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cocogukkie · 3 years

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2020 in review: kdramas (the heart fluttering, the disappointing, the saviors of 2020)

it’s december 31st! the new year is quite literally upon us (some of y’all are already in 2021) and my procrastinating self has chosen to upload this today. i’ve always loved these rec lists and I wanted to do one for 2020! this year was a rollercoaster for kdramas with some excellent ones and some not so excellent ones. i watched all of these in 2020 but not all of them were released in 2020.

if you want to use my questions to make your own list please do!! or give your favs in the tags, i’d love to read them. (fair warning, some of these have multiple answers bc i just can’t choose one!!)

drama that made me laugh

When The Camellia Blooms (2019)

i finally got around to watching when the camellia blooms this year and it. was. so. funny. oh my goodness, the comedic timing in so many scenes was pure excellency and im kinda mad at myself that i didn’t watch this last year. this isn’t just a comedy for those who are interested, its a thriller/romance but its also so fucking funny. definitely watch this if you want to laugh (and be touched bc the emotional scenes in this one are beautiful)

drama that made me cry

Sweet Home (2020)

hahah….. um this one is gonna go to sweet home friends. i went into this one with zero expectations and the first couple episodes didn’t really wow me? but i kept watching and holy shit fam. this show really picks up story-wise around ep 4 and makes the viewer love a lot of these initially unlikable characters. all i can say is that the end was devastating for me and i cried quite a bit. (warning, there are a lot of mature themes in this one so make sure you look for trigger warnings or send me an ask and i’ll list them all out for you)

best OST

Itaewon Class (2020)

i loved the ost for itaewon class!! the music is just so inspirational and pump up music, its so good. my favorites are ‘you make me back’ by woosung and ‘start’ by gaho.

drama with chemistry royalty (aka the best couple)

i have three for this one because i just cannot choose one.

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay (2020)

we recognize this one as one of the best things to come out of 2020. go moon young and moon kang tae have some of the best chemistry i have ever seen in a drama couple. i waited on the edge of my seat every single week for the next couple of episode just so i could fawn over these two. they work so well together, lift each other up, and so fucking funny together and support one another. while they’re not the chillest couple (lmao) they’re most certainly one with the most personality. they’re so cute and bicker and they just get each other. who could ask for more.

Flower of Evil (2020)

our badass mom and dad 😭😭. this was another peak drama that came out this year and our married partners-in-crime-but-not-really had amazing chemistry. baek hee sung and cha ji won were so cute as a married couple but they were even more precious later on in the drama after certain things unfolded (no spoilers). they both just get each other and protected one another as well as on the most precious kdrama children this year, their daughter eunha. they were so wholesome, flower of evil is so very worth a watch.

Into The Ring (2020)

this was one of the more underappreciated kdramas of the year but hoo buddy was the main couples chemistry top notch. they were so friggin cute and i just couldn’t. goo se ra is highkey one of the best female characters i’ve ever seen, she’s absolute chaos, lawful chaos, but chaos nonetheless. her other half, seo gong myung is opposite from her as lawful neutral. he’s just along for the ride that is se ra and loves her. they’re both so very fond and protective of each other and back each other up!! very very cute and you’ll definitely replay more than a couple of their scenes together.

most disappointing

Record of Youth (2020)

it’s sad but true… i went into this one with so much hope and excitement (i was riding off that ‘psycho but its okay’ high) and i was vastly disappointed. the plot mostly focused on the male lead, and there wasn’t much characterization for the female lead which i didn’t like. honestly, i only cared about maybe 3-4? characters in the whole drama. the rest were absolutely terrible or plain boring and i ended up skipping eps 14 and 15 and just watched the finale. i would not recommend tbh.

drama you can’t really get through

Crash Landing on You (2019)

this one is absolutely on me, i want so badly to love this one. but i just… can’t seem to get past ep 2? i’ve tried!! i swear, but i just cannot get through it. maybe in 2021, i can try again and i’ll enjoy it more.

drama everyone else liked but was meh

Kairos (2020)

i though kairos was a bit predictable tbh. i know those of us who did end up watching it really liked it but maybe its because i watch so many crime/mystery shows that this one didn’t really do it for me. the writing is quite solid and everything connects well, i would recommend that those who don’t really watch thrillers, to watch this one. (also the friendship between the female lead and her two friends is suuuper cute and worth it alone to watch kairos)

favorite romance

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay (2020)

yeah… this one wins again lol. what can i say, i just loved it so much and the main theme of the show is romance (its also a comedy and a mental health/healing drama) all i can say is watch this if you haven’t yet, its definitely worth it!!

favorite mystery

Memorist (2020) & Watcher (2019)

i really enjoyed these two mystery dramas. both were super fun to watch and very kinda unique in their own ways. i liked memorist because it was lowkey funny and i liked the relationships between the characters, but most importantly i couldn’t guess the main antagonist by the end! i really thought i knew who it was and then i was completely wrong lmao. watcher was also very good, the main trio had really good chemistry and i really cared about all the characters. (also i’ll never say no to watching seo kang joon) plus the plot twists threw me a bit at the end which is always a feeling i welcome, i love being surprised and wrong (as long as it makes sense)

favorite slice of life

Hospital Playlist (2020)

oh my goodness, i was late to the hospital playlist party and i regret it because this show is so. so. good. its just a slice of life following 5 friends who are doctors and work at the same hospital together but its so much more than that. this is honestly one of the first shows i’ve seen that are optimistic? in the show, every time i thought a plot was going to play out a certain way (usually negatively, as tends to be life unfortunately) it surprised me by taking the more optimistic wholesome route. characters in subplots changed for the better, became more understanding, chose to do the right thing, etc. if you want a feel good drama where the main characters have wonderful platonic chemistry and just care about each other but is also super funny, watch hospital playlist!! (season 2 is coming out early 2021 and im so pumped)

favorite fantasy

The Untamed (2019)

this one is a cdrama but i watched it in 2020, mostly because of how many people on the internet were adamant that the rest of us watch this and ngl they were v right. the untamed was very very good and im really glad i gave it a chance and watched it, its also my first cdrama ever. the chemistry between the male leads is honestly what makes this show and its worth the 50? i think? episodes. to be completely honest the fanfiction for the show are peak and if you do watch this, go straight to ao3 and you will not be disappointed.

dramas that saved 2020

The Uncanny Counter (2020) & Run On (2020)

these two dramas are among those that started airing at the end of the year and will go into the beginning of 2021 and absolutely saved the end of 2020 for me. while neither of these are finished, both have been excellent so far and worth starting. uncanny counter has the best use of the found family trope i have ever seen. i fucking love the four counters and their relationship with each other, how protective they are of one another. they all have amazing chemistry and the actors have amazing chemistry in the making films.

run on has one of the cutest couples that will definitely make my best chemistry list for next year. i didn’t put them on this list bc they actually haven’t gotten together yet but once they do, they’re gonna be freaking adorable, i can already tell. there’s no specific grand events propelling the plot forward, but just following the lives of these unique, interesting and relatable people who have casual yet entertaining conversations with each other. the show is super soft and the main couple are so straightforward and honest (plus theres mutual pining!!)

best dramas of the year

here are my best dramas (and one movie) watched this year, no further explanation given lolol. just watch them and enjoy because these are fucking excellent in the feels department. trust me 💞

It’s Okay To Not Be Okay (2020)

Flower of Evil (2020)

Itaewon Class (2020)

Hospital Playlist (2020)

One Spring Night (2019)

Midnight Runners (2017)

Hot Stove League (2019)

I hope this gives you some fun stuff to watch!! or convince you to start that drama in your watchlists!

