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A Quickie
1 quick thought before going to bed , it's not that I didn't wanna talk to marine about whatever tf was going on in my head today. Are you kidding me? That's all I wanna do is tell him every intimate thought that pops up between my ears behind my eyes. But I hate scaring people off. Although something tells me he'd probably still adore me with my hands around his neck.... lol anyways for years, now 11, I've felt guilty for staying friends with ang after Sam died hating her. There, that's the stupid lore, Sam hated how ang acted towards me in a very depressive time of my life so she didn't like her whatsoever especially after she tried to stop being my friend. So for years i battled with the thought that I'm a fucky friend to a dead best friend. I wasn't solid enough to stay mad at ang for the sake of Sam. But it's not like she knew, right? Or else, why would ang show up at the wake? Right.... anyway, now, I've been having to cope with the fact that......maybe, just maybe, Sam was the asshole. Cus ang is a beautiful person inside and out and marine solidified that fact for me earlier. Makes me feel okay that I stayed in touch with the 1 person that had me laughing my ass off after Sam's death. So much guilt, for so many years.....especially during the time ang dated Sam's bf after she died.....then when they broke things off because religion I saw his....whatever. that was long ago. But it really didn't help that everyone that ang broke up with would hit me up to complain about stupid shit she would put them thru. Nothing bad, just annoying lol. So it fed into the idea that maybe ang wasn't as sweet and nice as people perceive her to be.... but the reality is, she's a ray of fuckin sunshine. You know, dudes would befriend me just to try to get at her. I didn't mind most of the time, but sometimes it hurt to think I had a new cool guy friend potential love interest but in the end they just wanted to see if ang was DTF, I'd let them know she's not like that, and then they'd make their dusty ass move on me. Whatever now I'm accidentally getting into the reason why ang said I apparently talked shit about her. I really didn't, I was just explaining to that guy how shit usually goes; that I understood if Andrew preferred her over me, because it's what I was used to. It was the truth... fuck i went on a rant anyways!this post was supposed to be about -- Sucks to have to accept that the dead person you idolize and miss dearly maybe was actually a fucked up person. Romanticized the suicidal ideation and tendencies I used to have......I mean, I liked the self-inflicted pain but it was no way to live my beautiful life.
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āShen-shixiong, Yue-shixiong, thatās the one I was telling you about..ā
āI seeā¦ā
āHow interesting.ā
[ID: Shen Jiu, Shen Yuan and Yue Qingyuan stand together looking at the viewer. Shen Jiu, on the left, holds up his fan to hide the lower half of his face, he looks vaguely interesting and disgusted as he peers over his fan at the viewer. Shen Yuan, in the middle, has an open mouthed smile, seemingly in the middle of talking to Shen Jiu and Yue Qingyuan. Yue Qingyuan, on the right, faces Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan and keeps a calm but strained smile while staring at the viewer from the corner of his eye. End ID.]
#svsss#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#shen yuan#yue qingyuan#they are judging you#hardcore judging#SY told them about how u were crushing on them#they are *not* inviting you to their secret rendezvous#L dance#my art#drivebypainter art#Also I hit 1K!!! I made this piece to celebrate that :)#I was also trying a new style of shading and coloring with this drawing#lots of selection and big brush painting lol#I hope the ID works btw- Iām not very good at it but I tried my best.
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inspired by this post
#art#off mortis ghost#off the judge#off zacharie#off the batter#the way text is written made me think about Pablo immediately lol#still trying to draw folks#and idk how to draw comics as well it's not very well composed#i wonder if you can tell that i own a cat from the way i draw them
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SPOILERS TBHK CHAPTER 125
I really like the random set ups in the manga for Mirai and what she is inspired from.
The clock keepers reminded us of Pinocchio before and now Cinderella, AidaIro took random vibes from European tales and I am all for it.
And Kako, being born from the grief and guilt of the clock maker, creating little things for the replacement of the niece is so cool too.
She had three mices as pets and Kako created three automatons for Mirai. Which ended up being one of the things he retrieves from Nene right away to give them back to Mirai. He is so gentle with her everytime he holds her too. She also gains a little crown showing how much this clock maker ended up loving her as his own daughter. And of course Akane who compared her before to a mouse because he has no respect.
