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vader-anakin · 8 months

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Not Just Ken - Ken x f!Reader

Alright so I'm still thinking about the whole story behind the last post I made, trying to give a chance to a new story and I'm fascinated by Ryan Gosling as Ken. Still giving it a shot, at least for now it's only some fluffy stuff!!.

Word count: 2.1k

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It was a very hot and dry day, you got your favorite iced coffee from the shop and headed back to work. You had just had lunch and enjoyed the rest of your work break, in the midst of a tireless routine of clients who would still visit your office that day. Walking faster, among countless people who were also running through the streets of Los Angeles, you bump into a man who you hadn't noticed in your field of vision. The blonde, who you thought had just stepped out of a Calvin Klein shoot, dropped grotesquely and almost "hard" to the floor, letting out an "ouch." You quickly reach out his hand to help him up, and only then do you notice how his eyes are deep blue, his teeth perfectly aligned, and his muscular body exuding sensuality.

"Oh my God, I am so sorry! Did I hurt you?", you said as soon as he stood up, smiling at you even though you just dropped him on the floor.

"Hey, it's not broken!", he exclaimed excitedly, checking his left arm, twirling the limb that was still in place. "Hi, I'm Ken," he said, reaching out to shake your hand.

Wondering the way the guy kept a good mood even after being bumped into and falling to the ground in the middle of hundreds of people, you accepted to greet him. "I'm (y/n). I'm really sorry I didn't see you, I'm getting back to work and I'm in a rush".

"That's alright, wow you're so pretty!", said the blonde, still keeping a wide smile on his face. You smirked, getting lost in that impeccable, almost unreal face, forgetting you were rushing to get back to work.

"Well thank you Ken, it was nice meeting you", you said and turned on your back to keep doing your way to work. Even though it would be a good chance to meet someone, you weren't sure it was the right way, maybe it was just a coincidence, and it wasn't supposed to be like that. You reached the sidewalk and as you were about to cross the street looking at both ways, the man was there standing behind you, with a playful smile still. Well that's kinda creepy, maybe he's just going the same way you are and that's all. You crossed the street and turned your left as you're approaching your building as you come back to your office. Looking back, you realize he was still following you. Ok, this is beyond creepy.

"Uh, do you work here?", you asked and raised a brow, watching him shake his head no. "Then why are you following me?".

"I thought you were nice and I don't know anybody here, maybe we could hang out!", he replied. Was that a fucking joke? Why the hell would someone you only know for about 10 minutes wanna "hang out" with you at your work? "I can't right now, I have to work and my schedule is really busy. But maybe some other time". You tried to sound nice and not one tiny bit mas and sort of scared, but he frowned and your head turned into a giant question mark.

"OK, I can wait", Ken said, and gave you a side smile, showing he understood you. You had no idea what to say so you just waved at him and entered the building. That was so awkward and not to mention very random to happen, but the guy seemed nice. Maybe he had a disease, maybe he was autistic and you didn't know, maybe maybe maybe.

Hours after you finished with your last client, you let out a loud sigh as you were really tired and just wanted to go home, take a shower and get some rest. At the ground floor, as soon as you got out of the elevator you saw a bleached hair sitting in a chair reading a magazine about horses and country stuff. I can't deal with this again right now, you thought. Even you tried making a different way to the exit he would probably see you, so that's why you sat next to him.

"Hey, (y/n), I've been sitting here all day waiting for you!", the tall guy lowered the magazine and stared at you with a cherished smile still on his face. HE WHAT?

"What? Why?", as confused as you were, you thought it might be better if you called someone and tell them there's a guy out there who may be lost. Everything was so weird.

"I left Barbie Land and I don't know anybody here. I tried to make friends but they seem scared of me", he replied and your brain flipped at the sound of "Barbie Land".

"AH okay, Barbie Land? Where is that?", you asked but you weren't sure where this conversation was headed. You heard him sigh, closing the paper on his hand before looking at you.

"You have to take this trip with a car, a spaceship, a boat and rollerblades before getting here, so if you wanna be there you do all of that but in reverse". He explained it with so much conviction that you couldn't tell if he really was a person with some condition, in which the parents could have lost him. That could only be it, nothing made sense in your head. Okay, he really looked like a doll, but that story sounded really bizarre. "You don't believe me", he let a sad gaze as you were still trying to follow what he said. Ken lowered his head and let out a noticeable noise of disappointment..

"I- uh... it's not that. It's just... a very weird story". You looked at your smartwatch as the clock hit almost 6:30 PM. "What about your parents?". You know by the look of his face he was an adult, but you were in denial as to what the hell he was talking about. "I don't have any parents. In Barbie Land we only have Barbies and Ken's. Some Allan's too".

Well ok, he sounds so serious about that story, maybe you should give him a chance and talk to the guy. You invited him for a walk to the same coffee shop, sat in front of him as he was looking at the menu. "So you like horses?", you asked and he stared at you, smiling. This man is always so smily and happy. "They're my favorite animals. I would love to have one of them. How about you?".

"Cats and dogs I guess, but turtles, specially sea turtles are cute", you grinned when he made an "aww" face. Everything was still a little tumultuous, the whole conversation seemed out of touch with reality, but you were trying to keep your sanity and trying hard not to get paranoid about the whole thing. "So tell me about you, Ken. You're from Barbie Land, that means you're a doll right?".

"Yes, I am. I can show you if you want. I have all the genitals". Okay, what? You laughed at the way he said it, but the look on his face showed he would like it to be true. Probably he really didn't have any genitals. "I can also stand on tiptoe and if you notice I don't have body hair". Yeah alright, not having any hair on your body doesn't mean much, but we all have some hair. And he was always walking on his tiptoes which is hardly something people do unless they're doing ballet. Still, it was too weird. "I also don't have a heart". He said like it wasn't a big deal, but when he grabbed your hand and pulled it on his chest, you couldn't feel a pulse. And then you knew it.

Holy fucking shit what the actual hell was that? You tried not to show you were definitely surprised by the fact you were actually talking to a doll, but you squeezed his skin and he didn't flinch a little. Ken never stopped smiling, unless the subject was Barbie, who you learned, wasn't in love with him. You also learned that even though he didn't have a heart and didn't know what feelings were, he was always jealous of the other Ken's and felt sad about Barbie, that was why he decided to left Barbie Land.

You got home about almost two hours later, took off your shoes and left your purse by the counter, giving space for the blond man to get in the house. You both agreed he would sleep on the couch until you figure out what to do with him, who made sure he wouldn't leave the real world until he finds out how to bring the patriarchy to the other world.

"Thank you for making me company today. I'm still upset Barbie shot me down", he said as he sat on the couch, getting rid of his cowboy boots, the bandana and the hat. The look on his face explained why he decided he would leave their Land and stay in Los Angeles.

"Hey it's okay. We don't need to depend on someone to live our life", you sat next to him and held his chin, this chilling energy traveling through your body while he kept his gaze at you. "You're gonna survive, but for now I think it's best you get some rest. I'm gonna shower, you can shower after I'm done too".

"We don't sleep and we don't take showers either", he grinned. Ok, that makes sense. Dolls don't need to sleep and neither take a shower. Might as well don't eat either, since he didn't drink the coffee, but couldn't hurt to offer him something to try out.

"That's right, I'm sorry. I know you usually don't eat either, but are you willing to try and find out how to eat? As long as you're staying here maybe you could learn some human stuff". You smiled and headed to the kitchen, you quickly made a chicken and ham sandwich for him, handing him the place. He spent a good whole minute looking at the slice bread until he realizes he didn't know how to swallow the food, and then when he could finally do it Ken made a sound.

"That's really good, (y/n), thank you so much". With a smile, you left him enjoying the food and hoped in the shower. After a few minutes, you put on your pajamas and went to the kitchen to grab some food, watching him lying on the couch singing some tune you had no idea which one. The man ate his whole sandwich, you saw as the plate was sitting empty on the table in your living room. This man is something else. While you were heating your food you were trying to figure out which clothes to offer him to wear since you're a woman and didn't have any good clothes for the giant man in your couch. "Uhm, I'm going to find you some clothes but they might look pretty short on you", you sat on a chair close to the TV and looked at him, while he was still singing the song and "playing drums" in the air.

"It's okay, (y/n). I can lay on my underwear, it's not cold for me anyway", Ken smiled. You thought if he wasn't a fucking doll he would definitely be teasing you, but ever since you met him you've come to realize everything he does is just plain innocent. You two spent a few hours watching TV together, you were trying to explain what a TV show was when you told him you liked to watch some of them. He tried to understand the best he could, but he wasn't so sure he got the idea. Before you went to bed, you brushed your teeth and walked to the living room to say goodnight to Ken, who was already on his underwear, looking at your book shelf. The strap read "Ken" around it and you blushed at the sight of his sculptural body.

"G-Good night, Ken", nice. You were already acting like some teenage girl with erupting hormones. Never saw a man naked before? Many times, but they weren't that good looking.

"Oh, good night (y/n). I hope you have a good night of sleep", he turned around smiling and you wish the lights were off as the man's bulge was definitely getting all of your attention. His eyes are a little up above you pervert. And after all, he does have a genital. At least in this world. Maybe he just doesn't know he does and maybe it's for the best of both of you.

#ryan gosling #ken x reader #ken fanfic #ken fanficfion #barbie #ken #ryan gosling fanfic

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myluvrrhea · 2 months

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Can I pls have Dominik Mysterio x Fem reader with the prompts “I trust you” + ➻ “May I kiss you?” where the reader goes to his room and not only tells him her feelings but also how he's helped her with her inner demons?

Apocolypse

When your all alone , I will reach for you

Pairings - Bsf!Dominik Mysterio x Wrestler/Bsf! Reader

Warnings - Fear of unrequited feelings , Just fluff rlly!!

Word Count - 0.7k , Gif Creds

You and Dominik had been the dynamic duo of The Judgment day. You would always spend time with him. He was like the sun to your moon. You always saw edits either, praising the friendship you two or, shipping you two together. You and Dominik would make fun of the edits and react to them , but little did he know how much you wished you two could be together. And the edits just fueled your need for him more. So today you decided you wanted to tell him the feelings you and hidden for a while. You felt scared telling him about it , but you didnt tell him , he would never know.

You asked him to meet at a nearby beach at 5:00pm. The sun should be setting at that time , you thought. Checking your phone it was already 4:45. You grabbed your keys and purse as you looked into the mirror next to the door. It’s time to set your plan into action you thought, as you sighed.

You arrived to the beach as you sww Dominik sitting with his knees to his face looking at the sunset. You tapped his shoulder feeling your hands sweat up at the thought of what you were about to do. You saw Dominik turn to you , a smile forming on his face when he saw you.

“Hey mariposa, did you need me here for?” He asked.

“Hey I was wondering.. could we talk for a bit, its kinda important,” you asked as you sat down next to him.. Why were you feeling so nervous all of a sudden? You felt confident just a moment again where did it go? You thought to yourself.

Dominik looked straight ahead, feeling the breeze of the wind hit his hair. He looked so , beautiful. Almost unreal you thought as you looked into his eyes. You took a deep breath before you turned pulled dominik by his hand to look at you.

“You trust me right? This wont ruin what he have? “You whispered to him. You saw his face switch from a smile , to a worried expression.

“Of course, mi vida , I trust you know that right?,” he replies back.

Before you knew it , your faces were closer than you had imagined. You saw Dominik’s gaze linger on your lips and then back to your eyes.