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shadlad24 · 3 years

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More Funny Little Moments #2: Season 1, Episodes 13-24

Okie. In an effort to save myself a lot of time and frustration, I decided to only choose one additional funny moment, maybe two, per episode (unlike last time when two was the baseline and sometimes three popped up). ’Twas to middling success. Unintentionally and not, I left some better moments for this post; of course, the episodes that were stretched thin for their FFLM probably aren’t much better here. :”)

FFLMs: #1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 #7 #8 #9 #10 #11 #12 #13 #14 #15 #16 #17 #18 #19 #20 #21 #22 #23 #24

Athens City Academy of the Performing Bards

Greeks dressing up in the traditional/stereotypical togas for the one and only time (I think) on this show. Everybody at and connected to the Academy dresses like so. …Then we have Gabrielle. X”D

A Fistful of Dinars

So, I imagine warlords as curious aliens who don’t understand human interaction. When Xena does it, it makes me chuckle (like when Gabrielle hugs her or cries, and Xe’s like, “???”). Petracles is similar.

Warrior... Princess

The fire-connected assassin being a slob. When Xena arrives at Princess Diana’s castle, it’s early morning. A killer almost immediately attacks her but has to run away for his life. He comes back late at night, just as dirty and burned as he was when he left. …Why? And not only that, his clothes that were on fire are perfectly intact while his forehead, which did not catch fire, is not. XD

Yes, it’s a bit morbid but this corpse’s sassy expression is definitely comical. heheheh

Mortal Beloved

Xena being RIDICULOUSLY unobservant. She looks straight ahead, doesn’t see anything out of the ordinary, and so turns her head to look elsewhere. Marcus crouches a whole six inches down and then spots Gabrielle in mortal danger. …Feet away from them. …With nothing to block their view between them and the wabbit. XD XD XD What even, Xena?

It’s more sad than funny when Xena stabs Marcus in the heart, but her line straight after that and Hades’s reaction push the moment over the edge. X’)

The Royal Couple of Thieves

Yay, subtext! Gabrielle somewhat subtly asks for Autolycus’s ring while he doesn’t notice. But someone behind him sure heard her widdle wabbit’s plea. And it affected her quite a bit. D’awwww! :”)

The Prodigal

I cannot BELIEVE I forgot to include this moment in the original post. It got me gooooood. Yes, the setup is a bit predictable, but… just… the townspeople’s hands are still up in the air like they’re riding a rollercoaster that disappointingly malfunctioned right before the big drop! XD The main lady’s faaaaace!!! She was even better than the roommate’s girlfriend in “Big Daddy.” XD XD XD (Video clip here in case the picture isn’t enough for you to know what I mean.)

Altared States

A hilariously adorable moment rather than straight comedy, from Xena of all people. The way she’s sitting, holding Gabrielle, and tilting her head to look at the wabbit reminds me so much of a little kid who’s wondering what’s wrong with her dolly. Hee!

What can I say? I couldn’t ignore Goofy Gabby completely, could I? And this scene isn’t often referenced or noted, so it fits! XP Just look at her blunt-stabbing whatever critter might be under the pillow. She reminds me of an outtake of Ren repeatedly “stabbing” a stunt guy with a toy sword (seen here if so desired). heheheh But part of the real gold here is how poor, weakened Anteus is just so confused. heheheheh

Ties That Bind

Xena being defiant because Gabrielle’s being weird. The wabbit screams for the warrior princess—who is already staring at her—to look at her, so Xena looks away, like, “Uhh, no!” kinda like this. heh

The Greater Good

Can’t leave Argo out either, can I? Poor pony. I’m beginning to understand her aversion to Gabrielle more and more. X)

Callisto

Gabrielle doubting Xena and then learning an interesting lesson that will only prove more true as time goes on.

Death Mask

Our wee widdle wabbit being rightfully proud of herself after besting an enemy with Xena as the audience for the first time. Xena… is afeared. XD

GabbyWabbit and friggin Toris forgetting what franchise they’re a part of. Yes, I’m way late for both “holidays.” Whoops.

Is There a Doctor in the House?

In addition to not being able to believe what Xena did to her in the main post, Gabrielle is now stunned by the words coming out of Xena’s mouth. I. …Screw around. heh (Though I totally remember the quote in a different accent and so had to rewatch the clip a few times to relearn it. You can watch it too, here.)

Hm, this was more fun and easier than last time. Woohoo!

But, alas, it is the end of an era. No more FFLMs or MFLMs for the foreseeable future. And absolutely no one has commented on my posts in several weeks, so I don’t even know what you guys think of my work or want. *sad* Ah well.

The one suggestion I got elsewhere for my hundredth (next) post was to make cracksubs for “Lyre, Lyre, Hearts on Fire.” I think that’s a good idea because I’ve been wanting to do another cracksubs post for a while now and don’t like LLHoF. ’Twas a similar case with the last one I did but that led to a deep, abiding love of “Them Bones Them Bones.” heheheh

If anyone has any other ideas, though, then please let me know. Thanks!

#xwp #xena #xena warrior princess #gabrielle #xena and gabrielle #fflm #funny #comedy #season 1 #modern references

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gaiyofanfiction · 6 years

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First Date Frights

Felix Lee x Reader

Highschool!Au (Sorta)

Fluff/Humor

A/N: Alrighty! It’s been a while since I said i’d write this, so here it is! This is kind of like, a half and half request from @nerdygaloresposts and @chelsea-smiile-x3. I’m not super super great at fluff but this is me trying haha. I really hope you all like it! <3 ~Yosei

You wipe your moist palms down the sides of your jeans. Today is your first date with the one and one, Felix Lee. He is one of the more popular boys in your school. Despite his popularity, he was also known as one of the nicest boys in your senior year.

You both had three periods together. Math, music and lunch. At first, you both had your own friend groups. You always thought he was cute but seeing as he was more popular than you, you never really thought much about being anything more than classmates.

That all changed when you two were paired up for a music history project. Turns out, you two had so much in common. He was also one of the sweetest boys you've ever met. You two started to talk more, even sitting together at lunch. Then, one day during class, he had asked you out. At first you were skeptical, wondering why the cute, popular guy would bother asking you out. But he had proven to genuinely want to spend time with you, so you agreed.

You look out the window of the car to see Felix standing there, his hands behind his back. He was searching for you while he sways back and forth with anxiety. You swallow the lump in your throat and thank the Uber driver. You exit the car and as calmly as you can, walk up to a nervous Felix.

The moment he saw you, his face instantly lit up. “Y/N, hey! I'm glad you actually showed up!” He awkwardly laughs.

You tilt your head, “why wouldn't I?”

He bites his lip nervously. “I don't know, it's my first time to actually ask a girl out.”

You raise a brow, shocked. “Really? You can't be for real. You're like the most popular guy in school!”

