#we can't do that that actually requires work lmfao

[linnienin]

⁓⁕🍷 🌸 V e n u s ⁕ a n d ⁕ h o w ⁕ y o u ⁕ c h i l l 🌸 🍷⁕⁓

Disclaimer: Take what resonates. I'm not a professional astrologer, i just am an avid researcher and i use my personal experience when writing my posts (Also, pls, don't copy my work, i spend lot of time on it, thanks)

Ahhh Venus, the planet of love. We use it to talk about our relationships and misadventures in our love life. But it also is the planet of feminine energy, enjoyment, relaxation and indulgence. How do you chill using your Venusian energy? Let's find out looking at your Venus's sign and degree

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⁕ Aries / 1-13-25 degrees : *aggresively flying on the couch* play TV, *loud setting on*, watch the tv for 1 minute, gets bored, *roll off the couch*, goes to the kitchen, sees people, start a little chase (Jason Momoa meme entered the caption) 👀👐. After annoying people for a bit, do a little workout, tries to lift a 700 kg cause they *confident*, fail, they still confident, opt for the 0.5 kg, now they happy 😊💪. Dance lover. Enjoy drinking energy drinks. Not really a sipp-er, more of a chugg-er lmao. Carbs are their heaven, they cannot have enough (cause they move a lot, they need the energyy). When laying on the sofa need to put their head on someone else's shoulder or legs or head to feel safe and receive the physical contact they really crave. Enjoy taking short cold showers. Like playing chess (they're good at strategizing and know when to attack and they're bold about it). Cut their hair as a relaxing activity (until they have no hair left to cut lol), likes dyeing them too, preferabily with bolder colours.

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⁕ Taurus / 2-14-26 degrees: The yawn-er. They're MASTER at chilling. They chill doing everything, i'm not kidding, are they at home, are they at work? They be chilling allll the time. Lovers of the sofa, bed, and others soft big surfaces. Chill by taking their time doing everything, they be starting cooking at 9 a.m. to serve a meal at 1 p.m. ✨Sloth with grace✨. Quality over quantity. Enjoy passing time doing nothing...literally. They be like fixating on a thing and looking at it for an hour straight. Mad control of their focus. Meditating without realizing It. Probably sip chamomile. They like to think time doesn't exist, they got all the time in the world (until they wake up one day, look into the mirror and realize they forgot to shave their mustache for all this time). Hella romantic, enjoy picking up flowers, endless walks in nature, veery slowly, they be stopping every 2x3 to admire a little bug passing by.

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⁕ Gemini / 3-15-27 degrees: Tea time with their personalities. Lmao, no but they literally chill by checking in with their thoughts and their ideas. Loves listening to podcasts and documentaries. Multitasking hobbies. Yup, i have no clue how they even relax by doing 1738283 things at a time but it's a way to shut down their thoughts for a while. Yeah, i know, i just told you they chill by thinking too, but sometimes it becomes too much and they have to switch the brain off. Relax by painting their nails. Get experimental with makeup. Write fanfics but leave them unfinished 👀. Admire their pretty handwriting. Enjoy reading and talking about gossip a looot, too much hehe. Like to play games that require a broad knowledge on everything (ex Trivia). Thinking about doing stuff but actually not doing it lmfao, they just love to think about soo many ideas, that is a way to relax, but then they don't even write them down and poof, they're gone and they can't remember them and they get mad about it :(

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⁕ Cancer / 4-16-28 degrees : Cuddling with their pillow 24/7 (cause deep down they feel alone... 🥺). Play animal crossing. Imagine their future family, even tho they're actually stuck in the past lol. Most likely to binge watch series for a whole day and get emotional about it because they get too attached to the characters. If they could they'd never leave the house...ever lmao, total homebodies. Relaxing by spending time alone or with very closed ones, friends/family. Probably likes to collect plushies, funko pops, or mini cute figures of their favourite fictional characters ✨. Cooking and baking can be a relaxing activity to them, especially if they do it for their family or their guests. Have 'grandma's hobbies'... knitting/crocheting for example lol. Enjoy so much making photo albums, and even more looking at them from time to time. Love going to the sea, early mornings walking barefoot on the sand and admiring the immense ocean and the sun rising, they're fans of little details and very romantic/sweet scenarios. They enjoy being helpful to others, so they'll probably ask people if they can do something for them (especially if they see people struggling doing something, they'll gladly volounteer to offer their help).

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⁕ Leo / 5-17-29 degrees: Stars wannabe. Intensely crying in front of the mirror portraying a desperate girl that has been cheated on, then recompose themselves and admire how good they just were pffft. Put on glasses even at home to feel extra, hit the door while walking cause they can't see a thing, get on the floor purposely, decides to play the blind character, gets up, * sudden dramatic enhancement of the other senses*. Dancing with the starssss. No seriosuly, they should apply, but as the professional dancer cause they so good! (and well they're not stars.... yet 👀). Like the other 2 fire venuses they enjoy moving their body so workouts are very appreciated, but leos especially loove hiit workouts, go build that cooore. Lovers of loong passionate and romantic dramas, they wanna feel all the emotions and they stay loyal to a specific series so they wish it could go on forevahh (hello..."Beautiful" lmao). ✨ Randomly transform their home in a runway show. Start walking like a model to feel themselves ✨ List all the things they can do and skills they acquired to feel good about themselves, then they list all the things they wanna work towards to use that self esteem boost to enhance their motivation and work towards their future goals.

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⁕ Virgo / 6-18 degrees : Killing the chilling. No seriosuly, these people seem like they can't 100% chill properly, and some of them may take 'something' to feel completely detached and lost from reality for a bit... 👀 They chill by making plans. Always trying to find things to do and learn to always get better. Working on themselves is their favourite project. Scanning the room in bed instead of chilling, seeing if there's something they need to adjust or clean. Overthinking the heck out of their lives...wait weren't you supposed to chill? Nevermind 🙈. Roasting others...in their minds hehe, they won't let others see how much they enjoy analizing their mistakes. 'Lemme give you advice on this thing' , others: uhm... ok but chilllll. And you ask Virgo venuses whyy they continue to give advices even when people don't listen to them. Well... saying 'I told you' is more satifying than hearing 'i don't care' 😘 (underlying validation issues). Well...i mean, they could chill while crafting, i give you this, it's probably the only time where they get near the definition of chilling...but hey hold on, cause soon enough they gonna find out details about how they're not perfect at what they do so kill the chill again and let the procrastination beginnn (wait... is procrastination's Virgo's way of chilling?)

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⁕ Libra / 7-19 degrees: They wanna experience the finest things in life. They go to that fancy restaurant, get that fancy dress, buy those fancy flowers... they wanna feel cuddled by life and specifically... lifestyle. They need to feel they value by surroundings themselves with valuable things. That's why they chill by going shopping or talking to new people, because where they see value in, they get value from. It's all about feeling good about themselves. Have a sweet tooth (but enjoy eating overall, it's like they enjoy the experience of taste, they're not really picky ultimately). Can splurge on personal care, lots of tools for facials or expensive skincare (cause after eating sugar they need to mantain the perfect skin lol). They work a lot on the mantainance of the self. That's why they have a good eye for fashion and aesthetics, because they have been researching and analizing everything that's out there to understand what's better for them, but they still haven't found out their true style due to their indecisive nature 😂. Plus let's admit it, they like to change often and renew themselves to maintain that 'interesting persona' 👀

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⁕ Scorpio / 8-20 degrees : Drowning their nose in personality tests. Seriously, when these people wanna chill, all they got on their mind is how to understand that mind even more. They're detectives of their own psyche. Lovers of shadow work. Let all those intense questions unfold! Obsessive researchers. They find a topic they like, they delve deep into it until they've found enough to feel satisfied and jump on another theme to obsess themselves over. Probably watching a lot of documentaries on criminals and unresolved cases trying to find the final answer themselves. Masters at playing Cluedo. Read everybodies's minds in every single setting, it makes them relaxed by feeling in control of the room's energies, and yeah... even during lunch between family members lmao. Need plenty of alone time. They're secretly training to become wizards/witches 👀. Probably like to sip pomegranate juice or any other juicy and thick flavoured drink. Sometimes they forget to even eat because of how invested theyre in their researches lol. I know you're already attractive as hell, but y'all take care of your bodyyy

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⁕ Sagittarius / 9-21 degrees : The boy/girl scout. Those people HAVE to move, they can't stay still or they'll start to stress out. They love a good trip somewhere new, visiting places abroad, taking that bus/train and not knowing where it'll take them (they get lost easily lmfao but they don't mind it, it's part of the thrilling experience). Documentaries lovers: can't go out? Let them wander with their minds. Like to change activities often as they get bored quickly. Enjoy trying to eat different types of food from different cultures. They like to go shopping a lot, to have little souvenirs of all the places they've been to (can tend to overspend depending on other placements in the chart). The one who find excitement in daring to do what everyone else don't want to do. Can love to pertake in volounteering activities, especially if they require them to sail to another country, they enjoy being helpful to other people in need (if underdeveloped can have hero complex). Probably enjoy playing on the Wii in competitive games, they're always up for a competition, even for the slightest thing, like "who can finish up this bottle of water first?? Ready? Start!" (they can announce little challenges like this veeery randomly and everyone will follow their lead, it's crazy haha)

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⁕ Capricorn / 10-22 degrees : Counting their money. Sorting their bills. Sooo relaxing right, especially when the money in your bank account keep groowingg 👀 (they probably watch cash envelope stuffing videos + budgeting on YT). Relax by doing the same routine every day, they can do it without even thinking, and that to them is relieving. They enjoy the adulting process, so actually...going to work can feel like chilling to them lol, they like to feel a sense of responsibility, it makes them feel motivated to always grow, and having a sense of order and stability, that's what makes them feel relaxed and safe. Constantly reading self-help books. Probably sipping their wine while chilling or an expensive drink or a concentrated drink (blueberry juice peraphs). They like high quality items, so they usually shop designer clothes/accessories, they love those labels lol. They love the sofa, don't ask me why lol, most people love the bed, capricorn venuses love the sofa, periodt (can it be because the space is restricted and Cap being ruled by Saturn, planet of restrictions... well, could be).

