and you may say to yourself: "my god! what have i done?"
and you may tell yourself: "this is not my beautiful wife!"
and you may tell yourself: "this is not my beautiful house!"
and you may ask yourself: "well, how did i get here?"
time isn't holding up, time isn't after us, time is a pony ride!
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I think I mentioned a while back I'd post nibling frog momence after the gift's done given. which happened on the 2nd this month I just forgot lmao. anyways we can do it now. I used the boigameista pattern scaled up to four pieces of A4 print paper and decided to double deck it to a two layer thing, not unlike a pillow, for ease of washin. because it was gonna be gifted to a one year old child
took a long time and made a number of mistakes bc hand sewing makes me worse as a person but this guy was done in time for the birthday occasion and that's what matters. chose non-fuzzy fabrics for it because we live in a dense city in the tropics and from personal experience if I hug something made of fur I would explode. the original plan included felt patterns on its back for bonus textures for baby but that wouldn't stretch well along with the rest of the thing so had to hold that back. eventually we got this
zipper across its ass, the coat type of zipper bc I miscalculated when ordering. but it did have a shape and that's all that matters to me. will be a fun game for the baby to grow up and be severely misinformed about what a frog looks like
Im going to be completely frank with you all... and admit that I read these options and wasn't sure how to take this chart,,, so uh. Under the cut is Another Version. I'd apologize but I've given you the option to keep scrolling ¯\_(・・)_/¯
(If you notice characters missing on Kim's side, I probably figured she doesn't know who they are lol)
For the record,,, if they *wanted* me to pull their hair-- *is shot several times before I can continue*
Uhh Matthew is here because I have been converted fully on he/him or enby lesbian Matthew I think. He lives in my brain rent free now, very gender. I'd pull his hair but also I think he mostly just deserves to have it played with nicely.
And Scott's here because 1) I enjoy trans Scott, 2) Kim Pine Brain Rot possibly, 3) idk he's like,, the exception. God damnit, I've fallen for the inexplicable Scott Pilgrim Effect. What the fuck--
I did think about doing this chart like everyone was actually applicable to my tastes, but even if they were I think the ones I didn't put up would have to fall on the caress side bc I just don't feel that way abt them lol.
Again, not to say that's the case for the gals over on that side,,, I just think I would want to be gentle w them shxkdjsdhbd with the exception for Lynette who probably deserves to have her hair pulled, but again I fear she would Hurt Me,,, but maybe in a fun way,,,
Anyway No One Look At Me....
(,, also,,, Ramona is so far over bc I think she would enjoy it,, otherwise she'd be closer to Kim in that section. Same thing w Roxie)
If anyone actually looks at this version, I'm not opposed to doing a version like this for Kim btw! Just ask for it so I feel like I'm not just Dropping This and scurrying away
(or, Kyōya remembers a life of normalcy before all of this madness.
He still wouldn’t change a thing.)
Hibari Kyōya is three years old. That is a fact.
(They were there, watched him take his first glimpse of the world, heard his sobbing, recorded his baby steps and recorded every monumental occasion they could have with their occupation.)
Hibari Kyōya is a genius. That is also a fact.
(Walking sooner, speaking sooner, awareness in his eyes, absorbing lessons with something unexplainable behind his gaze, something both sad and apathetic, something a child should not feel.)
Hibari Kyōya knows what death feels like.
(This is something he wishes was not a fact.
He knows that something is wrong with this place he is in. He knows that he doesn’t quite belong, even with the people who call themselves his family. He knows that he shouldn’t be like this but he can’t help it and he’s suffocating and—)
“Kyōya?” an unfamiliar voice calls. Kyōya hums in response.
He is fine.
(He’s not.)
—————
He remembers the instant when he had first opened his eyes.
A spike of anxiety and confusion, his skin crawling from the feelings of hands on him (offoffoff), irritation from the noise of the world. And then fuzzy, inconsistent blobs of color, even further blurred and splotchy with his tears (why was he crying?).
He tried to speak, to ask where he was and who they were, but all that came out were frustrated babbling sounds whose meaning was further muddled by the sound of his tears (why) and being unable to really catch his breath. He opened his mouth to scream, but something is pushed in and he can’t breathe and instincts take over when something sweet trickles down his throat. It’s pleasant— more so than the brightness of wherever he is now, but he doesn’t understand. It leaves, and the liquid drips down his chin, but his eyes grow heavy.
He scrambled to tell his mind to stay awake and conscious, a wave of drowsiness blanketing all of his previous rush of emotions, leaving only exhaustion in its wake.
‘Nothing makes sense,’ he struggled to think clearly, recognizing nothing. Only a comforting warm thrumming under his heart prevents him from trying to shout again, a film over what exactly he was doing before coming into awareness here dulling its importance to him at the moment.
(It’s clear that he has very different memories of this moment (of before) than the rest of them do.
As cliche as it might sound, this changed both everything important and lost nothing at all of value, in regards to the future.)
And yet, with none of this knowledge just yet, Kyōya succumbs to the call of sleep.
the Eternal Serkonan Vacation/retirement AU. non-chronological, no plot just vibes and two horrible awful men finding something resembling happiness together
not all tags apply to all chapters, so please mind the author's note.
