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ajoblotofjunk · 4 years

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I was going through my first outline for HFoG and wow that is some wild shit. It was so different! For fun I thought I’d share some of it so you can see where it veered dramatically off course.

The first couple of chapters are the same, the first differences really start in March.

March (Yr 1) - Two weeks later in mid-March is first race - Did you declare the oil?/Of course I did, gods, Jaime, I know what I'm doing. /I saw you studying the regs again.; pit stop argument, etc.; Early pit stop, Jaime thinks they're too slow, is watching the racers pacing him, zooms off a bit too soon and Brienne is FURIOUS with him for putting them in danger, they have a huge fight and it's the first time he backs off a little and apologizes. She says 'if you do it again, I'm done.' I promise I won't. 'There has to be trust, Lannister.' 'Jaime's shorter, you know. You'd save a whole syllable. Could be critical in the pit.' She rolls her eyes. 'Fine. Jaime.'; Brienne in response makes Jaime learn how to stop exactly where he needs to; she stands in front, knowing he'll hit her if she doesn't trust him. I'll be the front jack. He makes a comment and she's like “this is serious, Jaime.” He swallows and nods by her use of his name. “Okay then. Let's practice.” He's still wounded from his team betraying him, he doesn't trust them, but he trusts Brienne. (This is all between the preseason and first race)

(Ed. note:That thing about the syllables shows up in the wedding night sex as my own personal shoutout TO MYSELF because I always loved that line and it never made it into the fic in the end and I’m an enormous dork.)

May (Yr 1) – Bronn places dye in Jaime's gloves so when he shakes hands they're blue (but Jaime laughs, he's the happiest he's been in years, he's driving loose and confident and reckless but he's winning for now); Martyn's payment comes due & almost fucks up Brienne (he's on tire duty, he is slow on the pneumatic during a practice and asks for her help and she comes over and he releases it as she's going for it and it almost breaks her wrist. It's obvious he did it purposefully and the crew swarms him, Bronn goes to get Jaime, who comes back FURIOUS and fires him; Arya joins the crew (Willem cleans up his act)

(Ed. note: I forgot Arya was supposed to join in year one. Hah.)

June has most of what ended up being in July, and July has most of what ended up being in June. Then:

August (Yr 1) – Two weeks in he shows up, middle of a hot, lazy summer; they have a great time; he drives the F1, they grow closer

(Ed. note: No sexytimes at all on Tarth. No sexytimes at all until the second year, which is one of the best changes I made.)

September (Yr 1) – Wins a race, shirt off, spray w/champagne; they kiss first time before crash ('for good luck' he says; realized he felt like he always did at the start of a race day, blood pulsing with the need for action and the roar and vibration of the engine under him); BEFORE he loses his hand, he's about ready to have sex with her on top of the car but he's got his celibacy thing and he's like “after the race”) and then he crashes the next day so their first time takes awhile. (He's glad she didn't know what he was like with two hands, he's worried he couldn't compete with that Jaime.); crash happens at Griffin's Roost end of Sept. (he hit Red before that for talking shit about Brienne; does Vargo Hoat cause the crash (Martyn gave him secret access to the info & the building w/Connington's help - oh snap)); she's watching, he takes the corner too fast and then in the second between watching live and turning to the screen, his car is flipping. She sees his car and her brother's car superimposed on each other, when she'd snuck out to see it at the impound after.

(Ed. note: The original reason they don’t get together in the first year was because Jaime had a celibacy vow during the race season that he kept as sort of a ‘good luck’ thing, which I’m super glad I dropped. Not my finest plot device. 😂)

Oct (Yr 1)– Brienne convinces Selwyn to start a team and signs Jaime based on Brienne's belief in him; She ends up driving him fast to get that feeling back. But he's a complete disaster, drinks too much and makes a fool of himself, cruel as a defense mechanism, obsessed w/Brienne but doesn't want to bring her down

(Ed. note: This was a period of time where the Arctic Monkeys’ “Do You Wanna Know” was influencing everything I was writing and I wanted him to be very sweaty and wrecked and this is also a thing I’m glad I dropped. Brynn and I actually talked about this a lot - whether Jaime being cruel to her after they’ve started getting together would be a dealbreaker; at one point he was so mean to her she just left for Tarth and that kickstarted him into wanting to get his act together, but a lot changed and so did that, thankfully)

Nov (Yr 1) – Brienne tells him the news after the World Championship when he's super down on himself and that she will be his race engineer and have Bronn as his chief mechanic because she blames herself for not paying attention (which she doesn't reveal until later); and Pod and Arya and most of the crew; she says no December break, you have to work for it. “Why?” he asks. He starts rehab. They start fixing up Selwyn's F1.

(Ed. note: Oh I forgot she surprised him with the news they were starting a racing team for him. Hah. Wow this version was SO DIFFERENT.)

Dec (Yr 1) – She surprises him by bringing in Arthur Dayne to motivate him; they get FIA to agree that he can have a modified steering wheel. Jaime has conversation with Selwyn – you have more money than you let on. 'I wanted Brienne to have a simple life.' 'Then why did you let her come with me?' 'Because you were the only one who didn't look at her like she was a freak.' Jaime is- OOF.

(Ed. note: I knew I wanted Arthur Dayne to show up, but he was playing a more active mentoring role in this version, and then once I really started getting into Jaime being left hanging alone with the ‘Kingslayer’ stuff, I was pissed at Arthur and realized it wasn’t okay for him to just show up. Heh. Also - that line is actually in the final version of HFoG, so some things do stay!)

Jan (Yr 2) – (they don't have NEARLY as much money as with Lannister Corp – look at this for ideas of how that will play out: https://us.motorsport.com/f1/news/tales-former-f1-chief-mechanic-952404/3045945/)

(Ed. Note: I did end up using a TON of the reading and research that I did throughout the story, even in the final version. Races were especially helpful for me to see the wild things that COULD happen - like Brienne coming in to pit with two flat tires. However, the Evenstar team having a much smaller budget never came in to play as much as I thought when I first started. There were some hints of it - their meager ‘cafe’ in the paddock, only having one wing at the end, not having all the extra parts teams normally would, but that article is actually pretty interesting for other ways the really shoestring budget teams have to cope. The LanCo LST was really helpful for me to get around the reality that having a car that can compete at the top level requires an absurd amount of money.)

Feb (Yr 2) - Oberyn Martell had won instead, his first championship ever, and he had not seemed happy when he took the trophy. Brienne had been touched when he'd dedicated it to Aerys and he'd had the trophy sent to Aerys' family; Rumor hinted they'd melted it down and sent that to Jaime Lannister with a note calling him 'Kingslayer,' but it seemed so medieval and cruel Brienne couldn't believe it.

(Ed. Note: Oh geeze I totally forgot about this subplot! There was a whole thing where the Targaryen’s HAD done that and Jaime held onto the trophy as sort of a self-flagellation and then he ends up throwing it away before he proposes to Brienne. Hah.)

Mar (Yr 2) – how he loses one race: https://www.dw.com/en/f1-sebastian-vettel-loses-his-cool-as-lewis-hamilton-wins-canadian-grand-prix/a-49120669

Apr (Yr 2) – he gets really frustrated and shoves all the tools off the table; “I'm not cleaning that up,” she said and walked out on him.

(Ed. note: Honestly a little sad I never kept this scene in some form. It could have been good.)

Jul (Yr 2) - (He puts the old-school lollipop sign in her hand. You tell me when you're ready.)

(Ed. note: this would have been ~symbolic~ because the lollipop signs were what the pit crew used to use to stop a driver in the pit lane and then released him back on the track, but it would have taken too much to explain and it never felt worth it.)

Aug (Yr 2) – She says he needs the rest; he wants to be with her; they have sex; she admits she's been reluctant she didn't want to curse him and he thought she just wasn't interested though he adored her. He says “you're the best luck I ever had.” They finally get together for good.

(Ed. note: I held onto that “best luck I ever had” line for far, far longer than it deserved. I mean it almost showed up in the actual proposal scene and luck had ceased to be a thematic thing between them.)

Oct (Yr 2) – He shows her the interview from their first week – this moment, and he paused right after her story, when he'd stared at her with what she recognized now as adoration; this, he said, is when I first fell in love with you. (That's how he tells her he loves her.); Bronn gets sick, she has to be Chief Mechanic again, she's terrified about Jaime crashing but she works a couple of races and everything is okay. Bronn comes back.

(Ed. note: So - this was going to be Brienne’s big emotional subplot in addition to the relationship. Her being Chief Mechanic again after she was his mechanic during his crash. That was why I ended up changing everything, because it wasn’t enough.)

Nov (Yr 2) – he wins the World Championship; they get fastest pit time record; they find each other in the crowd, Jaime pushing through the media scrum and other racers and everyone and he sees her tall and blonde and tears in her eyes and they find each other and hug and kiss and he doesn't care.

(Ed. note: He had been the more reticent one which was absurd. So many good changes from this version.)

January (again) - He retires to work with her and Selwyn on Tarth; they start a racing school with a focus on underprivileged and disabled kids, as well as girls; Brienne keeps getting calls to be a mechanic for another team (will she?? No, she loves being home mentoring girls interested in being mechanics)

(Ed. note: The karting school was there from the beginning!! But again I didn’t really understand Brienne in this initial outline, and I’m so glad I spent the time thinking more about her and what she wanted. I think the balance between them really worked to give the story so much more depth.)

#heart full of gasoline #my fic #writing life #behind the scenes #long text post #i really did forget HOW different this early version was #i'm glad i kept all these old notes

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jdoan70 · 4 years

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Mind If I Vent?

Well... It def has been awhile..

How do I start these again? Just by going right into in? Alrighty then lets just right into it...

The year of 2020 has been a crazy year for everyone, From losing friends, family to jobs and homes.. I was fortunate enough to have found a job after being let go at my previous job back in Dec of 19′ so I’ve been keeping myself busy, but of course, can’t work hard n not play hard, Had some really close friends in my life at that time and I believe it was about around Feb or even Mar where I found out some things about a certain friend within the circle of people I was around, Did not sit well w/ me so therefore distancing myself from them, One friend who is closely connected to 5 others was also effected and has distanced as well so the circle got even smaller.. Which is fine, Having a small circle has always been something I am okay with; I actually much prefer it. As the months goes by, I then met the most important in my life today, She is someone who I cherish dearly and adore.. She’s mentally has helped been there for me and somehow manage the save the kid inside me, the joy self I use to once be when I was a kid.. Before I would be very uptight and always serious taking everything to heart and never wanted to be around fun and just as some might say a cranky son of a gun.. Well not today.. I can be the silly me when I was a kid and boy does it feel great to just be yourself and loved for just you and who you are.. The people that has come and left my life in the past were not able to come close to what you have given me.. and I cant thank you enough for just being you.. I stare deeply into your eyes and love you more and more as I stare into those brown eyes of yours.. Let me just pause there cause I could go on and on about what happens when I look into those eyes.