#tbhk spoilers#chapter 125 tbhk#mirai#kako#the three clock keepers#I actually have ofc way more to say but I will just point out random details I loved#because I can't judge without having more dhsjds#I have mixed feelings about the whole things for now so I will wait for the whole bakcstory u.u;#since we don't know what's the most important thing to protect yet#love how Kako said to Akane to stay alive and not giving a fck now it's making me laugh so hard why would you say this to him then ToT#Not that surprised that Kako react like this with how he is tbh#but Mirai isn't awake yet#toilet bound hanako kun#aoi akane#they make me sick#once again idc much about what is really happening ahha#it will come later with the full arc maybe idk lol#I have a lot of thoughts but I willl try to stay calm for now u.u#jibaku shounen hanako kun#tbhk#jshk#ramblings#the backstory is fishy af I will be honest
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Prompt 198
Now Bruce was not expecting to reincarnate upon his death. At least he thinks he died, heās pretty sure he did. There wasnāt any other reason for him to be a well, literal baby. Around two he thinks, which fits well with the fact that itās around that time that babies start forming memory recall, if he, well, remembered correctly.Ā
But while he knew about reincarnation thanks to Shayera and Carter, heād never exactly given it much thought towards himself. Because seriously, what were the chances of such a thing as him being given another chance?Ā
So he was quite surprised at his situation, experimentally opening and closing pudgy hands that looked well, just a tiny bit off. Heād never been that pale before, he thinks, even back when he never went outside like, ever.Ā
He turned his gaze towards the mobile above him with a sort of idle curiosity- a mixture of bats (ha) and other trinkets he wasnāt familiar with. It also caused him to get his first good look at his parent, asleep on a rocking chair right next to the crib.Ā
Huh. They had the same pale skin he did, albeit in the light it looked like it was slightly tinted blue, and while their hair was white they didnāt exactly look old. They looked surprisingly well rested for raising a toddler too, unless they had a nanny or something similar⦠He rolled over, managing to very shakily push himself to his feet with the help of the crib.Ā
Why was standing so hard as a toddler? And why did he have his memories of everything except how he had died anyway?Ā
His head whipped up from where they were staring at his feet when he heard a snort, finding his parent awake and standing. Somehow silently enough that he hadnāt noticed- or he was that easily distracted by the unfamiliar giddiness bursting in his chest.Ā
āMorning little bat,ā his parent easily picked him up and held him while he inwardly sighed at the nickname. Of course his bat motif would follow him into this life. A low rumbling almost caused him to jump, his body relaxing before he could fully register the sound. The⦠purring?Ā
Oh.Ā
He wasnāt human this time around.Ā
#Dcxdp#Dpxdc#Prompts#Vlad is a young-adult dad to a reincarnated Bruce#After the hospital he drowned his despair/distress in any way he could & ended up with a baby boy#Bruceās main suspected species of what they were was vampire before the ghost reveal lol#Bruce canāt say shit about Vladās thievery but he has the most judging expression for a toddler#Then he also sees his new dad develop and try to figure out powers#Vlad was terrified to pick him up when he first discovered his ghost fire#Yes this very much changes Vladās relationship with Danny#The reunion has 14 year old Danny meet a Very Smart 8 year old Bruce#Yes Bruce clocks teenage vigilante instantly#And look he Would try to get Vlad to stop the possession shit but as long as itās actual assholes he canāt exactly judge#He blackmailed SO many people in his past life⦠he's trying Not to be a hypocrite here#Why yes Bruce IS very liminal from having a half-ghost dad#Vlad panicked more than he did when his fangs came in (Bruce has made a file about both himself & everyone he meets)#Just because heās now baby doesnāt mean heās no longer Bruce#At some point someone from his world might find their way to this one but that would be a very long time in the future lol#Vlad (unaware of his core being able to feel his ghostlingās big emotions): Wow raising a child is surprisingly easy
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Listen, I love OC x Canon as much as the next guy, maybe even MORE than the next guy ever could, but Stanley Pines would NOT date a person that looks like they're in their first year of College.
I'm sorry, but he wouldn't. MAKE YOUR OC MORE AGE APPROPRIATE RIGHT. NOW. šš
#Realistically#I am never one to judge#but guys... be real#let your OCs be old š¢š#everytime someone ships their OC that isn't even remotely wrinkly and saggy with my beloved Stan an angel loses it's wings#Don't you guys want your OCs to grow old with Stan? C'mon man you're yanking my chain#anyway I took a ton of benadryl earlier and I've been trying really hard to spell everything right and stay on topic#so i think I'll stop the rant there love you bye#cole's talking#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#oc x canon#honestly I'm not really that bothered y'know do what'chya want#your oc your choice lol#i love oc x canon#i actually thrive because of oc x Canon#it keeps me going š#okay now I'm done#ignore all the spelling mistakes šš
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tho i will say its actually kind of incredible how atla is used as the bastion of western animation. the pinnacle. nothing lives up to it. how? its not perfect. it reuses tropes (in a good way!!!). watch an anime. etc. how is it the pinnacle of western animation? but at the same time, i cant actually list a better western cartoon when it comes to long form narrative storytelling. which baffles me because atla could literally be better. "zuko is the pinnacle of redemption arcs" i have literal critiques about it. its just like i swear there can be other shows like it. or similar. or on par. or better even because it was written by two white men in 2005. but i cannot list one.
