#this reminds me a lot of paper bag by fiona apple

[blatantlackofdecorum]

noel and mischa

I FINALLY WROTE OH MY GODS. it only took me the entire day. this is literally just a noel and mischa blurb, from noel’s perspective.  Specifically most of it is inspired by these two’s scene after jane’s birthday.  This is technically 1st Person, and I hate writing first person usually but, I just started writing and it happened. It’s mostly a poetic recounting of what happened (and some artistic liberty at the end hehe) 

There was a certain hopelessness to it. This dull hum of life that we were bestowed in our final hours. That distant buzz that accompanied me, and him. In some ways, I wondered helplessly if any of this had been real. Had it meant anything in the end?

Five lives had slipped away, and with that not only of life had they been stripped.

Their fiery loves, their gap filled smile, their favorite movie, the cigarettes they smoked so endlessly.

The freckles on his face that hide behind his hair. How he lit up when anything really engaged him. The way his hand searched for mine in such an endless pursuit. And yet here I was again, grasping at the air enclosed in my fist. Trying to keep it together when you joined my quiet venture, sitting in the room we’d lose our lives in, in the next hour.

You offered me a drink, I drank with the same impending doom that circled in your stare. You veer off in your own thoughts, they spill with the same excitement from any other day, though theres a thin veil of sadness that coats them. I lift the bottle up to my lips once more, sparking a searing wound in my throat that only takes a second to nurse itself. 

And then, you compliment the only tie on reality I have left. A tragedy, the end. But it doesn’t feel like the end.

Not here,

not with you.

Your hand gently crashes into my chest, and even the collision is enough to make me feel giddy. 

I laugh breathlessly to myself as I watch your hand recoil to your lap. Lacking the same disgust i’d so feared of. 

Every bit of me wants to trace your dimples, feel your hands cup mine. Watch your tone raise when you get defensive. 

You are every bit of danger I crave Mischa Bachinski.

 I lean my head onto your shoulder. Letting out a snicker. Every bit of my face feels warm, and suddenly my heads spinning. 

“It’s a shame isn’t it?” his voice once a pestilent bark echoed with the same grief i’d avoided facing since we’d found ourselves here. My eyes stayed closed, in his embrace, I truly wondered if I could face this.  

“I’m sorry” My voice trembled, and his hand found its way to mine.  

“Lets just enjoy the rest of life, together. Alright?” Although his voice was all too comforting, it too shook with fear.  I say it’s all too fair that I spend the rest of my life here with you by my side, a tragic story come to a screeching halt, and you still managed to give it a fitting end. 

[imnotavamp1r3]

♡ February favourites! ♡

So I remember during like the early to mid 2010s on Youtube, a really popular trend was favourites videos where people would just list their favourite things during the past month so I thought it'd be fun to do one of those but on Tumblr!

Bloodsucking Fiends:

A book series that I read this month was Bloodsucking Fiends which is about a girl who gets turned into a vampire, meets a human boy, and has to face the ancient vampire who killed her. It's a really funny and interesting series and the character Abby Normal really reminds me of myself. Definitely one of my favourite book series now and I would highly recommend it if you love vampires.

Favourite songs of February:

🎀 Ballad of Mona Lisa ♡ Panic! at the Disco

🎀 Checkmarks ♡ The Academy Is...

🎀 Don't Tell Me ♡ Avril Lavigne

🎀 Emergency ♡ Paramore

🎀 Props & Mayhem ♡ Pierce The Veil

🎀 Limp ♡ Fiona Apple

🎀 Literal Legend ♡ Ayesha Erotica

🎀 New Perspective ♡ Panic! at the Disco

🎀 Paper Bag ♡ Fiona Apple

🎀 Something ♡ Escape The Fate

Killer sudoku:

For some reason, I was really hyperfixated on killer sudoku, mainly expert level killer sudoku. I've just been playing it way too much and I honestly think I may have a problem or something because I don't think this is normal.

Vampire Freaks:

Every so often, I'll spend an unnecessary amount of time browsing a random clothing store's website and recently I've been really obsessed with Vampire Freaks. They just have so many cool clothes and they carry so many really cool brands so I've always really liked them. I might even make a post showing my wishlist on there because there are so many cool things that I've found on there.

Vesmedinia:

One Youtube channel that I've been watching a lot is Vedmedinia, who is a goth model who basically does gothic fashion hauls and I really love them. She's so gorgeous plus she has the vampire goth style which is one of my favourite goth substyles! She's so underrated and I'd definitely recommend checking out her channel if you like goth fashion. This is one of my favourite videos of hers in case you want to check out her channel:

That's it, byeeeee! ˚｡⋆୨୧˚♡

[lesbianfakir]

Princess tutu’s impact on my life is incredible like you know how people joke about having a little senshi in their head that reminds them to eat well? That’s me with tutu

I changed my blog title to a lyric from fiona apple’s paper bag, a song I love and relate to a lot. BUT. The song is quite bleak and somber and the paper bag in question is about looking for a sign that things are gonna work out (a flying dove) and realizing it was just a trick your eyes played on you (it was just a paper bag).