“Dom what are you do-“ but he cut you off before you could continue.

“May I kiss you?” he asked. His question was soon answered as your lips met him in an heated kiss.

You felt Dom smile into the kiss as your lips left his. You could still feel the linger that his lips left behind. And you loved it.

“Is that what you wanted to talk about?” He asked as smirk painting his face.

You looked back at the sunset ad you opened your mouth to speak. Feeling his gaze linger on you.

“I just wanted to tell you how much you’ve helped me through out my career. Ive been having a hard time adjusting to the judgment day lifestyle, especially with these changes— its just been hard for me. And at some point I’ve thought about quitting,” you saw Dominiks face change to worry again as you spoke.

“But you helped me through these things Withought knowing. And I love that about you Dom.” You turned to look at him , seeing his smile match yours as his face turned a brighter shade of pink.

He grabbed your hand a bubbly smile on his lips as he began to speak.

“Im happy to be that person for you, and I want you to know how much I care… even if I might not show it you’re always on my mind,” you smiled as you turned to look away , trying to hide your face getting warmer. But instead of letting you, he kept you in his touch , pulling your face closer to his chest. Making you lay down on him. You and Dominik watched the sun set , as you rested on his chest. He took glances at you from time to time, but no words were exchanged. Just the love for each other , lingering in your hearts.

A/N- I hope You like this lovley!! Thank you all for the support on my fics it means alot!! 💕

#dominik mysterio x reader #dominik mysterio imagine #dominik mysterio #dominik mysterio fanfiction #dominik mysterio fluff

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snoreyua · 7 months

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₊˚ෆ ⁀➷　come back to me // ep. 4

synopsis : you and riki were childhood best friends doing everything together. when you entered middle school, you overheard him talking shit about you to his so-called friends. out of frustration, you moved schools and cut all contact with him. now starting a new year in high school, what will you do when riki unexpectedly transfers to your school? can you rebuild your friendship or will something much deeper will bloom?

word count : 1k

warnings : reader is sick, arguing-ish?, fluff, not proofread, lowercase intended, lmk if i missed anything

yua's notes : i kinda died sorry 😭😭 i really liked writing this i think its so cute 🙁🙁 MY TURN WHEN??

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you groaned, pulling your pillow over your ears as the sound of your alarm blared through the room. you had barely managed to fall asleep, considering the events of yesterday lingered in your mind. as you embraced yourself in the warmth of your blankets, it was suddenly stripped off your body, a cold front spread through your body. "get up y/n you're already late!" your mother chirped, as you internally swore from how cold you felt. trying to warm yourself up, you looked at your mother, who looked slightly irritated from your reluctance to wake up. "oh my goodness, why is it so cold this morning?" you shivered, trying to find something to help you stay warm. "what are you talking about y/n? it's the middle of spring!" your mother said, before leaving you alone in your room.

as you walked down to your class, your face felt warm and stuffy, feeling like you were going to sneeze any moment. after endless nagging, you gave in to your mother who forced you to go to school. your hands rubbed your arms, attempting to generate some sort of heat for your freezing body. you sniffed loudly, slightly coughing as you slumped onto your seat next to riki. sighing, you folded your arms on the desk, resting your head on top. your head felt like it was spinning, like you were going to faint. you felt a slight tap on your shoulder. you turned, your eyes meeting riki's.

"hey are you ok?" he asked, looking concerned at your dishevelled state. "yeah i'm fine," you mumbled, not wanting to look at him any longer. you felt your heart race, thinking about him, your cheeks slightly heating. "oh my god I think I like him…" you muttered under your breath. "hm? did you say something?" riki turned to you, your words incoherent to him. as you were going to speak, you felt an uncomfortable sensation, in your nose. before you could react, you sneezed. your face turned red in embarrassment, as you felt some of your snot dangling from your nose. you quickly hid your face, turning even redder from riki's gaze on you.

"bless you! you want some tissues?" he stood up, worried for you. you stopped him. "no it's ok i'll get them," you said before quickly standing up. you shakily walked to the front of the class, grabbing some tissues from the box. your head felt like it was pounding, as you blew your nose and threw it in the bin. on your way back to your desk, you bumped into a chair causing you to fall. your face was met with the hard, cold floor. if you felt dizzy just then, you felt like you were going to pass out now. calls of your name echoed in your head were the last thing you remembered before your vision faded to black.

after a few hours, you slowly regained consciousness. you sat up from the bed, realising that you were in the school infirmary. you looked to your side, seeing riki, who was sleeping. his head hanging low as his arms were crossed. you were wrong to say that you didn't like him before. oh god you loved him like crazy, but you never had the guts to tell him. you were scared that you were going to lose him if you confessed, so you kept it to yourself. maybe that's why it killed you so much when you heard him backstab you that day.

you huffed, as you observed his face. he looked unreal, compared to before. his features matured, suiting his face even more. his moles enhanced his features. his pouty lips, his hair, his eyes, they seemed to stand out to you."i can't believe you look this handsome now…" your eyes then traced to the bracelet that you made him. you smiled to yourself, as you gently touched his hair. "i can't believe you still have that bracelet," you sighed, still looking at him. "i'm sorry for being so harsh to you ki," you mumbled before hearing footsteps approach you.

"ah y/n! you're finally awake!" the nurse smiled at you. the voice of the nurse woke riki up, who suddenly sat up straight. "unfortunately, I called your mother but she said she can't look after you because of work. however, this young gentleman has volunteered to take care of you." she said, pointing to riki. you shook your head, insisting that you could look after yourself, but the nurse said that you needed someone to look after you. you exhaled, finally agreeing with her information. she left the two of you alone.

you looked at riki, who was staring at you. "thank you riki," you murmured, bowing your head. he smiled at you, with a mischievous look. he smirked at you, as you raised your eyebrow. "why are you looking at me like that?" you furrowed your eyes at him. he crossed his arms and chuckled, shaking his head. "I heard everything you said~" he giggled as he leaned closer to your face. you felt your cheeks flare up, covering your face in embarrassment. you slapped his arm, which caused him to laugh more at you.

"ooh getting feisty are we y/n?" he teased you, making you go even redder. "well, I can't deny that I am this beautiful now," he dramatically posed, making you stifle a laugh as you rolled your eyes at him. riki showed off his bracelet to you, the charm gleaming in the faint sunlight in the room. "and why would I take this masterpiece off? your 5 year old hands really had some skill, I can't lie" he smiled as he looked at the bracelet, then at you. "oh yes the last thing…" he said, coming even closer to your face. "I forgive you y/n" he flashed you a wide grin, making you blush even more.

you pushed his head away with your finger, trying to look annoyed. "well, it still doesn't change the fact that I still hate you." you grumbled, looking away from him. "y/n, you know you really don't look that annoyed. your face is still as red as a tomato." he sighed, watching you blush even more. you hit him with your pillow, making him dramatically fall to the floor. although you were trying your best not to crack, you started laughing , which made riki laugh. you got off the bed, helping him get up. he then suddenly picked you up.

"come on y/n! we're going to my house!"

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stxr-du5t · 1 year

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The horrors of Pennhurst

part one

Summary: Being a medium was always a secret for Olive, even with her friends of many years

Pairing: Colby Brock x Olive Blake (reader)

Warnings: Angst, Nightmares, Horrible Place History, Feelings (kind of)

How do you tell your friends of almost ten years, that you see and hear dead people? Olive asked herself that question every day and the living situation didn't help to that dilemma, nobody knew about it but her, as she experienced many things since she was a child like hearing disembodied voices and deformed figured, who looked nothing like humans, a couple of weeks ago she moved in with Sam and Colby spending most of her time with Colby when Sam was with his girlfriend

She saw a figure walk past outside the opened door that made her a little bit jumpy

"Colbs?" She called to her friend, feeling uneasy

"Yeah?" He peered on her room door

"Nothing, you just scared me" She smiled to not make him feel bad about it "I'm just jumpy, i think I'm going to sleep"

"I wanted to watch a movie, do you? So you can relax" He asked leaning on the door frame with his arms crossed over his chest

"Sure, but i might fall asleep on the couch" Olive got up from her bed and followed Colby to the TV room

"it's ok, i will protect your sleep" Colby said, she smiled tiredly "Do you want pop corn?"

"Sure" Olive sat on the kitchen counter, watching as Colby moved making the pop corn

A few minutes into the movie, Olive fell asleep against Colby's shoulder and suddenly everything felt unreal

«Olive was walking through hallways, deteriorated hallways, the vibe of the place felt off, everything was pitch black

And then she heard a loud scream, a woman screaming for help, if only Olive could knew where she was, the place seemed gigantic, with lots of door and hallways, it clicked suddenly, a hospital

She could feel the sorrow of the poor people that inhabited the place long before when it was still open

The redhead girl knew it was a dream but still felt terrified of everything in that place, she walked down the hallways as if she was one of the patients, trying to look for something to identify the place but it was nothing but a waste of time

A tall man saw her, he had a angry face and was wearing a white coat

"You aren't supposed to be here!" Screamed the man to her face

"I'm just as shocked as you are, are you dead?" Talking to dead people wasn't a bit deal to her, she has done that most of her life

The man vanished in front of her eyes, and then heard another scream for help »

As soon as she heard that scream, and creaks approaching her, Olive woke up screaming, a cold sweat coated her forehead, breathing heavily, she felt arms around her, Colby, her dear friend was there holding her as she calmed down

"It was just a bad dream" He said with a reassuring tone

"It was more than that, Colbs" She held onto the body of her friend, trying to feel him closer, as she was trying to process everything

"What was it then?" He asked, letting her go to give her more space

"Well... I haven't told you this, and you might get mad because you might think I lied, which i didn't"

"Try me then" He challenged her playfully

"Remember when we were kids? I told you I kinda dreamed about my grandpa dying?" She whispered to him "You thought I was crazy, so did Sam, i never spoke about it again"

"What do you mean?" Colby remembered perfectly that day, and regreted laughing about it

"My grandpa died three days later"

"Premonitory dream?" He asked, surprising her "You just had one, what was it about?"

"A hospital, i don't know exactly where or what hospital, it was old as fuck, creaked like nothing i heard ever, and the screaming lady" Olive recalled everything, and sent shivers down her spine "I spent years having this "gift" shut as much as I could"

"It's not a bad thing, you know, i would love to see things like you do" Colby tried to make her feel better but it didn't worked

"I just... that place was pure evil, the things they did, i could feel it and one of the doctors i assume, screamed at my face, said i wasn't supposed to be there" She saw Colby shiver as she was telling him everything "i wouldn't tell Sam about it or i will be like human rempod"

"You're like Amanda, she's cool, you're cool, not just because you're a medium, but you have always been cooler than us"

"I'm not cool, I'm a freak" She said harshly on herself

"You, Liv, are cool, amazing and so beautiful, that gift it's just one more reason to love you" Colby realized what he just said "As a friend, of course"

"You are great, thank you for not laughing"

"I was a stupid kid" He admitted

"You are still kinda stupid, stupidly cute tho" His cheeks went a cute shade of pink blush as she said that

"Insulted and complimented, that's so you" Colby said offering his hand to take her to the kitchen "Let's make a mess" He suggested

Colby Brock and Olive Blake made pancakes and as he said they made also a mess

The hospital still roamed in her head, the screams were still there, creaks and that terrifying doctor, she just hoped it was just a dream and nothing more that active imagination.

