#this parallel hurts like a mf

[livingfandomly]

I hate this parallel so much but I’m a sadist and it’s where my brain went the instant Dean died. And if I’m in pain, y’all should be too.

Currently hating life and feeling an increasingly strong urge to find a 100 storey building ✌️✌️✌️

[citrinekay]

the making of a monster ....

The parallel is blatant here to anyone but Silver. Whether he likes it or not, he's going to be a part of a marginalized group that will be mistreated, abused, and forgotten by "civilized" society for years to come. It was his war - and the war of other disabled people - just as much as it was Flint's and Madi's war.

[nardos-primetime]

Social battery low all of a sudden but the drive to write is high and you all suffer for it. These headcanons don't really have a theme they're just things that are silly To Me.

Donnie is a good kicker idc what Canon says that mf can kick through a wooden door if he's in the zone (once he's out of the zone it hurts though.)

Leo is partially so all over the place because his brain gets overwhelmed a lot and his brain tends to overcompensate trying to focus on TONS of things at once, when he HAS to focus he normally uses headphones so he doesn't get distracted or off track or overstimulated (totally not projecting.) (I wanna draw something with this idea sometime.)

(^Donnie has similar issues slightly different tho)

Raph snorts when he laughs hard. The others play games where they try to get him laughing hard enough to hear it. Little comedy shows. You Laugh You Lose but it's If Raph Laughs We Win.

3 out of 4 turtles have a stealing problem. (Hint, it's not the red one.)

The boys can all dance well as a group (obv) they just struggle and can't sing together most of the time because they don't wanna focus on that part and doing a style that works all together. (Doesn't stop karaoke nights. Sometimes, they can get a good karaoke out, though, if the stars align.)

Mikey uses pencils and silverware to drum on things.

They're all scared of themselves in various ways YAY!!!

Donnie has his "sigh" and "scoff" etc, etc. Leo has "Oh yeah?! Smile emoji." "Really? Sad Emoji?" "Yay! Jumping emoji!" Or alternatively "Smile" "Frooooown" "Thumbs up!" (Totally not projecting.) (But it would also be a silly parallel to me.)

They're all undiagnosed. With what? You decide. But they live in an ND haven where since they grew up with just each other its never a "You're weird act NORMAL" thing because they thought it was just normal. Instead, it's a "You're weird, and sometimes I don't get you, but weird is also normal, so ily."

Mikey and Leo are hoppy boys! Hop! Hop! Hop!

Mikey is double jointed. Like. Everywhere. He freaks the others out with it sometimes.

Raph has a sweet tooth. He also cannot handle spicy food. On the other hand Mikey eats almost everything, Leo loves spicy food and is a masochist for levels of spice that should kill him, Donnie likes spicy food but he oddly doesn't feel much of the pain and barely responds to it.

Leo and Donnie are both omniverts, but Donnie's on the more introverted side mostly and Leo on the extroverted side mostly.

Not a single complete cishet at the turtle function.

They like to lay in piles.

That's all for now bye-bye.

[ashedddaisy]

Nah this mf broken as fuck

But a point that it is important for me in this chapter is Trebol's relationship with Doffy. Because I was feeling him like "Yeah he's crazy, he's unhinged, he's obviously got something wrong with him." But as his past with trebol is out in the open now, I do understand now how you can empathize with his character in some way. Taking in account that I remember law saying he was saved of becoming someone like doffy by Cora-san, then it works as a good parallel so far into the story. Lucky or unlucky, Doffy came across trebol when he was a child. His persona was already kind of messed up because of the life he had gotten but Trebol basically groomed him to serve their purpose because he came handy at the time. Doffy was already used to having slaves, and then he found out that you did not need to be a celestial dragon to make people be useful to you. You just needed some kind of power, and he unlocked it at such a young age too... and he was then given weapons and a devil fruit. The fact that trebol had Vergo as a child as well disgusts me, and that he was the one in charge of guarding Sugar makes me even more sick now. Thinking as well about how Cora-san tried to make the children go away from that place, but some were so resilient (and with so much trauma) that had no other place to go makes my heart hurt so badly.

Because it goes back to Baby 5's story. This "family" made her feel useful, and so she stayed for so long.

I will go to sleep thinking about this, oof.

[erikiara80]

One pic, two theories

Let’s do it!

EDIT: now that I believe Will is already in a trance at the end of S4, maybe it’s him who will have the vision at Rink-o-mania. But, well, we’ll see the Rink-o-mania. Of that I’m sure. The Byler-Lumax parallels continue.

Theory 1: Mike will have a vision of him and Will together. But, surprise, Will is actually Vecna  

So, this theory is similar to @connect-dots7 theory. I too noticed that in the show there are references to Labyrinth, one of my favorite movies! (the Escher posters in Mike’s and Sara’s rooms). One of the most famous scenes of that movie is the ball, when Sara and Jareth dance. I don’t think Mike will have a vision of the snowball, but of Rink-o-mania. 

The evidence, imo

-  Vecna’s shirt in Max’s vision. It’s almost identical to Will’s shirt. And we know there have been many parallels between Byler and Lumax. For example, in S2, both Mike and Lucas were Venkman, whose girlfriend is possessed by a demon. And both Will and Max have been possessed-cursed by Henry/MF. It’s also possible that in S5 Will too falls into a coma, but for different reasons... Anyway, if Mike has a vision where he thinks he’s with Will, but then realises it’s Vecna, I’m very curious to see what Vecna!Will tells him. I would like to see Noah playing Henry. He was so good when he played evil MF.