He chuckle, “I mean I've been on dates, but they've always asked me out.”

The corners of your mouth lift up into a small smile. You couldn't believe you were the first person he's asked out. It made you feel special.

“Oh!” Felix snapped you out of your thoughts. “I, uh, got you this.” He reveals a red rose that he hid behind his back. His face turned red.

You gently take it in your hands, blushing. 'He is so friggin sweet!’ You fix the rose on to your bag, smiling wide.

Felix clears his throat and holds out his hand. “Well, shall we go in?”

You shyly take his hand in yours, a spark running through your body. He pulls you along into the amusement park you both agreed to go to for your date.

“So, what did you want to do first?” He turns his head to you, tilting it to the side in curiosity. You notice his freckles are prominent in the sunlight.

Your cheeks turn pink as you glance in his direction. 'Ugh could this boy be any cuter?! And his freckles are the most precious thing!’

You shake your head, trying to bring yourself back to the conversation at hand. “Hmm,” you look around the park, trying to find something to do. Your face lights up as you see a ride in the distance, excitement rising.

“Oh! That!” You point into the distance.

Felix squints his eyes, trying to see what you're pointing at. “I can't really tell what you're pointing at, Y/N.”

You then tug on his hand as you make your way to the ride, almost dragging him behind you.

“Woah, Y/N, slow down. You're going to pull my arm off,” he chuckles. “Where are you taking me-” as soon as he saw where you dragged him to, his voice stopped and face instantly paled.

Standing in front of the two of you was one of the largest rollercoasters Felix has ever seen. What you didn't know about Mr. Felix Lee was that he is terrified of heights. He was wondering if he should tell you.

However, when Felix looks over to tell you, he instantly closes his mouth. He tilts his head, just gazing at you. He was amazed at how beautiful you looked, your face illuminated by the glowing lights of the monstrous ride.

You look at him in excitement but notice something is off about his expression. “Is something wrong, Felix?” Your voice laced with worry.

Felix snaps out of it and shakes his head. “Nothing at all. Are you ready to get in line?”

You nod your head, your lips forming a bright smile. He walks with you hand in hand to the back of the line. The two of you talk about school for the next 15 minutes while waiting in line.

Soon, the two of you were at the front gates to get onto the rollercoaster. You suddenly felt Felix lean his forehead onto your back and he lets out a shaky breath. You turn your head to look behind you.

“Felix? Are you okay?”

He immediately looks up at you and smiles. “Yeah, I'm okay. Don't worry about me.”

Your brows furrow in worry but nod your head anyway. Just then the gates in front of you open, signaling you to enter into the train of cars. You climb in and are followed by Felix. You two are settled and strapped in by the workers.

The train jerks forward into a tunnel before climbing up the long tracks to the highest point of the coaster. You look over to Felix who has wide eyes and looking around. You place a hand over his, trying to calm him down.

He jumps at the feel of your hand on his but soon realizes it's just you and glances your direction, this smile faltering.

Suddenly the train reached the top of the tracks. You feel the train going slowly over the hump and as soon as your train makes it over, you fall at an almost 90° angle.

You scream in excitement as you get the knot feeling in your stomach. The wind rushes through your hair, making you feel alive and free.

Next to you, Felix feels the complete opposite. He screams in fear, his gut telling him he's going to die. He closes his eyes and looks for the first thing he can hold onto, which happened to be your hand.

You feel Felix grab your hand tightly. You look over to see his eyes shut tight and teeth grinding. You squeeze his hand, reassuring you're right there. After about a few seconds the ride comes to a stop.

Once the train comes back into the station, you both exit. You look over at Felix, who is shaking with fear.

“Hey, Felix? Are you alright?” You grab both his hands, rubbing your thumbs over the back of his hands.

Felix gives a short nod. “Y-Yeah, I'm okay.”

You giggle quietly, “why didn't you tell me you were afraid of rollercoasters, silly? We could have done something else.”

Feliz shakes his head, giving an awkward smile. “I saw the look on your face, Y/N. You looked so excited and happy, I couldn’t bare to upset you.”

You shook your head, “Felix Lee, you’re crazy. I would have been okay with not going on if it was going to scare you.” You move your body so close to his, he was taken aback. You plant a quick kiss on his lips, leaving him frozen in place. You watch as his face turns from white, to pale pink and soon to beet red. He his fingers fly to his lips, imagining your soft lips still upon his.

“Although, I do have to say, Felix. You are pretty cute when you’re scared.” You wink at him, giggling.

Felix snaps himself out of his happy daze. “Hey! That’s not very nice, Y/N. How would you feel if you were scared of rollercoasters?!” He pouts.

“Yeah, except I’m not,” you giggle once more.

A smirk comes across his face, “so, what are you afraid of then?”

You stick your tongue out and start half running away. “I’m not telling you!”

“Hey!” Felix’s daring look turned into a one of confusion. “Where are you going?! That’s not fair! Tell me!” He chases after you. As he’s running, he thinks back to the kiss you shared with him, making him smile.

Turns out, getting scared wasn’t that bad of an idea.

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born-to-be-his-baby88 · 7 years

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Cuddly Confession

Author’s Note: This is written for my beautiful Arie @bringmesomepie56. She asked for a cuddly Dean and I was supposed to have written it last night but I fell asleep. So hopefully she forgives me and likes this little ficlet I made for her. *hides face*

Characters: Dean Winchester, Reader

Pairings: Dean x Reader

Word Count: 577 (a bit short *runs and hides*)

Warnings: FLUFF

Cuddly Confession

I didn't mean to sleep in late.

I honestly didn't.

But my body was so damn tired. Every bone and every muscle in my body felt like it had been run over with a semi-truck. The cheap motel bed actually felt wonderful for once under my exhausted being.

So I stayed there.

I knew I was alone. Sam had gotten up at the ass crack of dawn to go for a stupid run. And Dean? Well, the room was awfully quiet so I guessed he was out for some breakfast. My eyes were still closed so I wasn't quite sure.

It felt peaceful for once. Not the fact that the Winchesters weren't around, but the fact that everything seemed normal for once in my chaotic life. There was no yelling. No screaming. No banshee cry. Nothing. There was absolute silence.

It took about ten minutes for the silence to get interrupted by a small rumble getting nearer and nearer. Dean’s Baby was always loud with her entrance. Just like her owner. The engine was turned off and the creak of the door sounded, and I sighed, keeping my eyes closed.

I heard the door open and close within seconds. And then silence once again.

I frowned, thinking I had made the whole damn thing up but then, the bed dipped from behind me and the feel of a body pressed against mine, numbed me up for a moment. A hand snaked around my waist and pulled me closer, the familiar scent of gunpowder and Dean filled my senses and I was able to relax, pressing even closer to him.

“You're awake?” came his muffled question as he buried his face in my neck.

I smiled, keeping my eyes closed. “It's impossible to sleep through Baby’s arrivals, Dean.”

He shook with silent laughter. “Don't you start with my Baby, Sweetheart. I love you but nobody puts Baby to shame like that. She's a classic.”

I snorted and finally opened my eyes. I turned around to face him, grinning like a madwoman at the sight of his face. I didn't think I'd ever tire of seeing it. Especially this close to mine.