And in my head Duck is here like there is always hope!! Why choose such a bleak lyric as your blog title? You’re closing yourself off to the idea good things will happen in the future to shut yourself into a state of despair. Why choose that lyric to represent you?

And I’m like damn! You’re right princess tutu I’ve let you down!! We may not get some grand sign from the universe that things are gonna be okay but things have a way of working themselves out eventually, you just have to hold on to hope

[lalaisdevoted]

I've mentioned before that I love to dedicate songs to the Gods, so here's some songs I associate with the Gods that I work with (it all makes sense in my head):

Lady Athena:

^᪲᪲᪲ Labour - Paris Paloma;

^᪲᪲᪲ Paper Bag - Fiona Apple;

^᪲᪲᪲ Girl With One Eye - Florence + The Machine;

^᪲᪲᪲ The Great War - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ The Moon Will Sing - The Crane Wives;

^᪲᪲᪲ For me, even if Lady Athena is the Goddess of Wisdom, I also think that she's the type that would like songs that carry rage or deep meanings. I want to have more songs to her playlist, but I only put songs that I think matches the Gods (in my opinion. Lady Athena helped me a lot to understand that it's okay to feel anger at how we are treated in the society, especially if you are a minority. So even if these songs talk more about feminism, Lady Athena protects everyone equally, and she too feel rage when we are being mistreated, being a woman or not. ^᪲᪲᪲

Lord Eros:

^᪲᪲᪲ So High School - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ Feelings Are Fatal - Mxmtoon;

^᪲᪲᪲ Love Me Again - V;

^᪲᪲᪲ Somebody To Love - Queen;

^᪲᪲᪲ Serendipity - BTS;

^᪲᪲᪲ Lord Eros' playlist is filled with love songs, and I think it's good because I'm too used listening to melancholic music, working with him made me see that loving people is something that I do without any effort. Lord Eros may be for romantic love, but he helped me see that I have so much love to give, and in the right moment, I will be loved in the same energy that I love. His playlist gives me hope for the day that I will find my only one. And I think I need more love songs that aren't only Taylor Swift songs haha ^᪲᪲᪲

Lady Aphrodite:

^᪲᪲᪲ Riptide - Vance Joy;

^᪲᪲᪲ Brooklyn Baby - Lana Del Rey

^᪲᪲ 007 - Tabber feat. Syd;

^᪲᪲᪲ Invisible String - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ Clara Bow - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ I love the playlist I made for Lady Aphrodite, it has romantic songs but also songs that make you feel pretty. Lady Aphrodite is helping me not only in my love path, but also to find beauty inside me. Lady Aphrodite was the first Deity that I worked with, but we spent some time without working together and now she's back in my life. The song that most represent her to me, is Riptide, I don't know why, but every time I listen it reminds me of her. Maybe it's the comfort and the pure love this song is, but for me it's totally Aphrodite's vibes ^᪲᪲᪲

Lord Apollo:

^᪲᪲᪲ Which Witch - Florence + The Machine;

^᪲᪲᪲ Here Comes The Sun - The Beatles;

^᪲᪲᪲ The Archer - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ Would That I - Hozier;

^᪲᪲᪲ Long Story Short - Taylor Swift;

^᪲᪲᪲ Lord Apollo's playlist is, by far, the most intimate I have between the Deities. And no, I'm not picking favorites or something like that, is just that Lord Apollo has been in my lowest moments, he heard me cry and ask myself why I was still alive because of how much I was suffering. His playlist is filled with songs about all type of feelings, if I'm still alive, is because of Lord Apollo and how much refugee I took in music. I asked Lord Apollo if he wanted me to make a new playlist for him, because his was filled with sad songs, unlike Lady Athena's that has songs about strength, Lord Apollo have songs about melancholy. And I was surprised that he said no, maybe it was because every song has a meaning to us, either way, Lord Apollo's playlist have a special place in my heart^᪲᪲᪲

Let me know if you guys want me to share more songs that I associate with the Deities! By the way, I'm addicted to Wait For Me (Reprise) of the Hadestown musical, I swear that this songs always give me chills.

Also, every song can be associated with the Gods because it's more about your relationship with them and the feeling you have than about the song alone. And I highly recommend having playlists for them! It's a devotional act but also something for you to cherish when you're feeling insecure.

For example, when I'm feeling insecure to go out alone, I put Lady Athena's playlist because it gives me strength to not back down.

Anyway, hope you guys have a great day, stay safe, drink water and if you're feeling like it, do some tarot. Maybe the Gods have something to say to you today!

