#time to fr sleep now its like... 9 am...

[aria0fgold]

My thoughts will follow you

[i-yap]

Hi there! LOVE your thoughts on Jason like truly i <3 clingy Jason!!!!! What do you think a relationship would be like between Jason and a corporate baddie? Like she's serious, career-driven, and almost viciously ambitious, but for him? a total softie!! Like they just melt for each other despite the fact that they both put up a tough exterior to others!!

Omg i love that , here are my headcanons -

Jason todd x corporate baddie!y/n

I think the time schedules would be a mess. She works 9-5 and he 'works' 9pm-5am. But since she is a really career driven woman, I can see her sort of completing her extra or personal work/ international calls etc from the time that jason is vigilanting and therefore cutting her shift from like 9-3 or something similar. Since she gets all her work done, no one can say a word and honestly no one would dare to either way. Relstionship is about compromise and I think jason will cut down his vigilante time to get home to his stressed worker bee.

Jason prolly cant sleep without her so while she is at her job, he is working out or doing his other stuff. They catch up on sleep after her shift . This means afternoon cuddles !!( Ofc I am firm believer that jason should with time leave crime fighting and become an English professor )

I also love how most of her coworkers thinks she is prolly dating a Submissive type of guy or like a really serious professional dude cause she is so scary and strict . But then Jason- 6 feet something, huge asf, leather jacket, tattoos(maybe) and motorcycle dude walks in bringing her lunchbox( that looks so tiny in his hand). Yea now they're even more scared.

And I think everyone from jason's side also assumed that he'd either get a super cute-sy girl that will "fix him" or another vigilante girl that'll " make him worse". But he walks in with this poised, smart hardworking no nonsense woman and everyone's like DAMN

Damian loves you probably. He doesn't get how todd wooed you, like he thinks todd is a doofus. For once you are a normal (non crime fighting) girl that his brother is dating who is this career driven and also treats his brother properly. He loves talking business with you ( there was this scene where he figures out who is stealing money by looking at the finances at wayne enterprises) . and for once someone doesn't take him for a kid and actually wants to listen to pointers that he has. Tim prolly also loves talking to you about business cause he is a CEO too same thing for bruce.

Power couple fr.

but once you too get home...yea no one recognizes you.

Jason loves the fact that you show your soft side only to him. He has never been someones first choice in anything and this makes him feel so much more loved and cherished. and vice versa applies to you

he loves taking care of you after your long ass workday, helping you just be vulnerable and drop the whole tough act and be human. you do the same for him once he comes back at night. Just taking care of each other the way you guys need.

And you can bet jason knows how to be your biggest supporter. big raise? promotion? or just a good presentation?? He is genuinely excited for you.

Will give you back rubs when you've been sitting on the desk the whole day

will cook you brunch/snacks for when you come back and you will cook him breakfast/dinner for when he does .

it will take some compromise and adjustments but its all worth it and no price at all for loveeee.

[studiogrimm810]

Hello Grimm, how are you? :)

What are your thoughts on Dean or Sam with a reader who gets cranky or moody when they get woken up when they haven't gotten enough sleep. Cause let's be honest how are they not with how little sleep they be getting.

(I dont know about you, but me personally, I can get so moody when someone just wakes me up when I have had little sleep)

hello, anon, im sleepy but still obsessed w spn heheh :)

i am SUCH a drama queen when it comes to sleep fr, if i get less than 9 hours i feel like hell (got 5 last night and want to die /j) if i was on the road constantly like sam and dean i think i would actually loose my mind. not to delve much but i’ve recently squeezed a trip to my home state in a weekend and still worked full weeks before and after. the drive was long and we woke up too early to make it to places and im so desperate for like 3 days of sleep. okay,, too much personal rambling- to the winchesters now!!

dean- i think most of the time, dean finds it endearing and even a little fun to mess with you. he loves riling you up and getting under your skin. he knows what its like to go on little sleep and he considers himself lucky that he doesn’t get a short fuse like you do, but he still can’t pocket the matches and kerosene he’s got when you wake up unceremoniously

however, he can tell when you’re really not in the mood for his comments and bitchiness. he knows you, he spends most of his free time studying you so that that statement stays true, so he knows when to pick and choose his battles

the rude awakenings that lead you to not only anger but dreadful aches of any given negative emotion can really ruin the day for you but dean is quick to handle anything he needs to to give you your space. he takes control of the situation so that all you have to do is be present and use your two legs to follow him. he trusts you, and knows you’re a damn good hunter even if your lack of sleep eats at you. but he still worries as he notices bags under your eyes when you’re taking down a vamp or pumping iron through a ghost

after the necessary tasks are completed, he leads you back to the Impala where he will play his music quietly and tuck you under the comforter he leaves in the back seat just for you. he even dips down his rearview to keep a close eye on you as you sleep… and maybe to make sure he can go back to bugging you when you wake back up

sam- if anyone understands crippling insomnia, its him. even if you don’t specifically suffer from such, he still understands the toll lack of sleep can do to a person. it’s quite unfortunate too that, as a hunter, you need so much sleep. and he knows him and his brother are lucky to be so functional on lack of shut-eye so he never comments on your excessive slumber

he knows your coffee or tea orders by heart, and also knows how they change depending on the weather and how much you may or may not have drank last night. he knows what breakfast foods you can stomach first thing and he knows how to approach you each time you’re woken up by something other than your internal clock

he likes to brush your hair back, running his nails from your temple back to your crown- but he’s careful to not get tangled in knots- or he’ll tickle his fingers down your back, using his nails here and there or lightly massaging the kinks in your shoulders

after draining hunts, he lies in the back seat with you, letting you lay in his lap or sometimes he’ll position himself so that you can be flush with his chest. he hates seeing you so zombie-like when you’ve gotten just a handful of hours to span over days of work, so he does whatever he can to coax you back into a peaceful sleep

despite his best efforts, you’re still grumpy and still have an attitude, but he considers that if you’re comfortable enough to sass him and bicker like you do in the first half hour of being awake, then he’s done his job in making himself a safe space for you

[urmum-lovesme]

it's 12:58 rn when im writing was just about to go to sleep, cause yeah whenever you're awake is night time here so 😭 but my god i absolutely had to read part 9 before sleeping.

- i absolutely flinched when luke hit her and the way it made me nauseous goes to show your ability to write so well. absolutely hate luke even more now than i ever did before cause how are you going to fuck up two kids that astronomically.

- the scene with rafe, i hate that she has no support system against luke, no one to shield her, to keep her safe and it's so horrible but lessgooo they're going together im so happy.

- also please take your time writing chapters, cause while i understand being motivated to write as much as you can and wanting to make readers happy it'll be worse to burn out so just in case please go at a pace comfortable for you <3

- otherwise loved p9 as always, i am absolutely devastated for bunny.

- sleepy anon (will go sleep now)

sleepy anon you're doing anything but sleeping!

-thank you so much- thats means so much to me. IK these kind of scenes can be really tough to write to be effective so thank you. I hate Luke too I just wanna beat him up so bad

-ugh- I hate it too but its one of the key reasons her and Rafes relationship starts to develop! (lessss goooo fr! 🥳)

-awww you're so sweet and I really appreciate this. I have in fact taken a little time off from writing cause I feel like i've needed to clear my mind. but i've started up on the next chapter tonight so fingers crossed maybe a new chapter tomorrow night?

I love you so much sleepy anon- you're probably sleeping right now so I hope you have a beautiful nights sleep 🫶

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

So!! I'm going insane!! Basically I have this boyfriend, and oml I love him so MUUUCCHHHh. But it's and stop because this has me so dead.

We met thru mutual friends ON A SERVER IN DISCORD man frick it sounds so bad when it's said but wtv, I'm not one to date online. Like I did it 2 other times and one was when I was 12 and in the pandemic 😔 THATS NOT WHERE THE PROBLEM LIES. I love him regardless and we call frequently, play games a lot together and ofc we text ALL THE TIIME. THE PROBLEM IS I KEEP DREAMING OF HIIIMMM.