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⁕ Aquarius / 11-23 degrees : The videogamer. Have way too many hobbies that have nothing in common. Wanna splurge on those headphones too? You already have the bunny ears ones, the cat ears ones, the led ones, guyzzz you have a whole collection of them lmao. Are probably into reading about the unknown mysteries of the universe. Conspiracy theories lovers (they just love when they can confuse others people's minds with all their absurdities). The ones who find excitement in daring to do what everyone else don't want to do. Collectors of technology stuff, yup, they still have the gameboyy 🥺. Unpredictable af but they enjoy being this way so people can always question them and think of them as interesting. Introverted people that need to recharge by being alone. Probably Webtoons and manga lovers. Enjoy pertaking in protest marches, feeling part of the crowd (sense of belonging) and feeling they can contribute to a greater cause. They feel the need to do something crazy once in a while, so if you see them bunjee jumping randomly, or trying others 'dangerous' activities don't be surprised (pls, be careful, and don't try anything illegal....understood?👀...pfft, i already know you're gonna roll your eyes, and think, here we go, another sheep that is trying to tell me what to do lol)

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⁕ Pisces / 12-24 degrees : Do you think thinking about "what ifs" is relaxing?? Y'allll pleaseee, i know the feeling is good when you imagine your perfect reality...but...you literally take it as a hobby and do it way too much...to your own detriment 😭. They looove watching romance movies and dramas, it's their bread and butter (to give food to those daydreams right?🙃). Play music ALL day and get lost in their world, and then suddenly it's time to go to bed and they realize they lost another day to daydreaming, now they got to the nightdreaming phase of the day lol 😂😭. Loves taking baths, the contact with water feels truly healing to them, they could stay in the water 24/7. Can be extremely good at painting or drawing, or singing (and other artistic activities too), and relax by doing these activities. Just asking, but are y'all ok with the low blood pressure?😢(also curious, do you tend to have low blood pressure?). Can relax but lose themselves watching the phone,especially social medias. Until they realize they're literally watching and living an illusion, they think they live by watching everyone else's lives and connect with them through the screen, but they're not living their own life by going out there, and experiencing the world as main characters, not just extras of their own lives.

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Congrats! You've reached the end! ✨

Hope you enjoyed this post, always rememer that we are not just one placement, so if you didn't resonate, that's ok, i'd love to know your feedback in both cases (if you did or did not resonate), it is always very appreciated 🥰

Wish you a wonderful day! 🍷 Yours, Linnie 🌸

[thesuperiorgenshinaddict]

Angel Dust N$FW Alphabet

AN: i was trying to see what other ppl write abt angel dust for motivation or something but there's like almost nothing. am i crazy??? i found a singular ns//fw alphabet about him. someone please write about him thanks xoxo also for these i'm assuming that you're in a relationship w/ him or at least really friendly fuckbuddies Pairing: Angel Dust x GN! Reader Warnings: Sexual content, Switch! Angel Dust, Valentino mentioned, Self-Hatred, idk it's mainly just sweet nasty fluffy bullshit. actually disgustingly sweet blergh

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex) His job revolves around sex. He's done this tons of times, makes sure you're feeling okay and gets you drinks and snacks and whatever you need. Takes a bath with you afterwards and if you're feeling too tired to get up, he'll just carry you over and clean you up and tucks you into bed afterwards. Forehead kisses, woo!

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) Despite him constantly flexing about how attractive he is, I feel like he probably feels disgusted at himself sometimes. Thinks that he's just an object of sexual attraction after a long day at work. Make sure you tell him about how lovely he is. I'm highkey trying to think of a single horny thing to put in here to make him seem less depressed but I can't think of anything. Uhhh, fuck.

He loves every part of you, so I can't really think of anything in particular. Likes holding the area between your hips and waist for support or holding you under him, whatever your preference is. He's versatile.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically) The dude's done so many things with cum. Would swallow it and loves seeing it all over your or his body. This was more of a brain rot thought, but I randomly thought about how he's a spider. Hear me out. His cum's like the fucking spider web material but in a more watery form. It's a bit hard to wash out and gets abso-fucking-lutely everywhere. Tastes relatively basic, but the texture makes it a bit strange. Great, just wait until future jobs pull this up and ask me if I'm attracted to spiders. I'm cooked.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) For a second I was just going to type STD with a shit ton of exclamation marks, but we can go hope that Valentino's stars are tested. I really don't think Angel Dust has a lot of 'dirty secrets' considering how his job makes him do a lot of different things.

This is like the second time I've pulled this exact thing where I turn this into a completely non-dirty secret but he loves soft sex. Is this because every character I write presents as a blatantly horny fuckwad? Gee, I might have to switch it up soon with a less horny person. Or demon. Whatever.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?) We already knew what was going to be written here. He's seen and done everything. Even though his job requires him to exaggerate moaning and whatever, he knows what feels good and what's not sexy. He would catch on to where you're the most sensitive and target that.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying) He doesn't have a favorite one, but he enjoys the ones where he can see your face so he can lean close and give you a little peck on the lips. Angel's main priority is to make sure you're feeling good, so if you're wanting it to be a bit more rough, he's down for doggy style or whatever kinky shit ya throw at him. I'm resisting the urge to just say 'ya' instead of you for the rest of this thing. Fuck, his talking style is worming it's way into my daily conversations too. It's infectious (like the herpes he probably has. I'm sorry the opportunity was just too perfect LMFAO)

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.) Leaning more on the joking side. He'll say like twenty sex jokes per round, minimum. I don't even think I'm exaggerating there considering how majority of his script in the show was literally just innuendos. If you're feeling upset, he'd make sure to tone the jokes down and be a bit more romantic and everything. None of the jokes are degrading though, they're always on the lighter side since he knows how vulnerable sex is. There's this drabble I really want to put in but it's way more AMAB! leaning, maybe I'll write a little thing about him later on a separate post. (most subtle self-promotion /s)

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.) I'm thinking rather completely clean or trimmed. Since his job needs him to look good, he always makes sure he's in good condition. It's pretty much the same shade as his hair with maybe a slight pink tinge to it.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect) Hope ya read the AN part because I'm assuming you're close to him. In that case, he's pretty romantic about it. Tells you how good you're doing and peppers your face with kisses. Overloads you with compliments.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon) Honestly, he's exhausted from work so he never really has a reason to masturbate (unless Valentino has it in one of his scripts). Usually just flops down into his bed and cuddles with Fat Nuggets. Although, he'd find some mutual masturbation attractive. If he accidentally walks in on you masturbating to him, he'd totally tease you about it. Maybe. I don't even know at this point. I think my brain's dissecting itself

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks) Bondage (Giving or receiving), Body Worship (Giving or receiving), damn this shit is mild asf I'm trying to think of literally anything else and I can't uhhhhhh... Idk oral probably

L = Location (favorite places to do the do) He'd probably prefer somewhere more private. I don't think he'd completely be against public/semi-public sex, but it's more of the fact that he's famous and would rather get paid for giving people a show. Horniness aside though, I think he would rather just be in a cozy place to fuck.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going) This one's kinda random but I feel like he'd be super into it if you showed off one of your talents. It doesn't even have to be physical, but like if you did some shit like idk math or something (please not math) he'd call you some flirty ass nickname mildly related to the subject at hand and do some dirty talking.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) He'd definitely get fucking flaccid if you're anything like Valentino. That being if you force him into a situation where he has no control whatsoever or if you're too harsh with him.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.) Due to his occupation, he does giving way more often since he's pushed into a power bottom role. He rarely gets blowjobs, so he'd definitely enjoy it a ton, especially if it's more of a soft, romantic mood. His skill for giving is a 9.5-10/10 since he's been doing this shit for decades.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.) Oh my god. If I have to write 'oh yeah his job makes him do yadadada buuuuutttt' ONE MORE FUCKING TIME I'm actually going to start bawling my eyes out. I feel like if you've read this far and intended on reading with one hand, you're probably bored out of your mind already. I'm so sorry Buuutttt youuu guessseddd it. Enjoys both, likes slow a lot too cuz he doesn't get intimate stuff often yap yap yap uhghghghghghh im so sorry dude this must be so boring to read i'm sorry reader