Where were we? Oh yes, My small circle at the time, Soon after spending more time w/ you, I reached out to my small circle I had to see them and hangout w/ them and nothing gets planned.. So then you hit me w/ a plan then we do it! Yes! Then weeks goes by and the small circle didn’t even feel like it was even a circle anymore for me but of course social media now a days you can see what people post/are up to lately and the circle was still a circle.. I just happen to not be part of that circle anymore.. It hurts.. Feeling like you are not part of a circle anymore does some damage on you.. and of course as work goes, The job I was promoted to I was super stoked on so the thought of not being part of the small circle did not effect me as much since I have kept my mind busy.. With the new position comes new problems and stress, on top of all that comes the stress and the verbal/mental abuse.. which yes I do have thick skin but my gawd, It does take a chunk out of you.. On a side note; Few months goes by and we finally move into a nice little apartment together which has been amazing, Bringing in the new year of 2021 w/ you and ready to take on those challenges w/ you..

Ps. Going on the 3rd month of the year and little problems has risen.. Why do I feel as I have created problems for you.. I do not mean to create problems for you, I just want you to be comfortable and happy, I was always told or taught as a kid, The more laughter you bring into a group of people, the loosen they get and they too will laugh and have a great time, So I tried that.. But it seems to backfire once in awhile.. It feels as sometimes I cant even talk or say things and just things comes out.. maybe its true.. maybe I cant say things and they mean well, maybe I have to explain myself.. What do you guys think?.. Wait.. LOL nobody reads my blogs so this is literally me and my thoughts.. If you have made it this far .. Thank you for being a good listener/reader and read my problems and this little update on my life.. I hope you have a great rest of your day, Member to tell those you love that you love them because today is a gift, tmrw is not a promise..

#mythoughts mylife problems vents ventsession ventingtime saturdaymorningthoughts thankyou

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destinyc1020 · 4 years

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It is so crazy they are both single! (Well I assume I know some think Z isn't but I do) like I thought J and Z would make it through Euphoria season two tbh, and I actually didn't see tadia lasting that long once I found out she was still with her ex just a few months before moving in with tom, I hate to say it but I think he was her rebound! But I thought they would be together at least through spidey filming too, I definitely didn't anticipate single t/z for filming makes it more interesting

Yea I can’t really say w/100% certainty of course, because there have been rumors about something going on btwn Z and JDW... I honestly don’t know if they’re dating or not. Right now I’ll just say that there just isn’t enough conclusive evidence yet for me to put my neck out on the line to say that they are lol. With that said, I actually agree with you.... I’m kind of getting “single” vibes from Z right now as well. In fact, she might just be wanting to live the single life for a while. RE: Nadia I honestly didn’t know that Nadia was still with her bf around Feb of this year until very recently. If I had known that from the outset, then I def would have realized that Tom was basically her rebound, and I wouldn’t have felt that they would last for 2 years. There is NO way you are over your ex of 4+ years in just a few months. NO WAY. Even if the breakup was for the best. In fact, now that I think of it, I probably should have known that something was a bit “off”, because everything seemed to happen so FAST -- living together, dating, etc. Almost like Jacdaya and how fast that started lol! 😂 I mean, if Tom really was hurt about those NYC/Jacdaya pics back in Feb (I remember him seeming a bit “off” during the Onward press tour in LA around Valentine’s day 😢), and then had Nadia living with him in early March... I mean, that’s a pretty QUICK turn around. That should have been a sign then that something was up. 👀 I don’t think I thought much of it because I assumed they had probably already been talking to each other/forming a relationship since Dec/Jan, and that she only moved into his house due to covid. 🤷 But now that I know she was (supposedly) still with Stanley as late as Feb, this changes nearly everything. Tbh this whole year has been so crazy imo though, so I honestly don’t know which way is up anymore lol. 😂 This year has been like living in some crazy, weird nightmare hahaha.

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kyluxtrashpit · 5 years

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2019 Fic Recap

So I’ve done this for the past few years and I started doing it at the end of 2019 but never managed to finish it. I think between TROS and IRL and then I got really, really sick, I just haven’t had the chance to do so. But fuck it, I decided to finish it anyway even though it’s now 3 months late lmao. So anyway, a recap of my 2019 fics

Total wordcount: 96 419 words. Which is less than last year, but still not too shabby. I wish I could’ve banged something out to get it over 100k but eh, it just didn’t happen. I definitely have enough wip words and whatnot to get me over that bump, though

Tough Love, 6572 words, posted Jan 17

So this was an experimental one. As you all know, I’m pretty hard on the sub!Kylo/dom!Hux train. But I had a conversation with a friend and it turned into one of those ‘okay, I don’t like x dynamic because of a, b, and c. But is it possible to write x without those and make it into something I like?’ and as it turns out, yes, yes it was. Thus this fic happened and here we are. I still really like it and I have a lot of Feelings on this dynamic vs the one I usually write, but that’s an essay in and of itself lmao. It got some great feedback too, which was cool

Take My Breath Away, 1230 words, posted Feb 7

Ah yes, this one, which was based off a throwaway KOTOR ability but was an excuse for me to write Kylo getting stuffed from both ends with some asphyxiation thrown in. And also extremely rough sex + softer aftercare is a weakness of mine haha, so I just had to do it

Fix You, 1994 words, posted Feb 10

So this was my first piece for Bad Things Happen Bingo, which is an event I’m still planning to finish at some point lmao, and that I’ve had a lot of fun with so far. This fic was another that I tried for a more ‘classic’ feel with, though it’s a lot softer. The uncomfortable intimacy. The ‘feelings are happening but we won’t talk about them’. The shaky trust. All of that good stuff. I had fun with it

Keep Your Enemies Closer, 1657 words, posted Feb 24

Another for BTHB! I just love when Hux wins, okay. And I think this was one of those time periods where Kylo was doing all the winning in fics and I just. Needed something different lmao. Emperor Hux remains one my all time fave ideas and it’s still a shame canon never gave it to us. But I have the power to make it happen, so I did. Plus Kylo in a shock collar is always fun >:)

Indulgence, 17 357 works, completed Apr 19, first posted Mar 28

So! This was a continuation to my experiment from above and really it was just an excuse for lots of smut and pampering lmao. Much as I had thought I had said everything I wanted to say with Tough Love, apparently I had not, and this monstrosity formed. There may be a third, more serious piece to finish off the series this year, but I haven’t decided yet. Although, I have to admit, I’m still surprised how poorly this fic did feedback-wise, especially compared to its predecessor and considering it’s the more popular dynamic these days. Tbh some of my best smut is in this fic imo, but ah well, sometimes people just don’t like things and I suppose I have to accept that, even if I’m really, really proud of that thing

(Okay and the rest are behind a cut for length)

Best Served Bloody, 2666 words, posted Apr 29

Another BTHB and, again, not much deeper to it. Beating up Brendol is always fun though lmao. And when I was writing this, I really wanted Hux to be the one to strike at his father. A lot of pieces have Kylo doing it, which is great, but I wanted to do something a little different. I wanted Hux to have the power to save himself. It was fun to write in that way, as a powerful revenge fantasy

The Best, 6450 words, posted May 12

Ah, now this was a fun one lmao. It was born of a horny crack idea but I can’t do real crack, so it ended up as crack treated seriously. And really, I just wanted an excuse to have Kylo sucking dick. A lot of dick. All the dicks he can find lmao. Slutty Kylo fic remains my favourite pwp, so I gotta contribute to the cause, you know. It was a delight to write, though challenging cause it kept turning me on LMAO. Totally worth it though. It was one of the most fun this year for sure

Be My Outlet, 1003 words, posted May 23

There’s not really much of a story behind this one haha. I was horny and I wanted some classic, Not Nice Hux and hatefucking, thus this exists. Plus I miss Kylo getting choked and it’s rare these days to see stuff quite this rough. I also have a bit of a somnophilia thing, which this sort of fits in to. And I’m always a fan of messy, masochist Kylo. So yeah. Idk it’s smut lmao what else could we want? It’s just a short little pwp, but I had a lot of fun with it and it was nice to revisit the classic kylux days

Safe Harbour, 1616 words, posted Jun 13

This one was for kyluxomegaverse week and it was very fun. A/b/o is one of those tropes where I really, really like a lot of it, but there’s also some stuff that’s much less my cup of tea. So I don’t write a lot of it, even though there are aspects of it that I adore. Which this one includes a lot of lmao. I think the nesting is fucking adorable and I wanted to write something soft, so here we are. Plus omega!Kylo is just delightful. Also looking back on it now, this one did really well? Holy shit, I had no idea it was that popular!

With Dignity, 4475 words, posted Jul 1

This was the last for BTHB that I managed last year (and I still intend to finish my card eventually, it’s just been a rough go so far this year lmao). I’m actually very proud of this one because this is the exact sort of angst I love to write. I didn’t intend for it to be as heavy as it ended up being, but when I started looking up the mechanics of force-feeding and reading about the experience of it, the plan changed drastically because holy fuck. I had never thought of it as that much of a torture before. I also enjoy with Hux like, making the reader feel bad for him while also actively reminding them he’s awful and getting that perfect cognitive dissonance. So this was a great excuse to do exactly that. And I love how tough he is even in such circumstances. Despite the heavy subject matter, I had a blast with this one

Greener Grass, 3389 words, posted Jul 14

This one was originally a twitter thread that really got away from me lmao, so I edited it and put it on ao3 because I really liked it. I’ve always liked self-cest as a concept and I thought it’d be interesting for Kylo to interact with a version of himself that made some different choices. One that was happier. And then we see Kylo through Ben’s eyes, see what the dark side has wrought for him. And then, of course, some smut to pull it all together lmao. It was a really fun character study and I had a grand time with it

Subliminal, 5719 words, posted Aug 23

This one! Okay so I’m pretty sure I sent in a couple of khk prompts over the years that were basically this, but no one ever wrote them so I finally did it. I’m honestly surprised hypno kink isn’t actually used more in kylux, considering Hux is canonically in charge of the brainwashing program. So much potential. So I had to write it. I also went down quite a few rabbit holes in researching this (with mixed success lmao) and learned a whole lot about hypno kink in the process. I may have even acquired it as a fetish lmao. But anyway, this one’s a bit darker and it’s fun to write those every once in a while. I think I pulled it off well too

Ashes Among the Stars, 36634 words, posted Dec 1

Ah and my big bang this year! I had a blast with this one although it was quite the challenge. My first fandom was gundam so when I saw this prompt I was very intrigued and ended up getting it. This fic had a lot more world-building than I usually do, which was the primary challenge as I basically had to take aspects from both franchises and sew them together into a new world of its own. I think I did that rather successfully tbh. The plot gave me trouble too but also gave me some of my best eureka moments haha. My partner was also wonderful and made the experience that much better. I know crossovers don’t tend to perform as well, so I was expecting that, though I do wish some more people had given it a chance since I wrote it specifically so that no prior knowledge was needed. But alas, I’m still incredibly proud of it. It’s also my second longest fic ever!

