#u didnt even recognise her

[haunted-xander]

What's there to be afraid of?

[chron0ph0bia]

you parents constantly telling u the shit that you've been trying to unlearn surely is smth

[imab00kwh0r3]

babel, and why i love it (SPOILERS!!!!)

ok im terribly late to reading it, for its not sold in many places where i live, so i found the pdf luckily.

babel is a book about colonialism and racism and oppression, it is about revolution and battling your inner conscience (in my opinion at least, i'll elaborate later). it tells the story of robin swift coming to the prestigious royal institute of translation or better known as babel, where during his yrs there he discovers that the glamourous oxford university isnt such a righteous place. his loyalty is tested, blood is shed and tears fall which leads up to a revolution to stop an incoming war.

there are many reviews regarding how its racist to white ppl (which is astounding to even think about) and that its not accurate as women werent allowed to go to university in the 1830s but im not going to talk about that, that much. i wanted to speak on the actual translation/language aspect of it.

throughout the book, translation and language r some of the main themes (obviously) but the impact it has on the people, both in the book and irl is smth i havent seen anyone mention. language isnt just a form of communication but it is part of our culture, it is part of our identity, and during colonial times many languages suffered, they were being erased as they were "barbaric" or "strange" they were banned and anyone who spoke them was punished like in victoires chapter. robin, ramy and victoire all can barely speak their native languages, robin has almost fogotten cantonese, ramy has very basic knowledge of bengali and victoire is never given a chance or is permitted to speak in haitian creole. they lost one of the main things that connects them to their motherland, they only have their appearance left. they will never be able to talk to their ppl properly.

victoire was frustrated that haitian creole isnt recognised as a proper language like how in their exams, her match-pair wouldnt be counted properly as haitian creole wouldnt be used much hence its "useless" in the eyes of prof. leblanc. she was beaten when she would speak haitian croele in her house in france. when she first came to babel she was correcting herself from "kreyol" to "haitian creole" and was unsure if she could even study it.

robin realised that prof.lovell actually knew more than him about his own language, his mother tongue. he could barely stand being back in canton and he felt isolated in a way as everything changed and was new and so was the language even though he was born hearing and speaking it.

not much is talked about this with ramy except that he barely knows bengali, even though hes fluent in english, latin, greek, arabic, persian and urdu. he knows 6 languages and in his chapter he is sed to "absorb languages like a sponge" and that he recited poems or writing in other languages he didnt know perfectly, even down to tone, only after having it read to him once but he barely knows his mother tongue.

this relates to modern times as many languages of previously colonised countries rely on english words like in india u will barely hear the word pathshala, instead u will hear school. in mauritian creole when people speak they will slip in english words, like "netwai whiteboard la" which means clean the whiteboard.

we dont know our language fully because of the erasure of them.

theres also 1st gen immigrant children where their mother tongue is smth they barely hear or they forgot after a while, they feel so incredibly disconnected once they realise. this is how robin is and this is how i am too, i was born in europe, then at 7 i moved to england and now im somewhere entirely different, i dont remember my mother tongue, i dont dream in it. which ultimately makes u lose ur voice in a metaphorical way.

u cant speak because u dont know how.

another important thing is the purposeful mistranslations and burning of books, thats not fully discussed in the book although it would have been a nice touch. colonisers purposefully mistranslated things to control the masses because when they burnt our books, they burnt our language, knowledge and people. and the exploitation of our languages like the statue at univ of william jones sitting at desk and 3 hindu sages on the floor infront of him exists, and how missionaries were taught our languages to help in conversion.

now onto the 1830s inaccuracies and racism:

its the fucking 1830s do u think white ppl were nice to poc at this time, like slavery just ended in the eyes of the law for britain but still continued in other places like america. reverse racism doesnt exist, white ppl can be prejudiced against but u lot r not oppressed and never will be, u lot wont be killed for being white, so stop crying. and about the women wouldnt be at university in the 1830s thing its fiction, r.f. kuang took some liberties.

and that is all i have to say, dont start an argument, anyways babel is great, go read it!!

[pastanest]

if you’re wondering why I’m having to repost this, or why you were perhaps previously following me but no longer are, please refer to this post. I was able to retrieve this thanks to @iamburdened - thanks so much!! ♡

Spencer Reid x gender neutral!reader

After Maeve

- after Maeve’s tragic murder, Spencer isolated himself in his apartment for a while

- in the two weeks he didnt leave his apartment, he was left multiple gift baskets by Penelope, and every member of the team came to visit at least once, only to be met by an unanswered door

- Spencer had gotten used to the knocks at his door followed by the voices of his friends offering their support, he never had the strength to reply verbally, but he appreciated their visits

- one day, though, a knock was followed by a voice he hadnt heard before

“Umm...hello? Is anybody home?”

- Spencer lifted himself from the couch and travelled the great distance for his front door. looking through the peephole, he saw a woman that he didnt recognise, holding a plate with a towel tenting slightly over it

- she looked worried. that was enough to override Spencer’s grief as his FBI instincts took over and he opened the door

- she grinned at him with an expression of intense relief

“O-Oh! Hello! I wasnt expecting you to answer the door, my name is (Y/N).”

“Who are you?”

- Spencer was beyond confused, but when he saw the blush that lit up your face, he wondered if his question seemed harsh or rude

“I-I live just across the hall, I moved in last week and ever since, I’ve seen people come and go from your door- a blonde woman with glasses brings baskets regularly. A-At first, because nobody ever answered the door, I thought maybe whoever lived here passed away and they were leaving things in your memory. B-But they talked to you through the door sometimes, I noticed on my way to and from work. So I thought, well, you must have gone through something terrible and I wouldnt be a very good neighbour if I didnt try to help- I know it isnt my place and Im sorry if Im oversteppi- I made some cookies but u-uh you dont have to tell me anything, I just thought- oh god Im sorry, I’ll just go.”

- your explanation was hurried, panicked and somewhat guilty as you attempted to speed walk back to your apartment

“Wait!”

- Spencer called as loudly as he could manage, you turned to face him, still clutching the towel-covered plate that he now knew to be hiding freshly baked cookies

“You dont know me, we’ve never even...”

- he couldnt bring himself to finish his sentence. never even met, just like her

- tears stung his eyes, his voice left him

- immediately, you noticed the changes in his body language and you scrambled over to him, placing the plate of cookies on the floor among the baskets

“Can I hug you? Is that alright?”

