#well I wasn't prepared for feels!

[sherlocking-out-loud]

about buddie, I think we're heading for divorce arc 2.0 turbo mode - where it's Buck's time to ask Eddie if he ever stopped to think about Christopher. and it will be ugly and heartbreaking to watch them fight. and they may not even be on speaking terms when this season ends. maybe Eddie feels such shame for having failed as a father and for disappointing Buck, that he just shuts down and isolates himself, feeling unworthy of forgiveness.

so, I'd love it if in this season (maybe even in the finale) we'd have a parallel with 5x13. Eddie would be sitting on the floor, cell phone in hand, browsing through hundreds of photos he has accumulated of Buck with Chris, and Buck with himself, at work and outside of it. one after the other, happy and funny memories of their time together over the years. maybe in between shots of him looking and the pictures with a terribly sad expression (and Ryan would nail this so hard), we could have little montages of the moments from those photos, a buddie best off, so to speak. and then Eddie just breaks down. he cries and cries and cries, but this time?... this time, he's all alone.

roll credits, enter hiatus.

[hanaasbananas]

on arranged marriages

it's funny. mums been in the whatsapp rishta groups for years looking for someone i might marry. she'll send me a profile once in a while and ask what i think, if she should contact his parents or not and most of the time i say yeah, alright. nothing ever comes of it though, so when my dad calls me after work and says mum spoke to him about a rishta she's thinking of moving forward with i'm intrigued, but not particularly invested.

mum's really picky, i tell him. this probably won't go anywhere but we may as well see it through, right? dad is hesitant, but agrees when i say that i do want an arranged marriage.

but then things do move forward and the next thing i know, he is going to visit us with his parents. on the day, my uncle picks me up from work so i don't have to walk. you don't have to make a decision today, he tells me. this is just a first visit. my cousin helps me get ready and i am reminded of the similar scene in the movie vivah. nothing has to happen today, she tells me you guys are just meeting today. the thought does nothing to settle the nerves roiling in my stomach and i try to go back to my room three times instead of going downstairs until my cousin practically shoves me down them.

i enjoy meeting his mum, even though she immediately clocks my nervous clasping and unclasping of my bracelet. she hugs me as if i'm her own daughter and is so happy to see me that my heart lightens. eventually, we go to the other sitting room where the men are sitting-where he is. my nerves flare up again but he doesn't look up from his hands clasped in his lap when we walk in.

too nervous to speak, i only answer say anything when a question is directed at me and try to sneak quick glances at him across the room instead. his mum catches me more than once and smiles knowingly at me. we meet each others eyes only once for a split second and it makes my heart pound rapidly in my chest. when he speaks, i force myself to look at anyone other than him. he has a nice voice, my brain whispers and i bite my tongue, hard.

they leave, and we say they'll know our decision after a couple months. i know what my answer will be though. later, when they get back home and his mum calls my mum, i stand outside the door to eavesdrop, my heart in my throat but i can't stop my grin when i hear his mum say he's happy to go ahead with this, because there was a part of me that still worried he'd see me in person and go NOPE. she suggests that we get to know each other over the next few months and i silently beg my mum to agree. i know that where she is from, in her tradition, the bride and groom speak once or twice before the wedding if they're lucky, and that things are still done that way back home, but just as im gearing up to argue against that, she agrees. it's a miracle!

of course, chronically shy person that i am, the thought of our first conversation taking place on our mums phones is terrifying so instead i ask to get his number so we can text first. she sends his number but theres no way i'm texting first so i send them my number and thankfully he gets the hint and texts me first. i hope you don't mind me texting, i'm just shy still. i say. that's fine, he reassures me. we have time.

time, as it turns out. flies. it doesn't take long to move from texts to voice notes, to phone calls. he really does have a nice voice, i find out, and its not as awkward as i thought it would be. i didn't actually think that we'd talk that much, maybe once a week at most and yet...

i almost cried last night because we were talking about going to Pakistan together next summer and I remembered how when I was a teenager I used to daydream about going to Pakistan with my spouse and visiting all my family with him.

then over the years I sort of gave up on that idea because I'm not the type to go out and meet someone and in the desi arranged marriage market whose gonna choose me?

and now I'm 26, and we talk multiple times a day and when I catch myself thinking oh he isn't really interested, he's just talking to me because he has to to get to know me, why would anyone actually like me?? I find myself countering with well actually if that was the case why would he start calling you every day? how come you went from one call a day ending with 'i'll talk to you tomorrow' to him calling you on his way home from work and 'i'll call you after dinner' when he gets home to a THIRD call after maghrib right before bed? those are not the actions of a man who is uninterested!!

hanaas insecurities- 0, hanaas logic- 1

anyway idk where this is going except i never thought i'd be this excited and happy when it came time for me to get married but here i am and it is SO SCARY to realise that i am maybe possibly (definitely) falling for him but wow, and like? (literally the other day i was telling him a story from when i was a kid and the story had such a silly ending but it was unexpected and he laughed really hard in surprise and it made my heart almost explode i swear its so fun to make him laugh)

but like there's SO MANY logistics i'm restarting my driving lessons so i can pass before i move and i literally just got my new job in april but i'm gonna have to give my notice lmao and i've already started looking for new jobs but GAH so much stuff is happening and yet at the same time i feel so calm about it all it's wild i'm just vibing trying to enjoy my summer holidays and having the highlights of my day being when he calls lmaooo

[sukibenders]

"Ariel was stupid like she gave up her life in the ocean for a boy-" Well, if you actually watch the movie, before she even meets Eric, Arield shows interest in going to the surface and learning the ways of the humans. She collects artifacts and hides them, along with her trips to the surface from her father, who is prone to anger and hates her interest. He blows up her cave filled with said artifacts and bans her from ever going back to the surface (and seeing Eric, but the surface aspect and him go hand and hand). You want me to believe that you wouldn't book it at the first opportunity you got? Like yeah, the context of the deal was sketchy as hell, but when your dad is the literal ruler of all the seas you don't have many options. Also, in the sequel, Ariel is still connected to the ocean and can go back, especially after Ursula's sister dies so, in all honesty, my girl still wins in the end.