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.) Quickies are pretty convenient for him, since Valentino makes him work often so he doesn't mind a quick sesh before heading off to work. If for whatever reason he has a break (or he magically quits his job), I think he'd probably prefer taking his time, but if he's in a rush or there's something he needs to do, he'll find a random secluded area for a quickie. I read that as quiche.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.) If you can find something he never did before, then yeah, totes. Can't believe I said totes in 2024. Fuck. Anyway, there's no way it's that different from what he's done before because it really just boils down to 'idk just gotta get jizz', which is his talent.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?) He's used to taking long ass night shifts so he can go for a ton. I think he'd just go for 3~ when he has time, I don't think he's that desperate to fuck outside of work because he's probably pretty drained already. Thinking of that in the literal sense is lowkey nasty

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?) Owns a good bunch because he probably gets gifts from fans which end up just being dildos and vibrators and ass plugs or something. Like I said in the masturbation one, I don't think he really needs to use them that often, but he might use a dildo every now and then. He'd probably bring them out occasionally when having sex.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) I feel like he's teasing throughout the day since all he's apparently fluent in horndog language and only communicates in sex jokes. Slander aside, during the actual sex sesh whenever that is, I think he wouldn't do edging for that long and just skip the foreplay.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.) When recording, he heavily exaggerates his moaning and it probably became a habit. Good luck with trying to be subtle because his voice alone could probably blow some poor kid's ears up.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character) Dogshit at playing Uno. Wow I'm so creative. Who could've thought of Uno when they read wild card! Haha. Haha. Hah. Ha. Fuck, I'm so shit at writing. Who let me have a computer again?

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes) Y'know, when you look at him, I don't think your first though is 'big dick energy'. When he was alive, I think it'd probably have been 5-5.5 inches. Definitely very slim with a rosy pink at the tip. I know he's 8 ft, but I still don't get big dick energy so I'm just gonna go with 6-7 and call it a day.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?) Probably still very high despite getting fucked constantly, but if you're not feeling sexual, I don't think he'd try to push it too far. Unless you're looking for angst or toxic headcanons, then push that shit to max. Delicious, painful angst. Yum! That's mainly prior to episode 4 though, since they speedran his entire fucking arc and ended it in like 2 episodes. Thanks pacing, I really appreciate it.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards) He doesn't fall asleep easily for a variety of reasons, so he'd scroll on his phone for a bit or something before sleeping with you if he trusts you enough. AN: well that was dogshit thanks i hated it /jk but maybe I just have beef with 'wholesome' things. imo this is probably the type of bullshit they say when 'anthony' and 'angel dust' are different because this was definitely anthony or whatever then. man i gotta make this shit more horny next time, think i'll do val or blitzo or verosika or idk someone who's horny. like and follow for more banger content guys boom (seriously though i feel like this was super lame i'm sorry)

[corviiids]

(inspired by your earlier post about if L accused Sayu of being Kira) How do you think an au where Sayu got the death note would play out?

amazing question. i wrote so much more than i thought i was going to im so sorry. tl;dr i don't think the ultimate plot would change much but the beginning would sure be interesting.

i think if sayu found the death note, she would tell light before anyone else. he's clearly her most trusted confidant. light would tell her not to worry because it's clearly some chain letter shit but because she's clearly frightened of it he'd offer to hold it for her and get rid of it so she doesn't have to think about it.

now whether ownership officially passes to light at this point might depend on the specific wording they use. if light says 'hold onto it for you' or something to that effect it would likely just be sublet to light (wording from rule 13) - for our purposes im inclined to go with this version of events but i note the rules are really ambiguous on what the specific requirements and conditions are regarding ownership.

(i keep wanting to go through and do a full review of all the manga rules from like. almost like a statutory interpretation kind of lens but that's a stupid project i need to convince myself out of lmfao jesus)

hey this got really long and complicated. i thought it was going to be simple but now im going through branching possibilities literally for the sole purpose of analysing the rules so let's put the rest under the cut. click for me citing specific death note rules in the middle of my work day i guess GOD. you can also scroll to the bottom if you want to skip me talking about death note rules and just see my projected course of events

the issue of ownership actually doesn't matter that much at this point for reasons we will see but might change things a little bit down the road (see below re: ryuk and discussion of rule 47). let's go with the sublet thing for now and assume sayu is still the owner of the notebook but light is holding it.

light keeps the book, sayu tries not to think about it and fails. light can't resist testing it without sayu's knowledge. light meets ryuk. i note rule 13 states the death god will stay with the owner of the note. since light and sayu are in the same household (ie geographic distance is not an issue) and ryuk would find light more interesting, it's a coin flip which person he'd show up to (probably depends on the degree to which shinigami are bound by their rules which i don't have access to and can't review lol). let's assume for now that ryuk meets light first just for ease, but i will come back to this later because i actually prefer him showing up to sayu first while light is holding the notebook.

in the version where light meets ryuk first, then depending how forthcoming ryuk is with information, either sayu sees ryuk before light realises that's a risk or light realises sayu will see ryuk before she actually does. im leaning towards the latter because in canon light finds out in this order:

people who don't have the note can't see ryuk (when his mother comes into the room during their first meeting)

people who have touched the note CAN see ryuk (when sayu comes into the room asking for help with homework some days later)

so in this au, between events 1 and 2, light would realise that since sayu has touched and owns the note, she'll be able to see ryuk. i think light at this point would ask ryuk if there's any way to undo that effect at which point ryuk should inform light that forfeiting the note will allow sayu to stop seeing ryuk.

ok, now let's backtrack to before and say instead of light, ryuk shows up to sayu first. ryuk appears, sayu screams, ryuk informs sayu that light has used the note. light comes running because sayu screamed. light again in this timeline immediately demands to know how to get sayu out of this situation, partially because she's freaking out and partially because he's already pondering the possibilities and absolutely needs sayu not to know about any of this. she is already hysterical because hey, did this monster just say that her big brother killed someone?

ok here's where i got into a rabbithole digging through the rules for a loophole because i found a problem. (it's ok, i found one.)

we know a death note can pass from person to person because it happens in canon multiple times. we also know that losing the death note will erase your memory of the note (rule 22). where it gets interesting is that rule 47 provides that you will only lose your memories of the death note if you actually used it:

[...] You will not lose memory of the Death Note, for example, if you merely owned it and had not written anyone's name. [...]

you won't be able to see the shinigami anymore, but you'll still remember the notebook. not good enough for light - he needs sayu to forget completely or she'll be traumatised and he'll be compromised, especially because now she knows he used the notebook which makes her a liability. light now has two thoughts

he could ask sayu to kill one person using the notebook and then forfeit it so she doesn't remember the crime and can be free of the notebook forever, or

see if the shinigami can offer any other options.

1 is an interesting place for light's mind to go, but he goes with option 2 first because sayu looks like she's going to have a panic attack. luckily, there is another option, and we know ryuk is aware of it because of the events of the a-Kira story - this is lucky because even if a rule existed there's no guarantee that the shinigami know about it as ryuk demonstrates multiple times. (they also don't need to tell their human any of the rules at all - rule 4.) lmao. anyway im talking about rule 67:

Regarding the memories mentioned in Rule XLVII, the owner can have their memories of the Death Note erased if they so desire.

(well, it's more like 67.1, because there are three completely unrelated sub-rules in this rule. kind of justified because we know rule 67 was a last-minute amendment but seriously who fucking drafted these rules in the shinigami world i'd like a word)

under rule 67, sayu could forfeit the death note and willingly have her memories erased without needing to kill anyone. light asks sayu to do this and promises he won't kill anyone else with the book and that he'll burn it as soon as she's forfeited her memories.

sayu trusts light so much that she does not ask why he doesn't just burn it now. she forfeits the book and forgets the death note ever existed.

i think from that point everything else goes the same way it does in canon.

tl;dr, again - my projected course of events, preferencing the branches i personally find most likely:

sayu finds the death note

sayu tells light about it

sayu sublets the death note to light, remaining the note's official owner

light tests the death note without sayu's knowledge

ryuk shows up to sayu and informs her that light has used the death note

light joins the conversation and demands to know whether sayu can be rid of the notebook

ryuk informs them sayu can forfeit the notebook and will no longer see ryuk, then states anyone who's killed with the notebook would lose all memory of it once they had done so

light correctly infers that by default, your memory will remain unless you have killed with the notebook.

light realises he needs sayu to lose ALL her memories of the notebook, both for her mental health and because she knows he's killed someone with the notebook and is a liability

light briefly considers asking sayu to use the notebook once before forfeiting it

light dismisses this as an option

light asks ryuk if there are any other options

ryuk reluctantly informs light that yes he can erase sayu's memories of the notebook if she willingly chooses it

light convinces sayu to give up her memories and the notebook and promises he will destroy it

sayu trusts light and doesn't push him to destroy the book in front of her

sayu gives up the notebook and her memories

light becomes owner of the death note

story proceeds per canon

[cruyuu]

Last chapter leaked and is so, so bad

Hi anon.

