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Kat Rant: Gelboys 2
The last 5 minutes of the finale...
🐈: You know what... I've just decided that there is no season 2. I don't care if Looke confirmed it. It's just not happening. Unless it is centering on different characters, it will not exist in this world. Nope. No. Not at all. My babies have been through enough to get to this point. And nobody is going to fuck with their happy ending. It. Will. Not. Exist.
#not today satan#usually here for the pain...#...apparently not this time!#this felt too real#mom mode activated: hard to delight in their tears#we fought too hard for that happy ending#I don't think I can handle any more awkwardly uncomfortable NC scenes with GEN ALPHA#for once so glad to be old#Is eye bleach a thing yet?#or is it brain bleach?#Not as bad as the honey.#We're looking at you Top Form!#I could add another paragraph but I'll just hashtag it instead#Gelboys#gelboys the series#Gelboys2#gelboys 2#thai bl#gmd rambling#gmd kat
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"I can't go back and fix it..."
#4 minutes#4 minutes the series#userfaiza#userrlaura#userrlana#uservix#greattyme#great x tyme#bible wichapas#jes jespipat#usually i despise when it's suddenly revealed that characters used to know each other when they were kids#but here it works because it makes their relationship even more tragic#two people who were perhaps meant to be childhood sweethearts#but in the harsh reality of this show they ended up being bitter almost-enemies/almost-lovers#it's painful bc it's like a cruel joke#bl series#thai bl#mywork
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The Painted Lady stared at Zuko, eyes wild in deep focus, and sank into her knees next to him. Her pale, scarred hand reached out to meet him, but stopped short before making contact. Her voice was soothing and gentle as she asked, “Is that what you truly believe?”
Sometimes, it feels as if Izumi knows Zuko better than anyone else.
For our confidants and spirits (and those who are one and the same) is For the Spirits Chapter VI: Dream of You.
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#prince zuko#zutara au#atla art#atla fanfic#atla fic#the painted lady#painted lady#atla izumi#izumi#Izumi of Jang Hui#for the spirits#Chapter VI: Dream of You#new gods au#spirit touched zuko#zutara fic#zutara fanfiction#atla zuko#zuko fanfic#zuko fanart#zuko art#ponytail zuko#This was simultaneously so fun and so painful to do#Mostly because it's not really my usual style (for example this one has no lineart) but also because it's about 70% background#And we all know how I feel about backgrounds#I wanted to draw this scene so badly so...here it is.
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#own art#own characters#CanisAlbus#art#artists on tumblr#Machete#anthro#sighthound#dogs#canine#animals#sketches#wip#here's a couple of sketches who knows if I ever manage to finish all of these#the weather has been so hot inking is just pain#usually lineart is my favorite part but now I'm repeatedly mucking it up
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redraw of one of my oldest tenrose pieces that i hate with a burning passion<3
#all of my first dw fanarts i posted here were made during an art block i think#they make me so mad and i usually never have that with old art#but those are so wrong. they pain me#doctor who#dw#dw fanart#dr who#doctor who fanart#10th doctor#tenth doctor#tenrose#timepetals#rose tyler#doctor x rose#northernfire art
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Hi, I threw a gradient overlay on the neon green sketch of my in-progress Electra design and I thought it looked neat :)))
#starlight express#electra the electric engine#i usually prefer electra with much stiffer hair but it was being a pain in the ass so i let him have softer hair here#idk it's electra he probably owns many wigs#trainsformers locomotive guys#wip
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so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
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tumblr dotcom i have the UPDATE to this thread of things oh BOYYY !!!

tldr: the "hangout" was basically a blind date UGHHHHH or well the guy treated it like a date !!!! which made me so uncomfortableee
but cliffnotes version of what happened so i dont blab too much here:
we literally have NOTHING in common !! the video games stuff ?? he likes way different games than i !! the art stuff ?? HE SAID HE HASNT BEEN INTO ART SINCE HEWAS A KID
and all the awkward convo stuff aside he didnt have his licence so at the LAST MINUTE he asked if i could give him a ride home & yknow i felt bad so i said SURE why not because he probably doesnt live far away !!!!
