT’S GIVING ME SO MANY FEELS

OH MY GOD THEY’RE DANCING IN THE OUTFITS FROM THE DANCE IN 1X1 I CAN’T REMEMBER THE NAME OF THIS IS EVERYTHING THAT I’VE EVER WANTED 

NAME ONE BUGHEAD MOMENT THAT EVEN COMES CLOSE TO THIS YOU CAN’T

THE HANDS AGAINST THE WINDOWS HHHHMHMHNJBNJTNBDNBN

I WISH THERE WAS SOMETHING BIGGER THAN CAPSLOCK TO SHOW HOW I’M FEELING

Yes they’re preforming now this is gonna be so awkward

And they showed Sweet Pea for another second 

Did they forget that he’s a fan favourite??

Jughead’s playing the drums but he still has a mic fuck

He looks so confused when Betty won’t look back at him God that’s hilarious 

Fangs and Sweets singing with to the misfits part yess

WHY ARE THEY STANDING ON THE ROOF THATS SO STUPID THIS WAS AN ACTUAL GOOD EPISODE DONT RUIN IT

How many fucking people are there I thought Riverdale was a small town

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I don’t know wether to laugh or cry

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[pbandjesse]

My throat feels all gummy. It is probably allergies. But man it is annoying. 

Today was an excellent day for the most part. I slept alright but man getting up was hard today. But once I got up things were okay. I was a little snippy when I found that the laptop wasnt plugged in last night and so I had to bring the cord with me and I was pretty upset. I felt bad for being snippy though. So yeah I wasnt in the best head space. But James made me lunch and gave me hugs and sent me off to work. 

GPS was still on random mode because it took me the weirdest way possible. It was real pretty at least. Lots of nature. But also so weird!!

I got to work around 830 though and the two new kids were there. Theyre twins! All the kids I have are lovely and fun to hang out with. I got all their schedules written on the board. Which only had a few issues because. They are children. But we got things done and it was a really good day. 

I worked on the first aid portion of my class. There wasnt a test at the end but it was a lot longer than the CPR. It took me a lot of today to work through it. But I got it done. 

I also worked on a few frogs and got things up and going on the instagram page. Felt productive. I checked in on the kids a few times but really this job is wicked easy and they dont need me much. Just gotta refocus them a few times. 

Me and the two older girls went outside around lunch for a bit. Played with my circus silk. It was a lot of fun. The brother of the twins came out to join us and me and the twins stayed out while the younger girl went back to class. 

We went back inside and I spent some time teaching them all how to sew. We made little felt patches. They would tell me they were failing when they had loose threads. But I would show them how to fix it and they were just like OH! and then moments later tell me again they messed up and had to start over when that was not true. But by the end they were telling me what they wanted to make next. Very sweet. 

Once everyone was done with their classes we headed outside and man. What a perfect fall day. We played with the silk. We made a leaf pile! We jumped in the pile! The girls went inside to grab cardboard boxes to help us make the pile bigger. And once we were done with that we used the boxes to slide down the hill and that was stupidly fun. I had a great time. 

Soon we went inside. The youngest girl was very tired and was throwing a little bit of a fit. Mostly whiny. So I gave her a piggy back ride inside. And we all washed our hands and had juice. 

But then it was time for me to go home. I wrote notes to their moms, saying how great the kids are but also saying please send more info for this one class we cant figure out, and to please send headphones along. And then I was off. 

I headed to a joanns to get some more large eyes for the large frogs I am working on. I meant to get cotton and I forgot. Felt dumb esspecially because I used ALL my cotton to stuff these guys. Ugh. 

I stopped for a sandwich and fries. And I am glad I did because I got stuck in traffic for like 15 minutes and while I was sitting still on the highway it was nice to have fries and a drink. 

I got home around 430. I was tired. I ran into Mr Will on the corner. Told him how well my online store is going. He was really excited for me. Including the upcoming commissions we have broken the $400 mark! I am so excited about how well things are going. And I hope it just grows and I can make other things too. But the frogs are great and I love them so I am pretty happy. 

I got inside and unpacked my stuff. And played animal crossing for a little while. I wanted to catch snails. So I did that. But then I heard sweetP chittering at a squirrel out on the fire escape so I had to go get him inside and decided that was when I would get to work on my frog stuff. 