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A/N: Well... There it is, i dreamed about being lost in a haunted hospital while Sam and Colby were outside, it was horrible

#sam golbach #sam and colby #colby brock #imagine #one shot #ghost hunting

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nana-kom · 5 months

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Hi it’s been a long time right ? 😭

So this is the second part of Jisung’sMix up ! I really like this part and can’t wait to write the next part ! Make sure to have read the chapter 1 and enjoy 💜

This is a weight gain fic, if you don't like don't read.

This contain, weight gain, weight loss, magic weight gain/loss, bullying, and humiliation.

Jisung’s Mix up

Chapter 2

Jisung was now sure of his decision, he had a choice to make and although it wasn't really the only things he can do, he had the power to change things. For years, he had suffered again and again, but for once in his life the keys were in his hands, and he was sick of running away and being afraid all the time time, so now he was going to do something for himself and maybe for Hyunjin too. He was no longer living his own life but the life he'd dreamed of, except that this life didn't belong to him but he was still the one who controlled it, and he didn't want to spoil his chances. For too long, he'd cried over his fate, but that was no longer the case, he felt capable of making a choice and even undertaking things himself. So he walked through the corridors, using the adrenalin inside him to keep himself motivated. Trying to breath calmly and try not to be scared of what could happen, he arrived in front of his classroom and waited for his class to end. In the meantime, he had time to think about everything that had happened, his new body, Hyunjin's new body, which he couldn't help finding sexy. Because seing him like that was kinda like a dream he could have make in is life ans if we was really having Jisung body, he knew how his body had worked, so he began to imagine Hyunjin gorging himself as he tended to do in times of stress, and even though it wasn't his aim at the moment, he began to feel aroused and blushed. Jisung also noticed the change in people's attitudes towards him, everyone was greeting him and he could even see that he was attracting attention for once in a positive way. Whereas when he had seen Hyunjin earlier, he had begun to see something in other people's eyes that he had never seen before: judgment towards Hyunjin. He had gone from being the most handsome boy in the university to being a fat student, less attractive in the eyes of the others, which made Jisung sad. So why did he feel that Hyunjin was becoming a little more perfect in his eyes? He thought of his face becoming round, his big belly sticking out of his t-shirt or thighs rubbing together and when he'd rushed off his whole body jiggling. He was losing himself in his thoughts when suddenly people started coming out of class and it didn't take him long to spot him, and head towards him. And after a few seconds he grabbed Minho's arm.

"We need to talk!" he said seriously.

"What is it babe?"

"First of all...don't call me that anymore! I don't want to go out with you anymore Minho! You're an asshole who hurts other people! And I don't want you in his…hm…in MY life!" Jisung's heart was beating fast, he was so afraid of it that he'd let go all of a sudden, because of the stress. And then part of him didn't know if he really had the right to break up with him, given that he had Hyunjin's life. But he hurt him so much, and he'd hated Minho for months, and now he could finally part with him.

"What? What's the matter with you today?"

"Nothing! I've realized what I need in my life, and it certainly isn't you!"

"Jisung can we at least talk about it?"

"No. Leave me alone now."

"Wait..."

Jisung wasted no time in hurrying off, feeling his heartbeat quicken; he'd always dreamed of saying these things to Minho, and now it was done. Still, he didn't feel any more relieved than that...it all seemed unreal perhaps because he wasn't the version of himself who should have said that. Of course, he can be confided, he was in Hyunjin’s life, not in a life where Minho could destroy him everyday. But at least, he had done something…Then he sighed, feeling relieved and as if a certain pressure had just fallen from his shoulders. He'd suffered for months because of Minho, and by taking Hyunjin's place, it was as if part of him knew he'd succeeded in hurting him. He felt his heart pounding and went to find a place to relax. Class wasn't his problem right now, he had other things to deal with. So he went to the park where he often went when he needed some air, and walked towards it, before seeing Hyunjin there. Of course, this was his place now too. He start approaching him slowly when he saw what he was doing and suddenly he feel very surprised to see Hyunjin eating a rather large pizza all by himself, with a big slice of cake on the side and a whole bottle of soda next too him. He felt slightly excited, but he'd never eaten so much in public... He walked over to him and sat down gently beside him. Hyunjin was surprised but said nothing, bowing his head and continuing to eat his pizza. Jisung then looked at Hyunjin's swollen belly, which protruded slightly under his shirt as it had done in the past. hat had happened to yesterday's delicate boy who never ate more than necessary?

"What are you doing here?" asked Hyunjin, breaking the silence.

"I...broke up with Minho..." said Jisung, sighing.

Suddenly Hyunjin sat up surprised and frowned. He looked angry and Jisung didn't really understand. What did he care after all? If he had his own life he should have been happy about it, but Jisung understood that he hadn't inherited his feelings for him. You can't change everything...he thought. Hyunjin sighed and moved closer to Jisung, taking him by the shoulders.

« ARE YOU STUPID ? Why did you do it?" Say suddenly Hyunjin, and jisung was so shocked as he never see Hyunjin angry.

"Well...it's complicated..." he said, trying to explain, but Hyunjin immediately interrupted him.

"I don't find it complicated! You've got everything you wanted, haven't you? The boy you liked? My friends? My life? My body? If I agree to live your life, it's not so that you can destroy it, which is why I'm sacrificing myself! TRY TO THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!"

"What? So... you know? YOU KNOW?" Finally say Jisung still shocked.

"Of course I know! And no, I don't have the explanation, but I quickly understood when I saw my body this morning, and especially my best friend who spends his days at the gym stuffing his face with pastries for breakfast, barely able to get up and breath properly… »

"Like Binnie...so...BUT WHY DIDN'T YOU SAY ANYTHING?"

"I WANTED YOU TO ENJOY! AND ME TOO! You think I like pretending to be perfect all day long when I hate it! I hate watching what I eat, being smiley enough to be appreciated, never complaining, and above all DATING Minho!"

"wait wait...so this morning when we ran into each other you knew? w..why dating him?" then said Jisung feeling confused about the situation but part of him was just getting curious about Hyunjin's life that he hadn't suspected when he made that wish.

"Because at first he was really nice and caring but then he started hurting you and being mean and selfish...and I was afraid for myself...BUT YOU! You had him! You've loved him for months, why leave him?"

"I DON'T LOVE MINHO! He nags me every day, I remind you! What do you think?"

"Then why do you spend your time looking at us? Talking to me so you can be with him? Trying to catch his eye? TELL THE TRUTH JISUNG!"

« Its…..just…that…i..mean…I…I LOVE YOU YOU OKAY ? Since high school ! So stop pretending, I know you didn’t know…I know you weren't attracted to people like me..." Said he, lowering his head.

"Wha...what? No...I...then...if it wasn't Minho...why didn't you say it to me…? »

"I was afraid...you're so perfect and look at me...or look at you..."

"Jisung..."

Jisung was finally feeling more and more lost. The man who thought he was the only one who remembered was in fact in the same situation as Hyunjin, and Hyunjin was going through the same thing as him...Except that he had accepted his fate unlike Jisung, but he couldn't pretend he had ever been able to. He wiped a tear from his face before looking back at Hyunjin, who seemed as lost as he was. It's true, Jisung had just confessed his feelings to him, even though he'd always thought they were for Minho.

"Jisung...I thought you loved Minho...and...I didn't want to break up with him because I was afraid that...you two...because...I like you a lot too...I..I didn't dare tell you because...well I'm a coward...but...excuse me for everything. And forgive me for wishing I were you to end it all...I didn't think you suffered so much every day..I thought you were happy because even if Minho is mean…you were always so brave with him…and I was thinking that if I have your life…maybe you would suffer anymore and that I can’t take his meanness for you… »

"I...I-I wished the same thing...I dreamed of being considered and being you...but...you're suffering too…and sorry that you have me life now.. »

« Dont apologies ! In fact you know...I enjoy having your life and..body…I feel...good...well...it's different from what I've experienced but...yes it's pleasant and...peaceful" Jisung then laughed lightly, perhaps from nerves or relief and looked at the man he'd loved for years, his face may have been rounder and his body bigger but Hyunjin still remained perfect in his eyes, like a work of art he could admire over and over again.

"I can see that, yes...I too appreciate your body...it feels weird to be so light..."

« Yeah…see this have some good point right ? Like…this morning I had trouble getting out of bed! And to wash myself, I had to sit down because I had to bend down...it's quite pleasant actually...and Chan seems to be less stressed too...I don't know...maybe...it's a blessing in disguise..."

"You mean you enjoy being fat or just the change in our lives...?"

"Yeah...I...I wanted to enjoy it!" he says, looking at the pizza. "I like your body Jisung...and...I've always liked you too..."

"M...me...?"

Hyunjin then moved closer to Jisung before placing his hand gently on his cheek, the oldest heartbeat began to quicken and he flushed, lowering his head. Hyunjin lifted him tenderly, stroking his face and detailing it with a shy smile. Jisung felt his breathing quicken too, and his eyes fell on Hyunjin's luscious lips as he gently drew closer. Hyunjin did the same, but the truth was that Hyunjin had never really ignored Jisung. He'd gotten used to seeing him and found him cute and kind. He'd never found it fair what Minho did to him, but the truth was that he too was afraid of what he might do to him. So it was like a gift he'd been given, he'd thought Jisung would never appreciate him and now he finally knew the truth. He then placed his lips on him, which surprised Jisung, who closed his eyes to enjoy this timeless moment. It was everything he'd ever wanted: Hyunjin. The boy he'd admired and loved for so many years, and now he finally had the chance to have him. He threw his arms around his neck as their tongues met. He felt a shiver run down his body and Hyunjin's lips warmed him. They still tasted of food, which he found cute and made him want to taste them even more. Hyunjin, for his part, almost had tears in his eyes at kissing Jisung and feeling loved in a way he wasn't used to. Jisung then put his hand on Hyunjin's waist and suddenly felt how swollen his belly was. He stepped back and looked down at him.

"Hyunjin...I didn't have a belly that swollen you know...."

"hm...I...I...I like being able to let myself…go..."

« Really ? » he said, gently caressing his belly.

"Well...it's nice to be able to eat your fill...and be...comfortable...I mean I've always been very thin but...I don't know I find it exciting to have a bigger body! And...I wanted to...feel even...heavier..." Jisung was surprised at this statement but didn't let go of Hyunjin's belly.

"So why don't...I help you finish everything you've got left?" he said, resting his eyes on the food.

"R..really? W...why...?"

"Might as well make the most of what we're given, don't you think? And then...I must admit, being fat makes you even sexier..."

Hyunjin blushed and laughed lightly, not knowing that Jisung could feel this way too. Hyunjin had grown so fond of Jisung in recent years because he found him cute and loved his shape. Sometimes when Jisung put on weight, Hyunjin found him even more handsome, but this time he was the one who was allowed to change, to put on weight, to let himself go, and what's more, he had Jisung at his side to help him. Jisung then looked at him before reaching under his sweater to gently touch his belly and his bulges, Hyunjin gasped and looked at Jisung with flushed cheeks, wondering if he had the same idea as him. Unsure of himself, he took a breath and looked up at Jisung, whose cheeks were also flushed.

"Jisung...wouldn't you like to take advantage of this..."

"What do you mean...?"

"What if...we took advantage of this chance we've been given to indulge our...hidden...desires..." said HYunjin shyly and Jisung then smiled and in a burst of confidence he asked Hyunjin.

