#tho now im scared to read more

[ihatebnha]

BALDROY HAS A FAMILY??? YOUR LYING

NO DEADASS????? i mean they're passed away, may they rest in peace, BUT YES?????????? joanna and bardroy jr. :'))))))

it must've been a pretty recent reveal (as in, last 3-5 years) because WHO KNEW???

[werebutch]

like im fighting for my life here fr. rant SORRY u dont have to read this but its mostly in the tags anyway

“eventually ill kill myself bc im never gonna amount to anything anyone cares about and im gonna waste my life just like i have been for the last 6 years” okay milo eat something and see ur new psychiatrist. ur crazy

[thursdayg1rl]

french and biology done i guess 🤡

[axolot-of-ideas]

i think one of the biggest things that’s helping me get over my exs is when i realized that they were people i used to tell everything to, and now?

they don’t know i got new stuffed animals and their names

they dont know the homework i have and what im doing in class

they dont know when and what i cried about last

they dont know my new hyperfixations

and they do not know i have a new haircut

the last one is what made me realize it the most, such a huge thing in my life- especially since i got because i came out as trans to my parents- and they have no clue. i changed things for me

[jam-campasta]

I have literally the exact same vibe w tbi, like I made my whole family suffer bc I didn't listen to anything else for a Week Straight after I listed to it lmao. My sister, now an actual teen, has now been forced to listen to it upwards of 3 times bc I'm the one with the car and she can't drive yet mwahahahahhaha!!!

jdhfbvjhd same about the week straight thing, when I first found tbi I also listened to it over and over for a week straight to the point where my sister was concerned that I might make myself sick of the album (Which is why I’m pacing myself with it right now because she’s right and i dont wanna get sick of tbi!!!!!)

But if my siblings dont wanna listen to certain music i dont force them anymore like i did when i was younger *cough*BEMORECHILL*COUGH* i mean i HAVE the power as the driver, but like a wisened king I will use said power wisely U_U

[kidrat]

thing is i genuinely dont know how to differentiate between a better understanding of my gender and it just being fluid and having shifted, especially when at the very least my presentation has wildly swung this way and that in the past. like am i Actually coming to realise i’m more masculine, or is this just the first year of sixth form when i dressed more masc all over but More.

[sohelish]

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[shittybabypostsfordays]

Honestly. I think a lot about the incident when I was a child where I was trying to casually make a joke I heard from a show and my friend said she didn't like that show and thought it was dumb, and so I never watched it again or brought it up with anyone outside of talking about this instant. It's burned in my memory. I don't know how old we were, but I know it happened across the street from church outside the various centers the church owns.

And that's how I've lived my life. If someone says they don't like something, I have to distance myself from it, because I take that to mean that they won't like me if I like that thing. And so when I say that I'm just 40 ideas of what I think people want from me stacked on top of each other in a trench coat... I really mean it. I've lost a lot of myself to this and to other things. Obviously there are certain things I won't budge on, like morality and religion, but it causes me great distress when it happens.

And the thing is... I still do this to this day. People will casually mention that they don't like something, and I'm immediately just like "oh, time to change my identity to match what I think you want" which is... Unfun. And I don't blame people for this. People are allowed to have opinions, obviously. And I know nobody in my life is trying to do this on purpose now, and it's been expressed to me many times that they don't want me to conform to their opinions but... I do.

And I think that's why I'm so upset about this in particular, bc it highlights something I really hate about myself. I really hate how much blind faith I have in everything, and I mean everything. It's very childish of me. And I'm sure it stems from some weird childhood thing, as most of my problems do. But I know I'm a sheep. I know I blindly believe what people tell me and adopt their views as my own bc I think it's correct. And I've been made fun of for it. And I know I'm stupid.

But like. Maybe I can be stupid and happy and start forming my own opinions.

[mothpile]

.... jon realizing real sasha is ... well .. F................. im. 

[quotes-from-oz]

A Krumbic Witch

“I have magic powers greater than any fairy possesses, and greater than any Flathead possesses. I am a Krumbic Witch— the only Krumbic Witch in the world— and I fear the magic of no other creature that exists!”

- Queen Co-ee-oh in Glinda of Oz

[coe-lilium]

I've seen that you're excited for the new Lotr series! I have never seen the movies nor read the books, but I'm interested. Where do you recommend I get started?

Oh my. 

I’d say... LOTR itself, the book. The movies are very good, but if you’re not scared of the 1200 pages the book is -as usual- much better. It’s a long ride, but imo totally worth it.

