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somethingwickedarts · 7 months

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“Well... I like night orchids and can't swim. Is that the sort of thing you meant?”

“Really? You’ve spent decades training to become an elite assassin but never learned to swim?…. Perhaps one day I’ll teach you.”

Just two clerics of selune in looove.

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angelnumber27 · 3 months

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violently forcing myself to have better days

#everyone’s different and this isn’t true for everybody of course:#but a lot of the time we have more control over things than we can see in a difficult moment #like for example #a negative thought is inevitable and not something you can just stop. however you CAN decide from there how you let it effect you #it’s way easier said than done but you genuinely can be like hey I’m going to have a good day today #I like to set my intentions for the day and not allow my trauma nightmares to dictate how my whole day goes #but in order to do that I have to consciously decide that I deserve better and then create that for myself #does this make sense?#do things you know you enjoy/ things that make you feel better. take care of yourself. create little healthy routines to do each day #even if it’s just for 5 or 10 minutes #you have to act to make a genuine positive change in your life and circumstances #tried to say this as well as I could but I struggle w articulating exactly what I mean #like my thoughts are too complex to translate into words #anyways though I just wanted to add this- this post is not to make anybody feel bad whatsoever.#if you struggle with certain disorders and such it genuinely might be close to impossible for you to actually be able to have that control #and that’s okay. it doesn’t make you any less of a person and it is not your fault that you experience those difficulties #I just wanted to remind people that it is possible to control certain aspects of your life and it is possible to snap yourself out of it #I know I need to remember this as often as I can #that’s why I shared it #I hope this makes sense I do not know if it does lmao #(the tags)#my thoughts are so jumbled up. idk what other word to use lmao

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months

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when freedom is in sight!!!!!!!!

#(aka it’s my last day of work!!!!!!!!! i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!)#it’s like 2.30 in the am rn and i have to get up in less than 4 hours but. still!!!!!#im too happy to sleep lmao i feel like a kid on christmas eve again #this weirdass company culture says that we (the leavers) have to treat everyone to pizza or sth #isn’t it usually the other way round though? shouldn’t they be treating the leavers as a show of gratitude for their hard work?#but eh. the place is filled with cheapskates who only think about working us to the bone for the sake of their profits (i think)#so ✨s o r r y✨ dear managers no treats for you~~~~~ im giving ind*m*e (censored for copyright) to my immediate colleagues only~~~~~~#you can always feel free to treat me though~~~~~ :)))) my wallet is always open for donations dear managers o’ mine~~~#(this manager who expects me to treat everyone also outright refused when i asked her to treat me to beef wellington though :( sads :( )#(i worked sooooooooooo hard for you over the past couple o’ years and i dont even get free beef wellington~~~? :( )#but euuuugghhhhhhhhh since the team lead’s on leave today ig i’ll be the one in charge for the morning shift today too…#but it’s my last day~~~~ i wanna relaxxxxxxxxxx (<-same person who took a short nap on the clock earlier)#anyways!!!!!! i’ll finally have time for idol sengen after this aw yissssssssss wait for me asuna-chan im almost freeeeeeee #though. speaking of idol sengen… im still waffling about whether to have asuna drop swear words during the [spoiler] scene…#i mean. it’d make sense in terms of context/how abrasive she was being but. she’s an idol!!!!!!! choices man..#well. i guess that it’s retirement-me’s problem to think about lol. i need to get through just 1 day of work first!!!!!!#‘it’s starting to sound like you quit your job to tl idol sengen—’ n-noooooooo~~~? totally not i s w e a r!!!!

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peaches2217 · 2 months

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I am manifesting healing and productivity by putting on jeans and a shirt. I WILL spend some time outside today and I WILL feel better, so help me God! 😭

#I legitimately haven’t been outside in days #I don’t even know how many. they’re all running together #and what do I have to show for it? absolutely fucking nothing #it’s a little cooler out today thankfully so if my favorite park isn’t too crowded I’d like to sit and hang out with the geese!#gonna try to eat first though. that might help the dizziness 😅#peaches screams into the void

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regular-lord-reckoner · 1 month

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i’m home !!

procedure went real well, everything was really smooth and almost as soon as they said, “you can count backwards if you want,” i don’t think i even said ten before i was suddenly in recovery and sipping some ginger ale.

honestly the worst part was the iv because they had to do it on the side of my wrist because apparently my veins are crooked ?? i just hate ivs anyway so that’s no surprise but other than that no complaints.

