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#to the point where im making a vent post on TUMBLR THE APP about it
kinemortophobian · 8 months
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WIBTA if i cut off someone reaching out for help on tumblr? i am a very anxious person. ive been on tumblr a very long time because most all other social media terrifies me as someone who grew up with the wild west internet a decade past (im in my late 20s) so i feel sometimes with how reckless and spurractic people can be online in chatroom and especially clearly public platforms where any stranger, malicious or otherwise can just archive your digital presence for personal use.
more recently as someone who has been here during the pornban and as an asexual really enjoyed the quiet with no drama farming and a slow pace to talk about more unique political topics in a measured way it is something im strangely nostalgic for and a great example of my sensibilities to people when they insist that i use other platforms like discord or twitter or whatever clone for these services comes out of the old guard introducing feature creep to copy everyone else or any other indi "were the anti corporate version" of the endless scroll apps. i just dont want it. tumblr is special because im desktop only, been here for years, and i have kept track of every single change made so i have manually adjusted the change through hacks to evade every bad decision on here and make my set up look identical to how it was in 2010. so let it be understood that i tend to be a loney person because of this stubbornness. web 3.0 is too dangerous to people with addictive tendencies that my adhd brings out and my need to wear my heart on my sleeve. so i hope i defended my personality type enough to show why someone like me would see a post about some horrible abuses they have fell victim to who also share alot of the marginalized status as me and writing depressive things in the replys of others posts as to attention seek about it.
i directly interact with this person, not only to check if they are real (but wow, modern chat bots make this part horrifying for me. we really cant ever know for sure what is real anymore. trying to find warmth on the internet feels impossible now a days) i have multiple conversations at this point both venting and just casually shooting the shit. but the begging for me to constantly repost their paypal makes me so nervous in a way that i feel so guilty for because it reminds me of all the scams that get associated with this kind of ebegging and the reminder that capitalism takes away all warmth from human interaction to make them purely transnational and conditional. but then it just has been escalating where im so scared that now its not enough that im reposing on my 8 follower, all mutual blog, they are asking me to share it on other socials. accounts i do not have i have a flip phone and a laptop and i am tinkering with a windows 7 tower that will never be connected to the internet so i can always have software sit perfectly in its time capsule for when i need it. i do not have a way to help this person outside of what i learned from collage psyche classes. a part of me is so scared to just abruptly cut them off and just delete my entire account like i tend to do often on tumblr for a multitude of reasons, its a part of what lets people survive being here this long but i worry that would crush them if i did that, i dont want to make them feel more hopeless and unwanted then they already talk about. but i am text on the internet through a screen. i can only do so much. so would i be the asshole if i just deleted my account with a "i hope you hang in there, the world is a harsh place but keep moving" to cut someone so similar to me who is struggling out of my life?
What are these acronyms?
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mudstoneabyss · 3 years
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girl I am almost out of diphenhydramine & almost certainly out of any I can take without raising suspicion
#but girl. I feel rlly bad so I wanna just sedate that out of me and also i cant sleep more than a few hours without it#also opposite of that post that says they want only mutuals posts i wanna make posts mutuals cant see#no mutuals should see my vents ever#anyway. took the correct dosage for a sleep-aid and wow. this is doing nothing.#the urge to unfollow everyone delete every app shut off every device leave the house and not stop running#go starve to death in a forest or smtn idk#i am at a point where i dont wanna be Here (place nor state of mental health) & if i fucking must i dont wanna be sober for any of it#i'm a smile and a twitch of the wrist#yeesh i hate venting on tumblr but if i dont vent ill explode but if i vent to anyone specific ill also explode#esp if they show concern or sympathy#its like... i hate when people feel bad for me but i also hate when people dont feel bad for me#actually extends that to i hate when people acknowledge me at all but i also hate to not be acknowledged#if im not getting attention or wtvr. i feel bad and lonely#but if i am i get angry and want to be left alone#and i will feel like a bad person for it & i will feel like a bad person for even allowing myself to acknowledge that bc i feel like im idk#if theres anything bad about me any traits or habits or whatever i cant say them bc my brain considers that like. allowing them#idk if anyone would read these tags but if you are. i mean i cant make you stop and its kinda weird to tell you to on a public post#but know that i am j i am just talking to myself and i already started in these tags might as well continue#i feel like i cant rlly. set boundaries or ask ppl for things relating to things that aren't ideal or like.#lets say there's something that some1 does that bothers me whether that be just i dont like it or it is actively triggering anxiety#or delusions or smtn#i can't like. ask that they stop or do smtn to try to accommodate me bc its like. theyre not doing anything wrong thats on me#or whenevr im mad at some1 or have an argument after the initial angers calm down i always immediately go to no i was wrong im the problem#and idk. slouches down against a wall. i always feel like people are mad at me or uncomfortable with me and like im constantly guilty of#doing something wrong or being an asshole#its to the point of why we're sosoo hesitant to follow people or send asks or rb stuff like. i even wont like/rb stuff from friends smtimes#bc i think oh theyll see me in their notes and be uncomfortable bc im interacting#and i cant even grip a sink and look into a mirror and say that im just a person im not uniquely terrible bc i dont think that#i think i'm averagely terrible and thats worse. im not unique or special in any goddamn way.#anyway this is the last tag so fucking. blurry joyousposting or whatever fuck. i hope the roof on this theatre crashes in and kills evryone
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dear-yandere · 4 years
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—ask collection!