- Spencer nodded and you didnt take another second to think before you pulled him into your arms

- as soon as you embraced him, his tears broke free and rolled down his cheeks

- much to his surprise, the hug didnt feel awkward at all. it was the most comfort he had allowed himself to receive

- he felt more comfortable with someone who didnt know him, didnt know the details of what happened to him. you were someone new, someone who had never known him before he had been in this state; you had no expectations of him, no loyalties or personal care towards him, so he could break in front of you

“Shhh, it’s alright, you’re ok. Take some deep breaths for me.”

- your voice was so soothing to him, the first one he’d really heard ever since that gunshot

- Spencer nodded into your shoulder and pulled away from you slightly, which was your signal to let go of him

- he wiped his tears while you picked up the plate of cookies and gave them to him

“Like I said, you dont have to tell me anything, but these are for you. Im right across the hall if you need me.”

- and you were

- at least once a week, you would knock on Spencer’s door and deliver him a new batch of some homemade baked goods

- cookies, cakes, banana breads, anything!

- sometimes Spencer didnt have the strength to answer the door. on those days, you’d leave the plate of food at his door, run back to your apartment, handwrite a quick note with a pen, then run back to his door to place the note on top of the plate. that way he’d still get a little bit of conversation from you, even if he didnt have the strength to answer

- he couldnt describe the combination of appreciation and guilt

- on the one hand, you were ridiculously sweet to him, unconditionally caring towards someone who was little more than a stranger to you, at a time when he really needed a friend

- on the other hand though, you were working tirelessly all day and then coming home to immediately bake him something more than once a week, he didnt think he deserved that, and the closer you got to him the more in danger you were

- that mentality continued throughout your friendship

- you two naturally drifted closer than friends did, but every time Spencer noticed, he would retract into himself

- he thought he was protecting you, but in reality he was hurting you

- he didnt realise just how much pain he was causing until you confessed your feelings and broke down crying because you thought your obvious feelings for him had been making him uncomfortable

- that’s when he told you about Maeve

- it wasnt easy for him, even after knowing you over sixth months

- he cried, you cried, it was a very emotional moment

- he assured you that he did care about you a lot, more than he would for a friend, but he was just so broken

- you held him until he stopped crying, and then you told him something that changed his whole perspective

“Spencer, it is impossible for history to repeat itself. You can hit me with any statistic you want, but the fact is, no matter how similar an event may be to another, the people involved, the time, the day, the context- it would all be different, and therefore not a repeat at all. What happened to Maeve will not happen to me.”

- he knew you were right, and your words did reassure him, but his heart was still wounded; it was scarred

- somehow, without him having to say anything, you knew exactly what he needed to hear

“I dont want a relationship, not now, and not ever unless you are completely ready. Patience is as easy as breathing when it comes to love, Spence, so I dont mind waiting.”

- and that was that, you two had come to an understanding

- over time, Spencer allowed himself to venture closer to you, emotionally as well as physically

- your presence was comforting enough that once he calmed down, he wasnt afraid of the feelings he had for you

- you explained to him randomly one day that part of you was worried he only thought he had feelings for you because you had helped him heal, in the sense of sexual transference syndrome

- while you were rambling about this and essentially inventing a cop-out for Spencer just in case he didnt actually love you, he placed his hands on your shoulders to stop you walking beside him, and kissed you

- he then took a few steps, acting as though he was casually continuing to walk, while you stood frozen, in a daze

- Spencer gave you a dazzling grin, like the swoon-worthy interest in a cheesy romance movie

- without a word, you reflected his grin back at him, and took the few steps necessary to catch up with him

- the two of you began walking side by side again in silence, avoiding eye contact bashfully

- you gingerly reached out your hand and nudged his ever so gently

- Spencer smiled to himself and interlaced his fingers with yours

- and that was just the beginning

[billkaulitzwife]

I know u only have 1 post so far but i literally love ur writing 😭 <3 can u do headcanons for the gang and how they'd be if the curtis brothers had an 8 year old kid sister? how they'd all treat her and such and how she'd feel about everyone <3 thank u!

AWHH!! TYSM NON! i actually write a lot of short stories, add me on snap or disc and i can share them🫶🫶

The Curtis's 8 Year Old Kid Sister.

Ponyboy :

this man is amazing with kids, like he'd work at the daycare or something

He's always lookin out for his kid sister.

bullies?

they're dead. gone. obliterated.

she says she's got a crush?

soda, dal, johnny, and pony surround her like

OOOOOOOH WHO IS ITTTTT

i feel like she'd play soccer or track like pony

because he's her favourite.

when pony bleached his hair she didnt recognise him and she thought he died🥲

Pony would always comfort this kid

hed die for her

if she was in that fire, she'd be the first one outta there

Pony would stop studying just to comfort her about anything

"Pony?"

-immediately turns away from his work- "What's up, sis?"

Sodapop:

dress up. this man would sacrifice his dignity for this girl

"Sodaa! Let's play fairies!"

"Hell yeah, kid!" and Steve would stare at him like 🥲

Steve: damn. someone took my bitch.

Sodapop would be the exact same about bullies and crushes.

He'd make her TWO cakes for her birthday (he has a favourite sibling)

Soda is SO defensive of his sister

When Darry and Pony get to arguing, Soda is the sibling to calm her down and hush her back to sleep

Nightmares? This man will do anything to not have them happen. Cuddles, stories, ANYTHING

hes TOO GOOD with kids

hed let her put makeup on him and put him in a princess dress (i literally did this to my brother)

the moment she turns 16 is the moment he dies inside

he'd play sixteen candles (not in a romantic way ofc)

Darrel:

He tries not to get upset when she colours on the walls or gets into trouble at school

She once brought a blade to school for show anc tell and Darrel got in SO MUCH TROUBLE

He tries to get her to stay away from Keith and Dallas

Darry's the kinda brother to not stand for any shi goin on.

like he'd slay? SLAUGHTER. somebody for looking at his kid sister wrong

The moment S/N brings a boy home

he dies of a heart attack

OR

he has his blade out and ready😋

Anytime Dallas is around or running from the cops it's automatically

"Soda, keep S/N in the house."

Darry would sit on the floor colouring with her all because she didn't wanna be alone while Soda was at work and Pony at school (a sick day ykwim)

Dallas:

"Who's this?"

"I'm S/N who the hell are you?"

"ATTA GIRL" -highfive-

he'd teach this girl attitude.

obviously has a soft spot for this kid

the crushes "tell me. is he cute? nice? hot like me?"