I stuffed the large frogs. And had a lovely conversation with someone who has made a few orders. They encouraged me to open commissions for them. So I have done that. I will have to get more large eyes. And not at the store because I paid the same for 100 eyes on ebay as I did for one pair of eyes today in person. Gotta be smart. 

I did get really upset though because I thought I was printing test labels to get the paper lay out correct but I wasnt. I was getting charged. And so I wasted like $6. So I feel very very dumb and bad. James and Jess tried to make me feel better. But it is still hard. 

I am pretty tired though. I have been laying in the studio writing for a while. Researching. I thought I had missed an order and so I went through all the orders matching paypal to instagram and writing down everything in my spreadsheet. It took forever but I will just do it as they happen from now on and that will keep me more organized. Im so afraid I will miss an order.  I have already made mistakes sending the orders to the wrong people because of paypal vs instagram names. But I am doing my best and thats all I can do. 

Now though it is after 9. And I want to go get a shower and wash my face and get ready for bed. I dont have class with the kids tomorrow but I do have the in person portion of the First Aid/ CPR class. So that will be all morning it seems. But then I can go home. But what I will actual do is go and buy more cotton fill and maybe go to the thrift store. I think it will be a nice day. 

I hope you all have a great day. Take care of eachother and be safe. Wash your hands. Goodnight!!

[sleepnoises]

any tips for setting up a store to sell things you make? especially regarding how you decide to price things and how shipping your pieces works - i imagine your clay fellows require quite a bit of packaging to make sure they dont break?

hi anon please enjoy this MANIFESTO.

store: if you have multiple kinds of thing, adding categories is very easy. do not put it off for over a year. this is a subtweet at myself.

pricing: it sucks!

the lowest bar you should always abide by for art is "over minimum wage" but i have not once in over a year managed to time every step of the process of making a clay guy (including transport and packaging). it's a good ballpark, at least. also, nota bene, minimum wage where i live is $15/hour and i invite you to imagine it is where you live too.

the other thing about pricing is: i'm not doing this to make a living, but this does NOT mean i should undercut anybody who is. respect your time and your work. undervaluing your stuff will hurt other artists.

oh also you'll have to either pay taxes on this income or commit fraud, so revise your estimate a little further up.

i'm telling you about minimums because i still consider myself a beginner and i also deeply want my stuff to be accessible! also, the agony of valuing oneself! but, beyond minimums, you gotta offer work at a variety of price points. people care a lot more about finding stuff they like, versus just something that's cheap. this is craft show advice but also works for online: always have an item you think is ludicrously expensive and nobody will ever buy. because you never know!

shipping:

my small ceramic guys are very easy to ship. i wrap them in bubble wrap and put them in a padded mailer and they're good. the bigger and more complex ones are more expensive to ship in both materials & postage, but a lot of bubble wrap and foam scraps have worked well so far. i bake the cost of the little cardboard boxes i use(d) into the shipping fee for the bigger guys.

i would like to find a more eco-friendly alternative to bubble wrap, but i might just buy a carbon offset about it.

there is a LOT of trial and error in setting shipping prices! if you are the kind to be immediately serious about a project: buy the stuff to print packing labels at home. it's cheaper than the post office and safer right now. plus that way you can weigh stuff before setting a price & not encounter Surprises.

the fun part of shipping is accessories (stickers, washi tape, writing a note on a business card, handwriting addresses when possible, stamping with the little custom logo stamp i bought for $10). these incidentally build a brand and a customer experience but also they're fun for ME and i value that a lot.

[soijustdidthat]

Tips from a recently graduated hs senior

talk to teachers. my gpa would be like a point higher if i did this

don’t take classes you’ll be bored in. It’s worse than the hard ones

When working on essays either pretend it’s essential research for ur favorite fictional character OR ur Alexander Hamilton in a writing contest with Aaron Burr

Not everyone likes coffee. That’s cool. Honestly hot chocolate warms u up and doesn’t give u a caffeine addiction

When u get home, change ur pants. School desks are nasty.

Bathrooms are great for small breaks from all the stimuli that schools overload on u, my fellow neurodivergents. Especially during the middle of lunch. No ones in there usually.

SCHOOL CLUBS! There’s a reason my social anxiety is more manageable and it’s clubs. Esp ones that kinda slowly increase how much u have to talk so it’s sorta like the boiling frog thing but like pleasant

Read the English books. Usually they’ll be classics and dropping references to them will garner respect from people who’ve also read them. Great conversation starters.

