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awesomecooperlove · 6 months

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#real man #good man #humanity #kindness #good samaritan #compassion #it cost nothing to help someone..#tomorrow it could be you who needs help #gentlemen #standup #make the world a better place

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falldogbombsthemoon · 10 days

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Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

#vent following #its fucking ridiculous. im not a fucking child. neither is my brother #no idea what my dad wants to achieve through that. “so you can relaxe more” yeah no. being on the internet is my fucking coping mechanism.#there is nothing about relaxation there. also he did that so we'll to go sleep earlier. if it really was about that.#he would need to force me to sleep. you cant just change my sleep schedule by that #anyway its fucking ridiculous as i was on a good way of getting to sleep more early but if imma do that now he will think like #“wow. im such a good dad. i fixed all the problems my child could possibly have.” which is absolutely not the case #yk. ive always fucking struggled with feeling like people cant trust me.#and him not trusting my abilities to be responsible for myself is not helping #and then boom. im feeling shitty but wait haha my coping mechanism is currently set offline.#and like also im in extra stress atm bc school is fucking with me #not only are like a bunch of tests on the way but my fucking anxiety in school is getting so bad.#i cant sit in that facility without feeling like imma have a panic attack any minute #i am in need of fucking professional mental help. and at least one diagnosis. i dont want to do shit to myself.#but in this house hold. emotions are not talked about. feelings are suppressed and mental health is an illusion #i NEED to see a fucking psychiatrist. but i dont feel like i can to my parents about that. and technically i could go without them knowing #but someone needs to educate them. and i mentally cant be that someone #and guess whos sitting in their room crying and writing about that rn. not studying for their tests tomorrow and the day after.#i bet if my parents wouldnt have done that shit with my wifi i would be studying rn #quinns daily yapping post #rather #quinns personal hell

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slippery-minghus · 22 days

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hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human.#and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever.#bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO.#i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her!#'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!!#and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused??#like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ?#personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!!#but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!

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quick-drawn · 1 year

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my brain malfunctions whenever vishkar is mentioned, even in the slightest —

#✯ — [ ʰᵒʳˢᵉˢ ᶤᶰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃᶜᵏ ] ⨯ ooc #don't ask me what's going on over in india or with symm i don't fucking know.#lifeweaver ?? i am incapable of weaving ANY of this fuckin vishkar shit together.#i don't know what's happening.#who are they — what is their purpose.#are they the bad guys ?? couldn't tell you.#y'all could come to me about literally ANYTHING else in the ovw universe and i can ramble about it for hours...but VISHKAR ??#i need HELP.#or wait...no. i also don't really know what's going on with the shambali stuff —#as far as...like #character wise.#i get the gist of it. i just haven't done a whole lot of research on it in general.#but when people start talking vishkar..........shit's greek to me.#anyway. grandpa's finally back home. WHICH MEANS #i should be getting back to my regular schedule around here.#it's getting kinda late so.....probably not tonight — but i got y'all tomorrow.

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yourcalamity · 8 months

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im about to have such a potent opportunity to disappear into the woods forever it itches

#i wonder how long it would take anyone to figure it out lol #youre welcome future coldcase vloggers #but for the record if i do mysteriously vanish no its not because of my job #must be said because thats the easiest explanation people come up with yeah it would be convenient right #if i could just get a new job and suddenly everything in my life will be fixed and all of the other blatant issues clearly coming from other #sources will cease to exist #also therapy and meds will do the same thing. i might as well walk up to a stranger and ask them to snap their fingers and cure me #just as long as the hand i turn to for help points in another direction technically im being ‘helped’ right #life is just a fight and you have to keep fighting for yourself and others and hope one day someone is going to fight for you #and when people dont fight for you when you need them to it becomes clear that you dont even need to fight. it would be easier to lose #you already upset them by not fighting for yourself and instead of fighting for you now theyre fighting againt you. do you really want to #fight harder. do you really want to fight people you love. no one wants that #ive been so emotionally destroyed these past years and idk if i will ever recover or find worth in myself again #and if i got a new job tomorrow at the most comfortable high paying company in the world with a one day work week and unlimited pto #i would still feel worthless because of the experiences ive had and the way everyobe has brushed over them as if i cant feel emotion #i have been carrying so much hurt #now im going home to say goodbye to the remains of a stranger who wouldve disowned me had we ever spoken on even ground #but sure i will enjoy my trip

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aberooski · 3 months

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Every day I get 🤏 this much closer to getting out of chapter 1 of Chazzerella.