I've actually skipped looking at leaks this time (and would do so in the future) because I've wanted to experience one chapter in its entirety and not just have it vaguely translated. Besides, I started to really hate how popularized leak culture is in this fandom. It's gotten so bad to the point that some people don't even read chapters, they just read leaks and that's it.

I understand why you might think it's bad. I also think so. There's two chapters left and, as a fan of the story, I dislike the direction of everything. It feels rushed and forced... it isn't fulfilling at all. I'm happy for those who do think it's good but for me it's a hard miss. Landings in shonen usually aren't pretty though so I'm used to it. (and even though there are two chapters left it still wouldn't change much really.)

As a Yuuji fan though, oh am I having fun lol.

I'm going to put the rest behind the cut (which is my opinion on this chapter).

We get explanations because of course we do. There were many fans who disapproved and called bs on the way the entire Sukuna fight was handled. I have to admit that even though I do think what Gege wrote makes sense, it still feels overtly complicated and just a tad plot convenient how everything played out perfectly. It's all just... I don't know. Too much explanation and little to do with imagination. I'm not a child so I don't need a chapter dedicated to spelling out little things that could've easily been mentioned at an according time (like during the battle).

Still... the way the powers work here in this story does require you to really sit and think and do require block after block of text. This is the one part that I never liked about jjk because explanations like these make character-oriented moments feel less alive and make all of them behave like a bunch of dolls because one moment you'll see them talking but the next panel you're met with a whole class on jujutsu. It was always bizarre to me how little interaction there was between characters... hell if you take away the class sessions, they rarely have moments where they talk amongst themselves for themselves instead of giving a lesson on jujutsu or strategizing. It's admittedly a bit strange but oh well... it is what it is ig.

There's a reason (aside from certain characters being hot) why jjk's tag on ao3 has a lot of works. Some people take what we know and expand on it in a far less Gege-way by having characters interact with each other. I have grown to like more characters in fics way more so than in canon. In canon, only a handful of characters get my love and I'm sad to admit that those that do (such as Maki and Higuruma), quickly slip out of that loving spot and now I can't really feel as happy as I did about them before.

On that note, I haven't felt anything when Higuruma showed up alive. Yep lmfao. I used to feel for this man a lot and he is one of my top 3 (aside from Yuuji and Sukuna) but... I can't say I am happy that he's back. Now his sword disappearing in Yuuji's hand is for nothing and him clearly dying in front of Yuuji was for nothing. I still do love him and can't really dislike him (absolutely not) but canon... man the story really is kicking me in the butt when it comes to execution because ever since 265, the story had been a literal mindfuck. When I think I have a sense of where it is going to go, it goes a total opposite direction (and usually the one that doesn't really fit the vibes of the previous chapter). To me... the story's now all over the place which is contradictory because everything is being spoonfed to the readers and everything is "fine and dandy".

I still will complain because Shibuya arc had me thinking that I'd be reading something different (like CSM did) but then... here we are. There are practically no real consequences (aside from Gojo) in the Sukuna battle but at this point I wouldn't be surprised if he, too, gets a pass and gets resurrected. I would love nothing more than to read a shonen where the dead don't come back and where there's actual troubling consequences but then that wouldn't really be a shonen but would be a different genre all together (a seinen) so... yeah. I'm not going to count in Megumi's sister (because she's barely even a character) nor reincarnated cursed spirits (because we couldn't really even invest ourselves in them before they were gone) so you could say the only real casualty of the whole vs. Sukuna (aside from the Merger which wasn't even a real threat since Kenjaku wasn't even that intent on that plan in the end) is my time.

I'm just joking ofc, but I hope you get my point. It's not rewarding, not fulfilling and definitely not a good conclusion for someone who could barely even invest themselves into other characters. I still can't give a fuck about Yuta, or Kusakabe, or Panda. I feel just as stone-faced as Nobara and Yuuji did during the latter half of 268 when Megumi joined them. It's all so... whatever. (and it's kinda hilarious to me because the fandom is losing their minds and meanwhile the characters are lowkey behaving like dolls lol)

Still for those who did enjoy this and do love how everything is unraveling and so on and so forth, good for them. I'm just stating my opinion. Some might get the impression that I would love for jjk to be a tragedy, and tbh, I would not but I really would've loved if Gege, as an author, made me care about the side characters more. Instead the side characters to me feel like empty husks and I attached myself to Yuuji because his development seemed interesting only for it all to amount to weird ass interaction with the entire cast and back to being benched. He's literally playing spectator now in this chapter and yeah... it's really disappointing.

Again, two chapters left and this is where we're at. Lol.

I don't want to be a killjoy but yeah. It's not all so bad really but it is frustrating how little there is about the world and in general how many things have been shelved in favor of what we got now. Instead of seeing these interactions (which was just recycled "ok so this happened which wasn't explained") we could've gotten explanations regarding Yuuji's linage, his talk with Gojo, or for that matter, had character behave a little less like npc's in a video game that repeat the same dialogue when you come up to talk with them.

What this chapter did reveal which was also funny (said with anger btw) to me is this:

So Yuuji's "gloves" weren't really a cool feature that came from swallowing his half-brothers but by mr. Chosen One himself. Le big sigh.

Okay so... the Yuta glaze. No offense to people that like him but since when did he develop this much that he overshadowed everyone (even the King of Curses) in the end? Not only is his plan this successful but turns out that without him, everything would've failed.

I'm just straight up baffled at the amount of attention he's getting because last time I checked he wasn't the one who brought back the literal threat of the series and had absolutely no connections with the secondary antagonist (Kenjaku). Instead of the supposed main character who never had gotten the spotlight in his own fucking story (which is just proving those haters right atp because truly what the actual hell is jjk about? Everyone but Yuuji.) to get something that belongs to him... Nope. None of that.

If you thought this was an actual serious story then well... jokes on you. This panel is actually lowkey hilarious but because I really had grown fond of the story I just find it frustrating.

Yeah I... I don't know what to say really but Gege really disappointed me with this. I'm not much hopeful for the future (because the writing does feel quite cheap) and therefore will stop treating jjk like I did before. Does this mean that I hate it? No. I'm just disappointed.

I will keep my head up for like two chapters more since I'm curious what else can happen but then will definitely move on. Not from the characters tho who (luckily) can exist outside of canon. Yuuji and Sukuna will always be my babies and others are still there in my heart even though I'm very much so frustrated with the story.

So yeah... there you go. I probably might skip answering asks regarding the chapters in the future bc I really don't care anymore. If Yuuji's linage get addressed (which is the only thing I care about atp bc everything else is starting to annoy me) I might be okayish with whatever the hell we get as the ending.

[butch-reidentified]

I'm sorry if it came off as rude, I was agreeing with your reblog 😔 I'm aware that butch doesn't really mean masculine, as I said it's just a personal preference, and the butch/femme dichotomy always read as a bit weird to me because femme literally just means "woman".

To be fair, I only have the french context for this and those terms aren't nearly as popular here. But if you have good resources about the history of those terms I'd genuinely love to educate myself on it, it's quite fascinating.

Love your blog btw !

you did not come off rude don't worry!! just felt it was important to be said!!

i used to speak french very well but not so good anymore, but i do understand feeling weird about the term femme bc of it forsure. I would appreciate if we had a different term specifically for lesbians who are - and please interpret this abstractly bc the language for what I'm attempting to describe here simply does not exist in any language I speak - "feminine" in a way that (intentionally or otherwise) subverts conventional femininity and is not appealing to the traditional male gaze/behavioral preference. sort of like... unapologetic outspoken opinionated women, casual dresses and leg hair, floral prints and bushy eyebrows vibes, but not exactly? aspects of femininity but not total feminine performance, and most importantly with gnc behaviors like importantly including unlearning femsoc etc? women who have done the work to unlearn the femininity forced on us growing up and afterward found they genuinely like select "feminine" things in a nonperformative way? language has always felt wildly limiting to me but I'm hoping at least some will understand me on this. and really hoping nobody takes it too literally lol

the reason I (playfully) call my wife femme is she has done that work, has intensively introspected on her female socialization and spent significant time intentionally defying it to give herself perspective and a shot at engaging with traits typically seen as "feminine" from as much of a truly voluntary place as possible, and found she enjoys certain things that fall into that category. most of those things are invisible to people outside our relationship and closest friend circles, whereas if we're downtown she's not going to be viewed as feminine by strangers at all. I think that's a way more meaningful lesbian archetype than using "femme" (or any alternative term) to mean "gender conforming/totally feminine" or even, if we're honest, often used to refer to "straight-passing" lesbians, which my wife is not even close to being.