[zombiepedia]

HIYA thes thesie theseus ive been meaning to ask u for a while where should i start listening to fiona apple what r your favorites n also her most insanity inducing songs i rly liked paper bag and i wanted to start listening to her more :]

SOAP HI yes i would love to talk about her music. feeling fucking hysteric to it tonight. honestly there really is not a single fiona apple album that i don't like but i would say my two favorites and the ones i recommend starting with (and my two favorites) are idler wheel and fetch the bolt cutters. followed pre closely by when the pawn, which is what paper bag is off of

as a c!quackity fan i think you will find this one hysteria inducing ^ this is probably my favorite song for him by her. cycles of revenge innit.

this is my other fav song for him off that album ^^ though i think that whole album and its themes of clawing your way out of being trapped in horrific times and the love you find in said times fits him really well in general. and that's really just generalizing it, there's a Lot going on there. not a single song off that album that is a miss and the way they all tie together is just. so fucking good. i don't know if you're like me and you listen to whole albums but it's a good one to do that with, and it's only like 50 minutes. (idler wheel is even shorter, only like 45ish min and also one i love listening to start to finish) anyway i'm having a real fetch the bolt cutters night tonight. dies

idler wheel wise well again it's an album that i could recommend any song as a starter song. they're all fucking incredible. this ^ was literally the first song i ever added to my c!quackity playlist well over a year ago, and also the first fiona apple song i REALLY fell in love with. so maybe out of all these recommendations i'm giving you listen to this one first. it has brain altering chemicals in it i think it's all i listened to for weeks and weeks on end

^ oh and this one reminds me of las nevadas in some sort of deranged way. probably my personal favorite off idler wheel rn :] though that changes a lot

[the-leader-in-blue]

Ooc// songs that remind me of the gang ™️ part three

King and lion heart by Of monsters and men: yes this is a song I found in my warrior cats phase but it continues to be a banger,it reminds me of Orpheus and Leo,some of the lyrics are so them, like “And as the world comes to an end,I’ll be here to hold your hand,cause you’re my king and I’m your lion heart” and “howling ghosts they reappear,mountains that are stacked with fear but you’re a king and I’m a lion heart” just EOUGH this song <3

The greatest day by Frank Turner: this reminds me a lot of just them as a family,it’s a simple acoustic song and it is so comforting, and the lyrics are reparative, some of my favorite are “can you see it? Can you see it in my eyes? Can you feel it? Can you hold it in your arms tonight?” And “today this could be the greatest day of our lives,before It all ends,before we run out of time” I love Frank turner

Glourious you by Frank turner: this song has a special place in my heart because I remeber seeing it live. It reminds me of jay and Orpheus+Leo and the support they need, the chorus is “come on now if we all pull together,we can lift up the weight of the world from your shoulders” and another banger lyric is “Woth your mixed up metaphors,your messed up makeup,you’re glorious you, with your young tied tragedies,your too tight tee shirts,you’re glorious you” and that feelings of admiration and love dispite their flaws

Paper bag by Fiona Apple: this is one that has recently gone on jays playlist,and the sort of bitterness of survival and the apathy that follows, some banger lyrics that really sold it “Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love” related to jays apathy to relationships,spicificly romantic ones,and the way he is self distructove to a fault. Another one “I said honey I don’t feel so good,I don’t feel justified, come on and put a little love here in my void,he said it’s all in your head, and I said so is everything else,but he didn’t get it” this song is so him

I was an island by John alison Weiss:this song is literally Orpheus and Leo, they fr wrote “I was a fighter,and I was so brave,but I Lowered my sword when you heald we and swore you’d stay” THATS IS LITERALLY THEM !!! And the chorus “I can’t do this alone anymore, cause I’m no good on my own anymore,what did I do to deserve this? What did you do to me, baby,coem baxk,no I don’t wanna be free” shut up it’s them

Fix me by frank Turner:yeah this is jay , and the emotions they feel after everything,I was reminded of them “someday,I’ll feel no pain,someday I won’t have a brain,they’ll take away the part that hurts and let the rest remain” + “fix me,fix my head,fix me,please I don’t want to be dead”

Gb eating Gb while listning to Gb but the Kylie v cover: it reminds me of Orpheus,the soft spoken voice and the lyrics remind me of his attachment, “well if you don’t want me,we’ll that’s just tough luck,I think about but I know I’m not good enough” is her talking about Leo,spicificly during the whole lonley thing, another one for post lonley “would it be cruel,be cruel, be cruel to let my eyes return to you? Would it be cruel ,be cruel,cruel to give my thoughts,my thoughts to you?” Shows the shame of getting lonlied

Oh brither by Frank Turner:another Orpheus and Leo song, the opening lyrics are “I never had a brother,old friend you had three,you always said if you had another one,than it would be me” SHUT IP ITS THEM, and “this ain’t where it ends,the world will keep on turninf, we’ll all make mistakes, we’ll all have time to make amends,we’ll carry different loads, we’ll all get different blisters, even so you know we’ll miss them when we’re finally out of road” THIS SONG MAKES ME EMOTIONALLLLL

Add any more but I’m plagued by the family

-🦭🦭🦭

ooc omg

[ladybeug]

Okay remember the chloe breakup playlist? 