"And what are your hidden desires Jinnie?" At the nickname Hyunjin lowered his head shyly.

"Would...you...like to help me...let...myself...go..."

"Would you really want to get...bigger...?"

"I've...always found it attractive...not sure why but...imagine myself getting fatter...and then...now that we're both in this situation...why not enjoy it before things go back to the way they were...?" Jisung then smiled and raan his hand on Hyunjin's fat cheeks and nodded.

"How could I refuse you anything? So let's do this...let's help the prince of the university turn into a fat pig..."

#weight gain fic #chubby skz #chubby kpop #weight gain skz #weight gain kpop #chubby hyunjin

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bronx-bomber87 · 7 months

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Happy weekend everyone :). We’ve reached the episode where Emmett and Lucy’s relationship comes to an abrupt end. Get to delve into why it ended and see Tim help her through it like he does. It’s a solid ep for them. Also more growth for our boy. Lets get going.

3x08 Bad Blood

We start with Lucy waking up to a cowardly breakup text from Emmett. Ugh. Not only that he’s dragging Tim into to it to grab his stuff from her. Extra helping of coward. I kinda wanna nut check him for this. No matter how Lucy treated the relationship this was unwarranted. I can’t stand people who aren’t forward with their feelings. Eject out of relationship through a text message instead of doing it face to face. Confrontation isn't fun but its better than doing this. Because that's all Emmett will be remembered for. Is having zero balls about their breakup. That's the legacy he's decided to leave.

It’s the first thing Lucy talks to Jackson about when she gets to work. She’s so mad and rightfully so IMO. Asking if he’s 14 years old? Why he couldn’t do it to her face? (man has no balls or integrity would be my guess) Jackson tells her sadly that’s most guys these days. She’s lucky she didn’t just get ghosted. So I guess he's one level above Uber coward then. Tim is within ear shot of all this. Asking Lucy if they can just get to work now?

Lucy ignores his plea to just go to work. Instead asking him if Emmett talked to him about this? Tim replies no why would he? That when they hang out its not a feelings party LOL Also If Emmett did Tim would’ve defended Lucy and told Emmett he was an idiot. I bet you he was far too scared to tell Tim about what he did. Especially after he ate him alive in 2x19. No way in hell he was coming to Tim about hurting her. Dude wouldn't have survived that convo.

Tim has the most Tim Bradford answer ever when he replies if she wants his advice? To Tim it’s so clear. He treated her badly to end the relationship. So naturally she just needs to walk it off. Cut that off emotionally and move on. Saying he clearly wasn’t the right guy for her. (He very much was not… *cough you are cough*) He’s always so brusk at first in his advice to her. Then once they’re alone in the shop away from Jackson he gets softer. I think part of that advice he gave here was cause they weren’t alone. How he is with her one on one is so different than when they have an audience.

We pan back to them finishing up a call. Lucy asking if Tim had ever been dumped out of the blue before? Then he makes a hilarious dark joke about Isabel. The change in this man regarding his ex-wife is unreal. The place he’s in now that he can use what happened to him in a sarcastic way is amazing. It has a dark edge to it like satire but progress none the less.

Clearly saying it to bring a little perspective to her about her situation. Lucy recognizes that but has to know the Why. I can’t blame her I’m the same way. It’s hard for me to let things go with no explanation. Especially when its affected me on a deep level. Lucy is practically begging Tim to ask Emmet WHY did he do this? This is something that is going to consume her day till she gets some answers.

Tim doesn’t have time to reply because he see’s the shop has been tagged. He goes white as a ghost. Lucy is trying not to laugh because she doesn’t understand what’s happening. Then Tim touches it and it’s fresh. He loses it and calls in the calvary. Lucy is looking around in a panic trying to asses the threat. Wondering why this feels like a DEFCON 1 situation right now.

We return to them at the station. Tim is explaining the situation to her. That 3Eyez was active from 2006-2010. Telling her they had victims all over the city. Whenever they got close to catching them it stopped. Tim assumed since it’s been so long they stopped. He also lets her know he checks the data base every 3 months. Just in case he shows up in another city.

Lucy says wow he must’ve been hardcore for him to obsess like this. Asks Tim what his biggest crime was? He tells her it’s him being a tagger. Costing the city hundred of thousands of dollars in repairs. Lucy is confused and says ok…in property damage though.... She is trying to connect why he’s so obsessed with them.

Then we find out his shop was tagged when he was a rookie. Not only that but he let it happen right under his nose. Lucy is getting a MAJOR kick out of this. Laughing and enjoying this piece of his history. Best part of her day so far. For a couple reasons. One he made a big ol' mistake as a rookie. You know she loves that. Delights her to no end. Especially with how he has berated her mistakes as his boot. Second she knows he must've had some unrelenting teasing attached to this moment. It happened right under his nose.

She is down right giddy as she is putting the pieces of the puzzle together. Asking him if he had a nickname? That after an incident like that no way he didn’t garner a nickname of some sort. Lucy is so desperate to get any intel on him pre-her. Especially in his own boot days. Tim can sense how damn eager she is about this. Tries to shut it down with a defensive ‘No…’ hahaha god I love them sfm. Lucy is enjoying teasing him about this far too much LOL

Lucy continues on saying this why he’s so intent on catching this guy. It’s personal. Tim tries to deflect as he does. Saying no. He’s a criminal and it’s their job to stop him. (Sure love sure....) Lucy tries to insert some logic into the situation by saying this seems pointless. The way he snatches back the photo it’s clear it’s not pointless to him…His wounded pride about an early mistake haunting him. Can't say I wouldn't be the same way. I take my failures so seriously even when they're not serious.

Jackson and Wade see 3Eyez mid tagging. They call it in and Tim hears it. Has them immediately attach to their call. Grey steps out of the shop and his back goes out. Jackson and Lucy go to help him. Tim stays in the shop and wants to go after the tagger. Leaving Lucy and Jackson behind to stay with Grey till ambulance arrives. Tim think he spots them in an ally and leaves his shop. It ends up being a dead end for him. He returns to which gets tagged again LOL Poor Tim can’t win for losing in this ep. He’s so mad.

The ambulance arrives for Grey. Lucy recognizes Dave from her time with Emmett. Asks if he works with him? He is instantly flirty with her and says Yes. He replies back she’s dating Emmet? Lucy says not anymore. His forwardness continues when he says how gorgeous she is. That he would be a fool to let her go. (I mean obviously... ) Lucy starts to see this as an opportunity to get back at Emmett. Not her most mature move here but she's going for it anyways.

Jackson can see this developing and isn’t on board. Gotta love him being frank with her about it afterwards. Lucy is just as forward and asks Dave out. Tells him Jackson will give him her number. Clearly only going out with this guy to get back at Emmett. Jackson immediately calls her on it. Lucy pulling a Tim defects what he’s saying. Before he can grill her further Tim pulls up in their tagged shop LOL He tells her not to say a word about it when he rolls up LMAO It’s too damn funny. He could not be more agitated about this.

Lucy is going on about her date with Dave. Asking Tim where they should go for dinner? Tim just makes a disapproving face. Lucy catches on real quick. Asking if he isn’t approving of her plan? Since he hasn't replied Lucy just goes OFF on a rant. Tim doesn’t even have to say anything. It’s almost like she unburdening her soul with the guilt she feels. Wanting him to say anything to justify or right her decision. Saying yeah maybe she is dating this guy to make Emmet jealous...

Tim says nothing and Lucy continues on saying Emmett deserves this. Radio silence... Then she point blank asks if he can say something to her please? She’s so desperate for his POV on this. Because when it comes to Lucy his emotional intelligence is off the charts. She needs his wisdom in this situation. Tim sighs and finally breaks. Says this is the first time In WEEKS she’s even mentioned Emmett. Lucy tries to deflect it by saying he doesn’t allow personal talk.

Tim doesn’t let her get away with that at all. Just like she calls him out he returns the favor in kind. Saying and yet we still have these conversations despite that. Basically saying if Emmett meant anything to her he would’ve been brought up to Tim. Even if he didn’t want to hear about it. That in all the conversations over the past few weeks she never once mentioned him. Lucy is still a little confused asks ‘What do you mean?’

It’s then Tim comes down with the truth hammer. It’s insane how well he can just zero in on her relationships. Like a mechanic looking at a car and spotting all the issues. This is something he does in the future with Chris in 5x08 as well. Helps her notice and face these issues. The issue in this instance being she was never invested in Emmett. That he treated the relationship the same way she did. With no care or effort. That it didn't matter. You watch the realization wash over her.

Like being smacked in the face with the truth. Melissa really crushes this portion. You can see her realizing what he's saying is true. That it's really sinking in and the guilt kicks in. Just like how only Lucy can talk to Tim like she does. It's the same for Tim with her. Only he can deliver the same telling her like it is that she does. This is what she wanted from this conversation though. Perspective, truth and the why behind it. Sometimes that hurts. This is something we learn with the relationships she has before Tim though. That's she never really all in with them.

She’s never really invested enough because they’re not what she already has with Tim. That deep inexplicable bond they share. It will forever take precedence over any of the other men she has in her life. They will ALWAYS pale in comparison to him. Now I don’t think she realizes she’s doing this at this point. But it’s exactly what she is doing. Especially knowing her next relationship and how that ends and why.

Leave it to Tim to deliver the why she has been searching for all day. The sad look of realization on her face gets to Tim though. You can see it above. He knows she's hurting now and distracted. So he does what he does best. Distracts her. Asks her what she thinks 3Eyez next plan is? Asking if they’re done for the day? Trying to get her brain moving. Get her out of her mental funk.

Even when Lucy explains what she thinks is their next plan she is still sad and distracted. So Tim offers up the info she so desperately wanted earlier. Offering a piece of his past to help heal her present. Something he’s done before and will only ever do for her. I love him not only telling her but having Isabel be involved in it. He has her laughing and smiling early into his story. Mission accomplished.

Using a good memory he has and sharing a part of his history to help her feel better. This is an underrated moment in the episode. I love it sfm. He needs to make sure she is ok. So he does this by offering up a piece of himself to her. That no personal life rule is a legit joke at this point haha

Tim has not shared a lot of happy moments if at all about Isabel. This was another massive step forward to the Tim we all know in s5. Willing to do anything for her especially if it makes her feel better. This tactic works like a charm. She is smiling and laughing at his story. Saying how sweet it was cause I mean it was. We forget there was a big chunk of time Tim was very happy with Isabel. Him sharing that vulnerability with her always floors me. Such a good scene. Look at how he is in that final gif. He's shared a past moment about Isabel and a happy one at that. He is not mad or grumpy he is happily reminiscing. Looking back and have it not hurt him but to just smile. This is HUGE for him.

They receive a falling incident call. Make their way towards it. Tim goes over trying to make sure this woman is ok. Lucy is trying to get his attention. Love her using his nickname to get his attention. ' Eagle eyes look up' Haha He finally looks where Lucy is staring and sees her tag. He then realizes it’s 3Eyez that’s in front of him.

This is their married scene of the episode. Lucy correcting him when he says how many times she’s tagged his shop. Can’t help herself and he looks up at her like really? You think now is this time for that? LMAO. Lucy knows when to shut it and walk away from being right. I love her body posture as she says this too. It’s too funny. Even has the most wifey look as she says it. Once again the ONLY person he allows to talk to him like this is her. It’s wonderful.