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a collection of mostly very old chats and sweet asks that i never got around to answering! thanks for the patience and love!! 
beware, fairly long post... woops....
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chat asks.
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darling: Eu-jin is best boy. Change my mind.
vanya: i am physically incapable of fulfilling that request, how dare you do that to me... i’m biased since he’s my own oc, but i would die for my (very best) boy eu-jin... who can resist such a gentle yandere that loves you so whole-heartedly?
that reminds me! he’s actually based off of kuroyuki and gekkamaru from the otome nightshade, so if you want similar characters by any chance, do check them and the game out ♡
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darling: I was watching the dub for Part 5 of JoJo's Bizarre adventure yesterday...Mista called himself Daddy and I like- sdfghjfgsdhnhnmj!! My heart can't take this--
vanya: WAIT HE DID???? i’m not even big on daddy kink and reading that made me go 😳 this is vital information to know... what episode was this??? for research purposes, of course. gotta perfect my yan! mista, after all~...
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darling: for yandere songs, have you heard of the major to minor covers by chase holfelder :O? the way he delivers the lyrics in some songs (betty, all i want for christmas), added with the key changes to minor, is really fantastic, and gives a stalker-ish vibe imo! and he's a really good singer in general
vanya: i have!! a good chunk of them are actually on my personal yandere playlist, so i end up hearing them frequently when i’m writing!! i haven’t been keeping up with his uploads recently, so ‘betty’ is completely new to me and just, wow???????????? this man is an absolute god send for us “romantic” horror fans... ♡
this ask gave me such a lovely idea, though, darling: assigning yandere types/mbti based off each of chase’s minor key covers. i think i’ll do that just for you. ♡
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darling @blossomiich​: I reread some of your old character interaction asks and saw the one with Jotaro hugging his Darling after a panic attack and the elephant seal plush reminded me of the iconic C H O N K Y ringed seal plushie that was kinda trending and I can totally imagine Jotaro having one of those >w< that's so adorable!
vanya: i honestly don’t remember that interaction, but then again i don’t remember most things hmghng so i looked it up and
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j...just imagine star plat hogging it and not letting joot cuddle with it 🥺 the duality of man...thank you for this cute image...
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darling: Umm, sorry for asking this. I'm just curious because of your bio language in your header. Are you Chinese too, perhaps?
vanya: no worries!! i’m mixed guyanese (indian, chinese, & possibly black and/or portuguese), but my family only celebrates (or rather, acknowledges?) our indian descent, since the majority of our family is predominantly east indian. 
my header is actually a quote from a danmei novel (and one of my all-time favorite fandoms), tiān guān cì fú (heaven’s official blessing)!