@peachesandheather​ and @chaotictaste​ THANKS FOR ASKING i know its way later but i would LOVE to break this playlist down lets get GOING! 

this is a follow up to THIS post. 

CONTEXT:  for this fanmix to read correctly, you need to know its an aged-up AU. Chloe’s grown a bit already, and she’s learned to value making other people happy just for the sake of making them happy. She joins the superhero gang and they all reveal identities and she dates marinette for a bit but realizes that marinette is still into adrien, and so chloe breaks up with her. That’s the facts, theres a drabble about it here if you want more emotional depth. 

LISTEN HERE ON SPOTIFY and follow along. There will also be links to youtube lyric videos if you prefer that. 

Without further ado: 

The Louvre - Lorde 

This is a key track. The title track. 

The metaphor of the louvre itself really sits with me. On the one hand, it’s The Louvre - an internationally recognized place to Put Important Things. What’s more, to put Art - beautiful things that defy description. And yet we keep trying. On the other hand, it’s The Louvre - there’s a suggestion that you’re not supposed to touch it. It’s precious enough that it needs to be preserved and displayed carefully - don’t knock into it. That’s a scary new relationship. Something extremely precious that you almost trust. 

Now remember the louvre metaphor, that one comes back in track 7. 

The rest of this breakdown is under the cut to spare the poor people just trying to scroll through tumblr. You guys enjoy your evening. Everyone else, follow me!!

If you’re reading this i love you thank you for indulging me. 

 You’re Gonna Make me Lonesome When You Go - Madeleine Peyroux 

Despite not being the title track, this is the song that inspired the whole playlist! I love it. Its layered. 

I like to imagine Chloe has a moment, like the calm before the storm, when she realizes she has to break up with marinette, and she feels almost zen about it. Maybe she’s been struggling with trying to open up and be vulnerable and ask for love. And finally she decides she doesn’t want to ask for love anymore, she’s tired of it, and she’s going to go back to pushing people away. For a moment it’s just a relief to stop trying, it’s comforting to revert to who she used to be in the face of losing marinette. 

This song has a resigned feel to it. It feels like someone who doesn’t quite really believe they deserve love. That’s a theme throughout this playlist too.

Lastly, in the context of the AU - chloe would feel good about giving marinette a chance to be with someone she really wants to be with. She’s grown a lot since she was a kid and likes to be the kind of person who cares about others. It’s bittersweet but feels a little... right. 

Call it Off - Tegan & Sara 

They break up. 

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple 

Chloe takes it back, it doesn’t feel ‘bittersweet but a little... right’!! It sucks!! 

This one’s about chloe feeling sorry for herself about having to break up with Marinette. It’s bitter and frustrated, it says why can’t I have nice things?? It’s about being SO close to love - so close you could taste it - and having to cut yourself off. 

It also has that resigned feel to it - the need to starve yourself of love because you can’t have it. The disbelief in a happy ending, and a little bit of self blame.

Woke Up New - The Mountain Goats 

This is the other side of the breakup coin. If ‘Paper Bag’ is the bitterness and reflection on how chloe feels about breaking up, ‘Woke Up New’ is just about... not having marinette. 

It removes the self-reflection and the over-thinking. It’s just about loss. You miss someone. And I think chloe would miss marinette. She’s been lonely before, and for a while she didn’t feel lonely, and now she feels lonely again - it’s uncomplicatedly sad. It’s just a sad moment. 

Be Mine! - Robyn 

Okay now we turn up the tempo a little, we’ve been sad, we’ve been self-reflective, bring on the poor coping mechanisms! Turn up the volume, pour yourself a drink, and get a little mad about your breakup!

But also dont forget to be kind of resigned and defeatist about it. That’s still crucial and will continue to be crucial for a little longer. 

Fists Up - BLOW 

This is another key song, and is our second reference to the Louvre. 

But it brings a third, new aspect to the Louvre, that Lorde didn’t bring. The security of the Louvre. BLOW says, ‘my love is a fortress, my love is the louvre, but it can’t ever thrive if i’m forced to keep proving it’. There’s the same suggestion that love is worth valuing, but also reminds us that love is difficult to access - which is absolutely true for chloe, who protects herself instinctively. She’s always been very defensive, and part of growing has been fighting to overcome that instinct - it’s what let her get so close to marinette in the first place. But it didn’t work out, which is bitter, and makes her angry. There’s almost a self-righteousness, trying to blame someone else for not treating you precious enough. 

Also worth noting that this song is about the internal fight between hope and defeat in a relationship. Chloe ended the relationship with ladybug because she didn’t believe it would work, and she doesn’t believe she’s enough. But it’s so hard to stop hope, which makes defeat more painful.

Shampain - Marina and the Diamonds 

Remember when we started drinking to Robyn’s “Be Mine”? We are drinking a LOT more now and we are SO COOL and DONE thinking about this. We are NOT SAD ANYMORE!!! ITS FINE!! 