-  Pics of Noah in his season finale shirt at the Rink-o-mania. I don’t know if Noah, Finn, Charlie and Eduardo were filming other stuff and then Noah spent some time with Millie, who was filming at the Rink-o-mania. We’ll see. Imo, it just makes sense that Mike is targeted by Vecna. Or maybe it’s Will’s vision, sure. There’s that video with the actor who plays Lonnie. And Lonnie wasn’t in S4, so, either they cut his scene or they’ve already filmed stuff for S5 and Lonnie will be in a flashback or... a vision. Can’t wait.

Theory 2: differences between the cursed kids’ connection to Vecna and Will’s connection to the MF/Vecna

Just some thoughts. In S4, we see that the kids Vecna cursed have visions, nightmares, headache, and their nose bleed. But Max can never feel Vecna’s thoughts or even his presence. It’s always Vecna who starts the connection. For example, in the hug scene, when she thinks she’s hugging her mom, she doesn’t know it’s Vecna until he speaks. Or when she thinks she’s talking with Lucas. And when she was in Vecna’s mindspace, yes, she said she felt that he didn’t want her there, but he basically said it. Something like, what do you do here? Or you shouldn’t be here.

But the connection Will has with the MF/Vecna is different. Even before the possession, in 2x01, when he just sees the storm, Will knows it’s evil and wants to kill, not him, everyone else. Very specific. He felt that thought. Like all the other times. In the sauna he knew the MF was activated. In the cabin he knew the MF knew they were there. And then the couch scene in 4x09, when he said that from the the moment they arrived in Hawkins he has been feeling Henry’s (MF’s?) thoughts. He feels that he’s hurt and angry and wants to take everything and everyone and will never stop. I doubt Henry/MF is communicating with him. He’s just in pain. And Will can feel it. 

So, Will could feel the MF even before he was actually possessed. And still feels Henry/MF after they disconnected him from the hive mind. And he was disconnected or he would’ve died at the end of S2, like the demodogs.

That connection is deep and probably the MF and Henry don’t even know about it. But when they finally realise he can feel them, Will will be a target again.

[muppetbyers]

will being “good at hiding”, the ud being a mirror of hawkins so he was Right There but also not. how he likely only survived so long because he was good at running and hiding from the demogorgon, and of course everyone was looking for him but if he didn’t try to reach out and communicate with joyce then he maybe wouldn’t have made it out at all. how at first he tried to defend himself but it was futile, maybe he couldn't have even done it anyways. the clone of his body that joyce immediately knew wasn't will.

will coming back wrong and feeling like a freak and being targeted at school, the scene of him walking down the hallway while everyone looks at him. he only opens up to mike at first and singles him out as not making him feel like "even more of a freak". he hides things from joyce until he cant because it all goes so wrong. how he tries to run and hide from it but its when he tries to fight back and stand his ground that it gets him. literally being possessed, his entire self being taken over, "what happens when he cant remember anything? when there's nothing else there? what happens when my boy is gone", and how joyce, jonathan and mike can bring him back just enough for him to help save them, even if saving them could kill him. and how none of them let that happen and they force the mf out to get will back.

in s3 when he's there but basically invisible, like a twisted parallel of s1. he's right there but having to still try to be noticed, and this time it ends with him destroying castle byers. the same castle byers that he hid in in the ud before the demogorgon found him, and which the memory of building with jonathan helped bring him back. castle byers with its 'all friends welcome' sign but joyce needed a password to be let in. how he has a 'no trespassing' sign on his bedroom door.

and just everything about dnd and "you shouldn't like things just because people tell you to" and how he doesn't conform to mike and lucas's 'normal teenage boy' shtick and how he tries to be his normal, but its just different to what they're doing. he destroys castle byers in part because he feels too seen, "what did you think that we were gonna sit around in the basement all day and play games for the rest of our lives" and yet he says yes, to mikes face. he gives away his dnd set but promises its not possible to join another party, and he doesn't.

he dances with a girl at the snowball bc he doesn't know what to do and mike is there pushing him to. in lenora he does a presentation on alan turing in front of, presumably, his whole class.

in s4 how his outfits just make him merge into the settings, almost camouflaged. how he doesn't reach out to mike despite wanting to stay in contact with him because he cant risk being too seen, because he doesn't want to lose their friendship. "sometimes its hard to say how you really feel", and then giving mike the painting under the guise of it being from el, masking feelings that are only his with el's name, trying so hard to express his own feelings but at the same time divorcing himself from them. jonathan immediately clocking it and for probably the first time ever, someone is truly seeing him and telling him directly that they love him no matter what. because they know, they know and its okay. how "hakwins isn't the same without him" and "god we need will" and his friends have his drawings on their walls and and and.

just. how hiding is the most integral part of wills arc and how everything is linked back to him hiding. and how sometimes its necessary to survive but that doesn't make it hurt less. and how he has so much courage and he's so true to himself but tries so hard to be both seen and not seen, because fuck man its complicated being who he is. and just. how other people's love for him keeps bringing him back, can bring him out of hiding. yeah. idk.

[period-of-nocturne]

So I finally read Find a Way Out

Actually I read it about two hours ago

And I'm still a mess. Like I want to die to live to cry to laugh to throw up to explode to absolutely everything at once and it won't leave me

Akito is so gorgeous, So precious so pretty so beautiful have you seen him. Have you SEEN him. Look at him. Look at this boy he's so perfect.