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darling genki stan anon: Omg you're writing for free now, i didn't expect that one lol. It's a cute show innit? Not a nagi stan but I feel like nagisa has that kinda unsnapped personality that would make him peak delusional yandere material lolol like oikawa but less threatening and without his head being up his own ass 😂. Hope you're doing well!! -gsa
Gdjsjs im such a fool, i think my last ask said something about not thinking you'd write for free when i literally just pointed out kisumi on your sideblog LMAO my bad 😅 😂 also ill hold back on the gen chan requests because ive already asked so many in the past! Thank you though 🥺. Also feel free not to post this, it can just dip into my onesided chats with my lil flower 💐 so long as you receive them im fine 😌 -genki stan anon
vanya: nagisa isn’t my favorite (kisumi is), but gods if he wouldn’t make a great yandere. honestly, out of the iwatobi boys, nagi is probably the most unhinged. i wouldn’t peg him as delusional, at least not at first; i think he’s very lucid and knows exactly what he wants and how to manipulate people in order to get it!!! kisumi is fairly similar now that i think about it... i might... have a type...
please feel free to send in gen-chan requests whenever you want!!!! i’m kinda super asocial, so it’ll take me a while to answer, but i love getting asks from you since you’re so sweet and excitable!!! your little flower reads and cherishes them all!! 🥺
also darling genki stan anon: Sorry for spamming you with asks hdjkdks, u dont even need to reply im just kinda brain empty venting here whether you recieve them or not 😂 i just needed to confess that while yes i am #1 gen simp, and he is undoubtedly my fave oc of yours but that Ilya tentacle smut had me very much so highkey kinda 👀, had to re read the genki oral style drabble to bring my head back. He dont even need to worry about luca bc that man a thot. I think therin is a thot too but like lowkey, a classy thót -gsa
vanya: omg i’ve kept this one for forever mnmghngh i might’ve even answered at some other point, now that i think about it... but i just 🥺 gosh i hope i find my muse soon, because i really wanna write you a genki fic 🥺 hhhh
the ilya tentacle smut was so in character for that boy... i have no clue how to write monsters, much less tentacles, but i’d honestly do anything for him 🙏 kinky russian boy...
therin is definitely a classy thot, the kind that only bangs the finest concubines then turns around and slut shames you for banging the very same prostitutes gbfmngnfg rules don’t apply to him, in his kingdom...wish that were me tbh ✊😔
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sweet asks.
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darling one: i've read almost all of your dazai and chuuya fics and i love them so much!! your formatting is also super aesthetic just a question, i saw on your kofi that you also draw so i was wondering if you drew all the header arts?? bc they're all super pretty :) have a great day!
darling two: Just wanted to say love the writing and the way your format your posts is so aesthetically pleasing. One day I hope my posts looks half as good as yours because I legit can't get over how pretty and organized it looks.
vanya: omg thank you so much!!!! one of my bffs, yue, is to thank for the formatting and aesthetic choices, really! if you wanna see more of her aesthetic formats and posts, she actually runs a few blogs! you may know her as @milkscafe​, formally @milkaaton! i adore her and her aes choices so much 🥺
as for the headers, i don’t draw 99.98% of them! i have drawn a couple, but they’re so few and far in between since i almost never finish my art wips haha... my older posts are lacking proper credits because i’m an absolute idiot, but i’m slowly working my way backwards to credit them all where possible! they’re all indeed super pretty!!!
have a great day yourself, my love!!
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darling: THEY’RE NOT BAD CONTENT, I LOVE THEM ALL
vanya: this was in response to a now-deleted lil blurb but i kept it in my inbox because i wanted to say i love u very much and seeing this ask each time i open my inbox makes my heart skip a beat ♡
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darling: Listen I love your writing, you inspired me to start it myself! I've always loved to write, and read of course but your style and concepts just stick with me. If you where to write something besides Yandere content/fandom content and started your own series? I would read the shit, out of it. I'm always nervous to interact with my favorite writers because you know, I'm afraid of the impression I'd leave but I just wanted to say this anyway! 💞💞💞🔫😳
vanya: wowowow fgfnmgnfmngfg that’s such a high compliment my brain just gmfnbgmnf go boom fogjfngnfg and thank you for the interaction, us writers truly appreciate it no matter how awkward or nervous you think you may be / come off!!!
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darling one: As a writer, your post struck a nerve with me. I don’t send feedback to writers I like nearly as much as I should (and certainly not as much as I’d like in return as a writer). So, as such, I’m going to start doing that when I can, starting with you.
You are an incredible writer. You were one of the first yandere writing blogs I found and you’re still one I check in on regularly to see what you have been working on. You can portray a sense of suspense and intrigue in a natural way that many other writers - published ones included - struggle with. You delve into the darkness without it feeling forced, and you have an amazing grasp on the psyches of the characters you write for (which is a quality I adore in writing and strive toward myself).