I went to bed this morning and had a dream that he and I were living together, like in my grandmas house (she's been saying that she wants to pass it down to me and my family) and we were just super touchy and lovey dovey with each other. The long intimate hugs where we swayed a little bit felt so real, TOO real. Now ofc my mind had to get a lil freaky near the end but even then it wasn't anything extreme, it was just omfg. The atmosphere was filled with love rather than lust, we held hands, cuddled, ate together.... Yall I just want him so bad, lord if you hear me bless me with a hug from this beautiful amazing flawless perfect sweetest funniest man, I CANT.

ITS SO BAD!!! I literally have his initial EVERYWHERE. My dresser drawer has his name, interests and favorite things on there 😖 I bought a thing of stickers for this single full metal alchemist sticker just so I could put it there, he's all I think about AND WHEN I PLAY SOMETHING WITH MY FRIENDS ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS IF HE WOULD WANT TO PLAY IT WITH ME ASWELL!!! Istg I have never been this like idk way with another person, I genuinely feel like I'm dying everyday because WHHHHYYYY IS THE LOML SO FAR AWAY FROM MEEEEEEE.

It's an OBSESSION at this point, and I NEED TO GET OVER IT BUT LORDDDDDDD...... THE HEAVENS BLESSED ME WITH SOMETHING AMAZING 😭😭

Anyways lemme stop, I just can't say THIS TO ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE IK ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TIRED OF HEARING ABT HIM BUT HES ALL THAT OCCUPIES MY MIND. DAMN IT I MELT EVERYTIME HE SAYS MY NICKNAMMEEEE. 😪😪

OKOO FR LEMME STOP BEFKRE I POP A BLOOD VESSEL or start writing notes abt him 🤭 I'm gonna eat play fortnite and SLEEP hopefully, if he doesn't text me soon 🙄 (he has school in a few hours and is currently sleeping, so it's likely that I won't be texted until 8 am, WHICH IDM.... I'll stay up if I HAVE to, OR I'll just sleep and set an alarm) (I fell asleep around 9 am tdy and missed his text after he was home cause I was sleeping, I woke up disappointed in myself)

Holy shit maybe I'm a lovergirl 😧 got me saying and admitting things I PROMISED ID NEVER DO!

Okay I gotta go before I flip out BYEEYE

THIS IS SOOOOO CUTE STOPPP ugh i need all of u to stop having love lives :///

ur literally just like making fanfic of him in ur own dreams i’m crurogngn

LOVE THIS FOR U THO BAE THIS IS ADORABLE

[jenanddomo]

6.28.23

11:39pm

hey, its been a long time since i actually put something!

lets start w love life

so i got w my bf lol in early april! he so sweet n cute. he fr has the best version of me he so lucky

the reason y i say he so lucky bc i fr try my hardest not to be ugly or mean to me, he doesn’t deserve that. me n him r doin well :) prob bc it jst the beginning still but even then i tell him everything lol , i told him my darkest secrets n stuff (i thought he was gon be a stranger) but we always havin convos. i sleep w him once a week sometimes two, he so comfortable to sleep with.! i love to be ard him, we do little cute dates n i drove us to the movies to watch elemental it was so cute! so rn thats good

i treat him super good, im super honest w him n i jst cant lie to him:( i tell him the truth eventually. i only lie to him to mes w him like sum stupidddd

but thats that

mentally

i have been doin great actually! i dont feel miserable or depressed, empty, like im so happy now! life is great, i love everyone ard me :) every1 so great their hasnt been anyone so negative uk? im also very real to myself i accepted n jst found peace within myself

so thats good

pets

my two og cats died my spooky n kingking:(

i miss them very much i miss my black n orange cat they were like ying n yang . i miss their cute little personalities they were the best

but now a general

post

lets talk abt what i think and stuff

so i moved on lol as i said i found peace within myself , lookin at the old posts,, gosh who let me cook,,, i saw old posts, messages, and everything n its so crazy how much i changed in 5 months really. lookin at how immature i was , i was so clueless and stupid and lookin back at it now it likes been there uk? it was never a good thing from the get go:) i accepted that, i also accepted i used to be a bad person to but ik i got so much better, the guy im w he makes me want to be a better person.

eating? i dont eat anymore lol, i still eat below like 1000 cals , like every 2 weeks i will eat above it butttt idk! honestly in only this month i lost 8-9 lbs:) so now im 142 yippe yayayay my goal weight is 120-130 so in total i lost 38 lbs which is crazy. when my bf met me i was above 155 so im pretty happy w that

my life been so peaceful and im jst so glad alot of ppl left my life this year before i graduated, n im thankful for those ppl too without yall i wouldnt be who i am today uk? yes i was mad, childish and everything, that part it jst sum i still need to work on bc i do have anger issues. but even then i dont like arguing anymore or jst fightin in general, yea thats what i learned what to do but its not worth it uk? on my insta reels i see some relatable posts that i relate to so much im jst like awh:3

im glad im jst not how i was before uk? rn im jst so calm, i dont feel empty no more , i actually starting to feel motivation to do sum, i want to do sum w my life and i want to help others ard me.

when it was my last day of school, it was supposed to be “sad” but i was so happy bc i donated blood n my blood helped someone:D i was so happyyy like jst helpin other ppl makes me ecstatic.

i also quit smoking so im proud of myself for that:) i do have moments where i wan do it n stuff but im like no drugs bad n the only bad thing i do is drink, but even then im trying to stop that too bc their was one week were i drank everyday but i told myself i dont wan be like my dad so i kind of stopped.

my music taste is different then it was 5 months ago.

i have 2 new cats gizmo n walter.

im jst so happy rn lol i dont know what to say:3

but im glad for what happened to me , im glad i went through stuff when i was a kid, im glad i finally even opened up abt it to someone im jst so glad everything happened bc i jst wouldnt be who i am now

i guess

im just tryin to be a bigger better person

i dont want to be childish no more i dont want to fight i dont want to hit or argue or cause shit on purpose

lately i been emotional but i think

i jst need it bc im jst so glad how open i am w all that stuff rn

i also finished king of the hill lol i dont know if i put that

[feuxx]

YOUR ANSWER 😭💖💖 youre so lovely and sweet and incredible bro😭 youre way more talented as a writer than i am!!! but i appreciate the kind words🥺im trying to find more of my confidence, but yaknow🤡clownin and shit. i have fics and shit out but im okay with staying anon if u wanna stay anon🥺i think its fun !! but ofc im also fine with not being anon😂its up to you, ofc. i started it because you are way cooler than me and so talented and i was like. scared to reach out for some reason LFKSKSKKW but ur so sweet and everything that im so much more comfortable😭

also. me 🤝 u being dehydrated LMFAOO i barely drink water fr and its such a problem. i just bought myself a water bottle that lets fruit infuse within because i am hoping it inspires me to drink more if its prettier and tasty!! its working so far LOL at least im drinking a bit more than usual.

AHH UR SO CUTE THAT U REMEMBERED STOPPP (2+ years is crazy omfgg). i just graduated in december !!! i have my masters in secondary education in teaching, but then i tried teaching and it turns out i always hated and despise the school system so i promptly quit and am going back to school LMFAOO HOW ARE YOU?? whatcha been up to? my ass is in between all things rn so im just kinda limboing

and media wise. man. ive been watching a cdrama called moonlight mystique and its so good😩��the leads are 10/10 (attractive and talented and fun to watch love n banter). my bi ass is all about it LMFAO the second male lead is kinda bleh to me as a character and as a storyline but whatever. ill deal with it at the cost of the beautiful woman and man dynamic. what about u!!! do you have any recommendations?? ive been missing my bl dramas lately fr

— your 🥀 anon💖

sfkjalsdfasdf i'm no writer my dear 🤡 also asdfkjaslsdfsdf me??? cool?? why would anyone be scared of me i'm nothing bro. a speck of dust mayhaps!!!!!!! extremely flattered that you thought that of me like that though. 🥺💖

rest of the answer under the cut because im yapping so much wow

i love the anon thing i will admit 🥰 but im even more curious. if you're willing to tell me who you are? i have been. dying of curiosity for 2 years now lmao. 🫶 you can dm me. or anything!!! if you feel like it ofc. <3