Tim joins her solo in her hospital room. Asks her why she started up again? She lets Tim know her husband left her....For his massage therapist. That she wasted the last 7 years of her life. You watch how her story impacts him. The empathy in his eyes when she’s telling him her story. Tim then asks 'Did she do this to get back at him?' She shakes her head tells him no. She just wanted to feel young again.

Then he does something truly lovely. He uncuffs her and gives her some lovely advice. Even makes her smile. Saying her husband is an idiot with a sweet smile. You can't tell me Lucy Chen hasn’t had an impact on this man. How is empathy has grown tenfold. Lets himself be kind and soft with others again.

This moment is proof of that. He spent the whole episode hunting her down. Wanting his justice for his past mistake. Then finding out she’s human and with a relatable past. He lets her go with just the misdemeanor and builds her up before he goes. Lucy would be so proud.

Speaking of Lucy she is filling out paperwork when she runs into Dave. He asks her if they’re still on for tonight? It’s then Lucy has to let him know her reasons behind it. Especially after her talk with Tim earlier. He seems ok with the reasoning. (Cause she’s beautiful that’s why.)

He tells her Emmett dumped her over text. He deserves this. Lucy can’t go forward with it. I’m proud of her for not being petty. That she wants to go out for the right reasons. Not because she’s hurt and angry. He tells he tells her he respects that. But in two weeks he’s gonna ask her again. We all know this legit goes nowhere LOL Never hear of Dave again but was a good moment of growth for Lucy.

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Side notes non-Chenford.

Poor Jackson getting pulled in two different directions about his career. Both wanting to set up his entire life for him. Nice to watch him stand up for himself with them.

Oscar’s SL pretty hilarious. He’s always funny to watch come on. Do love Lopez wanting to murder him LOL She had good reason.

As always thank you to all who engage with these reviews. Your likes, comments and reblogs fuel my desire to write them. You’re all amazing. Shall see you all in 3x09 :)

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Ma's parents sensing that something was off with Strabo just like how Ma could sense that Coriolanus was bad news, the generational bad taste in men is just :(( I don't know what a carcará is but hunting, killing, not starving sounds just like Strabo (and kinda Coriolanus) and I am so eager to see what goes on in the mind of that questionable man! Also I was literally just thinking about how Ma thought Strabo was a better man than her father, but just like her father, Strabo doesn't actually take Ma seriously (the line about how Strabo would never give up his ambitions for Ma's dreams because he never took her seriously in that way!). To me, it seems like Ma's parents didn't have the healthiest relationship so Ma didn't grow up knowing what's truly a good, loving relationship, and then she meets Strabo and thinks he's the one but she never really saw a healthy relationship she could model hers after :( NOT STRABO'S SIBLINGS BEING 8 YEARS OLD WHEN HE WENT OFF ON THEM, THAT'S JUST SO—They were literally children who probably didn't really understand what was happening, just that their big brother and mom are fighting and their dad is also dead, and then BAM, at the end of it all they're left with no father, no older brother, no main source of income (I'm assuming the factory was their main source of income?) But omg did Strabo just up and leave and left his siblings high and dry?? He didn't leave them with any money or anything? Like sure, maybe it's not really his legal responsibility to care for his siblings when they still have their mom who can work and support them, but are you for real?? They loved him so much and probably were dependent on his income and now he's just gone. Now I'm thinking about his siblings going to him for comfort when they're hurt or scared (like running to his room during a thunderstorm and wanting comforting cuddles) and thinking they could always rely on him but then he just crushes them with his words and basically abandons them :( Strabo Plinth watch your back because karma (is a cat purring in my lap cuz it loves me, flexing like a goddamn acrobat) is gonna get you!! Also not Strabo preferring being shot to going back and apologizing to his siblings. This man is so unreal, like he was absolutely in the wrong for going off on two CHILDREN but he won't even try talking to them afterwards... Not the 18 year old niece/nephew almost making it out of the reaping only to be chosen for the 25th one...you know what, I believe they can win it! Them being 18 already gives them a little bit of an advantage over the younger kids, and I believe they can win it out of rage and spite! (after winning they can pull up to Strabo's house and be like PULL UP UNCLE, WE HAVE SOME "TALKING" TO DO, but seriously if I were those kids, I'd be so PISSED at this uncle I've never met but is somehow ruining my life and my family's life for ETERNITY) It would be so interesting to see who the tributes were for the 25th hunger games and why they were voted in! I wonder if some districts were thinking to vote in older kids so that they'd have better chances of winning? It's so cruel to pit 12 year olds against 18 year olds because no duh a 12 year old has almost no chance against the older kids D2 continuing to associate Strabo's brothers with him even if they don't agree with what Strabo did is so :((( But omg the part about even if they changed their surname, D2 can still recognize the resemblance between them and the guy on capitol propaganda...what if the niece/nephew chosen for the 25th hunger games has a strong physical resemblance to Sejanus and Ma and Strabo see that and do a double take at this 18 year old Plinth who looks so much like their Sejanus...and they are likely facing certain death just like their Sejanus (idk if cousins can look that similar? but that would be something...but also who knows if the blond demon would even allow Strabo to live that long because the blond devil just be poisoning everyone)

hello anon!! as usual I'm going to answer everything in one post!! hope that's okay :))

the generational bad taste is crazy, and the worst is that generations would pass and the same thing keeps going on again and again and again. atp, they know how to recognize the signs, how to recognize these kind of men, but it's still not enough (also, I imagine her sisters to have married better people, or not married at all; imagine her own mom being relieved thinking the cycle finally came to an end, now just the baby sister being left to get married, and then ma marries strabo of all ppl. how similar it is when ma was relieved that sejanus fell for a boy that was good, that was gentle and nice and good, just for years later for it to repeat again.)

OKAY SO there's just one thing I love more than religious symbolism and it's animal symbolism, so let me tell you a bit abt the carcará (you can skip this if you want anon, it's just me getting too excited and being a nerd): I'll always associate characters with animals, and a carcará is this bird who looks like an eagle, but isn't an eagle. it can live almost everywhere because it'll ALWAYS find a way to survive and eat, but they are also found in places that are hard to live, with few water, few food, just very harsh life conditions. they are particularly famous because some farmers would do slash and burn agriculture, and when the farmers burn the lands, the carcarás fly down to hunt snakes and other animals in the smoke. very wild guys who are willing to do anything to survive and are associated with the idea of survival at all costs. very much strabo (and coriolanus too!!!!!) imo.

yes!!!! in the practice, strabo isn't that different from her own pa. it's just that he's more gentle about, somewhat more subtle, and she took it for some form of kindness. AND YES her only example of relationships were... her parents. I imagine her father to be more harsh than strabo, at least regarding her, so when strabo is much less rude (at least with her, he's not; he doesn't make jokes regarding her, he thinks she's capable of protecting herself, he's not nice but he isn't straight up a dick), she thinks "oh, okay, this is what a healthy relationship looks like", when it's not, really. ma deserves so, so, so much better than him. (and to think that it repeats when her son also doesn't have a good relationship to model after and goes for someone who, if anything, tolerates him </3)

THESE KIDS REALLY WEREN'T UNDERSTANDING, bro, it's heartbreaking. strabo's baby siblings are so sweet, and they look up to him so much. their parents were barely at home, so he was their reference. (fun fact, they called him bo. literally the only ppl to ever call him that. not even ma called him that.) the family had two incomes: the family factory (at the time strabo's father was responsible for it, it was a MESS, it had more debt than anything, so it was barely enough to survive) and his stepmother worked at a tile painting factory. strabo paid all the factory debts, cleaned everything, and started making money that was enough for his stepmother to stop working and just stay at home taking care of his sick father, but now that he left, she comes back to working in the same way before in a very harsh schedule. but even if he didn't leave them without any money, it was still a low blow, because, again, THESE KIDS LOVED HIM SO MUCH, THEY TRUSTED HIM, and they for sure will have to start working early because the factory helped a lot. I think strabo is the kind of person who thinks "if I had to suffer, then I don't care if other will have to go through the same". he wouldn't really be bothered by them having to leave school to work because it was the same thing he had to go through (which is a fucked up way of thinking) :/ he's very much some sort of anti-katniss regarding how he treats his baby siblings. karma is gonna track him down, that's for sure (step by step from district to district), the only bad thing is that it also affects ma and sejanus who REALLY don't deserve any of the consequences of his actions (but still have to pay for it)

oh for sure they could win it, specially being from D2 (let's assume that in the 25th games, the careers were still not a thing, but the D2 tributes DID have more advantage bc of being better fed and overall it seems like a district with a lot of tall ppl lmao every single person we have met from D2 in the books is described as tall). that kid winning out of pure RAGE? just to come back home and be able to yell that they're more district than anything, they're not their stupid capitol uncle? I KNOW THAT'S RIGHT!! (ALSO LMAO I would totally see it during the victory tour that kid seeing strabo by accidentally and being ready to THROW HANDS. I would be ready to be at that man's throat for ruining my life and pretty much the life of almost all the family)

yessssss like, how brutal these games were??? bc I'm assuming most (if not all) tributes were 18, maybe some 17, exactly bc one of the first things I think people at the districts would come to the conclusion is that it's too cruel to put kids who are 12 there. were these kids voted for being troublemakers? were they voted because of stuff their parents did? were they voted because the people came to the conclusion they would have the best chances to come back alive? were they voted because they were an outcast? there's SO many possibilities for different storylines. I'm not very fond of the idea of a lot of books about different games, but THIS one is one I would want to see, specially because I think it was the beggining of the propaganda that stripped some districts from their identity (putting these people against each other and destroying the sense of community; if your neighbour can vote in your child, can you really trust them? imagine the fights that followed it?)

I CAN TOTALLY SEE THIS HAPPENING, and not only with this kid, but with a lot of D2 kids after sejanus' death. a particular headcanon of mine is that since the districts are very isolated, there are some traits that are more common in certain districts; for example, katniss saying in thg that her and gale look a lot alike. so imagine strabo, probably now closer than ever to politics bc of coriolanus, watching every year the hunger games and every year having to see a child that resembles his boy, his poor boy, going to death. it's torture. he would invest so much and sponsor a D2 kid every single year, and people would think it's just him holding on district pride, but it's not; it's him trying to make up for the guilt that he wasn't able to save sejanus. at least this other D2 kid he can save. (also you calling coriolanus blond demon was so real, I'm screaming 😭 but I think he wouldn't kill strabo until he reached the presidency, which would definitely take a few more years)

I think so! probably not in the same grade, but sejanus is so curious and he questions everything, he for sure would notice that there's another plinth on school and try to ask his pa about it, but strabo would try to say that it's common for more than one family to have the same surname (which is not a lie; he knows more than one molina, and more than one valestone, and more than one rocha) and sejanus accepts it (besides, his pa would lie to him... right?). and definitely 😭 that's for sure his biggest frustration, that he wants a loving family, but he's too much of a dick to bond with his son without hurting him. I imagine him walking near his old house, seeing his siblings reuniting for a holiday with a happy family, and him feeling bitter over it. but, well. it's the consequences of his choices.