I’m not great at ending these things so I guess.. you keep doing you? Because the you is great and I appreciate it.
darling two:  hey. i'm here to tell you that from the bottom of my heart i love you and your writings. i really admire your writing skills. you inspire me. one of your posts once saved me from a nervous breakdown. thank you for everything you do. you're a wonderful person. good luck!
darling three: I wanted to tell you that thank you for writing such wonderful beautiful writings and that you take time to edit and write I hope you are taking care of yourself 💖❤
darling four: Thanks. I was having a hard time and deleted all my apps, but as soon as i opened my phone my first instinct was to look at your blog and i got my motivation back. Thanks (:
darling five: Hi ! I just wanted to say I really enjoy the stories you write and how they are detailed so well ! Stay safe and I hope you have a good day/night ! ლ(╹◡╹ლ)
vanya: ahhhh, these are very old asks mostly dating back to my “tumblr writing community is dying” post, and i’ve kept them this entire time because i’m just so starstruck. i have no clue how to reply to compliments, so i’m not sure what else to say besides that these asks made me very happy and got me through a few insecure moments!!! i’ve actually been feeling a little down about my writing recently, mostly because of lack of motivation / inspiration, so revisiting these really warmed my heart, so thank you truly ♡ i’m certainly keeping the originals in my inbox until the end of time!!
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darling @monstrously-obsessed: psst, this local cryptic mom thing send all of their love for you 💕
vanya: your local herbo says she loves you very much momster 🥺 mwah
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also, to the anon worried about my safety:
thank you so much for pointing that out!!! it hadn’t even crossed my mind when i made those ocs, so i appreciate your concern! i was contemplating revamping those two as is, so this is a great place to start! thank you again!!
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Is there a bad vibes blog? One where I can just vent about how much neither of my parents like me?
Lee says:
You could download the app Vent which is specifically for the purpose of venting! This is a good place to vent because you’re doing it in a space where everyone else is doing the same, so it can give the sense of community while also offering that anonymity.
You can also make your own private sideblog and post whatever you want there! That way you can vent to the void without having a character limit like an ask box does.
You can get a physical journal to write in too, if you don’t think your parents would snoop in your room and read it. Sometimes writing things down on paper feels better than just typing it.
And I know there are also diary and journal apps out there, like millions of em, and some can be password-protected, so that’s something you should look into as well. Those may be more discreet than something marketed as being for vents.
A long-term goal is reading the articles linked in the Getting a therapist and being in therapy post and then starting the conversation with your parents about getting a therapist. 
Therapists are the perfect people to vent to- that’s literally their job, so they’re more prepared to emotionally cope with and handle what you have to share with them than a random Tumblr blog’s teenage moderator might be.
In the meantime, we have info on coping with distress on our mental health page as well.
Other tumblr blogs that have said at some point that they accept vents:
@ventphobic
@safetyincolors
@transventer
@thattransfeelwhen
@the-straight-whisperer
@confessionsoflgbt
@exorsexistbullshit (nb specific)
@ourgenderconfessions
@shitnbpplhear (nb specific)
@transmanconfessions (for trans men)
@transguyvents (trans guy specific)
@transmanconfessions (trans guy specific)
@thattransfeelwhen
@positrans said: You can vent to us and we’ll try to give you some positivity!!
@transboy-suggestion said: Trans men can feel free to vent/ask for positivity/send in submissions here!
@nonbinaryntransstuff said: You can vent here too!! 💖
@trans-guy-issues said: Sup I’m here! Only transmasc people can submit an issue but I’m fine with vents from any trans ppl in my askbox
@transmascsupport said: Feel free to vent!
@perks-of-being-transgender said: I also accept Tumblr IMs from gender-questioning or transgender adults (18+) as well! Feel free to vent tome there. :)
@transfemmedysphoriais for transfemme people and dysphoria venting
Note: this list is a bit old, so i’d double check with the blog to see if they’re still accepting vents
(Other trans blogs, feel free to reblog this if you also accept these types of asks and say what kind of content you accept)
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fighting-acorn · 5 years
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Calling Out Enigmaincrimson
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I’m going to start, first and foremost, with this simple fact. No one told me about Enigmaincrimson when I started feeling uneasy and wanting to split away from them. They approached me, we RPed a bit normally, and then he started sending IC asks into my inbox. Normal, right?