#when I can actually get myself to sit down and write I actually make progress #who knew?#but no yeah we're getting there #I'm not gonna be a liar about it happening this year like I was last year #chazzerella is happening baby #you gotta wait until it's finished though #but once it's done I can finally officially put OUAD 2 back on the table again 👀#that's my rule I can't start writing OUAD 2 until chazzerella is finished especially because I mean to do chazzerella last year #and that plan completely fell apart because last year was horrible I'm amazed I could vring myself to write anything #much less finish and release a few things #I also started the mario crossover instead of doing chazzerella that's a nother problem #which remeinds me I need to slog my way through the rest of the next chapter of that #I have a plan I'm just having a hard time actually sitting down and doing it you know? jyst very slow going #the next chapter after that is basically already written though #so I mean that's good I guess akkskks #not that anybody gives a shit about that one other than me anyway #which I mean is fine I'm doing that one purely for me anyway but it still kinda blows #doesn't help me with my slow progress either #but I digress #I have to work tomorrow or I guess technically today so I should probably actually sleep?#we'll see #yugioh gx fanfiction #chazzerella #abby's fanfic writer power hour #abby's insomnia thoughts

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silverislander · 4 months

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prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding.#i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/#a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!!#for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

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florida3exclamationpoints · 10 months

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I don't like thinking about work unless I'm at work but I have to talk through smth ignore me or whatever

#i want to quit soon but i dont know when the best time is #im working the next 2 mon/tues and then im off until the 14th #and the schedule for august isn't out yet so the last day im scheduled for now is the 25th #usually the schedule comes last minute #im considering..... telling my boss that my last day will be the 25th tomorrow #but if im going to do it i have to do it tomorrow #mayyyyybe Tuesday ig but i would wanna do it next week #but i cant see who im working with before i go in anymore. which is so terrible for so many reasons #i need to prepare before i go in and part of that is knowing who im gonna see but whatever #not only that but i wont know if my boss will be there for me to be able to quit until im there tomorrow #im also super anxious about quitting anyway i don't wanna have that conversation #and then i have to start looking for a new job #and im trying to move in the spring i need money #i did think... i could possibly bring the letter of resignation tomorrow.. hope he wont be there & leave it on his desk #and text him that it's there. but then theres not much of a conversation to be had #idek exactly how youre 'supposed to quit' but to me those rules are for employers you respect 💀#i dont respect these people ✌️#the only thing i feel bad about is that there'll only be one baker left in the company (6 almost 7 stores)#but its also not my fault that they haven't hired anyone and cant keep employees #i would've LOVED some help over the last few months as ive been the only baker in this district of 3 stores!!! they never hired anyone!!!!#i just have really not appreciated the way they've been treating me recently with all of the anxiety stuff #i also dont appreciated how my rights of privacy were violated 😀#and its literally coming to the point where im going to have to have uncomfortable conversations that i dont want to have #and/or literally take or at least threaten some legal action #or just quit!! and its not like im gonna be here much longer anyway even if i dont leave right now #i almost feel like... do i have a responsibility to hold them accountable for what they've done so it hopefully doesn't happen again #but idk i mean i didn't make them do this #tbh the more i think about it the more i want to quit tomorrow. im just nervous. and scared of not having a paycheck #idk its just scary!!! life is scary!!!!!

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ginger-and-oliveoil · 1 year

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#tw negative #tw mental health #I hateeeee having a fucked up brain but I expecially hate it at night. I wanna sleep so fucking bad.#I NEED to sleep or else tomorrow I will be tired as shit and won’t function.#but my brain is like yea you should think about kys #and it’s like??? we’ve been over this??#anyway I have been getting help at the uni services but the psychologist assessing me is like. a 60 yo that I don’t feel comfortable with #she’s nice and all but it feels like explaining my problems to my grandma #AND it’s online therapy and this house has paper-thin walls but where tf else would I do the sessions #so I think if anything it’s making shit worse #anyway I am lonely as fuck and I feel stupid lmaoo #also body stuff. I made the mistake of weighting myself a few weeks ago and it goes on a loop-de-loop on my brain #lmao I wish I could shut my brain off with a switch or something. can’t believe there’s people who just. feel normal often.