“Okay, Grandpa,” I murmured, my eyes zeroing in on his lips. “Whatever you say.”

Dean smirked and tightened his hold on me. I hummed in content. “I could get used to this,” he mumbled, pressing his forehead against mine.

“Really?” My heart skipped a beat. It was rare when Dean let his guard down. To have him confess this right now sent chills up and down my spine.

He sighed and closed his eyes, giving a small nod. “Definitely,” he said. “I thought I had it before but this right here,” he pulled me, if even possible, closer to him. “This is exactly what I want. This is what I need.”

“Me?” I whispered.

“You,” he whispered back. “And I know our lives are one hell of a rollercoaster ride, but I guess that's why we're stuck with each other.” He opened his eyes to look at me. “We’ll ride out this shit show. Together.”

I couldn't help the tear escape my eyes. “You're such a softie, Dean,” I whimpered before I buried my face in his neck, peppering kisses all over. “I friggin love you, too.”

This morning couldn't have gone any better. Cuddling every morning with Dean and have him whisper sweet emotions into my ear was definitely something I could get used to. Forever.

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gyeommark · 7 years

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Universal Love || Mark Tuan

Genre: Fluff (Mark x Reader)

A/N: Sorry for posting it so late! I got a little caught up in it and turned out longer than expected! Hope you like it, babe (:

It was rare you got to spend actual time with your best friend. His schedule was always packed and when he had the sporadic day off, it just so happened that you had to work a double shift. It was getting kind of annoying, really, but now that the summer was here, you had a well-deserved break from your job at some vintage boutique and he had charmed his way onto a paid vacation, as well.

–Rise and shine!– You burst through his door, giving close to zero attention to the decibels since his parents were out shopping some groceries. He was almost fully hidden under his covers, the only parts visible were his disheveled hair and the tip of his ear.

He groaned and turned away from you. –Out–. He mumbled.

You rolled your eyes, taking one of the cinnamon-sugar mini donuts you were eating and throwing it at his head.

–That’s the only one you’re getting, jerk–. You said, faking anger and getting out of his room, slamming the door behind you. You heard shuffling and him mumbling something along the lines of ‘okay, okay, I’m up’. You figured you had won at least one battle today and that was good enough.

You didn’t quite know how it was that Mark Tuan became one of your closest friends; you just remember how you met back when you were in high school. You were sitting on a park bench, not far away from your home, just reading some book and occasionally scrolling through your phone when something hit your head. You were too out of it to notice if it had been a ball of sorts or the heaviest Frisbee in the universe.

Logically, you were startled for a minute or two and when the culprit approached you, you were even dizzier because he was sort of beautiful. You shook it off when you felt a pang in the back of your head and your cheeks got red with frustration and anger.

–I’m really sorry–. He frowned as he kneeled in front of your bench. You put a finger in front of his face, shutting him up.

–You’re a clumsy threat to humanity, goodbye–. That’s about all you could muster up before standing up and leaving.

Mark had been a constant in your life since that moment, at first trying to make it up to you and then slowly turning into the only one you could go to when you needed to vent; he was the one you trusted most, even if your friendship was filled with bad jokes, sarcasm and a lot of teasing.

–So, I’m guessing there are plans for today?– He said as he sat down in one of the stools near the kitchen counter. You didn’t say anything, you just smiled widely.

He looked up from his coffee mug with a raised eyebrow. He knew what you were thinking, he read you like a toddler’s book. Your smile grew bigger when he frowned.

–Today?!– You nodded quickly. –Couldn’t you wait for tomorrow or maybe the weekend?–

Your happiness suddenly disappeared; you stood still, looking at him with a blank expression.

–Excuse you. You don’t see me complaining when you want to go play sports. May I remind you that you almost kill me once while doing so?–

–Are you ever going to let that go? It’s been years–

You raised your eyebrows and shrugged. –Maybe I would, if you took me to friggin’ Universal Studios once and for all–.

Mark sighed and rolled his eyes as he looked for the car keys and even if he tried to appear annoyed, you could see a faint smirk on his lips. You hurried to the door, opening it for him.

–Ladies first– You joked, to which he faked a laugh and ignored you as he went to the car. –Love you, too–. You shouted as you closed his house behind you.

You could be a pain in the ass sometimes and no one in the world knew that better than Mark. Yes, you generally were calm and collected, maybe a little too sassy for your own good, but when you got excited and passionate over something you could turn into an annoying seven year old.

Mark appreciated that, though. In fact, he loved it. Every now and then, when he stopped at a red light, he would look over at you from the corner of his eye and he’d noticed how you bounced a little and your eyes sparkled when you caught him staring.

He found you endearingly strange, ever since the moment you two met. Up until then, he thought any girl would either cry or angrily push whoever attacked her with a basketball but you just sat there and insulted him –sort of– calmly. And the worst of all: you were kind of right.

It was an unconditional friendship the two of you had: you were always there for each other; it didn’t matter if it was three in the morning or in the middle of the day. It also didn’t matter how upset you were with the other because sometimes you were a bit too rough when it came to saying things but Mark thought it was better to be sincere and rough than a soft squishy liar. Mark wasn’t a pushover, though, he could be brutally honest as well and that’s when you two found yourselves in the middle of a cold shoulder moment but in the end you always worked it out.

Even through the break ups, you were still best friends. Most of your relationships ended because of said friendship. Mark’s girlfriends got too crazy jealous over you and the couple ‘boyfriends’ (if you could call them that) you had got too protective and said you had to choose between them and Mark.

Obviously Mark won every battle without even having to fight it. Hell, he didn’t even knew those battles existed.

Some day he would just ask about “that douche you’re always with” and you would just shrug it away. He did the same when you asked about his “bubblegum girlfriend attached to the knee”.

You snapped your fingers in front of Mark’s face but he seemed to be in a trance because he hadn’t notice you getting out of the car and walking over to his side, opening the door. You flicked the tip of his nose and his eyes instantly watered.

–What was that for?!– He cried out, hands covering his face.

–Ground control to major Mark, we’ve arrived to paradise–. You said in a mocking voice as you opened your arms towards the entrance. In the distance you could see the Universal Studios Globe standing there in all its glory and you could’ve cried but you were too excited for that.

Mark shook his head and got out of the car, smiling at you.

You dragged him all over the place, hands intertwined. If it had been someone else, he would’ve complained, gotten free and wait for them at some restaurant or comfy spot to take a quick nap but since it was you, he had convinced himself that it was a good cause, after all.

As you explained Mark your intricate plan to go over the whole park in just one day you felt his eyes never leaving your face. You tried to not get nervous but it was getting kind of difficult since he was staring directly at your lips. You cleared your throat. He looked confused with a hint of embarrassment.

–This is impossible–. He said, signaling to the map with a thousand marker arrows and routes you had drawn.

–Have you not met me yet?– You responded as you proceeded to drag him again. Going to a few gift stores first, since you figured later on you’d be too tired to shop.

Mark followed you around, sometimes playing the part of a human mannequin as you put Hogwarts’ scarves and robes on him. You were about to put a diadem on him but he grabbed you by the wrist, gently. His eyes bore into your soul and made you shiver a bit. Your hand slowly retracted and you patted his cheek apologetically.

His ears got a little red at your action but you were too excited to notice.

