#this post inflicted emotional damage on me

[prachelley]

Yu-Gi-Oh! except it's my poorly drawn memes

[pokimoko]

Listening to instrumentals from the silly doo-wee-ooo show is actually something that can be so painful.

[outersyourwilds]

Now that my post here is up, I wanna share the thumbnail sketches

And me plotting my devious scheme to my partner:

[cubedmango]

u ever see a piece of fanart that changes the very molecular structure of ur body and leaves u with such devastating emotional damage it renders u completely incapable of speech and all u can do is like it and share it and leave a nice and normal comment that doesnt even capture 1% of how feral u feel and then go back to ur life having to pretend ur even remotely okay after seeing that

[revenantghost]

Hey hey hey hey

You know how, in previous Trigun iterations, Wolfwood has always been able to tell Vash’s fake smiles from the real ones?

Can you imagine how well Orange can animate that in Tristamp?

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

Throwback to my best friend/beta reader watching Flash for the first time

[alectology-archive]

I think it’s simultaneously funny and tragic that the most compelling character to come out of throne of glass was only introduced in the third book. manon blackbeak has eaten men for breakfast and has never regretted it. she has a complicated relationship with her grandmother and treasures that antagonistic bond because it’s the only relationship she’s permitted to have and feeds into the cycle of self-hatred that she desperately clings to - giving it up would mean she’s been deceiving herself for a century and manon hates being wrong. she’s a repressed lesbian and she’s also obsessed with the forbidden, not that there’s any connect between the two at all (and not that elide specifically acts as a thematically delicious love interest). her best friend convinces her to be brave enough to be on the receiving end of kindness after a hundred of years of hurting herself, and manon later rises to her defence with the intention of sacrificing herself, revealing just how much love she had stored away in a secret place in her heart. her storyline features accidentally well-executed commentary about how women’s bodies are abused and discarded and how imperialism specifically facilitates this. 

best of all, sarah j maas didn’t intentionally write 90% of this commentary.

[its-tea-time-darling]

I'm never gonna meet What could've been, would've been What should've been You

➳ thomesa in the death cure + bigger than the whole sky by taytay. :') @thomesa-week day 5 'based on a song'.

[kishimotomasashi]

Okay since the occasion of his birthday calls for me to talk about him, the one thing I'm never going to budge on is that I do like the Itachi reveal. I don't think he should've stayed a "villain" (in the sense that he remains a one-note sadist/murderer who was faking affection for Sasuke and the rest of his family, which a lot of people seem to want him to be). I liked that it's revealed that Itachi did everything out of "love" for Sasuke because it makes him significantly more insane than if he'd just stayed insane and both he and his relationship to Sasuke become more fun to me as a result.

[error-rambles]

-bites the hand that feeds her-

Nom

[bookwyrminspiration]

my sibling post made some rounds in a web weave recently

needless to say I think it went well

[10holmes]

Just re-read Going Back The Way We've Come again because I was feeling nostalgic and craving some sweet angst and because I still love this fic of mine so very much.

Anyway, I am now mentally and emotionally stuck in a painful daze reflecting on chapter 2 - where Xiao Xingchen's past is relived - especially concerning that personal headcanon of mine that I included there.

Back when writing this chapter, seeing that canon apparently wasn't painful and tragic enough, I thought:

What if XXC and XY had almost met sooner?

What if there had actually been a slim chance that XY would have even not encountered Chang Cian at all... but Baoshan Sanren instead, back when he was seven?

What if Baoshan Sanren actually descended her mountain once a year to look for orphans and then came to Yueyang that specific year?

And what if she had allowed then ten-year-old XXC to come with her and help her look for a potential child to join them?

This would have actually been the perfect grounds for a little canon-divergence AU that's all happy and cute with maybe some minor angst.

But as I am fond of gut-wrenching and soul-splitting pain, I decided, let the possibility be there but then have them miss that chance by a very very very small margin.

And now I've made myself cry because it is just so damn painful to read and think about that missed chance... The two of them almost meeting... Xue Yang being so close to a happy childhood, not having his hand crushed, his finger turned into pulp or almost losing his life, not going on to commit all of the attrocities later on, and then Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan would also not have had to go through any pain and emotional and physical torture either...

There could have been that wholesome happy future for all of them... But it was missed by just a heartbeat because Xue Yang had been detained elsewhere, got back too late and wasn't there when Xiao Xingchen could have chosen him but selected another orphan first...

Oh the sweet sweet pain....

In a similar way, I thought long and hard about their actual first encounter in canon and why it escalated the way it did and, yet again, my angst-driven self was like

What if all of it was in fact ultimately just based on one big unfortunate really minuscule misunderstanding?

What if what each of them thought they heard or what they said was not at all perceived the way it was intended to and what was meant to be said and heard?

What if they had even been trying to say something but were interrupted too soon and didn't get to say what might have been significant to diffuse the tensions and avoid any growing resentment?

So we might have Xiao Xingchen, who is actually quite smitten with young Xue Yang already, despite his rather unruly behaviour, and even muses about the younger’s potential as a cultivator when receiving the proper training, but before he can even begin to say anything along those lines, Xue Yang, who is already or still too heated and angry by Song Lan's attack, interprets XXCs manner all wrongly as self-important and haughty and interrupts him to lay words in his mouth and thus never learns of the man's true thoughts...

Another twisted knife to the heart for another possible diverging path to a better outcome not being taken...

And now you may lie with me, staring at the ceiling, contemplating our existence...

@verycatbluebird & @ba0shanblack

[alazyparallelworld]

me when my ships are predominantly het even in canonically gay franchises and/or characters that are same-sex

[chamerionwrites]

Back on my bullshit (by which I mean, in this case, both "Skyrim" and "being unhinged about fraught father figure relationships even when they're not all that central to the narrative") but. Occasionally I think about how what we see of Arngeir's characterization beyond generic mystical mentor type is basically that of a guy with a naturally hot temper who, over the course of a long life spent meditating in a monastery, has painstakingly learned (though not mastered!) the art of chilling the fuck out or at least graciously apologizing (even as that same cloistered religious lifestyle has probably also fueled a bit of a stubborn/dogmatic streak).

And then I think about what this potentially suggests re: his feelings toward noted local stubborn intemperate hothead Ulfric Stormcloak (y'know, the guy who broke all their previously-shared religious vows yet still deferentially refers to him as "Master Arngeir") and go ever so slightly insane

[queerholmcs]

we need to bring back sikenlock.

[politemagic]

you took your own damn life / where was my fucking goodbye?

"golden fate; water break" by alpha wolf | "golden fate; gut ache" by alpha wolf | "golden fate; isolate" by alpha wolf (spotify links below the cut)