"hes real cute like johnnycakes!"

johnnycakes: HUH😰

Dallas would tell this kid to stay away from cigs until she's about Pony's age.

Darry thinks hes a bad influence, but he teaches her a lot

When its raining hed sacrifice his jacket since STEVE DOESNT WANNA WEAR ONE

if he was babysitting and S/N had a nightmare, he'd let her hold his St. Christopher while hugging or sum

He tries to keep his smoking to a minimum, but.

its ol dally we're talkin about.😐

He isn't the best when it comes to kids, but he'd kill someone if they hurt his neice

"UNCLE DALLY!!"

"hey, kid!"

Johnny:

Loves S/N almost as much as he loves Pony

He'd protect her life with his, even if it meant gettin jumped again

He's quick to worry about her

"It's about S/N, Joh-"

"NOOOOOO"

"Shes failing math"

"Oh."

He's the sweetest little thing with her

He'd let her play with his hair and ask questions about his scar

When Johnny babysits, Pony, Darry, and Soda always come home to a slumped S/N resting on a slumped Johnny's chest

He keeps his smoking to a zero when around her.

Johnny always admires the way she's so outgoing with people around her

Like they're the black cat and golden retriever duo

"Uncle Johnny?"

"Yeah?"

"Can we colour? Or watch Mickey? Or read a story? Or-"

"Alright, alright."

If S/N ever ran away to the lot because the boys were all fighting, he'd be the one to comfort her and walk her home.

Water fights in summer.

Steve:

he treats this girl like she's his sister

Soda: steve thats my sister, where the hell are you going-

"OUR SISTER"

Like he'd be like "hold the light so I can fix this"

He'd play dress up with her and Soda and wonder how his life came to be

He'd be wearing fairy wings and a pink dress with makeup everywhere on his face

When he brings Evie around, she absolutely loves on S/N

Evie: what a pretty young lady!

"I'm eight"

"S/N, be nice-

"NO IAN KNOW THIS BI-"

"That's enough"

When he's babysitting it's always baking together and colouring on the floor (and the walls)

He teaches her how to do push-ups and sit-ups and basically, this girl can punch.

She once punched Dallas in the balls cuz Steve told her to

He limped for 3 days.

Two-bit :

Since he has a sister at home, he brings her over when he babysits

He makes sure S/N tries staying outta trouble, but when the Shepards are busy and so is the gang, Two would be drunk while watching her

He'd take her to the movies whenever a princess movie was playing

Two once accidentally took her to see a horror movie and he couldn't watch her for 2 months

Like

Darrel grounded him.

He's forgetful of a lot of stuff

"Hey, kid how old are you again?"

"I'M EIGHT JESUS CHRI-"

Dallas: it's perfect.😍

He loves S/N so damn much.

When his sister started growin up, he hung around S/N just to bring some of the youth back

Whenever there's a rumble between outfits, or greasers and socs in general, he'd most likely be voted to stay back and watch her

Him and her get in each other's faces about different colours and princesses

"SNOW WHITE"

"CINDERELLA"

THAT'S ALL!!! tysm for the request! hope you like them <33

addi asking the boys whos babysitting :))

[i-cant-sing]

OMGGGGGG YOU GUYS THIS STALKER MANNNNNNN-

Basically, I was doing a patient and I had gloves on, so my friend needed my phone to call another patient of ours but instead of calling her, she accidentally called him AND WHEN SHE REALISED WHAT SHE DID, SHE PANICKED AND PUT THE PHONE TO MY EAR WHILE I WAS DOING A PATIENT, SO I WAS STILL UNDER THE FUCKING IMPRESSION THAT IM TALKING TO A PATIENT!

But as soon as he said "hello?" I recognised his voice immediately and I was glaring at my friend for calling him (after 4 days of whole radio silence) and I was like "I'm busy-" and he immeadiately cuts me off and goes "I'm with family right now, call me later" and cuts me off????

So anyways, I forget about it and it isn't until I'm home that I look at my phone again and he's texted me "call me at XXXXXXXXXXX" and I was like ??? And when I didn't instantly call him the very second, he texted in a very demanding tone "call me now" and I was like bitch???? But also bored so I called him💀💀💀💀

And so I called him and this is how the convo went:

Me: yeah?

Him: hey, how are you?

Me: I'm good.

Him: so... what's up?

Me: nothing much. So... you didn't call these past few days? Everything okay?

Him: I didn't call because of our fight.

Me: what fight????

Him, very coldly: what? Did you forgot about our disagreement? Did you forget about the gut wrenching, awful things you said to me that day?

(For recap, in my last convo with him I purposely told him to introduce me to his "womaniser" bestie so that I can date him, kept on saying his friend's name to make him jealous and pissed off so that he'll leave me alone)

Me, feigning innocence: ohhh you mean when I asked if you could introduce me to Ryan? Btw, how is he? Did he return from his trip?

Him: he's fine. I- why did you say all those nasty things?

Me: what nasty things?

Him: that you wanted to marry Ryan!

Me: marry? I NEVER SAID ID MARRY HIM- I said I wanted you to introduce me to him while I introduced you to a girl. And why do you care? You only wanted to be friends with me. It's not like you love me or anything-

Him, offended and slightly mad: YOU THINK I DONT LOVE YOU???! You think I don't love you- why am I calling you even after you keep on mocking me? Why do I take your insults and ridicule? Why? Why? Why?

Me: idk...

Him: do you really think I don't love you? Really? Be honest, do you think I'm not in love with you?

Me: idk

Him: you can't keep saying that.

Me, sighing: look- its just a little unbelievable, right? How can you be in love with someone you've never even seen? You haven't even seen my shadow, let alone my face???

Him: so what? Do you need to see someone to fall in love with them?

Me: ideally, yeah? I mean, even if you take out the whole "physical appeal" aspect, I'm like pretty darn rude to you. Like you said, I mock you and insult you. So how could you possibly love someone so horrible?

Him: ... you're not horrible. You're a good person.

Me: am not. But okay-

Him: no, you are. You have a good heart. Look- idk what to say- why did you even call me today?

Me, lying because he'd never believe that my friend accidentally called him: I was bored.

Him: you were bored? What? Am I just a plaything for you?

Me: yeah. And when I lose interest, I don't interact with you. See, I'm not a good person, so don't fall in love with me.

Him: you're lying, idk why but you are because you're a good person.

Me: if u say so.

Him: look just- *sighs* just don't say awful things like that again.

Me: like what?

Him: that you want to marry my friend.

Me: I DIDNT SAY THAT- why does it even matter????