[askfullmetalpanic]

Tumblr Community - Full Metal Panic

Tumblr is rolling out this new community feature, and I had applied for an FMP! community a couple weeks back when I saw it pop up, and today it was approved!

I'm still learning my way around communities, but here's some things I've discovered so far:

It doesn't seem like posts in the community will post to the tags. This is good for isolating a post to a limited audience, if you're perhaps shy or worried about negative interactions.

A community can be public, so others can see the posts even if they don't belong to the community, but they cannot interact with the posts.

A community can be private, which would be good for further limiting the possibility of bad actors invading a space. Not my goal as a fandom community, so not a feature I'll use, but useful to know.

Side-blogs can't be invited or posted from in a community right now. Unsure if that will be implemented or not.

Posts from wild tumblr can be reblogged into the community. The reverse is not possible.

Currently, edits to a community are not possible, but they will be implemented in the hopefully-near-future. I didn't have any graphics ready to go when I applied, so the FMP community has default graphics, and I can't change that until this update. Apologies for the sloppiness on my part.

I'm not sure if you can request to be added to a community through it, I don't see any mention of such a feature.

If you have a pending invite to join a community, you may SEE everything a member can, but cannot interact until you accept the invite.

I sent invites earlier to a small handful of people I see in the notes or tags a lot, but then I got distracted so I never finished. Please feel free to send me a message here or @moonlight-at-dawn to request an invite to the community, if this seems like something you wish to join!

EDIT: Also just learned that if you reblog a non-community post to a community, the community-comments do NOT show up in the activity of the original poster. I'm not sure how I feel about that as of right now. I suppose it's ultimately no different than sharing something to a friend group and talking about it away from wherever it is hosted. But at the same time, I kinda feel where this is the *same* site, that the OP has a right to see what comments are made on their posts within the same hosting space? Not sure, I guess it falls into "I don't think this sort of thing should be made any easier, but I also don't think not including it would deter anyone whose goal is that."

[mel-loly]

-Let's go my beloved Brazil, you will win this!🇧🇷

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

I'm literally counting down the days til I bring my puppy home. I know it'll be a lot of work, and part of me is stressed about it, but I'm really looking forward to having something like a full time job. As a disabled person who's unable to work and isn't going to school, I struggle with depression and my self-worth. Also being autistic and ADHD, I really really struggle with setting my own routines. I NEED routine to function because of my autism but due to my ADHD, I can't stick with it without external accountability. So, I have a lot of free time on my hands in comparison to my peers, and it's hard when I'm asked "What's new with you?" or "What have you been up to?" because I don't have anything the average person finds value in to say. My mom (who's also AuDHD) and I always say we need "have to's" in our lives (meaning responsibilities and obligations) to maintain a routine. A puppy is a big "have to" and I really need that in my life. I need a big "have to" to organize my life around so I can get my shit together

[running-in-the-dark]

feeling like absolute shit today.

[coldercreation]

TMI emo rant - I'm just moping lmao ( don't read if others being emo makes you mopey too, I don't wanna mope-fy this space :'< take care xx )

When the lady in the workout video says ‘the fact that you showed up for this exercise today is already something that deserves a pat on the back’ after you have felt like a hot garbage of a human being the whole day, week, month, just…

damn lady. coming for my praise and attention starved butt like that 😒

[squirmydonnie]

Vent: TW: ( disordered eating in tags.) (probably)

i wish I would have stayed up stairs and had eaten the cake my Grandma made for me.

It's what I wanted all day.

Now I can't.

[starphobe]

fh fandom back to wishing death on a fictional teenager for being mentally ill and not learning how to cope with that in a healthy way. what else is new

[cookinguptales]

today's mantra is "time spent healing is never wasted"

[rahleeyah]

Worst part of this experience so far is that now that the wisdom teeth are gone the molars at the back are exposed and surprise!! They're sharp!!! Like really sharp!!! So my tongue and cheeks have been shredded. Ripped open and now covered in sores, and bc my cheeks are swollen there is no way to hold my mouth that doesn't rub them against those sharp teeth. Like the soreness in my jaw/teeth I can deal with but the way all the soft places in my mouth are completely raw is what is gonna break me.

[rabbitindisguise]

What if you were trying to sleep in but your mood disorder was like

*:ﾟ✧*:･ﾟNoﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

[thekingofchungus]

okay. healthy coping mechanisms. okay i got this. this is easy. okay i got it. 2000 word thinkpiece on why tobias finch is the saddest little pebble

[betterbekind]

x

[llycaons]

it would be a little far to say last week traumatized me but the lady I was shadowing was so rude and mean and dismissive and unsupportive on tuesday and the incident on thursday was so embarrassing and scary that I’m having a real time of it going through my notes. I feel like such a disaster and I’m really hoping I can actually do something well this coming week