Awwww yis for the water bottle!! i tried doing the fruit infusing thing too ages ago but fruits like strawberries are expensive </3 ... i hope you can keep it up!! having a nice motivation always help <3 i recently bought a shaker bottle (for mixing up protein) and the bottle itself is shaped in a way that really helps me simply chug the water???? like. idk how but it works lmao 💥

omg!!! congratulations on finishing your degree!! that is such a big milestone 💖🥳🙌!!!!! like rip the not liking the school system but like. that is still such a big accomplishment !!!!!! still very proud of u !!!! and you should be proud of u too!!! 🥰🙌 it's kinda normal to be limbo-ing in your situation though, when you have to change your life direction like that. i hope you find your north star, once again. ⭐

the first time you wrote to me i was finishing my education and now it's been almost 2 years of 9-5 working adult lifestyle and man. i get it now when people are saying that working 9-5 is so much better than being a student. i used to be super tired and depressed at the beginning because the thought and idea of 9-5 is really soul-crushing but i learned to find joy? within my current life. so it has been going good yay! and i'm also making efforts to not fall into the sleep -> work -> sleep -> work etc. cycle because that is a depression speedrun lmao. so im trying "extracurricular" stuff, signing up to things i've never tried, socializing and making new friends, finding new things to integrate into my routine, etc. 💖 i also told myself to try dating this year too. but im having cold feet and im scared of the daunting world of dating apps. 💀

Oooooo cdramas!! googling moonlight mystique and they are all very gorgeous wowie ‼️im glad you're enjoying it, despite the bleh second lead!!!!

as for me, i've been reading a lot of . bl and bl adjacent novels lmaooooo. bl wise, i am in the midst of reading Turning and it is the most beautiful slowburn, omegaverse novel ever. idk what are your thoughts about omegaverse but this novel is one that does it right (no weird Heterosexual Gender Roles superimposed on a same-sex couple, no dubcon sex scenes) !!! the setting only adds to the dynamic of the main pairing!!! they're such a power couple!!! i say that i would die for them but they are competent enough that my death would be meaningless to help!!! I really recommend it and i've pushed it every one of my friends. 🥰let me know if you read it!!! take care my sweet 🥀 anon !!!

[imraespace]

we ignore the part hwere i forgot time exists and my daily check occurs every afternoon in my head time does not exist

HIHIIHIHII DAIYLVHDCKIN GIME 😈😈

today i got out of bed at 12 and i am tweaking bc i wanted to goto the mall today. BUT I HAVE WORK TO DOOO UGH

i usually grab my phone and scroll in my bed for like an hour when i wake up but i woke up three times one was at 9 am the next was like 9:42 and then 11:30. I ACTUALLY HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP PROPERLY BC WHY DID I WAKE UP SO MANY TIMES 👿i didnt wanna get up the first two times bc my mom was still asleep and i decide to “wake up” when i see her out of bed so i can freely scroll without her yelling

BUT TODAY SHE JUST WENT INTO HIBERNATION SO I WAS LIKE OKAY ITS LATE ANYWAYS ILL JUST GRABMY PHONE and like 6 mins later she wakes up and shes like “ure already on ur phone its so early??” and she was already getting mad but then i told her its 12 pm and she was like Oh. SO I GUESS TIME JUST DOESNT EXIST IN MY FAMILY

ummumumummummm i ate mac and cheese for breakfast i dont think thats a good breakfast but its ok and then i ate pocky and then my momi got mad again bc she said sweets are bad as i was munching on my chocolate covered sticks like oopsies

i will probably end up sending more asks later so i will make this one a little shorter than usual and willgo with the daily question now and bc we both love rin the question will be rin related 😈

dailt quesiton is would rin rather have a baking obsessed s/o or a cooking type of s/o like gordon ramsey

- 🐙

HELOME

AT 12 I WOKE UP AT 7AM bc idk.. I spend the morning watching spy x family with my momma

SAMEE ESP IF ITS EARLY THEN I FELL ASLEEP ANS WAKE UP AT LIKE 1PM it annoys me fr!!

HELPME HIBERNATION if my mom sleeps in she gets annoyed and blame everyone like if dhe wasn't up at 12am playing games ON HER PHONE

ACTUALLY SAME I DONT THINK TIME EXISTS INBMY FAMOLY AS WELL WE ALEAYS GET READY FOR AN OUTING WHEN ITS LIKE A FEW MINIUTES BEFORE THE TIME GIVEN TO MEET UP AND THEN DONT CARE IF WE'RE LATE or complain if we're late idk

for breakfast I ate ramen bc I was too lazy to do anything I want mac and cheese LMAO AS YPU WERE MUNCH8NF IN YOUR CHOCLATE STICK

hehehe I'll be looking out for them🤫🤫

PMWHAHDH HEHE RIN ERM ERM I say baking totally not bc I made y/n in my rin series a baker hahahah!!! BUT IDK I think a baker will suit him heheheh

[thelovelybitten]

vera's first watch of south park -- season four (part 4)

LORD THIS IS SO LONG SD GSDBGKSBKJ

EPISODE 11:

AYO WHAT IS THIS BEEEEAAAT BRO?!?!?!?!?!?!?

THIS INTRO IS SO GOOD I AM SHAKING ASS

12/10 INTRO CARD SLAYED THE HOUSE DOWN BOOTS HOUSTON I'M D E C E A S E D

they are now 4th graders !!! they abt to be 9 years old !!!

wendy and BEBE MY KIDS IN FRAME I LOVE IT

stan be for real Y'ALL AIN'T ABT TO SHOW ASS TO THE NEW TEACHER

BUTTERS JKDNSGJNJKDSNGKJNDFK HE'S UNHINGED UR HONOUR

I am looking respectfully. this lady's breasts are ENORMOUS

MS. CHOKES ON DICK ARE U CEREAL SDJFBJISDBGK

stan, baby, we gotta work on ur jokes.

THE WAY IT WAS ONLY CARTMAN DSAHFBJDSBG GET BONED

TWEEK IS ME FR

cartman in his elvis era

NO NOT CLYDE CRYING JSDFBGKJSDBKJHBKSD MY FUCKING BABY DON'T CRY MI AMOR

clyde and wendy giving butters the bombastic side eye

these boys abt to use timmy as time travel bait NOT COOL

Mr garrison?!?!?!? where art thou

wendy sussing out the specifics iktr

damn. timmy went flying.

nah not y'all doing timmy dirty...

WHAT THE FUCK LADY DON'T GRIND YASELF ON TIMMY HE DID NOTHING

20 MINS UNTIL TIMMY IS BLOWN UP. I HOPE WE NEVER GET THERE

Mr garrison backstory damn

of course they gonna put kenny w the exploding chair I mean how else this man gonna die huh

OMG EW U ARE SICK FOR THIS DEATH

TIMMY SAYING PLS HELP???? HIS FIRST WORDS

OH FUCK THERE HE GO INTO SPACE

NO NOT THE PREHISTORIC TIMES

MR GARRISON AS A MONK FOR MISS CHOKSONDIK

garrison pls just come out as gay PLEASE THIS PONDERING IS SO BORINGGGG

THANK YOU LORD

all the FACULTY BEING SUPPORTIVE OF GARRISON AS THEY

F U C K I N G SHOULD

I take it back, y'all freaks

EPISODE 12:

ITS BEEN A COUPLE WEEKS BUT IM BACK AND THIS INTRO STILL BUSTS DOWN HOLY

IKE IN A BUSINESS SUIT ?!?! clean af boi

FIRST DAY OF KINDERGARTEN !!!

NOT KYLE AND CARTMAN HAVING THE SAME THING

cartman always 1 uppin Kyle LMAO

who the fuck is this man.

BILL COSBY ?!,!