The flashback is the first thing that ruined me my little baby he didn't deserved that (he's fourteen his voice just broke and he has nothing but a dream why are some adults acting like huge bastards with him don't they have a life ???) but at the same time he was so beautiful

You know Ena during Blank Canvas ? And the way she knew she was falling behind everyone but took back art class nonenthless? I always thought she was so freaking cool for that.

And Akito did something similar here at Crawl Green. He knew he wasn't ready to stand there. But he did it. The way the Shinonome aren't scared to face things no matter how it hurts to get what they want always leave me speechless they look so sad and you want to hug them but at the same time they're radiating while doing so. My lil' boy was so pretty standing up there and singing until the end despite knowing how it would go. Just for that he was already better than everyone else in the room.

BUT OH MY GOD when those mf of older musicians appeared in front of him in the present. AND HOW HE EXPLODED THEM. He's so beautiful you can't understand I'm so proud of my boy I'm more proud of him than he's proud of himself. And by the way for hell's sake could he let himself be happy for like. Two minutes? Dude you're Shinonome Akito we all know you won't be satisfied by this and stop there, you could have take ten minutes to be proud of yourself I swear it wouldn't have slow you down. I swear he's such an idiot. But it's fine I'll be a kid about it for him instead because Akito Shinonome is better than you and he was always better than you because he's born perfect cry about it morons of older musicians

What else. I could draw a parallel between how Akito thought it was stupid to feel relieved right now when he's still far away from his goal and what Harumichi said to Toya in an earlier episode so I can also mention that damn I love Toya.

His dad and his boyfriend are both huge idiot for thinking that way so I love how he's able to recognize his own achievements and be happy about it. I love Toya for being the braincell Akito miss (And Akito is also the braincell Toya miss it was proved several time as well. I love them)

Also Akito are Kotaro's relationship is really cute and precious somehow. Akito and Ken as well but that isn't new (I love every interaction between those two to a point you can't understand).

Ken and Taiga talking to Akito and the parallel in the situation too. Or Akito being like Ken. Akito being like Ken. Akito is just like Ken-san I want to repeat it on loop until he dissolves in embarrassment and can't help but smile like a kid.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk sorry for going insane over Akito-related stuff it will happen again

[weirdcat1213]

TRIMAX VOL 2 YEEP YEEP YEEP

time for the thoughts :D

chap 1:

-YES HES HERE :D

-ok when you think about thats brutal af, this is the worst nightmare of anyone who takes public transport

-:c hes so soft

-the fucker with the balls scared me >:v get out and leave my son alone

chap 2:

-legato eating lmao :b but creepy at the same time

-"no guys we cant destroy him anymore, just traumatize him" what a metal thing to order knives, you sicko

-OH I LOVE THIS SCENE

-vash is doomed to be driven everywhere hes like me fr

-aw he looks tired :c

-nightow honey.....thank you so much for this dumb joke lmao

-yes vash ofc your bf is hiding something but this is not the time to think about that

-oh wait i remember this chapt-...oh fuck

-*insert 98 vash yelling get me out of here*

-"demon priest" nice nickname for your bf

-OH WAIT DO THEY STRAIGHT UP TOLD HIM "he so your brother wants us to traumatize you, yknow the classic stuff" TO HIS FACE I FORGOT

-also NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

-PLEASE HE JUST WANTS TO GO HOMEEEEEEEEEEE

chap 3:

-oh the title page of this one *chef kiss*

-OH MAN HES READY TO GET INVOLVED DID I MISS THAT THE 1ST TIME???

-ooooh the betrayal

-oh that line that tries to be a panel line is cool as hell

-...ok i yet dont get much from this battle but pretty cool nonetheless

-i got the final part tho

chap 4:

-ok i do respect samurai guy here tho, die with your principles ma man

-ah no its the timeeeee noooooooooooooo

-im gonna need a hug

-:c

-ok i need the hug now

-IM GONNA START CHEWING GLASS

-"im willing to die so you fucking realize you cant go around in life just running away" is raw af, but replying with "im not gonna shoot you cuz i want to fucking show you hope" is even worst

-NIGHTOW IM GOING TO YOUR FUCKING HOUSE AND after respectfully shaking your hand BITE IT

-the man who bears the role of savior with a smile while it hurts vs the man who bears the role of the murderer without an expression while it hurts...IT ALL JUST HURTS

-MY GIRLS ARE HERE

-AH NAHHHHH I FORGOT ABOUT THATTTTTT

chap 5:

-nooooo stoppppppp :c

-something something, parallel with vash in a escape pod something, something tears

-I HATE LIFE ACTUALLY (the hc of wolfwood having regular nightmares is not even a hc, it actually happens)

-"we need 2 rooms" cmon dont be shy :3

-oh wait i love this chapter :3 even if it has the most unhealthy implications ever like vash omfg cant you just take a fucking break :)

-nah hes not ignorant of anything...hes just really stupid with a big ass heart

-ok i feel like im insulting vash too much rn, its the wolfwood pov mb

-hes so dead

-awww :3 im sorry for calling him stupid, he's just really nice in a world where mercy is basically being stupid

-vash is making the smallest and most pathetic noises and the guy is like "oh wow you can help me come up with a plan? thanks :D"

-woop

-i agree with rob but i also agree with his dad. this ties back nicely with the thing about considering killing people just because of family.

