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#twitter I beg of you…be serious…even just once
ohello0 · 6 months
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I respect the wishes of Palestinian activists and hope it’s not them doing this rather but loud non-Palestinians with good intentions, to them I have just one ask: stop asking for elon musk’s attention on Gaza or Palestine in general.
He is a racist. A white supremacist. An antisemite that allows neo nazis to roam on the social media platform he’s running into the ground. He actively tries to silence Palestinian voices while amplifying racist, Islamophobic, genocidal rhetoric. He does not care about the lives of Palestinians or any oppressed people under occupation because their oppression is what makes him and his friends wealthy. He’s not the kind of person we want on our team
I kinda see why people are demanding he visit Gaza to see the destruction first hand but I have a sneaking suspicion that a man who grew up in apartheid South Africa in a family that owned a blood emerald mine won’t see suffering Palestinians as people but instead see their demolished houses as a real estate opportunity.
The ultra rich don’t fix problems, they create them, philanthropy is a scam. Gaza does not need dickheads like elon musk using their power and influence to encourage others to make exploitative decisions that ultimately lead to more ethnic cleansing.
STOP ASKING HIM FOR SHIT
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sluckythewizard · 2 months
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SHHH SH HEYYY HEY DONT TELL ANYONE BUT... ive been workin on smth since BITB came out..... itsa lil musical animatic involvin kian and becky.... ITS NO WHERE NEAR DONE YET but loooook look im puttin lil screenshots under the cut. its supposed to go along with Am I In Heaven? by King Gizzard n the Lizard Wizard. infact yknow what cmere come sit with be bc ALOT of songs from the 'IM IN YOUR MIND FUZZ' album makes me think about becky and kian. oh my god. those two make me so damn emotional. like Her and I was the first one to rly resonate with me, and EMPTY was another good one, all just stuff about. yknow LOVE!! doomed by the narrative yet burning SO SO brightly in its last moments, holding hands, playing music, THEY WERE SO IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT THE COPY OF THEM LOVED YOU, AND YOUR COPY LOVES THEM TOO. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL, CRUMBLING, BURNING, HISSING, SQUIRMING, MELTING, CLICKING LOVE STORY..
GET OVER HERE N SCREAM WITH MEEE I LOVE SCREAMING ABOUT THINGS
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#THIS IS A DRAFT that i made like. months ago. woopsie.#BUT IM CHIPPING AWAY AT IT AGAIN. IT CANT STAY UNFINISHED FOREVER. ONE DAY YOU WILL ALL SEE! YOULL ALL SSSEEEE!!!!!!!#no reblogs either this stays between US!!!!!!!!!!#and if you guys like it enough i might post an old fuckin wip i have all packaged together on youtube. its a VIDEO it goes w the MUSIC!!#SOUND WITH THE MOVING IMAGE?? IVE ONLY EVER DONE IT ONCE!!!#ill post the Lord of Lightning animatic i made on tumblr when i get the chance. in the meantime i ahve it posted on twitter. GO FETCH#but THIS SECOND ONE is out there.. all synced together..#but its a wip and its rough and old and scuffed and i HATE IT. my son whom i wish was dead#but you can see it. for the small small price of uh. begging.#also ouuhh my god i love becky and kian so much... they make me so emotional.. SOMETHING ABT DOOMED SHIPS...#even as the boat sinks these two clung together so tightly. they really really did love eachother so much. even after ten years of ROTTING#of sitting and waiting and wondering 'where is she?' is she lost? hurt? did something happen? is she okay? did she even want to be here?#does she hate me? did she leave because she hated me? she never wanted to see me again? where is she? where is she? guess ill write a song#FOR TEN YEARS. when i was just busy. i was distracted. so much came up. things got serious. my dream became clear and i had to chase it#i didnt know you were waiting. im sorry. i should have chased the thought of you more. but i was busy. i was just busy.#i wish that i could apologize with the throat that was my own. i hope this copy will suffice. i hope this copy will suffice. UGH
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explicit-tae · 7 months
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Ungodly Hour (3)
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When your mother is sent screenshots of your tweets, you lie & claim that it was an inside joke between you & your boyfriend. @seokjinkismet @bloodline1632 @babycandy111
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Warning: dirty talk, simp jungkook once again, oral (f/m receiving) face riding, 69, dirty talk, creampie, unprotected sex, degradation kink, submissive reader, dom jungkook, slight jealous and possessive jungkook, but like we love this jungkook,
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“Never knew you lived alone.” you say as your eyes scan around the clean, spacious apartment. 
“I’ve invited you over plenty of times.” Jungkook closes the door behind him, takes off his shoes and makes his way towards his kitchen. “You always shot me down.”
You follow him into the kitchen with a roll of your eyes, sitting on the island to watch him take out the fresh food he just bought today for dinner. “Who knows what you’d do to me if I stayed here.”
“Exactly what you beg me to do when we’re at your house.” Jungkook sends you a smile before turning away from you.
Jungkook had a point, you’re sad to say.
Jungkook begins to cook, wrapping a black apron around his torso tightly as he does so. You laugh at how persistent he is, your stomach churning with unknown feelings - you refuse to believe it’s because you like him more than a fuck buddy.
The phone call you got from your mother was an embarrassing one. She called you non-stop, and when you finally answered, you were left completely worried about what in the world she could be in such a rush to speak about.
Your tweets were not what was on your mind when you answered. She had told you that she was sent a screenshot - you blame your brother and his treacherous ways; who else would it be? “Are you prostituting yourself?” your mother’s disappointed voice asks over the phone and a side of you wants to laugh. Maybe in a way this could be prostitution - but you and Jungkook had a form of relationship. You were close friends, you’d say, often hanging out together even outside of sex - so you didn’t consider it prostitution. Just maybe a favor for a favor.
“No, of course not!” was your response, completely flushed with hot embarrassment. “Who told you about twitter? How did you find it…?” 
What made your mother stop ranting was you exclaiming that Jungkook - or the “horny boy who comments on your posts” as she puts it - was your boyfriend and everything you were tweeting was just an inside joke between the two of you - a joke she obviously didn’t get.
When you made an obvious lie to your mother, she was skeptical. You never mentioned any boyfriends before and it was news to her. She wanted to meet Jungkook, already telling your father about the embarrassing tweets and what “the new generation are doing on their social media platforms” that he didn’t care about. 
So, this is how you and Jungkook found yourself in his apartment - a rather spacious, clean and overall nice apartment - with him cooking dinner for you, himself and your parents. Once viewing your tweet, he had called you instantly, declaring that he was going to be the best fake boyfriend your mother ever met.
“Smells good.” you murmur after about 30 minutes, looking up from your phone.
Jungkook knits his brows and chuckles. “Does it?” he asks. “I had to bring out the fine china for my in-laws.”
You roll your eyes. “You’re pushing it.” you quip.
Jungkook lowers the fire and turns towards you. His apron is slightly messy, but it only meant that he was a good chef. He places his hands onto the table, your eyes catching the way his veins pulse. 
“I’m serious.” Jungkook says. “There’s no going back from this now. We mind as well start thinking about marriage.”
You raise a brow and tilt your head. 
“I mean,” Jungkook taps his fingers onto the island table. “after I woo your mother and show her how amazing I am, there’ll be no other man who’s going to have that love in her heart.”
You begin to laugh at Jungkook’s words - even if he did have a point. Jungkook would be the type of person your mother would want for you to date - which made the fake dating aspect more comical for you. 
“You’re laughing now,” Jungkook smirks, leaning forward to capture your lips in a quick, off guard, peck. His soft lips shut you up and leave you wanting more. “but I’ll be having the last laugh when she invites me to all the holiday dinners.”
You lick your lips, attempting to not let Jungkook see you flustered. “Is that so?” you decide to humor the man. “You’ll put yourself through humiliation even when I do find a boyfriend?”
Jungkook’s eyes are right on yours, starting with a serious expression. Slowly, his smirk turns into a thin line and then you begin to feel as though you crossed a line with him - maybe even hurt his feelings in a way.
Jungkook pokes his tongue through his cheek, but then he tilts his head once more and gives you that toothy grin. “Sure. You’ll keep seeing me at these holiday dinners or get-togethers because your mother will love me so much, I'll basically be part of the family.” 
Jungkook turns away, turning off the stove. His eyes darted to the clock hanging high on the wall, there was another 30 minutes until your parents would arrive. 
“You’ll still sit on my face even if you did bring a boyfriend around. And I’ll make you cum each time.”
Jungkook’s words catch you by surprise, but it leaves you hot nonetheless. His eyes are staring right through you once more - he knows what he’s doing and you hate it - hate that he knows what he could do to you with just his words.
“That sounds absurd that you think I would keep you around even if I did have a boyfriend.” you  quip, challenging him. 
“But you will.” Jungkook retorts all too quickly. “You’ll do nothing but have that” Jungkook raises a hand and does air quotations. “boyfriend running away.”
You’re taken aback, but before you can respond, Jungkook does.” When you realize that only I have the patience to handle that spoiled princess bitchy attitude you portray, it’ll make things easier for the both of us.” he shrugs. “Until then, I’ll let you live out this fantasy of a fake boyfriend coming around.”
Jungkook waits for you to respond to him with petty remarks. He doesn’t tell you, but he enjoys the petty debates you and he share - maybe because each time it ends with you sitting on his face. 
You don’t speak, and Jungkook knows yet again, he has you beat. 
“You want to sit on my face?” Jungkook questions with a raised brow after a few moments of a silent staring battle.
You nod, and now the both of you are scurrying to his bedroom - his leading the way. Jungkook doesn’t botter shutting the door, there was limited time he had. He’s already pulling at your pants when he enters the room.
Jungkook lays down upon his bed just as your pants fall. “Just push them aside.” he says in a hurry. “Cute.” he murmurs at the pastel lavender underwear you wore - they were velvet and soft. “Are these new?”