I personally feel that butch has a highly specific and unique crucial lesbian cultural context & history that would & should persist in a postgender world, that is much more about a specific lesbian "archetype" than relationship to gender & can exist without relationship to gender just fine. to me, butchness requires gender nonconformity in a patriarchal, gendered world, but that's only a prerequisite, not a defining characteristic of butchness itself. does that make sense? sometimes my communication style only makes sense to me n my wife lmfao (same w hers even tho its very diff from mine)

I agree about butch/femme. it's not - or at least shouldn't be seen as - a dichotomy. I don't prefer feminine women, I prefer gnc women for SURE, but I don't consider myself butch4butch bc my preference is for gnc women in general not just butches (like what I said ab my wife being gnc but not butch).

I used to have resources on this, but unfortunately I have a terrible memory and can't remember them at the moment to save my life. hoping someone who follows me will!!

this was much longer than I anticipated lmao & idk if it will actually make any real sense to anyone else 😅

[bigskydreaming]

I feel like the jokes about "who would have thought that making a show just like Squid Game would actually turn out just like Squid Game" are less funny when you consider that many of the people who said that they signed up for this and talked about what they endured are explicitly clear about how they did not do so out of naievete or because they were somehow under the impression that noooooo a show that says hah hah we're just like Squid Game might turn out to be terrible just like Squid Game, they did it because they felt desperate enough that it seemed worth it anyway!

Y'know. Almost like how in the original Squid Game show, the point was not that all of the contestants agreed to it because they were too stupid to know any better or see how what they were agreeing to could possibly go wrong, but umm, what was that recurring theme running through all the character arcs again....oh. Right! They felt desperate enough that it seemed worth it anyway!

If you're going to insist on Ironic Chuckles about how the real world emulation of the satirical device shockingly ended up replicating what made the satirical device Bad, please consider also pairing that with some awareness of how this irony doesn't exist in a vacuum any more than the original satire existed one. Perhaps the part to focus on is how the conditions the original work cited as the source idea and justication and mechanism its Satirical Device was based on and fed on and required to operate......obviously already exist in abundance in the real world, given that they were the literal thing being satirized!

Personally, in my experience the satirical cautionary tales that usually grab mass attention and make people sit up and go whoa shit.....are the ones where 'the horrible place we could end up in given the way things already are in the world as it exists' actually feels really fucking plausible based on where the conditions-being-satirized have already led society.

So yeah, 'can't believe scientists made the torment nexus the don't fucking make the torment nexus movie was about' humor really fucking misses the point for me, lmfao.

Scientists who insist on trying to make the fucking torment nexus that probably shouldn't be made because of how it could be misused....are not doing that because they're fucking dumb, they're doing it because people who want to fucking misuse the torment nexus in that exact way for their own personal gratification are providing them with incentives and reasons for doing that which they consider to be more important or necessary or desirable to them than underlying concerns that people might misuse the torment nexus they make.

Similarly, some people look at a satirical cautionary tale and see not a horror story of a future that everyone should want to prevent, but a blueprint for how to get as much money and/or power as the people pulling the strings in that tale. Because their base motivation is not 'well as someone who lives in a society' but 'well as someone who thinks society should live for them,' like...shockingly, how can I get an 'I got mine' moment out of this is gonna be their takeaway from pretty much any story!

Because they have willfully chosen to uncheck the box that asks if they would like to receive or internalize any "and this is why you should care" takeaways from this and most stories on account of.....we are talking about people who have long since made the decision not to care about any drawbacks their personal pursuit of getting and hoarding all the capital might have on anyone who is not them!

Anyway anyway whatever blah blah - my point is just....if your takeaway is genuinely either "who thought making something like the Squid Game could possibly be a good idea" or "who thought signing up for something like the Squid Game could possibly be a smart idea" mine is just "did you genuinely think you got the point of Squid Game because I kinda feel like you missed the point of Squid Game."

[cinamun]

Hi! I've been wanting to make my own sim story (currently in the stages of fighting my insecurities of inadequacy) but I wanted to know what's your process between writing and talking pictures? Like, do you find poses to fit the scene you've written, or write around poses you've found? I have this image in my head of how things should look, but I can't find the poses for them and it has become very frustrating.

OMG THATS SO FRUSTRATING!!! Sorry nonny, I had to react to that last sentence first because maaaaaannnnn lol

Secondly, I absolutely want you to make your own sim story, we're a whole subculture and we're kinda dope. Plus who doesn't love a good book? But instead of a book, its 10+ pictures and a transcript from a game we all love?

My process changes depending upon what I'm going for but here's the gist of it:

Before I even open up the game (or while its loading) I'm thinking about what the scene is gonna be. Then I start googling poses. Mind you, I have a LOT of poses already so I do this moreso to see if I already have something. Will the scene require hugging, physical touch, arguing, playing a sport, etc. Then I start downloading. Now, if google turns up nothing, I use what I already have and make it work. I typically have to google if I'm doing something out of the ordinary, like that football game. As a storyteller, you'll want lots of conversation, emotion, couple and single poses. Of ALL varieties (like couple walking, single texting poses, stuff like that), you can never have too many of those. Model poses and stuff like that I rarely use (except for prom lol).

Then, I go in game and set up scenes, go into CAS and change outfits for the occasion and start thinking about dialogue. For me, the dialogue happens in Photoshop. I have a general idea of what will be said, but it isn't fleshed out until I'm looking at the screens in photoshop (when I'm doing this, I'm noticing facial expressions, body language, the mood, the lighting, etc). I don't have anything scripted, I just have the idea in my head, although I've definitely taken notes because I'll think of something I want to be said and don't want to lose it (my short term memory sucks ass).

If you get stuck on the poses that don't fit, definitely google, its helped me more than I can imagine, sometimes google images will lead me to pinterest which will have poses that don't show up in the google search. Don't let that frustrate you too much, because when all else failed, I've had two OCs just start a conversation, watch real close and if I'm quick enough with the pause button, I can get a great shot:

Above pic Indya was not posed but Darren was. I sent her to the bedroom and she walked past looking at him like this LMFAO swear! So I hit the pause button and the dialogue I was thinking of lined up perfectly.

If anything, this is a practice and I'm so glad you asked because for as long as I've been writing sims stories, I still get stuck, I still can't find what I need and only recently actually asked a friend if they did commissions because I really REALLY wanted a certain scene!! Ugh! And with the level of adulting I have to do, I honestly don't have time to learn poses so I'm so so thankful for those that know how and share them. I get how frustrating it is because the last thing you want to do is change a mood or a scene because you can't find the right pose.

This was long as hell but I hope it helps in some way! Reach out any time for tips, tricks and whatever the hell else! I love y'all and want to read your stories!

[transpersian]

"As far as what to do between you and zena, I think the conclusions you both came to were frankly absurd and don't make sense with what you know about each other" 

According to this logic, asking someone to stop being aggressive and hostile towards you because it is upsetting is "absurd." Which, last I checked, is actually fucking asinine lmfao. 

You: Please don’t treat me like this (lists specific aggressive behaviors) because it triggers me severely. 

Zena: I can’t help but treat you like that because I have a disorder, so that excuses my behavior and you are actually being unreasonable and triggering ME by asking me not to behave this way. 

Let's roll with the assumption that Zena can't control these aggressive behaviors. If this is really the case, then not being able to help it does not equal being justified to mistreat you. If this is a boundary you have clearly stated, and they cannot 'help' but cross it, then their response shouldn't be "then you are being unreasonable for not accepting this," but rather, "Since this behavior is seemingly inevitable, we can take steps to make sure you aren’t around zena as much, but especially when they are like this, or even at all if that is what needs to happen. We won’t take this personally because this is not something either of you can help." I already take umbrage with the idea that Zena is apparently so unable (and unwilling!) to control themself around you (and when I say control themself, I mean they could literally take their own advice and walk away but they only pose this as an option for you- why? It reeks of deflecting accountability to make you the problem.) But fine, let’s say it is true. This should be a horrifying revelation for them, just like it was to you. But they actually seem to get mad at you for being horrified. How dare you not want to be treated this way! It’s like they are accusing you of ableism for being triggered by aggressive behavior. Let’s take an example where someone is HOH and needs music turned up all the way to hear, but it hurts the ears of those around them. Sure, they need it and can’t help it, but there are alternatives to just forcing everyone else to suffer in order for their needs to be met. It seems very ridiculous, like they are constricting you into only this ONE specific resolution: their way or the highway. You either agree with them, let them behave however they want without consequence, or you are an evil entitled asshole. They are trapping you in this horrible lose-lose box here. 

It is not absurd at all to want to avoid a trigger- and even if it wasn’t such an upsetting trigger for you personally, really most people would object to being treated like that regardless of personal history. ESPECIALLY in a professional business-oriented setting. I’m sorry, but having a disorder does not give you the right to harass your employees. It is not up to the people around them, that work for them, to walk on eggshells to avoid being yelled at and publicly shamed. The fact that many of these employees are also in relationships with them only makes this worse.