I imagine baby sejanus to be so bullied by his maternal cousins lmao 😭 I think the other cousins are closer in age and older, so let's say sejanus is 6 and the cousins are like 12, 13, 14. ma would try to get him to pass some time with his cousins, but they scare him and tease him and he comes back home in tears bc they don't want to play with him. I think sejanus was too shy as a kid, the type of child who got anxiety by having to go out of home; basically, the type of child who needs to get adopted by an extroverted child as a friend, and if there's no extroverted to do so, he just ends up alone. I think he got it from strabo (not the shyness, the being introverted thing)! until his teenage years, strabo was pretty much alone lmao it just changed when he was running the industry, and then he had to adapt and learn how to perform. (if sejanus got to live long enough, who knows if he would also be able to learn how to perform, even if just a little, for the sake of his life? we'll never know)

I was going to say "nah, I think this is too extreme even for strabo", but then I remembered. yk. the whole marcus thing. and I stopped and stared at the wall and got "oh...". so it's absolutely a possibilty ☠️ even as some sort of revenge getting one of the molinas' grandkids on the games, oh god (specially because he IS jealous of the molinas).

strabo ruining ppl's lives even when he's NOT THERE ANYMORE. and they don't even talk anymore!!!! it's been so long, they probably even struggle to recognize how he sounded like, because it's been so much time, and district 2 is BIG, they don't see each other constantly. it makes me sick to my stomach, because they REALLY didn't choose any of this, and if they got to choose, they or sure would choose kindness, or at least for things to end up differently. AND YES, I WAS THINKING ABT THESE PARALLELS, rip sejanus, you would've loved to learn that one of your uncles got to be a doctor </3 (also, imagine strabo listening to sejanus telling him that he wants to be a doctor, and strabo having war flashbacks because he knows that's what one of his siblings got to be lmao)

I searched up in english just to be sure and D2, besides mining stones, is said to be responsible for masonry; now, this is a bit of a hc: I imagine that one of the reasons D2 is so wealthy is bc they not only mine stones, but bc they pretty much were responsible for projecting buildings and cities. I can see that before the war, it was full of architects and engineers who would send their projects to the capitol, and pretty much built the city (now, imagine D2 rebels having their hands on the floor plan of important places and buildings). this changed a lot after the rebellion, as the ppl from the capitol got scared from letting district people knowing how their city works. I said all of this just to say that I imagine one of the twins to be a doctor (thanks to your hc!!!) and the other one to be an architect lmao 😭

PANEM IS SO INTERESTING like, miss collins, I love creating hcs, BUT I WOULD LOVE EVEN MORE TO HEAR YOUR CANON THOUGHTS. tell me about the wedding traditions!!! their religion!!! how things were before snow and his propaganda clearly changed a lot (not only in D2, but we can see it in D12 as well)!!! what was the last straw for the rebels to start the first rebellion??? does panem have diplomatic relations with other countries, if there's other countries?? mockingjays are important in D12, but are there animals who are important in other districts??? how many things of the old usa was left, and what other cultural heritage was also left from other places, as the usa is a country multicultural and diverse??? the choice she made of showing us in tbosas that D2 have a funeral tradition pretty much related to some form of religious manifestation (the idea of crumbling bread over someone dead's body for their afterlife journey) drives me INSANE because 1. I'm an overthinker, and 2. there's so many fun possibilities because these districts clearly have different cultures and habits and maybe even celebrations!!! I really hope one day she makes a guide or something about it, because I would eat it up

#tbosas #tbosas movie #sejanus plinth #strabo plinth #ma plinth #anon #anon ask #rambling #me talking too much #now I'm going to sleep but all of these stuff live rent free in my head #suzanne collins I wish for you to know that I would PAY for a first quarter quell book #and I would pay for an encyclopedia about panem and district history

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joshfuckingkiszka · 2 years

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『stranger things have happened - 10 - groupie love』

I have literally been lying to y'all about this chapter for MONTHS, and I am SO sorry. but here she is, all finished and the end of an era. I hope y’all like this as much as I do. and thank you guys for all the love on this series, I couldn’t have done it without y’all.

THIS SERIES IS 18+ MINORS DNI

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chapter warnings: being absolutely horny for josh, explicit sexual content, choking, unprotected sex, kinda angsty in the beginning but nothing too serious

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You felt dumb, out of place. The only thing you could compare it to was that pair of shoes that sat in the back of your closet, unworn because you swore you could piece together an outfit eventually. That never happened, though, because they never looked right with anything.

That feeling, those shoes, really resonated with you as you sat in the green room of the venue. Jita, Hannah, and Kenzi looked so in their element, and you felt like you were going to throw up. Maybe it was because this solidified it, your relationship with Josh. It was going on a month, at this point, but you felt like this was the glue. That was overdramatic, even you can admit, but you couldn’t help it.

The guys were waiting sidestage, for their cue. Josh had kissed you tenderly before he was called out to his position. Waiting was the hardest part, you truly believed. You waited for him to finish getting ready, waited for him to be called, and then you were waiting to hear his sweet voice come through the microphone. It scared you a bit when it finally happened, your heart practically beating through your shirt. Jita suddenly pulled your arm and the four of you ran to seats that had been reserved specifically for you.

It had been years since you’d been to a concert. With having no money, no car, and a shit ton of responsibilities, it had been completely out of the question. For the last month, Josh had been practically begging you to quit your job, even going as far as offering to pay your rent. As good as that sounded, being able to focus on school and Josh - and it did sound good - it wasn’t like you to depend on someone. Josh, as much as he hated seeing how stressed you were, understood, especially after the whole situation with your mother.

Hearing Josh sing live was unreal, hearing the whole band was another level of joy. The crowd singing back to him, his interactions with fans, the way he spoke on stage, it all melted any nerves you’d had. Even more, if you hadn’t seen it, you would have definitely been able to feel Josh’s gaze on you every time he sang that special little word that still twisted your insides - in a good way, this time. Mama. It still brought a flush of heat to your entire body and truly made you desperate for him, wishing the concert would end.

Instant gratification was never really in your cards, though, was it? After the guys said their final goodbyes to the crowd, and Josh was finally back in your arms - or really, you were back in his, tightly embraced - Sam giddily proposed going to a local bar.

“Just don’t throw up this time, Bee!” Your middle finger went up in the youngest Kiszka’s direction and he laughed.

“If I do, it’ll be on you.”

“If I remember correctly, it was on me,” he recalled playfully.

The bar was loud and colorful, and not really where you wanted to be right now, in all honesty. In the month since you and Josh had officially been together, you’d learned a lot about him: of the probably hundreds of records he owned, only three ever really made it onto the player, if the two of you cooked together, he forewent helping in favor of holding onto you while you did all the work, and, most importantly in the current context, he danced just as loudly as he sung. Josh’s hands held a tight grip on your hips when he wasn’t spinning you around at random intervals. Laughter naturally tumbled from his lips and you felt truly honored to be in the presence of what you considered the purest being on the planet.

And as honorable as it was, you would have rather had him in your bed, with more sinful noises falling from those beautiful lips. The darker his eyes got, the more you knew he felt the same. You, however, were feeling a bit more patient now, and planned on dragging out the thick tension.

Leaning in closely and cupping his ear, you made sure he could hear you say, “Gonna get a drink.”

As you turned, you allowed your nails to lightly scrape his neck, and you felt him shiver under the remnants of your touch. You didn’t even want another drink, didn’t want any more alcohol in your system. You wanted to be able to truly enjoy the next portion of your night. However, the gears were already in motion, and out of the corner of your eye, you could see Josh watching you closely. So, out of pure convenience, you ordered a vodka cranberry, telling her to go easy on the vodka.

Being so focused on the curly haired man out of your view, you hadn’t noticed someone taking the seat next to you.

“Greta fan?” It took you a second to realize that you were wearing one of Josh’s old shirts with the band's name on it.

“Oh, yeah, ha. You too?” This wasn’t part of the plan, and that upset you severely, but you weren’t going to be rude either.

The man beside you shrugged, “You could say that.”

You laughed briefly, confused. “What does that mean?”

“I actually know the band.” He was trying so hard to make it seem casual, and like he wasn’t boasting that it showed every flaw in this unceremoniously constructed lie.

You had to settle the laughter in your belly, putting on your best excited smile. “Really?! How?”

“Oh, you know.”

“No, I really don’t.”

He took it upon himself to twirl a piece of your hair between his fingers. “I met them at a bar here in Nashville, we just…clicked, I guess. Now we’re like brothers.” How ironic, that was your exact scenario, except yours was actually true.

“I’m really into the lead singer. Think you could introduce me?” He choked on his drink. Clearly expecting you to fall to his feet at the idea of him knowing your favorite band personally, he hadn’t been expecting a request.

He laughed nervously, “I-I don’t know, he’s pretty busy. They’re actually in the mountains right now, writing music.”

“Aw, really? That sucks. Here, let me introduce you to my friend.” He became giddy at that, expecting you to beckon another woman.

Instead, you turned to your boyfriend. You had expected him to be absolutely scathing with anger. Rather, he looked…intrigued. You could only assume he had heard bits of the conversation. You beckoned him with a crook of your head.

When he arrived at your side, arm wrapped tightly around your waist, the man in front of you paled.

“Joshy, this is…”

“Paul,” he answered meekly.

“This is Paul. He knows Greta Van Fleet personally. They’re like brothers. Unfortunately, he can’t introduce us because they’re writing music in the mountains.”

Josh laughed, his hand giving Paul’s arm a light pat. “Well, it’s good to meet you, brother. But, word of advice, if you’re going to lie about knowing a band, maybe pick one that lives in a different city. Now, if you’ll excuse us, my girlfriend and I have to get home.”

Paul nodded lightly, avoiding eye contact with either of you.

The car ride was comfortably silent, until you decided to speak up. “It was hot, watching you be all possessive. I think you should be less subtle next time.”

His eyes moved to you for only a second. “Does my pretty girl want me to get all jealous?”

“Maybe a bit. Make them know I’m yours.”

Josh groaned quietly from the driver’s seat. “Fuck, mama, stop talking like that or we’re not gonna make it home.”

You leaned as close as you could to him with the restraint of the seatbelt. “Are you saying you don’t wanna fuck me on the side of the road, make the windows fog up? You don’t want everyone to know what we’re doing, how good you make me feel?”

“What happened to that sweet girl who was so willing to have my fingers in her mouth?”

Taking his right hand from its place on the console and sucking his pointer finger in your mouth, you told him, “You ate her out on her kitchen counter.” To make your point, you graciously rubbed your palm over his growing erection.

Sucking in a sharp breath through his teeth, he nearly glared at you. “Do I fuck you too well, is that it?”

“Precisely, Joshy. You fuck me so well, it’s all I can think about. Whenever I’m at work, all I can think of is the next time I’ll have your cock inside me, filling me up.”

“You just wanna be my little whore? Just exist for me to fuck?” He forced his fingers out of your mouth, finding a hold on your nearly-bare thigh, only covered by large-hole fishnets.

Smiling wryly, you responded, “Wanna be your groupie, Joshy.” A curt laugh escaped his mouth, however, he was anything but amused.

He warned, “Keep goin’, mama, see what it gets you.”

Keeping silent, if for only a second, seemed to satiate him. He was under the impression that you would be so good for him. Well, you would hate to break it to him, but he was wrong.

Josh’s eyes were trained on the road, his speed steady as he wasn’t rushing to get you anywhere. He knew you were so willing to wait for him. He had even gone so far as to zone out, the lulling music in his ears and the ever-steady stream of streetlights pulling him into his thoughts. The song had changed, he knew that much, but when Josh really began to tune in, he realized this was not any music that was in his vast streaming library. No, the sweet whines and soft moans coming from your mouth was music he thought only he could make out of you.

