#when I first saw it ki broke me

[featki]

I'm sorry, baby !

— pairing: 西村力 x reader — contains: Fighting, mean ki, angst — now playing: 一子青葉

Sitting on your boyfriend's bedroom floor holding back tears wasn't entirely how you wanted to spend your Friday night.

This fight was stupid, you both knew it and yet it still happened. Granted of course couples fight, it's just what happens. But never has Riki yelled at you like that, over something that wasn't even your fault.

"Riki please, I'm just trying to figure out what's wrong."

"I get that, but I've already told you it doesn't matter. Why do you always have to be so damn clingy all the time." Anger laced his voice

"It does matter Niki. It matters when it's hurting you."

"Don't call me that damnit." Using his nickname struck a chord with him. He hated it when you used his nickname. It felt more intimate when you called him Riki or Ki. No one else did, everyone else called him Niki so using his real name and not his stage name felt so good, refreshing almost.

He left the room without saying any more, slamming the door harder than he wanted to.

And now you were left alone on his bedroom floor in his chrome hearts hoodie.

You knew he wasn't in the right headspace, he was tired and stressed. You knew that but you couldn't do anything about it until he talked to you, until he said asked you to help. Riki's never been super open about his feelings but you'd always get him to open up eventually. He's never held them back this much before.

Eventually, you decided to check on him. You wanted to follow him originally but thought he needed space so you left him alone.

You opened the door slowly, peeking your head out first. He was sitting on the couch with his legs up and his head in his hands, pressing up against his eyes, his brows were furrowed, almost as if he was crying. TV was so loud, he hadn't noticed the door opening so you continued. Slowly closing the door behind you, walking up to the corner where the hallway and living space meet.

"Ki?" Hoping the use of the sweet nickname would keep him from getting angry again.

He didn't answer but instead just looked up at you, eyes wet, cheeks pink, lips red and puffy. You were right, he was crying.

Crying wasn't something Riki did, the only times you saw him cry was when he was missing his family, or overly stressed, and you were the same. Tears just never came easy for you, it's something you've been ridiculed for. Being called "Cold" or "Emotionless" was something you became used to, but seeing Riki cry made tears well up in your eyes. You choked them back and went to sit next to him.

He didn't spare you a glance, still spacing off.

You felt so bad. A sinking feeling forms in your stomach. You contemplated just leaving but realistically that wouldn't help anything. Instead, you sat there, contemplating what you would say.

"I'm sorry Ki"

"Stop." He still sounded angry, your stomach churning as you frown slightly.

A short silence, then he follows up with "You have nothing to be sorry for." He felt so guilty. He knew it wasn't your fault he feels like shit, it wasn't your fault he was stressed and overworked but he still took it out on you.

"I made you upset though, I didn't mean to I swear" You sounded so defeated, almost like a child after getting scolded. His heart broke into a million pieces hearing you blame yourself for his outburst. "No no this isn't your fault. I promise it's not you" He finally looked at you. His usual blank gaze transformed into what looked like a puppy dog. His eyes were still wet and brows furrowed with worry and guilt.

You looked back at him with tears welling, he didn't understand how he could treat you, the love of his life, the way he did.

After the dreadful silence, you decided you'd just leave. You didn't want to but the pain of seeing him like this was too much, especially when you couldn't help him.

Riki grabbed your arm, with pleading eyes screaming for you not to go, whether he said it or not. "Where are you going?"

"I was gonna give you space."

He sits on the couch properly and hugs your waist. "Please don't go" His voice was wobbly and quiet "Ki..."

"Please, baby. I love you so much and I promise I'll show it properly." You start to run your hands through his hair, massaging the nape of his neck.

"And I'll make it up to you too. It wasn't" He choked on his words "It wasn't right for me to take my stress out on you. You're perfect and you're the only thing that makes me feel right. Please don't leave."

You've never seen him so needy, so clingy. He always clung to you but this is different. He sounded desperate for you. Like he'd die if you walked away "I'm not gonna leave Ki."

He gripped onto your waist tighter "But, I'm your girlfriend Ki. If you're hurting you can tell me... I know work is busy. I know they're overworking you but next just talk to me. Please baby, I love you, and seeing you like this sucks." You move one of your hands to his bicep and start rubbing circles with your thumb, his muscles were sore from dance practice.

"I care about you, and I don't want to fight with you. Especially over this."

"I know, I'll tell you next time. Okay? I'll tell you everything that's going on. I promise" He lifted the sweatshirt you were wearing a little, wearing nothing under, he kissed the side of your stomach.

"Thank you, baby."

He mumbles a small, sleepy "Of course..." while he's still kissing the side of your stomach.

"Let's go to sleep, baby." You say while slightly pushing his head away from your stomach "Mmm okay" He picks you up, burying his head in your neck as he walks to his room.

He lays you down on the bed, laying on top of you, cuddling into you like a little baby. He would never admit it but he loved it when you baby-ied him. Sure in front of the other members, he'd hate it but when you guys are alone and he gets to just be lovey and cheesy, it means so much to him.

"I love you, Ki, so much" When he didn't respond you lifted his hair up to see him just to realize he had already fallen asleep.

Whenever he cries he usually falls asleep in your arms within minutes so this was nothing new.

You kissed his head, while still playing with his hair. You fall asleep in his arms, and at the end of the night, you care for Riki so much and only want the best for him. Fights are going to happen. It's inevitable, but luckily for you, Riki always knew how to make things better, how to make you feel better, he loves you so much, and he'd do anything for you.

-

The next day after school you walk into the house after Riki walks you home just to see a huge container of Smiski blind boxes and flowers on the counter, with a note saying "I love you, baby :)"

You could never stay mad at him

@ featki

Note: This was kinda rushed and not proofread... sorryyyy !! Been thinking ab this for awhile so wanted to write it. ALSO Niki kissing your stomach is NOT meant to be taken in a suggestive way at all. It's cute so don't take it weirdly.

[glitterjay]

Enhypen reaction when you take off your engagement ring after an argument 💔💍 (heavy angst to happy ending pls)

⭒ angst (but its happy at the end????), arguments

⭒ c's note: yall are making me cry and for WHAT. i also did this up to jungwon only because i just can't see ni-ki being engaged just yet. reblogs are appreciated!

⭒ taglist: @hollyoongs @moon7jay @wondipity @fertilizedtoesw @kwiwin @enhabooks

heseung had a really bad day at work. he was exhausted, and to be completely honest, he did not want to see anyone at all. so when he got home and ignored you, you confronted him about it. he had given you attitude when he first walked into the house, and you were not about to deal with that. the argument escalated quickly, with you taking your engagement ring and giving it to him. this made him realize quickly what he had done, realizing he shouldn't have taken his frustration out on you. he'd approach you gently, apologizing first about his actions and asking how he could repay it. he knew you wouldn't talk to him normally right away, and he was okay with it. he admitted he was the one in the wrong, but he'd beg you to put the ring back on

you and jay had been clashing a lot when it came to opinions, which often led to arguments between the both of you. tired of this behavior, you took the engagement ring he had given you a month prior and placed it in the bowl where you kept your car keys. jay noticed this and sighed, taking the ring in his hands and approaching you calmly. what had caused all of this were the fights you had often, so causing another one would be the worst thing he could do. he'd ask you to sit and talk it out with him, brainstorming ideas and ways you could avoid all these problems without ruining your relationship. he'd then give you the ring and tell you to wear it when you feel ready.

jake had snapped at you after you tried to explain why you hadn't told him you were going out beforehand. there was no need for him to yell at you like that, but he did anyway. with tears in your eyes, you took off the engagement ring you had on and dropped it on the floor. it was only then that jake realized he was being far too harsh and immediately apologized for his actions. he wouldn't care about the ring, actually. his priority then was to resolve what his actions had caused and to let you know how much he truly loves you.

you had taken your engagement ring out after a heated argument with sunghoon simply because every time you saw it, it reminded of you of the way he had snapped before your eyes. he knew he was wrong for exploding that way, and he was aware that both of you needed some time to relax and cool off before talking again. it made him sad when he saw said ring in the night table next to the bed. specifically the one on his side, but if he was being honest, he fucked up. it took him by surprise when you approached him first to talk things out, giving him your own ring so he could put it back in your finger.

it was rare when you and sunoo faught, but this time it had gone over the edge, making you take off the engagement ring he had given you, and tossing it out in some bowl that was laying around the house. it hurt his feeling, and it hurt you too knowing you broke the promise of never taking it off again, but there was nothing else you could've thought of in that moment. sunoo was quick to apologize first, not being able to take it anymore, and ask you to at least put the ring back on.

arguments were jungwon's least favorite part of a relationship, and it sure became his enemy when you took your engagement ring off and gave it to him after fighting over something quite stupid. he was incredibly upset about it, but took matters into his own hands to make a surprise for you as a way to apologize, and propose to you in the hopes you'll say yes and put on the ring again. (you did)

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[sunsvrs]

How would Enhypen react to you flinching when they raise their hand

(I don’t know how to title this 😭)

I saw this done a few years ago with my ultimate group at the time. I absolutely HAD to do this with Enhypen- no discussion.

TW: Possible impact trauma?

Heeseung:

Heeseung was about to ruffle your hair when he saw you flinch, your body tensing up in fear. His heart clenched painfully in his chest, and he immediately pulled his hand back. "Did I scare you, babe?" he asked, his voice filled with regret. He carefully reached out again, this time placing a gentle hand on your cheek. "I’m so sorry if I ever made you feel like I’d hurt you," he murmured, his eyes searching yours for reassurance. "You know I’d never do that, right? You’re my everything."

Jay:

Jay’s arm froze in mid-reach as he saw you flinch, your eyes widening in fear. His heart dropped into his stomach, and he immediately lowered his hand, stepping back. "Did you really think I was going to hit you darling?" he asked, his voice strained with hurt. He carefully moved closer, wrapping his arms around you in a gentle hug. "I would never do that. I’m so sorry if I ever made you feel unsafe with me," he whispered, holding you close. "I love you way too much to ever hurt you."

Jake:

Jake was in the middle of a playful gesture when he saw you flinch, your body tensing up as if you were bracing for something. His heart shattered at the sight, and he quickly pulled his hand back. "Did I scare you, my love?" he asked softly, his voice tinged with guilt. He reached out again, this time gently cupping your face in his hands. "I’d never hurt you, you know that, right? I’m so sorry if I ever gave you a reason to think I would," he murmured, his eyes searching yours for reassurance. "You’re my world, and I’d never want to see you hurt."

Sunghoon:

Sunghoon’s arm paused in mid-air when he saw you flinch, your body going rigid with fear. His heart sank, and he immediately lowered his hand, taking a step back. "Why did you flinch, baby?" he asked softly, his voice filled with concern. He hesitated before carefully wrapping his arms around you, pulling you into a gentle embrace. "I’d never hurt you. I’m so sorry if I made you feel like I would," he whispered, his voice trembling slightly. "You’re too precious to me, and I’d never want to see you afraid."

Sunoo:

Sunoo was in the middle of a playful reach when he saw you flinch, your eyes filled with fear. His heart broke at the sight, and he immediately dropped his hand, taking a step back. "Did you think I was going to hit you, angel?" he asked softly, his voice laced with sadness. He slowly moved closer, wrapping his arms around you in a warm, comforting hug. "I would never, ever hurt you. I’m so sorry if I made you feel that way," he whispered, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. "You’re my everything, and I want you to feel safe with me."

Jungwon:

Jungwon’s hand froze in mid-air when he saw you flinch, your body stiffening as you looked at him with wide eyes. His heart dropped, the playful smile fading from his face. "Did you really think I’d hit you, sunshine?" he asked softly, lowering his hand as guilt flooded his chest. He stepped closer, careful not to startle you, and gently took your hand in his. "I’d never hurt you, I swear. You mean too much to me," he whispered, brushing his thumb over your wet cheek. "Please don’t be afraid of me, okay?"

Ni-ki:

Ni-ki’s hand froze mid-reach as he saw you flinch, your body tensing up as if you were expecting something bad. His heart sank, and he quickly pulled his hand back, his eyes widening in shock. "Did I scare you, babe?" he asked, his voice soft and filled with concern. He slowly moved closer, carefully wrapping his arms around you. "I’d never hurt you, I promise. I’m so sorry if I made you feel like I would," he whispered, his voice trembling slightly. "You’re so important to me, and I’d never want you to feel afraid because of me."

This is my first proper post, i hope you like it 😭. Reqs open and appreciated since i have no ideas (its just me in here and I’m understaffed)

[oliverstarksbae]

Picked up pieces

♡ hi, this is my first ever one shot, so this might be bad, but I hope you enjoy 😉

♡ summary: in which they realize they are made to pick each other pieces

Evan buckley was a player but that was before he met (y/n) she very much was the complete opposite "the ray of sunshine type of girl" So why did she fall in love with him beacuse behind the bad boy act was someone who was hurt and needed some one .

Now it was a normal Saturday he was at work she was at home doing some house work at there shared home made some food read a book and catch up on her favorite show

It had now hit 11pm Evans shift does not finish till 2 so she went to the living room and saw the news.

When she click channel 8 she heard "this is a live broadcast of a horrific hotel fire so far many firefighters are having a though time helping." said a red hair woman

(Y/n's) mind spiraled of what she heard but then took a worried breath beacus the first thing the she thought was ok maybe this is a different firehouse in the 118 area beacuse they were busy

She tried and tried to belive that but then she saw the 118 written on the firetruck that's when she panicked and started to pace around the house with her mind full of worry but it was still not his time to get off so she decided to look at her phone every 5 seconds for the time he gets off.

Evan buckley was stressed to say the least first he was trapped where there was a huge fire which he got out of beacuse he thought of who he cause the most for and how if he did not get out how many people would have been devastated

Then he was not able to save someone today which hurt worst then he thought it would.

He went on his phone and called (y/n) by pressing the contact lover girl <3 ❤️

Then the first thing he heard was, "OH MY GOD EVAN ARE YOU OK I WAS SO WORRIED I SAW ON THE NEW-"

"I'm fine" he replied with not so nice but not that serious tone still in shock on what happen

"Ok let me know when you get home E I love you" said (y/n)

" Yeah see you bye" he said not realizing that he did not say I love you back

(Y/n) on the other hand was confused but decided not to think much beacuse maybe he was tired?