Hurricane Drunk - Florence & the Machine 

Chloe is still very drunk and is now being sad on purpose. 

Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs 

Now it’s 3 am and chloe is not that drunk anymore but she is soooo so so sad. Chloe misses her girlfriend sooo much. this sucks this sucks this sucks alcohol did not help??? how come that didnt work?? 

If you wanna get creative this is the scene where chloe shows up on marinettes balcony and makes a scene and marinette takes her home and tucks her in very kindly and very platonically. 

Gotta Have You - The Weepies 

This song is on the cusp of acceptance. This playlist is admittedly like... a little depressing, especially as I write it all out - theres a lot of wrestling with self-esteem, and fighting loneliness. That’s hard. This song is tired. It’s tried everything. 

It’s the thematic foil to ‘You’re Going To Make Me Lonesome When You Go’. Both songs have the same gentle, steady rhythm. In the first, chloe was in the relationship, sad but accepting that the relationship would end. Now, she’s out of the relationship, and she just wants to be back in. But there’s a little bit of that same acceptance. 

This song feels like saying out loud what you want, and even though you can’t have it, the fact that you know what it is and you can say it feels good. 

Go Ahead - Rilo Kiley

Alright guys we’re solidly in acceptance by now. We’re out of the heavy emotional woods. We’ve made it. 

This song is bittersweet and not a truly happy one, but it holds a genuine wish for someone else’s happiness that hasn’t appeared in most of the songs in this playlist. It’s reminiscent of the wish chloe had in the first place, to end the relationship not only to protect herself but to give marinette a chance to be happy. To do a good and selfess thing. 

It’s both. It’s sad and it’s good. It’s complex. 

New Years Day - Taylor Swift 

This is the third key song. And it’s a truly beautiful one. 

This song ties us back to the beginning, and says do you remember what all this fuss is really about? What was so important that you put it in the Louvre?

Chloe is still on a team with marinette. There’s a point at which she would have to choose to cut marinette off, or... figure out something else. This song is about figuring out something else. The ‘what comes next’ of a difficult relationship. They don’t get back together, but they stay friends, even if its weird, and even when chloe feels left out or marinette doesn’t know what to say. But they want to stay in each others lives. And it’s worth the work.

A Fairytale Ending - The Boy Least Likely To 

A reflection on how difficult it is to grow and face life head on, and how it changes you.

I Wanna Get Better - Bleachers

We have to have some closure here. It’s going to be okay. 

THATS THE PLAYLIST 

Pretty somber now that I have it all written out like that. but still a great one.

[girloikawa]

8 songs, 8 people

was tagged by @fridayiminlovemp3 thank you <3

i’ll tag @dreamertrilogys @merijaans @wlwalina @thotshitgf @chironmybeloved @boyprophet @swordbyte & @lesbobf <3 have a good day

1. favorite song at the moment:

paper bag by fiona apple

2. a song you associate with your favorite ship:

i dont really associate songs with ships? so im gonna do a favorite character. vienna billy joel adam parrish

3. a song that could be about you:

every single night fiona apple... i started listening to her like two days ago i can’t stop

4. a song you find overrated:

hope ur okay by olivia rodrigo. really really dislike it bc [construction noise]... so yeah that’s why

5. a song that reminds you of a good memory:

shut up and dance by walk the moon. ik this song was on.. a lot but i loved it and me & my old friends once had a dance party and we put this song on and. yeah. everything’s about old friends etc etc

6. last song you listened to:

.........paper bag fiona apple

7. a song that makes you laugh:

left brain right brain bo burnham

8. a song you want your mutuals to listen to:

cigar by tamino <3

[skelezbian]

Specific Lyrics That Remind Me of M’Characters because i wrote up that ask and the thought won’t leave me now - lyrics under the cut

sf!pap: 

banks by lincoln

I said I don’t know what to do anymore As if I knew what to do before I can fuck up almost anything

nights like these by pigeon pit

And I stayed up, chain smoking in the kitchen Until you got home and the curtains were on fire Fuck, I’m sorry you feel all alone With the T.V. blasting shadows on my face Hitching back to the apartment It was such a lonely place I place my head between my knees and think: “do you ever have nights like these?“ So separated from my sense of self and The shit you keep up on your bookshelf

us!pap:

love you so bad by ezra furman

You know I love you so bad Like the kid in the back of the classroom Who can't do the math 'cause he can't see the blackboard, so bad You know I love you so bad Like the kid skipping class in the bathrooms Sneaking cigarettes underneath the football bleachers baby, so bad

i wanna get better by bleachers

I didn’t know I was lonely 'til I saw your face I wanna get better, better, better, better I didn't know I was broken 'til i wanted to change

ht!pap:

dream sweet in sea major by miracle musical

Alone at the edge of a universe humming a tune For merely dreaming we were snow A siren sounds Like the goddess who promises endless apologies of paradise And only she can make it right So things are different tonight

heel turn 2 by the mountain goats (uhhhhh like. the whole song but especially)