-i mean...yeah theres something deeply wrong with vash...those arent news i think

chap 6:

-wolfwood noooooooooooooooooooooo :c

-wolfwood dont *smack in the head* stop those thoughts rn

-i love wolfwood poking on the subject like "well at least i cant do that cuz IM HUMAN.....what about you vash hm?"

-AND WE LOVE A CHARACTER WHO DOESNT HAVE EVERY VALUE SET IN STONE :D vash ily and your search for an answer sm

-ah that looks pretty :D

-when i tell you THAT FUCKING SCENE HASNT LEFT MY MIND SINCE I READ IT THE 1ST FUCKING TIME. I FUCKING FREAKED OUT ABOUT IT CUZ I WAS SO FUCKING RELIEVED AND THATS ON MY TOP MEANEST THINGS NIGHTOW HAS DONE. AND THIS IS VOL 2 OF TRIMAX

-also lets go back to wolfwood "i don't have the right to hold you" vs vash embracing the hugs ONLY TO GET THIS. WHAT ARE YOU TELLING ME NIGHTOW HUUHHHHHHH YOU MF-

(i dont think we'll get this or something similar in stampede but if we do...if we do i will bite people and that's a promise)

chap 7:

-SHUT UPPPP, WOLFWOOD KILL HIM

-YEAH CMON BABY

-im.....im so sad for him

-"the mind of a man is bleeding out".....yeah you can call him that ig

-oh shit thats how this volume ends??? fuck ig????

[what-even-is-sleep]

REACTIONS to the latest PJO TV episode (5. A God Buys Us Cheeseburgers)!!

First half is positive/hype reactions, second half is negative/critiques.

🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨spoilers!! 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨

POSITIVE/HYPE:

I liked that they showed the irl reactions of media/first responders to the arch.

Love love loved the aunties/Fates. Perfect characterization

THE PERCABETH HUG. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD.

hype continued under readmore

OHMYGODOHMYGOD OHMYGODDDDSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Percy jumping over the railing felt like hardcore parallels to how I imagined the dock scenes in HOO

THE FKCN PERCABETH HUG. IT WENT ON SO LONG. LOVED IT

Loved the physical comedy of the trio being behind that concrete highway block lmao.

ARES WITH THE DRAMATIC-ASS LEATHER CAPE I FKCN LOVE IT

The physical comedy with the trio popping up behind the concrete highway divider!!!!

Ares starting flame wars/fights on twitter lmfaoooo. Such a good addition to his character

Gabe was so pathetic. I don’t love the comedic turn of his characterization, but the pathetic wormy-ness was good to see

YES GROVER MY BOY!! PLAYING ARES LIKE A MF FIDDLE

The amusement park was interesting! Not how I imagined it, but v cool effects.

THE TRAP WAS SO COOL!!

LOVED ANNABETH GEEKING OUT ABT THE TRAP

Ok falling more in love with the amusement park designs

Percy’s reaction to Ares/Aphrodite affair lmfao yes boy drag those fools

The way the “What is Love” section ended was great lol. Very Harry Potter rollercoastery vibes

JUST. ALL THE PERCABETH MOMENTS. PERCY KNEELING BEFORE THE CHAIR. AHHHHHHHH!!!!

The fact that Ares just blatantly says that he hates kids and his own kids OUGH! Makes Clarisse’s storyline hit so much harder.

YES GROVER GET HIM. MANIPULATE THAT $&*%£+

SEAWEEDBRAIN

SEAWEED BRAJN

GRAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! IM GOING INSANE 🫨🤯🤩🥳🥹

Their whole convo fr 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

OIYAGHHHHHHHHHHHH ANNABETH KNOWING THAT PERCY NEEDS HIS MOM AND LOVES HER SM AND- AND- AND- 😭😭❤️😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND HIM BEING LIKE ALSO UHH CAN U GET ME OUT OF THIS SOME DAY TOO LMAO

I can’t even analyze all the stuff in this convo, in this scene, in that exchange yet bc I’m IMPLODING!!!!!! 🥹❤️❤️❤️❤️

LEAH AND WALKER’s ACTING WAS SO GOOD DURING THIS SCENE OMFG

AND THE SPECIAL EFFECTS GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Stunning, magnificent, no notes

“Percy stand up I mean it!” “I’m ok, I’m ok, I’m-”

IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE

AOUGH. I cannot keep reacting in all caps this is unsustainable. But like. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Annabeth immediately going to reverse the chair mechanisms <333333333

The way the ladder goes up is so cool fr :0

HEPHAESTUS!!! One of my fav gods ngl <3. Bro is more dramatic than I thought with the whole “baby don’t hurt me, no more” 💀 😅

ANNABETH DEFENDING PERCY WITH HER WHOLE HEART. AND HER GROWTH AHHHHHHHHHH

Maybe it’s just bc I’m a music nerd but OUGH I just adore how music is mechanical and a key for Hephaestus n everything. Idk just, very cool.

OUGH the way Percy comes out of the chair. So dramatic <3

Annabeth holding the shield and the way she drops it in front of Ares is badass asf and I fucking love it.

OUP THE BACKPACK!!!

YES GROVER U DROPPED UR CROWN KING 👑

Lin Manuel Miranda jumpscare at the end there again lmao. Looking forward to the next episode 👀

The negatives/media-critical:

🚨🚨🚨🚨warning: I’m v critical. 🚨🚨🚨🚨

“Short version, we need to go to Santa Monica.” Okok im pretty sure that’s almost exactly what he says in the books, but it felt poorly set up in the show. Part of the pacing issues perhaps, but grahh it pulled me out of the story.