Although I’d suggest skipping the prologue altogether since it’s not the start of the story but a fake historical record on the history and habits of hobbits and... not the most thrilling read I think ^^’.

Alternatively, if you’re not completely sure/the style isn’t the best, I’d check out the first movie and see if story and characters manage to catch your interest. If they do, move to the book and then come back to the movies, so you don’t get spoiled!

After LOTR, if you like it, I guess it’s just a matter of what you find more interesting/up your alley. You’ll have something like a 36000 years long fictional chronology to choose from :D  

The Hobbit is more of a fairytale-like story and is somehow of a prequel to Lotr, all the other books’ genre (and there’s a ton of them) is -more or less- old epic and historical chronicles. 

On top of that, LOTR and Hobbits aside, consider that all the other books we have were compiled by Tolkien’s son based on his dad unpublished/in fieri works and notes so you may have a footnote going “here the text wasn’t clear but on 23/10/19xx I found a note saying xx and it worked so I put it here” or “Dad wrote 4 different version of this story, this is n°X of them bc of *reason*, look into *insert other work* for the others” and the likes. 

Sometimes the stuff gets uh, really complicated ^^    

The Silmarillion is usually cited in the “trinity” of the main/more famous works and out of them is the only one made like this. Starts as a Genesis book (verbatim: “In the beginning was Eru, the One [...]”), continues as a collection of the stories of characters who lived in the 36.000 years before the events of LOTR (to contextualize a little, the upcoming Amazon series should play in the span of 6000 to 3000  years before Lotr happens). 

If you decide to tackle the Sil and happen to find some stories you like more than others and wants to explore, in some cases there could be a entire novel dedicated to them, like the love story of the half angel lady who waltzed into the Big Bad lair, trolled him, stole his stuff and waltzed out with her human bf after she rescued him :D 

Hopefully I managed to be of use and didn’t scared you off the universe ^^              

[lonely-dog-song]

vent because I have had A Day (cw puking)

I have been bedridden since noon bc I was just about to get a shower when I had an SVT episode,, I went to lay down but I got so nervous after the first one I emded up puking my breakfast which rtriggered another episode and I just kept having episodes when I got up (I think I had 4 today). I haven't eaten anything except two peoces of toast and a tiny bit of 7up and I haven't been able to sleep at all. Every time I move I have heart palpitations and I just lay right back down and try to calm down again. It's almost 9pm now and I still haven't been able to get up without nearly having another episode... I'm so scared ill never be able to get back up. It doesnt take this long to recover usually.

[thursdayg1rl]

history tomorrow....

[pigeonneaux]

Ok i need to say it. because no one seem to dare so i will.

Why isn't there any Bran n✨sfw content?!!

Everyone is out there simping for every stark man and making fics/art/edits of them

And yet

He has more haters than Cersei

What the hell, let the man get laid 😩💦

[lesbianstarlightglimmer]

welp i have forgotten to mentally prepare myself for the new chapter of LFLS that dropped today so im going in like KABOOM

[rain-impact]

༊*·˚『 Character Trailer: (Name) The First Harbinger Of The Eleven  』

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ SUMMARY: (literally my oc- but here we go *sigh) (Name), they were from Khaenri'ah. Their fate had been already decided. Cursed with immortality by Rex Lapis(j̷̯̀̍̀ͅü̷͓͖̚s̶̡̝͔̟͝t̵̯̳͍̓͘ ̴̟̠̓͆l̷͉̯͒i̴̤͊͑ḱ̴̢̛͓̦̺̆̓e̸̩̹̽̅̈́͘ ̸͉͒́̎͝h̸̲̰͒ǐ̸̩̺̅̋̚m̸̙̯̬̟̍̏̇), (Name)'s ice blue eyes burning witht the though of revenge. Getting a cryo vision at a young age, they though of nothing but p̵̛̹̪̟̅ͅỏ̷̢͎̯͋̇̆́͝͝w̷̞̜̘̱͔̜̦̾̈́̓ë̵̛̛̯͎́̃̕̕r̷̨̭͕̔̒͐̕,

Note: Might turn this into series. Let me know what you think.