Poppy saying, “this is the reality of dealing with Zena,” is deeply ironic. She uses this language that seems like it's meant to come across as wisely pragmatic- We Can’t Change It So We Must Accept It. But this doesn’t work for a couple reasons. One, if we apply this logic to other people and situations then it dissolves immediately. If an animal can’t help but be aggressive, do we just let it attack people because it can’t help it? If anyone does anything at all that is harmful or uncomfortable for another person, are we required to withstand it even if said action is not something they can help? Why wouldn’t you inquire about possible ways to mitigate damage and/or prevent harm? That is a perfectly reasonable to thing to do and it is so fucking strange that they are framing this as something absurd. Like it is actually blowing my mind. It is not only a logical fallacy, but a manipulative, controlling, and harmful mindset. How dare you not let yourself be hurt to spare Zena’s feelings!! Fucking ridonculous. If This is ‘the reality of dealing with Zena’ then it is a shitty and broken reality and they should be sorry that it harmed you, not getting mad at you for being harmed. 

It also completely contradicts their attitude towards Lily. Apparently, hostile and aggressive behavior isn’t okay when it’s coming from her even though she also has a history with trauma and disordered behavior. If it isn’t okay for her to act the way that she does and use her past abuse and disorders to excuse her actions, then why is it okay for Zena and Poppy? For the record, just in case it isn’t clear, I am not in any way defending Lily. I am simply pointing out the hypocrisy of their attitude towards others versus themselves. 

Also, I find it funny how Zena was like “you better not air anything to other people” when they literally did that exact thing in the first screenshot where they publicly blasted that one editor in the groupchat for contacting only Poppy, not Poppy and Zena. I understand wanting to be included and having trauma surrounding being ignored, but the degree to which Zena takes this is downright controlling. “YOU DIDN”T ADD ME TO THE GROUP CHAT” like do they not actually hear how they sound??? Especially after that editor made it clear they only had something to say to Poppy because it directly pertained to Poppy? I’m screaming. There is something deeply broken and dangerous about the way they interact with others.

Again, always a relief to see how obvious it is to others. I don’t think I need to add anything to this one.

Thank you for reading and reaching out. 💜

[kawaiichibiart]

Part 2 of sharing some of my favorite things from Prosekai Chat Fics

(As a reminder, this is summed up and not exactly quote for quote)

Today's fic is:

akito shinonome's terrible horrible no good very bad day

• The characters talk just as much in the chats descriptions as they do in the actual chat

• An and Akito betting to see when Ruikasa will start dating, An wins (sucks to suck Akito, I'm kidding)

• Akito Shinonome, Wonderlands x Showtime's temporary prisoner (as a result of his bet with An)

• Happy birthday Emu! BTW, Ena and Mizuki are trying to steal Tsukasa from us, Wonderlands x Showtime, so here's a toy machine gun you can shoot them with until they stop trying to take him away {:

• 𝔜𝔢 𝔒𝔩𝔡𝔢 ℭ𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔠𝔦𝔩 𝔇' 𝔏𝔢𝔰𝔟𝔦𝔞𝔫𝔰 (yes the font was required)

• their chat names (very much happy to see the continuation of having Kohane's be hamster related (: )

• Wonderlands x Showtime? More like Wonderlands x Gaytime.

• What are you talking about Shousuke? We aren't bullying you. - WxS

Shousuke: Why me?

• Nene: All the stage Divas are lesbians.

Sakurako: Yeah!

• Akito: Imagine being in your 20s and getting bullied by teenagers.

• An and Kohane: We know Minori Hanasato and are not afraid to call and ask her to show up to PXL with her big fluffy dog if you mess with Tsukasa. :)

Akito: WTF?!

• Minori: After discussing with Tsukasa and his bf, I have decided I will show up to PXl with Samo-chan if I get the word from Kohane Asuzawa. :)

Haruka: Kohane Asuzawa? The girl who looks kinda like a hamster?

• Minori + Tsukasa = wlw/mlm solidarity

• Mizuki: You are all my little scrunklies!!

Tsukasa: I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR LITTLE SCRUNKLIE!!

• Nene: Tsukasa, ask Miku if the VS have a religion.

Tsukasa: Miku, do the VS have a religion?

Miku: KAITO was crucified once, so we treat him like you treat Jesus. Ask him about other religions because I don't know about those ones.

Ichika: WTF WHY WAS THIS WHAT I OPENED THE CHAT TO?!

• There are pictures and they're all so fucking funny-

• Rui: The day Mizuki starts showing up for school daily is the day I start eating vegetables

Mizuki: LMAO bet

Rui: WAIT NO-

• Tsukasa: Guys stop bullying Shouseke :(

Rui and Akito:...

Shousuke:....

Tsukasa: he's too old, he can't read your messages fast enough :(

Akito: LMFAO

• Toyaki

• The signature ☆ from Tsukasa

• Nene thanking the gods for Toya Aoyagi saving her from Tsukasa who all but ran to their (Nene's and Toya's) homeroom so he could fight her.

• Akito's bucket list: fight an, win.

Akito: I tackled An for nothing?

Toya: At least you can check something off your bucket list.

Akito: oh yeah.

An: TACKLING ME WAS ON YOUR BUCKET LIST?!?!?!

Akito: Actually it was winning a fight against you, but it'll work.

• Rui Kamishiro: copier of Nene Kusanagi's Halloween costumes, even when bought/made at the last possible second.

• Ken Shiraishi being best dad by going to see Akito perform with WxS <3

If you're interested in reading this fic, check it out here:

[chitsangenthusiast]

6, 12, 20 for the writing ask😘

6. Favorite title you used

ohohoohohohh it's def the one for the zukka novels fic i wrote, 'in time's arrow'! a mariana trench/challenger deep au obviously required me to research a fitting title (both to fit the au and the novel's theme of this year!). landed on 'in time's arrow' after finding it in a letter from one of the first two people who traveled to the deepest part of the ocean, describing what he thought had been a fish:

And as we were settling this final fathom, I saw a wonderful thing. Lying on the bottom just beneath us was some type of flatfish [...] even as I saw him, his two round eyes on top of his head spied us – a monster of steel – invading his silent realm. Eyes? Why should he have eyes? Merely to see phosphorescence? The floodlight that bathed him was the first real light ever to enter this hadal realm. Here, in an instant, was the answer that biologists had asked for the decades. Could life exist in the greatest depths of the ocean? It could! [...] Yes, a highly evolved vertebrate, in time’s arrow very close to man himself. Slowly, extremely slowly, this flatfish swam away. Moving along the bottom, partly in the ooze and partly in the water, he disappeared into his night.

(spoiler: if you got bones, you can't exactly survive the insane amounts of pressure that far down. it was likely a sea cucumber or smth he actually saw lol)

12. How many WIP’s do you have in your docs for next year?

i just start crying. all of them, any of them!

lmfao #1 is finishing the last chapter of mallrat, then two nsfws i have in the oven, and then.........idk i have two oneshots that are 80% completed but there's also a lot of papercrafts i wanna do so. so! cries

20. Which work of yours have you reread the most?

oohhhhh of published it's hold me like you do, cover me in blue. hands, knees, please, tangerine is second for when i need to remember how to write nsfw lol but of not published, i frequently reread this ''avatar" sokka oneshot i have and snippets from a half-dormant izumi tripleshot bc the scenes make me v happy :,)

ao3 wrapped ask game

[sparatus]

What oc do you not talk about enough? Tell me about them but I require also to know what their favorite color and prehistoric creature. Thank you!

ohhh so many really, lemme think who's a good one [rifles through catalog] ..... man i haven't really talked about rise & reign much since i made this new account huh. okay kids let's talk about my dumb stupid son axilus :)

this big beefy dumb idiot is axilus madelivio (bold is a link, there's a size comparison ;) ):

(i know he's big and beefy but if you thirst over him i'm legally allowed to kill you. his story starts when he's like 16 this is not a thirst character he's just a big boy)

he's actually my very first mass effect oc and the reason i got into it!! my partner @lightspeedpowerpunk started playing m.e. alllll the way back in senior year of high school (2014!!!) and texted me about the m.e. au he was thinking of for some of our existing ocs, and asked me to look up turians and give him some design ideas for a turian expy of one of our original verse characters, axel madsen, and while i was doing that i just kinda... fell in love with the species and wanted to play the games, and then eli published the first chapter of an oc fic featuring axilus and his (eventual) quarian boyfriend thie'haasn, and now here we are 8 years later,

he's also going to appear in in the land of giants in a couple story arcs, can't wait to force everyone to see my actual favorite child, sorry matteo

(more under the cut cause this got. rEALLY LONG OOPS,)

axilus is a big boy, and a sweetheart, but not really a gentle giant; he's very much large and in charge, and isn't afraid to use both his immense strength and biotics to get rid of people annoying him, lmfao. his biotics manifested late, when he was 16. he'd been latent until then, until an accident during what was supposed to be his squad's last training mission activated them (read: thie detonated his own biotics in ax's arms to save them from incoming batarians) and sent everything a little loopy. he was already not doing hyper-amazing in the military, and his commanding officer saw nothing but misery in his future if he was shoved into the cabals, so she pushed him out to go adventuring with thie instead before the transfer could be completed.