*A few minutes later *

A knock sounded on the door she rushed up to it and ran to evan the give him a hug

"Oh my god, evan, I was so worried. I'm so glad you're ok." she pulled him into a hug, but then he started shaking, and it lok like he was going to cry?

"Evan are you ok? Ok-i-I- need you to calm down fallow my breathing ok?" He agreed while shaking and tears slowing coming down his face

"Baby, I need you to tell me why you are crying. Are you hurt-" he gulped and said, "No-no im-not"

"Ok did something happen?" She asked

"Yes-yes-some-thing-did," he said

"Ok, what happened? I need you to tell me when you're ready, ok?"

"I w-as g-etting some-one an-d we put h-Im on the gurny and in the amb-ul-an-ce he cod-ed" he said it while it replaying in his mind what happened

" E oh my God it's ok you did the best you can and you saved many people ok I love you I want you to know that"

"B-ut I didn't save them I ki-lled hi-m"

"Evan buckley do not think that way you did the best you can and your ability to risk your life every day for strangers now I think you should go take a shower and get ready for bed"

He replied with a happy gentle smile

After everyone was done they both hopped

Onto bad a cuddled she being to big spoon

And slowly he fell asleep but before he said.

"I love you so much and thank you for being there for me"

"Of course I am there for you now I'm tried so goodnight"

"Good night"

Before she fell asleep she thought about what she said and she knew he was hurt plot but she really didn't think it was bad enough for this to happen but she realizedThey were made for each to pick up the pieces other people broke

[mrsjjsmaybanks]

LINGER

pairing> jj maybank x fem! reader

synopsis> as of recent jj has been ignoring you, and you had no idea why. maybe it was cause topper kept flirting with you, or maybe that pope was tutoring you, maybe even that john b hugged you. at this point you had no clue what you had done to royally piss your boyfriend off.

warning> kie being a bitch, mentions of running away, the word baby is used once, cleo is gf in this, NOT BETA READ!

a/n> ahhhh first story on this acc!! no hating on kie she is gf, very much based on linger by cranberries, also i have a obx rewrite coming out soon would anyone be interested?? also pls ignore the fact that this sucks

"hey jombee have you seen jayj?" you asked walking into the cheateu, "we were supposed to go to the wreck." you continued walking into the spare room jj stays when he comes over.

"i think i saw him and kie heading towards there earlier, something about meeting up with cleo and pope." john b answered sipping his beer before getting up.

"i'll take you in the twinkie gotta go meet up with sarah." he offered, nodding your head you climbed into the van, why would he be there with kie?, you wondered. not cause he couldnt hang out with the girl but cause you guys had plans, and jj never missed plans with his girl.

when john b pulled up to the wreck you immediately spotted pope, cleo, kie, and him. before pope could call you over you noticed something was off. jj was holding kies hand, why was he holding her hand while dating you?

"hi guys!" you smiled as you walked over to there table eyeing the two people you really did not want to see. as soon as you approached jj immediately dropped kies hand making her mouth drop. "hi y/n," jj sputtered out shocked to see you like you werent supposed to be here. "hi jayj." you rolled your eyes starting a conversation with cleo instead.

"um what are you doing here?" he tried to converse with you. "well i was waiting for my date to pick me up but he decided to take someone else out." you stared directly at kiara as if it was her fault your boyfriend took her instead of you, which to be fair is her fault a little bit.

"its not my fault he doesnt like you anymore." it was like the whole restaurant went silent. "what?" you stumbled back away from them like youd been burned. "you heard what i said, its not my fault jj doesnt like you anymore." she said sipping her drink like it was common knowledge.

"y/n wait," you didnt even want to hear what he had to say anymore you wanted out. you wanted away from this town, this relationship, from him. so you ran, you ran past kies house, past yours, past the cheateu, you ran until you couldnt run anymore.

it was now sunset, its been hours since the incident at the wreck, the pogues have been looking everywhere for you, cleos been calling everyone non stop, your mom, dad, even shoupe. while on the phone with your mom, you walk in looking disheveled as ever.

"oh y/n," jj sighs a breath of relief at the sight of you unharmed. "no," you cut him off pushing him away. "what? y/n whats wrong? what happened?" you never avoided jj ever he was like your lifeline. "why were you holding her hand? is that the way we stand? were you lying all the time?" you just broke down tears falling rapidly, no stopping them.

"was it just a game to you?" now you were pacing back and forth. "baby-" "you know im such a fool for you." you finally stopped and look jj dead in the eye, "were over. we are done." and walked out.

[117luv]

THE PARENT TRAP — LHS | CHAPTER 17

synopsis: jungwon and ni-ki met each other at a summer camp and found out they were fraternal twins. this leads to events where the two ex-lovers, heeseung and yn, are reunited after 14 years by their children.

genre: exes to lovers, smau, fluff

pairing: lee heeseung x fem!reader

warnings: cursing, poor attempts in humor, grammatical errors, marriage, pregnancy, parenthood, miscommunication

taglist: CLOSED!

a/n: hey angels!! early update from me cause i have some spare time BUT we are reaching the end of the smau and im so excited cause i finally fixed the outline of the remaining chapters so i hope you enjoy this and love ya! <3

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The boys woke up and were ready to interrogate their parents about the photos that they dropped last night. All they needed was a verbal confirmation from them regarding whether they were together or not. As the boys walked down the dining area, they saw a scene that felt unusual but real at the same time, and it was their mom making pancakes while their dad was clinging to her waist as she cooked. Ni-ki wasn't used to his dad being so clingy, much less to his mom, but this proved that his feelings towards his mom had never changed throughout the years.

Yn turned around at the sight of the boys and greeted them. "Oh boys, you already woke up. Here, I cooked some pancakes, and the syrups are already on the table, so eat up," she said cheerily as she placed the last pancake on the plate. Heeseung went and filled up their glasses, and the family started eating their breakfast. The entire breakfast was silent but calming; it felt like they were a complete family. Jungwon broke the ice and asked his parents about their status. "Well, me and your mom are back together. I think the whole blind date pushed me to confront her about my feelings," he confessed, and the boys started jumping around after what he said. The twins were ecstatic about the news and have never been happy. Finally, after so many years, the Lee family is finally complete.

 

TIME SKIP — CHRISTMAS DAY

The Lee family was preparing for Christmas, and the boys were full of energy the entire day. The boys teased their parents when they asked if they could get a baby sister as a gift, to which Yn jokily replied, "Well, I'll have to ask your dad first about that gift," while chuckling at his surprised reaction. After eating dinner, they decided to walk outside and have some family time in the snow.

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[misojunnie]

can i request this?

https://www.tumblr.com/misojunnie/728375539407159296/i-find-the-vampire-and-werewolf-rivalry-dynamic

but instead of vampires it's witch/warlock/wizard please?

☆ &team as your werewolf bf! w/ a witch (or warlock) partner :)

ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱᐧ.˳˳.⋅ʚϊɞ.

byun eui joo - ej

is very unserious about you being a witch

when you finally confessed his first question was to ask if you could cast a spell on him that gave him super strength

he's so easy going n sweet :( got very quickly acclimated to the magical door slamming, floating pots and pans, etc

"honey, next time you summon a goetic demon, can you please make sure he's gone by dinnertime?"

murata fuma - fuma

quite surprised you were a witch; probably made an awful pun to cover up his shock

will easily lay his life down to protect you from the people who are prejudiced against you, even if its a fellow werewolf

you love your man <3 someone tried to jump him once and you cursed them for all of eternity

"can you do the dishes tonight? and please don't bring them to life on accident again."

koga yudai- k

tried to scare you away with garlic when he found out, and you had to tell him that only works on vampires

despite his initial shock, he quickly got accustomed to your habits

read the entire wikipedia page on witches so he'd be "well informed of all your needs"

makes an awful witch themed pun at least once a week, ex: "witch, please."

wang yixiang- nicholas

found out you were a witch like a week before you broke the news

^ secretly peeked into your bedroom one time and saw you curling your hair with a levitating curling iron, but decided to say nothing until you were ready

hates it when you put spells on him, eg; "I'm leaving, and if you even try to immobilize me, y/n, I swear to god-"

has asked you to curse ta-ki more than once or twice

nakakita yuma - yuma

he thinks it's hot

asks you to put spells on him so he can walk on the ceiling, which you continually tell him don't exist

tried to prank you once and you used magic to throw him through six layers of drywall on instinct

safe to say he hasn't tried to prank you since

asakura jo - jo

didn't even believe you at first, his first reply was "oh, really? then where's your big hat?"

it took you a week to convince him that it wasn't a prank, and he only believed you after you sent him through space and time

always takes care of you after you exhaust yourself from casting too many spells

found out you were ironically terrified of the conjuring and still makes fun of you for it

shigeta harua - harua

was shocked at first, but quickly came around when he realized how wonderful your magic could be

always wants to hear witch lore and all the stories about your covens and history

was suspicious you put a love spell on him but eventually realized that he just loves you a lot. damn.

hates when you make him clean because he knows you could easily do it with magic

ta-ki

poor baby went into actual shock when you told him you were a witch, but he had no complaints

genuinely had no idea that witches existed

"wait, so do you have warts and stuff? no judgement."

is still amazed every time you do a spell, even years later

hirota riki - maki

his only knowledge of witches comes from playing minecraft

"so wait, you don't live in a hut? not even a swamp?"

when he gets too hyper you cast a spell on him that glues him to the wall or something (comes in handy when you need to study)

asks you to summon demons just to do his homework

ॱ⋅.˳˳.⋅ॱᐧ.˳˳.⋅ʚϊɞ.

a/n: sorry for this super late reply! I have very little knowledge of witches so I hope I did this request justice ;-; this was sooo fun

[wordsarelife]

so my idea was that reader never had her first kiss and is very inexperienced. they‘re all making fun if her but in a loving way. but lockwood decides to rescue her and teach / practise with her.

—london boy

pairing: anthony lockwood x fem!reader

summary: lockwood and y/n finish a study about what defines the greatness of a kiss

warnings: kissing ig

note: this was so fun to write!! such a good idea, I hope I did it justice!!

"yeah" Lucy laughed "but that wasn't the weirdest thing, when he kissed me, he had so much spit in his mouth, I nearly had to throw up"

"ew" George exclaimed, the rest of the table irrupting into similar sounds at the story of Lucy's horrible date

"I hate it when people do that" Lockwood agreed and you grew quiet. you had never kissed anyone, so it wasn't like you would now what should and shouldn't be done while kissing.

you found it some what embarrassing, but at the same time you had only turned sixteen, you had all the time in the world to kiss dozen of people. you internal monologue, had totally occupied from listening to the conversation and now all eyes had turned to you

"what is it?" you raised your brows. you sensed the growing reservation from your friends

"nothing" exclaimed Lockwood quickly, but you didn't buy into it

"we just wondered if you had ever kissed someone before" George said. Lockwood threw an angry look in his direction and Lucy admonished him loudly

"what?" you asked, startled by the sudden question

"well" said George "we all had a fair share of relationships, but we never saw you with anybody.. that begs the question" George left the rest of sentence unfinished, due to the kick he received from Lockwood under the table.

"oh" you looked down in shame "well, in that case I guess you're right"

"its nothing to be ashamed of" muttered Lucy. you looked up and send her a grateful smile

"it's a bit funny. but in a good way" George send you a smile "hopefully you will never have to kiss such a douchebag like Lucy, with a mouth full spit, there are enough of them in this world"

you all broke into laughter, the tense atmosphere suddenly blown away by you guys falling into your usual comfort.

an hour later, you were cleaning up the kitchen, when there was a soft knock at the kitchen door. you turned around and were met with Lockwood

"hey" you smiled "you know you don't have to knock, right? this is still your house"

"I didn't want to startle you" he walked into the room and sat down at the table

"I just finished" you sat down beside him "its quite late, we should go to bed"

he had taken your hand and stopped you from standing up

"wait" he muttered and watched as you sank back in your seat again "what you said earlier, was that true?"

"what? that I've never been kissed? do you think I would lie, because I like to feel embarrassed all the time? it's bad enough already, I don't need you to make fun of me"

"I would never, and there's nothing to be embarrassed of, a few less douchebags you have kissed, what does it matter?"

you just shrugged

"not every kiss is awesome. some of them are bad. so bad even, that you later regret them" he smiled reassuringly "maybe you avoided a few of them"

"this might sound stupid" you breathed "but are there bad and good kisses or just bad and good kissers?"

"well, what's the difference?" Lockwood smiled

"I presume there's a big one" you said "the difference is noticeable wether you measure the quality of a kiss by the circumstances or more by the person giving them. statistically-" you were interrupted the moment Lockwood suddenly leaned forward and plastered a chaste kiss onto your lips

"wha-?" your eyes turned big

"that was a good kiss for example" he said lowly "and just for measurement purposes" he leant forward again and repeated his action, this time leaving his lips a few seconds longer

"yeah" you breathed confused "those were pretty good"

"I think I understand what you meant now" he said "is it the kiss or is it the person giving the kiss"

"yeah" you nodded, leaning forward and kissing him again "I think it's the person giving the kiss" Lockwood shrugged and you smiled

"well, maybe there's another possibility we haven't thought about yet"

"is there?"

"yeah, what if it's the length of a kiss?" you planted a short and chaste kiss onto his mouth

"yeah, what if the quality is defined by time rather than skill?" Lockwoods hand wandered to rest on your cheek. he pulled your face forward slowly, connecting your lips.

it was in that moment you realised that kissing was much more easier than you had initially thought. it was a lot like falling asleep. all the time it didn't happen, you would worry and think, but when it finally did, it just happened, you knew what you had to do suddenly

your hands went into his hair, his hand was still resting on your cheek, the other gliding down towards your waist and pulling you off your chair and into his lap. his lips were soft, not that you had anything to compare them too, but still. you opened your mouth slightly, his tongue slipping inside.

you slowly broke the kiss, leaning your forehead against his and smiling. you stayed like that for a few minutes.

"do you think those are enough kisses to determine a measurement?"