Him: because it HURTS! It hurts it when you say you want to marry Ryan. Doesn't it hurt you if I said I'd marry your friend?

Me: no?

Him: ITS BAD! It hurts and why tf would you want to marry him and not me? He's a womaniser, a playboy, a cheater and youd still prefer him over me? And what about how your family wasn't going to approve of me, gut they'd approve of him???

Me: I mean, I guess they might?

Him: look- just, just answer me this- can you marry me or not?

Me: no, I don't think so.

Him: why not? Is it because I'm poor? I'm ugly? I'm-

Me: yes, but also other reasons. Look, I'm very tough to live with. I'm very hard to maintain.

Him: like what? What exactly do you want me to do to impress you and your family? Jump off a roof?

Me: no, then you'd die and I'd meet Ryan and your other friends at the funeral. But like I said, I have a lot of needs-

Him: LIKE WHAT?

Me: I have a sweet tooth. What if I want ice cream at 3 am?

Him: at 3 am? Why tf would you want ice cream at 3 am?

Me: that's just how I am.

Him: you shouldn't go out past 11 pm. It's unsafe outside-

Me, face palms: why would I go out? Its dangerous outside. You're going to fetch it for me. Can you? Or are you scared?

Him: at 3 am? What if someone stabs me?

Me: that's just a risk you're going to have to take. And if you can't, then I'll go out by myself and get me ice cream.

Him: no. No. I'll go get the ice cream. What else do you want me to do?

Me: I wake up often at night and want to talk or info dump. What are you gonna do about it?

Him: ill wake up and make us tea (because he's obsessed with tea) and coffee (because he knows I love coffee) for us. Next.

Me: well, I get sick often. My bones hurt at the slightest breeze in the air.

Him: ill take you to a doctor for your condition.

Me: it's incurable-

Him: by medicine. I'll take you to a witch, or homeopath, or worship some deity/false idols. But I'll do something, anything it takes to find a cure.

And then the convo went on random stuff, nothing interesting except towards the end where he was like "Okay but can you give me your WhatsApp number so that I can see your profile pic?" And I was like no, of not because I don't feel comfortable sending pics to people and also what if I look at you and don't like you at all!??!

And then he was like, have you even saved my number? And I was like no, and he was like "that's a smart decision because what if someone sees my name in your phone and asks you about it?" And I was like yeah, I guess that's the reason, but have you saved my number?

Him: yeah, I mean I already have memorised it but I still saved it.

Me: by what name? (Asks about the fake girl name I gave him)

Him: no, no. If my elder siblings or their spouse saw your name on my phone, they'll beat me up.

Me: ohh, so what did you save it as.

Him: I can't tell you. You'll get mad.

Me: why? Is it that disgusting?

Him: no, just- okay ill tell you but promise you won't get mad.

Me: yeah, sure. I promise.

Him: it's... "MY LIFE❤️"

The way I cringed so hard, metaphorically threw up in my mouth. Because obviously he's lying cause if he was as afraid of his siblings as he says he's is, he'd never even save it as something remotely like this nickname. But still, even for a lie, very cringe, second ha d embarrassing material.

Me: EWWWWWW STOP OMG WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT-

Him: hehe, you like it?

Me: no??? And if you don't change it, then you deserve to get beat up by your brothers.

Him: then what should I save it as? "Life line"? "My world"?

Me: how about (male version of my fake name)?

Him: hmm, okay. I gtg now, call me in the evening?

Me: oh I'm not calling you, I'm all out of money for making calls.

Him: well,I can't call you because of some bug in my phone until 12th October? How about we talk on WhatsApp? Or some other messaging app? What do you say?

Me: I say... I'll talk to you after 12th. BYE!

Him: wait what? NO NO NO NO NO-

And now I'm just like??? What is this obsession with talking on WhatsApp or messaging app? Like is it a thing that you can get more private/sensitive information or hack into someone's phone on these apps???

[transfemzedaph]

like this isnt gonna go anywhere bc i had no plan or anything so here u go

-

zedaph. step away from the void. the voice is loud. sharp. it cuts through the static filling her mind. he turns. xisuma. maybe? the static is inside him he thinks. filling his head and his body. he blinks. now there is two xisumas. one of them steps closer to him, armour red. the static seems scared. zedaph isnt. she lifts her hand. the red xisuma graps it in its own. zedaph screams. Zedaph groans as she comes to, a pounding in her head making itself know instantly. Evil Xisuma is there straight away, helping her sit up, offering her some water. And then it stops, and sits, picking at its nails. Zed pauses for a moment to take it in, helmet off, most outer armour peices discarded, dark circles under its eyes. "Have you been sleeping properly?" It opens its mouth to respond- "No, it hasnt. Its been too worried about you and couldn't sleep properly." Zed looks over to see Xisuma entering the room and smiles at them. X smiles back but it quickly turns into a frown when- "Yeah well it was all my fault." "Ex, we talked about this, you arent to blame." "What else would it be! It has to have been, them." Zedaph interupts their conversation, "It definately wasnt to do with you, I didnt even recognise you when whatever all that was happened." Evil X visibly deflates, tension leaving it as it relaxes into the chair for the first time in days.

[shijieswife]

this fandoms casual misogyny, often, parading around as feminism pisses me off so much. when u guys turn all the female characters in mdzs into token girl bosses - when all of them were such fleshed out, interesting characters, meant to affirm the oppression in mdzs.

yzy was a horrible person, and no amount of making her into a badass woman, so called feminist, can change that. being mean ≠ being a strong woman. u can have a backbone without being a horrible bitch (example, shijie) she quite literally berates jyl her entire life, for bearing the sin of being a daughter, and a weak cultivator. she only slapped wlj and didnt cut wwxs hand off, because she was annoyed that wlj had 'risen above her station'. and u guys treat that classist moment, one that shows yu ziyuans morals completely, as a badass moment !

to make jyl 'strong', u make her mean, or taking up the sword path. being physically strong is not a strict guideline to being a strong woman. shijie did not pick up the sword path, because she was sickly and a weak cultivator - she physically could not do it. shijie was still strong, in the way she was kind and gentle, and the way she still had a backbone and stood up for her didi, with what limited power she had.

u guys also, amazingly, never make nie huiasang, also a weak cultivator, pick up the sabre. because you recognise his strength lies elsewhere.

and then theres just the blatant, casual misogyny. where u guys just give the female characters in ur fics any role, without any thought, while giving the male characters extremely thought out, well suited roles. theres too many fics where the women are just used as props - how many fics, with mianmian appearing as the 'object' in the way of wangxians relationship, are there ? if were lucky, well get a flat, token girlboss characterisation form her.

and dont get me started on the ships u put these poor girls through. jyl and lxc ??? why ?? just cuz their didis are married ??? jyl would not want to be around such a spineless hypocritical coward, who has so much power, and would stil stan dby and do nothing. when she, extremely oppressed throughout her entire life, stood up for what was right.

wq and jc ?? even tho cql tried to shoehorn in a romance between the woman who had a debt owed to her by the man, which the man didnt only not repay, but also led a siege against her family that he knew were innocent, there was not an iota of chemistry between them. it just seems so slimy, and just outright nonsensical when u consider their two personalities - jc is literally what u picture when u hear right iwng cishet man who doesnt wash his own ass, and u think wq ?? wq woulve been into that ???