Where’s Percy’s backpack? Doesn’t he have one before Ares gives him one? Honest question bc I don’t remember for sure lol. Not assuming it’d stay with him thru the arch-falling shenanigans but like,,, what abt everyone else’s stuff? They aren’t walking around with NO water n stuff, right?????

Where is Annabeth’s necklace half the time? They keep forgetting it T-T. Sometimes it seems plausible that it’s under her shirt, but most of the time it’s very clearly not. + when they showed her dads ring on it last ep, that thing was Chunky-the outline of the ring would be showing under any shirt collar!!

The conversation behind the concrete highway thing felt kinda stilted. 1) when annabeth mentioned only one of the Fate’s names and 2) partially bc there was no background music the whole time…. Whenever the background instrumentals come in the quality of the show jumps so much!!!

Some of the Ares expressions/first convo/delivery felt hellla cheesy at points. In general when the gods characters say stuff like “young one” at the end of their sentences it feels kinda like a throwaway. Like the actors are embarrassed abt the line or smth… idk. Just doesn’t feel in-character enough the way those lines are delivered.

Ares says he’ll help them, then says they’re going to fail, then says he’d kill them so he can eat in peace when he offered them food in the first place…. makes them help him, then helps them anyways… idk the motivation portrayal in the show felt way more wishy washy and weak than in the books

The trap was really cool but it didnt read well until Annabeth went thru.

Different food on the table with Ares when they cut back to him and Grover at night. Super understandable that they could go thru multiple meals, but there’s no visuals of either character eating or calling the waitress over to get more food or like ANY storytelling cue to have the changing food make sense/have a reason to change. It just becomes another thing that kinda takes me out of the story.

Why is the Tunnel of Love where the shield “must” be?? There’s no indication that Percy and Annabeth have a demigod intuition towards the place, or that they’ve looked elsewhere. It’s stated like a fact that the audience is just supposed to accept and go along with. Where’s the reasoning???

Didn’t love the sound design when “What is Love” came in. Is it supposed to be playing in a tunnel loudly or not? The song kept getting louder and softer at diff points in a way that really took me out of the ‘realism’ of the moment.

What in the H2O water powers hard-to-read special effects was that 😭😂

The scene cuts between the Percy/Annabeth to Grover/Ares feels so choppy… :(

THE SWITCH TO THE FISHBOWL/OVERHEAD CAMERA POV… laughing so hard mfg. just Why.

Hwhat is the reasoning behind automatically assuming that the chair and shield are connected. 😭😭😭. Ik the books have way more context and internal dialogue. Pls show, just have them try and reach the shield or pull it down or say SOME sort of reasoning for why they’re connected instead of just spouting another fact that we’re supposed to go along with.

Ok I love Hephaestus’s character in the books and in mythology. For some reason this actor didn’t conjure him for me. My Hephaestus is hunched, buff, more noticeably physically disabled, more dramatic and eccentric and kind and gruff. Idk this actor just fell flat for me.

Just small things with the scene cuts. Like how the camera stays on someone’s face for a second or two too long… all the fckn time. Small, consistently annoying thing for me. ¯\_(:/)_/¯

“Thank you for the emotional abuse and the cheeseburgers.” … what? Isn’t the whole point that Grover was buttering him up? What is the point of the emotional abuse comment to Ares’s face if Grover was playing him up the whole time. It feels like something that was written for kitschy woke-ism points instead of a genuine callout/dialogue that fits more smoothly with what’s happening before, during and after that moment. Cause then Grover asks for paper towels immediately after… 😅 bruh what.

[subskz]

LEE FUCKING MINHO

when this mf showed up i lost it for a sec bcuz i thought he might be chan,,, then i thought it was y/n’s ex nd i was like AW HELL NAH BROTHER 😐 then you hit me wit the “it’s raining” nd i was like LEE NAURRRR THE FUCKEN BB1 CALLBACK?!?! I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU ACTUALLY

i fr think that if anyone else wrote that makeup scene i woulda still been mad asl at minho but of course,,, you nd yr rinnie magic,,, I WANTED 2 B SO PISSED AT HIM BUT YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME FALL FOR THIS MF IT’S SICK!!! bro thought he was putting 2 and 2 together but he was rlly putting 5 and 7 together bcuz it dozen add up 💀 and i #love that he was still so minho about it like annoying nd cheeky and he didn’t say he was sorry but he still admits he was wrong…… dawg. alr lee know you ate that one thing

y/n missing binnie and him trying 2 reach out to her got me so bad btw like,,, idk friendship breakups hurt just as much nd u captured that saur perfectly 🥲 i was boutta cry right wit her wanting her bestie back

LOCAL CATBOY SAVES EVERYTHING!!! i’m losing my mind over this image i love it so much 😭😭😭 i keep every edit u make in a lil treasurebox i hope u know!