Filthy, 5657 words, posted Dec 9

And here it is, the gangbang fic I’ve always wanted to exist lmao. I had wanted to write this one for a long time, but I could never figure out how to end it, what circumstances would lead to the gangbang. Then a convo with friends gave me the idea and boom, I could finally write it. This fic is just straight up smut and I fucking love it lmao. There needs to be more Kylo gangbang fics tbh

What have I learned?

Last year wasn’t as successful for writing as I’d hoped, given that I wrote less in 2019 than I did in 2018. But also a lot of things happened to me last year. I got a new role at work. My dad had a heart attack (he’s okay though). I had a pretty rough time with my mental health. And then there was the lead up to TROS and the frankly unnecessary amount of stress that caused me. So there was a lot going on and working against me, which is a large part of why I didn’t manage to write as much as I’d hoped I would, and there’s a lot in my folder that I started but just wasn’t able to finish before the end of the year. I worried for a while I was losing interest, but looking back, no, it was definitely the IRL shit lmao. That said, I’m also extremely happy with all of the pieces I did finish, regardless of how well they did. I’m proud of them and I loved writing them, even when it was difficult

One of my goals from last year was to write more, which I didn’t manage, and to get better at answering comments, which I think I did well on for the most part up until post-TROS lmao. I also wanted to do the big bang again (and I was hoping for a reverse, which it was!) and I did. And I also wanted to have fun and keep my confidence with my writing, which I think I was the most successful at. I feel really good about everything I made and I really enjoyed writing them, even if I didn’t manage to finish everything

Goals for 2020?

I think part of the reason I didn’t finish this post in 2019 is because of my TROS breakdown and subsequent stresses associated with it. Because I wasn’t sure what I wanted or what I was going to do. Sometimes I wanted to give up and find a new fandom/ship, other times I was sure I was over it and going to just do whatever the fuck I wanted, and then there was every emotion in between

Now, though, I’m sure I’m going to keep writing here. I haven’t managed much this year yet, but I can feel it coming back to me. I have a post-TROS fic I managed to solve a major problem with the other day. I also have renben as a new ship to excite me. And I still have a lot of wips and BTHB and various others I desperately want to do. Right now, I feel good about my writing and my interest in it is back to normal, which is great. So this year? I’m not going to set a hard goal. I’d love to write more than last year and maybe I will, but it’s okay if I don’t. I’d love to do another big bang this year, but I’m not going to kick myself if I can’t handle it when that time comes. I’d love to finish BTHB, but if it stretches into another year, who cares? My only goal is to just keep writing and keep enjoying it. I want to have fun with it. I want to be happy with whatever pieces I do manage to put out. I want to set aside time to read more fics from others, if I can. And I think all of those will really help with my mental health, which is starting to recover right now, and that’s what’s most important of all

Also thank you all for your patience with me. I know I’ve not been responsive, here or on twitter or to comments, but I am trying my best. It’s been a rough go and I don’t like to whine too much in my fandom spaces. I don’t know when or even if I’ll get back to normal, but I’m trying, and that’s what matters. I love every one of you on here <3

#kylux #I started this back in december #but then shit happened and I just never had a chance to finish it #but I thought about it yesterday and was like fuck it this is happening #but anyway I do love everything I wrote this year #so I'm not going to be sad that there was less of it than I hoped #I'm proud of what I've accomplished #and I'm going to hold onto that and that's all I want from 2020 writing wise: to be happy with what I did #it's not about the volume #it's about my own personal happiness with it #but anyway #my fic #shut up nerd

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luulyme · 5 years

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Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 6,197 - Reviews: 53 - Favs: 401 - Follows: 106 - Published: Jun 27, 2014 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] - Complete

A Marriage Most Convenient reviews

Hermione lost it all when she divorced. Draco would lose it all by age 30 if he didn't marry. Marriage to each other would be perfect, one would even say it was most convenient. Her daughter even looked like him, although, he wondered why that was.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 54 - Words: 183,905 - Reviews: 4502 - Favs: 4,789 - Follows: 1,788 - Updated: May 24, 2010 - Published: Oct 21, 2009 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

A Second Look reviews

By: RiverWriter

Her best friend's life was a mess and she would have done anything to make things better for him and his sons. So, when she found her former enemy in a similar situation her heart went out to him as well... and the beautiful blond baby in his arms didn't hurt his case. It was certainly enough for her to give him a second look.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 30 - Words: 129,960 - Reviews: 2881 - Favs: 3,053 - Follows: 3,898 - Updated: Oct 12, 2019 - Published: May 26, 2018 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P. - Complete

Accidental Proposal reviews

Hermione finds out that she is really a Nott, and there are so many rules to being a Pureblood, too bad Draco Malfoy seems to have forgotten one of the most important rules of all! Hermione/Draco. Theo and Hermione are siblings. Ignores epilogue and off canon in some other places as well. Set in 8th year. Language, Fluff, and Lemons. Complete.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 36 - Words: 108,673 - Reviews: 1788 - Favs: 2,984 - Follows: 2,373 - Updated: Aug 26, 2017 - Published: May 24, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Ginny W., Theodore N. - Complete

After the Battle reviews

By: WaitTilMyFatherHearsAboutThis

The Battle of Hogwarts is over. Not ten minutes ago, Harry Potter defeated Tom Riddle once and for all. As the initial cheering and celebrating dies down, Draco Malfoy and Hermione Granger look at each other from opposite ends of the Great Hall and visibly sag with relief. He's alive.. She survived..

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 50,068 - Reviews: 200 - Favs: 1,341 - Follows: 368 - Updated: Sep 3, 2016 - Published: Sep 2, 2016 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] - Complete

And We All Fall Down reviews

By: Rumaan

The spring term at Hogwarts starts with a bang with the return of Draco Malfoy, back for his eighth year after a stint in Azkaban. But all is not right with Draco and Head Girl Hermione Granger can't help but get involved. EWE

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 30 - Words: 127,964 - Reviews: 1963 - Favs: 3,881 - Follows: 1,451 - Updated: Oct 26, 2012 - Published: Dec 26, 2011 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Apple Pies and Other Amends reviews

Sometimes you're sad. Sometimes you need dessert. And sometimes, it's a little of both. Runner-Up of the Winter 2017 Dramione Fanfiction Awards, "Best Epic-Sized Fic." [COMPLETE, Dramione]

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 30 - Words: 80,182 - Reviews: 736 - Favs: 1,880 - Follows: 613 - Updated: Nov 9, 2016 - Published: Sep 28, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P., Ron W. - Complete

Aurelian reviews

Two years after the war, a young stranger pays a visit to the burrow. His arrival alone is baffling, but the news he brings of an upcoming war turns the world upside down. Hermione's quiet, post-war life will never be the same.

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 43 - Words: 270,577 - Reviews: 3632 - Favs: 6,870 - Follows: 1,956 - Updated: May 15, 2011 - Published: Dec 25, 2010 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P., OC - Complete

Beautiful Things Can Come From The Dark reviews

He finds her, broken and bleeding, and it will change everything. A rape aftermath story told from Draco Malfoy's POV. DHr

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 17 - Words: 135,873 - Reviews: 1010 - Favs: 2,995 - Follows: 1,065 - Updated: Nov 28, 2009 - Published: Jun 7, 2006 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Blood Traitor reviews

Zalia

Draco Malfoy has been living a lie to protect the girl he loves. He has inherited the Veela gene and on his next birthday he will become the first male Veela for three hundred years. Canon (except the epilogue). Multiple other characters, detailed storyline and no patience for people looking for a smut-fest in every chapter. Apparently, my sense of humour can be rather entertaining

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 92 - Words: 186,031 - Reviews: 3134 - Favs: 3,614 - Follows: 3,991 - Updated: Feb 23, 2018 - Published: Mar 1, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] [Harry P., Ginny W.] - Complete

Bond reviews

By: MrBenzedrine

What happens at "Bond" stays at "Bond" -Hermione is taken out for drinks at club "Bond", an establishment that can offer you anything from some alcohol and dancing to SO much more. When she, quite literally, falls into Draco Malfoy's lap, will she open up her mind and explore sexual desires she never knew she had? Kink. COMPLETE **FIRST PLACE: BEST SMUT 2017 Dramione Awards**

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 6 - Words: 51,654 - Reviews: 408 - Favs: 2,975 - Follows: 1,030 - Updated: May 24, 2017 - Published: Aug 3, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Pansy P., Blaise Z. - Complete

Christmas Eve Wine reviews

By: Columbrina

Relationships shatter at Christmas, but they also begin. ONE-SHOT.

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,260 - Reviews: 115 - Favs: 197 - Follows: 57 - Published: Dec 23, 2018 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Chronos Historia reviews

By: In Dreams

Hermione and Draco stumble upon a mysterious portal and find themselves hurtled back through time a thousand years. Forced to team up to find a way home, they quickly realize that much of the history they believed to be fact, wasn't true after all. A founders era, time travel Dramione. Winner of Most Creative Plot in the Granger Enchanted Awards 2018.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 27 - Words: 103,497 - Reviews: 1496 - Favs: 2,060 - Follows: 1,252 - Updated: Apr 8, 2018 - Published: Nov 5, 2017 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] Helena R., Bloody Baron - Complete

Conveniently Forgotten reviews

By: RiverWriter

Draco wakes up in the hospital wing after taking a bludger to the head at quidditch practice and realizes that this just might be the perfect opportunity to finally steal the attention of his fellow Head Student, Hermione Granger. **My entry for the DramioneLove Mini Fest 2018** Prompt: "Who are you?"

Harry Potter - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,570 - Reviews: 75 - Favs: 360 - Follows: 95 - Published: Jun 11, 2018 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] - Complete

Count Your Blessings reviews

By: CJRed

Hermione is nursing a broken heart and planning a Christmas alone. But, when Draco Malfoy decides to crash her solo plans to avoid an arranged engagement, everything changes. One Witch, one Wizard, one Muggle cabin with an old record player, and two jaded souls. Can Christmas work its magic on these two? Long One Shot, written for Wordsmith and Beta's Holiday Aesthetic Fest.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 15,007 - Reviews: 141 - Favs: 1,062 - Follows: 204 - Published: Nov 26, 2017 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] Harry P., Ginny W. - Complete

Eros & Psyche reviews

By: RZZMG

Draco challenges Harry and friends to play EROS & PSYCHE, a scandalous card game with a dark, mysterious history. It's Slyth vs. Gryff, male vs. female, pride vs. desire in the ultimate game of hearts and amour! Pairings: Draco/Hermione,Blaise/Ginny,Ron/Pansy,Seamus/Lavender,Theo/Daphne,Harry/Tracey. AU 7th yr. Secrets, romance, angst, and sex await the turning of the first card...

