#what I did last night

[hoofpeet]

Doing a full pivot in 2025 into dedicating this blog to Between the Lions fanart

[bacchuschucklefuck]

typical tavern scene

[bixels]

Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.

Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).

Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.

Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.

Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).

AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.

But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s

At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF ruin ending in a nutshell

(Based off @/fallenchungus post)

[hinamie]

alongside someone like you

[canterbury-bell]

Fanart for @beanandberry 's This Love Is Ours 💗

[jackyjackdraws]

Redrawing one of my favorite drawings from The Book of Bill

God! These bitches gay! Good for them! Good for them!

[karda]

┐(´ー｀)┌

[chaoparty]

i always had a huge crush on sophie the swamp witch from neopets...

[acharlescoleman]

I went to a show last night at a small venue, I was like early-ish but didn’t think I was that that early but I was so I got like a really good seat like middle-front which I rarely get so I took it. (Unfortunately I also may or may not have cut in front of a attractive woman who simultaneously was going in the venue. If I was thinking more clearly I would’ve held the door for her and been a gent and let her go through instead…I’m 90% sure I held the door for her and then let her catch it as I kept-a-walk-in’. Dummy! Oh well!)

Anyways, I was close to the stage, it’s a small venue and it was neat but also kind of intimidating because the singers could literally see me since for a lot of the show, it took a while to the audience to become a semi crowd to put it lightly. But yeah it was really nice on the ears so I can hear the show really good and both singers were piano players so I totally got to watch them play piano while also singing.

Like I really got to zero in on their playing which was neat. The only negative was I was a little self-conscious about my hands and arms because they’re solo acts and they can totally see you so I wanted to have good body language. But I also had just ate like a bad hot dog so I couldn’t just chill in my seat so I leaned into my seat and had one arm crossed the other arm for the opening act.

I didn’t get up during the intermission which was a mistake so my legs were kind of stiff but then I was like well if it’s a movie I wouldn’t just get up either. So I did some tiny leg stretches instead which might be one of the perks of being short. Possibly!

Oh, and because I also went straight to Hollywood from work I was tired so I stifled a few yawns. Is that healthy? I forgot to Google if that’s okay or not. And for the first song from the headliner, I did the hand holding the head watch thing as an attempt to change my posture but that was making me more sleepy so I wound up just putting my hands on my legs and being like F it, this should make me more zen and I think it did.

Anyways the show was great. I thought about saying like good show to the singers but then I was like idk I gotta catch the subway and I had to pee lol. I nearly regretted catching the subway train I took since there was an almost fight in the train I was in. That was wild but whatever, it wound up just being a bunch of yelling so that was a relief.

One more annoying thing my last bus was like 20 minutes late! ugh. But whatever I’m home!

And then next Tuesday I’m gonna see Beck in LA. The venue is at somewhere in highland park so that should be another fun trip home. But it’ll be for Beck so it’ll be worth it!

Oh and one more, one more thing: I had dinner at Shake Shack. The two bad hot dogs, remember? Well not only did I choose to eat meh food but I ate meh food outside! (Which to be fair a LOT of people are outside too.) Like even with a jacket on, it was still cold outside. And I had like the sniffles on my way to the music venue which made me think like ugh now I’m sick, how dumb to eat outside with the weather like it is!!

I’m felt better when I sat for the show and then felt fine going home so that’s a relief but still, if you have any hypochondriac tendencies, don’t eat outdoors if you think it’s cold outside. It’ll f you up, either literally physically or spiritually or both!

[the-meme-monarch]

who up digitaling their circus *my entire house’s power goes out leaving me in complete darkness*

[strange-aeons]

See him face :)

[goryhorroor]

horror sub-genres: slasher

[obsob]

one thing u can count on me for is being normal about Some Guy

process under cut where u can see me losing my mind trying 2 figure out what i was doing in real time! :3

[hinamie]

*catboys ur shounen protag*

[aether-weather]

first snowflake sighting ❄️\(￣︶￣*\))