#cal.ibrations#better isnt the right word either but its just crazy#like the fact its existed for 20 years and ppl try but it doesnt happen#tho obviously 'better written' is incredibly subjective and i dont think you can really judge#its just that avatar is usually used as the goalpost . which is nuts. its from 2005. how has the goalpost not changed yet lol#and i feel like w media the whole point is learn from it to grow ur own writing#so im always just like well. atla is flawed.#it has flaws. that people can learn from.#'almost as good as atla' WHHYYYY ARE WE HEREEEEEEE#sorry ive listened to too many youtube video essays
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WHO judgmented my persona 4 arena ultimax
the sprites!!!!!!!!!!! feel free to use in whatever so long as watermark is intact and i'm credited <3
I spent wayy... way way way too many hours on this......
more combos!
#i'm gonna try to slow my roll on drawing so much because I think i'm a workaholic LOL#so many projects so much stuff to do and make! but i am only human... sigh..#I was so close to also respriting yosuke to be yagami from a friend's suggestion but i'm deciding on not doing that (for now) bc REST!!#sugiura is wearing a corset#judgment#lost judgment#rgg#judge eyes#persona 4 arena ultimax#p4#atlus#takayuki yagami#kaito masaharu#toru higashi#fumiya sugiura#yagami takayuki#p4au
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If Hogwarts used Emails
From: Percy Weasley <[email protected]>
To: Filius Flitwick <[email protected]>
Subject: CHARMS-ASGMNT 3
Dear Prof. Flitwick,
I hope this message finds you well. I am currently working on assignment 3, which is about the history of Weathering-Modifying Charms and whether or not they should be regulated. I also remember you writing down mobilicorpus, which is the spell for moving bodies of those who found themselves unable to walk. I was wondering if you meant mobiliarbus, which the spell to move plants and trees, which is closer to the subject?
I would greatly appreciate any guidance or suggestions you have to offer.
Thank you and have a great night!
Percy Weasley
W8008569
From: Filius Flitwick <[email protected]>
To: Percy Weasley <[email protected]>
Subject: Re: CHARMS-ASGMNT 3
whoops typo yeah it's supposed to be mobiliarbus
-Flitwick
Sent from my iPhone
#harry potter#percy weasley#pls ignore the student id number#dont look too hard#i swear this is how they make you sign your emails#filius flitwick#i feel like he would be this type of professor#i want you to know#this interaction is happening at 2 am#they both are lowkey like why are you up#but they cant judge#charms#charms hw is hard#idk#also this is literally how all my emails go i feel like#i be making sure there are no typos and shit#my professor: oh yeah lol#its like thanks i guess#percy is banging his head against a wall#i need you to know#I guess the first ones could be appropriate#esp if it was a natural disaster#urmmm#I didnāt research too hard#pls#also Oliver is trying to sleep and watching Percy lose his mind with this email
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#va appeal hearing was today#not a fun time to have to try to granularly recall everything that. yknow. permanently destroyed my body and mind and life.#probably went fine? definitely cried in front of the judge but everyone was super cool about it.#also thank god my wife was there they let her give testimony as both my wife and as a doctor#(which she is)#(obviously)#but like I'm still So Sick and it's all this up and down and we're still fighting to get stabilized so I usually don't have time or energy#to like stop and look around at the quicksand I've been keeping myself afloat in this whole time#but today was very much 'hey tell me about this quicksand huh'#and it's just like a lot to deal with yknow#I'll be fine it's just A Lot#anyway shoutout to the folks who are either kind or nosy enough to read my tag rambles all the time lol#(the actual decision will still take up to 2 more years btw)#(hopefully not! but they said it could)#(although apparently a board denial isn't the end of the road anymore which is news to me)#(maybe they changed it in the 44 months since I filed for the appeal hearing lol)#(not a typo)#favorites
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how old were nikita and artyom in those photos were they seem "scared"?
Fun fact: this has to be Nikita's room!
Well, there's no information, but surely younger than 18. Even after comparing several available photos, I can't come to a clear conclusion. My guess: about 15 years old.
#ask response#info#I guess#judging by the state of Nikita's skin LOL. and Artyom's haircut (but it's NOT a reliable source. not at all). but who knows#Artyom looks dumb as fuck ON EVERY PIC KKKKKKK š#not like Nikita is better but at least he's trying to change his expression a little#I had to go through everything SO MANY times that it made me lowkey mad LMFAO#I DON'T KNOW!!! I DON'T FUCKING KNOW!!! š#something doesn't add up... am I going crazy...#14-17 IS MY ANSWERāāā#I hate these guys. *keeps talking about them*#academy maniacs#irkutsk molotochniki#nikita and artyom#nikita lytkin#artyom anoufriev#tcc nikita#tcc artyom#tc community#tcc fandom#tcc tumblr#tccblr#true cringe community#teeceecee#tee cee cee
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On Nosferatu and Dracula, Mina & Ellen
I loved Nosferatu but I hate the online discourse about it. Itās literally making me crazy. This is a pic of all of you bitches right now:

I have a huge problem with literal readings of this movie at all. Itās obviously not the point of the damned thing. But, Ellen/Thomas shippers, I'm coming for you now.