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 66 - Words: 427,054 - Reviews: 7050 - Favs: 8,008 - Follows: 9,947 - Updated: Jul 25, 2018 - Published: Aug 2, 2010 - Hermione G., Draco M.

Every Day, a Little Death reviews

(Didn’t like the fact that Hermione cheated on Draco- even more OOC thats I like)

By: lovesbitca8

It has become common knowledge that Hermione Granger cannot have an orgasm. Many have tried, none have succeeded. Can Draco Malfoy offer his assistance? / 8th Year AU - Complete

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 11 - Words: 69,214 - Reviews: 738 - Favs: 1,222 - Follows: 1,014 - Updated: Jan 25, 2019 - Published: Jul 4, 2018 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] - Complete

Everything Changes reviews

By: inadaze22

“Thank you for cheating on me, Ron. It’s the best thing you could’ve done. Thank you for stopping me from making the worst mistake of my life.” My first Dramione story. Rated M for strong language and sexual content.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 17 - Words: 76,191 - Reviews: 1100 - Favs: 5,110 - Follows: 1,043 - Updated: Jan 3, 2008 - Published: Dec 11, 2007 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Fairy Stone reviews

By: Colubrina

Draco is sentenced to one year in Azkaban, release contingent upon someone willing to vouch for his good behavior. Hermione does. "Oh, I want you," he said. "You, just you, always you. You forever and you for always and you until the bloody sun explodes." Dramione. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 13,827 - Reviews: 718 - Favs: 2,800 - Follows: 733 - Updated: May 1, 2015 - Published: Apr 25, 2015 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] - Complete

Genesis reviews

By: Nautical Paramour

A series of drabbles to act as a sequel to Oblivion, based on the teased relationship from the epilogue. Exploring Hermione and Draco's relationship, where Voldemort is long dead, Lucius is in Azkaban, and they grow up as friends. Set in the Oblivion Universe. COMPLETE!

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 30 - Words: 34,289 - Reviews: 694 - Favs: 269 - Follows: 333 - Updated: Feb 10 - Published: Sep 19, 2018 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Narcissa M., Regulus B. - Complete

Heavy Lies the Crown reviews

By: luckei1

For seven years, Draco has carried the weight of the world on his shoulders, and just when he thinks he'll be released, something happens that will make him seek help from the last person he could have imagined.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Mystery/Romance - Chapters: 36 - Words: 289,967 - Reviews: 3186 - Favs: 5,679 - Follows: 2,091 - Updated: Feb 11, 2011 - Published: Jan 16, 2009 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

How to Win Friends and Influence People reviews

By: olivieblake

Real heroes never quit. Real villains never die. Dramione with ensemble cast, post-war, espionage AU. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 42 - Words: 403,894 - Reviews: 3511 - Favs: 1,816 - Follows: 1,706 - Updated: Jun 4, 2018 - Published: Jun 15, 2017 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] [Harry P., Theodore N.] - Complete

Hunted reviews

By: Bex-chan

Forced to work together when their old schoolmates start dying, Hermione & Draco must overcome their differences to solve the mysterious deaths. The tension in the office is getting rather...heated. Mature themes. 4years PostHogwarts/War. EWE. DMHG.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Mystery - Chapters: 36 - Words: 191,497 - Reviews: 2845 - Favs: 7,226 - Follows: 1,876 - Updated: Aug 28, 2010 - Published: Mar 29, 2010 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

I Spy reviews

By: gnrkrystle

Hermione is hand picked by Dumbledore to be the Order liaison for Draco when he decides to be a Spy for the Order in their 6th year. Read to find out more.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 31 - Words: 128,676 - Reviews: 1060 - Favs: 2,769 - Follows: 795 - Updated: Nov 6, 2012 - Published: Feb 7, 2011 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Isolation reviews

By: Bex-chan

He can't leave the room. Her room. And it's all the Order's fault. Confined to a small space with only the Mudblood for company, something's going to give. Maybe his sanity. Maybe not. "There," she spat. "Now your Blood's filthy too!" DM/HG. PostHBP.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 48 - Words: 278,881 - Reviews: 16000 - Favs: 26,380 - Follows: 15,171 - Updated: Apr 5, 2014 - Published: Sep 2, 2010 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

It's All Uncharted reviews

By: Bex-chan

"Are you ready?" she asked. Draco brushed the back of his hand against her forehead before tracing it down her cheek. "I was ready the moment you came back into my life, Granger. Are you ready?" "With you," she whispered, "I'm ready for anything."

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 38 - Words: 232,163 - Reviews: 1917 - Favs: 6,116 - Follows: 1,951 - Updated: Jan 22, 2012 - Published: Sep 19, 2011 - [Draco M., Hermione G.] Harry P., Ginny W. - Complete

Jealousy reviews

By: rains rabble

"If I've harmed her?" He seethed, snaking into Harry's space, his voice dropping to a menacing hiss. "She comes to me crying and you have the nerve to question how I've treated her?"

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 23 - Words: 60,392 - Reviews: 1954 - Favs: 4,388 - Follows: 4,002 - Updated: Feb 20, 2018 - Published: May 17, 2005 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Law of Love reviews

By: GraceAbbene

Hermione is living a semi-normal life as a healer after the war. Well as normal as her life could be, until one day she finds out she's not really a Granger. She has a lot to adjust to & then the Minister passes a marriage law! Will she find love in something she was forced into? EDITED AND EPILOGUE

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 24 - Words: 80,304 - Reviews: 818 - Favs: 1,333 - Follows: 768 - Updated: Nov 17, 2014 - Published: Apr 25, 2009 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] [Harry P., Ginny W.] - Complete

Lily Potter's Biggest Secret reviews

By: StrongHermione

Following a moment of passion, Lily Potter finds herself in a difficult position. She does her best to hide it. What happens when seventeen years later, her biggest secret comes to light? A story chronicling the formation of a family. Rated M for swearing and suggestive themes. AU, EWE?, Post War, Mild OOC, Spoilers. Pairings: HG/DM HP/GW SS/OC - COMPLETE

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Family - Chapters: 47 - Words: 454,346 - Reviews: 1373 - Favs: 2,385 - Follows: 1,112 - Updated: Jun 10, 2013 - Published: Jan 25, 2012 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Severus S. - Complete

Love and Forgiveness reviews

By: HarryPGinnyW4eva

After the war and university, Hermione Granger lives in New York City beginning a new life. Draco Malfoy fled his life of misery, fear, and cowardice with Blaise Zabini. Can time and distance lead to forgiveness, and perhaps, love? Post DH Spoilers

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 39 - Words: 177,189 - Reviews: 951 - Favs: 1,144 - Follows: 357 - Updated: Apr 13, 2008 - Published: Jan 3, 2008 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Love and Other Misfortunes reviews

By: SenLinYu

Following the Battle of Hogwarts, Hermione Granger has devoted her career to the rights of magical beings and works reluctantly with the sardonic ministry lobbyist, Draco Malfoy. But there is ancient magic at work in the aftermath of the War and its consequence will be severe if Hermione fails to look up from her legislation and notice it. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 99,603 - Reviews: 738 - Favs: 1,410 - Follows: 909 - Updated: Apr 30, 2018 - Published: Feb 11, 2018 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Love Me Twice reviews

By: Bex-chan

'"They tore her apart and then wiped me out of her mind to send me a message. To mess up my life. To break..." he trailed off. Blaise nodded his head with understanding. "To break your heart," he finished for him.' Dramione. One-shot.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,792 - Reviews: 634 - Favs: 4,041 - Follows: 629 - Published: Jan 4, 2012 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Manacled reviews

By: SenLinYu

Harry Potter is dead. In the aftermath of the war, in order to strengthen the might of the magical world, Voldemort enacts a repopulation effort. Hermione Granger has an Order secret locked away in her mind. She is sent as an enslaved surrogate to the High Reeve, to be bred and monitored until it can be accessed. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Mystery - Chapters: 77 - Words: 384,000 - Reviews: 4892 - Favs: 2,056 - Follows: 2,191 - Updated: Aug 18, 2019 - Published: Apr 27, 2018 - Hermione G., Draco M., Voldemort, Astoria G. - Complete

Mine reviews

By: HufflepuffMommy

Hermione Granger is a single mother. The last thing she needed was to get involved with anyone, especially Draco Malfoy. Love however, has other plans. Rated M for mature themes later on. (Hermione/Draco) (Harry/Ginny)

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 20 - Words: 53,004 - Reviews: 330 - Favs: 1,035 - Follows: 449 - Updated: Nov 20, 2015 - Published: Nov 5, 2015 - Harry P., Hermione G., Draco M., Ginny W. - Complete

Mugglefied reviews

By: DragonGrin - former TeenTypist

"For crimes committed against the wizarding and Muggle world while underage, I hereby sentence you to one year without magic." Draco stood stiffly, his knees locked to help keep him upright. So many spectators. Potter and Granger were there, Weasel-less. His knees finally buckled and he crumpled to the floor in a faint. Chapter 66. COMPLETE. EWE. Dramione.

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 66 - Words: 250,257 - Reviews: 1637 - Favs: 1,300 - Follows: 1,835 - Updated: Feb 7 - Published: Feb 27, 2015 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P., George W. - Complete

The Nietzsche Classes reviews

By: Beringae

The Ministry takes action against the remaining prejudice in the wizarding society and asks Hermione for help. “What do you want? Money? Power? Name your price, Granger. I’m not about to let pride get in my way when an Azkaban sentence is on the line.”

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 45,807 - Reviews: 2241 - Favs: 6,059 - Follows: 1,136 - Updated: Apr 8, 2006 - Published: Oct 2, 2005 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Observations of a Pure Blood Debutant reviews

By: rainsrabble

Narcissa watching Draco watch Hermione. She draws some very startling conclusions. One Shot. Complete.