guys he lived 30 minutes away IDID NOT KNOW THAT and i didnt get home until an hour AFTER the dinner stuff was overr
& i KNOWW he didnt see this as a "ooh casual friendly hangout" because in the awkward silence of the car he's all "how old are you ?? your 18 ?? you know im 21 right ?? the age gap is okay with you ??" IF ITS "JUST FRIENDS" IT SHOULD BE FINE WHYWOULD THAT BE ASKED ??? guys im going to crash out please save me plea—💥💥💥 /j
so i spent the past night in a incredibly awkward dinner and then driving in pitch black darkness to SUCHH a shady area for an hour and now this guy thinks we have something WHEN IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A FRIENDS THING ???? WHAAA HUHH WHAT ????
wish me luck im dealing with handling this mess tomarrow because i have a headache right now but thats the update if anyone wanted it I DIDNT MEAN TO TURN THIS INTO SOMETHING TO YAP ABOUT ON HERE but oh BOYY enjoy solar lore crumbs i guess !!! :'3

#i wont usually post abt my life stuff here i prommy but atleast i have an interesting story from this despite it being PAIN TO SIT THROUGH#oughhh guys this is what i get for being NICE i need to stop being so nice /j#IM STILL SO ?????2+$+$(#but when i say we have nothing in common to rlly work as EVEN JUST FRIENDS i mean it !!#he'd bring up stuff and ask if i know about xyz game or movie or show and im like ive never heard of that#or if i bring up something HE WOULDNT KNOW OR WOULDN'T LIKE IT#literally not compatible anyways I DONT EVEN WANNA DATE RIGHT NOWW IVE MENTIONED THAT 50 TIMES#oughhh......this is only barely half of it but just ough....#and yet HE WANTS TO GO OUT AGAIN NEXT WEEK buddy......buddy....wHAT 🧍#gonna have a red blog avm crashout guys just watch just wait....../j#( i am just so stressed because LITERALLY AN HR BEFORE SOME IRL FAMILY THING I WONT TALK ABT HAPPENED RIGHT BEFORE THIS#guys.....guys i am having. A TIME. LATELY ദ്ദി´▽`) )#solar speaks
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Decided to take the leap and post the little fanfic I wrote at the start of the month to AO3. The Yiling Laozu takes a break in the burial mounds. Also, there is a worm.
#mdzs#wei wuxian#writing#No obligation to read if you're just here for the silly comics!#They will be back tomorrow!#This was my way of re-engaging with a creative outlet that I put aside for a long while.#and while my style leans into the experimental side - I always find I have the most fun that way.#If you do read - I hope you enjoy it! No issues at all if it is not your cup of tea B*)#This whole blog leans into 'And now - time for something entirely different'! but this is the biggest departure from my usual far thus far.#I have so many thoughts to share about my thought process with this one...alas#I also want to let people have their unbiased thoughts about it. Such is the pain of authourship.
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for @boneburger! (he/him for this character)
uncensored on: twitter | cohost | bluesky
#tt art#commission#boneburger#i don't usually post comms here because they're a pain to censor but the commissioner lives here! gotta
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.... most of you guys are over 18, right?
#no shade to the kids i just. sometimes i wanna post the adult thing i make and idk if i can do that here in my main posting place which is#kinda a pain but whatever. its just gonna feel weird to do if most my audience is kids but its not like i know your ages#afaik im the youngest of my mutuals at least??? idk how good of an indicator that is#telly static#technically second youngest of my irls too but thats because one's little brother joins us sometimes but usually im youngest in the group#by like 5 years
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This is going to be my only post I ever do THIS. It needs to be said (if even only for me). Be warned. (& I'm totally being a little funny & unserious with my words, but I also mean it). but really I just need to be so silly for a moment..
I've been in some fandoms and every fandom goes through this, but...There's no fandom on earth that quite literally walked in with no changes to the picture of the Community meme like the Bridgerton fandom. yayyy! we made history again We are the exact same picture, because it wasn't that bad! I can nearly guarantee you, people noticed the quality change, but it literally wasn't bad like you say! Some of us truly stumbled in here like wtf, and still haven't gotten the answer. Stumbling into Part 1..was stressful, but Part 2 was actual insanity!
like, I honestly don't think some people watched it all the way (i saw something about ppl finishing in 2 hours)! If they even went back, who knows?! But the takes are just literal fables!
I actually think the blind trolls coming back from the dead & thin air for part 1 have deluded some of you into thinking that part 1 was bad (it wasn't; it was good), and as a result made you think that part 2 was worse than it is. I totally respect your differing opinion, but you're wrong!