With his arms full of your things, he followed you around… Not like a puppy but more like a bodyguard, laughing soundlessly from time to time when you happened to stumble upon something or when you squealed as you spotted something you wanted.

After the gift shops it was time to “die”, figuratively speaking. You had included a couple rollercoasters in your schedule, for Mark’s sake. You weren’t afraid of the things but you weren’t exactly an adrenaline lover but you wanted to make him happy so it was his turn to drag you around.

–Are you sure you want to go? We could just skip them and go straight to eat something– He commented as you walked towards the Mummy ride. You sighed.

–I’m sure, it’s your turn to smile– You said, trying to convince him. His heart skipped a bit when you intertwined your fingers with his’. He smiled widely.

Once on the cart you started to take deep breaths and he should be worried but he found it cute to see you nervous. Again, you clasped your hands together and he noticed the thin layer of sweat coating your palm.

–For the record, if I die here, it’s on you…– You mumbled, squeezing his hand. –And you have to take care of my dog–.

–It’s easier to take care of her than you–. Mark joked and you shot him the deadly stare. You were about to snap back but the ride started and your grip on his hand turned into a grip on his whole arm.

For a second you heard his heart beating but you figured it was just yours. He buried his nose on your hair for moment, trying to calm you down. It had the opposite effect.

After getting on about four rides, including King Kong 360, Jurassic Park: The Ride and The Flight of The Hippogriff, your stomach gave a turn and you sat down for a minute. Mark was walking a couple steps ahead and when he noticed you were gone he had a mini heart attack. He spotted you sitting at the edge of a random fountain.

–Are you alright?– He asked, concern washing over his voice. You felt guilty for worrying him. You nodded, smiling a bit.

–Got a little dizzy, don’t worry. We better get some food–. Mark put his hand on your forehead and then rested his palms on your cheeks, making you jump a little.

–Food is the last thing a dizzy person would want–. His tone was serious. You held onto his wrists for support as you stood up.

–Well, I’m not just some person– You said smugly, walking to the nearest restaurant slash coffee shop. He walked next to you, his hand hovering on the small of your back, just in case.

Since Mark offered to pay for all your souvenirs, you figured buying food for the two of you was the decent thing to do. Much to his complaints, you sat him down on a table and threatened to not get any food for him if he dared moving.

Annoyed, he agreed and started scrolling through his cellphone to kill some time. After almost 10 minutes you came back with the amount of food to feed an army. He looked up at you with wide eyes and a small smirk.

The food slowly but surely disappeared from the table. He managed to steal some glances at you. There was another thing he loved about you: you weren’t afraid to eat in front of him. Other girls would be too picky and ask for the cliché salad when they went out or in the worst-case scenario: they wouldn’t order a thing and would just steal some of his food.

You were the complete opposite. Somehow you managed to always have food with you and sometimes he was sure you could eat more than him and that’s saying something.

You bounced a bit on your seat and hummed happily when you ate something that was particularly good and he rested his chin on his hand to look at you. You knew he was staring but he always did that so you didn’t flinch nor found it weird. You dipped a fry in mashed potatoes and waved it in front of his mouth.

–That’s potatoes on potatoes. It’s like potato-ception–. He tried to joke, scrunching his nose. You squinted your eyes and shoved it in his mouth without a warning. A smug smile appeared on your lips as he coughed.

The final part of your trip was to go on the Studio Tour. Boarding the bus thingy was a bittersweet moment to the two of you. You didn’t want to leave the park; you had waited all your life for this moment and just like that, it was about to end. Much to Mark’s surprise, he didn’t want this day to end, either.

Somehow, this day opened his eyes. He realized why it was that he was always so confortable around you and why it didn’t work out with anyone else.

As you sat down you sighed and rested your head on his shoulder he ventured to give you a gentle squeeze on your knee. You got goosebumps but were too tired to react.

The tour started and your semblance instantly changed from tired to excited kid, again. Your eyes doubled its size as you saw the sets that you’d seen in the movies. You tried to take pictures but failed miserably and handed the camera to Mark. What’s the point in taking pictures if you’re not going to be in them, anyways?

Mark didn’t pay much attention to the background, though; he preferred to capture you in all your glory. He knew you’d scold him afterwards but the sacrifice would be worth it.

The 4D part of the tour arrived and you snorted to every lame joke the lady in the screen made. Mark laughed with you. At some point the bus came to an unexpected halt that made you land partially on Mark’s lap. His ears turn as red as a watermelon in spring.

–Well, if I were to be pregnant I would’ve gone into labor already–. You snorted again. Unknowingly easing the tension.

–You’d make a really pretty pregnant lady–. He thought out loud. Your head turned slowly towards him. His eyes widened beyond belief, as big as you’d ever seen them. His jaw dropped but you decided to ignore what he had just said. He looked cute when he was nervous, anyways.

When the tour finished, it was already nighttime and you dragged your feet to the exit. Mark almost had to carry you back. You came to a halt stop when realization hit you. You stepped in front of some stranger that seemed trusty enough, making him jump as you gave him your camera. Mark watched you in awe and then you dragged him again, this time to stand in front of the globe.

–We have no pictures together– You said with a deep frown as your arm snaked around his waist. He did the same, smiling down at you.

The drive back home felt longer than it was. You fought really hard not to fall asleep right then and there.

–You have fun?– Mark asked, making you shake off the slumber. You mentally thanked him and nodded quickly. He smiled widely and sincerely.

–Best day ever–. You mumbled and placed a hand on his shoulder, giving him a gentle squeeze. –With the best dude ever–.

Maybe you slept for a bit because you were in front of your house before you knew it. You tussled with Mark for a while so he’d let you carry some bags too, in the end you lost and so he carried them all to your living room and then came back out.

You were still standing on your porch, looking through the pictures on your camera with a slight frown. You’ve never been the most photogenic of the bunch. You knew Mark had come back as you felt him standing too close to you. Your heart skipped a beat but you focused on the picture, instead.

–You numbnut–. You turned around and gave a light smack on his chest. Mark looked at you with a fake hurt expression and a hand on his chest. –This is the only picture of us and you didn’t look at the camera–.

Mark looked down at the screen and, indeed, he was looking lovingly at you; with a hand on your waist, holding you tightly to his side and a barely visible smirk.

–Why?– You asked, making him look back at you.

Breathe in, breath out.

You cleared your throat, pressuring him to answer. You noticed how the blush in his ears expanded to his neck and his cheeks and you worried, thinking he might felt sick. Your expression changed drastically and you were about to ask him to sit down and drink some water but he cut you off.

–Because you looked beautiful, because I loved seeing you happy and passionate and excited. Because I realized today that you’re the single most beautiful person I’ve ever laid eyes on. Because, I love you–.

Your heart gave a sudden strong thump and your hands started sweating again. You parted your lips to get some air. You raised your eyebrows in surprise. You never thought he’d feel that for you.

Of course, you’ve seen him in a different light for a while now but you knew he was out of your league and you had come to terms with that.

Lost in your thoughts, you jumped when you felt him grab your face and plant a chaste kiss on your lips. It was sweet but also urgent. It was tender but a little rough on the edges, it was Mark.

Once you parted, you sighed, resting your forehead on his.

–Took you long enough–. You joked.