everyone was real nice and made sure i was well taken care of (my nurse even had me pee one more time before so she wouldn’t have to do a catheter which with my history…..thank you)

but yeah, i’ll have a follow up in about a month just to make sure everything’s good and the iud is doing its thing !!

i do have some cramping and bleeding but that’s normal, although a little funny because i literally just stopped my period yesterday but…oh well !! hopefully in a few months i won’t have hardly any so this we can handle and i hace some medicine (and my ~medicine) that’ll help so i’m all set.

mom had to go run some errands so my little recovery buddy is keeping me company. also, a moment of recognition for my new favorite shirt (thank you as always, Boss Dog Art; i’ve already got my eye on another one that says, “i think therefore i am against transphobia around the world” or something like that and it’s got a cool skeleton on it; this is my third shirt from them and they’re really comfy and good quality so not sponsored but check them out, they seem cool):

#It’s been a rough week leading up to this i’m not gonna lie #one of my neighbors was shooting on Sunday when i was in the pool #which i’m used to at this point #but for some reason i got triggered into a panic attack #and could not catch my breath #could not calm down for several minutes just scream crying #had to dunk my head underwater a few times and splash myself in the face #eventually i just buried my face in my towel and screamed cried until i physically had to stop #because i thought i was about to have a heart attack #so that wasn’t so chill #spent the rest of the day shaking #guess you just never know when it’s gonna hit!!#another plane has hit the ptsd towers #sorry #not for nothing though but the shooting stopped so there’s that #they probably thought someone had a fuckin’ ari aster movie turned up over here #nope just a mentally unstable bitch doing her best which clearly isn’t great but what can ya do!!#it was kinda funny though because i’ve been hesitant to go back out there since #but finally yesterday i had even worked longer the day before so i could really enjoy it #it had been sunny all day #no signs of rain #i’m ready to get some exercise in because i knew it might be a while #before i can again so i was really looking forward to a nice 30 minute run #damned if it didn’t start raining as soon as i got out there #and that was fine #i still ran a little got my water weights in #but the kicker was i looked at the weather on my phone and it looked like it was going to keep raining #so i said okay let me just go take a shower and settle in for the night #it didn’t rain and the sun came back out so oh well!#but point is…today went well and i’m doing okay and things could always be worse so no worries <3

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countess-of-edessa · 10 months

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the thing about taking advice from anyone on tiktok or instagram including catholic and christian type influencers, parenting advice, relationship advice, etc, or internalizing any stories of horrible relationships and betrayal people tell on those platforms, or reading about all the ways interpersonal relationships can end horribly and be cycled through extremely quickly on those platforms is that you are necessarily then consuming the thoughts and experiences of someone who is willing to put their face and name on a public social media platform to talk at you. and like 1% of those people have a good reason for doing so and the other 99% are completely unhinged. so everything you’re consuming has first gone through the filter of "is this person weird and insane enough to make Instagram reels of themselves crying?" and if the answer is yes maybe their advice doesn’t apply to your life because you’re a normal person who would not do that.

#i don’t know if this makes sense but it’s something i was thinking about today #not that i really live my life according to Instagram reel advice but as a human being when i see something stated as fact i naturally seek #out the parts of it I believe or compare it to my current worldview #and when that person seems to have a lot of “clout” for discussing spiritual things….idk sometimes I’m like wait is this true? should i #believe this? and other times I’m like well is this a real pattern of behavior that can be observed in many people from different walks of #life including my own? this thing that all men do or all women do or the way all couples will eventually behave #this makes it sound like i am constantly on social media consuming hours of content which im really not #I’ll be on a train and scroll a little bit and something gets stuck in my craw #but with me I’m always like am i rationalizing this away because i don’t want it to resonate?#and I think in the case of anything on social media the answer can almost always be no #because im like wait. why would i take advice from someone who has a public Instagram account #im not saying a stopped clock isn’t right twice a day but really how much of my perspective and life experiences can they share in #when we have this totally totally mismatched worldview #(i mean this also applies to basically anyone offering any type of life advice who isn’t catholic about that)#(but when they are Catholics doing this that gives me slightly more pause for obvious reasons I’m like we are on the same team though?)#(and we are but only kind of and i do not have to listen to you because being an Instagram influencer is still cringe in 99% of cases.)