KYLE GET HIM

Stan being the voice of reason so real

NOT THE KIDS BULLYING IKE BOOO

Mr.Garrison bro these kids understand jack shit

KYLE BEING SMART he’s that straight A kid wbk

Kyle and Ike geniuses

CARTMAN RELAX LANDISMXKMAKD

STOP IKE IS QUAKING

BILL COSBY STEALING THE TRAPPER KEEPER LMAO

FLORA 💘 A BABY GIRL

KINDERGARTENERS RIOTING

Cartman UNHINGED

OH HE A ROBOT ?!?!,

so basically Eric destroys the future alright

FLORA DECIDED !! IKE SLAY

LMAOOOO THE RECOUNT

the kiddos are FERAL

KYLE AND CARTMAN FIGHTING FOR NO REASON

everyone okay with killing cartman

“KISS YOUR ASS GOODBYE FAT BOY” Stan spitting facts

DAMN THEY GETTING THE BIG GUNS IN

OH FUCK THAT THING IS SCARY

liane my beloved

LIANE OH MY GOD SHE GETTIN ROBOT DICK

OH FUCK CARTMAN OH NO

NOT KENNY

JESUS CHRIST OH MY GOD

liane still getting it tho LMAO

OH god KYLE it’s gross in THERE

NO KYLE MY KING SAVE HIM

MR GARRISON POPPED AWF AS HE SHOULD 💅🏻

this cartman monstrosity makes me physically sick

IKE WINS LIKE THE KING HE IS

cartman this is so gross

Stan forcing cartman to thank Kyle and doesn’t HAHAH

EPISODE 13

AAAAAA STENDYLEEEEE

Wendy looks SO CUTE JEICKSKXKDKXKC SHE IS THE GHURL

Stan and his fake beard WERK

KYLE MY SON

I’ve been famished of stendy/STENDYLE content pls excuse me

STENDY HAS A DAUGHTER OH MY GOOOOODDDDD

Timmy LOL

BEBE MY GIRL LETS GOOOOOO

BUTTER SPRINTING

CLYDE AND TOLKIEN OH MY GOD SO CUTE

the kids are so cute I can’t

Wendy speaking boosts my serotonin

GOBBLES :)))))

Timmy protecting gobbles is so sweet

OH FUCK TIMMY SAID JUMP THRU THE RING OF FIRE

AWWW GOBBLES SLEEPING W TIMMY IM CRYING SO WHOLESOME

Clyde slayed

THE KIDS ARE SO CUTE DANCING

kybe crumbs they beside each other

TURKSLAY

BEBE MAIN SLAYER

OH FUCK KENNY

Gobbles sacrificed Kenny for himself not slay

this man manipulating Timmy NOT COOL

cartmans brain is so whack

EW SOME OF THESE VISUALS ARE SO DISTURBING I can’t

NO TIMMY IM SORRY MY LOVE 😭😭😭

NOT HEIDI’S DOG :((((

ALL THE DADS SETTING UP CAMERAS LIKE DADS DO IS SO CUTE AND VERY WHOLESOME 😭 very slay of them

I SEE WENDY AND TOLIKEN CHITTY CHATTIN IN THE BACK 👀 SPARKS ?!?!

DONT KILL GOBBLES

OKAY PRODUCTION !!!!

OH DAMN THEY KILLED SO MANY TURKEYS

STENDY MOMENT STENDY MOMENT I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM

singing for their fake baby IM DEAD

I have BIG FEELINGS FOR MY KIDS

STAN AND WENDY YELLING AT THE PLASTIC BABY WHY ARE THEY SO UNHINGED I LOVE THEM

them faking their deaths to end the act is so REAL. no one is doing it like my kids ON GOD

NO HE SHOT TIMMY

IM SO UPSET

WATER HELEN

I know WENDY HITTING THAT HIGH NOTE I JUST KNOW

OH FUCK THEY KILLED THAT TURKEY ON THE SPOT

gobbles !!!!

butters. Oh my god

Okay another part bc I fear the character limit

[zerobaseonefics]

i am so so sorry for not being active here but i had a lot of stress because of university shit etc (i still do but not as much as i did last week) (and this week)

you should adopt me as a sister frfr!!

yes about hanbin: he said that you both are already planning the wedding??? you should have told me… #betrayed

and i took my nails off (if thats how you say it😟) and they were no and i had to cut my natural long nails 😔😔

no cuz i lost a lot money now on enhypen albums (i love them sm wtf its so sudden but after i found out that they were in poland (i found out sbout this during they were there) my enhypen fangirl era came back and yk i bought the dark blood album i dont remmeber what version but its dark blue and i pulled sunghoon and sunoo(AGAIN) but i wanted heeseung and jake #depressed (i got jay post card tho) and i csnt find people who sell the original photocards☹️ LIKE GIRL IM ABOUT TO GO CRAZY ABOUT HEEJAYKE LIKE OMFG NOOO NAHH WTF WHAT::;;;;::;;:::&&&&

how did the macarons taste like (good bad mid) ?!??,,? i will buy you a whole macarons factory just so you csn eat them everyday for free 😋😋

DONT CALL ME A ROOKIE!! its the first time it happened (taking a nap and then not being able to sleep again) like i take naps almost everyday because they are so lovely😔😔 but yes no school no university no anything for a long time😋 (just work) (like 20€ per week) (im teaching 2 people english so not a real job tho)

anyway my brother (6 months old) (literally 18 years age difference💀) is so annoying but so cute like bro i hate him sometimes and then day after i love him the most😐😐😐

oh and my hesrt was broken by a guy… he has the same name as i do (unisex name) we were 8-9 years at the same school and he had a crush on me 5 years ago but i didnt have a cursh on him back then so i told him that we are just friends and now since 2-3 years i started to have a crush on him but now i found out that he has a crush on deomeone else (this is mainly the reason why im so delulu rn) (i was always delulu but this is literally getting so out of hand) i also started kind of disliking zb1 i mean not that i dont like them anymore its just im not keeping up with their content now as much as i did like bro my ult groups are always changing (once it was shinee then svt then got7 then nct then gidle then enhypen then txt then svt again then treasure then zb1 and xikers and now its new jeans, le sserafim, xikers, ateez and enhypen (just that i dont keep up eith xikers and ateez content that much)😐😐😐😐 get me some help like i literally love them for a time then lose interesy in them and find another group and then its repeating all the time ykyk omg im so no

i understand bro i went through it myself so don't worry 😭 how's it going? i have no idea how you choose your college in germany so if you wanna talk abt it i'm interested 🤭 hope you'll be able to go wherever you want

bitch you're already adopted ‼️ i've always wanted a little sister

yk i didnt know how to tell you this cuz i'm a bit shy..... but he told you now so you know!! i'm not fully a betrayer!!

OH THEY WERE NATURAL??? the length was so pretty i thought it was not. it's a shame you had to cut it

enha have me on a chokehold fr this cb pure you don't understand 😀 they're also my ult but i've been not keeping up as much as before with their content. this album was just soooo good and now i'm in this enhypen shit forever bro like that's it they got my interest back

nOOOOOO 💔 BRO IM SURE YOU'LL FIND PPL WITH THE ORIGINAL IT'S A BIG GROUP IT'S EASIER

girl the macarons were awful. too sugary (i should've expect this from algeria they love getting diabetes...) </3 i felt like i was eating blocks of sugar there was no other taste i wanted to cry ok. waiting for you to buy me a macaron factory or else im gonna have to marry someone who makes them properly.

this may seem like 'not a real job' but even this is very important on your resume when you'll look for work later! it's still a great experience

that's every little brothers 🙏🏼 i have two and there's days i wanna crush them to the ground and days i wanna give them everything </3 but the age difference between you two is so big!! you know what's cool about that? you can design that kid 🤭 you can teach him how to be a good person, give him good taste, everything! that's the best thing about younger siblings

hE HAS ANOTHER CRUSH NOW?? HOW COULD HE MOVE ON FROM THE PURE??? nah he has no idea what he's missing rn 👹 don't be heartbroken over... a man 😧 okay?? move on too >:( he's no heejake >:(

ABOUT THE ULT THING. i have no idea how ppl keep the same ult for such a long time like.... i mean mine are pretty much stable too but yk there's time where you lost interest as you get into a new group. i always end up coming back to my ult but there are period yk. when i see people holding fanbases for example i'm amazed cuz how do you diligently wake up everyday and do everything about one and onlY ONE GROUP??? AREN'T YOU TIRED??? AREN'T YOU FED UP WITH THEM AT SOME POINT???

plus my problem is i'm here for the music only 🙏🏼 i don't like the music my ult put out? honestly i'm not hyping the comeback or anything. my older sister listens to kpop and fr no matter if the song's good or not she votes on every music show, she streams the song, eveRYTHING. i don't even do all that when i like the song tbh... i think it's funny to see how everyone has a different way of stanning

[aria0fgold]

It may just be the sleep deprivation, but yaknwo what? I'm going to post the whumptober snippets I've written, fuck shame yall gonna be seeing some embarrassing and self-indulgent OC snippets.