His eyes gazed at you, only to find your shorts pulled down to your thighs and your fingers slowly but firmly pressing into your clit.

“You couldn’t even be bothered to take your panties off, huh, mama?” His jaw was tightly clenched, but you knew he was anything but angry.

A long sigh escaped you, and you responded, “Wanted it so bad, Joshy.”

You could feel the acceleration of the car, and were fully pleased that you had finally given him a reason to take you home.

After a few seconds, you saw the familiar exterior of his house and hastily pulled your shorts up, forgoing the zipper and buttons.

It was a recognizable routine. Josh stepped out of the driver's side and walked slowly to your door, opening it for you like the gentleman he was. Except, when you stepped out and closed your door, he was pushing you into the car, hot kisses digging into the column of your throat. His hands slipped under your shirt, only to grip your hips tightly. A heavy sigh escaped your lips and you felt a sudden pressure restricting your airflow.

“Don’t wanna hear anything from you, baby.” His tone was so sweet and demanding all in one. You nodded and he gave a light squeeze before - much to your dismay - releasing his grip.

Josh’s hand soon found your wrist, and you allowed him to pull you towards the bedroom. He pulled you in for another heated kiss as he backed you up closer to the bed, before pushing you onto the mattress. You let out a soft hmph before beginning to reach for your shirt. He stopped you before you could get it over your bra.

“I said to be quiet.” His eyes bore into yours in a way that told you he was deadly serious.

“I’m s-” he grabbed your jaw harshly, cutting off whatever pathetic apology you were about to spew.

“Shut up,” he whispered. You were so warm, everywhere, and his body pressed so close to yours wasn’t helping.

Before you could blink, you were turned over and you felt his hands on your ankles, pulling you down so that your waist was on the edge of the bed.

“Count for me, mama.” His hand came down harshly on your ass.

You managed to stutter out a ‘one’ and then you felt the same heat of a blow on your other ass cheek. When you let out a moan, his next hit was harder, but still pleasurable.

“Something tells me you like this,” he started, “maybe I should just leave then.”

You panicked, begging, “No, no, please, Joshy. I’ll count, I’ll be so good for you.”

He quickly turned you back over and you finally got to look back into those deep brown eyes. Josh smiled at you, he could only stay in that domineering persona for so long.

“You are being so good for me, angel. I think you deserve a reward.”

When he began leaving a trail of kisses down your stomach, moving slowly towards your heat, you stopped him.

“What’s wrong?”

“N-nothing, I just really need you to fuck me.” You were so wet you hoped you were ruining his sheets. Although, you figured that would happen either way.

“If that’s what my baby wants,” he trailed off, kissing you and then taking off his own pants.

When you went to remove your shirt once more, your shorts and fishnets already having been discarded on the floor, he stopped you again.

“Want you to leave it on.” It was kinda hot, the thought of having him fuck you with his band’s logo visible on the garment.

You nodded and he kissed you again before pushing into you. The two of you moaned at the feeling, it always felt so, so good. He pulled at the bottom of the shirt, pulling you up to him. Wrapping your legs around his waist, and your arms around his neck, you clung to him tightly.

“Joshy.” You gripped his arm lightly, and he took your signal, moving his hand around your throat. The light pressure, along with the sensation of his cock pressing into that one spot, had you seeing stars. He pulled you in by your throat, lips clashing in a fiery blaze of passion and lust.

The two of you came together, but he promised he was anything but done with you for the night. As he kissed you gently before rushing to the bathroom to grab a cloth to clean you up, you thought back to how it all began. How apprehensive he was around you, bordering on straight up mean. He sang love songs in a funny tune that made you laugh at him, and you wondered how you couldn’t have known just how perfect he was. How did you get so lucky? But, hey, stranger things have happened.

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suiana · 9 months

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So to give to a little context first. I have a friend whom I met from my old online school. We have a enemies dynamic. We've each other for 2 years now. When we first met I was the one who talked the most, which he used to see as "annoying". Ever since I left the online school and became busy with my new irl school, I started messaging him less and when I do, he acts more and more nicer and chill than before. To the point he stared flirting with me but I always brushed it off as I also flirt with everybody. Did I forget to mention we are the complete opposite of each other. He's extremely introverted online while I'm literally just putting out my phone number for everyone to see. Irl tho I'm introverted and scared of people unlike him who suddenly has the ultimate rizz and getting into fights with other boys.

One time he messaged me while putting on his just as he got out if the shower. Lemme tell you I was dense af back then. He literally asked for shampoo recommendations. I didn't know anything about men's hygiene so I told him to use a flower scented shampoo. He left for 15mins which I thought was because he was drying his hair. No he was running to the store. He asked for which shampoo brand I use. I didn't want him to know that much about me so I said any sakura scented one.

Another time was when we were talking about a game we like and he thought about cosplaying the character I liked and I thought of it as just some teasing between friends and went along with it by saying I prefer the female characters.

I'm always questioning my sexuality so I'm always joking around that I'm gay and I think that's the reason why he hasn't been straight forward.

He started his own irl school last week and a girl kept looking back and forth at him and when he was about to go home she stopped him saying he could always ask her for help about studies and the school.

And again with a different girl but this time is his deskmate. Apparently every single girl he has met had asked him if he has a gf to which he responded with "not ur business" and I already knew something wasn't right at this point because I have seen his face before and he is mid. Sure ig some girls r into tall boys but he's a freaking emo.

And did I tell you about my suspicion about his deskmate not even being a real girl because the Coincidences if them being neighbors and having way too much in common is too suspicious. Did I also mention "her" personality is completely unreal. She says she's "not like the other girls" and HE him out of all people fricking agreed

And his description of her sounds exactly like me. Short wolfcut, gets mistaken as a boy, kinda tall. Even her behavior is like mine, Just randomly zoning out. And the last thing that completely threw me off guard was her grades. She's the Top of the class. I'm literally part of the student council.

But then I wanted to meet her too if she was comfortable with it but y know what he said.

Idk I can

He thinks I might accidentally hurt her feelings. He has known me for nearly 3 years.

And his response to me was

"Didnt mean it but since she has many mental issues and tried to suicide her self because of got bullied and mocked,i just don't want to makes her feel bad and depressed"

I relate to her so now im always telling him to protect her even if her stories might be worse than mine.

But now that I'm rethinking about it

I think he's lying to me

I heard getting advice from random strangers on the internet is better than getting actual help /j

I actually really like him and I don't have the courage to confront him directly about it

There's a very high chance I'm just being delusional and should continue being some wingman

But I don't have any other friends to tell this and I really need to get it off my chest and get other ppls opinions so I hoped I didn't make too many Grammer mistakes

don't worry about making grammar mistakes it's totally ok

u should subtly try to egg him on for answers

like asking what's Ur ideal type, what would u do if u date me, do u think we'll be more than just friends etc

if he hints that he does like u maybe u can shoot your shot lol haha, and don't be disheartened if he rejects u, there's plenty of fish in the sea :3

imo u probably have a good chance of getting that because he probably likes you ++ no guy I've seen would do such things for someone they just call a friend :)

I hope everything goes well for you bae and all the best

#suiana's sinners

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lydiannettelizabeth · 9 months

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EEHEHEHE CHAINSAW MAN TUESDAY!!! New chapter time!!

Denji is sillygoofy as always (he makes me so ILL get my son OUTTA THERE). I still have beef with that WOMAN who was coming onto denji I don’t remember her name.

This shit scared me!! Got flashbacks to the first katana man fight. Using a real gun would kinda force denji to transform to survive, which he doesn’t really wanna do right now. Glad the gun was fake tho 🙏 gave me a SPOOK

Me every time Yoshida apparate like atp he must be following denji around 😭 leave him ALONE goddamn!

New reaction img just dropped. Also when denji becomes the one saying this you know there’s a fucking PROBLEM!!!

Grown women leave denji ALONE challenge (impossible). First Himeno now THIS! Unreal. I stay a hater.

HE ENJOYED THE FIGHT!! I really hope Denji wisens up and realizes he enjoys being chainsaw man soon, or like tells Yoshida to leave him alone and let him do what he wants. Chainsaw man is a part of him, and a part of his life. No one is normal, and “normal” for denji means fighting and killing devils as chainsaw man.

YIPPEE ASA TIME!! I love her so much it’s unreal. She’s so ill. Watching herself on the news, then saying she hates it because it’s too “invasive.” Then smiling at seeing herself on the news 😭. As always she’s my contradictory queen who doesn’t know what she wants! Also her and Yoru were very silly this chapter, always bickering. Their little “we’re doing this to save/kill chainsaw man” made me chuckle. I love them so much my skrunkles I wanna shrink them up and put them in my pocket.

Denji isn’t as big a fan of Asa as me 😭 she’s taking all his hoes!! I think it’s also a general distaste of the chainsaw man church, because yeah like what the hell. Imagine being a teenager who is also chainsaws sometimes and people making a church for YOU except you’re not a part of it and also it makes people like you less anyways. Insane.

he’s so real he’s so silly he’s so TIRED. My son he needs a nap. I can tell as part 2 continues denji is just so exhausted compared to part 1, he seems to enjoy his life less and less. I think it’s in part everything that happened in part 1 (he misses his family :() and everything happening now, he has new responsibilities and is still trying to please other people, as much as he tries not to. Seeing him actually enjoy his fight last chapter made me happy, I hope he gets more moments to really enjoy living as himself soon, no matter how decidedly NOT normal his life ends up being.

RETURN OF THE KING!! Not rly he was in like 2 chapters. It makes sense denji doesn’t recognize/remember him since he wasn’t really himself when they fought, iirc. I do wonder what he’s up to since, last we saw him, he was completely under makima’s control. It’s nice to see minor characters like him return from part 1, though I worry for his intentions. ALSO if he can come back. Maybe. Maybe reze can too. Maybe quanxi can too. (COPING). I hope for once this new person actually wants to help denji.

Also YIPPEE only a one week wait this time! I love you chainsaw man Tuesdays.

#chainsaw man part two #csm part 2 #csm part 2 spoilers #csm chapter 138 #chainsaw man spoilers #csm spoilers

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thatsatricky1 · 1 month

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Ahhhhhh I love the newest update of Abandoned!!! It’s so so so good❣️😖

I feel so bad for y/n even tho I don’t know half of what she’s gone through but you know I can guess🥲💔 I thought it was beautiful how you wrote the fact that her touching Haechan with her pointer finger grounded him despite the fact that she’s like passive aggressive and such. Idk that was so nice to read and I felt his desperation while reading when he was trying to multiple time hold her wrist, not only to probably ground himself but a part of me wonders if he was hoping that his touch would bring the old y/n back🥺😭

Also Jisung😭😭😭 ofc it’s gonna be sweet precious Jisung who gets her to falter a bit with his question about the beach🥺 he’s probably thought of that a lot and I’m wondering if she had said no if he would have offered to take her to the beach. But oh my heart when he continued to ask her about it and she kinda reminisce about how it was the first time at the beach🥹🥹🥹

Also I love the fact that you wrote that Mark didn’t move when he talked to her because he was scared she’d flee like she was a scared and wounded animal who could do who knows what if provoked wrong. I liked that detail it gave a lot of insight to the situation because I do think he probably was right. Y/n was there visiting them on her terms and conditions and breaking them even if they don’t know what they are would probably get her to leave again, earlier than what they would have wanted to.