Stay good under pressure For years and years and years and years President of the fan club Up there choking on his tears Let all the trash rain down From way up in the rafters I’m walking out of here in one piece Don’t care what comes after Drive the wedge Torch the bridge I don't want to die in here

ht!sans:

alpha incipiens by the mountain goats 

The morning glories climb the wall And you speak in a slow drawl I'm trying to piece together what you're saying But the birds are screeching, the hounds are baying I don't remember there being any hounds around here

paper bag by fiona apple

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills 'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up I got to fold cause these hands are too shaky to hold Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love And I went crazy again today Looking for a strand to climb, looking for a little hope

uf!sans:

spent gladiator 2 by the mountain goats

Stay in the game Just try to play through the pain Like a fighter who's been told it's finally time for him to quit Show up in shining colours And then stand there and get hit

dead inside by younger hunger

I’m all talk with a thorn in my side I've got a real big heart That I'm willing to hide You ask me what I want from life I said to make a lot of money And feel dead inside

[sasukebarmitzvah]

watching every naruto opening and discussing my opinions because im bored liveblog

original

took me a little while to warm up to it idk why maybe because its not as up tempo and its a shonen and i want to get hype but i love it now. love the part where the camera pans around team 7 fighting randos they are babies… also its so funny when sasuke holds out his hand to naruto to help him out of the lake and he jsut fist bumps him. gay boy

Haruka fucking kanata baby!!!!!!!! a fav. like we all know this. i listen to the song just regularly a lot and every time it comes on shuffle im like Oh my god its haruka kanata. read the english translation of the lyrics… sns

this one got stuck in my head for a while lol. i like seeing everyone babie and i like naruto shaking his head at the end to dry off like a dog

DDMnanannaddnnaaaaa naaaaaaaaa nda aaWE ARE FIGHTING DEAMERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOLI OLI OLIOOOOoohh!!!!! very fun very good also a very good time in the show, hello tsunade

**edgy shonen opening where theres something important in front of a chain link fence**

lol skipping 6-9 bc thats the huge chunk of filler which i didnt actually watch most of

shippuden

heros come back is SO GOOD absolutely one of my favs. banger first of all. i love how its actually choreographed and naruto sakura kakashi are like moving to the beat and i love the part where the animation is like pencil sketchy and theyre running and their bodies warp bro its just cool. the part where everyone dramatically reaches for gaara is fun, also love deidaras moment. anyway i shake my ass to this song eveyrday

distance oh god oh fuck. YOU ARE MY FRIEND!!! the sasuke and naruto stuff where they are little baby at the beginning at the end we return to the same place theyre there and like about to stab each other i’m going to scream. i lvoe the song of course. hello sai! i love team 7s little spotlight moments where they get to pose to the music its so cute. why is sasuke snake jesus? DO you remember that long lost DREAM!!!!!!!!!!

BLUE BIRD YA BANGER ok the whole symbolism. when naruto falling next to sasuke rising is positioned like yin and yang lol. when naruto is falling from the sky but then sasuke comes to mind and he springs into action lol. ok random people from the fillers i dont care about. naruto fell in the lake he picks up the bird feather interspersed with a couple shots of sasuke horgh. additional reading: paper bag by fiona apple

closer is one of the ones where im like eh its ok its not my favorite and then it gets to the chorus and my dumb ass is jsut screaming YOU KNOW THE CLOSER YOU GET TO SMETHING THE TOUGHTER IT IS TO REACHIT. the funniest part where narutos moping and thinking of sasuke and then he just perks up and smiles at the camera like. gay boy. like getting to see the asuma fight scenes in this op, also it was so funny seeing him get all the screentime in this op knowing hes about to die like yeah very subtle

SHA LA LA!!!! LOVE IT i love it i love it soooo much first of all banger second of all naruto looking into the water and his reflection is sasuke. lollllll. metaphor m-e-t-a-p-h-o-r the little prechorus bit in the middle gives me chills. love sasuke walking into the purple pool like a smug motherfucker thats my boy. at the end zooming into sasukes pupil zoom out it’s narutos eye oh the poetry..

signs another one of the ones where im like eh whatever its fine but not my fav but by the chorus i am standing on the table freaking out. like fuck jiraiya but this one got me a lil. the lighting and choreography of the sasuke itachi fight bit is sooooo nice and pretty, love getting to see all the new players in the story. baby ame orphans fading to the shot of yahiko as pain.. :(

this one literally makes me cry. i get chills what the fuck. definitely one of my favs. am i a bitch? maybe. i like the song by itself but like the way the rise/general shape of the melody flows with the visuals its like oh god oh fuck. again fuck jiraiya but like the role his character serves as a link between these disparate groups of people and the way thats used in this opening… how it starts and ends with him writing and this is the arc where naruto reads tales of a gutsy ninja and he learns about how he got his name and jiraiya wrote the book and hes WRITING and im going CRAZY!! i’m starting to tear up watching it rn. the shot of konan and the pains in that moment just before they leap forward. Sayonaaaaaaara aa lksasldfkwpoeifjhnuerIELFeuiertekdjsnlfweiourbg kakashis moment is cool in this op. also love to see the girls getting fight scenes in this op cus they sure dont in the actual show LOL anyway yeah im at the part where the melodys just hitting sooo different oh my god naruto frog eyes