Lockwood shook his head. "we still have to find out if quantity stands above quality"

you stood up from his lap. "I think quality's more important" you giggled, watching his face fall dramatically

"well, only one way to find out" he laughed, chasing you up the stairs.

the next morning George and Lucy would complain about having heard you two giggle all night.

you would send a conspiratorial look in Lockwoods direction, having continued your study up in his room

you were no longer the only one in the house who had not been kissed. and you had Lockwood to thank for that. although he had gotten quiet angry when you had suggested to expand the study by testing out different kissing partners.

he was much more keen on him being the only one you were kissing. well, let's just say, it's not like you minded...

[leighaltieri]

keep me warm; stu macher x reader

request: Wouldn't it be SO crazy if you wrote a little Stu fluff fic for a male reader. Unthinkable even. I would sell my soul though

summary: you get cold on your first date, luckily stu is there to keep you warm

warnings: fluff, male reader

word count: 674

notes: my first request! i hope you enjoy it anon <3 this is my first time writing a stu fic so i hope he's not too ooc

read on ao3 | scream masterlist

You shivered and wrapped your arms around yourself for warmth as you stepped out of the Wendy’s into the cold night air. When Stu picked you up for your first date, it was warm out, so you didn’t think you’d need a jacket. But after seeing a movie and eating a burger that tasted like delicious cardboard, the sun had set, and the summer heat had turned cold.

“Want me to walk you home?” Stu asked, turning to look at you. He noticed you shivering. “You okay?”

“Yeah, just a little cold.”

“Where’s your jacket?”

“At home. Didn’t think I’d need one.” You could hardly finish your sentence before Stu was wrapping his arms around you, trying to warm you up. “This better?” He was so warm, like a giant radiator. You hugged him back while he rubbed your back and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead.

“C’mon, bro, let’s get you home.” He pulled away from the hug and lifted his beige sweater over his head, leaving him in just a white t-shirt. “Put this on, it’ll keep you warm.”

“You’ll freeze, dumbass.” 

He stuck his tongue out at you. “Hey! You're so mean to me. Just take it.” 

You put the sweater on, it was too long because Stu was freakishly tall, but it warmed you up and it smelled strongly of his Axe body spray. You rolled the sleeves up a little to free your hands and Stu intertwined his long fingers with yours.

“Thank you.” You said, giving his hand a gentle squeeze.

“You’re welcome,” He grinned, “Can’t have you freezing to death, can we?”

You laughed and playfully shoved him with your shoulder. The two of you began to walk down the dimly lit street, your footsteps echoing softly in the quiet, peaceful night.

You only lived a five minute walk from the Wendy’s, so it didn’t take long for you to get home. You walked up the steps to your front door, stopping in front of it to face Stu. You started to take off his sweater, but he grabbed your wrist before you could get it over your head. 

“Keep it, it looks good on you.” He grinned, letting go of your wrist. His eyes met yours and although it was dark, you swore you could see a faint blush on his cheeks.

“Thanks, Stu,” you said quietly, your voice barely more than a whisper.

“Of course,” For a moment, you stayed silent, just looking into each others’ eyes. But then, Stu took a deep breath, “I should probably get going,” he said.

You nodded, feeling disappointed, but it was getting late.

“Goodnight, Stu,” you whispered.

“Goodnight,” he replied, his grin widening as he turned and began to walk away. You watched him leave, then turned around to unlock your door. You were about to step inside when you heard him yell your name. You turned back and saw him running back to you, a determined look on his face.

“Stu, what are you-”

He hesitated for a moment, then cupped your cheeks and gently pressed his lips to yours. Your heart raced as you kissed him back, wrapping your arms around his slender waist. After a short while you pulled away, your faces still close enough for you to feel his warm breath on your lips. He had a stupidly large grin on his face as he looked into your eyes.

“Be my boyfriend?” He asked, slightly out of breath from the running and the kiss.

You knew the answer before he’d even asked the question. “Yes.”

His grin widened as he leaned in and kissed you again. His lips were warm and soft against yours and you smiled into the kiss. You made out for a while on your doorstep, until Stu finally broke the kiss.

“I actually do have to get home,” He said, “But I’ll call you tomorrow?”

“Sounds good,” You couldn’t stop smiling as you replied. Stu kissed you one last time before he started walking home, grinning like an idiot.

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Best QL of 2023: Favorite Lines

Okay so I am slightly over my one year mark in the BL Fandom, and have watched over the past like...12-14 months a little under 100 shows, so I am forcing myself to stick to the shows that aired in 2023 or else I would never be able to finish this. But I saw @abstractelysium do this so I had to climb aboard:

Top Five Lines that Lived Rent-Free In My Brain This Year:

"Have you been well? Without me?" - Shin Ki Tae, Our Dating Sim, Ep 4

Y'ALL THIS FUCKING LINE. KNIFE. CHEST. EVERY TIME! This line sits on the same level of absolute and total emotional devastation for me as the "I just want things to be nice for him" link in Big Eden.

"Are you tired, Uncle Jim?" - Li Ming, Moonlight Chicken, Ep 8

Jim and Li Ming's relationship just makes me absolutely so fucking emotional. I love them individually, I love them together, and I love how much Jim does for his community. But no one ever asks him this. And it is so striking to me that Li Ming is finally the one to demonstrate how much he understands and appreciates everything Jim does not only for him but for the entire community when he ass him that question.

"My family is old fashioned. I kept everything in my heart and didn't want to tell anyone until I was 15. My family went to Europe with Wa's family. We saw two women kissing on the street. I saw her and wanted to talk to her. I want to know how she did it. I want to release it like them. But Wa's mother and I...You can probably imagine. A pair of old-fashioned women who think same-sex love is wrong...That's when I realized I wasn't the only one feeling terrible. When we got back that night she broke down and cried. No one knew why. I asked her if it was about the afternoon incident. She asked me if a kiss between two women was wrong. I said no. It's just like two men kissing. It's not wrong. On that night a 15 year old boy and a 13 year old girl held each other and cried." -Sailom, Wedding Plan, Ep. 6

Okay this isn't a line, it's a monologue but holy fucking shit this was such a beautiful speech, and I will quote @bengiyo here and say "I CAN'T BELIEVE PEOPLE HATED THIS MAN." He has spent so much of his life in the closet protecting not only himself but especially Yiwa. Sailom was going to go through with the wedding just to ensure that Yiwa and Marine could be together without anyone prying.

"This is as tender as I can be. Someone like me." -Mhok, Last Twilight, Ep. 4

Honestly you could replace the first sentence with whatever you want, the part that sticks in my brain the most is "someone like me" because I know that Mhok must have heard shit like that his entire life, and Day is here saying it in a way that I don't think Mhok takes as an actual insult or passing of judgement. I like that the line is used whenever Mhok does show who he truly is and how much tenderness or warmth he is actually capable of in a subversion of the expectations placed upon him.

"But you know, I already knew your preferences so well. When I go shopping with Kakei-san, he talks about you all the time...He says it with a smile" -Kayoko, What Did You Eat Yesterday?, Season 2 Episode 11

THE WEEP I WEPT WHEN KAYOKO TOLD KENJI HOW MUCH SHIRO TALKS ABOUT HIM. This entire second season of WDYEY Shiro has just continuously shown so much beautiful beautiful growth and my heart twists with pride every single time I see him looking more relaxed and smiley. WDYEY is the most perfect show to ever exist.

[iris-sistibly]

Okay babes, episode 8 is nothing short of exciting!

📍Hae-in choosing to divorce Hyun-woo so he'd finally be free from all the bullshit her family put him up with, and Hyun-woo deciding to stay at Queens so he could prove his innocence and protect Hae-in. I feel sad that they actually divorced but again, it was necessary for them to "part ways" so they'd find their way back into each other, and I think the next episode will be about them slowly rekindling their romance and hopefully healing from the past. I am anticipating a more beautiful wedding than their first one.

📍Don't get me wrong, I still hate Eun-seong but now I'm becoming more and more interested in his backstory, so this bitch still has some ✨humanity✨ in him, judging from the way he reacted when he found out about Hae-in's illness. Him saving Hae-in from the dog attack when they were kids answered the question why he hates dogs. He's still trash, however I do have a feeling that he will have some character redemption somewhere and will basically help Hae-in find a cure, but we'll never know for sure.

📍Hong Man-dae is the biggest fucking idiot among the Hong family, I'm not saying he deserves what happened to him, I'm saying that he needs to learn the hard way and be slapped with the truth so hard that I want him to come down to his knees and beg his children for forgiveness. As much as I feel sorry for him, he was a terrible father to all of them when they got older...and trusting a fucking shaman? Really?

📍Speaking of which, I am actually glad that the Hong family is now broke af. They need to be humbled big time, especially Hae-in's mom, that bitch is such a poor judge of character. I want her to feel embarrassed and terrible about herself for constantly looking down at Hyun-woo and his family, these are the same people who'd willingly save and help their asses even if it meant getting dragged into this shit hole they dug themselves. Also, I saw a clip of the nosy old ladies who were making fun of her at the salon, I say...DESERVE! I hope she starts to change because honestly, I'm so fed up with her and her bullshit.

📍Soo-cheol maybe immature, but I have to admit that he's a good father. He just wanted his son to experience everything he never did, idk what Da-hye was up to. Maybe it was part of their plans? Perhaps she foresaw how messy it's going to be that's why she chose to run away, we'll never know for sure. I still have faith that she'll choose to do what's right for the sake of her son, after all, Soo-cheol treated her and their baby well.

📍Shout out to Song Joong-ki for his cameo. Hiring Vincenzo as a divorce lawyer is such a Hae-in move 😂

[janaknandini-singh999]

Meera Ke Prabhu Girdhar Naagar

Krishna looked on

As he had looked on when she had been given poison which turned to nectar when she offered it to him

As he had looked on when snakes were thrown at her but again she offered it to him like flowers and it turned into a garland

It was just his murti that looked on

But for Meera it was really him

How else would she be saved from death's grasp every time if it wasn't Krishna himself looking out for her?

She sang to him as she always did but tonight there was a sad undertone

She had had enough

Despite being the queen, she was constantly harassed by her devar

She remininsced about her husband who she respected. He let her do her duties and then spend the rest of the time in the temple of the Mahal with her beloved Krishna. But after his death, she was being tormented by his brother.

She folded her hands to Krishna's murti and then at the jauhar kund where her mother in law, the late Maharani, had done jauhar with thousands of other women when Akbar had attacked Chittorgarh

"Mother, not everyone can do what you did. Not even me. You held on to your honour till your very last breath. But jauhar is done by those when the invaders close in with their egos. What about those who are attacked by their own family? There is no such pratha that can save them. My husband, your son, was a benevolent king. But your other son.. If I commit Jauhar my image will be tarnished forever because there are no invaders. Jauhar is done by those who have no other hope, mother. But I have one." she turned to look at her Krishna with teary eyes

"The only element I'd let myself to be consumed by is him. My only hope since birth, to death, is him."

"Maharani" a daasi entered the temple and curtsied "I apologize for interrupting your prayers."

Meera didn't turn around but she closed her eyes and nodded as the tears rolled down

"Your highness, you really need to leave. He is on his way back to the palace. I can't see you-" she stopped herself as she was about to mention Meera's bruises and scars caused by her brother in law's abuse

It was a wonder indeed because when the daasi had seen them for the first time and pointed it out Meera had calmly replied that she didn't feel a thing because she was thinking of Krishna

"Why does your Krishna allow so much pain in your life?" the daasi's voice cracked on seeing her queen like this so she looked away

"No. Not a word against him. I would've been long dead if it weren't for him." Meera put a hand on her shoulder and smiled

"You should ask him to hold you with him forever, away from it all"

"Maharani!" A soldier came huffing and curtsied rigidly "Sincere apologies but they're on the horsebacks and can arrive any moment now."

Meera stood up hurriedly and collected her pooja samagri, dashing. But just at the gate, she stopped

"Does running away make me a coward?" She whispered

"No, maharani. You are going to your lord." the daasi said

"No no no wait! What about YOU ALL?" Meera's voice rose and suddenly an arrow whizzed past them

"DON'T worry about us, Maharani! Just GO PLEASE AAPKO SHRI KRISHN KI SAUGANDH!"

The soldier winced in pain as an arrow was shot again which lodged itself in his arm.

The daasi almost shrieked but carried him over and dragged him outside.

Meera saw a lover's spark between the two and despite the situation she smiled. She silently prayed to Krishna for their protection

And then she ran

She ran and ran and ran throughout the villages, the jungles, her feet and knees getting scraped, she went on for days without food or water and she ran

"I'm waiting, sakhi" a voice breathed in her ear

Finally she reached Dwarka and broke down at Dwarkadheesh's feet

A few days were spent in bliss as she became the poet she was meant to be

But not for long because they followed her even there

The time had come

She took a last, long breath in front of the murti

And closing her eyes, she folded her hands

"Swami. The world has never understood me. It has only given me agony until I met you. The only love I've ever felt is when I've thought of you. So I did. Until you became every thought of mine, written on every breath of mine. The only thing I've ever longed for is to be associated with you for as long as the kaal chakra goes on, my name be taken in the same breath as your name. But who am I? I'm not your lover who you'd playfully burst the maakhan matki of, I'm not your wife who you'd immediately, fiercely, desperately ride on your chariot to rescue. I'm not even a devotee like Hanuman ji who had the opportunity to be alive in the same yug to serve his God. Who am I to be yours? But where else am I to go? I can't survive in any place which isn't your heart.

The world has come to get me again so I come to you. And I won't breathe until I reach you"

She started walking to the murti, holding her hands out as alms

The tyrants were upon her now but suddenly they were dazzled by a bright light

And then a divine hand extended out to her, he smiled with tears streaming all the way as Meera immersed herself completely in Krishna

The light vanished. They opened their eyes again and were baffled to see Meera gone.

Except her dupatta that swayed peacefully from the side of the murti

Centuries later

"Mother! Whose is that?" a small voice pointed excitedly

The woman looked on and recognized Meerabai's dupatta

"The legendary poet bhakt of Krishna, child. Her name was Meerabai."

"Was she married to him?" curiosity sparked in her eyes

The woman thought for a bit. It wouldn't be that simple to explain to her little daughter the leelas of Shri Krishna with his many wives and lovers.

The girl looked at the murti now "Did they both love each other?"