Iāve noticed people online, on tiktok, tumblr etc, shipping Ellen/Thomas the exact same way Iāve seen Mina/Jonathan since Dracula Daily. And the Mina thing already frustrated me, but the Ellen one makes me crazy.
(theyāre not the same character)
But I guess I understand the instinct?
Modern vampire media is obsessed with the male vampire as the sexual/romance object. Twilight, Vampire Diaries, True Blood, Buffy. (Interview with a vampire doesnāt count (lol count) cause itās all from Vamp perspective. Also it's profoundly gay). (However Anne Rice does get enormous kudos for basically dragging the vampire from hammer horror into boyfriend material, so it is relevant i guess?).
The modern approach is that the subtext has become text āYes we do like dracula and we do want to fuck him thank you very muchā.
Itās always been the subtext of Victorian vampire stories - which were riffing off the already dark, brooding male figures in literature before that (Rochester, Byronic heroes, also Byron) and combining them with Eastern folk tales. In the original Dracula Mina and her plucky group of fuckbois slay the vampire. He is defeated and good Christian morals are preserved.
However, Dracula is that bitch - heās an object of fascination for everyone in the book, especially Mina. The title of the book is āDraculaā not āJonathan Harker is a good husband actuallyā.Ā
In the late 19th century gothic literature, the vampire and the monster was The Other. They were feared but also hypnotic - a beguiling, seductive other. Some women gave in to such temptation (Lucy) and some stood stoic in the face of it (Mina). But the temptation was still there. That is why it is powerful to triumph over it.
The Text: Dracula is scary and we shall defeat him The Subtext: But also donāt you think Dracula is kinda sexy?
That is and remains the subtext in all good gothic horror novels of the 19th century: you donāt literally want to fuck death or a monster but also, maybe in your subconscious, you kinda want to fuck death. You might want to fuck the monster. Maybe you want to be bad.
So when movies began making vampire stories - Dracula, Nosferatu - this theme became stronger in the visual medium. The monster was sexual, and the tension of the film was always the push and pull of attraction and horror between it and the fair maiden.
Later in the 20th century, it became more explicit, like everything else. Sexy vampire movies and exploitation movies in the 70s give way to Francis Ford Coppolaās ridiculous, fantastic, opulent āBram Stokerās Draculaā in the 1990s. A film that labors with every breath to faithfully adapt the novel, then throws that labour away to turn Mina into Draculaās reincarnated soul mate. I find this movie perplexing but fabulous. I have watched it probably 6 times in the past 3 years.
And then the 2000s teen vampire obsession. You have Buffy obviously, with her litany of vampire boyfriends (Iām a Spike fan - Angel is BORING). Hilariously for this discussion, Buffy is a slayer who dates vampires, so itās less Mina/Dracula and more Van Helsing/Dracula.Ā
(huh there is a market for that)
But where Buffy took what Anne Rice did and turned it into a weekly fun drama for teens (and tweens who probably should not have been watching), Stephanie Meyer evolves the vampire again. Twilight exploded the Vampire Boyfriend into the mainstream. In the early 2010s you couldnāt escape YA vampire and monster boyfriend fiction. You even had the CW jumping on board with The Vampire Diaries ffs
So after Twilight, wanting to fuck a vampire or monster became somewhat mainstream.
In the 2020s, vampires being the main love interest has fully transcended the subtext from the original stories. The monster has become a protective puppy in our beds. Say it with me āWe have defanged the vampireā. And like all big, crazy trends, eventually they run out of steam and become unfashionable. There is nothing particularly shocking left to milk from this archetype. Vampires became dull, untrendy, old news. They were supplanted by dystopias and fairy courts.
(I think ACOTAR is more honest about what readers actually want - most people arenāt monster fuckers. Most peopleās interest in vampire erotica is rooted in a powerful, sexy, somewhat feminine man magicking you away from your hum-drum life. Twilight is the dishonest version of ACOTAR. ACOTAR says āYeah we just wanna fuck Howl from Howls Moving Castle leave me aloneā)
I digress.
Dracula Daily started in 2021. A simple idea: using substack, send the text of Dracula out, on the timeline that matches the epistolary novelās dates. Tumblr being tumblr, we latch on and from 2022, the yearly run of Dracula Daily is an integral part of the tumblr experience.Ā
Like a book club with thousands of members, Tumblr has basically conducted a multi-year close reading and textual analysis of Dracula.
What has been most surprising is the volume of readers who have discovered the incredible character of Mina, and her sweet and strong relationship with Jonathan.
I think, in comparison to the often milquetoast relationship between these two on screen (I'll call it the cuckification of Jonathan) and the reduction often of Mina to a swooning maiden, Stokerās original text is a revelation.Ā
In the book, Mina is a headstrong, intelligent and resourceful operator. Without her, the group would have failed and Dracula would have England in his thrall. The men around her respect her. She works tirelessly to save Jonathan in the first place, then England.