[saym0-0]

hi hope you dont mind its me again the song bitch

i thought i should share that the unwanted animal by the amazing devil is SO jane prentiss coded like it was Written for her and it's been making me more insane lately

and Also if you like doorkeay at all i would highly suggest listening to wild blue yonder by tad as well while thinking about them

and also stray itaian greyhound by vienna teng and hardest of hearts by florence and the machine for jon and - and vampire empire by the big thief for timjon i promise its worth it even if youre not a fan and alsooo putting the dog to sleep by the antlers for jmart

and. and girl anachronism by the dresden dolls and rule#21 momento mori by fish in a birdcage for melanie. and wolves without teeth by of monsters and men and also running up that hill is impossibly daisy and basira coded. and i think i will explode and take out half of europe if i continue so

ty for your attention i thought you might enjoy more song obsessions and i have. just so much

have a lovely day love u 2 sir song op<3

oh my godd first of all i love you for this 🫶🫶

grahhh you are SO right about that unwanted animal,, genuinely never been a song with a better fit ever ever omg,, ive always associated TAD with esmp i didnt even consider,,, the possibilities,,,

all of the tad ones,,, youre so right theres never been a righter person,,,

ive only listened to stray italian greyhound once & havent heard hardest of hearts in forever so ill have to go relisten to those..

vampire empire for timjon!! you never lose you're so right!!!

never heard putting the dog to sleep either ill stick that on the listen pile,,

of the last ones i only recognise running up that hill but YES right also!!

thank you so much for this ask i now have a ton of new music to listen to and a ton of old music to listen to Thinking About Things so thank you thank you thank you 🙏 🙏🙏

[akaakeis]

oh nooooo i tripped and fell for u into ur ask box

eating ny ice cream rn ;; strawberry is such a weird flavour like if i had to choose and get one i would not get strawberry but if irs rhere at home im finishinf ALL of it

ALSO, DRAWING ON PEOPLE'S HANDS 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

anyways about the iwa smau!!! genuinely have no motivation rn #tweaks BUT i would like to say that the yn is shamelessly based off me like i have consumed acrylic paint on multiple occasions (today) (with ice cream)

ILYT!!!!! IM WRITING THIS RN SO I CANT RESPOND (CRIES)

lost a mark in my chem test today im tweaking

BUT THE FREAKY ENGLISH TEACHER SAID IM ON THE RIGHT TRACK AND DOING GOOD AND AN ATTENTIVE STUDENT AND LIKR????????? ERMMMM SHES INSANE BUT FHE ACADEMIC VALIDATION GOES SOOO HARD

also like lowkey icl i was hanging around ur blog again rn and thats why i decided to send an ask !! ur blog is so pretty rrrrr

I ALSO BASICALLY JUST PEAKED IN HS CUZ THE LIBRARIAN RECOGNISED ME AND GAVE ME A BOOK RECOMMENDATION AND LET ME TAKE IT EVEN THOUGH IT DIDN'T HAVE THE PROPER STUFF TO BE FILED AS BORROWED (like each book has a code and this one didnt and she STILL gave it to me) SO LIKE BASICALLY SHE TRUSTS ME BC IVE BEEN OVER HERE FOR LIKE A YESR AT LEADT TAKING A BOOK THEN COMING BACK 1-2 DAYS LATER CUZ I FINISHED IT LOLOLS

also about OUR iwa fic i was js thinking like,, fake dating this dumbass b word ushiwaka and hes like ?? why me ??? "ur names rhyme kind of" ?? wth ??

lowkey think im immune to anything thats in acrylic paint now bc i have Eaten So Much Of It

anyways the book is lowkey good i havent finished it YET but irs called the girl on the train and like woahhhhhh smth like that at our super conservative school is iNsane

i hope u feel better soon!!! if u dont ill fly over and idk. magic

i have a maths test tmr rjejsjskssk the topic is fun but I Don't Know what if i Fail

OSHIT I WAS SUPPOSED TO LOCK IN AND DO HW OOPS ERM HRU TELL ME AB UR DAY ETC ETC and also any sav x yaku tidbits youd like to drop <- forgot the ship name AND AND AND THE ANONS THINF IS SO REAK KMFG

ok byebye ily xx

ah thats a shame 😞😞 hope your knee or whatever u banged on the way in heals up well lina 😞

yum yum yum ice cream!! i hope ur enjoying it!! also thats so real i feel like strawberry ice cream is just an odd flavor... but true that i always eat the strawberry ice cream in the freezer just to spite my other roommate (with love!!!) LMAO

also real 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ i adore when people draw on me or let me draw on them it js makes me so happy <3

DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO WORK ON IT!! BE SPORADIC!! DO IT WHENEVER YOU GET IDEAS!!! WE WILL STICK AROUND TO READ WHENEVER U DECIDE TO WRITE

NOOO NOT THE CHEM TEST IM SORRY LINA :((( ITLL ALL WORK OUT THO

NOT THE ENGLISH TEACHER. IM SORRY SHES MY OPP FROM WHAT IVE HEARD ABOUT HER SHES FREAKY I FEAR. BUT FOR THE ACADEMIC VALIDATION I SUPPOSE I GET IT...