Harry Potter - Rated: K - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,294 - Reviews: 856 - Favs: 4,023 - Follows: 604 - Published: Jun 26, 2005 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Presque Toujours Pur reviews

By: ShayaLonnie

Bellatrix's torture of Hermione uncovers a long-kept secret. The young witch learns her true origins in a story that shows the beginning and end of the Wizarding wars as Hermione learns about her biological father and the blood magic he dabbled in that will control her future.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 38 - Words: 174,032 - Reviews: 6769 - Favs: 12,291 - Follows: 5,265 - Updated: Oct 27, 2016 - Published: Mar 31, 2015 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Sirius B., Regulus B. - Complete

Protective Custody reviews

By: Colubrina

After the war the Ministry decided that all children and most wives of Death Eaters needed to be placed in 'protective custody' with 'trustworthy citizens' but no one wanted Draco Malfoy. AU. Dramione. COMPLETE

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 3 - Words: 12,334 - Reviews: 490 - Favs: 1,770 - Follows: 347 - Updated: Jan 23, 2015 - Published: Jan 1, 2015 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] - Complete

Rebuilding reviews

By: Colubrina

Hermione Granger returns to Hogwarts to help rebuild the shattered castle the summer after the war. She and the other summer resident - and eventually their friends - have to come to terms with how the war broke more than just the walls of the building. Follows multiple Hogwarts students through '8th year' and one additional year of early adulthood. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 300 - Words: 263,336 - Reviews: 37443 - Favs: 6,146 - Follows: 4,115 - Updated: May 11, 2016 - Published: Aug 10, 2015 - Hermione G., Draco M., Pansy P., Theodore N. - Complete

Rewriting Destiny reviews

By: mayawrites95

They thought after Voldemort's fall that the world would get better. But they were wrong. The Death Eaters are still ruling, using politics instead of hexes. With the dwindling Wizarding population and no one left to fight, they must go back in time to before Voldemort rose to power to fix what broke in the past. Nominated for Best James and Best Peter in the 2018 Marauder Medals!

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 76 - Words: 327,788 - Reviews: 1284 - Favs: 949 - Follows: 1,084 - Updated: Feb 24 - Published: Jan 1, 2018 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Lily Evans P., Marauders - Complete

Sacrifice reviews

By: Kyra4

Dramione. PostHogwarts. Hermione sacrifices her virginity for a good cause. Complete.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 8,505 - Reviews: 394 - Favs: 1,836 - Follows: 370 - Updated: Aug 17, 2006 - Published: Jul 22, 2006 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Sex Ed reviews

By: MrBenzedrine

Hermione Granger comes to Hogwarts to teach a much needed Biology curriculum to the students. Draco Malfoy, the Potions teacher, doesn't approve of the sex ed. A bet ensues. Who will come out victorious? Rated M for lemons. COMPLETE. ****FIRST PLACE: BEST FLUFF/HUMOR 2017 Dramione Awards***

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 31 - Words: 142,690 - Reviews: 1479 - Favs: 2,867 - Follows: 1,236 - Updated: Jun 1, 2017 - Published: Jul 4, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Ron W., Neville L. - Complete

Simply Irresistible reviews

By: bookworm1993

Draco gave a cocky grin. "I am going to give you a makeover." "I'm sorry what?" "You heard me Granger, I'm going to give you a makeover that will make every man want you,and make Weasley die of regret. You will be simply irresistible."

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 30 - Words: 77,494 - Reviews: 6069 - Favs: 14,305 - Follows: 5,000 - Updated: Oct 21, 2012 - Published: Nov 8, 2009 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Static reviews

By: galfoy

The Order rescued Draco and Lucius Malfoy after Lord Voldemort turned on them. All the safe houses are full, and Hermione Granger is the only one who can take them in. Will she agree after having suffered a drastic nervous breakdown?

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 21 - Words: 75,632 - Reviews: 1535 - Favs: 4,716 - Follows: 1,194 - Updated: Sep 23, 2011 - Published: Sep 6, 2011 - Draco M., Hermione G. - Complete

Switch reviews

By: RZZMG

Hermione wanted a night with an anonymous, skilled & sensual partner to teach her to be a sub in bed, but when Draco Malfoy pursues her after, can a girl avoid the sinful temptations of the flesh available at a fetish nightclub? PostHogwarts-EWE. Story won multiple categories at the 2011 Summer & 2012 Spring Rounds of the HP Fanfic Fan Poll Awards-see profile for details. COMPLETE!

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 18 - Words: 43,826 - Reviews: 1102 - Favs: 2,343 - Follows: 808 - Updated: Jun 9, 2011 - Published: May 7, 2011 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

Tainted by the Past reviews

By: CelticPagan-3

The Golden Trio have saved the Wizarding World & lived to tell the tale. What will they do with a future they never thought they'd get? The boys escape their last childhood restraints, Hermione finishes her education & tries find a way to escape the future her parents have planned. She develops an unlikely friendship with Draco Malfoy who returns to Hogwarts to escape his own past.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 31 - Words: 222,280 - Reviews: 534 - Favs: 1,314 - Follows: 611 - Updated: May 31, 2013 - Published: Aug 3, 2012 - Hermione G., Draco M. - Complete

The Brightest Black reviews

By: Enigmaticrose4

On that fateful Halloween night Bellatrix Lestrange decided to sate her bloodlust on an innocent muggleborn family. Life is never again the same for the Most Noble and Ancient House of Black.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 72 - Words: 278,018 - Reviews: 4468 - Favs: 3,955 - Follows: 3,237 - Updated: Jul 15, 2017 - Published: Mar 17, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P., Narcissa M. - Complete

The Deadline reviews

By: Lena Phoria

It takes the unexpected engagement of their children to get Draco and Hermione in a room together, but only the selfish acts of their estranged spouses and a 300 Galleon bottle of firewhiskey will get them in a bedroom. What starts out as a one time mistake soon becomes a full-blown affair with a deadline; the day their children say 'I do'. But things rarely go according to plan.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 39 - Words: 329,548 - Reviews: 3479 - Favs: 4,464 - Follows: 2,339 - Updated: Oct 3, 2014 - Published: Nov 8, 2013 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] [Rose W., Scorpius M.] - Complete

The Eagle's Nest reviews

By: HeartOfAspen

COMPLETE: Hermione's eighth year at Hogwarts is already going to be difficult in the aftermath of the war, but it is further thrown into upheaval when Headmistress McGonagall orders a re-sorting of all students to promote inter-house unity. But when the Sorting Hat sends Hermione to Ravenclaw with Draco - and without Harry or Ron, how will she cope? [AU/Dramione] Prevalent alchemy.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 70 - Words: 306,322 - Reviews: 5315 - Favs: 4,380 - Follows: 4,470 - Updated: Jan 2 - Published: Apr 12, 2016 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Theodore N. - Complete

The Green Girl reviews

By: Columbria

Hermione is sorted into Slytherin; how will things play out differently when the brains of the Golden Trio has different friends? AU. Darkish Dramione. COMPLETE.

Harry Potter - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 22 - Words: 150,467 - Reviews: 5417 - Favs: 10,784 - Follows: 3,723 - Updated: Apr 26, 2015 - Published: Feb 6, 2015 - [Hermione G., Draco M.] Harry P., Daphne G. - Complete

The Longest Distance Between Two Places reviews

By: RZZMG

Time is immutable... but filled with magical possibilities. Hermione Granger discovers this truth after an accident in the Dept. of Mysteries leads to a series of bizarre, random encounters with a handsome young man donning Slytherin colours. -"I never believed in fate until I met you."- Time-travel/star-cross love fic. Drama/Romance/Angst. 2013 Hermione-Smut Fest entry.

Harry Potter - Rated: M - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 48,244 - Reviews: 551 - Favs: 1,134 - Follows: 555 - Updated: Feb 8, 2015 - Published: May 3, 2014 - Hermione G., Rabastan L. - Complete

The Muddy Princess reviews

By: Columbrina

Just another Pureblood!Hermione story. A hidden adoption revealed, a brother found, a new world to figure out: "What are you hoping for?" he asked as they stood ready to do the spell. "I don't know," Hermione admitted. "You?" His knuckles were white on his wand. "A sister," he said, his voice very low, "I'm hoping for a sister." Winner 2015 Energize WIP Awards. COMPLETE.

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The Pretense reviews

By: Columbrina

Voldemort died, but the Death Eaters live on. Hermione Granger traded herself to Draco Malfoy in exchange for safe passage for core Order members. Now he's pretending to love her, Narcissa is pretending to believe that, and Hermione is walking a tightrope behind enemy lines as she figures out what is going on. Unfortunately, people fall off tightropes. (no non-con)

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The Right Thing To Do reviews

(There’s one from Draco’s perspective that I didn’t read because this one already had too much angst for my taste)

By: lovesbitca8

Hermione felt the pounding in her ears again. She would see him for the first time since the Great Hall, gaunt and stricken at the Slytherin table with his mother clutching his arm. She hadn't meant to look for him. Not in the corridors, not beneath the white sheets of the fallen, not on the way to the Chamber of Secrets with Ron, but she was a stupid girl.

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The Wrong Strain reviews

By: Colubrina

Everyone knew what veela were. Veela were magical creatures, breathtakingly beautiful, who captivated men with a single look. It would have been nice to have been that strain. Instead, Hermione Granger was infected by another. Instead of captivating all men, she was captivated by one. She'd die without him. She was already in almost constant pain. DRAMIONE. COMPLETE.

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Unity reviews

By: PalmettoBlue

Follows our favorites in the 8th year & Marriage law. "Don't you get it, Granger? We will belong to each other." EWE. Disclaimer: I don't own anything related to the HP universe. (AU/OOC/EWE)

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Unmasked reviews

By: RZZMG

Divorcee-single dad Draco Malfoy goes to the Yule Charity Masquerade and sees the woman of his dreams, but will Hermione Granger still want him when he's finally unmasked? One-shot. Post-Hogwarts EWE. Dramione/Draco x Hermione. Romance/Drama/Hot Shag. Story won 2nd Place-"BEST DRACO" at the 2010 Winter Round of the HP Fanfic Fan Poll Awards-see profile for details. COMPLETE!

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Vibrations reviews

By: Craft Rose

After three years of a mundane, sexless existence and far too much wine, our favourite brunette happens upon the magic equivalent of a sex line. There, an intriguing, deliciously devilish caller manages to pique her interest. It's all fun and anonymous, u

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We Learned the Sea reviews

By: luckei1

Draco Malfoy turns himself in after a very successful career as a Death Eater, then enlists Harry and Hermione to help him in a scheme to bring down the Dark Lord. DHr. A story of forgiveness.

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What the Room Requires reviews

By: Alydia Rackham

Hermione is the one who finds Draco weeping in the bathroom. He flees. She chases him into the Room of Requirement, and the room forces them to face their greatest fears together in order to find the door.

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Without Her Letter reviews

By: Colubrina

A decision is made to protect Muggle-borns from the continual war by not inviting them to Hogwarts. This was, perhaps, not a wise choice. Hermione Granger was certainly not amused. Dramione. AU. COMPLETE.