[future-boi]

Thanks to

⚡️@daryfromthefuture

💘 @jowritesfanfiction

💝 @bttf-dork for tagging me!!! 🥺😭

1. First rewatch was right before watching the musical. Second rewatch was right after watching the musical... Third was recently as I'm tryna write a fanfic and had to go over some scenes but idk if it counts

2. Bttf the musical poster and vinyl record!!! It's now the second record in my vinyl collection hahaha

3. I don't drink soda 😅

4. HELL YEAH I always take the opportunity to advertise fanfic 🤩 Its about post trilogy Marty being a bit angsty about the new timeline and missing the old timeline. But it has a happy ending. I think its the closest to canon because other ones with the same premise lean so much into the angst (not that that's bad!!! Just saying it's not the same vibes as the movies u kno) Its also old but holy shit, it contains the most cathartic end to the series. The much needed closure 🤌✨️

Peace by dapperdragon

I'm so SAD cuz I don't think the author's on Tumblr? And havent posted on Ao3 in 2 years... Which sucks cuz I'm planning to DRAW THIS FIC. Or at least the ending scene 🥺💘 It wont be for a while cuz I'm tryna hone my skills and DO IT JUSTICE💪😤 but yeah next year is its 10 year anniversary that's crazy HAHA. Give it a read plz plz plz its only 1 chapter.

5. THATS TOUGH

It's so cozy and gives me all the warm fuzzies 🥰

I'm breaking the rules

BUT I HAD TO INCLUDE THIS. FIGHT ME

Anything by @cheriboms ngl HAHAHA

Ok but if I really had to choose:

Cuz it marks the start of Doctober 🥺 and like 🥺 we did that together 🥺👉👈💘💝

Also cuz its in color and sunrises/sunset always gimme warm fuzzies🥰

6. THATS ALSO TOUGH. Actually less tough. It's all under my [#personal fave] tag. But since the other was sunrise, I gotta put sunset 😁

LMAO when u link stuff, it shows ur tag line. I totally forgot I set that 🍫🍫🍫

7. BAHAHAHAHAHA... school...

8. The Wild Life (1984) I dont recommend it tho!! 😂😂😂 it has Lea Thompson and Eric Stoltz. I also checked out the one clip from that one episode on Family Ties with Crispin Glover and Micheal J Fox. I recommend that one, it's actually funny 😂

Then I checked out the clips with Tom Hanks on the show LMAO

9. Not this year, but during my American Psycho (2000) phase, I thought their undisputed masterpiece was "Hip to be Square" 🤌✨️ A song so catchy, most people probably don't listen to the lyrics. But they should! Because it's not just about the pleasures of conformity, and the importance of trends, it's also a personal statement about the band itself--!!

HEY PAUL!!!

10. None, I don't think...

11. Hell yeah! I detailed it all on this post

12. Uh prolly once a long long time ago that I don't remember LMAO she don't talk bout it like Lorraine🤭

13. "Hey..! What the hell is this?!"

14. I got to go on both European and US trains this year. Haven't been on a skateboard since I was a tiny kid. Have never been on a horse. Never been on a DeLorean. I have run in the rain lmao. Dance? Does a concert count? My friends and I danced at one (my first one!). Never hung up a clock. Does a ukulele count? I don't think I am or ever was capable of pulling an all nighter 😂 its so weird for me to hear my peers doing it. Like??? Yall fr? Nah fam. I don't read sci fi. I don't eat fast food lmao

15. GETTING MY FANFIC DONE. Currently, it spans 6 parts and goes over the entire trilogy, complete with a Hell Valley Filler Arc! 🤭😁 but I'm working on part 1 rn and will post it while I work on part 2 and so on...

I'm also planning to draw a moment from other fanfic I adore like I've done in the past few months

Learning how to color +render my digital art would be nice!

Tagging @cheriboms

Thanks to the 3 again for tagging me! Tho @daryfromthefuture, we gotta throw hands real quick u stole who I was gonna tag😱😭😭😭😂☠️ ONLY I GET TO BOTHER @jowritesfanfiction 😤😤😤 nah jk 😁 unless 😶 nah jk jk ily i ain't hatin 😂💝

BTTF Year-End Tag Game!

This year:

How many times would you guess you watched the first back to the future movie?

Did you get any sweet bttf merch? If so, what!

How many cans of Pepsi Free did you chug this year?

What was a favorite bttf fanfic you read this year?

A favorite bttf fanart you saw this year? (please give us a link, not a screencap/repost!)

Did you create any bttf fanart or fanfic? If you did, what one(s) are you proudest of?

How many times were you late for school this year?

Did you watch any other movies/tv shows with BTTF actors in them?

Was there a memorable moment you heard a Huey Lewis song this year?

How many times did you fall down this year?

Did you get to see BTTF: The Musical? What was your experience like!

How many times did your mom retell the story of how she and your father met?

If you could describe your year in a BTTF quote, which one would it be?

⚡️LIGHTNING ROUND⚡️ Did you get to: go on any trains, skate on a skateboard, ride a horse, drive a Delorean, run in the rain, go to a dance, hang up a clock, play the guitar, pull an all-nighter, read science fiction, or drive thru Burger King this year?

Your future is whatever you make it! So what are you going to make of this coming year?

I tag: @agentmcfly24601 @moonlightandstarshimmer @brinkle-brackle @bg-sparrow @bttf-dork @mrfutureboy @pepsifox88 @tsukinikawatteus @itsthemorph @synthsays and anyone who would like to answer these questions! as always, no pressure!

[simp999]

Bloopers/Notes from "A New Home!"

☆I don't have anything too silly until ch. 15 :(

Ch. 1, Where am I?:

☆I started this fic at like, 2 am, just on complete impulse. Everything here just summoned itself from my 2 am brainrot.

☆I didn't really chat this chapter out with any friends, so nothing too silly.

Ch. 2, Meeting New People?:

☆I was planning on making reader more of a Simp, but I talked to my friends and we decided against it, since it would be difficult for reader to get along with characters more genuinely.

☆At the end of the chapter, "If I go to sleep here, will I wake back up in the real world?...", I was thinking of just posting chapter 3 where it said: You wake up, story over. The end.

Ch. 3, We are the Army.:

☆Army was an octoling since the beginning! You can see that in the banner. The background is made up of octopi instead of squids, and you can see a bit of a tentacle.

Ch. 4, If memory serves wrong...:

☆Bro I suck at writing flirty stuff. End me now, Aloha's difficult for me to write

☆The "nothin' personal, kid", was a total reference, and I plan on adding many more. I'm going to try my best to add some iconic vines that still suit the scene.

Ch. 5, Descisions, decisions.:

☆On the other hand, I looove drawing aloha! He's so cute and silly! I like to draw his tentacles very round and bubbly and man, his eyes are so pretty!

☆This was the chapter that made me start thinking about giving reader teammates, mostly because they needed someone other than a bench to sleep.

Ch. 6, Hoooow Anoooying.:

☆mASK MY BELOVED

☆Can you tell he's my favorite?

☆I wanted to make him a little silly, giving him more of a personality. He can't be scary all the time, I really do think part of it is an act.

☆Another anime reference: the lens of his gasmask shining, just like in an anime.

Ch. 7, SUB WEAPON HELL!:

☆I was torn between what to do for the banner. I already used Mask with his mask on for chapter 6, and I planned on using his maskless version for what's now chapter 13. But then I remembered another one of my favorite boyos, Desi! I know he isn't featured too much in this chapter, and I'm sorry, but I needed something!

☆Anyways, I know this entire battle by heart. I know all of Mask's voice lines. Save me.

☆I try my best to not show bias in my fics, but I will relentlessly show it outside of em'.

☆Ugh, can't wait for team cyan moments fr

Ch. 8, Newfound Family.:

☆THE GUYS FR

☆I was stuck between just giving reader nameless teammates, incase ya'll already had your own ocs in mind of something, but I HATE nameless characters. And characters that don't have a personality. I figured that I'd already have to give them personalities, so why not go all in.

☆Soooo, I threw in my beloved OCs! I've had these guys around for YEARS, so I know them and their personalities like the back of my hand, which makes writing for them super easy and fun!

☆bro they look so cursed with splatoon 1 hairstyles to me. I didn't have the heart to snatch their iconic hair, so ignore that.

LOOK AT HIM!! ITS NOT EVEN MILO ANYMORE HE'S JUST MARCUS SMH.

