Sometimes I think, like, how is it that these other trans people are struggling with dysphoria when they look so perfectly gender, y'know?
And then I realize, that people have told me that I look perfectly gender. And I still struggle with dysphoria. And then it all makes sense again.
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idk. trying to be better. i've been working out in the mornings lately, which has been annoyingly helpful in terms of having more energy. i've been cooking a little bit. reading a book about an antarctic expedition. getting guitar calluses on my right pinky so i can use it to play a new and improved version of that housman poem/song.
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it's called cowpunk
BUT THERE'S NO FUCKIN'. PLAYLISTS ON YT THAT ARE SONG COMPILATIONS
IT'S ALL PLAYLISTS PUT TOGETHER USING THE FUCKIN' PLAYLIST FUNCTION AND MY BRAIN WON'T LET ME TRY THOSE OUT FOR SOME ARBITRARY REASON
please for the love of god i want to listen to punk country music. i've secretly always loved the way that country music sounds but the lyrics are just so terrible so often that i've stayed away from it for the sake of my sanity
but punk as a genre has never failed me so COWPUNK, which is the punk subgenre in country music, should be fucking amazing. but there's like 5 playlists and brain is too scaredys to look at them. screaming crying throwing up taking my brain out and picking it apart with tweezers until i can figure out why those aren't good enough so i can problem solve
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fnaf will never ever never have a cohesive satisfying storyline and i think that's its best quality. by which i mean i hope mathew lillard's afton is the most unserious maniacally dancing evil-laughter batshit thing ever
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Unpacked the ornaments today and started laughing over this. He looks like a relative of Gritty. My mom bought him to represent my first christmas and over the years he's gotten crushed because she didn't do a great job of packing things up; I inherited some of her things after she died and kept even less, so digging to the bottom of the box today yielded the best laugh I've had in a while. He is now proudly on display dead center on the tree, close to Blue and Beta, and staring wildly into the room.
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Saw a post on here a while ago but can't find it now where op asked people what thing they were actually gatekeepy about in the "oh yeah? you think you're a REAL fan of xyz? the name This Many things about it" and couldn't think of what to respond with despite knowing there was SOMETHING.
Well. We figured it out.
Horror Media.
If you think Stephen King is the scariest horror writer ever, then we're side-eying you. If you think Bloober Team has ANY chance of making a good Silent Hill game, then we're side-eyeing you. If you think the giving the backrooms monsters or lore is a good idea, then we're side-eyeing you.
Look, we get different people have different likes and dislikes, but if you're a fan of horror then mayyyyybe you should try to find a writer who isn't so tame our own 59-year-old mother when she was in her 20s? Or a dev team that doesn't seem to think people with trauma/mental illness should unalive themselves because of it? Or think about how fear of the unknown and fear of isolation is actually scarier than a place full of monsters that you can apparently escape if you can stick it out?
So yeah, we're a bit gatekeepy about horror and horror media. That said, liking something because you just think it's fun for superficial reasons is good, too. Like how we enjoy some good Nightmare on Elm Street sequels because Freddy Krueger is a fun villain, and we love a good, fun villain in this house. 😤😤😤
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I don't think I could ever live by myself. Actually, I know I can't. I've known for a while. It's been a fear of mine for a long time. My guy has been M.I.A. for almost a week now and my roommate is at his gfs place for the night. So I'm here on a Friday night completely by myself, working overtime and trying not to have an anxiety attack about where my man is. My mind gets so dark and I feel so alone and scared about my future and it's literally only been one day of me by myself. I would never make it living alone lol.
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