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You Ought to Know reviews

By: LittleEagle22

Ronald Weasley didn't know it then, but the day that he broke her heart, he drove her straight into the arms of the last person he ever thought he'd see her with.

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howwelldoyouknowyourmoon · 4 years

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A Letter to Rev. Moon

Dear Reverend Moon,

Although you have passed into the spirit world, your followers say you are now omniscient and omnipresent so I feel I can still address this letter directly to you.

I myself followed you for a number of years, received your blessing and looked forward to living in the society of co-prosperity you promised us (DP page 445). It took me some time to realize that prosperity was only meant to be enjoyed by yourself and your family, because as you said:

‘The only thing that matters is that my children take up positions as the leaders of the cosmos.’

There are of course a fair number of church leaders who also manage to enjoy a modicum of prosperity – which is, I’m afraid, the only reason why many are still ‘believers’.

I know you deserved to enjoy the good things of life to make up for all the indemnity you say you kept paying. Unfortunately, I’m still unsure about your indemnity – in all the years I knew about you I never saw you working, cooking for yourself, doing your own laundry, making your own travel arrangements, doing your own tax returns, taking any care of individual members or even of your own children, so apart from giving directions to your assistants and talking to church members, what was the indemnity you say you kept paying? Ah! It must have been prayer. No, I’m afraid not:

‘I haven’t prayed for the last twenty years. Mother was very surprised to see me start praying again, but I knew the time would come when I had to guide Heavenly Father.’ USA 1999

So you started praying again in order to guide God, very considerate. So if you weren’t paying indemnity by praying how were you doing it? Fasting? Not according to your overworked kitchen staff. Ah! Fishing for long periods? But you loved fishing, and like most fishermen, you were happy to stay out all day. So maybe it was talking to the members for long hours? But again you loved that – all the adoration and sycophantic applause. No, sorry, you’ve got me beat– I can’t see the indemnity anywhere.

Something else I’ve found difficult to understand is to do with the matching and blessing. I was originally given to believe that God was working through you during the matching process, but on at least two occasions in Europe you matched physical brothers and sisters together, and I heard of it happening in Japan and America also. So what gives? I know you said in one of your speeches that Jesus should have married John the Baptist’s sister – who according to you would have been his half-sister – so maybe such relationships are allowable in your kingdom of heaven. Either way, you changed those matchings after being informed they were brothers and sisters, but isn’t it strange that God didn’t know about them?

So anyway blessed couples are supposed to produce children substantially free of original sin, and your children are especially pure – being the progeny of the messiah and his bride. But, I then read one of your speeches where you said, ‘I knew this time would come, (when some of my children would disunite with me) maybe I should turn to the son of the concubine. The children of the concubine are better because there is more passion.’ (involved in their conception) Korea 1996

Now here I’m really mystified. If the child of your concubine is better than those from your marriage, where does this leave the idea of the blessing?

Let me think awhile. Adam and Eve fell because they had sex out of wedlock – they fornicated and because of that the original sin was passed down through the generations. So, the messiah, the Second Advent, is supposed to restore this by establishing the blessed marriage (the marriage of the lamb) and then the children from that marriage are supposed to born without original sin and establish a new lineage, thereby creating the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

So where does the excuse for the concubine come from? In order to restore the sin of fornication does the messiah have to commit it again but this time for God’s sake? Does he have to restore Cain’s sin by murdering someone for God’s sake? What about all the other sins? Where does it end?

I know you were trying to restore gambling by spending many hours in casinos. I also know you said you had to enjoy the luxuries of life sometimes, because otherwise when the rich people die and go to the spirit world they would be ashamed in front of you – because they enjoyed the high life and you didn’t. So you stayed in luxurious hotels, were driven around in expensive cars and flew in private airplanes all for the sake of the rich people, again very considerate.

You know, I really have to come back to this concubine thing. If, as you said, the children of the concubine are better than those from a blessed marriage then surely that means the blessing has no value whatsoever, and that blessed children are no different to any other. That must also mean there is no restoration providence and that you weren’t really the messiah after all.

I’m sorry Reverend but I’m starting to have serious doubts about this whole business.

Another aspect of your vaunted dispensation that I found confusing was your use of numbers. Most of the people counted in the 360 million couples blessing didn’t even know they were blessed. For example, in India sachets of holy wine were thrown into reservoirs and anyone drinking from them was counted as being blessed. The amazing thing is, however, that you then announced that all the newly blessed couples should now make a ‘total living offering’ of $10,000 and come to Jardim Training Center in Brazil for a workshop.

Considering that $10,000 is more than most of these Indians will see in a lifetime, that they don’t even have a hope of affording a flight to Brazil, and that they have no idea they’ve been blessed, then surely your expectation of 360 million couples turning up at Jardim with suitcases full of cash was a little fanciful to say the least.

This ancestor liberation is something else I find confusing. After only a few thousand members had attended these liberation ceremonies it was announced that 36 billion ancestors had been liberated. Later it was said that more than 360 billion had been liberated. Now considering the most generous statistics state that only about 150 billion people have ever lived on this planet in the past, I’m left wondering where the other 210 billion are from. Mars maybe? Maybe all these numbers are just symbolic – except of course until it comes to financial offerings.

I was extremely happy to read your speech of June 14th 1999 where you said,

‘There are no more hardships or indemnity.’

Again on Sept. 9th 1999

‘Satan has completely surrendered.’

Sept. 10th 1999

‘Therefore the time when Satan can oppose us is passed.’

And finally my favorite was on Oct. 27th 1999

‘No more indemnity is needed. The providence of restoration is completed.’

However, after Young Jin’s suicide in Las Vegas (as reported by the Las Vegas Police Department) you changed your tune yet again.

Nov. 14th 1999

‘Take responsibility by paying indemnity.

‘Satan tried to attack True Parents directly.’

‘Can you live a life of complete indemnity?’

Now while I have every sympathy for the loss of Young Jin, who appears to have been a very nice young man, this still does not explain this complete contradiction in your speeches. If Satan had completely surrendered how was he still able to attack your family? And if the providence of restoration is completed why were you asking the church members to continue paying indemnity? (Which anyway appears to be a waste of time because you said,

‘Did you pay indemnity? No. Only Father and Mother together did.’)

I’m getting really confused now, because you said on Aug. 8th 1999

‘The lord of the Second Advent is a person with no property.’

However, on Jan. 2nd 1996 you were boasting as follows:

‘You may not know, but I already own a small airplane company and have several airplanes.’ And you also said ‘In Montevideo I built a landmark hotel, which is the biggest and the best in South America.’

‘I have the desire to become the richest person in the world…’ Dec. 1st 1997

‘I could buy a Mercedes Benz 600 series if I wanted to.’ Feb. 13th 1997

And I suppose the palace at Cheongpyeong and the new one on Geomun island off the coast south of Yeosu are solely for God to live in. Oh, my mistake. I forgot you had become ‘the god of the day’, the incarnation of God on earth.

There are actually quite a few of your statements that I have difficulty with:

‘While Oriental people sleep on their backs and face God, asking Him to embrace them, Westerners sleep on their stomachs, facing down like animals; that’s why free sex and homosexual problems predominate in the Western hemisphere.’

Has the world really waited 2000 years to receive such wisdom from the Second Advent?

‘I did not blink my eyes for three hours once. So I overcame the number three.’

It’s lucky number three didn’t call in four and five or you’d have been well hammered.

‘A woman who does not love Father is not a complete woman: something must be lacking.’

Mirror, mirror, on the wall, who’s the most delusional of all?

‘Our goal is to create a world where everyone has affection for me.’

Really? So whose definition of the Kingdom of Heaven would that be then?

‘That is why widows, widowers and people who do not marry are to be pitied. They have no place to settle in love, so they just fade away. They have no foundation for eternal existence.’ Feb. 7th 1999

So all the monks and nuns, all the young unmarried soldiers who died in war, (even the Korean one that was supposed to have been fought just to save you,) all the children who have died throughout history – all of these poor souls will just fade away and have no place in the spiritual world?

I’m afraid your concept of the Kingdom, whether it be in this world or the next, appears to be very cold and heartless – and does not reflect anything of God’s loving parental nature.

‘A person with no descendants will have no place to rest or play in the next world.’ Feb. 4th 1999

So all the church sisters who were kept fundraising for so long that when starting their married life they were too old to have children, they will have nowhere to rest or play in the spirit world?

Let’s get this straight, Jesus, the Dalai Lama, and all those celibates throughout history who honestly dedicated their lives to God or the betterment of mankind, they will just fade away, but someone like Genghis Khan, who was responsible for the slaughter of millions but fathered hundreds of children, after serving his time in hell he will eventually be able to live it up in heaven? Give me a break!

When I originally joined your church we were told that the dwelling place of God was in the ‘Original Mind’ of man. This apparently was some unpolluted area of the spirit mind that always directs man towards goodness. Now, however, His abode appears to have changed.

‘My sexual organ is the original palace of love… the palace where God can dwell.’ Jan. 1st 1997

This to me would seem a rather appalling drop in living standards to inflict upon the Almighty. I also find it a little difficult to understand, because surely you don’t take that organ with you when you enter heaven, whereas your spirit mind is eternal (unless of course you are unmarried).

Anyway, maybe I should put aside all my doubts, sell everything I possess and use the money for a trip to Cheongpyeong. I could then donate much of the cash to liberate the spirits of the Martians or Venusians or whoever we’re liberating now. I’ve heard the people in charge of Cheongpyeong are also selling houses in the spirit world – very useful because it means you don’t have to spend time finding a real estate agent once you cross over, because you know what crooks real estate agents can be.

Yours in search of sanity and a good laugh,

Sloe Gin

P.S. All of these quotations were carefully checked against the original Korean.

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Unification Church shampoo for evil spirits

Cheongpyeong: Evil spirits stop Korean and Japanese women from having children.

“Ancestor Liberation must be done” Hak Ja Han 2015

Sun Myung Moon and Hak Ja Han bow to a pig’s head

Moon is God’s original sperm

Sperm in the Holy Wine of the Unification Church

#Sun Myung Moon #indemnity #ancestor liberation #scam #Hak Ja Han

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ulookgoodtoday · 6 years

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This is gonna be a long rant

No need to say this but I am a CS, I strongly believe they were in love and actually believe they still are. If you don’t see it I’m sorry for you bc it means you’ve never been in love and seen someone staring at you like they do.  Plus our captain Dinah (and her aunt) made it pretty clear. If you’re in doubt it could also be bc of the narrative stupid managers tried to pull, but honestly anyone can see through it. I suggest you read Emisons Camren theory and post about synchronization (which I found out after I made my mind clear ab Camren) which makes perfectly sense and was confirmed to be true at 98% by ExposingLaucy.