Ch. 9, Shopping Spree!:

☆I actually wrote this and the last chapter at 1 am by accident. I was like oho let me write a few notes down for tomorrow so I don't forget. But here we are 2k words later.

☆After seeing that the next day, I realised that the squad tm would take up 2 chapters total. There's 3 of them. So then I had to figure out how to do the banners. I worked it out, though!

☆Tasha's hair's longer I swear, it just didn't fit on the banner smh

☆Damn she and skull look a lot alike, huh

☆L

Ch. 10, Skull's Territory.:

☆I knew I couldn't have reader simp, but that doesn't mean I can't have some simpery!! So I have Milo, Leo and Tasha to do it!! They get to express my true emotions <3

Ch. 11, A Misunderstanding?:

☆sTEAAAALTH!!! <3333

☆My sweet boy

☆So the poll for background characters was mostly for him ngl

☆THOSE DAMN GOGGLES WERE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS TO SHADE WAAAAH

☆I also may have colored them green by accident the first time and had to start over.

☆I reaaaally hate making characters like Rider go OOC, but I need the story to continue! I'm sorryyyy

Ch. 12, Getting Too Comfortable.:

☆FINALLY WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE UGH

☆Also, blushy rider. ♡♡

☆He wants that battle, dude

Ch. 13, Player Two?:

☆aaaAAAA MAAASK

☆May have made a 9 hour mask playlist to write to.

☆Ahem.

☆I was planning on going in official meeting order for these uhh "getting closer with the S4", (Rider, army, aloha, mask, skull.) but my clear bias for Mask got me to write for him first.

☆I struggled to choose which song, but the idea came to me because I learned all the lyrics to Kick Back(chainsaw man), not too long ago. But I figured I'd just go with one of the most well known series/openings.

☆Didn't make the cut:

-Was gonna have reader and Mask walk in the rain together. That's why reader grabbed Milo's umbrella, cause it was the biggest one.

-c'mon, that would have been cute

Ch. 14, ...You Didn't See that.:

☆I was planning this since the start to be honest. Not exactly this scenario, but I knew I wanted to throw this headcannon in there.

☆After seeing how much love my fic was getting, I was almost going to abandon the idea, afraid that my readers wouldn't like it, and leave.

☆Jeebus those tentacles took me way too long to draw.

Figuring out what to do for Army's meetup+scrapped ideas:

Ch. 15, Sweetheart.:

☆I only made it to 1k words with Skull's part, he really doesn't talk a lot so it's hard to fill up space.

☆Soooooo

☆You guys asked for it: Avi time!

☆Now finally, here's some of the discord chats I had with my friends. Plans for story along with memes. Blanked out hints for the next chapter.:

Ch. 16, An Unexpected Meetup.:

☆I completely winged it. I knew I wanted like- a dummy kinda where we'd see all the S4 at once

☆Sorry for minimal aloha time, we got him earlier in the series though! (Bias game strong, he's not my favorite s4 member :( )

☆I'll try for more aloha time soon I'm sorry

☆The kind of rivalry/jeasoulsy between them wasn't planned and I kinda don't like it, but it is canon that they don't really like eachother so

☆Eh

Ch. 17: Not Much of a Choice, Huh?

☆Ughhh this feels like a dating sim now and I hate it

☆But characters catching feelings ♡♡♡

☆Not to figure out how they deal with them and how readers gonna figure that out

☆Wah

Ch. 18: Challengers Approach!

☆ oOoo they catchin' feelings!!!

Ch. 19: The Freshest Squid on the Block!

☆ YOOOOO LEO FANBOY!?!?!

☆ Hehe, we love making Leo happy

☆ Ugh, Emperor. I was not looking forward to writing him. I personally don't have him as a favorite, I was never able to like his kingly attitude. (I looove his design as somebody who draws nd does character design, though! Well made character.) Buuut...(see ch. 21)

Ch. 20: The Absolute King.

☆Yesss! Reader showing more emotion!!

☆Someone's gettin' angyyy

☆Ohoho does this count as angst? Berly, but I'm enjoying it

☆ Did you guys know that I half specialise in angst? Yeah enjoy that info

Ch. 21: A Crushing Defeat.

☆ Making you guys hate him off the bat is a lot dunner to write! He was shitty and mean in the first bit where he was shown anyways, so suffer! He'll have to go through some character development eventually, but until then, he's your most despised rival mwahaha

☆I hope the wat I write him makes you wanna deck him in the face :)

Ch. 22: It Only Gets Tougher, I Promise

☆ ... what no, what makes you think mask is my favorite. I show no bias ever. (How many times have I said that, now?)

[autocann1bal]

part ten of my playlist analysis!!

part 1 <;- part 2 &lt;- part 3 <- part 4 <- part 5 &lt;- part 6 <- part 7 <- part 8 <- part 9 <- right back in we go

stained glass and colorful tears - pierce the veil THE DIFFERENCE IN VIBES FROM THIS ONE AND THE LAST ONE IS SO FUNNY anyway. itd be funnier if lucy was american but i will stand by my lucy loves ptv hc.

careless whisper - george michael real ones have already heard this BUT THIS IS LITERALLY LOCKWOODS SONG CMON BRO HE LOVES IT SM HES LIKE IN THE KITCHEN ON LUCYS FIRST MORNING AT L&CO AND IS LIKE PUTTING ON ENTIRE PERFORMANCE USING A SPATULA AS A MIC CMON ITS SO FUNNY. hopelessly devoted to you - olivia newton john ok this one is a lucy george duo performance they both love this song sm and george absolutely can hit all the high notes. never ending summer - wes reeve RHRFHFHFHF FLUFFY SUMMER VIBES IN THE COUNTRYSIDE THEYRE JUST GOIN ON BIKERIDES AND PCINICS SOBS SCRESMS CREISA. to build a home - the cinematic orchestra, patrick watson shes reading to him in the library <3. could you love me while i hate myself - zeph the song fits the vibe less so but the lyrics are literally lockwood!!!!1!!!!11 stuck on us - claire rosinkranz, aidan bissett i am stuck on THEM theyre eating away at my brain fr. repeat until death - novo amor eepy library vibes (can u tell its my favorite vibe). sweet nothing - taylor swift lockwood is a taylor swift girly you can fight me on this. but yea this is more of him looking at lucy like <33. oceans - seafret oops angst now. lucy feels like theres oceans between them because lockwood is so refined and put together (or so she thinks until she hears him begging winkman to kill him) and shes so,,, not. she thinks shes messy, she thinks shes unprofessional and unfit for this job. stay live - jose gonzalez 'we'll do whatever just to stay alive' feels so lucy and george being the only things keeping lockwood alive. you wouldnt like me - sleeping at last RHRHFHFHFHFHFHFH lockwood feeling like if he shows lucy the real him she'll leave just like everyone else he just. hes so scared of being abandoned (me too homie). wildfire - seafret theyre so painfully in love i love them i love them i lvoe them eating drywall ilove them. hate to be lame - lizzie mcalpine, finneas lucy trying to deny her feelings for lockwood because/???? lockwood???? rteally??? tythat stuck up suit-and-tie wearing bastard?? LOCKWOOD???? type beat. glitch - taylor swift lockwood taylor swift girly agenda is spreading. this one feels relatively self explanatory? cognitive dissonance - sophie holohan 'get too close, build a wall' ok lockwood pack it up. summer 2019 - caroline culver feels like fight vibes. not a breakup fight but definitely a fight. sleep deprivation - chance pena lockwood insomniac part 769984580386. reckless driving - lizzie mcalpine, ben kessler this one is so close to being taken off the playlist actually i just. idk i need help deciding it doesnt feel right. did i make you up - half alive hes so confused because lucy is so??? perfect??? in his life???? impossible he has a hard time trying to figure out if shes real or not just because shes so perfect. agape - bears den lockwood song thats it thats the tweet yes i already make this joke bear with me. state of mind - sod ven more lockwood religious trauma methinks hahahahahahhahahahahahha. hot tea - half alive its even better since they all love tea sm. theyre so soft and fuzzy i love them sm. christmas kids - roar this one os very lucy centric/book lucy centric. its her sister (mary i believe?) watching her leave that tiny town and finally get rid of everything in it. WE'RE FINALLY FUCKING DONE THAT TOOK SO LONG </333