"Yes" the woman answered, smiling

"Of course" her daughter nodded, completely satisfied "Just look at him! Who wouldn't fall in love with him?" as she laughed and swooned, swinging around a nearby pillar as Meerabai's dupatta swayed higher and touched the little girl's head

Meanwhile, Krishna grinned at the whole scene as Meera joined her, laying her head on his lap as she whispered

"It feels like I've waited for you since forever."

"I know, love. And I have, too. But I've been with you all the way. It broke my heart to see what they did to you." He kissed her forehead

"You are safe now" As he held on tight to her for eternity

Not just two lovers, but the union of two forms that go back to the same source to begin with. The river finally meeting the sea, the rain kissing the soil, incense embracing the ambience and far away just a besotted finally flying to the muse

Meera uniting with Krishna

[olympeline]

I was thinking about Arthur and Alfred’s relationship and it suddenly hit me: there’s potentially a really good interpretation to be had of the American War for Independence as the end result of the disconnect between a first generation immigrant parent and their second generation child. And how perfect is that with Arthur - literally a personification of the old world - and Alfred - literally the personification of America: the world’s great melting pot. I got excited thinking about it and it turned into an essay so please enjoy my ramblings 🥲

The disconnect I mentioned above is a well known problem between different generations of immigrants. An estrangement which can cause a lot of angst because both sides are trying to understand each other but can’t connect because their lived experiences are so different. The parent remembers the trials of the “old country” and sees their kid as a self-centred brat who wouldn’t know real hardship if it bit them. Meanwhile the child - through no fault of their own - has only ever known the new, better life and resents the guilt tripping over something they had zero control over. You know the classic: “When I was your age/you wouldn’t have lasted a day where I grew up/you’re so spoilt, etc.” from the parent. Answered with: “It’s not my fault I don’t know/how could I feel it like you do when I was never there/you chose to come here and have me here/do you want me to spend my whole life feeling guilty because you sacrificed for me, etc.” from the kid.

In the context of Hetalia it works because by the time Alfred gets to know Arthur he’s become a founder of colonies. But in Arthur’s past he was a colony, several times over in fact. Specifically an exploitation colony under Grandpa Rome (who wanted Britain for its large resources of tin because tin - a rare metal in Europe - is a key ingredient in making bronze), then scattered soft-settler colonies under Denmark (who started by raiding Britain for plunder and slaves but then established settlements later on because the climate was better for farming), then an exploitation colony that gradually morphed into a settler colony, that then merged with the native culture, under the Norman-French William the Conqueror.

Arthur became Alfred’s guardian but first and foremost Alfred was his colony. And Arthur’s experience with colonies was the above. So not a great model for parenting to put it mildly. Particularly the last one, which would have been freshest in Arthur’s memory. Harrying of the North. 😬 Enough said. It probably gave Arthur a very skewed view of what would constitute being a “good” parent to Alfred. Arthur left Alfred alone and expected total obedience from him for the rest of his life but, to Arthur, that was still treating Alfred with kid gloves. Just because he didn’t do things like sweep in and murder Alfred’s citizens en masse when they displeased him. Arthur drew on his own experiences and likely saw Alfred as incredibly spoilt and even outright pampered. Obviously he wasn’t, not at all, but the bar was on the friggin’ floor. It must have come as a big shock when Alfred rebelled because - in Arthur’s mind - he did everything right. More than right: he went above and beyond indulging his young charge. Treating Alfred like a son instead of ordering him around as a minion. I think that’s why Arthur broke down and sobbed on the battlefield. Angry tears of frustration and hopelessness because on top of the pain of Alfred’s “betrayal” there’s something worse: even at that critical point, in his heart of hearts I bet Arthur still didn’t understand why the war happened. Why his beloved, coddled son has turned on him like the viper at the farmer’s breast. It’s one thing to fight with someone you love because you know you’ve wronged them. It’s quite another to think you gave nothing but good only to have them turn on you anyway. Arthur is tough and used to hurt but the hopelessness and despair birthed from that terrible ignorance nearly killed him. It would be a long time before he opened his heart to anyone again.

But Alfred didn’t see it that way. Not at all. He wasn’t around for the colonial period of Arthur’s life and Arthur being…himself, likely never told him. Out of pride, trauma, pain, the shame of being conquered, etc. He kept his days of weakness a secret. So Alfred had no conception that Arthur was genuinely trying (and thought he was succeeding) in being a good and devoted parent. Which wasn’t Alfred’s fault or responsibility at all, by the way. I don’t want anyone to think this post is saying Alfred was wrong to rebel when he did. It was a totally justified reaction considering what Arthur put him through. Arthur hurt Alfred out of ignorance rather than malice but that doesnt erase the hurt. Especially from the point of view of a child. Alfred was just a scared, confused little boy who was left alone over and over again in a big, frightening world. Left to watch the human families around him love and support each other while he pined for Arthur to please, please come back and not leave him alone again. No wonder he grew up resentful at Arthur’s continuing expectations of total obedience. How dare Arthur demand so much when Alfred grew up on so little. Arthur had good intentions but they didn’t always bear fruit, which meant a lot of sadness and fear for little Alfred. At some point all those years of simmering pain and resentment bubbled over and Alfred just snapped. He realised nothing would ever change unless he forced a change and broke away from Arthur before the leaden weight of Arthur’s trauma and expectations drove him mad.

And that’s the root and lynchpin of all their issues right there: both see the other as selfish and entitled. Arthur because Alfred had a youth Arthur’s abused child self could only dream of. And Alfred because Arthur unconsciously expected him to live his whole life in the shadow of that pain.

Which is why it’s so tragic. Both of them have a point, both of them are wrong and right at the same time. No matter what Alfred thought, Arthur did genuinely do his best to give him the best life he could. He just fell short because he didn’t know what he was doing and his basis for comparison was abysmal. And no matter what Arthur thought, Alfred was never a spoilt brat who had everything but didn’t appreciate it because he grew up overindulged. Alfred was right to feel neglected, terribly hurt, and frustrated when Arthur brushed off his pain and expected Alfred to suck it up and be demure and grateful because he (Arthur) had it worse when he was young.

Doubly sad because if they’d just talked about it things could have been different. I’ve always seen Alfred as having a big heart underneath all his flippancy and boasting. Meanwhile Arthur is stubborn and a tsundere but he’s not an idiot and not incapable of change and self-improvement. And, like I said, he did truly want to do well by Alfred. Who truly wanted a good relationship with him in return. If they’d discussed all their issues it would have been a long hard road but, at the end of it, their relationship might have improved and not gone up in flames the way it did. But they didn’t and Arthur’s flat, uncompromising orders about taxation without representation was the straw that finally broke America’s back.

[joelmillergirl]

Ghost of My Past- Joel Miller

The one where Joel dies.

Word count: 1,136

Warnings: old man Joel, he's getting older and a little weaker, major character death, grief, sadness, angst, legit a snippet of fuff, just missing Joel Miller hours

Author's Note: Sad gurl hours

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Jackson used to be bright. A place where you could go out and just be you; never having to worry about what other people were thinking. When you had first arrived, all you could think about was what they were thinking. You were weak, years of fighting infected and humans had taken a toll on you, dirt under your nails and eyebags that didn't seem to fade.

The only person you trusted was Joel Miller.

He had approached you one day during an embarrassing anxiety attack; the sorrowful memories from your past seemingly catching you by surprise. You were hunched over, struggling to breathe when a warm hand suddenly rested on your shoulder, catching you by surprise.

"Try and take some deep breaths." He'd simply said, awkwardly looking down at the ground before meeting your eyes. Admittedly, the warmth from his hands, and the way he'd so softy spoken to you had soothed you instantly. "Are you... Okay?' He asked after a few moments, feeling your shoulders untensing from underneath his palm.

"Sorry." You whisper, shaking your head. "Don't know why that happened." It was insecurity laced between your words. Here you were in a sealed-off community with food, houses, clothes, and good people surrounding you, and you were still anxious about being raided in your sleep.

Joel stiffly took his hand back to his side, mumbling something under his breath, "S'okay. Happens to me too. 'M Joel." He greeted.

You offer up your name, thanking him before going your separate ways. The day after that, you'd knocked on his door, presenting a freshly baked pie to him; 'For helping me.' You clarified when he looked at you with a mix of amusement and confusion.

He was surprisingly very easy to love. He drove you up the walls with his teasing and his small remarks, but he was kind and he treated you better than anyone else had. It didn't take long for you two to start dating, a night together after a few drinks had changed everything, and when he saw you interacting with Ellie, teaching her and loving her- he was gone.

Your favourite time of the day was your nights with him. After a few games of Monopoly with Ellie with buttons and rocks replacing the missing pieces, you'd crawl into bed together, your head resting on his chest. You loved it when he talked, feeling the vibration through his chest when he did. He talked about anything; patrols, his worries about Ellie, Sarah. You listened to every word, asked him questions- some he didn't always answer- and in return, you'd offer your own stories, your own memories.

Joel was always there, everywhere you looked. When you step outside on the newly built porch he'd worked on because of the one time you'd complained about a loose plank, the house down the street he'd built a swing for because of the little boy who'd cried when the old one broke, the words people would speak after his name was brought up in a conversation.

"Hi, baby." He'd whisper in your ear, his chest to your back as you prepared breakfast. He'd stand behind you for a while, admittedly getting in your way but warming you up with his body heat. You held him through the nights he broke down, frustration over Ellie refusing to talk to him, anger over his own abilities slowly weakening with his old age, and sadness when memories of his daughter hit him out of the blue.

'Love you s'much. Don't know what I did to ever deserve this. Don't deserve it."

You had your moments together where he'd spend his nights on the couch whilst you slept in your bed, despite your insisting that you take the couch instead, knowing his back was getting bad. He never said anything cruel to you during these moments of frustration- never raised his voice. He talked it through with you, kissed you after and apologised.

You didn't deserve Joel Miller.

The morning of his death had started rough. After he crawled into bed next to you, breaking down in your arms after talking to you about a conversation he'd just had with Ellie, he turned his back to you and silently went to sleep, your shirt slightly damp from his tears. When you woke up and started breakfast, he was in a rush. He mumbled a goodbye as he walked past the kitchen, on his way to the front gate for his patrol.

"No kiss today, Miller?" You called after him, feeling slightly frustrated with his distant demeanour. It wasn't rare for him to dissociate after breaking down; you sensed it was embarrassment, he thought he was weak. He stopped walking instantly, coming back to the kitchen and leaning down to kiss you. At the last second, you'd moved your head slightly, his lips connecting to your cheek instead. "See you later."

You turned away from him then, listening to the sound of nothing as he stood still for a few seconds before he finally moved, the front door closing gently behind him. You sighed in frustration, knocking back the mug of coffee you'd made for him in his owl cup Ellie made for his birthday a few years back.

You kissed his cold lips later that day, saying goodbye to him one last time before turning away from him, everything aching. When you stepped up onto the porch, you broke down instantly. A plank had started to squeak, who would fix it now? You made it inside after a few minutes, averting your eyes away from the stupid owl mug, his stupid chair he always sat in.

The bed was cold when you got into it. Flashes of Joel's face. Cold. Stuffing your face into the pillow, you breathe in deeply, taking in his scent that still lingered. To think that only a few hours earlier you were in this very bed, warm and close to him. Breathing.

Gone was the presence of Joel Miller. His ghost lingered through everything you looked at, everything you smelt. As you stand amidst the echoes of memories, each corner of Jackson a haunting melody of what once was, tears blur the lines between the past and present. In the stillness and darkness of your grief, you found some solace in the fragments of his love displayed throughout your home.

And as you sit on the porch stairs with Ellie, after hours of begging her not to leave, not to go after whoever had brought such immense pain amongst Jackson's residencies, you could feel yourself embracing the ache of his absence, finding strength in the beauty of a powerful journey. Accepting that you may never be the same, but still allowing yourself to carry his memory with you.

No one deserved Joel Miller.

[eeunoia]

ENHYPEN Mini Series

E N H Y P E N as Greek Myths 

EROS & PSYCHE

pairings: yang jungwon x reader

synopsis: yang jungwon, the notorious playboy of your school tries to play his little game with you but ended up losing.

word count: 10k

important note: i originally planned to write enhypen as greek gods but then i didn’t find some love stories that i like so i end up using some love stories that aren’t greek gods. also these are like modern versions of greek mythology love stories.

warnings: grammar errors, swearing, playboy jungwon and lots of kissing. let me know if i missed some!

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“Jungwon, please! Don’t leave me. You can’t!” a girl’s desperate plea can be heard by the busy corridors of Eeunoia University. She took a hold of his arm to stop him from taking further steps.

Jungwon that was walking pass by her and happily goofing around with some of his frat brothers turned to face her. Her pleading eyes that have tears at the side of it blinked anxiously at the sight of Jungwon’s blank face. She looked at him with a little fear as she finds it unusual how different his aura was from the Jungwon she’s dating.

He still has those angelic cat-like-eyes but they’re looking a lot more intimidating right now. His eyes were half lidded and looking so dead, with no life. Like as if he’s looking at someone, he’s not very fond of.

“I said we’re done already. Did you not hear me?” his tone screams finality and she saw how he pushed his cheeks using his tongue. It’s obvious that he’s slowly getting enough of this, but the girl couldn’t just let him slip away.

They’ve been going out for two weeks straight and as far as she knows, Jungwon and her were perfectly fine last Saturday. Why did he end it so suddenly? 

“No! We were just fine last Saturday. What happened? Did I do something wrong? What is it? I will change it... just stay.” she begged, tears now streaming freely down her eyes.

She doesn’t even care if the students around her are looking right now. All she can think of is that she wants him to stay with her. She loves him and she knew he does too... atleast that’s what she thought.

Jungwon put both of his hands inside his pockets and tilted his head over to the side while he stared at the girl without any expression. He really hates girls who gets too clingy and are not good with break-ups. She used to be so cute when he first started dating her, but she gets too annoying and demanding so he decided to end it with her.

“Nothing’s wrong with you. I just don’t want to be with you anymore.” he answered honestly.

It broke her heart. To hear that he really doesn’t want to fix it anymore. She pursed her lips trying to stop it from shaking too much because of her messed up emotions.