Jonathan and Mina make an excellent team - once reunited, her determination to extinguish the thing that killed Lucy, and his first-hand knowledge combines to help defeat him. A now oft-quoted section shows that when Mina has been bitten and is in Draculaās thrall Jonathan writes:
āTo one thing I have made up my mind: if we find out that Mina must be a vampire in the end, then she shall not go into that unknown and terrible land alone. I suppose it is thus that in old times one vampire meant many; just as their hideous bodies could only rest in sacred earth, so the holiest love was the recruiting sergeant for their ghastly ranks.ā
Very sweet stuff. Very wife-guy. Isnāt Mina lucky?
So we now have so much fandom for Mina and Jonathan.
And itās very sweet and interesting - itās presented often as a radical, subversive take āI think Dracula sucks and is abusive. Mina and Jonathan belong together!ā. Itās a classic āonly on tumblr would this be considered a radical takeā. But also āOnly in the 21st century is this a radical takeā.
Itās like Christine/Raoul shippers in the POTO fandom (I am one but however itās because I truly do not think Christine is right for Erik. Read the masterwork āA Stroll on Sundayā thatās what I want for poor Erik). Thereās nothing wrong with thinking the canonical breeding pair are well-suited; however the fixation on them and vilification of the interloping monster is perhaps missing the point of the entire text.
Iām so sorry Tumblr, thinking Mina should be with her Good Christian Husband Jonathan is not a life-altering take. Tumblr has subverted too close to the sun and started reinforcing Victorian values. We/Tumblr should be studied in a lab I stg. The brain gymnastics involved in this one is too insane.
And now weāre seeing this bleed into the Nosferatu discussion. I really liked and agreed with a lot of what Princess said in her video about Nosferatu & the Gothic Appetite:
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But to bring this shipping focus to Nosferatu, is even more insane. Eggers' Nosferatu is far more focused on Ellenās connection to Orlok than Dracula/Mina in the original Dracula text. I really liked what Eggers' said in this interview:
āIn the novel, Stokerās Dracula is seemingly moving to London, to England, for world domination. And, but this is all a demon-lover story. Ya know, Orlok is going to Wisborg for Ellen and no other reason. And that, thatās more interesting to me as a storytellerā
Nosferatu is different to Dracula in that it strips the vampire-hunting gang out of the text. It takes a lot of the unnecessary excess of the text and pairs it down to a fairy tale. One town, cut down the plot, remove excess characters, keep it simple. For me, I feel the result is way more focused than the original plot (and the Coppola movie).
Instead of Quincy, Seward and Arthur you just have Friederich. And Friederich is not a valiant hero like our noble trio. Instead of friendship and brotherās in arms saving the day, Friederich abandons Ellen and Thomas and succumbs to the monster. There is so much more darkness and despair in Ellenās story because of this change.Ā
Those changes centralize the relationship between Ellen and Orlok in a way Dracula never did. It also does it in a less shit way then the Coppola film with its terrible reincarnation storyline.Ā Ā
With Ellen and Orlok central, the Ellen/Thomas argument makes even less sense. Ellen cares about Thomas of course, she doesnāt want any harm to come to him.
But she also says to him āYou could never please me as he couldā.Ā
Thomas symbolises the status quo - a husband who leaves you to go to work, to ignore your strangeness and potentially also flatten it. Ellen says āIt all ended when I first met my Thomasā. She grew up abnormal, supernatural and sexual - she alienated her father and family, and had a connection to a supernatural ancient demon during her teenage years. But the presence of Thomas removed that.
Some may see that as a saving grace - symbolising Thomasā love as healing and protecting Ellen from the forces of darkness. That is a fairly simple, Christian reading - the healing love of matrimony and gender norms. However, you can also see this as a squashing of her powers and uniqueness. As Von Franz says:
āIn heathen times you might have been a Great Priestess of Isis. Yet, in this strange and modern world your purpose is of greater worth.ā
He does not view Ellenās powers as an affliction but as matter-of-fact and part of who she is. He reframes those powers as something different - not a curse or possession. He compares her to the respected priestesses of an old world.Ā
Ellen chafes against the role of the good, noble wife. She does not want to be an angel in the house, and she does not want to be left at home while Thomas works. She clearly enjoys the honeymoon part of the marriage. The first scene we have between them Thomas gets ready to leave for work, leaving Ellen in bed crying: āThe honeymoon was yet too short!ā
Itās a Romeo and Juliet style scene - Thomas trying to leave the bedchamber as he must, and Ellen trying to convince him to stay and enjoy their married life. Thomas, like Romeo, does not realise the horrors that await him.
When he returns and tells her he must go away on a business trip, her reaction is less romantic and more frantic: she throws down the lilacs he bought her and eventually shrieks āCanāt you see that it doesnāt matter? If you leave nothing will matter!ā
Throughout the movie Ellen fights Thomas leaving with everything she has. She has premonitions, she knows nothing good will come of his trip. She does not want to be a little wife and does not want to be left behind in domesticity.Ā
(this is in contrast to Anna and Friederich, who are blissfully happy in a traditional marriage. He talks of his sexual appetite, she produces babies for him. He runs a shipping business, she stays at home with their children. He is brash, masculine and doesnāt listen. She is sweetness and light, hosts their guests and never causes trouble. And they both die. Their goodness, their adherence to Christian values does not save them)
Ellen however plays the part of the hysterical woman. She does not remain quiet, she does not remain sweetness and light. She has fits, she is hypersexual, she speaks her mind and speaks about death.