–Shut up–. He mouthed before kissing you again.

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Coming Out to My Family 02/10

Royal (9:20 PM) So...just came out to my fam

Jewel (9:21 PM) Oh? How did it go?

Royal (9:24 PM) Fine. More or less. They were "hurt" that I kept this from them and went behind their backs etc.

But they want to support me.

Kitty was ready to fight Bear

Literally what she was sending to me as my fam was talking :sweat_smile:

Kitty (8:16 PM) When someone tells you the truth, your first reaction SHOULD NOT be "you hurt us so much, you should trust us, why didn't you tell us sooner?"

Why?

WHY?

This is why.

They only cared about themselves and how much you're effecting them, not you or what you had to say

They totally disregarded how hard this must be for you

I'm angry beyond words

Kitty (8:29 PM) Wow, they backpedaled real hard when I called them out on their hypocracy

Royal (9:24 PM) And then afterward... I get it, it's not easy for him and after my family asked about if being trans affecting my relationship with him (cuz of course they did and we haven’t told the family yet about us), but Nurd asked about being able to talk (you know about what) after I was done in the bathroom.

I was honest and said I'm actually physically feel "eeugh" right now (I’m a wee bit nausey)

I originally did say I would on Friday, but I also hadn't expect things to go so late and whatnot. But I don't know, I guess it's a tad insensitive, for him to ask...and me to deny.

Jewel (9:32 PM) Man, it's all happening at once, huh? That's gotta be rough. But I'm glad they want to support you.

I'm not surprised by the "hurt" thing. My mom reacts like that all the time. I think if I had actually started treatment, she wouldn't be speaking to me today.

Royal (9:34 PM) So, they of course were like “well who can or can’t we tell, since you told us to keep you being poly secret from Nurd’s family”

I will say, my family bringing up the being secretive with Nurd’s family did hit some nerves. I NEVER wanted that. I wanted to be honest and out, but I was respecting his wishes. Gods, I wanted to scream. Just another benefit to leaving him. Not to be anyone’s “dirty little secret” once again.

Jewel (9:35 PM) Ouch. I'm so sorry. They make it sound like it's your fault or even your decision.

Royal (9:35 PM) They did. And Nurd just was like “because my mom is crazy and I didn’t want to make my dad have to keep a secret from his wife”

But it was said as though it all fell upon me when it came to my family

I know we’re hoping his mom will be out of the picture soon, but it hurts in the mean time

Jewel (9:41 PM) Yeah, that's understandable

Ultimately of course, his family and his decision on what to or what not to say isn't something you can control

And it's just unfair to make it seem otherwise

I know you wouldn't choose to hide anything, given the choice

Royal (9:42 PM) This was partly the reason why I wanted to come out first and then have the talk with Nurd

I didn’t want to go in this order

And he was entirely present throughout the entire coming out process

And he wanted to talk to me about our falling apart relationship despite the Emotional Rollercoaster I endured he just friggin fraggin witnessed???

He’s so oblivious with shitty timing

It’s like the same in the opposite way from when he saw me get dragged and humiliated by my parents and then didn’t check on me

He didn’t come to check on me this time, he came to get his own closure for something else

I understand this is hard for him, but did he not see me tear up and even when I did cry? Did he not see how terribly nervous and anxious I had been the entire ride?

Jewel (9:50 PM) :/. It's definitely not too much to expect from someone. It's one thing for him not to be in the state of mind to offer comfort but to expect you to talk is another thing.

Hummingbird (10:01 PM) Yeah, that's a very shity thing on his part. Especially after seeing your family beat you down.

Royal (9:51 PM) Thank you. Fuck. I’m glad to see that I’m not fully overreacting.

Jewel (9:52 PM) Yeah, definitely not. Heck, I'm a pretty oblivious person sometimes but not this oblivious.

Royal (9:52 PM) It’s almost selfish. I know I’m selfish too, but I guess the whole “takes one to know one”

Maybe not selfish, but definitely insensitive?

Before and after coming out XD

Styled -> Unkempt hair

Put together clothing -> loosened tie and collar

The overall expression too

I’m not saying it in a bad way, but I look “done” in the second/bottom set

Jewel (9:56 PM) Heh

And yeah, definitely insensitive more than anything else

Royal (9:57 PM) So, I’m gonna post my first 2 months on HRT this coming week on Instagram/Facebook

Talk about coming out to the world

Cuz my fam was like “who can or can’t we tell” and I was just like “I don’t want to hide it”

“In fact, if you look at my profile’s gender, you’ll see that I never technically have been”

Jewel (9:59 PM) Imma just say, you brave and I admire that

Royal (9:59 PM) I need a combination between :upside_down::fearful:

But, still smiling

Like, the blue and eye shape on the second, but the inverted smile

I'm scaaaared shitless, but my main reason for not coming out was so that it didn't affect my family

my fam has literally given me the "ok, we'll take on the haters" sign of approval

like, affect my family as in people harassing them because of me

Jewel (10:02 PM) It's totally understandable to be scared

The fact that you're still doing it is incredible

Royal (10:02 PM) but my family is saying that they will support me, hell, my mom even offered to go to my appointment with me

Jewel (10:03 PM) Wow, I'm glad to hear they're that supportive

Royal (10:04 PM) Bear was the most complicated one, but mainly because of how "hurt" she was

Bunny immediately tried changing pronouns and names

my ma's family kinda grew up un-oblivious to LGBT+ issues, not only was my ma's uncle openly gay, but my aunts have plenty of trans and queer friends, etc

Hummingbird (10:03 PM) Is it bad that I think it would have been better if Bear had been away for the weekend?

Royal (10:03 PM) but she needed to know

I needed to tell her too

mainly for my niece

Hummingbird (10:04 PM) I know. It just felt like she pushed it in a hostile direction. Like when she left the room, your family started being less hostile

Royal (10:05 PM) yeah…I kinda noticed that too

Hummingbird (10:07 PM) She is the one that took it personally... At least from my perspective

Royal (10:08 PM) very much so

but the world revolves around her

don't cha know

Hummingbird (10:09 PM) Also the "we need to communicate" as she was being hostile enough to make anyone not want to tell her anything

Kitty (10:09 PM) This ^

Royal (10:09 PM) XD this is almost what Kitty was saying to me in private XD

Kitty (10:09 PM) A million times

Jewel (10:06 PM) Oh, huh

At least her issue isn't with your identity itself

I suppose the hurt thing should die down on its own, hopefully

Royal (10:08 PM) My ma even asked how I pronounce my name and they also asked about me wanting to legally change my name (which I did state in my letter I did…but ok)

Jewel (10:10 PM) Good to hear they're making that effort

Royal (10:11 PM) Literally Kitty tonight

Jewel (10:13 PM) Heh

Except she did call them out or something?

Royal (10:13 PM) at one point, but it was on a more minor, almost unrelated thing

apparently, I have family members who see my FB posts and get really concerned and I was just like ??? and then my fam were like "but we're all here to protect and support you" etc and Kitty was just like "then why didn't you start with that"

I know that is way off, but I'm in a tizzy

Royal (10:46 PM) Fuck me, thank you. For all the cons, I think her pros tend to outweigh.