You position yourself above Jungkook’s lips and nod your head. “You should know. It was your credit card that was swiped.” 
Jungkook snorts but nods. “I don’t check where you go when I give you my card.” he begins to kiss your inner thighs.
“This is why Jimin hates me.” you giggle, biting your lip. “Spending all your money on me while he has to fight for hulu again.”
Jungkook places a kiss on your clit. “I’m not fucking Jimin.” is all he says before diving into your clit. His tongue begins to lick between your folds and now your back is arching.
Jungkook licks your clit like a man starved, determined to make you cum. His hands rub your thighs encouragingly like he usually does, wanting you to get enough pleasure as you could. 
You begin to rock your hips against his tongue, biting your lips. You could never say no to Jungkook offering to pleasure you - he does it so often now that it becomes a part of your weekly routine.
“You’re holding back.” Jungkook muffled words hit your ears. His finger slides between your panties, pushing them aside so he has more access to lick upon your clit. Just as you open your eyes to look at Jungkook, he lifts you up slightly to spit onto your clit, just to lap it up entirely, along with the arousal you provided him. 
“S-Stop doing that.” you murmur, but even you can’t help but moan. Jungkook understands your body right now, only knowing his perverted actions would cause you to buckle your hips against his tongue even harder.
Jungkook doesn’t respond, just lies and watches as your face contorts with pleasure. His hand roams your bare thighs until he reaches your ass. He rubs it gently, a slight encouragement for you to get your high off. 
With each thrust of your clit upon his tongue, Jungkook feels himself grow hard - but this wasn’t about him. He enjoyed pleasuring you, truly - even when you did nothing for him in return. Watching you knowing that he had you this way was worth it. 
Jungkook willingly slurps and groans onto your clit, his hands now squeezing your ass. “If you keep doing that I’m gonna cum.” you say, and Jungkook does it even harder, a look in his eyes that tells you “that’s the point”.
‘F-Fuck.” you lift yourself from Jungkook’s tongue against his wishes.
“You didn’t cum yet.” Jungkook pushes you back down against his tongue, preparing himself when you speak.
“I know you’re hard.” you turn yourself around so you’re facing his erect cock. His sweats appear tight when you know they aren’t, but that’s due to his hardened cock.”Wanna cum in my mouth?”
Jungkook groans. He doesn’t answer, just dives back onto your clit. He has a firm grasp against you, ensuring you don’t move away from him this time. 
You don’t waste any more time, hands roughly tugging out Jungkook’s cock. It springs out and you wrap your mouth against the tip, sucking it just know you know Jungkook likes it.  Your nails dig into his thighs as your head bobs up and down, sucking him in deeper each time.
Jungkook’s fully moaning now into your clit, hips thrusting to meet your warm mouth. He doesn’t understand fully how you do this to him each time - there was never a dull moment with you. Sex each time only became better and better; he never wanted it to end.
“I-I don’t think I can let you cum in my mouth.” you say, popping Jungkook’s cock from your swollen lips. Your tongue licks up the shaft of it before you kiss the tip. “Please, just fuck me.”
Jungkook doesn’t need to be told twice. When Jungkook wanted to, he could easily throw you around like a ragdoll. You’re grateful that the man with such stamina and strength never fully displays it unless you wanted him to.
“We only have about five minutes.” Jungkook centers himself at your entrance, enthralled at how amazing your ass appeared arched for him - no matter how many times you blessed him with such a view. 
“Maybe then, fuck…” Jungkook begins to enter you, your pussy immediately clenching around him. “...you have five minutes to fuck me like you mean it then.”
Fuck you Jungkook does. His thrusts are completely brutal, both hands firmly against you. His left is on your hips while his right is pressing your back against his mattress. The sounds of skin slapping echoes off of his walls, the neighbors would surely know about this one.
“Your pussy’s so wet for me, baby.” Jungkook grunts, eyes bouncing between the arch of your back to the way you were creaming his cock. “And to think you thought about having a boyfriend that wasn’t me.”
You knew Jungkook wasn’t going to let that down, but you were far too into his dick to care about what he was saying to fuel his ego - Jungkook did this constantly. “No one could fuck you as good as me” he’d say. “Your pussy was made for my cock.” was another. Your favorite was his praises towards you. “You look so beautiful taking me.” or “You ride it so good, baby.”
Jungkook’s right hand reaches for your neck, hoisting you up. His cock goes even deeper and now you’re unable to suppress your whimpers. “You know no one else can deal with you like I can.”
Jungkook’s lips press open mouth kisses against the nape of your neck. 
“I know.” you whimper, submitting to Jungkook like he wants. 
It’s amazing to think how different the two of you were while intimate. Jungkook appeared like the submissive type to others, always doting on you (even if there wasn’t an actual label on the “relationship") while you appeared dominant and demanding. But when Jungkook was in the mood (with your consent, of course) it was like a switch turned in his brain, and he wanted (needed) you to know that you were his.
“Exactly.” Jungkook chuckles. He’s hitting your spot with each thrust, not letting go of your neck. “I think you just enjoy being a bitch.”
You clench around him at the degrading word, Jungkook notices. 
“You enjoy teasing me, saying how you’d give my pussy away to someone else.”
“I-I’m about to cum!” you wail, eyes clenched shut. It was Jungkook’s fault - fuck him and his good dick and his dirty words. Maybe you were into a little bit of degrading and maybe even a little masochism - you were already submissive to Jungkook. You had to fight back agreeing with the man and telling him that it was his pussy; you would never hear the end of it if you did.
“I bet.” Jungkook retorts smugly. “You love it when I treat you like a whore off the street, huh?” Jungkook shakes his head, squeezing your neck a little harder. “I’ll fuck you however you’d like, Y/N, because deep inside, you know you’re my girl. You aren’t going anywhere.”
You cum on the spot, his words truly getting to you now. Jungkook allows you to fall into his pillows as he continues to pound inside of you. His thrusts are sloppy, and he knows even he has little time left until he cums. 
Jungkook swallows the lump in his throat, pondering that maybe he has gone a little too hard on you - but then you turn your head slightly to face him and you give him those eyes. The same eyes he can never say no to.
Jungkook cums deep inside of you, twitching. He’s hissing, his eyes fluttering at the sensational feeling. There was nothing better than getting to cum inside of you - it felt more intimate than pulling out (even if he did enjoy coating you with his cum).
Jungkook takes a few deep breaths before pulling out of you. It was times like this he wished he could capture the moment - you completely fucked out with his cum dripping out of you. It’s the sick satisfaction he often thinks of when he’s alone - that you allowed him to do this to you when you are known as the closed off girl with the resting (beautiful) bitch face.
Jungkook places your panties back to cover you, lightly tapping it. “I’ll be saving that for later.” he sighs in satisfaction. “You okay? I wasn't too rough, right?”
You sigh deeply. It takes you a moment to turn but when you do, you nod. 
Jungkook gives you a wide smile. “Okay. Get up. They’ll be here soon.” Jungkook tells you. “We can’t have them knowing I fucked the shit out of you.”
Your eyes widened but you couldn’t help but laugh. You hide your face with your hands. “I’m so sleepy, though.”
Jungkook grasps your hands, placing a kiss on both of them. “We have the whole weekend to sleep in.” he says, and it’s then you remembered you agreed to spending the weekend with Jungkook, him insisting that after dinner he can just drive you back to your home and pack a bag. “And I have the whole weekend to show you just how much you are my girl.”
Jungkook sends a wink your way and you can’t help but roll your eyes, even if the pits of your stomach are churning and your body feels hot.
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carmesi-butterfly · 5 months
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nishimura riki + fem! reader. word count 1,5k. not idols au/school au. warnings stalking (?) this one-shot is probably the most unserious thing i've ever written. not proofread.
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"i checked your twitter account," said riki, trying to maintain a serious face and failing miserably, a few giggles came out of his mouth while he attempted to act normal.
"eh? that's not possible, my account is private" you looked at him with confusion, trying to decipher his weird laugh.
your twitter account has been a recurrent topic since both became friends, first of all because; who doesn't have twitter? it was the diary of the new generations, most of the teenagers had a profile in there! of course, you were one of them, but the way that you treated your account like confidential information made the japanese boy pretty suspicious.
it was a private account with no more than 15 followers, most of them probably were internet friends because it wasn't a novelty that you were not social by any means, on the contrary, you could be considered a loner, because of that, the apparent "state secret" hiding in your profile made ni-ki more than curious about what you could be secreting.
"i don't want you to get mad at me" pleaded, following that he proceeded to show you an interesting account that you knew well.
a profile named 'riri', with one of those famous headers with silly quotes you can find on pinterest and as an icon an orange cat with the emoji ☝️ referring to the recent meme that became viral, to finalize the bio was decorated with the phrase 'proud hater'. you got a request from that account just a few weeks ago, it followed most of the people you followed so it wasn't any suspicious to you, besides that's how you made a few of your friends! Following or being followed by oomfs of your oomfs, that's how social media works.
"that's you?" your voice raised annoyed and nervous, "you used that account to stalk me?!" with anger, you got up from your seat on the school rooftop.
"i wanted to know why you're hiding things from me!" his tone matched yours, being not loud enough to be heard by the other students who navigated through the school.
"if i hide things from you there's a reason!" your mood escalated from there, not only did your anger grow bigger but an immense urge to cry hit you.
“i-i know… I’m sorry y/n, i thought it would be something stupid, not that you like me”
riki brings your biggest secret into the conversation without any filter, dropping it like a not-warned bomb that fell into you and unloaded the last level of emotions you were hiding on a facade of pure rage.
now everything made sense, his giggly laugh without a reason while looking at you, the weird things he said that seemed like an inner joke you could not understand, the weird “i know your secret” he released randomly in your conversations... you thought it was all a joke! it's nishimura riki that we’re talking about. He enjoys pranking and tends to do and say weird stuff, it could be a completely normal behavior for him, but no, this time it wasn't.