“B-But I thought you love me...”

Jungwon scoffed at what he heard before he broke into a smirk. The girl looked at him with an explained expression. She doesn’t know what first she should feel. Embarrassed because a lot of students are watching right now? Sad because he’s clearly not going to get back together or anger since he’s playing with her?

Jungwon walked closer to her with a playful smirk over his pretty lips showing off those deep dimples of him. He leaned his face closer to her up until both of their foreheads are touching. He smiled, “Come on, (random name). You know how I don’t settle for one girl for a long time.” he said before dropping a gentle kiss at her forehead before leaning away.

He ran his fingers over his hair messing it up a bit that just made him even more handsome for her eyes. Her aching heart prevent her to speak any words. She just stood there looking dumb while Jungwon was smirking right in front of her.

“It was fun, right? The two weeks were fun and you got your popularity that you wanted. What more do you want from me?” he said sarcastically. He scoffed and she doesn’t know what to feel when she saw how life drains from his eyes as he became emotionless.

“Now get lost. You’re seriously starting to piss me off.”

A suffocating emotion slowly makes the girl’s chest aching as her eyes waters even more. She cried silently before she lowered her head as Jungwon turned around to walk away from her without even glancing back.

“Don’t you think that was too rude, Wonie?” his friend, Jay, was smirking while he waits for him to catch phase with them. They were just there watching one of Jungwon’s drama once again.

They’re used to it because Jungwon often changes his girls often. They don’t even know why girls are still willingly to be involve with him when he’s obviously the notorious playboy of their university.

“She’s annoying.” Jungwon uttered and just shrugged his shoulders off. As they walk through the hallways on their way to their class, he saw some of girls eyeing his direction. He smirked at the one in the middle and nodded at him. He smiled in satisfaction when he saw how she blushed just by that small interaction.

On the other hand, you sighed while you watch the commotion that the school’s playboy just caused. You shook your head slowly before facing back the bulletin board to post the campaign paper your club had created. After pinning it, you were about to walk away but you let out a groan before walking towards the girl that he just dumped.

“Here,” you handed her some tissues and when she looked at you, you can’t help but to feel a bit of pity for her. Her downcast eyes just made you realized how hurt she is with what happened.

She muttered a small thank you but you didn’t said anything after that and just left. She is pityful but you think she’s the one who brought herself into that mess. Everyone in their right minds know they shouldn’t get involve with Yang Jungwon.

Yes, he maybe one of the most handsome student here on your university. But his personality is just a major turn-off for you. He changes his girlfriends like as if he’s just changing his clothes. You find it very awful and very not so gentlemen. One of the things you hate is when someone plays over somebody else’s feelings. And he’s obviously someone mischievous enough to treat girls that way. You hated his guts and you hated the girls who fell for him even more. Maybe they’re blinded by his beauty and charm but still, they could’ve tried to resist.

“Hey, what’s with the long face? Something happened?” you snapped back to reality when you heard someone talked to you.

You just arrived at your class and your best friend just arrived as well. Thankfully, she isn’t late this time because she’s surely get punished soon if she don’t fix her time schedules.

You pouted and let out another stressed out sigh. You don’t even know why you’re getting yourself stressed with that when you can just don’t care about them.

“Yang’s at it again.”

Your friend let out a chuckle, “Come on, it’s not like you’re not used to it yet.”

“I don’t understand why they still fall for him? Okay, he’s handsome... and? What more?”

“Well he’s from a very wealthy family. He’s currently taking his pre-law course, captain of the rugby team of our university and the frat leader of Enhypen.” she said and your brows furrowed at what she just told you. With a pissed off expression you stared at her that she only responded with a chuckle.

“You asked, I just answered.” she even shrugged her shoulders off. You groaned and rolled your eyes again.

“Whatever! I still don’t think that’s enough reason for girls to fall in love with him, specially if he already have this reputation of being the campus playboy.” your eyes dropped to your textbooks and you fixed them and even arranged them properly.

You glanced at your friend when she tapped your shoulder, “We just never know until we’re the one in the situation.”

You slightly cursed when you suddenly lets go of the things you are holding causing it to scatter around the floor. You sighed and squats down to go get it when a couple of male students hurried themselves to go help you.

With a slight surprised eyes you watch them unknowingly. You don’t know what’s happening but when they handed you your things, you were left with no choice but to politely thanked them. You met each of their eyes as you bow and smiles softly. With flustered and blushing cheeks, some of them quickly turned to look away.

Your head tilted over to the side because of confusions but you decided to just shrug it off. You started walking towards the direction you were heading before you caused that mess.

Your brows were slightly furrowed while fixing the papers on your hand.

“y/n!” your head turned to look over the guy who just called you. A smile spread across your face when you saw Jeongwoo jogging his way over you.

“Jeongwoo!” you greeted. He flashed his lovely smile before messing your hair because you looked really cute.

You didn’t mind his action because you were used to it. You two had been friends for a while now and you can say you are close to him. Your eyes trailed down to his jersey uniform.

“Oh, practice?”

He nodded his head, still with that smile. “Yes. Where are you heading?” he asked and even offered a hand to help you with the things you are carrying.

You let him and muttered a short ‘thanks’ for him. “To the office of the event organizer. I’m going to submit out proposal for the tree planting project.”

Jeongwoo showed an amused expression, “Ah yeah, when is this? Can I help you with anything?”

Your eyes grew a bit big at the sudden offer. “Really? You want to help with the tree planting program?” you asked trying to get a sure answer from him. Your tone sounded cheerful and excited that Jeongwoo can’t help but to chuckle.

“Of course.”

You cheered, “Great! I’ll tell you if it’s already approved so you can sign up for it. With you joining I’m sure a lot of girls will too.” since he’s pretty popular in your university, you’re sure you’ll get some more people because of him.

He gave you a fake upset face, “Ouch! Are you using me?”

You smirked and nodded continuously that made him snicker a laugh before pinching your nose. “Okay, this is my stop. Thanks for walking me here. See you around, Jeongwoo!” you waved at him before going inside the office.

Jeongwoo’s smiling brightly while still looking at the door you just entered. You may not have any idea but he likes you. He likes you more than friends.

“Jeongwoo...” he glanced over to his side and his smile faded together with his shoulder falling.

“What do you want Jian?” he asked completely uninterested as he started heading back to the gymnasium.

The girl followed him right away and as she catches phase, she pulled his jersey to keep him from walking away.

“Let’s talk.” she said with a serious face.

“We have nothing else to talk about.” he said and he unclasped her hold to his jersey but she was stubborn enough to just grab it again.

He sighed and threw his head back as he shut his eyes in annoyance. “Is it her?! Is she the reason why you can’t like me?!” she shouted right at him.

Jeongwoo clenched his jaw. He’s been rejecting Jian over and over again but seems like she’s not someone who gives up easily. He sighed and slowly faced her. His eyes were very serious even at the sight of Jian’s teary eyes.

“Yes. I like her. I like her very much and I don’t think I can like someone else other than her.” Jeongwoo honestly told her.

It broke her heart but her pained expression slowly turned at rage. She smirked as tears flows from her eyes.

“I will make sure you’re not going to get her. You hear me?” she swear.

Jeongwoo shakes his head before finally unclasping her hold and continued on heading back to the gymnasium.

On the other hand, back to Enhypen’s frat house, you can hear continuous smacking of lips from the quiet living room. The house was pretty much vacant as everybody else were at their own classes.

The girl that was sitting over Jungwon’s lap hissed as she pulls away for a while to get some air, she looked at Jungwon’s face and can’t help but to admire his pretty face. His hair was messy because of her and his eyes looked so sexy half-lidded. His lips were a little swollen because of their continuous make out sessions.

“You’re so hot.” she said under her breath. Jungwon smirked, “I’ve been told, honey.” he said that earned a giggle from her.

She was about to lean in again for another kiss when they both almost jolted because of the loud sound that the door made because someone entered.

Jungwon’s hand settled over the girl’s waist to keep her from falling, “What the fuck?” he cursed with a pissed look over his face when he saw his cousin walking inside with an upset face.

“Jungwon, I need to talk to you.” she said right away. She didn’t even mind that his cousin have yet another new girl over his lap.

Jungwon flashed her a smile, “Can’t you see I’m in the middle of something?”

“I don’t care! I said I want to talk to you!” she said like a 5 year old spoiled brat.

Jungwon knew he couldn’t do something because she’s not going to leave him alone unless he gives her what she wanted. After letting out a sigh, he glanced at the girl on his lap. He smiled a little, “See you tomorrow, honey.” he said, he can’t even remember the girl’s name.

She pouted and grunted a little before giving him a soft kiss at his cheeks. “Tomorrow hot stuff.” she even sent him a wink that just made the young men chuckle.

When she managed to get out of the house, Jungwon sat down properly and tried fixing his crumpled polo. He then sighed and fixed his hair after.

“What is it that you want?” he asked his cousin that was now sitting at one of the couches.

He rolled his eyes before handing her some tissues. She’s crying and even if she’s a brat, Jungwon hates to see her like this. She’s still his cousin after all.

“Can you do me a favor?”

“No.” Jungwon answered quickly that made her frowned.

“Please do your cousin a favor!” she said and pouted, begging him. He sighed again and rolled his eyes.

“What kind of favor?”

“I want you to make y/n fall in love with you and dump her in the worst way you can.”

Jungwon tilted his head at the sound of the said name. He furrowed his brows, “You mean (l/n) (y/n)?”

She nodded her head continuously that made Jungwon laugh a little.

“No.” he was quick to turn her down.

“Why?!” she shrieked. She already asked Jungwon for this kind of favor before. Two of them was one of the most popular girls in your university but he didn’t have any problem about it. Then why is he saying no to you?

“I think she’s boring. She’s no fun, Jian.” Jungwon shrugged his shoulders off.

She pursed her lips. “Please? I promise this will be the last time I will ask you to do these kind of favors.” she even clasped both of her hands together.

Jungwon stared at her. His mind wanders over you and he thinks if he’s going to pursue you, you won’t be easy. It will surely be a thrill for him and that’s what’s interesting about everything. Thrill.

“Alright.” he finally agrees. She cheered in happiness and even went close to give him a hug. He groaned, “Move away. You ruined my make out session.”

She rolled her eyes before walking her way out, “Seriously drop her. She’s such a bitch.”

Jungwon shakes his head before heaving out a sigh after. A smirk slowly appeared over his lips when he thinks about his new target.

‘This will be fun...’ he thought to himself.

“Are you that bored with your life that you’re going for y/n, Jungwon?” his friend was smirking at him while he waits for you to come to the locker’s area.

Jungwon shrugged his shoulders off and responded without glancing to Jay. “Jian asked for a favor and I think it will be a challenge to pursue her.” he clicks his tongue at the side of his cheeks as he leaned over the lockers and crossed his arms.

“Challenge? I bet it would be impossible, dude! Jake even tried to ask for her number and she turned her down with no mercy.” Sunghoon said laughing at the memory.

“Hey that was a year ago!” Jake hissed at his friend and even hit his arm once.

“Nah, I think Jungwon will do a pretty good job.” Heeseung commented with a smirk over his face. Jungwon scoffed and offered a fist bump to his friend that he gladly obliged.

“Do you want to bet on it? I bet for a month.” Ni-ki said and snickered a chuckle with a mischievous smirk.

“A month? No. I think Jungwon will give up after 2 weeks.” Sunoo interrupted and Jungwon gave his friend an unamused grin.

“Give your frat brother some trust, Sunoo.” Jungwon joked and just earned a chuckle from his friend.

“I bet for a month and a half.” they all looked at Jian who just arrived the scene. She have this evil grin plastered over her face.

Jake chuckled and wrapped his arms around her, “Sometimes I’m scared with you, our little evil princess.”

Jungwon just smirks at them before Jay gave him a light tap over his shoulder and tilted his head towards somewhere. When he turned his head, he saw you walking confidently towards your locker. You completely ignored the eyes that are silently watching you.

“See you later guys.” Jungwon muttered before pushing himself off from the lockers and slowly made his way at you.

The girls that he passed by can’t stop staring at him. He gave them small smiles and just focused on you. On the other hand, you’re too occupied with what you’re doing that you failed to noticed Jungwon approaching your way.

“Hi.” you got a bit startled when someone suddenly talked beside you and you’re even more surprised to see who it was.

You gave him a confused expression, “Uhm, hello?” you said awkwardly. Honestly, you don’t know how you should react. This will be the first time you and Yang Jungwon will interact. It’s so out of blue and so sudden.

A smirk spreads across his face when you ignored him right after saying an awkward hello. He thought it was really funny and cute at the same time.

“Do you have any plans after dismissal?” he asked and you stopped your hands from fixing your things inside your locker when you heard his question.

With a confused face, “Why?”

“I was planning to ask you out on a date.” he confidently said.

You blinked a couple of times while still staring at the handsome Yang Jungwon right in front of you. His hair was naturally down and even if it’s not done, he still looked perfect. His pretty eyes were a bit too flirty looking at the moment and his smirks just matches his vibe so well. His dimple at the side was just giving him more appeal. In short, his visual are God-like.

“Take a picture, baby. It last longer.” he interrupted your thoughts.

You frowned before rolling your eyes at him then resumed on your business. He chuckled at how you just reacted at him. It was annoying. His confidence and his sexy chuckle are annoying for you.

“So is that a yes?”

“No.”

“Why not? Do you have plans?” he asked and when you glanced his way, his eyes looked innocent while waiting for your answer.

You scoffed, “Yes and going on a date with you is not a part of it so leave me alone, Yang.” you told him off easily before closing your locker to get yourself out of there.

Jungwon blinks a couple of times after what you just said at him. He can hear his friends laughs from a far but he didn’t care. A smirk slowly appeared over his face before starting to follow you.

“Then can I atleast give you a ride?” you glanced at him when he walked beside you.

You sighed a bit frustrated, “Seriously, what are you up to?” you asked him and stopped from your track to face him.

Jungwon stopped too and smiled brightly at you, “I want to go out with you.” you blushed because of his straightforward answer but you didn’t let it caught you off-guard.

“Why?”

“Why not?” he answered your question with another question.