Jewel (10:47 PM) Oh, that's really nice of her to think of

Royal (10:48 PM) Yeah, I appreciate that she looks at things from all angles most of the time

Jewel (10:51 PM) It's good she recognizes just cuz she's your mother, doesn't make everything super easy to tell right away

That's one thing I wish my parents understood

Royal (7:11 AM) You have my support no matter what

#mood journal #journal #transgender #transition #coming out #coming out story #coming out to family #relationships #relationship #family #family dinner #family drama

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The Wild, 18-Minute Ride That Is Daydream Believer: A Review by a Former Teenaged Girl

Every generation has its “coming of age” movie: the movie that sees its main character through the naivety of adolescence to a catalyst that makes them realize they’re *gasp* growing up. The ‘70s had American Graffiti, the ‘80s had The Breakfast Club, the early ‘90s gave us the tearjerker My Girl (I’m still holding that vigil for Thomas J). All of these films had characters nearly everyone could identify with. Maybe you were the Cameron to your best friend’s Ferris Bueller. Perhaps you knew exactly what Jim Stark’s deal was in Rebel Without A Cause.

But then, in 1998 came a little known short film with a character so damn relatable it brings up memories you thought you buried so deep in the soil of your brain, it could only be unearthed by years of intense therapy.

Ladies and Gentlemen: Daydream Believer!

Let me start off by saying when my friend Rosie posted this movie to her blog I had no clue what the hell I was getting into. The 1970s film grain and the awkward silence (save for the chirping birds) when we meet our homegirl Susan made me half-expect one of those “What’s Happening to my Body?” filmstrips they made us watch in the 4th grade.

“Are you there, God? It’s me, Susan. All my friends are getting their periods except me. What have I done to anger you so?”

Right away we know Susan is different. She does weird things like…walking (especially when she has a perfectly good Schwinn on the front porch).

God, look at this freak.

“Look at her using her legs for non-jump-rope purposes like a fuckin’ loser.”

So it turns out that Susan’s a loner because she’s always daydreaming about her fab marvy crush…because she’s 11 and this is what 11-year-olds do: daydreaming and hurrying home and catch her fave rave on TV.

To be honest I was expecting it to be Davy Jones...the pirate, not the Monkee.

Yeah, Little Susie’s got fuzzy feelings for Mike Nesmith of the Monkees, to the chagrin of her concerned-yet-not-concerned-enough-to-actually-talk-to-their-kid parents. Susan’s mom is looking at her daughter like she didn’t wet herself over Sinatra back in her day. I mean, Susan can’t be that obsessed, though. She’s only got like, one album and a single pinup on her wall like she’s some kind of amateur. And she’s pretty reserved in her screaming at the TV so that’s considerate of her.

Her disappointment over lack of mammaries perfectly mimics Mike’s face which in turn perfectly mimics how I feel about this movie so far.

The film then takes somewhat of a weird turn and becomes from here on out a wild rollercoaster ride of “What the actual fuck?” We take a journey into Susan’s brain as she sees herself as a 45 year-old woman teenager, getting ready for her date with-…oh my God.

YOU DON’T SAY

I’m somewhat flabbergasted by their casting decision to go with a paunchy, late-30s Ashkenazi Mike Nesmith but whatever. I’m not gonna judge Susan. She’s 11. When I was 11 I wanted to hang out with Gabe Kaplan circa ‘75. It’s a weird age.

So after her date with Mack Nussbaum we find Susan back at school, going for one of her weird daydream walks and completely oblivious to a group of bitches talkin’ shit behind her back.

“I bet she doesn’t even listen to the Banana Splits. Dweeb.”

“Joke’s on you! Me and Marc Nesbitt are gonna go closed-mouth kiss behind the JFK Memorial Tree. Hope I don’t get pregnant!”

I’m not even going to comment on this next scene. There’s nothing I can add to how utterly perfect it is in its understanding of the pre-teen girl’s brain so I’m just gonna let the caps do the talking.

But trouble rears its ugly head in the form of Susan’s teacher, glaring at her disapprovingly and telling her she’s “a much better writer than this [homework],” before proving this to be a bold-faced lie as we cut to a scene in which Susan writes in her diary:

Mike is so beautiful. He has lovely brown eyes. His hair is so soft and silky. I want to run my fingers through his beautiful hair. He has a sweet Texas accent that is so beautiful to listen to. I could listen to him read a book for hours and hours. He’s divine enchanting!!!

This nonsense reads like a 1st grade primer. Girl, I know you’re 11 but this is clearly not your first day at the Mike Nesmith Rodeo. This should all have been covered on page one.

Also, I hope Susan asked for a thesaurus for Christmas.

So homegirl’s studies are suffering because she can’t keep her mind out of Mike’s pants and daydreaming about going on a romp with Mork Nerfherder to the song Papa Gene’s Blues. As you do…

“Whatchu thinkin’ about?” “Oh nothing…just statutory stuff.”

…that is until your cockblock of a teacher calls you out for not paying attention and embarrasses you in front of the entire class (a situation I knew all too well, so I actually empathize with her here). Susan goes home to complain to Raggedy Anne and delve into yet another daydream in which Mike takes her home to meet “the guys.” Oh boy, I can’t wait to see what small town community theater actors they got to play the Monk-…..wait what?

They look as confused as I do right now.

After an awkward introduction to the roommates (we’ve all been there. College, amirite?!) Murk and Susan go up to Mulk’s room…

I’m suddenly feeling rather uncomfortable and it’s not for the severed clown head in the corner.

…where Malk puts on bossa nova music and they start making out…

Oh my God, No….

NO!!!

NONONONONONONONONO!

YOU’RE GONNA CUT BACK TO THE CHILD ACTRESS AND MAKE THIS MORE AWKWARD THAN IT IS?! WHAT ON EARTH IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

Those lines under Raggedy’s eyes are from all the internal screaming.

No…………………….this is not how I wanted to die.

OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN HALLOWED BE THY NAME….

…AS I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH….

HAS THIS BEEN A PORNO THE ENTIRE TIME?!

BRB SETTING MYSELF ON FIRE…

There isn’t a word for how unnerved I am right now, so I’m just going to make one up. I am extremely floopnozzled, I am totally and immensely…wait a second…

As I breathe a gargantuan sigh of relief, Bra-vo!

After Susan has finished violating her poor Raggedy Anne doll, her dad barges into her room and in a very ominous voice says they need to talk.

The clown in the back but on a brave smile but what his eyes have seen cannot be unseen.

They go to a parent-teacher conference to talk about Susan’s failing schoolwork and conclude it’s Mike’s fault, so they ban her from the living room and the TV. And for whatever reason I don’t quite understand, there’s a scene where Susan has to listen to her parents bone on the couch. I guess as part of her punishment? I dunno.

Girl, same.

EDIT: @legrandennui has informed me that it’s possible the voices she’s hearing aren’t her parents but her daydreams distracting her again. I still think it’s the parents, though.

And even though her parents think she’s obsessed with Mike and forbid her from watching The Monkees, her enabling Mom comes home from the grocery store and gives her flowering junkie a hit of the hard stuff via Teen Life magazine with the Monkees on the cover. I heard this was how Sid Vicious died.

At first Susan is overjoyed, until slowly her smile fades as she reads an article. She storms off into her room and screams at her magazine “WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE MARRIED?!”