HELP i didnt ever realize how much time you spent on my blog like genuinely 😭 BUT THANK YOU SM!! im super proud of this theme even tho its not the most intricate <3

WOOOW THE LIBRARIAN RECOGNIZED YOU AND TRUSTED YOU W AN UNFILED BOOK??? i aspire to be you but i never step foot into my school library i much prefer my public library... there's sm more books that i read there!!! BUT THATS GENUINELY SO COOL WTF

bro that fic will genuinely be so funny 😭 like the quote we were yapping ab earlier "ushijima?? the hell?? you don't even go to the same school as him?? 😨" iwa would be more confused than anything at first AND I THINK THATS HILARIOUS!! and pls ushijima just AGREEING hes a closeted himbo i swear i swear i swear

alina im genuinely concerned over the fact that you CONSUME acrylic paint? but whatever? i guess? please dont eat too much that's definitely not meant to be consumed 🧍‍♀️

im gonna add that book to my tbr list!! i read the synopsis and it sounds pretty good tbh

THANK YOU!! my roomie is taking care of me so i'll probably be fine within the next few days 🙂‍↕️

AND GOOD LUCK!! im sure you'll do amazing dont even play w me rn alina YOU WILL DO SO SO SO WELL YOU LITTLE MATH NERD (affectionate)

OH YEAH GO DO HOMEWORK WTF 😭 IM GOOD! I FEEL BETTER TODAY <3 IVE BEEN IN BED SINCE I WOKE UP SO THERE ISNT MUCH TO TELL YOU ABOUT BUT UHHHH LAST NIGHT I WATCHED HOWLS MOVING CASTLE WITH MY ROOMMATE!! SAV X YAKU IS SAVORI!!! COURTESY OF BAKERY ANON MY LOVE 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ UMM I DONT HAVE TIDBITS RN BUT ILL DM YOU WITH RANDOM ONES SOMETIME DURING THE DAY TRUST!!

bye bye!! ily ily <3

[oddvanilla]

i love that you hate dd sm like i dont even HATE HATE IT its just refreshing yknow.. thid woke society of 2024 now accepts artistic liberties its no good

i went to school this morning to pick up my textbooks already had to ignore someone and met my friends hoorayy!!! i kmow that romanians chueches are very beatifulbut its all.. ALSO ONE DUDE ON YOUTUBE SHORTS HE HAS A MICRONATION IRONLAND AND ROMANIAN TIKTOK ACCOUNT RECOGNISED THEM.

AHAGAHHAHAHAHAJ WOKE SOCIETY OF 2024?? DUDE. I GET HAVING TO IGNORE SOMEONE. CAUSE I HAD THE BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD AND I KNOW HER BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE WOULD. AND AND AND I ALWAYSSS BUY HER GIFTS LIKE I ALWAYS PUT HER FIRST,, THEN ONE DAY SJE WAS JUST LIKE "omg we have to talk this is important" AND I WAS AT THE BEACH. ON VACATION. DUDE SHE RUINED MY DAY SO BAD SHE SENT LIKE A WHOLE 3 PAGE LETTER SAYING IM ONE OF THE BEST PEOPLE SHE MET AND THAT SHE WANTS TO END THIS FRIENDSHIP (that lasted for like,, 3 YEARZ??) AND i honestly didnt like cry or whatever because i can live my life without her TBH IDGAF BUT LIKE YEAH I TOLD MY FRIENDS and she sent them the same exact paragraph. copy paste. HAGHAHAHAHAHHA AND THEN SHE CAME TO SCHOOL LIKE YESTERDAY AND WE ALL KEPT MAKING FUN OF HER SOOO BAD?? GIRLLL IF YOU HAVE "mental problems" THEN WHY DID YOU CUT OFF ALL UR FRIENDS. WOULDNT THAT MAKE UR MENTAL HEALTH WORSE? SMH SHE DUMB ASFFF AND HER HAIRCUT..DONR GET ME STARTED IT LOOKS TERRIBLE AND WE TRIED CONVINCING OURSELVES ITS NOT THAT BAD BUT I SWEAR I WOULDN'T BELIEVE THATS A SHE/HER IF I DIDNT ALREADY KNOW HER😭😭 SHE CUT IT LIKE SO SHORT IM SOBBING?? <- judgy?? Yes. But that's what U get when u ruin my vacation 🤦‍♀️ ALSO SHE TRIED OPENING THE DOOR FOR ME AT CLASS TODAY AND I WAS LIKE CONFUSED CAUSE WTF U AINT MY SERVANT AND I DIDNT EVEN LIKE THANK HER. CALL ME RUDE OR WHATEVER BUT I JUST IGNORED HER CAUSE I DONT WANT HER TO THINK THAT THE DOOR IS OPEN!! YOU CAN ALWAYS TALK TO ME!! like hell no. Stay away from me ma'am. Btw for moots that have known me since April yes this is about "Joe Biden" rip or don't LMAO

[thirtydaysinamonth]

i went to the metro all by myself for the second time. i love being by myself and travelling. i went to a market via metro. for that i needed to switch lines.

but

what i wanted to talk about was the guy i met at the metro. i was riding back home, maybe seven stations to go. by that point id been standing, and losing the empty seat olympics thus far, jostling a bit and trying to steady my feet as a result of the loss.

from the corner of my eye i see a space open up,between two men. i play this game with myself where i challenge myself to sit between two men in the metro. my act of microfeminism to a level id like to call it. i get to manspread, keep a bitch face, and stare back at all the men that stare at me. its the least aggresive thing one can do after being catcalled, gestured the most vulgar things a person can receive while walking on the streets, in my humble opinion.

as i sit down, my knees finally getting rest after having walked around six kilometres, i took out the bottle of water id bought from the streets. i drink the last few sips, and involuntarily make the sounds of my lip smacking followed by an 'aahh'. i smile to myself.

i wouldnt say i was snooping, but the man next to me quite literally had his phone face up, with full brightness, playing a song from an artist i like. he's wearing a shirt and jeans, with the signature bagpack that screams 'i work at another company that has saturated in the IT industry'. he wears frameless glasses, looks to be in his thirties.

i glance over a few times, just to check but also mostly to indicate to the man that i recognise this song. i cant stop smiling. its not often i find a similar taste in music, and even less often on a crowded metro of a city i barely know. id like to believe im a generally sociable person. in the sense that once a day somebdy asks me the direction to a place, instructions to some action. im also never afraid to help them, infact i love it.

i pull out my phone, excited to text my best friend of this news. she urges me to ask the guy and so i do. it goes something liek this

"hey is this xyz artist?"

he painstakingly removes his earphones. i know people get pissed when theyre listening to music and are disturbed. but i didnt care i nthat moment, i felt the need to know and know and know.

"uh, yeah" he gives me a small smile.

"do u usually listen to this genre?"