Your shoulder fell before you looked at him straight at his eyes. Jungwon spaced out a bit. He’s well aware that you are beautiful. Based on the rumors about you around the campus and the number of guys you already turned down, he quite knows your history of being an anti-romantic. But he never knew you are this beautiful up close. He never got the chance to look at you for more than a minute.

“I have no time for your games.”

“Well lucky for you because I’m not playing.” he said smirking before putting one of his hands inside his pocket.

You glared at him before rolling your eyes, “Whatever, leave me alone!” you shouted and started running away from him.

Jungwon didn’t have the chance to stop you but instead he just stared at your figure that was starting to get smaller as your distance grew.

“You are seriously interesting, y/n.” he mumbled to himself before he threw his keys up in the air and catch it, playing with it as he walks on the different direction.

You have no idea what just happened. As far as you remember, you didn’t do anything that can make Yang Jungwon notice you. It’s been years that you two are schoolmates but not even once did he showed interest over you. Just this once!

You tried to shove away those thoughts from your mind because you think it’s just a waste of time. He’s probably just bored and he saw you. Yeah, that’s probably just it.

You thought he’s going to stop after that but you were wrong. Completely wrong. He started bugging you out. It’s not even helping that you have some class with him. He sits beside you, greets you whenever you two encounter each other and out of all of that, he always flash you those charming smile of him. If he’s not a playboy you would instantly let your guard down. He’s such an eye candy.

“What’s with Yang Jungwon and you? I thought you hate him.” your friend said while you two were at the library. She also noticed how Jungwon’s all over you all the time. She’s probably very confused because she knew you’re really not fond of him.

“I don’t hate him but I also don’t like him.” you clarified without glancing her way and just continued flipping the pages of the book you were reading.

“Oh, okay. So what’s up with the two of you?”

“Nothing.” you answered right away because it is true.

“I don’t believe you.” She chuckled and even rested her head at the back of her hand to look at your way.

You sighed because you know she’s not going to let go of it without you giving her full details. “I am saying the truth. I don’t know what’s up with him. He just suddenly started acting like that.”

“He’s been following you around for almost two weeks straight.”

“Yeah and he’s super annoying.”

Your best friend laughed, “I think you two looks cute together.”

You looked at her with a frowned face, “Are you serious right now? Me and him are never going to happen.”

She smirks and shrugged her shoulders off. “I don’t know. My senses tells me otherwise tho.” she said that made you blushed but just choose to shrug the thought off and ignore it.

After library period, you and your best friend were on your way to your next class when you bumped into Jeongwoo.

“Y/n! I heard your tree planting program was approved. Congrats! When can I sign?” he asked you.

You broke into a bright smile, “Probably next week. I will still have to prepare a lot of things and finalize some more details for it.”

He nodded before messing your hair a bit, “Okay. Just let me know if I need to sign up already.” he said and you excitedly nods at him.

After dismissal that day you hurried yourself over the lockers to avoid getting seen by Jungwon. Your best friend left moments ago already because she said she still needs to go somewhere. You’re at your locker and was already fixing your things when Jungwon appeared.

“Hey, miss.” he greeted. You lets out a sigh before slowing down because you realized there’s no point on hurrying because he already saw you.

“Hi Jungwon.” your tone doesn’t sound very happy to see him but still it made him chuckle.

“Any plans today?” he asked a very familiar question for you.

When you turned to look at him, you were silent for a while because he looked breathtaking right in front of you. His hair was a bit damp, his cheeks are slightly red and so is his lips. He’s wearing his plain white t-shirt paired with some sweats while his duffel bag hangs over one of his shoulders.

“Y-Yeah..” you answered and gulped while looking away.

Jungwon smirked because he saw how you looked flustered at the sight of him. Obviously, he got an effect on you but you were resisting it so much. It doesn’t pissed Jungwon off actually. For him, it’s even more fun this way.

“What are your plans?”

“What made you think I will tell it to you?” you fired back, he chuckled at how fierce you are at him.

“Just trying my luck today, baby.”

You pursed your lips as you felt something inside your stomach turns at the sound of his sudden endearment for you. While you are putting your last textbook inside your locker, you felt your phone vibrating continuously so you quickly fished it.

“Hello?” you answered the call when you saw that it was from the orphanage you are volunteering for for the past few years.

Jungwon just leaned at the locker beside you, silently watching your face. When some passes by his part, he just greets them a little but don’t tear his gaze away from you for long.

He stared at your expressive pretty eyes. He doesn’t know but he’s always been being drawn by those eyes. The way he stares at him just hits different for Jungwon. It gives him a different kind of satisfaction.

“What? For how long is he missing? Wait, I’ll go there right away!”

Jungwon shifted from his position and furrowed his brows at the sight of your worried face. He silently watches how you ended the call and closed your locker right away. You turned away and started walking out from the building. Jungwon quickly follows and grabbed you by your arm.

“Hey,”

“Please Jungwon I don’t have time right now. I need to go somewhere as soon as possible so can you please spare me today?” you glanced at him with a frustrated face.

To your surprise, Jungwon doesn’t have that mischievous smirk over his face. His brows were furrowed in a worried way. He sighed, “Let’s go, I’ll give you a ride.”

“No thanks. I can take the bus--”

“You said you need to there as soon as possible. It would be easier than public transportation.” he said in a serious tone. You figure he have a point, so you agreed and you both went to the parking lot.

He swiftly opened the back seat and placed his duffel bag inside before opening the car for you. You blushed and thank him before he smirked. He walked around and you can’t help but to continue admiring him.

“Where to?” he asked.

You gulped and told him the address of the orphanage. Even if he’s a little confused, he didn’t asked anything and just started driving. You pursed your lips nervously and fiddled with your fingers. He was just silent the whole ride, maybe he felt like something’s going on so he refused to pissed you off today.

The moment you arrived, you quickly went down and head inside. Jungwon did the same thing and went after you. Some people and kids quickly went to go greet you. He stood by his car and leaned over it while watching you from afar.

He saw you talking to some of the staffs of the said orphanage. Jungwon’s mind was blank while watching you genuinely talking to those people. He always thought you’re a responsible person but this... this is just a new side.

When one of the staff pointed him, you glanced at it and your eyes grew when you saw him not yet leaving. You excused yourself and went towards Jungwon.

“H-Hey, I’m sorry for just leaving just like that. Thank you for driving me here. I owe you one.” you said.

Jungwon’s serious face remained, “Is everything okay?”

You’re slightly taken aback. His tone sounded so soft. Like as if he isn’t the overly confident, Yang Jungwon you knew.

“Ah one of the kids of the orphanage run away again. I have to go look for him because he only listens to me. I already know where I can find him so you can go already. Sorry for the trouble and thank you so much.” you said and tried to pull a very sincere smile for him.

He pushed himself off from leaning over his car before running his hand once over his still damp hair. “Then let’s go find him.”

You blinked twice at what you heard.

“Y-You’re going to help me?”

Jungwon smirked a little then nodded without hesitation. You blushed and slowly smiled before turning to wave at the staffs before riding his car again. Jungwon bowed at the staffs before he walked towards the driver’s seat again.

“Now, where will we find him?”

You told him to go somewhere and even before he can stop his car, you already saw Hyunjae sat down looking so down.

“Hyunjae..” your voice came out like a whisper before you glanced at Jungwon’s side, “Please stop here, Won.” you said and Jungwon stopped his car a bit light headed. That’s the first time you called him by that.

You went out and quickly go to approach Hyunjae. When he saw you, guilt instantly appeared over his but he lowered his face to avoid your eyes.

“Hyunjae, you made me so worried.” you mumbled before caging him with an embrace. He sniffed and returned your hug.

“I want my Mom, y/n. Why isn’t she coming back yet?” your heart broke at his question for you but you just remained hugging his little figure.

You pursed your lips trying hard not to start crying. Hyunjae just turned 6 and is still very innocent. He have no idea that the people at the orphanage were clueless to who his Mom is. He left her a year ago in front of the orphanage. He only have a vogue memory of her but he still believes she will come back for him.

“We need to go back to the orphanage okay?” your tone sounded so gentle as you lean away and met his sulking face. The corners of his eyes have tears over it.

“No! I don’t want to!” he suddenly throw tantrums and you can’t even blame him. He always does this whenever he gets sick of waiting for his Mom.

It broke you even more seeing him like this because deep inside, you know you can’t do anything about it. You have no idea who his Mom and have no clue if she will ever come back for him.

“Hyunjae, but we need--” your words were cut off when someone suddenly squats beside you and placed his hand on top of Hyunjae’s head.

The young boy glanced at Jungwon who’s now beside you. He smiled softly at Hyunjae, “Hi Hyungjae.”

“Who are you?” the boy asked a bit rudely as he furrowed his brows hardly towards Jungwon’s direction.

Jungwon scoffed, “I’m y/n’s boyfriend.”

Your eyes grew at what he said and slightly nudged him. He smiled downward in a cute way before shrugging his shoulders off then focused back on Hyunjae.

“Do you want to go eat at McDonald's then we go at a park?” he offered to the younger one that made his face slowly reflect peace.

Jungwon smirked inside his mind. You just stayed there, holding and caressing Hyungjae’s small hand.

“Y-Yes..”

“But you have to promise me you won’t cry anymore.”

Hyunjae pouts, “B-But my Mom...” he trailed and lowered his head.

When you looked back at Jungwon, you are slightly taken aback when you saw something flickered through his eyes while watching and listening to Hyunjae. His eyes reflected sadness and longing...

He pursed his lips, “I know its sad but you have a lot of people who loves you and if you continue to cry, they will be sad.”

Hyunjae slowly lifts his head and looked at your direction. You flashed him your warm smile even if you have tears at your eyes as well. He looked worried when he saw that you really looked sad. He sighed and slowly wiped off his tears using his small hands.

Jungwon lets out a small chuckle before messing his hair, “Good! Now let’s go get you food.” and he offered to carry him that he quickly accepts.

You sighed and just watch them slowly walked towards the direction of the fastfood. A smile slowly creeped over your face, you didn’t know Jungwon have this side.

“Thank you so much for tonight, Jungwon.” you said while you both walked under the bright moon.

Jungwon turned a little to look at you and he just smiled, “You’ve been thanking me ever since I gave you a ride. I think you thanked me enough, y/n.” he said.

You pouted and reached over him to fix Hyunjae’s jacket. He’s past asleep over Jungwon’s arms. After getting some food, you guys went to a near park and played together until he felt tired. Jungwon carries him and he ended up falling asleep over his shoulders.

“Y/n, thank you so much for bringing him back. I’m sorry to trouble you.” one of the staffs told you. You quickly dismissed it and told her that it’s completely okay.

Jungwon gently handed the sleeping Hyunjae to the staff and soon bid good-bye to them. After that, both of you headed back to his car because he said he will drive you home. You told him you can just take the bus so he can go home already but he hardly refused and initiated that he would take care of you.

You pursed your lips and fiddled with your fingers as you hesitate if you should ask something or not. It’s not like the atmosphere was awkward, you just really want to open a topic and ask him about anything. You watch how he easily maneuvered over the car’s steering wheel. He’s making it look a lot easier.

“You can ask me anything, y/n.” you jolted a little when Jungwon talked. He saw your cute reaction and chuckled because of it.

“Uh... It’s nothing really. I just got curious why you looked so sad when Hyunjae talked about his Mom.” you said and even bite your lower lip because you feel so shy.

You once again saw how his eyes looked sad after you mentioned it. You were about to dismiss the question but he suddenly talked.

“I kind of relates to him. I don’t have my Mom beside me anymore.” he answered with a low tone. Your mouth gapped, can’t really find the right words to say.

“She died because of an accident four years ago.” he said and the sadness over his eyes were unexplainable.

“I’m sorry, Jungwon.” you sincerely said. He glanced at you for a while and flashed a small smile.

“Nah, it’s okay.” he said and continued driving. You two fell silent and you can’t take off this heavy feeling inside your chest.

There’s something telling you that all of these— all of the troubles Jungwon causes are more like a mask to not let other people see what he truly feels. Somehow, it makes you sad for him and also it made you so curious.

“Anyway, I heard you have a tree planting project for the school already. What’s with the orphanage?” you glanced at his direction and tear your gaze off from the window.

“Oh! The tree planting program was for the school and this... this is my personal project. I volunteered to help at the orphanage.”

“Why?”

“Why not?” you told him with a small teasing smile as the memory of him answering you with that flashes through your mind.

He lets out a chuckle, “Seriously, you are indeed amazing.”

He stopped the car right in front of your house. You pouted and unclasped your seatbelt before looking at him straight at his pretty eyes, “I think there’s something amazing about you too, Yang Jungwon.” you quickly leaned in to give him a peck over his cheeks before rushing to go out of his car.

Jungwon was stunned at his position. He can’t remember how many minutes is he spacing out but all he can think of was your cute kiss. The moment he snapped back to reality, he chuckled and smiled brightly before happily driving away.

The next day, you woke up a bit more happier. You have no idea what is it about but you’re really in a good mood. When you arrived at the university, you quickly fetched your things over your lockers before going to your first class.

It went smoothly and as you glanced at the clock, your smile spreads as you hear the school bell rang. Some students inside the class stood to leave but some remained because their next class is here. You remained sitting and placed your bag at the vacant chair beside you, saving a seat.

Your friend arrived moments after and sat at the other side. Her eyes glanced at the vacant chair beside you and just pushed the thoughts away and proceed on listening to the things you were saying.

Later on, as some students started to fill the room, your eyes darted over Jungwon who looked so good with his hair a bit damp once again. He have rugby practice and so you thought he will be a little late. You saw how his eyes roamed around like as if trying to find someone.

You smiled a little and your friend furrowed her brows when she saw it. She was about to ask you why but you raised your hand to catch Jungwon’s attention. A smile quickly spreads over his lips before he started going to your direction.

Your eyes watched him get closer before removing your bag at the chair you reserved for him. He leaned it give you a quick peck at your cheeks before sitting down.

“Hi beautiful.” he smiled widely.

You chuckled and raised your hand to slightly fix his messy hair, “Hello. How’s practice?” you asked.

Jungwon’s smile grew, “It was great.”

You nodded while still staring at his eyes. He’s doing the same thing and didn’t even tried breaking the eye contact. Like as if both of your lives depend on it.