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mars-ipan · 1 month

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i am just so drained today and i can’t figure out why. i felt optimistic energy-wise this morning and then it just dropped off mid-afternoon and it hasn’t picked back up since

#marzi speaks #i know that recovery can be unpredictable like this and that healing isn’t a linear process #but like fuck. cmon man. could i at least have the appetite to feed myself so i have the chance to regain some energy?#worst part is all i want is eggs. which are great for you! but they take more spoons to make than i have #and while i know my family will gladly make me some eggs if i ask. i also seem to be having a day #where asking for anything feels equivalent to kicking someone’s dog #sighhhh. this shit is so stupid #maybe the sore throat stuff made me a lil depressed and that just seeped into my body. or something #it’s a little annoying though. i still haven’t taken my supplements today

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inlovewithaspiderguy · 2 months

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Tomorrow I have an interview to do free work for an association and I’ve done such interviews before and this really isn’t a big deal but somehow I want to tear off my skin about it

#it put me in a bad mood all day even though I did fun things today #like I literally went to a fun fair #i don’t know #tomorrow I have three things planned and it’s stressing me #1 interview 2 shrink appointment 3 theater (we’re watching Deadpool 3)#that last one isn’t a task like the others but it’s still something with a set time and place to be and there are some things I shouldn’t do #forget to take with me and yada yada yada #tw gore #depression posting #tw self harm

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vertonghen · 25 days

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#i miss london so much already 😞#i know it’s just post vacation depression but i’m sooo sad my city is so boring i had a million things to do and see every day there #it’s a beautiful day today though so i’ll try to make the best of it but going from staying 20 mins away from central london to #living in the suburbs of the most boring city ever isn’t fun!!! anyways. whatever. at least i have spurs at newcastle to look forward to 🥴#will gather my spurs haul from london later this morning and post it :P i love everything i bought there and i bought. a lot.

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musicalsiphonophore · 8 months

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my uterus hates me so much this month. my period is literally twice as heavy as it usually is on day 2. like wtf

#and my period is usually very heavy as well btw #so this isn’t like. “ooh it’s heavy enough that i need to use the chunky tampons”#this is like “I stood up for one second and blood ran down my leg and into my jeans”#>:/#i use period pants which normally last all day or maybe almost all day. like i might need to change them at 8pm if it’s particularly bad #today they lasted me to 3.30pm.#at least it’s less painful than normal!#and hopefully the extreme heaviness will mean it lasts shorter #FUCK YOU DROPPING PROGESTERONE LEVELS!!! 🖕#i think that’s the hormone that causes menstruation anyway?#might be estrogen. feel like it’s progesterone though

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floral-hex · 2 months

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One of my brothers is moving away to college today + I have to skip therapy, so it’s a lot of… a lot. a lot.

#he was just a baby! he was just a little kid I carried around and took care of!#no nope. not gonna get into it right now. I WILL cry. it’s not even 6am and I do not need that right now #and I don’t really know if therapy today would really help #if I got into it I’d just start crying in front of this nice dude for an hour #though yeah… might be nice to.. I dunno… just talk about it.#I am always simultaneously ‘therapy is good’ and ‘what’s the point in talking about it?’#so maybe I do need that person that’s like ‘this is your time. just fucking talk.’#but also right now it’s like… talking about it won’t take me back to when my brother was little and far off from leaving #blegh…#whatever. anyway. it’s gonna be a sad day. I’m gonna cry A LOT. I’m gonna be alone in this apartment and just sooooobbbbbbing #and then keep this inside for another week before I can go to therapy and talk about this bc god forbid I talk to a family member about it #ok now it’s 6am. I think he’s leaving in about 4 hours. it’s cool. it’ll be cool. 😎 I’ll just miss my bro so dang much #but maybe I’ll walk down to the dollar store and stock up on snacks and I’ll get blasted and fatter and try to stay positive #uggghhh #I’m too emotional #time just keeps moving for us all. to my dismay.#’time is the fire in which we burn’#you can ignore this #I don’t think I’ll ever have kids. I’ll never have kids. and being there. with him. with my brothers. that was the closest I’ll ever get.#and it’s over… so… 🤷🏻‍♂️… it’s just done… they’re grown. and I’m still here. I don’t know what else to say…#but that’s life. they’re doing their thing. I’m happy for them and I want them to be happy too. I’m just a big crybaby #IAN!… stop typing!#just making myself sad at this point #it’s fine. it’s fine. I’m fine. I’m cool. everything’s… cool 😎#this isn’t important #text

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suappang · 2 months

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i got a coffee this morning and idk why bc i don’t like coffee and it tastes soooo bad

#i’m gonna drink it since i paid for it #but i won’t enjoy it #anyways #i’m at the hospital waiting for the woman i’m observing the come in :3 #and even though this coffee isn’t good today will be!#i’m gonna see and learn and it’s gonna be a blast #kisses to u all have a wonderful day!!!