"yup"

and i know i shouldve backed off there. i nod with a smile and go back to updating my best friend. i tell her how i love people, these mundane things that form daily routines of every person, that makes them so... them. it warms my heart. its the same feeling i feel when i see children, or old people, or friends.

so i open my Spotify and suggest a song to him. he plays it on his phone, bobbing hsibheas up and down. I'm smiling more because I thjnk of how he'd have to pretend to like it even if he doesn't as much. he tells me he likes it and asks for another suggestion. so I put him on another artist.

"what are u doinf currently?"

"I jut graduated school. planning to join college in a month or two. what about u?"

"haha. in just another IT job." he tells me, with this tone of surrender and 'it is what it is". with some sort of uncertain and embarrasing finality in his tone. i see, I tell him.

we go back to listening to our own music. i don't tell him where in from, or where I stay. I know better not to indulge in those details. I don't even know his name and neither does he, mine.

I know I took him by surprise in the beginning. but I think I love tht about people. maybe it's weird or sadistic or creepy. but I love talking to people. I love getting to know someone. mostly. and he seemed harmless enough.

"well, if was nice to meet u!" he tells me before getting off his stop, ten minutes later.

"bye bye, you too!"

sometimes these interactions make my day. I know I initiated contact with this person but every week I get approached by someone or te other. i love seeing people happy. i love seeing people laugh. i think it brings this sort of positivity in my life, that even if I dotn know anything aboutt them, I helped them in this one instant in their lives. maybe theres some sort of selfishness attached to it. but that's okay to me.

[otteropera]

thanks so much for letting me know that your requests are open, your Jon Snow fic ‘Protector’ is literally my favourite piece of Jon Snow fanfiction, I come back and read it so often it’s insane!! you are so incredibly talented!! ♡

based on that, I was wondering if you’d be interested in writing for Jon again, in a slightly different protective scenario?? I’ve been mulling over so many different versions of this in my head and I’ll probably end up writing one myself bc I love the premise so much, but more than that I’d love to see what you do with it, if it appeals to you!!

so when Sansa escapes Ramsay at Winterfell and meets Jon at the wall, she’s like “He’s still got (Y/N)” and Jon has this mixture of fury and relief bc he knew when he left for the wall, reader left with the Starks for King’s Landing and served as their young maid, as reader had since arriving at Winterfell an orphaned child or something, so he heard no mention of reader whatsoever, didnt know if she was alive or dead bc nobody would mention any sightings, they wouldnt recognise reader. turns out reader stayed by Sansa’s side throughout her story until getting to Ramsay, who locked reader in a separate cell in the dark, starved and beat her, as a plaything of his.

so Jon is fuming that not only does Ramsey have Rickon, but he has the reader, who was his closest childhood friend and he’d obviously always had a crush on her 👀

BOTB happens, Jon beats the shit out of Ramsey (iconic of him) but leaves him alive and goes to find reader, whose wrists chained to a bed, she’s curled up on the floor beside it, filthy, covered in bruises, bleeding, and she doesnt even recognise Jon at first, takes her a second

then it’s all cute and fluffy and lovely and you can decide how it ends but some real good protective Jon Snow content is what we all live and breathe 🤩

if this request is too much or you simply dont want to do it, that’s ok!! I hope you have the most wonderful rest of your weekend! ♡

Posted here!!!! thank u for being so patient, i've been slowly chipping away at this fic for too long so i'm glad i finally got it done and i hope you like it!! pastanest my beloved <3

[skippyv20]

  /SaintMeghanMarkle

  2014, Meghan Markle in an airport, who does she Google? The Queen! Here's MORE proof that Meghan knew a lot about the Royal Family and was more obsessed than she let on #MeghanMarkleIsALiar

Recollections May Vary

Oh Meghan, your narcissism outs you... EVERYTIME! (Also thank you to her obsessed 'fans' and those who archived her insta)

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Remember when she told the BBC that she knew nothing about the Royal Family? And to this day maintains that she is an ignorant American... This is what she said about the BRF ... she had no understanding about the Royal Family. To Oprah, she said that she never Googled him.

Here is a picture of Meghan on her Macbook while waiting at an airport with a panama hat in 2014. What was curious was the image on the top left hand corner of the screen. To me, The Queen is iconic and every picture of hers is iconic, so I instantly recognised that it was The Queen. Also, I have the tote bag from this series of photos in colour from NPG. Probably why her image is seared in my brain esp the hair and the crown.

Let me break it down for you (and hope I do a good job as I tend to assume people know what I'm thinking).

Credit to u/elegantboop for sharing the picture with me

Here's a Pic of Queen Elizabeth II in 1952 taken by Dorothy Wilding (below image), does it not look similar to the above? Even the colour tone of the image. There were several photos taken by Dorothy as this was the first official photographic sitting after the Queen's ascension eg photo 1, photo 2. But none match the photo below

Here is the side by side comparison of Meghan's screen pic magnified vs the Queen's official portrait from 1952. Even though it is so blurry; the lighting, subject profile, hairstyle, CROWN, the badge on her dark sash can be made out.

So I wanted to verify the date of Meghan's photograph, sadly this was a challenge.

It wasn't in her instagram archive. Luckily for us, she blogged about that straw panama hat on The Tig!! (link to relevant post of the Tig archive dated 08 / 06 / 2014). The hat was made for her by 18 WAITS in 2014!! (A full 2 years before they claimed they started dating). The feather and cord detail around the hat is identical.

in The Tig, she wrote

Lord knows I love a hat. If you check out my Instagram on any given day, you’re apt to find me in the same panama hat and aviators that I’ve been hiding under for a few years. So I thought it might be time for a change. Cue the cool, weathered, one of a kind hats you’ll find at 18 Waits

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Ugghhhh ... the she always has to include her feet in her photos about unrelated things. Weirdo!

And they said that they started dating mid 2016 so why would she be googling old pictures of the Queen while at an airport? Unless, of course she was obsessed with the Royals

Anyway, do you see the Queen like I do on her screen?

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We've all seen her pose outside Buckingham Palace when she was 15 (in 1996) with her friend, Ninaki Priddy

In 2014, she even posed with a tabloid claiming on its cover that Kate was pregnant with twins.

Over a year ago, I made this post, where Meghan took an insta pic of a royal procession in December 2013. It said, Because its hard to get a cab sometimes #London #fancy .

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There is no way she didnt understand the magnitude of the royal tradition and its global impact. She definitely was obsessed for ages and now she pretends like she never knew or googled them.