“Wait, did I missed something?” you turned your head to glance at your friend and your cheeks blushed when you saw how she’s smirking teasingly.

You chuckled and just shake your head before focusing on your class. The whole day was just like that, you tried focusing on your classes while Jungwon pops out of nowhere from time to time. You had your lunch together with him.

“Class dismissed.” your teacher said and the students around you quickly stood up to leave. You started fixing your things as well.

“Y/n, is the signing up for tree planting still going on?” your smile grew big when you heard that question from one of your classmates.

“Yes! Are you going to sign up?”

She nodded, “Great! Tomorrow we’ll be by the auditorium if you want to sign up.”

“Cool. See you tomorrow then?” her eyes shifted at your back and you saw her eyes grew slightly big then her cheeks blushed.

When you looked over your shoulder, you saw Jungwon entering the room and going straight to you. He smiled as your eyes met, “Hey, you done?” he asked, not even glancing at the girl.

You nodded before glancing back at the girl, “See you tomorrow!” she nodded and exits herself.

You resumed on fixing your things while Jungwon sat at the table beside you and watch you intensely. He let his duffel bag drop at the concrete floor.

“What’s up tomorrow?” he asked gently. You looked at him then smiled.

“We’ll be looking for people who will sign up for my tree planting program.”

He nodded his head before an idea pops inside his mind. “If I manage to gather 500 people for your tree planting will you go out with me?” he asked boldly and your head turns at his direction with a furrowed brows.

You let out a little chuckle when you saw he looked so serious about it. “Are you serious? We have like just 50 people right now.” you informed him.

There’s a lot of students in your university, yes. But you bet most of them are busy with some other things or probably just won’t volunteer for this kind of programs.

He shrugged his shoulders, “So?”

“Well... maybe?” you answered and Jungwon scoffed before tilting his head over to the zone.

“Just answer yes or no, baby.”

You pouted and stared through his eyes and once again it was like you’re being hypnotized by his pretty eyes.

“Okay, fine. Yes.”

He smirked before nodding, “Prepare to be my girlfriend starting tomorrow.” he confidently said before gently grabbing your bag from you so he can carry it himself.

You rolled your eyes at him, “Get me my 500 people first.”

He smirked then leaned to give you a peck over your cheeks, “Oh I will.”

The following day, you’ve been very busy that you didn’t even saw Jungwon around the campus. You pouted sadly, feeling a little sad that you can’t stare at his eyes. He doesn’t have a same class with you today and so you didn’t even see him. He also didn’t pester you the whole day.

Something inside your chest tightens at the thought that he might be finally bored of you. And maybe the fact that you asked him to get you 500 people in order for you to start dating him sure is a bit overboard. But he was the one who suggested that?

You huffed a sigh and just shoved that thought away for a while to head over to the auditorium to check how’s the signing up for the tree planting was. On your way their, you come across some students.

“Y/n!” your head looked over your best friend when she called and greets you with big smiles. You tried showing her a bright mood as well.

“Hey, I’m sorry I was late. The teacher holds us for 5 more minutes. How’s the signing up?”

She smirked, “We have more than 450 right now.” she announced that made you so surprised.

“W-What?” you asked amused.

She chuckled and shrieked a little. “Yes! We have almost 500 people. A lot are still in line right now.”

“B-But how..?”

She laughed at your cute reaction and pulled you towards the auditorium. From your position, you can see the table you guys sets up for the signing up. It was really crowded and a long line were at the side. You would think of it like as if they’re buying a ticket on some concert or something.

Your eyes trailed at the people by the table. You pouted when you saw Yang Jungwon looking very busy while his friends were there too.

“Yang Jungwon came up with an idea that everyone who signs up will get to either hug or kiss his friends. Hilarious right?” she laughed and you can’t help but to chuckle as well.

“Seriously, I think you just tamed the playboy.” she said with a serious tone and a happy smile.

You chuckled and slowly made your way towards him. He was too busy that he didn’t even notice you.

“Are you this desperate to date me, Yang Jungwon?” his head raised at your teasing voice.

He smirked, “Just in time, baby. A few more people and you’re mine.”

You chuckled and shook your head at him. He was chuckling too when his friend said, “500. We have 500.” Jay said in a teasing voice.

You blushed while still looking at the long line. You slowly turned to face Yang Jungwon smirking. You blushed even more as you watch him tilting his head to the side as he rest both of his hands at the table to lean closer to you since you’re at the other side.

“You’re mine now.” he uttered gently to you.

You bit your lower lip before smiling at him then you wrapped your arms around his neck, “No. You’re mine.” and you leaned to him to give him a kiss at his lips that earned cheering from the crowd.

After three days, you guys decided to go to your first date as a couple. You’re a little worried and nervous but also excited because you’ll be going on a date with Jungwon.

First thing you went to was at the zoo since you’ve mentioned to him once that you always wants to go to a zoo with your boyfriend and so he granted your wish.

You screamed as he made you pose with a snake. He was giggling while holding his phone to take pictures and videos of this cute memory.

“Won, I’m scared! Hurry!” you said and screamed again when you felt it moving. You shut your eyes cutely and Jungwon just couldn’t stop himself from smiling widely.

After the staff took it off from you, you hurried your way back to your boyfriend and he cages you into a tight hug before kissing you on your head. “You did it, baby. You’re so brave.” he compliments you for overcoming your fear.

You two soon roamed around holding each other’s hand. Posing and taking pictures of each other, enjoying your first date. You had lunch after that and you guys talked about a bunch of things.

“You prefer letters and roses than any other things as a gift?” Jungwon asked a bit amused when you opened that up to him because he asked what do you prefer when your boyfriend will give you a gift.

You two are eating samgyupsal and he was busy grilling the meat while you wait patiently, talking. You nodded your head at him and he just smiled.

“Why? Do you hate them?”

“Not really. I just think they’re a bit cheesy.”

You scoffed, “That’s because you’re a playboy!” and you can’t help but to feel a little pissed just by thinking that he dated so many girls before you.

“How many girls have you taken here?” there’s bitterness all over your tone and Jungwon can’t help but to chuckle.

“Just you.” he answered and even if you’re suspicious of it, you can’t stop butterflies to move around your stomach.

“Liar.”

“No, I’m serious.” he said and when you looked at his eyes you saw how genuine he looks.

“Then what do you do with your past girlfriends?” you asked and his hand stopped from grilling the meat. He glanced at you and you saw him gulped nervously.

“Do you seriously want to know?”

You blushed, “Never mind! Just grill the meat.” you said and he soon broke into laughter.

“You’re so cute, baby.”

“Shut up.” you said still blushing.

He stopped laughing and just smiled warmly at you, “You’re the first one I took seriously, so stop being jealous.”

You stopped asking anymore after that and you were smiling nonstop. You guys went to amusement park and enjoyed your time there as well. You ride many rides, buys each other matching headbands even if he doesn’t want to, take lots of pictures and laughs a lot. You’re just having the best time of your life.

As the night fall, you told him that you want to take a walk around while you two just casually talks. Jungwon bought you ice cream and lets you borrow his hoody while you walked around hand in hand.

“Thank you so much for today, Won. I really enjoyed and honestly, I don’t want this day to end.” you said all pouty while you sway your hands gently.

Jungwon glanced at you and just stared at you with affection. He knew he’s in trouble the moment he pursued you. You started making him feel things nobody else did. You made him view things differently and even if the world’s cruel, Jungwon believes that with you in it, it’s way more better. He knew in this game he was playing, he lost way back.

He squeezed your hand slightly that made you face him. You’re a little taken aback when you saw how his eyes looked so much affectionate.

“Y/n...” he started. He pursed his lips and gulped and was about to talk again when you felt something dropping from the sky.

You furrowed your brows before glancing up and soon broke into a fit of giggles when it suddenly rain. You soon tried pulling Jungwon to somewhere that have a shade but he just stood there.

“Hey, what are you doing?! Let’s go or we’ll be soaked!”

He was just staring at you before he smirked and pulled you towards him. The rain soon poured hardly that made you both soaking wet. You screamed and Jungwon just chuckled before embracing you tightly.

You chuckled and returned his warm hug before you felt him gently swaying your bodies. He chuckled and pulls away before making you twirl around. You two end up dancing under the rain while giggling with each other. The moment was so perfect and romantic you can’t even explain how you’re overwhelmingly happy.

When he pulled you close to him again, he stared at your eyes lovingly.

“Thank you so much for making me happy, y/n.” Jungwon said sincerely.

You pouted and smiled before cupping his face, “You made me happy.”

He chuckled before leaning in and kissing your head, “I like you so much.”

You broke into a sweet smile, “I like you more.” he leaned in and gave you a sweet passionate kiss.

After your intimate moment under the rain, you both were giggling while you’re on your way back to his car. You sneezed and Jungwon chuckled before lowering the air-condition.

“You cold, love?”

“A little. How about you?” you asked worriedly and even tried fixing his hair that sticked over his forehead.

“Not really. Wear your seatbelt for me, okay? We’ll go somewhere to take a shower and change.” he said and you nodded while obeying him.

“Where are we going?” you asked a bit curious.

“To my house.” he answered and you were left with no choice but to just let him drive.

It was just a short drive and you pretty much arrived soon. When you did, you were amazed at how big their house is. You are informed that he came from a wealthy family but still, he sure is a big deal.

“Come in, baby.” he said when he noticed you looked a little shy.

He gently grabbed your hand and chuckled at your cuteness. You saw a middle-aged woman wearing a uniform approach you. Like you, she seemed to be surprised too see Jungwon with someone.

“Good evening, young master.” she greeted him. Jungwon didn’t showed any emotion. His smile a while ago disappears.

“Prepare us some dinner and take it to my room.” he said coldly that the woman nodded to. You just remained silent and Jungwon’s hold tightens over you.

You smiled a little to the woman before he started pulling you up the stairs towards a bedroom. You assumed it was his.

Your eyes roamed around his room while he went inside this walk-in-closet you assumed.

“Do you live alone here in your big house?” you curiously asked as you slowly roamed and checked around his room.

“I live with my Dad.” he answered from inside.

You nodded and your eyes trailed over the only picture frames by his bedside. It was a young Jungwon and you smiled sweetly while looking at his cute face before your eyes shifted over to the beautiful girl. It was his Mom.

You jolted a little when you felt two strong arms hugged you from behind. He chuckled, “Sorry for scaring you.”

You smiled, “She’s so pretty.” you said while looking at his picture with his Mom. He looked at it too and Jungwon’s surprised that it doesn’t hurt anymore like it used to. He still feel longing for her but with you by his side, it sure is a lot more better.

He rested his face at your shoulder after dropping a light kiss at your neck, “She would tell you the same thing if she’s here.” he mumbled and you smiled brightly before reaching over his hair and gently caress it.

He asked you to take a shower and after you did you saw that it was pouring outside really hard. Jungwon got back to his room holding some food by a tray, “It’s pouring hard outside. We’ll stay here for tonight.”

You nodded your head, “Won’t your Dad mind?”

“He’s often not home. Come here, baby. Let’s eat.”

You two ate dinner while you’re on his shirt and one of his boxers. Jungwon were smirking allthrough out the whole time you are talking. He will occasionally wipe the corner of your lips and give you kisses in between.

When you feel tired, you guys laid down over his bed and cuddled up. He gently ran his hand over your hair, caressing it softly. You’re getting a little sleepy already because of his warmth and affection and his scent. You don’t know what it is but you love it so much, very comforting.

You were about to drift to dreamland when you suddenly heard a low sweet singing voice. You furrowed your brows as you leaned away from his chest, “You know how to sing?”

He blushed a little, “N-No.” you smiled and chuckled.

“You have such a wonderful voice. Why didn’t you join any school performances?”

Jungwon scoffed, “No way. I think it will ruin my frat boy image.”

You rolled your eyes, “You’re such a baby.”

“No I’m not.” he said and kissed you by your lips.

Jungwon opened his eyes after a couple of minutes and saw that you’re fast asleep. He gently moved away from you and stared at your sleeping face. A warm smile spreads across his face before he got his phone.

“Hey Jian. I’m pulling out from the bet. I lost.”

Ever since that day, you two were inseparable. Jungwon sticked to you all the time and act like he will die if he doesn’t see you even for a while. You two were just so happy together.

“Are you serious right now?” you got this smirk over your face as you watch how cute sulky Jungwon is.

He’s leaning beside your locker and have this cute upset face. He rolled his eyes and crossed his arms to make you know that he’s really upset.

“Jeongwoo is just a friend.” you explained to him but he still looked so upset.

“But he likes you.”

“So? I’m --” you got cut off when suddenly a student approaches you.

Jungwon furrowed his brows hardly at the interruption and pushed himself off from the locker.

“Hey we’re still talking.” he said rudely that slightly scared the girl. You saw how she hesitated to tell you what she wants so you hit Jungwon at his chest.

“Hey, be nice.” you gave him a warning look before turning towards the girl and gave her a small smile.

“Fine.” and he stood behind you, towering your figure before he hugged you from behind.

You must say your relation is not perfect but both of you are very much happy together. Weeks passed and the more you know each other you can’t help but to fell in love even more.

“Are you going to attend our acquaintance party?” Jungwon asked while he drives his car using one of his hand and his other resting at your thigh.

You guys are on your way to their frat house because his friends are throwing this party. You don’t really like parties but ever since you dated Jungwon, you started attending them more often. It was fun. Or maybe just because you are with him.

“I don’t know, baby. It’s Hyunjae’s birthday so I have to be there.”

He nodded his head, “Yeah, right. We can plan something for him.”

“But what about acquaintance? You’re not going?” you asked while he slowly parks his car.

“If you’re not going, I’m not going.” and he placed a kiss at your cheeks before both of you head over inside the party.

It was a normal one. You socialized and partied with them until you feel tired. You st down at one of the chairs and when Jungwon noticed, he walks over you.

“Hey, you want to go to my room?”

You nodded because you really could use a rest. When you arrived at the familiar room, you made yourself comfortable at Jungwon’s bed and nuzzle through his pillows. It smelled like him.

When you felt the bed sunk a little, you raised your head to see Jungwon by the edge. He was smiling at you, “Give me love right now.”