Also I love love love the fact that she goes to the cafe again! I think y/n needs some positivity and people who like her without knowing all about her and her past🥺 like I think Yunho might be the kind of person she needs right now, not to perhaps get together with but just have someone who gets so unbelievably happy seeing you, who wants to know more about you and enjoy spending time with you. It saddens me that she’s thinking of leaving again cuz I think Yunho and Atiny cafe might be a little silver lining for her if she choose to stay🥺😭

Also y/n, my girl please notice the frost on your window!!! What if the facility finds you😭😖 like im so worried it might happen (even tho i love angst and drama lol)! Oh and im curious what color she’ll dye her hair too after she’s done bleaching it🤔🤔

Anyway!! Great chapter!!! Truly so good, your writing is inspiring and I love where the story is going so far!🥰🥰 -🌻 anon

Thank you!

Don’t worry you’ll slowly start to be introduced to her and the boys background, plus I’ll be posting profiles of them that will give you all a bit more context on the facility and well Y/n and the boys. I picked Donghyuck in this scene for a few reasons that’ll become a bit more obvious soon. Your thoughts are on the right track though with him.

Yes, sweet Jisungie was the one to blurt out something he knew she’d longed for, the two of them having talked about the beach back in the facility all the time. He’d thought about it a lot the last two years, in a way morning the thought of her not being able to get to see the beach liked they’d planned. It was something Y/n had faltered on because of how precious the memories had once been for the two of them, and how unreal it felt for her the day she made it to the beach.

Exactlyyyyy Mark having this internal panic of not wanting to say the wrong thing and cause her to flee yet at the same time had so much he wanted to say, knowing that the boys were also in similar situations. Yet at the same time having to reel it in and make sure the time she was in the apartment could last hoping somehow she’d change her mind on what she thought of them.

I debated on bringing back the cafe, really wanting that for Y/n as you’re right its a comfortable and slight safe space for her to be able to breath and enjoy the company of others who don’t know her past and what she’s been through. That people can converse and treat her like any other person. Yuhno being a big comfort spot for her even if she doesn’t realise it. She’d gone to the cafe without much in chapter three subconsciously needing that time at the cafe. I do plan to be giving Yunho more time in this fic so don’t worry about him disappearing from the story.

Ah yes the frosted window hmmm, interesting. Glad you picked up on it. Hehehe.

Thank you for the message it was great to read and made my day yet again! Have a great day 🌻 anon. I’ll see you whenever you pop in or on the profile/on the next chapter update.

#🌻 anon #🌻#inbox anon #inbox messages #inbox open #sweet inbox messages

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cinnamonwolfy · 10 months

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modern gui development...

this is a bit of an opinion post, so please keep that in mind :3

so, i logged back into twitter to see what i had missed (i don't post anything there anymore, and the times i do, it's just to link my tumblr x3), and i saw that the epic games launcher was an unreal engine application... the fact that somebody thought that was a good idea scares me, especially since electron is right there.

anyways, it got me thinking about how unnecessarily bloated and inefficient all of these cross-platform, non-native solutions were. chromium embedded framework is just chromium, but now there's no tabs. electron is just cef, but it's now bundled with a node.js runtime. these are all full copies of chromium modified to not let you use tabs, the core of them remains unmodified. this means that a bunch of rendering cruft is left behind, making them have to do unnecessary checks in the parser and renderer (nobody uses the marquee tag anymore, especially professionally made applications, and yet there's still support for it in chrome).

there's a lot of legacy cruft which is necessary for a browser, but not for a native application. these repackaged web apps were already inefficient since they were basically being put through a gigantic interpreter, but the interpreter itself is also very inefficient, which ends up in apps absolutely choking on older devices ("just upgrade", try telling that to the 14-year-old in a poor neighborhood in colombia that wants to run discord so that he can learn how to write mods for his pirated copy of gta san andreas that runs on a secondhand core 2 duo laptop he got from his parents after they upgraded to a first gen core i3 laptop. yes, i know this person irl, they're one of my cousins).

while i personally believe that you should do your best to make native applications instead of these webapp repackages, i understand why they're done (to put it short: capitalism). i just think that these projects should put more effort into making them less resource intensive. the rendering engine should be paired down to only support html5, v8 should be replaced with ruby and all javascript should be transpiled into ruby (javascript is not a good language for any of this anyway).

i consider this more of a temporary fix rather than the actual solution. the actual solution would be to make a good gui toolkit that is cross-platform, but also manages to look good and doesn't make it so that your computer has a heart attack every single time you run any application that uses it. however, that is very difficult, especially when windows is involved (win32 murders any and all codebases that touch it). while i plan to fix the issues the linux gui space has with pltk, pltk will never get an officially supported release to windows, so it won't ever truly be cross-platform.

this one was quite the long post, but i mean, that's kinda what tumblr is for x3

#gui programming #opinion post #cinnamonwolfy #pl32 #programming #this is my opinion as an embedded software developer #i may have gotten things wrong here

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outsiders-apo · 4 months

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Hello! Call me Purple Voice! I have been here a while, but never spoken before so, uh, sorry if this gets a bit rambly, I just want to get some of my thoughts out there.

Uh, so, Glitched Text Owen, Gto, and Normal Text Owen, Nto, seem to be almost entirely separate entities a lot of the time. I don't know how obvious it is on your end of things but I have seen Nto and Gto give contradictory answers to questions with no knowledge or acknowledgment of the other speaking, seen voices have conversations with Gto while Nto is increasingly confused and both doesn't seem aware of Gto speaking or have the knowledge Gto has on the topic, and also seen Gto and Nto start quite literally arguing/fighting with each other when they do notice the other.

It only seems to be when one or both gets upset, usually scared or angry, that the lines seem to blur more between them. And then when they calm down and separate more again it leaves Nto questioning what he did, why he did it, and being utterly terrified of himself.

I hope that me throwing out a bit of what it looks like from my end of things helps somehow. -Purple Voice

(Sorry if this is way off base or something. This is my first ever time interacting with an ask blog or people online in general, and my brainrot is unreal.)

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Hey, Purple Voice! No worries, man- I think we're all kinda fucked up right now, what with the whole... yeah.

You think that Owen is, like- two people? I... huh. Yeah, I dunno what 'glitched text' means, but when Owen gets static-y he does tend to... be different, I guess.

So you think that Static Owen and Normal Owen- yeah. I have noticed that. I think you might be right, at least to some extent. He does...

And I don't know if you can see it on your end, but when his voice is static-y, he doesn't... talk the same? His eyes go all blank and stuff and he doesn't move his mouth, really? It just opens and the words come out, without him forming them with his actual mouth. It's confusing.

Yeah, I don't think... I don't think that Owen really wants to hurt me, or anything- or at least I hope so. It would be a shame if that were to happen again... all this work for nothing. We'd have to go and do another fucking repeat.

Yeah, this helped a ton, Purple Voice. Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts! This was... really enlightening for me. Thank you.

dude genuinely no worries, this was a SICK ask!!! definitely definitely not off base or weird. i had so much fun answering your ask rarararararah!!! no pressure but i definitely wouldn't mind seeing more from you in the future :3c

-admin felix (the only one)

#apokuna roleplay #outsiders smp roleplay #voices #purple voice #main storyline

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thequietkid-moonie · 5 months

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hi moonie <3

can i ask for the legend of zelda for the ask game? (specifically interested in your skyward sword opinions, but all of tloz is fine :D )

Wuuuuu hello V-chaaaan!! Thanks for asking! I had a lot of fun remembering all those things!

I went full fan mood and may have some spolier ✌🏼

under the cut because is reaaaaally long

Top Three Fandom Ask Game

3 male characters I love:

The Hero's Spirit from Twilight Princess (i love the whole contexto with him and his role in the game, besides his desing is amazing ✨), Ganondorf from Wind Waker (i know he is actually the same from Ocarina but the argument he has on that game and his reasoning is amazing!) and Link from Skyward Sword (this game has a special place on my heart and I just think this Link is reaaaaaally cute and, also, he fight for the loves of his life and that goes directly to my heart 👉🏼👈🏼❤️)

Also, from Skyward I also love Demise! The imprisioned!!! I just love the fact that is a creature of pure malice 🤭

3 female characters I love:

Fi from Skyward Sword (without a doubt, I love the idea of her helping the hero in all the games even when we didn't know, I just love her so much, the goodbyes and her theme still makes me cry, when we heard her in botw makes me sooo happy, i haven't seen totk but I had saw what happened to the master sword and im kinda scare haha) Urbosa from Breath of the Wild and Sheik from Ocarina of time (i know Sheik and Zelda is the same but when she desguised as Sheik she is amazing!! Also, I just have a thing for stronge woman, hehe, besides they are amazing characters!!)

3 romantic ships I love:

This was dificult to think because i normally don't ship but I have some that i actually like! Link and Marin from Link's awakening (the are so cute together!! I just can't with my heart!! 🥺), Link and Zelda from Skyward Sword (they are practically canon but still)

Aside from that i don't ship much characters, sorry

3 favorite platonic dynamics I love:

Hope I understood this question right hehe

The skullkid, Tatl and Tael from Majora's Mask (i just like the fact they are kids being kids, u know?), Fi with Link (and with that little android that fell in love with her, do you remember it? I couldn't be mad at him because i find it incredibly adorable and funny!! 😭) from Skyward Sword, also Link with Groose and eventually Zelda from Skyward Sword (i just love how Groose pass from being a silly bully to actually help Link and be worried for both! silly cutie)

3 favorite moments in canon:

The final of Link's Awakening (it breaks my heart but the song is one of my favorites from all times and I absolutely love how the Wind Fish explain what will happen and ask you if you still want to continue with it), every! single! time! Zelda and Link see each other again! In Skyward Sword (it brought me some hope seeing her from the distance just to be crashen when she goes, but that time when she had to seal herself gave me so much determination was so unreal haha), I think i love the memories of Link on Breath of the wild (this game has a reaaaaally good history and I totally loved that we didn't know anything at the start and we go just finding out about our past and the champions slowly, even when don't knowing anything made me extremely anxious haha)

3 favorite headcanons:

That Koholint Island actually existed in Link's Awakening (that would lead to the fact that we killed everyone but I don't like thinking that it was all just a mere dream neither)

That Clock Town didn't exist and everything was made by the Majora's Mask (contrary at the other I love this idea just because the entire world of Majora's Mask game shows the saddness of the Skullkid in some way, it makes me sad but I like that idea)

Haha how contradictory

I have the headcanon that Breath of the wild open another Timeline in the universe of The Legend of Zelda, I dont really know if Nintendo confirmed something about botw and the timeline but for how diferent it is about the hero and triforce and all of those things make me thing that they took another way to do the things after the fall of the hero in Ocarina of time

3 least favorite things about it:

The trials on the Silent Realm in Skyward Sword (omfg I don't even know how I didn't to manage to complete those trials, specially with how bad I am at videogames!! I fucking hated every second of the trials and I just wanted to end, although the guardians are really cool and the place look actually amazing)

Probably the supporting characters, I just don't put much attention to them and normally just focus on the story, I do like some of them but I don't remember all, sorry

That Breath of the wild doesn't followed the usual line (i do love the open world, the champions, the divine beasts, the locations, the final fight, and so on, but when I realiced that there was no heroe or they didn't said much about the triforce I just feel shocked and even bad, it actually took my a while to accept it)

#moonie answer #silly moonie #moonie goes wild #the legend of zelda #tloz

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