If you watch Nosferatu and think Ellen would be happy as Thomasā little wife at any point, I think you have missed the point. Thomasā personality or qualities are besides the point - he is part of patriarchy, part of status-quo living, part of her subjugation and squashing her into a role she could never fit into. She says as much when he returns and they have their infamous fight by the fire:
āWell, where is it? Your money? Your promotion? Your house? Where is that which is so precious to you? Have you paid back kind Harding your debt? Have you repaid him with this plague that infects his wife?ā
She is furious that she warned him not to leave her, that he did and the bad thing happened. That he seemingly sacrificed their love for a sack of gold. Women, in parts of culture and history, blocked from seeking work and income of their own, were therefore subjected to their spouses ambition and therefore neglect. If she was happy with having less materially, and more in her marriage, that was not a decision for her to make. Her husband made it, and the consequence was being left to her loneliness with an increasing brood of children to take care of.
Ellen does not want this. She spends the entire movie telling Thomas this. And at no point does he get it.
I think this is why it's so important that Orlok says:
āIt is not me. It is your own nature⦠Love is inferior to you. I told you, you are not of Human kind⦠I am an appetite, nothing moreā
Orlok is a symbol of all of Ellen that is not able to be seen, heard or appreciated in her world. She has an appetite of her own, love is inferior to power and control. In her marriage, unlike Annaās, she is the one with the sexual appetite. She wants, she asks and calls.Ā
There is no future of Ellen and Thomas happily together. There is only death - either the way that played out in the film, or Orlok killing Thomas. But if Ellen and Thomas somehow defeated Orlok with both surviving, like Mina and Jonathan, I doubt theyād happily go on to have a child and name him Friederich. Ellen would leave, one way or another.
Ellen is a woman trapped in a society that does not want her, or at least wants to cut her down, contort her to the right size and shape. Reduce her expression, shut her up and leave her at home while the real men do the real work, including hunting vampires.
And this is why I find Stokerās ending to Dracula so fucking frustrating. Mina is kept outside of the plans (for good reason - she has a channel to Draculaās thoughts and worries he can see what she sees, but this is created by the author and so I get to critique it) and bears witness to the destruction of Dracula. While I donāt need a girlboss in every story, Mina is somewhat side-lined in this process and I donāt love it. She follows this by becoming the normal and good house wife to Jonathan and producing some progeny to name after their slain heroes.
(sidebar I think it would be more meaningful if Mina had a daughter and named her Lucy, the name of her dearest friend who was horrifically killed but donāt mind me)
Ellen is very different from Mina here. Her connection to Orlok is not the reason to keep her distance - itās the reason she must get closer than anyone else. She takes control, speaking to Von Franz and getting what information she must to help her plan Orlokās destruction.
Like many people, I see the final scene as both a sacred bond (a matrimony) and a heroic sacrifice. It can be both. Ellen can both know what she needs to do to save her love and the innocents around her (kill Orlok), she also knows she is the reason for their suffering (girl clean up your mess!) and knows that luckily, this is also what her dark heart has longed for.
Itās not often the thing you must do is also the thing you desperately, secretly want.
Ellen knows thereās no life after this. Thereās no world where she becomes the happy mother and wife Mina Harker. There is only darkness and despair.
Eggers Nosferatu is a fairy tale that warns about the prospect for unusual, modern, sexual women. I read the ending of Dracula, of Jonathan saying āMy wife is so happy nowā and I think of Betty Draper shooting pigeons in the backyard. Youāre telling me that educated, brilliant Mina Harker is happy being relegated to the home? There will always be something that rubs me the wrong way about Minaās ending in Dracula, and the way the fandom has decided to blindly celebrate it. Ellen is an amazing antidote to that feeling.
Nosferatu is brilliant because it is honest about women and their status in this world. It allows room for Ellen and her own foibles. And it allows the darkness and the monstrous to coexist with the feminine. The ending is not a girlboss ending, it does not leave me feeling warm and fuzzy. It makes me uncomfortable - it is a gothic horror. The status quo is not maintained at the end of the movie - Orlok has disrupted their world, and it cannot be undone.
Ellen and Thomas are not a love story, and to pretend they are is to take the piss out of the entire thing.