DIVERRRRRRR. FAV literally like naruto is drowning. hes drowning and everyone is pushing him up so he can breathe again everyone is fighting to save him and thnen he s ouf ot the water and then he sees sasuke drowning and he JUMPS BACK IN. FOR ONE PERSON EVEN THOUGH ALL THESE OTHER PEOLE were working to help him out he dives back in for SASUKE whos drowning in the eyehole of obitos mask which is cool. ok yeah this is another one where im like tearing up because THe cymbal is em….. the way The movement of the visuals is choreographed with the song is so much. nico TOUCHED the fucking walls.

this one kinda annoys me i dont know why it just wasnt my favorite. love the sasuke and naruto staring at each other intensely moment though, would this be a shippuden opening without that. also the part at the end where sakura holds up her kunai and it like slashes and covers sasuke and naruto… inch resting…

newsongs so weird i love it. like what the hell is going on. why is naruto running like hes from some weird gmod video from 2013. love the LITERAL choreography, everyone dancing to the song like this is a musical. theres just a lot of weird moments which is fun. love sai naruto and sakura making the seal together to shoot lightning. raikage leaping gracefully across the beach

i do not enjoy this one. i just dont. it just feels like we’re bootlicking which of course we are because this is the war arc and everything is a nightmare

i remember seeing the first episode with this opening and i was excited bc its like… great another naruto pining for sasuke one this is what im here for. a light banger. minato manlet monday. ohh right this was the one where gaara sees his dad again and his OH I SEE SASUKEE

Banger! nico did indeed touch the walls again. i like that this one is like visually thematically consistent thru the whole thing, i like the nighttime dimly lit atmosphere with the bursts of brighter colorful lighting, also whenever i see tsunade i freak out. narutos cute at the end

SUCH A BANGER!!! also very cool visual style, appreciate it for that like the last one, its got that pretty consistent aesthetic with the red sky and the high contrast black blocking its fun and cool to watch. did i mention the song is a bit of a banger. obito passing thru the rock is cool too bad hes an idiot

ok from this one there were two lines i remember always seeing in the english sub that made me freak out. and one of them was like “this red hot love burning my heart” and it was over kakashi and obito fighting like damn OK. also the “i put the candle out with my finger” thing sticks in my head idk why. hate that we have the narutos big meaty claws i mean manly hands moment though. omg its hashirama and madara and then it CUTS TO SASUKE AND NARUTO IN THE SAME POSE LOL OK…

SILHOUETTE IS a banger… not as much so as some of the others but its a lot of fun. very colorful op, we got some naruto pining for sasuke, classic. also love the thing where ppl are running and they age as they do and they sort of grow into their present selves, a fun visual bit. the end where narutos like obito be nice now look at all these people behind me who think youre a meanie please be nice :(((((((((

another one with a really good visual principle ugh i love how the style of the show is integrated w the styles of more traditional printmaking its very swexy and nice to look at

LINE uugrgh i love this one, maybe a fav… naruto chasing after the light and sasuke trying so hard to snuff it out as they both reflect on their memories of each other oh god oh fuck… also i love the bits where it just has all the characters in a row like it reminds me of that one post about how in the endgame trailer they had a shot of all the female characters together to be like Girl power!! and someone was like yeah thats them showing u exactly how many women theyre going to disrespect LMAO but yeah i do love this op. also the song itself being slower w/ the triplet tempo is a nice change of pace

blood circulator hee hee… the version of this with naruto and sasuke moments is A Lot but even just the generic first version is fun. the part where narutos like knocked on his face hes sinking into the tar and hes not even trying to save himself hes just staring at sasuke, but then he sees sasuke distressed and he goes bijuu mode immediately like What did u say about my mans? there is some homoeroticism

i really hate everything about this i hate it all. sasuke is cute. thats it. ok first of all why did choji cut his hair his long hair look was so gooooooood. hinata bimboification? i mean if anything it was fun to watch these fillers just cus it was fun to watch kakashi be the hokage but really goofy and also the Crumbs tossed to the kakairus… but yeah i hate everything temari got bimbofied too like ugh please let her be a dyke :( this isnt even me talking necessarily about the opening this is me just being like i hate the naruto ending. LOL SASUKE AND NARUTOS NO HOMO BRO HIGH FIVE AT THE END LOLLLLL

ok im done

[rachelminetti]

inspired by harkive

i was scrolling through tumblr, decided to go through my recent likes and organize things into my different blogs. listened through some of velvet-seas, enjoyed a mix by dj lance lockarm, went to look them up on spotify, couldn't find anything so i turned to google. on google i scrolled until i landed on their discogs page and then a review from FreakyTrigger, which then led me to explore their website until i opened enough tabs to satiate my curiosity. i browsed their music section, found an article about documenting the writer's music listening history for a day, which was inspired by harkive.org.