Well, enigma/evelyn didn’t reblog the asks to continue in an RP, nor did they make a new post to continue, or even ask me to make a new post. He just continued to send IC asks of a continuous discussion, and I had to ask them to please stop and RP normally. 
The bellow are IMs of that interaction, the same ones he’s right now complaining that people like me ‘erased’. Basically, I explained this, that sending the in character asks wasn’t a good way to go about RPing with someone if they were going for a continuous interaction.
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Note, at the time of this conversation, Enigma’s blog was full of either aesthetics, musings, or memes. There were no roleplays like he has now. I’ll continue under a readmore, as there is a lot to go through. 
As a reference to the cluttering up the dash, both myself and a few of my RP partners approached Enigma about trimming his posts, as for some devices, long posts can cause the Tumblr app to slow down and get janky. I’ve experienced it, and so have my partners, so we have good reason to request that or partners trim their threads. It helps keep the dash neat and lets us find roleplays easier on both desktop and mobile. Keep this in mind, I’m not done with it yet.
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Yeah, I get that, it happens to me too, but that doesn’t really matter when you can approach people. Of course, enigma can’t do that without trying to gaslight and make themselves the victim. It’s not clear in these IMs, but Keep this in Mind, I’m not done with it yet.
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Now, at this point in time, I didn’t know, but Enigma absolutely has branched out, and they’ve been so bad at interactions and never adapting to other people and not compromising, that he continues to be driven away because no one wants to put up with enigma’s toxic behavior. 
Keep this in mind, I’m not done with it yet.
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So now we get to the Discord that Enigma mentions in their vague posts. Do you want to know why you were kicked out? Because you didn’t. do. anything. except. vent. You complained, and complained, and complained over and over and over and you didn’t actually interact positively with anyone other than complaining!!!
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So remember what I was saying about how we asked Enigma to trim their posts because it crashes the Tumblr App? Here he is misconstruing what we asked to make themselves look better.
Way to go beating up that strawman. It’s the only fight you’re going to be winning around here.
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I’m sorry if some people like putting effort into making their blog look different and unique, as well as efficient, especially coming from someone who has a custom theme themselves. You’re showing your own hypocrisy here where you thought no one was on to your bullshit. Keep that in mind, I’m not done with it yet.
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This was the day I had enough. Because, not doing anything? That’s a load of fucking bullshit, and I want to be very fucking clear about something. At this point in time, I STILL was not in contact with anyone else who’d dealt with Enigmaincrimson before. This impression I had of him was something he made for themselves in isolation from ALL the other bad reputation they made for themselves.
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Here I am, considering whether or not to call his ass out. Spoilers, I did. Because once more, Enigma was complaining that people were bringing up that Enigma had too many OoC posts. More importantly, this is AFTER I talked to them in IMs about OoC posts, AND ENIGMA INVITED ME TO THIS SERVER.
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Way to twist the situation with me into something that makes you look better, right in front of me. My last post was right above that. Evelyn KNOWS I talked to them about too many asks. 
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You don’t mean to guilt trip, you say as you do nothing but vent and make yourself look like the victim in all of these interactions, some of which I was there for, part of, or am friends with the people that were part of, where we can call you out on your lying ass.
And I did.
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And it’s clear, even now, after months of not hearing anything about enigma, he follows my other friend whom he had people go after, because I told her about THIS drama that was going on. She just told him not to vague, and the results of that resulted in enigma’s blind followers going after her because enigma had effectively convinced them that enigma was the victim in all of this.
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Now, it’s all coming to the surface again, and this time, there’s far more information There’s more call outs now, because He hasn’t just been doing this since midway through 2018. Enigmaincrimson has been at this for multiple years. That reputation he says he got? That he says people keep attacking him?  He’s fucking earned it. I don’t appreciate the vagueposting. I don’t appreciate the lying. If it weren’t so effective, I wouldn’t need to call him out, but I see good RPers falling for enigmaincrimson’s bullshit because he tells them half-truths and lies about the situation, claiming that the evidence is erased and can’t be found. 
Motherfucker, I saved all of this shit because I knew I’d need it someday, and here it is. Here’s the day I bring it to light. And to reiterate.