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werewolf4vampire · 1 year

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hmm. i think. maybe i can't actually get better

#i'm sure this feeling will pass. it always does #but god there are just so many barriers. so many doctors i need to see. tests to do. exercises that will exhaust and hurt me at first #difficult mental exercises that will cause me emotional anguish at first while i'm bad at them #the guarantee that i'm going to feel beaten down & hopeless. repeatedly. indefinitely. until i finally start seeing progress #until i finally find the right doctors. the right tests. the right treatments. build up my strength. and stamina.#all the while i'm on a ticking clock in regards to my pets and family who are just gonna keep getting older #who fucking knows how long it will take to be Better and i'm fucking running out of time. i need to be better tomorrow #i need to be better yesterday. last year. two‚ three years ago #and ALL of this while i'm trying to figure out what kind of meager amount of income i could potentially make #how do you work while you're completely and utterly broken? how do you pay for those vet bills? new exercise shoes #to help with your pain? (the old ones are a decade old). a new desk chair so you could potentially do work at your desk #new clothes everytime you gain more fucking weight #and then you start to wonder: is all this stress giving you health issues? are you gonna have a bad heart in 5-10 years?#how do i reduce this stress so i can deal with these things better??? how do i reduce stress when it consumes my entire fucking life??#i am. so tired #darryl speaks

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selfconsumerofmywoes · 1 year

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why am i so stressed about a doctors appointment

#i don’t go to the doctors i don’t like them #but yesterday i got a call saying my mother wanted permission to talk to them on my behalf #and i was like okay whatever #but then the woman was like are you sure you’re okay to wait until tomorrow you don’t need help now?#and i was like no i’m fine #and she was like if you’re sure #then apparently i’ve been given a day of in person appointment today #now i know i haven’t been in a while but that seems way too quick for an appointment #especially an in person one #and i’m worried they think i’m having some sort of urgent medical emergency #and i’m not #i think i’m fine it’s my mother who’s worrying and it’s still something i could wait for anyway #so i don’t want to get there and they’re all like why the fuck did you get an emergency appointment you don’t need one #on their website it says only call if it’s urgent otherwise book through their system #and i don’t know if i’m sticking to that too much or if it’s fine #but still #it’s stressing me #(also i never received a confirmation text which is not helping the situation)#i talk and its probably something weird

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notsodailycake · 2 years

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Aha...ahahahaha, now my teacher really went too far-

He's not returning from the hell hole now, I'm pissed, and imma make sure he knows it

But glad to know the hatred is mutual sir. Unfortunately for you, you came at me on that dreadful time of the month where my hormones go wild and my spite for the world increases

And also extremely unfortunate to you...

You messed with my sister.

#basically teacher apparently had 'enough' of me and my sister not doing work and using our phones #and calling us lazy again #when even if i did use my phone most classes i did all the work and i did my darn best #i worked as best as i could with his shitty explanations #it's not my fucking fualt he couldn't understand English #MY COMPUTER WAS IN ENGLISH BC I NEEDED OUTSIDE HELP SINCE H E WOULDN'T HELP ME #my work was delayed bc of him!! most of the classes he was using my computer to do who knows what!! install apps or sm for me to work with #but i still did my research for the project i still worked on my project even when i was fucking sick on the weekendz #im not gonna blame him for not knowing i was sick but to say i wasn't working and only using my phone today is straight out bs #i was the whole class working on my audio #GODS I've had enough of him #the nerve he has to say i haven't worked on his class #look i may not give 2 shits for you class but don't you ever say i didn't work and don't you DARE call me lazy bc I'm far from it #and it took me years to realise that and I'm not gonna falm back down #i am a spiteful and petty little bitch and i BITE BACK so don't try me #imma have a personal complaint myself dear teacher by tomorrow since i have class with my class director ^^#cake talks #vent #i try to keep things civil here but goddammit he got on my nerves for the last time

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haeroniel-doliet · 1 year

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God that mood where you both need to do stuff and want to do stuff but both needs are vague and have too many options so you just. Do nothing you want or need to do and realize all the time you had is disappearing. A good time!!!