There are 2 real "issues" with this season and the other stuff is artificial grass.
#1 The lack of happy couple moments that get replaced by boring side plots (part 1 was actually enjoyable to me, but this one I actually almost fell asleep watching Benedict before I was awoken by his bi awakening). But to be frank, it's always been an ensemble, and I find it funny that people forget: People bitched about polin season 2; they bitched about Penelope since season 1.
The fact that they don't get a full episode 8 of being happy in love was criminal (but i will admit my wrong expectation, because this is Bridgerton (what else is there to expect, lol). However they are cute! Naysayers, deny it all you want, but they are literally perfect! They are literally a cute engaged couple, the moms including Lady Danbury cannot help but squeal over them, and the only thing holding them back is that this conflict is seemingly dragged on, BUT it doesn't even go on long! (perhaps it felt that way because there were only 4 in this batch of eps). And I get you can be upset, but stop the bullshit because "WE WERE ROBBED." You are lyyyyinnnnnggggg.
He finds out in 6! Anthony was with her sister for 6 eps ... Simon....avoided her til she had to make the move at the end. If we're including Queen Charlotte, George got the most cohesive story, but we'll chalk that priviledge up to the fact that he got only 6 eps; and also don't lie, the recycle-rinse-repeat episode was boring(!!!!) minus the last scene & the visitation of his trauma (u can disagree w/this, but I was bored the first time watching and didn't ask for the copy & paste same episode).
#2 is the pacing (really the last 1⅓-ish episodes is the problem)- because I wish they made up by the end of 7, which is really more of the same of what I said about them being happier in the final one. However, (which brings me to my point) if they'd shifted him finding out earlier... (again they only had 1 episode prior to do this in (because there was no way it was happening in part 1 even if the 2 part split never existed), ...it could have fixed most likely all of this: if everything was moved up an episode (+ they switched Cressida's reveal + Colin finding out), they'd be fighting in 7 but united for Cressida's lie, then they'd make up by the end, and they wouldn't still be struggling with differences between them in the first part of episode 8 at all, thus there would be the happy couple moments from my point #1.
And I newly realized how this aspect of polin's season arc compares to the others. The conflicts of the other 2 seasons have been more heavily external obstacles preventing them from really getting together, while visiting some internal demons later after the drama; but this season is pretty much just them with internal conflict between them (if not for all of part 1 then for the entirety of part 2! (i personally think that the Debling stuff is less love-trianglry than what they've done in the past & fr he is in 2 eps really and not even fully courting her for majority of it)! Enemies to lovers does have internal conflict between them in the beginning, but it's not something actually between them that's "preventing" them from riding into the sunset (other than fake fighting like they hate each lol i say w/love 4 the characters & E2L). But since Colin and Pen's conflict is actually her (Whistledown) it maybe feels like they are more at odds than what is truly going on under the surface. Because they are established to love each other already unlike the other couples, who you are seeing the journey and getting to the end. While Part 2, you are seeing the unraveling of an established couple even though the love is there and the only important reason you need to get how they can work it out. We won on complexity and realness harder than the people w/bad takes can fathom, they have to make stuff up!
The other (kind of related for some) stuff:
The sex scenes: I get it! They lied (lol)! I hope we get them! But we know why it's lacking; they're deleted scenes; they exist! But the carriage scene - HOT. The mirror - HOT. The 30 second scene (lol) - HOT. But again: K*nthony got 2 spicy scenes their season! S*phne got a montage but it kind of sucked looking back (i'm not seriously hating but you know that it was too much, literally even then i think ppl knew) but plz don't start the ship discourse again & PLZ DO BE LOUD ABOUT THESE SCENES THO, I NEED THEM (lol)
But the love confession.....sssssssss. There were so many!!! *that book one is not good, i'm sorry (i'm being lighthearted here; you can disagree w/it but I do kind of hatttte it!)
"They didn't include..." don't know if you know but the writers make the story. Their story is not the book. You knew what you jumped into. (you can be sad but..) [i am not touching the conversation on Fran. But if we're really being real that side shouldn't wanna be grouped w/the side of The Departeds who are forever the head of online harrassers....by - now causing official pages to disable their comments (you don't have to tell me it wasn't all of you. I know 😔). it's actually kind of funny how I did not know like 95% of the actual discourse those first couple days (and there's a lot of discourse to see). but, anyway my main concern this whole post are my top 2 mcs. [ps the Departeds I meant traveling; i'm not that mean]
The misinterpretation of Colin: if you hate him, then go away! Thnx 4 the record-breaking views!