This might be all over the place but I'm just gonna rant about Rinne's character development and how other people see him mostly since I think that is the most interesting way to look at him.
Rinne, as we all know, puts up a facade in front of basically everyone. He's always laughing and scheming about something and makes it fairly obvious to everyone that he's all about causing trouble on purpose. He wants to destroy ES from the inside out, breaking the system that threatens to homogenize idols and take away what he loves about them.
(Cutting a lot of other screenshots due to image limit). The new system is limiting and that's something Rinne explicitly doesn't like. He wants to be loud and angry and be human. This, ultimately, is what motivates him through the entire main story.
Now, during this same time period we're also establishing the basic Bee dynamic. In the first interactions between HiMERU and Rinne we get some back and forth about what they should do and also find out that Rinne knows about Kaname. Maybe not more than the broad strokes (just that the HiMERU in his unit is not the original HiMERU and that the original is out of commission) but he knows there's something going on there. HiMERU does not like this and directly says that anyone who knows about his secret needs to be erased, but Rinne is too important as their leader to erase, so he'll have to leave him be for now.
Rinne is a nuisance to HiMERU but a necessary one. Crazy:B needs to survive in order for HiMERU to make a proper comeback as an idol, and eventually the plan would be to break away (which comes up again in Night Club, which is a whole other post, but Rinne eventually convinces him that being a solo idol would be a bad idea, potentially also thinking about how it would impact Kaname's legacy, though that's just speculation on my end)
Niki we know at this point sees Rinne as a nuisance as well, at least that's how he vocally expresses it. His conversation with Mayoi in Chapter 5 shows that he does know Rinne better than almost anyone and that Rinne is just putting up a front to keep other people away.
Kohaku's view of Rinne is a little harder to pin down right away. Kohaku fights back initially against Rinne's views on the ES idol system, saying he needs to go with it and put aside his arguments for the sake of survival before Rinne shoots that down with his monologue about not being crushed in the gears of the machine and becoming something he hates. Kohaku, of the three other Bees, seems to be the most open and willing to trust Rinne and follow him, likely because he doesn't have as much to lose.
Kohaku is the most willing to accept Rinne's vision of idols as well, willing to get his hands dirty alongside him because that's all he knows (he brings it up a lot in the joint conversations between Crazy:B and Alkaloid). Even if he would rather take the easy route and go with the system, there's no real fun in that. It would be like he never even left home if he just gave up without a fight.
List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers (ू•‧̫•ू⑅)♡
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Video games (*^▽^*) Kinda obivious answer since this is mostly a game blog but still. Be it building stuff, playing critically acclaimed oc creator with hours of story, or short little pixel games - you can always find something you like.
Fancy desserts. I have a huuuuuuge sweet tooth haha. Normal desserts are nice too ofc, but there's something special in going to a bakery and seeing some really pretty, well made desserts.
Backstage of a theatre. It's really fun to do all sorts of silly stuff backstage while waiting for your turn haha. I used to work in a local theatre years ago, and had a role in few plays, and while customer service jobs are a pain everything else was really fun.
Npc players - in dungeons especially, but seeing them anywhere is fun. It was what inspired me to make bunny-Hyth and lala-Ryne! All the Haurchefants I've seen, that one really good Urianger player in Dun Scaith, little sprout Ardbert in Stone Vigil, the absolute chaos that was Dynamis on launch: it's fun seeing a beloved npc running around, doing normal game things. And from the interactions with my npc alts I think lots of people feel the same!
Hummm, what to pick... uhhh watching animals do silly stuff? Mostly inspired by currently watching neighbor's dogs go nuts over a hose while he's trying to wash his car lol. I don't have a pet right now, but luckily I can usually watch the 3 floofballs next door playing. Or bother friends for pics of their cats.
me: weird, I’m not able to reblog anymore? If I click reblog nothing pops up. I notice ublock origin’s counter keeps going up, what gives?
tumblr:
why the fuck is a wordpress pixel preventing me from reblogging you loser ass website. I’m not on wordpress, this breakage shouldn’t be happening.
Tbf, if I open a new tab or refresh the page I’m able to reblog again - but if I’m deep in the dash that’s obviously not the ideal move to make. I’m assuming this has something to do with the new UI Tumblr’s using because this hasn’t happened before.
Also, having refreshed the page and basically JUST making this post - can you fucking not??
Maybe it’s because I have the logger open so it’s not refreshing things but uhhh yeah this is dumb, whatever’s happening here.
On top of my heart kinda racing (bad) by just using the new UI because it feels like I’m on twitter again I’m just so annoyed with everything @staff is doing >.> STOP IT god dammit
Sharpening features (angles sharper, teeth and nails thinner and more dangerous to touch)
Weak/absent heartbeat
Living disturbance (animals are wary of you, plants die when left in your care; it's as if you are a poison to the living in these aspects)
Ash and smoke (The smell lingers in your hair and clothes–almost unnoticeable but certainly there–the taste of it lingers after every bite of food or drink of water, after every kiss)
Sensitivity to sunlight (It doesn't burn you, per se, it bruises you, stabbing your temple with a pounding headache and leaving you dizzy and withered)
Desperate and unnamable craving (craving for love, for connection, understanding, newness; craving for life that you've never known until now)