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ardentpoop · 5 months

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friday depression is Back!!!

#had to cry today. had to #oh it’s just that I’m all alone in the world and I could easily ruin my own life if I’m not Hustling every day. nbd.#and unemployment has me feeling like the most worthless person who ever lived and I thought it would feel different this time #and there are people on this planet who never have to think abt money bc they were born into wealth and you have to be okay with that #even though everyone else has to earn the right to stay alive 💖#everyone else is one medical emergency away from bankruptcy isn’t that fun. keeps you on your toes

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deus-ex-mona · 10 months

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👀here’s 👁️looking👁️ at you, kid👀

#just tryin to stay awake during my ride home pls dont mind me—#im tired. so tired. even though i did p much nothing at work today… to a degree #lord. my body aches s o m u c h from work (by work i mean yesterday’s work)#standing up to pipette over 300 samples in duplicates for the most part for around 10-11 hours isn’t fun :( sadge #at least i didn’t have to do that today (ayyy) b u t the guy who did it today didn’t have to do as many samples as i had to yesterday so-—#im just. sadded :( i stg three day weekends are both a blessing and a curse. sadded :(#though it’s not like i even had a 3 day weekend since i had to work on saturday :( hour long commutes on weekends aren’t fun :(#i just want a nice weekend too… :( i wanna sleeeeeeep #oh wow the eyes post worked i stayed awake for the ride ayyyyyy #the dude from gamushara

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exopelagic · 3 months

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this election feels so hollow even though it’s likely ostensibly gonna be a good outcome. labour really just sucks fucking ass rn huh

#if the tories lose bad enough to make lib dems the opposition though… a guy can hope #I think it’s the fact that this is the first general election I can vote in that’s making me lose my mind a little here #I have done basically nothing but read today. I DO know a whole bunch more abt voting systems and the nightmare the tories have been now tho #I’m just kinda like. okay so what happens next? bc labour WILL do some decent shit but they also. fucking suck.#planning to look into the local green party once I’m back at uni bc I could actually do stuff there #I think I’m just dealing with a little bit of whiplash going from doing a biology degree where Everything is about climate change #like unambiguously it gets brought up in every topic (I DO focus on ecology and agricultural stuff and not like genetics but still)#clear consensus from literally everyone you talk to that shit has to happen right the fuck now.#it’s not even like I’m unaware of the state of policy rn I KNOW it’s a nightmare to do anything but we at least TALK about it #and then this election where it’s barely a footnote. biggest thing is the sewage dumping everyone’s talking about and yeah fucking finally #but is that all you’ve got?? the labour manifesto is bleak. it has a section and the stuff they’re proposing isn’t bad but it’s so little #and yeah no they’ve changed the official line on the manifesto to ‘make Britain a clean energy superpower’#I SWEAR it was different a few days ago #maybe I’m being pessimistic bc their plans for clean energy if they actually do them could be huge especially if they manage it by 2030.#it’s just that I know what the targets are and they’re already pulling back on shit like EVs bc of the shift right and I am So Tired #two party politics is a curse. as much as reform is an actual nightmare them getting a decent vote share might actually be the thing that #gets people talking abt proportional representation again bc they are nothing if not good at being loud #did you know we had a fucking referendum in 2011 bc what the fuck. and it went SO BADLY even though people generally supported it #god idk I think I’m once again being naively optimistic about people and election coverage has been very good at knocking me down a bit #people generally are good. I have to believe this. but man the british public is making that really fucking hard #genuinely I think a good chunk of that is down to first past the post driving politics to be divisive and aggressive #like is it the only problem? fuck no. but it’s definitely poisoning the way this shit goes bc when all the parties do is jab at each other #what are we actually doing here #idk I’m gonna stop now but this is taking up a ridiculous amount of bandwidth rn I can’t wait for it to be over #already dreading what the next election could look like in 4 years if starmer continues to suck ass bc I don’t trust him to not like at all #luke.txt #I said i was done but I just looked at the lib dem manifesto and oh my god it’s actually pretty good on this? holy fucking shit

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is-the-owl-video-cute · 2 years

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Tell me your favorite fact about anthrax colonies / the most gruesome fact about them

what, just the colonies themselves?

They grow in web-like tangles like this due to how they divide. This isn’t uncommon for rod bacteria by any means, but the chains they make are very pleasing to me.

#Honestly aside from its use as a bioweapon and formation of dramatic ulcers #anthrax isn’t all that special #it’s just famous #I’m going to be nice and not show cutaneous anthrax infection though #today #some other day I may not be so kind #morbid curiosity

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