considering ax's dad aephis and grandfather octyrus are both high-ranking officers in the army and navy respectively, this uh.... didn't go over well :D

after a bunch of other events that are detailed in mine and eli's series rise & reign that we swear we're planning to rewrite soon don't read it god the 2014 humor and "these authors need therapy actually" jumps RIGHT out, he and thie end up becoming captains of their own pirate-slash-mercenary crew, favored activity being hunting slavers for fun and profit. then All That Shit happens in 2186 [reaper war or cerberus trying to start galactic war, depending on canon] and they decide to retire, passing the ship on to their longtime friend raik gemeng and settling on palaven in ax's mom's family home in zouklos [tropical jungle + farmland nation on the southern continent] with their big gaggle of a family: along with thie he also marries his childhood best friend freiya and has a son with her, they have two asari children fathered by one of them each and mothered by a couple different asari friends, they adopt some war orphans who latched onto them, it's a full house.

all the while during their travels, axilus also works on steadily getting his doctorate in turian history, specializing in pre-spaceflight palavenian history and a sprinkling of cultural anthropology. once they retire, he gets a teaching job with the university he was studying with. freiya is an army officer and thie ends up working with c-sec, so axilus is the one home with the kids a lot, and if his parents or grandparents aren't available to take care of them while he's off teaching, they'll sometimes come in to class with him and steal the show.

his father aephis is a spec ops officer with the army, and his mom sephira is an astronautical engineer with TEC specializing in mass effect propulsion drives. she was even the project lead for the tantalus drive core project! he has an older brother, tollak, who's autistic and goes into law and later politics, eventually becoming the new councilor once sparatus retires after the war and the thessian beacon conspiracy have been mopped up.

when thie first wakes up after ax and his squad saved him, he meets axilus properly for the first time... and mistakes him for councilor sparatus, whom ax looks nothing like, because thie, a quarian, can't tell turian markings apart properly and also we hc quarians have reduced color vision so thie straight up cannot tell that the two are different colors. this is actually a meta joke, as when i was helping design ax, again with zero knowledge of who any of these characters were, i picked sparky's picture of the wiki and said "here, like this" for the color. the end result was more maroon than sparky's true brown, but eli threw that in the fic as a wink-wink-nudge-nudge to my design notes, and now we just. hang onto it, for comedy reasons. it is in fact funnier the less alike they actually look, thie's just colorblind.

..... and then, after that joke was already written and published, we went "haha hey what if" and then decided sparky and ax are, in fact, related. they're first cousins once removed. axilus's father aephis is ierian sparatus's cousin, their mothers corinn and meana are sisters, ax's great-grandma and sparky's grandma are the very same person, the one and only calvetana sparatus. hilariously, i probably never would have started really considering sparky as a character if he didn't have that one minor joking connection to my big dumb son. so, really, everything about my work to date with the sparatus clan and "the council does have a good reason to not believe you actually" defense is axilus's fault.

he's a sweetheart and usually the level head to thie's impulsivity, and honestly a lot smarter than he gives himself credit for. he's just not good at math! it's fine! he has computers to do it for him! his mommy is an engineer and he thinks he's dumb cause he doesn't understand what a derivative is, but she doesn't know how he remembers specific dates and years in history and why they're significant so it's fair. sephira loves and supports her sons and is secretly very happy when ax retires from piracy and comes back to palaven, she doesn't want her babies in danger even if they ARE absolute fucking tanks of drakes.

his favorite color is red, even if tragically it doesn't look great on him as a main color thanks to his being maroon, and i haven't put a lot of work into prehistoric palavenian wildlife (the megafauna in tiirtias technically count but they're very much still alive, lol) but i think he'd go apeshit for sabretooth cats, because they look very similar to how i imagine shatha!! and he'd think it's super cool how animals from completely different parts of the galaxy can still evolve roughly the same way, and then the theorizing on why terran sabretooth cats went extinct while the palavenian shatha variants survived would begin,

thank you for asking!!!! i love my big dumb baby i swear a r&r rewrite is in the plans so i can force you all to know my ocs against your will y'all can see the story unfold with better writing and updated lore, we just have to reread and make a plan for what's getting fixed

[blackvahana]

19/12/23

Brought to an ocean in Lev's territory to possess it so that he could see and help me document my Astral self. Accidentally turned into trying to eat him. D: Me L: Lev Double hyphens indicate time has passed. Info (in brackets) is me going back adding context to the discussion post-discussing

D: You told me to come to you (from my astral house to where you are)? I was really expecting this to be more alien than it is. We're sort of just hovering on the waves - no, you're standing on them which... Raises fascinating questions about whether you're subduing their rockiness around us or not - yeah, saw that smile, that's a you yes. I'm hovering though. The sky is as liquid as the waves are, the sun above intensely orange-coloured streaming through big, big clouds. Like really big. They're really far up. I feel like I just entered a minecraft world where the height limit and cloud height were just dragged up substantially. There's a lot to "sniff" honestly, there's a very you-feeling matrix around this entire area but inverted..? It's not like the rain around my astral house where it feels like a body of yours and your energy, this is... Like you've marked the entire area with your name in-between the space. Oh? You point up? Shit. why do I feel like and seem to see there's more than one sun here

L: There is.

D: My first thought is Ahi is here, because generally when something you-related is huge in the sky coming into the atmosphere from above it's Ahi... No, this feels like we're underneath a big orrery.

L: "No"?

D: Related to Ahi then? Yes. Ok. Feels like... When I say to myself it might be Ahi's claiming of this space... it isn't actually, or not the exact same. If your matrix of claiming ownership was like a robotic, systematic claiming, sort of like a network of metal chains locking out others, his is like a bush growing up in-between and out of complexes of atoms and whatnot.

--

L: That should be some time then to get used to things. You are... Threaded through this ocean I see (astral body dissolving, consciousness possessing it), you can handle this however you want to. Soon, though, given where you're sliding, you're going to dissolve. There is no right way of doing this, I called you here to see you and document you, whether you possess this ocean as your body or use "your own" - as if any body is not the same as another body - it will get the job done. Really, though, I know where this is going. Just let it go that way. 

Before we start: I will be pushing you. Invoking what you said about wanting me to take control and push you into change. Go ahead though with your observation.

D: This is a sort of training or simulation ground isn't it. Like it's astral yes?

L: I can't answer that.

D: Well... We'll see I guess. But that's why Ahi's "sun" is so plantlike right, it was this feeling he came down here to try things out or... I don't know. Something like that.

L: It is used, emphasis on used, as a ground for... I wouldn't say training ground. This place is also used by those coming into the nearby harbour, it's a stretch in my territory, it's just that it, due to how the Astral works, stretches into my mind. It is Astral though.

D: OK good because it feels like that, yeah. Feels astral I mean, but there's also a very oppressive sense of You lmfao. Anyway. So yeah, it's a lot easier to spread out here in this ocean than I thought it'd be. I feel at least a mile deep though I'm not sure if that's good to feel or not, like maybe... Idk how to word that

L: You may be right though (about how deep), or more so I trust your feeling. I can't see you, and that's good. That means you aren't pretending. Swell the waters a bit where we stand for me.

D: That requires understanding... How to... Pull and push. Not as simple as what it's like in the Mental, there's a whole process here of intricately understanding the physics of this place. I'm attempting to - whoops

L: Yes, you are de-meshing with the ocean. Thick black tentacle, hello.

D: I'm struggling to stay possessing the ocean. Should I go closer to bliss state (state involved in becoming one with a part of the world)?

L: That is entirely optional, but it is something you can do about this.

D: Anyway. Trying to siphon in more water to the part of the ocean I'm possessing. It's getting hard to for... various reasons lmfao, but I can feel fish in me. I'm distracted.

L: Because you aren't getting immediate satisfaction like you do in the Mental. Concentrate.

D: I'm wondering if I'm getting results at all. Here, let me tune out of typing and try something.

L: Felt. But you aren't just moving the ocean. I feel intense vibrations in the air like deep musical bass to the point your physical body's head is feeling vibrations. Parts of the sky are growing black. The waves are getting chopper, actually, frothing. Here, I'll tell you a secret, not as if you didn't know you just forgot: I'm holding the waves down, remember? I'm a force acting against you - oh. Here starts the whispers. The sky on the horizon is black, the waves begin to froth, the atmosphere is whispering. I would rather you didn't put my Sun out with those clouds but... You're going to, aren't you. You are descending beyond your mind's confines... The entire sea is groaning like bending metal, or... Like that art installation you relate to of the "angels" "singing". You know, if I wasn't used to doing this myself, I might be intimidated by you - the Sun peaks from the sky in momentary joy as you get excited.

Let me slowly reduce the force I have over these waves, then, to un-still them.