Lol wut? Child, where have you been? How are you going to be all up on Mike’s dick but not know anything about him beyond his brown eyes and silken hair? That’s like, page 1 in How to Obsess.

So we get one last daydream sequence in which Susan tells Mike she’s leaving him because she’s grown and wants to move on…

…which I guess in this case means getting back to her schoolwork and keeping her grades up…amongst other things.

“Wait, does this mean Shatner doesn’t make her want to bone? Is that the lesson here?”- @legrandennui

I’ve watched a lot of movies about adolescence in my years but this was the first one I’ve seen that had perfectly nailed it in terms of being a young girl with a fave rave. I had gone through nearly everything in this movie: the nonstop daydreams, the constant writing about the object of my surging hormonal lust, not paying attention in school, the concerned look from my parents, and I’m not ashamed to admit my pillow had gotten the Raggedy Anne treatment. My room was a bit more intense than that, pin-up wise but I can’t imagine they had a lot to dress the set with in 1998. This was like looking straight into my own past and as uncomfortable as it was to see what I was like from a 3rd party view, I have to say at the same time it’s incredibly amusing to watch someone flip out over a teen idol while sitting back with a knowing, sympathetic nod.

If you want to watch the film it’s here on Youtube.

#The Monkees #Daydream Believer #short film

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lovethediseasedkillerpuppy · 7 years

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Since you were getting some mean asks, I thought I'd send you a good one to balance it out! What are your favorite Dean episodes in SPN? (I found that a lot of my faves were generally either Dean or Cas centered) and if you could hang out with Mr. Ackles, what would you want to talk about? :)

Thank you :) The trolls do tend to come in spurts sometimes.

I’m contractually obligated to preface this by saying I always think there’s some Dean goodness in every ep, but if we’re talking whole eps…hmm. These aren’t all my favorite eps & I had to leave off a few eps that had some of my favorite scenes bc it wasn’t a ‘whole’ ep & I didn’t want this list to be a mile long lol.

1x6 Skin: Writing holes aside, I loved this ep for Dean. The 1st 5 eps we got plenty of hints there was a lot more to the guy than this smart alec tough guy he was showing the world but when the shifter started talking about Dean’s thoughts it was our first real look at how much he was really holding in inside & ya knew it was the tip of the iceberg. I wanted to know more asap…& protect him forever.

2x20 What is & Should Never Be: Is there even a Dean girl out there who doesn’t love this ep? You get such a rollercoaster of emotions with this gem. It starts off like wtf is happening but hey this seems ok…some good times…oops, things aren’t perfect here…crap, it’s all fake & I’m actually dying…but it’s kinda better here & I wanna stay. I cry like a baby just thinking abt the graveyard scene & when Dean tells Sam abt it at the end isn’t much better. “I wanted to stay so bad.” nearly killed me. You were right there w Dean every step of the ep. It hurt & it’s all Jensen’s damn fault.

4x16 On The Head of A Pin: This one…I hate to see Dean in pain but I love to watch Jensen act it out lol. It was all so heart-wrenching; from Dean pleading with Cas not to make him go down that road, to him putting on his torturer hat, to becoming the torturee, then him being completely broken mentally & physically at the hospital…gah! Dammit to hell, Ackles. How dare you.

5x4 The End: My favorite episode, period. I loved every damn second of it. In part bc it raised half a million questions & I’d kill for a spin-off series of those 5 years but also the actual ep was perfect. The Deans scenes were amazing. I remember sitting there watching being like Ok, I know he’s the same person & same actor playing him but damn if 2014!Dean wasn’t completely different than Dean. It’s a bit conflicting watching bc part of me is wanting to side with Dean but the other part can completely understand how 2014!Dean became what he did & yes there may be “something broken in him” but he’s still the guy taking care of everyone but himself & he deserved better.I seen a lot of posts saying 2014!Dean went dark/bad but I don’t see it. I see the same Dean we’ve always had who was put in impossible circumstances & he’s beaten, hurt & tired. I’m still pissed he was killed.

6x5 Live Free or Twihard: I loved Dean bashing the “Twilight” stuff before he became a vamp. And the general badassery when he took out a whole damn nest. I’m just a bit disappointed they didn’t show all the kills but the network threw out a “decapitation limit” lol

9x5 Dog Dean Afternoon: This one just amused the shit out of me & I love dogs so it had to make the list.

9x11 First Born: I’m trash for Dean & Crowley team ups so that part was great. Dean had more of a reckless attitude & I’m a fan of that too. Dean & Cain had a good dynamic.

9x23 Do You Believe in Miracles: Confession time; I didn’t think Dean becoming a demon was as obvious as a lot of people seemed to so I did enjoy the surprise at the end. That damn death scene *cries for five years* It hurt, PHYSICAL PAIN, to watch. Dean struggling to talk & saying it was better this way...then his last words “I’m proud of us” about damn time he gave himself a little credit. lol I was amused at the beginning that they just left Dean, veteran hunter, locked in a room w the supplies to escape. Really?

S10 Demon!Dean (I’m gonna lump this as 1 ep bc reasons): He was so much fun & “The year of the Deanmon” that the stupid show teased is why I have trust issues! We were robbed!

10x14 The Executioner’s Song: I liked how conflicted Dean was. He didn’t want to kill Cain but he had to kill Cain. He knew it the entire ep yet he still pleaded with Cain to tell him he didn’t have to do it. The fight scene was pretty bad ass. And that look of vulnerability when he fell into Sam’s arms really wrecked me. He was so sure he wasn’t gonna come back from killing Cain.

10x22 The Prisoner: This makes the list bc I’m twisted & I love me some dark homicidal Dean. My annoyance is only that they didn’t show him taking out more of that monster family.

12x11 Regarding Dean: In typical Spn fashion the ep went from amusing to painful. Dean with little bunny!Dean & going on tangents about everyone loving waffles & being the cutest little bean laughing at scooby-doo...then we get smacked in the feels by Dean killing us with that mirror scene. That ending montage with Dean riding the mechanical bull...well, i didn’t know I needed that in my life but I’m glad I found out.

Onto the second question (if ya stuck with my long ass answer lol)

I’d ask Jensen a million questions about behind the scenes stuff. I want to know about all the ad libs that made it into eps that we don’t know. All the script changes that he (or any actor) made, all the times when it said “do/say something Dean would” in his scripts. And then I’d go through a ton of my fav scenes & ask why he did it this that way/what was his motivation/thought process. And I’d like to get some candid answers on what he hasn’t liked, would have done different, dropped plots he’d have like to explore more, anything they haven’t done that he’d like to.

And I’d talk his ear off about how he IS a damn rock star (so he can stop saying no he isn’t, the lil shit) & how awesome it would be if he made a record & offer some helpful suggestions on what songs to cover for it.

And this last one is def shallow but in fantasy land we need no dignity, amirite? We all know damn right well if Spn were on a premiem chanel that Dean’s “craps” & “friggins” would be different words. Jensen has even said as much; that he cringes when friggin is in a script bc that wouldn’t be what Dean would say. So anyhoo, I’d pick a handful of CW edited down lines & have him redo them with what Dean would actually say...in Dean voice, naturally.

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