That test u failed won’t matter next year.

During finals, make a binder and stick important notes and reviews in there. Going through and just making the binder helps a lot.

Just because you don’t like typical study methods doesn’t mean you can’t study. Find what works for you.

Try studying in incrementally bigger intervals. Start with 5 minutes, then 10, then 20, then 30, etc. a lot of times you’ll get in a groove and won’t want to stop.

When writing essays where you choose the topic, pick something that makes you either rant or over explain. The edit your ramble.

Google books to find symbolism for essays.

IB FOLKS: PAY ATTENTION IN FIRST YEAR HOTA IF U TAKE THAT I DIDNT AND CORONA SAVED MY ASS ON THAT ONE

Poetry. Know it. It will haunt u.

Friends help with homework - half the time when ur trying to explain what u don’t get u realize ur mistake

Sweatpants are your study friend. Wear them.

Nobody will notice if you wear the same thing twice.

Carry a blanket and no one will notice. My friends and I did this in EHAP sophomore year and legit it was a blast

Relax. I’m an IB Diploma grad so I’m still learning this, but u can’t work and do well if ur brain is fried.

Have some semblance of a sleep schedule. Let’s be real, it’s not gonna be great, but try to go to bed at the same time and wake up at the same time most days.

Weekends are for sleep.

Do homework Saturday afternoon and Sunday. Don’t bother on Friday unless u want it out of the way.

NAPS. They’re great.

Keep like five bucks on u. If you can drive, every once in awhile stop by a grocery store or gas station and get ur self a treat.

DONT STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY

DONT STAND IN THE STAIRWELL.

Look, PDA just looks gross.

Don’t shove people into lockers.

You probably won’t actually be shoved into a locker. I wasn’t, and I’m the definition of nerd.

These next ones are safety oriented:

My fellow girls, keep a panic button on u, as well as a pair of scissors whenever ur staying late. Better safe than sorry.

Learn several routes around the school in case of a shooting or other emergency.

Find different hiding spots and know the entrances and exits. This could potentially save your life.

Take the shooting drills seriously. We all know gun laws suck, and until people learn that no regulations means kids die, we gotta prepare.

Alright more serious stuff over

When it comes to big tests or really anything that stresses you out, print a safety blanket: a baby toy or blanket, a fidget, things that make u feel more comfortable.

I like to have my phone in my front pocket, but some tests don’t let you have it. Folding up a few notecards gives the same pressure on ur leg.

Also, if u bounce ur leg, do it on ur toes as best u can and try not to shake the desk, cause when ur desk shakes, the people around u shake

Use caution and trust ur gut

In most schools, people don’t offer drugs or alchohol and I’ve never been nor heard of someone being peer pressured into it

Vaping is bad for you kids. Just, bad.

Have hobbies outside of academics. Not just for college, but for you.

Do school like ur trying to make Amy Santiago proud

Thank you for coming to my ted talk. I hope everyone has a great summer and the school year starts somewhat normally. Although lbr who knows what August will look like at this point. Most of these can be used in online learning too (at least where I’m at)

Stay safe!

[hockeytrashgoblin]

High ~Part 9

"I can't believe how early you're back!" The ultrasound lady said giving me a hug. "Mitch, you're back!"

"Yeah Mitchie has been with me the whole time. It's our baby this time."

"I'm so happy for you guys! Is this baby number one?"

"Yeah this is Grayson. Can you say hi, love?"

"Hi." He said shyly laying his head on Mitch's shoulder.

"Don't play shy you little goofball." He said throwing Gray in the air making him giggle.

"How far along do you think you are?"

"Well I got one of those test that say weeks and it said 4 but the first one I did a week earlier came through way too clear. So I think it's further along than that or something."

"Alright well we'll see what's going on. Get on the table and we'll get started."

I got up on the table and pulled my shirt up and pants down a little. She squirted the cold liquid on my belly and started moving the wand around. She was quiet for a while taking pictures and doing what she needed to.

"Is everything looking good?" I asked nervously after a while.

"Everything is perfect. You are 4 weeks along."

"Oh good." I sighed in relief.

"What was the reason for the early positive test?" Mitch asked from the floor.

"I was getting to that. Come over here and look at this." She turned the screen a little so Mitch could see too.