“why did you think doing this was a good idea?” you claimed, hiding your face between the palms of your hands while a few tears slid down your face.
“sunoo once said that he knows you like me, so heeseung gave me the idea of stalking your accounts for any signal but your accounts are private… so he helped me by making a stalking account, i know it was wrong. i'm sorry, please don't cry” he begged after confessing everything, trying to get near you therefore he could calm you at least a little bit.
“sunoo and heeseung know?!” you blurted, your eyes opened as if you were trying to imitate an owl’s gaze, and your hands transitioned from covering your face to holding it, any similarity with ‘the scream’ by edvard munch is just a coincidence.
“the whole group knows” announced, opening the hell gates with a simple phrase.
“riki are you kidding me?! i don't care that you know even if you violated my privacy, because i would've told you sooner or later, but your friends?! how humiliating, i’m never coming to school again” and the catharsis started, a big flow of verbal vomit came out of your mouth going from ‘they're probably making fun of me right now’ to ‘i’m gonna delete all my social media and never use my phone again’ all of this accompanied by fat tears.
the poor boy felt hopeless, watching you practically going insane in front of him without knowing what to do to help you, or more reasonably: how to amend his mistake. luckily for him, his guardian angels appeared in the scene to help him, hiding behind the door of the rooftop heeseung (the one responsible for this mess) and jungwon (a heart warmed soul who wanted to help his friend) were hiding, their faces full of horror admiring the scene that was unloading in front of them. what happens next is worthy of a comedic movie. His friends started a physical and exaggerated demonstration of how he should calm you, hugging each other and emphasizing comfort acts such as back patting and forehead kissing. ni-ki would've burst out laughing if it wasn't for you crying like a baby.
“please don't cry, i’m sorry, you can beat me all you want if it makes you feel better” proposed completely seriously, while slowly without trying to upset you more he got closer, searching to imitate the “comforting” hug he saw his friends do, let's not lie… it was a bit awkward, but he tried and that's okay.
gradually you ended up relinquishing the embrace, starting by clinging to him delicately and finishing by squeezing his torso the strongest you could.
“beating you is not enough, i need you to die” your voice came out weird because of the amount of strength you were applying to the “hug”, but despite that, your head relied on his chest.
“you will suffer a lot without me!” a small laugh flew out of his mouth, refreshing the conversation. “are you still mad at me?” the nishimura looked down, searching for your face and any kind of reaction from it.
“yes” your response was cut and short, it could've worried your crush if it wasn't for the water dripping off your nose because of all the crying.
“u-uhm, i have something to tell you, maybe this will help you feel better” his heart started to beat faster and you could feel it through the hug, he cleared his throat in a way of trying to shake the nerves out, “the reason i did all of this stupid plan was that… i had hopes that you talked about me there, uhm…” a small pause to take a big breath after the confession interrupted the moment, but he quickly picked up the conversation, “my friends encouraged me to confess, specially sunoo, you know that he has a sixth sense with gossip” joked.
“you're telling me that… you did all of this because you like me?” you asked dumbfounded, the question got him more embarrassed than he already was, why did it make him sound so stupid?
he nodded, ignoring your attempt at visual contact while trying to hold back his smile. “then, do you feel better now?”
“no” denied, “but i know what can make me feel better” and after saying that, a naughty smile appeared on your face.
“what? i will buy you a lot of food from the cafeteria if that's what you want-”
his phrase got interrupted by you, who continued speaking, “do you remember… when i found that folder on your phone that had a ton of pictures of you trying to fake your muscles? how would you feel if i told your friends about it?” ni-ki’s smile disappeared instantly, now his face reflected nothing more than true terror.
in a matter of seconds, your bodies separated and you started running to the rooftop door. riki knew what you were trying to do, getting into the school, searching for his friends, and revealing his shameful secret! this can't be, but after being a bad friend things were not on his side, he tried following you the fast as he could but forgot a small detail, his friends hiding behind the gate. as soon as you got to the exit the spot where the two boys were hiding got exposed and both seemed nervous about that, but you couldn't care less.
“hi, guys! it's so nice to see you, i have something amazing to tell you!” your acting, so giggly and happy relaxed jungwon and heeseung who were scared of being scolded for spying. “did you know that riki-”
at that exact moment, the japanese covered his ears, not wanting to hear all the things you might be saying to his comrades who surely were going to make fun of him until the day he died. well, at least he can make fun of them because he got a girlfriend (even if you aren't his girlfriend yet) and they don't!
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hiiiii I found your Twitter and I absolutely adore it, I had no clue you did requests but I think you'll like mine...
Something small of Reader finding out Kieran wants a baby, but Reader is an upper classman and Director Cyrano's niece! Preferably post-Area Zero Kieran cause I want my sweet pie Kieran food please an thank you mwah
I guess you've liked my tweets about making shonenshotas into fathers....
Warnings: implied AFAB reader, both of you are teenagers he's just a young one while you're an older one, slight babyfever ramblings...
You're just happy it's over.
When Kieran left for Kitakami, he came back acting so much different, outright refusing to talk to you most times, or plain ignoring you. He'd tell you on occasion he still loved you, but you never felt any real emotion behind it, because you didn't feel loved.
Thankfully, that changed after he took another trip with the person that was upsetting him so much, and he came back acting much like himself once more. The Kieran you fell in love with is now holding your hands, smiling at you, and asking you softly, "How do you feel about having a baby?"
"Huh...?" You've both barely even kissed before, where did he get this from?!
"Cause I've been thinking... That I want a baby, with you, of course, if you don't mind..." His face is getting redder by the moment, so you know this isn't a joke of a prank, Kieran really does want a baby!
"But... We're both still in school... What if I graduate before you do?" Though Blueberry Academy doesn't really have set years like most places, you're still much farther along in your studies than Kieran, and older too.
"I'll work extra hard in all my studies so we can graduate at the same time, I promise. I'm a good battler, my grades are picking up again, you know I can do it!"
Kieran sounds so desperate, it's adorable really, even when he still only had a puppy crush on you, you'd always fold to his cute voice and appearance. Now that you're dating, and it's serious, you can't help but fold more.
"I... will consider it."
"Oh! R-really? You will? I'll be patient, I promise, and I'll work really hard on the meantime so you know I'm serious! I'll even get a part time job here at the academy and—"
"Don't overwork yourself, if I do end up getting pregnant, I'll need your help... Cause I've never had a baby before."
"O-obviously! I know that!" Smiling even wider than before, he hugs you, pressing himself to your chest and nuzzling close, "Just knowing that you're even considering it... I'm so happy."
"Kieran." You look up to see your Uncle standing just a few steps away, your eyes opening wide in embarrassment at being caught with your boyfriend snuggled up so close to you. "What are you doing with my darling niece, huh?"
The kindness in his voice sounds strained, and you can't help but laugh, "We're just hugging!"
"In the hallways to class! Everyone else has already cleared out— get to your classrooms before I have to separate you two love pidoves myself!"
At that, Kieran finally pulls away from you, gazing at you with sparkling begging eyes, so you press a quick kiss to his lips just before he's pulled away by the arm, your Uncle taking him down the hall while your adorable lover mouths 'I love you' and blows a kiss.
You catch it, and make a small show of kissing your palm, and then he's pulled around the corner of the hallway, out of sight.
A baby, huh... That's something you're going to have to put a lot of thought into... But Kieran is really attractive, girls fawn over him all the time even if he's unaware of it, and you don't want to lose him to some tramp who will just say yes without thinking! Not that you think he'd ever leave you, but you don't need to give him a reason either.
You love Kieran, and it's not like you mind babies, so a baby with Kieran might be just what you need to get accustomed to them.
Hmm, you'll do your best too, for Kieran. Maybe you should give him an answer tonight... Alone, in his dorm room. He's not that patient, after all.
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kpopscruggles · 3 months
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Mlt in svt to enjoy pegging / any type of (m receiving) anal play
So when it comes too pegging I have so many thoughts in mind it’s not even funny, ESPECIALLY WITH SVT! 
So, this is who’s on my rosta 
+Most Likely+ 
Jun – Imo I think this would start out within becoming a question, he’ll say maybe but because it’s not a yes it won't fall through. It’ll be itching his brain for days because he also wants to satisfy you and if that means filling him up with your cock then so be it. WHEN HE FINALLY AGREES HE” LL FIND OUT THAT HE” S NEVER COMING BACK FROM IT, he will soon realize that at least once a week he's begging you too fuck him. Him riding you has to be his favorite because sometimes you'll put a leash on him or he’ll even grip your breasts, suck your neck, possibilities are endless.  
Jeonghan – He suggests it first because he seen it while s rolling on twitter, it wasn’t just the fucking that caught his eye it was the hair pulling. SO, when he showed you, he wanted to take him just like that and you agree?!?! He was on all fours immediately, your cock buried deep in him while pulling at his hair. He’s also the type too spread his as open so you can get =t a clear view of how tight his hole is around you 
Hoshi – The whole kitty costume, he’ll start by sucking it and getting it nice and wet! I can also see him wanting to get toys that can physically cum, so he’ll have it leaking out his ass and onto the tail!!!! (AHHH) Hes a whiner too because this is something I feel like he's been doing himself but never actually asked you too fuck him so when he can lay back and just stroke his cock while letting his girl fuck him, he's stress free. 
Wonwoo – You asked, he knows you won't hurt him so why not try? He likes it but does it often? Probably not. He’ll use pegging when he needs that serious release! I can see him putting this at his high end of the filthy meter, because he might wanna be a bit on the sub side, I can see him using a fleshlight on his cock as you fuck him, maybe when putting a chastity on, if none of that then he is easily accepting your cock in a simple way 
Seokmin(DK) - I feel like this is another situation where he wants his girl too to be happy but he is more hesitant to agree, maybe he ends up trying it for himself first and it’ll even start out with you just using your fingers, or your hand to guide the dildo and then he will just beg for it. He will be quiet about it first because he’s focusing on the feeling but after the second time, he asks you to slap him, suck on your fingers, even spit in his mouth (ICANSEEHIMGETTINGFILTHY). 