ALL OF THESE SCREENCAPS WERE TAKEN BY ME BEFORE I KNEW ABOUT ANY OF THE OTHER SHIT HE’D DONE.
This is something that Enigma brings on themselves, because they don’t take responsibility and place all of the blame of their actions on everyone else.
I hope I don’t have to call Enigma/Evelyn again after this, but I have a feeling I’m going to have to eventually, because if after 2 fucking years of pissing people off, he hasn’t learned anything, I don’t think he’ll learn anything in the next 2 years.
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I have two friends also posting call outs. @pixel-galaxy and @breaking-the-boundaries. If you want more context for Enigma’s bullshit, I suggest taking a look at their call outs, as there is much more damning evidence against enigma than what I have here.
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hontou-baka · 5 years
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been awhile, hasnt it, tumblr.
i have a fair amount of followers, half of which are probably old spam and porn accounts, so i doubt anyone will read this and i doubt anyone cares. venting, self indulgence, i guess.
im not sure if im back. i hope not. not to sound condescending, but im trying to spend my time doing meaningful and purposeful stuff. tumblr is just another social media app that sucks up my time when procrastinating. but i might try to get back into art, and tumblr is maybe the best place to put that, so.... idfk.
i came back once, fleetingly, when white diamond was revealed- knowing tumblr was my best place for content and info and craving it. same goes for right now. i just finished the homestuck epilogues and needed to see others thoughts, some content, i need it for my own catharsis.
ill give my hot take on the epilogues. im sure you could already tell what my opinion is from the posts ive shared. to my relief, this seems to what the majority of others are feeling, too (based on my scrolling through the homestuck epilogue tag for a few hours). they were fucking awful. felt like an edgelord's "pain is the epitome of human emotion" fanfic. it solidified my feeling that hussie no longer cares about homestuck. no, it confirmed to me that he violently LOATHES homestuck, and perhaps even (or especially) its fanbase.
i always thought homestuck would be the most important thing to me. it was, ever since i started reading it 6 or so years ago. there will never be anything that even comes close to what homestuck was for me. it was the only thing that kept me alive through some of the hardest parts of my childhood. i made some great friends at the time because of it (not that any of them stuck around). i was planning on doing homestuck cosplays for the rest of my cosplay existence, to prove that homestuck was still my #1. i wanted to get homestuck tattoos once i was free of debt!
but the ending of homestuck left me bitter. imo, the fandoms bullshit and the hiveswap fuckery left no love in hussies heart for his creation. he wanted it over, and just ended it. but nobody was satisfied with that of course, including me. so i was ecstatic to hear there would be an epilogue. but as weeks, months, years went by with nothing... i began to accept that wed probably never get epilogues. id just love homestuck for what it was, be salty about the ending, and that was that.
then, they came.
reading the epilogue tags, i thought they were a joke, just as many others did. it sounded like every sensitive subject that could ever be tagged was in there, including shit that just seemed ludicrous. but i persisted, like a fool, desperate for the sburb-logo hole on my heart to be filled.
the prologue already gave me so many red flags. my husband had hope, liked where it was going. a huge time skip, ten years we just have to accept went by. all of the characters had drifted apart so bad it was jarring. johns depression and mistakes and regret was daunting. everything felt so off.
and it only got worse. i started with candy. i was confused that thered even be the option all written out for john to stay. at first, i thought i was going to get some good ship shit. rosemary was the only good thing about candy. johnroxy started, took the fuck off, then just... it all fell apart. not a singe character consistently behaved in a way that felt like a natural progression of the characters we followed for so many years. what was the point of jane becoming trumphilter? to angstily show the duality of man? what was the point of all of the weird ass sex? it just feels like such a forced thing, like "oh, everyones grown up now! gotta fuck, and dont you dare even THINK any of it is going to be vanilla fluff and not.... anything but that...."
im not usually one to get upset over content that most find triggering, unless its real or shown in a very real way. but, for example, i honestly felt sick when dirk killed himself. i could go on about candy but it just felt like there was so much bait for a semblance of happiness, just to make it all as bad as possible.
meat was worse. hastily attempting to tie up plot points (like lord english) while also making dirk akuma homura...