HAHAHA i intentionally didnt say lino’s name until later in the scene for that reason >:) but naturally u caught on right away i’m so delighted u remembered his first line in the story! i thought it’d be a nice lil parallel…the first time the reader finds lino he’s drenched from the rain, then we come full circle to him finding her like that!

that’s so sweet of you to say thank you 💔 it makes me really happy that you liked how their conversation was written! i wanted to keep it true to lino’s slight awkwardness when it comes to opening up while also making it clear that he knew he was in the wrong…but yes hehe his pride wasn’t completely fizzled out for him to say the dreaded s word. ALSO “bro thought he was putting 2 and 2 together but he was rlly putting 5 and 7 together bcuz it dozen add up” i NEED you to know how badly this sent me LMFAOO HOW DO U COME UP W THIS STUFF??? 😭😭😭 there are near tears in my eyes from laughing it’s so clever

ur exactly right abt friendship breakups, they can hurt even more sometimes esp in a case like this where the reader realizes she’s uprooted everything good that had come into her life over the past year ㅠ i’m so glad you felt it was depicted properly, you always cheer me on so much i can’t thank u enough my dear! <3

[beatsboy]

4.14.24 @ 1:34

i don’t journal enough. especially given the fact that i don’t really have anyone in my life right now that i feel like i can go to for consistent support. there are people, and yet, i still feel like i have no one to talk to. i have decided in my head already that tb is the only one, that they’re the only person who will always be there for me, no matter what. because the other option is friends who simply aren’t very emotionally available. and i’m not always either, but i try to be for them, and i’ve also had a lot more therapy than most of the people around me. and even as the person who people ask for advice on communicating, i still can’t fucking communicate well. i feel like i fail in communicating every fucking day.

this entire week i have had incident after incident that has sent my nervous system into complete chaos and have had to figure it out and regulate/calm down myself. i suppose this is what all humans do, or what many of us do. figure our shit out on our own and then deal with it alone, and that is what i’m working on in weaning from a codependent relationship. i can’t believe it’s been almost a year since we broke up. i didn’t think it was the end back then.

and every time i tried to go to the people i think of as my support system, i felt, well, less than supported. i feel so blind in this entire process of releasing my first ep, most of the time i feel like i have no idea what i’m doing. i reach out to people with questions or help with things that come up, and then when i don’t hear back and make the call on my own in the moment, when my nervous system is on fire, i get criticized for not making the right call. it’s never the right choice. i’m pretty sure i upset everyone i communicated with this weekend. watching resident alien alongside this chaos has been quite the parallel. and being sick doesn’t help any of it.

mf is back to ignoring me, i guess. i know they have a lot going on, but i’ve barely heard from them since thursday when we last saw each other. i miss them, and i could really use some support right now emotionally, but it feels like there’s barely enough space to talk about the things happening in the now, the logistics, the important stuff. i don’t know why i can’t consider my emotional needs as important. i don’t know, i guess we’re not really there yet. they say they’re learning to be vulnerable, and i am proud of how far they’ve come. i just wish they would extend the same to me when i tried to be vulnerable. i stopped trying, i guess. i got frustrated, and hurt. so i sopped trying to make them the empathetic, receptive person i had in my head, and tried to just accept the person they are and where they’re at in life. i can’t expect them to be any older than they are, at the end of the day, they are 23, not 30.

i’m not going to lie, when they kissed me, i thought about it. what if we did date? but then, after they started dating a man who has everyone concerned, who they won’t even introduce their friends to, two days later, after i watched that relationship take off and swallow them whole with it, i saw how much i did not want that. i watched them disappear into a new relationship, days on end with barely any communication, still talking to their ex. i wish my therapist could talk to them, honestly. she would not take the bullshit they tell themself. i know they think what they’re saying is true, that those conversations don’t affect them, that they’re over it. i watched them cheat on him rather than tell him it was over. i told them that i thought sometimes when people frame us as something we are not, we sometimes become that thing out of spite. i don’t think it’s that, though, anymore. i think they do something fucked up at the end so it’s not his fault why it didn’t work. because that would be harder to admit. that that person just isn’t the love of your life. i think it’s easier for them to believe that it’s their fault than to let go. and i get that. i’ve been there too. i don’t take it personally, but i’m trying to be less involved with people’s life choices going forward, i suppose.

they kept saying how ready they were, and maybe they are ready to love again. i remember when i felt love again, with tb, after not feeling it for so long. i thought i would never feel that kind of passion, connection, intimacy, ever again. i understand. they are there now, though, and i am here. i am content with not chasing love if it means waiting for a partner who is where i’m at. who can communicate, who can be consistent, and who will not dive down the path of codependency at the first hit of dopamine. i can’t do that anymore. and maybe that’s why i can’t be with anyone right now, because i know that for me, it is still so fucking hard to be alone. i am this fucking close to calling tb to come take care of me while i’m sick—i won’t, though (they work tonight lol but jk i actually won’t). i want to, though, because my dog can’t take care of me, and she doesn’t talk back, and loneliness still crushes me every single night before i force myself to sleep.

that’s why i know that i can’t be in a relationship right now. that’s why i know i can’t even know if i want to be with tb. of course i do, now. i am lonely. when i can be content in my aloneness, i will know what i want. i can’t trust this feeling when i am still so afraid of being alone.