SCOUPS? WOOZI? - Question marks next to them because its Shakey for me, they have the leader and main man type vibes so some may not agree, but I can easily see them coming home with fucking bricks on them should and they want a release but feel like no matter how much they cum the mindset will not make it the vibes. I can see you suggesting it and they question but decide to give it a ho (LIKE A MUSCLE SLUT TAKING A COCK / STRAP IS HOT AFS ANYWAY-). You will see the weight lifted off their shoulders and asking you too fuck them harder, choke them, slap them, you name it 
+At least Try+ 
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slafkovskys · 3 months
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pairing: jeremy swayman x cassie davis (oc)
warnings: mentions of minor character death, language
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“i think that there’s a word for this, for what you do every summer,” cassandra davis muses as she stares at the man across from her. he doesn’t look much different from their college days. he had a full beard now and she could tell that he bulked up a little, absolutely the demands of a professional diet.
“and what do i do every summer, cassie?” he humors her like they both didn’t know the only business that he had in maine was her, as much as she despised that simple fact.
“you keep coming back here like i’m going to change my mind. i’ve given you the same answer for the past three years and if you want to make it four, we can. i haven’t forgotten what you did, jeremy.”
“i-”
“you didn’t even tell me you were going to sign,” she cross her arms over her chest, staring at the man across from her. the wind from outside the cafe were they always had their yearly meeting sweeps through his hair, “you left town, changed your phone number, and i found out through twitter that you were going to boston. through twitter, jeremy.”
“i’m not the same person that i was then,” jeremy leans forward to rest against the metal table. the new weight causes both of their drinks to slosh around in their cups, “i thought that i was doing the right thing.”
“i would’ve preferred a breakup text then whatever the fuck you did,” cassie huffs, “i’m being serious here. this needs to stop.”
“are you ready to do this by yourself, cass?”
and in the two and a half months since jay had passed, no one had asked her that. it was always ‘are you okay?’ or ‘let me know if there’s anything that you need.’ like she and jay were something serious. like he hadn’t told her a week before the accident that he wanted no involvement with her or their child if she chose to keep it.
and now here she sits, across from the the man who tore her heart out just like she did every summer, contemplating his question. her hands smoothe over her stomach and she’s not immune to the way his eyes follow their path. she had thought that he was going to faint when she approached, wordlessly taking a seat across from him as his eyes stared at her midsection. she sighs, “i don’t really have a choice, jeremy.”
“there’s always a choice,” jeremy watches her for a second, “come to boston with me.”
she doesn’t even hesitate to burst out laughing at his statement. she uses one hand to grip onto the table while the other covers her mouth, “oh, you- you’re funny.”
“i wasn’t trying to be. i’m being serious, cassie.”
her laughter subsides and through teary eyes, she stares at the man across from her. he’s got a look on his face, serious like he was claiming to be, and she shakes her head, “absolutely not.”
“your parents are still in sinclair, aren’t they?” cassie was the youngest of three and once she moved away for college, her parents were quick to sell their house and move to the top of the state. she was the only one of her siblings who had hung around portland after graduating, coming back for a since of familiarity. she nods and he sends her a look, “so your closest support is six hours away.”
“what? you want me to rely on you when you’re gone half of the time?”
“that’s- it’s different,” jeremy rubs a hand over his face, “we were roommates before-”
“that was five years ago when we were fucking and then you ghosted me,” she deadpans and he groans.
“will you please just listen,” he begs and she blinks, “okay, i was a je- an asshole. what i did was textbook asshole and you don’t owe me a damn thing, okay? we can both agree on that, but i’m not just going to leave you here by yourself to raise a baby on your own.”
cassie stirs her cold coffee with her straw, “this isn’t your responsibility, jeremy.”
“i never said it was and like i said, you don’t owe me anything, but when have you ever turned down an adventure?” he quirks and eyebrow, “when we were together, we were good. i won’t put us in an apartment, i’ll get us a house where you can have your own space and i can have mine, but you can feel like you have someone there for you. you don’t even have to talk to me if you don’t want to-”
“you just want my ray of sunshine personality there all the time to keep house?” she chuckles and he sends her a wink. “i don’t have a job in boston-”
“there’s elementary schools and dance classes all over, babe, and with a resume like yours, they would be crazy not to want you.”
she allows his words to sink in for a moment before opening her mouth again, “why do you want this so bad?”
he visibly swallows a lump on his throat, “do you really want me to answer that?”
and no she didn’t because she was sure that she already knew the answer.
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jeneseoquoi · 11 months
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saw this thing on twitter saying 127 are all the type to get in a fight for u but who do u think actually would fight??? like i cant see alllllll of them fighting lol
LMAO i'm laughing bc i saw this exact same thing on twitter too. it was hilarious seeing everyone's opinions. here's mine:
nct 127 | reacting to you in a fight
taeil: he is absolutely not jumping in at any point in time. will make sure nobody tries to sneak you though. snatches anybody's phone who tries to record it. tells you you won even if you both know they two pieced you up. laughs every time when it randomly pops into his head weeks/months/years later.
johnny: his big ass. he will definitely laugh while recording if you're really tossing that ho like a salad. if you start losing or the other person's friends try to jump you, he's immediately intervening to stop the fight. lines everyone who witnessed it up and makes them delete any incriminating evidence off their phones.
taeyong: is BEGGING you to stop fighting. once he realizes it's dead serious and you're not going down without a fight, he just steps back to watch and make sure nobody around is being sneaky. (saw someone on twitter say he would post the other person's weave that he snatched up the next day and i absolutely stand by the person who said this lmaooooo.)
yuta: MY DAWG IS 100% IN THE MIDDLE WRECKING HOS FOR YOU. like the minute he senses you're about to get in a fight, he's already there throwing bows left and right. let a trifling bitch pull your hair, he's immediately got them in a chokehold talking about some "i'll let go when you let go." lays out anybody who ever tries to step to you again. this is my rider frfr.
doyoung: is so embarrassed omg. yelling at you to remember his image in hopes of getting you to come to your senses and stop fighting. actively running around the crowd taking peoples' phones so they can't record. soooo mad at you after the fight is over, but still makes sure to take care of you and any wounds you suffered.
jaehyun: anyone who decides to be with this man has to have hands like. he is genuinely confused as to what's happening, but trusts that you can handle your own so he just watches in amusement. lies and tells you it's just a little scratch & that you still look pretty afterwards, even though your shit is BUSTED. at least you won though.
jungwoo: is screaming, crying, and throwing up. like normally you're his soft, sweet baby, so who the fuck is this?!?!? in tears the entire time it's happening, like he can't even comprehend what led up to the fight in the first place. on his knees, BEGS you to never ever get into another fight ever again. he is genuinely traumatized, like he never sees you the same way again lmao.
mark: cursing everybody in that mf out. "the fuck is your problem bro"-ing everyone involved. only hops in when he sees you starting to lose. in turn starts getting his ass beat, which gives you the advantage to start molly whopping hos so you can save your man. will forever remind you of the time he got his shit rocked just so you wouldn't lose a fight. don't ever let him go hahaha.
haechan: honestly, probably the reason you're in a fight in the first place. like he was the one talking mad shit in the first place, but you know he don't got hands at all, so now here you are fighting his battle. keeps taunting the other person & the people on their side like "yeah that's right, mess with me and my girl will smack you up." you promise yourself that when you're done whooping their ass, that he's next.
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antimony-medusa · 11 months
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So Why Do I Keep Talking About Don't Like: Don't Read and Block And Move On?
So there are ships in my fandom that don't do it for me. There are characters who I do not like, there are tropes that make me grimace, there are relationship dynamics that I can't see any way that they could be delivered and still bring me any joy (in fact they actively make my day unpleasant). When I fill out my Do Not Want for exchanges, I have a BUNCH of stuff on that list. There's stuff in every fandom that I'm part of that makes me go "Oh boy that's a no from me". And my reaction to that is to ignore it. Block terms if necessary, unfollow people, just— leave it along. Don't like: don't read.
But why? Because that's not necessarily the fandom norm. This fandom definitely has a tendancy to actively go after stuff that it doesn't like. Especially on twitter, but I've seen it here too, especially when it comes to ships people don't like, or character takes they think are problematic, or creators they hate. Sending messages to warn people about other blogs, searching up the thing you don't like to hate on the people who post it, screenshotting the thing you hate or just talking about how bad it is so you can all be angry together. And man I just think that's a really bad idea.
The reason I think going after the thing you think is bad is a bad idea falls under two major headings. The first is what it does to you. Some of the things I don't like are just because they rub me the wrong way, or I think it's rude. But a good portion of the stuff I don't like is because it taps directly into some pretty serious stuff. If this is bringing up actual major trauma in my life, things I'm afraid of or bad things that happened, I do understand the desire to focus on it and the eraticate it. It's the same thing that makes you keep biting down on a painful tooth or poking at a painful eye. The thing hurts, so I give my attention to it. But oh boy, giving extra space in my head to the thing that is painful to me is not something that I should be doing lightly, and especially not in my recreational space. I see people being like "I hate this/this is bad because it's related to my trauma", but I can't overstate how bad of an idea it is to go "okay, this is terrible and related to my trauma, therefore I am going to search it up and focus on it and talk about it and share it with everyone I know. I'm going to make this traumatic thing a feature of my life".
You're just giving extra space in your head to the thing that hurts you. Don't give it that. Block the tags, ignore it, go full "I won't see it and I won't respond to it".