Whirlpool. Clockwise. The entire world is being sucked into your magnetic force, reality is very hard to hold on to. In fact, I'm. Struggling to stay in the scene, as if I'm being thrown out of a dream through waking up, genuinely, given how hard your form is pulling on the mind... Ah, I see. You're trying - not consciously, but your body is - to consume me through eating the nervous system of my consciousness in its body. It isn't malicious, so I know you're in the bliss state, though that is obvious given you don't like feeding when conscious (outside the bliss state). You're dragging me down into a dream state though. Psychedelics/madness aspects of yours in full swing.

I say we'll take a break now.

--

Fascinating. I'm drenched, for one. Exhausted and yet I can feel my nerves sparking like cut wires. I suppose that's because I shut off the connection and brought you back to reality before you actually consumed me, or.. I suppose before you chewed up one of my bodies and passed it through you, you couldn't harm me like that (not possible for me to kill him). It seems you were trying - again, your body, physiology, you've done nothing wrong and I wanted to see this - to fracture and fray my form until it dissolved, specifically the consciousness networks inside me. Very aligned with your aspects of madness and psychedelics as I said since it seems your energies' goals were... dreaming, you were attempting to pull apart my consciousness into dreaming and vision-tripping, though, while you can do this without harming me and generally you do, this was very much... Less like sacred medicine, much more like a toxic plant whose visions are a forced swansong.

D: Do you need to recover?

L: Less that I need to recover, though you have done a little damage to this body. More so I need to make some extensive documents for you to go over with you so you understand, in line with your request for me to document through your body since I am more - ah. You've successfully entered my body, this is very akin to a sacred plant poisoning. I'm going to need you to go back to possessing the ocean and affect me in a more gentle and "positive" intentioned light, because your energy began the process of journeying in me. "Eldritch" is your word, isn't it? The deep energy that multiplies and is alive in and of itself and grows copies when cut off into someone else...

--

L: I can't lie and say I didn't see that coming, I am threaded through fate lines especially in my territory. You know I am not one for compliments, so this will be brief. My conscious, human body didn't particularly predict it going this direction at least.

Dizziness, nausea, I would be getting a bigger headache if and indeed worse dizziness and nausea if you hadn't reversed the consuming psychedelics process. Frayed consciousness lines. Distant soundless ringing in my head, and, specifically, that ringing is the vision journey you were pulling into me, which was - through the whirlpool - the sky looking down on to another whirlpool in day-blue colours, more gentle, like a seaside beach rather than the ferocious storm siphon in reality. Strange, dreamlike... Something I am familiar with though, it's the mirroring effect of the Mental which is hooked into by sacred plants. Ah, head is swimming though, I feel like I inhaled chlorine water.

I don't particularly care if there's lasting symptoms after this, I could always kill this body and bring another one back, though that's not going to be necessary given our connection means I can undo what you do. Regardless, this - still being affected by it, though at this point your energy has been neutralised and the after effects are mostly just recovering - gives me a better view of your energy can do, and I will have that in the report for you.

I will have to see you do this in various spaces, I believe as an initial hypothesis that the density and trickiness of this plane is counteracted by your connection to it so it shouldn't be more or less difficult to that on this plane than any other... (...)

[viiridiangreen]

job related bitching again

Some or other corner of the abysmally badly organised company I regretfully still work for failed to pay our subscription to gettyimages for a whole year. Now that the renovation date is up, they'd have to pay what they owe before they can sign us up for this year... but of course they're interpreting that as """"pAyInG dOubLe""".... like...... my corposhithead in christ, NO LMFAO, that's literally just what the company owes and what the service is worth???? it's not even your money why are you so fucking pressed????

So of course someone is bullying my boss into bullying my supervisor into bullying me into wasting my time going over a list of like eight different image libraries checking whether 'the images are good' so we can hopefully pay off the debt with Getty then shave a few cents off the design budget by signing up for a shittier smaller service. Said budget must be half a shoestring bc we've been pleading and begging for a proper computer for me to work on since I got here two years ago, but they keep issuing me garbage that's scarcely capable of more than sending emails. Which means I spend more time waiting for the fucking thing to load or troublehsooting than actually working whenever I'm forced to come into the office instead of working from home on a functional rig. Which means if I hadn't had my own personal PC to work on I would've failed to do my job & prolly gotten the boot, so anyone with a little less privilege than I would've been screwed from the beginning :)

This is all because fucking off and staying in their lanes and paying what the stupid fucking dinosaur of a company owes is either out of the question or will require hours upon hours of effort to convince them with a report that I'm sure these motherfuckers won't (and can't) understand bc if they had any aesthetic sense whatsoever they'd be doing my job instead of earning 8x to be a pain in everyone's ass... so it'll all come down to how whoever can approve the expense and their feefees on the day of the meeting where they decide it 🫠

[theghostofashton]

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[trainwreckweather]

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[ratanslily]

Apologies in advance I have a lot of fee-fees about Bloodbound and its ending and not a lot of them are good lmfao. I think the whole LI death controversy thing in Bloodbound is a result of a failing of its story tbh. Ending on a somber note with a death of a friend is fine, even desirable in a CYA game that wants that angst as it offers a significant branching path for the viewer without actually changing the ending so it isn't a lot of work to code. (Especially if the conditions are simple, in this case being "we killed this one bc you flirted with that one" or whatever the conditions were I don't remember.)

The thing is though is that deaths at the end should be thematic in some way; since there's a limited time afterwards to process because the story is ending in just a few lines. ILITW deaths, for example, didn't really get the time it needed to let those deaths sink in. They have a funeral for a scene and that's it. If it's thematic you at least have that to think about and it feels like a sacrifice worth making. From what I remember (been a while) there isn't a specific theme around Lily/Jax's death - just for the angst. And that route is fine if there's a proper conclusion and send-off for the character I guess, just not ideal really. Audiences like their favs to die for reasons and not just for misery porn.

So Jax/Lily died for no reason but it was ALSO unequal. You have to have a pretty robust reason to kill x but not y. It could be a story reason, like y *could* have died but just happened to be in a different place through pure luck (gives thrill through an 'oh-shit' feeling) or a motivation (death of x inspires y, etc) or to display the power of the villain (typically used for side characters; used basically every 3rd chapter in Across the Void), or a theme (loss of loved ones, etc etc.)

In Bloodbound it's weird not just because they killed 1/2 of the poc LIs, because it highlights how 2/4 of the LIs are barely even involved in the lore of the world. Adrian and Kamilah are the only ones in MC's group who know what's going on because of their age, while Lily and Jax are just as fish-out-of-water as MC is. Adrian/Kamilah *can't* die because if they do the story can't come to a conclusion bc no one else knows anything about what's happening! And that's all because they decided to do an ancient fantasy epic instead of the vampires-in-a-modern-age setting that they built in the first book. There's a lot of feelings I have about BB's confused setting (it goes from modern day to ancient society to futuristic with the addition of the vamp hunters & the Big Four then to post-apocalypse and back to ancient times... why) but its biggest crime is that we're given 4 LIs and only 2 of them can actually move the story forward. It makes the other two's arcs feel especially "side" and no one can accomplish anything significant unless Kamilah or Adrian are there. If they really wanted to heavily incorporate ancient history with their 2 old lead vampires, then why not do a modern vs. ancient vampire conflict? Ffs you have 2 ancient LIs and 2 young vampire LIs, AND several ancient vampire villains (Gaius, that vamp hunter guy) and several young vampire villains (the Council guys). Highlight the differences between the two worlds by making them fight and then in book 3 oh shit it's Rheya, here to destroy the lifestyles of both vampire worlds time to Crush Ass, you know? (I honestly preferred the story w/o her but she's an important part of the world I guess) It was there it was right there the setting would have been more consistent and Jax and Lily wouldn't be just as confused around the story's events as the reader is because they're still in their modern world, playing by the rules that they learned in *contrast* to Adrian and Kamilah - as opposed to being forced to play by someone else's! And if you want an angsty end LI death you can kill everyone with no hesitation because everyone can move the plot forward!

I actually prefer the death system in ilitw. Sure, the funeral system was handled poorly but atleast there was a chance of everyone dying (no special preference for death art scenes, you know, unlike bb)

I'll always remain pissed about bb cuz they always shifted jax and lily to the side with either a) their backstory having bare minimum relevance to the plot b) in Lily's case practically 0 backstory. Jax gets some tapestry scenes in bb while lily just got one in that holiday book. while the whole series is just like adrian! kamilah! gauis! rheya! *insert more characters cuz my memory of bb is fading fast due to annoyance*

I wasnt there for bb release, only the third book. so idk how people handled the mistreatment of jax and lily before i joined in here

about pixelberry saving "money" by not making 3 adrian and 1 kamilah death art scene: [pb youre rich enough to fund art scenes for tna lol ik its all recolouring but there is too much art in books these days. hell, even standalones main lis get art. see: blaine hayes and edward mortemer] they couldve easily killed off gauis and call it a day, it would take just one art lol. mc and gauis were getting much buddy buddy those times too, it wouldve given the required angst.