Yes, I posted about this just last night….amazing what people find….😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

[ciaran]

ok ok ok i told myself i was gonna write this so im going to write it even htough its not going to make any sense and i am not actually doing anything and everything sucks. but we live in a shitsuck world so i am gonna write my dumb little thoughts down.

mo du spoilers ahead and discussions of triggering topics

anyway so. the thing abt the last book of mo du which is a v recognisable thing to happen and i Get It as an author like i truly do despite the longest thing ive ever written having been 50k of unhinged word vomit about feeling profoundly isolated from reality. i am the shit king of things that are too complicated and simple and that make no sense and plot is not my strong point as an author and i could not have done better. but i truly believed that priest could. anyway the thing that happened is that the last book was just not good lmao and it was not good for a few very particular reasons that were EASILY rectified by having a team of good alpha readers who are willing to slap you over the head and tell you to make a damn decision.

the thing is that before that mo du IS good and my idea for what should have happened in the last arc WAS SET UP BY THE NARRATIVE! i was not an idiot for thinking that that was what would happen! its just that she refused to go there for two critical reasons

she felt like she wouldnt have enough time to resolve this plot point

she didnt want to introduce a new major trauma before the end

she didnt trust her characters to get through it

she had set up a moral system in which once u commit murder u are irretrievable from The Abyss (as proven by that one dead cop's daughter idr her name but she killed a cop by accident)

that's more than 2 but i am a lit crit bitch not a numbers bitch. moving on.

she WOULD have had time to resolve this plot point if she had simplified her plot by a few threads. that cult shit was not necessary. the fact that the mysterious organization had someone within working to bring about its downfall was a great touch that didnt go far enough. there was a parallel between fan siyuan and fei du that was never fully explored and that was a waste of both their characters.

fei du needed to Go Through Something and he just did not. he needed to suffer a major moral injury in order for that arc to work - he needed to kill his father, or be mindbroken by being submerged in the abyss. the abyss needed to affect him. instead he is untouched which is awful. where are The Horrors of finding yourself at home among monsters! where is the Relief of not needing to mask, and wondering if this might just be better, if its not a little joyous to not care about morality and goodness. where is the Fear and the Self-Hate and the moral conflict between wanting to become your worst self and wanting to slip back into a comfortable orbit. where is the CRISIS OF FAITH!

but that's the thing, she didn't trust luo wenzhou to be able to handle fei du like that. she knows lwz can handle fd when he's being like "im gonna atticwife you shixiong" while clearly being a wet bedraggled catboy but she doesnt know if lwz could handle fd while hes laughing maniacally and trying to decide between killing his father, zhou chunliang, and fan siyuan. not that fd can handle a gun's recoil but that's not the relevant part. she didn't know if lwz could see fd at his worst and still love him but he CAN! he's a little crazy too let him find it kinda hot when fd struts around masterminding complicated criminal plots.

i truly think that showdown should have had lwz as a captive audience so fd experiences terrible feelings. OR fd should have actually HAD TO kill his father, no take-backs, no last minute outs. murder that vegetable. pull the fucking PLUG piglet. he should have to live with patricide even if he's never going to be charged with anything. lwz should have to live with loving a guy who was forced to have blood on his hands. let him have nightmares for the rest of his life about the closure he craved for so long.

but this goes back to priest's issue with MORALITY. the morality of the mo du universe is very clearly slanted into people being either GOOD or BAD and once you cross the line you can NEVER COME BACK. there is no complexity offered to the characters and there SHOULD HAVE BEEN! fan siyuan was a horrible person but what if he felt like he didnt have a choice? what if he was just like fei du and HIS lwz died? u cant tell me that fan siyuan wasnt in love w that one guy whose photo he was trying to see in his last moments. show me the beauty under the rot. what if fei du was pushed over the line? could he still be allowed to have some light? could lwz LET HIM? and i truly think lwz can, it's fd who cant let himself have that. but fd needed some confounding factors in his worldview.

call me a whump lover but i love when theres major trauma at the end of a book but it's still slanting to a happy ending. i like a hint of bitterness, a hint of "it will never be okay but at least we have each other." it's good.

anyway when mac and i were talking about this mac also suggested that fd walking into the abyss could have been very effective as a trust fall, a sign that he KNOWS that lwz will come for him and pull him out and not let him get lost in the evilsauce. and i agree w that being hot but i also have a personal preference for fd having a crisis of faith and lwz having a crisis of faith and both of them realizing in the end that they did choose each other and they still have each other

but priest chickened out of Challenging her Characters at the end and that just meant the whole thing rang soooo hollow. big grief. mz priest i will give u one dollar and my heart if u write an alt ending

get rid of that cult shit, get rid of the moral black and whiteness, let fei du sink into hell and kill his dad and be pulled out and dusted off and loved anyway. forgive some of the people who wandered into it without meaning to. let lang qiao and xiao haiyang kiss. The End

[theastromind]

100% agree with that other ask though maybe ppl are so out of touch with their own reality due to social media that even the idols cant fully enjoy all they post for their own fans. fancalls etc etc. i feel like too much of it is abt them building so much recognition online they forget to really see that social media isnt the only place they can be recognised and i mean idols go viral for both good and "bad" things in seconds. it feels like thats all kpop has become abt lately. dumb arguments online, fanwars, not really actually seeing the good in sometning or someone and ppl tearing down actually innocent idols for no valid reason.

i mean u can go to youtube or tiktok and it takes seconds to find a new group then u go down their rabbit hole and find more stuff except its not all decent not sunshine and rainbows 24/7 but its like once someone deems something of an idol as bad when it isnt it takes the fun out of it then theres ones who actually do genuinely bad things and ppl ignore it like ehhh let him or her do crime or bullying lmao. even with idols who are seriously well loved sometimes im like ehhh I didnt like xyzs behaviour towards xyz member but ppl act like bullying doesnt occur in groups themselves or that fans online if u can even call them that bully idols for nothing and then something else is another whole thing. ugh i dont know how u can keep reacting and reacting without feeling tired of it? kpops meant to be enjoyable for idols and audiences but so much is competition sadly so much is still glossed over thats the issue. i still love the groups i love but i want to separate it from kpop as a whole. we used to habe many groups in the west in the 00s but it really seems ppl centre a lot of their attention around kpop only and not seeing enough variation due to how much kpop is everywhere these days, which is both good and bad depending how u view it.

I agree with you too honestly. Like I said earlier I had to step away from kpop for a while as it was really getting to my mental health as well. Like I just want to support them and their music, I don't need the drama. I mean I even saw online some fans saying 'I want to start hating on this kpop idol bc I'm bored' it was wild.