#vent lol

[asoftepiloguemylove]

suddenly childhood ended and now i am supposed to know how to live

Franz Wright Entry In An Unknown Hand / Elena Ferrante (tr. Ann Goldstein) Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay (via @luthienne) / Jenny Zhang How It Feels / Anna Kamienska Astonishments / unknown / Gabrielle Bates & Jennifer S. Cheng So We Must Meet Apart / W. Todd Kaneko The Day After / image; SZA Blind / Ethel Cain Dog Days / @darkerthanerebus / pinterest

[delusional-nymph]

[makeminemarvel]

Go fuck!!! Yourself!!!!

[swiftiebookwormlogastellus]

the subtle ache in your heart that comes with knowing that you’re just a person in the eyes of your friends. That you could die tomorrow and they’d only care for a week. That most of them wouldn’t notice until they’d need you and even then they’d just find someone else to use.

The burning pressure behind your eyelids that comes with knowing that you’ve devoted your life to love and yet out of everyone you know, you struggle the most. That the people who couldn’t care less about it have people who love them. That no matter how much you’ve tried you’ve always burned.

the tension in your joints that comes with the want, the need to hold and be held. To feel safe when you’re around people. To have someone hug you without holding a knife to your back.

The simple torture in your mind that comes with knowing that the common denominator is you. That you’re apathetic about the people who care and pathetic about the people who don’t. That you’re too caught up in the memory of friends who crowded around the base of a tree because you’d climbed it and you were crying and they refused to leave until you did. That you’re too caught up in the nostalgia of good morning and good night. That you’re too caught up in the game of life to realize that it’s not a game to win but rather an experiment to enjoy.

that no matter what you do, you’re too damaged to be loved as you are.

[noodelak]

Next time a coworker asks why i seem sad all the time im showing them this

[zootopiathingz]

I spent like 20 minutes at work crying in the bathroom I’m officially an average American employee😍😍😍☺️☺️☺️

[ouraniasvenus]

Know it’s for the better (I’m too weak, too soft, and too sensitive to deal with any of this. Every vein in my body feels like it’s about to pop out and my sadness is so deep that it physically hurts. I can’t close my eyes without being reminded of how my life is falling apart. I try so hard to make everyone happy and yet I fail anyways. I’m horribly stupid. I just want a hug)

[sulfurhotspot]

Ramen noodles

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You yelled,

I cried,

You said you didn’t know why,

I agree,

Y. O. U. D. O. N. T.

[xxkai-the-fryxx]

Ugh, I’m soooo glad that it’s Winter Break. School SUCKS. The only things that’s good about it is my friends, teachers, and the subjects occasionally. The other kids at school are so rude for literally no reason. Kids will GLARE at me in the hallway just for the way I dress or the people I hang around. Don’t even get my STARTED on my physics teacher. She literally misgenders me 10000% of the time and all she does is yap yap yap and make things sound more complicated than how they are. I sometimes hate the fact that I’m practically the top of her class because she will IMMEDIATELY choose me to answer her questions even when my hand isn’t raised BECAUSE I DONT KNOW THE DAMN ANSWER. It’s not even my first ever finals week and I already wanna kms. Kids at school have been taking my already fucked up mental state and amplifying it to a million. I’m literally so close to relapsing that it SUCKS. Anyways, depression is sucky per usual and I’ll probs update laterz. :P

-Kai, Dec 17, 2023

[v3ganhannibal]

Confusion weighs me down. I don't know what time it is. I don't know where I end and the others begin. I don't know what's real and what isn't. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to spend my time. What mark do I want to leave on the world? I don't know how I'm supposed to go through life like this.

[possums-are-awesome]

(VENT/RANT PLEASE DONT READ IF YOU'RE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH VENTS/RANTS)

I wonder why people are the way that they are sometimes. Why can't people just chill out and not cause the other person/people stress.

If I say ONE bad or corny thing almost anywhere, EVERYONE comes for me. (This never happens here, thank god.)

Yeah, so I'm sorta stressed because I think I'm starting to become annoying, weird, and problematic.

Why can't people just chill and not overreact over something?? What if they didn't mean it?? (I don't mean to justify predators or gr00mers in ANY way.)

I'm 14, and I'm still learning abt well..a lot of things! Heck, I still don't know a lot of LGBT things, and I'm still willing to respect people. (just an example)

Also, if I say anything that sounds creepy or uncomfortable, please tell me nicely, at least, I will apologize and most likely try to make up for it.

I'm sorta sensitive, so pls be nice to me :(

-I don't vent a lot but yeah-

[skrimply]

does anybody know if the horrors end soon or what

[the-hazbeens]

Every time I try to get into roleplay again I always feel so god damn out of place. People have already established who they prefer to RP with... Whether it be because I'm late to the fandom, or because people have come from other fandoms and brought preferences with them, I'm usually stuck kinda just floundering for scraps. I'm not going to DROP my rp blogs this time, but I can't help but feel worried that the cycle is just gonna start again... I'm not looking for pity, mind you. I'm just venting. Please feel free to ignore me right now. I'm in a depression spiral lol

[wltcher]

makes me cringe when i remember how at least two of the times i got horribly sunburned as a kid/teen (think ive been sunburned three times) it was through the negligence of my parents in hindsight. like the first time my father put extremely expired sunblock on me which was basically like cooking oil and i got the worst, blistering, skin peeling burn ive ever had from a short time in the pool (and then my family had a good laf and took photos of the lines on my back lol). and then the other time i remember. my arm got sunburned in the car and i told my mother and she was like 'you cant get burned through the window' and then on that same trip she didnt even get/bring/give me sunblock to put on before we went on a boat for like 2-3 hours and i forgot my baseball cap which at least wouldve helped, and i got horribly burned sitting under the sunshade hoping for the best and intermittently putting a shirt over my head. a few minutes on the boat without my hat and i was like shittttt i'm so fucked and my mother was just like ohh well well you shouldn't have forgotten !!!stop complaining youll get a tan!! i would've been asking other passengers if they brought any sunblock if that was my kid, but my mother does not believe in uv. no fucking way as a responsible adult would i ever set foot on a boat on the fucking ocean without sunscreen in my bag. holy shit

[roboreblogs]

oh dear

[page181]

why does nobody see that i’m trying