[dingleberry-art]

just remembered i have free will and can post about whatever i want so here's a little bit about living with adhd i guess (and funny/ annoying stuff i hear from people who don't have it) btw this is only my experience, and i can ASSURE you this isnt all of the adhd experience. warning, kinda sad lol (and now ive finished typing, long asf!!)

a big issue is motivation, like HUGE. My adhd causes me to have MASSIVE instant gratification problems, and several years in a row this has impacted my school. If a task doesn't give me satisfaction immediately it genuinely is painful to try and start it. I have so many art projects, sewing things, crochet, etc that almost feel like doing schoolwork if im struggling that week. I have been known to doomscroll for 7-9 hours IN FRONT OF MY ASSIGNMENT AT MY DESK because it feels like asking my body to hurt itself just to start work.

cont of the last one sort of: Wasted time (AGHGJSHGHGJA). I lowkey believe I could have done so much more with my life if I could just sit down and focus. Luckily ive gotten into the mindset of "keep pushing forward, you cant change the past" but holy shit its a killer. Assignments that take 5-10 minutes take 5-11 hours to START, and in these hours of procrastination i am NAWT enjoying myself at alllll. Its 5-10 mins of scrolling, almost start crying because i CANT JUST START, then back to scrolling, repeat. Plus what hurts more is that once i do start, it really only does take those 5 minutes

Now one that i dont really see! negative talk that comes with not getting diagnosed (oh brother this guy stinks!!). I'm gonna be short and sweet with this one because when I used to say this stuff to myself I lowkey believed it. A lot of stuff I repeated at my worst was "why can't I just do stuff like everyone else, what is wrong with me, why can't I just focus, Everyone can do this why can't I, etc" and what PISSES ME OFF!! is that SOOOO much of this is repeated/ planted by outside sources!! but i digress...

Hyperfixations! either amazing or atrocious!! Mine have never been terribleeee but they def get extreme! (for those that don't know a hyperfixation is a interest that DOMINATES UR LIFE for a few weeks, to a few months. Happens in autism too i think? and special interests are specifically autism and last yearsssss)

Fixations can be really fun and a lot of people i know say that it makes them feel like themselves, and gives them a purpose! but there is also a really not-fun side to them, some wild stuff ive experienced while hyperfixated: -can't go to the restroom/do anything embarrassing because of a feeling of the characters watching/judging you. -Stomach hurts if you see something from the hyperfix, or some sort of painful physical reaction. -Only work you are able to do is related to/correlates to hyperfix (I finished a project where I got to draw gravity falls the day I was assigned it, and I also got given a project from the same class 3 weeks ago and haven't started) -getting physically angry at slander/hate even tho it isnt that serious fr -internal monologue changes to a characters voice/a certain accent. You UNWILLINGLY imitate a characters little mannerisms without trying. -this one is funny but during my anime phase i watched so much subbed that I heard a commercial playing and thought they were speaking utter gibberish for 3 minutes then realized it was english and i had just gotten so used to Japanese w/ subtitles

Some stuff i heard other people go through (tw for sh on the last one) -Neglecting hygiene

-loss of friends because they can only talk about it -Failing entire courses or becoming severely sleep deprived -hyperfixating on problematic people or topics (you can't really control what you hyperfixate on, that's actually why I haven't watched shit like hasbin hotel or even skibidi toilet as a joke) -even in very EXTREME AND RARE cases, cutting because of the media, carving characters names, etc. and to stress this again, hyperfixations can literally give people purpose in life!! they aren't always bad! but i really don't see people talk about the downsides, and coming out of one feels like losing a part of yourself, the reason to be motivated in the first place (and this is also why I do think its important that non-neurodivergent people don't use the word to describe their interests)

other random stuff i guess

coffee/caffeine makes me tired asf, adhd meds and caffeine are both stimulants! thats why a lot of undiagnosed people actually use it as a makeshift medicator without knowing

for me personally, getting diagnosed SAVED MY LIFE but ill talk abt that in a sec

I will want to respond to your text SO BAD but it feels scary to me, like another thing on the to-do list even tho you could be the loml it would still take me 2 hrs of distracting myself to respond

ive seen a few people say that having untreated adhd feels like/goes hand in hand with depression, and while i dont think this is factually true, thats what it feels like lol

Adhd also gives you rejection sensitivity (not the official term but who cares), basically getting criticized or ridiculed feels like a straight insult at your character. felt definitely more as a little kid but can confirm BIG TIME!

another note to the sensitivity: it is very valid and real, before being medicated id cry once a month at school over small shit. I mean i still do occasionally, but i think EVERYONE i knew as a kid has seen me cry at LEAST like 7 times. also like every time i see someone describe the adhd experience well i start BAWLING. plus as a kid my youtube recommended was FULL of "how to stop being so sensitive, how to stop crying when told ur wrong, stop crying at school so often" videos

I never realized how much I cut people off when talking till someone pointed it out and I looked it up, yup its adhd

I was wondering why it got quiet a second ago but i actually never had any music playing, I just kept repeating the same song in the background of my head whilst typing this (peewee's playhouse intro btw) dunno if its an adhd thing but i see a lot of people talk abt hearing multiple dialogues at once.

meds can also be annoying asf but that can go for every mental illness. When i started mine i slept through the bell in 2 of my classes lol. (Plus i definitely need to up my dosage because it just isn't working as well as it used to.)

**btw dont be reading this with adhd by the way and think your like, doomed. Genuinely THE MOST bubbly, kind, and just downright creative people I know have adhd. i know it feels like a curse a lot of the time but please push through**

ALRIGHT!! now on to some stuff ive been told by people!!

this first heartbreaking quote was from my best friend. We were talking about our least favorite teacher (who had adhd, but my fav teacher also had it lol) and she goes "yeah i think all people with adhd are just annoying" the funny thing was that this was ALSO the day I had to tell her I was going to get checked for it so thats fun! pair that with good ol rejection sensitivity and we have a phrase that repeats in my mind once a day lmao. (dw shes been informed a lot more now and i dont think she remembers it but i corrected her on it)

second one! much more recent, my father was getting checked for autism (alr has adhd diagnosis). To prove to my step mom that him getting officially diagnosed wasn't a huge deal, he asks me "getting diagnosed really didn't help you haha right?" i just responded "lmao no it changed everything" because i don't think an appropriate response at the time would be "it literally prevented me from kms :))"

INFAMOUS ONE from my teacher! He was filling out my adhd referral form but he literally didn't pay enough attention to me in class so he just had me come up there and fill it out with him instead. The questions were "on a scale of 1-5....." and he would SAY THE QUESTION AT NORMAL VOLUME IN THE SILENT CLASSROOM "Does this student struggle with depression!! Does this student have violent tendencies!!" (not to mention a lot the questions were all geared to 10 yr old boys) then i would give him my full and honest answer, and he would say "well everyone has that!" and put THE NUMBER BELOW THE ONE I GAVE HIM. i swear bro he either needs to understand the questions arent for him, or go get diagnosed lmao.

*BUT ANYWAYS* thank you for reading this thing holy moly. I probably forgot so much and its 1am oops! hopefully this made someone feel seen or made someone semi-understand the struggle. Its just a lot of the time I see it downplayed as "ooh squirrel!!" while it has legit destroyed my life at points, and isn't any less serious as other well talked about conditions (obvs not as bad as other stuff but yk what i mean)

alright thanks again, bye!!!

I need someone to invent a machine to give anyone adhd for a month because if I hear “no I get it! I get distracted sometimes too!” one more time I might go batshit insane.

[whomst-art-thou-whomst-whomst]

Texts from the Lost Tomb, 6.2

Okay so listen this is shorter but i gotta wind up this arc before getting to a new adventure!

It's also up on Ao3!

Snake Eyes Chat

Li Cu: Hey how’s your day going? things are good?

Wu Xie: ….yes…

Li Cu: Good! Yeah, that’s good, good to hear

Wu Xie: is everything okay?

Li Cu: haha yeah it’s fine why wouldn’t it be

Wu Xie: bc you are texting me at 7am asking how my day is going?