The baby? Cheers to 2 years in the future w/baby No Name! *lol* I'm not gonna say you shouldn't be upset about the name. For me, it was fine, because I knew they'd be back for s4. Also, preparation guys, I doubt we will even see the child that much if Daphne is any indication.
This show has never been comparable to your favorite Oscar-worthy film (literally obviously!), but the show is not terrible like some very widely popular of what's out there (and i'm not even talking about bad shows that everyone knows are bad). There is some depth to the characters and some ingrained-trauma to living in a male-dominated society with no autonomy, and traumas to the men as well. Re: the choices and drama every season. It's... a drama show! People need to go re-read the fantasy books if they want happy, lack of conflict all the time (and men yanking their wives by the wrists)... Go read fanfic if you don't like the show and a certain couple. Bridgerton is escapism and in some crazy overtaking of loud voices in the fandom, this fandom has been one of the least escap-ist fandoms ever. Because people will be like "*suspending my disbelief*" every 2 secs, but ...babe that's not doing what you just said. There's embellished "Based on a True Story" documentary fans that do this better than you tbh (i'm being a lil funny here, but honestly)
And I simply need to say this, regardless that it won't change, I need the acknowledgment jokes and the mental cleanse. if u don't want to read × The fandom...bro. I'm not even upset, I actually laughed at some of this - like, there's 3 types of people:
#1 offended people responding to op posts, because they don't like what they said; lol, the hypocrisy! The amount of people in my comments in this past month alone if I said something positive...abt the show, abt the characters...anything (new posts, old post) is more hatred than ever ever. The good polin fans are sensitive, but any and every bad typists in the comments are so easily offended...over positivity. Why.are.you.bitter?
"I'm bitter cause.." I literally don't care
#2 people reblogging things they hate to say what they hate. thnx for the notes??? bro, some comments on other ppl's gifs (rants on what they didn't like, crying abt a character/why they hate a character, and sometimes it has nothing to do with the scene gifed).
#3 "I'm allowed to be upset." why are you fighting for this? You can! Go in peace. Some people had no issues with what you say, but you are fighting this because you are determined to make people agree with your negativity no less. If you cared about the courtesy (i know that you don't) you'd let some ppl bask in what they weren't disappointed in & were excited to end the journey with (*and i expect nothing from the haters, but some of this was coming from inside the house lol). The reason you were wrong for this is because YOU WERE WRONG! There are ppl that liked it. You have no control; I get it. dw i'm sure you'll be fine.
Anyway, if anyone even read this far, you rock 4 that. If you got it, we're healing from this dumpster fire together; and if this even made 1 person laugh or feel better, it's worth it. I'm actually good now but it was rough that first stepping into the chaos and I had so many thoughts at first, so i wrote a lot from the initial shock those moments, [and now i'm in the laughing about this bullshit phase] so if u get it u get it (and can maybe have a chuckle) >>> This is literally just your neighborly (if ur nice here) joke!post *we're laughing thru the pain* / w/e to you (if you're not because i need to & this stuff isn't new & that one goes for all divisions of the fandom not just the main contented one of this post)
#tags for your enjoyment >#i had to be petty; it's the principle#welcome to the jungle if ur new here#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#polin#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#penelope bridgerton#update i'm kind of laughing and crying (at the same time) through the pain#becuz i wasn't gonna post any of this rly#i do not expect the ppl i'm talking abt to be kumbaya abt this but the alternative is bad so y not b funny#i'd love to open my asks to talk with you all but i might be stupid to do in this climate#i'm usually so nice#but i need the laugh#ps ps. the departeds i meant traveling! I am not THAT mean#(it just occurred 2 me 😬)#anti kanthony#< it's rly the stans
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actually there is something else I want to say. Bryson Wilshire when I FUCKING get you.
Like, for real. Getting your own 17yo grieving emotionally abused brother hooked on cocaine has got to be top 3 foulest things an AFTG character has ever done and I'm counting all the torture.
Because honest to God why the FUCK did he do that. What did he have to gain? Pocket money?