#this took weeks to write but i think im finally happy enough with it#I also had to make that goddamned ed wood gif from scratch#hope someone appreciates that gif lol#also I guess im starting a fight with the entire tumblr dracula fandom?#Not trying to fight or judge except i guess i am#I just had a lot of thoughts#nosferatu#nosferatu spoilers#ellen hutter#thomas hutter#dracula#mina harker#jonathan harker
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ā¼ļøART TRIGGER WARNING: Mild body horror/gore
Sooooo I kinda unexpectedly deviated from what I would consider my normal art preferences here. Mostly because Iāve seen a lot of talented artists drawing their own renditions of menacing Puzzles fanart where he goes fully insane and whatnot. I wanted to also contribute to that trend somehowā¦although itās slightly out of my usual comfort zone << especially with his recent design change of loosing his whole lower body lol. Adapting that into my art was an interesting experimental challenge
Here is my own take on Puzzles falling apart! Quite literally! I still wanted to add a bit of empathy in here for him thoā because Iām going to be so distraught if WOTFI 2024 is his resignation from the spotlight for good. His final bow on stage if you will; the grand finale of his performance before he departs in death (MAN I SURE HOPE HE DOESNāT DIE BUT THE FANDOM SPECULATIONS AND PARANOIA ARE GETTING TO MY HEAD. And it just seems like the narrative progression is leaning that way). Well not matter what happens to him this upcoming Saturdayā¦this tragic TV guy has impacted me in unexpected ways and Iām just so glad we got to spend and entire year with his character. And heās sure not gonna disappear from my art anytime soon. Hopefully I wonāt be maiming him ever again after this though jksjsksp heās suffered enough angst for now <3


And here is just a black & white sketch version without the red overlay stuff!! Although itās an older version so not everything is exact
#ā¦.guys should I post this on Instagram too or not Iām actally worried about this unintentionally scaring some people off#IāM SORRY NO WAIT COME BACKKKK NOOOOO /J#at least here Iāve got a community with variety of people that may find this cool to stare at#but on Instagram? my friends are for sure going to think Iāve lost my mind š„²#Iām trying so hard to not judge myself or get self conscious or hide my art IāM TRYING#however when my brain decides to pull something like THIS outta the blue I start to question my life again lol#maybe visiting the Hana Lock art gallery today impacted me more then expected whoops#very skilled artist but she tends to do a lot of body horror as well#ā¦..yea okay think I solved the culprit here#hplonesome art#tw body horror#body horrow cw#cw body horror#tw mild gore#smg4 mr. puzzles#mr. puzzles smg4#ā¦.still a tad worried about people finding it so thats the only tags Iām brave to put at the moment#even though I know itās not the popular ones#might change it later though who knows!
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Eloise is really, really bad at chessš
(this is a scene from my fic & I typed it up here:)
"Milady, you cannot send him there! He will surely die a terrible death, and Murdoch is our finest knight!"
Eloise blinked her bleary eyes at the wizarding chess board, not really comprehending what the tiny pieces were yelling at her. The one that seemed to be doing the most talking was gesticulating wildly and jumping up and down, trying to get her attention. When she had taken the pieces out of the box Sebastian had lent her, they had immediately recognized her and started protesting, appealing to 'their benevolent lord's innate sense of goodness', but their protests fell on deaf ears. Eloise was positive that Sebastian took some sort of perverse pleasure at watching her lose at chess.
In the background, she could hear Ominis's laughter echoing through the Undercroft. His own pieces were quite happy at the moment, preening and occasionally sending rude gestures towards Eloise's, much to Sebastian's amusement. He was narrating their every action to Ominis, whose laughter was egging on his soldiers even more.
"Eloise," Sebastian said, propping his chin up by one hand (entirely too amused, infuriatingly so, why did he have to look so handsome when she was trying to be annoyed at him?), "maybe you should move the knight..." his other hand pointed to an empty space on the board, "...here."
This declaration caused an uproar. There were shouts of betrayal, tiny pieces gesticulating wildly to the carnage surrounding the board as they shouted in vain. She didn't see any other viable moves, so Eloise sighed and ordered the brave little Murdoch to where Sebastian had suggested. Chaos immediately ensued and Ominis's queen gleefully knocked his head off with a violent swing of her scepter. Eloise's pawns all doubled over, sobbing as their most valient knight fell, and her remaining bishop shook his tiny fist in outrage up at her.
After a few more minutes, much to Eloise's ashamed relief and the boys' disappointment, her pieces refused to move for either her or Sebastian. They solemnly collected the remains of their fallen comrades with as much dignity as they could muster and marched off the board and back into their box in a mourning parade of sorts.
Sebastian joined Ominis's pieces as they jeered the losing team off the board, causing Eloise to glare fiercely at him. "You were the one telling me what to do, and they're your pieces! Show some loyalty."
He shrunk away from the intensity of her gaze and held up his hands in protest. "I was suggesting the moves as a joke! After last week's fiasco, I didn't think you'd fall for it again."
Ominis was laughing so hard he was gasping for breath, and the two of them turned to watch him. Even through her irritation, Eloise couldn't help but smile at him - he was always so solemn and these bouts of mirth were few and far between. He managed to speak between bouts of laughter. "I...I couldn't...I couldn't believe it when you sent your bishops one by one into my trap! It was so obvious! And then...and then you..." Ominis dissolved into fits of laughter again and couldn't finish.