[eshtaresht]

GUYS GUYS I CAN'T KSODKLSOSL!!!1!!1LKDKJ;;S !!!l1JK!::kKD;P SOSKSLSPSODS A;SDOKDLAD I CAN'T EVEN FORM WORDS

spoilers for ep 12 (and a bit for trigun in general) and my overexited ramblings under the cut

you know an episode will be good when where's no opening

so, the twins are meant to be characterized straightforward in every anime adaptation, ig. it's not bad, but the manga twists their personalities 180° and it adds SO MUCH nuance (I'll talk about this at length some day)

tbh I had to pause for laughter when knives was YEETED outta the gate (I have sense of humor of a five year old)

everybody already said everything, but still. OG HAIR COMEBACK OMG AHRAHAAKFJDlahjddjha!!!!!!!! ;!!! ;! and not only hair, but the whole characterization this episode was much closer to trimax vash, and not just sadboy depressive bbg

MERYL/REM PARALLELS LETS GOOOO!!! like, I guessed this would happen, but the visuals, the tension and pure GRATITUDE in vash's voice when he was able to break free from his mental prison... we're eating good

speaking of eating, I CAN'T get over that moment when vash deadass BIT KNIVES. that's peak sibling behavior, he's literally fighting tooth and nail over there

also mashwood is so real tonight!! love love love meryl&nico interactions in stampede, they barely spoke to each other in other versions! and the look of relief on vash's face when he sees nico skedaddling away with meryl!!! he's so glad that they're gonna be okay and that nico made the right choice and came back to help, if briefly. interstingly, he was able to remember everyone, but after the explosion at the end he still lost his memory.

and THE WINGS, DUDE!!!! it gives the finale of trimax, when they both had only one wing left..... still missing feathers, but I love the diversity with knives's, eh... knives, and vash's energy/void or whatever that is, I support it

he's so pathetic even when he looks cool, homeboy had NO control when he used his wing for the first time... cudos for learning new powers on the spot tho

ow ow ow that scene with the military hurt... and he couldn't even save them!

"why are you like that, vash?" "I'm vash the stampede" "IT'S BEEN OVER A CENTURY AND THIS IS THE BEST YOU COULD CAME UP WITH" same here, knives, he's hopeless. I anticipated that moment, but it probably hits even hard for stampede onlys

angel arm!!! tho it's not that angelic now... how are we gonna call it? I take suggestions. rip arm and coat, I feel like we'll actually get a more trimax leaning design next season!

to all the ppl (myself included) who wanted to see vash cry properly... are you happy? ARE YOU FUCKING HAPPY??? after the last episode, after all the mental torture knives put him through, vash still doesn't want to hurt him and, just like knives, can't handle the distance between them.......... I am inconsolable. and as much as knives wanted to break vash, it hurts him so much to see those tears irl....... but he just can't stop, because they're both SO FUCKING STUBBORN and it already took to much to get there and he just can't. stop. now.

"nai is dead, you killed him" first of all, *sounds of screaming crying throwing up*. second of all, his name is million knives, vash, stop deadnaming your brother/j

the death scene itself.... oh it's soo good and yummy. I know this mf isn't fully dead and conrad will fix him, but still. he can have a second death of self as a treat

btw, gotta adress my earlier theory about "happy birthday" being metaphorical. no, it is in fact July 21st, and tristamp lasted about two months in universe. still pretty hard for me to believe, it felt five times shorter due to the pacing. but it is what it is: I'm esht and I was wrong, I'm singing the esht wrong song

and just as I thought this would be the end of it, WE GOT A FLASH FORWARD THAT HAD BASICALLY EVERYTHING WE WERE HOPING FOR AND MORE

RAISED BOUNTY! MERYL GIRLBOSSIFICATION!! a hint at insurance society (tho that was more of a threat and she's still a journalist). MILLY CONFIRMATION!!! ERIKS' LACK OF ARM AND AMNESIA!!!! EARTH FLEET AND CHRONICA!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!

IT'S GONNA BE GOOD SEASON 2 IS GONNA BE EVEN BETTER I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONE MARROW

[name-doggo]

I keep seeing People saying they Want Will to have his Villain Arc (and Others saying they don't want it since it's ooc but that's not really the point rn)

And Like...The only way I could (or want to) see Will becoming a Villain is if it was where he became Possessed by the MF again and it Parallels Season 2 when they try having a Heart to Heart to get through to Will. Only this Time when Mike talks with Will, it doesn't work. Possessed Will even Taunts Mike for thinking it would work this Time after everything he did. Mike is confused about what they're talking about, so he brings up the "It's not my Fault you don't like Girls" argument, how he couldn’t even give Will a Hug, the fact he never even noticed Will sobbing in the Van, the "The day I met you was the day my life started" line (I forgot the exact quote), maybe even throw in the fact He forgot Will's Birthday too if they feel like it and don't go back to change the date.

This breaks Mike essentially. That they're not close enough anymore to where he can get through to Will. That Will has been holding in so much Pain that he never told Mike about, or that Mike didn't pay enough attention to Will to even See how much he was hurting. This would be what Changes Mike. This would be the moment where he realizes he can't just go to Will and be like "Hey I know I've been kind of a Jerk but Let's be Best Friends again and I'm sorry." That would be the moment he goes back to how he was in Season 2 basically or try to be like that again. Something Something they become Close again and eventually Byler happens.

I know this will Never happen, but hey- A man can Dream. Plus if he ain't getting Vecna'd then this would be an interesting way of addressing that stuff.

Bonus points if Jonathan is the One to Get through to Will instead since Will knows he can be Open and Honest with Him now (Plus that Man needs to Do something like Damn he's been really sidelined)

[strangertheories]

The thing is we now know Henry doesn't think ''clearly'', he is being affected by anger, vengeance, bitterness, and the Mind Flayer. By that logic, he already wants to wreck and kill the whole world. Why wouldn't he go after Will to take revenge? It's the thing that makes the most sense about Will's kidnapping at this point. Vecna/MF going after the Byers, killing Bob and attacking the rest of Hawkins seems to be in line with what we have seen.