And then he gets to sit back for forever knowing that no one believes Jeremy's side of the story because Jeremy himself hasn't fully grasped what Bryson did to him. He recounts it to Jean as if Bryson was just being a bad influence, and sure, Jeremy was old enough to know better (that's the whole tragedy of his situation, that he could have made the right choices, and didn't) but it was also the most stressful time of his life and he trusted his brother. What guts me is that if this was just Bryson on a spiral dragging Jeremy down with him, why would he make Jeremy pay for the pills? The pills Bryson had access to for free. And there's a lot of subtext/text pointing to their finances being controlled by Mathilda even back then.
I think that there's something about this specific time frame between Jeremy's rebelious senior year and the scandal at the banquet that hasn't been revealed yet because Jeremy mentions that there's something he's only ever told William about, that he did it recently, and it can't have been that Bryson was his dealer because in their confrontation after the dinner Bryson references that Jeremy did indeed try to blame his addiction on Bryson and failed. I don't know if this could explain Bryson's motivations because right now I'm just inclined to believe that he is The Devil.
This feels like I've just found my absolute weirdest moral line but there's something about this situation I find legitimately unforgivable. And the fact that I can't even wrap my head around why he would fucking do that will drive me insane.
And I knoooow he'll get what's coming to him next book because after his growing vendetta against Jean he's skirting closer and closer to the line of main antagonist rather than just sticking to the Jeremy's Issues plotline and that truly will not end well for him. But I in fact need it to happen literally right now.
#the golden raven spoilers#tgr spoilers#listen Im a pretty reasonable woman. It takes me a lot to make me trully hate characters even antagonists#I usually divvy them up by the ones I find interesting and the ones I find boring#congratulations Bryson you have entered the exclusive list of fictional characters I want dead in real life. WHEN I FUCKING GET YOU#or better yet I dont even want him dead I want him ruined. I want him dropped by the Wilshires bc they cant be associated with a drug deale#I want him expelled from law school. I want for all the privilege that would cushion his fall to be stripped away by divine intervention#I want his entire fuckass family to turn on him like they turned on Jeremy. And THEN I want him dead#im sitting here burning with rage typing this I need to go take a walk this man is not real. He is not real. And yet.#therapy isn't enough I need to get Jeremy a gun#do the right thing Jeremy etc etc#please God take all the pain Jeremy has gone through multiply it by ten and give it to Bryson. amen
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POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw gore#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi suckening#jrwi gabriel#jrwi gabriel montez#LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY#IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags#U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!!#ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down#would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch...#BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made#its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD#perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year#back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker.#like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO#not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine.#i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE#I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony#at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast.#OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE#WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS?#WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U#OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY#TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH.#WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR#UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ#HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?
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I’m seeing too much of this across all channels and I need to write a little something on my humble blog with my humble amount of followers, because how else am I going to get this off my chest.
Some of you need to remember that this whole world we created is pure, fiction. It’s based off fiction and we are building off fiction, forking off in different directions with characters we love.
The canon vs fanon debate is ongoing and quite honestly, mind numbingly pointless and you all consistently contradict and overlap one another with whatever discourse you’re riding that week. You lot wanna argue a point by saying, “these are my hc’s and I can do what I like with them stop taking everything so seriously teeheehehehe” then uno reverse that the next minute by screaming, “that would never happen *insert name* is this or is that” but fuck canon right? Fuck JKR? Or is it more, fuck the parts of canon I don’t like and I’ll take the parts I do so I can shove them down the throats of creators who represent these characters in an opposing light. The amount of posts I’ve seen floating around these sites that are people preaching to their audiences about how dumb they are (unless it’s meant to be satire, I’m not a brainless sensitive lump with no humour bone) for liking certain things, or enjoying certain things, or preferring certain aspects in a character is astounding. Take pause before jumping on your high horse over a fictional character and shaming people for moulding them into what they enjoy. Is this not the beauty of fiction, imagination; the ability to twist and turn over different traits and appearances within our palms and make them into our own little dress up dolls?
Here’s my two cents as a WOLFSTAR artist, not a Marauders— if I want to make Sirius into a teacup and Remus into a sea slug and have him curl up to sleep every night in his bowl, then I’ll do that with fine china detail. If I want to make Sirius someone who refuses to wear nothing but a specific shade of tangerine and Velcro strapped trainers, I will. One day I might throw Moony into a boxing ring and have him be a middleweight champion, stained by the blood of his opponent whilst his wolf is chomping at the bit to come out just before the full moon threatens to take centre stage. If I want to make Sirius 6ft tall and Remus 5ft1, I will. Why not draw an AU of them as the rocks from Everything, Everywhere All At Once? Maybe, they can be something as simple as a boy and a boy who look the way you want them to look, fuck the way you want them to fuck and fall in love and fight, and scream, and cry, and make up a million different ways.