And even when it's just that I think something is rude, there's posting a careful post about the rudeness that you think some people might not have thought of and washing your hands of it (which is fine but like the amount of times I've started typing it and then gone "wait, everyone who follows me knows this, I don't have to post this, leave it along"), and then there's making it a feature of your blog to talk about how rude something is— why are you giving a slice of your precious life to the rudeness. Why are you giving them the spotlight? Why are you choosing to celebrate the worst things possible, and not the good things?
And then the other thing where I'm like— you're gonna see stuff you don't like, it is the internet, when you do so I'm begging you to just leave it be and walk away— is what it does to other people.
So I spent ten years on twitter. And in that time I have seen my fair share of hate mobs. Some of them are attacking legitimately horrible people. Some of them are completely misinformed and/or operating off of pure hatred. Some of them are attacking people over the most trivial things. But the thing is that with amost all of them, once they really started rolling, the impact they had was disproportionate to what anyone who was talking in good faith wanted. Someone would start a careful conversation about racism, and then people would go "oh, something I hate", and twelve hours later it's just several thousand people screaming over the original people who just wanted something to be fixed, and instead the person who fucked up is scared off the internet and being doxxed. Sometimes the original problem got fixed, but over half the times the person just closed down because they were being screamed at and learned nothing, and that's pulling from the situations where there was an actual problem to be fixed, and not misinformation or hatred or like, liking the wrong ship motivating things. And like, getting mobbed can really fuck someone up. People have had to check themselves into hospital and worse over this.
There's participating in someone saying "hey, this is fucked up", and that's something we should all do when it comes to matters of bigotry, but it's real important to be able to tell when a conversation is no longer being productive and is just about calling for someone's blood. Saying "hey, this trope plays into sexist stereotypes and you should be aware of it" is a great conversation to have. Attacking and mocking people who wrote the wrong trope does not actually increase the store of justice in the world.
And that's for things that you have a rational, principled reason for thinking is bad. A bunch of the time you just don't like a thing! And that's fine! You're allowed to not like things! But starting the ball of hatred rolling because you don't like things— oh in that case you do not have the moral high ground. You're just a bully.
Like at a certain point you have to start looking at matters of harm reduction, and going "I hate this ship, is calling everyone who likes it filthy degenerates actually going to make the world better, or is it going to make them feel bad and then double down, and nothing good happens". Or is it going to get even worse? Is it going to lead to a mob that causes in real world harm— people's housing or jobs impacted, or mental health, or worse! Sometimes it gets worse!
Sometimes a ship or trope you don't like can feel like a personal attack, but like, in the vast majority of cases, you're having an emotional reaction to something you don't like, you're not actually being harassed. You can feel like it's a good idea and even justified to strike back at this thing that is so bad, but like, in actuality it's just some words on a page someone wrote. Stabbing back at it is biting down on the injured tooth again, it's making things worse. Your best bet is to not give it power. Block terms, block users, ask the mods to not match you with certain people or ships, unfollow people— walk away. Don't spend time on it. Ignore it and focus on something good.
Engaging with things you hate is bad for you, and it's bad for the people around you, and way too much of the time it's disproportionately bad for the people who like the thing you hate. So I'm all in on Block And Move On, and Don't Like: Don't Read.
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shadykazama · 18 days
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Hi!! can i ask for nsfw alphabet for venture?
Absolutely! I made double responses for some of the prompts to cover them being AMAB or AFAB.
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Art by ais*venture insanity on twitter ^
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
-they are most certainly clingy, good luck trying to get them to let go of you. The only thing they would let you up for is using the bathroom/to clean up. And even then they will be close behind waiting to snatch you back up again and whisk you off to bed. If there’s a mess, it can wait till morning, 
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
-On themself ironically their smile (cause it's perfect), but unironically probably their hands. They're rough and calloused, but their most reliable tool as well. 
-On a partner definitely their thighs. Squeezing them, biting them, laying between them. Everything.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
-AMAB I do think they'd be partial to cumming inside, I can see them begging to once they start getting close. Of course they wouldn't if you said no, and in that instance they would probably prefer doing it over your thighs because, well- it's their favorite part.  
-AFAB I think they’re pretty messy honestly, more cum than the average person. Has really intense orgasms and usually can’t handle more than two in a night so they focus on pleasuring you instead of themselves.  
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
-They like marking up their partner, usually hickeys but small bruises from their hands and teeth gets them going too. They don't like admitting it though because they like being a gentle partner. If you ask about any marks they’ll apologize and say they were lost in the moment- which isn’t entirely a lie, but it’s not entirely truthful either. 
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
-They've definitely had one or two partners before, probably somewhat long term. I can see their job being an obstacle for relationships so the other person probably cut it off, not them. That being said, they are mildly experienced, at least enough to know what they like and have a very solid idea of how to find out what their partner likes. 
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
-Ahh definitely something where they can grab your thighs. Favorite is probably spicy missionary, you know with your legs pinned up by your shoulders, but they're also partial to having you in their lap, either with your back against their chest to play with you or facing them so you can ride them. A guilty pleasure position would be against the wall, holding you up. 
-This applies to AFAB as well ^ they definitely have a strap and they like to use it. But for AFAB specific they are partial to being eaten out/having you in their lap while they finger you. 
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
-Does it even need to be said? Probably not but I will anyway. If Sloan isn’t cracking jokes, something is very wrong. Even in the midst of heated passion they want to find a way to see you smile and laugh. Even better if it embarrasses you somehow and they get to see you laugh while you blush. 
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
-They don’t look like they shave. I'm sorry. If they get a spontaneous urge they’ll shave their armpits and legs but they probably don’t shave their groin. Mild upkeep, long curly hairs down there. If you say something about it they may get embarrassed and try to keep it more cleaned up for you, but just know they prefer not to. 
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
-Sloan is goofy, a bit of a sweet tease, and an absolute adoring sweetheart. They want to be close and you can BET those after sex cuddles will be top tier (except that you're not escaping until they wake up). They will do anything to make sure you’re comfortable and having a good time.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
-Jack off- ah yes we've made it to the masturbation headcanon. Now listen, I'm not saying they have an insanely high libido, I'm just saying it helps them sleep so they do it a lot. Once they get a partner, if they're willing (able to keep up) they'd use them as an outlet instead, but of course they don't mind servicing themself if their partner can't. 
AMAB- This could count under dirty secret but they definitely have a fleshlight that's disguised as a polished rock of some kind. And they bring it with them everywhere they travel. Everyone knows about the rock, it's been dubbed their lucky charm, and god they'd be mortified if anyone ever found out what it actually was at this point. They also have to cover their mouth if they're in a tent because they're not exactly quiet. But the risk of them making too much noise has never stopped them before. 
AFAB- Basically the same thing but the rock is meant for insertion not penetration. (It’s not shaped exactly like a dildo would be but you know). But just to put something here, one time you picked the rock up and made a joke about the convenient shape, to which Sloan promptly snatched it from you, laughing awkwardly as they made sure to hide it better. You probably get a good laugh about it when you find out the truth later on. 
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
-They have an oral fixation for sure. Love putting their mouth on things, biting in particular. Expect a LOT of love bites and hickeys especially on your chest and thighs. 
-Bondage. Yes, bondage. Now, call me biased, but there’s something about how good they’d be with harnesses and knots due to their job experience. Not to mention two key factors. One being, bondage is often about trust and sensation more than actual restriction. Two, they’d think it’s pretty, plus it’s an age old art! Practically a piece of history. This is mostly applied to them tying you up, but they wouldn’t mind if you wanted to try it out on them. 
-Roleplay. They’re goofy okay, a little acting in the bedroom never hurts. They’d think it’s fun. Mostly getting the dress up part. Don’t expect it to ever be hardcore or serious, if anything they mostly just enjoy the outfits and how lighthearted it is. 
-PRAISE. On both ends. They will absolutely praise you to the moon and back, and love seeing how you react, especially if you enjoy it ;) But praise them and it’s almost a guaranteed way to get them lost in the sauce. If you thought they were eager before just wait till you let slip a little, “You feel so good.” 
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
-Okay hot take they're definitely into doing it outside just not while working. Not necessarily in public, more so on a hike or in the woods or even if you go swimming and find a little cove. As far as the house goes, the counters, walls, and bed are staples. 
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
-Wear shorts, have those thighs out. A skirt? God forbid- they'll be frothing. You'll be lucky to get anything done. But more seriously, they like seeing you in their jacket. There's just something about it. I wouldn't say they're difficult to turn on, but honestly if they're at work you're never making them break. They can and will tell you about the research you were so rudely trying to interrupt while they fuck you later though. And they’ll make you repeat back the facts, so you’d better be listening. They’d be encouraging about it at least, falsely sweet as they tease you. "Aw come on, you know this one. What's wrong? You seem distracted, Cariño.” 
-(I’m a firm believer in top Sloan who’s the sweetest tease) 
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
-I can't see them ever hitting you for any reason. A cheeky slap on the ass is the best you're gonna get. They're not a mean dom by any standards. Degrading you, spitting on you, choking you, all things I think they wouldn't be comfortable with. And aforementioned, they’re impossible to seduce at work. 
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
-An absolute champ, when I said oral fixation I did mean it. You’re gonna have to push their head away to get them to look at you. Just don’t start begging, it’ll spur them on. You could throw it out randomly, as bluntly as you want, just ask and watch their eyes light up. 
-On the receiving end, they’re pretty sensitive, but they do enjoy it. They’ll grab your head and guide you even if you don’t need it, it helps them feel more secure. They’ll try and cover their mouth- god forbid if you tell them to let you hear them, they’ll just about finish right then and there. And I probably should’ve put this up with Cum^ but they start speaking almost predominantly in spanish the closer they get to finishing. 
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
-It’ll always start out slow with Sloan, they just have too many things they want to focus on. Touching you and just feeling how your body heats up under them is enough to occupy their thoughts for a bit. But unfortunately for Sloan, who likes to cherish and be gentle with you, they have a habit of devolving into a rough pace when they get overwhelmed with pleasure. 