and after doing a brief skim of their site and discovering that their annual review day is coming up on the 21st, i decided that i will do a quick rundown of today's day in music. i'll get back to reading more about the project and jotting down ideas, but i want to get this typed up before i get in too deep.

so what have i listened to today, thursday july 15th, 2021?

on my way to see george, i started where i left off on my camp 2012 playlist. i can't remember when i created this playlist on itunes/apple music, i wonder if it was before i even started streaming music? though, i find it hard to believe that i would have made it right after camp that summer. i'm going to do a quick google search and see if i can find out if there's a way to see when playlists in itunes/apple music were made like they show in spotify. so i'm not finding anything. oh well. last evening, mom and i went to the mall, parked by nordstrom. it was raining all afternoon, so the sky was still grey and it was heavy outside. late summer afternoons in the mall parking lot hold a particular weight for me so i decided to queue up my camp 2012 playlist, starting with silver lining by rilo kiley. this morning, the playlist started back up halfway through some devil by dave matthews, a song i probably haven't heard in at least 5 years. i graduated high school 6 years ago. i was in a daze in the car this morning, so i wasn't really listening or singing along. on swann, the shuffle played 3 consecutive red hot chili pepper songs (by the way, universally speaking, snow), i wanted to go back to my 2012 self. IF I MAY by pete francis made me nostalgic, dog nails tap the kitchen floor. while i waited in my car, hey hey hey and for the summer set me back a few years while i scrolled through tumblr and eventually tried to read a few pages of the spotify play. i shut the car off halfway through tutim techno.

at george's, i can't really remember the music he played. we talked about annoying tiktok songs and his love for die antward. we talked briefly about fiona apple while paper bag was playing. i saw something about the new john mayer album while scrolling through something and tried to find a leaked version of wild blue. queued up his interview with zane lowe on apple music to listen to on my way to rollin oats.

listened to that on the way there, can't remember if any music was playing while shopping. finished the interview on the way home, excited for the record to drop tomorrow. he talked about the construction of fake memories, i conjured up thoughts of making up memories from camp in the 90s, moments that are so fancifully constructed, they could never be real, and yet they feel so tangible. but i will continue to live in this secluded part of my mind that allows them to exist as if they not only actually happened, but i was actually there to experience it. this cannot be mentioned without acknowledging the role that exploring the camp coleman alumni group pages played in 2011-2012.

i didn't listen to music again until i went to go take a nap in my room after i was no longer satisfied with any of the comedy central stand up clips the youtube algorithm was feeding me. last night i fell asleep to a live performance by katy j pearson, thinking how wonderful her voice is. i shuffled the vicarious voyage playlist by jdavfromtheblock on spotify, adding some songs by adron to the queue and to my liked songs.

woke up and continued to listen to the playlist. after dinner, i sat on my bed while doing some GRE practice tests and continued to listen to the playlist. got distracted when i hit full moon by mitch margo, recognizing it from the seafaring stranger compilation by light in the attic i added sometime last year to my apple music library. i went through and queued some yacht rock songs (peter gallway, ned doheny). made it further along the playlist until it reached bumble buddies by jacob mann, which reminded me that jonwayne existed and didn't satisfy my expectations all over again (though, i did enjoy 40 winks).

at this point i had made it to scrolling through velvet-seas and started queuing up stuff i reblogged on there. listened to some cleaners from venus, unsure where i stand on that kind of music. it's not my vibe right now, but it has been and will be at some point.

somewhere between that and azealia banks, i hopped onto the dj lance lockarm mix which is ultimately what led me to typing these words right now. from his discogs, i found a 6 hr mix, people like us - a brief history of sound collage, he was featured in and then started listening to that on some random website google brought me to. i liked the third song, deck the hall by akufen, which i could only find on youtube. this of course led me down a little bit of a spotify hole and i added some recommended artists to the queue, none of which i really loved. i was ready to settle into another playlist, but i was still in a dance vibe, so i skimmed kelly's work from home playlist which then reminded me that not my boss! by blue hawaii existed, so i enjoyed that. somehow landed on tokyo ghetto pussy, which is what i was listening to right before i decided to listen to deck the hall by akufen again. going to have to download this one. ok just downloaded it and did a quick skim of his discogs. i have successfully stressed my spotify out, so i just quit and reopened the app.

so that's where i'm at. after this i am going to add music to apple music from my liked songs on spotify and then finish reading some tabs. this ended up being a lot longer than i anticipated, though i'm not fully surprised because i know that i can write forever about this stuff. this was really cool to see and i'm interested in potentially making this a daily habit.