✧ ONE DAY, I WILL REBUILD KHAENRI'AH! ✧

❝ I see potential in you. ❞ A cryo vision shined, taking the shape of star(like primogem aight). ❝ You want revenge, you want to rip those apart who destroyed your nation, to rip those apart who killed your people, to rip him apart who cursed you. ❞ The child's tear filled gaze was locked on the star shaped cryo vision which they grip tightly. The vision shined brightly which gave a chill breeze. Tsaritsa stepped from the shadows, her ice-like eyes was locked on the child. She kneeled down in front of them and holded her hand towards to them, her eyes holded a familiar emotion in them. ❝ Come with me, i promise you the power which you desperately seek. ❞

✧˖*°࿐

Having a deep connection with the abyss had both good and bad sides. You'd often seen with a abyss monster(abyss herald or abyss mage doesn't matter)with you, that what some people worked at the fatui says. I could be true or not, but no one could dare to open their mouth when you are there, you are the first harbinger, its enough for them to be scared. Your ice-blue eyes often remined them the tsaritsa, but you're far more different then her. You simply had...other plans. To rebuild your nation. Yes, even the though of rebuilding khaenri'ah would put a satisfying smile on your face. Being the First of the Eleven had it own advanteges. You of course had a delusion, but yours,, is a bit special lets say. With the delusion you could control the other elements other than cryo, im not only saying just one or two, you could control all of them with the delusion. One second you were using hydro, and now you switched to electro, and- You simply didn't had a limit. Thats why Tartaglia loves to spar with you, even if you glare at him cause of how much he 'invites himself' through your office's door to ask you to spar with him for the nth time. Ugh, he really is annoying. But you two get along quite well actually, its- its just hes doing all the talking!

✧˖*°࿐

❝ You're like what? Thousand years old maybe? And yet, you're still hot and shit- ❞ You contiuned to walk ignoring the ginger who was trying to flirt you- ❝ (Namee)! C'mon! Don't ignore mee! ❞ You didn't bulge when he clinged onto your shoulder, fatui agents worriedly looked at the both of you, still didn't understand you hadn't snapped at the ginger yet. You were fine with it, at this point it became a daily routine with Tartaglia's flirting. For him, You are the most trustable, you knew what the abyss looked like, no- you knew the deeper parts of the abyss. Yet, Tartaglia found comfort within you, you sighed ❝ Get a hold of yourself. You're making both of us look like idiots. ❞ It was enough for him to return back his spot without and words.

✧˖*°࿐

Dottore respected you. The one and only person he could respect. You deserve your reputation and your power. He can't help but get jealous, cause of how much the tsaritsa gives you her precious attention. Sigh, he is interested in your connection with the abyss tho,, well, you won't reject answering some of his questions will you? ❝ Stunning as always (Name) ❞ you only hummed, the tiredness can read through your eyes. ❝ Did the tsaritsa gave you too much paper again? Y'know you could always come to me- ❞ ❝ No need, i'll just get coffee and go back to my office. I still have things to do. ❞ oh, how sharp your tongue was. He pouted and sat back onto his chair, and watched you leave. You really dont want people to stand in your way huh? He sighed and looked back to the papers in front of him.

✧˖*°࿐

La Signora trusted you with her everything. You were there for her when no one stayed by her side. You two had a close relationship. She would espacially take her seat near you in fatui meetings, just to show off. You'd always ask her opinion, that what gets her giddy inside. ❝ Thats all for today. You all can leave now. ❞ said Tsaritsa with a cold voice, you side-eyed signora, she cleared her throat and whispered some things. You nodded, feeling satisfied with her response. ❝ Hm. You never fail me Signora. ❞ ❝ I would never. Im glad that our thoughs are same. ❞ feeling proud, she smiled.

✧˖*°࿐

Another one who sits near you in fatui meetings. Scaramouche admired you. You'd always, always complete your missions without any problem. Scaramouche knew your plan, and you knew his. ❝ (Name), do you have a moment? I need to talk with you about something. ❞ Scaramouche crossed his arms while looking at your way, you had a paper in your hand which you've been looking at it for a few minutes by now. ❝ Yes, i do. Shall we go to my office? ❞ ❝ That'd be great. ❞ Tartaglia pouted and crossed his arms over his chest, you'd never invite him to your office! Just what did that gremling had that he didn't have huh?! ❝ Eleven, don't make that face behind my back. ❞ Scaramouche snickered at the ginger ❝ Wha- I- I didn't do anything-! You don't invite me to your office quite often like you do with that gremlin!! ❞ ❝ hAH?!? WHAT DID YOU JUST CALLED ME-!? ❞ ❝ Thats because i don't have to. You invite yourself into my office everyday- ❞

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