#haeroniel talks #forget the tag oh well #but for real. had 4 days off work and a ton of real life stuff i both have to get done and have been meaning to get done for a long time #ive pretty much only played video games and called my friends. genuinely not time wasted and i love when i get to do that #and like rn i would love to play more games and spend time with my friends like if one offers you know i never say no #but its also already getting dark and i have to go back to work tomorrow and ive not done everything i promised to have done yknow?#time doesnt feel real and i dont wanna get up even if the anxiety slowly builds to hopefully productive panic #but in the mean time im like ugghh i wanna stop laying around just playing sudoku and watching lame youtube. i wanna play something #(unclear what it is i actually wanna play too many options i kinda wanna play all of them and none huehheh)#im also very sad i havent drawn in ages and any attempt just feels shit. like maybe if i read enough fanfic thatll respark the love.#id love to post something before christmas to get me excited to draw again over the break but who the hell knows if i'll manage #and yeah still have the annoying job related/driving school related/therapy applying/other life admin that really really should be done #im just being grouchy and stuck and need to vent hi tumblr love you all kiss kiss i wish i could function better #i think maybe perhaps. ill concede that driving school and therapy arent priority (important but ive wasted ages on them already)#i think i can do work related things bc theyre sort of fun. i can use my parents help to whack through the life admin and then #maybe i can let myself spend the rest of the evening guilt free either calling my friends and/or playing or if im going totally w drawin

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revenantghost · 2 years

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I fucking hate fireworks

#My dogs are PANICKED #I live in a densely packed city! You could set shit on fire!!!#There are ABSOLUTELY veterans and gunshot victims and more here that are being triggered all night long!#I have a SLEEPING DISORDER and I need to be asleep as of an hour ago to safely drive!!!#And I can't cancel driving!!!#My entire family is fucked up and I'm the only one who can drive right now!!!#I want to sleep I want my doggos to be okay and I want to punch all these losers that are lighting EXCESSIVELY loud fireworks after 10pm #The storebought fireworks aren't even that great for the most part too #Just go the fuck to sleep #Okay I just had to rage a bit (a lot) sorry about that #It makes me so upset when my furry children are upset and I can't help them #And I KNOW tomorrow is going to be shit because of this too #Ugh #Bah Bah Bah

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medicinemane · 2 years

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I don't know... I really just dislike that mentality

#for one thing because if I'm honest personally qualifies like strong don't really mean much to me #I get done what I get done and I am who I am #maybe tomorrow I managed to have a better grasp on things and do more of what I want to do #but that's more like just better coping and learning what a task entails than it is some kind of feat of strength #and the stuff that might be some kind of fortitude... it wasn't learned... it's just what I have to endure to make it to the next day #and I am just left bitter in many many ways... that's all that happens #and I'm left talking to myself like always and that's just the nature of things #I am alone and that's more or less how it always will be and if I don't have the nerve to end it then I need to keep slowly moving forward #because at least then I'm not stuck... at least maybe I'll leave some progress to someone else by the time I finally find the nerve #that... that is my perspective on the question of things making me stronger #I am stubborn and I am bitter and that's all that's come of any of it #I am mistrustful and rarely proven wrong in my world view #there are things it might be said I got from everything though I might have gotten them other ways #but strength is not one of them #I don't know if I'm strong or weak but I know I am how I am regardless of whatever's happened in my life #and really it doesn't matter if someone is strong or weak it matters that you lend a hand when you can where you can regardless #they could be the strongest and they'd still benefit from a helping hand so who cares if their journy forged them in fire you can still hel

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net-game-sekai · 19 days

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dare i say it. i went to the first 2024 miku expo show and i did not care about the LED screen.

#like okay. i do see where people are coming from of course i do it makes sense. HOWEVER #is it. that serious. that we need to be talking about walking out and doing a black ocean with the light sticks etc etc #like you guys need to come to the grey area conclusion that is this could have been handled better and we will voice our critiques #but our tickets are paid for and we will try to enjoy the show.#like my primary critique was the setlist and i STILL had fun. and the music is like the main thing!!#it was my first vocaloid concert after being a fan for a very long time and i had fun. didn't pay a ton for my tickets either so ig im lucky #but still i think it's gotten way out of hand. i think crunchyroll should know ppl weren't happy with it!#i think merch sales should have been managed better! and prices should be lower! i agree with basically all the main points #but i think the drama needs to be brought wayyyy down. like we gotta calm down.#explain REASONABLY and CLEARLY what you didn't like in the areas where that critique is helpful #meaning like official feedback sections and official help emails. not the replies of ppls tweets who are having fun and not song producers!!#i should also mention my seat was very much to the side of the arena and even then the screen didn't bug me #there were a few moments where i wished there was more of a light show happening behind the characters but it didn't detract much for me #again my primary complaint was the setlist. another post in itself that i might make tomorrow lol #vocathoughts

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