Eloise turned her angry glare to him. "We can't all be chess geniuses!"
"I've tried teaching you and you don't listen! For the next time, I'm only going to give you one piece of advice: don't listen to Sebastian." He chuckled once more to himself and then turned slightly to the board, addressing his men (and queen) and giving them a debriefing. He always did this after he won the matches; it was a strange sort of ritual that he seemed to look forward to.
#idk why Iām sharing the writing here but it was a scene I liked š#I am positive my ao3 readers do NOT overlap here but anyways#now I can add this drawing as an illustrationšš#I drew this a few days ago but forgot to upload lol#also this is my first time writing since like middle school please donāt judge it too muchšššššš#I love how Sebastian looks at Eloiseš„¹š#I always thought wizarding chess was so funny#and I would DEFINITELY play it like Sebastian does#trying to cause as much chaos as possible without caring if I winš#Ominis gets tired of it though so he plays Imelda more often#in my mind#Ominisās thoughts are so ordered and he is so disciplined that chess comes quite easily to him#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise#Eloise babbit#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#lmaooooo another tag novel I am sorry everyonešš#hogwarts legacy fanfic
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hey there! i'm very new to simblr and looking for mutuals to befriend!
i'm a pretty well-rounded simmer in that i split my time pretty evenly between cas, build/buy, and gameplay, and i've been playing since the sims 2. currently loving the sims 4 as i have recently been able to download custom content and mods which has added so much to my gameplay. if you have a favorite maxis match cc creator, feel free to put me on them 'cause i love finding new creators to support!
besides the sims, i also play overwatch, the lego games, the tomb raider reboot, horizon: forbidden west, and lots more! my favorite shows are buffy the vampire slayer, the good place, most things star wars, once upon a time, grey's anatomy, and sense8.
i'm hoping to use this simblr to share my creations beyond just the gallery. if you'd like to follow me there, my ea id is spacecowboyalex. i have a ton of sims i've made recently that i can't wait to get into game with to take screenshots (i just learned how to use the pose mod and i'm very excited about it lol).
also if any of you are on twitter my @ is alexile_. i'm way more active on there than here tbh but that may change!
#alex's thoughts#oh also not that this should need to be said but#racists/homophobes/sexists/transphobes/zionists/etc. do not interact lmao i do not respect your values ONE BIT#p.s.s. look at how cute my simself is!!! v proud of him even if he's an idealized version of me lol#gotta set goals for myself somehow i guess! lmao#sims 4#the sims 4#ts4#simblr#new simblr#also don't judge my awful edit.... i'm brand new to photoshop so i'm trying my best!
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mtr:
all named after jp god imagery
team symbol is a cross
jakuraiās mic is a ref of the staff of asclepius, a greek healer who was deified into the god of medicine
jakuraiās got a lot of holy imagery attached to him: angel wings, sins, salvation, etc
dh:
rei swore to be the god of this world
reiās speaker has the ho-ou bird, a celestial figure in cn/jp mythology
tsuutenkaku means a building that leads to the heavens and is part of their lore
bat:
hitoya has warned jakurai against trying to act as a god (heās learning to judge humans by their sins and not the human themself, as the catholic/christian god promised)
jyushiās favourite band and heavy inspiration for his appearance is ādreams and gods are fakeā and quotes that phrase in song (but calls hitoya his god)
gods are not the highest veneration in buddhism; buddhas are human. kuukouās main goal has been to live a life where he can proudly face the buddha (but has had a lot of buddha imagery placed on him: the black crown, sal trees etc)
so theyāre like, the holy trinity divisions lmao š¤
#this is vee speaking#kuukou was also part of stairway to heaven etc like thereās a lot more i could have included in batās lol#and thereās like plenty iām sure iām missing for dh and mtr lol but you get the point!!!!!#hitoya being so grounded by humanity that he kinda just hates humans lowkey lol#like that grounded mentality is what kept his eyes open to jakuraiās saviour complex#but itās jyushi that keeps pushing hitoya towards a kind of godhood lol by referring to him as a god and getting him to judge based on sin#(lowkey hates humans my ass lmao jyushi suggested to hate the sin not the sinner hitoya fcking HATES humans LOL šššš)#i love jyushi and hitoyaās relationship lmao itās just rly nice šššššš#ik i should be trying to explain other things but batpilled lol#a buddhist otaku by their definition lol who loves kuukou recently did a brief analysis on ghost kuukou#and surmised the lack of faith in humans ghost kuukou has caused him to decide to become the buddha for them#which personally made me want to puke in excitement lol but thereās another take that kuukou has a lot of buddha specific imagery#rather than just buddism things like attaining enlightenment or guiding others bc heās a monk lol like itās more than just that#and so itās kinda neat that jakurai has symbolisms for a human who became god and kuukou whoās being of worship is an ascended human#and then thereās also rei a self made god hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#god i want to draw the three of them so badly lmao
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