Let me say that of course this is just my opinion and I ALWAYS take into consideration that it could be not real. I respect L and C personal life and never dare to intrude or comment their post on social networks. I want them to be happy and if they are now (I believe they are) I am happy. They can be whom whoever THEY want.

Said so, here’s my delusional Camren theory. It’s not about proving Camren is real but an analysis of their relationship (I tried to be accurate, considering songs, interviews, trustworthy sources, timing).

I believe they had feelings for each other since the beginning (2012-3), especially C, but they genuinely thought they were just friends or that it was nothing serious (ExposingLaucy said C was the one to fell in love - “Mine is Lauren” “Who are u kissing under the mistletoe?” Her obsession with “Normani”- and L slowly fell in love w her). That’s why L gave birth to Camren “it’s Camren yo” (16 oct 2012) and why they were so explicit in the interviews, on camera, tumbrl, twitter, bc they thought it was a joke and were really close. Then ppl started to see what basically they couldn’t see or admit to themselves yet (love in their eyes), ppl started shipping them and assuming they were together but again they brushed it away and even invited us to float that f boat (Nov 2013). I believe if they ever kissed before 2014 it was as a joke, at least for L (“What happened in the elevator?” Feb 2013 DinahJane on twitter. #camrenfeels 28th June 2013 and the photo of them cuddling, L saying “Thanks babe” Feb 2014 and being totally chill with it) and above all they never talked about it.

I know C said back then that her first kiss was at 17 (and everyone assumed it was with Austin but could have been with L - April 2014) and then in a recent interview ab her album she said she was 16 when she had her first kiss so it could be 1) they kissed before 2) they kissed before but as a joke and then, after realizing how they felt for each other, she reconsider that kiss 3) she messed up with her memory, she gets confused by all the bs they made her say during these years. In the same interview she said she had her first breakup at 17, which could be her telling bs and alluding at her breakup with Austin (even tho in other interviews she dismissed that relationship) or what I’ll explain later about her relationship with L.

I think C was the first to realize she had feelings for L and that’s when she wrote “Only told the moon” (where she’s scared ab her emotions and afraid the other person won’t feel the same way) even though she wrote a tweet “only told the moon” in Jun 2015. What we know through EL is that they were both each other’s first kiss and everything. [plus I’m still not over Sep 2013 when C cries singing Who are you and L glances at her every other second].

We assumed Camren real first kiss was in April 2014 (1975 concert) and it is rumored that L broke up w Brad in Dec 2014 after 8 moths. Now, I don’t believe they had an actual relationship but more a fling and not that long (L was supposed to be w Luis Felipe right? They broke up Aug 2014. And in July we have the suspicious Camren’s moans in the bunk). ANYWAY the import part is that Brad wrote I found a girl that goes "she said that she tried but she's not into guys". So now what I think is that that's basically L freaking out about the kiss she had with C because she realized she had feelings for her (so more than friendship), trying to convince herself she's not into girls, rushing into Luis and then B to prove herself wrong, then again going back to C still confused until she figures it out later. Especially when you are bisexual the process can be hard because you try to understand where you stand, if you like boys OR girls, so it’s confusing when you have feelings for both and u try to deny one or the other until you realize bisexual is A THING. The Vamps made it clear that the song is for L and then took a photo with a “Camren is real” sign in the back (well done Brad, you’re an asshole). In the song he also said that this girl started to talk to him about the other girl she was involved with, so he knew who L was in love with.

In 2014 C is in a PR relationship with Austin Moron and I think C wrote The Exchange song (unreleased as well) about that period. I came up with the timing according to a period when they were both dating others; after Chocolate by 1975 was out - we’re dressed in black, head to toe, it’s from that song while C wrote “we’ll be dressed in, all black from head to toe” and twitted it in apr 2015; also C’s tweets with the lyrics of the song - “there’s nothing like me and you and you know it” Apr 2014 - and L indirects. I think it’s ab Lauren also bc she wrote “there’s beats I’ve been skipping when my head is on your chest” and I‘ve never seen C doing that with a boy. Plus the part where she says the other person knows there’s nothing like the two of them and “you’ve been trying to say it ain’t true” so again L rushing into L/B.

Also you can tell that their relationship was never defined properly by the fact that C many times during interviews referred to a relationship she had and described it as “sort of friendship “ or “romantic relationship or whatever that was”( also look for unreleased song of C, she said she wrote it when she was 17, “Like friends do” = I’ll sit straight it the couch like friends so. And I’ll stop kissing your mouth like friends do. Cause I can’t look at you quite like friens do. You don’t say my name quite like friends do).

I think after Brad and A, they were together, during 2015 (that’s when C appeared with the ring - EL said L gave it to C in Feb 2015 - and when they try to hide and look distant in front of the camera, yet close behind cameras) but still in a confused way during all that year, with ups and downs. I’d say C was pretty cool with her sexuality while L had more difficulties; and that explains to me why C cries singing Who are you basically every time (remember the girls co-worked in writing this one, if you look up on google you can see how Camila and Lauren’s names are the first ones written). Also that’s when she could have come up with IHQ bc she said she started writing it two years before it was released (May 2017). “My name was safest in your mouth”, “your voice, it was the most familiar sound” “i was there when no one was” and in the end - this part could have been written back then or in 2017 but either way express a miscommunication- “How do I fix it? Can we talk? Can we communicate” and “Do I wanna fix it? Is it my fault? Do u miss me?”.

I think that Lauren was the one that struggled the most (from the beginning 2013), she also said in an interview (2017) that when she was little was very confused and that people calling her bisexual/gay made her angry because she couldn’t understand how they figured it out and what was about her that made them think that. It’s also tricky was she said just after that. The interviewer asked her “Did your parents know before you came out?” ab your sexuality and she said “yes, they knew before, I was dating a girl AT THE TIME so they had to know”. So ok, who was she dating tho? Lucy? Yeah right.

I think that they had a shit load of pressure from managers to not be together and at least behave in front of the camera. I remember L (think it was Sept 2015) in an interview she said “when life hits love sometimes you just die”, i mean that’s daaark, girl! Anyways, that must have led to a lot of fights between the two of them especially because you can see how in a lot of interviews C kept staring L or doing things that were pointing obviously to Camren while L was trying harder to hide it. I think C might have felt rejected and they didn’t talk about all of this (and you can tell again by their songs that they had relationship where they didn’t comunicate - expectation, something’s gotta give, in the dark, IHQ.. someone put also In your phone but L didn’t write that one).

I think that’s when C wrote Must be love, this songs screams Camren like maybe no other and describes this period. In fact she says she fell hard, that she gets mad and puts on a show, there are highs and lows, everything gets real after two am (secret relationship), that she’s gonna look at her right back and “I promise you won’t like that” (L pissed every time C is explicit) and they fuss and fight but yet she wouldn’t have it any other way.

Also it’s a link to Consequences, which is in the album (in Must be love she goes “I guess everything has consequence”) and this song has no straight-relationship explanation. Through Consequences C describes her relationship w L and what had caused. I believe she is telling us all that she loved L so much she didn’t care about the consequences that came with it, which is f managers treating them like shit, make them hide it and led to them fight as well. It is not coincidence that she wrote this in Jan 2017 after she was out the group. It is not a coincidence that in concert before playing Consequences she always sings Falling in love (“Wise men say only fools rush in” is also the beginning of Must be love). And there are links to “She loves control” in my opinion which I think describes L and maybe the role she played in all this Camren shit. (Ok C has stated that she has OCD but she doesn’t go to club and when she’s in love she fell hard so u know, so much for the control). In Must be love says “you control me more than you’ve ever known” and in Sangria Wine “yo so que tu quieres controlar mi mente” that made me think the person she’s talking ab in She loves control might not be herself but another person. Many were shook about L singing “she doesn’t let me have control anymore” in Strangers which is a HELL of a coincidence but I think Halsey wrote it so I’m not sure whether we should consider it or not.

During 2015 to 2016 we saw a lot of things that suggested the ups and down. Remember that 2015 C had major anxiety problems and a lot of trash was thrown from the fandom (especially after IKWYDLS). C saying she rather date someone out of the industry but “you can’t decide who you fall in love with, UNFORTUNATELY”. Or when they fought in another interview when C was being too obvious bc she said she would marry her celebrity crush (or any crush) even if their parents did not approve, tho she didn’t say who her crush was but “it’s important” and “i’d be in love with my celebrity crush” (she always said it was Lauren). Or when they tried to make each other jealous.

Then 2016 is tricky. They started the 7/27 tour and again we see ups and downs but mostly L more at ease with her feelings for C. I think C was still struggling with her anxiety problems and all the narrative the managers were forcing the 5 of them to follow (they were prep C’s departure). I remember how L broke down 8 Sep 2016 singing No way, she always said that it was her fav song and described it as a dialogue happening in a couple; a toxic situation, two people who wants to be together but know shouldn’t be together and also ppl from the outside telling them they shouldn’t be together (she was so into this song that during a soundcheck she said she actually could imagine a visual and music video for it). She also cried during Scared to be happy and then tweeted after the concert the she got emotional because of the LYRICS. This was in Phoenix after the show in Texas where we saw Lucy. So that made me think she was struggling back then (remember that 4 days before, C left the stage in Missouri for anxiety), trying to figure out what to do between what she felt and also the pressure for the outside (maybe C, sure as hell managers and the PR ready to come).

I think that L in 2016 realized that she wanted to commit, as I said she seemed more at ease with her sexuality. She was happy during photos with CS, she danced with the pride flag, we have the blurry kiss in London (May 2016) in front of Lucy (!!), L even interacted with C during sound-checks and sang Dope to C (who was pretty surprised), she protected her from those balloons, C and L staying one more day in Barcelona, we had the VMAs (August 2016), she called her baby and so on. She seemed very protective. I believe that’s bc they were prepping the Laucy thing and her coming out. EL said they began the process leading to Laucy in June 2016 (remember the two of them in Colombia for L’s birthday, the videos of L dancing BBW to Lucy and so on - Emisonme explained perfectly).

I think that is why she came out in the end, after all this struggles, bc she felt ready, I don’t think she was forced to. Let’s be honest, if she didn’t want to she could have said it wasn’t her in the Laucy photo or she’s not so dumb, you’re at a family wedding and you get caught kissing a girl and the photo got leaked?! I say BS. And then she decided to make a photo book with Lucy as a coming out statement?! If she wasn’t ready to do it, none of this would have happened. I think she did it for two reasons: 1) Trump was pissing her off 2) to tell C that she was ready; they let her do it bc it was convenient for her image and 5h. At the beginning of Havana - the music video - there’s an awkward scene, completely out of context. A guy comes out of a closet and says “I was in the closet” and C “so now, you’re out of the closet?” And he goes, a bit confused, “yes, for YOU”. Like wtf? C, was it necessary?! And don’t let me start with that video. C is watching the tv and you can here a woman saying in spanish “I want to be with Carmen but I can’t “, you can see a figure very similar to L and in the end C said “I love you, but I love myself more” which again made me think she’s the one that walked away in the end. Camila is giving us so many signs if u don’t see this you’re really dumb.