Li Cu: oh right oops, didn't mean to interrupt sleep

or you and Xiao Ge--ew wait, never mind that

Anyhoo uh I might require some assistance?

for like five minutes tops, no biggie

Wu Xie: !!! What is going on, where are you, are you hurt!? Send me the address so we can come help you.

Li Cu: whoa whoa slow your roll

take deep breaths, you shouldn't be getting overexcited at your advanced age

It’s not an emergency

Wu Xie: oh thank fuck kid. you scared me

Li Cu: It’s just that I have been locked in someone’s freezer

Which is not an emergency

but like

It’s kind of cold and stuff

Wu Xie: wh--how does that not qualify as an emergency?? and how did you even GET locked in someone’s freezer at 7am?

Shit is this how my uncle feels all the time? This sucks.

Li Cu: hey it would be an emergency if it was YOU locked in here bc you’re old and frail

I’m way younger and in better shape I’ll be fine

I just need someone to like open the door at some point

If you have time

Wu Xie: okay. just stay calm, kid, it's all going to be alright. don't panic, it's all handled.

Wushanju Crew Chat

Wu Xie: WE ARE IN CRISIS FUCK FUCK FUCK EVERYONE WAKE UP WE HAVE A CRISIS

Wang Meng: I've specifically told you, I don't do crises until 9:00 am, normal business hours.

Wang Pangzi: ARE YOU HAVING INSOMNIA? BC I BOUGHT THAT "GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP" BOOK ESPECIALLY FOR YOU AND WOULD BE HAPPY TO READ IT TO YOU OR SMACK YOU WITH IT

Wu Xie: check the fucking thing i just sent fuck fuck

Xiao Ge: This is a serious matter, Li Cu is in danger of developing hypothermia. I am going now to find him, Wu Xie, don't worry.

Wang Pangzi: WTF?????? SUIT UP BITCHES WE GOTTA GO SAVE FROSTY

Wang Meng: I'm already up and dressed for my yoga class. I'll go start the car.

Xiao Ge: No one needs to come with me, I can handle this alone.

Wu Xie: baby I love you but please shut the fuck up and get in the goddamn car. FUCK okay everyone wait just one sec, im looking for something

Xiao Ge: ...if it's your knife, i believe it is in Wang Meng's craft bag, where you hid it during Wu Sanxing's birthday party last month

Wu Xie: fuck my life this is such a full bag i cant find anything under the yarn

im just bringing the whole craft bag on the mission

Wang Meng: Another house rule broken>:( and violence is not the answer

Mere Mortals Chat

Wang Pangzi: ITS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT.

HES TOUGH, A CHIP OFF THE OLD BLOCK.

Wu Xie: i know i know why are you telling me what i already know

Wang Pangzi: NO REASON. I THOUGHT YOU--WANG MENG NEEDED TO HEAR IT. BECAUSE UH "WANG MENG" SEEMS SHAKY AND STRESSED.

Wu Xie: yeah good thinking uh huh why can't this car go faster

Wang Pangzi: BECAUSE YOU ARE IN NO CONDITION TO DRIVE, I CAN'T DRIVE STICK SHIFT, XIAO GE IS TOO BUSY HOLDING YOU TOGETHER, AND WANG MENG BELIEVES SPEED LIMITS ARE ACTUAL LIMITS. NERD.

Honorary Wu Chat

Huo Daofu: Hello? You said to come by at 8:00am...is anyone home?

Wang Meng: We can't talk right now, sorry! Li Cu is locked in the freezer of some guy we don't know and we just got onsite but now Wu Xie's knife is stuck to a glue gun. Don't mind the glittery curtain, its probably fine and not dangerous, just make yourself at home:)

Huo Daofu: ...if I ever feel at home in an environment like Wushanju, I will consult another doctor about my sanity.

Liu Sang: ! What's the situation?

Wang Pangzi: NO WORRIES KID WE GOT IT THX THO

Huo Daofu: I'll set up triage at your house. Try not to get killed, any of you.

Liu Sang: Fuck it I'm heading to Wushanju

Doctors and Dandies Chat

Huo Daofu: Im sending you a conversation I just had. We may need help

Xie Yuchen: --how did he even end up in a freezer? Are we certain he's not *actually* Wu Xie's son? I'll send someone immediately...I'm honestly surprised you contacted me?

Huo Daofu: I will deny it to my dying breath, but you and I share what might be called a concern for Wushanju residents' safety and health.

Xie Yuchen: ....true....

Huo Daofu: Just, please let it not be Hei Xiazi you're sending

Unnamed chat:

Hei Xiazi: so i guess u came to play doctor;)

Huo Daofu: I'm not opening the gate for you.

Hei Xiazi: bitch ive got like a dozen entry methods to every major mystic nine estate its like you've never met me lol

but nah im headed to some rich guys house to join the squad in defrosting mini-Wu Xie

im getting pizza delivered there to celebrate Li Cu not turning into a popsicle, hopefully the fighting is over by the time the pizza guy arrives?

Huo Daofu: Ridiculous. Save me a slice.

Wu Family Chat:

Wang Pangzi: AHAHAHA EAT THE RICH

JUST ANOTHER DAY AT WORK

BUT WE GOT THE KID OUT SAFELY

HES NAPPING IN A BLANKET NEST ITS ADORABLE

Wu Erbai: I am delighted to hear it. Relatedly, what on earth are you talking about?

Wang Meng: Not my division. Boss?

Wu Xie: ...hmm?

Wang Pangzi: TIANZHEN?

Wu Xie: :/

Zhang Qiling: Wu Xie...

Wu Xie: <3

Wu Erbai: Nephew, if you don't start talking--

Wu Xie: OK FINE. So at the root of this situation, everything that happened is technically Wu Sanxing's fault.

Wu Erbai: ...at this point, that phrase is going on his tombstone. What happened?

Wu Xie: he uh stole some jewels. and then kinda, uh, sewed them into a beaded curtain. which he hung at wushanju without telling us about it.

Wu Erbai: What.

Wu Xie: anyway Li Cu's friend from university saw Wang Meng's tweet about the curtain when it popped up one day and recognized the jewelry sewn into the design from some famous collection that got stolen from a museum a few years ago, and rumor had it that it got stolen by this rich guy, who happens to be someone Wu Sanxing doesn't like.

Pan Zi: I cannot believe this. Wu Erbai, Wu Xie, I am so sorry, I had no idea this had happened. Is Li Cu alright?

Wu Xie: yep, Huo Daofu checked him out and everything, he and Liu Sang are arguing about setting up a D&D group.

Wu Erbai: I don't know what that means, but how cheering to hear. Now. My dear brother, you have been remarkably silent throughout this fascinating series of revelations. Any thoughts to add?

Wu Sanxing: oh hey everyone hows tricks

Wu Xie: Hello! Well everything is fine, except Li Cu got caught by security investigating your robbery early this morning and almost died, Uncle.

Wang Pangzi: THATS WU XIE SPEAK FOR "GO FUCK YOURSELF" LOVE THAT PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE SOCCER MOM ENERGY

Zhang Qiling: Wu Sanxing. I think it is time that you and I have a conversation.

Wang Pangzi: AND THATS XIAO GE SPEAK FOR "IMMA SLAP THE SHIT OUTTA YOU CUZ IM A HONEY BADGER THAT DONT CARE"

Wu Erbai: Oh dear, dear. How unfortunate. I do hope you won't injure him dreadfully, Zhang Qiling. Particularly not on his left leg, which is weaker and slow to react, and could prevent him from running away.

Pan Zi: Okay, everyone just calm down.

Hei Xiazi: ;) im putting money on Xiao Ge.

Wu Erbai: How did you even get into this chat??

Bonnie and Clyde Chat:

Xie Yuchen: So. I've just heard about the day's events from Wu Xie. You know what's an interesting part? That Wu Sanxing has all the stealth of a camel. So it's interesting that the curtain was put up so sneakily. Don't you think?

Hei Xiazi: listen sister the dude said "put up this bead curtain it's a surprise heres free money for two minutes of labor" he didnt elaborate on why, ive given up trying to make sense of Wu shit.

i was within INCHES of expensive jewelry and somehow i didn't clock it. un-fucking-believable.

Xie Yuchen: Don't forget to pick up the dry-cleaning on your way ho--back here.

Hei Xiazi: you aint the boss of me

Xie Yuchen: ....

Hei Xiazi: ...ill remember the receipt this time.