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
-These won’t happen often, considering they prefer to take their time with you, but if you’ve somehow got them riled up at a really inconvenient time, they’ll break.
-AMAB a lot easier to pull off when they can just whip it out and start fucking you. Your holes or throat, whatever is offered. It gets their blood pumping that’s for sure.
-AFAB a little more difficult, but again, if you’ve somehow riled them up that badly they’ll settle for fingering you/jerking you off really quickly to satisfy at least a little bit of their urges. 
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
-They’re definitely down to try anything at least once. It’s just part of who they are as a person, discovery is kind of their whole thing. They’ve brought up a few ideas from time to time, and try out any of your suggestions with equal enthusiasm. 
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
-As far as pleasuring you goes, they could keep going for hours. The way they carry that drill around everywhere? Yeah they’ve built up some endurance. But two orgasms is usually enough for them to start being way too sensitive to keep going. If you’re particularly cruel and they’re feeling particularly brave you can go for three, but don’t be surprised when they return the favor later. 
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
-Oh plenty. They like to have fun.
-AFAB they own more, generally just cause there’s more holes to fill. Theirs as well as yours. Not to mention at least one vibrator. Despite this, I do think they own most of these toys to use primarily on their partner. And for anyone curious they have two sized straps, one that’s a comfortable six inches and one that’s meant to be just a bit too big because again, I’m a firm believer in Sloan being a tease. Let’s say about nine inches. 
-AMAB less, but still some. In this case there’s probably more experimentation with anal, for their partner as well as themself. But a majority of toys they own would be to pleasure their partner in some way. 
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
-110%. I think Sloan is a top, probably a switch yes, but leaning more to the top side. They’re a go go go kind of person, and discovering new things and being a pioneer is just who they are. They’re silly and confident. They’d want to take care of you, but also embarrass you from time to time. Not in a derogatory way, just lighthearted teasing. “You’re terrible!” “yeah well, I’m only terrible when I’m with you.”
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
-Someone get them a gag or something. They can’t shut up normally (lovingly said), what makes you think they’ll shut up in bed? Absolutely vocal whether they like it or not. And somehow it’s worse when they’re with a partner and not just pleasuring themselves. 
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
-I don’t think they realized they were into bondage until they were showing you how to put on the harness they wear for work. They got it all put on and then tugged on it to make sure it was secure. You stumbled forward a bit, landing the two of you chest to chest and them finding new things out about themselves. :3
-I’m of the club that believes Sloan has a lot of tattoos besides the little bit we can see. Not necessarily a NSFW headcanon but they like showing them off to you. 
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
-AMAB generously, I’ll say it’s 6.6 inches, slight curve up. They’re circumcised cause I said so. I do think it’s got some girth though, they’re absolutely obsessed with how it stretches you out. 
-AFAB we all know they don’t have big breasts, but I leave you with the information that they are very sensitive. They’re not jealous if you have bigger breasts, but they’re definitely in awe a lot of the time when they get to touch them. 
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
-Average to high. Like I said, they masterbate a lot, but it was to help them sleep, not just cause they’re a fiend on the main. That being said, they wouldn’t have trouble adapting to their partner’s sex drive. If it’s relatively high they’re used to it, if it’s low they have no trouble in pleasuring themselves. 
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
-They don’t like doing much after sex, if you insist on getting up for whatever reason they will follow you until you’re done and then they will drag you back to bed with them. If you stay up talking to them they’ll do their best to stay awake, not wanting to leave you alone in the conversation, but they do get pretty tired after sex so don’t expect a full bath or movie afterwards.
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I'm in a Jasico mood, so enjoy this little fluffy drabble that I originally posted on Twitter but never posted on here 😌💜
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'Let's go train in the woods together!' he had said. 'It'll be fun!' he had said. He had pleaded with those stupid wide sky blue eyes. A pout on his scarred lips, looking all the role of a golden retriever puppy begging for their owner to play with them.
And Nico caved. Of course he did but, what else was new?
However, Nico's weakness for Jason and his damned puppy dog eyes was what got him into the irritating mess that he was currently in.
"I swear, I have never met someone else who manages to hit their head on things more than you. I told you to be careful flying in the woods with all of these trees but no, blonde Superman doesn't want to listen." Nico grumbled, wrapping a long strip of Jason's tattered shirt around the blondes head in an attempt to stop the bleeding on Jason's forehead.
The whole time Nico was scolding the other boy, Jason just stared at him. His eyes were a bit glossed over, there was a distant look in his eyes. He probably had a concussion.
Once Nico was through tending to Jason's wound he stood up from where he was kneeling."Alright, that's the best I can do for now. Do you think you can stand up and walk to the infirmary?"
Nico offered a hand to Jason to help him up and, Jason took it. Once Jason was standing up on slightly wobbly legs, he just stared at Nico and tightened his grip on Nico's hand.
Nico raised an eyebrow. "Jason... Why are you staring at me like that?"
"You're pretty..."
Nico spluttered a bit, feeling his cheeks heat up against his will. He stared wide eyed at Jason. "W- what did you say?"
"You're pretty. Especially your eyes, they're super pretty!" Jason said that like it was the most obvious thing in the world. A dopey grin was stretched across his face, his eyes shining with adoration.
Nico took a minute to try and calm his heart just starting to beat wildly. There was no way that Jason was actually serious and that he actually liked Nico like that. He was just delirious from his concussion. Yeah! Nico would go with that.
Nico took a deep breath. "Come on, you have a concussion. I have to get you to the infirmary." Nico went to start walking to lead them out of the woods but, there was just one thing.
"Jason, you can let go of my hand now..."
Jason pouted, "but I like holding your hand..."
Nico was at a loss for words. He sighed, "ok, ok, put away the puppy dog eyes. W-we can hold hands."
Jason beamed so brightly at Nico, he felt like he was looking directly at the sun on a cloudless day.
Nico turned away and began to lead the way, "you're lucky that you're cute, Grace," Nico muttered.
"Wait, you think I'm cute?"
Nico froze slightly. Shit! Had he said that out loud?! But unfortunately, Jason smiling brightly at Nico again was answer enough.
"I-... I don't know what you're talking about. Come on, we have to get you to the infirmary."
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Turns out that Jason did indeed have a minor concussion. It was nothing that a little nectar, ambrosia and, some rest couldn't cure but that didn't stop Will from scolding Jason as well.
After his wounds were cleaned(he had gotten a pretty bad gash on his forehead and he had gotten pretty scratched up by some tree branches), and he had been given enough nectar and ambrosia to help heal his injuries; Jason had fallen asleep.
Nico stayed with him for a bit, just to make sure that Jason was ok (even if he was in the infirmary with other children of Apollo there to watch over their patients) before leaving to grab dinner.
He brought back a plate of food for Jason, hoping that he would be awake by now. The light snoring that he heard upon pulling back the curtain separating Jason's cot from the others, told Nico that he had hoped wrong.
Nico sighed, shaking his head fondly as he moved to walk over to Jason's bedside and set the plate of food down onto the bedside table.
He looked down at Jason. His face so peaceful as he slept. His mouth slightly open, letting out little barely audible snores. His hair all messy, pointing in various directions. Some of the longer hair on the top of his head falling in his face.
Nico sighed, one of his hands moving on it's own to gently brush the hair out of Jason's face. "You are really lucky that you're cute, Grace."
Suddenly, to Nico's horror, Jason's eyes popped open. A big goofy smile spread fast across Jason's lips, his scar looking much more pronounced like that. "I knew that I had heard you right back there! You do think I'm cute!"
Nico just looked at him, mortified. "Wha-! N-no! You've got it all wrong! Y-you're still not thinking straight!"
Jason smirked slightly, "yeah, that's kinda my point. But... Even though I did have a concussion, I wasn't lying earlier. Sure, I would've wanted to tell in a slightly better way but... Words were kind of difficult..."
Nico looked at Jason, raising one eyebrow at the way he noticed Jason's face slowly turning red. "What you said earlier? What are... you...?" Nico slowed to a stop, his eyes growing wide and his previous slight blush coming back with a vengeance. " Oh."
Jason looked to the side awkwardly. "Yeah... Like I said, I wanted to tell you in a different way but, apparently 'concussion me' is a blabbermouth. But, I do like you... A lot. And I was wanting to tell you at another time but, I wasn't sure if you felt the same and, I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable, you know? But... This is me asking now. So... Would you maybe wanna go on a date? Like, an actual date or-"
Nico rolled his eyes before leaning down and kissing Jason on the cheek. "Like I said before, you really are lucky that you're cute."
Now it was Jason's face to turn as red as a tomato. His face morphing back into that dopey grin. "So... I take that as a yes?"
Nico sighed dramatically, "yes, I will go out with you. Now, stop looking at me like you just hit the jackpot and eat your dinner."
Jason just smiled at him brightly, "ok, whatever you say."
Jason did as Nico told him but, that didn't stop him from continuing to look at Nico like he was the one who hung the stars and the moon for the rest of the night. While Nico tried his absolute best to act like it annoyed him. Too bad Jason was able to see right through it.
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turtle-bun · 11 months
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Actual things said between me and my brothers as TMNT quotes Pt2: TMNT bois see Across the Spiderverse!
((SPOILERS AHEAD AFTER THE LINE BREAK!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!))
Part 1
Rise!Mikey: *excited stimming and screaming* I WANT THIS MOVIE INJECTED INTO MY VEINS! THE ART WAS SO FUCKING COOL!
Rise!Donnie: *excited stimming but in a monotone voice* I apologize for the person I’m going to become now because this sound track is now my entire personality.
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12!Mikey: See Across the Spiderverse is so good and is also a huge middle finger to Marvel comics for all the shit they’re putting my boi Spidey through!
12!Leo: Oh yeah, one hundred percent! This movie feels more like how Spiderman is then the actual comics as of late!
12!Mikey: See Marvel! Spiderman can be fucking happy for once!