Yeah, that makes sense, I just think that Will/Henry parallels are super significant and I like the idea of Henry wanting to use Will and team up with him. Just like how he sort of projected himself onto child El and tried to pressure her into teaming up with him. However, I think the Mind Flayer being the ultimate villain makes him less petty as he's sort of suspended in this bitter hell where he wants to hurt anyone he blames for his predicament. The only thing is that everyone with powers (like Will with true sight and El with telekinesis) seems to be related to the Mind Flayer now, but why is he only evil in Henry? Just thoughts I guess (:

[nonclassyparty]

this chapter was so so good. i’m glad to see how well mc is handling the 180 her life had taken. i was a bit unsure about mingi. all of their moments together were super cute but i also couldn’t take my mind off of how they had ended a couple years. but hopefully they can get to talking about it with no difficulty (whys it so hard for everyone to just TALK omg 😔) and wooyo omg. he waits until the ending of the story to start showing his ass?? you like yeosang that much to come at your friend like that?you’ve known him for two business days!! 🤨 (i’m exaggerating, i know) i thought mc was starting to warm up a little bit to yeosang as well then i remembered all they’ve been through and then i thought hell i’d still resent his ass as well fuck both of them. and last but not least then the ending 😶‍🌫️… you’re telling me the mf has money now, while she doesn’t oh no i’m about to end it all. and judging from the last dialogue spoiler you gave us and how HE showed up in this current chapter i might just skip it the very last chapter to spare myself 🫠

i love how in your writing you never leave a stone unturned. i feel like other writers would’ve probably forced a happy ending but honestly speaking there’s still so much unsaid and unsolved idk if a happy ending make sense without addressing them bc it’d come up eventually in there lives anyway.

sorry i’m rambling but i love love this story and i hope you’re always well <3 💐💐

thank you very much first of all!! <3

second of all, the yn/wooyoung/yeosang stuff is like a direct parallel to boyoung/mingi/yn and at first i didnt think of elaborating more on it (yn was just supposed to walk in on wooyo and yeo and be angry but it was supposed to be funny in the end) but then i thought just making it into a comedic scene would be an insult to her character AND that it would maybe help everybody understand how boyoung would feel if mingi choose yn, understand mingi's predicament two years ago a bit better etc it's fun to play with perspectives sometimes so i took full advantage of that here lol

the relationship with yn and mingi well...that will be talked about in the last chapter but mingi is trying to fix what he's done with actions rather than words and yn is accepting it at a surface level no matter how much it bothers her bc she likes him that much but a good relationship just can't be built like that because the old unspoken problems you've pushed away will find a way to resurface sooner or later. i wanted to write mingi facing this shit head on and addressing it right away but it's just not in his character bc he does not like conflict, admitting he hurt someone or being vulnerable and revealing WHY he hurt someone and he'll avoid it until he's pushed to the last resort.

and san doesn't have that much money...yet but he is a lot more successful than his peers. it was always mentioned how he was a top student in all his classes so him finding success pretty fast after college isnt that surprising 😭

[thebrokengate]

It's actually insane how Will is paralleled to Max, Henry, El and Billy.

I mean we are usually talking about how Lumax's dynamic is paralleled to Byler, but Will is paralleled to Max a lot as a character. The way they both got targeted by Vecna and were taken by him, but one of them survived and managed to escape despite the psychic bond whereas the other 'died' and ended up in a coma.

The way Henry and Will are paralleled a lot visually and textually, but they are different people essentially. That's one of the reasons why Will won't become the next Henry, because they are foils to one another.

He is paralleled to El and they both have similar experiences with the UD.

They paralleled Will and Billy, like, a lot. Billy was a trash human being, but aside from that the way they share the same name, they both have absent and abusive fathers (they even made Billy be pushed by his father for being not tough enough and be pushed to play baseball just like Lonnie did to Will) etc. But Will survives the MF, because he is not like Billy despite their similarities.

Yeah this ended up being a mess but my point is, Will won't become a villain or get dead. It's narratively nonsensical for him to do so. Will survives and doesn't become evil because he is essentially different from Billy and Henry. It could even be argued that Will's character, an important part of it, is about survival, healing, and love. It's nonsensical to claim El would be a villain, and it's nonsensical to claim Will would be a villain as well.

I think that's where the GA fails to understand. Not saying all of the GA are like that, but those who want and expect Will to get dead or be a villain or get rejected by Mike come from their lack of understanding narratives and the fact that they actually don't want Will to have a satisfying conclusion for his arc.

Absolutely! These foils from Billy and Henry show that he's the best version to come out of characters who were once also in the same situation as him - Will overcame, coped, and worked through the same scenarios in a healthy way that they never did. Both El and Will search for love and acceptance, but in different forms. Best case scenario, Will survives, vs worst case scenario where Max "dies". All this time, Will has been an overcomer. He's been pushed to his breaking point multiple times, but he's never hurt anyone (only when he was possessed and that wasn't his fault). Why would he willingly be a villain when he's as empathetic and as loving as he is? Why would they kill him when his story has entailed survival for so long? Why would he be rejected at this stage when they've presented Will's love for Mike this way and displayed how much pain he's going through with it? None of these would be satisfying ending arcs. A character who hasn't been given a win finally getting a win is the best outcome.