can people get fevers and chills bc of trauma or flashbacks? bc I feel like that's happening to me. im aware that I take hypervigilance to an unhealthy degree bc I live with my family but it is causing me so much body/muscle pain too. do you have any ideas on how to even temporarily relax from that?
Yes, definitely. I'm experiencing a lot of body and muscle pain as well, it's because we're always hypervigilant and tense, to the point where our muscles cannot relax for a second, so they develop a lot of pain due to tension.
I'm more often experiencing chills than fevers, though I can get feverishly hot during nightmares and need a lot of cooling down afterwards. Having such a strong body reaction means that the trauma was immensely dangerous and put your entire body in a state of emergency and panic. You're not wrong to be hypervigilant, your situation is likely requiring it.
In the 'complex ptsd' from Pete Walker, he describes getting better from this by doing stretches and exercising, thus forcing his muscles to relax with action. I don't know if this helps in every case, for me it's very temporary. I hope things get better for you once you move away from this dangerous environment, I'm so sorry you're pushed so far, you have to fight with your own body responses in order to live.
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Apparently my body is how I keep my feelings at bay. I've chosen not to feel things and now it's piled up perhaps too high to process. Like when I attempt to relax it causes me nausea. But I'm working on it, I promise I'm working on it.
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i know this is supposed to be funny haha considering how he starts singing like a dying cat right after but...FUUCKK
EY is jealous of HJ bc he's good at studying and therefore has a (bright) future ahead, compared to EY whose grades are too bad bc he hasn't been able to follow schoolwork since elementary school cuz of his situation at home (<- he mentioned this in an argument with his dad).
he wants to learn and understand and go to college but he thinks he's too far behind to start now, and he gets even more frustrated when he compares himself to everyone else around him. how he's the only one who doesn't understand what juwan is saying or maths or english. how his own native language is too hard for him sometimes.
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going to a new library in a little bit. my sibling is coming along both as a guide so that i don’t freak out and think i’m doing stuff wrong or unable to find something that’s right in front of my nose, as well as for protection from the christmas decorations and books that thrown in everyone’s faces these days.
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I leave her office & suddenly everything seems to be a bit more in perspective. How everyone is hurting. How everyone just is hurt and therefore hurts another. And how stupidly simple does everything become when you look at the world with a little more love in your heart. How good can it feel when all that hurt you is now yours. What if you hold the pain in your hands and keep it there. What if you own it, face it. It should not have been handed to you but it is yours now. What if you break the cycle of hurting & being hurt.
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A lifetime fuelled by pain and frustration: handling the emotional fallout of long-term undiagnosed autism
A lifetime fuelled by pain and frustration: handling the emotional fallout of long-term undiagnosed autism
Diagnosing as autistic is a very mixed bag and can go off in various directions for different people; some positively transformed by it, others so destroyed by the late knowledge they fall into even darker places. Or, most likely, your response may swing back and forth for a while, perhaps for years, until the pendulum loses momentum (if it ever does) and you hopefully land in a better…
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