12!Leo: *chuckling* You got beef with Marvel?
12!Mikey: *riled up* Oh I got so much fucking beef with Marvel! Talking bout how “either Peter Parker’s happy or Spiderman is happy. One always has to be fucked over.” Like get out of here with that bullshit! You saw how happy Peter B. Parker was with Mayday and he’s still Spiderman? FUCK YOU MARVEL IT CAN WORK! PUT ME IN THE GODDAMN WRITTERS ROOM!
12!Leo: *laughing* You think you can write better?
12!Mikey: My 10k word Spiderman fanfic on ao3 with over six thousands kudos begs to differ! SQUARE THE FUCK UP MARVEL!
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03!Raph: I am so fucking glad they didn’t have a love triangle in this movie. Honest to god I was like lowkey worried about that.
03!Mikey: Oh yeah, for sure. Thank god Hobie was actually cool.
03!Raph: He was so FUCKING cool! Oh my god! Like I know everyone and their mother was fawning over Miguel but honestly I could give less of a shit about him cuz FUCKING SPIDER PUNK! HOLY SHIT!
03!Mikey: *laughing* Is this a “I don’t know if I wanna date him or be him” kind of situation?
03!Raph: It’s a: “I don’t know if I want to slow dance with him at prom or steal his entire gender” type of situation!
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Bay!Mikey: You guys been hearing this bull shit some people are saying about Spiderverse?
Bay!Donnie: *groaning* Don’t fucking remind me. People are stupid and it’s all over my fucking TikTok and Twitter!
Bay!Leo: Which one? The pissy conservatives complaining about “forced diversity” and “woke” culture? The extreme leftists making it about racism when that literally was NOT the point of the fucking movie? Or is it the transphobes bitching at the mere INSINUATION that Gwen Stacy could actually be trans? LIKE AND IF SHE FUCKING IS?! WHAT THEN CUNT?!
Bay!Raph: You know what? Fuck it! Piss them off even more and in the next movie just full on fucking say it! They can’t handle subtlety so might as well throw it in their faces since they’re complaining about it so much!
Bay!Mikey: Shit, I mean Miles is bi in the comics, he can come out as well!
Bay!Donnie: *super serious voice* Hello Miles Morales, who is bisexual and my love interest, I, Gwen Stacey, am a transgender woman!
Bay!Mikey: *T posing* Omg, Gwen Stacey, who is a transgender woman and my love interest, I, Miles Morales, who is bisexual, appreciate your willingness to trust me enough to share these private conversations with me even though you have absolutely no obligation to do so!
Bay!Leo: *absolutely losing his shit* Oh god it’s like it’s being written by a fucking AI!
Bay!Raph: The first 10 minutes of the movie are them fixing up the dimensional bull shit, then the rest of it is group therapy and coming out stories!
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87!Leo: *crying, sobbing, screaming*
87!Mikey: How did you NOT know it was a two parter? It said it at the beginning of the movie!
87!Leo: EXCUSE ME FOR GETTING ENGROSSED IN THE SPECTICAL OF EVERYTHING!!!
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oomles · 7 months
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Hi I'm going to rant here cause I have a smaller following
I am begging Twitter to stop showing me H*zbin H*tel things I Do Not Want to See It.
It's real hard for me to get excited about the future of indie animation when this is one of the biggest contenders in it. Like, hell, I don't even think I could watch it even if I wanted to lmao - Viv has me blocked despite never interacting w her ONCE. (Not to mention the countless production drama. And fuck dude, where do I even begin with the writing. Vaggie? The Lesbian? Are you fucking serious?)
Anyway I ain't putting this on twitter cause I know tons of people following me there love it... and I WANT to be excited for the creatives working on the project... but I'm just So Tired of hearing about it lmao.
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why is it so difficult to find someone who writes for the life series?? the ones i do come across are consistently inactive ;-;
anyways, i have a request!
this one will mostly carry angst and fluff of the third life variety regarding dogwarts and desert duo because i'm not seeing a lot of them seen here as opposed to twitter, lol!
okay, so! gn wolf hybrid!reader was part of the desert people due to an empty promise of resources.
scar continuously asked for "favors" from the reader, but one fatal favor ends up taking reader's first life.
an outraged reader later confronts the two about their lack of assistance. reader then leaves the duo and seeks out dogwarts for comfort...and maybe revenge down the line.
yeah, this one is pretty long, so feel free to skip this one if you want!
make sure to take care of yourself and drink water!💜
Ooo I love this idea! I will do it just bc!
I plan of re-writing all of my oneshots first once I post the 13 other oneshots I have in my drafts-
3𝓻𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓢𝓜𝓟 𝔁 𝓖𝓝!𝓦𝓸𝓵𝓯𝓱𝔂𝓫𝓻𝓲𝓭!𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓮𝓻
My Revenge...
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Warning ⚠! This oneshot will contain the following: angst, death, arguing, angst to fluff, mentions of being taken advantage of. Please dni if you're not comfortable with these!
You see, your friend Grian was literally begging you to join 3rd life. You were denying at first, but after a whole day of Grian just trying to persuade you into joining you gave in.
Once everyone had joined the server, Grian started explaining the rules. Once he finished, everyone went their own ways to collect resources.
You, Grian and Scar had met up in a desert. You 3 decided to team up, you guys called yourselves "The desert trio". Thankfully, you guys were still Green.
As a few days went by, scar would constantly ask you so many favors. Almost 6 favors per each day. You didn't wanna say no since he had done a lot of your favors before, but he was asking A LOT of favors.
A specific favor Scar had asked you to do, was come with him to grab some snow from the snowy mountains. You figured it would be easy to do since you just had to collect snow, so you 2 went on your way to the mountains. While using your shovel, you didn't realize that Scar had 'Accidentally' let loose of a goat. You ended up getting head-butted by the goat and off of the mountain, you just saw Scar standing at the edge with a guilty look.
When you had respawned, you got up and saw that 1 of your [eye color] eyes were replaced with Yellow. You now had a yellow streak on your hair, indicating you were now on yellow life.
You then immediately went outside of your base seeing Scar and Grian sitting next to each other. You rushed over to them and when they looked at you they had a guilty face, Scar tried to apologize but you just yelled at him.
"[Name]- I'm sorry I had to-"
"No Scar! I am done doing your stupid favors! All of your goddamn favors have always made me risked my life! And now I did lose my life! You didn't even try to run over to me! You just allowed to goat to head-butt me off a tall mountain! I always help you and Grian! but you 2 never help me in return!"
"I was the boogey okay?! I didn't have anyone else!"
"ARE YOU SERIOUS?! You could've just told me and I could've helped you! Did Grian know about this?!"
You yelled at him and he nodded looking down.
"SO YOU JUST DECIDED TO KILL YOUR OWN ALLY JUST BECAUSE YOU SAW ME AS AN EASY PREY?!"
"[Nickname] it's not like that.."
"I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. YOU TELL GRIAN AND NOT ME?! BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO KILL ME?! I COULD'VE HELPED YOU SCAR! IF ONLY YOU JUST TOLD ME! You know what! I'm leaving this Alliance! Don't come near me. Don't try to talk to me. I'll find another alliance."
"Wait [Name]!" The 2 men yelled out to you while you were just running away, they decided not to try and chase you anymore. They felt extremely guilty.
You soon came to a stop, you went under a tree and just sat down on the grass. You were slightly crying, you couldn't believed they betrayed you. They betrayed your trust, they only used you.
When you looked up you ended up seeing a bunch of mobs around you, you got your sword out and start hacking at them. Your sword was beginning to break, after a few more swings at 1 one of the mobs it broke. You looked around to see even more mobs coming for you, you started running. You ended up outside of dogwarts, You saw Ren coming out and his eyes widened when he saw you. He immediately rushed you inside, he had taken care a lot of the mobs but there were still a few left.
Ren looked at you worriedly, he was confused why you weren't with Scar and Grian. He had also remembered seeing his communicator saying that you had died. He asked you what had happened, you took a seat and began explaining what had happened. After explaining, Ren looked at you feeling bad that you had to experience that.
He opened his arms out seemingly asking if you wanted a hug, you immediately hugged him and started sobbing. He began to stroke your hair and rub your back, while slightly rocking you. Martyn came in and held a confused and concerned expression, Ren just had that expression that made Martyn understand what happened.
He rushed over to you and also went to hug you. As you calmed down, Martyn gave you some water.
"thanks..." You said quietly after drinking the water.
"I.. I don't wanna go back there.." You said softly, looking down. Ren nodded, knowing how you felt.
As a few days went by, you had been living in dogwarts. You had avoided talking to Scar and Grian during those past days.
A thought came across you one day, what if you got revenge on Grian and Scar?
And so with that thought, you began to plan your revenge. You let Ren know about it, he offered to help you out which you accepted.
After a few days of planning, you had finally finished. You and Ren had collected everything that was needed for this to work, you just had to set it up.
Thankfully, you were able to avoid Grian and Scar during those days of planning. It was a bit hard since they always tried to come up to you, but you were able to either way.
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A little context: your plan was to pour down a crap ton of minecarts with TNT right on top of where Grian and Scar would be. If it didn't work, that's fine! You did plant a bunch of tnt under their desert.. sooo... Yeah! (It doesn't make sense but bare with me- you guys can just change it to whatever u want TT)
(Or you could just change the back up plan to stealing Pizza)
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Once you and Ren had finished planning things, now you had to wait.
Your plan would fall on the 2nd of June, the Sun would still be rising at the time you and Ren would set up the plan....