Let’s get more specific as the seal’s broken. Why not make Remus plus sized and give him a beard or a dad’s bod at age 23. Or maybe because he’s lighter haired he doesn’t have dark hair like that and only has a smattering of it across the ugliest of his scars. Consider this— moony with softer hips but fuller sturdy shoulders. Or long, slender limbs with a deceptively hidden strength owing to his wolf, stronger than James though he doesn’t look it. Onto Sirius, try to tell me I’m not going to put him in thigh highs and fem the shit out of him whilst he holds a bat in one hand covered in the blood of someone who tried to disrespect his Moons. Alert the press when someone erases every single one of his tattoos only to replace them with hyperpigmentation. What about giving him a beater’s build and a long thick trail of naval hair that he likes to call his ‘seeker’s delight’. What about a hairless Sirius who has a soft life and likes to make herself pretty for her 6ft 4 boyfriend every weekend when he gets on the train to visit.
How about, I stick with my personal holy take on the boys and present you with a harmless middle ground where Moony is whatever the fuck I want him to be physically, emotionally, or characteristically but always a wet fucking cloth for Sirius. A grape, under a thumb, you could say. And a Sirius, who is too whatever I want him to be physically, emotionally, or characteristically but will always be Moony’s biggest cheerleader.
Stay with me whilst I offer you the brain stretching, risky, taboo thought for you to ponder on: stop trying to please people. Stop absorbing all these takes that pressure you into thinking you’ve got to include every fucking thing that shaves you down and boxes you into their squeaky clean little creator! Indulge in what you like. Make it public, make it known and make it as loud as you want. Feels good on this side of freedom.
Lastly, quick (none of this has been quick) circle back to myself being a Wolfstar artist, not a Marauders one. I will not be shamed into drawing the women in this fandom, I will not try to even out my art with equal parts women and men, in fear of being called misogynistic. I came here for Wolfstar and I stay for them; I get 95% of my muse from them and enjoy drawing these idiots nearly every single day when I can. I’ve a busy life, a job, the luxury of a family that love me and a couple friends I’d like to keep too. If and when I draw, it’s going to be what I want to draw and want to indulge in, not to check off your boxes of inclusion. I am not going to defend my choice of indulgence to you. I am not going to refute women or wlw ships and in fact, eat up stories or art where they’re prominent. Will I have muse or will to do a piece on them? Probably not. If I do, I will and if it’s not done to a standard deemed appropriate enough by the council, well shit I hope I get an honourable mention in one of your hate threads on Twitter.
Grow up. I am the type of person who has a more or less rigid taste on these boys and what I, enjoy representing them like and you runts will run your throats hoarse before I turn an ear. I am not the type of person to see someone who doesn’t like what I prefer and start slamming my keyboard and slap them with a red card. I’ll move on but appreciate the take in silence. Some of you really, come across like you’re stomping your feet in a tantrum, some of you sound like you’ve never been told to shut the fuck up a day in your life and some of you, some of you, really think you’re a messiah.
Fuck your canons, fanons and righteous attitudes towards people who are quite literally, not real. You are not a deity of the Marauders, you are a fucking loser offline just like the rest of us.
#mad you think this place can be schooled into your desires#I’m going to read this over and find six thousand errors#this is why I hate being online#but that’s where the good stuffs at too#a paradox of pain#the emotional intelligence#the intellectual buoyancy in general around here#slim pickings#midday and a migraine is heading straight for me I can tell#what do I tag this#remus#sirius#wolfstar#the usual then#remus lupin#sirius black#marauders era#marauders#atyd#roman you’re rubbing off on me
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I just wanted to update y’all that I have my usual clegan projects in the works, but I had to have a (planned) surgical procedure last week and am in the process of recovering. I’m doing just fine, but I may or may not be active with my writing depending on how I feel day to day.
#right as I was starting the Olympics epilogue too#usually I write late at night after my partner goes to bed#but rn I pop a pain pill and go to bed with him#we out here thriving#love y’all#I also cant use a laptop very well atm
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