You chuckled and forced yourself up from his bed to give him kisses and hugs. As you both enjoy your intimate moment, you both looked over the door and saw his cousin.

You got shy and the sarcastic smile over her face just makes you feel something odd.

“Oh hi.” she said with this sarcastic tone. Jungwon’s jaw clenched before he held you tightly.

“What you doing here, Jian?”

She smirked, “Nothing! Just going to ask y/n if she already know.”

You smiled awkwardly, “Know what?”

Jungwon clenched his jaw nervously, “Get out of here.” he said seriously.

“I guess you still didn’t know, y/n.”

“Know what?” you’re starting to feel pissed because your question is not being answered.

Jungwon stood up but his cousin smirked and said the words that made your world stop.

“It was all just a bet.”

Your heart broke as you slowly looked at Jungwon with teary eyes, “Is it true?”

Jungwon licked his lower lip. You wanted not to believe her but the look on his face says that it was indeed true.

“Is it true?!” you repeated your question.

He sighed, “Yes, but—” you pushed him off.

“Fuck you!” you screamed and head your way out of his damn room.

As you head down the stairs, you find it a bit hard as the place were pull of rowdy people. The moment you made it outside, you’re crying so bad. You suddenly felt a hand grabbing your arm.

“Baby, wait.” Jungwon’s eyes were bloodshot as he went after you.

He’s a mess. He doesn’t know what to do right after seeing how he hurt you. You cried and shoved his hold off of you.

“Y-You played with me...” your heart ached like its been stabbed a thousand of times after what you just found out. This was the first time you let someone enter your heart and this is what you get in return.

A fucking bet... you are just a game for him.

“Please, I love you. Don’t leave me.” he uttered, voice cracking a bit. You wanted so bad to believe him but you just can’t. The pain inside your heart was just too much.

“You expect me to believe you?” you chuckled sarcastically before shaking your head. Jungwon’s heart fell as you slowly steps away.

“Leave me alone, we’re over.”

Even before Jungwon can say something, you left with nothing but anger lingering towards him inside your broken heart.

It’s been a week ever since that night and you tried very hard to avoid Yang Jungwon. He was a mess without you. He couldn’t function well and his friends are starting to worry already because this is so not him. He tried to talk to you everday but he always fail too.

You forced yourself out of your bed and started getting ready to go to the orphanage. Today’s the acquaintance party and also Hyunjae’s party. You’re sure Jungwon will be at the party so there’s no way you’ll attend that.

When you arrived at the orphanage, your eyes looked a little surprised at the grand decoration for Hyunjae’s party. A staff smiled and greeted you right away when you arrived, “The decoration is great.”

She smiled, “Jungwon went here a while ago with some people who helped decorating everything. He paid for all of these just for Hyunjae, y/n.”

Your smile faltered at the mention of his name. “H-He did?” the staff nodded and signaled something to someone. Another staff came rushing towards her.

“Here, he asked me to hand you this too.” she said while giving you a beautiful bouquet of roses.

You were silent as your tears started to form your eyes. You did remember how he said he find it cheesy to give stuff like these. Then why..?

You turned your head when you felt someone tugging the edge of your shirt. When you looked at the person, it was Hyunjae. You quickly wiped off your tears and kneeled down to be at the same level of his face before smiling widely.

“Jungwon hyung asked me to give you this, noona.” he said and handed you a letter.

Your heart raced at the sight of it. You pouted at Hyunjae. He reached over your face and gently wipe off your tears, “He told me I should wipe your tears for him. He tried to hide it but I know hyung is very sad too, noona.”

You smiled at him and pulled him into a hug. You greeted him happy birthday before giving him your gift. He thanked you and you told him you’ll just go somewhere.

When you arrived inside your car, you opened the letter Jungwon left for you.

Hi baby. I know you’re probably very mad at me right. I don’t even know if you’ll read this but I don’t care. I will still try and I will never get tired trying. I will admit it, I started pursuing you because of a bet but I backed out from it, love. I lost way long ago. I’m sorry and I will understand if it will take time for you to forgive me. I will not get tired and give up so easily. I really am in love you, y/n. - love, your jungwon.

You sniffed and cried silently inside your car for minutes before you decided to drive towards the university. You head towards the auditorium where the early programs are being held. You were about to enter when a hand grabbed you.

“Jian?” you were surprised to see her in front of you and she looked like she’s guilty of something.

“I n-need to tell you something.”

You pursed your lips and let her talk.

“Okay, first. I’m really sorry for ruining what’s between you and Jungwon. That was really awful of me.” she said sincerely and you still remained silent.

She sighed, “Second, I want you to know that my cousin is serious with you. He backed out from the bet long ago.”

“When?”

“After your first date.” she said and your heart raced at what you heard. That was a month ago.

“So please... Please forgive him. Blame me but please don’t leave my cousin. He loves you so much and I never seen him that happy ever since his Mom left him.”

Your heart melt at what she said before you smiled softly at her. You both turned your head when you heard a loud cheer inside. “You should go inside.”

When you entered, there’s a lot of students inside. You roamed your eyes around trying to look for Jungwon. He was nowhere to be seen.

“Mic test...” your heart fell at that familiar voice.

Your eyes quickly shifted over to the stage and it looked surprised to see Yang Jungwon at the middle. He sighed as he faced the crowd.

“So I don’t usually do this but..” he sighed and gulped nervously. Your heart ache at the sight of his slightly puffy eyes.

“I want to dedicate this song for the girl who managed to tame my heart. To the girl who loves helping other people. To the girl who thinks giving letters and flowers are not cheesy. To the girl who I love the most.” the crowd cheers for him.

“Y/n, I know you’re not here but this is for you.” he said as a melody started playing through the background.

(song title: to the bone)

“Oh, maybe if you can see. What I feel through my bones. And every corner in me, oh. There's your presence that grown. Maybe I nurture it more. By saying how I feel. But I did mean it before.” he sang and you can saw how the crowd were impressed at how lovely his voice was.

Your eyes started to get teary because of it as he continues to sing with his heart.

“I want you to the bone. I want you to..”

He opened his eyes for a while and saw how the crowd were jamming slowly to the song. His heart was aching and he can feel his eyes starting to get teary again but he tried to focus on singing.

“Take me home, I'm fallin'. Love me long, I'm rollin'. Losing control, body and soul Mind too for sure, I'm already yours.”

You bit your lower lip as you slowly make your way closer to the stage.

“Walk you down, I'm all in. Hold you tight, you call and I'll take control, your body and soul. Mind too for sure, I'm already yours.”

You smiled despite the tears streaming down your face and watched Jungwon lovingly.

“Would that be alright? Yeah Hey, would that be alright?” he continued.

“I want you to the bone, yeah. So bad I can't breathe, no. I want you to the bone.”

The song continued but then his eyes caught you. He was stunned and couldn’t believe his eyes. When you smiled at him wider, he quickly ran towards you to cage you into a big warm embrace. The crowd cheered so much at the scene.

“You’re here...” he said before he leaned away to cup your face and stare at you.

You smiled, “You really have a lovely voice.”

He chuckled and wiped off your tears, “I know we started wrongly but I wish you can give me a chance to prove my love for you.”

You smiled, “I love you, Jungwon.”

His heart raced and smiled widely despite the tears over his eye. “I love you more, y/n.” and with that he leaned in to give you a kiss that filled with all his love.

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Pilot Loki x stewardess reader au

18+ | contains smut, alcohol, infidelity

It had been another long day at work, smiling at passengers and having to rush down the aisle whenever the call button went off, which was at least twenty times during the last flight. The other air stewardesses decided to let loose together for a night out considering you were all now off of the rota for the next few days. You however decided to head straight to the lounge bar at the airport for a drink before heading home. You made your way towards the bar, swaying your hips purposefully when you spotted the other person already there.

“What can I get you?” The barman asked, polishing a glass as he looked at you.

“Pornstar martini please.” You answered, unlocking your phone to pay before the man already sitting at the bar made some kind of hand gesture to the barman signalling he would pay.

“Are you sure you should be drinking that, not that I mind paying for another?” The man spoke, glancing at you before his eyes traveled up from your legs to your eyes.

“I’m off the clock” you answered, trying to keep your voice even “what about you?” You countered, gesturing to his pilot uniform.

“Non alcoholic.” He answered, tipping his glass towards you.

“Hmm” you hummed in acknowledgment before the barman set your drink down in front of you “thank you.” You took a seat, finally turning your attention to the man who was shamelessly eye fucking you. You could practically see him undressing you. Being in this job, it wasn’t uncommon for men to look at you seductively but this particular man’s gaze left you fighting the urge to clench your thighs together.

“So, come here often?” He asked, dragging his eyes to yours again.

“Yes.” You replied, sipping your drink.

“I don’t think you do, I wouldn’t have forgotten that pretty face” he smiled causing you to smile “or that beautiful smile” he added causing your simper to widen “gosh, aren’t you beautiful.” He finished, eyes lingering on you for a moment before he took a sip of his drink. He set his drink down again, looking at you some more as you smiled flirtatiously, prompting him to speak again. “Well, since you’re off the clock and this is obviously your first time here, how about I show you around?” He suggested.

“I’ve been here before, I know my way around.” You quipped.

“But there are so many places I can show you, places I’m sure you’re yet to explore.” He insisted, gesturing around with his left hand before realising his mistake and putting his hand back in his pocket, back in hiding, but it was too late.

“I saw that.” You spoke, hinting at the wedding ring he was hiding. He only smirked in response. “You’re sure the Mrs won’t mind?” You questioned causing him to nit his brows “you know, showing me around, helping me explore?”

“I won’t tell if you don’t.” He winked.

“Fine then Mr pilot, off we go.” You agreed, quickly finishing your drink.

“Please, Loki is fine.” He insisted.

“Mmm, Loki.” You answered, letting the syllables fall from your lips. Loki nodded, biting his lip as he watched you speak.

“Say it again.” He requested.

“Lo—ki.” You said slower.

*🛩️🛩️🛩️*

“So, this is the—” Loki began, gesturing to something before you cut him off, slamming your lips onto his. Wrapping his arms around you, he kissed you back with the same intensity, walking you backwards until your back hit the wall with a thud. The kiss grew sloppy, both of you moaning into it as your hands explored one another’s bodies. Lokis tongue slipped past your parted lips, into your mouth before you sucked onto it, Lokis hips pinning you into place so you could feel his growing erection straining against his trousers. You broke the kiss, catching your breath as Lokis lips travelled across your neck, occasionally nipping at your jaw. Your breathing grew ragged as your head fell back against the wall granting Loki further access, his lips travelling lower. Once he reached the top of your shirt, he began undoing the buttons, kissing your chest as more and more of it was exposed before he was licking across your stomach. Looking down at him, you grabbed his pilot hat, exposing his inky locks before putting it on your head. His lips travelled lower but you prompted him to stand up, there was one thing you needed right now, the rest could wait.

Once he was standing again, you helped him take his blazer off, kissing each other in the process. You began undoing Lokis tie before he stopped you, taking it off himself and placing his tie around your neck before undoing his top button. He already looked different, more relaxed, sexier.

“The rest stays on.” He spoke firmly causing you to nod in reply.

His fingers found the zip on your skirt before he undone it, allowing it to pool on the floor. He pulled his trousers down enough to free his cock before picking your hand up and bringing it to your mouth.

“Spit” he ordered “good girl.” He praised once you did before guiding your hand towards his length. You wrapped your hand around his cock, spreading your saliva along it as you grew wetter and wetter in anticipation. Once he was lathered enough, his hips pinned you to the wall again before he lifted you. Your legs wrapped around his waist as he pulled your thin, soaked underwear to the side, guiding himself towards your entrance as he angled up into you. You gasped as he pushed inside, filling you completely.

“Fuck.” You mewled in his ear as he moved you up and down his hard shaft. He was grunting and groaning in your ear before he nipped your earlobe causing you to moan louder. He was practically slamming into you, sweat beading on his forehead as he fucked you mercilessly against the wall. Your back was hot from the friction of sliding up and down the wall so vigorously; there were no doubt burns forming but all pain was quickly converted into pleasure as Loki entered you.

“This cunt was made for me” he gritted out, still burying himself inside of you, hitting that perfect spot “say it.”

“T-this c—” you stuttered, unable to speak.

“Say it.” He commanded again, pulling almost completely out of you.

“This cunt was made for you!” You rushed out, moaning once he slid back inside.

“You take me so well, gripping me like that” he spoke incoherently between groans “fuck, I can feel you clenching around me” he said almost painfully before his lips found your ear “trying to make me cum? Want my cum? Hmm?” He whispered like a dirty secret.

“Yes, fuck yesss.” You cried out.

“Yeah, want me to fill you up?” He continued. You could feel him smirking against you “want me to make you a mother?”

“Oh my god Loki” You almost screamed at his words, back arching off of the wall as you reached your climax, Loki pressing his lips to yours as your walls thrummed around him, spurring his own orgasm. He stilled inside of you, ejaculating as you swallowed down his gasp “don’t tease me.” You finished breathlessly.

“Who said anything about teasing?” He smiled, riding through his high before lowering you as he pulled out. You pulled your skirt up, zipping it back up before doing your buttons up. Loki sheathed himself before taking his tie back that was still around your neck. He fastened it before taking his hat back too.

“It appears you’ve got something on your trousers Mr Laufeyson.” You smiled as Loki readjusted his ring.

“It’s also dripping down your legs, Mrs Laufeyson.” He answered smugly as your eyes rounded. You looked down, realising he was lying.

“You actually do have something though.” You pointed at his trousers.

“It’s a combination of our love.” He grinned.

“Ew, don’t make me puke.” You laughed. “Go and clean yourself up, you’ve got spares in your locker.”

“Praise the Lord for my doting wife.” He smiled, kissing you. “Soon to be milf.” He added, groping you.

“We’ll see Loki, we’ll see.” You laughed, pushing him away as you heard nearby voices. Walking out of the room, you spotted Bucky and Steve who were also pilots and Lokis coworkers. “Hello boys.” You smiled at them as you passed. Both of their eyes followed you before Loki slapped their heads when he came out behind you.

“S-sorry.” Steve apologised awkwardly causing Bucky to narrow his gaze at him.

“She’s mine.” Loki spoke almost dreamily as he watched you walk away.

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