L obviously couldn’t come out without saying there was another girl, otherwise Camren was automatically confirmed in our mind. And who better than your best friend to help you do so and make it believable? Honestly it was a smart move and all the hate, slut shaming and shit Lucy received, she didn’t deserved it. I believe it was PR and that C was aware of this and supported it but it could have also been difficult for her. Even though she knew it wasn’t real, she might have been scared L might get involved for real, especially if you consider the fact that Camren could never be proud and loud, idk. Emisonme on tumbrl explained the Laucy shit so perfectly that I suggest u read it, I agree with everything she said. Again Emisonme explain PERFECTLY why L could come out as bi while C can’t (and she’s so gay she’s shitting rainbows).

I think shit went down tho, and they fell apart. I don’t know if it was bc of management’s pressure or miscommunication or whatever but apparently C walked away (as she said in many interviews that the situation was toxic - not the relationship - in something’s gotta give and Havana music video and in concert before singing Scar Tissue). I think that their break-up happened during that period of L coming out and C leaving/kicked out fifth harmony but that is so messed up I’m not elaborating [Theory: C leaving 5h was always supposed to happen]. Just remember how Dinah’s aunt said that Lauren would be devastated by the fact C left (”I’m pretty sure Lauren is heartbroken and shook, she is probably crying her brain away. But she already knew. If anything Lauren is leaving too. You gotta have your girl’s back. Of course I’m sure they are going to do a duet like on their own, you know, in the bedroom.”)

That’s when L was reaaally pissed at Camren fans (the tweet in Feb 2017), went a bit sassy in interviews avoiding to talk about C, and after “leaving Lucy” she “started dating Ty” (I call PR huge af). The reasons why she was pissed ab CS could be many, for starters I believe they broke up (so that’s one), n2 she came out and faked a relationship with another girl to protect C’s straight image and yet everyone kept believing in Camren, n3 her managers made her pull her straight image as well starting dating Ty to shut us up BUT I believe the real reason is n4 managers wanted to kill Camren (to launch C’s straight image) and destroy her image (as they did with the marijuana shit they pulled) bc even though i think the first three reasons are true and that’s what was going on in L’s mind I don’t think she would attack her fans and C like that. Anyways L tweeted “eyes on the moon” the day the Grammys (Feb 2017) were held and we know who the moon is.

I think C’s the one who walked away also bc of “Make u mad”, which was written mostly by L and she’s pissed y’all. There are also links btw this song and C’s songs. L also sang Back to me, she collaborated in writing the text but I don’t know to what extent but still a HELL of a coincidence.

I think they first met after all this shit at the Grammy’s after party in Feb 2017 but didn’t interact. Camila was there and she said that “In the dark” is about a boy she met there; then we have L who tweeted just the day after the Grammy’s after party ab waking up with hang over and understanding what’s fake and real. Funfact: read the lyrics of In the dark. “Vampires at the same places” we know Lauren is Lamp. L is running and “making rounds with your fake friends” and again “i can see u’re scared of your emotions, i can see you’re hoping you’re not hopeless” “who are u when it’s 3am and u are all alone” “secrets, endless”. Basically she’s asking this person to show her her real self.

Ppl said they met in March/April 2017 (i think) in studio (Diplo’s?) and I think that’s when C came up with All these years (L had longer hair - she had it cut in 2016; she had gained a bit of weight - that’s for arms stronger; her eyes, I mean WE BEEN KNEW; C was not prepared so she didn’t know L was going to be there; it was a quick hello bc they were not fine back then; “sounds like you’re happy with her” could be L’s PR; “wish I loved u like I miss u” implies that she had a relationship with that person but maybe not loved her in the right way or enough to make it last - she confirmed in an interview that this song is about an ex; who does C knows from YEARS? If I hear another SM shipper I’ll throw up)

Anyways I think that towards the mid of 2017 they kinda reconnected and now they’re in good terms. Remember how C said multiple times how even though it was a toxic situation she’d do it all over again. So that makes me think that they loved each other and the problem was mostly all the environment they were into (if the relationship was trash why on earth would she do it again?!) and C is trying to say to L: baby come back to me.

Since this is not a post w the intent of explaining why Camren is real I won’t elaborate.

In conclusion I think they are still in love (C sang it in every possible way) and probably a couple or working on to be one and the problems in their relationship were due to miscommunication and pressure from the outside.

—> Again Emisonme made super clear why they couldn’t be together in the Music business.

Stay strong in this PR shit and let them be. Even if they don’t tell us, doesn’t mean it isn’t true.

Just remember EL said 2018 would be the year of the commitment, 20gayteen everybody.

“I am a lover and a fighter. I will fight for what I love” Go get your girl Lauren

#camren #camila cabello #lauren jauregui #camren is real #camren is love #camren is life #camren is endgame #camrenisotp #camila #pr #20gayteen #lgbtq #rainbow #camren theory #theory #delusional

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Curvy model Hunter McGrady believes 'women are to be respected whether they're naked or if they're fully clothed'

Hunter McGrady at the 2018 Sports Illustrated swimsuit show at Paraiso Fashion Fair during Miami Swim Week at the W Hotel South Beach on July 15 in Miami. (Photo: Alexander Tamargo/Getty Images for Sports Illustrated)

Upon meeting model Hunter McGrady, you instantly feel her warm, kind spirit and infectious smile. It’s no wonder she has been able to champion so many women around the globe to embrace their curves, stretch marks, and cellulite. At just 25 years old, she is already a seasoned Sports Illustrated model and fashion designer, and she’s also a newly engaged woman. McGrady is on a mission to change perceptions of what it means to be beautiful.

McGrady is part of a growing number of curvy models who are making a big splash in the swimwear space, alongside household names like Ashley Graham and Tabria Majors. Recently, McGrady joined Christie Brinkley and Kate Upton in Miami to help with Sports Illustrated‘s model casting call during Miami Swim Week at the Paraiso Fashion Fair. The casting resulted in a spectacular, diverse runway show featuring women of all body types, including Paralympian Brenna Huckaby and a model who breastfed her baby on the catwalk.

These moments are monumental for the body-positive movement, and McGrady says they allow women to think, “‘OK, I am beautiful as I am, and I am worthy, and I am enough,’ and I think that’s so powerful.”

But as a plus-size model, it’s equally important to work with the right partners who champion diversity and inclusion, like Paraiso Fashion Fair and Sports Illustrated. “Paraiso and its partners are committed to empowering people to feel good about themselves no matter what color, shape, size, background, height, sexual orientation they are,” Sam Ben-Avraham, Paraiso Fashion Fair’s founder, tells Yahoo Lifestyle. “We used our stage to make the statement about who we are, how we see the world, and to scream to the world that we are living in times of inclusivity.”

@danielle_herrington_ and @bren_hucks lead the final walk of the #SISwimSearch x @paraisofashionfair runway show! ❤️

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“This year’s representation of models in the Paraiso fashion show was a continuation of the Sports Illustrated swimsuit [issue] messaging that diversity in beauty is very real and very important to represent,” MJ Day, editor in chief of Sports Illustrated’s swimsuit issue, tells Yahoo Lifestyle. “It’s something that we believe in passionately, and where better to celebrate that than on the runway in swimwear, where it makes so much sense to our brand!”

But beyond a few supportive brands and partners, there needs to be more significant changes in the societal mindset of what constitutes beauty, McGrady says. “I think that we need to continue growing still. … You know, we’ve always been told as plus-size women that we can’t wear certain things or we can’t show our skin, [but] I’m the first person on the beach in a little tiny string bikini,” she says.

McGrady’s level of body-confidence and positivity appears to be second-nature at this point, but her road to self-love didn’t happen overnight. She began her career modeling at 16 years old as a “straight size model,” she says, a size 2 and 6 feet tall. One day, her whole world changed. “I got turned away from one of my jobs for being too big. And so I … took four years off to really just grow into my body, eat healthy, [and] nourish myself because I was so unhappy before. And during that time, I really learned to honestly and truthfully tell myself positive affirmations because our mind is so important and it’s so powerful.”

Favorite photo I took in 2016 for @treatsmag by @jamesmacari hair: @riadazar9 makeup: @christinecherbonnier stylist: @jenpatryn wearing @zanabayne thanks @steveshawphotos for breaking a mold and letting me be the first plus model in your magazine! 😘❤️ I'm ready 2017. Let's do it. 👊🏼

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These positive affirmations were central to McGrady’s success in achieving self-love. She says she would look in the mirror and say, “‘Hunter, you are loved. You are worthy. You are powerful. You are beautiful. You are heard’”

But not every day is easy. “I still wake up … when I don’t want to go get out of bed. I don’t want to do anything.” According to McGrady, on those days, the most important thing you can do is “renew your mind and really make it part of your thought process.”

Ok Body! 👆🏻 cute little lacy set by @shopcosabella 💕 p.s. ladies, you’re totally allowed to appreciate yourself. Don’t forget that 😉💋

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After taking a few years off, McGrady returned to modeling at 19 years old as a plus-size model, signing with the agency Wilhelmina Models on the spot. Since then, McGrady has landed covers for Sports Illustrated and a campaign for Icelandic Glacial, and even launched her own plus-size bathing suit line. McGrady is proud of her body and all of its “flaws.” “The thighs that I once was so nervous about and that touched, they’ve traveled me around the world,” she tells Yahoo Lifestyle. “The stretch marks that I have signifies growth.”

When I was graciously given the opportunity to share my truth and voice with the world through this shoot, I chose my words deliberately, thoughtfully, consciously and responsibly. I know and understand from experience the power of words to hurt or to heal, to hold back or to inspire, to criticize or to embolden, to deliver or to bind. As spoken and written thousands of years ago, “You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.” I wrote an Essay about this incredible project “In Her Own Words” the link is In my bio!

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Earlier this year, McGrady posed nude for Sports Illustrated, covered in positive words of affirmation like “worthy,” “confidence,” and “fearless.” Some were critical of the photo shoot in light of the recent #MeToo movement, but for McGrady, the story signified something much bigger. “Women are to be respected whether they’re naked or if they’re fully clothed. … And that is, I think, the most feminist thing you can say.” She adds, “I never posed nude because I wanted anything more than to make women feel good about themselves and feel empowered because I felt empowered. And I felt sexy. I feel more comfortable naked than I do with clothes on. And I deserve the same respect … as anyone else.”