also, apparently the author of family never ends had a hand in this? ive never been one for fan fiction, but for some reason i read that one, and it fucked me up. bad. i had the worst bout of depression and even suicidal thoughts for the first time in a while because of that fic. so, it feels like hussie wanted to recruit some ruthless-ass people to make something to intentionally hurt the people who demanded so much of him for a work he clearly hates now.
i... i think i dont like homestuck anymore, EXCLUSIVELY because of this. it feels like im throwing away one of the biggest parts of myself. it hurts so much, i feel so, SO betrayed. i would rather hussie have just announced he no longer had passion for homestuck, give us a shitty .txt file of a true ending (or the gist of one), and have left it there. but i guess that wouldnt have made him money now that viz bought the franchise.
i think, i will not come back to tumblr. it hurts. i had plenty of reasons for leaving, including everyone dipping out of homestuck. and i have other interests now that just dont align with the tumblr ive made and the followers i have (not like, core shit like lgbt+ rights or anything, im just really into health/fitness and particularly nutrition and i doubt my followers signed up for that plot twist). without homestuck, its even more just a painful past that haunts me here.
thanks for everything, if anyone ever even reads this. it was fun while it lasted.
-Hanna, aka hungoverterezipyrope
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Describe each of the PCs' blogs, and what they usually blog about
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Zey: it depends on the universe. zeys typically a lot more of like a youtube/snapchat/instagram gal, she likes taking and sharing pictures and seeing other peoples pictures, her tumblr is reserved almost entirely for crossblogging from her other accounts and 4 interacting w her fans and interacting w the content the other pcs make, if she does reblog anything beyond like stuff she herself made or that people made for her, its all humor things, jokes, she doesnt get a lot of tumblrs humor but there is still some humor she does get, so if it makes her laugh, she reblogs it, and she also reblogs music, espeically original music, that she likes, which her fans then see and make popular, hence why she reblogs it to begin w
Sylvia: i tink sylvia would b like zey in that her tumblr is mostly 2 keep tabs on the other people in her community, especially the other pcs, her blogs mostly empty but she likes her friends personal posts with near religious dedication. 
Rekmid: rekmid doesnt know how 2 do most things w computers but she loves her friends and wants 2 support them and keep tabs on them, so she makes a tumblr. her theme is still the default but zey showed her how to change her icon and its of rokgor. she posts a lot, but like, complete non sequiters that dont have 2 do with anything and have zero context like “what the fuck was with that guy” and “go team *insert 10 emojis here*” which team? no one knows. also likes her friends posts with near religious dedication, often reblogs and leaves a comment in the post itself. also leaves comments in the post itself for e v e r y reblog, she’s the mutual youre embarrassed for, please, someone teach her how to tumblr propeerly, reblogs so many different things, animals, her friends posts, signal boost posts, infromational posts
Dana: shitposts, shitposts s o o o o o much, and then like dives into seriousness when she reblogs and writes an essay pointing out flaws and inaccuracies in some like, historical or faux-informational post, and then the op reblogs hre essay w an essay of their own and she just reblogs with ‘lol’ or something similar, she doesn’t care t h a t much
Gwyn: has like a sideblog, off of one of thea’s dummy accounts (because thea would have fucking dummy accounts) and like, her blog’s a ghost town, but she always seems 2 be lurking w that like and empathetic emojis
Thea: does she have a blog? she has the tumblr app downloaded, gwyn’s confirmed she does have a tumblr, but no one knows what it is, what’s on it, anything. she has dummy accounts that she sometimes queues posts at for like 4:15 in the morning, and no other time, but her r e a l blog is a fandom blog where she goes on in essays about classpecting that is Very Serious. just kidding about the very serious thing, shes a fucking nerd and runs like 4 different blogs, like shes got a pure multifandom and an aesthetic blog and a classpecting (or fantheory) blog and a blog she uses to absolutely t r o l l everyone else, but especially rekmid (dana is left alone, but once one of dana’s essay reblogs was from one of thea’s posts and thea spent like half the night in a panic because she thought she’d properly fact checked everything. but dana just like demolished her arguement and logic. she never respons)
CURI: very cute aethetics blog, has a minimalist theme and like 0 text posts beyond reblogging like, self help/mental health posts, is that person who’s always like “I’m here if my followers need anything!!”, does actually get a few anons who need to vent, handles it very well, but always stresses that she isnt a replacement for actual medical help or therapy (”though i soon will be qualified!”)
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