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*CLIFFFHANGERRRRRRRR*
A cliffhanger bc why not :D
Dw I'll make a part 2 to this after a few days ;)
Y'all gotta be patient- ik you guys are rlly fkin patient tho so like TT
All I'm gonna say is, for part two that it will contain fully detailed fighting scenes! There will include two endings: 1, The reader (you) will successfully have their revenge. 2, the reader fails to get their revenge (something else happens aswell but you'll have to wait for that 😉)
ANYWAYS!! go drink water, go eat a meal, get some darn sleep and have a wonderful day. <3
(p.s, I'll post lil' sneak peaks of part two every now and then)
YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON! DON'T FORGET THAT
(T⍑ᒷ ∷ᒷꖎᒷᔑᓭᒷ ↸ᔑℸ ̣ ᒷ 𝙹⎓ !¡ᔑ∷ℸ ̣ ℸ ̣ ∴𝙹 ∴╎ꖎꖎ ʖᒷ 𝙹ᓵℸ ̣ 𝙹ʖᒷ∷ ℸ ̣ ∴ᒷꖎ⍊ᒷ, リ𝙹 ᓭ!¡ᒷᓵ╎⎓╎ᓵ ℸ ̣ ╎ᒲᒷ.)
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Genuinely need to know how the pro soccer Daniel/pro karateka Johnny storyline escalates.
What’s their reaction to the shipping? Do their publicity people try to capitalize on it? Do they show up at each other’s games? Does the knee injury come back? Is there a World Cup/what ever karate guys do?
Sorry if these are two many questions—never sent one of these before so I figured i’d just ‘ask’ lol.
Tell me about this!
PLEASE NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR ASKING TOO MANY QUESTIONS you have no clue how long ive wanted someone to ask me about this au In this AU, Johnny joined Cobra Kai at the same age he did in the series, and Daniel also learned karate from Mr Miyagi in his senior year. He ended up joining the soccer team at West Valley though, instead of getting kicked out like in the movie. Johnny and Daniel had a stupid, petty rivalry that never got as serious as it did in TKK. Even though Daniel still loves karate, he ended up pursuing soccer as a career after highschool. Since Johnny never fought Daniel in the All Valley, he won first place for the third year in a row and eventually started fighting internationally. The whole story starts because during an interview, Daniel gets asked about how he got into soccer specifically, yaknow, why not any other sport? And Daniel talks about how he used to play with his cousins all the time back in Jersey, and it reminds him of his dad because he taught him how to play when he was little. Then he starts talking about how he does karate too, ever since he was in highschool. The interviewer jokes a little, asks him if he's a fan of any specific people, and Daniel, little shit that he is, responds with "Oh yeah, sure I am. Ever heard of Johnny Lawrence? Big fan of his! I never miss a single match. Can't get enough of the guy :)" The somewhat niche soccer rpf fandom loses it over this. CONSTANT posts joking about Daniel's celebrity crush and how he was basically twirling his hair giggling kicking his feet over johnny in the interview. Johnny was already losing his mind when people started making jokes about shipping them but things are only made worse by the fact that during an interview before a pretty big match, they just won't stop asking him what he thinks of the memes about him and Daniel Larusso. He's so fed up he eventually just says that he and Daniel go "way back" and that they had a classic highschool rivalry, Larusso was just messing around in the interview! Somehow this only makes people more serious about shipping them?? People start talking about how they just give off the biggest bitter ex energy Daniel finds this all hilarious, even more so because he knows Johnny absolutely does not. He starts making jokes about it on his official twitter account, which obviously pisses Johnny off MORE. Meanwhile, Johnny's PR team (mainly Shannon and Bobby, obviously. don't ask me how.) start begging Johnny to let them start teasingly responding to speculation on social media for "publicity". As for whether they show up to eachother's games...ohohoho. I already had them hatewatching all of eachother's matches in mind but with the shipping only getting more popular, Johnny decides to actually buy tickets and go to one of Daniel's games. To tell him to quit making people think they liked eachother, obviously. Only, he gets...really really into watching Daniel play? There's something about seeing him move, so focused as he evades his opponents without any problem. Johnny gets so into it that he kind of forgets why he even came. the second Daniel spots him in the stands though? he stumbles, distracted, and trips over his own feet. he feels red in the face for the rest of the game. once almost everyone has left the stadium, and Daniel's on his way out, johnny stops him. they get into an argument in a secluded area, somewhere behind the seats, and that should be that right? except for the fact that the minute they both get home they see the most mortifying fancams of "johnny's face watching his bf play SCREAMS in love" and blurry pictures of them having an "intimate" conversation after the match.
that's about all I've got on this au, so sorry i didn't answer all your questions. im also SO sorry this got so long oops that was my bad...THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SENDING AN ASK!!
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secretgamergirl · 1 year
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Random stuff I need to vent about while I’m still alive.
So I sincerely don’t think I’m going to manage to stay alive much longer, and I keep going back and forth on whether that’s something I should mention publicly, or just keep quiet and not bring the room down. Today I’m kinda feeling like I should say some things.
So first because I know people will be all curious if I don’t say why I think this is the end, a lot of things are just kinda converging and odds are one of them is going to do it.
- I really was just barely getting by on Patreon donations. Since getting kicked off Twitter those have been steadily drying up, and I don’t really have a plan to get new people donating at a rate that’ll outpace that, so basically I’m just at a point where I have to go around begging and hoping for some increasingly miraculous act of generosity from someone that lets me keep the lights on for one more month. That’s not sustainable, and when I can’t cover things, that’ll be it for me.
- I recently got a couple new diagnoses of really serious medical things. They’re both incurable, they both could kill me. I’m doing my best with treatments, but that mostly means I’m taking like 10 different medications, they have serious side effects, I’m basically asleep all the time now, and something could just take a turn whenever.
- I’m still a big ol’ nazi target and get regular violent threats. Who knows what’s going to happen there? Plus odds seem pretty good Biden’s going to just get the one term here and the entire Republican party seems to be running on a trans genocide platform. That’s not going to help things.
So right now I’m kinda just taking things a day at a time. Doing my best every day to just be really randomly nice to the handful of people who still talk to me, and trying to focus on how I’m like a good decade or so past the average life expectancy for trans people as is. But, you know, we all have bad days, and sometimes it’s hard not to dwell on like, the various people in your life who just randomly stuck knives in your back and how things would be different if that didn’t happen.
The one that’s really eating at me tonight is this one person I knew a few years ago and really thought was a friend who just threw me under the bus in such a shockingly savage way. I don’t even fully recall the context for this. Either it was when some totally random stranger I’d never even heard of decided out of the blue that I was her nemesis and started this giant smear campaign against me, or it was when a really close friend was going through a bad breakup and her ex was just going out of her way to spread every possible horrific rumor about her under the sun, and I was standing up for her. Might have even been both at once, these sorts of hate campaigns do tend to converge.
So anyway, that sort of thing was going on, and this person I considered a friend at the time decided of her own accord to publicly stand up for me, write a quick little thing about how I legitimately bore no animosity to whoever and just kinda putter around trying to do nice things for people. And then I don’t think even a full day later, she pulled that statement down, and replaced it with this huge thing about me basically being the devil and how I “took advantage of her autism to confuse her” which... wow that’s a hell of a thing to say about someone. Like, first of all, I’m not convinced that’s even a thing. I know quite a lot of people on the spectrum, and I’ve been told there’s a good chance I’m on it myself, and like... increased susceptibility to evil viziers or whatever isn’t something I’ve ever heard associated with it. Plus you know, like, this whole initial defense was something this person decided to do on her own just based on her observations of how witch hunts against random trans people were happening, as happens all too often.
And this happened again a few years later too. Another friend was dealing with some real horrific stuff, on the order of nazis threatening their spouse’s employer to get said spouse fired and showing up at their parents’ house with violent intent, and they gave me the details and asked me to write up a quick explanation while they kinda went off the grid for a few days for safety. So, I did that, people started passing that around, including the bus tosser here... and then a few days later my usual dangerous stalkers saw people were sharing somethng I wrote and started in on some weird line of attack where I was making this entire story about someone else fleeing their home due to a coordinated nazi attack which uh... was actually getting independent news coverage at this point as they were back on the internet and giving interviews, as a secret means of attacking... someone?
So of course once again, the bus-tosser about whom I’m rambling with this story retracted her endorsement of uh... my relaying things for a friend that were all being independently confirmed by reporters, and once again condemning me as a vile trickster who mislead her. Which is extra impressive because like, we hadn’t talked in years here.
So of course I can make an educated guess at what was really up with these incidents. The sort of weird stalkers who try to get trans people killed really go all in on cutting off any support, so presumably one or more of them approached this bus-tosser and made some pretty serious threats that she would be next if she didn’t walk things back, and being in a particularly vulnerable position, she decided to throw me under the bus to save her own skin... multiple times. And honestly I’m not even upset with her for that. I know her life’s a really precarious tightrope walk (and if it was unclear this is decidedly not a situation where I want anyone trying to guess who this was).
Really I’m just stuck on how she could have just never said anything to begin with. If you know you can’t deal with the heat of having someone’s stalkers start to come after you because you’re interrupting their attack on their primary target, you can just look the other way. I’m a big girl, and I can generally take care of myself pretty well with these situations. Hell I’m the sort who ends up in these situations because I absolutely will stick my neck out like this for other people when I know they’re the victim of some messed up bigoted hate campaign. So pretending not to know me, or to know what’s going on is absolutely a move she could have made. Nobody would go threatening her. I’d just be dealing with ridiculous slander that holds no water from random anonymous hatemongers. But... no, she had to go and involve herself, get scared, and throw serious fuel on the fire in order to back up. And you know put me through the trauma of watching someone I thought was a friend publicly tell some particularly messed up lies about me.
But yeah. I have a lot of stories like that one about various people I’ve known over the years. It’s hard not to think about them when staring death in the face. Just kinda feels like I’m the sacrificial victim everyone’s redirected their personal demons to attack to minimize how many people are getting gang-stalked and threatened or something. And I don’t even mind filling that role for people just... let me pull that aggro by choice by coming to your defense? Don’t throw me under the bus? I don’t feel like that’s a super unreasonable request.
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