"When we measure we can confirm it's 4 weeks. So that means here baby is the right size." She started the camera again and stopped it. "And here we can see that baby 2 is the right size too."

"Oh good." Mitch said. I was smiling like crazy and she gave Mitch a minute to catch up. "Oh shit wait. Baby 2? There's two?!"

"There are." 

"Twins? That means twins?"

"Yes baby. 2 is twins." I teased.

"Shut uuup I'm just checking."

"Well it's definitely twins. If you listen carefully you can hear the two separate heartbeats." She said turning on the doppler. Sure enough there was two little heartbeats.

"And they're both healthy?"

"They both are healthy."

"That's so great. Mitchie isn't that so great?"

"It's great!" He grabbed my hand and kissed it.

"I'll print you guys a few pictures and then you can get out of here. You can wipe down your stomach now (y/n)."

"Thanks." I got up when I was done and got off the table. "Grayson baby come here."

"Mum!" He exclaimed jumping into my arms.

"This is so exciting. You're gonna be a big brother to two littles."

"Two." He said holding up two fingers.

"That's right my smart boy."

The ultrasound lady gave us the pictures and we were on the way home. Once we got there I put Gray down for a nap and went to the living room where Mitch was. I was standing in the doorway watching him while he was searching something on his laptop.

"What doing?"

"Oh hey, is Gray sleeping already?"

"Yeah, out like a light. What are you up to?"

"I was actually looking at houses."

"Really?"

"Yeah. We're gonna need something bigger for a family of 5. We dont have enough space. Plus I'd like to have somewhere we can't get evicted from."

"This is true."

"I was looking for something bigger anyway just in case. I want a backyard for them too. Maybe I can make an ice rink in the back and I can teach everyone to skate. Including you."

"Baby I don't need to skate. I'm too clumsy to skate."

"I want you to though. It would be so cool to have a family skate and stuff. I'd love to do that with everyone." 

"That does sound really cute."

"So let me teach you."

"Okay fine. But not now. Too much can still go wrong. Speaking of which we aren't telling anyone just yet. I don't want to hurt people with miscarriage news."

"Okay that's fine baby. Whatever you want." He was rubbing my leg soothingly. "I want to make things easier on you so if that's too much then I won't do it."

"I appreciate you so much. Forever. I love you."

"You guys are my everything. All four of you. I want to do everything I can for you."

"I can't believe I was lucky enough to find you." I gave him a kiss and then cuddled up beside him while he looked at houses. He stopped eventually though and sat back holding me properly.

"Can we find out what we're having this time? I know you didn't know for Gray but I feel like it would be neat to know too. I don't know. It's up to you I dont really care."

"We can find out if you want Mitchie."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah. I wanted Grayson to be a surprise but I think finding out would be so cool too. We could start to buy things for them and plan and figure out names beforehand."

"Yeah I'd like to do that."

"Okay then let's do it! Oh! Also if we live in a house we can decorate the kid's rooms! We could do ocean themed in the nursery and Dr. Suess in Gray's room? That would be so cute can we?"

"Of course (y/n), that sounds great. So cute."

"You're so cute."

"We better find a house before we make all these plans though. Is there anything you want in the house?"

"I definitely want a princess tower. I want to make it into a reading nook. Other than that maybe a pool? A playroom for sure. I mean if that's not too much to ask. I definitely can't afford to buy a house with a part time salary."

"Don't worry about that. What's mine is yours. I told you that a long time ago. That's why we joined bank accounts. We're together in this."

"Thank you for taking care of us Mitchie."

"Always. I'm always going to be taking care of you."

"I love you so much." I kissed him and cried at the same time.

"I love you too you emotional bean."

"It's not my fault, it's these beans."

"I can't wait until I can feel them move. That was my favourite thing with Gray."

"It is really cool. That's the first time you ever kissed me."

"What?"

"The first time you felt him move was the first time you kissed me."

"I can't believe you remember that."

"Of course I do. It was the first time in years that I'd felt anything towards anyone but Auston. It was the first time I felt that happy. I thought I'd been happy with him but it was nothing compared to this. Gray being born was the only time that felt happier than realizing my feelings for you. I never thought I'd be this happy or that I deserved it."

"You deserve everything." He murmured kissing me. "I'll give you everything I have and will ever have. You're my soulmate, I'm sure of that."

"Me too Mitchell. You're my person."